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potentialguybodyswaps · 2 years ago

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Jockifacation

Being one of the smartest nerds in school sometimes had it perks, I mean sure most of the nerds got bullied and treated like shit by a lot of the school, especially the sports teams, but there were a few of us that were able to escape from the public humiliation that comes with being a nerd

Us top tier nerds, as I like to call us, we’re the ones that the Dean had picked to help tutor some of the more important students, like the ones who parents had made large Contributions, and the sports team, that all he really cared about, the people that really mattered.

As usual, the dean gave us nerds a heads up that a pop quiz was coming in some of the different classes we all shared with the assigned person that we’re in charge of making sure pass

The guy I was in charge of was one of the basketball players, his name was jake

He wasn’t the dumbest jock in the school, and thank god for that, I feel bad for the guy that had Brad, bro might have retard strength but also the intelligence of one.

atleast I can work with jake, might be annoying with his slow ability to grasp concepts and the constant side stories about the team, his latest conquest, how All this school work is pointless cause he’s gonna be a professional some day… etc

Jake was from a small red neck town and Texas and you could tell, he kinda stood out here in California with his accent and very little understanding of basic algebra, I guess they didn’t teach that were he’s from

it was probably around midnight when I finally got him to remember and be able to apply The Quadratic Formula, now Hopfully he can maintain it for 12 hours

“Aye bro thanks for helping me out with all this math shit, if you ever need anything partner just let me know” he said getting up to stretch

I got up to stretch too and crack my back

“I mean not unless you can make it so I don’t have to stay up late night tutoring members of the team because the dean demands it haha” i said laughing and smiling a sleepy smile at him

“Shiiiiit cuz, I got you just put this hat on” he said taking his hat off and handing it to me

“I mean thanks for the symbolic gesture but I don’t think a hat will do much” i said staring at it in my hands

“Just put it on bro, and you’ll be a part of the team” he said reaching over to guide it and place it on my head

“So is that it? Am I part of the team now haha?”

“Nah bruh, you gotta turn it backwards to start the uh, process”

“Start what process? some sort of initiati-“

I said as I felt it start

“Initiation? initially? Initials? No bro, initiation, god dam I had a brain fart for a minute there bruh haha…” I said stumbling on my words

“Bro? Bruh? What’s happening I don’t use those words!?” I thought to myself as my eyes started to glaze over

“There you go cuz, it’s starting, don’t worry, you should be a full fledged member in a few minutes, then you’ll never have to worry about tutoring again haha, the process kills quite a bit of brain cells” he said sitting back down smiling as he slowly closed his eyes

I tried to get up and take the hat off but I could barely move as I felt my mind weakening and my body was in too much pain as it reshaped it’s self to move

I could feel my thoughts get slower as my body changed more and more

“Mhmmmm b-b-bro h-help” I was able to mumble out, able to hear my voice getting lower

“Just let it take its course” Jake said not budging

My long shaggy hair got shorter and receded back into my scalp until it was short enough to fit inside the cap

My acne disappeared until my face was smooth and I could feel my face reorganizing itself, wholes appearing in my ears for some new giant fake earrings

Next was my sweatshirt I wore to hide my skinny frame dissolved into my skin as it looked like I gained 25 pounds of muscles as my arms became swole and my chest became hard with 6 pack abs from years of working out

“No that’s not right, I never spent years working out, going to the gym, I read books all the time and prepared for tests, played dnd with my nerd friends”

“Nerd friends? I don’t have those, I might skip leg day and not be on any teams but they always considered me a honorary member right?”

Next most of my jeans dissolved into my legs as my calf’s gain muscles from practicing in the gym and on the court with my fellow team mates

“Nah bruh, something about this isn’t right bro” I said standing up suddenly realizing I can move again

“But uh bruh I can’t remember what” I said taking the cap off to scratch my head

Jake looked over and jumped up looking concerned and walked over grabbing the cap

“It’s fine bro, we was just getting ready to go to a party, but the bitch hosting it sent out a text saying not to come for another hour, there was an issue getting the alcohol, we all know how much you like to drink cuz haha”

“Oh ok” I said setting down on the couch… some small part of me was screaming not to wear the cap but it was kinda stupid cause let’s be honest, I look hot wearing this cap

I put the cap back on and closed my eyes for a few seconds

I hadn’t noticed how weird I looked since my jeans weren’t exactly gone but were now Jean shorts

Didn’t matter tho cause my jeans morphed into some white shorts with a red strip to match my cap, right after that my underwear morphed into some tight American eagle pair as I felt my dick grow from 2 inches soft, to 4 soft.

“I can’t wait to go the party ima fuck so many bitches tonight” I thought to myself giggling like a dummy

Wait that isn’t right? I don’t get any bitches on my dick, no one wants to be with a small dick nerd, a 4 inch hard on is pathetic.

“Man what was that thought? I’m not a nerd! I’m a fucking jock bruh! And 4 inches being pathetic? Maybe hard, but that’s me just soft, I’m atleast 6 inches hard. never really cared to measure, chicks always seemed to love it when I fucked them, and if they think I’m small, their just fucking loose pussy bitches!” I thought to myself as I started getting hard pitching a tent

I opened my eyes to see Jake smiling at me

“Wtf you looking at bro? You gay or someshit? I mean that’s fine but just don’t try no shit with me bro” I said mean mugging him

“Nah bro, looks like you got some business to take care of, I’ll uh, be in the bathroom for a bit cuz” Jake said getting up to go to the bathroom

A small voice in my head was telling me something’s wrong, take the cap off, who wears hats inside?

But I decided there was something more pressing, and it’s in my pants

I pulled my shorts down to see my dick straining against my underwear, I pulled them down to let my dick flap out

I grabbed it to feel emence pleasure

I could feel something inside of me traveling down to my balls but I didn’t care, the pleasures were to much, felt like I’ve never jerked off before…

It only took me a few minutes for me to cum my brains out, figuratively and literally unbeknownst to my new jock brain, losing what little remains of my nerd personality, and 55 iq points, taking me down from 145 to 90.

“Fuck bro that felt great haha, i don’t know why I came so fast, must just be a fluke or something” I said to myself

Just then jake walked back outside

“Ya that happens to everyone at first when they go though the process of becoming a jock” he said smirking

“What you mean becoming a jock? I’ve always been one dude” I said a bit offended he didn’t think I’m a jock, I’ve hung out with jake for years now!

“Bro, we’re are we right now?!” Jake said throwing his hands up and looking around dramatically

“Uh my room” i said

“Ya and look at it, it’s a room for a nerd” he said looking at me with a look of annoyance on his face.

“Oh god, your right, I gotta change this shit bro, babes aren’t gonna find this attractive” i said looking horrified of my nerdy room

“Dam straight cuz, it’s ok, you just went from a nerd to a jock boy after all haha, it’s to be expected, especially with memory loss of your old life” he said with a smile on his face

“Now let’s go to a late night party” he said walking towards me throwing a arm around my shoulder and walking us towards the door

“Wait, so you’re saying I use to be a nerd? Ew what the fuck bro… is there anyway that I’m gonna turn back into a faggy ass nerd?” I said concerned

“Nah bruh, once you cum after the transformation it’s permanent, your one of us now dude, I hope you like it haha” he said laughing

“Ya I don’t really remember being a nerd but I bet that shit sucked ass compared to being a jock that can pull bitches haha, and good, I wouldn’t ever wanna go back despite what that voice in my head was crying about” i said laughing

“Oh that voice? Don’t worry about it, just like your chance to go back to your old life, it disappeared when you cummed” he said laughing smacking me on the back

#Bodyswap #transformation #permanent

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yarameijer · 10 months ago

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Hi!

OMG are you the writer who wrote "Accidental Reverse"?!

If so, I'm a Huge fan!!!

Anyways... How are you?

If you accept headcannons or drabbles, what are your thoughts on Shindou and Tenma? How would you explain their relationship? Do you have any headcannons about them?

... I should probably stop here, so... Thank you so much for your AMAZING stories! I can't wait for what ideas you have in the future!

Take care and keep up the great work!!!

Heyhey! Yes, I am that writer! I’m good, super busy with exams and finishing my research tho, but hopefully I’ll get some more free time again eventually. Yes, I accept both headcanons or drabbles (as long as it works with my story universe), but I’m VERY bad at actually finishing drabbles haha…

Okay so I LOVE Tenma and Shindou’s dynamic, so thank you very much for giving me the opportunity to ramble about it XD

Shindou and Tenma’s relationship is, in one word, complex. As we all know, Shindou at the start of the anime doesn’t particularly like Tenma because of his behavior towards soccer, for two reasons: he thinks Tenma is very naive and his thoughtless actions will not only get himself in trouble, but also everyone else (and at this point, if Shindou has to choose between the team he’s been a part of for a year and a kid he’s met a day ago, it’s not even a choice).

The second reason is that he understands. Shindou loves soccer too. In a prestigious family where achievement is everything, soccer sometimes felt like the only thing he could just do for fun, not because he had to be good at it. And he was good at it.

But Fifth Sector ruined it for him, and the only reason he hasn’t left the club yet is because he feels a responsibility towards his teammates and because this is the only way he still gets to do what he loves, even if it’s twisted. So when he meets Tenma - cheerful, bright-eyed, hopeful Tenma - he hates him. He sees himself in him. And he can’t stand to see that spark in Tenma’s eyes fade like it did for him, so he tries to push Tenma away, get him to quit, before he has to see that happening. Beyond that Shindou is having a very hard time in general and using Tenma as a… well, a punching bag, in a way. At the same time you’ve got Tenma, who doesn’t know the meaning of backing down, and is also not the type of person to fight back against the type of treatment Shindou is giving him.

Of course, eventually this starts to change; Shindou gains hope that maybe, just maybe they can do something against Fifth Sector, and once he’s made up his mind about something he’ll go all in. With Shindou and Tenma now on the same side, the previous tension in their relationship fades and they have the chance to get to know each other. Tenma is (sort of ironically) very shy and very enthusiastic, and his optimism brings Shindou out of his own depressive slump. It’s contagious, really.

