#I FUICKING FINALLY DID IT

[ivehadanapophany]

I FINALLY DID IT!!!

[freunwol]

one of these fucking days ill get back into arknights and ffxiv and not smash headfirst into a wall before the story gets going

[sunflowerandstrawberryspice332]

Season FUCKING 8 of Ninjago

So I have been emotionally demolished (big surprise there) because my favorite character, and please don’t behead me for this, was Garmadon. I’ve never really mentioned it before because I saw no need to, but gods.... I’m in physical pain.

Why is Garmadon my favorite character? (I swear this section matters)

Because I love the way the show handled his character, I love how even when he was evil even when he was infected with the Great Devourer's venom, he was clearly trying to be good, he played more of the role of an anti hero than a true utter villain in my personal opinion (the crew also said that was kinda the intention in the beginning so I’m not to far off base). He clearly cared about his son and his wife, with Lloyd seemingly knowing who his father was before he had even gotten the chance to meet his mother (I promise I will talk about Misako in this rant cause she does play into it) and Garmadon is shown doing pretty much nothing other than telling his son “I love you, you matter and please don’t be like me” in season one through till then end of season four and even in their short meeting in season five. 

Also it feels like the characters conveniently forget the fact that: isn’t the whole reason he’s evil because he was bit by the Great Devourer? The best comparison I can think of is blaming someone who was bit by a werewolf for becoming a werewolf, again not sure how else to put it. Also he’s shown doing a whole shit ton of good stuff before the evil like fully took over, like he fought multiple wars on the good side. 

But then after he’s like de-evil-fied he immediately becomes this really kind chill person (hm it’s almost like he was a fundamentally good person who got dealt a really bad hand) even swearing off fighting, only breaking that vow because his son is in danger. In fact after he’s turned not evil (idk man) he’s a really valuable member of the team who’s honestly a lot less reckless when it come to the ninja’s well beings, like seriously who left Wu in charge of these people, and even snapped at Wu when they got BLASTED OFF INTO SPACE. His redemption is rather slow with most of the ninja taking most of season two to truly warm up to him, even after they’re still clearly weary of him, which I freaking love btw.

Finally after multiple seasons of proving he is a better person, admitting past lies (such as the letter to Misako, which honestly if a letter was all it took to sway her one way or another I’m not really sure how loyal she truly is, but I digress), mending bonds and just generally doing things to prove himself a good person, then the ending of season four hits and he sacrifices himself in a final act selflessness to save everyone. And I’m sorry but the line “I had wanted to make the world in my image, but I realize I already have, in you.” To Lloyd as his last goodbye was just heart wrenching. His last goodbye was an act of selfless good and even after we see him in season five he’s not concerned about escaping he is concerned about his sons wellbeing. 

Why Harumi bringing him back makes me so upset.

So yeah that’s why I love Garmadon but why does it matter? Well because he died a good person. He died with people remembering his sacrifice as something good. Then Harumi brought him back, but not the Garmadon who loved his son more than anything, not the Garmadon who went through seasons of mending bonds, no she brought back the part of him entirely consumed with evil and hate, and it makes me so FUICKING mad!

Imagen you go through years of healing and change so you’ll be remembered not only for the evil you did but the good person you died as, only for someone to bring back the evil part of you to crush the image people had of you and wrecking the bonds you’d made leaving your memory utterly demolished and your family bond broken because some random girl decided she cared more about her own revenge and anger than the peace and good ending you had worked so hard to achieve.

Also the effect it’s going to have on Lloyd (Note I have not yet watched season 9 so take this as what I think would be the emotions he’d be feeling). His last true memories with his father were with the Garmadon who redeemed himself, it’s the person Lloyd considers to be his real father/the real Garmadon only for Harumi to bring back the man who Lloyd knows isn’t really his father only a hollow shell with his voice and snippets of memories. I can’t even imagine one how gut wrenchingly terrible it would feel to lose your parent only for someone to bring back what’s essentially an evil clone to destroy all the good that they had previously done.

