#I am just stone as shit. lol
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I am seriously surprised how long it took me to realize that im not a lesbian im actually just too dysphoric to admit I like men. Insane situation
#I just didn’t want people to think I like men in…I don’t know. the ‘traditional’ way. it still makes me feel sick LMFAOOAO#I am just stone as shit. lol
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Lanns n Starks lineups/costumes sketches that I will probably add other houses to. Tywin and Joff & the rest aren't here because I was lazy and Cerseis dress took all of my energy. Don't ask me about inspiration or historical basis for these
#I AM NO FASHION HISTORIAN!!! I ONLY DRAW WHAT I THINK FITS THE VIBE!!!!#the lanns are more or less fitting with each other but the starks are a mess lol#ned is wearing like an every day stark attire ig#cat is more Traditional Tully#for sansa i had absolutely no idea what to do so she doesnt really look connected to neither ned nor cat#her dress is just slavic adjacent. you decide what it is. def not kl or alayne stone eras tho#with robb i wanted to draw completely different armor than i did for jaime so theres both chainmail#AND iron chest plate(s) that look central asian a little lol#arya has her worn out dirty ass riding attire that was given to her by lady smallwood#and jon is nw but i couldnt think of shit so hell be probably getting a seperate post with his costume#all in all this was. something. i dont think im really good at costume design lmao so you can just look at their faces to see my Vision#of everyone there. yea okay thats it#jon snow#eddard stark#catelyn stark#catelyn tully#sansa stark#robb stark#arya stark#house stark#jaime lannister#cersei lannister#tyrion lannister#house lannister#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#🧩
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my family all of a sudden seems very concerned about the prospect of my brother moving in with his GF and me living alone.... as if I didn't live here by myself for a year+ when I first moved in and was much younger then and the house needed TONS of work and somehow I still survived.......
#everyone but my dad tho it seems lol#realistically I've been kinda on my own since like middle school... it isn't really anything new for me#I mean this hasn't even been like... set in stone. it's not like he came home last week and was like#I'm leaving!#but everyone seems very oddly invested in the fact that I'll be by myself#like bro I LOVED living alone are you KIDDING me?#and like lmao I am still the one paying ALL the bills (I don't wanna talk abt it)... buying my food... buying all the cat stuff#it's not like I'm losing income if I live alone.... so idk what everyone is so concerned about#creepy old guy who used to stalk me across the street DIED last year lmao so like.........#idk man#I'm tired. I haven't even STARTED thanksgiving prep and shopping and I'm TIRED. it's not even election DAY proper and I'm TIRED#NOvember. NOcember. NOuary. that's it. just NO. don't ask me for shit or voice an opinion. NO.#erin explains it all#delete later#probs lmao I'm just so TIRED jfc
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anyways i am giving aryll mineru's secret stone (once her spirit fades away) and making the Exploded GanonDaddy Stone eventually coalesce back into some solid form and link eventually obtains that one Team's Back Together it's fucking poetic justice bc you once again have a sage of light (link- like come On his weapon is the sword that seals the DARKNESS and he literally was a rauru parallel the whole game), a sage of time (zelda, link's partner, just as sonia was to rauru) and a sage of spirit (aryll) who is the sage of light's fucking sister
i am scared at how perfectly that slots together
#i fucking LOVE playing in my sandbox holy shit#like i'd planned aryll to have spirit sensitivity and astral projection skills FOREVER and then fucking mineru has that ability and a stone#and then by the end of the game that stone is available?? no fucking way#AND THEN SHE'S RAURU'S SISTER MAKING THE PARALLELS WORK#jesus christ#god#i am having so much fun#jen rambles#the ballad of aryll#(at this point that's just becoming my catch all tag for all aryll content and not even the tag for the fic itself aopfsduifjndgdrg lol)
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I love love love drawing but I cannot draw poses in any circumstances
