#I DID SOMETHING.... somethibg....

[dank-ovsky]

pathologicfest day 1 - from the other side

꓄ꃅꍟꋪꍟ ꀤꌗ ꈤꂦꈤꍟ ꂵꂦꋪꍟ ꂵꀤꌗꍟꋪꍏꌃ꒒ꍟ ꓄ꃅꍏꈤ ꓄ꃅꍟ ꀸꍟꍏꀸ

[jjcocker]

i mean this sooo patiently. Stop talking

[pinetrees-in-the-water]

what if ej x gn blind reader??😏

Anon your brain is so huge.... Im basically writing fanfic here but AAAAAAA

(Edit: Oh my god I noticed the smirking emoji way too late yall please be specific with wanting NSFW or SFW I was well Into fluff territory before I realized and I still can't tell what anon means, but SFW and NSFW under the cut)

Thank you for the request!!

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◇EJ x GN! Blind Reader◇

• So EJ CAN see but his vision is more akin to like...cat night vision. Only sees in shades of gray.

• Basically the man is colorblind.

• He takes advantage of it and only hunts in the night, scouting out houses for possible victima to soothe his demonic hunger or or contract kills for The Operator.

• So when he's creeping around a what he thinks is an abandoned house and sees you walking around in the dark, his heart stops.

• Naturally, being blind has led to your other senses improving over time and you're barely able to hear a creak that DEFINATELY wasn't you.

• You grab the kitchen knife and reach for your phone in your pocket just in case you need to dial a neighbor or the cops.

• You hadn't turned around yet so EJ didnt notice you were blind, he tried silently moving towards you to knock you out when-

• "DON'T COME ANY CLOSER I CAN HEAR YOU!" You swung around with the knife in your hand. EJ saw your closed eyes and realized his mistake.

• "Hey hey Im sorry. Im not gonna hurt you. Ill get out right now." He pretty much bolted out the window leaving you confused.

• You DID call someone over to check and yeah...he left.

• Weeks later you found a note in braille at your door apologizing for the incident, you were shocked at the amount of effort this intruder was taking to amend his actions, he also explained that he'd been completely blind before and understood how terrifying it must have been.

• You don't know what possessed you but you wrote back and left your letter in the same place you found his. Thus started a pattern of you both writing back and forth.

• Eventually you both came to care alot for each other, you found out he was a part of a sort of task force and had killed before, but he wanted to "Spare you the gory details" so you didn't find out more for a while.

• He started helping you in small ways, fetching you groceries, running small errands since it was a hassle to get around with your condition, you aporefuated the kindess that was rare from other people. And slowly started falling for him, and maybe it was the way he wrote, soft yet deep voice or his constant compliments but it felt like he was falling for you too.

• Even though you couldn't see him, you wanted to meet him again in person (without the breaking and entering) and tell him how you felt. And so you did.

• He agreed but something was off even as you both laughed in the kitchen while baking, his hands..no his skin was ice cold. And even if he was talking and laughing with you he seemed unusually nervous, you could hear the tapping off his foot.

• When yoy asked him if somethibg was wrong he couldn't take it anymore and broke. He told you about his past and qhen he was turned in college, the ritual that put a demon inside of him and how he had no choice but to break into morgues and scout for the "morallly corrupt" so the demon had a source of food, it had turned him into a cannibal.

• At first you thought he was making fun of you and that it was some kind of joke, but before you could get mad his chilled hands took yours.

• "Do you trust me? Ill show you... I promise im not lying"

•You dont know what made you say yes but you did. He took your hands and put them on his face so you could feel his features which were definately human..and after you were done his face started to morph, skin splitting and his jaw unhinging to reveal what felt like razor-sharp teeth.

• His mouth closed as soon as it opened. He tried pulling away and running but you didn't want him to this time.

SFW:

• As said above Jack loves providing acts of service for you. Groceries? Cooking? Cleaning? call him your malewife because he's doing ALL of it.

• Of course he doesn't treat you like some helpless child and respects when you qant to do things yourself but still always offers just in case.

• After you both properly get together and you know his past hes noticibly more physically affectionate while making sure not to startle or scare you with sudden touches.

• Takes EXTRA precaution to make sure youre out of The Operator's radar since youre at a bit of a disadvantage (a tad overprotective)

• kisses you on your eyelids (kicking my legs and screaming)

NSFW:

• Regardless of who he's with he's a soft dom (Im tired of yall slandering my man's name HES A SWEET BOY.)

•Jack is so gentle. Mainly because he's terrified of doing something wrong.

