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Will the Addison/spamton posts ever come back?
Yeah I am gesturing vaguely
To be fair the first like arch was completed with the last chapter and I know more is gonna happen and like be going on so I’m like in no hurry. Since I’m gonna devote major time to it when it does eventually happen. Though I know it’s a little upsetting for yall.
Maybe I’ll listen to my voice claims for them and look through notes to get back into UTDR faster but ive been in this weird slump due to work and school.
#this is funny cause I just imagined a sad amv for Spam and Banner#sometime I wish I had help or a co writer but it’s like my au alone and I’m like#a control freak on projects like this#cause I think of them constantly#also my dad got diagnosed with cancer around the same time I dropped off UTDR stuff so it’s like#I needed something way diff to not be concerned he’s fine now cancer free and I’m on break so maybe this will be a good reset#I got really into cotl but I am not a lamb narinder shipper#so you’ll probs see that and me mentioning the bendy rewrite#it’s also why I keep asks open cause sometimes o forget this blog exists cause well#I am mainly on tumblr to interact with my fandoms but no one talks so it’s like#I guess I’ll be a real person#ask#anon#utdr
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‘When’s the White Haired Anime Boy Going to Appear?’
For awhile, I often wondered about the phenomena of ‘When is the white-haired anime boy going to appear?’ posts during the heyday of Eva content on tumblr (2013-14). If you were around the Eva fandom on tumblr, or new to the show around that time like I was, you were probably bewildered too. It’s part of what got me into the show other than the character struggles and interesting worldbuilding.
Sure, you could chalk it up to people wanting to see more of Kaworu’s cute, but awkward mannerisms coupled with cryptic, though nonthreatening words. The bath scene of episode 24 is heavily quotable. There was also the influx of ‘headless’ memes (see: Pop Goes My Heart!).
But Eva was watched during many people’s adolescent years. High and low years. Critical years.
Evangelion itself is no stranger to struggles in formative years.
(talks about abuse under the cut)
I’ve always read Shinji as an audience surrogate because of how he’s at the center of these issues. Many of us have a Gendo: We hate them, yet we seek their validation, because unfortunately, they’re all we have. And yet they’re so emotionally cold and self-serving.
Much of the series sees Shinji in less than optimal environments. His father is cold and distant. While Misato takes him in, she also makes him (and Asuka) fight angels due to her issues with her own father. Shinji and Asuka’s relationship within the household isn’t the greatest, either. They’re both emotionally damaged kids who can’t really properly sort through the baggage due to their environment. They’re mainly shouldering the burden of adult issues during their early teen years.
They’re face to face with the open horrors of war.
Kaworu comes in toward the tail end of the series. He asks nothing of Shinji but the narrative hardly portrays him as the sudden, immaculate savior. They get to know each other, and due to his deep traumas, Shinji is of course wary because being open means getting hurt again. So he puts his guard up. The more they interact, the more they both get to know each other.
‘Why am I telling all this to Kaworu?’
This is less of a wariness of who Kaworu is and more of Shinji realizing he spilled part of his heart about his strained relationship with his father. Shinji realizes that he feels open, but not vulnerable. Kaworu feels the same way, replying to Shinji’s answers with ‘I think I may have been born to meet you, Shinji-kun.’
I sound like a broken record saying this but, Kaworu isn’t just his own person. He represents an ideal. This is a point I’m totally partisan to. That tinges of kindness can and do exist, even when one’s world is hell.
On that end, I believe that, at least in the original series, that Hikari is Asuka’s Kaworu. Asuka’s guarded persona manifests as being proud and somewhat brash, but it’s a product of neglect. This worsens when she comes to understand in her environment that her accomplishments mean next to nothing. That she’s replaceable.
The adults in Eva, even the adults of the adults get away with murder and seeing that as a victim of abuse drives a visceral rage I haven’t felt in years. And I’m sure this ire, this rising embitterment stirs in you too, if you ever lived in such an environment.
A lot of us were forced to wade through toxic environments for years while growing up. Had our share of bad relationships that still leave marks to this day. A lot of us are victims chasing the closure that will sadly, never come because many of the people who hurt you walk away when they have much to answer for. Even if they do answer, is there any guarantee that they’ll be genuine?
When Shinji is with Kaworu and when Asuka is around Hikari they’re far less guarded. For the latter, we see a side of Asuka not seen before: one that’s tender. One that doesn’t feel burdened and otherwise ignored.
And that too, could describe that someone in our lives. The world doesn’t feel as daunting. You realize your worth and that you can be yourself when you’re around them. The barriers come down slowly and you stop saying sorry. You don’t feel as if they’re demanding that that happens. It simply just. Does. The people you hate or ignore your grievances seem insignificant in your life, even if for a moment.
When we ask ‘When’s the white haired anime boy going to appear?’ what we actually mean is ‘When is our support system going to appear?’
I know that one day you will find your Kaworu. You deserve better than an apology. You deserve peace.
#neon genesis evangelion#kawoshin#kaworu#shinji#shinkawo#abuse mention#correct me if i'm wrong#happy shinkawo day
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✩•̩̩͙˚𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍˚•̩̩͙✩
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Hiya :p My name is-- Saturn//Jayde They/Them I'm non-binary =] ALSO I'M QUITE GAY 🩷💛💙
I YAP ALOT, I LOVE TALKING AND I'M A SUPER HUGE NERD -- I love Ryan Ross, The entirety of My Chem, Resident Evil Two, SO SO SO MUCH MORE I CAN'T KEEP TRACK OF IT. IF YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT I'M INTO JUST STALK MY BLOG XD PLEASE SEND ASKS AND INTERACT WITH ME, I LOVE INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE WHO LIKE THE SAME THINGS AS ME AND WHO ARE COOL!! I LOVE INTERACTING AND MAKING FRIENDS IN THE FANDOMS I'M IN --- On that note...
I AM IN ALOT OF FANDOMS TOO MANY TO RECALL
SOME THOUGH, ARE:
(TOP FIVE ONLY CAUSE WE'LL BE HERE FOREVER)
BANDS: ✩ My Chemical Romance ✩ Panic! At The Disco ✩ Fall Out Boy ✩ Peirce The Veil ✩ Periphery
VIDEO GAMES ✩ Resident Evil (all) ✩ Silent Hill (2 & 3) ✩ Life is Strange (BTS & 1) ✩ Red Dead Redemtion (1 & 2) ✩ Detroit Become Human
MISC. (Mostly shows//Movies) ✩ Creepypasta ✩ I am Not Okay With This ✩ The Goldfinch ✩ Shameless ✩ Quackity (On the VERY rare ocasion)
I do alot of things -- I'm all over the internet.
LINKTREE!!!
-- I Write --- I Edit --- I Do Art --
WRITING
Writing is a big thing for me, it always has been-- I've always had the urge to be creative or get my thoughts out and well that's what I do.
I write alot of things I write:
FANFICTION -- (Yikes...)
