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waku-waku-week · 2 years ago

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#eyestrain #I THINK I MIGHT BE STARTING TO HYPERFIXATE ON IT?#I DONT THINK ITS GONNA LAST VERY LONG #BECAUSE I DONT WANNA REWATCH IT YET (DON T WANT TO GET TIRED OF IT)#AND I REFUSE TO READ THE BOOK UNTIL I GET A PHYSICAL COPY #BUT THE PHYSICAL COPIES ARE TOO EXPENSIVE #SO I HAVE VERY LITTLE CONTENT #fight club #picmix #leo moment #edward norton #brad pitt #gif

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umblrspectrum · 5 months ago

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do you ever like wanna make something cool but you dont know how so you just sit around like a moron for 5 hours straight pretending you know how

me neither

on a more serious note i know ad astra as a whole isnt over but i still want to thank daybreaker for their fics. what friends are for was the very first md fic i ever stumbled upon when trying out ao3 for the first time, and prior to joining the server i was checking it near daily for uploads. god knows if i'd be as deep in ao3 as i am now if it werent for this story and convenient timing. Thanks for the story.

#so What Friends Are For is over.#i did nOT CRY. i DO NOT CRY.#the lyrics incorporating the lyrics into the final chapter. daybreaker i HATE YOU #i still get GOOSEBUMPS just THINKING about the lyrics and then you FORCE ME to READ THEM #i thought it would be cool for the lyrics to be from different characters so i just picked kinda at random maybe #would i consider this a long post #gonna say no cause its more grid. be happy i didnt spread them out like i usually do #just pretend all the frames are in a consistent style and also better in every way also #oh i could probably tag daybreaker here but i dont remember their tag #its probably @lady-daybreaker or something but im too deep in this to check now #im not that deep im just lazy #i made uzis beanie look good for ONE PANEL. a SINGLE PANEL #and it was the VERY FIRST ONE #this post sucks im going to sleep #art #murder drones #murder drones n #serial designation n #murder drones uzi #not tagging the lyrics or nori. figure them out yourself bozos #for that one guy who liked how i made the limbs bend in the last one. sorry i got lazy #is there a picture limit

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luck-of-the-drawings · 11 months ago

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OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever

#jrwi fanart #cw blood #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #arthur bennett #OUHH THIS ONE WAS SITTING IN MY WIPS FOR SO LOOOONGwhen i took it out there was mould on it :sob:#BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay #i keep seeing SO MANY MISTAKES RRAAAHHH BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM RIGHT?? THATS ONLY ME. RIGHT?? EXACTLY.#THE KEY IS TO SAY. AND REPEAT AFTER ME. 'FUUUCK IT WE BALL #so anyway. arthur bennett huh? grizzly says that arthur is reaal fuckin difficult to play. and i SUPER get that. i mean LOOK AT HIM..#grizz often needs a minute to think abt what hes gonna say in a way that matches w that Stoic Personality. which is FAIR but also that #ends up making way for awkward confrontations like: the lady in the parky lot. he took too long to answer and scared her away.& I LOVE THAT #arthur is tragic and sad and cool and stoic but hes ALSO awkward and silly and kinda dumb and short sighted. HE HAS COMPLEXITIES #I LOVE WHEN TTRPG CHARACTERS HAVE A GOOD SET OF SHORTCOMINGS. ESPECIALLY WHEN U FIND THEM ONLY AS U PLAY THEM.#I COULd go on and on saying the same things w different words abt arthurs intriguing and entertaining character but i shall spare u. for no #ILL ALSO MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE HIS FLAVOR THO.. I LOVE TALL HOT BOY WHOS ONE W THE DARKNESS.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE FIRST MENTIONED THE #BADLUCK. N I WAS LIKE OOOHH THATS WHY HIS DESIGN IS SO COOL N CHAOTIC N ASYMMETRICAL. HES UNLUCKY!!! i love love love his design so much...#GRaaauruguguraguhhghghgh what else what else is there for me to spew on abt...i think im reachin a limit here..OH MAGNUS. i hope that #we get to know more abt how magnus and arthur met.. like How they became besties... ouuhh... I ALSO WANNA KNOW MORE ABT MARY DAVIS. LIKEHOW #he also apparently spent alotta time in a zone dominated by edward twilight? all he remembers is constant partying? I WANNA KNOW MORE..#i think i got room 4 one more ramble SO. THE ART PIECE.as i said its gone a lil stale BUT. im still very proud o the bits where hes allScar #I WANNA SEE HIM GET SCARYMORE. I like the idea of shadows solidifying to make him strange and eerie.like TEETH n CLAWS n SPINES n YESS #also the SILVER EYES.no1 does silver eyes like the show Claymore. they make em look so striking and eerie...i also like to think that #human arthur had deep beautiful brown eyes.just in my beaitufl heart.i mean look at him..i wanna cook him n eat him.ANYWAY #i think thats all my ramblin for this piece. now i gotta go cancel a single day i had ata hotel bc my work schedule change last minute FUCK #feel free to ramble in my tags aswell tho i read all of them and i chew on thenm and i love them so sos os mcuh