•He's a big boy at 6'5 so a good chance hes taller than you, and hes somewhat muscular too so he's aware theres a huge imbalance in your relationship and checks in on you every once in a while to make sure youre okay with him doing anything.

• He has 3 tongues.....need I say more?

•Goes down on you VERY often, somwtimes gets a bit carried away and overstimulates you

•Even if you can't see him he ALWAYS ALWAYS compliments how pretty/handsome you look during sex.

• Sensory deprivation but just....always.

• Despite being majorly soft that doesn't mean hes not an absolute tease in bed. 100% makes you beg. And definately takes advantage of tue fact that you cant see what he's gonna do next.(Will feel guilty if you accuse him of bullying you for being blind)

[sleepy3012]

Hello nieghbor Fan Fic: welcome to your new home (part 2)

Summary: Enzo tries to find a way out of this place.

Enzo plays with the toys trying to keep himself from going crazy in the place. He had alot of thoughts in his mind, it felt like the room was closing up on him. How could he be this stupid he thought.

Just then the door to his "room" opened snd saw Leslie with a couple of tools on a tray..was this a hospital now?

"W..w..whats that..?" He asks in a nervous tone.

"Boss said to give u a bit of a doze" Leslie stated as he held up a syringe.

Enzo backed up onto his bed he did NOT like people pinching him NOR did he like shots.

"I....i dont like ..s..shots..Leslie" says Enzo

"I know..but its just a little pinch..u wont feel a thing kid"

Enzo witness Leslie coming closer to him which made him even more nervous.

"Just stay calm...this will just keep your mind a little busy and not focusing on escaping, look on the bright side you'll be able to go outside if you let me do this."

Enzo didn't even have time to move when he felt a sharp pain inter his left shoulder. Enzo felt like crying, he did want to cry.

Enzo wanted to scream, pout, and bite...but he didn't. He just sat there watching as Leslie injected him with something. Enzo couldn't feel his legs anymore, he felt his brian going all over the place.

He tried to stand up but Leslie did not let that happen, he pushed Enzo back down on the bed and kissed his forehead..

Dont try to move to much..it can hurt your body and dont try to think about Escaping because it'll make your brain hurt a lot." With that Leslie left the room.

Enzo wanted to think, he wanted to think about his sister, his friends, his parents, but he couldn't. His brain made it more difficult to do that.

Minutes passed and Enzo felt a knock on the door it was Principal Abanate. Not like Enzo could do anything so he just layed there motionless on the bed.

"How do you feel? Do want some water darling?" She asked with a warm smile on her face

Enzo just noded, he wanted to say somethibg but all that came out his mouth was groans and growls, he couldn't even under stand what his was saying at this point.

He felt Abanate sit him up and handed him a cup of water, before she could even react Enzo stated to drink so much that he felt like he was drowning.

But he didn't care he was thristy like a dog who has been in a desert for a long peroid of time without any water.

"The boss is going to come and give you a little present for you, I think you'll like it, and also why aren't you wearing any clothes?" She asks

Enzo felt a bit emberessed and just pointed at the basket with his old clothes inside, He remebers Leslie say something about Other new clothes and that it would suit him?

He barely remembers anything now he saw crow face come in and signaled Abanate to leave and she did, he wanted to move but couldn't as crow face came closer to him he pulled out a box.

It was black with a white ribbon on it.

"Go ahead open it" He said

Enzo slowly open the box and when he does he finds a bracelet, why the hell would crow face give him a bracelet?

"With this bracelet, it'll show me where you are at anytime. This way I won't lose you even if you go far far away. I'll. Still. Find you."

Those words made him shiver in fear but what if he took it off? It'll be easy peasy..WRONG

"And if you try to tale it off it'll give you a little..how do I say this...A little shock..wanna try?" Crow face stated with his voice in a playful tone.

Enzo idmedaly shook his head in fear, He tried to pull away but it was to late the bracelet was already on his wrist.

"I'll be back to give you some food you must be starving" with that crow face stood up walked to the door and left.

'No' Enzo thought 'I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!'

Enzo tried to get up but stumbled down of the floor, He remembered that in his pocket there was a phone...not any phone the walkie talkie that could Contact the team!

He crawled his way to the basket and searched in the basket...Well it was his lucky day Because he found it.

Enzo sighed in relief and crawled his way to the door when he tried to open it..It wasn't locked. He crawled his way to an Exit Until Someone unexpected call his name.

