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Meta Jazz, the Arkham Intern Therapist Pt1
Update 5/16/2024: Congrats guys, gals, and others! You have planted the seeds and they have grown. Today I wrote another 46 pages on this story (the first section was only 9 pages ya'll). I'm working on splitting it up into smaller sections so I can post it now because tumblr said no to doing it as one piece. I'll be using the tag #Meta Jazz Arkham Intern Therapist if you want to follow it.
Original Note: I'm going to go ahead and apologize for how OOC Bane is in this. It originally was Joker but I couldn't see Jazz tolerating his proximity for more than a single millisecond so Bane it is.
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The hardest thing about being a Meta in Gotham was responding appropriately during a Rouge's attack, Jazz mused to herself. Or perhaps that was just the hardest part about being a Meta intern at Arkham while studying psychology at Gotham University. Or maybe it was just her, she considered watching the guards and Dr. Rylie whom she'd been shadowing for the past 2 weeks wide eyed, pale, and shaking as theybstared at Bane behind her. It must just be her, Jazz decided, newbie guard Kyle Jennings was definitely a Meta after all. She should probably give him some tips on hiding his enhanced strength considering how often he broke mugs, door handles, and other delicate items used in daily life.
"Weapons down or I'll snap her skinny little neck." Bane growled out, shaking her slightly for emphasis. She very much doubted that. Liminials were built different than the standard Meta, stronger, faster, better endurance, and senses even if they could mostly appear to be standard humans on the outside. As such, their bones and muscles were much were much denser than regular humans or even Meta humans. Technically, she could be considered "invulnerable" much like the Kryptonians are.
"Back up! Let him through!" Dr. Rylie shouted at the guards. "She's my student! Let him through!" His voice was higher pitched than she could recall hearing it before.
Ah. That was panic.
Jazz sighed involuntarily and glanced over her shoulder at Bane. Why the man had grabbed the only person close to his own height nearby was a mystery to her - no, nevermind, he clearly meant to use her as a shield - but it made looking him in the eye more difficult than necessary.
"Mr. Bane, remove your hands from my person, please." Jazz stated calmly, channeling what Danny called her inner mom as she spoke. "I will give you to one to comply."
Bane looked stunned for a moment then laughed.
"Five."
The laughing continued. Jazz could sense a stir of uncertainty through her colleagues as they looked on.
"Four."
"Did you really think that would work?" Bane snorted out, arms tensing more around her.
"Three." She continued, indifferent to his words from her experiences raising her brother. Once the count down starts you mustn't respond to anything the kids do or say until they comply or the count is done.
"What cab you even do if I don't?" Bane asked darkly breathing directly in her ear. She kept her face expressionless despite the urge to express disgust.
"Two."
"Jasmine..." Kyle whispered halfway across the hall from her looking on with a pained and horrified expression. Gun tilting towards the floor. Sloppy.
"One." She finished and Bane gave a derisive snort.
Then she was moving. Hauling the enormous man up and over her shoulder using the arm that had been wrapped around her neck. Bane hit the cold tile hard enough that the tiles, subfloor, structural supports, and part of the concrete foundation buckled beneath him. His shoulder popped out of joint, his wrist cracked - a hairline fracture by the sound of it - and his breath was punched out of him from the force of impact. She released his arm as soon as his was embedded in the tiles and moved forward. Kneeling over him, support most of her weight on her left foot resting on the broken ground, her right knees pressed firmly across his throat without supporting any of her weight. The position put more strain on her muscles than she would've liked but at least Bane couldn't risk fighting back without crushing his own neck in the process. He could hardly throw her while flat on his back with a mangled arm.
"Now," Jazz began, looking directly into the behemoth's pained eyes. "Do you know what you've done wrong?" She asked like she would have done with Danny as a child.
"Yes, Ma'am." Bane choked out. Jazz heard movement and murmuring behind her. She didn't turn to look.
"What did you do wrong?" She asked. It was important to make sure children correctly understood why they were in trouble after all. There was a long pause as Bane appeared to cast around for the exact right answer as if he feared getting it wrong. A bad habit Danny still uses as well, Jazz thought to herself.