#anyway the Saint Bernard pmv is still a thing#STILL FIGURING OUT EACH FRAME SO I AIN'T SHARING SHIT BUT#I'm just at the “to remind me that I am a fool” part#which sounds bad bc that's literally the second line BUT. I figured out where all the pictures and posters go#so there's that#I have to draw Tobias in the mirror now as he grows up and I'm. SUFFERING#and then I gotta decide if “tell me where I came from” is a birds view of the town or like. the highway with the sign that says “Welcome to#“how I will always be/just a spoiled little kid” would be like him standing at the bridge and turning into a kid#“who went to catholic school” is the corrupted club (no fucking idea how you call the building in English so. club.)#the beat of silence is a stone falling into the river#“when I am dead I won't join” showing characters at their funeral the“join” beat showing Thea and his brother's family#and then on “their ranks” it shows like. “ghosts” of Thea's family (Thea as a child. Thea's dead brother. and Thea's dad in cuffs)#“cause they're both” side by side Iván and Thea “holy” Thea “and free” Iván#“and I'm in Ohio” Tobías family. his aunt and father. his aunt is staring emptily and his dad looks annoyed/disgusted#“satanic” his father “and chained up” his aunt#“and until the end/that's how it'll be” I have no fucking idea lol#“I said make me love myself/So that I might love you/etcetc” Tobías and Iván stuff Idk#“Saint Calvin told me not to worry about you” Thea's (alive) brother talking to Tobías before he leaves town#“but he's got his own things to deal with” show's her brother's wife and child behind them in the doorway#“there's really just one thing that we have in common/neither of us will be missed” Tobias and thea blabla symbolism#the silent beat after that is two stones in the river#I have no fucking idea what to do at the end tho#modern prophets#CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT TO TAG THAT
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#OUghh... I've been really sick the past few days like not able to keep food down and had to go to the hospital#to get iv fluids and etc. to stay hydrated lol...#perhaps some sort of stomach virus or something. but still very grrrr for it to happen in the middle of the evil summer of#course#when everything is hot and uncomfortable anyway.. I really wanted to get a sims video and costume pictures finished this week and keep#up writing like 1000 ish words a day for my game. but.. alas... the universe was like... I Think Not#I at least have been able to have some tea and juice and applesauce and like 4 saltine crackers today so#I always think it's funny when you're ill what sort of little things count as successes#like on any normal day eating a few crackers would just be something you don't even give a second thought#to . But when you're really sick it's like .. WOW.. I ate TWO crackers.. amazing.. huzzah... I should get an award certainly#call the press and alert them. I should be in the newspaper headlines for this harrowing feat. etc. lol#I still feel very shaky and weak though.. but am like... hhhhh... when can I work on my projects again...#Also I literaly never leave the house or have contact with anyone so maybe it's not a virus and was more food poisioning or something#since I'm not sure where I'd get a virus even but... regardless... stinky#just complaining since I suppose that is what personal blogs are for lol. I'm a private person in the sense of wanting to proect my identi#ty and like.. I dont want an alexa in my house listening to me all the time and I dont tag my real location on social media or share photos#that could reveal the front of my house or etc. etc. But in all other senses I really don't beleive in holding stuff in. Because it will#just fester. especially when it has to do with other people (like relationship issues or something) but even when its just stuff that only#has to do with you. If something annoys me then I shall let it be openly known. if I'm bothered it will be clear. etc.#Which I guess makes me seem like a Hater And Complainer but I guess I just feel like its better over all to explain and express openly#than to just silently stew and hold everything in and then probably feel worse for it later or something.#Expressing annoyance is kind of like casting the concept off from yourself and releasing it into the wild so that you're not harboring it#anymore. all grievances must be aired eventually. etc. this is a Pro complaining zone lol#If you feel like shit dont hide it. just go 'man I feel like shit'. etc. etc. Cast it off into the universe. be free#ANYWAY... aughhh......... the wizard has fallen ill in his stinky little tower.. pacing the stone floors in tattered robes. hair disheveled#. carefully sipping a single cup of tea over the course of an hour lest drinking too fast upset his fragile stomachs againe..