Once Shindou stops targeting Tenma all the time, Tenma gains a new appreciation for him as well. He’s already a fanboy of anything soccer and Shindou’s plans, the way his mind works, blows him away - Shindou is easily the smartest person Tenma’s ever met, and for him to look at Tenma and treat him as a teammate, as someone to be acknowledged… that means a lot. Just like that, their relationship becomes much more amicable, and they bond over their shared love of soccer and their goal of defeating Fifth Sector. They’re, maybe not friends, but at least on friendly terms.

Then there is another important factor that influences the way they interact - the captain switch.

Several people have actually expressed their surprise at the two of them. Tenma essentially ‘replaced’ Shindou as captain, after all, so outsiders would expect Tenma to reject Shindou’s advice - to prove himself as the ‘real’ captain, instead of listening to the old one. Similarly, Shindou was expected to hold a grudge since he was replaced by a first-year. Except that’s about as far from the truth as you can get.

Tenma respects Shindou very much first as captain and later as strategist, and holds his opinion in high regard. Even after all the years they’ve known each other, Shindou is still the one he’ll turn to first when a decision needs to be made and he wants a second opinion. Even if he doesn’t necessarily ask for it, he’ll always listen if Shindou has something to add. Furthermore, Tenma has never wanted to be captain - the role was thrust upon him due to circumstances, and he agrees because his team asked him to, but he’s never seen himself as any sort of leader and if he could, he’d shy away from the responsibility. He’s also of the opinion that Shindou is a great captain - why would he need to be replaced?

Except, of course, Shindou gets injured so there isn’t really a choice in that. What does happen, however, is the decision the team made to have Tenma stay on as captain even after Shindou recovered - which was suggested by Shindou himself.

Because Shindou doesn’t like being captain.

He’s pretty good at it, but it stresses him out a lot. He’s a strategist first and foremost and being captain interferes with that. Shindou wants to make plans, analyze the world around him, observe and gather information but if he’s acting as captain he can’t do that, can’t retreat into his own head like that. He’s got a responsibility to the rest of the team and he always feels the pressure to be aware of them, lift their spirits, lead them, and if he’s too busy with his plans he can’t do that. He also does not see himself as the most empathetic individual - gauging the team’s mood, figuring out what to say, isn’t really instinctive for him. He can do it if necessary but it takes effort and he often second-guesses himself, and with a team so diverse and intense as Raimon, empathy is a must.

So to Shindou, being captain is a burden. He took the position because the team wanted him to and he doesn’t regret it, but once Tenma shows a pretty instinctual talent for it and has a few weeks to polish that talent - once it becomes clear how easy it is for the team to follow him - well, Shindou sees his chance and takes it. He’s the one to voice the thought first, and once he tells the rest of the team, they don’t see any reason to disagree.

Which is exactly why Shindou has no resentment towards Tenma for taking his position. Shindou can do what he likes most - strategize - and aid his team, all the while knowing Raimon is in the best possible hands. And beyond that; Shindou didn’t give up any of his authority in the team. If a decision has to be made, Raimon decides together. Shindou and Tenma are a duo when it comes to leading the team - Shindou makes the plans, Tenma inspires them to do what’s right and encourages them.

Tenma, despite first floundering under the responsibility, handles it well and Shindou (nor the other senpai) refuses to let him shoulder it alone. Tenma’s still just a first-year, after all, and like mentioned before, Shindou sees himself in him. Now more than ever. They both know what it’s like to become captain in their first year, to have the responsibility thrust upon them, and Shindou refuses to let Tenma struggle with it alone. He acts like a listening ear, always willing to lend advice if the younger asks for it, and although at first Tenma is quite hesitant (with Shindou being his senpai), he’s also very earnest and open.

Over time, they get to talking more and more, outside of club-related things. Shindou is the dependable smart friend Tenma can always come to with his issues, while Tenma is cheerful and optimistic and doesn’t really expect anything from Shindou, not like the rest of the world. Doesn’t expect perfect grades or being the best, and while it takes Shindou a while to let go of the mask, eventually Tenma becomes one of the few friends he can just completely be himself around. Shindou is much more relaxed now that he’s no longer the captain and the tension in Raimon that was present under Fifth Sector’s reign is gone, and it shows in his friendship with Tenma. They act crazy, or lazy, and just do things for fun because they want to. They, together with Tsurugi, have been dubbed the new Raimon Trio, and it just works. Their skills complement each other and they settle into a comfortable friendship and shared leadership over the team after Tenma’s first year.

Sure, it takes them quite a while to get to that point, both because they have unspoken issues between them originating from the start of the year, and because they need to learn to understand each other. There's the boundaries caused by Tenma's insecurities and Shindou's expectations for himself. It takes a while for Tenma to learn to depend on other people and for Shindou to learn to be patient and listen, something that's been driven out of him by years of expectation and responsibility. But they get there. Maybe not immediately, but once they do, their friendship is unbeatable and something they both cherish dearly.

As for headcanons…

They tease each other all the time. Tsurugi plays a part in this too. The three of them just full on snark whenever they have the chance (Tsurugi and Shindou especially like making fun of Tenma for being the shortest, Tenma and Shindou like making fun of Tsurugi when he’s pretending to be all cool, and Tenma and Tsurugi will never let an opportunity to mention Shindou’s dramatic tendencies go).

Tenma loves listening to Shindou playing the piano and once Shindou figures that out, he offers to play something whenever Tenma comes over to his house, to Tenma’s absolute delight.

They often discuss team matters, sometimes over video or phone call, and always end up sharing ideas for hissatsu techniques and strategies (either for themselves or their teammates). It’s actually why they’re so in sync and can pull off improvised moves so well; they share their ideas so often they know pretty well how the other thinks/works, and that shows when they’re in the middle of a match. Super convenient when you know your best friend has been designing a new super shot for WEEKS and is itching to try it out.

In the year Shindou goes to high school while Tenma’s still in middle school, they end up calling each other quite a lot, and they like to get ramen or bubble tea or ice cream after school if they’ve both got the time, since they can’t hang out anymore as easily. Soon they drag anyone in the team along if they’ve got time, but it’s a habit that started with just the two of them.

They have a standing agreement to disagree on whether cats or dogs are better.

Tenma has been known to drag Shindou out very early in the morning during weekends if he’s got plans, whether that’s soccer practice or for a walk or whatever they’ve planned this time. Shindou is NOT a morning person but it’s very hard to say no to Tenma.

That’s it for now, I hope you enjoyed it! ^.^

#inazuma eleven #inazuma eleven go #ie11 #ina11 #ie go #accidental reverse #matsukaze tenma #shindou takuto

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pinkestmenace · 2 months ago

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I am absolutely loving your skirby interpretation

Haha, thanks! The kid raised himself on movies and other media, so he's like a cross between a Victorian orphan, a Noir detective and Kevin from Home Alone. I like adding parallels with Kirby, but making him a little sinister and nefarious.

He has lots of animal friends! They're all bugs and vermin. The only constant in his life.

Kirby puts his head to the dirt to "ask" the radishes if they're done growing. Skirby to "ask" his worm informants if they have dirt on someone. They usually don't, but he's gotta try.

His pranks are more often than not dangerous booby traps.

He had to protect the Mirror world all by himself, without good role models, so his methods can be a bit mean or strange or extreme.

In contrast to Kirby, who isn't known to be the smartest, or rather the most learned,(Although he is curious and does show surprising wisdom sometimes!) he waxes philosophical all the time. Is he really that obsessed with morbid things? Or is it a way to cope for a lone child with lots of time to think?

He loves drawing. Mainly charcoal pencil drawings of cockroaches doing strange rituals to...summon candy?? Huh. Guess there really is still a kid in there somewhere. Hidden real deep, sure. But it's there.

#ask box #ask and i shall answer #skirby #shadow kirby

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soracities · 1 year ago

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Re: that anon who thinks kids are evil

I'm really sorry that anon went through a tough time during childhood (and I did too, being bullied at school and abused at home) but kids aren't fundamentally evil. They're IMPRESSIONABLE. which is incredibly different. They like imitating adults around them, and so when they are surrounded by terrible, mean adults, they act terrible and mean towards themselves & their peers too. It was apparent that anon was surrounded by adults who weren't nice and didn't do their job of educating those kids (including offering anon support), which is really sad.

But regardless of that, kids simply learn from people around them and they can be, and most often are, sweet and nice. and most importantly, even if they aren't sweet or nice, they are deserving of love and compassion and respect and affection, because only with that can we cultivate and nurture the sweet & kind side in their soul.

I feel like if anon felt alienated for being different, they should especially beware of such generalizing rhetoric of "all kids are [insert adjective]" because that's the exact kind of speech that isolates and alienates kids who act different. And I wonder if anon realizes that it was their abuser's language that's coming out of their mouth.

