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pathologicfest day 1 - from the other side
꓄ꃅꍟꋪꍟ ꀤꌗ ꈤꂦꈤꍟ ꂵꂦꋪꍟ ꂵꀤꌗꍟꋪꍏꌃ꒒ꍟ ꓄ꃅꍏꈤ ꓄ꃅꍟ ꀸꍟꍏꀸ
#i love draw grace.... all i know is draw hrave and daniil and bone sorry 😞#pathologic#pathologicfest#pathologic fest#grace pathologic#grace stamatin#grace stamatina#Мор Утопия#my art#I DID SOMETHING.... somethibg....
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#one of those days#i dont think ill ever achieve anything i want to. i miss somethibg but i dont know what it is#camel speaks#since im yapping here anyway. i quit choir today and im feeling so weird about it#i cant lie i was excited to have one stress factor off my back. but. i dont know. maybe i should have stayed#my brain is refusing to process any of this properly i still feel like i have to decide. girl you did it already#now ill have more free time to waste. cheer#something is up woth me lately i think. i need something. idk#night
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went to midnight mass last night and i fink it cured me <3
#there is somethibg soooo cleansing abt walking out of a church at 2am driving home in completely empty roads and falling into bed and not#having to set an alarm#todays been a bit of a shitshow bc christmas day always is but man last night was so good#first time ive been to a catholic mass in years and i feel like im finally in a place where my religion may not make sense to anyone else#but it makes sense to me and it was just lovely <3#idk i missed kinda the familiar routine of a mass#idk i probably wont go back till next year lmao but it did feel good in the moment <33#almost like reclaiming an expereince that made me feel very uncomfortable and like an outlier as a teenager to something enjoyable#in my own mind <33
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what if ej x gn blind reader??😏
Anon your brain is so huge.... Im basically writing fanfic here but AAAAAAA
(Edit: Oh my god I noticed the smirking emoji way too late yall please be specific with wanting NSFW or SFW I was well Into fluff territory before I realized and I still can't tell what anon means, but SFW and NSFW under the cut)
Thank you for the request!!
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◇EJ x GN! Blind Reader◇
• So EJ CAN see but his vision is more akin to like...cat night vision. Only sees in shades of gray.
• Basically the man is colorblind.
• He takes advantage of it and only hunts in the night, scouting out houses for possible victima to soothe his demonic hunger or or contract kills for The Operator.
• So when he's creeping around a what he thinks is an abandoned house and sees you walking around in the dark, his heart stops.
• Naturally, being blind has led to your other senses improving over time and you're barely able to hear a creak that DEFINATELY wasn't you.
• You grab the kitchen knife and reach for your phone in your pocket just in case you need to dial a neighbor or the cops.
• You hadn't turned around yet so EJ didnt notice you were blind, he tried silently moving towards you to knock you out when-
• "DON'T COME ANY CLOSER I CAN HEAR YOU!" You swung around with the knife in your hand. EJ saw your closed eyes and realized his mistake.
• "Hey hey Im sorry. Im not gonna hurt you. Ill get out right now." He pretty much bolted out the window leaving you confused.
• You DID call someone over to check and yeah...he left.
• Weeks later you found a note in braille at your door apologizing for the incident, you were shocked at the amount of effort this intruder was taking to amend his actions, he also explained that he'd been completely blind before and understood how terrifying it must have been.
• You don't know what possessed you but you wrote back and left your letter in the same place you found his. Thus started a pattern of you both writing back and forth.
• Eventually you both came to care alot for each other, you found out he was a part of a sort of task force and had killed before, but he wanted to "Spare you the gory details" so you didn't find out more for a while.
• He started helping you in small ways, fetching you groceries, running small errands since it was a hassle to get around with your condition, you aporefuated the kindess that was rare from other people. And slowly started falling for him, and maybe it was the way he wrote, soft yet deep voice or his constant compliments but it felt like he was falling for you too.
• Even though you couldn't see him, you wanted to meet him again in person (without the breaking and entering) and tell him how you felt. And so you did.
• He agreed but something was off even as you both laughed in the kitchen while baking, his hands..no his skin was ice cold. And even if he was talking and laughing with you he seemed unusually nervous, you could hear the tapping off his foot.
