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I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.
I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:
Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)
Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)
Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often
Eat dessert first
Celebrate well, and often
Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)
Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.
Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate
Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)
Walk without having a specific destination or goal
Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.
I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.
#mental health#mental health support#positivity#if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them!#i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all..#...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in...#...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air...#...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life...#...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with...#...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it...#...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it#i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive#unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better
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saw your last post! you should draw them both wearing the scarves.
headscarf and bitch sunglasses just scream Machete
I don't know about scarves, but this might be an apt time to share these doodles I made last summer, of him in bitch sunglasses and a great big hat.
#the problem is that if I put sunglasses on him he instanty turns into a beatnik#and since he has albinism and his eyes are sensitive to light sunglasses are a necessity#own art#own characters#CanisAlbus#Machete#art#artists on tumblr#modern au#pants waist so high it has left the hip jurisdiction entirely and is inching towards his armpits#I don't know if it's just me but if you look at the outfit on the right from a distance it almost gives him sort of a priestly silhouette#which wasn't intentional but I thought it was funny
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Act I ~ The Prince
A tapestry for Let No One Sleep by @azalawa-scroggs on ao3
#wrightworth#phoenix wright#miles edgeworth#nmbb24#happy nrmt big bang!!! there are two more of these…..#but you’ll have to wait for them#fan art#aa#ace attorney#dick gumshoe#maya fey#manfred von karma#…bro is creeping…#wHEEWWWW ok took me a bazillion years to catch up with my day but HERE ARE MY THOUGHTS ON THIS ONE:#the border is intended to be read in counter clockwise direction#so: top -> left -> bottom -> right#and YES the sun and the moon are intentionally associated with the attorney's and prosecutor's badges respectively#phoenix and miles are our sun and moon throughout this story so be sure to look for that in the fic too!!#this style was very experimental for me but i wanted it to mimic the feeling of a tapestry hence me referring to it that way#i WISH this was fabric that would be sick as fuck#i will eventually share a proper breakdown of the thoughts and intentions behind everything but for now...#im gonna miss Phoenix’s cloak bc im obsessed with the design actually. wish that thing was real too#miles is my cunty little bitchboy in this wearing his thousand pound fur coat and the suitor stompy boots#if you thought that was a rug and went Oh. ...that was on purpose :^)))))#rendevok#id in alt text
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Hello I love your bg3 content and your Dorian is so lovely! Can we get like an alternative reality with Dorian and Ascended Astarion? What would your headcannon be for them? 🙇
something like this, probably
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#astarion#tavstarion#ascended astarion#tw blood#long post#i may have gotten carried away with this#the only good thing dorian got out of being vampire lord astarion's concubine was a lovely bedchamber and a dramatic robe#i think dorian's attitude to a lot of things is 'it can't be that bad' until it is very very very bad#'maybe he won't be that bad' until you've been locked in a palace for decades and there's nothing left for you to love anymore#i got nauseous writing this i HATE him#it was such a delicious prompt though and i can't say i never thought about it#also i didn't realise until after i wrote it that this was how interview with the vampire ends. nvm
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Stop light shenanigans
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#this came to me in the shower as most great thoughts do#I’m so sorry for this LONG ASS POst#Bill Woodward#ted spankoffski#paul matthews#My mom said this was a one one two but with an extra one…. which is boxing talk I guess#Basically ‘’ tom coming in with the left hook’’#which I’ll take as this being at least somewhat funny#tho does it count when the only people you have to ask is who you got your humor from?#Tom Houston#digital art#digital drawing#art#fanart#Hatchetfield#Tgwdlm#nightmare time#jane’s a car#Is it obvious I have no friends in this fandom except my momma???#starkid#hatchetfield fanart#black friday#//Komic
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getting emotional over footage of an amateur scuba diver interacting with a coelacanth. they are hunted by large deepwater predators, and here comes a large creature bearing the brightest lights it's ever seen, making strange noises, but it does not shy away. it hovers, calmly, as the diver reaches out and trails a hand down its back. im strongly against the anthropomorphizing of real life animals but the stupid emotional part of me loudly insists this is because it recognizes us, the alternating movements of its four paired limbs matching the diver's four paired limbs, & it is thinking, "hello, cousins, we missed you these 66 million years, it's so good to see you again. welcome back, welcome home."