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3)do you smoke?
like a train💭💭
13)biggest turn ons
idk not being a fucking idiot 😂
23)my relationship with my sibling(s)
i absolutely love my sister with all my heart. we both have just been fucking through so much. and i'm just desperately trying to be the person we need as children, for her children.
but i will also call her a dumbass because she forgot her age(she has pregnancy brain)
i have 2 half brothers who are like 10 years older than me, that i have never met. the older was is a hermit (fucking me) and the younger one is pretty cool. we talk about psychedelics a lot lol.
33)what words make me feel the best about myself
i think my emotions about myself are far too complex for words. because i don't feel particularly enthusiastic to be.....me?....at least day to day. but when i talk about myself and say some of the shit out loud to someone and they look at me like i should be fucking dead, that's cool lol.
i will never fully appreciate myself, and i'm working on that, because i will never stop changing who i am.
#i am stoned af#idk turn me on mentally and you'll have no problem#i am the youngest out of 4 and i have the most gray hair lol#i have also made my sister cry multiple times during her pregnancies😅#i wasn't trynna be mean i would just say some dumbass shit and yeah.....#i think if one song to describe me would be:#People Wither by Feng Suave#i am also extremely fucking critical of myself and cant fucking chill#asks#anon asks
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i've got a half day tmrw should i watch good omens
#my gf and a friend of mine both like it a lot but idk how much i actually want to watch it#i'm not really interested in the fandom lol i feel like it's kind of... a thing#let's just say#but i am mildly interested in the show itself so who knows#kiwifae says shit#or.... i could walk over to the library and see if they have stone butch blues. but it's cold :(#who knows who knows#ah fuck gotta do my hw
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i will say, if Wukong does somehow turn out to be MK's bio-dad, i will straight up walk tf away from the show
not because my 'ship is ruined', but because that sounds like the dumbest fucking plot twist ever and having Sun Wukong father any kind of children makes me want to throw hands
#ze.txt#like i genuinely HATE the habit of mythology biased stories having the main characters be surprise related to the gods#it's boring it's bland and i'm saying that in regards to mythos where it'd at least make SENSE for the gods to fuck#(greek mythology. i am talking about greek mythology)#but with this it feels like an ass pull. and kind of. idk? devalues a lot of MK's character#like the stone monkey thing is. whatever. i wouldn't have done that myself it's kind of boring but whatever#but making him actually related to wukong would be so boring 💀#like i know we're going for a sequel feel but c'mon#is everyone gonna be related to the jttw gang in some ways now. fucking bland as shit writing if so#idk i feel like it's way more interesting to have them pick up the role or grow into it in some ways#or even just reincarnation is more interesting than having them be directly related#but with mk it's like#he's literally a fucking monkey king stan#and having him be given the role and growing into it and learning the drawbacks and the failings and the heaviness of it-#just don't hit the same if he's ~destined~ for it#idk idk i haven't seen s4 yet so maybe they did the stone monkey thing well#i'm just judgey lol
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Dad’s in hospital. Again. 8C
#I really hope this is the reality check he needs to start eating better tbh#he exercises a LOT but still eats like crap#I can’t throw stones bc I’m shit at saying no to garbage#that said I *am* on day 3 of cutting my sugar intake down#a two day long migraine has finally lifted#trying to cut down all refined carbs too#years ago I was high protein and high healthy fats and high fibre and jfc I felt AMAZING#I’d kill to feel that way again#at least I’ve gotten over the hardest part by actually keeping on track for the first few days#they really are the worst 8C#feel free to ignore this#I don’t share a lot of irl stuff here since I’m *old* and oversharing online just doesn’t hold any appeal anymore lol#but still#kind of had to get it all out#my head’s all over the place 8C
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Poseidon/Poseidons pronoun flag!
As per the coiner of these Neopronouns wishes, please only use these pronouns if you are pagan or otherwise a devotee or worshipper of the god Poseidon.