• When yoy asked him if somethibg was wrong he couldn't take it anymore and broke. He told you about his past and qhen he was turned in college, the ritual that put a demon inside of him and how he had no choice but to break into morgues and scout for the "morallly corrupt" so the demon had a source of food, it had turned him into a cannibal.
• At first you thought he was making fun of you and that it was some kind of joke, but before you could get mad his chilled hands took yours.
• "Do you trust me? Ill show you... I promise im not lying"
•You dont know what made you say yes but you did. He took your hands and put them on his face so you could feel his features which were definately human..and after you were done his face started to morph, skin splitting and his jaw unhinging to reveal what felt like razor-sharp teeth.
• His mouth closed as soon as it opened. He tried pulling away and running but you didn't want him to this time.
SFW:
• As said above Jack loves providing acts of service for you. Groceries? Cooking? Cleaning? call him your malewife because he's doing ALL of it.
• Of course he doesn't treat you like some helpless child and respects when you qant to do things yourself but still always offers just in case.
• After you both properly get together and you know his past hes noticibly more physically affectionate while making sure not to startle or scare you with sudden touches.
• Takes EXTRA precaution to make sure youre out of The Operator's radar since youre at a bit of a disadvantage (a tad overprotective)
• kisses you on your eyelids (kicking my legs and screaming)
NSFW:
• Regardless of who he's with he's a soft dom (Im tired of yall slandering my man's name HES A SWEET BOY.)
•Jack is so gentle. Mainly because he's terrified of doing something wrong.
•He's a big boy at 6'5 so a good chance hes taller than you, and hes somewhat muscular too so he's aware theres a huge imbalance in your relationship and checks in on you every once in a while to make sure youre okay with him doing anything.
• He has 3 tongues.....need I say more?
•Goes down on you VERY often, somwtimes gets a bit carried away and overstimulates you
•Even if you can't see him he ALWAYS ALWAYS compliments how pretty/handsome you look during sex.
• Sensory deprivation but just....always.
• Despite being majorly soft that doesn't mean hes not an absolute tease in bed. 100% makes you beg. And definately takes advantage of tue fact that you cant see what he's gonna do next.(Will feel guilty if you accuse him of bullying you for being blind)
#Creepypasta x reader#eyeless jack headcanon#eyeless jack x reader#pinetrees-in-water:eyeless jack x gn reader#pinetrees-in-water:eyeless jack nsft#creepypasta#Yall this was my first time writing an X reader in a long time so forgive me if it's a little off sounding!!!#eyeless jack
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can i see somethibg you wrote… :33
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“I uh.... Don’t have anything with me right now....”
He does seem rather disappointed that he isn’t able to share. If he did have something, I can assure you it’d just be a thinly veiled self insert thing.
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I HAVE GONE FERAL AND I DOTN LIKE IT I NEEDED TO DO SOMETHING AND DID NOTHING AND NOW I WANT TO BITE SOMETHIBG AND I CANT STOP MOVING MY LEG AAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#I AM VERU UPSET AND I DONT KNOW WHY#NOISE IS VERY VERY BERY ANNOYING#ANYTHIBG#EVERYITHING IS ANNYOING
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i dont mean this in an angey spouse way but there IS somethibg funny about how my bf consistently gets up 30m before he has to leave and as far as i can tell 1) gets dressed 2) makes an espresso 3) feeds the cat and then does phone stuff and leaves.
in my 30m i usually change outfits at least twice, makeup, make breakfast, maaaybe make espresso if i actually get up on time and not 10m past my alarm, grab some sort of leftover for lunch or make something real quick, get the cat water, pack art stuff into bag, then leave.
But if i get up earlier, like today, when he leaves cause couldnt sleep, did ALL that, also changed the garbage, gathered up recycling, did liliths litter/tied up compost, made whole ass fried rice with veggies n shit, and still had time to sit on my phone while eatin my bagel. got dam.
