#I admit sometimes I'm attracted to women who scare me

[gyougherea]

crp/mh pride hcs

got inspired by a mutual (the-s1lly-corner) <3 i wanna have a silly post about my silly guys. under cut bc i might get long

jeff the killer

jeff feels very greyrom/aro bisexual to me, i think he "prefers" women because he doesn't wanna admit he's bisexual at first. idk if he explicitly uses the greyrom label or anything but it describes him pretty well. he/him

liu woods / homicidal liu

can we give it up for TRANSHETS!!!!!!! realized he was trans (ftm) at a young age, didn't get to transition until adulthood because the only family who supported him was jeff. mainly to hide from his past he's also stealth about being transgender. he/him

sully (liu's cohost and protector) is arohet i think? idk haven't thought much but i do think liu and sully have slightly different seuxalities. it/he (EDIT: its sexuality is also influenced by the fact that it's an introject of jeff)

jane the killer

lesbian and also trans mtf!!! transbian jane epic win. i think she knew for a while that she was a lesbian and then also realized she was trans in high school as she was going further through puberty. i think she's femme lesbian specifically??? she/her

nina the killer

bisexual (initially had a pref for women, now just has a pref for the glasgow killer, aka jeff), cis girl but LOOOOOVES experimenting with pronouns!!! she/her default but PLEASE use neopronouns on her she would literally die for you if you got wacky with it

ben drowned

even if he wasn't ethereally both 12 and 32 he would still 100% be aroace. that shit does not intrigue him! he also uses he/they pronouns, maybe it/its. lost their gender in the whole becoming a computer shit

ticci toby

transmasc nonbinary, biromantic asexual! he/him pronouns specifically, despite not being a man he really leans into masculine terms and also even is on T and gave himself top surgery! yes. to himself. don't ask. it looks awful. world's worst top surgery scars award

clockwork

she/her. not butch not femme but a secret third thing (the butchest lesbian twitter can handle before getting scared /ref)

tim wright (two hcs)

normal hc is that he's biromantic aceflux! he doesn't really have a preference, frankly he's nervous about entering a serious relationship regardless of gender. his asexuality is kind of a roulette; he also probably falls between sex-neutral and sex-repulsed. he/him

"my house now" hc is that he's an intersex butch lesbian (not sure which exact intersex disorder but one of the ones i'm debating is something with 46,xx dsd?) that doesn't care about gender but uses he/him and masc terms because someone called him that and he was like "why not lol". he/him but frankly not offended if any other pronouns used

masky uses he/they in the first hc, it/its in the second hc

brian thomas (two hcs)

normal hc is that he's a gay man! discovered he was gay pretty early on in life and was probably tim's unofficial bisexual awakening back in college. very open about his identity, he's like the queer beacon in my eyes. he/him

"my house now" hc is that he's a lesbian and trans mtf! for the longest time she thought she was a bisexual man, but then in her late 20s to early 30s realized that not only did she feel like One Of The Girls(TM) but also that the only "man" she was attracted to was tim, who's not a man, so whoops! transbian time! she/her

hoodie uses he/it in the first hc, it/they in the second hc

jay merrick

trans ftm and bisexual! went on T but hasn't gotten top or bottom surgery before becoming the nefarious skully or whatever. cracked his egg in college, but probably figured out he was biseuxal in high school. he/him

skully uses no labels just vibes. queer/abrosexual and genderfluid are probably the labels that best describe them but again they don't fucking care. they/them default but sometimes uses others depending on which of their "many" are at the forefront

jessica locke

now if that's not the biggest lesbian i have ever seen in my life... her and taylor absolutely get married in lesbians after the comics are over. jessica probably always knew she didn't like boys but didn't realize she liked girls until a fateful sleepover in middle school or something. she/her

nothing specific for the others rn, might make a part 2 if i come up with more <3 adios

[step-on-me-khun]

Hello ~ can I have a hickey prank HCs where S/o faking it to see the reactions of Eduan-Yama-Jinsung-White..each separately pls? Have a wonderful day

hello. i have to be honest, i've never heard of this - I'm never on tiktok, so I literally had to google what the hickey prank even is - if I get this a bit wrong, please forgive me

warning(s): threatening behaviour, and White, because he's one giant warning words: n/a taglist: @unexceptional-h @rizonacigaravenue @koi-chairowo @aoi-turtle @bangchanbin

Eduan

He's handsome, appealing, and, of course, he's the head of the Khun family - possibly the most attractive family ever

He would forever be proud of a lovebite he left on a woman, that included you

Eduan's quite the womaniser, so noticing a lovebite on someone other than another person he'd made love with made no difference

But you decided to test that, wondering the outcome

As you happened upon his field of vision, you slowed down and sat nearby smiling at him

Of course he notices, but just doesn't seem to think there's a problem

It's just a lovebite after all, and he didn't really care if you were with anyone else

It just confuses him a bit when you keep moving your hair away from your neck

But he just goes back to his business, not paying you any mind at all

You keep trying to get his attention, until he continues to wonder what you're up to

"Got allergies, or something?"

"What? No,"

"Then what's with that fake-looking lovebite?"

"It's not fake,"

"Okay, good for you,"

"It doesn't bother you?" it got you annoyed

"Why would it? There're other women, so you getting with someone else isn't my business,"

It descends into the opposite of jealousy, and you have to admit that you were attempting to prank him

To which, he sighs and facepalms

Yama

He's someone who could be pretty territorial, he's a dog so that's understandable

And also loyal, although he doesn't show it

So if you flaunt something obvious to him, he'll react, unless it's small, in that case, good luck getting his attention

And he's tall too, so you have to catch him when he's sitting down otherwise you've missed an opportunity

It was after meeting with his brothers, Yama's mind was nowhere and you happened to walk in front of him and stop, turning your head to flash the purple bruise you had created

Sometimes, Yama was oblivious, and other times he was able to take a hint

And he was able to take the hint, and as he notices he tenses up

"How did you get that mark?" He asks as he stands up, intimidating as fuck

"I-ugh, I don't know what you're talking about?" You begin to play with your hair, and he made you feel scared and anxious. Maybe this wasn't a good idea

"Stop playing dumb, who gave you that bruise?"

"No one,"

"Stop lying to me,"

Now you knew that playing a prank on Yama was a bad decision, you had to tell him

"Okay, okay, it's a prank, I'm sorry,"

Yama's eyes looked deadly like you were the next thing he was going to fight

"Never do that again, we're through if you play those types of tricks again,"

You've felt awful and scared since

Jinsung

Would notice the smallest of things about you, and knows of certain trends and tricks

Never in a million years would he ever think you were capable of pulling a tiktok prank on him

He's anything but gullible though, and when he thinks you're acting strange, he will confront you

You had to plan everything away from him, without acting suspicious

He could be silly at times, embarrassing Baam at any given moment, and if you were in front of others while showing off something, he would make sure everyone else knew too

But when he was serious, he could be scary, so predicting what the outcome would be was useless

As you enter the room Jinsung was in, you stare at him with confusion, then stood there, hoping he'd notice

"Did you forget something?" He asked

"I don't know?"

"You trying to hide something from me, precious angel?"

"Hide something?"

A look of sadness appeared on his face

"What's with that expression? Is something wrong?"

"There's someone else, isn't there?"

"What? Of course, there isn't,"

His eyes stare at you, and you could see a mixture of sadness and anger, but more sadness. This was something you didn't account for

"Where did you get that lovebite from, then?"

You wipe away the makeup and try not to avoid staring him in the eye

"Sorry, I was trying to prank you,"

"Oh, I need some time to think," he says before leaving you alone for a bit

Never do it again, you didn't end up breaking up, but still, you learnt now knew what Jinsung looked like when he was upset

White

Being around you made him a proud asshole, not that that was enough to make you constantly stay beside him. He was a jerk

White would be oblivious when it came to you planning anything, and he didn't care, unless it was about him

Pranks generally didn't affect him, he viewed them as unneeded and unnecessary

But that didn't stop you from being a little bit curious, what would be like if he saw a lovebite on you, one that wasn't his?

You playfully walk over to White and sit down beside him, the bruise on your neck on show

You were hoping he would notice you, but unfortunately, he didn't

So, you decided to move around next to him, reaching into your pockets to look for something that wasn't there, and tucking your hair behind your ear

"You're moving around too much," White complains

"I'm sorry, I can't get comfy,"

"And why are making that bruise so obvious, you've never been so proud of one before now, you're not trying to gain my attention are you?"

"What? You mean the small mark on my neck?"

"That's not small,"

"And when did I imply that you were what caused it?"

That question made White's smug expression fade, leaving behind one that was much scarier

"Who do I have to kill to make you understand you are only mine?" White's hand grabs onto your jaw. "I'll let this mistake slide, but don't think I'll ever be able to forgive-"

"It's a prank! It's a prank! I would never dream of betraying you,"

"Don't toy with me, (Y/N), or I might have to treat you really roughly, and give you lovebites that you'll be unable to hide,"

How could someone go from frightening in a scary way to frightening in an exciting way?

Either way, you weren't trying a prank like that again, your relationship wouldn't survive that, and maybe you wouldn't either

don't steal anything I write or translate on another platform

[seeminglyseph]

while like. yeah, I can understand that there are absolutely straight furries out there, het omegaverse always feels like it's like. missing the point of omegaverse to me.

omegaverse feels like it exists as a deliberately queer concept and like. exploration of fucked up mating concepts as well as gender exploration with some kinda kinky animalistic fuckery involved as well as some breeding kink and exploring what it means if gender dynamics and sexuality were like. profoundly *different* from what they are now and we weren't in a society based around "men have gonads which create sperm which are deposited into the female who have gonads which create eggs which receive sperm and are carried in the womb during pregnancy for mating."

like. Het Omegaverse is like. "That but the alphas are more aggressive and the omegas are more submissive and breedable" and it just feels like... I'm not shitting on it entirely because like, if I like the fantasy of being ravished then I'm sure there are girlies out there who want to be ravished but it's like, not subversive. it's just werewolf smut. And half the time they'll like. do *so* much to cut all the furry stuff out of it and just make it toxic psychological dramas with trad-wife fantasies. which like. sure, butter your biscuit to it I guess.

But Queer Omegaverse feels built on "what if gender and sex were independent and society was was built on a foundation of different ideas of what gender meant" and Het Omegaverse feels like "what if gender roles were so fucking traditional and men were so toxic and virile, and women were so dainty and the best ones were fertile, barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen?" and like. I get that it's a romantic and sexual fantasy, and like. sometimes you just want to fantasize about being wanted. and I don't want to take that away from people or say that wanting to just... daydream about some fantasy of a man being really really attracted to you is bad. because daydreaming about that stuff is fun. That's to point of smut. and like. half of gay omegaverse is literally just "I wanna daydream about being bred by my werewolf boyfriend who is feral with his lust for me, and all my lame domestic skills are actually really attractive to him. please find my submissive nature deeply appealing instead of embarrassing." so like. this *isn't* kink shaming entirely. I fully understand like. why it's attractive and why it exists and why it's written and read and indulged in.

I just think the two are fully different genres in a way that like. Is hard to explain without sounding fucking batshit??? like in general het smut can have breeding kinks and stuff really easily already. Omegaverse was created to restructure the universe around new gender dynamics and politics to create whole new systems and medicines and like sometimes even governments to structure a furry eroticism fake breeding system for queer romances and sexualities and genders. Het romance is often too scared to touch on queer subject matter to blend the gender dynamics, so I fully like. Don't know what is explored besides the main character's bodies???

And I mean I have my issues with queer omegaverse! When they make the dude's asshole a cloaca for example! I hate when that happens! like. just do some alternative genital configurations or something, I don't know. or lean into the fact you obviously made it a cloaca, since no one seems to admit that. honestly part of me just is kinda curious how the whole genital configuration makes sense for a lot of omegaverse since there's a lot of misunderstanding about how genitals work, but like. I can write my own if I'm so concerned. that's fine. I just wanna make a point that like, nobody's perfect. while I admire the concept of queer omegaverse for redefining gender roles, that's not how all queer omegaverse works and I know that. and het omegaverse could be written really really well by a talented author. just 'cause I haven't read it and... admittedly am not hugely interested, doesn't mean it's impossible.

