#I am in South Carolina rn

[0ransje]

Time to not use tumblr for a week to avoid Mutant Mayhem spoilers!!

[godmodebeginswithlesbians]

when will they get it through their thick fucking skulls that i hate when plans are made for me without my fucking input

[hungrysoda]

does anyone else ever embarrass yourself on such high level that you cringe the entire rest of the night????

so last night was 4th of July so we were watching fireworks, and i keep saying “wow” IN A BRITISH ACCENT

like there would be a really cool firework and then there was me saying “wooooooooow” BUT BRITISH

AND I COULD NOT STOP I JUST KEPT BEING BRITISH EVERY SINGLE TIME

is anyone else this embarrassing or is it just me

[librarycards]

do you have any book recs on relationship abuse? feel free to discard this question or point me elsewhere

hello anon - i read your other message to and am sending both of you much love. thanks for reaching out.

first and foremost, i am still very much a student of the literature in relationship abuse, not an expert. here are some books that may be helpful, with annotations:

Banu Khapil, The Vertical Interrogation of Strangers. Khapil interviews women from the South Asian diaspora using a set of guiding craft/storytelling questions. i found this book immensely useful for my writing, which is to say, for transmuting the unlanguagable experiences of trauma - including relationship abuse and sexual violence - and restorying them in ways that worked for me.

Eli Clare, Exile and Pride. Clare is a trans survivor of CSA, and writes about the intersection of disability and survivorship.

Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha, Care Work: Dreaming Disability Justice, and their other work. They're a decorated writer, performer, and activist deeply invested in a disability justice + femme-of-color oriented approach to community care, and speak frankly and often about intimate partner violence, CSA, and the aftermath, as well as TJ-based approaches.

I have not read Beyond Survival, but tentatively recommend taking a look, alongside my friend's astute commentary about the book's metatext.

Maggie Smith, You Could Make this Place Beautiful. Smith is a brilliant poet, and has written this memoir about her divorce. As we dig deeper, we uncover a context of abuse, exploitation, infidelity, and dangerous envy on the part of her husband; and watch her carve a life beyond him.

Carmen Maria Machado, In the Dream House. A classic in the category of abuse memoir, and for good reason. Machado's insights into the onion of abuse culture in which we currently live –– ownership rhetorics around children, the subjugation of women, the silence around abuse by and of queer women –– are crucial.

Erin Elizabeth Smith, Down. My dear friend and colleague's book of poems that speak to the insidious process of grooming and its downstream effects, as well as the process of finding one's freedom.

And a few works of fiction to offer solidarity & new ways of thinking in this time:

Sayaka Murata, Earthlings

Tiffany D Jackson, Grown

Dorothy Allison, Bastard Out of Carolina

Ruth Ozeki, My Year of Meats

Tiffany McDaniel, Betty

i hope this is helpful. i don't necessarily know if these are the kinds of narratives your friend needs rn, but these are the ones that have helped me begin coming to terms with my own experiences (i have a long way to go) and have afforded me the chance to think critically about relationship dynamics and cultures of abuse that refuse to absolve abusers of responsibility for their behavior.

[your-queer-dad]

Hey dad!

Can I get a hug?

I'm going through a lot rn.

I'm prepping to perform in this year's Edinburgh Tattoo. (If you don't know it I don't blame you, but it's a big deal.) And I feel like i don't know my music as well as a should. I've got about 21 tunes, but these 4 just keep kicking my ass and it hurts 🫂. I'm getting better but heck if it doesn't hurt

And I got this sunburn from drill today. We were out for a few hours in the full South Carolina heat and it hurts. I feel like one big sunburn now. I used sunscreen but I sweat it all off. I think I had heat exhaustion by the end of it. I was delirious and it took me like an hour and a half to recover.

And this place sucks for gender. I'm playing with The Citadel. It's a military college and I graduated not too long ago, but since graduation I've been becoming so much more me. And just being back here, the uniforms and the ghost of my old existence here, it makes it so hard to feel like myself a bunch of the time.

I've been pushing for so long. I just want to do the best I can for this. It's the Edinburgh Tattoo! I'm so excited and I want to do great! But I feel just constantly overwhelmed and not ok and I need a break but I can't take one. Not till this is over. And then it's on to the next thing.

I'm just tired and hurt and I want to rest and I need a hug please 🫂💖

I'm sorry for ranting to you about this. I honestly didn't mean to write that much. I might be under more pressure than I give myself credit for.

And I'm sorry for coming to you with this 🫂. I don't know who I'd talk to in my family about this. I could! We just.. don't. talk about this type of stuff. I know theoretically they're there for support, but I can't bring myself to lean on them. I'm sorry. And I'd talk to my friends about this, but my gf worries enough already and I don't want to add even more to that. She's beside herself that I'm even back here lol. And then I saw you give a hug to another one of your asks and I was just like oh I need to do that.

Thank you <3

Hey kiddo! Thank you so much for reaching out! Playing Edinburgh Tattoo is incredible, you should be so proud of yourself and you deserve it! Please don't put so much pressure on yourself kiddo, it's okay, you 100% deserve this opportunity and you are doing so well. I am so proud of you. Hug time!! 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

- dad x

[wcbblife]

Oh I'm SICK rn. The refs for this game were absolutely terrible and should never see a basketball game in their LIVES.