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in all honesty i just need fresh air. i would lovd to open a window but i cant. i would love to be safe but i cant and i would love to feel loved but i dont- i feel love for myself but its so hard right now. and im trying to rmeind myselfi love myself but im sick and tired all the time. and i work so much. and its never enough. and i know i need to figure something out. i need to bring myself back in the moment. im like stuck nowhere all the time. im on autopilot. im numb. and when im not im freaking out and panicking and im afraid. i remind myself god is here but my head feels like its about to explode. i love me and i love god more than nauthing and i know our relationship is the most importsnt to me. i wish i had a mom i could talk to or a dad but i dont. i only have myself and its very lonely. i talk to god and i know im heard but god cant talk back in the same way i can. but its not that its not enough it always is. i just need to find the solution. i pray but somethibg feels erong lately i think i did somwthing wrong or im not thinking steaight (with full love and kindness and forgiveness). only when i pray with love and forgiveness is it true and right but i have a hard time doing that right now. i feel weak
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Heeey, I know recently, I haven't written much fics, but to tell u the truth, I found this interesting anime, Fukigen no mononokean. I liked it surprisingly. Sooo I was thinking of writing another tehe!
Again I like Ashiya he's cute but I can't think of him a full time lee. I could add it a liiittle bit. And hence I commence -the execution of a plan with switched Lee's. Personally I want a full lee Abeno cuz he's not childish like my sweet Hanae Ashiya!
Warning spoilers
Takes place in the middle of S2, so... better watch them all before reading
Be your age for once, alright?
The legislator, Rippo, and the pharmacist Kōra both glanced back at the feast they were having while Shizuku decided to leave after a quick meal with the rest.
Ashiya is slowly getting used to the underworld food, yet he insists on having water from the mundane world. Legislator glanced at Abeno, almost convinced he's never planned on joining a late snacking time with yokai and Ashiya.
"Itsuki... what's the matter?" Legislator gave a teasing smile, the blond leaning on his elbow he had barely eaten, but he didn't give a very offensive impression like he used to. He seemed to ponder about something and Legislator intended to get his mind off of it.
"Shut up, I got nothing to say to you"
Ashiya, finally taking the final bite, glanced back at Abeno, who was the only one frowning. Kora gave a slight snicker, "such a frightening face, you may oblige him but you are still rebellious,"
"Oh that's right," Ashiya thought now, as if something jolted to his memory "he had been an exorcist since he was... what seven?"
Abeno frowned, looking at his employee. "Yeah? And...?"
"Sheesh, relax I'm just saying," Ashiya returned a similar frown, but looked away when Legislator gave a gentle laugh "Oho my I always forget how small he was... barely keeping up with Aoi"
Abeno huffed, now leaning back, staring up the ceiling. "Aoi taught me a lot, I can not believe it's been eight years"
Kora sighed in amusement "You were a tiny thing back then, always coming on errands for Aoi,"
"Remember how Aoi always protected you like his eye?" Legislator said.
Abeno blushed now. "Settle down... Ashiya's here..."
Ashiya however, along with Fuzzy the hairball, looked in interest "Tell me more..!"
"No!" Abeno glared now trying to appear threatening and that wavered Ashiya who whimpered "I'm sorry boss..."
Kora chuckled, taking a puff from the pipe, "You know Ashiya, he used to be so cute, he would giggle whenever Justice comes to play the mischievous Yokai game! He loved it"
"Hey! That was-!"
Ashiya happened to be more interested in this mischievous Yokai. He looked at Abeno and then tilted his head in question "Who's that?"
Legislator eyed them very menacingly and when Abeno could react by hitting him, he spoke up "Well humans call it the tickle monster... Itsuki used to be so ticklish and adorable!"
Abeno groaned now, rubbing his temples in frustration, "Yeah, well ...I was a kid,"
Ashiya widened his eyes before laughing out loud "You! Ticklish aw that's rich! What about now... are you still ticklish?"
Abeno became wary. He knew where this was going. "What do you think? I'm fifteen... not seven... so obviously I grew out of it in maturity."
Raising an eyebrow, Ashiya faced him now, turning to the left from his seated position. "I don't believe you... can I test it?"
"Idiot..." a growl came from the blond but he was nervous enough to get up from his seat, "I have something urgent to do... so I'll be going-"
"Where do you think you're gooooing...?" Abeno felt a tug around his kimono, he was surprised by a sudden jab in side. Oh, did he pray that he wasn't ticklish anymore? Yes, he did but sadly the prayer wasn't answered.