"I tried to hold you hostage," He choked out in a rush, words tumbling over one another as he tried to get them all out. "I scared you coworkers and it was very disrespectful."
So he'd gone for the grab-bag response. It wasn't wrong per sey but it did indicate a past history of abuse. The type of answer given by someone who expected to be harmed or ignored if they gave the "wrong" answer. Danny tended to use that method also and their parents had always been negligent at best.
"And are you going to do it again?" She asked giving him a Look as she did. Bane's eyes widened and he tried to frantically shake his head as much as possible with the pressure on his neck.
"No, Ma'am." He promised fervently.
"Alright then," Jazz said giving him a warm smile. She gestured vaguely towards the guards without turning to look at them. "Kyle here is going to take you to see the nurse and then back to your room then. I'm sure you'll behave for him?"
"Yes, Ma'am. I'll behave." Bane said. Jazz stood slowly asking sure not to put any additional pressure on his neck as she did. Kyle came and stood next to her as the giant of a man slowly pulled himself to his feet then led him away with 5 other guards.
Jazz heaved a sigh. Well, time to find out whether or not she could play all that off as normal, non-Meta human behavior.
#dcxdp#dc x dp#dpxdc#dp x dc#jazz fenton#bane#arkham asylum#BAMF Jazz#Jazz is Danny's Mom#You cannot tell me that she didn't start viewing nearly every male around her as a child automatically after a life with Jack Danny and Vla#Feel free to add on#I was going to have one of the batkids show up toward the end#But it didn't have the same impact#And I don't think the guards had time to sound the alarm#Bane just got cleared from medical#Not even to his cell yet when he pulled this#Legit only tried because 'hey she's tall enough to be a human shield'#It was a bad decision lmao#Ngl Jazz's midwestern sensibilities would totally tell her Joker is a mad dog that needs to be put down#But I may be projecting#Meta Jazz#Arkham Intern Therapist#Meta Jazz AIT#MTAIT#AIT#Meta Jazz Arkham Intern Therapist#my original post#Because I reblog so much I now need that tag. lol
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Is it true SJM said, out loud, that Rhysand is 'the best person ever'? In what fresh hell? 😂
If an author writes a homophobic character and calls him/her the best person ever, wouldn't you call the author a homophobe? If the said character is a racist and the author coddles them, wouldn't you question the writer's morals? But when SJM says Rhysand is 'the best person ever', you'd believe it? She didn't say he's an interesting or challenging character. She openly expresses her love for him because he is her male standard. She doesn't even see him as morally grey but uses the term to justify his actions. And as if this isn't bad enough, readers are siding with Rhysand because the author's intentions matter when judging him..? I'm sorry, are we that stupid?
#didn't want to reblog the post and derail their conversation#it was about azriel bc drama#and i don't want that bs here yet#anyone still hoping hea for tamlin/nesta brace yourself#they ain't gonna be happy unless they get on knees for rhysand#anti rhysand#anti acotar#anti sjm
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For the writing prompts;
19. For luck - Rom and Leeta
"And then," Bashir was saying - though in truth, Rom was paying only half attention, far too busy thinking about Leeta - "she came right up to me, and kissed me on the lips!"
"Oh, she did, did she?" Chief O'Brien said, scoffing good-naturedly.
"It's true!" Bashir insisted, though he didn't look insulted by the Chief's doubt. He was smiling into his glass, seeming quite delighted by the disbelieving frown on O'Brien's face.
Rom didn't quite understand what was supposed to be so 'unbelievable' about the story. In fact - "It seems pretty believable to me," he said. "Doctor Bashir's always kissing beautiful women." (Including, at one point, Leeta - though not anymore, Rom thought with some pleasure.)
"Yes, but this one was out of his league," the Chief said, batting his hand playfully across the table.
Bashir just smiled bashfully, ignoring the swipe. "Ah, well. You're right about that. She wasn't really interested in me after all. Turns out, she'd just misconstrued the human concept of a 'good luck kiss'".
"Ohh! A 'good luck kiss'!" Rom said eagerly. Then, after a pause, "Uh, what's a 'good luck kiss'?"
The Chief sat back, idly crossing his arms. "Well, it's pretty much exactly what it sounds like. It's a kiss that you give someone to wish them luck."