#[OBLIGATORY DISCLAIMER: he should NOT have touched the fish. do NOT touch random fish you find while scuba diving#especially if the fish is 6ft long & has sharp teeth#ESPECIALLY if the fish is a critically endangered species#being overwhelmed by the majesty of the coelcanth is understandable but that does not excuse his behavior]#[obligatory disclaimer 2: i know nothing about this guy; by 'amateur' i just mean he wasnt part of a scientific expedition at the time]#[obligatory disclaimer 3: i mean it wasnt CALM. its first dorsal fin was erect which we have reason to believe means it is on edge.#but it didnt flee like you would expect of a wild animal]#...disclaimers over. now im going to wail about how life began in the sea and we left & they stayed#& we thought they were gone & now we're finding our way back home to them#they are so beautiful and they are our family and they love us ok. they do i know it in my heart#coelacanth#Latimeria chalumnae#animals#andy original#ALSO I KNOW THEY HAVE 8 FINS by four paired limbs i mean the pelvic and pectoral the others arent paired they dont move like legs do
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He did eventually sign it
#sonic movie universe#stobotnik#doctor ivo robotnik#agent stone#initially i wanted the marriage one to happen with movie 3 ivo#but then i remember the government erased all evidence of him and therefore he legally doesn't exist and can't get married#which i guess means that they also had to discover they were married and erase that too?#or i guess maybe they didn't realize and the only evidence of ivo Robotnik left is a marriage certificate only stone knows about#anyway this concept is unhinged for a number of reasons and that makes it very funny to me#first stone just. signing whatever the hell the doctor wants without checking what it is#you just know he signed dome heinous shit. body modification was probably included somewhere#then robotnik trying to trick him into marriage! why??#well i assure there's not a romantic thought in his head while doing it#he just thinks stone is his and that it should be official#but he also knows what it looks like so he didn't want stone to find out#also the fact that he doesn't even know the guy he's trying to marry'#real name like... okay#the fact that stone is not bothered by it and he in fact redid the certification so it would be official#THE FACT THAT THIS IMPLIES EVERYTHING ELSE HE SIGNED IS NOT LEGALLY BINDING BECAUSE HIS NAME WAS WRONG#you get it i think it's funny
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gonna be real here boss when it comes to the ancestral hall scene i am 100% on jiang cheng's side
#mdzs#jiang cheng#jc apologism#yanyan speaks#king that is his house. you are in his house. you left and you did not come back so that is not your house anymore.#you don't get to walk around like you own the place because you actively chose to give that up#also king you hit first....jc was being an ass but you were the one who escalated a verbal confrontation into a physical one#also these are all thoughts i had on my very first readthrough before i became a jc stan#i only became a jc stan at the guanyin temple scene#mo dao zu shi
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happy new year
#ace attorney#gyakuten saiban#phoenix wright#maya fey#pearl fey#naruhodou ryuuichi#ayasato mayoi#ayasato harumi#i set this being on the turn of the year between the first and second games#maya left back for kurain right before new years#it's also her first year without mia :')#i thought to draw smtg dumb and lighthearted like for christmas but i guess i wasn't in the mood#so may we have some slight angst instead#i guess i can actually spend more than an hour working on the same thing in the end#aa#art#digital art#also you can tell me if my descriptions suck#i wont be offended. i'm new at this and english is not my first language
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Have a fun trip in England! —🎱
anonie, I'm back already, and you're back too???
I missed you sm, are you ok?
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My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.