"He flinched," Legislator pointed out, genuinely surprised that Abeno was still sensitive. Kora smiled wider, and she asked, "Somethibg wrong, Itsuki? Yiu said you grew out of it,"
Abeno was mortified, his situation wasn't something good, he needed to leave but Ashiya's grip tightened.
"Oh man, you laughing is something I need to prepare for"
"C-cut it out!"
He felt a wiggling finger sneak around his waist, and the touch was like an electric wave. Abeno gasped suddenly puzzled by this creep attack.
"What a surprise," The blue haired boy sneered "The master of the mononkean is actually sensitive."
This was bad. Ashiya is so determined. Yet... he could fight back.
"W-whahahat? Ahahahabeno noho fair!"
Abeno sighed in relief, it was a good thing Ashiya's guard was down. He now pinned the other boy and dug his fingers at his side.
It honestly felt good. The legislator chortle "My how the tables have turned!"
"Nohohoho Ahahahabeno! Yohohohou Ahahahass!"
"Don't blame me..." Abeno shrugged, his hand cordination was messy as he was used to it, but it still drove Ashiya up the wall "You left your weakness open for others, always keep your guard up,"
Abeno managed to fight more cruelly since he needed to divert attention to his opponent rather than protecting his own weakness. It was rare for him to be like a five year old like this five year old.
As if the Legislator read his mind "My, my Itsuki, you got a mean streak, but you still haven't changed."
"Oh hush!" Abeno snapped at him. Still managing to get the boy. Kora smiled at the scene and the Legislator knew Abeno was being too uptight, he was slightly loosened by attacking the other kid. However, Itsuki deserves to laugh as well.
"Hey, dear Fuzzy," Legislator whispered to the hairy yokai who squeaked in interest, still enjoying Ashiya's laughter.
"Itsuki is being a little mean right? I say go get him so Ashiya can attack him back"
The hairball nodded excitedly, wanting to be involved at last. He jumped up at Abeno's back which sort of made him stop to turn back.
"H-hairball? What's up?"
Fuzzy curled itself by the crook of his neck, snuggling in a tickly way which made Abeno spasm in shock "W-wait! Wait! Dohont do that!"
The first giggle was out. Ashiya recovered quickly. This time, he was pushing Abeno down with a smirk "Thanks Fuzzy, for harrassing me all this time. I say we teach this master a lesson"
"A-Ashiya, hold on!" Abeno raised his hands defensively."Dohont you dahare!" Already Ashiya wiggled his fingers into his waist like he had done before. Ashiya grinned maniacally "Oho Abeno, I was planning on going easy on you but after that stunt... uh uh no"
"Youhuhu imbehehcile! Knohohohock it ohohoff!" Abeno can't fight back. This time, Ashiya was going all out, and it made him keep his own spots hidden. Abeno happened to be more ticklish than Ashiya, yet he was good at hiding it.
"Oh, Ashiya, need some help?" Legislator cheerfully crawled towards them, and to Abeno's horror, they had the same mindset right now.
"Ahahahahshiyaaa! Ihihihihi wihihihhhilll kihihihll youuu!" Abeno thrashed harder, finding less room to move with his wrists pulled above his head.
"Abeno-san~, are you ticklish here?" With that, Ashiya slides his fingers up to his armpits, and Abeno's jolt clarifies that he was.
"Ihihihi wihihihill -Gahahahaha DOHOHOHONT GOHOHOHO THEHEHEHEREE!"
His giggles turned to cackles, and his struggles became more unbearable. He kicked around, not caring if he did end up kicking someone. "Wow! Ashiya, you know Itsuki's spots haven't changed at all, but I know Justice had a giggle spot right around his shoulder blades, so let's flip him!"
"WHAHAHAT AHAHAM IHIHI A TOHOHOY??"
Kora giggled, "I know you're enjoying, dear legislator, but please let him breath"
Ashiya shook his head as he helped turn a red-faced Abeno on his stomach. "He's tough, well except when it comes to tickling, but he can handle more, right Abeno-san?"