Enough about Garmadon lets talk about season 8 (This section is far lighter)

This season was awesome! I loved most of the changes to the character designs and voices (apparently some people didn’t like the changes but honestly my only complaint has so be Kai’s hair color being kinda weird) it just felt like everyone’s voice actors were going so much harder this season, especially Zane, Cole and Nya’s like Nya’s voice and (let’s be honest) pretty bad hair cut was holding her back and since that all changed she’s honestly just so much cooler now! Also Zane switching from more human esq while in front of people while being robotic around his friends was just a fun rather personal touch, like it just felt like such a neat character quirk, like I just love to think of Zane not wanting to scare like younger children and stuff like that so he wears the more human appearance.  

I loved all the reveals of small character quirks, especially with Cole, like him apparently not liking public singing (do I smell possibilities for fanfiction) and being really good with kids, like that’s just so adorable. Also all of Cole and Zane’s little side quest was just more shipping fuel for me lol. I loved the Pixel reveal and it just feels so fitting for her to be samurai X like just way to fun!

Was the season perfect: no, but was it really freaking fun and enjoyable and depressing, yes yes it was! In conclusion this Lego show should not have this much of a hold over my emotions tbh, but I’m not gonna stop watch so ya know!

[sunflowerandstrawberryspice]

Season FUCKING 8 of Ninjago

(this was written a while ago I am now done with season 12)

So I have been emotionally demolished (big surprise there) because my favorite character, and please don’t behead me for this, was Garmadon. I’ve never really mentioned it before because I saw no need to, but gods.... I’m in physical pain.

Why is Garmadon my favorite character? (I swear this section matters)

Because I love the way the show handled his character, I love how even when he was evil even when he was infected with the Great Devourer's venom, he was clearly trying to be good, he played more of the role of an anti hero than a true utter villain in my personal opinion (the crew also said that was kinda the intention in the beginning so I’m not to far off base). He clearly cared about his son and his wife, with Lloyd seemingly knowing who his father was before he had even gotten the chance to meet his mother (I promise I will talk about Misako in this rant cause she does play into it) and Garmadon is shown doing pretty much nothing other than telling his son “I love you, you matter and please don’t be like me” in season one through till then end of season four and even in their short meeting in season five. 

Also it feels like the characters conveniently forget the fact that: isn’t the whole reason he’s evil because he was bit by the Great Devourer? The best comparison I can think of is blaming someone who was bit by a werewolf for becoming a werewolf, again not sure how else to put it. Also he’s shown doing a whole shit ton of good stuff before the evil like fully took over, like he fought multiple wars on the good side. 

But then after he’s like de-evil-fied he immediately becomes this really kind chill person (hm it’s almost like he was a fundamentally good person who got dealt a really bad hand) even swearing off fighting, only breaking that vow because his son is in danger. In fact after he’s turned not evil (idk man) he’s a really valuable member of the team who’s honestly a lot less reckless when it come to the ninja’s well beings, like seriously who left Wu in charge of these people, and even snapped at Wu when they got BLASTED OFF INTO SPACE. His redemption is rather slow with most of the ninja taking most of season three to truly warm up to him, even after they’re still clearly weary of him, which I freaking love btw.

Finally after multiple seasons of proving he is a better person, admitting past lies (such as the letter to Misako, which honestly if a letter was all it took to sway her one way or another I’m not really sure how loyal she truly is, but I digress), mending bonds and just generally doing things to prove himself a good person, then the ending of season four hits and he sacrifices himself in a final act selflessness to save everyone. And I’m sorry but the line “I had wanted to make the world in my image, but I realize I already have, in you.” To Lloyd as his last goodbye was just heart wrenching. His last goodbye was an act of selfless good and even after we see him in season five he’s not concerned about escaping he is concerned about his sons wellbeing. 

Why Harumi bringing him back makes me so upset.

So yeah that’s why I love Garmadon but why does it matter? Well because he died a good person. He died with people remembering his sacrifice as something good. Then Harumi brought him back, but not the Garmadon who loved his son more than anything, not the Garmadon who went through seasons of mending bonds, no she brought back the part of him entirely consumed with evil and hate, and it makes me so FUICKING mad!

Imagine you go through years of healing and change so you’ll be remembered not only for the evil you did but the good person you died as, only for someone to bring back the evil part of you to crush the image people had of you and wrecking the bonds you’d made leaving your memory utterly demolished and your family bond broken because some random girl decided she cared more about her own revenge and anger than the peace and good ending you had worked so hard to achieve.