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chiimeramanticore · 3 days ago

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#before anything else i must warn this is going to be. unorganized thoughts mostly #in the last year or so ive tried to regain confidence that i am in fact plural and am not just faking it #or mistaking other symptoms for DID. shake off the denial y'know. as is so signature for this damn disorder #a diagnosis probably wouldnt even make me feel more sure lol. and also getting diagnosed for this specifically is like #the final boss of psychiatry to put it lightly lol #but when it quiets down in headspace ur always gonna feel like. maybe its over. whatever that was #it was just me and brandy for a while #but guess who had a godawful night and then a godawful morning and split a new alter ‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥#he hates it here! he might hate me for creating him! im not sure !#hell im not even rly sure if im juno or brandy rn lol. my mind is just so messy today #i woke up.. when did i wake up. like 9:30 i think and its 1pm now and i haven't gotten out of bed #i don't even remember all that time passing . i couldve sworn its only been like an hour. two at most #on the one hand this has all been kinda terrible and mentally exhausting but at the same time. hey cant say im faking now LMAO #the other hand is brandy. the other hand is absolutely brandy. i am tired lol #im only posting this here so i can just like. process it i guess #ive had a weird time finding an outlet to just spew random thoughts into since leaving twitter so. sorry #idk if anyone's expecting this of me but i always kinda feel like i need some level of professionalism on this account #keyword some. i know this is tumblr #but idk if these very open posts are. annoying? weird? uncomfortable? entertaining somehow?#i know I know theres no point in worrying abt how others percieve you . knowing that hasnt stopped me from doing it lol #i dont remember where i was going w this. maybe i didnt have a goal in the first place #idk if you read this far i dont rly need u to act like u didnt see it cuz like. wouldnt have posted it otherwise #but idk why i am posting. idk what i want out of anyone who has read all this #maybe just. interact w this post in some way idk. it's actually kinda grounding for me if you can believe it #bleghh im thinkin of cheating on my weed break just to treat myself after all this. weed + a long walk would fix me

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ratatatastic · 9 days ago

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what does paul have against a-bo???

LITERALLY WHAT IM SAYING???? the problem with paul and something hes been critised for his whole coaching career is that he will always prefer to put in a vet over a young kid, especially vets hes worked with previously because he knows them better and newer kids have to go through trials and tribulations before he decides to start them regularly

it drives me mad because we're in need of a righty d so we can stop playing nate and kuli on their offsides. this isnt to say nate and kuli are bad on their offside theyve been holding down the mantle quite well it just its absolutely baffling that while ekky was out boqy shouldve stepped in (again) and at least run pp1, hes offensive, hes a puck mover and was just starting to gain chemistry with matthew and instead he was sat and put in like 1 back to back game and then tobi got called up.

im not mad at that decision i think tobi deserves to have more time to prove himself up with us but also youre best righthanded defenceman is out.. you decide to call up a lefty??? when boqy is right there??? and you have time to let him play out games and get used to the team (again)??? and you dont do that??? so now quite literally every pair has a lefty???? and you dont give him time to play and now ekkys back so now tobis down again and boqys back to being in jail???

