#I LOOOVE all the art dont get me wrong

[unrequitedloveisabitch]

one of my biggest pet peeves as far as aftg art goes was, for the longest time, everyone making Neil a ginger when he is very clearly described as having auburn hair. Almost direct quote: "he'd had brown hair before, but never this specific shade of brown". Implying his hair is more brown than red. But ANYWAy. Nora corrected people recently and most new Neil art has the right color hair, which I appreciate.

now, my biggest coloring pet peeve is Andrew's eyes...

guys... they're not brown. They're hazel. Hazel is a mix of green and brown and gold. No matter what mix you make them, there should be at least a little green in there for them to be considered hazel. js

[albireon]

1. Yippee!

2. My personal interpretations of a few of the details in my last post since my friends enjoyed hearing them

3. The background image comes from here. The specific one I used is labelled "Page 7 View – Voice 5 QBASS2"

https://synthroom.com/fairlight-cmi/psb-fairlight-disks/psb-lovequi/

[voidzphere]

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✩ ABOUT ME !!! >_<

FIRST OFF, HERE ARE SOME OF MY FLAGZ !!! :3 ↓↓↓

my main prnz are he/it/bite, but i alzo use vamp/fang/bone/skull/blood/gore/knife ! (plz dont refer 2 me w they/them)

my special interest is undertale + utmv ! (if that waznt obv enough..)

i love love LOVE horror gamez .. some of my favz rn are kinitopet, imscared, house, ddlc, rental, and bonnie's bakery :]

I HAVE A PERSONA ! u can find itz ref sheet here :] i uzually draw myself as either him or juzt killer sans !!

I LOOOVE MY MOOTZ, FRIENDZ, AND PARTNER <333

some of my current hyperfixationz are fionna & cake, smg4, regretevator, atsv, invader zim, adventure time & dialtown !

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some of my fav bandz/artistz are talking heads, misfits, bad brains, rio romeo, lemon demon, will wood, pixies, melanie martinez, alex g, 6arelyhuman, goreshit, sex pistols, potsu, the living tombstone, etc. !

some of my fav songz are alien blues, vampire culture, laplace's angel, dr sunshine is dead, seriously?, genius of love, at the movies, charlie's inferno, etc. !

✩ my tagz !

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istz + phobez

epiciller, /r + /sx errorink, etc.

pro/dark/comship (or whatever you call your weirdo selvez..)

irl doublez (unless i knew u beforehand!!) (im irlz of killer, reaper, & epic.)

minorz who post nsfw cuz ion wanna see that shit man go do ur homework

slander of my interestz/special interestz + hyperfixationz like stfu

mockery of me and/or my traitz (i.e my typing quirkz)

unwanted criticism, especially if i didnt ask for it. stfu part 2

anyone i've had drama with + my exez (fuck you)

HOMESTUCK. and hazbin hotel + helluva boss (tbh i dont rlly care if you like these mediaz and interact with me, just dont talk abt it in front of me yknow)

✩ byi + boundariez

i have autism + adhd, BPD, & typing quirkz !! tone indicatorz are optional when talking to me, but i appreciate them.

i'm an irl + fictkin ! i have a few c-linkz as well.

im not a roleplay account btw /srs

my art requestz are alwayz open ! can't promise i'll alwayz do them, but they help me out with inspiration though :3

DO NOT REPOST MY ART. i will find you

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my askbox + dmz are alwayz open !! i love meetin new people n gettin to know em :] im fine w tagz, commentz, & spam-likez/reblogz too !

i might accidentally spam-like (i get too excited).

just because i make suggestive jokez and im hypersexual doez not mean i'm not sex-replused from time to time.

im a DID system and use i/me pronounz. i don't talk about my DID often becauze i see it as unimportant to other ppl.

i'm nonhuman !! plz do not refer to me as human. i prefer skeleton termz over everything else. im ur favorite homozexual cryptid-skeleton :3

i tend to ramble, say thingz that are out-of-pocket, have trouble with volume control/typing in all capz, make inappropriate jokez, flirt with & tease my close friendz, etc. if u ever find any of this bothering, plz inform me and i will stop.

i love drama + gossip, i will argue with strangerz on the internet just to spite them bc i find it funny ^_^ (only if theyre in the wrong and deserve it.)

i have strong opinionz and will shit-talk you if you're a weirdo who deservez it.