How am I supposed to enjoy the championship on Sunday when this was such an ugly win 😭 They wrapped it up in a bow and handed it to Iowa.

Li & Nika....love you two girls always and forever. You all put up an amazing fight. Li pls don't beat yourself up and Nika you did a tremendous job at guarding Caitlin, something everybody deemed impossible. I couldn't be more proud.

I love this team so so much

But I've been cheering on South carolina since their first game and they will pull it off. TRUST

[harknessxo]

Chapter XII ✦ Know It’s For The Better

Paring; Rhea Ripley x Roman Reigns

Summary: Rhea makes a decision, was it the right one?

Warnings; bit of angst, kinda smut

Word Count: 4.3k

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A/n: nothing…

Flashback from SC

Her phone began to ring exactly at 10:00 AM, making her stir from her sleep as she turned to her side, slowly opening her eyes while reaching out to her phone to turn off the alarm. Rhea slowly sat on the bed as she rubbed her eyes, trying to force herself to wake as she took her phone and unlocked it. She checked to see if she had any texts from the boys or any emails that she needed to take a look at, but so far, nothing. Yet.

This was her last day along with Roman in South Carolina. They both didn’t have anything on their schedule to attend to as this was their last day and plus, they would be leaving for the airport this afternoon to head back home. Technically, they could spend the remainder of their last day doing whatever they wanted. Though she kept in mind that they had until 4:30 PM to check out from the hotel.

She looked to her side to see that Roman was still asleep, the tribal chief not being awakened by the sound of her alarm. Both of them had spent the night together again, their clothes tossed across the floor and both of them laying naked on the bed with the covers being the only thing that covered their bodies. Slowly, and careful not to wake up, she sat up from the bed, finding Roman’s shirt as well as her panties as she put both of them on before she went to the bathroom to brush her teeth. She then finished doing so as she rinsed her face before she dried her face with her towel, walking out from the bathroom afterwards when she once again heard her phone ding with text messages, specifically from the group chat that she was in, along with her boys and the Bloodline.

She opened the texts as she sat back on the bed and read them.

J: what time do y’all come back tonight again????? @Rhea @Roman

S: 🤦🏽‍♂️ Jimmy I already told you earlier-

F: Jimmy, they’re coming back @ midnight.

J: nvm

DP: Thank god y’all are coming back THANK GOD

Rolling her eyes, Rhea decided to reply back to Damian’s text in the group chat.

R: So now you’re admitting y’all can’t survive w/o us? lmfaooooo

DM: he’s been stressed ever since you two left lol

J: his hair’s been getting gray just like Paul’s when Roman was out 😭😭

DM: LMAO

DP: Stfu Jimmy 😒

J: 🤣🤣🤣

R: we’ll call you guys when we leave, but please text me or Reigns if u guys want or need anything before we leave

F: stay safe sis

DM: we miss you

J: translation: “I miss you mami pls come back rn.”

DM: 🙄

Rhea shook her head and smiled before she set her phone aside and decided to wake Roman.

“Reigns, get up.” She finally spoke, inching closer to him as she shook and patted his shoulder.

“Five minutes…” He grumbled as he stirred slightly, shifting his body only a bit.

“Oh come on, I was the one riding you last night, no way you’re this tired already. If anything, I should be the one tired.”

Roman only turned slightly as his eyes opened, giving her a look. “Are we really fighting over this now?”

“I don’t know, are we now?” She asked him as she crossed her arms. He only stared at her before he noticed the shirt that she wore.

“… is that my shirt?”

“Yeah.”

“Alright.” Roman grunted as he stood, fetching his underwear and sweatpants from the ground before he turned to her. “Give it back.”

“Nah.”

“Ripley.”

“You have a pair of panties from me, are you going to give those back?”

“Come on, I need to run downstairs to get us breakfast.” He insisted while she arched an eyebrow.

“You have plenty of other shirts, why this one?” Roman sighed in defeat before going onto his suitcase for another shirt.

“You’re gonna give that back to me.” He told her as he put on another shirt.

“And if I don’t?”

Roman was about to walk inside the bathroom when he paused in his steps as soon as Rhea said that. He seemed to contemplate for a few seconds before he turned his head to her.

“Alright, okay, let me rephrase that.” He began while Rhea crossed her arms at him. “If by the time we finish eating breakfast you don’t give me that shirt back, we’re gonna have a problem.”

“Yeah, I highly doubt that since you won’t give me my panties back.” Rhea tsked while leaning comfortably on the bed. “So, you could say we’re even now. You have my panties, and I have your shirt.”

Roman looked at the time on his phone. He seemed to contemplate yet again while Rhea watched him until he spoke. “… Breakfast doesn’t end until 11:30.”

“Reigns.”

“Which means, I have an hour and thirty minutes, plus I can always just order delivery instead, so, last chance; give the shirt back or we’re about to have problems.”

“Oh, you want to go down that route now?” She asked him as she pulled out a pillow.