the ideal here is that boqy slides up with mikksy because i think mikksy benefits from someone whos more offensively minded than he is (like monty was) while he hangs back at the blueline but i cant deny that his playstyle this season has really evolved where hes the dman whos jumping up more often in plays and joining rushes and the way he crowds the net is so very helpful and this due in large part to him adapating his play with kuli because last fucking season it was so notable how much the mikksy-kuli pair seemed to be too defensive and we're dragging each other down, and i was glad when monty came back because mikksy does benefit from a player like that. now it seems because of that its actually mikksy filling in the role of the more offensive dman with kuli because they have that chemistry now (not so much nate now because if i took a shot for the amount of times theyve taken each other out in plays because they havent had the time to properly establish their areas i think id be blackout drunk ofc the more time they play w eo the less of a problem that will be but when youre down ekky it looked not as good)

so now we have the conodrum of well the original plan of putting boqy up with mikksy kinda goes out the window because we realise how much the team benefits as a whole when mikksy gets on his horse and becomes a sometimes 5'10 winger, and you cant have two dman that are gonna be doing that... which is why when paul slotted in boqy he always put him with nathan. but that means uvis is out and you really dont want him out because he has great physicality and is also a puckmover so then youd be switching kuli nathan and uvis out which- 2 are vets, 2 have played for paul and-

you see whats happening here

#ask #i still think the mikksy-boqy pair could be great if given the time they need #and it makes me pull my hair out to know we're probably gonna shop for a righty d with scoring come the trade deadline #when boqy is right there and if you give him the ice time i really think he could be great #i think boqy should be running pp2 in all seriousness and its insane that hes not #idk maybe boqys dealing with something too that we just dont know #maybe thats why paul hasnt been giving him opportunities #but also this happened with muzzy last season this happened with many of our 4th liners #where you just didnt see them for so long because paul got too comfortable with the lineup #i think this is just another case of getting too comfortable with the lineup #and there was such a missed opportunity here where boqy couldve gotten so much playing time than he ended up doing #sorry its a rant im very fussy about all this i think boqy should be on the ice every single game #i think he should be with mikksy im sure they can figure something out like forsy-ekky have where they both rotate on whos attacking etc et

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer?#i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

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gifti3 · 11 months ago

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happy bday to me! 🎂🥳🎉

for this very special day i wanted to list and compare the presents and interactions i got in the mobile games ive been playing consistently lmao

under cut cause the pics are big

Time Princess A letter with 10 golden tickets, 100 stamina, and 10000 coins

Obey Me! Nightbringer 1 UR+, UR, and SSR Joker each 3 Demon Vouchers 30 Karma Points 200 AP 30000 Grim 50 Devil Points Along with a bday video, birthday calls from the characters throughout the day and a UR guarantee for a 10 pull There's half-off on Devil Tree unlocks There's also special birthday dialogue in the Surprise Guests: -- the first Surprise Guest I did gave me 30 more Devil Points -- and you can press anywhere on the boys and get max hearts :]

What in HELL is Bad They haven't implemented bday stuff yet so nothing (´。＿。｀)

Twisted Wonderland A Happy Birthday from the character you have set as your favorite card and a Tenfold Key Set (for rolls)

and last but not least.....*drum roll* 🥁🥁🥁 Love and Deepsace! Special Happy Birthdays from each guy which include them singing happy birthday to you :3 Birthday Dialogue on the home screen Presents from each one (items you can use to decorate their desks) 500 Diamonds 5 Empyrean Wishes 1 Bottle of Wishes: SSR 1 Energy Capsule: Powerful And 2 birthday stickers

#so whb is technically in last place but since its a newer game ill let it pass this year #so time princess is next in line for last place #its a fine gift but since they dont have any characters saying happy birthday it doesnt do much for me #nightbringer kinda surprised me!#i was expecting a call and some devil points #but this is a lot more then i expected :3c #also i go crazy for free UR+ Jokers #i was thinking of adding regular obey me but decided to skip it since i only really just log in for dailies for the most part #(and i dont even do that everyday if im not feeling it)#also theyre practically the same minus the calls (but i have the old ones that i havent listened to yet still)#twst was cute nothing too crazy #(thank you for ur presence lilia)#i liked love and deepspaces happy bdays from the characters a lot because they sang lmao 😭#also i feel very special from them saying all this nice stuff about hoping that i get what i want and that i stay healthy and stuff dwsiiws #it feels like obey me has more in character interactions BUT when i think it about it more #deepspace has the models actually hand you gifts #also the moment you have with the characters feels more personal #but tbf theres more obey me characters and you do get those calls throughout the whole day! (also they give more stuff imo)#so i cant really pick which one i liked more :d #dutp #obey me nightbringer #twisted wonderland #love and deepspace #im now 26....#oh jeez #long post #still doing the same shit i was doing in middle school uashusha (i mean playing dating games)#my personality has refined over the years tho #anyways im gonna celebrate tomorrow with my family :]#this is the end of my post tho ill probably post about the asmo phone call later

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aria0fgold · 4 months ago

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My gums are aching less, I'M WINNING YALL! AT THE COST OF NEARLY MY SANITY!

