#I CAN'T FIND IT AND IT PAINS ME
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I just remembered that there was actual art of Aki even interacting with the human Black Rose aND I CAN'T FIND IT
OH. OH. OH.
CROSS DUELS. CROSS DUELS. CROSS DUELS. IT DROPPED. IT MADE. IT DID.
BLAXK ROSE DRAGON AND STARDUST DEAGON???? THEY HAVE OFFICIAL HUMAN DESIGNS???
OH. OhHhhh I'm so mentally ill they are firlfriends. THEY ARW GIRLFRIN3D.S they have to be girlfriends they have to be they are girlfri3nds they are holding hands the dragons... the dragons are kissing the dragons ar wbebavdbabdbandbbabdnandb !!!!!!!!!!
(I am sane)
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Consider this: ghosts are actually exactly what the Fentons think they are.
They're snapshots of a longing so strong, unfinished business so deep it reaches out beyond life. Lingers just a bit longer. And if it happens to meet a dense cloud of ectoplasm (invisible to the naked eye, but omnipresent even in the mortal realm), it coalesces. The ectoplasm fits into the shape of it. Which, when the desire is strong enough, it's got a rough idea of its self-image. This tends to mean a more humanoid figure, though it's more often warped in some way–a self-reflection, skewed by said desire. The warping varies on the dead soul’s perception of themselves, the intensity of their desire, how much time passed after death, and how much ectoplasm was present.
In short… no matter how “normal" a ghost looks or acts, it really, truly isn't human. It's animated ectoplasm with a single goal: an obsession. Nothing else. They're more akin to plants than animals, following a single drive with no emotion. They react to stimuli, recognize threats (including other ghosts), and can even imitate human speech and mannerisms to obtain fulfillment of their obsession.
Not “evil" by any stretch, but they're entirely driven by instinct. A tree doesn't pause to consider the rocks it breaks with its roots. A cordyceps doesn't torture its host for fun, or kill with malice. It just does. It follows code in its DNA to survive and multiply–And ghosts just follow the code in its ectoplasm to fulfill its obsession. The more powerful a ghost, the better it's able to overcome obstacles preventing this–whether through brute force, or manipulation. This power is always directly proportional to the amount of ectoplasm present at the time of formation, and how much time passed since death.
What then, does this mean for Danny? Danny, who's previously come to the conclusion that he's only half-ghost, which surely explains how he retained his mind? His independent thoughts and emotions?
What does this mean for Phantom, who experienced an entire world’s worth of ectoplasm condensed as a singularity, at the exact time of his death? Whose strength only grows and begins to exceed every limit they previously thought possible?
If a ghost was as strong as him… could it mimic a human perfectly? Down to a molecular level?
Could it, in its desire to fill an obsession… trick its own fake mind into thinking it was still human? Or half-ghost?
#Danny Phantom#zilly squeaks#it's the greyed out morality for me dude#on one hand it shows how dangerous ghosts are. how you can't reason with them. how they aren't *people*#and yet. you can still find ways to work with them. there's reason to show them mercy when possible#even if it's not really 'pain' it still cries out and bleeds when struck#i just love this kind of angle where there's a solid reason to find co-existence but also like#knowing full well these creatures are more or less. potentially deadly trees. do u feel me#when does sentience bloom from code?#what caused our ancestors to become sapient?#Danny getting Real Fucked Up about possibly being a full ghost who's just really good at pretending to be human#when really... does it even matter?#(for double the pain: add headcanon that ghosts feed off of human life for additional power)
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dandelion casually dropping traumatic information while insisting that instead of killing the problem wizard they simply burn his tongue
#dungeons and dragons#dnd#dnd character#dnd oc#dnd art#dandelion treehollow#warlock#drow#all he does is talk... and talk... and talk#they did not actually burn the wizard's tongue it's cool#instead dande used his disguise magic to look like a sexy vampire and promised the vampire larper wizard the dark gift if he behaved#love when dande gets to put on a show because he says wild shit like i hate when people beg for their lives it makes me want to act out#dande had a wild episode#start of the episode: gets to pretend to be a sexy domineering vampire#end of episode: screaming and sobbing in pain after the curse-bomb in his head went off because he broke one of the curse-rules#where he can't sneak away from the party because the last time he did that be betrayed them big time#it's complicated... and delicious#also right before that the paladin was telling him he needs to find god LOL because he's worried about dande's soul#and dande blew him off saying he has plenty of time he's not gonna die (again)#only to then be convinced he's being killed by the curse in his head......#embarrassing.................