But in general I think the only way to fully make omegaverse work is to embrace the weird shit. change the genitals, change the genders, change how society is built, change how people identify, change how relationships are made, change the power structures. Do weird fucked up shit and embrace that it's weird and fucked up. if you do then it will be more a more compelling story.

if it's just smut feel free to disregard because that's fine sometimes you just want daydream fodder and that's fair, but I think sometimes you just need to like. realize you've created a cloaca and that's weirder than just giving a man a pussy??? or a pussy and a dick? or coming up with something new and majestic? or something. I don't know. or if you're gonna have a fucking cloaca lay some eggs. fuck around with it. that's like, my really specific omegaverse pet peeve. the fucking cloaca.

[destinyc1020]

To the anon who brought up Timothee and Z, you’re not slick lol. You think I don’t know a timdaya when I see one? As a long time Timothee stan since 2017 and Tomdaya I can assure you Tim and Z are nothing but friends lol. That’s it. Timothee isn’t a weirdo okay. One of the reason I stan him that his values as a person are pure and genuine. His closest circle of ppl revolves around gay men, men and women. He grew up with an older sister. He’s not one of those guys who can’t separate friendship and attraction with a woman. I wouldn’t not be a fan of him this long if that was the case. He’s a very attractive man with a lot of options beyond just Hollywood lol. Yes Z is beautiful but there’s a lot of beautiful women even more than Z.

This isn’t the first time he posted his female friends on the gram Taylor Russell has a whole layout dedicated to her by Timothee and No says anything about them. Yes, I’m aware of the Tnt rumours but now we know she’s dating Harry and most of that was just PR for Bones and All so…

I think Timothee shot himself in the foot making that 2020 bday post to Z. He now has an expectation to post every year to Z because his stans and Z’s stans get on him on Twitter lol. He might be giving bday posts until he dies or at least until the Dune franchise is done filming lol. So don’t worry pls, these two are just besties, only.

Though I’ve been giving Timothee praise, it doesn’t absolve him from criticism. His dating life is a mess.

I’m gonna get pushback but when has Timothee ever dated a black/biracial woman? Going to Darnell’s cookout don’t count lol. Growing up in New York don’t count lol. Listening to rap and music from colorists don’t count. Yes, I’m aware I’m being very strict with him. As a black fan I had to wake up from that kool aid. His words and his actions are very different lol.

All his exes and flings have been blondes and brunettes so to think him are Z are dating is just funny to me. His public persona is very different to his private lol. At least with Leo, you know his type is just models. Timothee is so secretive that I honestly feel he’s ashamed at whoever he hooks up with lol. If I was famous I wouldn’t want to date someone who’s ashamed of me and we have to constantly hide and date in secret.

As a fan of his work mainly, who he sleeps with is really not my business. I believe wholeheartedly in celeb and fan separation. However, dating Kylie was a choice lol. I don’t agree with the misogyny she has gotten from his fans, however dating a yt woman who brought her features emulating black/biracial women and profited on the insecurities of others and preach about social media’s impact on society again, a choice lol. I’m still a stan I just side eye him time to time I can’t lie.

In conclusion, Timdaya are cool besties but just besties.

Thanks for your input Anon! 👏🏾 It sounds like you have a very healthy view of your fave, and that's good. You don't put Timmy on a pedestal, you still love and appreciate him, but you recognize that his dating life can be a mess sometimes lol. 😅

Honestly, that's where I am with Austin and his "baby sitting duties" that he's currently in with the Gerber Baby as well rotfl.🤣 Like, I love Austin, but this current rlshp is just no bueno to me. 🥴 Don't get me wrong, I'm happy if he's happy, but I will never ship it. 😤

Imo, that's a healthy way to be with your faves. Like, you love them, but you don't idolize them to the point where you feel scared to admit things you don't quite like. 😊

I’m gonna get pushback but when has Timothee ever dated a black/biracial woman? Going to Darnell’s cookout don’t count lol. Growing up in New York don’t count lol. Listening to rap and music from colorists don’t count. Yes, I’m aware I’m being very strict with him. As a black fan I had to wake up from that kool aid. His words and his actions are very different lol.

I understand what you're trying to say Anon, but idk if I would look at Timmy's dating life to assume the type of person he would date in the future. No offense, but MOST people date intraracially anyway. 🤷🏾‍♀️ That's nothing new.

Plus, you can't always go by someone's "type". Tom Holland had always only dated white girls before he met Zendaya. 🤷🏾‍♀️ Who knew Tom Hiddleston would end up dating and having a baby with Zawe after he dated Taylor Swift? Who knew Nick Jonas would end up MARRYING an INDIAN woman who's older than him?? 🤣

Like, I get your point Anon lol, but c'mon...there's a first time for EVERYTHING. I don't even think Z had really dated a white man before she met Tom. So, you can't always look at someone's PREVIOUS dating habits to assume who they might be attracted to or who they might date in the future. I sure as heck didn't ever see Timmy dating someone like Kylie lol.

[lulupen2023]

My very first BellDom fic 5/23

Summary:

Do you want to meet a Matthew who sees conspiracy everywhere (oh wait, this is not big news!) and is so fond of his trolley that he treat it like a sort of puppy? Do you want to meet a Dominic in love with… himself (and with Matt, too, of course!)? And do you want to meet a Chris who wants to prove to the world he's the most masculine guy ever… but is unavoidably attracted by every… female hobby? This is what you'll find in this story, among lots of BellDom and… craziness!

Summary of the chapter: Guilty sense, fake attempts of suicide, chats, nervous reactions and.. much more!

You know, I like the characters in my stories to have some whims .. an example?

Well, 'this ' Matt will love ships as much as he hates old people.. don't ask me why.. I don't even know why, it's just that he turned out like that.. and I decided to keep him like that ;-P. Plus, he will be kind of .. very insane ( in a good sense, of course ) , sometimes .. What About Dom? Well, he will be very, very childish, sometimes, and just * a little bit * narcissistic .. ;) And Chris? Well, he will get pretty paranoid once in a while.. and .. no, I'd better not reveal too much ! ;)

a little note: when I firstly write this one I didn't know that 'brunette' and 'blonde' was meant for girls/women , so you could find it pretty often referred to Matt and Dom, sowwy :/ well, this and tons of other mistakes I guess :(

I'll try to correct when I see them

Chapter V: I Think We' Re In Trouble

Matt and Dom try to spend the rest of the night with Chris, as if nothing happened.

About their friend, he really seems to have removed the previous episode, and that's maybe thanks to the most efficient of the Freudian defence mechanism.

Instead, the other two don't want to forget anything at all, but at the same time they don't even want to talk about it, not that night at least.

Above their heads there 's the same dense and gloomy cloud that is better known as guilty sense.

There's no need to say towards whom.

And that feeling keeps them company all the night through, but the morning after they manage to get rid of that frustrating sensation in the only way they know: a sort of expiation for what they did.

Each of them put it into operation his way.

Matthew spends the whole morning in his room, calling Gaia at the phone and telling her tons of sweet and romantic things for almost one hour and half, as the girl answers to every sentences of his with a hasty 'Yeah. Me, too.. ' . The phone call goes on until he recalls that that night there's a show to play and maybe he'd better save some voice for that, too.

Also Dominic is pretty busy that morning, but instead of staying in Hotel, he has decided to go shopping, looking for a gift to send to Jessica, sure that gestures are more effective than words.

Anyway the mission is anything but simple, since he has to be careful not to 'communicate ' too much.

He totally rejects flowers as potential gift, since he knows that Jessica has read tons of books to learn the language of the flowers , so if he chose a bouquet composed in a certain way he could even made the unforgivable mistake to send her the message ' You know, lately I don't think about you anymore, because I'm thinking way too much about my best friend! '.

And he also judges jewels pretty dangerous, any kind of jewel, because it would sound too much as an engagement, and that's something that he wants to keep himself as far as possible from.

After all, Dom doesn't even know anymore what he exactly wants.

Or rather he does, but he's scared to admit it even to himself.

After several researches, he manages to find the proper gift, something that says ' I'm not hiding anything to you, I'm just doing that just and only because I want to. Everything is more than fine and, most of all, my best friend is the last of my thoughts! '.

In a word, a gift that's a liar as much as Matt's phone call.

After assuring himself that his gifts will be sent to his girlfriend, Dominic comes back to the Hotel, straight to his room.

Anyway, he goes out a few minutes after, walking around the corridor , heading towards Matthew's room.

He puts his hand as a fist, but before his knuckles can make any sort of contact with the white enamelled cherry-wood door, the boy changes his mind and comes back to his room, from which he pops out a few seconds after... walking back to Matt's door, with the same purpose that meets the same result.

And he goes on like that at least two or three times more, until a familiar voice behind his back stops him.

"Are you going to keep doing that for long? You'll end up leaving a drill!" Matthew exclaims.

Dom turns abruptly and sees him on the floor, near the stairs.

What he likes less is that he's leaning from the banisters, and according to Dom he's leaning from it way too much.

In fact, he rushes towards him, all anxious and apprehensive.

"Nooo, Matt, get the hell away from there! It's the eighth floor, don't act insane! Maybe making the video of 'Bliss ' confused you pretty much, but let me clear a couple of things: you won't remain floating in the air, you'll just crash down the floor bloody violently. And you won't even have the time to sing half verse!" he explains alarmed, trying to pull him away.

His only answer, Matthew bursts out laughing madly, and whenever he does that there's no living being who can resist to that contagious laughter. In fact, Dom bursts out laughing with him, too.

"Why... why are we laughing?" he manages to stop a bunch of seconds after.

"Because... were you really thinking that I was about to throw myself from the banisters? And then * I * am the catastrophic member of the band!" Matt replies, trying to recover.

"So... why were you there?" Dom questions him.

"I had fun watching the people who pass once in a while, especially the ones on the down floor, because they seems so minuscule from here. Plus, looking down, getting that vertigo sense... I don't know. It helps me think, I can almost say it inspires me!" the brunette confesses.

"Does vertigo inspire you?! Ok, maybe I became catastrophic, but you are and you'll always be the wildest one!" the blond teases him.

"Maybe. Anyway, if I think that you really believed that I... I was about to... " Matt comments and he's almost about to burst out laughing again.

"So, tell me, what did you do this morning?" Dom hurries to change subject, otherwise he knows that Matt would probably never stop making fun of him.

And, almost as if it was a spell, Matthew becomes immediately serious.

"I made one of the longest phone calls of my whole life!" he sighs.

"To Gaia, right?" the other realizes.

"Yeah. And I lost count of all the sweet, fluffy things I said to her. There's only a problem: I didn't think them for real. " he sighs once again.

"And you? What did you do?" he asks him, immediately after.

"I looked for a gift for..."

"Jessica!" Matt anticipates him, but his isn't a question, it's just the answer.

"Yeah. And at the end I found the proper stuff. "

"What?" the other gets curios.

"A blond puppet that looks like me a little bit, vaguely. Anyway, this puppet looks impatiently at his watch as he stands on a pedestal with the written 'Can't wait to see you again ' . And then I also bought to her a bag, a belt and a pair of earrings. "

"Cool! Anyway, jewels? Someone is looking for a serious engagement... " Matthew sing songs.

"Who said 'jewels ' ? I just talked about earrings. And earrings are just accessories! " the blond clarifies.

"No, they're jewels." the brunet insists.

"Accessories!"

"Jewels."

"Accessories, accessories, BLOODY DAMN FUCKING ACCESSORIES!!!" Dominic persists, getting angry.

"Ok, you're right, they're just accessories. " Matt gives in, also because he's kinda scared by his reaction.

"Anyway, about what you did... does it make you feel any better?" he asks him.

"Not at all, I think that it's the falsest thing I've ever done." the blond sighs.