"Oh," Rom said, considering that. Luck was always a good thing to have. Perhaps... "Oh! Leeta!" He stood, sending his chair clattering backwards. "I'll be back!" he shouted, then raced from Quark's bar, ignoring his brother's parting shout out dismay.
He needed to find Leeta.
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"Leeta! Waaaait!" Rom hollered, shuffling through the crowded promenade as quickly as he could manage, chasing after her familiar voice. "Leeta! I need to give you something!"
This would be easier, he thought, if Bajorans could hear as well as Ferengi could.
But, at last, Leeta stopped, turning to find him. "Rom? Rom, what's the matt-"
The rest of her sentence trailed off into a hum as Rom reached up, pulling her down to plant a kiss square on her lips. One of her hands cupped Rom's cheek, soft. Rom didn't really know how long a 'good luck kiss' was supposed to last for - he really should have gotten more details before running off (for example, does it need tongue? Bashir never specified.) - but he thought that this should satisfy it.
He pulled away, grinning toothily up at his wife. "Hi, Leeta," he said.
She smiled down at him, cheeks flushed and lovely as always. "Hi, Rom. What was that for?" she asked, looking bemused and delighted.
"It's a kiss," Rom said, perhaps unnecessarily. "For luck," he added. "It's a hoo-man tradition!"
"For luck? Rom," she asked, laughing, "what are you wishing me luck for?"
Rom blinked. "Uhhh... For your day?"
Leeta beamed at him, and then leaned down, pressing a kiss to his forehead. "Well, I think it worked. I do feel pretty lucky now."
Rom grinned. "Me, too."
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(also if anyone else wants to make a request, the ask game is here. i can't promise they'll get done as quick or be as long as this one is, though!)
#quark: a 'good luck kiss'? oh he won't feel so lucky when i get my hands on him! throwing around my poor chairs like that...#i did my very best to get rom's speaking voice right. he's such a fun guy#somehow he has not yet appeared in my one long ds9 wip so i have not ever written him before#man i wish i could write my ACTUAL fics as quickly as i wrote this guy. i mean it's only 500 words but still!#i think i am too picky about them. this thing didn't have to be fully formed tho which makes it easier#and this is probably longer than i should have made it because i love rom and i am incapable of restraint#also i got excited about rom so these prompts are not being written in the order they were sent lmao sorry#amusingly of the ships i was sent this is the only one that i've even really posted or reblogged about before lmao#i will be wading into uncharted waters (for me) with the other two#star trek#ds9#star trek ds9#deep space nine#rom#ds9 rom#leeta#rom x leeta#god i don't know how people tag their ship. do they have a ship name??#julian bashir#miles o'brien#ficlet#my fic#ask game#ask answered#romleeta
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Tommorow i'm starting school 💀 i wanna explode. Hopefully this won't mean i'll stop drawing,, Here's a few finished arts in the meantime :]









{I draw mario so different everytime help 💀 Also luigi is pretty hard to draw so i'm still figuring him out ✌}
#art#my art#ender's tag#super mario#mario#luigi#mugman#also since last post i noticed some folks who i ADORE their art and writing liked my last drawing and i'm just🧍♀️#SO HAPPY LIKE WHAT#some of you guys are very very talented i just didn't answer anything bc i thought it would've been awkward 💀#BUT LIKE I'M SO HAPPY THANKS SM :'D#i'm way too shy to interact with others so yeah but it rlly means a lot to me ♡ every like every reblog rlly#i also do have an oc/s/i of mario but i haven't posted her yet. but i will {hopefully} soon :3#{not posting much like i used to bc it my main focus anymore basically but i'm so happy whenever someone likes my dogshit art/gen}#ALRIGHT ENOUGH WITH THE YAPPING NOW 💋💋
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similar cinematographic choices to portray the same imagery with insanely different circumstantial contexts