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Pain reminds us that we are alive or something I guess
#kell maresh#or more like Kay I guess in this one#adsom#the fragile threads of power#tftop spoilers#his whole magic and pain ordeal is driving me nuts someone get a cure for this boy's problem I can't watch him suffer anymore#<- my personal thoughts but also said by Lila at some point probably#I am only halfway through tftop btw so if they do find a solution for it please don't tell me fhskdgkshd#a darker shade of magic#shades of magic#v e schwab#art#shrews art#rkgk#I really rushed this one but I'm still happy with it so that's a win I guess <3#on an unrelated note how are you guys?#I wanna draw Tes next
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sleep well
#this piece has been sitting in my wips for over half a year and i thought i might finish it for giggles#i can't even find the old reference anymore so if anybody could help me i would appreciate that?? i'll look anyway#this was a pain in the ass tho#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk fanart#gojo#gojo satoru#jjk gojo#kenjaku#jjk kenjaku#geto#geto suguru#jjk geto#tagging them both for good measure#gojoken#??? kinda#satosugu#stsg#??? also kinda#phon.art#eyestrain#tw eyestrain
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3.09 || 4.11 Will you ask me again one day, please, Ned Nickerson? You better believe it, George Fan.
#Nancy Drew#Nancy drew cw#Ndcw#Nancydrewedit#George Fan#Ned Nickerson#Fanson#V watches Nancy Drew#V posts things#Rewatching S3 has put me in the sweetest pain#They will get back together someday I fully believe it#They'll grow and figure out who they are and someday find themselves in a place where Nick will ask her again#You can't tell me they won't 😭
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You know, I've seen these discussions about people who have made themselves disabled (though not necessarily on purpose), and it's something I resonate with, and think is so nuanced that it's a discussion worth having in-depth
See, I feel like sometimes people think of "making yourself disabled" as a completely able-bodied person who - through their decisions, either accidental or wreckless - will just... make themselves disabled, and I actually think that's less common. I know for myself, my changing disabilities have been spurred on because I was already disabled. I use myself as an example of a broader point - that is, I think often the ways people think of this topic are somewhat narrow.
There's a special kind of guilt you feel (at least, in my experience) wherein you know your suffering has resulted from your decisions, yet simultaneously knowing that you weren't given a proper chance to start off on a fair playing field. And yet no matter what you feel about this, the pain still hurts just as badly. It still hurts even if you don't blame yourself at all
#disability#i'm not sure if this makes complete sense#but i find that it's hard to engage in this disability conversation even though it's partially mine to have because of preconceived notions#preconceived notions as to what led you to Making Yourself Disabled#i write this as i'm in the normal-to-me amount of Great Pain. it hurts even if i don't feel Unbearable Guilt#i think this is why i just... can't bring myself to have ideas to separate the Good ones from the Bad ones#what led me to further disability was the fact that i was disabled to begin with and was trying to SURVIVE. not thrive: SURVIVE#and that's another mind fuck: knowing that if you didn't do whatever it was you might not even be alive
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Fakiru Week, Day 4: Glare
I think i made it more of a gaze, really? Isn't glare like a bad look? I'm not sure. My second language English is showing XD Anyway, Ballgown AU brainworms
#my art stuff#princess tutu#ahiru#fakir#fakiru#fakiru week#fakiru week 2023#You guys have *no idea* how much it pains me to draw Fakir handsome#wet rat wet rat wet rat wet ra...#I do remember he has face scars in this au but I can't for the life of me remember or find why or how they look#and sorry for the worse quality of the pic I'm currently having some csp troubles#ballgown au
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Thinking thoughts about Nancy Wheeler again. About how she was the most Teenage Girl ever, gossiping with her bestie while twirling her phone cord around her fingers and kicking her legs in the air. About how she lost everything that embodied her Teenage Girl self in one night: her virginity, her best friend, her carefree smiles and giggles. How she turned into a soldier, got consumed by guilt, and could never return to the youth that she lost.
