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Well, yeah! No drama at all, but now this showed up wanna share something that's been on my mind these days...
This happened to me lately with someone... Loved their blog and I used to like and rb their content (credits in tags and all, I always try to # creators names at least...). Maybe a supportive comment here and there, but that was all.
Haven't interacted in any other way like... ever, so I really don't know what went wrong, I mean it. And I found out they blocked me trying to share one of their posts, already RB by somebody else. If not, I would have thought maybe they took some time off Tumblr or... Yeah, whatever, you feel me.
Spent a couple of days wondering why... I've never had any unpleasant situations with anyone around here... so I did give it some thought. Especially cause I felt terrible thinking that maybe I had made someone uncomfortable to that extent without knowing it at all.š„ŗ
But then I just came to the conclussion that... It's perfectly perfect! If something didn't work for them..... It's totally fine. It just shocked me a bit, since I try really hard to spread love anytime I log in here... (which I don't do so often lately, btw... Been so sick, now I'm tired af and I need to catch up on soooo many things... I feel if I'm not around as much as I did, I'm gonna lose so many of your awesome creations, guysš)
I still think the talent and content of that account owner are wonderful, in fact, and I feel sorry for not being able to see it anymore and not knowing if I did anything wrong so I could fix it! I promise I try my best to be as respectful, kind and supportive as much as I can and you all deserve, so whatever it was, I can say that I did not do it on purpose, nor was I consciously aware of having done it. I don't intend to get anything out of this post other than to be at peace with myself, not having had the opportunity to discuss the issue directly with this person.š
In case any of you ever feel bad about something I post, share, etc. just talk to me! I swear I'm friendlyš„¹ā¤ļøš
Once I got it out of my system... HAPPY MONDAY! šš¹
Sorry for making such a big deal out of a silly thing, but it had to be the first time...!
when you click on the blog of someone who has you blocked and tumblr says āthat isnāt anyoneā im always like gaggggg thatās right theyāre a nobody
#my first drama#no drama AT ALL just kidding#just felt a bit off at first#but i obviously respect their decission and their reasons to take itā¤ļø#this things happen#I can't please everyone#i'm not pedro pascal š
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ā¾ MEET ME AT MIDNIGHT | jack hughes x singer!reader smau
summary : trying to struggle releasing a new album and doing press can be too much, are people starting to speculate that itās taking a toll on your relationship?
warning(s) : break up mentions (poor reader š), a couple of cuss words i think idk,
a/n : AHHHH HERES THE FIRST CHAPTER iām so excited to start this series!! i did create this series around midnight (if the shows fits) and i just knew i needed to get this first chapter out ASAP so here it is!!! im taking each chapter slow and steady since ive never done any type of series before. i also wanted to lyk that each chapter is named after a song but most wonāt have a lot of correlation to the songs! also ik jack isnāt in this one (spoiler sorry) but he will soon! i promise i have a vision š i hope yall enjoy and i love you!
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ynuser surprise! Midnights out on october 21st! ššāØ
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user1 OMG OMG OMG ITS HAPPENINGGGGGGG
user2 CLAIMING LABYRINTH
taylorswift So proud of you my little bird!! Thank you for having me featured on an amazing album š
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user3 sweet nothing is def about vince š
yourbestfriendsuser she put blood, sweat, and tears into this!!! ya'll better not do her dirty EVERRRRRR
| ynuser clock it
user4 the album cover EATSSSSS
user5 DOES THIS MEAN UR GOING ON TOUR???
gracieabrams OMG (i knew about this for months)
| ynuser the best secret keeper EVER
yourmomsuser So proud you honey!!
| ynuser i love you mom!ā¤ļø
user6 taylor being featured on snow on the beach YESSSSSS
user7 KARMA IS MINEEEE
sabrinacarpenter ALBUM OF THE YEAR I FEAR???
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user8 whatās it like carrying the music industry on ur back queen?
| ynuser i need to see a chiropractor immediately
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ynuser kicking off midnights press with the best tv host ever!!
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jimmyfallon It was great having you on the show!
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user1 a duo i didnāt know i needed
user2 sweet nothings being the first song written and with vince š„¹
vincedunn sick asf babe!!
user3 i canāt wait another week for this album OMG
user4 why hasnāt she been liking vinceās comments :(
| user5 oh bye that is not our business
user6 her writing all the songs around midnight I LOVE THIS WOMAN
user7 am i the only one that notices that her eyes donāt light up anymore when she or anyone mentions vince???
| user8 oh ur REACHING
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ynuser breaking news! Midnights is out now! maybe stay up until 3am for a little surprise!
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user1 I LOVE THIS ALBUM SO MUCH
user2 u took my heart out of my chest and squeezed it with ur bare head with YOYOK
taylorswift Congratulations!! I canāt wait to see you at the Grammyās this year š
user3 crying this is my album
user4 SNOW ON THE BEACH WITH TAYLOR??? EATSSSSS
yourbestfriendsuser TIME TO GET OUR SPARKLY DRESSES ONNNNNN
user5 we want more taylor pls
user6 KARMA IS THE GUY ON THE SCREEN COMING STRAIGHT HOME TO ME ššš
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user7 bejeweled is THAT GIRLLLLL
user8 wait vince wasnāt at the midnights release party??
| user9 omg they better not have broken up istg
| user10 letās not spread false informationā¦.
user11 THE OUTFITS CHANGES HAHAHA
| ynuser listenā¦i couldnāt decide
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ynuser cats out of the bag!! i wrote an extra 7 songs and created a 2nd version of my album āØ welcome Midnights (3am Edition) š
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First I wanted to say hello and tell you that I love your works. They really have me on the edge of my seat every time I read them.
Second. Can you imagine that Merlin, in some new alternative universe, for some reason, upon arriving in Camelot, arrives with a baby? It's all still a Merthur ending, it should be noted.
Like, we know that Merlin was already a bit of an outcast in the village for the reason that nobody knew who his father was and even more so because strange things were always happening around him.
The situation gets much worse when he finds a crying baby in the middle of a burnt tent near the village.
Will and his mother try to help him for a while, but with the visits of the evildoers to the village becoming more and more frequent, Merlin and the baby have no choice but to go to Camelot.
And so the adventures begin!
Only now Arthur wonders if they can make crowns for babies, because he is willing to marry Merlin and legally adopt the baby as his own.
And Morganaā¦ well, she and Gwen enjoy dressing up the baby in all the clothes from her old dolls. Not to mention that she notices that by taking naps with the baby she no longer has nightmares.
The knights become, in some way or another, glorified nannies. The servants and maids must chase after a baby who never stops causing mischief in the castle.
And Merlin just wants to survive colic season and potty train his babyā¦ and everything would be easier if there weren't a murderer or a resentful wizard trying to kill Arthur every 3 minutes.
First, thank you so much for the compliments! š„¹š¤§ā¤ļø
About the concept. I love it! I don't think going to Camelot to live would be Merlin or Hunith's first option for a baby that can't control their magic at all. So I firmly believe Hunith would send Merlin with the baby there so Gaius can take them to a druid camp so they could take refuge there.
The problem is, before Gaius can do so, Merlin is made the prince's personal manservant. Merlin can't exactly deny the king and he does need the money to take care of his baby so he decides to stay to Gaius dismay. Gaius and Merlin try to keep the baby hided at first so they take turns taking care of her (in my mind is a her) in Gaius' tower in secret. It works out for some weeks but then the plague (Nimueh's Afanc) happens and Arthur searches Gaius' tower.
Arthur: (enters Merlin's room) Merlin: (running inside) Arthur, wait! Baby: (sitting on the bed, looks up at Arthur and gives a cute giggle) Arthur: (Turns to Merlin slowly) Merlin? Merlin: Yeah? š
Arthur: Why is there a baby in your bed? Merlin: (in panic, shouts the first thing that comes to his mind) She is mine! Arthur: ... Arthur: What? š§ Merlin: (repeats more quietly but more firmly) She is mine. (runs to hold her up and embraces her) She is my daugther. Arthur: (thinking) But... but he is so young. (says) Where's the mother? Merlin: (with pain as he remembers the burnt tent) She passed away. Arthur: (his heart hurting for Merlin) I'm so sorry. But Gods Merlin, why didn't you tell me? I wouldn't have given you so many chores if I knew... (thinking) And I almost sacked you. I almost sacked a single father with a baby in arms! (says) And why the hell are you hiding her? Merlin: I... wasn't sure if I could keep her. Arthur: Of course you can keep her! What kind of master do you think I am? Knight x: (from outside) Sire? Arthur: (shouts back) In a minute! (to Merlin) What's her name? Merlin: Brigitta. Arthur: (repeats softly and smiles) Brigitta.
From then on, Arthur doesn't give Merlin as many chores and raises his salary considerably. And then everybody else finds out about Briggitta and go "I've only met Brigitta for a day and a half, but if anything happened to her, I would kill everyone in this room and then myself".
Some events would change, obviously, and some would remain the same but with a new perspective. I don't think Merlin would have time to make Lancelot a fake seal, for example, having to look after Brigitta and all. I can imagine Lancelot becoming Brigitta's first unnofficial babysiter, then Arthur makes it official so poor Lancelot has a salary and a place to stay in Camelot. The Poisoned Chalice episode would remain the same, except Arthur would be more in panic mode and desperate because MERLIN HAS A DAUGHTER! BRIGITTA CAN'T LOSE HER FATHER TOO!