"Same feeling here. " Matt admits, with the same mood .

"Coming to what we were saying before, saving the fact that I found your 'Indecision Dance ' very amusing... " Matt chuckles.

"Hey!" Dominic acts insulted.

"Were you looking for me to talk to me?" the other goes on.

"Yes, you know, it's about the..." Dominic answers, but he has not time to finish his sentence.

"Finally, here you go! I looked for you for half New York!" Chris exclaims, coming out from the elevator.

"Actually, I've stayed in my room all the morning long, it's Dom the wandering guy!" Matt clarifies.

"I had my reasons!" Dom shrugs.

"I don't even want to hear about it. Now we go have lunch and then straight to sound check, I bet that you have already forgotten about that!" Chris comments and it's already enough that he's not pulling them by their ears.

"Uff, since there's not Tom suffocating us, for once .. can you explain to me why you are playing his role?" Matt snorts.

"Because he asked me to do that and he knows he has chosen the right person!" Chris explains proudly.

"I still wonder why Tom is not here with us this time.. " Dominic mumbles.

"The official reason is that since this is just an Opening Act, it's something less exciting, so he decided to let us free for once, since he's sure that we'll deal with everything on our own pretty well.." Chris explains.

"What is the unofficial reason?" Matt gets as curios as Dom does.

"Well, it seems that our Tom has half a love affair with a girl who does his same job, so they both 'abandoned ' their bands to enjoy a relaxing holiday, all alone.. " the other reveals.

"Our good old Kirk rules! So, which band does she work for?" Dominic wonders.

"This is a majestic taboo. Not only he didn't want to tell me, but he also said that it's better if we never find out. " the other explains and that makes them all puzzled.

"Anyway, let's quit with the gossip. We have an intense afternoon to face, and don't even try to disappear again!" Chris adds, walking towards the elevator.

"Yes, Daddy!" the other two make fun of their friend, following him.

"Very funny!" Chris rolls his eyes, pushing the button.

Without making Chris see him, Dom gestures to Matt that they'll talk later about what they both know they can't ignore.

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A bunch of hours later, they are wrapped inside the walls of a studio, playing the whole playing list plus some extra that they could decide to add at the last minute.

'Hyper Music ' is one of these extra songs and once they're done with the performance, to recover from all that yelling, for Matt, and from all the frantic, restless playing, for all of them, they establish that they earned a break.

Chris doesn't waste any time and takes advantage of that to leave the room and go call Kelly on the phone.

Matthew and Dominic could do the same with their girlfriends, but this is the last of their thoughts.

After all, Matthew has talked with Gaia so much that he could even go on without calling her for a whole week, but the main reason why is that they both have another priority.

"Do you want to know how I spent the flight?" Dominic exclaims, getting up from the drum set.

"I'm listening!" the other answers, placing his guitar on the floor.

"I saw two kids who were fighting playfully and I thought about you and me. " the blond begins his tale.

"It's normal, when we were kids we always fought. And sometimes we still do! " the other smiles.

"I saw two guys, more about our same age, and I thought about you and me. " the blond goes on.

"Well, that's normal, too. Maybe it's because they looked like you and me a little bit, somehow. " the brunet justifies him.

"And then I saw two pleasant old men. And I thought about you and me, when we will be... "

"That's unacceptable!" Matthew cuts him off, indignant.

"I know, it's exaggerated. " the other admits.

"No, it's not for that. It's just that old men can't be pleasant, never! All old people are rude, misbehaving and unbearable grouches, it's scientifically proved!" he clarifies.

Dominic stares at him as if he came from another planet.

"So, tell me, how is it scientifically proved?" he asks him sceptically.

"Don't ask me how, it's just proved. Period!" the other insists.

"Bells, do you know that one day you will get inevitably old , too?" Dominic makes him notice.

"Of course I do. But I know I'll be the exception that confirms the rule!" he declares proudly.

"What about me? Will you end up hating me then?" the other gets alarmed.

"Never. You will be the exception with me!" the brunet smiles.

"Or maybe neither of us will get old, if I manage to build that machine to bring time back. " the blond thinks out loud.

This time it's Matthew staring at him as if he came from another planet.

"Uh?"

"Never mind, it's such a long story! " the other rolls his eyes.

"Anyway, coming back to your flight, I guess that even that it's normal... at the very end... " Matthew states, although he doesn't sound very convinced.

"Maybe, but then I saw even two clouds in the sky and I thought about you and me! Do you think it's normal even that?!" the blond astounds him.

"Dammit, no! Hell no, that's not normal at all! But, if that comforts you, it's not that I spent such a different flight, after all. " the brunette admits.

"Dammit, Matt, what do you think about the whole situation?" the other gets agitated.

"I think we are in trouble. " his interlocutor answers, getting as agitated as Dominic.

"But maybe it's not too late to get over with that... " he adds, immediately after.

"You're absolutely right!"

"It's happened nothing too.. compromising. "

"Absolutely nothing!"

"Plus, everything is more than justified. The first kiss was due to the forfeit, the second one to bring good luck at the tour. " the other goes on.

"Absolutely yes!"

"So, I guess that you and I can keep being best friends, as always. "

"I absolutely agree!"

"But no more too close contact, and mostly no, bloody no more kisses for any bloody reason at all!"

"Absolutely none!"

"Why the bloody hell do you keep saying 'absolutely'?" Matt snaps.

"I have absolutely no idea, I absolutely swear to you that I'm not doing that on purpose, I just can't stop! Maybe it must be a sort of nervous reaction. " Dominic justifies.

"Well, you'd better quit it right now, if you don't want me to punch your pretty face, because it's very irritating!" the brunet threats him.

"I'm sorry, I already told you that it's not my fault, it's just that... uh! It seems that it worked!" the other informs him, relieved.

"Threats always work!" Matt states, but then he realizes that Dom is staring at him kinda confused and visibly blushed.

"What?" the brunet wonders.

"Do... do you really think that I have a pretty face?" the blond wavers, staring at the floor before finding the courage to face his look again.

That does nothing but making Matt find him tender.

"Everything about you is pretty. " the brunet smiles sweetly, getting closer, almost tempted to raise one hand in order to caress his cheek, but then both of them realize what they're doing.

Already knowing where that path would bring them to, they decide to change direction immediately, but they're so bewildered that Dom sits at the piano and Matt sits at the drums.

After recalling what instrument they actually can play, they switch positions, as they both hope to see Chris come back as soon as possible, because they have no idea about what else can happen if they keep staying alone.

TBC

Notes:

As you have probably noticed, this chapter never quit being surreal , not even for a second, and the rest of the story will keep being this way, if not worse!

Usually I show you some pics, but this time I would need an audio file , just to explain what Matt's laughter is (just a word: Hullaballoo DVD) , but I'm sure you already know that, eh,eh!

I hope you'll still like it and have fun read it, but feel free to tell me whatever you think, as always ! ;)

[kiliinstinct]

someone could have asked this previously but do you have any hcs or ideas for lgbt ships? I am a grayke lover like you and would love to know!!

Well, I've done some Grayke Headcanons before, and you can find those at [this post.] But lemme see if I can think up some more!

Canajane: Cana confesses first, but it takes a good long while because no one ever really knows what Cana is thinking. (does she date men as often as she says? does she like men? women? who knows? she seems pretty open to anything, but no one's ever SEEN her actually out on the dating scene all that much.) She finally confesses when she gets tired of hearing people spread rumors about Laxus and Mirajane, and is very happy when Mirajane admits she's not even attracted to men. (A fact Laxus already knew, but kept secret as it wasn't his to tell.)

Fraxus: Freed takes the lead a lot more often than one might think. It comes naturally to him after leading The Raijinshuu for so long and Laxus is happy being able to trust Freed enough to just let it happen. But their business is their business, so it doesn't get shared often.

Lisanna: Ever the chaotic asexual who likes to tease and join in on pranks, has turned down more offers for dates than she can count because she really doesn't want anything physical with people and they always have to make it about that why... (I may be projecting a little here, but shh.) May also be Aromantic, but the jury is still out on that. (Even Lisanna doesn't know. If anyone asks she's just gonna shrug.)

Eflman: Trans. What's manlier than a selfmade man. (as said by @phoenix-before-the-flame) He knew what he was since he was very young, and while it scared and confused him to bring it up at first, the way both sisters immediately called him by his chosen name and pronouns filled him with so much joy. (No wonder he immediately wanted to learn take over so Mirajane didn't have to be alone. He wanted to do for her what she'd done for him.) No one remembers who Elfman "used" to be anymore and he couldn't be happier. (and when Evergreen eventually found out, she stopped harping on him about his "be a man" speeches as much and would often say it to him instead, just to watch his face light up. But shh, don't tell anyone.) Natsu: DemiRomantic and DemiSexual. This gremlin is the Demi of all Demis. Romance? Don't think about it until he's already neck deep in feels for someone and by then it's just confusing and overwhelming so time to pretend that's not there. Sexuality? Can he eat that? (In a non sex way thank you very much.) Sure, the jokes and the fantasies come out the more he ends up liking someone, but he'd much rather a good ole brawl over the horizontal tango any day. (That and who dances horizontally? That's weird. What? What do you mean that's not what that means? Crap.)

Hisui and Yukino: They're shy babs who don't know what to do with their feelings or where to even begin expressing them. Especially since they don't see each other often, but Hisui certainly has felt things for Yukino since she first laid eyes on her and it sometimes leaves her feeling restless and annoyed that she's stuck in Crocus Castle all the time. (Being a Princess is full of too many duties to be running about on dates, after all.) Yukino is more oblivious and while she thinks Hisui is gorgeous and a wonderful leader, she doesn't understand why the Princess Blushes so much when they're around each other.

Stingue: He has moments of gay panic around Rogue more than one might think. He can't help it. The soft smiles Rogue gives just makes his heart stutter and he forgets how words work half the time. Please don't tell Rogue, the shadow slayer would NEVER let him live it down.

Frosch: No ship but.. they're enby. It's canon. No one can convince me otherwise.

I'm sure I can think up some more, but I don't wanna make this post too long. I may write more later. Thanks for asking, @newgeht !

[1111jenx]

Hello 💕 I hope you don't mind this but what are your red flags and green flags in a potential romantic interest astrology speaking? Feel free not to answer because I know you're really busy, thank you if you ever do Jenx 🥺

Good morning bby🤎

No worries at all haha, I'm trying to start going through my asks again because I feel like I wasn't able to answer as much as I could back in the days:( I'll be more than happy to answer yaaaa. I love your question too it's so fun to think abt haha

However, please do keep in mind that this is 100% subjective and is coming from my pov, please don't give any hate towards any of these placements🥲If theres anything y'all know abt me is how I value inclusiveness<3 Also I'm attracted to men so I'm referring to them as he/him sometimes and they/them here!! Let's begin shall we😋

Hmmm this is harder than it seems haha. But my personal red flag in relationships include:

Too much Water — I have a Water Sun, Moon and Mars with Fire Rising/Venus and I'm the craziest person I've ever met. So I think I need someone with either more Earth or Air to balance me out haha, if not it will just be us two hippies oversharing 24/7 and not being able to acc do anything

Cancer Moon — I ADORE Cancer Moon women. Don't get me wrong. I absolutely adore them. My bestest friend is a Libra Sun Cancer Moon so how can I not fw y'all but it's the straight cis men that I keep attracting for me💀 But only if its Cancer Moon pairing with Leo placements:D Because that Cancer/Leo energy is literally me I don't wanna date someone so similar to me (again) jkkk

Leo Moon — same reason as above. Its like looking into a mirror y'all idk how we gonna work

Scorpio Rising — again. I love the women with this placement and they make me feel so understood and seen. But like. The other 50% of makes that I'm romantically attracted to is scary bro. They do b psycho and my detached ass gets scared so fast

Venus square Mars — 😀😀😀😀 Do I need to explain this one?