#spare me the mythos drama about posting these so close to my medusa ones#i am fully aware of his mythos in both the context of medusa consenting and medusa not consenting#both stories have historical precidence so its all about what you personally believe#i believe it was non consentual and the act of turning her into a gorgon was a double edged sword handed to her by athena#in order to protect her from any other men as her stone powers only worked on men and only women were allowed into the temples of athena#all in all however gods are more than their mythos and i do not judge everyone who worships Poseidon however#as our system is the victim of multiple sas we are deeply uncomfortable with ever personally worshiping Poseidon#if you are comfortable great this is for you if you just like poseidon and dont care about his mythos and arnt hellenic pagan this is for u#just please dont call me a 🍇 apologist for this flag thx#oh and idk how hes been mischaracterized in it but also keep the lore Olympus shit away from us with a 10ft pole thx#we will never forgive them for shipping together a basically infantile niece with her decrepit old uncle and demonizing not only demeter#but also turning apollo into a 🍇ist#sry for the rant lol#pronoun flag#pronoun flags#pronouns#mod sunny#neoprns#mod clover#wordnoun#neopronoun flag#neopronoun#neopronouns#Poseidon/poseidons#religiopronouns#religionouns
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An unfinished fic is always going to be existing in a nebulous will-they/wont-they status.
I prefer to call a fic neglected rather than abandoned. Abandoned implies that there is little, to no hope for a continuation. Neglected means the fic is on the backburner, or in the attic gathering dust. It does, however, still live rent free in the authors brain, and the author might pick it up, blow the dust off and do something with it at any point in time.
And like, I get that people get upset when this wonderful piece of art hasn't been updated, and might never be updated, but thats the risk we take in reading fanfiction. Hell, we risk it reading Officially Published For Money books too(or watching good shows. Looking at you, Firefly). Which y'know, where a great number of fanfics spring from.
Some of you would not survive waiting months to years for a WIP to update.
Look at me, listen to me: A couple of months is way too early to think a fic is abandoned or dead. A year is often too early. Internalize this.
#rambling#fanfiction#on the topic of abandoned fics#A great example would be the marriage stone#where the author had real life shit hitting the fan and didn't exist on the internet for a while#and the readers jumped the gun calling the fic abandoned and started their own continuations#so when the author did pop back they got so demorilized by their OWN FANDOM by their own darn fans#that they haven't continued the fic#they did come with an update where they explained this however#and admitted that while they would like to#they didn't know if the would continue the fic#and if they did continue it they'd probably finish the fic entirely and then just dump the entire thing at once#Apparently there was alot of Pressure#which is fair#I read it like#five or so years after the last update#and people were still raving about it#I should probably reread it#see if it hold up#that and the Akren series#now the Akren series HURTS#because in one of the last chapters the author said that they were really excited#because we'd finally gotten to the stuff that had inspired the whole series to begin with#We had what two and a half parts before this?#and it was all basically the prelude to what the Author actually wanted to write#and then the author stopped writing#i just checked ffnet#a magical world by miranda flairgold was published and last updated in 2009#Remembering how long I have been reading fanfiction is a way better way to make me feel old than telling people how old I am lol#I've been reading fanfiction for over half my life
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Thinking abt her <333333 (oni gas range)
#rat rambles#oni posting#I <3 cooking in video games I <3 watching my calorie count go up I <3 seeing my dupes grab the new fancy food I got access to#I just got my first water weed harvest and my chefs have already cooked up over 100k calories of quiche I am experiencing bliss and whimsy#oh also over 100k calories of frostburger#these things are not necessary and I do not need the well over 3 million calories I have but I like having them#deep freezer my beloved#oh also Im so so so close to getting my radbolt rocket up and running#Im currently building my radbolt generator setup and then we'll be in business#do I know how to deal with the consequences of radiation yet? nope. will I learn? probably not#I have decided Im going to attempt to get the archeologist achievement tho#which will be hard considering my laptop is already shitting itself but I wanna give it a shot anyways#but first let me stare at my new(ish) kitchen for another 5 hours I love watching ny cooks do their thing#even if two of my current cooks arw blond ppl 😔#oh another thing Im going to need to do is make a drillcone rocket so I can work towards slowing down the approach of the inevitable#dirt crisis that constantly looms over my shoulders#I don't even use dirt for that much at this point but it's still important enough that my base Will fall apart without it#its more of a matter when Ill need to switch my power generators out than if#idk maybe I can get away with switching to stone hatches but that also feels like stalling to me#idk Ill figure it out once we get there#rn I still have almost 500 tons of coal so I dont have a huge amount to worry abt#especially since my coal generators arent anywhere close to running flat out so its not like power demands are too high rn#as I've said before Ill probably have to tap into oil to rly continue my environmental ruin run lol
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been checking off all the stuff I've gotten everything of in elden ring so far (nothing crazy just cookbooks, crystal tears, deathroot, paintings/artists spirit, dragon hearts and the tools like crafting pots etc and I've done all npc questlines I can in this run + gotten all the bell bearings that carry over to ng+ 👍) and I was looking at the lists for great gloveworts + ancient dragon stones and I have most of them already so I was feeling pretty good.. and then I counted how many distinct weapons I have so far (166) and searched up how many are in the game..... WHAT DO YOU MEAAAAN 308????