I think it would be The Beginning of the End where Arthur and Morgana find out about Brigitta's magic and Merlin's magic. Not because they discovered her, surprisingly, but Merlin decided to tell them all the truth about her and himself after seeing how they saved Mordred. Also, since Merlin saw Brigitta's possible future in Mordred, he wants to leave Camelot too to keep her safe. Screw all what the dragon told him about destiny, his daugther comes first.
So Merlin and Brigitta are about to leave with Mordred with the druids. They are having a heartfelt goodbye with Arthur, who scorted them there, but then...
Brigitta: (cries very loudly in Merlin's arms and the earth starts shaking a bit) Merlin: I know, I know, baby, but we have to go. Brigitta: (cries more loudly and extends her little arms to Arthur) Arthur: (barely containing his tears) I'll miss you too, Biddy. But this is the best for you- Brigitta: ATHU! š Arthur: (open his eyes wide) What did she just said? Brigitta: (still crying and making grabby hands at him) ATHU, ATHU, ATHU! š Arthur: (tears roll down his eyes) She said my name... Merlin, she said my name! (grinning widely) Let me hold her one more time, please! Merlin: (gives Brigitta to Arthur) Druid leader: (urgently) We need to leave now! Merlin: (looking at Arthur and Brigitta tenderly and smiles) Leave, we'll stay.
I also can imagine Nimueh going after Brigitta's life instead of Hunith, and having to confront not only a very furious Merlin, but a feral protective prince.
That's how far my imagination can go. If you have any ideas of how Merlin and Arthur or other character would act in other episodes now with Brigitta in the equation, share it in the comments or reblogs. I'll be happy to read you š„°
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Hi dear! I saw the ask box was open and I wanted to send an a request. That being said: may I have some head-cannons on how Gojo and anyone else of your choosing would treat a close friend that they know has romantic feelings for them, but they donāt reciprocate. Please and thank you šš½ā¤ļøš„¹
Hope you enjoy! <3
Characters: Satoru Gojo
Contents: gn!reader, unrequited love
Satoru Gojo
By nature, Gojoās a bit of a troll. Weāve seen how he acts with Utahime, although she doesnāt appear to have feelings for him, aside from irritation. But I lowkey think he messes with Utahime so much because of how cute her reactions are. Sheās just too easy to rile up.
Despite this side of him, heās not cruel. Heās not going to joke about you being obsessed with him, or mock you for being out of his league, or whatever.Ā
Hidden Inventory Arc Gojo might have been this thoughtless, but he was bolstered by his friendship with Geto, and hadnāt experienced the loss and isolation thatās shaped him to the man he is today.Ā
Heās used to his position isolating him from others. People get complacent and stop seeing him as human, start seeing him as a tool. As the strongest.Ā
His true friends are few and far between. People who understand him and see him as human, with human needs, hopes, and dreams. Someone who sees not only that but also loves him? Thatās a rare and precious thing.Ā
Heās gonna value that, even if he doesnāt return the same kinds of feelings. Itās hard for him to even consider any kind of romantic attachment, so even if he does start to develop something, heāll rationalise it or squash it. This is both out of self-preservation and a desire to protect you, because any partner of his is going to end up with a huge target painted on their back. His Infinity canāt extend to the people he cares about, as much as he might wish it could.Ā
Heāll pull away a bit if you look like youāre on the verge of confessing, take some missions to distance himself a bit.Ā
He doesnāt really do vulnerability or emotional discussions. Avoidance is the only real way he can think to deal with it.Ā
Gojo might direct you toward other people he thinks will make good partners for you. Heāll always be joking about being your wingman, setting you up with some other hot sorcerer.Ā
Despite everything and even if the words are never said, it does mean a lot to him that you care about him that much.
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Oh I'm right there with you, hun. I felt like this set of HCs would be relatable to some people besides myself. š«
Oh yes, I know that feeling I have done this myself before. I love how Dean noticed that something was bothering her and managed to coax it out of her.
The haphazard leap across the room as to not look at myself in the mirror fueled the inspo on that one. š
Oh yeah, Dean clocked her discomfort right away. He's perceptive where it counts. šš
With Beau's part, also channeling my experience this year with dealing with so much personal stuff, not being able to do my usual routine of taking care of myself, exercising, etc. Beau probably comforted me the most on this one, so I'm really glad he was your favorite!! š„¹
And Ben -- honestly I nearly cackled just thinking about how he'd try to contemplate what tf Keto is. š¤£š¤£
I can just imagine him responding like this. He is a man who likes women of all shapes, sizes, and ages.
Oh definitely!! š
Loved all of these and thought you captured them all perfectly. I have to admit that Beau's was my favourite ā¤ļø
Yayy!!! Thanks so much, my friend!! Beau was so dense, but ultimately such a warm and kind (and sexy) man. I feel like he'd be the most comforting in this scenario. šš
Headcanon: Body Insecurity/Appreciation
Pairings: Dean Winchester x Reader, Beau Arlen x Reader, Soldier Boy/Ben x Reader
AN: This one was requested by one of my lovely Patreon members, @roseblue373. š It's a special one to me personally, being plus-sized myself and having gone through my share of insecurities. Wish I had one of these guys to make it better lol!~
Prompt/Request: Great job with the latest Dean/Beau/Ben reacts vignettes! I'd love to see one where reader has put on weight and isn't happy with their body, and how each would make her feel better!! IF the muse agrees, of course! ā¤ļø
HC: How Dean Winchester, Beau Arlen and Soldier Boy (Ben) would react to your body insecurity.
Tags/Warnings: 18+ only! Established relationship, body insecurity (but also body appreciation), thicc thirty, angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, spiciness/smuttishness.
Dean Winchester
You've started breezing past mirrors when you get out of the shower.
Because if you catch sight of your own reflection, you can't help but utter a sigh, your lips dipping into a frown.
In the privacy of the room you share with Dean in the bunker, you take a risk in unwrapping the towel from your body in front of the mirror.
You inspect yourself with growing dejection, noting all the places that are rounder, heavier, less firm than they used to be.
Looks like no amount of running down leads and killing monsters has been enough to keep you in shape.
Too much shitty fast food, too many times you indulged yourself with snacks and dessert alongside your foodie boyfriend.
"What'cha doin', sweetheart?" Dean asks. He steps into the room while wiping donut icing from the corner of his mouth.
Speak of the devil.
When Dean finally catches you frowning at yourself in the mirror, you inhale sharply and close the towel back up.
"Nothing. Just need to get dressed," you reply quickly. "Shower's open."
You try to offer him a smile, despite the pang of jealousy when you eye him.
He gave you the first chance at the shower after the latest case wrapped up, so he's still wearing most of his FBI suit, sans jacket. The white dress shirt is rolled up to his elbows, a few days of scruff neatly trimmed across his cheeks.
The man can cram an entire pizza down his gullet and wash it down with three slices of apple pie, not to mention countless beers. And still, Dean stays looking downright edible.
By comparison, you feel...fat. Like you've let yourself go.
You turn away from him to grab your well-worn sweatpants and an oversized shirt; you plan to change alone in the bathroom, but Dean grabs your arm.
"Who says you need to get dressed?" he says, popping his brows with a suggestive grin. He slips his arms around your waist, but your instinct is to shy away from his hold. You chuckle awkwardly and avoid his now curious gaze.
"Sorry, babe. Um...I'm wiped. I just want to get to bed," you say.
But Dean isn't fooled. His spidey sense is tingling, and his gut is almost never wrong.
His hand slides down your arm and grasps your hand, tugging you back into his arms. You utter a little gasp, but you ultimately smile at his familiar grin. There's a perceptive gleam in his eyes though.
"You know, seems like you've been pretty wiped lately," he says, raising a brow. "It's been a while since we, uh..."
He waggles his brows playfully, squeezing your hips. You want to smile, but you can't let yourself. You can't quite look at him either.
For Dean, it's another glaring red flag. His lips form a frown, and he dips his chin to find your eyes.
"Hey," he says. "What's goin' on? Talk to me."
His tone is so sincere, you have to blink against the sting of tears. Your lower lip wobbles, and Dean frowns in earnest. He presses a hand to your cheek and gets you to look at him with your watery eyes.
"Sweetheart, you gotta tell me what's wrong," he says, more gently, but serious.
Eventually, you're able to get it out. You can't bear the thought of him touching you, because lately, you can't even bear looking at yourself.
"I know I've been gaining weight, I just..." your voice breaks, and you gesture haphazardly at your body. "I'd get it if you're not really into this right now."
Dean's heart clenches. He's downright shocked at your confession, and more than a little disheartened. He presses a hand to your cheek and guides you to look at him.
"All right, hold up just one damn minute."
His calloused fingers gently brush away your tears, but his hands keep moving, slowly traveling down your body. They slide down your bare arms, skimming the sides of your breasts.
Your breath hitches. Your hand is still fisted over your beating heart, keeping your towel closed. His hands continue to move, molding to the curve of your waist over the fuzzy fabric.
"I'll admit, we've been pretty busy lately with everything we've got going on. But if you think that means I'm ever not into this delectable, sexy, voluptuous, goddess body you got rockin' the house?" he says, grinning that utterly Dean grin of his.
You bite your lip against a bubble of laughter. He's too fucking much sometimes.
Dean tugs you closer, until your hips fit snugly against his through his slacks. His tall, broad frame crowds you. His lips skim your cheek, then over your lips in a tease.
He squeezes the flesh of your hips, tender and sensuous.
Your heart flutters at the feeling.
"Mmm, I like you nice and soft," he murmurs against your cheek, close to your ear. "Feels that much better when I fuck you."
A small gasp gets trapped in your throat, while the gravel depths in his voice go straight to your pussy in a pulsing throb of warmth.