FANDOMS I WRITE FOR:
(This list will be updated as I go)
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Resident Evil:
Leon Kennedy
Carlos Olivera
Ada Wong
Claire Redfield
Jill Valentine
Detroit Become Human:
Connor RK800
Gavin Reed
Life is Strange:
Chloe Price
Nathan Prescott
Max Caulfield
Bands (More to come)
Ryan Ross (P!ATD and The Young Veins)
Vic Fuentes (Peirce The Veil)
Kellin Quinn (Sleeping With Sirens)
Mikey Way (My Chemical Romance)
Frank Iero (My Chemical Romance)
Pete Wentz (Fall Out Boy)
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!!NOTES!!
I Mainly write X reader but I can dabble into pairings as long as they’re legal, not creepy, make sense, etc.
MASTERLIST AT THE BOTTOM
!!ALSO I AM A MINOR I DO NOT WRITE SMUT!! (I will write very close, it can get spicy but I stop it at a certain point)
ALL OF MY FANFICTION GETS PREMOTED ON THIS BLOG AND POSTED ON MY:
A03
https://archiveofourown.org/users/SATURNPLAZA/pseuds/SATURNPLAZA
I ALSO WRITE ON LIVEJOURNAL !!!
If you are more intrested in more intamite writing, or blogging this is where you'd want to be--
https://saturnplaza.livejournal.com/
SOCIAL MEDIAS
TikTok -- https://www.tiktok.com/@saturnplaza :
I EDIT WOOO WHOOO. I have always loved editing and I am pretty good at it (I may just be biased cause its myself) --- I edit alot of random things I'm into --- Fair warning my upload times do very --- But I am very active with moots and fandoms ---
Tumblr -- You don't need a link we're on my blog: AH YES, my infamous blog where I yap about the most random shit cause I am the queen of yapper town. I am very active and intarct alot with people.
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!!ALSO I'M LITTERALLY RED ROOT GERARD WAY!! ------------------------------------------------- MASTER LIST UNDER CUT
MCR:
ALL: TRAUMA BRINGS LOVE AMONG OTHER THING CHAPTER ONE CHAPTER TWO
P!ATD:
RYAN ROSS: MY KIND OF SABOTAGE IT MAY BE WRONG BUT IT FEELS RIGHT
#my chemical romance#mcr#frank iero#gerard way#mikey way#ryan ross#panic! at the disco#fanfiction#ray toro#detroit become human#resident evil#leon kennedy#ada wong#peirce the veil#periphery band#saturnplaza talking about random shit as always#saturn rambles#saturn does not shut up#i dont have enough room for tags#grrrr#life is strange#life on the murder scene#hesitant alein#im into alot#saturnplaza is red root gee#intro post#introduction#digital artist#crossover fanfiction#a03 writer
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A reflection...
I knew BnHA in 2016. The first season was finished and the second season was expected. I was in the University and still working for my degree. Mi personal life and the world in general was so much different...
There was no sign of a pandemic coming, Tumblr was still not undergoing a content purge, and the anime community was much less widespread than today. Then i walked trough the fandom path, to put it more simply, as an observer rather than an active participant.
And just by watching, one learns many things.
In particular, I want to refer to the expectations with which we all approach a series, a story. And also how these change over the years, how they are built on the emotions that certain parts of the plot provoke in us.
First off all, I want to cover expectations for the bnha plot in general.
I've seen various parts of the fandom enjoy BnHA from different points, because it's those parts that resonate with them the most. Some from Izuku's mentor-protege relationship with All Might, others from the focus of pure and simple Heroism, some from the tragedy that is the villains' past and others from the trauma and abuse represented by the Todoroki.
We have all done it from a valid point of view and, naturally, we all build expectations.
Some lucky ones are lucky enough that what they expected to happen happens in the end (and I am happy for you from my own experience), but when those expectations are not met by the original material, it hurts a lot. More than one of us may have seen it happen again and again, experienced it firsthand.
Because at the end of the day, it doesn't matter which part of the story we are most engaged in, we all reach, in some way, a point where our expectations are either not met (if we are unlucky) or forgotten or not allowed (if we consider it a representative injustice). But in the end what counts is that as fans we all experience this phenomenon at the same time (to a lesser or greater extent) and in its own way it is a type of social bond that is not forgotten.
(And I'm not saying that it's something merely negative or positive, it can be both at the same time AND it's just a fact, something that is happening to all of us who follow BnHA no matter how long we have been in the fandom)
So, now that the end is approaching and I am faced with different opinions about it, it is like living in a loop of collective emotional repetitions and it is such an incredible phenomenon that in itself, it makes me want to share my thoughts when I didn't before.
Which brings me to the other point I wanted to talk about: shipping expectations and Bakudeku
At that time (2015 onwards) the concept of "queerbaiting" was quite popular, while at the same time, so was the idea that your queer ship could become canon. In fact, it was strong enough to cross the borders of fandom.
But even with this in the mainstream, we BakuDeku seemed to remain on our side of the fandom, always in defense mode. The most vocal on social media represented a group of followers who didn't care how toxic the mere idea of this Ship was to others. The only thing that we cared about was that we liked their interactions, the intensity and the paradoxes between Kacchan and Deku.
In 2016 it was not popular to be a BakuDeku, much less accepted by the general public. And even among fans of the characters, being a specific DekuBaku was a rarity.
And so time went by.
As you can see and in hindsight, expectations for the Ship were very low from my perspective. What we expected from the story was so little that the minimal interactions between Izuku and Kacchan seemed to be assimilated quite carefully and mainly in spaces dedicated only to the ship.
Furthermore, the sparking discussion about whether "bakudekus were apologists for abusers" attracted so many antis and haters that the whole thing became horrible. At one point, blocking them was no longer enough to be safe from hate. And being part of the fandom required so much energy that even I, who was just a shadow who liked or reblogged content in the fandom, needed to control my exposure time to social media.
And what happened next, to reach the expectations that the fandom has now?
The pandemic of 2020 and Bakugo Katsuki: Rising.
That chapter, added to the new influx of fans brought by the pandemic and its quarantines, diverted the path that we believed was set for Kacchan and Izuku as a group. Suddenly, many things that we thought only belonged to the realm of fanfic became accessible through canon.
To begin with, no one imagined that kind of sacrifice on Kacchan's part in the manga. Nobody believed the hospital scene was possible, nor that it was possible for him to ask Izuku for forgiveness or to cry for the loss of his quirk (and what that meant for both of their lives).
How could expectations not rise in the collective because of this, both old and new fans? How to avoid it for those of us who live through its darkest times as fans? How to control the hope of those who feel vindicated by the narrative?
In the end, the nature of expectations is fluctuating over time, unpredictable if we do not pay attention to them, and I am not here to tell anyone, not even myself, that having high expectations about something is bad. Or that having hope about something that helps you be happy is dangerous in the long term. Even if my past in other fandoms resulted in a painful and impossible to forget ending, I can't do that.