my blog, my rulez <3

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[cartoonrival]

kakashi and ummmm spins wheel akane from r1/2

kakashi

i dont really talk about kakashi and theres not really a reason for that beyond i dont super have anything intelligent to say about him but i do really love him ToT i dont think he works BETTER as part of a dynamic bc that implies i dont care for him much on his own but i think his character shines BEST as part of a dynamic... in pt 1 he was one of the characters who most most emphasized how young the team 7 kids were and it makes me SICK it makes me sick seeing how much he loves them, the way he talks to them and about them like theyre really children and he cares about them so much and has loved watching them grow up and helping them train, i looove how the chidori becomes one of sasuke's signatures after kakashi taught it to him and how excited naruto gets about getting to train with kakashi again and how kakashi was disappointed at the start of shippuden that naruto and sakura werent as easily amazed by him anymore and he had them try and steal the bells from him again as a little welcome back exercise .... and when he watched the three of them defeat kaguya together he was thinking how much he loved them .... BWAAAAAAAA

and and. i think his relationship with guy honestly balances his relationship with the kids rly well because we get to see him as a protective figure with them but with guy he's talking to someone whos his age and on his level and who he's known for like 2 decades, obviously not to say he never lets loose or relaxes or is irresponsible with the kids but the way he is with guy and the childish competitiveness of their rivalry (which he acts like he's annoyed by but this is obviously not true) is just idk. i like seeing that other facet of him. i think the race through konoha that ended w guy giving him a bouquet was an anime original scene but idc it was so cute and i think it was lee and neji who said smth about them finally being able to have fun and let off steam or w/e. augh. yeah.

ALSO esp in the anime i love how noticeably his tone of voice shifts when he's talking to someone ranked above him when he's usually so nonchalant and casual its something something about how he used to be part of the black ops. idk idk i rly love him and i love how he has pretty distinct facets of himself that come out depending on who he's interacting with it makes him feel very real. he's laid back but on edge and kind and blunt. ill be honest though i dont care about the stuff w obito and rin im sick of that dead girl and that man whos still obsessed with her!!!! but its ok because i love you kakashi.

akane

SHES EVERYTHING .TO ME. as with all of r/2 i think her struggles with bisexuality (ambiguous) couldve been carried further and her martial arts abilities kind of fell off towards the end which SUCKSSSS AND MAKES ME SO MAAAAD but anyways. she gets a lot of hate for being a jerk BUT LIKE. YEAH? she's scared and angry all the time and doesn't know who she is and is afraid of who she is and everyone's telling her she's living wrong so she's forcing herself into a box where she doesn't fit because she's afraid of nonconformity and she takes that fear out on the person closest to her and the one person who might actually understand what she feels. because it is so scary to admit that you are not what you are supposed to be and intimacy and honesty are so much scarier than bullying someone who'll do it right back. she's been engaged at 16 years old and burdened with the expectation that she'll marry ranma and carry on the legacy of her father's beloved dojo, and now she's been thrown in to this situation where she is forced to confront her wayward sexuality head on and directly in front of her entire family.

will say though possibly unpopular opinion. i dont like transmasc akane reads .. i think shes cis. she has a tomboy thing going on (meaning characters (mostly ranma) make fun of her for being boyish and violent and she has an arc about cutting her hair and no longer growing it out as assurance of her own femininity even though she really prefers it short) but i dont think taking "this female character has some issues with not being seen as feminine enough because of her behavior/struggles with not tying her worth to how feminine she is" should be immediately taken as "this character is not a girl" because i think the potential for her gender nonconformity (esp in relation to her bisexuality) is just as valuable a theme, especially considering r/2 already has very potent transfem (ranma) and transmasc (ukyo) stories. idk "this character has some not traditionally feminine tendencies -> cannot be a girl" doesnt sit right with me. in any series other than r/2 it wouldn't bother me because people can take little tidbits of possible transgenderism as they'd like, but since the trans themes are already so potent in r/2 i tend to lean towards more realistic interpretations of the characters and i dont feel like "akane doesnt fit into traditional femininity and is therefore not [fully] a girl" is reaaally a win. expectations and gender roles are a huge theme in r/2 and i think its valuable seeing how they impact a cis girl as it is how they impact trans people in terms of determining what even MAKES someone a girl or a boy. is it what you wear? what you do? how you talk? these are genuine questions that r/2 asks and i feeeeel that transmasc reads of akane kind of respond to these questions in a really surface level way. this is the reason for the slash over the everyone else is wrong box. because not everybody thinks this and i know some reliable akaneheads (hi jordan)

[walnutcookie]

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[aimless-aimz]

YA YA YA YA YAYAYYA YAYA YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! SO GLAD YOU'RE AS NORMAL ABOUT THIS GUY AS I AM!!!!!!!!!! did not expect 'tizzy in the wizzy' to become a crowd favorite but i'm here for it. here's a few more Thoughts abuot him (general headcanons, not just blueberry lmao) because i genuinely am going insane about this fucking blue rat bastard lalalalallaal (THE VOICES ARE GETTING LOUDER)

-he is the most transgender cisguy. i dont know how to explain it. all the girls are galing galing(/lyr) if you will. with his voice changes, he's LOOOVED playing female characters in his play. doing drag except you can literally shapeshift into a woman. he's a he/himmer but he will absolutely just change what he calls himself if the bit requires. "i'm just a little birthday boy" to "i'm just a girl in this world!!" who knows. whatever is funniest.