By the time he claims your lips in a devouring kiss, you're all too willing to let him peel your towel open, drop it to the floor, and guide you backwards onto the bed.
There he'll take his time, forging yet another mental map of every plush square inch of you.
Beau Arlen
Beau is a busy man. You understand that.
As Sheriff, his job demands a lot from him. He's also a father and has an ex-wife to contend with. (You knew that going in, and you've come to love Emily too.)
However, you can't help but start to take it personally when your sex life begins to suffer. He's often claimed being tired...but there's another suspicion that's been taking root in your mind, feeding your doubts and insecurities about how your boyfriend sees you, and about how you see yourself.
When you slip into bed at night, a kiss goodnight is all he gives you lately, before he's sighing deeply and closing his eyes, his soft snores soon filling the room.
One night, you try touching his shoulder, leaning in to kiss his bearded cheek. He hums at the pleasant feeling.
"You wanna...?" You trail the question in his ear, pressing more sweet kisses down his neck.
"Aw, sweetheart," he groans. "I'd like to, but I think I'd just smother you. I'm about to pass out."
You huff a laugh. You teasingly walk two fingers across his chest. "What if I make it easy for you?"
You shift onto your side. Resting a hand on his chest, you lean down to kiss him. He hums at the softness of it, but the more passion you try to imbue into each new kiss, Beau isn't as responsive as you would like. Eventually, you stop all together.
You frown, becoming disheartened. "You're not into this, I guess."
He opens his tired eyes, gazes up at you in apology. He opens his mouth to reply, but you beat him to it.
"You know it's been a month since we've had sex," you say.
Beau frowns, sliding a hand up your back. Only now does he notice, with appreciation, the familiar silky nƩgligƩe you're wearing.
"Nah, that doesn't sound right," he says.
"Well, it is," you say. "I know you say you're tired, but I mean, you've had this job for as long as I've known you, Beau." Your eyes fall away from him. "So is it the job, or...is it me?"
Beau's brows furrow. "Now wait a minute."
The mere thought dredges up what's been plaguing your mind recently, and it has your throat tightening. Tears of embarrassment and upset well up in your eyes, no matter how much you try to push it down.
You push away from him and turn away, crossing your arms. You try not to look at yourself in what used to be your favorite lingerie.
You can't stand the extra weight you've put on, mostly in your hips and ass, but in your middle and arms too.
You've gone through your own stress at work this year, with less and less time to try and take care of yourself, along with making sure Emily gets to and from school, cooking for the three of you, going to PTA meetings when Carla can't make it (since Beau often can't), and every other proverbial hat you wear.
Beau follows you, sitting up and laying a hand on your back. "Sweetheart--"
"I know I've put on a few. Hell, more than a few," you admit, hastily wiping under your eyes. "God, I can't even look at myself right now, let alone have you--"
"Hey. You stop right there," Beau says, more firmly. He gets you to turn around with his hand on your shoulder. He doesn't like the way you're curled in on yourself, as if hiding your body from his gaze.
That, and the sight of your tears damn well break his heart.
He cups the side of your face gently and presses a tender kiss to your forehead, followed closely by your lips.
You don't want to melt, but you just can't help it. You cling to the front of his shirt and lean into his kiss, like you've been lost in the desert, and his lips hold the breath of life.
You almost don't realize it when his arms slip around your waist. He earns a surprised yelp from you when he gathers you close against his chest and rolls you underneath him.
You land against the pillows in a huff. You stare up at his playful smile, his green eyes glinting with amusement, with fondness, and also with desire as they roam over your breasts, barely contained by dark green satin and lace.
"I've been neglecting you, haven't I?" he says. His voice is a low, earthy drawl as his gaze rakes over you. His big hand runs down your side and over your hip, then down your bare thigh, squeezing soft, tender flesh. He slips that hand under the satin night gown.
His hand can't span your entire thigh, but it's not for lack of trying. Your heart beats a staccato rhythm at the way he looks at you, your breath hitching when his thumb dips between your legs, brushing against the damp, silky fabric of your panties.
"It's not because I don't find you sexy as hell. Believe me, darlin', I do," he says. "You're so fuckin' beautiful, especially when you're all laid out for me here."
And he means what he says. You know it by the hardness you feel pressing against your hip. You slip your fingers into his hair with a sigh.
He bows his head to press kisses along your neck; down and down, he noses at the thin strap of your night gown. His path of kisses continue, and he indulges himself by dipping his tongue between the valley of your breasts.
"Filling out this lacy little thing so nice," he murmurs into your skin.
Your upset has turned to abject relief, but you still have to blink away the remaining urge to cry.
You let out a slightly tremulous breath.
"Oh, yeah?" you ask.
Beau pauses. He pulls away, just so he can look up and meet your eyes. He still finds insecurity in yours, so he meets you with a kiss filled with heat and intent.
He's now wide awake. He plans to take his sweet time taking you apart, inch by inch.
In fact, in the back of his mind, he also plans to do better about letting his deputies help him out more at the precint so he can have a better work-life balance.
(Because going a whole damn month without the taste of you is "no bueno," in his words.)
Soldier Boy (Ben)
The man may not be very patient, or particularly perceptive, but he's not an idiot.
At least, not about sex.
He knows that you've been feigning tiredness, and generally avoiding his touch.
What's strange is that you haven't been avoiding him. You still cook for him, still share conversation with him, still insist on having him spoon you on the couch while catching him up on the past four decades of TV shows and movies.
But when he begins to sneak a hand under your oversized shirt (an old one of Ben's), caressing your hip, then dipping down to your softer stomach on the way to your panties, breaking your concentration from the movie as unease laces down your spine.
You grab his wrist on reflex, instead lacing your fingers together.
"What's the matter now?" he asks.
You look over your shoulder at him and find him frowning at you, a divot between his brows. You don't manage to hold his gaze for long.
"Sorry," you say quietly. "I'm just, um, tired."
Ben doesn't believe you, and he's direct when he calls you out on it.
Reluctant to put what you've been feeling into words, you pause the movie and leave the couch (and him) behind.
Ben is annoyed enough to follow you (and underneath, he hides an edge of concern). The conflict leads into the bedroom, where you're still unwilling to open up.
He finally stops you from walking away from him, pinning you against the dresser by your hips. He practically looms over you as he demands an answer. He knows you're hiding something ā something that's had you reluctant to let him touch you.
"Is there something you wanna tell me?" he says, a raw edge of warning in his tone. "What, are you fucking somebody else?"
Shock flashes in your eyes, making you angry. "What? No!"
"Well, you seem to be getting your fill somewhere, and it hasn't been from me--"
"Are you fucking serious? I'm not..." Your lips purse. You're actually hurt that he would hurl that accusation your way--and it couldn't be farther from the truth.
You tug your long shirt downwards and cross your arms, but it's more like you're hugging yourself, shielding your body away.
Ben's brows furrow a little bit more.
Eventually you get it out; you haven't been feeling up to being intimate because you're having a hard time even looking at yourself lately.
"I know I need to, um, get back in shape," you say, taking in a shaky breath to try and steady yourself. Your throat constricts, the beginnings of tears stinging your eyes. You want to look at anywhere but at Ben. "I just haven't had much time, with everything going on. But Annie gave me this guide on some different diets, like intermittent fasting, Keto--"
"Fasting," Ben intones. "What, you wanna fucking starve yourself? What the fuck is Keto?"
You sigh, barely resisting the urge to roll your eyes.
"No, not starve myself. And Keto's just..." The idea of trying to explain the new diet craze to your boyfriend is too daunting a task to consider. "Never mind. The point is, I have a plan. My hips, my thighs, my ass--"
Ben squeezes your hips at the mention of them. He happens to like the softness.
"Yeah, you've got a little extra. So fucking what?" he says, his voice deep and exacting as his gaze roams over your body. "Just gives me more to hold onto when I'm fucking you."
You utter a shocked laugh. "Ben!"
He grins lazily, and he turns you this way and that, admiring you from all angles. In his eyes, he doesn't find a side he doesn't like. You can't help but blush hotly under his gaze.
"Sweetheart, do whatever you want if it makes you feel good. But you don't need to starve yourself." His hands move to your ass, squeezing a bit harder on the plush flesh.
A yelp escapes you; he's pressing into you from the front as well, and you feel him heavy and already half-hard against you. You grab onto his arms for stability as your breaths quicken.
His attitude kind of surprises you, even though it soothes the frayed, insecure part of your soul that wants to be as beautiful and attractive in his eyes as he is in yours.
Ben is literally a super soldier. You're actually kind of jealous. The man can drug and booze hard and eat whatever the hell he wants, but his super metabolism just seems to absorb it into his washboard abs.
(The more you think about it, the more you want to smack him.)
Nothing about him isn't hard and lean, muscle and strength.
Only his hands have a measure of gentleless when they're holding you like this.
"I've just got so many stretch marks now," you begin to complain, in an emotional whisper.
He snorts. "And? You think it's anything I haven't seen? I'm not afraid of a little cellulite either."
At that, your head tilts in consideration. Butcher's Granny Fucker remark comes to mind. You bite your lip against a smirk.
Ben crooks a curled finger under your chin. He guides you to meet his eyes, before he lures you into a lusty kiss.
It's somewhat rough because of his beard, but you still smile afterwards, leaning against him now.
"Ain't nothing about you that I can't handle," he adds, all smirking and cocky. To prove his point, he hooks those strong hands behind your thighs and lifts you onto the dresser.
You gasp and cling to his shoulders. From there, he makes quick work of ridding the oversized shirt from your body, revealing you to the cool air and his hot gaze.