“No, no pillow fi—“ A pillow was suddenly thrown at his face as he yelped and paused. He then caught it with one hand as he looked down at it before he looked up at her as she retrieved another pillow.

“If you want this shirt back, you’re gonna have to fight for it.”

“… okay, that’s it—“ Before Rhea could react, he attempted to get back on the bed and immediately, she began to smack him with the pillow repeatedly as he shielded himself in defense.

“Aw, what happened now? You can’t even fight back—“ The second she was distracted, Roman suddenly took the pillow from her and the next thing she new, he immediately grabbed her by the waist as his other free hand began to tickle her side.

“Wait—!” She yelped before she suddenly burst out laughing, struggling in his hold while he kept tickling her.

“You’re giving up the shirt now?”

“You son of a— stop—!” She only laughed despite being tickled, up until after a while, she suddenly managed to find her chance as she grabbed his wrist and flipped them over, straddling him on the bed while also pinning him down. Both took a moment to catch their breaths while they looked at each other.

“Giving up now?” She asked him beneath her breath while smirking down at him. He only gazed up at her momentarily, looking as if he wanted to say something at first which was noticed by Rhea. Her smirk slowly faded as she also gazed down at him.

Maybe perhaps it was because she wasn’t ready for him to tell her what she thought he was going to say, or maybe it was potentially the heat of the moment, but she couldn’t help but close the distance between them as they shared a passionate kiss. Her hands were already reaching to remove his shirt while his own hands went underneath the shirt that she wore from him as he caressed her skin. As soon as his shirt came off, she threw it across the floor before she began to lead kisses on his jawline, neck, and chest.

To say the least, they both made sure to only last for thirty minutes that morning, knowing that even if it was their last day like this, it didn’t matter to them for now.

But a deep, unknown, and discreet part of her wished that they had more time.

“—and with that, we conclude the matter as to why the suggestion of splitting the tag titles had come up to us initially. Now we understand that with you being champions and with war games coming up, it’s not the best option, although I really want you to consider the possibility of giving the tag team division a higher chance and—“

Rhea sat in her chair as she listened to it on and on, wishing that it had already ended as she leaned back on her seat too comfortably. She almost wanted to roll her eyes while hearing Adam speak, twirling the pen that she held in her right hand as she sat between Damian and Finn.

“Listen here, with all due respect, Pearce.” Damian began. “Finn and I should have a say in what we do with our championships. Isn’t that the point of it? Plus, we have an agreement with the Bloodline in the first place. Us spreading the titles apart just to give others that opportunity makes zero sense when you can literally just come up with other types of championships.”

“Well, to be fair, Priest has a point.” Nick admitted as he shifted in his seat. “Despite the Bloodline being on Raw and the Bloodline on Smackdown, everyone is quite acknowledging the fact that both of your groups are now one group at this point.”

“Although, it’s not made official yet.” Adam said as he crossed his arms. At that, everyone within the group looked at each other, then everyone’s heads turned to Rhea and Roman specifically. Roman then outstretched his hand to Paul’s direction as the wiseman gave him a contract.

“You see Pearce, we knew you were going to mention that, so…” Roman then handed the contract to Pearce as he blinked and took it, reading the contents of it as Roman began to explain. “This contract includes everyone’s signature. And when I say everyone, I mean the Judgement Day and the Bloodline.”

Pearce narrowed his eyes as he read the contract before he looked up at Nick, who also wanted to take a look at it as the former wrestler showed him the contents of the paper. As Nick read everything, Rhea spoke.

“You also said you want to give other wrestlers the opportunity, no?” She asked. “Well, this is another way of doing it. By having both our factions unified officially and being able to be on both brands, we can defend our championships and give the spotlight to every superstar in these locker rooms.” She then looked at Adam and Nick firmly as she crossed her arms. “You both want to give people chances, but we? We want to remain on top. So, since we both want something… all we need is your signatures, as well as Triple H’s, and we can call this a day.”

She concluded her speech as she leaned back on her chair once again. All eyes were set on Nick and Pearce as they both contemplated over the contract. Nick then whispered something to Adam’s ear, the latter looking hesitant at first before he sighed and nodded. They then all saw as both men signed the contract.

“We will notify Triple H to be in touch with you all regarding the contract.” Adam said before he stood. “Make sure to also keep a copy of it once he signs as well. We will also discuss this with him as well. But as of now, with Triple H’s signature, this will be fully official.”

“Good. So now we’re good to go then?” Rhea immediately asked as she stood up along with the others.

“Yes, yes it is.”

“Great.”

“Pleasure doing business with you two.” Dami��n said as he shook both Nick and Adam’s hands, the others also doing the same before they all began to walk away from the conference room. As they did, Rhea heard her phone ring as she looked to see that Raquel was calling.

“Hey Raq, I just got out of the meeting, ‘sup?”

“Ay, al fin, loca. Shayna and I are waiting for you outside, we’re gonna go and pick up Zoey and then we’re heading out.”

“Alright, I’ll be there in a minute, see you.” She then hung up as she kept her phone in her pocket before she turned to Damian. “I’m heading out. If anything happens, text me.”