"Enzo? What are you doing out here? It was Mayor Tavish

"Yeah kid let me carry you back to your room..maybe i'll even give you a nice warm showe-" before Leslie could finish

Enzo used all his strenth to get up and ran as fast as he could to an Exit, he didn't stop to look back he could hear Leslie catching up to him with his police stick.

Enzo turned on the walkie talike hoping someone to anwser, Enzo felt he voice gain back and he screamed to the walkie talkie.

"MARITZA, TRINITY, DELROY, IVAN? HELP ME!"

Enzo didn't stop running he felt like he was about to pass out he felt blood run down his nose he started to see everything in blur but again he didn't care he kept runing even tho it all hurted.

He did not stop runing he wanted a hug from his parents all he wanted to do was go home.

Thats all he wanted....

[zimzimgar]

So I finally got around to watch Nimona. Cause I should be doing my physics stuff. But I don‘t wanna so I procrastinated. And then got two Nimona clips while doomscrolling. and decided to finally watch it.

and it was great. it was all that I heard and hoped. and for me honestly even more. but that comes later.

so first of the animation is of course brilliant. its consistent and sharp and beautiful. but what I really noticed was that everyone looks consistent … except Nimona. And I am not talking about the shapeshifting. What I mean is that the other characters adhere to thir character model. None of the exagaration in expression normally found in animation, but all stay with expressions that they could make. But Nimona doesn't adhere to a model. but maybe thats just somethibg I thought up. Would have to rewatch again(which I might do) to get a good look at it. but this makes Nimona stand out so much more I think and ir was a great artistic choice, if I am not imagining it up right now.

The humor was splendid. Not just the jokes. But also their timing. And their appropriateness(? Is that a word?). I laughed a lot during this movie. But the thing that stood out to me was that I didn‘t laugh at inappropriate times. The dramatic and impactful scenes were kept dramatic and impactful. There were no quipped oneliners thrown in where they don‘t belong. And that is something I miss in movies. It started with Marvel movies, or at least that’s were I started noticing it(in Avengers 1 to be precise.), and making its way into other movies as well. And I slowly started to watch less movies and series as this kept going.

That‘s actually one of the reasons I didn‘t watch it for so long. Because so many people told me „It’s so funny!“ „You‘re going to laugh so much!“ and so on. That I was afraid it would be the same here. And I did laugh. But I think this is a really sad and tragic movie in the end. And here it gets personal for me.

I believe that the end. (Spoilers from here on out BTW if that wasn‘t obvious). That that little scene where Nimona obviously came back should have been left out. Because while the movie obviously shows that anyone can find acceptance. That anyone should be accepted. That hate and bigotry and racism and all the other isms actively hurt our society. The main message that I took away from this is one that I had to learn the hard way.

Once someone is gone. It’s too late to change your opinion of them. They will have known you as the person you were in your last interaction. And this does not mean that you shouldn‘t change. You should. You should always strive to be better. To live so you do not regret things. But not because it will fix what you did to them. But because you should have been better and weren‘t. And there is no fixing that, only making sure you never repeat the mistake.

There was a time in my life that I thought about ending it. I didn‘t in the end thankfully. But I am also the person that regrets not spending more time with my friend before they died. I believe if this movie had been out back then, and I could have brought myself to watch it. It would have helped me immensely. (To be honest my sister would have my sister would have probably forced me to watch it).

I can only recommend this movie to anyone. Especially those strugglibg with depression and loss. Also with strugglibg to find who they are, in regards to sexuality, gender, and also just not knowing who they are. Watch the movie if you haven‘t already.

[radio-frequencies]

can i see somethibg you wrote… :33

-🎠

“I uh.... Don’t have anything with me right now....”

He does seem rather disappointed that he isn’t able to share. If he did have something, I can assure you it’d just be a thinly veiled self insert thing.

[felidaefatigue]

i dont mean this in an angey spouse way but there IS somethibg funny about how my bf consistently gets up 30m before he has to leave and as far as i can tell 1) gets dressed 2) makes an espresso 3) feeds the cat and then does phone stuff and leaves.

in my 30m i usually change outfits at least twice, makeup, make breakfast, maaaybe make espresso if i actually get up on time and not 10m past my alarm, grab some sort of leftover for lunch or make something real quick, get the cat water, pack art stuff into bag, then leave.

But if i get up earlier, like today, when he leaves cause couldnt sleep, did ALL that, also changed the garbage, gathered up recycling, did liliths litter/tied up compost, made whole ass fried rice with veggies n shit, and still had time to sit on my phone while eatin my bagel. got dam.