#like being tricked into a room and locked off from the outside world with a pitcher of water‚ a waste bucket‚ and an army cot#as you slowly died while experiencing acute mental distress to the point of having a psychogenic seizure at the same time#that people discussed your fate as if it were a decision they had the authority to make (and they DO. unfortunately for you)#vs being tied to chair during which you're in pretty consistent communication and under the care of the person who put you there#and you're narratively given the opportunity to hunt this person down and you even have scenes with hand to hand combat#in which you're able to properly defend yourself. for the other person the idea of your life being in danger is carefully threaded risk#to be taken rather than (as per the previous circumstance described) a decision you have the authority to make#likeee i remember reblogging this post that ssid 'supernatural doesn't really have a concept of jail' but like absolutely yes it does#sam (and even other characters like mary and rowena) are both put in 'jail' as the direct effect to a fault#wrt the winchester familial dynamic and their role. it's one of the main differences here. sam is put in jail‚ dean is not#sam does not have the authority to put him there. it doesn't help that sam is literally pleading as the victim within his scene#while dean is able to victimise sam even as the monstrous body within the 10.03 scene#and the thing is that their identities are being compartmentalised in similar ways here. dean is attempting to save his sammy#from the encroaching (invariable) monstrous sam that which he spends the next season attempting to forgive for the shortcoming#of dean perceiving sam's efforts at independence as abandonment while sam is attempting to save his dean from the encroaching mark of cain#(chosen to be put there yet is still victimised by) and sam spends the rest of the season forgiving him over and over while even#taking misattributed responsibility and blame that which has to be made up for#4.21#10.03#se referat#edit: also adding onto chii's tags wrt the differences in capacity for consent regarding demon!dean#it's so interesting to compare demon!dean to soulless!sam in that demon!dean didn't have the capacity to reject competent!dean's consent#while both soulless!sam and 5.22!sam did not consent to be resouled in respectively active and precedingly passive ways#like 6.12 sam is clearly happy and grateful to have been resurrected and he doesn't even have any specific qualms#about dean keeping information relating to his ressurection from him but 5.22 explicitly made his consent‚ or lack thereof‚ regarding#ressurection clear unlike dean in early-s10... and the thing is that the last time sam didn't pursue dean's ressurection#he faced negative consequences for that decision! and yet dean is seen as objectively correct for his actions in s6#by both the audience and narrative‚ and much of his responsibility regarding sam's psychosis isn't acknowledged as directly related#to his actions vs the pinning of blame to much of early-s10 onto sam esp relating to the guy he had summon a demon‚ who sold his own soul#despite sam's advice‚ whom demon!dean killed
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Samantha Cormier as Sophie in The Rise of Mr. and Mrs. Mafia
Please do not save, repost, or edit these gifs for any reason, use the reblog button instead. Also please do not interact if you’re a celeb rp blog, you write taboo content on your blog, or you run a fetish blog, thank you!
#samantha cormier#scormieredit#samanthacormieredit#vertical dramas#the rise of mr and mrs mafia#userdevon#mneverland#uservasya#gifs:mine#ngl the Ches vibes in this scene are so strong it lives rent free in my brain#i cannot believe it took me this long to actually make a gif set of it (actually I can believe it with college and health stuff but still)#anyway sorry to post two sets in a row <3#I made the content I wanted to reblog but couldn't since it didn't exist yet
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So, in regards to Hondo in Skeleton Crew since it's something I keep seeing people ask about: it was confirmed that he won't be appearing. Here's the specific bit from the article:
I’ve seen speculation that a live-action Hondo Ohnaka will appear in Star Wars: Skeleton Crew. True or false? –Corey A freighter resembling Hondo’s was spotted in the distance at Port Borgo in Episode 2, but series creators Chris Ford and Jon Watts confirmed for me that we won’t be meeting the Clone Wars pirate. “We’ll rip off that Band-Aid and say no, we don’t have any Hondo,” Ford told TVLine. “Honestly, we love Hondo, but there wasn’t really a part in our story that offered a good enough role for him. Like, if we were trying to cast him in this, he would be like, ‘This part is not big enough for Hondo!'” Which is not to say Skeleton Crew, in success, won’t ever feature the interstellar buccaneer. “We would love to keep doing this,” Ford said, “and keep exploring the whole pirate side of the galaxy, and build up to that.”
There's always the chance they could be lying, but considering the wording, I don't think they are. But! He is coming in the next dlc for Star Wars Outlaws! No exact release date yet, sometime in spring. If you haven't played it yet, I highly recommend it.