-for lack of a better word, starts tweaking out during artblocks i actually was talking to a friend and i deadass think he'd call it his period because, i quote, "it makes me want to cry, gives me cramps, and makes me sexually frustrated" (unfortunately it's something he'd say. i hate him)

-CANNOT FUCKING SIT RIGHT this is pre and post corruption. mystic flour knocks gently and is greeted to shadow milk sitting with one leg behind his head, the other kicked up on the desk, and he's writing some paper. something so wrong with him.

-this is a given, but he tends to hum/sing a lot if he has a song stuck in his head, it becomes EVERYONE'S problem. he, being the egotistical shitass he is, will sing or hum his own songs he's composed, too.

-he often would connect with the residents of the other beast's kingdoms, and document their ways of art. blueberry LOOOVED seeing how different creative minds came together- so of course he traveled time to time! the different cultures one could find just made him so happy, seeing brilliant minds in the works. he loved hearing folktales, or songs passed from generations.

-he plays complicated piano when he's mad this isnt even some "waow so dramatic.." thing, like you can tell shadow milk has his ass twisted about something if you hear a very aggressive version of moonlight sonata ringing throughout his halls

-this isnt just me trying to sneak an oc in here but post corruption, gambling became a Thing in his kingdom sighs. i do have an oc i havent talked about here (card counter cookie) but like just by making them i've gotten more ideas about that insufferable blue FA-sorry. anyways, the fact gambling is often a thing where you just have to constantly lie, and even attempt to cheat, it's no wonder it became part of the culture at some point. no age limits to it, btw. this is mainly because shadow milk thinks it would be so fucking funny if a 10 year old swept a grown ass guy at poker like come on

huh. what just happened? i blacked out and now all of this yapping is in my reblog menu. oh well. might as well post this. lmao/j

does anyone have any lore...trivia.. headcanons... funfacts.. abt their own takes on pre-corruption shadow milk...!!!

i'm working on my own right now, its so fun, and i'd love to see what other people have come up with!!!

...and make sure i'm not TOO horribly off the mark asdjfjgjhgs

[thoriffix]

i rly love the rqg fandom i do and i also do love zoscar but man.. sometimes i really wish there was as much of a focus on the rest of the party in the fandom as there is on zolf and wilde yknow

[its-markie]

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#5

so Corey Taylor AND Jonathan Davis have Covid now?? Hope they get better!!!!

31 notes • Posted 2021-08-22 17:13:14 GMT

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SO JUST YESTERDAY I FOUND OUT THAT FUNKO WAS MAKING GREEN DAY POPS AND NOW AND NOW THEY HAVE RELEASED TWENTY ONE PILOTS FUNKO POPS!!! EVEN BETTER: THEY GLOW IN THE DARK!!! HOLY FUCK WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOREVER!!! DEFINITELY GETTING THESE GUYS WHEN I GET THE CHANCE TOO!!

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HEYO!!! FUNKO IS FINALLY RELEASING GREEN DAY FUNKO POPS!!! LETS GOO! I NEED THEM!! I'VE NEEDED THEM FOR THE PAST 160000 YEARS!!! THEY LOOK SO GREAT!!

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(june 2021) What do we have here? Some random drawings of musicians that make me feel nostalgic and happy and warm for some reason! Originally, I was supposed to making little chibi doodle icons for my OCs on ArtFight, but I procrastinated and well..yeah top left: Jack White of The White Stripes top right: Noodle of Gorillaz (phase 1) bottom left: Kurt Cobain of Nirvana bottom right: Dave Grohl of Foo Fighters (and Nirvana)

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(2020) I was on a mother-fucking roll. Here's Danger Days era MCR in the Gorillaz style! I love how Fr0nK came out lol

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[sanguinarius-archive]

Hey! Could I get to know some of your headcanons about dickfigures/your designs for them? :D

ya ya sure!!!!

i already have my designs for them up if you havent seen, here they are!

as for headcanons idk how long this post will be so ill just add a read more for anyone who might not wanna scroll thru it all lol

red!!!!!