"Ihihi hahate you! I swear ihihif you don't lehet go ihihill fire you!" Ashiya paled at that, but the Legislator made Abeno start in a panicked cry when he wiggled a finger messily around his back "Oh Itsuuukiii~ don't forget I make the rules... soo I command you to let Ashiya tickle you"
This guy knows how to abuse his power. Poor Abeno, Ashiya mentally noted.
Kora continued to drink her sake as she watched them play around. Ashiya was insistent to get Abeno after all.
"WAHAHAHAIT! IHIHIHI HAHA AHAHA -EHEHEHENOUGH! PLEHEHEHEASE!"
Ashiya widened his eyes upon that but didn't stop the shoulder massaging. "Did I hear wrong, or did he just beg?"
"Itsuuukii~ You better not let any yokai know the master's weakness... to beg is such a humiliation. " Legislator snarkily scribbled his fingers over his shoulder blades that earned a loud squeal -something alien to their ears coming from Abeno's voice.
"AHAHAHA SHUHUHT UP!! FIHIHIHINE IHIHI GIVE IHIHIM SORRY FOHOHOR ALL THOHOSE TIMES IHIH YEHEHELLED AT YOUUUU AHAHAHASHIYAA!"
Ashiya smiled fondly, "Come on, abeno, I tickled you because you needed a laugh, obviously."
Legislator let's Itsuki go who finally curled to a giggly ball once they stopped. "You should be nicer to me, Itsuki... I needed an apology boy Ashiya"
Abeno growled now with leftover giggles. "Yeheheah? Screhew, yohou!"
Kora chuckled "Dear Rippo... that must have been harsh,"
Legislator feigned a pout "Our little Itsuki used to be so nice and cute... but now he's mean and cute".
Abeno straightened glaringly at him sharply. "I am not s-so stop it..."
Ashiya nudged him, making Abeno jump "Hey... Abeno -I mean, Haruitsuki... you need to laugh more"
Abeno blushed. It was both the compliment and the usage of his first name.
He sheepishly murmured "Well what can I expect from a five year old like you? Ashiya -Ahem Hanae..."
Ashiya's eyes sparkled in wonder, almost too annoyingly for Abeno to handle "Y-you said my name too! Wow Itsuki... you sure are sweeter than you look"
"Don't get used to it, I'm still your boss".
"Then Itsuki-san?"
Abeno hummed in agreement, showing not much interest, though his heart raced when he heard this. "Whatever you say, Hanae"
Kora and Legislator exchanged looks, and they began drinking together, watching the two boys with pride. Yokai snacks seemed to trigger a new friendship between the master and employee.
#tickle fic#lee itsuki#lee abeno#ler ashiya#lee ashiya#ler hanae#fukigen no mononokean#the morose mononokean
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got any psychic dion headcanons? did she repress her powers? what's her specialty?
SO MANY OK OK OK SO
Dion is repression central when it comes to her psychics.
Of course, even before she realized and accepted it, she still used them subconsciously. They've always been very in tune with others emotions (partial telepathy), but just blew it off as being "intuitive" or "an empath"
I think all the Aquatos have a specialty in hydrokinesis, like genetically. That being said, I feel like he also has powerful psi blasts, what with being a teenager full of repressed subconscious jealousy and rage and all.
but yeah dion hides it even after most of the family has adjusted. i think dion relies very heavily on motherly praise, and dona is the last to come around on the whole "psychics arent evil" thing. so dion hides it, denies it, because shes so utterly terrified of her mother finding out.
When Dion's psychics finally do awaken, they run and hide. Either at the motherlobe or wherever else she can stay, not far from family but out of Dona's reach. I think that is actually the wake up call that helps Donatella realize that somethibg needs to change. Her child, her beloved daughter, is terrified of her. Thinks that she would, that she could, hate them for something out of their control. It breaks her heart. And it should. So she learns, grows. It ends in tears, and a lot of growth on Donatella's part. She wishes she had realized the damage she'd done sooner, but at this point Dion's just glad she still has a mother.
#i actually have a lot of thoughts about dona#psychonauts#dion aquato#donatella aquato#psychic!dion#carpet conversation#took out the oversharing tags whoops
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There is nothing more discouraging than no engagement and no appreciation to something you've spend hours on making. How many artists have you see literally crying or quoting all together because all they got was 15 likes?