Now on a side note, something else I've seen a lot of people ask/say in regards to Hondo showing up in media set after Rebels: isn't he already super old/dead/etc? Long story short, no. Short story long because I'm autistic and don't know when to shut up under the read more:
If you were somehow unaware (hoping that doesn't come off as judgmental, it's more of a surprised thing I swear!), he's actually a part of Galaxy's Edge aka "the Star Wars land" at Disneyland/Disney World, which is supposed to take place in between The Last Jedi and The Rise of Skywalker (so about 34 ABY). Or at least it was initially, they've been kind of loosening it up lately, but the two rides (Rise of the Resistance and Millennium Falcon: Smugglers Run, the latter of which Hondo is basically the star of) are still in that specific time range. So he's not dead nor is he going to die in anything set before the sequels (but then again, "Hondo Ohnaka survives every time", could be the Force keeps bringing him back to life to fuck with everyone).
In Legends, the approximate lifespan for his species (Weequay) was about 90 years of age. There's been no word on whether this is still canon or it's been made longer, but if it is still canon, it does give us an idea of how old he was in the various eras. If we're to assume he's somewhere between 80 to 85 years of age in 34 ABY (Lando, who he's shown to be on good terms with in issue 4 of the Halcyon Legacy comic, is 77/78 years in 34 ABY for reference), that would make him:
Between 25 to 30 years old when he's first introduced in The Clone Wars
Between 42 to 47 years old when he's first introduced in Rebels
And last but not least, between 55 to 60 years old in 9 ABY, which is (supposedly) when The Mandalorian/Skeleton Crew/etc takes place
Somewhere in the middle is most likely, since the younger estimate would put him at only 14 years old in 32 BBY (during The Phantom Menace), but 17 to 19 years old isn't that wild considering what we've seen older kids/teenagers deal with in this franchise. It's not completely unrealistic that someone with a background like his would be just starting off leading a group of pirates in his late teens.
Anyway, what's he been up to since Rebels? He actually founded his own Totally Legitimate Shipping Company, Ohnaka Transport Solutions, sometime in between 1 ABY and 4 ABY prior to the Battle of Endor. It's currently (as in, 34 ABY currently) based in Black Spire Outpost on Batuu, though whether it was always there is unknown. Also at some point he got himself a ship that he named the Katooni...yes, like that Katooni. In fact, it's the one mentioned in the above interview about Hondo appearing in Skeleton Crew, so in a sense, he might have already had a indirect cameo!
Sources for most of this/recommended reading: Pirate's Price, The Secrets of the Bounty Hunters, and Halcyon Legacy #4. If you're looking for Hondo content outside the shows, read these. Especially Pirate's Price if you've always wondered what it'd be like if Han and Hondo met. And as previously mentioned, Halcyon Legacy #4 has him with (the real) Lando.
#hondo ohnaka#skeleton crew#star wars#oh god why is this so long. i didn't mean it to be this long#i haven't even reblogged any skeleton crew stuff yet!#i love it though!
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I WISH JANGO HAD BETTER MERCH!!!!!
#i want a T-shirt and ther are only 3 passable options#one has a lazer righ in front of his face with tie fighters (which didn't exist in lore yet)#the other one is a best dad shirt#last one is not that bad but has alot of text#I WANT MORE FIGURES#I WANT MORE RANDOM SHIT#PLEASE JANGO I LOVE YOU#jango fett#no one is reblogging the 20 year old expired candy Jango Keychain
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIL!!! 💚💚 Sadly I can't give you a million kisses from all your beloveds but I can offer one (million) samilah kiss for you hehe!! This was quite spontaneous so it's a bit rushed but I hope you like it!
I wish you the most lovable and fun day!! Stay the way you are, you're wonderful and deserve all the good things! :>
GIRL AINT NO WAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

OHH HOW I PRAYED FOR MORE SAMILAH CRUMBS 😭😭😭🫶🫶🫶🫶 AND IT DELIVEREDDDDDD 😭😭😭😭💚💚💚💚🙏💚😭💚😭💚💚😭🥺
I ALREADY WANNA MAKE THUS MY PFP SOMEWHERE FKFKFKFKFKDKSKS OMG I FEEL SO GIDDY RN!!!!! i was just cooking breakfast and im listening to the samilah playlist tooHEJEKSKSJHEHEHEJEJAAAAAAAAA IM SO HAPPY.....