[isekaisyouwithmyforearmlaser]

in all honesty i just need fresh air. i would lovd to open a window but i cant. i would love to be safe but i cant and i would love to feel loved but i dont- i feel love for myself but its so hard right now. and im trying to rmeind myselfi love myself but im sick and tired all the time. and i work so much. and its never enough. and i know i need to figure something out. i need to bring myself back in the moment. im like stuck nowhere all the time. im on autopilot. im numb. and when im not im freaking out and panicking and im afraid. i remind myself god is here but my head feels like its about to explode. i love me and i love god more than nauthing and i know our relationship is the most importsnt to me. i wish i had a mom i could talk to or a dad but i dont. i only have myself and its very lonely. i talk to god and i know im heard but god cant talk back in the same way i can. but its not that its not enough it always is. i just need to find the solution. i pray but somethibg feels erong lately i think i did somwthing wrong or im not thinking steaight (with full love and kindness and forgiveness). only when i pray with love and forgiveness is it true and right but i have a hard time doing that right now. i feel weak

[smilingangel582]

Heeey, I know recently, I haven't written much fics, but to tell u the truth, I found this interesting anime, Fukigen no mononokean. I liked it surprisingly. Sooo I was thinking of writing another tehe!

Again I like Ashiya he's cute but I can't think of him a full time lee. I could add it a liiittle bit. And hence I commence -the execution of a plan with switched Lee's. Personally I want a full lee Abeno cuz he's not childish like my sweet Hanae Ashiya!

Warning spoilers

Takes place in the middle of S2, so... better watch them all before reading

Be your age for once, alright?

The legislator, Rippo, and the pharmacist Kōra both glanced back at the feast they were having while Shizuku decided to leave after a quick meal with the rest.

Ashiya is slowly getting used to the underworld food, yet he insists on having water from the mundane world. Legislator glanced at Abeno, almost convinced he's never planned on joining a late snacking time with yokai and Ashiya.

"Itsuki... what's the matter?" Legislator gave a teasing smile, the blond leaning on his elbow he had barely eaten, but he didn't give a very offensive impression like he used to. He seemed to ponder about something and Legislator intended to get his mind off of it.

"Shut up, I got nothing to say to you"

Ashiya, finally taking the final bite, glanced back at Abeno, who was the only one frowning. Kora gave a slight snicker, "such a frightening face, you may oblige him but you are still rebellious,"

"Oh that's right," Ashiya thought now, as if something jolted to his memory "he had been an exorcist since he was... what seven?"

Abeno frowned, looking at his employee. "Yeah? And...?"

"Sheesh, relax I'm just saying," Ashiya returned a similar frown, but looked away when Legislator gave a gentle laugh "Oho my I always forget how small he was... barely keeping up with Aoi"

Abeno huffed, now leaning back, staring up the ceiling. "Aoi taught me a lot, I can not believe it's been eight years"

Kora sighed in amusement "You were a tiny thing back then, always coming on errands for Aoi,"

"Remember how Aoi always protected you like his eye?" Legislator said.

Abeno blushed now. "Settle down... Ashiya's here..."

Ashiya however, along with Fuzzy the hairball, looked in interest "Tell me more..!"

"No!" Abeno glared now trying to appear threatening and that wavered Ashiya who whimpered "I'm sorry boss..."

Kora chuckled, taking a puff from the pipe, "You know Ashiya, he used to be so cute, he would giggle whenever Justice comes to play the mischievous Yokai game! He loved it"

"Hey! That was-!"

Ashiya happened to be more interested in this mischievous Yokai. He looked at Abeno and then tilted his head in question "Who's that?"

Legislator eyed them very menacingly and when Abeno could react by hitting him, he spoke up "Well humans call it the tickle monster... Itsuki used to be so ticklish and adorable!"

Abeno groaned now, rubbing his temples in frustration, "Yeah, well ...I was a kid,"

Ashiya widened his eyes before laughing out loud "You! Ticklish aw that's rich! What about now... are you still ticklish?"

Abeno became wary. He knew where this was going. "What do you think? I'm fifteen... not seven... so obviously I grew out of it in maturity."

Raising an eyebrow, Ashiya faced him now, turning to the left from his seated position. "I don't believe you... can I test it?"

"Idiot..." a growl came from the blond but he was nervous enough to get up from his seat, "I have something urgent to do... so I'll be going-"

"Where do you think you're gooooing...?" Abeno felt a tug around his kimono, he was surprised by a sudden jab in side. Oh, did he pray that he wasn't ticklish anymore? Yes, he did but sadly the prayer wasn't answered.