Lilith in the 1st/7th house — Been there done that twice. I am good.😀 I have Lilith 7th house myself so meeting another one just brings out the worst in us. Its rly sad lol because we both wanted it to work so bad

Aquarius + Scorpio placements in the same chart — AGAIN THIS APPLIES TO MEN ONLY DEADASS ANOTHER CLOSE FRIEND OF MINE IS A DOUBLE CAP WITH AQUA STELLIUM STRICTLY STRAIGHT MEN OK. they traumatize me lmfao I love their intensity so so bad but I hate that they never fully let me love them. It's so sad bc they acc think no one can actually love them for who they are. Its better for us to stay friends because it can get too draining:D

Venus in Sagittarius — I love them as friends a lot on god. And I admit there's always going to be an invisible link between me and the percentage of people I attract with this placement. But we're not gonna work out. They need someone to ground them. I need someone that grounds me. We just do the craziest shit tgt and no one can stop us hehe but in relationships I'm rly stable and we both value freedom a bit much🥲 I'll change my mind if theres Capricorn placements tho skwowiensn I love them so much

Venus in Libra — all of my guy bestfriends have this and lemme tell you. it aint gonna work baby💀 We're too similar? We compliment one another very well but they're too sweet for me to ever date them. I don't want to lose them as friends and I've seen how they move HAHAHA, my Leo Venus says no thank you, lets do shots together tho!

Now onto the green flags, these are what can make me change my mind haha:

Leo Venus — #selflove baybeeee💕 I never met a guy with this that I didn't click hehe. We're fun and flirty tgt yes but we can talk business real fast.

Capricorn Venus/Moon/anything — my unhealthy addiction. I literally submit to them lmfao like only them and Aqua placements can actually change my mind once its made up.

Aquarius Moon/Venus/Rising/anything — same reason as Cap placements😭 I love y'all so much it hurts but Imma still going to simp

9th, 10th house stellium/placements — this is just a personal favourite don't mind me😋😋

ANY VENUSIAN PLACEMENT EXCEPT FOR LIBRA VENUS — I did yall wrong I'm sorry. But the rest can get my hands in marriage. Make me feel appreciated every step of the way.

Mars in first, Aries placements — the love of my life. Period.

Cancer Rising — the Moon to my Sun. makes me feel @ home and all they wanna do is hold my hands tbh.

Mars conjunct Jupiter — I- I'm not gonna take questions for this one don't ask plz 😀😀

So here are some notes I can think of as of right now!! Please keep in mind this is just my type based off experience and everyones preferences are different 🥳 Also there's a lot more to the person than just their chart loves, lets not missed out on building connections based off someones astrological profile:) If I want something and I deem it right, I'll go for it no matter what🤎

love,

saint jenx🪐

[blue-broken-heart]

19+ !Valentines Day is For Liars and Wh*res!- Jaehyun Jong X Fem Reader 19+

Summary

A valentines hook up with an infamous playboy who saved you from a case of date rape-- remember doods,doodettes and doodles cover your drink with your hand if your not looking at it and never take anything from people you do not know. Anyways this part is just the smut -> - <-

Read the full thing here; https://archiveofourown.org/works/36894319 Okayokay its really just a Jaehyun series on AO3 but I'll switch up the names here ig...?

This Jae;

This vybe;

Triggers:(moderately soft and fluffy tbh) Oral(M and F rec), Vaginal Fingering, Overstimulation, Cursing, ahhh~ and Penetrative Sex< if it wasn't clear before...

!This Is A Work Of Fiction! !This Is A Work Of Fiction! !This Is A Work Of Fiction! !This is A Work Of Fiction!

It wasn't that you didn't want Jae.

You did. You really, really did.

But it felt sort of wrong. Like you were being foolish or acting like a love-struck teenager instead of a levelheaded woman who carefully measured all aspects of her life. You were jumping way too fast for someone typically so logical, someone who was usually scared to jump in the first place in regard to anything heart-related. You weighed out the pros and cons. Sometimes, you'd make a list before agreeing to go on a first date. When the doors opened, Jae pulled you inside and pressed his body against yours before asking you how you liked it, his eyes watching yours with intent. He pushed the button, his focus still on you like you were his prey and he was your predator. You had nowhere to go.

“I can see your mind racing sweetheart,” His breath skirted across you lips, and you forced your eyes to stay open instead of closing the way they wanted to.

“It's irritating,” You complained.

“Listen to me carefully,” he started to say, and you stared at his mouth, memorizing the fullness of his lips. “I can tell you don't typically hook up with strange men.”

You tried to stifle a laugh but failed.

"It's okay to want me the same way I want you.” He ran his hand down the length of your arm, causing goosebumps to rise. "It's okay to be attracted to me, to give in to what we have between us. We aren't doing anything wrong. We're two consenting single adults.”

“I know that,” You argued but was still a little uncertain.

"Do you? 'Cause I'm not sure you do.”

You are a grown-ass woman, for God's sake, and it was your body. You could do whatever you chose to with it. You just never had before. You'd always been in long-term relationships, and you'd never cheated or strayed.

“I've never had a one-night stand," You admitted, almost feeling like you'd missed some unwritten rite of passage in life.

"Neither have I,” he said with a smirk.

“Liar," You countered, and he laughed.

"You're right. That was a lie. But I don't run around the country, doing this kind of thing either. It's happened once or twice, but I don't make a habit out of sleeping with random women,” he explained. Liar. He was a fucking liar and you were eating those lies right out of his palm.

Before he'd started talking about it, you hadn't even considered it.

You were one of hundreds of women.

This was all some kind of charming act just to have sex with you.

I mean-- he was well known for not being able to settle. He was a hot fuck and a even hotter man. Could you put your baggage onto him in detail? Ha! You scoff in your head, Jae Jong would never settle for a nobody editor for some shitty high school textbook like you.

“What's wrong?” he asked as you ignored his hand and walked out on my own.

“Everything okay?” Jae asked, and you almost jumped, forgetting that he was there.

“Well all I can think of is how many V’s your P has been in now,” You say with the knowledge that almost surely he bent your friend over earlier.

His head cocked back. “How many what my what?”

You waved him off as you started toward the room. Even with all the mixed signals you were throwing out, you were still currently leading him right to where his bed was located.

“How many vaginas you've been inside. You have me thinking this is a bad idea. And that I'm probably, like, number one thousand or something and ..."

Your body stopped moving forward with the force of his arm on yours, holding you back.

“You are not number one thousand. Or even one hundred. I'm not that type of guy,” he said before gripping your neck and kissing you.

Once he pulled away from your lips, he continued talking, "We don't have to do anything you don't want to do. Don't get me wrong; I want to savor every fucking inch of your spectacular body. But I understand if you're not ready to be consumed.”

What in the ever-loving hell kind of fucking speech was that?

Your mind was a contradicting, jumbled mess. The devil on your shoulder wanted nothing more than to get tangled up in the sheets with Jae while the angel chastised that this was happening at warp speed and maybe you should slow down. Flicking the angel right off, hoping she fell and broke a leg.

He kissed you again. His hands fisted in your hair, and you swore you felt a switch inside your brain flip off. You stopped caring about how many times he'd done this before or if it was the right thing to do or not. All you knew was that you wanted this man inside you, and you were damn well going to enjoy every moment.

“Get in here,” You demanded and Jae was all over you, his fingertips grazing your jaw, his eyes devouring you as if they could taste you just by looking.

“I can't get enough of you,” he whispered, but it sounded strained, forced almost, and it was sexy as hell.

“That makes two of us,” You said as you reached for his pants and started unzipping them. Gripping the hem of his pants and his boxer briefs, you pulled them both down as you dropped to your knees and inspected the length of him before taking him in your fist. Your eyes rolled in the back of your head at his soft, warm skin in your hand. I took him in your mouth before he could stop you, complain, or say a single word.

Jae’s moans filled the room. He stood perfectly still, not thrusting or forcing himself any deeper inside you, and you loved that he allowed you to have all the control. You focused on sucking him off with the right amount of suction while moving your hand up and down at the base of his balls. He moaned again, louder this time, and you knew he liked what you were doing to him.

It felt powerful, having him in your control like this. Maybe it should have felt the opposite, considering the fact that you was the one on their knees, but you knew that as long as he was in your mouth, you held all the cards. You liked the way it felt.

“____+” His voice strangled out of him, and you stopped sucking with a pop.

Strong hands reached for your shoulders and pulled you to your feet.

“You can't keep doing that.”

You didn't ask him to explain or tell you more. you knew what he meant. He leaned down and pulled his boxers back in place, which was a damn shame, before his fingertips tilted your chin upward to look at him. His eyes were unreadable as he planted a kiss against your lips. It was softer than you knew how to interpret, almost loving, and you tossed that thought right back out of your head as quickly as it had entered.

"Can I turn on the fire?” he asked, moving toward the gas fireplace in the corner of the room.

"Yeah.”

You watched as he flipped the switch on the wall, and the fire came to life with a small roar. The mood had already been set, but this definitely added to it.

“On the bed.” Jae's tone of voice surprised you, and you shot him a look.

"You heard me, ___+.”

“Fuck-,” You said but then promptly did what you had been told.

As you sat on the edge of the bed, still fully robed, Jae stalked toward you before doing exactly what you had done a few minutes earlier—he dropped to his knees to worship you.

“My turn.” He winked before reaching for the bottom of your robe and shoving it upward.

Those deep eyes took every inch of you in appreciatively, his breath catching as more and more of your legs were revealed. You'd never felt so sexy before in your entire life.

You thought about saying something teasing, but his head divided between your legs and his fingers pulled your panties to the side and you couldn't say anything at all, let alone think. The second his tongue licked you.

You short-circuited, completely lost in the moment. It felt so good. Your body fell backward onto the bed, back arching as your breathing became erratic. Fisting his hair, you pulled at it before moving to his ears and doing the same, wanting more of what he was giving. Clawing fresh marks into his skin.

Everything Jae did was so pleasure-filled; you really thought you might die from it.

“You're so good at this,” You said with a shaky breath, and he stopped for a moment to look at you. You almost killed him–

“Oh my God, don't stop,” You whined, and he gave you a smirk before diving back down and finishing the job. Body was racked with ecstasy, coming down from the high he'd given when he finally rose back to his feet.

He reached out a hand to you, and you took it. Pulling you to stand, he spun you around until your back was facing him, and he reached for the zipper on your dress and tugged it all the way down. You stepped out of it, wearing nothing but the matching bra and panty set Nika'd picked out earlier.

Jae made short work of his clothes, tossing everything into a pile on the floor, except for his charcoal-grey boxer briefs. That man's body was a sight to behold, chiselled and filled out in all the right places.

“Like what you see?” He gave you a slight nod, and you laughed.

“Fucking right I do.” Your eyes practically bulged out of your head, “I love what I see.”

Jae stepped toward you, one arm reaching for your waist. He pulled you against him and unhooked your bra and dropped it to the floor before you even realized he'd done it. He went to work on your thong next, looping his fingers around the flimsy material and tugging it down until you kicked it off completely. He did the same with his boxer briefs before directing you back onto the bed.

You had no idea what you expected sex with Jae to be like, but slow, basic, or gentle definitely wasn't it. For some reason, you'd always figured that a one-night stand would be more like tossing each other into walls, breaking pictures from knocking them over, resulting in bruises you couldn't remember getting.

But Jae entered you like he'd never get the chance to do it again. He took his time, his fingers tracing the curves of your body, and by the time he was finished, not a single cell on you had been left untouched.

He worshipped you in ways you hadn't even known were possible, made you feel things sexually you'd only ever read about.

And when you showered together, he fucked you again, this time from behind, pounding into you so hard that you thought you might break something.

His fingers left marks on your thighs. Your hips were sore from his grip. And if you had to do this night all over again, you'd say yes ten times out of ten.

JaeHyun Jong was the best sex you'd ever had.

You woke up the next morning, sore in all the right places, body exhausted in the best of ways. When you rolled over, you noticed the bed was empty. Relief and disappointment battled for you top feeling as you touched his pillow, noting that it was cold. You'd allowed yourself to get caught up in the moment last night, and you'd enjoyed every second of it, but the harsh light of a new day had a way of erasing all that. It reminded you that you had just ended a three-year relationship and should be in some state of mourning, not in bed with someone else.

