#I am genuinely unwell

[piratewinzer]

Nathan not being able to keep it together after getting hit in the face with the sammie is everything to me y'know

[witchhazelevesque]

Oh. What better more powerful way would there have been to declare her allegiance than Cytherea’s decision to take “Loveday” as her second name? The name meant to show House affiliation? When Lyctors’ loyalty is meant to be to “one House and one House only”?

[iamthejam]

i need to rant about sam right quick.... more specifically the whole demon blood era cause OH MY GOSH.

 sam thought he was doing the right thing yet everything warned him against it: dean, bobby, catiel, angels, HIMSELF, yet his mindset was if he kept a level head he could keep going, but how can you tell if youre going insane?? youre not gonna be like "hey myself, yeah this is totally wrong." sam knew he was helping people. HOW could you stop helping people, doing your job??? he had so much trust in ruby, which saddens me HOW much trust. dean was dead. he wasnt coming back. how is sam supposed to cope with that normally?? the only person he loved more than anything, the person he'd been through everything with, the person that was the thing only grounding him in the insane life they live in. with that gone how are you supposed to go on? well after doing quite literally everything he thought of trying to get dean back, he had no hope. but he needed something to take the place of dean, which ruby had taken the chance in sams weakened state and slipped in. now tell me how sam wasnt going to trust her?? he was blinded, to everything. he did the one thing he knew to do: save people. when someone tells you can save more people, wouldnt you take the opportunity?? sam did.

like i said earlier, he was blinded, so he really couldnt see he was slowly turning himself into something he promised himself he wouldnt, all he saw was the people he saved. when dean finally came back he didnt stop, i mean why would he? he kept going, and going and going, at this point he had almost completely lost himself. it didnt matter that he had dean, he had already come to reality that dean was gone.

now DONT GET ME STARTED ON DEAN FINDING OUT. how could dean not freak? now its deans turn to come to reality: his little brother is addicted to demon blood. what? his sammy?? no, no his sammy wouldnt do that... right? i mean he would see that ruby is no good. right? he would see past the people he was saving and know he was turning himself into a freak. right!?! no. it wasnt his sam. now what is dean supposed to do? it obviously wasnt his brother, his brother wouldnt do that.

so he and bobby did what they thought was the best attempt to help him: cage him. like a violent animal, which was what sam was slowly becoming. 

now if you think that was hard for dean to do, think about sam. sam was being thrown into a panic room because his family thought he was a freak. he was helping people why couldnt they see that? and why couldnt sam see he was losing himself? everybody thought they knew what was best. they thought was right. 

i just cant see. how are you supposed to cage your brother without even talking? how are you supposed to think drinking demon blood was for the greater? i cant see a right here.

when sam was in the bunker room the demon blood threw the last punches it could. it made sam hallucinate, it made him think mary was on his side, that dean and bobby were only scared of his power, it made his younger self talk him down, it made dean say nasty things. it threw him around the room like a rag doll. it made him believe allister was torturing him in the worst ways possible. all this happened as he screamed and screamed; no one came. the people he loved left him to die it felt like.

so when he got free why wouldnt he run as far as he could? as far away from bobby and dean as he could get, mentally and physically.

[nice-serpent]

just read the devil’s minion chapter…

[spidergrotto]

“ what keeps you going? ”

irondad fanfiction.

[shadowspirez]

god i hope he's unshaven

i KNOW he'd be soooo damn musky with all that groovin, like gotdamn bbg let me get my face between them holo thighs and spitshine them digi-balls like a pornstar, my ass could get high off that 🥴

[ierogenvy]

watching episodes so i can clip them for an amv is devastating. tell me why i said “that was cute” about dean, in the background of sam talking about the case, smell testing clothes

[cryobabyy]

He’s so husband coded. This is a man that would call me from the grocery store to ask if we needed oat milk despite me specifically telling him we needed oat milk before he left. This man would fall asleep with the tv on full volume and claim he was still watching when I turn it off. This man refers to myself and the 5 daughters I produced as “his girls” and has a #1 girl dad bumper sticker. I have never seen a more husband coded man in my life. God bless him.

[vicsy]

Something about Lance taking Fernando to his favorite childhood place just screams “soulmates” to me.

[megabuild]

one day i will write up an explanation for you my sweet

[skitskatdacat63]

I'm not getting over this one any time soon

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it's only natural to feel anger when somebody isn't "taking your advice" or listening to you about their mental health or what will help them. People want to help people, and the anger comes when you are perceiving somebody as not being receptive but...

It can be a selfish impulse to say that your opinion about their illness is the only thing they need. It isn't about you, even though the advice you give is given by you.

Nobody deserves to suffer, this is true. But, also, nobody deserves to be forced to do things that either won't help or won't be genuine. If somebody isn't taking your advice, there's a reason for it (maybe it's not a good enough reason for you, but this isn't the point). It's okay to be disappointed or angry, but it's not going to help to lash out at them. That is only pouring water onto a grease fire.

[menlove]

some days you just have to put "(just like) starting over" on repeat and just stare at a wall for a few hours about it

[rmsstevielol]

i just spent half an hour hysterically crying over what could’ve been with John Laurens, the last time that Laurens and Hamilton ever saw each other and Hamilton finding out about his death… history is horrible

[p4nishers]

sure WE know why loki went after sylvie and WE know what they said but yk who doesn't? mobius. he thinks after everything they've gone thru, after sticking his neck out for loki several times, after not giving up on them and standing by their side and basically falling from grace for them and believing in them, they still chose sylvie. he thinks even his best was not enough in the light of sylvie and he doesn't KNOW that loki went there to defend him and pretty much confess they feel love for him like thor did for jane, he doesn't know that and he is SO hurt. he can barely look at loki when he next sees them, he talks in a very measured tone and quickly glances away when he isn't speaking and every line in his body is tense. he's angry, he's hurt and whatever happens to them after the loom explodes, he will go through it thinking loki once again chose sylvie. that he wasn't enough.

[clotpolesonly]

Jordan - Call Down The Hawk ch 34 // Declan - Greywaren ch 15 // Declan - Call Down The Hawk ch 69