You take his face in your hands and bring him in for an even steamier kiss, your heart lighter and trembling with anticipation.
You've held yourself from him long enough, Ben thinks, and he has every intention of devouring you right on your old dresser -- before you two even get to the bed.
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Okay so I never post here other than reblogs, but I ound this incredible, wholesome, and comedic interaction in the comments of an artist's portfolio on rednote today š„¹ I love how sweet this interaction was, the one who went to translate it and found nothing and was extremely concerned about it really stole my heart. ā¤ļø
Additionally, China, I am sorry on behalf of all U.S. cat owners that the word "skrunkly" is about to enter your vocabularies. I truly have not called my cats by their actual names since the word cropped up, so I completely understand the damages it can inflict /j
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Max & Daniel throwback to 2018 | Futsal in SĆ£o Paulo | x
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Really, both of you had made mistakes.
I love how mistakes have been used to even them out. Such a very humanising notion that blooms binding empathy ā¤ļø.
He leaned forward, his hand hovering near yours, like he wasnāt sure if he was allowed to close the gap.
The desperation is so subtly laced in here, like a silent scream. You're an amazing writer, dude!
. . . snuggling closer to his side as though the injustice of it all was just simply too much to bear.
The innocence šš¤š». Where did all our simple problems go?
Russell tilted his head thoughtfully. āWell, if I remember correctly, your mom was seriously considering getting a dog a few years ago.ā
Is it me, or is that a Dad thing to do š¤£š¤£š¤£? Throwing the mom under the bus, I mean, because the princess has him wrapped around her little finger. (I am one too, so, like, not a complain š¤£š¤£š¤£.)
āYou meanā¦ like when babies are in tummies?ā
Oh my God, this is so hilariously adorable šš¤£ā¤ļø.
Russellās eyes glistened, and he hugged her back tightly. āIāll be here as much as I can, I promise.ā
This is perfect š„¹š.
āYou said no before ācause it was just you! But now Daddy can help with the poop!ā
That's why everyone needs a father š¤£š¤£š¤£š¤£ā¤ļø.
This chapter... this chapter is literally my favorite from this series. Enjoy!š¤
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Tuesday's Gone ā Chapter 7
Russell Shaw x reader
Summary: When the police does little to no help to find your missing daughter, you are forced to contact Colter Shaw. What you donāt expect is how his investigation will reveal secrets about both your past and your daughterās, in ways you never imagined.
Warnings: fluff, mentions of murdering someone (as a joke, kind of), so much Scooby-Doo and dog talk, GIRL DAD RUSSELL!! (he's a warning because ā well, you'll see)
Y/N: This chapter... this chapter is literally my favorite from this series. Enjoy!š¤
Titleās based on Tuesdayās Gone by Lynyrd Skynyrd.
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āWhat the actual hell are you doing here?ā she snapped, her words laced with enough venom to make anyone think twice about speaking.
Russell, clearly anticipating her fury, quickly raised his hands in surrender. āI know this sounds insane, and I know you probably hate my guts ā fair enough, youāve got every reason to ā but Y/N sent me to grab some stuff for her and Emma.ā
Your sisterās brows furrowed in confusion for many things. āWhere the hell are they? What did you doāā
āTheyāre at the hospital in Springlandā Russell cut in, holding up a hand. āTheyāre fine, okay? Justā let me pack some things for them. You can come with me, Iāll explain everything on the wayā he said.
Her hands started to tremble, and she had to grip the doorframe to steady herself. āSo, theyāre okay? Emmaās okay?ā she asked.
āYeah. Theyāre goodā Russell said, though his gaze was unreadable. āPlease, let meāā
A flood of emotions hit Anna all at once. Relief, yes, but also an undercurrent of fear she couldnāt shake. Emma was okay. Thatās all that mattered. Still, she didnāt understand why you would be in Springland. Andā¦why hadnāt you called her? And why the hell was he here picking up their stuff?
Anna stared at him, trying to read him. The whole situation was a mess. You and Russell hadnāt exactly parted on the best terms, and now here he was, showing up at your door, looking exhausted and out of place.
Why him?
Still, Anna couldnāt help the relief flooding through her. You and Emma were safe. You had to be. But she couldnāt shake the nagging feeling that something was still off.
āAlrightā she sighed and reluctantly let him in. She helped him pack some sweaters, a new pair of jeans, clean underwear and everything youād need during a hospital stay. She also tossed clothes to Emma, her favorite plushie ā a Scooby-Doo toy your parents gave her.Ā
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Exhausted didnāt even begin to cover it. The last few days had chewed you up, spat you out, and trampled over what was left. You werenāt just tired. You were hollowed out, running on fumes and sheer willpower. You had a feeling like youād need a month's rest, minimum.Ā
But at least Emma was safe. She was sleeping peacefully now, tucked into the hospital bed beside you. Physically, she was unharmed, Rourke and his men hadnāt laid a finger on her. Yet, you knew that wasnāt the whole story. Mentally, the trauma of it all would leave scars neither of you could see just yet. Your brave, sweet girl had been kidnapped. Stolen away. And the thought of what could have happened ā no. Your mind canāt even go there.
Now here you were, sitting vigil beside her hospital bed. Youād been given your own resting place in the room ā thank heaven for small favors ā but you couldnāt bring yourself to use it. Instead, you stayed planted by Emmaās side, staring at her tiny face as she slept. Her brows were furrowed even in rest, her lips pressed into a worried pout. Seeing her like that made your guilt weigh heavier.
You should have been her protector, her guardian angel, the one who kept the bad things away. And yet here you were, staring at the evidence of your failure. No four-year-old ā or any child, for that matter ā should have to go through this.
Your mind wouldn't quit, racing through the last few days like a bad movie on loop. First, the panic when you realized Emma was gone, the gut-wrenching moment it hit you, like a punch to the stomach. Then there was Rourke, that smug, twisted, mustache-framed smile of his, and the mess youād thrown yourself into just to get her back. The helplessness you felt when you finally decided to call Colter. And, of course, there was Russell blowing back into your life like a hurricane, as if you hadnāt just spent years avoiding him.
Theyād saved her. Saved both of you, really. And for all the hurt and confusion between you and Russell, you couldnāt deny that he had stepped up when it mattered most.
A soft knock on the door pulled you from your thoughts.Ā
The door creaked open, and Annaās familiar auburn hair peeked in first. Her eyes softened when they landed on you and Emma. She slipped inside, moving quietly not to wake her, and behind your sister came Russell, lugging two heavy sports bags.
Anna came straight to you, her arms wrapping around you tightly as soon as she reached your side. You returned the hug, letting her warmth chase away a fraction of the chill that had washed over your skin.
āGod, I was so worried. So, so, so worried.ā she whispered with a voice heavily trembling.
āI know, Iā Iām so sorryā you murmured. āI was too. Did Russell tell you?ā
She pulled back just enough to look at you. āYeah, he briefed meā she said as her hands were still gripping your arms. āDonāt worry, I put him in his placeā she said and Russell rolled his eyes at that. She really did, letās just say, the whole car ride had been a rather tense experience.
You nodded, your eyes stinging with unshed tears. āThank you for coming. You didnāt have tāā
āStopā Anna cut you off, smoothing a hand over your hair like she used to when you were kids. āOf course, I did.ā
Her eyes slid to Russell, and her mouth tightened into a thin line. She knew you two had so many things to talk about, but ā for obvious reasons ā she didnāt want to leave you with him. On the ride here, Russell tried to explain everything. And by everything, he meant everything. His line of work, the reason you were brought to your sisterās house that night four and a half years ago, and the real reason Emma was taken. To say Anna hadnāt taken it well was an understatement. But even in her anger, she couldnāt miss the regret in his voice, or the way he spoke about Emma ā like she was the most precious thing in his world, even though he barely knew her.
That, more than anything, made her hesitate.
Annaās gaze darted to Russell, who was mindlessly unpacking one of the bags sheād hurriedly thrown together, then back to you.
With a reluctant sigh, she said, āIāll leave you two to talk.ā Her voice carried the weight of a thousand unspoken warnings, all of them aiming directly at Russell. āI brought the essentialsā she added, nodding toward the duffels by the door. āIāll be outside. Need to call Mom and Dad anyway.ā
āThanks, Annaā
She gave you a small, tight smile and leaned over to press a gentle kiss to Emmaās forehead. Without another word, she stepped out of the room.
The door clicked shut, leaving you alone with Russell. The silence that followed wasnāt heavy, not this time.
Russell cleared his throat, abandoning the duffels mid-unpack, and shoved his hands deep into his pockets.
āThank youā you said quietly, your voice softer than youād expected.
āFor what?ā he asked quietly.
You didnāt have a specific answer, really. There was too much to thank him for.
Bringing you here to make sure you and Emma were safe, for one.
At the diner, heād distracted Emma with soothing words and a little game ā like connecting with her was the most natural thing in the world. That moment had surprised you, even warmed you.
And then, of course, there was the big thing. The thing that mattered most. He and his brother had risked their lives to save Emma. Your child. Your entire world.
Sure, he was partly the reason Emma had been in danger to begin with. But after everything, could you really hold that against him? Not more than you blamed yourself, anyway. He hadnāt even known about her, let alone that she could be used as a pawn to hurt him. That part? That was on you. Youād made the decision to keep quiet about your pregnancy, letting your own hurt and anger drown out better judgment.
Really, both of you had made mistakes. He hadnāt told you what his real job was. You hadnāt told him he was going to be a father. And now, here you were ā two people who had made a mess, trying to pick up the pieces.