his real name is rowan bc i thought it was cute, also it means “little red one” which is eVEN BETTER

he’s nonbinary masc and bisexual! the self projection is REAL

he has adhd

most of my headcanons kinda flow into my own version of dick figures because i’m not very Satisfied with canon NJSJDNSKM so like. for example red doesn’t just kill people or whatever. he gets into fights and has scars and wears bandaids a lot bc of them

he graduated college with blue, he got a bachelor’s degree in fine arts (honestly idk how college works bc im a grade 10 baby so if thats like totally wrong just let me know also im. canadian so idk how american school system works LOL)

red got suspended a lot in high school but never expelled. mostly bc he got in fights that were mainly him protecting stacey from shitty people (he sees her as his sister so he was rlly protective) and the school wasnt really sure what else to do so they just. you know. suspended him a bunch of times hoping itd do something but it didnt

he hates his dad! reason being is bc when he was born, his dad was actually an alien able to disguise himself as human, so he wanted to take red back to his home planet cuz red turned out to be more powerful than anything his dad had ever seen. but red’s mom was like Nope, so she snuck out with him and his plush cat (kitty amazing) and they were never found. red is very close with his mom and is scared of his dad coming back someday

we know he canonically likes rlly loud music so im just gonna project here and say he’s a metalhead. at least, some form of it. he likes the alt scene music and industrial rock. examples being deftones, nine inch nails, skinny puppy, rage against the machine, kittie and others. it keeps him focused and calm

bLUE!!!

we know blue was bullied as a kid but i dont wanna say red also bullied him bc i feel like thats just wrong to me? MAYBE ITS NOT ACTUALLY but it just makes me sad so like. lets say red, being as protective as he is, stood up for blue a lot cuz he was like “oh this kid cant fight” so he knew what to do

blue dated pink for awhile but they mutually agreed to break up after blue realized this wasnt what he wanted (he came to the conclusion that he was gay, well, he knew for awhile but it was Internalized Homophobia)

he grew up in a very conservative family so to see the world completely differently by meeting red, ems (lt), pink and stacey was a very good thing for him. unfortunately even tho his family did love him, it was conditional so they stopped talking to him after he came out. thankfully he’d already graduated high school by that point

despite being emotional blue isn’t very good at understanding how he’s an emotional person. he’s able to distinct one feeling from another and analyze them, but it’s just... hard for him to kind of. process WHY he feels a certain way? which is what’s led to a lot of his struggles in getting closer with ppl

he loooves reading and writing we already know this but i mean come on. he also got a bachelor’s degree in english/ela. so he’s able to become a teacher ig but he doesn’t really want to? at least not for awhile yet

blue was ems’ first friend. at first he couldn’t understand why they had tics but decided he shouldn’t get into someone else’s business. he didn’t find it weird, just cool!

he and red would always pair up for projects if they had classes together!!!!!! blue would do the writing/research and red would do the illustrations. they always turned out really good even if it ended with red cramming it at the last minute

surprisingly hates broseph more than red. well i mean its not surprising, because broseph was always a huge DICK to him

blue’s real name is wyatt!!!!! i forget the meaning but i felt the sound of it and the meaning fit him well

piiiiink!!!!!!!!!!

she’s still in college, getting her doctorate to be an astrophysicist!

pink is very very smart and will help anyone who’s struggling with something in school. she was basically the genius who always got in the honor roll every year. but, she actually was really anxious especially with exams

pink encourages stacey to go back to school, and sometimes stacey does, but she always ends up leaving again. it’s a little stressful but pink has hope for her

she’s never drank one sip of alcohol in her entire life. she smoked weed once, but it felt weird so she didn’t do it again

ever since she and blue broke up she’s been very supportive of him bc she herself is bisexual!!! so she sees nothing weird about it. in fact, about almost a year later she started dating stacey

pink’s real name is lily. when she became friends with blue she met red through him and she was like “can i join your nickname thing” and they said “sure” so they called her pink. stacey sometimes calls her pinky or just pink but mostly lily

pink helped red with academics. even tho he was sometimes insufferable to work with (/j thats a Joke i promise she’s a very patient person) she didn’t give up on him!!!! in return he helped her out with some fitness stuff cuz pink was always insecure about gym, and later when she graduated she actually got into exercising bc of red!

she loves travelling and going for walks. she owns a lot of houseplants and she’s given them all names and takes very good care of them! she also owns an albino ball python named Velvet

STACEYYY!!!!!!!