“I got you. Stay safe though.” Damian nodded at her as they fist bumped one another before she began to walk away. She managed to head outside the parking area where Raquel and Shayna had been waiting for her. Raquel was in the driver’s seat of her rental car as she decided to move to the passenger seat to allow Rhea to be the one driving.

“She’s still at the hotel?” Rhea asked as she put her seatbelt on.

“Yeah well, she overslept. I told her not to go to the gym last night but noooo, her dumbass didn’t wanna listen.” Shayna said as she texted her phone. “But I’m letting her know that we are on our way.”

“Where are we going anyways?” Rhea asked as she arched an eyebrow while she began to drive off.

“Whenever we want,” Raquel shrugged. “Chica, it’s a Saturday. We get to do whatever the fuck we want today. And plus, you need a break.”

“Thanks for reminding me again.” Rhea almost said sarcastically while Raquel gave her a look. After a while, they arrived at the hotel as they waited. Raquel was the one to call Zoey’s phone as they waited at the parking lot when they heard the door open.

“Shut up, I’m here!” Zoey said almost urgently as she got inside the car and sat with Shayna in the back. “What’s the occasion anyways? Y’all were rushing me like it’s the end of the world.”

“We are going to places. Wherever Rhe Rhe decided to take us to.” Raquel casually said. “And I’ll be paying.”

“Well as long as we get to chill, I’m cool with it.” Zoey simply commented before she perked up. “Oh by the way, Rips, I hope you’re ready for that match at Survivor Series against me.”

“Oh, you bet your ass that you’ll be in for Hell, I’ll tell you that.” Rhea scoffed as she fixed the rear view mirror before she drove away with them.

“Well, if Liv doesn’t get to you fi— ow!” Shayna yelped when Zoey smacked her in the shoulder.

“Hey, no Liv, no Dom, no Roman, not even a word of them. We talked about this.” Raquel told Shayna sternly.

“Sorry…”

The group continued to chat about many things until they stopped by a red light. Because Rhea’s phone was connected to the car’s Bluetooth radio, a call came through, and everyone could see that it was Roman calling.

“Girl, I thought you blocked him—“ Zoey blurted out while Rhea sighed and rubbed her head.

“Fuck my life.”

“Ah ah ah, you’re not answering.” Raquel quickly said. “Just let it ring.”

“Yeah, what she said.” Shayna immediately agreed.

“… guys, it might be something about the meeting—“

“Oh you have GOT to be kidding me, Rhea don’t you dare—“

“We signed a contract thirty minutes ago, so Reigns might have an update for me, Jesus.” Rhea snapped at them as she huffed. “Plus, it’s just one phone call. Won’t take that long.”

“… Okay, fine, answer it. But only if we hear it.” Raquel told her as she sighed deeply. Rhea only nodded as she went ahead and answered the call.

“Reigns, whatever you have to say, make it quick. I’m quite busy here.”

“Just wanted to let you know that Wiseman just spoke with Triple H on the phone. He wants to arrange a meeting this Monday with us.”

“Alright. We accept.” Rhea replied as she made a left turn, all the while Raquel, Shayna, and Zoey listened carefully. “Time and place?”

“Next Monday at 10 AM before Raw.”

“Good, we’ll be there.” Rhea was then about to hang up when Roman suddenly spoke.

“Also, I know you’re busy and everything but… if there’s a chance if we can meet up tomorrow and—“

“Nope, she’s busy with us, so bye bye!” Zoey immediately interrupted as she reached the screen and hung up on the call.

“Zoey what the fuck—“

“Hey, I’m saving your mental health girl. You’ll thank me later.” Zoey said as she smiled while Shayna tried her best not to laugh beside her.

Rhea stared at Zoey incredulously from the rear view mirror. “You did not just do that…”

“I mean, I would’ve done the same.”

“Raquel, please.”

“What? It’s true.”

“Look, Zoey’s right though.” Shayna told her. “Don’t think about them for now. Get your break, you can worry about your own shit later.”

Rhea sighed as she continued to drive away. The group spent most of their day hanging out in several places for the most part.

Up until nighttime, the group returned to the hotel as they got out of the car and walked together.

“We should do that more often,” Raquel commented as she carried her purse and her phone all in one hand. “I’m kinda liking this whole thing, to be honest with you guys.”

“Yeah, even better than dealing with shit at work.” Zoey snorted as she looked at the time in her watch. “I’m heading to the bar for a bit, does anyone wanna join?”

“I can” Shayna folded her hands inside her pockets before she turned to Raquel and Rhea. However, Raquel yawned as she shook her head.

“Sorry guys, as much as I want to, I need to take a few z’s… I didn’t sleep much last night.”

“I might go for a swim in the pool for a bit. It’s not that late anyways.” Rhea mumbled as she also looked at the time in her watch.

“Alright, if you guys change your minds, you know where to find us.” Shayna told them, her and Zoey bid the other two women farewell as they went to the bar while Raquel and Rhea went to the elevator.

“Told you this was a good idea.” Raquel said as she pressed the button of the elevator.

“Aside from Shayna and Zoey screaming and singing in the car like a pair of hyenas? Yeah, it was.”

“Oh please, you were literally headbanging whenever your favorite songs played the entire time.” Raquel snorted.