#when will i ever be normal about her huh#thinking about her s1 high ponytail and her eyeroll to her brother at the breakfast table#and about the grimace on her face when she's in hell facing a monster pulling the trigger of a sawed-off shotgun#i don't even know to explain what i mean by that but#natalia dyer made us Understand for sure#she was never meant to become that way she was just a girlie#and yet here she is#hardened and wise and in so much pain all the time#if someone has better words to explain this please do bc i can't find them#don't mind me rambling about stranger things#nancy wheeler#natalia dyer#stranger things
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Yeah Venom of the Red Lotus showed us how crazy powerful Korra is but The Last Stand had Korra transform the destructive power of a massive bomb blast into something regenerative in the culmination of one of the best character arcs I've ever seen. In my OPINION!!
#SORRY ok i'll stop.#lies. i have more to say. she is so brave and so selfless!!!#and mako sacrificing himself to destroy the weapon's energy source was really powerful too#AND of course. the korrasami of it all.#ok one more thing. it seems like the most common interpretation of korra's conversation w/tenzin in the last stand#is 'suffering makes you a better person' and people rightfully get pissed off about that#but i just....fundamentally disagree with that reading. i saw it as korra choosing to find meaning in her pain#and choosing to find wisdom in it. and i think that's really fucking powerful and why korra's arc resonates so deeply with so many people.#like. the suffering happened. she can't go back in time and undo it. and she didn't deserve it!!#but the only way to move forward was to accept that it happened and let it empower her rather than drown her.#i mean there are things i've been through that i wish hadn't happened#but the idea that those things don't necessarily have to mean i've changed for the worse#that i can choose to find A Point to it all and grow from it and use the pain rather than the pain using me#is actually really empowering.#tlok
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THE BEHEADED VRCHAT AVATAR IS NOW COMPLETE AND AVAILABLE ON ALL PLATFORMS!
now features a friend! :)
link is in the replies!
#dead cells#vrchat#serenade is less dynamic on the quest version but it is still there!! just follows at a fixed position; can't be held; & has no text or sfx#also please let me know if i need to use a different method to share avatars because i have no idea if the vrc website works :'D#i literally cannot find anyone talking about it at all whatsoever even though it looks to be functional so i am. very confused about it#my trust rank isn't high enough to upload worlds publicly so idk what my options are exactly :')#(also i forgot to add a sfx toggle whoops. i'll do an update for that later but i wanna actually get this posted)#edit: just realized serenade's materials are BROKEN THE OUTLINES ARE GONE AUGH#that will also be fixed when i do the aforementioned update lol#pain and misery etc (i actually love doing this but things go wrong So Much lmao)#edit 2: updated with sound toggle and fixed outlines woo!
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I read i think one of the most emotionally devastating fics of my life last night, and I'm still thinking about it...Seriously...what was the Author on..? Yeah i'm talking about YELLOW for Aokise and i honestly can't remember the last time a fanfiction has left me THIS emotionally devastated.. :'D
I've realized that theres ALOT lf hidden gems in the community, especially for Aokise but simply because the fandom was active a long time ago, it'll be hard for me to find them. But from a little bit of my investigation, KnB was really huge on Tumblr back in the day. So if some Aokise fan's still around, could i get some fic recs for them? As you can tell, i really like angst.. :')
#painful#this was so hard to read i really can't emphasize on this enough#aokise#aomine x kise#knb#kuroko no basket#aomine daiki#kise ryouta#like especially the way the author explored the themes of grieving and just.....i will die i think I'll just die from the sadness#i already felt like i wanted to run away and this just exasperated that feeling a whole lot more#luckily I'm finally going home today again so maybe i wont have to feel like this for too long#but who am i kidding I'll just find another fic to continue hurting my feelings#this is me we're talking about yknow how i like my ships
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Is there a canonical reason why Sol was dripped out in the middle of the Holy War during his greasy trash man era?
Do you think Kliff gave him an allowance and one day and he went into town then came back Riot branded head to toe? Do you think Riot sponsored the Holy War?