The switch that had shut off in your mind had definitely been turned back on.

Sitting up, you tucked the covers under your arms and ran a hand through your hair just as a knock on the door startled you. It started to open, and you almost screamed that you were inside and naked, but Jae's head appeared instead.

He waved as he walked through the door, balancing a bag and a crate of coffees. He hadn't left you during the middle of the night, like you'd thought. wait-- this was his place.

You knew there was no point to his kind gestures. You'd never see each other again. But maybe that was what made it all so easy—no expectations. Jae seemed perfect because he only had to maintain the illusion for a few days, not a lifetime, like real relationships.

He set up the food and coffee on a tray and placed it on top of the bed before settling back in next to you.

“You're a god,” You said as you reached for the coffee and took a large sip. There was nothing more awful than burning your mouth.

“I've heard worse.” He sipped his own drink before taking a muffin and tearing at it, handing half to you. “So, ___+, is this how you imagined spending your night out?”

You almost choked. “Um, no. I definitely didn't plan on meeting anyone-.”

“Is that a good or bad thing?” Jae was fishing for a compliment. Or maybe he was simply trying to read your emotions, but you wasn't giving in.

“Still deciding,” you teased.

"Harsh.” He smirked, sliding you a card. A pretty black card with a neon green ‘N’ on it, “Well, Ms ___+ Would you like to be my girl?”

“What number would I be?” You mused, taking up the bank card. Huh? You never thought Yul and Yuk’s birthday would turn out with you getting the gift Nika’s always wanted.

“Depends on how fast you can get here.” Jae shrugged, “Staying the night only happens once. If you do come over you need to be gone by sunrise.”

“How bout this Mr. PlayBoy,” You tap the edge of the card to your cheek thinking, “You come when I call, and I’ll mind my own business?”

“Wh-”

“Don’t worry there’s benefits,” You slide the card back, “I’m not a whore. And even less your whore.”

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... .. . I understand if you wanna yell at me after reading this....I'll take a scenario or request to make up for it <3 Requests; Normal: https://blue-broken-heart.tumblr.com/ask Anon: https://blue-broken-heart.tumblr.com/submit Short bits welcomed too~ I won't drag it out like these dw-

[limeade-l3sbian]

this might get kinda long but hear me out. when I was a teenager I only ever had crushes on boys, and never fantasized about girls. except when I was 21 I met a butch bi woman who was into me and I was completely infatuated. I thought I was in love with her until she started pushing me to have sex which I wasn't ready for. she was really charismatic at first and I got swept away. we made out and slept in the same bed and I liked it, but I balked at having sex. she was really shitty in the end, she tried to force me into sex when I was drunk, and we stopped being friends. to this day I wonder if I'm really bi because of that experience. since then I've never had a crush on a woman, and when I see a hot woman I never think about eating her out, I just wish I looked like her. the thought of interacting sexually with a woman again scares me. I really don't know if I can call myself bi, since I'll probably never be with a woman and I was never into them when I was a kid. I feel ashamed admitting all of this and sorry for clogging your inbox, I just don't know who else to ask. do you think I'm bi because I had a crush when I was already an adult, or am I straight because I've never had sex with a woman and don't plan to?

You can't let (very real) trauma dictate how you define yourself, anon. And I mean that in the nicest and most commiserative way. It seems to be that you might be bi, but your trauma with that woman has disallowed you to branch out and attempt further exploration. The attraction was there, you just seem to have misplaced your trust. Not your fault by the way, we all do it at some point or another.

And I am sorry that that happened to you, for all that's worth. Even if we're able to stop something from happening, sometimes just knowing how close we came can rattle us enough to make us evasive of situations that even suggest a repeat. If I'm able to ask and you're comfortable, was your reluctance to sex with this woman because you were not ready for sex in general (man or woman) or you were not totally ready or interested in having sex with this woman because she was a woman?

Your sexual orientation is defined by who you are romantically and sexually attracted to. You don't balk at the idea of certain levels of intimacy with either or both. but that reluctance does not stem from trauma, which yours seems to since you say the prospect of sex with a woman scares you. there are SOME women, febfems (female exclusive bisexual females) who have it the opposite way. Not all, but some, who exclusively give their attention and intimacy (romantic and otherwise) solely to women, but have the capacity to be with a man if that trauma was not present in them. Ask yourself that if you did not have the trauma of that situation, could you see yourself even going on a date with a woman, let alone being romantically or sexually intimate with one?

I can't really tell you what you are, anon. I wouldn't know how and to be honest, it's not really my place. I appreciate that you have such an opinion of me that you felt comfortable to ask for confirmation from me lol but you should trust yourself above all else in finding out what this means for you. If you let yourself be vulnerable with yourself, you'll be able to really talk to yourself with transparency and see things so clearly for yourself that hearing my opinion will only be an unneeded second opinion. (a lot of "yourself" but it's true! lol)

But if you come to the conclusion that this was, for lack of a better word, a fluke and that you know you're straight, I would implore you not to use SSA women to constantly try to "figure it out". Figuring it out can happen without potentially leading on a woman who knows what she wants. I'm not accusing you of that, I'm just saying to always be conscious of what you're doing and why.

[magalidragon]

Anger Management | fic teaser

a/n: I am loving kickboxing lately and naturally the most random of things inspire me...like an enemies to lovers smutfic where Dany punches Jon on accident. I have NOT punched anyone in the face in my workouts but I did punch a handsy pervert kid when I was in middle school. Anyway, this fic will have SMUT, an angry Dany, mysterious snarky Jon, Dadvos, and BFF Missandei who has butterflies on her gloves. Also weird Rhaegar makes an appearance. I love that weirdo. 😂

"Ready?"

"Ready," Dany said, jumping up and down in place, patting her fists together. She grinned at Davos. "So? Who am I kicking the shit out of?"

He sighed. "So much for teaching you to channel your anger, to control your emotions."

"Everyone always wants women to control their emotions, but men can get away with anything."

"I am not touching that one."

It was true. Not that her eldest brother had any emotions, but if Rhaegar got angry in court it was "passionate" and if she got angry in court it was "shrill." Although Dany did have to admit, spending every other day in Davos's gym for about an hour and a half was really helping with her anger, frustration, and general stress levels. She discovered she was sleeping better, eating better, and even Rhaegar commented on her "distinct calm" in the partner meeting that morning.

It was because she knew that tonight she'd be able to actually mess with someone else. She liked kickboxing. Missandei preferred to just stay punching the bag and then let Grey try to teach her some of the staff-work, but Dany was eager to try out her moves with someone else. It was the competitive streak inside of her, coming from growing up with one brother as her sort-of father and the other as an annoying twit who pulled on her braids and terrorized her. She always had to outshine them.

Now she wanted to outshine this. She had mastered the punching bag, now she wanted to try with someone else. Even if it wasn't quite 'boxing.' Davos said as much as she thought she wanted to truly 'box', there was no way he was going to risk it. "I'm not delicate!" she'd shouted.

"Oh I know you aren't, I'm scared for the men."

Today, she'd carved out exactly ninety minutes to get through this before she had to be back at work to go over briefs and prepare her statement for Rakharo's hearing the following day. She'd managed to get it reverted back to juvenile court, which infuriated Tyrion, but it made her day. She'd be before the juvenile court judge, all of whom she knew and they were mostly softies who believed in second chances, as they should. Plus, the juvenile prosecutors were usually fresh out of law school and she could walk all over them.

Missandei was still waiting on their source at the courthouse to tell them who the judge would be. Dany hoped it was Brienne Tarth. They were going up against Edd Tollet as the prosecutor and as a former juvie himself, he tended to always give benefit of the doubt. It would be Rakharo's day in court and she was looking forward to winning and getting him free. Then straight into a relative's home and back to school, learning from his mistakes.

She climbed up into the ring, bouncing around in place, liking the feel of it. It was fun. "You have a trampoline? I could do this all day," she commented, hopping around.

"I’m sure the lads would like that."

Dany glanced at some young rugby players from the high school who were doing weight training, their mouths on the floor as she jumped. She glanced at her chest; she didn't have a huge one, but it wasn’t bad. The sports bra was keeping her in place, but boys, ugh. She rolled her eyes, knocking fists together. "Okay, get in here old man."

"I have to help Gendry, he's got a bunch of new kids coming in for the session of Faceless training."

"We're teaching children how to move like assassins? That sounds dangerous."

Davos's eyebrows lifted, agreeing. "Don't I know it. He never should have recruited at the playground, tons of parents want their kids to be involved, but I don't know what they think." He smirked. "You'll be training with one of my favorites today. Jonny boy!"

Dany wondered who Jonny was, she didn't recognize the name. She glanced over and saw movement from the back office, shocked at the sight of the hot man she'd taken to calling 'White Wolf' because she noticed that there was a white wolf on his black boxing gloves and he sometimes wore a black t-shirt with a white wolf head on the front, no other insignia. Missandei wasn't giving up info if she knew him, Grey was silent as ever, and most of the time he wasn't in the gym at the same time as her. When he was, he was busy and so was she, their paths never crossing.

He was kind of mythical, she'd decided, preferring to look at him from afar. He might ruin the illusion if she heard him speak more or learned that he was a pig like her previous two serious boyfriends.

"Jonny?" she echoed.

"Just Jon," he said, accent rough. It was like Arya's, Gendry's girlfriend, who was from the North. He climbed into the ring. He wore a t-shirt over black sweats, feet bare, and his hands were bare too.

"We bare knuckling it?" she asked. That seemed a little crazy.

"Don't do that stuff here, this isn't the 1800s."

Jon picked up two pads from the corner, slipping them over his hands. He held them up, smirking. "Let's see how you do with someone moving your target."

"What?"

"Gotta walk before you can run, lass."

She wrinkled her nose. Fine. She shrugged, rolling her head on her neck. Today's outfit was an all red ensemble, her braids hanging down her back from their elaborate up-do at her crown. "Let's do this then."

Jon smiled; he had a nice smile, she'd give him that too. It was entirely unfair how attractive he was. Probably has an empty skull, all the brains knocked out from boxing, she figured. She noted that he had a couple scars on his face; he had some more on his chest too, when she caught him without a shirt. He also had a tattoo along his shoulder and onto his chest. More wolves and what she thought might have been red leaves of some sort. There was a tattoo on his inner wrist, which she caught sight of now, standing close to him.

Duty

She darted her gaze to his other wrist. There was another word there. Love. She nodded to them. "Your fists are named love and duty?"

"Something like that." He smiled again, flash of white against his dark beard. His curls were half-back from his face in a knot. He also had gray eyes. They looked practically black in the dim light around them. An air conditioner vent blasted down on them, sending a chill through Dany's spine.

Or perhaps it was the wafting scent of spearmint, faintest cigarette ash, and...woodsy pine? She wasn't sure, coming from the man she now stood about a foot in front of. He was built, but not obscenely so, not like her ex-boyfriend Drogo, who spent more time preening before the mirror inspecting his muscles than using them. Her lips twitched, lifting her fists. "What do you got White Wolf?"

Davos heard that, whistling low under his breath. "My, my Jonny, she truly has your number."

Just Jon smirked, holding up the pads, squaring off. "Let's go Dragon Queen."

She flung out her fist, connecting so hard with his right pad that he stepped back, eyes widening, surprised. She grinned.

"Dracarys."

[watchinglikeafangirl]

Lovely Writer episode 3 - analysis

The episode this week changed everything again. We see more of Nubsib's true colors and we see the two become closer. Nubsib is still pretending but his true personality is also showing here and there, Gene starts having thoughts and is confused how he feels about Nubsib. All in all, this week's episode had a lot of information and was even more fun to watch. Especially the scene, when they film "bad engineer" and the first meeting of the characters ending in a weird embrace filmed in slow motion. It was hilarious...