stacey is nOT actually all about sex this time ok. i don’t like that. i mean she did have some personality in canon but it wasn’t much? anyways she just really likes to express herself thru tight/”risque” clothing like fishnets and leather and pleated skirts and thigh-highs and platform boots, all of that. basically she’s a goth girl but doesn’t really “act” like one

she’s really intelligent when it comes to animals and insects and will tell you anything you need to know. when she goes back to college she gets a degree in environmental science

stacey can play the electric and bass guitars!!!! she was in a band back in high school but it never really went anywhere beyond performances at parties in someone’s garage. not that she didn’t like it, looking back on it makes her feel happy, but she wished it continued. probably why she has a hard time going back to college bc she’s not sure what she really wants

stacey is a trans woman btw!!!!! unfortunately it was a little difficult in high school to be who she was bc some kids were jerks, but there were a lot of others who supported her which is good

she views red as her brother as well and they still hang out a lot

i haven’t really had time to focus on stacey and make headcanons and stuff for her so i don’t have a lot but... let’s say, secretly, she’s a scifi nerd. and for the sake of debate, let’s say she’s a marvel fan. if you count being a fan of deadpool as being a fan of marvel

LOVES GIRLS.... loves pink!!!

has very similar music taste to red’s!!!!!

emssss!!!!!!! (lt)

instead of being a stereotype of ppl with tourette’s syndrome, it’s just a normal thing that isn’t focused on a whole lot. it doesn’t make ems swear but if they get really really frustrated they’ll curse while doing one of their tics

ems is agender, i’d say they’re also ageless but i don’t really want to make them too “nonhuman” because i feel like that’s dehumanizing to people with tourette’s. so let’s just say most laws of existence don’t apply to them

they’re very friendly!

they’re an aspiring musician, just like in canon

ems is also big into horror movies believe it or not. they’re pretty critical of them though like most horror movie fans, and only like specific ones (i’m not a horror movie fan myself so i can’t say what Specific Ones they like ajsdhbjn just imagine they have good taste okay)

they r very artsy too and like doing crafts cause it gives them something to focus on. it’s just a hobby though it’s not something they’re Professional at

they love nature and flowers and trees and all kinds of plants and animals!!! they like to document what they see when they travel thru nature and stuff so they bring a camera with them (and their phone, but, you know whatever)

ems was never really affected by things people said to them regarding their syndrome. to them it was something they were born with, so they couldn’t bother to feel bad about themselves. in certain situations theyre able to control it but 90% of the time they don’t care about what ppl think

aaaand there u go!!! as for minor characters like raccoon, jason/trollz0r, broseph, dingleberry, they all exist (raccoon isnt a racist stereotype tho), i just dont focus on them a whole lot. most of my hcs for stacey and ems here were thought up on the spot since i havent had time to lay out all my ideas for them but i hope what i have here is good !!!!

also, red and blue ARE dating, and pink and stacey ARE ALSO dating. gay rights

[wolfcigs]

Should't i just ask every question thats was on the list , so less failure of courage of people will show :p

hmm not sure wat this means but i think ur asking for all the questions? in that case....here i go!

1. How old are you?

i am 22~

2. Who is the last person you texted?

my roommate!

3. What is the last book you read?

ummm :E haha... perhaps when i re-read the warriors series when i was in the hospital 2 and a half years ago....i dont really read i dont have the attention span

4. What is your favorite food?

buffalo wings

5. What is your relationship status?

married to my anime figures

6. Tell me three things most interesting about you

uhhh 1- i can play the flute 2-im really good at skullgirls 3-i was on the radio once because i’m a furry

7. Are you a cat or dog person?

cat person. im scared of dogs

8. What turns you on?

anime girl tummies

9. Are you introverted or extroverted?

introverted as fuck ... i wish i wasnt 

10. What’s your sexuality?

lesbian

11. Choose one word to describe you

passionate

12. When did you first join tumblr?

EEHHHHH 2012? i was a glee blog

13. What is your favorite tv show?

this is hard cuz i looove tv. Friends is my staple (i fall asleep to it every night). the objectively best show ever is orphan black but i dont watch it anymore because reasons

15. Give me 5 hobbies you enjoy

drawing, taking walks, making playlists, rabbitting with friends, listening to music

16. Weirdest thing about you

i shower in the dark (not the weirdest thing but if u think im gonna disclose my weird shit ur wrong!!)

17. Tell me one secret

i secretly want to get married and have a kid but i never talk about it because it’s unrealistic and i never wanted that until recently. which is a weird feeling, it feels like i’m growing up and its kind of scary.

18. Favorite dessert?

CHEESECAKE

19. Sign?

taurus~

20. What is your hair and eye color?

hair is blonde, eyes are green-blue~

21. Pet peeve?

hypocrites and people whose views are performative and dont actually align with what they think, they just wanna look good online

22. If you could dye your hair any color right now, what would it be?

dark blue almost black. i’m probably gonna dye it black soon.

23. Pants or skirt?

pants

24. What pets do you have?

2 cats named romulus and bunkus!