Also the effect it’s going to have on Lloyd (Note I have not yet watched season 9 so take this as what I think would be the emotions he’d be feeling). His last true memories with his father were with the Garmadon who redeemed himself, it’s the person Lloyd considers to be his real father/the real Garmadon only for Harumi to bring back the man who Lloyd knows isn’t really his father only a hollow shell with his voice and snippets of memories. I can’t even imagine one how gut wrenchingly terrible it would feel to lose your parent only for someone to bring back what’s essentially an evil clone to destroy all the good that they had previously done.

Enough about Garmadon lets talk about season 8 (This section is far lighter)

This season was awesome! I loved most of the changes to the character designs and voices (apparently some people didn’t like the changes but honestly my only complaint has so be Kai’s hair color being kinda weird) it just felt like everyone’s voice actors were going so much harder this season, especially Zane, Cole and Nya’s like Nya’s voice and (let’s be honest) pretty bad hair cut was holding her back and since that all changed she’s honestly just so much cooler now! Also Zane switching from more human esq while in front of people while being robotic around his friends was just a fun rather personal touch, like it just felt like such a neat character quirk, like I just love to think of Zane not wanting to scare like younger children and stuff like that so he wears the more human appearance.  

I loved all the reveals of small character quirks, especially with Cole, like him apparently not liking public singing (do I smell possibilities for fanfiction) and being really good with kids, like that’s just so adorable. Also all of Cole and Zane’s little side quest was just more shipping fuel for me lol. I loved the Pixel reveal and it just feels so fitting for her to be samurai X like just way to fun!

Was the season perfect: no, but was it really freaking fun and enjoyable and depressing, yes yes it was! In conclusion this Lego show should not have this much of a hold over my emotions tbh, but I’m not gonna stop watch so ya know!

[wantonlywindswept]

mando 3.8 liveblog (at least it’s finally over)

alright here we go

hey what happened to not being able to use comms

i will consider it justice if axe dies too

ahh feckin imps with beskar

did they? drug him??? hit him?? HE WAS WALKING FINE BEFOR---nevermind

ewwww they even have flamethrowers???? fuckin mando wannabes

also lol really only 2 of them for din??

baby~!!

no torture for din :(

btw BO YOU LET THE INFANT WANDER OFF ON HIS OWN??

tracking?? WHY IS HE RED AND GROGU A GREEN DOT oh cos droid mb? that would make sense. fucking hilarious if they were color-coordinated by gideon tho lmao

scomp. what. what is that word

frankly surprised R5 wasn’t scrapped tbh, he DID deserve it

guys you. you cannot make another R2. i do not have emotional investment in a droid that betrayed the covert

din why ask questions when you can’t understand him

yes! yes if axe dies on the cruiser as his epic death scene i will allow it for paz

fuckin love mandalorians just. flinging themselves out into space. love them.

ah yes the stupid vader shields

IS THIS GONNA BE ANOTHER DUEL OF THE FATES bc it can’t, that shit was too cool to be remade

mmmmm knives

PARRY THIS BLADE BETWEEN THE ARMOR YOU FILTHY CASUALS

i am loving all of his kicky moves

tube people! 

are these the mandalorian jedi i wanted--oh my god the bitch cloned himself THE NARCISSIM. i mean im not surprised but

damn that life beneath the surface though, so green

oh boo that means the armorer isn’t the spy doesn’t it

is it just gonna be ‘facist chick and gideon were the spies for the evil facism council’?? so boring.

oh my god that flying saber pose pls

lol u bitches wanna try to take on mandos mid-air? you’re not THAT good of copies

I WAS RIGHT I WAS RIGHT HE WANTED TO PUT THE FORCE INTO CLONES/MANDALORIANS I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT DEMAGOLKA 2.0

technically he exploded them before they could draw their first breath

guys beskar v beskar hand to hand is. silly.

ohh worm? mando vs shithead fake siths?

baby jedi vs sith??

oh god that heartbroken little ‘no’ din yelled

guys you’re being beaten by a giggling infant

oh gideon totes put an exoskeleton in his suit didn’t he, loser

no. no. no. really? really bo vs gideon? my fucking god it hate it.

we were shown how gideon vs mando was important, their fight vs each other during the seasons, and the fight gets passed over to bo. like yeah i get din saving his kid more important but i just. the lack of payout.

woves you’re still alive?