“We should do it more often- but only after I retain my title against Zoey.”

“Oh, you’re THAT confident, I see you.”

Both laughed as they went inside the elevator. As they did, Rhea felt her phone vibrate in her pocket as she blinked and retrieved it.

She had three texts. One from Dom, one from Roman.

And unexpectedly, a third one from Liv.

Her smile dropped as she sighed deeply while Raquel noticed. “You’re making a face, something’s wrong. Let me guess, Roman texted?”

“Close.”

“Roman and Dom?”

“Closer. One more.”

“… no way.”

“Yep.”

“What the hell does Liv want—?”

“I don’t know, and frankly, I do not care right now.” Rhea immediately said as she kept her phone inside her pocket once again before the elevator stopped as they both got out.

“Do you want me to talk to her? Because I can gladly deal with her again if I have to.” Raquel asked as they both went to Rhea’s room while Rhea went to unlock her door.

“No. No, I’ll be alright.” She reassured her as she exhaled. “I’ll deal with her on Monday.”

“Deal with her? Rhea what do you—“

“I spoke with Adam and apparently, Liv wants to settle this score with a non-title match. And because unfortunately I need to keep everything settled again, I had no choice but to accept.”

“Rhea, fighting Liv isn’t going to solve anything.”

“Well, try telling her that. She was the one that asked for the match.”

“Look- let me talk to her first. Tomorrow.” Raquel insisted to her. “That way maybe you don’t have to deal with her the hard way on Monday. You have a lot on your plate right now, and I want to help. I really do.”

Rhea stared at her for a moment as she pondered, considering her idea before she leaned against the wall. “You know, if only the circumstances were different, I’d have you join the Judgment Day.”

Raquel chuckled at that before her expression immediately changed to a serious one. “Yeah no— thanks, but no thanks.”

“That’s what they all say at first until they give in. I’m just saying.” Rhea said as she smirked while she opened her door. “Think about it.”

“Still a no- but hey, I’m open to hang out with you guys though. Except Dom, you know damn well that we will argue like little kids.”

“Hey, I can’t guarantee that he won’t be around. Even if we’re broken up, he still hangs out with Priest and Finn and only talks to me when needed, so.” Rhea said as she crossed her arms while Raquel scoffed and slowly walked away.

“Same thing with Reigns then?”

“Sadly, too. Although it’s a bit different, now that you mention it…”

“Oh come on, why do you always pick pussies?”

“Well, they are what they eat.”

“Chingona—“ Raquel almost howled laughing while Rhea also couldn’t help but laugh at her reaction, watching as her best friend walked to her room. “Alright, I’m hitting the hay. See you in the morning! Take care!”

“No promises!” Rhea replied back.

“You will promise!”

“No I won’t!”

With that, Rhea went into her room as she closed the door behind her. She placed her things on the table lamp beside her bed before she removed her shoes and plumped herself down on the bed as she looked up at the ceiling. She rested there only for a bit, considering whether she should head down to take a quick dive on the pool and then come back and sleep or just finish off her day for now. She looked at the time on her watch before she made her choice and went to the bathroom. She would rather go in the morning after she did her daily workout in the gym.

After a quick shower, she went to grab her suitcase as she had the towel wrapped around her body, looking for a set of comfortable clothes to sleep with. She managed to dig for a pair of panties, followed by a pair of black shorts. She then went to look for a shirt when she noticed one in particular inside her suitcase as she blinked and— wait, this one looked a bit bigger on her than usual...

Blinking, she took a closer look at it when realization dawned on her.

Roman’s shirt.

“Fuck.” She mumbled as she snatched a bathrobe from the bathroom and placed it around her immediately while also putting on her panties and shorts underneath. No, she can’t have his shirt here with her. She had to give it back to him. She was trying her best to give herself some space from him and everything else going on- what if he also went to try and look for it when he realizes that he doesn’t have that shirt with him?

She held the shirt in her hands, debating whether she should go and find him to give it back when she heard a knock on her door which startled her. “Fuck—“

“Ripley, it’s me.” She suddenly heard Roman’s voice from outside. At that, Rhea paused as she looked at the door, then at the shirt in her hands. “Look… I just want to talk.”

She remained silent, hoping that he would assume that she wasn’t there in the first place. However at the same time, she just wanted to open the door to him and tell him.

But tell him what, exactly?

“Rhea, I know you’re there. I just heard you curse earlier. Look, if you don’t want to talk the —“

“Wait, hold on.” She immediately called out as she replaced the bathrobe with another shirt of hers from her suitcase. She then looked down at his shirt before she took a deep breath as she once again took it and went to open the door.

“Hey.”

“Hey. Are you doing alright?”

“… I’ve been worse.” She only mumbled before she looked down at his shirt and gave it to him. “I uh, I packed it by accident… I figured I should’ve returned it to you.”

“No. No, it’s fine. I… I didn’t come here for that, anyways,” He said to her. Rhea went silent at that as she looked down moment before she looked up. “I wanted to check on you.”

“Look… I’m sorry, it’s just…” She mumbled, trying to find the right words to say. “I’m just trying to keep it together at this point.”