#aria rants #it still ached for a short while earlier but it ached for a shorter time than it did like-- the last 3 days. which is a good sign!#im still bothered by my gums tho so im gonna let aly or anyone else front when brushing teeth orz... cuz Worry #i dont think i can manage for this long without my headmates i love em so much they saved me a lot here <3 #just the fact that theres someone here that loves cheese when the very thought of eating even a lil bit of it is so o<-< to me...#we're doing it... we can get rid of these deficiencies! lil by lil orz... but at least its working a bit...

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halloweendeity · 5 months ago

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#horrible awful no good very bad day #apparently last night the apartment below ours caught fire and we were out of town #and we didnt find out til several hours later from our neighbor who had to track me down on facebook- we didnt hear a thing #from the apartment in any official capacity until like? 10 hours after the fire?#anyway we rushed home supremely early from a friend trip that was like #meant to be very good and fun #anyway so we rush home because no one can tell us if our cats are okay #and they were but our whole apartment is supremely smoky and all of our possessions are extremely smoky #and we cant stay there or let the cats stay there because of the smoke and soot and particles it just doesnt feel safe #so now im in my partners familys house which is like #fine but its full of people and i dont feel fully comfortable and i cant fully relax and and and and and etc etc etc etc #and tomorrow i have to wake up early and go over there and find out what if anything the complex plans to do about it and how long its gonna #be until we can come back safely. or more likely get more noncommittal answers and be unsure #and i dont know how long i can stay here and be normal #AND to top it all off i paid like 60$ to go to an aquarium i didnt even get to go to . but yknow. all of my friends got to !#and like im happy for them but no one was excited as i was and now i get to ruminate on how everyone got to do the fun thing i love #while i was stuck doing 17 loads of laundry and bathing the soot out of my cats fur in someone elses house #certainly it could be worse and im glad my cats are fine and im glad its just smoke damage and not yknow. Burn damage #but im having a sad little pity party anyway because i was supposed to have an amazing beautiful day ending in a relaxing evening #in my own home #and now i have to cope with all of this instead. all i want to do is cry #and also like. im scared we will have to move #but im also scared we wont... because like #i think it was a gas issue. and knowing that that happened in my building? and also knowing how much landlords love to halfass #repairs and everything else #i just dont know how safe i will feel there #even if they tell me its fine #anyway sorry for the tag vent post again my old ways will never die #ghost posts

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phagodyke · 9 months ago

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I slept rly deeply last night even tho it took me a while to get to sleep but I think that was bc I had acid reflux and I'd been playing videogames too late not anything else.... still only got 6 hrs but doing pretty okay all things considered 😚

#and not feeling sick this morning so im sticking w the higher dose for one more day. my heart rate does feel a little uncomfortably fast #but its tolerable. just gonna make notes of how it goes through the day and ill submit my review form to my dr this evening #and hopefully she'll give me the green light to drop back down instead of continuing to titrate up #this is making me think of those heartrate fetishists... do u think i could make money selling tachycardic heart recordings online #i do wanna try to exercise this morning while i have energy. might take the bike out it looks like a gorgeously sunny day #maybe ill try to map my cycle route to work so i can consider cycling there instead of taking the bus in a couple weeks..#i cant atm thp cuz they have scaffolding up and its blocked off the bike racks sadly 😔#i think making myself eat + drink as much as i can has helped control the nausea too. just need a lot of fuel to process meds properly ig #and a lot of sleep.. its a bit stressful to think abt how rigid im going to have to be abt my daily routines if i want to stay medicated #but to be honest i have a pretty rock solid sleep/meal routine already bc its the only way i can function with the hours i work #so like. i dont rly need to worry too much. i think i reacted badly the first couple days bc my base anxiety was high #and then bc that feeling was heightened by meds -> made me not eat/sleep properly -> knock on sickness the next day #but yeah still the side effects arent very nice and i dont wanna take the risk of it exacerbating every difficult emotion i deal with #but fingers crossed bc 30 worked rly nice for me and i had barely any side effects so hopefully i can settle w that long term 🤞#we will see....#ANYWAY. sorry for making the same post over and over the last couple days. talking abt it on here has helped me feel a lot calmer #i dont wanna bother ppl irl w every thought and physical symptom i experience hourly. but this is my blog i can do what i want #hope everyone else has a nice sunday <3 #.diaries

