#I am not autistic

[alexandraisyes]

hi, same anon that asked if your symptoms go away or not. no clue why I worded it like that, but I meant if you experience it worse in intervals (obviously the symptoms are always there but get more noticeable at certain times). since you've answered my (horribly worded) question already, though, I raise another question: are there any resources that aren't horrifically ableist, where I can look further into ASPD, its symptoms and how they interact with things such as autism and other cluster B disorders? I ask so I don't keep asking you circular questions like you're equipped to diagnose a stranger with a personality disorder.

Resources are far and few to come by. A lot of what I know has been through extensive interpersonal study (talking to other people with the disorder). The fact of the matter is that most people with the disorder don’t freely talk about the disorder. You can look in online forum spaces if you want, or just get lucky and meet someone with the disorder in real life or happen to get super lucky and they’re already in your friend group. I have a sociopath and a malignant narcissist in my current friend group.

Understanding neurology would also help you in understanding any disorder, because there’s plenty of research on the neurological side of ASPD. Just not a lot of the psychological side. But if you understand neurology you understand psychology (most psychologists don’t fully understand neurology, they’re two different types of medicine with far different fields).

If you’re looking for how it interacts with other cluster b disorders, you can probably find at the very least one, maybe up to ten different “influencers” who are malignant narcissists (ASPD + NPD) who talk about the disorder on varying platforms. As stereotyped as it is, narcissists do actually love to talk about themselves.

As far as how it interacts with other neurodivergencies? Just ask someone with ASPD if they have comorbid neurodivergent disorders and what it’s like. However you aren’t going to find anything on having comorbid ASPD and autism. The two physically cannot coexist on a neurological level. (Trust me, I tried, I had a misdiagnosis of autism and was trying to wrap my head around it too).

So if someone with ASPD tells you they’re also autistic they’re wrong. They either don’t have ASPD or they don’t have autism. It’s always one or the other.

This is because ASPD and ASD are both largely caused by the amygdala. In ASD the amygdala is enlarged, growing abnormally quick between 6 and 12 months old. So you aren’t actually born autistic, but you may as well be. The faster the amygdala grows during that time the more severe the symptoms are presenting and the younger the symptoms will be noticeable.

ASPD on the other handle is caused by a reduced amygdala. Deformed sounds harsh but yeah it’s basically deformed. It’s smaller than normal, with an extremely regressed growth rate.

I could potentially go into the specifics but that’s a whole other post.

And I can’t diagnose anyone, online or off, so I will never try to. However, I am a reliable resource for understanding ASPD since it quite literally plagues me. So I can at the very least answer questions about something I’m unreasonably specialized in. Especially when the majority people in the psychiatric field of medicine aren’t specialized in it at all and there’s not enough genuine research for them to fake it either. And unfortunately most people aren’t willing to have compassion for things they don’t understand.

[greater-than-the-sword]

Is there just some universal trait of autism moms where they just assume that their child is unable to think any time they're unwilling to talk? Or- what is this phenomenon.

[rainybeetles]

I could have gotten the math autism but instead I got the funny beetleman autism

Damn

-one person I was DMing

[ilovettrpgs]

I am very normal about how the spirit world works in my ghostbusters campaign totally I absolutely do NOT have entire documents for it whaaaaat!!!

[sillygoofyboii]

Autism

br br br

where the hoes at

.

not here

[eefozlab]

HELLO TUMBLR

I am not autistic but my friend thinks i am

(Vote no)

[yourfavmaedae]

i remember a couple days ago i was on call with my friend , and um i was telling them about this very awesome show called epithet erased and they said um "i think you have something called something rhymes with "tism"..... magnetism? no;,,autism!!!!" you didnt have to call me out like that ?!!

[mlybrnte]

i was on my laptop searching through google curious if anyone had experienced long term hyperfixation for fictional characters and it landed me right exactly on reddit and i couldnt relate more to stories of women obsessing and crushing on tv show characters. i felt validated and seen. i realized i shouldnt worry about it. when i looked at the top right corner of the screen, I read the subreddit; "reddit/autisminwomen."

i shut my laptop down.

[tortillasconsal]

So my mom and I are on vacations. We got on a tour bus and when we were checking in tickets the driver looked at me and asked me if I'd like some headphones to help with the noise.

I don't know exactly what he meant, but I've never felt more autistic-coded in my life

[shadowsandkingdom]

🫢 Give us a fun fact about someone they know! 

I once observed Palkia (my uncle) obsessing over the appearance of his lawn

I came back 32 hours later and he was still weeding

I also once observed his son (my favorite cousin) cry over a smushed m&m

[andeeznuts]

WHAT???? NO!!! IM NOT AUTISTIC!!! I JUST HAVE AUTISM!!!

[inkskinned]

please i love you i'm begging you bring back suspension of disbelief bring back trusting the audience like. i cannot handle any more dialogue that sounds like a legal document. "hello, i am here to talk to you about the incident from a few minutes ago, because i feel you might be unwell, and i am invested in your personal wellbeing." "thank you, i am unwell because the incident was hurtful to me due to my childhood, which was bad." I CANT!!!!

do you know how many people are mad that authors use "growled" as a word for "said"? it's just poetics! they do not literally mean "growled," it's just a common replacement for "said with force but in a low tone." it's normal! do you hear me!! help me i love you please let me out of here!!!

[etherealspacejelly]

sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

[lo-fag]

idk man. i just think itd be really cool if sign language classes were mandatory throughout primary school. yeah because it would make communication with deaf kids and autistic/nonverbal kids much easier. and those kids would be accessible to the others so they could make friends and have healthy relationships. yeah. and kids would eat that shit up man. like their own little secret language? they love that.

[anxiousfurr]

This is a big. Fucking. Mood.

It is ok if you can't do something that others can.

It is ok to cry.

It is ok to not be normal.

Just be you. That's enough.

an experience

[vv-littorio]

everytime someone calls me autistic an angel loses its wings