āHow is she?ā Russell asked, his gaze landing on Emma. His voice was steady, but you could hear the waves of guilt underneath like a howling ocean.
āSheās... okayā you said, letting out a breath that felt like it had been trapped in your chest for days. āPhysically, at least. The rest? Thatās going to take time.ā
He nodded but his jaw worked like he was trying to grind his regret into dust. āSheāll get through thisā¦Sheās strong. Like her mom.ā
You blinked at him, caught off guard by the unexpected warmth in his words. For a second, the fortress youād built around yourself wavered.
Hell, who were you kidding? That thing had crumbled the second Emma was back in your arms.
āI donāt know about thatā you admitted.
āI doā he said, stepping a little closer, careful. āI saw it. These last few days... you didnāt stop. You didnāt back down. Not even when I showed up and probably made everything ten times harder.ā
Your chest tightened, and you glanced down at your hands. They were still trembling, like your body hadnāt gotten the memo that the worst was over.
āI was terrified, Russell. Every second, I thought Iād lost her. I thought Iād never see her again.ā
āBut you didnātā he said, sitting beside you like he belonged there. After a beat of silence, he added, āBecause you fought for her. And when it came down to it, we fought for her together.ā
That last word hit you like a gentle nudge to the heart. Together. You lifted your eyes to meet his, and for the first time in longer than you cared to admit, you saw something there you hadnāt let yourself see before. Honesty. Regret. And maybe... hope?
āI donāt even know how to thank youā you said, your voice soft. āYou and your brother. I donāt even know where to start. I canātāā
āDonātā he interrupted, shaking his head. āYou donāt need to thank me. I just... I had to. For her. For you.ā
Your throat tightened, and you had to blink a few times to keep the tears at bay. āYou saved her, Russell. That means everything to me.ā
He leaned forward, his hand hovering near yours, like he wasnāt sure if he was allowed to close the gap. āIād do it again. A thousand times over.ā
The silence between you stretched, but for once, it wasnāt awkward. It was thick with all the things neither of you were ready to say but couldnāt deny anymore.
Finally, you reached out and your fingers brushed his calloused hands. āStayā you whispered. āWeāve got a lot to figure out, but... Iād like you to stay. At least until she wakes up.ā
The corners of his lips tugged up slightly, almost like he wanted to smile but thought better of it.
āI can do that.ā
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You canāt remember when or how you drifted off, and you certainly canāt remember how you got into the bed beside Emmaās. For a moment, you were completely disoriented, like a GPS that lost signal. Your ears perked up at the sound of the TV, the familiar voice of Don Messickās echoing through the room like an old friend. Was that Scooby-Doo you were hearing? Had you and Emma watched so much of it that now your brain was hallucinating talking dogs in your sleep?
You slowly peaked one eye open, then the other, dopiness sweeping through your system. You had to blink a couple before the blurry sight became clear in front of you.
There was Emma, sitting up on her bed, her eyes glued to the hospital TV in the corner, watching a rerun of Scooby-Doo, Where Are You? She was making soft, nonsensical sounds that barely registered to you in your half-awake state.Ā
And next to her, there was Russell, lying on his side with his head propped up on one arm, also mumbling. Emmaās head was nestled against his torso, her small body curled up in a cozy little ball next to his as she clutched the Scooby plushie Anna must have packed for her. They were both completely absorbed in the episode, their voices blending together in what could only be described as an animated commentary on the show.
You tried to make sense of what they were saying, but their words were a jumble to you ā intelligible to them, maybe, but not to your sleep-fogged brain.
It didnāt take long for you to recognize the episode they were watching: Decoy for a Dognapper.
Of course. Emma was a Scooby fan. You and her know all the episodes by heart at this point, so much that Scooby-Doo was practically a second language in your house. And it seemed like Russell had caught on too, or at least, heād been swept into the Scooby-verse by default. The two of them were so wrapped up in their conversation, they didnāt even notice you were awake.
āNo way! She wonāt? Why not? A dog is awesomeā Russell said, his voice carrying the first full sentence your foggy mind could grasp.
āShe says Iām too youngā Emma replied, snuggling closer to his side as though the injustice of it all was just simply too much to bear.
āToo young? Thatās ridiculous. What does that even mean?ā Russell shot back, his tone scandalized for comedic effect. āDogs donāt care how old you are. They care if youāve got snacks and ear scratchinā in store for āem.ā
Emma giggled. āMom doesnāt wanna pick up poop.ā
Russell tilted his head thoughtfully. āWell, if I remember correctly, your mom was seriously considering getting a dog a few years ago.ā
At that, you sat up with a groan. āReally, Russell?āĀ
It was true, he and you both knew it. About five or so years ago, youād gone on and on about adopting a dog ā all the goddamn time. Russell had endured countless rants about breeds, shelters, and the pros and cons of pet ownership. Now, the smirk on his face told you he was thoroughly enjoying throwing it back in your face. Paybackās a bitch, huh?
Both of them turned to look at you. Emma with her wide-eyed, angelic innocence, and Russell with a grin that was downright infuriating in its smugness.
āMorningā he greeted with a widening grin. āWe were just discussing the tragic lack of a dog in Emmaās life. Care to defend yourself?ā
āYeah, Mom!ā Emma chimed in with an emboldened voice by her new ally. āWhy canāt I have one?ā
You rubbed your temples, though a smile tugged at your lips. āBecause youāre too young, and I know exactly how that would end. Iād be the one walking it, feeding it, and cleaning up after it, dealing with everything.ā
Russell raised a brow, looking way too amused. āFunny, you didnāt seem to mind the idea a couple of years ago.ā
You shot him a pointed look. āDonāt make her think she has backup in this, Russ.ā
āToo lateā he said, leaning back with a grin. āTeam Dog is officially in full force, yeah?ā
Emma threw her hands in the air triumphantly, flashing you the biggest grin. āTeam Dog!ā
You groaned, but the warmth bubbling in your chest betrayed you. It wasnāt just the banter ā it was seeing them like this, bonding over something silly, and for the first time in what felt like forever, Emma looked like a carefree kid again.Ā
You narrowed your eyes at Russell, fully expecting another smug remark when he suddenly looked... hesitant. He cleared his throat, shifting his weight on the bed like a man about to drop a bombshell.
āWhat?ā you asked, immediately suspicious.
āWellā he started, scratching the back of his neck, ādonāt freak out, but... your parents are here. They got here a couple hours ago while you were out. Anna called them, I guess. She mustāve worked her magic because, well... letās just say I was fully prepared to be murdered the second they walked in.ā
Your hand flew to your forehead as you groaned, visions of your parents tearing into Russell flashing through your mind.
You didnāt tell them about him being here yetā¦ and you guess it was already too late.
Your dad would be loud about it, your mom quieter but somehow more terrifying. You could only imagine the list of grievances they had ready for him. You just hoped they didnāt cause a scene in front of the whole hospital ā and most importantly, in front of Emma.
āWaitā you narrowed your eyes. āTheyāre not trying to kill you? What did Anna even say to make that happen?ā
āI think she went with the āhe saved Emmaā card. Pretty sure your momās exact words were, āWell, I suppose I wonāt bury him under the hydrangeas... yet.āā
You couldnāt help it, you snorted. It was just so her. āSounds about right. And dad?ā
Russell winced theatrically. āYour dad... definitely gave me the look. You know, the one that says, āIām debating whether youāre worth the jail time.ā But he hasnāt thrown any punches yet, so Iāll count that as a win.ā
Emma tilted her head, a frown pulling at her lips. āWhy does Grandma and Grandpa wanna hurt Russell? Heās so nice!ā
The room went so quiet you could hear the faint hum of the hospital machinery. Russell froze, looking at you for backup, but you were too busy giving him a look ā the universal signal for you started this, buddy, now deal with it.
āWell, sweetheartā he said slowly, scratching his head. āThey donāt actually want to hurt me. Itās just... a joke. You know, like when people say theyāre gonna kill someone, but they donāt really mean it?ā
Emma gave him a serious look, like she wasnāt entirely convinced. āBut why? What did you do?ā
You sighed, realizing there was no easy way out of this. āSweetieā you began gently, āitās kind of a long story. But Grandma and Grandpa are just... protective. Theyāre not mad at Russell anymore. Or at least, not much.ā
Emmaās curious gaze ping-ponged between the two of you. āWhy?ā
āOkayā you said, sitting on the edge of Emmaās bed and taking a deep breath. āThe thing is... Russell didnāt do anything bad. Not really. Itās just... well, a long time ago, before you were born, Russell and I used toāā
āDateā¦ā Russell interjected, apparently deciding to rip the band-aid off.