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 1 year ago

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i am once again writing fanfic on new years eve

#is this the third year in a row it feels very familiar #oh no end of 2020 i finished a long one just in december #well long for my standards back then it was like 20k i think #last year i posted THREE in the first week of january super normal super great hfkjghjgh missing thasmin like crazy #wait does that check out potd was in2022?#wild #hang on im gonna post experiments in the revival of organisms again #no reason its just hot #really want to make a video like that again it was the msot fun one ive made #still got a similar one in the works but my laptop doesnt work super well rn and i also dont have time #but i'd love to finish it #one day #oh man this video is really good actually i'd forgotten but it is.good #me catering exactly to me: wow i love this #what was wrong with me for this #oh my god

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irishbreakfst · 7 months ago

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Is it valid to get mad at your significant other for something they didn't do but that you feel could realistically happen or do I need to calm down

#i had a vision this morning where my fiance and i had a kid amd i made dinner for everyone #and the kid didnt like my dinner and i was like okay but you have to eat it i wont make anything else and its good for you #and then (still in the vision) my fiance said 'you dont have to do what she says go microwave a hot pocket'#and the fact that (in the vision) my fiance didnt appreciate the fact that id cooked and contradicted me in front of our (imaginary) kid #made me feel super disrespected and upset lmao #cuz he does sometimes not eat the food i cook!! granted its usually cuz theres something in it he doesnt like but it still hurts #like you could at least say 'looks good but mushrooms make me gag so im gonna have pizza' yknow??#i also read a very long comic last night about unequal division of labor in homes and household management #and just all the ways that (usually) men dont even realize their (usually) wife keeps the house together with like preventative care #and i tried to get my fiance to read it but he gave up after a couple of panels cuz he thought i was accusing him of smth :(#im gonna try again when he didnt just get off a shift where he had to clean up a dead body i think #anyways hope nobody read all that i love my fiance and he tries #its just hard to get him to understand why i get frustrated sometimes #amd it goes both ways im not faultless either #we try :')

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0bsc3ne · 1 year ago

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ergh. 18 hours. probably gonna just break and do omad today. it might just be bc i've slept like shit but. yeah. i can just Tell this fast isn't gonna happen this week </3 i think i ate a little too much over the weekend and my brain's not quite ready to fast. oh well. guess my plan is omad today, tomorrow do a... exercise(?) where i let it be out of my hands whether i eat or not (stay the entire day at the art gallery before work; if they offer food, eat, if not, don't) and from there decide thursday. and then this weekend try to keep restriction up and try the fast again. got two more chances. it'll be ok.

#i think im a very disciplined person all things considered #but i think part of discipline is also knowing when to cut your losses and let the wants win sometimes #bc you Know youll be fuckin miserable if you dont #idk its just such a weird feeling of certainty i get sometimes #i cant quite pin it down when i fast #but its especially distinct when buying knickknacks and whatnot #like. most of the time if i want smth i can sigh and ignore the want bc ik its just gonna gather dust after a week and just. eh #but sometimes its just. such a Strong feeling of if i dont get it i Know ill regret it in a few years #and i think it all stems from this one fuckin glass giraffe i saw in an antique shop and didnt get and STILL think about #at least three times a week.#ITS BEEN OVER FIVE YEARS.#anyways. these tags got long #but while were both here i wanna just say i got this feeling last week and now I have a super nice glass cat hanging over my window:]

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99probalos · 1 year ago

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walking around with my cane like Wow this is just like Mr. Plinkett