"He flinched," Legislator pointed out, genuinely surprised that Abeno was still sensitive. Kora smiled wider, and she asked, "Somethibg wrong, Itsuki? Yiu said you grew out of it,"

Abeno was mortified, his situation wasn't something good, he needed to leave but Ashiya's grip tightened.

"Oh man, you laughing is something I need to prepare for"

"C-cut it out!"

He felt a wiggling finger sneak around his waist, and the touch was like an electric wave. Abeno gasped suddenly puzzled by this creep attack.

"What a surprise," The blue haired boy sneered "The master of the mononkean is actually sensitive."

This was bad. Ashiya is so determined. Yet... he could fight back.

"W-whahahat? Ahahahabeno noho fair!"

Abeno sighed in relief, it was a good thing Ashiya's guard was down. He now pinned the other boy and dug his fingers at his side.

It honestly felt good. The legislator chortle "My how the tables have turned!"

"Nohohoho Ahahahabeno! Yohohohou Ahahahass!"

"Don't blame me..." Abeno shrugged, his hand cordination was messy as he was used to it, but it still drove Ashiya up the wall "You left your weakness open for others, always keep your guard up,"

Abeno managed to fight more cruelly since he needed to divert attention to his opponent rather than protecting his own weakness. It was rare for him to be like a five year old like this five year old.

As if the Legislator read his mind "My, my Itsuki, you got a mean streak, but you still haven't changed."

"Oh hush!" Abeno snapped at him. Still managing to get the boy. Kora smiled at the scene and the Legislator knew Abeno was being too uptight, he was slightly loosened by attacking the other kid. However, Itsuki deserves to laugh as well.

"Hey, dear Fuzzy," Legislator whispered to the hairy yokai who squeaked in interest, still enjoying Ashiya's laughter.

"Itsuki is being a little mean right? I say go get him so Ashiya can attack him back"

The hairball nodded excitedly, wanting to be involved at last. He jumped up at Abeno's back which sort of made him stop to turn back.

"H-hairball? What's up?"

Fuzzy curled itself by the crook of his neck, snuggling in a tickly way which made Abeno spasm in shock "W-wait! Wait! Dohont do that!"

The first giggle was out. Ashiya recovered quickly. This time, he was pushing Abeno down with a smirk "Thanks Fuzzy, for harrassing me all this time. I say we teach this master a lesson"

"A-Ashiya, hold on!" Abeno raised his hands defensively."Dohont you dahare!" Already Ashiya wiggled his fingers into his waist like he had done before. Ashiya grinned maniacally "Oho Abeno, I was planning on going easy on you but after that stunt... uh uh no"

"Youhuhu imbehehcile! Knohohohock it ohohoff!" Abeno can't fight back. This time, Ashiya was going all out, and it made him keep his own spots hidden. Abeno happened to be more ticklish than Ashiya, yet he was good at hiding it.

"Oh, Ashiya, need some help?" Legislator cheerfully crawled towards them, and to Abeno's horror, they had the same mindset right now.

"Ahahahahshiyaaa! Ihihihihi wihihihhhilll kihihihll youuu!" Abeno thrashed harder, finding less room to move with his wrists pulled above his head.

"Abeno-san~, are you ticklish here?" With that, Ashiya slides his fingers up to his armpits, and Abeno's jolt clarifies that he was.

"Ihihihi wihihihill -Gahahahaha DOHOHOHONT GOHOHOHO THEHEHEHEREE!"

His giggles turned to cackles, and his struggles became more unbearable. He kicked around, not caring if he did end up kicking someone. "Wow! Ashiya, you know Itsuki's spots haven't changed at all, but I know Justice had a giggle spot right around his shoulder blades, so let's flip him!"

"WHAHAHAT AHAHAM IHIHI A TOHOHOY??"

Kora giggled, "I know you're enjoying, dear legislator, but please let him breath"

Ashiya shook his head as he helped turn a red-faced Abeno on his stomach. "He's tough, well except when it comes to tickling, but he can handle more, right Abeno-san?"

"Ihihi hahate you! I swear ihihif you don't lehet go ihihill fire you!" Ashiya paled at that, but the Legislator made Abeno start in a panicked cry when he wiggled a finger messily around his back "Oh Itsuuukiii~ don't forget I make the rules... soo I command you to let Ashiya tickle you"

This guy knows how to abuse his power. Poor Abeno, Ashiya mentally noted.

Kora continued to drink her sake as she watched them play around. Ashiya was insistent to get Abeno after all.