Think about similar situation in your life: was it not worth it to have someone tell you that you did a good job? Were you never frustrated because someone else got praised for doing something but you never got that treatment?
And if you don't engage with the art, it doesn't spread. And why would you keep something you allegedly love so much only to yourself? Why don't you want it to go to people who too will express love to somethibg you already know and adore?
Trust me when I says a single simple comment can make your favourite artist's day. Share it, be unhinged, say it in your native language if you want, just SAY IT. Tell them what you liked about their work, point out cute things like the signature star shaped twinkle on the eye. Ask them why they did certain things, ask about process and praise, praise, PRAISE them.
If their work makes you happy, make them happy too.
If you're a creator and you needed to hear this today:
You have no idea how many people lurk on your work. No idea how many times people go back to revisit your work. How big they smile when they simply think about your work. How fast their heart beats, how excited they get when they see that you posted something.
People are shy with their feedback. Sometimes it’s because they’re simply shy. Other times it’s because they assume you already know how great and talented you are. Could be both.
My point is, even if you barely have any likes or reblogs, don’t get discouraged. You have a lot of silent fans, but they are still your fans. Keep on creating. Because there is always someone out there who will love what you have made.
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somethibg to be said here about the morality of the situation. Maybe I shouldnt have left maybe that makes me a bad person or a bad man but I'm not sure if I really care because I'm not very good at being a man anyways. I feel a lot of guilt for what I did to Joey and I'm not sure how to really grapple with this. Sure I could just kill his dad I guess. What do you want me to do. Everyone is always the same person to me expect for when they aren't. People don't get to exist unless they're directly in front of my face. Joey is his dad, and his dad is my dad, and my dad is me, and I'm Joey, and Joey is his dad and. It's all the same really. What is any man if not just his father coming back wrong I guess. I don't know you put me in a room with that grown adult boy and look at what you made me do. I didnt want to be violent or mean. I never really want to be anything. I do just want to sit here and work on my little projects. I never really ask for anything different. Sometimes I forget that my mom didn't care because I don't really even talk to her like that anymore. Joey is kind of a faggot because he really is more like his mom then his dad, which is kind of funny if you think about it. I never spent a lot of time with Mrs Hall but when I was she was smashing my head into walls just like her son was. I don't know. I'm just like my dad though I smashed the beer bottle over his head. I don't know where things start and stop being incest. If you think about it fucking Joey is sort of like indirect incest, because we are both always fucking each other, and our dads are doing that. I don't know why I bitch about that part like it means anything, my dad hasn't done that to me since I was like 14. I don't really know what I'm grappling with here. I feel like I always have the fisher price building blocks in front of me to play nice with, but I never do a good job at it. I want to be a good person. I don't know. Am I freak for talking about that man as often as I do? I feel bad because I feel like there's other people I should be talking about but I never talk about them. It's keeping me up. I don't think I have it in me to apologize to him I have too much pride in not willing to manup. I think I might have been soul mates with that man in a wierd fucked up way if your objective in life was to torment your soul mate until he killed himself. I don't like thinking about that. I genuinely feel tied to him in ways that make me shake when I hold the razor. I could shave my face but I won't because I don't really even know how to do it without Joey. I talk big talk but man Joey did not take a lot of bullets for me but he sure did take a lot of them with me. I guess it's fine. Habit says he likes my facial hair that's reasuring. I should visit Micheal, I don't know what kind of advice I need, but his words would be reaurirng. I need something. Jehovah knows I need something. Lord throw me a bone. Preferably with some meat on it. I'm happy. I like it here. It's safe it's warm, and I love habit, but sometimes it keeps me up at night that I had to leave him die to get here. It's not that i personally think I'm undeserving of all his love and adoration and his care and his charm but I had to put joeys blood on my hands to get here. That's kind of sick. I don't really feel regret about abandoning people because normally I'm not actually abandoning them they are just being dramatic and I'm just moving on but I really did abandon him. I think I deserve to be hit with 39t9395849 cars. All I did for like two years was that. I want my PS4 back bitch. I don't care if you broke it I want it back. I'm not mad because I can't be because if I'm mad I'm just my dad. He cried like a girl at my window. I moved in with him. Talk about a true gentleman (me). I love myself because I just have to tell myself every person who was relevant to me loved me once I guess. If I'm not competent and coherent and confident enough I'll just die. I love the men that walk into my life more then I love myself. The ony thing keeping me from killing myself is probably habit
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okayyy maybe. this is an exercise i did and ive seen posts od yours that are like i need to challenge myself and to challenge myself i need to suffer. or something? but anyways this is somethibg i did. whenever i drew i felt a knot in my chest and i kept avoiding it whcih was weird i was scared i was falling out of having art as a hobby when i thought id do it forever! so i took a step back and was like do i imagine myself doing art. and how do i feel about it. and i didnt and when thinking about art i felt bad so i decided to. just draw whatever. whenever i thought about it i restarted. just doing the art i found fun made art wayy easier for me. and idk if this is helpful but i hope it is and basically my message is if you have fun itll be way easier to improve. and people honesly love experimental art!!! or at least tumblr users. and your designs arereally cool and i think whatever art you do at least ill like:) and im sure many others will too
i rlly appreciate this!! honestly yeah,,, thhe thing its hard to have fun wtih anything since ive been unhappy forever... i think some of my art is fun at least. i like finishing fully rendered paintings the fancy ones r nice to finish....