Honesty and no filter

I don't know if honesty is the right word here but I would say it kind of fits. Even though Nubsib is crossing many lines, Gene at least tells him immediately when he's uncomfortable. Especially in the scenes when his personal space is invaded which he is not used to. He lives with Nubsib but kissing him is a whole different thing. He is someone who is very closeted and only opens up to Nubsib because he learns that life doesn't happen in fantasies and books. But when Nubsib tries to kiss him in the second episode, puts his face aggressively closer to Gene's, Gene pulls away immediately. This shows that even though he might be an introvert who is living in his head very much, he is not shy in the way that he doesn't talk about any emotion. He felt very uncomfortable and told Nubsib immediately also because he feels that Nubsib would listen and back off, which he then did.

In this episode, we get a similar scene. Nubsib pushes Gene on the sofa in a very slow, dominant and erotic way and Gene is kind of okay until Nubsib is too close.

Right before the kiss, he's extremely uncomfortable and says that he is. Nubsib is really concerned and sorry about it and backs off immediately. You could also say about this scene that Gene was not really uncomfortable and just scared of his feelings towards Nubsib but I think, it was just their closeness. They only know each other and live together for three weeks and Gene opened up just yet. It would be out of character if he would have settled into a kiss or even a make-out.

Nubsib is his true self when he comforts Gene who is having a nightmare. There is no sound effect, just some music playing and this scene is very slow and calm. Nothing disturbing the peaceful moment of taking care and there is no rushing.

Defensiveness and hidden feelings

Like I said, and like we all know, Gene is an introvert which becomes very clear when we get to know that he is living alone in a condo that is too big for one person alone. Everything is chaotic and as soon as Nubsib moves in, it's very tidy and clean. But Gene is too scared to admit it. He's too scared to admit that he likes Nubsib's company. Nubsib knows he does and jokes around when he's trying to get a confession from Gene. Gene, completely confused why that kiss is stuck in his head, gets defensive whenever Nubsib flirts and teases him.

This difensiveness becomes more after Aey says "he seems to like you" which confuses Gene even more. He can't stop thinking about it and ends up throwing Nubsib out of his condo because he is too scared to admit it. To himself and to Nubsib. Gene is very inexperienced and insecure about romantic stuff, so he doesn't know if this feeling of tenderness is even real and if Nubsib is really honest with him. There is an awkwardness between them that reminds us that they don't know each other well and Gene would have to get to know Nubsib more in order to be okay with his feelings. Because now, Nubsib still is a total stranger. The insecurity in romantic things and feelings leads Gene to question the meaning behind every word Nubsib said to him and if they were even true. This growing friendship with a stranger and growing romantic feelings for him is too much for Gene and he feels like he won't be able to focus on writing any more. For him it's either living or writing and he chooses writing over everything and feels like he can't think straight.

His feelings which he can't name or distinguish make him get defensive whenever he feels Nubsib is playing around.

Pretending and unawareness

Nubsib gives us all the vibes of fakery in many scenes and we feel there's something breeding under his skin that will show its true colors at some point (and I think very soon). Gene gets that vibe too and that's why things get awkward between them sometimes when both suddenly turn quiet like they don't know what to say to each other which could be because both can't get rid of the picture of their kiss. I mean, both obviously think about it. Nubsib can't even kiss Aey for the scene and Gene can't focus on writing because of it.

Nubsib is the one pretending here. Especially on the sofa. He even says that he learned it "in a workshop" which means the way he is behaving is all inspired and copied from these acting workshops. And that adds depth to his character. He is inexperienced too. He acts like the typical dominant BL character but even says himself that he learned it from the workshop.

That means, he's also insecure but is very good in hiding it. Because he feels like being his true self when it comes to romantic stuff is not enough and that he has to cover those stereotypes in order to appeal as attractive. Especially because Gene wrote this kind of character in the novel himself. So, Nubsib thinks it's the right way to act and is too shy to be his real self which is very sad and thankfully doesn't work out that well when they are on the sofa. Gene gets uncomfortable and I guess a bit frightened by the now very dominant version of Nubsib.

I don't think Nubsib is aware of the effect the moments when he is his true self have on Gene. They are the moments when Gene likes him and falls for him, not the ones when he's pretending. As soon as the pretending stops, the sound effects stop as well and they are talking more natural and real.

Same goes for Gene. What I noticed this episode was that the moment Gene enters, the sound effects start. That means Gene is pretending too but not in such an obvious way and maybe not even on purpose. He backs out of every situation because he sacrificed his life to writing. Writing defines his whole day, social-life, sleeping-routine and health. But I think, deep down he wants to live a bit more. He pretends to be okay with the situation, with how his life is going, but he sees, now that Nubsib moved in, that his way of living covers up all the desires he himself has. Nubsib unlocked something in him, makes him see that life is not only in your condo and especially with other people. Gene sees that now and he'll get sad.

Criticism and jokes

This show criticizes many different aspects. Basically everything of the BL industry is being criticized.

Mostly the charcters don't stand up for themselves when they are feeling uncomfortable. The scene on the sofa was definetely too intense and Gene didn't like it at all. I was already turning my eyes because I was just like 'not one of those scenes' but surprisingly the scene didn't go the way I thought. In many shows this would've gone in a very different direction even though the other charcter is not okay with it. BLs sometimes like to romanticise harrassement.

The writers are mostly female and the target audience is as well. BLs are mostly a fantasy and that's totally fine. It's just boring that every show is basically the same with the same stereotypes and exact same plot. The characters are not in any way real and Gene just copied this idea for "bad engineer". BL novels are created by women for women and that's what is criticised here because there's nothing real about it. In fact Gene wants to focus more on character developments and not NC scenes.

Fanscervice blends over problems the actors might have with each other. Nubsib and Aey don't get along that well but they have to, for the fans. This is a new level of pretending and also very uncomfortable to watch because they have to sacrifice their own values in order to have a job in the first place.

The jokes ... they are just very funny. Having a discussion about product placement for product placement?

Changing in the women's changing rooms because you thought it was 'unisex'?

Nubsib wearing a shirt saying 'eat me'?

There are many more but these are the ones I remember laughing at the most.

Questions

What's the deal with Aey?

Nubsib obviously doesn't like him but why? What did he do?

Is Nubsib jealous? Does Aey have a crush on Gene?

Will Aey become a character we feel sorry for?

What's going on in Tum's life? (I'm concerned)

Ending

This show adds layer after layer and from afar it looks like the typical BL but it's way, way better than that. It's funny, entertaining, realistic and interesting. Basically a writer navigating helplessly through the BL industry and learning that everything needs to be mainstream and is not allowed to be very different from the rest. I like this idea very much because as fans of BLs, we only see the things from the outside and can only assume the stuff that's going on behind the scenes. Here we have people who know what they are talking about whom we can use as a ressource. I found new aspects in this show I didn't even think about being a problem with the BL industry. It's just very interesting.

Preview

The previews always promise some heavy developments and I'm really excited to see jealous Gene and also drunk Gene. What will he do and will he be different? I mean, Nubsib is going to move out but I guess in the end, he won't. I don't know, something will happen because when Gene said "you can stay" he looked very sorry. Perhaps Nubsib shows more of himself and I think we all agree that he's probably messed up. He thinks pretending and manipulation leads to love...

[sparklingchan]

Stray Kids AU

Stray Kids soulmate AU

Prompt : The name of your soulmate appears on your body only after that person falls in love with you.

A/N: this was sooooo fun to write but it turned out rather long but please the whole thing,I swear it'll be worth every minute🥺

Warnings : None.

1. Bang Chan

You met him for the first time when you went to the movies one evening,alone ,trying to take your mind off the upcoming exams.

He was seated to your left,his mind completely focused on the movie . He wore a black tshirt with a black jacket and a pair of baggy pants but you couldn't help but notice how attractive he looked even in the dark.

You also subtly noticed the bandaids around his fingers and the reddened knuckles and the tired and exhausted look on his face ,which you were very familiar with because it is the same expression you see when you look into the mirror.

"Are you like a boxer or something?" You weren't the kind to go around talking to random strangers at movies but this time your curiosity got the better of you.

He looked at you ,confused ,but answered anyway. "No. I'm a musician "

"Then what's with the bruised hands?"

He looks down at his hands and laughs,shaking his head. "Let's just say I overwork myself a little too much sometimes". Fair enough.

"I'm y/n by the way " you offer your hand and he takes it,smiling from ear to ear. "I'm Chan"

You notice his lack of snacks and a cold drink and you couldn't help but offer your extra large bucket of popcorn ,which previously you were sure you could finish on your own but now, not so anymore.

He thanks you,dipping his hands in and grabbing a fistful of popcorn,a small but very noticeable blush tinting his cheeks.

That night,he offers to walk you home and you couldn't say no. You stood at your doorstep,smiling to yourself as he turns around and walks back home.

The moment he is out of your sight,you feel a sudden pain in your left forearm.

Rolling your sleeves up till your elbow,you are stunned to see "Bang Chan" cleanly written there.

2. Lee Minho

You hated Lee Minho from the bottom of your heart. He went to the same dance studio as you and ever since you guys had a minor argument about something regarding a particular step,he's felt like nothing but a nuisance.

He knew that you disliked him so he made sure to bother you even more. Sometimes he'd make fun of your frizzy hair and sometimes he'd simply grab your phone out of nowhere and run. He even ate your food without any permission.

But one day ,your dance teacher paired you two up together for a couple contemporary dance competition.

You were so close to strangling Minho everytime he looked at you with that smirk on his face as you guys practiced day and night. But you also couldn't help but acknowledge how perfect his every movement was.

It was the day before your competition when Minho fell in the bathroom and fractured his leg,forcing your duo to back out from the competition.

You honestly weren't a bit angry or sad about it since it was a small internal competition but you knew he was upset with himself so you went to visit him at his dorm.

"I'm sorry, y/n " he had said. That's the saddest you've ever seen him look and to be very honest, you hated it.

"Shut up ,idiot. It's not a big deal " you gave him the donuts you bought earlier as he looks up at you ,smiling brightly.

When you were about to leave, he asked you if you could drop by often. His eyes looked at everywhere but you.

"Why?" You giggled. He looked down shyly. "I realized you're not that bad to hang out with "

You laughed, pressing a small kiss on his cheek. "I'll come by often"

When you reached home,you felt a strong sting at your forearm.

And on observing closely at the burning area,you see "Lee Minho" written in big,bold letters.

3. Seo Changbin

You hated your job ,you really did but everything changed when your new colleague, Changbin, arrived. He was the funniest,nicest and most talented mam you'd ever met.

A few weeks into the friendship,he had already made you listen to the songs he composed. His smile when you complimented him was something to die for.

And Whenever you felt down ,he would make some silly jokes and he'd instantly brighten up your mood.

And you didn't want to deny it,you had developed a crush on him.

It was a rainy afternoon in your office when you saw Changbin walk inside your executive director's cabin. You knew that it could never mean something good.

When he came out of the office,almost half an hour later,his eyes looking down at the floor and his ears red ,you knew he had gotten a nice scolding from your shitty boss.

You knew because a few months ago you'd been in the the same position too.

But instead of coming back to his seat,you saw him walk out of the office. Mindlessly,you followed him into the terrace .

"He's a stupid asshole,don't fret yourself about it" you wrapped your arm around his. He sighed, ruffling his hair with the other hand.

"I'm going to punch that man one day " he gritted his teeth. You were so used to him being a smily ,funny man ,you were scared when you saw him this angry.

"He's not worth your attention,I'm telling you " . He only replied by shrugging.

You two decided to have dinner together that night.

"I hope there's a next time to this" he had said,shyly, His smile doing wonders to your heart. As his car disappeared around the corner,you felt your heart swell with a warm feeling.

The next morning,you woke up with a stinging pain in your forearm and when you checked it out,your heart skipped a beat on seeing 'Seo Changbin ' written there.

4. Hwang Hyunjin

You'd never seen a man as beautiful and amazing as Hyunjin. Although he probably never noticed you,you noticed him. All the girls in your college did and you were no exception to that.