No one has the right to comment on the emotions of others and how they live them, how they express them. However, after eight years here, I have learned to use caution as a weapon of battle.
And how I do it? Taking a step back and looking at the bigger picture.
It's been a long road for all of us who were here from the beginning. We had ups and downs and we will continue to have them without a doubt.
Personally, I hold my expectations with a comfortable, soft and practical harness, to bring them closer, caress them from time to time and let them be. But at other times, I hold them tight so they don't get out of control.
The final idea of this, and what I have learned over time, is that you should not assert yourself at any extreme. Mental, emotional and physical health is in balance, it has been proven many times.
I have hope, but I glimpse it in moderation and if we are lucky and our expectations are fulfilled, I will celebrate with joy. But if in the end these are not fulfilled, I will remember the good as well as the disappointment, although without pressure. After all, everything returns to a better place in its own time.
#i hope this makes sense#the secret is in the balance#i just wanted to vent again#my past as sasu//naru is coming back to haunt me these days#I'm not going to make the same mistakes this time so I'll talk#bakudeku#bkdk#midoriya izuku#dekubaku#bakugou katsuki#mha katsuki
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Ello! I’m Charlie (#1 Chief fan and #2 Ann fan) buuut I like to be called Orion, Charlizard, Lizzavich, Charlisaurus, or Charlin!
🇷🇺🇨🇿🇺🇸🇸🇰 (born and raised to drink vodka and dance with bears 💪💪)
any pronouns (preferably he/him)
Cracklin, Chief, Mr. R, Sketchpad, Airy, Gerbo, Thomas Flyswatter, Exclamation Mark, Doorstopper, Clock, Fridge DJ, WWF Tile, Printer, Season17, Lightbulb, Taco, Bot, Cabby, Fan, Yoshka, Yulka, Zara, Cheppy, Socka, Charmy, Edgar, Fossil, Mushroom, Wagyu, Minty, Razor, and Orange Herald are all of my favorite characters/kins :3 (OUTDATED)
I am Homoflexible, Transgender, Agender, and Greysexual ^u^
Alterhuman therian and fictionkin, my theriotypes are black wolf, snow husky, and a T-Rex <33
I’m an artist and a little bit of a violinist (I mainly speak English but I also speak a bit of Russian)
I am a MINOR!!! I am ok if adults (NOT THE FUCKING SEX BOTS) interact with my blog or me in general just don’t be creepy or kinky about it please.. (read dni list for specifics)
My blog is not meant for younger audiences, therefore I am telling you all that this is a 13+ BLOG. mainly because I’ll post art with mildly suggestive themes in it or reblog something weird.. whatever it may be, I just want to protect the little itty bitty babies that happen to stumble upon this beautiful yet horrifying tumblr blog .-.
currently locked in @thesillygoober7’s basement
old acc is @charlibugg T_T
Here’s most of the stuff I like ! Purple = ION💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚
Blue = VERY VEEERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VEEERRYRYYY HYPERFIXATED
Green = LOVE ITTT
Orange = Cool cool I like it
Red = Eh… I mean it’s fine.. II/III, I.O.N/И.О.Н, TNM, TPOT, EEE/THREEEE, BURNER, 5SOS, ONE, CFMOT/ИНМТ, Objectified, TDOS, LoTS, Animatic Battle, Bugbo, Dreamophrenia, Sprunki, Max Design Pro, Warrior Cats, Smiling Friends, ATHF, Gravity Falls, Villainous, Countryhumans, DHMIS, Electric Dreams (1984), Ride the Cyclone, JSAB/Pink Corruption, Regretevator, Mouthwashing, Homestuck
besides fandoms I hyperfixate on time to time… I also LOVE nuclear reactors, dinosaurs, cats, epic guitar solos in music, whatever the hell plutonium jazz is, and I just genuinely love learning ANYTHING about nuclear physics and energy :3 (oh and lollipops, I love lollipops)
Some games I really like (not Roblox games) are In Stars and Time, Fallout 4/Fallout: New Vegas (IM SORRY FALLOUT 76 IS SO BORING AND BUGGY AAAAA), Omori, Sims 2-4, Tomodachi Life, Miitopia, Cardpocalypse, Wobbledogs, Pikuniku, Ooblets, Splatoon 2-3, Dragon Quest: Builders 1-2, Minecraft, Wandersong, JSAB, and AC:NH :3
and most of the bands/artists I listen to (current hyperfix band will be written in bold) are MSI, sElf, WW/WWATT, The Scary Jokes, Sodikken, MOTHH, Lemon Demon, Tally Hall, Bondage Fairies, And One, STOMACH BOOK, Ken Ashcorp, KSB Muzic, LiteralHat, YFM, Limp Bizkit, Insane Clown Posse, Gorillaz, System Of A Down, Foo Fighters, Dream Puzzles, That Handsome Devil, Sacri, They Might Be Giants, Oingo Boingo, Weird Al, Jhariah, Lenin Was A Zombie, and Drive45!
I have Autism, ADHD, (I have some sort of Anxiety disorder too, forgot what it was called though) and Depression.. so sorry if I don’t talk/respond to asks or dms quick enough or I don’t answer them properly… I’m a very shy person. So please text me first if you want to dm me, if you’re a mutual I’d love to talk to you! ^_^
ask box will close down sometimes, it is not a mistake usually, I just don’t feel like taking asks (or I’m being swarmed by donation asks and I feel overwhelmed) :3
DNI - uhhhh this (carrd not mine) ..also I will check your account once you follow me usually to see if you aren’t a weirdo, I block who I choose to block
Places I inhabit:
YouTube: Charlizardsb - CharlieSB
Spotify: Lenin’s bf
Pinterest: LIZARDWAZAZOMBIE - charred corpse
Instagram: Charlizardsb
Wattpad: spagheetee
Discord: (please DM me if you want my username)
TikTok: lizzardz.0n.steroidz
(Created: 1/15/24)
(Last updated: 10/13/24)
I reblog WAYY too much posts so if you’re willing to find my art search #bugs goof art
#Charlizard’s rabble ransoms - for random posts that are just filler or me going on a whole rant (will also be tagged for long posts too sometimes)
#enjoy your stay#you’ll have to wait a long while until I actually post cool art or something if you wanna find me anywhere#charlizard’s rabble ransoms#introduction#intro post#blog intro#introductory post#pinned intro#pinned post#pinned info#read pinned#intro
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MESSAGE FOR MY MOOTS
Greetings to you all. I know this message comes out of the blue (and especially from me, the most active member here on Tumblr), but I have a few things to say.
When I first joined Tumblr, I intended to be a lurker, enjoying my favourite fandoms without interacting with anyone, mainly because I'm shy and rarely start a conversation. Everything changed when I joined the few fandoms I'm most active in. I was so happy to have finally found a friendly place to hang out and bond with most of my moots (most of whom have become my real-life friends), and I finally had the opportunity to share my thoughts without being judged.