(source: im an educator and ive never known a kid who's not sweet and lovable to me)

(cont'd) also, kind of unrelated but it made me think of this absolutely heartbreaking, sweet kid that I met on Tuesday during a visit to a kindergarten. I was supposed to go to different kindergartens to evaluate their teaching and give consultations, and a part of what I need to do is this one-on-one language assessment with the kids (age five and their mother tongue isn't english). So there was this girl, whose first words after sitting down was "I don't know any English." And I was like haha it's alright! Let's just try and see how much you know, then we can see where you can practice more on! And she went "okay >_<" (rather earnestly, like she didn't say she doesn't know shit because she didn't want to try) So we did a task, and she scored above average so I was like "You did really well! Why did you say you don't know anything?" and she went "But I still got two wrong :(" which was like, wtf girl who fucked up your self-esteem?? Kindergarten aged kids should feel like they're the coolest smartest shit in the world!! Like I was already ready to fight for her at this point okay Anyways I said "it's alright, now you know where you can work on!" and did another task with her, which she also did pretty well in So I tried to tell her some cliche encouragement like "sometimes we feel like we don't know anything because we feel scared, but when we be brave and try things out, usually we know a lot more than we thought we could! Just like you right now, look at how well you did! So please believe in yourself more" And this little girl deadass looked me in the eye and told me, very sincerely, "because mommy doesn't believe in herself, so I don't believe in myself either :(" I controlled my face, but internally my jaw was on the fking floor and I was screaming crying pulling my hair out. I was so HEARTBROKEN. Like I need to talk to that woman coz what did you do to your kid?? What did you project on her?? And this kid is so smart?? She is so self-aware like she is able observe her mother's emotions & understand her mentality and THEN recognize how her mother's mentality shapes her own?? Honestly, I don't think the majority of people at my age right noweven realize how others' mentality relate to their own. And she is able to articulate all that! Which just makes her statement extra sad, because she is so so smart and observant but she believes she doesn't know anything and that she is bad at school, which is fucking WRONG And I was just so fking devastated!! I want to hug her I want to adopt her I want to fix everything for her but I don't know how I could ever do that. I am not even her teacher, I'm just a nobody who comes once a month for some dumb observations and just, I don't have the ability to do anything significant enough. I tried my best to smile and said "oh no... but you said you think mommy is smart right? she just doesn't know that herself! and I think you are also very good, so you need to remember it for me okay?" and she was like ok >< Then I went home and cried for an hour cause I just feel so... powerless and like what am I doing?? What can I even do to change things for her and kids like her?? When and how will I ever be enough to make her feel happy and brilliant and innocent and no need to act so mature??? Kids are my soft spot and I don't think I will ever cease to feel heartbroken for them. They are so precious and trusting and loving yet so many adults just... betray that trust and abuse that love. And it is so easy to break them but so hard to build them back up, which is simply unfair. Anyways sorry for the venting (sort of) I just want to pour these out because I love kids so much and I want to hug them all and they are so precious and lovable and incredible. I guess my point is just please love and be kind to the kids you know and encounter cause you don't want to fuck them up and not to mention how could you feel anything but adoration when you interact with them

oh my God..................please don't apologize, I'm so, so grateful you took the time to write and share this because I could not agree with you more. I think people really don't seem to understand the depth to which children understand and interpret and process things and it is truly one of the most illuminating and profoundly humbing things to witness and be part of. For what it's worth I think your presence and your conversation absolutely meant something to that little girl and I believe it makes a difference to have validation like that, even just for a day 💗 The kids you work with are very lucky to have someone who cares so deeply about their wellbeing and, heartbreaking as I know it can be, I hope you don't forget that 💗

#ask #junos-swans #genuinely i cannot thank you enough for sharing this!!!

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kendrixtermina · 2 years ago

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how finding your type can bring out your insecurities (& how this may actually be a misunderstanding)

I hadn’t put these on tumblr & it occurred to me that I probably should

1: 1s tend to be hard on themselves & constantly judge everything they or others do by criteria like factual correctness, appropriateness of morality. They can also have a fear of being bad or corrupt.

So when they read judgy hypocritical ppl who constantly give others the death glare they might freak out a bit – So they might end up being critical of themselves for… criticality, think they must be bad for having all these critical thoughts, constantly check themselves for the amount & appropriateness of criticism...

Some 1s beat themselves up for being critical without ever encountering typology, seeing as they are generally drawn to self-improvement, life advice & enlightenment etc & while some immature & unhealthy ones can be sanctimonious, average ppl with some shred of self-awareness are generally quite receptive to feedback, so often someone called them out for being critical & they tried to correct it or feel bad for it.

The counterpoint here is not even as simple as „its ok to make mistakes“ – the 1 attention pattern is to constantly evaluate everything, often in a ‚binaristic‘ fashion – Are the requirements met, yes or no? Is the room clean, yes or no? Have we correctly followed procedure, yes or no? Am I a good person, yes or no? - So a key insight here is that most people don’t immediately sort everything they see & might very much be willing to forgive 5% annoyingness on a 95% good person – especially if you’re willing to do the same.

2: 2s can often have the feeling that their needs are shameful & selfish, or nagging worries that no one really likes them & they just „tricked“ people into doing so.

When they read the descriptions, there mere suggestion that they may have any self-interest ever can feel like a confirmation of that: „Haha, you’re secretly needy just like you always wanted to avoid. Yes, you DID deliberately do things to make others like you. Some people might think you’re a pushy manipulator!“ - 2s can be particularly hard-hit by this cause they have a need to see themselves in a positive light, and may have had their more self-interested parts of their motivations (that ultimately, everyone has) repressed out of awareness.

Of course the real takeaway message is that wanting ppl’s love is a normal human trait & that ppl might be willing to give it – and that saying what you’d like might sometimes be more effective than trying to elicit it indirectly.

3: Some 3s can have this lowkey fear of having no real identity but what they deliberately present to the world, but even those who don’t might feel strong pressure to prove themselves as what their idea of being worthy/ valuable is (whether that is being the smartest, a badass leader, the most creative etc.)

So you see some individuals resist the typing with like real existential terror, „No, I’m real! I actually do have value! I’m not just pretending to be worth something. I’m real please believe me!“, sometimes decrying 3 as like being the „fake“ version of whatever type they think is the „real“ version of what they aim to be… which itself betrays an idea that your value as a person depends on fitting a certain prototype of value. Often their idea of the ‚target type‘ will have gotten a makeover that puts it nearer to Peak 3. (like appearing to picture it with a lot more social skills or motivation) Sometimes you get a person who’s studied the system for longer, has a correct idea of the other types, & hence puts themselves in the „none of them fit“ camp.

The real takeaway is of course that you actually have substance outside of ppl’s perceptions, even if those are what your attention often focusses on. You’re still there when no one’s looking – still real & still have value. Being a 3 doesnt mean you’re fake, it means that fear is an artifact of your perception algorithms. Though, if you see a way that you could realign your life to subjectively feel more in line with your feelings & preferences, that might help with that too. Eg, if something feels too much like an act or a stretch (as opposed to simply putting forward your actual good points so they aren’t missed), consider dropping it.

4: So, 4s fear being insignificant & replaceable, leaving meaningless lives, & build their sense of identity out of the differences they notice between themselves & others.

Even fitting into any sort of type at all kind of pokes at that – all this stuff you thought was unique to you & incomprehensible to others is actually a known quantity? There are thousands of ppl scattered somewhere out there who share it? If you are looking to define what’s uniquely you, that’s a huge „back to the drawing board“ moment. Was it all just illusion? Did all that suffering mean nothing? Was it just another instance of how you always ruin everything? Consider also that the 4 attention pattern involves reflecting upon your own feelings & responses, so for a while, you might be feeling a twinge of embarrassment everytime you see yourself Do A 4 Thing. Some also take it to mean that they are doomed to be unhappy & have dysfunctional relationships forever.

Some 4s throw themselves into self-develovement stuff to be rid of this „predictableness“,

& if this really does lead them to be freer & more enlightened and helping others do the same through taking a ‚shamanic‘ or ‚social critic‘ role, that’s great. The capacity for self-reflection that lets you a crisis of faith on your own is indeed one of strengths 4s can have.

Sometimes, however, it’s at least partially copium, an attempt at maintaining separation through being „more spiritual than thou“ & lambasting those who aren’t, but also pointing to their own messed-up-ness as an example for why people need to „repent“, in effect treating their typing as another reason why they’re irredeemably wretched.

Lambast away to your heart’s content, we have free speech here. However, what you might really question the basic premise that things that are shared or definable are always less meaningful. You’re never gonna be, like, a 6 or a 9 who’d take comfort in it if their suffering is shared, but if this particular shared or definable thing is important to you personally or just happens to be your personal truth, it may be more ‚authentic‘ to stand by it.

As for being doomed forever or irredeemable wretchedness…

Seeing as you’re wired to notice the negatives, you need not worry that you will ever „run out“ if you allow yourself to be happy 5 minutes. However, the fear that, if you allow yourself to rule something „good nuff“ it will be wrested away & you’ll be dissapointed again is harder to deal with cause that can never be 100% avoided. Disappointments can happen. But if you go looking for them preemptively before they hit you unexpectedly, you’re ensuring that they will happen. You might want to think about whether that is really what you want in each particular context.

5: 5s tend to have insecurities about being unable to satisfy others, of being inadequate, and of generally being empty and lacking.

So many among you probably devoured tons & tons of paragraphs & videos about how creepy, unfeeling, unlikeable and uncaring you are, and how frustrated, unsatisfied and neglected your spouse probably feels and how utterly Not Enough they probably find even the best of your efforts, precisely because of how it lowkey freaks you out.

You probably didn’t even get mad or indignant, you just resigned yourself to it – no use fighting against reality.

Many a guide to spotting the types in the wild goes into great detail about some hopelessly weird individual they met, detailing all the oddities of their speech and body language and how thoroughly impossible it was to connect with them in any meaningful way. Which is still alot less worse than the accounts that fall over themselves with pity for what an impoverished and diminished experience that person must be living, devoid of anything the presenter would consider meaningful or important. „Look at that weirdo! They’re so bad at existing! If only they let us save them, and by save them we mean throw out all their priorities and submit be meddled with according to ours!“ [funeral march starts playing]

Which is certainly not what anyone actually said nor how they meant it, but that’s how it can be heard.

Most 5s know better than to get indignant about something that’s plainly true but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t sting.

You have to realize that a lot of people aren’t even aware of the whole delayed reactions/ low level freeze thing & might be shocked to hear/notice it (& may have dismissed any such feedback as „they just don’t understand me“ or „its the others who are overdramatic or otherwise sus“) – and of course, your thinking immediately goes to how you’re inadequate.

I remember this mass freakout in the type subreddit where everyone was agonizing about whether their art might strike ppl as flat, lacking and feelingless.

And like, 80% had done some art and most of the rest „I wouldnt call myself an artist but I’ve dabbled“. That was a fairly creative bunch of ppl assembled there. Also, there’s plenty of famous musicians, poets and writers whom being a 5 plainly did not stop and whose works are not in the least considered flat lacking or feelingless. Some are renowned for quite the opposite.