Emmaās eyes widened. āDate? Like boyfriend and girlfriend?ā
āYesā you admitted, your cheeks warming. āLike boyfriend and girlfriend.ā
She stared at the two of you, her little brows furrowing as she processed this new information. Then her face lit up with excitement. āWere you married?ā
āWhoa, whoa, pump the brakesā you said, holding up your hands. āNo, we were not married. We just... used to be together.ā
Emma tilted her head again, her expression now puzzled. āThen why are Grandma and Grandpa angry at Russell?ā
Russell chuckled nervously. āItās not as bad as it sounds, kiddo. Theyāre just... protective of your mom.ā
āVery protectiveā you muttered. You took a deep breath, preparing for the big reveal. āSweetheart, hereās the thing. After Russell and I stopped being boyfriend and girlfriendā¦ I found out that you were already growing in my belly.ā
Emmaās eyes widened to the size of saucers, her mouth forming a perfect O at your carefully selected words. āYou meanā¦ like when babies are in tummies?ā
You were trying to keep your tone light as you nodded. āExactly like that.ā
Emma tilted her head, her little brow furrowed as she worked it out in her mind. āSoā¦ that meansā¦ Russellās my daddy?ā
Russell smiled, his heart visibly melting. āYeah.ā
Emma blinked at him, then at you, then back at him, as though she was piecing together the most important puzzle of her life. After a moment of silence, her face broke into a huge grin. āYAY! I have a daddy!ā
Emma scooted closer to Russell, wrapping her arms around his neck in an enthusiastic hug. āYouāre my daddy now! That means you have to stay forever!ā
Russellās eyes glistened, and he hugged her back tightly. āIāll be here as much as I can, I promise.ā
Emma pulled back slightly, her face lighting up with another burst of excitement. She turned her wide, sparkling eyes up at Russell. āCan we get a dog now, Daddy?ā
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. āOh, for the love of ā Emma!ā
āWhat?ā she said innocently, looking between you and Russell. āYou said no before ācause it was just you! But now Daddy can help with the poop!ā
Russell burst out laughing, clearly enjoying this too much. āSheās got a point, you know.ā
You shot him a look that could have frozen water. āDonāt encourage her.ā
āTeam Dog!ā Emma giggled and Russell ruffled her hair affectionately, somehow steering her to sit back down and continue their Scooby-Doo marathon.
Despite yourself, you took a deep breath, still trying to get your head around the unexpected turn of events.
This was... a lot.
But for some reason, it didnāt feel as overwhelming as it should. Sure, it had been a complete curveball to drop the whole Russell-is-your-dad bombshell, but Emmaās bright smile, the way sheād lit up at the news, somehow made it all feel like it could work.
As Emma giggled, you let out a sigh of relief.Ā This wasnāt how you thought this conversation would go, but somehow, it was already starting to feel a little more like a family.
A very unusual family.
But a family nonetheless.
āāāāāāāāāāā¦ā§ā¦āāāāāāāāāāā
Next on Tuesday's Gone (Sneak Peek from Chapter 8):
Still, Russell had clearly decided that proximity was his job. He was there nearly every day, and on more than a few nights, too.Ā
āJust in caseā heād say. You didnāt know, but he loved staying there when the both of you were sound asleep. During those times, he felt an indescribable peace.Ā
And then there was his latest obsession: fixing everything. It started innocently enough ā he noticed a cabinet door hanging loose and gave it a quick tune-up. Then he spotted the wobbly bathroom doorknob. Before long, the guy was like a one-man Home Depot commercial, patching up squeaks and quirks you hadnāt even realized were annoying you.
And at first, you didnāt even notice. But one day, you walked into the kitchen, and something felt... off. Not bad-off, just different. Quieter.Ā
The cupboards didnāt bang shut anymore, the sticky drawer slid like butter, and that creaky floorboard by the living room? Silent. It was like Russell had decided that if he couldnāt fix all your problems, heād settle for conquering your house.
And the worst part? It was kind of working.
āāāāāāāāāāā¦ā§ā¦āāāāāāāāāāā
I might have giggled all the way while writing it, or maybe I didnāt. But hey, Emma has a dad!
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My parents took lil man with them to the cabin last night and ive been by myself sincešš» ā¦ the first thing my bestie asked was if I was to go on tinder then? Um noā¦ i dont need anyone touching me thank you. This time is for me and myself š„¹š
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Aw welcome back, Wayne!! š I'm so happy to hear that you've been thinking of this series. š„° And I'm so excited to see what you thought of Part 2...
I'm so in love with their little bonding sessions. Being stuck inside a cabin and playing games? I want that š
Aww it's the little moments with Dean that I would so love -- along with just being snowed in, in a cabin with him. š
And lol it's gotta be so awkward for true mates when they're still strangers. I absolutely adored her thought process throughout š
Lolll YEP exactly. š Like, realistically how do you broach that conversation with someone? I'm glad you liked that attempt to inject some realism there. š¤£
Love how Dean doesn't realize he's oversharing and that his whole childhood might not have been normal š
ahaha Dean got so into his story he didn't realize he was giving himself away there! Bit of a rookie move, but she's his literal soulmate, so he's probably a little distracted. š¤Ŗ
And oh God, all those journal entries ššš I know they're from the OG journal, but it just rips my heart right out again rereading it š¢ Those portray John's despair and heartbreak way better than the show did...
Girl I had never read the official journal, and it hit me in the feels in just the same way. š I had that exact same thought -- that they served to humanize John and explain why he became the way he was with the boys way better than the show did.
Ooooh, let's think about it, shall we? š Her dad might have totally been snatched by something supernatural. Considering their location and how it happened in her memories, it might have been a Wendigo?? š¤
Ooh you're red-hot! ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„
Dude! Goosebumps! Wendigos scare the shit outta me š It's still why The Descent is the scariest movie for me. I die from a heart attack every time š š«£
ooooh my God, I haven't seen The Descent, but if it's anything like the Wendigo episode, than I don't wanna know. š Legit when I was first starting to watch SPN I had to take a break after that episode -- and it was only episode 2!! š©
No! Alex!!!! YOU KNOW THIS IS WHY I HATE SNOOPING Girl, you're killing me here... šš
LOLL I love that you referenced Smoke Eater -- it's those same vibes from Part 8, isn't it? I have a little less sympathy for the reader in this situation, but she is ultimately sorry for going through his private journal/invading his privacy to the nth degree. š
OMGG I LOVED that gif of the little polar bear. š„¹š„¹ Took me right out with the cuteness lmao. I laughed so hard at all your commentary with the reader and her lack of bear knowledge. š
N'aw, I know it was necessary but poor bear ā wrong place, wrong time for the fella š„ŗš
Aww I know, I felt bad for writing that part. Poor Ted. šš
My heart is full šā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø (Also, I doubt he can ever stand to let her go her own way after this lmao)
Ha! You're right about that one. I just love me some protective Alpha Dean. š
Huh. Never eaten bear before... Never even thought about it before lol Also seems like something the Shaws would've done š
Me either lmao, but I've read about people who actually hunt for a living who survive off bear, caribou, bison, etc. I imagine it's a hard way to live, but omg yeah I could see Ashton making his kids learn how to shoot, but them not wanting to shoot a bear or a deer. š
Omg I love that ending! Dean's finally coming around, and she's putting the puzzle pieces about her dad together. I wonder what Dean will do when he hears the full story? Would he go hunt the thing? Is it even still out there??? Questions upon questions... š¤
Aw I'm glad! Yesss it's about time with him lol. Good thing all your questions there will be answered in Part 3...
So excited for the next part!! I'm loving this story and everything you've put in it, and the dynamic between them is amazing. So well done, friend šš©µš©µ
Aw thank you so much, my friend!! I tried to balance the slower "getting to know you" parts with some of this actiony/dramatic stuff as they slowly grow closer. š„°šš
Also, don't think I forgot about the last two chapters of Polaris. I'm so looking forward to diving into those chapters soon!! š
Against the Wind - Part 2
Pairing:Ā Alpha!Dean Winchester x F. Omega!ReaderĀ
Summary: You wake up in a strange alphaās cabin in the middle of a snowstorm, all with a busted ankle. He holds shadows in his eyes, even though his hands are gentle. There are iron shutters around his heart, even though he saved you. You might just save him in return.
AN:Ā Thank you guys so much for all the amazing feedback on Part 1! Now, most of your theories and questions will be answered...
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Song Inspo:Ā āAgainst the Windā by Bob Seger
Word Count: 3.8K
Tags/Warnings: Angst, and peril, the other kind of "hunting."
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Part 2: Seems Like Yesterday
āIāll raise you 25,ā you say, tossing five chocolate covered pretzels into the middle pile. Itās a risky bet, considering how much you lost in the last hand. Dean regards you with an amused, if critical eye while he holds his cards.
āOoh, youāre bluffing,ā he says. You pop your brows at him, a subtle smile tugging at your lips.
āYou want to test that theory? Put your money where your mouth is,ā you challenge.
He tilts his head at you with a raise of his own brows.
āCheeky omega,ā he mutters. His attention returns to his cards as he deliberates on his next move.
You attempt to be nonchalant as you glance down at your cards again. Itās a shitty hand, but he doesnāt need to know that. The alphaās won the last two hands of Texas Hold āEm, but you did win the first one. Though you suspect he let you win.
You want to at leastĀ even the score before he resumes his work out in the shed. He spends most of his time there during the day, or making sure the firewood is stocked. It seems like he takes any excuse not to spend too much time in your presence.
More than anything, you want to ask him if he feels what you feelāthe same tug in the pit of your stomach every time heās nearby. You just havenāt found a way to broach that with him.
Hey, I know we just met like two minutes ago, but I think weāre supposed to be together. Do you feel it too?
You nearly roll your eyes at yourself. Yeah, thatāll go over well.
So you have to be content with mornings like this and in the evenings, where he lets you put on one of his records, and you two share dinner together, maybe another round of cards. Or youāll read a book while lounging on the chaise, and he lays out on the couch, listening to his music with his eyes closed. You like watching him like that, with a relaxed, damn near peaceful set to his face.
Too often he holds that harder, stoic expression, or that divot between his brows that makes you want to soothe two of your fingers there; or better yet, lean in and press your lipsā
āItās your move,ā Dean reminds you. Heās finally played his hand, but you were too distracted to hear what he said.
āWhatād you do?ā you ask, surveying the piles of cards.