But the recent dramas involving several fandoms I'm in, plus my mental health, which has had several ups and downs, have severely undermined my creativity. I still struggle to write, I have the inspiration but not the strength to write, and I feel like I'm losing my motivation to create and be an active part of the fandom. And the joy of being here is lost for now.
I have been thinking about this message for a few months now, but I have always put it off, thinking it could all go away. But today I have reached my breaking point.
I know this will come as a surprise to some of you, but I just want to let you know that I am taking a hiatus from this blog from now on. I just need to get away from this app and find the joy of creating things again. I'll mainly be posting things on my fic blog, but it's pretty inactive at the moment as I have nothing to post (let's not open the parenthesis of the unbalanced ratio of like - reblogs/comments. I mainly write for myself and for my friends, it's my creativity that has been killed).
To all the moots who have tagged me in their writing or I have reblogged their work with the "to read later" tag: I'm really sorry. I really tried to read them, but I just… I don't have the will or the motivation to read anything. I promise I'll read all your work again in the future.
Sorry also for the ones that still have their asks in my inbox. I'm not avoiding you, I've just limitated my interactions for my own mental health, but it didn't work.
This does not mean you cannot reach me or stop talking to me: you all have my Discord, Instagram and Tumblr account, leave me a message whenever you want and I would be happy to answer it.
I don't know when I'll be back, in case I wish you all happiness and joy.
See you soon.
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Intro!
@tazmaboxed
I acknowledge the Traditional Owners and Custodians of this country. In particular, I acknowledge the Indigenous Elders of the Wurundjeri people, part of the Kulin nation, where I live and learn and pay my respects to their Indigenous Elders past, present and emerging. Sovereignty has never been ceded. It always was and always will be, Aboriginal land. [credits to @elliewasaghost for the template]
dni: general dni criteria, MAPs, paraphiles [not people with paraphilic disorder], nazis, Radqueers, Radfems, porn bots. if you piss me off, i will block you
FUCK JKR. TERFS, SWERFS AND FARTS CAN GO DIE
THIS USER HAS INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, PLEASE BE MINDFUL
I do not support Neil Gaiman, Always support the victims.
JOIN THIS: GAY DISCORD
IT'S GAY
I do vent posts a lot. If i'm actually in crisis it will be either untagged or tagged with #crisis. if not, please disregard because im just dealing with shit.
I will make moodboards on request SEND ASKS
WILL ALSO GIVE ADVICE
I edit wikipedia and fandom pages, lemme know if there's something wrong on a page and i'll take a look!
I run a tumblr community about special intrests and hyperfixations. If you want to join, DM me or send an ask!
HALLOWEEN SECRET SKETELONS: Asks sent The theme on my website/tumblr page is not mine, I customized it. the credits are on the website.
art blog: @theo-th3-trans-art-b01
emergency ray toro bc i am mentaly silliy
reasons not to kill yourself: Link :3
RIP @venomvolts-deactivated20240803 I hope you re-join tumblr someday, you will be remembered
@xxx-ang3l-w1th-a-sh0tgun-xxx
I realised I haven't done one of these so: Name: Theo
Nicknames: Thexie, Thex, Bean
Attraction shit: Bi oriented Aro/Ace.
I don't feel like a human, i feel like a silver fox w antlers. If u don't fw that, DNI
Pronouns: He, It, Rot, Vamp, [Ask as my prefernce changes daily, full list of prns on my pronouns page, go to the bottom of the post] Gender: Rounded version for cis people. Boyflux transmasc, which means my gender fluctuates on the slidy scale between agender and boy. Actual full decimaled gender: galaxforieliminalfluxboy. made by me!
Demi-verbal and silly :3
Tags i use:
#me and my posts, theo posting, beans posts : my own posts
#my starry angel: interacting w my best friend @a-perfect-imitation
#bean answers an ask: asks
#i can feel a ghostly prescence: interacting w @elliewasaghost [not used much but holy shit it's a great tag name]
#the lurker's here: @touch-starved-lurker
#beans come to visit: @lots-of-lesbeans-2
#cheeky fucker: @cheekyboybeth
#my chappel town and chemical cave: music tag, mainly my own lyrics, poems, talking about my instruments and occasional songs/covers.
#bean's brain: anything about the stuff listed in my TW area.
#theo spoils: used if a thing im ranting abt has not been widly seen yet, for example, a new season of a tv show.
anything to do with bean/theo: read the other bit of the tag
Triggers: Human balls, anything to do w gen alpha lingo, jokes about rape, talking about sexual assault. General: I am Irish-Australian and I fence. I have a dog and two cats! I am fine for people to send asks or dm me! I do swear a lot but I don't post nsfw. I do sometimes reblog nsfw, nothing too severe. I AM a minor so please be mindful. . I love it when people send me asks! You can also dm me. I will give out my discord on request. I am polyamorous
Diagnosed: ADHD, Anxiety [all 3 types], Asthma, Autism, Chronic fatigue, chronic pain, Deppression, Hypermobility, Hypermobile Ehlers Dahnlos Syndrome, Long covid, POTS, Scoliosis, Strabismus, Vision impaired
Probable I have it but not diagnosed yet : Arthiritis, BPD, Dyspraxia Special interests: Heartstopper, MCR, Art, Autism, general knowledge.
Current Hyperfocus: gravity falls, painting and genders
Fandoms: Dead Boy detectives, Helluva Boss, Hazbin Hotel, The Osemanverse, dead end paranormal park, Nimona, stardew valley, MCR, witherburn afterschool news, GRAVITY FALLS
Interests: Trivia
Likes: Cryptids, Books, My laptop, My friends, Watercolours, Drawing, Eating raw onions, Art, Mushrooms
Dislikes: Jam and butter together, Nausea, bad textures, the popular girls
Music i like: Bears in trees, Cavetown, chappel roan, Evanescence fall out boy, girlinred, Mcafferty, MCR, MotherMother, Penelope Scott, Ricky Jamaraz [i'm gay, what do you expect].
My spotify playlist: Trans Tism songs :3 by Theo The Mothman. Trivia: I play clarinet, guitar and the drums and I have a pair of mechanical wings I use for cosplay
Trigger warnings for things i might post: self harm, mental illness, suicide, family stuff [my mum's abusive], unreality [weirdcore and dissociation],
Mobility Aids I have: cane, crutches, wrist splints, back brace, wheelchair
Meds I take: ADHD meds, Salt Tablets, Melotonin
@frogofalltime is my dad :D
USERBOXES AND LINKS DOWN BELOW \/
credits going left to right, from top left!