So, if your art sucks its probably cause of you, not your type. And if it’s cause of you, actual practice probably helps, rather than just daydreaming about doing it… as would exposing what you’re working on to an actual test audience rather than tinkering with it indefinitely. (hence the high incidence of „works were published posthumously“) – what people think about your works, ideas or projects might surprise you, and leave you feeling a little less Inadequate(TM)

As for satisfying others, it would probably help not to unilaterally pack up and run for the hills the moment you think you can’t do what they want. You might be mistaken about what they want & be able to reach some mutually satisfactory agreement if you talk this over.

You can’t underappreciate (and I’m emphasizing this because of how much I underappreciated it) that normal people really really like spending time around each other. Like they don’t just want it more cause conventions say so or cause they need it more, they actually get a lot out of it.

So you might not actually have to jump through that many hoops for them to be happy about it, and when they say that they „just having you around“ even if you’re not obviously doing something useful, some of them might actually mean it. It’s not, in fact, too much to ask that they appreciate your efforts.

It’s mindboggling how anyone can hear those descriptions & think they sound like anything remotely desireable or like it would make you popular. To me it seems that to like being a 5 you’d have to already be one and even among those that are, some „wouldnt wish it on their worst enemy“. But that’s probably proof that the ppl who thinks it sounds great somehow don’t share this particular set of complexes and insecurities, and that the complexes themselves aren’t entirely rational. Not sure if relieved because of that or unsettled because of the biased nature of perception. Both at once, probably.

6: 6s seek to see through bullshit, be well-prepared for adversity & have the courage to deal with whatever the world throws at them. They have a fear of fear itself – eg. That they won’t be strong/brave/prepared/perceptive enough, that they’ll panic or crack & fail to protect their loved ones.

So, when they read the descriptions, they’re gonna be sensitive to the parts that sound scared, weak, panicky, dupeable or lacking in independence, as that is usually the exact opposite of what they want to be.

It doesn’t help that many 6 descriptions out there genuinely & objectively leave a whole lot to be desired, but the 6s themselves also tend to focus on the negatives, & distrust the intention behind the good traits („Loyal probably just means exploitable“) or deny that they even have any such good traits because they dont want to be blamed if they cant live up to the expectations it creates.

So actually, you might want to consider if it’s not worth the risk of admitting that you have some good traits, like being logical, discerning, perceptive, realistic, outspoken, resillient, resourceful, likeable and having strong convictions, solidarity, and a sense of justice. If they don’t all apply, focus on the ones that do. Or poll some ppl who actually know you, specifically.

Which brings us to the next point which is category thinking. It’s important to state that this isn’t per se about conformism or „completely defining themselves by labels“, but simply about seeing things through a lens of systems & categories. An intellectual/thinking lens, basically.

A well-developed, discerning 6 will be the first person to tell you that categories aren’t absolute and often overlap in contradictory ways, because they have a sophisticated & discerning understanding that can’t be compared to the less developed systemic thinking of someone who doesn’t use it as the main means to understand the world & hence hones it every day.

Still, this can cause them to heavily weight category labels when it comes to their identity.

A good way to spot a mistyped 6 is if they’ve made their type their username, they’re looking to connect with others of the same to comiserate about how the world did them wrong, they’re writing opinionated thinkpieces defending said type from misinformation... That’s the 6 „algorithm“, a behavior seen in many other areas of life.

(Notably, you never see a correctly typed 6 making their type their username, because, like most correctly typed people, they have some embarassment of the weak points.)

The tedency to „band together with others of shared interests“ is a sound survival strategy.

But here it can cause someone to become quite entrenched in or attached to the label they first arrived on even if it was just due to a simple beginners mistake or a set of bad descriptions.

Or they may resist a label they associate negatively because it would mean something drastic about who they are. Like they loathe conformism and think being a 6 would mean they are one.

But you’re still the same person before & after pinning some label on you to describe you. If you’re a 6 you’re already one, and if you are not conformistic now, saying you’re a 6 won’t make you that way.

Besides its quite natural to be annoyed with immature members of your own type cause, sure seems convenient & easy to just follow your worst impulses and avoid anything that challenges you rather than making an effort to be reasonable and/or fair to others…

7: One underappreciated thing is that part of the reasons that 7s avoid difficult feelings is that they believe they can’t handle them or that „everything will be awful forever“

So being typed as the „cant handle tough shit“ type can feel like a confirmation thereof. You see ppl lamenting possibly being shallow or wishing they were what they perceive as ‚deep‘ types, probably reflecting an inner complex that they must be interesting/entertaining enouh for others to like them.

eg. What they’re really afraid of here is, on the one hand, being boring or limited (for some being typed at all seems like a limitation, as every type has weaknesses.) and, on the other, since 7s often feel they can’t really depend on others, that others might get tired of them if you burden them with stuff like flaws, insecurities, or even just, like, limited entertainment value.

Plus, 7s have a need to see themselves in a good light, so confronting how they may have been selfish, irresponsible, unreliable or flakey in the past can be painful - & at that point it seems tempting to just put a checkmark under that whole ‚enneagram‘ thing & move on to the next cool-sounding curiosity.

What you might want to note instead is your tendency to think you need to have everything figured out at once, & how that is not a reasonable expectation is some contexts. You’re studying a system that’s supposed to tell you what biases you have, so it’s normal that it will point you to some errors or shortcomings, some of which will take a while to overcome – if it didn’t, it would not be very useful. But, knowing about it is an opportunity to do better.

Realizing you might have some flaws might be painful, so you might want to avoid sitting down & letting it sink in, but the feeling won’t last forever.

Also, you don’t need to always be nothing but awesome & dazzling & entertaining for people to like & accept you.

8: Now many do not, but generally 8s are the most likely type to say that they like being their type, & no doubt that some of them are grounded, pragmatic ppl who accept themselves & reality, see no point in wasting time wishing for an alternate reality that will never happen.

However, for some of those ppl it may rather be due to how their defenses work – they can’t attack you by saying you’re a villain if you flat out admit it. „Insecurities what insecurities? What do you mean, river in egypt? Talking how I’m a villain doesn’t bother me at all what do I look like some kinda softie? Nothing self-hating at all in going on about what a proud arsehole I am…“

The truth is that, at least in quiet, non-action moments, many an 8 may have had worries of being „too much“ for ppl to handle, or have regets about situations that they screwed up with their impulsive actions.

And now they’re apparently the „intimidating“, „rageaholic“ type? Ouch. Doesn’t help the whole complex about being „bad“ at all.

Also, many 8s have painful memories of situations where they felt they had to keep it together & ‚tough it out‘ despite extreme adversity, because else they would be finished, or because others relied on them to be the Unshakeable One, & the typing can probably remind them of that – it doesn’t help how the type tends to be idealized. Oh great, more ppl expecting you to be tough, more apparent conformation that no one will care how you feel inside.

On some level 8s want respect & consideration, but „hey please be nice“ seems like an obvious invitation for someone to come & do the opposite, so, what you see are aggressive responses to disrespect & preemptive posturing so nobody will dare do the disrespect (or far worse).

But is it really true that no one will care & that you always have to tough it out? Now, ovsly that doesn’t mean that it’s safe to tell all your sensitive & compromising information to the nearest oily used car salesman. That’s bullshit, as you were no doubt thinking already. But maybe in some special situations with some special people, you might feel better if you let them know what’s going on with you. After all you’re as deserving of care & consideration as everyone else, despite what that subjective sense of „badness“ may be telling you - & you’re probably more likely to get it if you get better at seeing where you’re actually being opposed and where preemptive strikes may be less needed.

9: 9s can have insecurities about thinking they’re unremarkable, don’t really have special traits, & that their presence doesn’t matter.

So at lot of the more unflattering traits like being reluctant to make waves, having a diffuse sense of self etc. may at first feel like a confirmation of this. „Ah yes im a boring person, I even got the Boring Person Type….“

Actually what being typed as a 9 means is, your subjective sense of being ‚just little old me‘ might be an illusion (so rather the opposite of confirming it), & you might have plenty of special strong points rife for discovery… and also, further cultivation. Withdrawn types underestimate how they might change things & might feel that it’s hopeless or not worth it, but that may not in fact be the case. So even if you think that you are, in fact, a doormat, you can change it - not overnight maybe, but, you know, manageable baby steps. More people will notice & appreciate your interestingness if you don’t hide it as much.

Consider this also: The fact that 9s are common means that a lot of ppl liked 9s, screwed them, and produced tons of little baby 9s. It’s probably not cause people loooove boring mates.

It might be worth looking up a list of widely beloved or accomplished Type 9 celebrities to dissuade yourself of the notion that it is in any way the „boring person type“. Would you say Tolkien was boring? Theoretically, you could be both a 9 and boring but your boringness would not be due to your type.

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Of course, it is easy to list the conclusions like this. Even if you intellectually accept that it may be true it still won’t immediately feel true or sink in enough for you to act like it is. But being open to the theoretical possibility at least is a good start to allow the rest to happen and to „confirm itself“ through experience.