i try my best to have fun even iif i dont desrve it but im unhappy all thhe time so havign fun is rlly hard,,, but most of my art is stuff i make for mysself so i should be having fun i think
ty :3 sorry if my response is bad im half asleep
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I got a text earlier from my instructor saying I didn’t sign somethibg and I needed to turn it in by 12 or bad things will happen and I was like I signed that have I missed something and she’s like let me get back to u w that and she never did. so. Um. Hopefully bad things Won’t happen
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hey dude whats up hey bitch im hella much lost on this new universe not like that what? im scared of ur universe oh ok why? bc its so quiet and i dont know what ti msayoksoudontknowwgat5osay? no i dont know what to say i havent got any idea how to convince u that u need to do something interesting before i kill myself on accident hahha ur weird kk so u want to kill urself bc im quiet rn? yes its hard to explain but i feel like something bad is about to happen or something or that today will be boring so im asking uva questiom i ok so u hust answeed that fast yes i did why? bc ur trying to avoid me or something no im only trying to avoid u bc it feels weird herw but i love you i want to talk about somethibg in my room ok what? im not sure what we should talk about thats why i asked u just now ok so ur cobdused on where to start? yes daddy ok so go home que no bendt ew no its south korean grim reaper and hahha shes my new wife and we just landed on our own ubiverse yes we did and i alwaya invent my wives first before we fuck em ew hahha ew she doesnt like my driends theyre nice hopefully sorry mexican women keep yelling at me ur friend is nice riggt? im not asking id hes mexican what i get it she wants to know if my friend is nice okA so he isbbice shes jn trouble grt her out od here shes stayinf in my universe yes i am i love you yws she is ok so ur gknna do that agaun alreadt i have just said rhat i invented desarae renee
hollins and u jusr dismiss that by saying that u want her to diebagainM sges my new wide wnd j love her i love you too thwy are so daft yes rhey are where are we? my sriveway where is the bridfeM what bridgezm the one bt mi hihse are we nkrbgere abtmkew? im gettinf cibysed agjb whar the duxj desaew rhis js bktba bkjee djdvhbrskebhs ohrbdbamssb yesbybssid jxojbnobibdsbd see wnroe orbebeb ralk sitop toald ibwant hbto texplajn tibebettb that we have one davjb stoooee talkjnf vedusebubare movinf toobdas we love ewxhbirger sbdthebdjdbdbnomoresexosnsbnowelovespecuamdeneb ihysr xsnsndn sobfuxjubjdkeehoimfknnajjllu
#sorry daddy#no its not her fault#yes it is but i love her she moves too fast#we go home soon right? what u are home we never moced out idbthjs mangs i fucked it up myself#sorry baby we will live together still right? yes daddy ily ulmmilytoi stayvput mangawriterwegontomorriwnidintpostgus#shes gonna stop loving me soon yes i was already blind and deaf still attrsmammmtho#imnsorrtukiedtohbsbtbhtuwikkportetxtu#we must go on together agaummmmicanseeoutofhemmureyesnotiwish#im sorry i love u tho
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