#its been 9 or 10 months since i first got a mobility aid #and i guess im just now kinda like. realizing. that im probably gonna have to use a mobility aid for a very very very long time #speaking of which i need to schedule an appointment with my doctor to get them to #look at my knees again. since last time they basically told me i was SOL and to get out #but anyways #it rlly does make you look at the world in Way different ways #like wow. nothing is accessible people love to stare i cant go to the beach or go hiking #but also. disabled people are everywhere and there are people who care. there is community and there are people who wont just expect you to #do everything yourself or treat you like a fragile little porcelain doll #idk. i dont know. im just thinking a lot lately #also to tie this back to rlm #Mr Plinkett's cane is way too tall for him #also i was in target and i was thinking 'wow i wonder if jay goes to target..'#which is how u know its Really getting bad .#anyways. anyways #soz for the personal post. i will do it again #bigfoot took the wheel

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#focus who? i dont kno her #its so bad. i csnt focus at all. and ive got way too much to do. take me back to last week where i spent hours reading papers #annoying. also possibly lack of sleep cstching up with me #do u ever get very little sleep and not miss it at all? yea bitch all the time. then i get depressed and its sleepy time #and by sleepy time i mean i get like 8hrs of sleep lol #maybe ill just do nothing and completely fuck over my sunday lol #maybe i should go run up thr mountain rn before im stuck in a car for 2 hrs #bc im getting spikes of being insane. unfortunately i have no emotional object permanence so when i feel crazy its like #ive always felt like this ans its terrible forever. and then immediately afterward im like lol wot? nah im fine. ive always been fine #shout out to mood swings ✌️ like bro im trying to get materials together so i can teach a class. can u shut the fuck up? and focus?#well see how i do today with a ton of socializing. itll b fine. im normal i can b normal #or i can b endearing quirky. or whatever i usually i am. i dont think i have conversations like a normal person but i cant tell bc im not #there for conversations im not in. whatever everyone else has conversations in a way thats boring. i just wanna grill ppl til i understand #how they work. and then feel like im gonna die if im in a group conversation 🙃 let me study thr ppl around me #bc im very normal. god. i promise irl im not that weird. ppl think im nice and cool and successful #ok maybe not cool. but i think i can get away with being interesting. i got at least a lil charisma. im only a bit horribly awkward ;-]#but i try to own it. wtf was i saying. jesus. i cant with my brain rn. i shoulf have gone for a run this morning #being social just makes me anxious so im babbling i guess. but itll b fun. and itll b pretty im sure #maybe ill try to draw my ocs while im not paying attention. ive neglected them for so long 😭#unrelated

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theghostofwilburtheworm · 2 months ago

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WHJAT???

[loooong rant abt arcane s2 finale on the tags sorry i have many toughs]

#just finished arcane and im i dont know how 2 feel abt it tbh #like it made me cry like a baby but also i was just kinda confused like what was the point of all that??#i think the best executed plot in this season was the jinx and vi family plot (the part that made me cry like a baby bc oooughh)#and viktor and jayce's plot was great too i think im not sure actually conflicted abt that one but like it makes sence #buuut ambessa's and mel's plot?? what was going on and it was the one that tied all the others together like i dont think #they got enough development specially mel but like idk mayb i missed something but what the fuck was ambessa's #whole deal like what was her goal with hex tech was it to protect her family from black rose??? but she ended up killing her son #idk did she just want power in like general?? i just mayb i did miss something there #and then there's the zaun and piltover conflict that just kinda disappeared after a few chapters into the season which #i think its saad bc it definitively was my favorite part in the previous season and in the beginning of the season #it seemed like they were gonna explore that but then they didnt?? also caitlin uuuuuuh i think my enjoyment of her character was also #affected by that last point like at the beginning of the season i was so excited to see where they would take her character #specially with her whole quest of revenge thing but then that kinda just disappeared like i dont even think it got much closure #at least idk i wanted 2 see her get closure on that like mayb learn that revenge wasnt the awnser #ooor idk double down people calling her a dictator definitively warped the idea of how i tough cait was gonna b in this season #but i feel like she really just turned around very quickly to help vi well i guess they do love eachother so mayb thats whyyy #i dont knoww man sorry this all sounds like i dont like this season but i did like it #i do think they mayb had a lot of stuff going on compared 2 the last season that was wayy more focused so thats why this #season feels more scattered plus the episode limit and all that but i did really like it i just think it could have been better #okayyyyy rant over sorry that was wayy too long aa #but i am conflicted on this season so i have many toughs on it which is a good thing i think #gh0ost txt

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