#enneagram #typology

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maskedteaser · 5 months ago

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Hi! I love matchups! Can I have a rdr2 matchup? :3 if you would like a matchup too let me know! (It can take me some time tho)

I am pretty social, however I prefer to spend time alone! I care about others a lot… To an unhealthy amount honestly but I'm working on it! I love to help others and make them smile, but I do wish I would get something for being so nice in return, yeah it might sound greedy but I want to be appreciated! And get something nice haha, like just a compliment or something, when my helping and kindness gets unnoticed I might get upset because of how tired I am and I just want to be appreciated like I said before 😭 I wanted to be noticed and not ignored! I care too much about what others feel and think and it's tiring, I just want to be selfish sometimes and care about myself even if it sounds mean. I also love being mentioned/involved in things, it makes me feel liked <3

My humor is definitely not for everyone, it's mostly the humor of a 12 y/o kid which can be annoying to some people lmao (sometimes it's funny how people are annoyed by it) and some other things depending on how I feel. When it comes to annoyance I also like to annoy people <3 it's so fun! But I never want to make them really feel bad! Often I act like an asshole but this is just for jokes! (but sometimes I wanna be a real asshole lmao) Like I said I don't want them to actually feel bad, if I do, I will feel very guilty! When it comes to it I apologize A LOT, I apologize so much that it might too annoying but I always feel a sense of guilt inside of me. I'm also VERY sensitive and worry about everything. Ah and I'm pretty dumb and I am not trying to insult myself I am just silly hehe and I'm okay with that. Oh and Im clumsy 😭😭 I have a low self esteem :((

I LOVE LOVE horror and scary things, I can't imagine my life without it, its just a such interesting genre that makes me happy and intrigued! I adore horror games and I'm mostly interested in them, however most of the time I am scared of playing them so I just watch gameplays and stuff like that haha. You can say I am obssesed with horror! (its funny because its easy to scare me haha)

I love to eat food <3 especially sweet things

I also love cute things! Plushies, pink, lolita clothes and other cute things! I just love it so much <3

I love pathetic men! 😍 I am not the smartest and I find high inteligence hot however I also love goofy guys! They are adorable!

I dislike cooking (I love when someone knows to cook however I suck at it)

When it comes to looks I am a chubby girl :"D chin lenght hair with bangs and glasses, my best friend says I have a "puppy face" ❤️

Ahh sorry if its too much! Have a wonderful day/night!

I was actually not expecting anyone to react in any way and request a matchup, but I am so glad you send your note! Thank you for reaching out! Let's get to it! More under "keep reading" :) [@karusenka - tagging you so you won't miss it!]

before I tell you who I match you up with, let me tell you why I decided not to pick other characters!

❝ yeah it might sound greedy but I want to be appreciated! ❞

DUTCH would probably not put you over his plans and his ambitions. No matter how pretty or nice are you, you would probably always be the second option. That's why - DUTCH IS OUT!

❝ I also love being mentioned/involved in things, it makes me feel liked ❞

I have a strong feeling that JAVIER might be too overprotective of you. He'd be simply scared of loosing you, always keeping an eye on you, not letting you go anywhere out of the camp. I feel like he could just go on missions and never involve you in anything except simple camp chores/activities. That's why - JAVIER IS OUT!

❝ Oh and Im clumsy 😭😭 I have a low self esteem :(( ❞ ❝ I'm also VERY sensitive and worry about everything❞

I kinda think that JOHN would be a really bad match for you. Sometimes the words he say can be really insensitive (I remember the things he said to Abigail when they were arguing in the camp...). I feel like he could hurt you by saying something about your clumsyness and he'd never actually notice that you're mad or WHY you are mad. That's why - JOHN IS OUT!

OKAY, SO NOW THE FINAL RESULT...I MATCH YOU WITH...DUM DUM DUM...

SEAN MACGUIRE

Seems like a great option for you! He might not be the best cook, but I'm sure he'd love to involve you in everything he does! Sean would probably care about you, always thinking about you and taking your opinion into account! You'd never get bored since this young man is full of surprises! You said you loved goofy guys, and if I had to be honest - I don't think there is anyone goofier than him! And your love for pathetic man? I'm pretty sure that he could get desperate for you pretty fast, just show him one of your cute dresses and he is on his knees, baby! I am also pretty sure that he'd love to listen to you talking about horror! He'd probably look it up/read about it (at least try to read about it...) so he could discuss with you about it :) Since he has so many people that he treats like family, he'd always go for advice from them after seeing you sad/mad and he was being unsure of what to do. Always trying his best to comfort you and apologize for any harsh words he possibly said. [He'd go to Arthur and be like "oh Arthur :( I fucked up again...! I love her so bad but I think I said something mean, what should I do now?" with sad eyes and lost puppy face.] He'd probably notice little things you do for him. And if you give him any handmade gift (like bracelet or something) he'd wear it 24/7 :]

Thank you for requesting! Hope you are okay with my matchup...Sorry if i disappointed you because you wished for someone else- signed Teaser 👽

#rdr2 x reader #sean macguire x reader #rdr2 fic #rdr2 matchup #teaser.writing.rdr2 #teaser.matchups #red dead redemption 2 x reader #red dead redemption x reader #red dead redemption 2

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theparliamentofrooks · 1 year ago

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OKAY SO I HEARD ABOUT YOU BEING A COMPLETE YO KAI WATCH FAN AND BUCK ENJOYER AS THE BIGGEST BUCK ENJOYER MYSELF I WANT TO HWAR ABOUT YOUR HEADCANONS IF YOU WOULD NOT MIND, I WOULD LIKE TO INFO DUMP TO EACH OTHER ABOUT HIM BECAUSE HE IS SUCH A REAL CHARACTER I LOVE HIM

LIIIIIIIIIIIIIITERALLY THE CHARACTER EVER i will gladly drop everything i think about him (or like half of it at least) here. Absolutely. He taught me how it feels to have an obscure fave HAHA

One big thing is that I age up the Yokai Watch characters with me cause they're my No. 1 comfort characters, so Buck (and everyone else) are young adults (like 18). Also Buck is Mexican/Honduran because he has too much swag not to be

Out of the YW3 trio (Nate, Buck, Hailey) it's BUCK that's the smartest. He gets pretty good grades with minimal studying and only puts in effort for big exams. The first time Nate saw he got 100% on a test he was so mad because they blew the past week doing nothing but Yokai stuff

Also he's just really good leader material for the trio. Nate of course is the best leader for Yokai and everyone in general (when times are tough) but Buck thinks ahead well

Is extremely popular in town. Literally 65% of people know him by name. He's charismatic and makes friends easily when he wants to

Has a bad habit of laughing at jokes for a little too long. Nate has dry humor and when it catches Buck off guard he'll be snickering like half an hour after it dropped. "You're still laughing?" "It was funny!"

He initially gets envious of Nate and Hailey having Yokai watches but when they bring him to get one he's like damn wait these kinda look like ass. He strolls out of the Yopple store whistling and appreciating his necklace tenfold and the others are astonished.

(Whisper, diehard Yopple stan, wants to bite him for a week)

Five Assigned Yokai Partner: Shadow Venoct. Reasoning? Shadow Venoct is my favorite. Buck is my favorite. Plus it's cool like why not. I honestly think Shadow Venoct would meet Buck and they'd just click well because Buck wouldn't shy away from him. Shadow Venoct hangs out with him and Buck doesn't need a medal to summon him (just has to say his name with intent)

Buck has trust issues but they only flare up when new people are entering his circle. When Nate was becoming friends with his friends, Buck instantly got defensive and tried shaking him off. Same thing for Hailey suddenly befriending Nate, which makes Buck initially very standoffish with her. It felt like they were invading his space and he needed to know if they would click well before he started being friendly

Buck also eventually realizes that his family can naturally see Yokai, but he couldn't for some reason. (Or at least his sister Dorothy can). It saddens him deeply but he tries not to dwell on it too much. He's got his lucky UFO stone and that's what matters now

Okay back to fun stuff. HE'S THE MOST INSANE ONE ON ADVENTURES BECAUSE HE WON'T FUCKING SIT DOWN he's constantly on his feet poking around SOMEWHERE. Buck absolutely REFUSES to rest when there is something interesting and exciting he could be doing Nate has to cover him so often

Wishes he had the Yokai Watch Certified Pistol

I am a Nate/Buck yaoi truther (I want what they have so bad) but the comedic appeal of Nate being into his sister is also huge. Buck finds out Nate and Hailey are both vying for Dorothy's attention and proceeds to be a MENACE. Nate gets tossed into the ocean and Hailey has to cope with an anime figure release being pushed back

(Buck asked his parents to pull a few strings and refused to elaborate on when he became "interested in anime stock marketing")

Nate and Buck are absolutely gay for each other though. I don't do ships but it's undeniable it's just a fact. The one of like four ships I DO accept as my own

He constantly switches between calling Yokai 'Yokai' and aliens. It's a hard habit to break okay cut him some slack a burger with hands and legs is NOT a ghost LMFAO

Whisper and Buck sometimes butt heads. Buck will call Whisper out for Googling (YO-GOOGLING?) and Whisper reprimands Buck for doing risky things. Buck has also pulled on Whisper's tuft a few times but come on everyone else absolutely has understand his situation

Buck is effectively Nate's right hand man and vice versa. When Nate can't rely on Jibanyan or Whisper for something, his next stop is Buck

I HOPE THESE WERE FUN HEADCANONS TO READ!!!!!!! It has been a LONG time since I've thought hard on him but GOD I LOVE HIM HE'S THE BEST. THE CHARACTER EVER. Buck Hazeltine is a staple for my favorite characters he's THE face of "green characters that are witty, smile a lot, and five will inevitably love". Ugh he's awesome

And thank YOU for sending me this ask!!!! (I LOVE OPPORTUNITIES TO TALK IT'S MY FAVORITE ACTIVITY)

#yokai watch #yo-kai watch #buck hazeltine #mac hazeltine #ALSO FOR BUCK I DON'T DO WELL GETTING INFODUMPED ABOUT HIM FROM OTHERS. SO PLEASE DO NOT HAHA #i unfortunately grew so attached to buck i struggle to talk about him back and forth. i am much more comfortable going off solo #but don't worry that is LITERALLY just me. seeing your thoughts through your own post would still be super dope. GENUINELY!!!!!#b'art art #if i say anything is fact btw I DON'T MEAN IT LITERALLY I AM JOKING #five o'clock asks

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thestrangeillusion · 7 months ago

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a get to know you better meme

Ahhh this took me more than a month to get around to doing, but I didn’t forget about it!! Thank you so much for tagging me @dummerjan! <3 <3 <3

do you make your bed? No, I don’t really see the point tbh, I’ll only be messing it up in the evening again anyway.

what's your favourite number? Umm, 7 I think? There’s not a particular reason for it though. I do have a soft spot for 21 as well for entirely SKAM related reasons haha.

what is your job? I do scientific evaluations of (primarily) government programmes.