You were more than excited when your teacher told you that you two were supposed to do a project together.

Initially, you were expecting him to be a brat ,given his popularity among women ( and men OFC) but he turned out to be a warm person,making you feel guilty for thinking that way about him in the first place.

He helped you all he could ,and you also realised at that time that he was not just a handsome face ,he was pretty smart too.

After working hours on the project at your house,you two would sometimes just spend time talking to each other. It wasn't even forced; you guys just clicked naturally.

On the day the project finished, you decided to bake cookies for him and even packed some for him to take home. "This is a thank you gift"

His whole face lit up as he took the jar of cookies from you. "I should be the one thanking you "

Before he left,he gives you tight hug and then a kiss on your forehead. "I'll see you tomorrow "

While you prepared dinner that evening,you felt a weird sting on your forearm,as if a bug bit you. Putting down the spoon,you checked out your forearm for any signs of a bug bite.

Your cheeks turned red when you saw that it wasn't a bug bite. "Hwang Hyunjin " was printed onto your skin in a clean and neat handwriting.

5. Han Jisung

You were the new producer intern at JYP entertainment and although unfamiliar to most people,you felt quite comfortable at home. You first met Han Jisung when he popped his head through your studio door,mistaking your studio for some else's.

His cheeks turned red with embarrassment, as he rubbed the back of his neck. "I'm sorry. I thought this room was Mike's."

You smiled shyly. "Its alright. Don't apologize please." He then slowly stepped into the studio,his hands behind his back.

"Are you new here ? Haven't seen you before " You nodded in response . He thrusted his hand towards you,his lips curving up into a smile.

"I'm Jisung. I am a trainee here" he said. "Nice to meet you ,Jisung. I'm y/n,a new intern producer"

You then proceeded to tell him that you have in fact heard about him and his team ,3racha,from other producers. He giggled,clearly embarrassed. "Yeah. I do compose a little, here and there "

Needless to say,over time you guys had developed an unbreakable bond not only through music but also the similar way that you two click with each other. It's as if you both had found a safe haven in each other.

A few months later,he told you that he wanted to show you a song he was working on. And excited, you quickly agreed to it.

For someone who was only a few months older than you,his music style was way more mature than yours. The way every beat,every chord ,every lyric sticks out beautifully, you couldn't help but clap as the song ended.

"That was amazing,Jisung. You're gonna put all us producers out of work!" You had teased.

He gave you his signature smile and shook his head . "You guys are going to be big one day, I can feel it " you told him.

He stopped for a second and stared at you ,his fingers fumbling with his laptop. "But you'll still be here right? Even if we do get big one day,you'll still be there with me right?"

You smiled ,as he took your hand in his. "Yes. I'll be there "

As soon as Jisung left the studio after a few minutes,you suddenly felt as if your arm was on fire. Alarmed ,you decided to check the area .

"Han Jisung" was written on your forearm.

6. Felix Lee

You loved swimming more than anything in the world and you were so good at it,people at your school saw you as their swimming champion.

But it all changed when Lee Felix joined your school. He was an amazing swimmer and as much as it hurt your ego to admit it,Felix was better than you .

You couldn't help but feel jealous and even though he was in the same swimming team as you ,you never bothered to acknowledge him. He did try to befriend you but your ego was too big to pay heed to him.

On his birthday, when he invited you to his house for a party,you couldn't say no to those pleading eyes. You told yourself you went out of pity but that's not entirely true.

The party wasn't half as bad as you had thought and by the time the party died down,you also realized you were being too harsh on Felix. His sunshine like smile and cheerful personality worked magic on you.

He offered to walk you home since you insisted on walking back home alone . You agreed because your houses weren't very far apart.

"Do you hate me or something?" He caught you off guard as you find the right words to answer him.

You shook your head ." I don't hate you,Felix. I guess...I was just envious"

He chuckled. " you shouldn't be" and you nodded. He was right, you shouldn't be jealous and right now,in this moment you realise how ridiculous those feelings were.

You stopped at your gate and looked up at him,smiling ,and then gave him a quick hug

But before he could say anything you ran into your house.

The moment you close the door behind you,your forearm starts hurting really bad. And when you check it out to see what's causing it ,you see the name 'Lee Felix ' written on your skin.

7. Kim Seungmin

Kim Seungmin was that one cute boy from your school who dropped by at the library you work at every day.

He always greeted you with the brightest smile on earth and often chatted with you before he left the library. You had gotten used to his positive energy.

But one evening he came in,his eyes tired and mouth pressed in a small smile. He didn't even greet you ,which broke your heart a little.

He sat on the farthest corner of the library, a book open in front of him but his eyes and mind were elsewhere . You approached him.

"What's wrong?" He looked at you with tear filled eyes. "I didn't do well in my maths paper "

You softly patted his back. " hey,it's okay . Everyone knows you're good at maths and plus it was just an internal assessment. It won't hamper your finals "

"But that's the thing,y/n. I'm not good at maths. I am fairly good at the other subjects but I suck at maths,big time "

You looked at his sorry face and realised how much his grades mattered to him unlike you who didn't give too much thought to it . "I'm good at maths. If you want ,I could tutor you "

His face broke into a smile as he placed his hand on yours.

"You would?" You nodded as his smile turned even bigger.

You walked back to the reception after Seungmin calmed down,having discussed the timings for his math tutions and making him promise you free ice cream for the rest of your life in return for your favour.

You suddenly felt a sting on your forearm and on inspecting your forearm ,you saw the name 'Kim Seungmin' written in big letters as your stomach did a backflip in anticipation of what is to come.

8. Yang Jeongin

Jeongin and you had been best friends since childhood. Your parents were friends too so naturally you grew up to be closer than anyone.

But as you both entered teenage, you started seeing him as more than just a friend . So you distanced yourself from him. Over time ,he stopped trying to earn you back and you two grew apart.

It was the last year of high school and everyone was busy preparing for the Winter Ball. You weren't going(obviously),not just because you had no date but also because you didn't want to see Jeongin with someone else.

The morning of the ball arrived and your friends had given up on trying to convince you to go with them.

You were sitting on your sofa while eating breakfast when the doorbell rang.

"I heard that you weren't coming to the ball,y/n " Jeongin looked at you with sad eyes.

You looked at your feet,embarrassed . "Yes."

He sighed,walking into your house. "Why, y/n?"

You told him that you didn't have a date but he refused to believe that to be the only reason. He grabbed your shoulders,looking into your eyes. You heart was beating so fast you were sure you might pass out any minute.

"You like me,don't you? Isn't that the reason why you stopped hanging out with me? Please tell me its true" Your forearm started hurting badly at that moment but you ignored it,there were more important things to do than worry about a sore arm .

"Yes " you didn't want to lie to him anymore . You were tired of being afraid and playing safe all the time . For once,maybe bravery might be a better option.

He smiled from ear to ear ,wrapping you in his arms and snuggling his face in the crook of your neck. "I do too ,you dumbo. "

While your heart leaped with happiness ,the pain in your arm increased so you quickly checked the area whilst still in his embrace.

'Yang Jeongin ' was written on your skin and you knew what it meant. You knew that he was the one for you.

[swiftlymoniquesblog]

Into the Unknown- Sam Winchester x Reader

The reader is a Disnerd and is obsessed with Frozen. She watches the movie constantly and plays the soundtrack at high volume in the Bunker. How do the Winchester Brothers react?

A/N: So, I just watched Frozen II with my Mom last night and my favorite song is Into the Unknown. Panic! At The Disco’s version is really good too! I’ve been this singing this song like crazy so I thought to incorporate the Winchesters into my singing world.

DISCLOSURE: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE RIGHTS TO DISNEY OR ITS AFFILIATES! Lyrics are used for reference purposes ONLY 

Warnings: Dean being (slightly) mean, fluff, Disney singing, Sam being adorable

Word Count: 1429

Masterlist

There was something about the Frozen movies that just inspired you. Whether it was the bond between sisters, Anna and Elsa learning to respect each other’s differences and learning to love one another, or the goofiness and all-around adorable snowman that is Olaf. Maybe Sven and Christoff are what you love; talking Reindeer’s are the big thing. Whatever the case may be, you couldn’t get enough! You’ve sat and watched the movie religiously since it came out on DVD and you played the soundtrack on repeat from your room, occasionally leaving the door open. Especially when the brothers or Cas weren’t around, you’d leave your bedroom door open and crank your TV as loud as you could. The song you loved the most was Into the Unknown. Something about this song stood out to you more than the others. You can relate to needing to follow someone or something into the unknown; that described your hunter life. Originally, you were just a normal college student but soon after you graduated, your brother was killed by a shapeshifter and with the help from the Winchesters, you eventually defeated the monster and joined their little “clan” of Supernatural hunters. 

One day, while Sam, Dean and Castiel had been out on a hunt, you decided to clean up around the Bunker so of course, you played Into the Unknown and sang along as loudly as you could. You hadn’t realized the other hunts had come back earlier than they said they were going to, so you didn’t hear them come in. They remained silent as you continue singing and cleaning. Everyone froze in their places; your voice was captivating to them. No, you didn’t see yourself as a great singer, yet the angel and the Winchesters couldn’t seem to do anything at the sound of your voice. Sam, Dean, and Cas appeared to have been in a trance, and as you turned around, you jumped when you saw them staring at you.

“Holy shit you guys, you scared me! What…what the hell are you guys doing home so early?” You say, holding your hand over your chest. 

“We finished our hunt a bit earlier than we thought it would take,” Cas explained. 

“Oh, well, sorry, let me turn this off then.” You say, hitting the power button on the small remote you took with you to control your TV. 

“You didn’t have to do that, Y/N. We thought you sounded good.” Sam complimented you, to which you just blew him off. Not being rude to him, you just smiled and looked away from him. Compliments from Sam were something that meant a lot to you. He didn’t give them out often, but when he did, it hit home for you. You admit, you had a big crush on the younger Winchester but admitting that to him is something you can’t do. Not like he had a long relationship with anyone and it wasn’t his fault either. 

“Well, I, uh, I’m going back to my room.” You scurry off as quickly as you could, ignoring the calls from Sam.

“That was weird. I hope she’s okay.” Sam says to his brother and best friend.

“Who knows with her. She’s kinda moody sometimes.” Dean says, to which Sam whacks his arm. “Ow!” 

“I wonder if she is menstruating.” Castiel suddenly said, surprising both Winchesters.

“What?” Dean asked, eyeing the angel suspiciously. 

“Well, I read in one of the books I found in the library about women and it said when they menstruate, they tend to be very ‘moody.’” Cas explained.

“How can you read about that crap, Cas?!” Dean asked, astonished the angel would find interest in that topic. 

“It’s good stuff to know Dean. Y/N is the only female in this Bunker. Being able to help her out wouldn’t kill us.” Sam said.

“Whatever, you guys can help with the blood and mood swings,” Dean said, shivering at the thought. 

“Good to know where you stand, man,” Sam said, rolling his eyes at his brother. 

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Sam’s POV

Into the unknown

Into the unknown

Into the unknown

(Oh)

I can hear you but I won't

Some look for trouble while others don't

There's a thousand reasons I should go about my day

And ignore your whispers which I wish would go away, oh

Whoa

You're not a voice, you're just a ringing in my ear

And if I heard you, which I don't, I'm spoken for I fear

Everyone I've ever loved is here within these walls

I'm sorry, secret siren, but I'm blocking out your calls

I've had my adventure, I don't need something new

I'm afraid of what I'm risking if I follow you

The lyrics to that song from Frozen was playing from Y/N’s room again. She’s been listening to it nonstop and singing her little heart out. Honestly, I loved the sound so I crept over to her room, and leaned in close, to hear her voice better. 

Into the unknown

Into the unknown

Into the unknown

(Oh)

(Oh)

God her voice was absolutely beautiful. Snap out of Sam! You can’t think like that. Don’t let her get too close; you can’t lose her like all the others.