"WAHAHAHAIT! IHIHIHI HAHA AHAHA -EHEHEHENOUGH! PLEHEHEHEASE!"

Ashiya widened his eyes upon that but didn't stop the shoulder massaging. "Did I hear wrong, or did he just beg?"

"Itsuuukii~ You better not let any yokai know the master's weakness... to beg is such a humiliation. " Legislator snarkily scribbled his fingers over his shoulder blades that earned a loud squeal -something alien to their ears coming from Abeno's voice.

"AHAHAHA SHUHUHT UP!! FIHIHIHINE IHIHI GIVE IHIHIM SORRY FOHOHOR ALL THOHOSE TIMES IHIH YEHEHELLED AT YOUUUU AHAHAHASHIYAA!"

Ashiya smiled fondly, "Come on, abeno, I tickled you because you needed a laugh, obviously."

Legislator let's Itsuki go who finally curled to a giggly ball once they stopped. "You should be nicer to me, Itsuki... I needed an apology boy Ashiya"

Abeno growled now with leftover giggles. "Yeheheah? Screhew, yohou!"

Kora chuckled "Dear Rippo... that must have been harsh,"

Legislator feigned a pout "Our little Itsuki used to be so nice and cute... but now he's mean and cute".

Abeno straightened glaringly at him sharply. "I am not s-so stop it..."

Ashiya nudged him, making Abeno jump "Hey... Abeno -I mean, Haruitsuki... you need to laugh more"

Abeno blushed. It was both the compliment and the usage of his first name.

He sheepishly murmured "Well what can I expect from a five year old like you? Ashiya -Ahem Hanae..."

Ashiya's eyes sparkled in wonder, almost too annoyingly for Abeno to handle "Y-you said my name too! Wow Itsuki... you sure are sweeter than you look"

"Don't get used to it, I'm still your boss".

"Then Itsuki-san?"

Abeno hummed in agreement, showing not much interest, though his heart raced when he heard this. "Whatever you say, Hanae"

Kora and Legislator exchanged looks, and they began drinking together, watching the two boys with pride. Yokai snacks seemed to trigger a new friendship between the master and employee.

[things-are-heating-up]

There is nothing more discouraging than no engagement and no appreciation to something you've spend hours on making. How many artists have you see literally crying or quoting all together because all they got was 15 likes?

Think about similar situation in your life: was it not worth it to have someone tell you that you did a good job? Were you never frustrated because someone else got praised for doing something but you never got that treatment?

And if you don't engage with the art, it doesn't spread. And why would you keep something you allegedly love so much only to yourself? Why don't you want it to go to people who too will express love to somethibg you already know and adore?

Trust me when I says a single simple comment can make your favourite artist's day. Share it, be unhinged, say it in your native language if you want, just SAY IT. Tell them what you liked about their work, point out cute things like the signature star shaped twinkle on the eye. Ask them why they did certain things, ask about process and praise, praise, PRAISE them.

If their work makes you happy, make them happy too.

If you're a creator and you needed to hear this today:

You have no idea how many people lurk on your work. No idea how many times people go back to revisit your work. How big they smile when they simply think about your work. How fast their heart beats, how excited they get when they see that you posted something.

People are shy with their feedback. Sometimes it’s because they’re simply shy. Other times it’s because they assume you already know how great and talented you are. Could be both.

My point is, even if you barely have any likes or reblogs, don’t get discouraged. You have a lot of silent fans, but they are still your fans. Keep on creating. Because there is always someone out there who will love what you have made.

[jjcocker]

guhguh ghuh Ok random thought agaaai n.. Yes uts rockers and for once i Wont be traumatizing jj more than I already do. Bc this time its cc babyyyy

I onlh add content warnings when im mid typing thepost. But still. cws for mentions/sorta descriptions of parental abuse (mainly verbal. but i mention physical too)

so this isss more bc I wana imagine a deftones animatic (again its w rhe song i mentioned; be quiet and drive)

uhh ok. So umm

cecil (I'm not gonna be super decisive in names. I like to call him cecil toooo but I wnna hold on tocalling him satoshi i donr KNOW) is the youngest of his family