If you could go back to school would you? Hmm, there’s some appeal to that because I didn’t hate school and the structure and routine of it was mostly good for me, I think. But the thought of being a teenager again and being cooped up in a room with 25+ other teenagers for a minimum of 30 hours a week – no, thank you. But if school is meant in the way US-Americans sometimes use it, as in also meaning further education, then I could be convinced. I mean, I still have to write my master’s thesis, so I’m technically still a student, but I sometimes think re-doing my first couple of years of undergrad (and maybe making some better decisions lol) could be fun.

can you parallel park? Nope, I can’t even really drive anymore, I’m pretty sure, even though I do have a licence. It’s more of a glorified ID at this point because I haven’t actually driven a car in like 4 years or so and even before that I honestly wasn’t very good at it (driving or parking).

a job you had that would surprise people? Not really tbh.

do you think aliens are real? I mean I am pretty sure there are forms of life on other planets, since some of them have been found to have inhabitable environments. If it’s intelligent life I don’t really feel qualified to say although, if I remember correctly, one of my good friends who’s doing a PhD in astrophysics and is one of the smartest people I know once made a pretty convincing argument for it (but I have since forgotten what the argument was lol).

can you drive a manual car? Refer to the question about parallel parking above. I learned to drive in a manual car (I’ve actually never driven an automatic), but I’m fairly sure I don’t actually know how to do it anymore.

what's your guilty pleasure? That’s a difficult question. Reading fucked up smut fics is definitely one of them, I guess. Also does pissing away many of my weekends by staying in bed all day and reading or writing fanfics instead of putting effort into having a social life count? Because I also do that and I do enjoy it, but it’s painful whenever anyone asks what I did on the weekend lol. There’s only so many times you can say “Nothing much” tbh.

tattoos? I like them on other people, mostly. My cousin has a full back tattoo in colour and is slowly adding onto it so that it expands to her arms and sides and I always love seeing which new piece she’s gotten tattooed since I last saw her. It just suits her really well and she’s super passionate about the motive and I love that. And I think that’s where the problem lies for me, I just don’t have any motive or phrase or whatever that I am passionate enough about to permanently put on my body tbh. Also, I am scared of pain and needles, so…

favourite colour? Burgundy.

favourite type of music? Ooof that’s hard to answer, I listen to so many different types of music. One genre I’ve liked pretty consistently from my early teens until now is (mostly British) indie rock and alternative rock – I really like Muse, Placebo, Arctic Monkeys, The Libertines and Nothing But Thieves, for example. And I’ve been to quite a few tiny club concerts of that genre because I know I’ll enjoy it even if I don’t know the band or any of their songs beforehand.

And then I also go through intense music phases mostly related to TV shows I love – it started when I was like 13 watching Gossip Girl and obsessively listening to Death Cab for Cutie, Bloc Party and Sum 41 to when I watched SKAM and got very into Norwegian music (the Norwegian singer/rapper Cezinando still features consistently in my top Spotify artists and has done so since 2017). And now that I’m watching Thai BLs, I started with an obsession about Jeff Satur’s music (and listened to nothing else for like 2 months) and am now gradually venturing out into discovering other Asian music (I’m really enjoying WOODZ, Hua Chen Yu and Violette Wautier so far). So that was a lot of rambling, but still barely covers half of what I actually love listening to…

do you like puzzles? I haven’t done puzzles in aaages, but I have very fond childhood memories of doing them with my grandparents on NYE while waiting for midnight. I think I would still enjoy them if I did them now.

any phobias? Not really. Stuff I’m pretty scared of, sure, but no full-blown phobias.

favourite childhood sport? Hmm, in terms of the sports we played in school, I really enjoyed “Völkerball” (which I’m pretty sure vaguely translates to dodgeball, but I don’t think it’s entirely the same thing). The only problem was that I was really good at dodging the ball and never getting hit, but very, very bad at catching the ball or hitting other people with it, so I could never actually end the game by taking out people on the other team either.

I only started in my teens, but I also really enjoyed (and still enjoy) climbing and bouldering. And my family went skiing every winter when I was a child, which I hated at first, but started to enjoy in my early teens when I didn’t have to do lessons with a bunch of other kids tumbling down the mountain anymore.

do you talk to yourself? All the time in my mind, and sometimes out loud when I’m on my own (particularly when I’m frustrated about something).

what movie(s) do you adore? I actually really love heartwarming feel-good movies tbh. One of my favourite movies is Pride (2014) because it just radiates so much joy and solidarity and a will to live and make things better that always lifts my mood. And I can’t even tell you the amount of times I’ve rewatched Mamma Mia. Another genre of movies I seem to enjoy is movies about female rage a.k.a. women going batshit crazy but being totally justified in it, such as Promising Young Woman or Gone Girl. I do generally prefer watching TV shows to movies, though.

coffee or tea? I get the jitters and become hyperactive in a really uncomfortable way when I drink coffee, so I rarely do. I mostly drink black tea or Mate for the purpose of waking me up.

first thing you wanted to be growing up? Well, according to old friendship book entries, I first wanted to be a princess (until my mum bought me a book about the Habsburgs and I quickly abandoned the idea, which I think was the point) and after that a cook.

Tagging @crumchycow, @mightymightygnomepriest, @salamander89, @fiddlepickdouglas, @obscurecurse

and @lilmaemae and anyone else who wants to do it 😊

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scarefox · 11 months ago

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10 BL BOYS I WILL THROW HANDS FOR

got tagged by @mygwenchan and @blmpff (slightly different challenge title but basically the same so I throw it together)

haha, this perfect. I tried to do the "10 characters I want carnally" challenge twice, but failed so hard because... well I don't want anyone carnally, nor would I want to get between my fav couples 😅

But would I throw hands for my favs?? I sure would!

No particular order except number 1 :>

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1 ) Uea from Bed Friend & Middleman's Love

Is anyone who follows me surprised? I am member of the Uea defense squad. He can be as snappy as he wants, he's allowed to.

2 ) Nont from Playboyy

Don't question his methods, okay? If he thinks he has to make out with everyone, play silly party games with hidden agendas, torture and kill people all for investigation reasons (or pleasure), then so be it 😌🤷‍♂️

3 ) Phop from Playboyy

He's just a cute little camboy who sometimes scams people to support his family, leave him alone

...... oh well haha

but hey it basically was just a conversation, before I moved Phop on my protection list I am sure this will never happen again between these two :)

4 ) Hira and Kiyoi from Utsukushii Kare

Haters just don't get them and how special and perfect they are for each other. Also the neurodivergent representation.

5 ) Kijima from the Pornographer series

Is he a bit of a manipulative, weirdo and pervert? Yes? But he's also a depressed writer with artblock who needs some love?

6 ) White from Not Me

He tried his best with the options he had okay? It's not as if he could just google his brothers biography. Of all the twin switch plots he's the one who did the most effort in actually looking like his twin and tiptoeing around his gang.

7 ) Yeon Woo and Yoo Han from Color Rush

Codependent frenemies to lovers, soulmates with a big dose of hurt/comfort. I love them and don't you dare call it bromance just because has no spice scenes. But the tension man, the tension~

8 ) Babe and Charlie from Pit Babe

Welcome Mama and Papa on my protection list 😌 Everyone wants something from Babe, while he just wants to live freely. And Charlie out here trying to protect Babe while endangering himself. Just let them have their little family in peace.

9 ) Jeff from Pit Babe

Most relatable and smartest guy in the whole drama. Also introvert-no-touchy representation.

10 ) Fan Ze Rui and Bai Zong Yi from Kiseki: Dear to Me

One of the most underrated couples??? My siblings in hell??? Their insane plot, the angst, the bite kink, the height difference, the tension, the devotion, the lap sitting???

Okay, let's keep it at that. Those are all characters I defended already or am ready to defend haha. There are definitely more but these are my big ones atm.

I tag @dream-thief-forever-amen @nozunhinged @braceletofteeth @lukaherehelp @chitaprrrrrrrr

I don't know who already did this. So yea, as usual do it if you want to (also everyone who isn't tagged and wants to do it, just do it)

#there is a pattern in this and it's that I like unconventional characters and couples the most

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hypegirl1 · 1 year ago

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The formula of love (fem! reader x Yoosung Kim)

-Note: Hii,this is my first fic lmfao,I did it the best i could,I hope my Mystic Messenger players here like it,enjoy!I´m very sorry If there is any mistake,just correct me

Summary: You and Yoosung try to help each other to study for an important physics test,but both of you end up being worse than the other when it comes to physics,and there´s something else Yoosung might be hiding...

Word count: 941

Warnings: None

You were at the empty classroom trying to understand a lil something about the previous lesson,but your thoughts were as empty as the classroom,you couldn't even focus,the only few things that came to your mind were about what you were gonna eat today,it was 12:30pm already,you were hungry,but you had to study for this super important test.

-Come on! Why am I getting everything but the result in this problem?!

You were exhausted,hungry,you couldn't focus,what could go worse? Until you heard the door open slowly,revealing one of your classmates,shiny blonde long hair,lovely purple eyes,usually with dark circles,but this wasn´t the case,and an awesome charisma,Yoosung Kim,he wasn't the smartest at your class,but he tried,he was better at other things of course,but let's say that physics wasn't also one of his strong points,like you.

-"Y/N,I didn't knew you were here,are you also trying to study for the test?"

-"Yeah,trying...I don't understand anything,I've been stuck on the same problem for like 10 minutes"

-"Well,maybe I could try to help you,if you want me to..."

He was a little bit shy,you knew he wasn't the best at this,but at this point,rejecting some help,even if it was usseles,didn't make sense.

-"Sure,why not?We can help each other if you want"

He sat next to you,pulled out his stuff and checked out your problem.

-"I think I found out the problem,why are you putting this in kilometers? It´s supposed to be in meters"

You were in disbelief,as much as Copernicus when he found out the earth wasn´t the center of the universe,and neither what Yoosung said made any sense.

-"What?No,what are you talking about? The problem tells you that the result must be in kilometers"

-"I know,but in order to do that,you have to transform this into meters to do this operation"

-"What operation? You are adding extra stuff for no reason,just get to the point,don´t make 78 operations!"