[id in alt text]
#legend of zelda#loz#twilight princess#loz tp#i'm still reeling that someone sent me an ask about this one.. that they took the time to find my tumblr and tell me they liked it#it really meant a lot; thank you to anyone that stops to leave comments like that. they make me happy#but yeah! here's the usual symbolism ramble:#i thought it'd be cool to have the 'spirits' flowing one way and the cats walking through them the other way#to kinda show the difference in life inhabiting the village in the past and present#link's face is covered because impaz was just waiting for 'the hero' so his clothes are what matters; not his face#and it (hopefully) gives a surreal and intangible sense to 'the hero' she could only hope would actually show up#you can feel free to interpret the glowy blue sheikah as ghosts or just as memories of the past! i couldn't decide either way#the one on the bottom left is oot impa since she's implied to be the village founder. so i guess she would be a ghost actually?#fan art#my art#project stuff#and ahhh the book-- everyone's stuff is so beautiful!!#especially the writing. some of the fics made me really tear up and some were so fun and clever. i really love them#a lot of them captured the sheer burden of the role of the sheikah; all of the time and grief and doubt#i know i always say this stuff about every project but. the people i get to work with in these are truly so skilled every time
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Little pet project of a human AU
The comic above is from they were 14-15, they're 19-20 here
#lbau#drawing#janus and virgil are playing video games without remus...... horrible friends#art#digital#comic#sanders sides#tss#janus sanders#remus sanders#virgil sanders#ts remus#ts virgil#ts janus#platonic anxceitmus#anyway obligatory human au. im not doing anything with it its purely daydream material but it's fun#notice how remus is the one who changes the least between middle school and college#because he's creative and has no filter and no shame so he basically had his whole aesthetic figured out by the time he was 13#you can tell i drew the last panel & virgil's doodle the next day as the others because the art style is different. oops#i have sooooooo many thoughts about them. soooooooo many#this is an anxceit au but im not actively into any of the ships so that might honestly change. the ships are plot devices for More Drama#this is an au where they grew up together but virgil left when they were 15 without saying anything and then actively avoided them <3
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What home smells like (Crossroads comments)
Note: judging by the audio I extracted and the conversation file, Bellara and Taash don't have lines for that event (if they actually have lines and I missed them, pls lmk).
Rook: That scent… I can't place it. Neve: For a moment… it smelled like Dock Town after it rains. Lucanis: Coffee. Like Illario and I smelled in the kitchen where we grew up. But that cannot be right. Harding: That's my ma's apple cake! But… how? Davrin: That's smoke from my old clan's campfire. But… how do I even know that? Emmrich: It's reminiscent of the mortuary's perfumes, but… ah. Of course. Emmrich: There's small enchantments around this place. From the old elves, welcoming their kindred home.
My DAVG Extracted Audio Masterlist
#anyway. so much to unpack here#I know it's just a way to leave things ambiguous so they don't hinder players' headcanons but Rook not knowing what home smells like is...#it's quite a lot#then Lucanis's “like Illario and I smelled”. their lives are so intertwined he cannot recall his own childhood without Illario#very normal!#“how do I even know what my old campfire smells like?” how would you NOT Davrin. or maybe you are just surprised you are still remember?#that this life you thought you'd completely left behind#is still so important to you that the crossroad spirits immediately clock you as missing it?#very disappointed that Bellara doesn't actually have lines here why does it fall to Emmrich of all people to explain what's going on there!#and that Taash doesn't have any considering that smell is their entire thing!!#datv audio#davrin#davrin dragon age#emmrich volkarin#lace harding#lucanis dellamorte#neve gallus#veilguard audio#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#flowers.txt#flowers blogs#rook datv#rook dragon age#rook
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Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness
(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#tbb fanfiction#dumping my “fanfic_doodles.clip” file here literally#sorry the style is messy#now I see them all Im like “ok it's all over the place zero/100 aesthetically pleasuring post”#hhhh its the thought that counts?#And tbh the point is just to convince you to read theses#because I'm like OBSSEEESSED with theses since you appeared in my notes#Every fic is gold#Me baiting my followers with pretty enough pictures to read fanfics#this being said I should really take the time to color properly my stuff#but I don't liiiiiiiiike it#there is tons of more talented artists if people want colored beautiful amazing art#me I can't really make my “”“spontaneous”“” “”“doodles”“” pretty without trying hard and at the end it's meh#They're so flat too#yesterday I was like “oh my scenes are becoming less flat I improved maybe”#Then I scrolled on my storyboard insta and was like#yeah sure no#I'm still faaaaaar away from the industry standards#I studied like at three arts school and I'm still bad at drawing TAT#why is my brain not working v_v#look brain I'm showing you nice pictures learn from them#brain: no Im gonna overfixate on this left hand here and only this#anyway
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I wish you were here
#It must've been devastating for the Lone Wanderer to leave the vault on their own :(#One thing that I thought about while designing Jules (LW):#She is extremely skeptic of strangers. Often glares at people like they'll be found dead in the morning. A bit of a pain in the ass too TBH#She sure appears numb to it but mind you the girl is terrified of losing loved ones in some traggic way until no one else is left#Ig you could say Jules interacts w non-evil karma companions like they're some kind of found family (my favorite trope i can't help it </3)#fallout#fallout 3#fo3#starbsart#lone wanderer
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my dark link thoughts coalesced into wonderful headcanons and crazy amounts of forced perspectives and dutch angles
also sorry HW i would have included your dark link(s) but i do not have passion for your game <3 maybe next time
Some thoughts below
I have thoughts about dark link that boil down to basically two things: 1. it's always the same dark link, and 2. dark link has a very difficult time changing.