I like to imagine Kliff put him in charge of the month’s funds for food and Sol spent it all on his designed Riot Holy Order Uniform. Then Kliff said “Haha Sol you have spent all of our money we will now starve” and then it was a really awkward month that made Sol decide to leave the Order
Post-Begin to post-Crusades Sol basically doesn't have any lore so you can just say whatever and it has just as high odds of maybe being true some day tbh lol
Sol was a bounty hunter before joining the Holy Order though. Probably he rolled up with fat stacks of cash, they showed him the uniform and he was like "fuck OFF I only wear red," and then had his boys over at Riot make him a custom tailored Holy Order uniform with its stupid fingerless-not-fingerless gloves with steel fingernails with RIOT stamped on them
but then Sol didn't have any money left over and ate all the Holy Order's food and Kliff said they will now starve anyway
#asks#I can't find the picture with the nails that say RIOT on them but trust me... it's out there#I will admit that I didn't look very hard because I'm tired and kind of very stoned and don't want to plug my hard drive in#take my word for it. Citation: Daisuke told me#drugs cw#actually someone bug me tomorrow and I can find it when I'm not stoned. It's not on junkyarddogmkii yet#There are so many gg images I haven't posted here yet but a lot of them are crusty and need cleaning up and uurghhhhhh#Making composites is a PAIN IN THE ASSssss it's so tedious#I need to get the HOS images on here though... If I don't post HOS no one will....#Ok I need to go to bed now enjoy that tangent
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notebookcast.com was an experience and a half
#bandit's doodles#grian#mumbo jumbo#waffle duo#the whole time I was drawing this I was thinking about having a little grian plush#And now I want to learn to sew#i used to know but I stopped doing it a minute ago#So uh#look out for waffle duo plushes???#idk man I might not follow through but also they would be so cute :(#anyways the website was a pain#i almost just gave up on it to go find another one#But I'm dedicated#I pushed through#You can't zoom in#Theres like 8 colors#It was laggy but that was probably just me in hindsight#thats why the doodles look rushed#i wanted to get outta there ASAP#also the eraser was huge#I couldn't figure out how to change it's size like I could the pencil#Another 4.5/10#Only bangers round these parts#trust
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Here's part two of drawing my family pictures as the Bad Batch because I can and you can't stop me
#i can tell you right now that drawing their armor was a fucking pain in the ass#and the l e g s jesus fucking christ#why do i have to care about anatomy#don't ask where crosshair and wrecker's legs are btw i wouldn't know#fun fact the original picture is from our summer vacation to Italy back in 2018#tech is me in this picture actually real and true#another fun fact#omega's eyebrows were blonde until the very last minute because i felt like they looked kinda odd#and she does actually have dark eyebrows in the show so--#i don't know if they look any better now but ehh good enough#hunter looks so wrong for some reason but i can't fix him i'm sorry#also yes they're all in their blacks because a) i couldn't be bothered to draw all the armor again and b) they deserve the comfort#i might do proper shadings if i find the motivation for this but until then this is what you're getting#the bad batch#bad batch#tbb#the bad batch fanart#bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#hunter#omega#crosshair#wrecker#echo#tech#the clone wars#star wars#star wars fanart#art#my art
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I think i should grace all of with another charms i did, this time it's galex edition ✨
As always version without doodles under the cut and all details in the tags bc i physically cannot not put thoughts into what i do
#george russell#alex albon#firstly - i gigled from height difference so much#also I'll start with Alex#it was kinda hard to match all of different Williams blue plus whatever blue i associate with him#hopefully i did good in that department#also love white paited with blue bead on the end bc it's clearly hand painted(i bought a bunch of different from the same place and it very#love white bead on the ends with blue painted on it(it's hand painted from what i can see and i think it's very alex vibe)#also pink safety pin#i was dying to use it#and paw with blue beans it was literally the charm that gave me idea in a first place#now i want to say abt matching heart beads bc when i saw them galex was literally my first thought#now going to George firstly i want to talk abt how particular his blue is#it's killing me bc it's pain in the ass to match#also doodle of merc symbol on black bead???oh I'm so proud of that one#and bead i used for his eyes bc it have a lot of colours in it and really similar to whatever reference i could find???i love it so much#it's so fun to use#also that big star i already had on a piece of vire but had nowhere to use#and it fit ls here so ideal i think it's destiny#also last part that i love abt George one is that i had space to play with metal#you can see that there is both black metal and silver looking one#I used them both bc they fit merc very much and I'm always happy to mix them a bit but it doesn't always work#i think it's all for today thanks for reading!!!#williams racing#why I can't find tag for mercedes f1 team#anyway#galex
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