“Whatcha doing little brother?” Dean said, suddenly appearing behind me.

“Jesus, Dean! Quit doing that!” 

“Are you spying on y/n?”

“No, I’m listening to her sing.” 

“She’s singing that stupid Frozen song again, isn’t she?” 

“Yeah.”

Dean rolls his eyes, “can’t she pick any better songs?”

“Oh, leave her alone, Dean! I think she sounds beautiful.” I defend y/n.

“Really?” 

“Yeah, haven’t you seen the way her face lights up when she watches the movie? How passionately she sings? I mean, you can tell it’s from within.”

“And you’ve noticed all this?” 

“I have.”

Then Dean gasps, “oh my God, you like y/n!”

My eyes widen. “What? No, no I don’t like her.” I scoff.

“Oh yeah? ‘Do you see the way her face lights up?’ ‘I think she sounds beautiful?’ Dean mimics me, proving his point. 

“Okay, okay, fine. I might have a bit of a crush on y/n.”

“Ha, I knew it! Sammy’s in love!” Dean cheered.

“First off, it’s Sam. Second, I’m not ‘in love’ I just, really care about her.”

“Sure, you do. Okay, well, you gotta tell her! Y/N!” Before I even get to react, Dean calls for the girl and, I begin to panic.

“Hey guys, what are you doing in the hallway?” She asks, opening the door, and looking at us. She looks adorable, with her hair tied back in a high ponytail, a tank top, and short shorts.

“Sam has something he’d like to talk to you about,” Dean said, turning to look at me, while I just stood awkwardly. 

“What’s up, Sam?” She questions me, craning her neck a bit to look up at me.

“I uh….”

“Sam? What’s going on? You know you can trust me; we’re best friends.”

“I know, y/n, I know. I just. Okay, please let me get this out before you say anything.”

“Alright.” She says, crossing her arms over her chest, that doesn’t do too well at showing she’s not wearing a bra. Damnit, Sam, focus!

“Okay, well since you first came to live here, I was immediately attracted to you but I didn’t want to ruin things between us, just in case you didn’t feel the same, and the fact we live in the same place might make it all uncomfortable. I swear I tried fighting it but then you started singing Frozen songs and you make this really cute face when you watch the movie; your whole face lights up! And I really care about you and don’t want anything to happen to you. I have a strong need to protect you at all times and to be near you. And if that scares you, then good. Cause I’m absolutely terrified of falling in love with my best friend.”

“Sam, I-I’m so glad you said that because I am too. I am so scared to fall in love, let alone with you, but if you’re willing to, I want to give this thing a try. I really like you, too.” She says.

“Oh, thank God!” I said, bringing her close to me to seal our deal with a kiss.

“Okay, this is weird since I’m pretty much half-naked here.” She laughs.

“Nah, it's fine. This is a really good look on you.” I wink at her, leaning down to kiss her again. 

“Will you watch this with me?” She asks.

“I would be honored.”

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[colorisbyshe]

How can u know if ur like... Lesbian or bi if u don't like.... Like men. Like if ur scared of them or have trauma. U are v smart bisexual woman and posted about something similar recently and I'm just wondering if u have any advice for exploring that like when u have troubles with men. Bc I identify as a lesbian but I'm not sure if that's just because I'm v afraid of men! How Can U Know!

Quick but important confession: That last post is oversimplified just to rebuke the point being made (ie bisexual women who choose to not be with men are lesbians). The reality is… it’s a lot more complicated than that.

As a bisexual “woman” (we’re gonna use that term for me just for simplicity’s sake) who is attracted to men but never intends to pursue it… attraction to men is like craving a food that’s too spicy for me. Like, I might really want to eat it, maybe even enjoy eating it, but by the end of it snot is gonna be running down my face and it’s gonna be embarrassing and kinda painful. Any joyful feelings I get from the notion of dating men is mitigated by “Mmmm, men are horrible and I really just… don’t want to deal with that.” It’s an inconvenience but it’s an inconvenience I forget about when I meet a man who is like… really nice to me and says enough Not Evil Things that I find myself trusting him. Or sometimes a dude is just really cute and I haven’t heard him open his mouth enoguh times to ruin it yet.

So, like, hindbrain Stephanie is like “This Man Good. Crush time? Horny Time?” and rational Stephanie is like “Bitch, again?”

If you aren’t having sort of innate tugs to men, you probs aren’t attracted to him. And maybe beneath all the layers of Terror youc ould be feeling an innate tug to men but to that i say… does it matter?

Because that’s the complicated rub of it–you could maybe be attracted to men (in a comphet way or in a real, genuine way) and it wouldn’t fucking matter. If you never intend on acting on it, you don’t have to call yourself bisexual.

“But Stephanie doesn’t that contradict your last post where you said bisexual wlw who don’t pursue men aren’t lesbians!” Yes. And no.

I’m a bisexual wlw who is 99.99% positive I’m never gonna date a man. I choose to identify as bisexual because a. I enjoy my attraction to men in many ways, even if it’s a more distant way. I have a fun time talking about my genuine attraction to men with friends and I don’t really feel the need to shut it out just becaues I don’t want to act on it and b. I have, actually, met a few men who like I Would Not Be Opposed To At Least Fucking. My attraction to men is not terror filled, it’s just vaguely a nuisance. Because men suck.

I’m likely to never, ever be with a man. I made out with one (1) man in my life and it was only ever when I was also making out with one (1) woman at the same time, so I consider it canceled out. (Also, I dont actually remember it happening, so it also doesn’t count on that front. Oh college…).

Some women experience attraction to men, maybe even don’t mind it, but think “As I’m never gonna act on it and I don’t want to even talk about it, I’m calling myself a lesbian.” And that’s… fine.

Just like there are women who might suspect their attraction to men is just comphet but might not ever be able to confirm it, so they go with lesbian.

Do you have anything to gain from trudging through your trauma towards men and coming out the other side as a bisexual? Do you think maybe being attracted to men would enrich your life? If no… then it doesn’t matter if you can’t know for sure.

There’s a lot more overlap between lesbian and bisexual experiences than some people will admit, especially when we factor in things like comphet that make attraction to men a sort of “Is this even real?” type scenario.

Label yourself with what makes you more comfortable, although if you’re gonna talk about being attracted to men and pursue men, stick to bisexual. Like… “Lesbians can healthily fuck men and enjoy it” is a Bad Message to send.

But also like…. how can you ever know? Sometimes you can’t. Considering my veeeeery limited experience with men, I don’t know if my attraction is real. Just that like… I don’t entirely mind it, fake or not. For me, the safer bet is “bisexual” but there are women out there with identical feelings/experiences to me who know they aren’t ever pursuing men and call themselves lesbians.

It’s very complicated. Bi women can never, ever pursue or be with men and call themselves bi. Or potentially bi women can just never give a fuck about atraction to men and call themselves lesbians.

It’s… a mess. Especially since some people take it too far (ie DO pursue men and still call themselves lesbians or lesbians might continuet o call themselves bi because of comphet) but like… there’s this massive grey area.

In your case, stick with lesbian. If “Men Terrify Me” is something you’re feeling,t here’s no reason to have to parse that out, y’unno? Being with men doesn’t sound fun for you, even if you were attracted to them. So don’t worry about it.

[nie-rants]

Hi y'all it's me again (yeah we know) Anywho today's rant is really going to be kind of serious so stay with me here okay. So I was kind of reading this, book y'know (what's it's name) it's a book (there we go guys I can now confidently tell you it's a fic) maybe it is but essentially this fic was about an affair let me give it to you like this okay.

There's this guy(let's call him John) he hits on a guy(let's call him Jim) at a bar who's a little stiff at first but soon enough they're back at a hotel have a one night stand that's it. Jim left first before John even woke up no leaving any form of contact, no phone number, no nada. Later in the day John gets a a message from Jim on Instagram saying he'd like to keep in touch, John then thinks long and hard about,(for about a minute or so) and just decided to say yes. They keep talking like for a while then Jim just during one of their conversations just casually drops the fact that he spent the day with his in-laws like it's nothing. John was like what and eventually found out Jim was married to a lady. It shocked him, hurt him did alot of things but didn't mean the end of this relationship. Anywho that's where I think the affair officially begun.

Like that's basically the summary of the story and I know that since Jim and John are the protagonists of this story we're supposed to support them and want them to by together and bless their souls but HECK NO! like under no circumstances do I ever find or justify cheating acceptable. I know sometimes people are in relationships they don't really want to be in like they're compelled to be in but like no. I might sound like some self righteous highly pretentious prick or your some kind of Sunday school teacher who says "kill e'm with kindness" but I'm sorry I don't think I get it. Essentially cheating itself has a whole type if definition because let's face it life unlike movies isn't black and white and not everyone gets their picture perfect happy endings. Like I believe cheating on someone is a situation where you don't tell the other partner in this relationship that you're not wholly committed to them like being CRYSTAL CLEAR that you have something with someone else.

And then again I get it, y'know cause this life that we live in is messed up as fuck. Like I remember being like 8'ish and hearing all the negativity towards queer people, particularly gay people an lesbians, those were the ones I basically knew at the time, and thinking why can't a gay guy just marry a lesbian lady so they can understand each other and never have to face critism for being married or generally liking the same gender without actually giving up what they love. Like they can still secretly date and stuff.

Damn think about it, at such a young age I already was thinking about ways to hide things society didn't approve of no matter how much they didn't seem wrong to me.

Like I'm older now, but even as I grew through a those years I started realizing how much more my attraction for ladies, girls, women, people of the female gender was than for makes an did tell you it scared me I would make a comment like how pretty that lady was and like quickly glance around to make sure it wasn't too much or were people going to read into and realize I was even considering not liking guys men boys males whatever. And I like up to by I still haven't admitted to myself that I might like girls like I still tell myself that maybe I just haven't discovered what my type of guy is.

TO BE CONTINUED... (Cause the whole of this thing is too fucking long for how short we agreed these rants would always be) sorry😬 (so wait for part two please to upload please

your's truly nie's "annoying as fuck"🙄 editor) And me nie,😕 who actually wrote it, anyways byeeeeeee👋. (🙁Yeah what she said)

[lesbian-ed]

sometimes I think that I might not be a lesbian and it scares me. I think that being gay is one of the most important things when it comes to my personality (which is actually not true but my mind still sometimes thinks so). I can't imagine what would it be like for me to fall in love with a guy. I don't want to lose my identity, and I get how some people who thought they were straight get scared when they discover that they are actually gay. How do I make yourself sure that I'm gay?

Youneed to let go of the conviction that being gay is this huge partof your “identity”. Being homosexual is simply a part of you the same wayyour height is. Being gay doesn’t mean anything for your personality orwho you are as a person. If you’d one day fall in love with a man instead of awoman, the only thing that would happen is that you’d potentially have a malepartner instead of a female one as you first anticipated.

Tryand let go of “gay” as a part of your identity/personality; It’s simply not.Just like the color of your skin, or your height like I first mentioned, doesn’tdictate what kind of person you are, what your interests are, what yourpolitics are, etc. etc., being gay doesn’t determine who you are. Sure, it doesof course determine how you see the world, what your experiences are, etc.(just like your ethnicity does, which sex you are, how much money you have, andso on), but that’s more a result of the homophobia in our society than yourhomosexuality in itself.

AlthoughI do understand feeling insecure. Some people are very certain about theirsexuality while others are more hesitant, and it can be scary and confusing tonot be sure. I bet you’ve heard this a million times, but be patient. Don’trush things. You don’t have to figure everything out right away. If you are attractedto women, that’s great. If you don’t know whether you’re attracted to men ornot, well, take your time and think it through. And remember, in case you dorealize you’re attracted to men too, there’s nothing forcing you to actuallypursue those feelings unless you really want to. Sure, you’d have to admit toyourself that you are not a lesbian, but bisexual, but I’ll say it again; Yoursexuality doesn’t dictate who you are as a person, and it shouldn’t have to bea big part of how you see yourself.

Ihope this helps and wasn’t too messy. Take care!

/ ModW