@xxx-ang3l-w1th-a-sh0tgun-xxx, @system-box
@lgbtq-userboxes, @lgbtq-userboxes,
@sweetpeauserboxes, @burntoutuserboxes
@burntoutuserboxes, @xxx-ang3l-w1th-a-sh0tgun-xxx,
@esotericalqueer, @esotericalqueer
@xxx-ang3l-w1th-a-sh0tgun-xxx, @cardboard-userboxes
@arcanecollective, @decemberblue
@another-userbox-blog, @sweetpeauserboxes,
@puppyuserboxes, @xxx-ang3l-w1th-a-sh0tgun-xxx
@alterhuman-userboxes, @whats-a-human
@xxx-ang3l-w1th-a-sh0tgun-xxx, @burntoutuserboxes
@mogaispiderpunk, @blood-moon-night-coining
@totallypumpkin, @frogsforthefrogwar
LINKS \/
pronouns page
posts I wanna keep
last relapse: 4/11/24
haha idk if i'm gonna make it to graduation
tw for that btw
#cryptid#trans#about me#fencing#intro post#mcr#theo posting#beans posts#me and my posts#days clean#tumblr#disabled#lqbtq#queer#queer intro post#therian#alterhuman#silver fox#fox therian#vulpes vulpes#blue fox#black fox#my chappel town and chemical cave#galaxforieliminalfluxboy
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Introduction 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊
Hello' I am Tobias or Toby, he/him you can call me ether one I don't mind. I am very talkative person, so if you'd like to just ramble to me about stuff that you like/interested in I'm always hear to listen, or if you just want someone to speak with. I try to be active on here, but you can also contact me on the other socials that will be listed below of course. I really like car seat headrest just a warning
Fandoms 𓆨
Some fandoms that I am in are
- Marble hornets
- everymanhybrid
- darkharvest00
- smiling friends
- rick and morty
- superjail
- Car seat headrest
- creepypasta
- Moral orel
- homestuck
- clone high
- bojack horsemen
Etc
Other interests 𓆑
Some other interests that I have consist of
Drawing
Bugs
Writing
Urban exploring
Filming
Horror
Rp
Adult cartoons
MUSIC 𓆦
I listen to alot of indie rock, my favorite band is car seat headrest, it's one of my biggest hyperfixations at this moment. I am very car seat headrest coded. I also listen to alot of local metal, and punk bands that play around where I live, I go to alot of concerts and am very much involved in the punk scene and am punk myself as someone who listens to the music and follows punk Ideology.
Socials 𓆣
Discord: maggotfagg0t
I do have other socials such as Instagram and snapchat, but will not be listing them here due to privacy reasons, but If you'd like to reach out and ask for my insta or snap I'd probably give it to you. Just don't wanna list it here for the whole of Tumblr here.
DNI 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟
just a basic dni, I won't not talk to you if you are in any certain fandoms since I know that alot of fandoms are toxic but that doesn't make it so all of the people in it are bad and I find it a little dumb when people say DNI if you like a certain Fandom, unless it's something where the source itself is problematic that I understand that. So almost anyone is welcome on my page.
unless of course you are a pro contact ped0, z00, or anything or that nature. Then you aren't welcome here, and if you are someone who shames people for their, gender identity, race, abilities, etc then DNI. I do not hate people who suffer from paraphilles if you are actively working on getting help, + have never hurt anyone nonconsently then you can interact,
What am I? 𓆈
I am a male, I go by he/it
@ssunsear I love you no homo i guess 😔
So yeah I'm pretty friendly and will just mainly just ramble about stuff on this app so talk to me if you like I'm really just here to meet cool new people :D
#creepypasta#creepypasta fandom#marble hornets#slenderverse#everymanhybrid#mh hoody#evan emh#habit emh#ticci toby#mh#moral orel#bojack horseman#clone high#horror#hellvua boss#analog horror
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Hiii Everyone!!!
I've been around for years now and have never introduced myself. mainly cause I just choose to vibe and enjoy the posts people share, but first time for everything. You can just call me Key, I'm 24 and I go by she/her. I enjoy a variety of stuff from manwha, manga, anime, video game franchises, and just a bunch of other animated media you name its probably buried down in my blog somewhere. Every now and then I get motivation to create fanfiction. I have only written works the Dragonball and Super Mario fandom All my works are under the "Keep Reading". My DMs and askbox here is always open if you ever want to chat I apologize in advance if I come across as a bit awkward (socializing is not a strong suit of mine) or if it takes me a minute to reply (adulting and hobbies am I right?), otherwise I'm a pretty chill person. Thats about it!
One of these days I really want to change my Penname...But I've had it for years now and I'm way too attached to it lmao.
Super Mario Fics: So a lot of these are Princess Peach centric and I'm just crafting up an origin story and some other events following the 2023 film. The links take you to the tumblr post but I have included the AO3 and FFN (for reading preferences) links either in the original post itself or in the case of my earlier stuff in the reblogs.
Lost And Found
A Learning Opportunity (2 chapters on both AO3 and FFN. They are both on the same post here)
Thoughts Over Tea
Aftermath
Finding The Balance
Little Events (Finished)
Chapter 1: The Dark
Chapter 2: A Decision
Chapter 3: The Coronation
Chapter 4: Proposals
Chapter 5: Changes
Fics Inspired by others:
Villainess Peach and Bowser Jr. (Inspired by the Player One Luigi AU created by Tiny-Prom and Casual-Derg). Please make sure to their blog's and check it out.
Dragonball Fics: The first fandom I have ever written for (and by penname you could probably tell what I read mostly) I have only shared them on FFN and AO3 until now. I was just starting to write fanfiction with the first two so they might be kinda cringe I guess but that's 16 year old me for you haha. gonna embrace the cringe by sharing it on here anyways.
Tournament Day
The Prince Before The Day ( I am never gonna finish that one or go back to it lol)
Bulla's Easter Day
Even when I started making fics I'm still not sure what goes through my mind when it comes to the title or chapter titles its literally the first thing that comes to mind and nothing after that but we will get it one day for sure.
Here's Some WIPs (that's both written and not) you guys can look forward too from me. I'll remove them and add them under the appropriate fic tags once I post them:
Uncle Yamcha fic: It is currently three chapters. The first one is him and Trunks, second is Marron, and the third one is Bra/Bulla. I really want to think of one for him and Goten but nothing has come to my mind. I just think he's more close to Krillin and Bulma where he'd interact more with their kids and I can't think of a scenario for him and Goten or what they would even talk about but maybe something will come. (I've currently sent this off to my Beta for review but lemme know if you guys want to see the un-beta'd version I have on here cause I'm really forward to sharing it)
Untitled EOZ fic following after Goku leaves the Tournament grounds to train Uub. This one sits at about 8k words (not sure exactly cause I added a bunch of notes at the end for my beta to see where my thoughts were going with it all) anyways this one focuses mainly on Trunks, Goten, Marron, Pan, and Bra as really the older kids look forward to what may lie ahead. A lot of it is just me focusing on the dynamics they have with each other. When I saw that dlc for kakorat was going to be focused on that one that really makes me want to share this one. Again let me know if you want to see that.
Based on this Ask here you can already see that I've completed 4 out of my 5 ideas so that leaves the other ones and maybe more if I think of anything else. All of these will probably be added to my Little Events fic. a few little ideas not shared here but I've thought about and have some dialoge in mind but haven't fully created yet.