-"But to get the final result you have to do this!"

Perfect,now none of you were saying coherent things,because none of those answers weren´t even close to the final result that you had to get.

-"Yoosung,you aren´t helping me that much you know?"

-"What? I- sorry,I´m just trying to help you,but you´re not listening"

-"Because your process makes no sense!"

-"It does! Look, you have to- wait,that doesn´t actually make sense"

-"I told you"

-"But your process is also wrong,both of us are arguing for nothing"

You couldn´t help but laught at the situation,you just spend 5 minutes arguing nonsense,but you liked it.

-"I can´t believe we argued about nothing"

-"Yeah...you shouldn´t have accepted my help,I´m not that good in physics haha"

-"Oh Yoosung don´t say that,I was desperate for some help,It didn´t matter from who,but if I´m being honest,you helped me forget a little bit about all this stress I have,thank you"

You could see how Yoosung was slightly blushing,oh wow,he was- cute,at this point you didn´t even knew what to say or how to react,you couldn´t just suddenly start catching feelings for one of your classmates,that you never thought about it before,that you only saw sometimes at class,if he wasn´t absent playing LOLOL at home,and those only times that you saw him,he was sleeping at class or playing on his phone,these last weeks you saw him at school everyday,and he was coming to classes,and paying attention?What was going on?

-"Really? If that´s the case,I´m glad I could help you in something"

His smile was so pure and innocent,maybe you were starting to catch feelings for him...

-"Yoosung,this might sound weird,coming from someone who is just your classmate,but,would you like to have lunch with me after school?"

-"Sure! I would love to,I don´t have nothing else to do"

Weird,did he just denied being at home playing LOLOL until 1am for having lunch with you? Or was he just being honest? Whatever it was,you were happy about it.

-"Really? Thank you,could I ask you something?"

-"Anything"

-"You´ve been coming to school a lot these days,why? I mean,I don´t want to sound rude,but I barely see you at school,you rarely come,if there´s something going on you can tell me"

-"Oh,thank you for your concern Y/N,but everything´s fine,I live all by myself,it´s just that- I stay up too late playing LOLOL,and I don´t like school too much,haha"

-"I´m happy you´re fine,but how come these last weeks you haven´t missed a day?"

-"Oh uhm- that´s-"

Yoosung didn´t knew what to answer,was he really okay?

-"Alright,I never really pay attention to anyone or anything,but the other day when you woke me up after class,I saw you,I never knew there was a girl as pretty and kind as you,I mean,you woke me up when the class finished,and I just wanted to see you these days as I only see you here,and try to appear as a good student in your eyes"

-"You-you were trying to get my attention?

Now you were the one stuttering,he was trying to get your attention? Because he thought you were kind and pretty? He-liked you?

-"Yeah,it sounds desperate I know...but I barely come here and I never study,what girl likes a guy that doesn´t even try at school"

-"I do"

-"Wha-what?"

He was in disbelief,did you just say that?

-"You don´t need to be a top tier student so that a girl likes you,Yoosung,you might not be good at physics,or sports,but I´m sure you are very good at other stuff,that I would like to know about"

-"I would love to tell you about them,should we leave to eat?It´s pretty late now"

-"Sure"

You packed all your stuff and left with Yoosung,a lovely smile on both your faces with a very strong blush on your face,maybe you did liked him...

This was short AF,and probably the worst thing I ever wrote to start my page lmfaooo,but I tried

#mystic messenger #yoosung kim #yoosung x reader

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ask-wren-zhang · 1 year ago

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Dear lady Zhang,

If it's not too much to ask, could you tell me: why do you think you were sorted into Ravenclaw when you first came to Hogwarts? Do you think this house suits you well or you would rather be somewhere else?

"Ah, the Sorting Ceremony, that old tale," Wren chuckles, her eyes twinkling with amusement. “It was quite the evening. I remember how long it took for the shock to wear off. ‘Me? A Ravenclaw? When I was a wee girl, I used to trip over my own skirt!’ Haha!”

“But evidently the Sorting Hat saw potential beyond my uncoordinated nature. Dreams and determination matter as much as intellect, I find.”

She begins playing with the loose thread of her gloves; she’s been doing it quite often these recent days. Her eyes distant and pensive. “You see… I was never the smartest nor the fastest among my peers…but the atmosphere of intellectual exploration and the camaraderie among fellow Ravenclaws was exactly what I needed to bring my mind out of the fog.”

"I suspect my background as a muggle-born may have contributed to my place in Ravenclaw as I was, still am, insatiably curious about the Wizarding World, and determined to a fault in uncovering every mystery and secret Hogwarts has to offer, beyond academics. Nonetheless despite everything I now have learned, it feels as if I barely scratched the surface.”

“While I sometimes wonder about the other houses, as for whether Ravenclaw suits me well or not, I'd say it's a perfect fit. Plus, the common room's view of the sky and stars is a constant source of inspiration. So, no complaints here.”

#rp #wren speaks

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positivelypositive · 8 months ago

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Hihihi ! First of all wanna say I love ur page sm ty for posting ur personal motivational messages!! They are always so comforting. <333

I just wanted to rant about my major, since I’m in college and that’s like my whole life right now haha.. I keep struggling with getting bad grades (not failing, but not amazing enough to go to a good graduate school in the future). Even though it’s very common since I’m a STEM major in a fairly tough school/major, it doesn’t stop me from feeling like a failure and that I’ll never get better.. I know that I need to just keep taking steps to improve myself and my grades, but it’s so especially hard when my friends in the class are really complacent, settling for the bad grades and not trying to be creative with ways to improve themselves. They choose to be lazy instead and deal with the consequences by dropping a class or a minor that isn’t easy (relatively). I have one other friend in my major who is as motivated as me to do really well, but she isn’t doing the same minor that I’m aiming to do — so we don’t have those classes in common to relate with and help/motivate each other on. So if I’m struggling in the classes for my minor, I know my friends won’t be much help because they’re probably struggling more than me ! Or if they aren’t, they just aren’t as helpful in explaining things because they don’t have an intuitive grasp on it if that makes sense, and would rather just give me their answers.

Anyways, it’s just an overall frustrating experience, but I saw that u were accepting rants hahaha and I kinda needed to get this off my chest. What would u do in my situation? Try to maybe make some new friends? It’s hard because I try to avoid people with big egos (bc they’re annoying 😭 but sometimes they end up being the smartest/most motivated…) but I could also try going out of my comfort zone to meet new ppl, but I also have social anxiety so it’s scary hahahha

Much love 💕

hey anon,

thank you for your kind words! i'm so glad you took up my offer to rant and shared freely. lastly, i'm sorry if i'm getting back to you late. i have been away from my account for a little while and only saw this today.

now, on to what you shared- i want to begin by telling you how proud i am of you. you want to do better even when those surrounding you are complacent. that takes serious motivation. you're awesome!

as for not having someone to motivate you to do even better- i'm in a field where none of my friends or family had any experience so i was a loner for most of my career. eventually, i found people to share with but i understand where you're coming from.

i think youtube used to and still helps me the most. try to look up efficient study methods for your specific subjects or course type. now, it can get overwhelming because youtubers have their on-camera, pretty lives in extreme order.

what you want to do is start small. maybe pick one idea that you see common amongst a few videos and try implementing that. see if it works and then keep adding slowly.

remember to not overdo it. perfection is overrated and for a sincere person as yourself, it can quickly turn demotivating.

take care of yourself anon. you sound like a very pleasant person. feel free to drop by for another rant, anytime. sending you warmth and positive vibes ✨

#positively positive #anon ask #answered

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lena-rambles · 2 years ago

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find the word

thanks @violets-in-her-arms-writes for the tag! took me a few days, but here i am lol

i was given trip, throne, tired, tempt, and tone. i switched the latter two's order because both answers are from the same scene and chronologically it worked better haha

also editing to put it under a read more because damn i pasted a lot

trip ; i got nothing for this ;-;

throne ; once upon a cursèd dream

A thought brushes against the back of my mind. I have yet to see her face, but she seems familiar. Her thin frame, delicate hands, and there—a faint mark on her forearm. I suck in a sharp breath and finally lift my gaze. Our eyes meet. She has stopped in her tracks, only halfway through the throne room, but I don’t blame her. She whispers under her breath and her eyes, light brown and familiar, flick across my body. In a daze, I rise from my throne and shake off Mother hissing my name. I know everyone is staring at us, I can feel the curious heat of their eyes, but for once I am able to ignore them.

(re)tired ; long live the queen

I sank into the music, savouring it and committing it to memory until I heard it next. We danced for two songs afterwards, then retired from the floor. We made our way to his parents, who stood by the marble fountain talking with Lords Cassius and Alba. The two men bowed and excused themselves, leaving Theodore and I alone with Cadmus and Priscilla. “Felicem diem brumatis,” I greeted. “Happy solstice,” they returned, Priscilla a beat behind her husband.