25. Put your songs on shuffle, and tell me the first song that plays

yozora wa nandemo shitteru no? by cyaron

27. Biggest fear?

a physical fear: dogs. an emotional/psychological fear: being abandoned

28. Would you rather go back in time, or into the future?

NEITHER!!!!! i hate time travel. well...maybe if i had no consequences i would go back to the aqours concert and experience it again!

29. Lucky number?

well...its kind of an unlucky number but it’s 737. my brother and i have been relentlessly followed by that number our entire lives, we see it everywhere and it was also the time he was born!! we don’t know what to make of it so i usually just say its unlucky.

30. Gender?

female

31. If you could live in an alternate reality, which one would it be and why?

alternate reality where me and my friends are magical anime girls and also idols and we fight bad guys 

32. Favorite genre of music?

alternative rock i guess??? over all.. but my favorite band is a math rock band (the paper chase), and then of course aqours who are idol music

33. Dream job?

what i’m doing right now, except with better business haha

34. Celebrity crush?

here are the two women who i am extremely attracted to

inami anju because i think she’s hot

suwa nanaka because i think she’s CUTE!!!

35. Craziest situation you’ve ever been in?

MMMM probably when i got bucked off a horse and trampled

36. Most annoying thing you’ve ever had to deal with?

being at an airport for 10 hours all night long to wait for a 45 minute flight that i missed.

37. Who is the first person you’ve ever kissed? What was the situation?

lol...........................................it was this girl in middle school and we did it for truth or dare

38. Give me the first ten books on your book shelve

HAHAHAHAHHAA NO. i have 3 books on my shelf, the art of asking by amanda palmer, love live sunshine art book, and the panty and stocking manga.

39. Grab a random book and give me the first sentence

““WHO’S GOT A TAMPON? I JUST GOT MY PERIOD” I will announce loudly to nobody in particular in a women’s bathroom in a San Francisco restaurant, or to a co-ed dressing room of a music festival in Prague, or to the unsuspecting gatherers in a kitchen in Sydney, Munich, of Cincinatti.” from amanda palmer’s book lul

40.Favorite ice cream flavor?

mint chocolate chip :3

41. Favorite line from a movie?

”good luck exploring the infinite abyss” “you too” from garden state. that movie means a lot to me

42. What would you do if you win the lottery?

buy a house for me and my friends! and put the rest in savings

45. Tell me about the last dream you can remember

LAST NIGHT  i dreamt i was at an aqours concert and since it was ainya’s birthday yesterday we organized another aqourainbow type thing and it turned out really good and she cried a lot. it was sweet

46. Tell me about your best friend

god where do i even begin. we first met the beginning of 2016 when i started getting cute anons about wanting to be my friend and finally i convinced her to come off anon. we’re literally the exact same person, it’s kind of scary actually how literally our souls are the exact same. it was absolutely fate for us to meet and we’ve been together in every universe ever. i love her so much i love her more than anything else in the world and i can’t believe i ever lived without her physically in this lifetime . she is intelligent and funny and talking to her is the best part of my day. i look forward to spending the rest of our lives together!!

47. Dream role?

dunno what this is!

48. What do you do on a rainy day?

work..

49. What was the last thing you watched on Netflix?

friends!

50. What’s your guilty pleasure?

i don’t believe in guilty pleasures!!!

haha thank you so much this was fun ^^

[anon-luv]

hey hey may i request a ship with a bts drabble? oh but the ships id like to get besides bts ( the other groups i dont really need a drabble only bts if its okay!) is monsta x , seventeen and exo! doesnt have to be private lol

I play piano, saxophone and guitar, love art why my whole heart , i read a lot of books , esp  haruki murakami’s work (theyre so good  i recommend afterdark and 1Q84 written by him btw) i love drawing. I work as a certified photographer. i love wearing black clothes or grey and most of the times theyre layered if it makes sense? kinda in alistair trung style. usually i wear a lot of gemstone rings, but besides that i dont wear any accessoires.  Apparently my jokes r rlly lame (which they arent smh) but also when people make jokes i most of the time i  dont recognize that it was a joke. im stoic and privet jet im also hyper and love to overshare??. besides german i speak english, japanese and im currently learning spanish and korean! my friend told me im a walking contradiction and that most of the time i dont make sense to them cause everytime they think they know me i somehow prove them that they dont. i like to learn about anything tbh, stuff like why do people have deja vus to what are dreams and where do they come from etc i also love space with my whole heart. ive been told that im pretty wise for someone whose 21 and people do often come to me for advice. It takes a lot to surprise me and i accept anyone as long theyre nice to me. i also treat people in the same way i want to be treated by others. im pretty much the vodka aunt, the mom friend and the distant uncle at the same time lol. Anyways hope this was enough and i hope you have a good day/night! and thank you! 