āCall,ā he repeats, popping a few pretzels into his mouth. He washes it down with beer and more barbeque chips. Those are worth $10 in this little fantasy betting. He points a finger towards you with the same hand that holds his beer, teasing, āYou got all the lights on in there? Or am I boring you?ā
You glance up at him, fighting a smile. āAll right, keep your pants on. Let me seeā¦ā
As the dealer, heās already turned over the River: the last card in the hand. Itās a 10 of Clubs, which means your One Pair is actually a Two Pair. Itās still not a greatĀ hand, but itās decent enough to maybe let you get the best of your opponent.
After you go āall in,ā Deanās lips twitch at a smile, and he humors you, going all in as well. Youāre on tenterhooks when he finally reveals his hand.
āOoh, it aināt a cheesy ā90s sitcom, but itās stillā¦a Full House,ā he brags as he lays out each card in a smooth line of overlapping cards, the mix of glossy red diamonds and black spades showing the truth. He won again.
You huff in defeat, your shoulders sinking in your seat at the kitchen table. You turn over your measly hand. Sweeping the winnings toward himself (a mound of chocolate covered pretzels, a stack of barbecue chips, and a handful of Oreos), Dean chuckles and tosses you a wink.
āAh, donāt beat yourself up, sweetheart. Iāve been hustlinā poker for a long time. Hell, Iāve been playing this game before I even knew my times tables,ā he says as he collects the cards.
āThat young?ā you reply. āWho taught you?ā
āMy dad,ā he says. āOh, believe me, I used to get my ass kicked many aā time, but by the time I turned sixteen, I was hustlinā grown ass men in skeevy bars out of their daily paycheck.ā
āYou were hanging out in bars at sixteen?ā you ask incredulously. There, Dean seems to realize heās said too much. He becomes more guarded as he puts away the deck and cleans the crumbs off the table.
āMy dad was always working. You could say I didnāt really have a curfew,ā he says.
āA latchkey kid, huh?ā you reply, hiding the way youāre trying so hard to glean any more hints of truth between his words.
āHeh, yeah.ā He gets up from the table and tosses the breakfast dishes in the sink, then travels to the front door to don his jacket and boots.
āAll right, Iāll be out back,ā he says.
Out back, code for out in the shed. You nod, and in a flash, heās shutting the door behind him.
Youāve learned another small tidbit about him, one that feels more important than it seems on the surface. And yet, it only elicits more questions you doubt heāll be willing to answer so easily. Heās more than tight-lipped about his past, only giving vague outlines and general pictures.
Even his storiesālike being raised up in a family of traveling mechanics, putting Nair in Samās shampoo when he was a kid, or the guyās serious fear of clownsāfeel like theyāre missing some key details.
You decide to take up your crutches and head for your room. There you unearth the journal from its hiding place under your pillow. This time, you turn to the very beginning. Before all the jargon about mythology (and an odd footnote about a āTurducken Slammerā), there are actual journal entries. The first one dates back to November 6, 1983. The first line already captures your attention.
I buried my wife today. Even as I write that down, I donāt believe it. Last week we were a normal familyā¦eating dinner, going to Deanās T-ball game, buying toys for baby Sammy. But in an instant, it all changedā¦ When I try to think back, get it all straight in my headā¦I feel like Iām going crazy. Like someone ripped both my arms off, plucked my eyes out. Iām wandering around, alone and lost and I canāt do anything.
This is Deanās father, you realize. The more that you read, with no small amount of dismay, you also realize that this man is writing about his wife, Mary.
Deanās momā¦
He writes about their house burning with all their memories inside, along with Mary. Somehow, he saw her pinned bloody to the ceiling.
Along with these pages is a clipping from a news story:
House Fire Kills Mother of Two
Lawrence, Kansas.
Youāre spellbound by it all. You keep reading.
November 13, 1983
ā¦Most of our clothes and photos are ruined, even our safeāthe safe with Maryās old diaries, the boysā savings bonds, what little jewelry we hadā¦all gone. How could my house, my whole life, go up like that, so fast, so hot? How could my wife just burn up and disappear?
The police donāt believe his story, about how she died before the fire, about what he saw. So he tries to convince himself that what he saw wasnāt real. Still, he canāt find rest, and he worries about his sonsā safety.
December 4, 1983
I havenāt let them out of my sight since the fire. Dean still hardly talks. I try to make small talk, or ask him if he wants to throw the baseball around. Anything to make him feel like a normal kid again. He never budges from my sideāor from his brother.
Every morning when I wake up, Dean is inside the crib, arms wrapped around baby Sam. Like heās trying to protect him from whatever is out there in the night.
Sammy cries a lot, wanting his mom. I donāt know how to stop it, and part of me doesnāt want to. It breaks my heart to think that soon he wonāt remember her at all.
You donāt realize youāre crying until a droplet lands on the page. You quickly wipe it away before it becomes a stain, and you dry it all the way with your breath before you move on to the next page, sniffling. Your heart hurts, even as your guilt grows. You know now that youāre really, truly invading Deanās privacy by reading his fatherās words. You just canāt stop yourself from turning the next page.
John becomes convinced that someone, or something, started the fire that destroyed his life and took his wife away from him and his sons. He leaves his job and the remnants of that world behind, to venture deeper into the darker one. But in that darkness, he finds truth.
He visits a psychic, Missouri, who leads him back to his house and senses the echoes of an evil presenceāsomething that shakes her to the core, and John too: the creature that killed his wife.
December 20
ā¦She told me that it was the most powerful, awful thing sheās ever come across.
On January 1, 1984, John makes a New Yearās resolution. He determines to find the answers himself.
A shiver runs down your spine. In Johnās words, your heart breaks for Dean, but you also see yourself. You try not to think about why.
You keep flipping through the rest of the journal past January. There are translations of a Latin exorcism, and like you read before, strange drawing of evil looking creaturesāas well as what they are, scraps of their history, and how to kill them.
Silver bullet to the heart, canāt withstand iron, salt and burn.
You pause on a certain page, more filled with lore than the rest, and a primitive drawing in the center.
WENDIGO
Cree: Evil that devours.
Wood spirit. Eats live flesh. Lives in forests.
Perfect hunter.
Your breath stills in your lungs as a cold sweat forms across your skin. The more you read, the faster your heart beats.
The crunch of dead leaves. Your father shouting at you to run, and keep running.
The coarse shout of a bear morphs into something other. Itās a sharper, whirring sound like wind howling amidst animalistic clicking, and then bones breakingāyour fatherās scream cut short. You turn around with your rifle in hand, poised to shoot blindly.
Your stomach churns as bile rises into your throat. You feel sick, and wrong, and you suddenly have the urge to throw the journal against the wall.
āOmega?ā calls Deanās sharp voice. āYou okay?ā
You jolt badly at the sudden noise. You didnāt hear him reenter the house. He likely caught the scent of your distress. He pushes the door of your room open to find you, but he stops short in the doorway. His surprise quickly morphs into a frown when he notices what youāre holding in your lap.
You gasp, freezing where you sit, but thereās no point in trying to cover up what youāve done. With an angry purse of his lips, he reaches over and takes the journal from your hands.
āWhat the hell are you doing with this?ā he demands.
āIāmā¦Iām sorry. I justāā You swallow past the lump in your throat. āI was just curious. I wanted to know more about you. I thought it wasā¦a normal journal.ā
āSo this is how you go about it, huh? Got everything you wanted, Columbo?ā he says, his sarcasm cutting into you. He flips through the journal to make sure all the pages are intact before he tucks the journal under his arm. āSeriously, going into somebodyās stuff? Who the hell raised you?ā
At that, you begin to bristle.
āMy dad,ā you snap back. Though remembering the passages youāve lived with for the past few hours, you soften with a painful twinge of sympathy in your heart.Ā
āAnd it looks like yours raised you to be some kind ofā¦well, what are you, a ghostbuster or something?ā you ask.
His jaw locks. āOr something.āĀ
With an exasperated sigh at his hedging, you swing your legs around the edge of the bed and haul yourself up with your crutches so you can at least match his stance (more or less).
āDean, please, just talk to me,ā you implore, gesturing at the journal tucked under his arm. āThe things I readāā
āAre none of your goddamn business!ā he growls, making the omega inside you cringe. The alphaās voice is deep and sharp, and even though he isnāt crowding you, his height and broadness are still intimidating.
āThe sooner you heal up, the sooner I can ship you back to where you belong,ā he says. āBack to your life, so you can stop sticking your nose into mine.āĀ
Your mouth actually falls open in shock. His vehement words feel almost as powerful as a physical blow, if to your soul. They make your arms tremble while holding yourself upright on your crutches. Hot tears well up in your eyes, though you try to blink them away. After a moment, youāre able to collect yourself enough to speak.
āIām sorry for going through your stuff,ā you say, in a quiet voice.
You hobble awkwardly past him out of the room. You donāt stop until you reach the front door, where your snow boots are. You manage to get them on by yourself so you can go outside and get some fresh air, not to mention some much needed distance from the alphaās burning presence. You can still feel him trailing behind you. You hear his heavy boots.
āWhere the hell are you going?ā he grits out.
You hobble faster.
Dean watches you go out the door without a word in irritation, even though it triggers an alarm deep in his gut every time you leave the safety of the cabin.Ā
The snow depth has lightened somewhat since the storm, but itās still not easy to navigate on your crutches. You get some distance from the cabin, mindful not to go too far. You know youāre limited, and you didnāt even take a gun with you.
Finding a solid tree to lean on, you rest there and try in vain to stifle your tears. You know you were wrong for snooping, and he had a right to be mad, but did he really have to be such a freakinā bear?Ā
Fucking alphas. I swear.