“I know. I get it. It’s been rough, but look, I’m here if you need anything and—”

“No, Reigns, it’s…” Rhea trailed off as she sighed deeply. For some unknown reason, she felt a knot form on her throat as she tried to compose herself as she spoke. “…I’m sorry, I don’t want to sound like a dick, but…I need some space. I need some time. Alone.”

“...Well, if that's what you want- if that’s what you need, then that’s what i’ll give you.” He softly cupped her face before placing a gentle kiss on her forehead, as if saying goodbye. He then gave her one last look before walking away, right when tears began to fall down her cheeks.

“Fuck.” She cursed underneath her breath as she went back inside her room and locked the door behind her. She allowed her tears to fall from her eyes as she rested her back against the door. She then looked down at her hand and realized that she still had his shirt.

He never took it back.

Without a word, she simply went to turn off the lamp in her room before she laid down in bed, holding the piece of cloth close to her and even hugging it for dear life as she laid on her side. Had she made the right choice?

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[visible-schizo-spectrum]

I am so sorry for the trolls and general assholes you have to deal with, but I wanted to say how comforting it is to see a transfem on here who is supportive of transmascs. A lot of the time it feels like the best we can get is people vaguely acknowledging we exist. Just is not super common seeing people make an effort to make a safe space for us and to actively advocate for us. I live in a pretty conservative place where I don't have any queer friends period, so online queer spaces are the best I really get. It feels alienating a lot of the time. Sorry to ramble at you, it just feels important to tell you how much you are appreciated.

luv u sm anon. i was born and lived most of my life in south carolina. ik where ur at rn, and one day u will be in a better and safer place. it can be scary to have only the internet to see other queer ppl only for the other queer ppl to be just as hateful. hope u find some ppl

[fruitbasketball]

who are we most likely to play? i don't fully get how this works or what the predictions are :)

hi baby no worries :)

i’m going off of bracketology rn, so take this with a grain of salt. they have us in portland 3, so from what i’m pulling from the current bracket, we’re going to go:

stony brook (W)

then it’s a toss up between arizona/duke (W)

then LSU Sweet 16 (… i’m not predicting this)

if we make it past LSU we’ll prolly meet stanny in the elite 8 (also not predicting this)

if we beat stanny we’re in the final 4, which i think will be:

UConn

UCLA

Texas

South Carolina

(yes i am taking texas over usc. no, i do not think iowa will make the final 4 this year)

my predictions and the road to cleveland are both going to change after selection sunday today but i hope that answers your question for now!

[allofthebees]

Notable things during my travels:

Georgia- saw a giant pile of shucked shellfish, like HUGE pile, near some ppl fishing on a bridge. Was pretty cool lol. Lots of billboards for peaches

South Carolina- I felt very threatened here

North Carolina- Strangely nonthreatening despite being the Northern version of the state covered in religious propaganda. But we mostly drove a straight line through without stopping and it rained here and there. Looked like waterfalls in the sky with how scattered about the rainfall was :)

Virginia- slept in a hotel here. Was normal. Nothing notable except there was a pretty patch of blue grass on the drive out :)

Maryland- smoggy :/

New Jersey- Rude drivers 👎

New York- George Washington bridge was rough and patchy and covered in trash. Traffic bad 👎 oh also there were ppl running around the traffic selling watermelon and. Limes?

Connecticut- Pretty mountains :)

Massachusetts- Not much to note rn it's just long roads with trees lol. I am noticing that the further I've traveled up the less billboards I've seen. Honestly thought it'd be the opposite

I am almost to new Hampshire. New beginnings and shit lol

[captainimprobable]

Things!

-I slept til 4pm today.  I mean, I woke up at one for lunch! but then i went back to sleep.  My sleep study cant come soon enough bc I am TIRED and I want to know WHY -I tried writing today and it didn’t work.  Very annoying. -Bought a Mabel Pines wig today, and sent in a payment for a commission for timeskip amity’s wig! I really wanted to do the wig myself, but the base wig I needed is on backorder, and I only have three months left, so I decided to commission it.  I might also buy the costume from etsy? idk i havent decided if I wanna make it myself or not -Randomly going to South Carolina in July bc if I don’t leave NY for a few days sometime soon I will explode -Really weird being single again.  It’s just reminding me again how SMALL my dating pool is, since I only date aces now.  I also want someone Jewish, but to hope for a Jewish ace (who cosplays, that’s actually important to me) is ridiculous so I won’t hold out for that. I wonder what it’s like to be able to just date? To scroll on apps and be able to swipe on anyone you find attractive without worrying about whether or not they’re going to be bitchy about sex or not...wild -Anyway my ex is gonna be my date to my prom, which I know may sound weird but it works.  We only dated for 3 months, and while yeah I love her as a person, the romantic feelings weren’t really there for either of us.  Which is also why I feel ready to date again immediately.  Again, sounds weird, but it makes a lot of sense to me. -Considering making a huge sign for Pride that says “Building an asexual army, gimme your socials if you wanna be involved” bc I want to know more ace people -Have a lot of anxious energy rn!!! For no reason! I feel like I want to run around the block but also lie down under my bed at the same time? Mental illness is weird. -Wait no as I’m writing this I’m getting like. Really sad. I think it’s catching up to me. Im single again I have to go through dating AGAIN and holy shit? Its gonna be impossible if Im only dating aces???????????? What the FUCK

[snow-lumi]

Finsexual

Getting friends and dick

Yeah

None rn, maybe later

6

Shared flat with cute trannies

Trans girls with supportive families

Technology Connections / Citation Needed

Not rn cuz extended NNN. Otherwise I like t4t stuff

No

Me and my df to my bed instead of theirs

Being out at work

Not against per se, but not explicitly interested

Poorly. Oh, maybe buy a flat or 3 (to remove from the market)

Yeah :3

Not technically, I think?