OH?? OHHHHHHHHH UIT BROKE? IT BROKE IT BROKE IT BROKE FUCK YEAH FUCK YEAH

seriously the classist bitch gets to live but paz doesn’t??? lame. uber lame. go down with your fucking ship woves

so slippy slidey

okay if gideo died in that fire they abso---NEVERMIND BABY FOR THE WIN

damn love that precedent being taken advantage of. would love if more things were too

rip the great forge

oh??? mythosaur??????? please??????

oh no ragnar

why you gotta be like this

oh i guess they didn’t count his as complete

FUICKING. BAPTISM??

oh we gonna baptize grogu now too?

OH? OH I WAS FUCKING RIGHT YOU DIDNT CONSIDER YOURSELF A DAD YET YOU MOTHERFUCKING GO ON, SAY THE FGUCKING WORDS FUCKING DO IT

MYHSAUR NOW??  FOR MANDO JEDI???

DIN GROGU HELL YEAH. also does that mean the naming styles are eastern asian style? IS DIN ACTUALLY HIS LAST NAME. WOT. is ‘din’ some form of appellation? WHAT IS GOING ON

oh my god are y0ou fuckign srs he has to leave mandalore already what is this SHIT

MTYHOSAUR??? BABY SEE MYTHOSAUR????

oh worm visiting the pubs? yay more carson!!

oh my god are we ACTUALLY bringing back the droid

lawls vacation cabin, glad to see the secondary ‘obtain a house’ quest was fulfilled

oh god we brought the droid back as the marshall

din get a landscaper in there

congratulations din djarin on successfully becoming the npc side character he always wanted to be

[ihavefiish]

GREYS ANATOMY UPDATE

Spoilers for 11.01

Hello people, it's been a while season 10 took me ages to get through

Callie and arizona want another baby but Callie can't carry because of the car crash which is super sad especially with April.

CRISTINA FUCKING LEFT WHAT THE FUCK

I am happy abt her ending thank god she didn't die

I really liked that Shane went with her :')

My one this is.... What fellow gets awarded a harper-avery and gets given a hospital????

AND ALSO BY BURKE?????? WHYYYYY

Meredith and derek are cute still but the whole thing with the presedent is rediculous.... Where did that come from??!!

Zola and Bailey are the cutest ever.

I wish Owen would leave

April and Jackson are having a babyyyyy they were not happy abt it at first but all has cooled off

Why does everyone keep mentioning Marc and no one mentions Lexie?????

Alex and Jo are just doing there thang.

When I tell u I BALLED MY EYES OUT when he opened the package from Cristina

SHE LEFT HIM HER SHARES????? THE FRIENDSHIP IS S T R O N G

My heart

I think Amy is staying this time which is good. I also hope Merder don't move to dc and leave Amy there cuz that would be stupid.

I miss Addison and Teddy:((((

And finally

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUICKING FUCK WAS THAT?????

MAGGIE WHO NOW IS WHO KID SORRY ??

MEREDITH HAS ANOTHER SISTER

WHOS DAD IS R I C H A R D

I LOST MY SHIT AND OH MY GOD

THEN then Richard was at AA and told Amy????? Oh my god this showwwww

[prismit]

octo expansion spoilers under the cut

FUCKING AGENT 3 MOTHER FUCKER HOW THE HELL ARE YOU EVEN SUPPOSED TO BEAT THEM!!!!!! NOT THE ONE THATS POSSESSED OR WHATEVER, NO, THAT ONE’S EASY AND SKIPPABLE. NO. I MEAN THE ONE YOU HAVE TO FIGHT AFTER GETTING ALL THE MEM CAKES.

YOU GO IN LIKE “OH IVE DONE THIS BEFORE THIS SHOULD BE EASY” BUT NO. ITS NOT. ITS NOT FUCKING EASY. FIRST OFF THEY GET TO COME IN WITH A SPLASHDOWN. THATS NO SO BAD, YKNOW, BUT THEN THEY THROWS THEIR DUMB FUCKING TRACKING BOMBS AT YOU AND YOURE ALL “WOAH WOAH EASY THERE BUDDY” AND THEN THEY DO A FUCKING INKJET!!!! LIKE BITCH WHAT!!!!! YOU JUST DID A SPLASHDOWN YOU CANT DO THAT!!!!