Hey sweetie thank you for your request, and I am sorry for your delay. I’ll post your bts ship with the drabble first and then on another post I will publish the rest of your request if that is okay.

I hope you like it @blckwlk :3

BTS SHIP AND DRABBLE

The white walls in your room were covered with memories. The way he looked into your eyes when he had just woken up, the way his smile shined when you played guitar so he could sing along, the way he cried during that movie with the two people that you truly never paid attention to because you couldn’t stop staring at the man next to you. 

He was an angel, sent from heaven. He was your muse.

 You looked at the different arrangement of colors and seasons displayed in the wall. Each and every picture capturing but a mere blink of life. You loved him more than anything, and when he was away you craved his touch and his scent. Something that pictures could never replace. 

You needed him here more than ever. Once again, your finals had completely swallowed you into a pit of anxiety that had you in a constant state of stress.

 Jin knew you better than anyone in the world, and had a protocol to follow everytime a situation like this would arise.You had texted with him all night hoping to fill the void that formed everytime he went away on tour.

 It was 2am and you couldn’t sleep. You had tried baking chocolate chip cookies, something that Jin always made for you when you were feeling down, only to severely burn them in the process. You were not the cook in this relationship and that was quite obvious.

The sound of your phone going off brought you back to your senses. A video call.Jin’s picture along with little hearts showed on the screen.

You quickly answered not wanting to miss a second of his free time.

“LOOOVE” came out of the other side of the phone causing a quick smile to sprout on your face.

“Jin babe. I miss you. How is the tour going??”

“It has been pretty good, the guys have been pretty hyper all day and I have constantly getting on to them. I miss you too hunbun”  He replied sending a pout your way.

You sighed into the phone as you admired his beautiful face on the screen.“I can’t wait to see you”

“(y/n) is there something wrong?? You seem a bit down hun. I should be there soon” he said trying to cheer you up.

A little tear traveled down your cheek. “Finals, are getting to me, I’ll be okay”

You saw him entering a building on the screen. You have been wondering his whereabouts, but some sort of plant caught your eye.

 “Where are you?” you asked before he could respond.

“Just taking a walk, going to go admire one of the most beautiful creations in the universe” he said sending you a little smile.

You frowned as you heard a knock on your door.You stood up taking the phone along with you. You were not sure who would be knocking on your door so late, but as long as Jin was on the phone you felt pretty safe.

“And that would be??” you asked still oblivious on the situation.You opened the door to see him standing with a cheeky grin and a box with chocolate chip cookies on the side.

He scooped you in his arms and then whispered in your ear “You”.

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Stupid social media

It’s probably been a year... two years... who knows? I’m still at college or whatever, oversharing with pseudo anonymity on tumblr, incapable of journaling like normal or dedicated depressed emo art hoes have been doing for centuries... 