I want to do something where Mario and Haru interact I just think it'll be so neat.
Maybe something where I do my take on introducing Sarasland and Princess Daisy. Probably along the lines of Peach meeting Daisy for the first time.
I need to hop on the wholesome bros. content at some point and I know I wanna try my hand with Mia and Pio as a part of it.
I think thats it for now...I'll probably add more if I think of something as having somwhere to put it down no matter how small it is can be nice to look at and push me towards getting it done.
#Key Posting#Super Mario#Dragon ball#My official little hello to both the Mario and Dragonball community the people I've met by having these interests have been so amazing#Even though I mostly lurk I love everything about it all can do without some of the negative stuff but we move#anyway I'll see you all around in the tags as usual
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BLOG Q&A
Is this blog just for SMG4 content?
Yes! This blog is just for SMG4 content! None of my other work will be on this blog, nor will any non SMG4 related reblogs be on here, this is my gay little SMG4 corner of the internet! I may sometimes talk about other things on here, such as other interests and crossovers and stuff like that, but the main focus of this blog is SMG4! I may also sometimes post about Mario in general (as I am just a big fan of Mario) but it’ll always be in an SMG4 context.
Is your blog SFW?
Yes! My blog is SFW! I try to keep my blog as 13+ as possible as I know there’s a lot of teens in this fandom and the last thing I want is for anyone to get uncomfortable with my blog. I may occasionally make jokes or references to more mature content, however I will tag these things as “Suggestive” if needed, please be sure to filter this tag if you’re not comfortable with seeing them. I will never explicitly post anything NSFW on this blog, I am just a 25 year old who still thinks sex jokes are funny.
With that in mind, I do not censor myself, I don't put symbols in words or use words that sound like what I'm saying, you don't need to do that on Tumblr and it can actually be harmful to people who do need those words filtered! I will say cunt, I will say sex, I will say porn, I won't censor myself to try and get around someone's filters at all, so please keep that in mind also.
Why do you take so long to respond to asks/messages/posts?
ADHD. I got no better answer for this, it’s all to do with energy for me and wherever my motivation is! I like to space things out on my blog whenever possible so that can sometimes lead me to have things sit around for a while with no response. I also like to respond with art wherever possible so that also can take a while. I can assure you if I am active and posting, I have seen your ask/message/post, please be patient with me when it comes to responding!
Why have you not responded to my ask/message/post?
Oh this is easy, it’s because of one of 2 things:
ADHD, again. I’m just taking my sweet ass time with responding! As mentioned before I sometimes respond with art (mainly for suggestions) so that can sometimes take me a while to get around to!
I don’t know how to respond, I do try my best but sometimes I have nothing good to respond with, so I just don’t! I’m not a very social person either and I kinda suck at having conversations so there’s that to consider as well.
I do read/see everything that is sent in to me and I do genuinely appreciate people's interest in me and my work, please do not take it personally if I do not respond to you! You are always welcome to send me more asks/messages/posts even if I have not responded to your previous one, there’s no limit on how much can be sent to me and I love seeing recurring profiles pop up with new stuff for me!
Can people tag you in posts?
Yes you can! I cannot guarantee that I'll respond/reblog every post that I'm tagged in but I do not mind being tagged (as long as its not excessive lol). I'm very hesitant to tag people myself unless I have something for them, so much like before, don't take it personally if I don't respond to posts I'm tagged in, I'm just shyyyyy.
Why do you not follow/message people?
I am on a side blog, this is my side blog, I cannot follow or like from a side blog and I don't want to interact from my main as of right now, I don’t care if people stumble upon it I just don’t want to link it to this blog right now. It’s the same reason why I don’t like people's posts either, trust me I wish I could, but I don’t want to make a whole new Tumblr account. I am perfectly happy running things like this, even if it means I can’t interact as much as I'd like to.
How active are you here?
I check this blog every day at least, and I like to reblog/post as much as I can. As stated I have ADHD so my interests can change around and fluctuate whenever, but I do at least aim to be here once a day. If I ever go quiet for any reason, I can still be contacted easily so don’t worry about sending in anything at any point! I’ll usually say if I’m going away at all but again, ADHD, so if I go on an unscheduled hiatus, it’s just me fixating on something else, don’t be afraid to message or interact with this blog if it goes quiet, the notification will probably bring me back anyway lol.
Are you on any other platforms?
I am not on any other platforms except Tumblr and Twitter!
I am on DA under my main account's name where I sometimes upload my SMG4 pieces there but that is it, I have a YouTube which has nothing on it (I’ve made like one comment from it lol). I will announce here if I'm on a different platform, I am not on discord under this username and I do not willingly give it out to people.
You said something that was not so great/problematic!
Please tell me! It is never my intention to offend or upset anyone so anything of that nature is 100% by mistake, you are welcome and encouraged to reach out to me and tell me if I make a mistake like that, I will not be upset or angry! This includes telling me about people I interact with that go against my DNI, I cannot check everyone I interact with so I appreciate any heads up on that too! I’m unlikely to answer or post about it unless it feels necessary to do so, but I will read and act accordingly to any concerns people have!
You do know DNI banners don’t really work right?
I know, I cannot stop TERF’s, Proshippers, Zionists or any other scumbag from looking at my blog, the most I can do is block anyone who sets off any immediate red flags to me and move on. I do not have the time nor patients to crawl through every single follower of mine to see if they fit my DNI criteria, I will usually ignore most people who give me the ick unless they insist on interacting with me. My DNI is mainly just to state where I personally stand and to let others know I don’t associate with those groups of people.
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Weekly tag Wednesday !!
Thank u for the tags @spookygingerr and @especially-fuk-u !!
Name: dean :D
Age: 18
Your time zone: EST
What do you do for work: I’m in school right now so nothing, but this summer (probably in a couple weeks) I’m working at a pool store and maybe an ice cream shop
Do you have any pets?: yes!! I have a calico cat named Salem, she’s my best friend and so cute I love her so much
What first drew you to the fandom: I kept seeing clips of shameless on TikTok, I finally caved and started watching it over the summer, and I got hooked ever since (averaged a season and a half in a day), lurked around the fandom for a while but then started majorly interacting. I’ve never been normal about anything I’ve ever consumed, this is no exception (autism goes brrrr)
Morning person or night owl?: night owl baby!! Earliest you’ll get me up is 10am, I’ll go to sleep around 3-4 am (I also have insomnia)
What are your hobbies?: any type of art or craft, I paint, sew, draw, bookbind and just random miscellaneous stuff, my last art project was making spikes for my jacket from soda cans. I also read, like, a lot, mainly fanfiction bc special interest, but also I love non fiction (essays, memoirs, political theory) and some fiction (I love love love horror), I’m a major Jack of all trades, just constantly looking for something new to try
How tall are you?: 5’6” baby!