YOU'RE SO FAAAST 🥹🥹🥹 THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! my day is already going so well with this artwork GWAAHHHGGH 🥹🥹🥹 THANK YOU TWIN!!!!!!!!! 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶
#(bro you went HARD w this bday art AND I DIDN'T EVEN DELIVER YOURS YET JJAJSHSKAKAKAIA ITS OKAY ITS OKAY IL STILL GETTING BACK ☝️☝️)#GUYSSS LOOK SAM IS SO HANDSOME HES SO HANDSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!#YOU NOTED MY WAY OF DRAWING SAM AGAIN AND IM SO HAPPY ABT ITTTT EHEHEHEHHEHEHE#HES STILL SO HANDSOME IN UR STYLE IMMA EXPLODE!N!!!!!!!!#OH MYGOSHH IM GONNA STARE AT THUS ALL DAY EHEHEHEHHEEHHE#ILY GIRLL RAAGGHAAGGHGHH#sophia tag#💚 samilah#💚 for me#im going to Reblog this for a Bit.#EVERYONE LOOK!!!!!! SAMILAH ON YOUR DOOR#birthday tag#WAIT. IM PUTTING THIS ON SPOTIFY
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Some lil traditional doodles I made during class ><



Ye, there's new upcoming sprunki oc named Momo, and ye, it's Lolo's twin(still figuring out their design tho) ><
#art#traditional art#doodle art#sprunki#sprunki incredibox#sprunki oc#sprunki anthracite#sprunki lolo#sprunki momo#← i didn't give them color yet#ft#sprunki yellow#sprunki simon#headcanon design#my art#my drawing#my traditional art#my headcanon design#my oc's#don't repost#only reblog
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I love it when I'm so hungry I'm nauseous and I wanna eat stuff. I have food right there in front of me but I can't eat it. And that's making everything worse
#i just wanna explain what happened on my end. and yet im too terrified#like the two people that reached out to talk about it? thanks. means a lot#like did i mess up? yeah sure i did but not to that extent. and its so vague too like#i didnt like ONE trans headcanon. despite having trans and nonbinary f/os. i didn't like the mindset of people regarding m/f ships as#-only being good when they're dumbed down to a certain sexuality. it was poorly worded snd I'll admit that. nowhere did i intend to say-#-that i didnt like bi4bi or t4t relationships irl. or if people do it to their ocs#i mind it when people say thats the only reason theyre good. not about chemistry or how theyre written or anything else like that#everyone else was fine with the brok.ebac.k mount.ain gifset i posted and tagged as a self ship. like i took it down when an anon said to-#-do so. then mutuals said it was fine. star.cake is a ace4ace relationship too. so like#the lesbophobe thing is an ex mutual who hasnt been a mutual in months. nuff said. quit bringing that up#i couldnt say anything cuz I felt backed into a corner. trying to say anything to get out of that situation#and I wasn't contacted about that for MONTHS. It was in november when i made that poorly worded reblog and wasnt told anything till early-#-January. like ya just sat on that. didnt even ask for clarification. just. blasted it in one day#yeah im not happy#im not gonna be happy for a while#this is the best way i can share what happened on MY side#take it what you will. now you have both sides#have fun ig#(oh yeah forgot to mention about the gifset thing. i reblogged another gifset earlier and no one said a thing about that one. so what gives)
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Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D
I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.
Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.
I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!
I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.
I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer
I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.