Uncomfortable to think about, so my brain doesn't even process this

Stylized 陰 and 陽 (cuz regular taijitu is too generic)

Yeah. First (chosen) name is private but middle name Lumi

MTG

My df is incredibly nice and hot

@tananansad

Porter Robinson - Synthion - MCR - 稲葉曇 - Shingo Nakamura

I like east asia and south east asia, but I know too little to say where I'd actually enjoy going there

I keep my expectations low so that all positive experiences are a good surprise 😌 But generally I love going on (platonic) dates

Wiiiiii....nter? I mean I'm called snow for a reason, but it is socially inconvenient, so I might have to rethink.

My mind is not organized in a way where I have this stuff ready. Ig normalized negativity.

I don't keep track, but I know a north carolina girl who practically communicates in memes.

Idk

I'm proud to say that I have already talked to everyone who comes to mind

Paper. Tho tbh I don't really read.

I don't work like that.

The way money influences my wardrobe is more in perpetuating my executive dysfunction and stifling my transition. I am able to afford most of what I decide to get.

Vegan hot chocolate

Yeah, many trans girls. God bless polyamory

Not really relationshippy ones, but I feel a kind of familial love still.

Not yet

I'm a lightweight, but I like cocktails and I like the taste of good wines and booze. If there were proper nonalcoholic replacements I'd switch in most circumstances, but it's not the same.

No

Not actively, although most of them are hot

Idk

Me. (lol idk, I don't keep track)

YouTube, I guess? I don't keep track of this.

Not currently. I'm bad at reading, even when there is an incentive. I tried using it to motivate studying japanese, but lazy. Also no female gaze t4t manga

I don't think I've been on a bad one yet. I expect platonic dates by default, so I haven't been disappointed by anything.

Idk

No.

Themselves. But yk, I'd like them to be nice to talk to and to be interested in sex with me.

It used to be my ex, idk who it is rn.

I like a strong wind in the summer. Also snow.

Be nosy

1. What’s your sexual orientation?

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

3. Ever done any drugs?

4. What piercings do you want?

5. How many people have you kissed?

6. Describe your dream home.

7. Who are you jealous of?

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

9. Do you watch porn?

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

15. Are you in a relationship?

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

18. What tattoos do you want?

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

21. Describe your best friend.

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

24. What are three places you want to travel?

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

26. What’s your favorite season?

27. What’s your pet peeve?

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

34. What’s your coffee order?

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

37. Have any tattoos?

38. Do you drink?

39. Are you a virgin?

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

41. How many followers do you have?

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

44. Do you read erotica?

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

46. How many people do you follow?

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

48. Describe your ideal partner.

49. Who do you text the most?

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

[transparenciess]

vent: moving back to ny

as for moving back to ny:

c for sure plays a bit into some of my thoughts, however i refuse to move for someone like that when i’m not even in a committed relationship with them.

it’s really a mix of things. i got my bachelors in may, which was the only reason i really didn’t consider going anywhere else for the past few years bc i really wanted to stick it out and finish college. now that i have that i can pretty much go anywhere.

i can’t stay here on the off chance that my friends decide not to move too. i don’t even know what cali is doing since i never see her but she could definitely move at any time. eli wants to move to another town and once they score a teaching job will definitely have to move anyways. they actually are thinking of moving to ny too which is cool. tabby is staying in boone and has sutton and i don’t want to leave her but i have to think abt my future 😭 the rent here is insane, legit i could pay what i am paying now for my place in upstate ny and have a super nice apartment rather this old and outdated building.

c offered to move in but i put up a solid boundary that i don’t want to live with someone unless i’m in love and dating that person to which she accepted that and didn’t pressure me or say anything weird. i really am giving it til next week to see if our changing relationship goes anywhere. but i am certainly not moving in with her unless we’re in a relationship. last night i was info dumping over a discord call about my favorite fanfic love trope (slowburn idiots/idiot friends to lovers) and she said “have you ever considered that we might be in that trope currently?” all coy and shit 😳 so i definitely have some confirmation that she wants to take this much slower. i’m hoping that in person has more clarifying communication and that expectations are made clear. i tend to jump the gun in matters of love so it’s definitely a change in my habits to embark on this. even with ally we starting dating ldr quickly after confirming we mutually liked each other. oof.

another main motivator is honestly the state and its laws. “don’t say gay” and a bunch of others recently got passed and it’s starting to feel unsafe. there are ofc a ton of queer ppl in the south but it’s getting really scary and extremists are getting more comfortable exhibiting their behavior in public spaces. things like abortion access are also becoming unavailable and things are changing in a dystopian way on top of the cost of living too.