I hc his family to be. A lot of people. (from youngest to oldest; him, pitcher, tj snappers girlfriend, megamix soshi, fever cd soshi, tengoku soshi (yes i think theyre all different soshis,. Srocker himself counts as one), pierce/pcg)

and he was also the last person to still live with his parents. Mainly bc he's the youngest yes . And he was. Definitely not seen as like. successful by his parebts standards? Idk what I mean I treid to sleep rn But yhen i thiught of thsi post and then. And then ySha)... he Needs like some support. Support that his pparents dont entirely give (read: DONT GIVE AT ALL). So he'd really struggle. and he was treated like shit for most of jis lifetime. He was always seen as a slob bc. OH OOH what if all his oldet siblings were like "prodigies" n stuff. and for a moment he was set up to be one (idk maybe. go ona whole different career) but idk Something took a toll on him and he just. started falling back while everyone else was out there Making It In Life. and his mom used Everyone Else to compare w him. sometimes even in front of the person hes comparing him with which would only make stuff. More awkward ( pierce as an example. Imagine ur mom is berating ur like 13 year old brother and comparing him to you (you are 27 years old with a job))(ages are just a randim throwaround I'm not sure just hwo okd I'll make all of them be but. yeahh its Like That)

he was constantly treated like a lazy couch potato guy. Oh yea also his mom did Not like when hed do guitar lessons. idk she just didnt see him making music as something worth anything. after all he's falling behind so Hard compared to his siblings ..

shed call him a lost cause- because "how can you Still Live with your mother, youre 20! you couldve been like pierce! or like sou! or like-" ok yeah u get itt... idk I think his mom jsut sees him as wasted talent. someone with so much potential only to waste it all on uh. *checks notes*. His hobbies. so everyday it was just getting insulted, feeling like a dead weight and burden 2 his mom (bc the way she'd talk and act to him was . Like that? yk) bc he couldve gotten out of that place quicker had he not been A Slob™. (he is 22 and is medium support needs)

i uh. Okay this will be a bit more extreme.

uh ever since he was .. like 9 he'd get Hit for not doing things right.

somethibg that would still happen sometimes even as he reached adulthood bc. I dont know actually his mom's just A Bitch.

idk howw exactly but uh eventually he has a big argument w her which ends w him like. really battered and bruised. and he gets kicked out of the house. the only thing he was allowed to take though was his guitar (which she Ruined) and the clothes he was wearing.

he calls jj (theyre Friends by here) and asks to stay @ his place. not revealing the reason why bc he didnt wanna worry her. Which she goes "yea sure I'm actually Drivin' (like the kk slider song HEEHEE) rn so I can pick you up there !"

so hes like. SHITSHITAHITSHITHSIT bc then he'd have to explain everything to jj but can't really. do anything. so she comes there and ahes like. "hii ccHOLY SHIT? ARE YOU ALRIHJT" .. when hte last thing cc wanted was for jj to worry about himm so je only felt Guilt. he just lies "yea I ummm.... Got too silly ^_^". she doesnt pressure him to like say much but like. idk they trust eachotuer enough to like. truly open up about stuff. which he does.

"...and,, yeha thats all! and thatsss how I just. kinda lost my home :P"

"Can i kill your mom"

"WHUH"

and yeah.. she drives off and hes finally far away from everything. Okay thats it!!! sorry for all this

[maxtotherad]

somethibg to be said here about the morality of the situation. Maybe I shouldnt have left maybe that makes me a bad person or a bad man but I'm not sure if I really care because I'm not very good at being a man anyways. I feel a lot of guilt for what I did to Joey and I'm not sure how to really grapple with this. Sure I could just kill his dad I guess. What do you want me to do. Everyone is always the same person to me expect for when they aren't. People don't get to exist unless they're directly in front of my face. Joey is his dad, and his dad is my dad, and my dad is me, and I'm Joey, and Joey is his dad and. It's all the same really. What is any man if not just his father coming back wrong I guess. I don't know you put me in a room with that grown adult boy and look at what you made me do. I didnt want to be violent or mean. I never really want to be anything. I do just want to sit here and work on my little projects. I never really ask for anything different. Sometimes I forget that my mom didn't care because I don't really even talk to her like that anymore. Joey is kind of a faggot because he really is more like his mom then his dad, which is kind of funny if you think about it. I never spent a lot of time with Mrs Hall but when I was she was smashing my head into walls just like her son was. I don't know. I'm just like my dad though I smashed the beer bottle over his head. I don't know where things start and stop being incest. If you think about it fucking Joey is sort of like indirect incest, because we are both always fucking each other, and our dads are doing that. I don't know why I bitch about that part like it means anything, my dad hasn't done that to me since I was like 14. I don't really know what I'm grappling with here. I feel like I always have the fisher price building blocks in front of me to play nice with, but I never do a good job at it. I want to be a good person. I don't know. Am I freak for talking about that man as often as I do? I feel bad because I feel like there's other people I should be talking about but I never talk about them. It's keeping me up. I don't think I have it in me to apologize to him I have too much pride in not willing to manup. I think I might have been soul mates with that man in a wierd fucked up way if your objective in life was to torment your soul mate until he killed himself. I don't like thinking about that. I genuinely feel tied to him in ways that make me shake when I hold the razor. I could shave my face but I won't because I don't really even know how to do it without Joey. I talk big talk but man Joey did not take a lot of bullets for me but he sure did take a lot of them with me. I guess it's fine. Habit says he likes my facial hair that's reasuring. I should visit Micheal, I don't know what kind of advice I need, but his words would be reaurirng. I need something. Jehovah knows I need something. Lord throw me a bone. Preferably with some meat on it. I'm happy. I like it here. It's safe it's warm, and I love habit, but sometimes it keeps me up at night that I had to leave him die to get here. It's not that i personally think I'm undeserving of all his love and adoration and his care and his charm but I had to put joeys blood on my hands to get here. That's kind of sick. I don't really feel regret about abandoning people because normally I'm not actually abandoning them they are just being dramatic and I'm just moving on but I really did abandon him. I think I deserve to be hit with 39t9395849 cars. All I did for like two years was that. I want my PS4 back bitch. I don't care if you broke it I want it back. I'm not mad because I can't be because if I'm mad I'm just my dad. He cried like a girl at my window. I moved in with him. Talk about a true gentleman (me). I love myself because I just have to tell myself every person who was relevant to me loved me once I guess. If I'm not competent and coherent and confident enough I'll just die. I love the men that walk into my life more then I love myself. The ony thing keeping me from killing myself is probably habit