So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3
#I'm not leaving the fandom btw! Just realized it kinda sounds like I will but I won't!#Still got my fem versions and some animations to spice things up in case I feel less inclined to draw my resident skeles lol#To the people that reached out before this thank you SO much!!!#I know this is not gonna reach many people considering my leave but i deeply appreciate it<3#I wouldn't be surprised if people forgot why they even followed me in the first place with how long I've left this time Hhhh#There's some plans about commissions as well cause no matter how many times I fix this poor pc it keeps failing me lmao#And I wanna try my hand at it to feel less pressured and dependent on my academics :')#It's a scary thought and an even scarier process and idk if you guys will be interested? but that's for another post ig >:)c#muah muah ily all thanks for EVERYTHING cause I'd restart this blog all anew if I didn't have so many people that I'd miss around here >:'D#blah blah Yuri is back on her bs so get ready for some banger art!!#To any mutual reading this pleaaaase bear with me if I don't reblog your art immediately#cause I've been tagged on a few and I wanna give them five tags each at minimum and I don't know where to start HHH#If there's something specific you want me to see you're welcome to tag me In it but don't be discouraged I haven't gotten to it yet!#This is So long I'm genuinely sorry aughghg 😭
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Oh! Fucking. Duh. Obvious Roxie post I can make today: here's an emote I made for the sp:te server! (With variants of different degrees of completion...)
I was gonna go back and shade the comic colors Roxie but. Just ended up going w the colors picked off the screenshot. This screenshot, specifically!
#mind the quality i ripped it from Somewhere but i dont remember where#i still havent gone and continued my Unhinged Screenshot Taking yet. but oh buddy when I do....#spto#sp comic#spvtw#fanart#art#roxie richter#emotes#discord emotes#blue sparks one there was just testing where i wanted to put some before i decided Overkill was The Way#like w the other ones. please do reblog this if you decide to use them in a server somewhere! i would like to know if they end up other +#+places#ooc#spto fanart#scott pilgrim fanart#spvtw fanart#spto roxie#scott pilgrim roxie#spvtw roxie#roxanne richter#roxy richter#actually. best day for it really. if anyone has any roxie screenshots or panels they want emotes from I'd generally consider them to begin +#+with but For Sure today. (generally if anyone wants a given shot/panel as an emote im happy to at least Try. i just need specifics)#(so far kim ones are my only Successful emote attempts Without panel/shot basis. i do need to try a ramona that was requested again...)#uhhh just to be safe i guess#potential eyestrain#i did try a version w the sparks more like they are in the show but it Didn't Look Good#feel free to try your own hand at it if you want#this post is scheduled btw :3c im still trying to work on another roxie piece... panel redraw....
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today on Heeramandi: why is Mallikajaan so hot, why is Rehana(?) so hot, why are Bibbojaan and Lajjo so hot, why the f*ck is Waheeda so terrifying, and why is Tajdar both cute and dumb af in regards to his personal safety
#tv: heeramandi#heeramandi#manisha koirala#sonakshi sinha#aditi rao hydari#richa chadha#sanjeeda sheikh#sharmin segal#taha shah badusha#bollywood#local gay watches Bollywood.txt#local gay watches Heeramandi (and hopefully comes out intact).txt#honorable mention: why does Alamzeb have one permanent expression to go with her relatively fine voice. ik i saw y'all#complaining in the tags and i didn't think it was that bad but girl................... pls learn quick i need to see some more emotion#from you#also is Sonakshi supposed to be playing a double role or something. bc Fareedan has not shown her face yet but Rehana#has in the opening and it looks like all hell will break loose between these two when they do meet#didn't realize that Saiyaan Hatto Jaao and Sakal Ban came so early in the series tho. brb let me reblog the set sksksksk#edit: beaming this to my fellow gay Ustaad with my mind but get up. get up you do not need that white d*ck your loyalty is to#Shahi Mahal stay strong pls you can do this
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Putting the full picture under the cut but rebecca's famous movies are now my other oc's muh ha ha >:)
#rebecca hunt#rebecca prince#may reblog with the story but uhh may or may not have the ending yet#dont know if lauren gets killed or not#much to think about#also if it's not clear the red beads are a rosary#idk anything about Catholicism#also i didn't mean for him to look like draco malfoy sigh#saw this pose on Pinterest abd really wanted to draw it but realized it didnt really fit#so i MADE IT fit >:)
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So, I have this Jevin x Tunner fankid design
(Srry for bad english)




Not sure if I'll draw him digitally :_]
#art#traditional art#sprunki#sprunki incredibox#sprunki fankid#sprunki sally#i didn't give him color yet so he goes just by his real name for now#jevin x tunner#tuvin fankid#my art#my drawing#my traditional art#my fankid#don't repost#only reblog
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