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?: anywhere warm and with a beach, I love summer and I’m built for it, I’ve considered New Orleans a lot for some reason, maybe California but I also hate west coast culture so um there’s that
Favorite color: yellow !! My and my siblings were color coded to prevent fights, and yellow was my color as a kid and it’s just stayed my favorite, and people always unanimously agree yellow is a color that Suits Me, saying i have yellow and sunshine energy, it also just best on me compared to other colors
Favorite book: this is such a hard choice, im going to say the perks of being a wallflower I think, ultimate comfort book really, but I also love to talk and think about Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison
Favorite movie?: it’s a horror movie called the empty man, it’s SO weird and SO fucked up with the most normal and sane horror protagonist
Favorite fic: I could never choose, one I’ve been thinking about A Lot is the origins of girldadism, but I also love meanest hunk of woman and enemy lines I’ll recommend them till the day I die
Favorite musical artist: I love love love Green Day i could talk abt them forever I’m going to see them in concert this summer and I’m SO freaking excited, honorable mentions are Noah kahan and old dominion
What is your average screen time so far this week?: 8 hours and 10 minutes. Higher than I was expecting considering all I’ve been doing is studying
What’s the first app you open in the morning: Spotify! I need music all the time ever, it helps me get going in the morning on weekdays, and on weekends either tumblr, discord, or Instagram depending on who’s texted me
How long have you been on tumblr: I think this summer will be 6 years?
finally (and i know this one is hard) tell me a fun fact about yourself: I’m learning my third language (Ukrainian) and planning a fourth (French, probably in college (I’m so done with Spanish bffr)) I also make my own recycled paper! I think that’s always fun to mention
I’m tagging:
@mickeym4ndy @astaraels @em-harlsnow @mickittotheman @transmickey
@transmurderbug
@atthedugouts @jademickian @liza420
And anyone else who wants to !! Ur welcome to do so !! And no pressure, you can otherwise consider this a friendly hello, fist bump, dap, and/or an “I’m thinking of you”
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I think the worst part is gosthies like to treat bad like a poor baby and the non english speaking parts of the fandom (brazilians, mainly brazilians) like we are fucking dream team stans part 2
Like yeah poor him because he suffered alot of hate in his dsmp days but HOWEVER the narrative that he is being "targeted" in the qsmp fandom is BULLSHIT maybe not in the english speaking part of the fandom but he is not a poor small uwu bean
He has one of the bigest comunity of all qsmp, that just grew bigger in a internacional scale
The non english speaking comunitys are "turning' on him because of 4 things
1. His defence of dream, speaking in a brazilian vision, dream to the general Internet public was just some random streamer that cheated the mob vote in minecraft, the guy that faked a speed run and most important a "pedophile", and that made everybody mad especially because HIS fandom had a whole ass narrative to us talking about "ooh poor bad, nobody respected his basic boundaries, your streamer/fandoms ware the first to respect him" this is mainly why people just think he is probably a prejudiced men, he hangs out with a lot of problematic men só he must be the same
2. Everybody being tired of his micro-agressive jokes, he does this since like pre-elections and since the xenophobia in the fandom kinda "grew", people are kinda lashing out at all his actions and since he is doing with more comunitys besides the brazilians people tend to agree with this
3. His fandom is (from a outsider perspective that never actually interacted with the dsmp fandom at all besides seeing people telling their war stories in the qsmp fandom) identical to dream's fandom or even tommyinnt (by the way you talk about that fandom in your blogposts) but without the doxxing, even here on tumblr his fandom kinda harasses people for no reason, they are SUPER xenophobic and love to mass block any brazilian (tbh most of the qsmp fandom acts like these), he is a poor small bean and everybody is out here to get him, just like most dream stans act
4. He rp's as this very annoying character and since the rose tinted sunglasses broke to most of the fandom and nobody is gonna get draged for showing a negative opinnion of such a good boy and since his writting chops are kinda . . . Laking to say the least, people just want him to stop interacting with their main povs and fuck off (also just personal opinnion, he is like the only qsmp character that i care more about the "fanon" version then the canon)
Also he never, NEVER called out the xenophobia of his fanbase lol, it’s such a big problem that even english speaking fandom ADMITS IT (insane considering how they talk about brazilians lol)
So yeah, i don’t think he is the actual devil from the bible (i have waaaay more negative opinnions about aypierre) but i simplely can’t feel that much simpathy for him since he does not care about anything other then his friendship with dream and he keeps doing a """""queeebaiting"""" with forever since he knows people really like The shipp and he is trying to get brazilians to love him again (brazilians are very profitable as a fanbase and good to any creators ego)
Só yeah (sorry for the venting but i am not sorry for my bad grammar to numa vibe mais mikethelink)
It’s actually insane how little accountability his fandom will take and how they will refuse to acknowledge any shitty things either he or his fandom do.
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negative below the cut. mainly just a stream of consciousness, something I've been dwelling on for a while
let's cut right to the chase: I can't shake the feeling that something in this rpc has changed, and I'm not entirely sure I'm comfortable here right now. it's a whole mess of things, really, and I'm struggling to pin down exactly what is making me feel like this. my more paranoid side wants to dwell on the "oooooo everyone's been talking shit and secretly hates you", but I hope that's just silliness
maybe it's jealousy
maybe it's insecurity
maybe it's just general burnout, being bled dry by work so I don't have the same amount of time or energy to devote to my creative endeavours
maybe it's a bit of all three
no matter how you slice it, I'm just struggling to feel like I belong here and am getting a whole lot of ugly thoughts and feelings I'm not comfortable entertaining. I know people like my leon, and please don't interpret this as a goodbye because there's no way I'd ever abandon him, but I think I need to take an official hiatus or something. work on my mental health. softblock people I don't see my myself interacting with, maybe. I'd thought that remaking would have helped with these feelings, but... unfortunately it hasn't
I've been considering making some more casual, discord one-on-one spaces so I can write without the pressure of appealing to a public audience. a whole server is way too much to handle, but we'll see about the 1:1s
anyway, thanks for reading this far if you did. I'll still be on tumblr, just not in the pokemon fandom right now. I hope to be back on leon sooner rather than later, and will probably be answering/sending out the occasional ask to my beloved long-time mutuals who I have a strong connection (both ic and ooc) with, but longer threads and dash commentaries won't be a thing until I get out from under whatever this dark cloud is
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Happy new year my lovelies! ✨
What shall I say except: This year was a hell of a ride. I went through a lot of changes in my private life and made so many amazing (and some not so amazing) memories. Looking back at this year I‘m mainly extremely thankful.
And with this post I want to thank you! ❤️
Every single person out there that left a nice comment, liked one of my posts or even hit the subscribe button! People who shared their amazing thoughts, ideas, opinions or skills and provided the TSC fandom with unique content! Also a big thank you to my sister for proofreading some of my posts in the middle of the night (Love you lots)!
So as you can see there are a lot of people on this platform I‘m thankful for!
And this is the perfect moment to speak some special thanks to my mutuals, don’t you think?