weed is illegal here and we don’t even have medical use. the job market sucks and the minimum wage is 7.25. if i can get the job in NY i would also finally have good health insurance and it would be a lot easier to survive bc my medication cost is insane rn. new york is definitely expensive but once i have a job with an established flow of money i’ll be able to live in a moderately nice apartment. my dad offered to let me crash at his place while i wait for that to happen.

another is ofc friends and family. i deeply cherish my grandparents and they aren’t getting any younger 🙁 my nan also lives alone and i want to be there for her as much as possible. i might start trying to stay with her over some weekends or days i have off bc she has my catholic racist uncle and my mom as her main contacts so i think i’m required to hold down her sanity. also i know she gets really lonely. my other grandparents, i also want to see more. i’m thinking of seeing if i can join my grandmas book club or sewing club again.

and then ofc aja, maria, and deirdre. deers is in boston but that is a heck of a lot closer to upstate ny than north carolina. maria is still between bspa and the city. id also be able to see my cousin jake a ton more along with alena potentially moving closer to her og town.

idk if i want to stay in ny forever, i can always save up over time if i want to move far away again. the state job would hopefully let me save for grad school and after a year or two i can take a sabbatical to do the JET program and come back home to an actual stable job which would be great. idk if i’ll go to grad school in ny but i’d eventually like to end up (potentially) in syracuse.

cons of ny:

for sure the cost of living is high, however where i live now is insane and even a bit more expensive tbh.

i wouldn’t see my brother or mom or stepdad as often. (i rarely see them now tbh so i would definitely fly into charlotte airport whenever possible/air fare prices are low so i can hang with my brother). i wanted to stay in nc longer for the sake of my brother but i can’t keep putting my own happiness on the line when i’m barely home enough in the first place.

ofc my friends and how much i’d miss them

i go to so many concerts in nc it’s insane and i’ve noticed how inaccesible that was to me in ny. jake lives near philly tho so i’ve considered just going to a lot of concerts with him and crashing at his place a lot. he wants to move to the west coast eventually so that would suck but it still would be nice to see him more anyways.

i really love appalachia. the ability to drive 15-20 minutes to look at a literal mountainscape whenever i’m sad is truly a unique experience. it’s definitely my third space. so that will suck to lose. but i’ll be able to go up to the camp basically whenever i want so i feel like that’s a good deal.

i genuinely love some parts of nc so it does suck.

i’ve also never existed as an adult in ny, since i moved to nc immediately after graduating high school. so i’m honestly a bit terrified since to me what i once called home is like a foreign place to me now. which is kind of why i’m attracted to syracuse in a sense too, since i’ve actually never been there and i really like how lgbt friendly and progressive the city is. also the rent is cheaper than boone which is kind of hilarious. it all depends on where my state job ends up but i’ve also considered seeing if i could work for the university.

it’s a tough decision but it’s really feeling like the pros outweigh the cons.

[butterfly-109]

Self-Portrait

Who am I?

My name is Yessenia Magaly Navarro. I was born in Bradenton, FL on January 15th, 2001, thus making me 21 years old; I will be 22 soon! I am a Hispanic female; my mother is from Mexico and my father is from El Salvador. For fun I like to go to the gym, hangout with friends and family, cooking, and of course shopping. I am currently unemployed to focus on school as that is my number one priority. I am an LPN working towards becoming an RN; my previous employment was at a pediatric office. I got married last year to my husband who is in the marines. I travel back and forth from Florida to South Carolina to spend time with him. I have a cat named Oso who is the most loving, laziest thing you'll ever meet, and I also have a dog named Bella who is the most energetic, happiest thing you'll ever meet. I am somewhat of a perfectionist, again somewhat. One more fact about me that is of most importance is that I hate Oreos, sorry!

[rorygilmre]

i am LOSING MY MIND as a clemson fan rn. this is the greatest rivalry in the state of south carolina.

[stillknowyournumber]

11.18.22

I had therapy today. Sat in my car that has no gas and an expired registration and complained about my mom for an hour. Fuck her and her relapses.

Then I went to Jordan’s works event thing. It was a thanksgiving potluck. I always feel so fucking awkward at his work events cause idk how to talk to big corporate ppl. I’m so awkward.

While I was there the Holivia BUA dropped which was nice.

After we left, we were gonna go bowling but decided not to on the way home. Actually I decided not to go. Ya know, anxiety and whatnot.

I got home, twittered for a bit. Blocked some ppl again. Then jordan wanted to see black panther wakanda forever so we did. It was so fucking long we got home at 1:30 AM. It was good but fuck it was long.

Now I’m home and I hit my dab pen once I kind of want to do it again but idk. We’ll see.

I need to decide if I’m going to fucking Mexico next week or not. Fuck my mom for making me struggle making this decision. She’s still blocked in my phone.

The choices rn are I drive to South Carolina on Monday night and stay the whole week with my in-laws or I stay home for thanksgiving and go to Mexico on Friday with my toxic alcoholic mother.

Idk what to do. I hate it here rn.

My Harry pcd is so bad rn.