SO THEN YOU FINALLY TAKE THEM DOWN AFTER LIKE 7 ATTEMPTS AND YOURE LIKE “OKAY WHATS NEXT” ANOTHER FUCKING SPLASHDOWN IS WHAT. LIKE HOW COME YOU GET TWO SPECIALS MOTHER FUCKER? HOW IS THAT FAIR? BUT OH NO, THEY DON’T GET TWO. NO. AT THIS POINT THEY’RE USING A SHITTY BUBBLE BLOWER THING SO THEY GET THREE. AND THEY’RE STILL THROWING THESE TRACKING BOMBS AT YOU!!! AND THEN YOU DIE, OF COURSE YOU DIE BECAUSE THEY’RE FUCKING OVERPOWERED. AND THEN YOU GO RIGHT BACK TO THE BEGINNING AND HAVE TO DO PHASE ONE AGAIN. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? THERES NO CHECKPOINTS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE FIGHT. YOU DIE AT ANY TIME YOU GO RIGHT BACK TO THE FUCKING BEGINNING.

SO AFTER YOU KILL THEM AGAIN THEY COME BACK ONCE AGAIN WITH - SURPRISE - ANOTHER FUCKING SPLASHDOWN. NOW THIS ONE. THIS ONE IS JUST SCUMMY AS HELL. THEY UNLEASH A FLURRY OF TRACKING BOMBS. AND OH YEAH DID I MENTION THEY CAN DODGE AS IF THEY’RE USING DUALIES? EVEN THOUGH THEY FUCKING ARENT? SO THEY’RE SO FUCKING HARD TO HIT SOFUCKING G GG HARD TO HIT

AND THEN FINALLY. FINALLY YOU TAKE THEM DOWN ONCE MORE. AND YOU’RE SITTING THERE LIKE “FUCK YEAH I DID IT, BOSSES ONLY HAVE THREE PHASES, FINALLY IT’S OVER.” BUT GUESS THE FUCK WHAT? IT’S NOT OVER. NOW THEY’RE UP ON THEIR SHITTY UFO THING STILL THROWING THOSE FUCKING TRACKING BOMBS GOD I HATE THEM SO MUCH. I HATE IT. AND THEN THEY START DOING FUCKING TENTA MISSILES. LIKE AT THIS POINT IM NOT EVEN SURPRISED. YOU HAVE TO JUST KEEP THROWING BOMBS HOPING TO GOD THEY ACTUALLY HIT THEM AND THEN AFTER HOURS. HOURS OF DOING THIS LIKE FUCKING HOURS OF RESTARTING OVER AND OVER AGAIN. YOU TAKE THEM DOWN. AND THEY COME BACK. AGAIN.

THEY JUST KEEP USING SPLASHDOWN LIKE WHAT, THREE TIMES? THREE TIMES CONSECUTIVELY WITH ALMOST NO SPACE BETWEEN THEM. AND THEN THEY FINALLY COME DOWN AND FUCKING JUST KILL YOU AGAIN. I CANT EVEN REMEMBER WHAT THEY DO NOW BECAUSE I ONLY GOT THAT FAR ONCE AND DIED AND IM NOT DOING IT AGAIN. NOT TONIGHT. FUCK YOU. IM DONE.

OH YEAH, AND ANOTHER THING? ONCE YOUR SHIELD OR WHATEVER IS DOWN YOU’RE BASICALLY FUCKED. LIKE ONE SINGLE LITTLE SPLASH FUCKING KILLS YOU. ARE YOU LIKE RIGHT OUTSIDE THE RANGE OF AN ATTACK? WELL YOU’RE FUCKING DEAD TOO BAD FUCK YOU.

IM SO MAD IM SSSSOS FUCKING MAD I HATE THIS WHY IS IT SO FUICKING HARD IT DOESNT NEEEEED TO BE THIS HARD I I I  I I I I

i feel so empty inside