No matter how many times dark link is brought into existence, he is formed from the shadow of link usually to test link's will. that shadow can be duplicated (as seen in HW) but generally speaking it's the same guy, sharing the thought space, you know how it is. In terms of sentience/thinking for himself, I don't think there's all that much of it. He is a dark reflection/shadow of link, so shares his abilities and thought patterns (for combat) with added aggression and. evil. i guess.
As said by navi, "conquer yourself", and all that. He's a challenge to the inner will power.
That being said!!! he can have a little bit of individuality, as a treat. Just in the form of being mean and sadistic <3 he's got thoughts, he's not just a combat doll (tho in times of low power, or a greater power having the reins, he reverts to that), so he can be frustrated, vindicated, happy, etc etc. though when your thoughts are mainly "evilevilevilevilevil" your idea of these emotions are a bit skewed.
When he's summoned for each different link, i hc that it's all the same magic, so the same dark link every time. he "remembers" in an abstract sense of his role in the same way a link or zelda "remembers" their own reincarnation. tho his is less of a reincarnation and more being used over and over again. a persistence.
The iteration that's summoned reflects the current link at the time, the part of link that needs testing/defeating, so it's not an existence that he himself can change to match the present. he's locked to that first copy/shadow only. So if he were to have a second encounter with an older link, he'd look like the first time they fought, unless he was specifically re-summoned. i hc he's got limited magic, so this is not something he can do himself.
in a links-meet scenario, his form would be limited to those specific forms of the links, and it would always be the points in time in which he first encountered them, unless there's other magic either he or someone else has access to to allow him to change forms to match.
now you might be saying at this point "wouldn't he be a weaker match if he was put up against an older link?" yeah probably lol. but also!!! i like the idea that with the limited magic he has, he's able to change juuuust enough to stay relatively evenly matched. being able to play to different strengths and all that. but the base stuff is still the same, so he is decently easy enough to read if link remembers the kind of stuff he was pulling back when he originally fought dark link.
dark link also knows about all this so while limited to the particular skillset, is able to adapt slightly.
but yeah been thinking a lot about a links-meet au where dark link is there choosing a different link to be every time he appears to the party.
though there are a couple links that he never impersonates in their games!!! so can't change into those guys unless he gets a new round of copycat magic.
Anyways goodbye guy standing there with standard camera angle, i have dutch angles and forced perspective

#Spirit Tracks#Zelda 2#The Adventure of Link#Ocarina of Time#Legend of Zelda#loz#zelda 2 the adventure of link#loz aol#loz oot#loz st#Legend of Zelda Spirit Tracks#Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time#my art#Dark Link#dink#link#teehee thinking about this was fun#hope yall enjoy some of my thoughts :0#ofc this all hcs so be nice<3#tho i would love to discuss yalls thoughts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#and yalls own hcs!!!!!!!!!!!!! if you have them!!!!!!!!!!!!#shout out to the zelda 2 official art that's where i got the AoL link design#i kinda want to take the top left one and make it into a full piece#it was a lot of fun to do#such a fun camera angle and perspective <333#man i need to play spirit tracks#there's probably several hacks out there i just need to get my hands on one#also technically the dark link in st is wearing the green tunic but i wanted to draw the conductor outfit cuz that's THE fit!!!!!!!!!!#also he doesn't blink/close his eyes when you defeat him <3#also yes you can tell i have a favorite
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