Anyways, I guess I went off social media mostly for the first time in my life... temporarily deactivated twitter (until christmas) and instagram (until further notice), still have my finsta which i'm sworn off of, my spam ~aesthetic~ account which literally keeps me going, my art acct which is sort of stagnant as the moment as i dive into my new hobby/class mandated photography obsession, and my new food diary instagram which is pretty lame and literally just for me to reflect on eating habits. oh i'm on adderall right now. which i looove... it just feels good, ur mind feels good, u think hard but like i feel like i could write a novel, clean my room, text everyone i need to catch up with, or i dont know, write on tumblr like a teenager (i’m 21 fucking years old now). Anyway I’ve been thinking a lot recently about anger.... anger as a coping mechanism, justified anger, repressed anger, anger at yourself, hatred for yourself. anger that is productive and unproductive. at cal, anger at white people, at men, at the world, at people. i’m also thinking a lot about paul, the founder of the palestine decal that i’m taking. and how he spoke to our class on tuesday and explained how israelis, like 18 year olds in the IDF, are taught to hate, are conditioned to hate--not even hate--dehumanize. like how by the time an israeli teenager turns 18 they have already been trained for the military--not physically, but psychologically--to see palestinians as less than human. he frames settler colonialism and israeli occupation of palestine as not an ethnic conflict, not ideological, not religious, or cultural--but about LAND. israelis are murdering, dispelling, bombing, etc. palestinians for the cold, painfully simple reason that they are on land that israel wants. it is not because israelis hate palestinians. while that may be true for many individuals, in which israelis may be racist or islamophobic or for whatever reason hate palestinians or see them as less than, that thought process is a result of government conditioning and hegemony. while america is, in some ways, its own unique case study of cultural, religious, ethnic, social, economic “diversity”, paul also said that we’re all the same. in that, there is nothing unique about the palestine/israel instance compared to, say, the british in south africa. or in india. or australia. or the US in the americas or hawaii or the caribbean. there is nothing unique about palestine/israel, except that their colonization was put in a historical context so close to our current timeframe that we are forced to analyze it as if it were an anomaly. but that’s besides the point. anyway, anger. and hate. in america, it made me think a lot about two communities i was somewhat a part of, whether i felt like it or not---percussionville and berkeley. and how similar they are, and how different i feel in both. back home, i was so angry. i was soooo angry. angry at my parents for putting me there, angry at the people i went to school with, angry at admin, at my teachers, at my peers, at boys, at girls, at white people, at the government, just angry. and i stayed angry in college. i removed myself from that environment but still it haunted me. i never let go of that anger, it blinded me, i couldnt even allow myself to process those four years. and i was still so colonized and following a series of unfortunate events, or fate, or my own hypocrisy or internalized white supremacy, i was surrounded by all white friends, while still trying to understand my own relationship to whiteness, how i was similar to my white friends but also how they could never understand. so i was just blindly angry at white people--and after i stopped being friends with them, anger was almost how i coped. and the poc friends i found myself building relationships with shared this anger, encouraged it. they were angry too, for different reasons but also the same, in different contexts, different levels of anger, manifestations, outbursts, and copings. it was easy to hate these individual white people. before, it was easy for me to hate the idea of white people. in high school i hated white people, but i was always surrounded by them, friends with them because there were no other options really. i mean, i was literally living in it. people here don’t get that, i think, except other poc who really were that heavily immersed in that. like i didnt have a choice. isolation is hard. i spent a lot of high school alone, of course, but i'm a social creature no matter how hard i try and fight it. and this summer i think the idea of hating individual white people for the ways in which they wronged you was almost glorified. and i understand that people are angry. but our anger is all different. i can never even begin to understand the anger of a Black person, especially a Black woman, or a woman who has been sexualized constantly for her beauty, objectified and harassed her whole life, or someone who is currently decolonizing and realizing how much they had ignored or allowed their whole lives... these are just examples of people i think about when i try to think about others’ anger. but my anger is my own. i experience it in my own ways; i have been angry my whole life. i think i came out of the womb angry. i've always just been an angry person, and been suppressing it my whole life. that resulted in me mostly being angry at myself my whole life. and the world. i've had healthy anger, misplaced anger, toxic anger, unjustified anger, genetic anger. and i truly believe that healing is knowing how to cope with this lifelong anger, anguish, sadness. i was angry this summer. i was angry because it seemed like the only way to cope, to be angry at the people who i had failed to set boundaries with, people i had hurt, people who had hurt and confused me. angry at white people, men, starting drunken fights at parties, outside bars... 

anyway, that was a huuuge tangent but my point is. in relation to the palestine decal guy, paul. he’s a few years older than us, and he was clearly still angry as well. angry at the university, for starters, angry at hypocrisy. but the surprising thing to me was that he did not seem angry at israelis. which is a good thing. and he has every right to be angry, to hate the 18 year old IDF soldier, despite the fact that this might be all they’ve ever known, despite the fact that hate is taught, despite the fact that there might not be anything to make that soldier change, or to change how they see paul. but he wasn’t angry. he didn’t blame individuals. he said this was structural, that zionism was not judaism, despite the constant conflation of the two, especially at cal, especially with people who sit in the same classrooms as us every day. it’s easy to be angry. i’ve been angry at so many people. and i have always accepted that i am flawed, i hurt others, people are angry at me. but i don’t know. i don’t know how it is productive for me to be angry. most recently i got angry at felix. and i definitely am still frustrated by him and don’t think it’s even worth talking about at the moment, or that i have the capacity, but i don’t want to be angry at him. i love him, miss him, wish him the best. just texted him that i miss him actually. anyway, on anger--i tried to make him hold my anger, and just sort of lashed out on him over text. which isnt really productive. at the time i was going through a lot with other people, and i think i was so frustrated with always being painted the bad guy that i wanted someone else to hold my anger. i have held others’ anger, and tried to understand it, so i guess i just wanted someone to do the same for me. it did feel good to yell at him honestly. but anyway. back to my point. 

i think about where i'm from, where i grew up, and i have to claim it. i’ve been so angry for the past two years, running away from that place and everything about it. coming to a place that seemed so drastically different at first, but eventually realizing that everywhere is, in many ways, the same. like paul said. i can’t be angry at felix, even if it’s warranted, even if my friends applaud me on the text i sent him. i mean i can. i can be angry at my old friends. but i dont know. i just am so so tired. i'm old. i'm 21.