#i feel like ive wielded every kind of weapon ever imagined. how are there TWICE AS MANY AS THAT!!!!!!#a lot of them will probably take some grinding to get... weighing up how committed i am to getting them all#well i probably will. but i WONT be grinding enough playthroughs to upgrade them all to max im not that insane#but ill upgrade them *almost* to max.... theres no limit on regular smithing/somber stones cuz u can just buy them#but theres only 13 ancient dragon and 8 somber ancient dragon stones so u literallt have to beat the ENTIRE game again if u want more#and the max ill get is what. 39 and 24 bc im only planning on doing 3 runs (one for each ending)#and im NOT getting duplicates of everything so i can duel wield them all im a two handed wield guy so i only ever use one at a time#+50% extra damage for every hit r u kidding me im not abandoning that... there are some fights ive used a shield for so i can parry tho#anyway. at least i have a decent amt of the talismans... i think im gonna go for all the rest of those next#and then stonesword keys + locations + ill unlock every site of grace on the map so i have full freedom to get everything else#well all the ones i can at least.. if i missed any in leyndell capital theyre probably inaccessible now bc I burned it down LOL#just so much shit in this game it keeps blowing my mind fr#anyway i reaaaally need to sleep im so tired.. dont wanna go to work tomorrow aoughghh#itll be fine tho i just have one thing all day 👍 and ill feel motivated bc my meds will be working by the time i get there#its kind of nice in a way bc i refuse to think abt my work outside of work hours. shooting that thought down immediately#like when i get the bus im just thinking abt getting the bus. and when im there i have my checklist and if i focus on that it goes by#esp w meds. and then i go home and it doesnt exist for the rest of the day bc i have no sense of past of future <3#sometimes its kind of nice having a very Present mind like the here and now is all there is. its why im so good at mindfulness shit#i would make a great buddhist ANYWAYYYYYY GOODNIGJT!!!!#.diaries
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i wanna hyperfixate and i know there already is a list like this but i wanna add a tab to my GIANT spreadsheet that just connects all the songs on spotify to their respective fights so i can always check… yes i have a giant spreadsheet it has so many tabs. most of them aren’t filled out but i like treating this game like a second job sometimes lol im already working on leveling my alts and i haven’t even done endwalker yet
#when i get burnt out of story quests i wanna know exactly what i need to be doing#right now priority is doing the yo kai grinds with my athena bow to get as many atma as i can#two birds one stone so i never have to do any of that shit again lol#(i probably won’t get enough tho)#and then when i wanna have fun i just run hard trials bc they’re fun sillay times for me#and once those get too easy i’ll pivot to arr extremes but im too scared still (and the queue times are ridiculous smh)#it’s bc i don’t have a base raiding playing team I NEED FRIENDS!!!#but i forget how to make online friends lol i used to be so big in the rpc but i got scared and went Total Avoidant once i got a Real Life#anyways. i am listening to the soundtrack CONSTANTLY
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#shit I stole from the internet#crowcore#lol I’m stoned#haven’t been smoking in the week but fuck it we make an exception for the break up#I just wanna sleep tonight rather than keep going over the same shit in my head#I am going to miss him so much but I know this is the right choice#I know I have to stick to it#and I know I will get through#I will succeed#oh that little snail was a buddy I made#trying to capture the little things that made me happy
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