@mayaheronthorn: My parabatai who‘s just as obsessed with KitTy and Good Omens as I am and who will always be delulu with me no matter the time or the topic (also can we talk about how amazing her posts are?) Ily ❤️
@arcs-01: One of the best KitTy bloggers on Tumblr (thank you for being delulu with me) 🫶🏻
@1indigoisles: Our love-hate relationship is very dear to me and your comments never fail to make me smile (I hope we can interact more in the next year!) ❤️
@kamylla74w: A constant supporter who will always be one of the first people to leave a like or a nice comment (thank you, this means so much to me) <33
@02babyy @tsc-reader: Our newcomers in the TSC fandom! I just love your posts, ideas and creativity! Thank you for sharing this with the fandom and welcome to this little family! 🥰
Thank you all so so much for your endless support and your immense love for this book series! It‘s so special to see how books can connect people and I love this fandom with my whole heart! ❤️
So I wish you all the very best in the next year! May all your wishes come true! ❤️
And may we get many TWP news and many new additions to our little TSC family!
Love you more than words can say🫶🏻
Michi
I wish I could clink glasses with every single one of you
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Happy New Year Everyone💜
(Rambling below)
Tbh: This year has been one word for me. Awful. Too much happened and I’d rather not talk too much about it... x-x
My first half of the year was just dreadful. But the second half of it (around July/August) was a lot better. And I have RainCode to thank for that. After losing a close friend, I was in a pretty depressive funk for quite some time. And what I usually do in these times is escape into my current passions and interests and go wild on it.
And boy did I ever. I had just finished RainCode and was officially obsessed. And I wanted to contribute to it. So at first I made some sprite edits, and a Pokémon crossover. Then as I do for every fandom I have a fixation on, I decided to write my very first sickfic of it. And it received so well that felt a bit more secure in indulging in my hidden guilty pleasure some more.
I made more sprite edits involving Yuma and the more I indulged the more obsessive I became. Soon I was making analysis' on his character and making all sorts of whump headcanons for him. Then I realized I became like most sick whump users on tumblr, and I finally had a fandom and whumpee I could call my own... and the feeling I felt was indescribable. I was so happy. Blissful. (Though it did kinda rot my brain from the inside out. But in a good way? If it makes you happy it's healthy....right? XD)
After some time I interacted a little bit with more of the RC community and honestly?? Its such a fresh new and fun community. And there's a lot more adults in it. My last fixation (demon slayer) had too many minors in it so I felt like I didn't belong or have any right to be in the community at all. But with this one?? I feel right at home. I eventually became known here for making sick related content of the series, even dubbing myself the CEO of a tag I made up myself. Whumpcode.
RainCode even inspired me to start drawing again. Something I sadly gave up on for years. And Its helped me find a style for myself and draw things that make me happy c: (aka sick/fever whump lol)
I found a few very nice people to talk to. (mostly because I'm shy and don't talk too much w others online) And I'm surprised my work even inspired some of the community to make some sick art/fics of their own for raincode. It made me feel such indescribable pride. In a sense I am like the other whump users on tumbr, but at the same time I'm not. (mainly because its not a kink to me) I'm more a member of the raincode community than the whump community. And I'm perfectly fine with that.
I first joined tumblr back in 2014 and after some time, took a 5 year hiatus from it. But upon coming back, I'm so happy to have finally found a fandom I truly feel like I'm a part of. And thank you to everyone that supports and enjoys my work. It makes me so happy that there are those that agree with me and don't see me as a freak despite my odd fixation. But focusing on this has made the second half of my year better. So much better...
So thank you, both RainCode and RainCode tumblr. For making me feel like a part of something. And for making my year end on a positive note c:
have a tiny yuma <3
(part of my big collab wip :3 Coming soon! )
#rain code#pixel txt.#hoping 2024 is better...#I hope you all have a great new years eve! <3#and I hope I can interact w more of you next year!#if I’m still into raincode… xD#my fixations tend to last a while so I think it’ll be fine xD#as for this pic don’t be fooled#he’s gonna be really sick later... 😈
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i think its about time i did one.. so.. [pinned]
— 𓄷 as you know, i go by es, he / they + 16. trans demi-boy! this is a milgram only (main)blog. UTC +8:00. i take doodles and writing requests, and random stuff, request rules will be added when made! ꒱
៹ ៸៸ basic — a really big es lover, i write and i also do art here while the rest of my posts are usually random rambles. i usually prefer people reaching out first than i do.
* if you want to be moots, do let me know! i dont bite at all, im actually looking for moots but idk how to. haha..-? if you need tone tags, please let me know!
disclaimer — i tend to talk/interact a lot, suspected auadhd but currently undiagnosed! also usually not caught up with trending or new stuff/drama, so if i am missing out do let me know if needed. much appreciated actually!
* despite being on tumblr for months; im still new to it. amazing right/s, so apologies if i do something wrong, do correct me please.
if i do make you uncomfy or offended in any way, please let me know immediately as well. i either reply to notifs fast or i dont, no inbetween. maybe there is tho. ꒱
៹ ៸៸ dni — basic dni, israel supporters, irls unless i permit you to interact, inappropriate mlgrm ships. nsfw (jokes r okay), pro/comship etc. i can also block freely if i want to, rarely happens tho.
* i dont mind anyone at any age interacting, so long youre respectful of my boundaries. just dont be a weirdo. ꒱
៹ ៸៸ fandoms — mainly milgram, paralive, aopl & much more which i forgot … but you can ask ! ꒱
៹ ៸៸ favs — es, muu & the whole cast right behind, nayuta & kanata yatonokami / cozmez, hajun yeon, honami osato, vadlip, hajime suzumiya ꒱
៹ ៸៸ funfacts — i love rambling & rping, i have 7 gmails for no reason.. i also have a MINIgram writing series planned! i love cream puffs and my phone’s battery is broken. i dont like donuts. ꒱
៹ ៸៸ tags :
#es talks — random rambles/talks
#es’ reblogs — my reblogs
#es’ art journal — my drawings/artworks
#es’ writing journal — all my works
#es’ [genre] journal — works w that genre!
#es’ asks — my asks
#es’ fav — personal fav things i love!
#es’ notebook — tagged to keep track of things.
* new tags
#es in his misery hole — vent tag, please filter.
#es’ moot battle — battle of his moots! who wins?
#mikoto’s workshift — mini mikopost interaction!
#new year phonegram — tsumi’s new years gartic! ꒱
៹ ៸៸ if you want to dm me about anything literally, feel free to do so; but please ask first! thanks.
with that, youve reached the end of this intro post, thank you for reading! hope you know me at least a little bit more now. ꒱
៹ ៸៸ last updated — 1 jan, happy new year. ꒱
#es’ intro#shoutout to fimi and bukit for being my besties..#IF YOURE INTO PARALIVE AND AOPL PLS IMMED INTERACT WITH ME#my friend called me an es wannabe and i cant stop thinkimg about it#bashes head against wall#IS IT CAUSE I SOUND LIKE ONE…-????
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