You thought you were starting to connect with him, but clearly, Dean wants nothing to do with you. He wants you out of his life.Ā
Does he not feel the same pull you feel to him? Does he really not realizeā¦that heās meant to be your mate?
You take in a shaky breath through your nose.Ā If he does, apparently he doesnāt care.
Just then, you hear the crunch of snow nearby. Twigs snapping.
Your body stiffens with a terrible memoryāof that day in the woods. Your breath comes out in short puffs on the cold air, your eyes wide as you listen closely.
Hearing nothing, you allow yourself to breathe a little easier. You venture a few paces forward and to the right, but you stop shy of how it slopes downward. Some unnamed feeling tells you to look over the edge.
You lean over and cast your gaze down the slope, but all you see is snow and trees down below. With a shaky breath, you lean back and look out to the north again. Plodding along the trail, heading towards you, is a bear.
Oh shitā¦
You remember Dean mentioning something about a bear passing by his cabin a couple of days before the storm. Looks like heās back to make his rounds.
His fur is dark; from this distance, you canāt tell if itās a black bear or a grizzly. It doesnāt make much difference when all you have on your person is a can of bear spray. His gait is massive, unhurried, but he lets out a braying sound when your gaze meets his, as if acknowledging you. He stops there for a moment, assessing. Your body locks up with fear.
The bear groans again, this time sharper. You finally snap out of your reverie and force your body to move slowly backward with your crutches spearing into the snow. The cabin isnāt that far, maybe thirty or forty yards at most. Still, the bear can probably beat you.
Instead of trying to run, you stand your ground and shout at the bear, hoping heāll back off. Your voice dies in your throat when he rears up on his hind legs, with a loud roar. Trembling, you miss a step and get knocked back into the snow on your ass, your crunches falling out at your sides. You scramble inside your jacket for anything that might help you.Ā
Bear spray!
You hurry to get the cap off with shaking hands, but before you can even aim, the creatureās heave paws thudding into the ground in front of youāa gunshot rings out and hits the animal in the chest.Ā
The bear falters, then roars in pain and anger.
Two more shots finally bring it down to an even heavier thud, not far from your feet.
In this moment, these are the things you donāt know about Dean Winchester:
For one, the scent of an omega in distress always calls to an alphaās protective instincts. But the scent of your abject fear feels like someone tried to rip his lungs out through his stomach.
Second, when he sees you there, your wide, shiny eyes filled with the remnants of panic, yet relief at the sight of him, it takes everything within him not to drop to his knees, grab you by the hair, sink his teeth into your neck and claim you, right there in the snow. Maybe then youād start listening to him and stop taking your life into your hands.
Instead, his lips purse as he wracks his rifle and slings the strap of it over his shoulder. He stalks toward you and scoops you up, crutches and all. He brings you back to the cabin without a word.
His jaw is once again locked with silence and strain; he doesnāt trust himself to speak until heās brought you inside and carried you over to the chaise. He sits beside you there and takes an inventory of you with his eyes.
āYou okay?ā he asks at last.
You manage to meet his gaze and give a little nod.
āOkay. Donāt move,ā he says shortly. He gets up and goes to the kitchen, where he grabs a foldable set of knives and a cooler from under the sink.
You watch him in silence, and you realize heās going back to gut the bear. You didnāt know that he actually huntedĀ out hereā¦well, hunted to eat. He continues to gather items in silence. It gets to a point where you canāt stand it, or his curtness, any longer.
āThank you,ā you say, halting his steps. Dean glances at you over his shoulder, then continues strapping up his supplies. He huffs in response.
āWeāre gonna be eatinā good for a while,ā he says without looking at you.Ā
His attitude both hurts you and aggravates you, so much that you refuseĀ to take it anymore.Ā
āLook, Dean. Iām sorry, okay? I shouldnāt have butted into your life,ā you say. Frustrated tears well up in your eyes. Expelling a sharp sigh, you amend yourself. āIām sorry for invading your privacy. Iām sorry about what you went through, and Iāmā¦Iām sorry about your mom. Iām sorry for today. Iāll justā¦stay out of your way, and Iāll leave as soon as I can.ā
Dean finally turns your way, but your lips tremble as you turn your face away from him and shut your eyes tightly against the salty burn of tears. Deep inside, his heart withers in his chest. He sighs and drops his supplies on the couch. He walks over with those heavy boots, and he sits on the edge of the chaise beside you. He hesitates for a moment, but eventually, he rests a warm, calloused hand on your arm and earns your tearful gaze.Ā
āIām sorry. I, uhā¦shouldnāt have yelled at you,ā he says.Ā
You sniff, quickly wiping away your embarrassing tears as they come. Your cheeks are hot with it.
āWhat is it you wanna know? About me,ā he asks, surprising you that much more.
Ā Your mouth parts, but nothing comes out. It takes you some time to think, but the first thing that comes to your mind isā¦
āEverything in that journal,ā you say, licking your dry lips. āIs it real?ā
Dean holds your gaze steadily. You know the truth without him having to say it, but he does.
āI was a hunter,ā he says. āThose things you read about, I found āem. Killed āem. It was my job.ā
āAnd now?ā you ask, once that large bit of information has time to set into your brain.
His lips tug at a half smile. āConsider meā¦mostly retired.ā
You exhale softly, and you nod. It earns a furrowed look from Dean.
āYou donāt seem all that freaked out by this,ā he says, with a more scrutinizing gaze on you.
āShould I be?ā you say, with an unsteady laugh.
He raises his brows. āIn my experience, yeah.ā
You chew on the inside of your lip. You donāt know if you should even put into words what youāve been holding onto for months. Like John, no one believed you. Even your own mother had started to look at you like you needed a shrink.
āOmega?ā Dean presses. His green eyes are perceptive as they take in the conflicted look on your face. āThere something you wanna tell me?ā
You deliberate for a moment longer. Then, you release a sigh and glance down at your hands clenching in your lap.
āA few months ago, I lost my dad,ā you begin.
Dean nods. āYeah, you saidāā
āI lost him in these woods,ā you say.
That quiets the alpha.
You shake your head, and you find your words as the memories that have been haunting your nights return to you.
āLike I said, we used to go hiking here every yearā¦ā
AN:Ā Just so you know, all of the journal entries appear in the official "John's Journal" SPN merch. š
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Unease prickles down your spine, though you donāt know why.
āDad?ā you whisper-yell, trying not to spook whatever animal might be out there.
A gunshot rings out, along with your dadās voice in a shout. Your eyes widen in alarm, and you call his name louder, taking off in a run to find him.
You end up rising over a hill you hadnāt crossed before, but you see your dad below; you recognize his bright blue puffer jacket that Mom got him for his birthday. You call his name, and he looks up at you with fear in his eyes.
Not for himself, but for you.
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If any of you guys ever grab a print of mine and get it signed, please please please do tag me in your post or message me a pic of it, I would absolutely love to see it! šā¤ļø
#I only just realized some of you guys might be getting prints so you can bring them to cons/events and get them signed#-and that's SO EXCITING#so please' if you do' I would love to see it!#and also' if you ever get a print just in general and put it up on your wall' I very much too would love to see it!#please don't hesitate messaging and showing me!#but regardless' HUUUUUGE thank you to everyone who's bought prints! š„¹ā¤ļø
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Chibi Wataru but make him āØ@fadefromthelightāsāØ version
Based off of Fade's drawing
Iāve been wanting to challenge myself and draw other characters (pls donāt be jealous Takeshi lol)ā¦but itās also hard for me to draw characters that Iām not very passionate about. But thereās a character thatās become very special to me and thatās Wataru. And we all know who loves Wataruā¦and Nobuhiko, he deserves recognition too! I told Fade I wanted to draw Wataru, but I didnāt tell her I was going to draw her version. Of course that didnāt stay a surprise for long, Iām really bad at them š But I love Fadeās version of Wataru so much and how she draws him with piercings and fluffy hair. She also gives him amazing outfits and puts so much personalization into her drawings which is very inspiring to me as I always draw from canon. When I think of Wataru, I automatically think of her version of him. I really wanted to pay homage to her style with this chibi!
This was such a fun piece to draw and it means so much to me as well. Fade was actually my first follower in the Initial D community and we ended up becoming friends. All because she made a post comparing Sam from Stardew Valley to Keisuke because they have similar hairstyles LOL. And weāve probably talked every day since then š„¹ Whether we are sharing our works in progress, thinking up headcanons for our boys, or talking about what foods we love from Trader Joeāsā¦Iām just so thankful to call her my friend.
Thanks for being an amazing friend, Fade ā¤ļø
#wataru akiyama#initial d#my art#my blorbo in-law ā¤ļø#I canāt get over how cute he came out š#I just love Fadeās Wataru so much guysā¦š„¹#especially this outfit!!!#and Fade wants to turn him into a stickerā¦Iām so excited š#I gotta draw Wataru and Takeshi together soonā¦our boys are definitely friends š#Iām so glad I thought of the little signature idea š#itās like a collab š#when your friend is so cool that you make fan art of their art š
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If she had wings, she would fly away, and another day God will give her some | happy birthday adrienne! @tenkoushimura
#happy birthday baby girl!!! ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø I wish you a world full of good things; you deserve all the love in the world!!#you're caring kind and so much fun to have around! thank you for being my mutual for another year it's truly an honor (it really is) š„¹#have THE BEST day š love you#and yes I watched that episode just to make this gifset and I regret everything :( our girlie really deserved better šš#snk#aot#hange zoe#animangab#lovely mutuals š
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