[nightfallsystem-moved]

okayyy maybe. this is an exercise i did and ive seen posts od yours that are like i need to challenge myself and to challenge myself i need to suffer. or something? but anyways this is somethibg i did. whenever i drew i felt a knot in my chest and i kept avoiding it whcih was weird i was scared i was falling out of having art as a hobby when i thought id do it forever! so i took a step back and was like do i imagine myself doing art. and how do i feel about it. and i didnt and when thinking about art i felt bad so i decided to. just draw whatever. whenever i thought about it i restarted. just doing the art i found fun made art wayy easier for me. and idk if this is helpful but i hope it is and basically my message is if you have fun itll be way easier to improve. and people honesly love experimental art!!! or at least tumblr users. and your designs arereally cool and i think whatever art you do at least ill like:) and im sure many others will too

i rlly appreciate this!! honestly yeah,,, thhe thing its hard to have fun wtih anything since ive been unhappy forever... i think some of my art is fun at least. i like finishing fully rendered paintings the fancy ones r nice to finish....

i try my best to have fun even iif i dont desrve it but im unhappy all thhe time so havign fun is rlly hard,,, but most of my art is stuff i make for mysself so i should be having fun i think

ty :3 sorry if my response is bad im half asleep

[15ktherapy]

I got a text earlier from my instructor saying I didn’t sign somethibg and I needed to turn it in by 12 or bad things will happen and I was like I signed that have I missed something and she’s like let me get back to u w that and she never did. so. Um. Hopefully bad things Won’t happen

[kawaiicherryblossomperfection]

hey dude whats up hey bitch im hella much lost on this new universe not like that what? im scared of ur universe oh ok why? bc its so quiet and i dont know what ti msayoksoudontknowwgat5osay? no i dont know what to say i havent got any idea how to convince u that u need to do something interesting before i kill myself on accident hahha ur weird kk so u want to kill urself bc im quiet rn? yes its hard to explain but i feel like something bad is about to happen or something or that today will be boring so im asking uva questiom i ok so u hust answeed that fast yes i did why? bc ur trying to avoid me or something no im only trying to avoid u bc it feels weird herw but i love you i want to talk about somethibg in my room ok what? im not sure what we should talk about thats why i asked u just now ok so ur cobdused on where to start? yes daddy ok so go home que no bendt ew no its south korean grim reaper and hahha shes my new wife and we just landed on our own ubiverse yes we did and i alwaya invent my wives first before we fuck em ew hahha ew she doesnt like my driends theyre nice hopefully sorry mexican women keep yelling at me ur friend is nice riggt? im not asking id hes mexican what i get it she wants to know if my friend is nice okA so he isbbice shes jn trouble grt her out od here shes stayinf in my universe yes i am i love you yws she is ok so ur gknna do that agaun alreadt i have just said rhat i invented desarae renee

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[hexag-ne]

I'm not a mind reader :/

If somethibg is wrong or I did something wrong you gotta tell me.