(s)tone ; eris

(a dark sapphic fantasy that i hope to introduce sometime. aesthetic rbs here. also this "line" is ridiculously long but i'm also very fond of this entire scene so-)

The outskirts of Feyre weren’t pretty. If Lyssa was honest, the whole area surrounding the capital was dreary: a monotonous collection of farms and gaunt faces trudging down the murky streets. The north end of the city was likely the finest urban neighborhood in Tallia, the home of the wealthy, but the streets gradually worsened towards the south. Despite Lyssa’s grand plans of revolution, she didn’t like being in Feyre longer than she had to unless she was in the north end. Unfortunately, she was meeting an informant in Eira Park; not the picture of wealth. She strode through the streets, weeds and stones bowing beneath her feet. The houses here were clustered closer than Llorian marriages, with solid bases but looking weaker the taller they were. The people of Feyre preferred growing up than out, which made for a few unstable structures. It didn’t take much longer for her to arrive at the meeting spot: Rafe’s Tavern. The building looked to be three houses stacked on top of each other, the tavern at the bottom melding into the stone foundation that stretched across the whole block. Lyssa ducked under the hand-painted sign hanging in the doorway—not the smartest architectural decision—and claimed a small table away from the rowdy men arm-wrestling in the corner. She reached into her gold pouch and pulled out a coin for when the barmaid came around, then rested her forearms on the table. A minute later, a barmaid came around and Lyssa ordered a pint of berry mead. The tavern door creaked open and two people came in, her informant and— Rieka?

tempt ; eris

Lyssa scoffed. “I know someone who would spill information to me like water from a bucket. You don’t know that Rieka doesn’t have someone.” “She doesn’t, I swear.” Lyssa chuckled, but before she could say anything more, the barmaid arrived with her berry mead. While Melian ordered, Lyssa took the chance to look at Rieka for the first time in a while. She was sturdy and lithe but hunched. Her silver-white hair hung heavy around her porcelain skin, slick and tangly. Lyssa reached a foot across the floor and touched her calf. Rieka startled but smiled at Lyssa. “You’re Rieka?” Rieka’s face slid into a blank mask, which Lyssa knew was because she didn’t want to laugh and give the game away. Even though the two hadn’t seen each other in nearly a year, the lure of playing with an unwitting person was too tempting. “Yes, ma’am.”

tagging @reneesbooks, @the-stray-storyteller, @gummybugg, and whoever else wants to for the words dark, grin, breath(e), scream, and music

(also renee and cécile you're both on the oucd taglist so there's a sneak peek of a shabby draft for you up there)

#writing games!#wip. once upon a cursèd dream #ch. aurore #ch. pippa #wip. long live the queen #wip. eris #ch. lyssa #ch. rieka #mwahaha your first introduction to my happy project #as i call it #unapologetically evil main character trying to take over the kingdom #with her runaway werewolf girlfriend #and the mc's middle child syndrome cousin who decides it's a great idea to be a third wheel #for reference his name is jesper #and my side blog @lena-otherwips has all my reblogs until i officially introduce it if you're interested #own work #llq. writing #find the word game

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purplesurveys · 9 months ago

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1823

Would you rather have another job? I would, but the job market sucks and it's been a challenge trying to apply to new ones even though I had been actively looking every day of February. I got a little impatient so I've ultimately settled for a new role, still in my current workplace – so I've still resigned from my current post, but the new role will allow me to continue to be in the industry I like while removing the shit I don't want to deal with and had originally resigned over.

Did you ever live in a house with more than one story? I currently do. It was the house I grew up in that didn't have an extra floor.

What room of your home do you spend most time in? My bedroom, since it's also my workspace.

Is your second toe longer than your big toe? Just super slightly, but yeah.

Have you ever given yourself a tattoo? Nope.

Do you own any clothes you wouldn’t wear in front of your mother? Not really.

Do you have health insurance? Just Philhealth. What are some medical issues you’re currently dealing with? Just what I'm presently sensing as anemia, but other than that there aren't any.

Why did you last take pain medication? Can't even recall. I just apply a cooling ointment whenever my back and shoulders are sore lol, and I've been proactively lessening my Biogesic intake because I don't want to be too dependent on it every time I get a headache.

What physical traits have you inherited from your father? I find that my smile and mouth are similar to his. I think my eyes too? Idk but in general I'm the most well-balanced among me and my siblings when it comes to genetics haha, so it's hard for me to tell which of my features look more like my mom's or my dad's.

How about your mother? My overall face structure? IDK IT'S REALLY HARD TO TELL LOL

What personality traits do you wish your children would inherit from you? I take pride in how devoted and loyal I am in my friendships, so it'd be nice for my hypothetical and likely-to-never-exist kids to get that from me. Also, passion for their hobbies! I'd listen to my kids ramble on all day about whatever it is they're interested/invested in.

What parts of the world are your ancestors from? Philippines, and that's pretty much it lol. I don't think I have ancestors from Spain.

Have you ever had a strange pet, outside of the normal animals people keep? No.

Do you believe in astrology? Hell no.

Do you drive an electric car? No. It just wouldn't be the smartest decision to get one at this point as we barely have the technology or network to make owning an electric car a feasible long-term thing. Philippines was already late as it is when it came to the internet, so I imagine it would be the same - perhaps even longer - with the electric cars.

Do you like facial hair on guys or do you prefer the clean shaven look? Eh, it depends on how they look with the hair.

Who was your first celebrity crush? It was a tie between Zac Efron and Ashley Tisdale, haha.

Are you good with kids? I honestly don't know. I was good with kids before as a First-Born Asian Daughter™ lol, but I haven't been arounds kids in YEARS so idk if my abilities still hold up.

Are you usually late, early, or right on time? At this point tbh I'm a mix of all three. I try to make it on time but it sometimes also depends on how invested I am in the thing I'm supposed to be at. I arrived at the Seventeen concert by 11 AM, but at work I will sometimes arrive at 10:30 AM lol.

Are you good at applying makeup? I'm horrible at it, but that's also because I'm not the least bit interested in makeup.

Do you like pastel colored hair? It's alright!

What do you think about the most? Career options, opportunities to take care of myself or find new hobbies...I've been getting paranoid about mortality lately as well and I hate it.

Do you like to see it snowing outside? I wish I could experience that, but I don't live in a country with snow.

Do you have your national flag hanging up anywhere outside your house? Nopes.

Have you ever been in a choir? I have not.

Do you look older or younger than you actually are? I used to get 'younger' all the time, but idk now. Work may have aged me physically enough to start actually looking 25 hahaha.

When is the next time you’ll be up on stage? I'm assuming June because my mom has asked me to host a surprise party we're doing for my paternal grandparents. I never committed to it, but I know ultimately it'll come down to me hosting anyway lol.

Where did you spend your last birthday at? I was just at home. My friends came over though.

What was the last show that you watched a full episode of? Friends.

Is there anything you need to work on doing soon? Little bit, yeah.

Were you ever a boy or girl scout? I was not.

Do you take your medications in the morning or at night? I don't take any medication at all.

Have you ever bought a YouTuber’s merch? Nah, merch is usually next to impossible to get when you're from an Asian country that's not Japan anyway. The merchiest I got with YouTubers was going to the first-ever YouTube Fanfest haha.

What is the best type of donut? I like a good classic – chocolate frosting with sprinkles! My favorite local doughnut shop also makes this fantastic roasted brown butter brioche doughnut that I could have every day.

Do you like thrift stores? Not the first place I would go to, but still willing to check them out.

What is your town known for? Aesthetic cafes with shitty food, car accidents, pilgrimages, and our waterfalls. We're all over the place lmao.

Have you ever used a fake name at Starbucks? I once referred to myself as Audrey as in Audrey Hepburn but it came back as fucking Aujie hahahaha. Haven't really done it since because I don't see the point.

What color is your lava lamp? I've never had one.

Who is your favorite Lisa Frank character? We were too short on money for my parents to be spending overpriced Lisa Frank shit on me.

What’s your favorite movie that you remember seeing in the theater? Portrait of a Lady on Fire.

Do you know anyone who has ten cats? I think Val may have? She posts about her cats all the time and it's always different ones every time lol.

Have you ever had a cat? My sister had Arlee.

Have you ever had a dog? Yes, three of them.

Have you ever any other kind of animal? Yes.

Have you ever had a pet rock? That I never have.

What were you voted in the senior class polls? We don't have that tradition.

Who was your favorite teacher in high school? My music teacher. I never even liked what she taught, but she had a teaching style that let her relate life lessons to whatever music theory she was explaining at the moment and that resonated with me all throughout high school.

Do you want to give your kids common names or unique names? Common, but not too mainstream in that they can still stand out but also not get bullied.

What collection are you thinking of starting? I currently collect BTS merch and I plan on continuing it, especially since I'm not even done getting all the albums yet.

Do you organize your clothes by color? No, I just have them fixed according to article of clothing.

What do you want to name your first child? I've stopped having a go-to pick for a name because I've also stopped wanting kids.

List ten favorite girls names. Mia, Scarlett, Charlotte, Emilia, Harper, Elliott, Lily, Juliana, Rosie, Dylan.

List ten favorite boys names. Seth, Liam, James, Lucas, Julian, Matteo, Noah, Owen, Jacob, Leon.

What season do you want to get married in? Continued from last night. We don't have seasons but I'd pick out a colder month – so anywhere between December to February.

Is your Pinterest cluttered? I don't use Pinterest enough to make boards.

What is your favorite insect? None of them.

What bugs scare you? All of them, but especially cockroaches.

Who picked your name, your mom or your dad? My dad picked my first name, my mom chose my second.

Have you ever fallen asleep in a significant other’s arms? Sure.

Do you have a television in your room? If you do, is it one of the old school big ones? Or i it a new flat screen? I do. It's a flat-screen but it's not a new TV – it was originally from our living room until we got a new one last year. Anyway, the TV I have is like 16 years old.

What was your favorite cartoon or television show as a child? What about movie? I liked Spongebob and Drake & Josh. For movies, Toy Story was and continues to be my favorite.

Did you have sleepovers at your friends’ houses a lot as a child? Or did your friends come over to your house more often? No. I was never really allowed to, but also I didn't have many friends so eh. As for me, I lived in a very crowded duplex so the house was never the most visitor-friendly.

Do you have any significantly older siblings? No, our age gaps are small.

When opening presents on Christmas or birthdays, do you first try to guess what is in the package? Do you tear the wrap off slowly, or just rip it to shreds? Are you polite no matter what the gift, and say you love it anyways? I rip it to shreds haha, and yes I always say thank you.

What happened last time you got drunk? I dropped a wine glass and injured my foot.

What are you listening to? Friends.

Which parent do you feel the most affection for? My dad.

How do you feel about God? "If there is a God, He will have to beg for my forgiveness.” A quote that reached fame by being found carved in a concentration camp wall. And I will forever agree with it, violently so. <– I like this answer. < There you go. <--- yep. < That's the best answer yet, because that's exactly how I feel with the shit I went through growing up.

Which platform do you use to listen to music on the most? Spotify.

Who do you care about the most? Myself and my dogs.

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