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Mel is the textbook example of how black female characters are treated in fandom. This is not to say that there are not people who love her or appreciate her character in all of its facets.
I'm just scratching my head at some of the takes on her character that feels, to me, like a gross misrepresentation of who she is and how she is presented in the show.
It is true that she is a politician. It is true that she knows how to navigate social situations. She was raised by Ambessa! She knows the tricks of the game better than anyone! But then I see people calling her manipulative? And then feel vindicated by Jayce screaming at her (unnecessarily so, btw bc that scene was SO crazy) that she was manipulative (when by the way, we all agree Jayce was not in his right state of mind at the time and then apologized afterwards because he realized he crashed out on her for no reason). When she... never has been manipulative?
So if someone sees your potential, and wants to see it flourish, is that manipulative?
Jayce LITERALLY wanted her to take a chance on his and viktor's project. It was MUTUALL BENEFICIAL for Mel to help Jayce posit himself in a position of power that would get him better access to the resources he needed to get where he wanted to go.
That's not manipulation. That's investment.
Mel is a complex, black female character. It is not to say she is perfect. She's not. She has her flaws but one of those flaws is NOT manipulation and I cast a side eye at people who think Ambessa is a great, well-written character and then think Mel is not. I have to. Because Ambessa is written to be aggressive, and cold, and strong, and tough--even her design emulates this rough edge. And I HAVE to think, why do I see people write essays on how bad Mel is but not Ambessa? Is it because Ambessa carries character traits that are more palatable to a non-black audience?? Character traits that more align with people's subconscious associations with blackness?
ANYWAYS.... I'M YAPPING. I could go on about how Mel is soft, and kind, and strong, and her character arc is about finding out who she is not as a child of Ambessa or an exiled daughter, but who is MEL MEDARDA, and what do you do with this newfound discovery. What do you do in the wake of grieving your mother who died by your hand?
I could go on. But I am so tired of seeing posts dogging Mel and taking scenes out of context and if Mel was a MAN.... I don't think she'd get half this flack. And if Mel was a WHITE MAN......... LMAOOOOO.
Anyways I love Mel she's pookie.
#mel arcane#mel medarda#I MADE NO SENSE... I KNOW... BUT THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS#I AM THINKING MANY#I THINK MEL DESERVES THE WORLD AND IM TIRED OF PPL READING HER CHARA WRONG#IT'S A DISSERVICE TO HER CHARACTER#I WANT BLACK WOMEN TO BE SEEN AND APPRECIATED IN MEDIA#BUT OMG SOME OF YA'LL HATE MEL FOR ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
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Hey now, Let her cook!
#dungeon meshi#chilchuck tims#senshi#laios touden#marcille donato#izutsumi#oyasumi punpun#<- In case you are wondering what the source for the little bird guy is.#Yeah that's right. I'm back to my extremely obscure crossover BS.#Punpun is one of those series that falls under the category of 'Good! but I cannot responsibly recommend this to anyone."#If Dungeon Meshi is like a friend asking you to go on a quick errand and you accidently go on a life changing roadtrip -#Punpun is your friend asking to go on a quick errand and they pull up to the vet and tell you your dog is being put down.#Then they explode into sludge. Melting your car. You hitchhike back but the person who picked you up is an axe murderer.#I could not finish it. My friends who did say it was good. But agree it was for the best I did not finish it.#Hey speaking of tone twists...We are one episode away from one of my favourite chapters being animated!#WHO'S READY FOR THE SENSHI BACKSTORY! WHO IS READY TO CRY!#ME! I AM! I spooked my flatmate with how energetic I was this morning. I'm vibrating with energy I was not designed to contain.#I should talk about today's episode here: It was very good. I love how they animated the familiars.#And!!! Anime only people now are in the loop on the Chilchuck lore. Part 1 of many. He still contains multitudes.#They all do to be honest! If this episode told us anything it was that we still don't know these characters as well as we think!#See you guys next week. I'll be inconsolable.
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subject, specimen, spectacle;
should i say that you're dead?
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#gojo satoru#jjk gojo#jjk satoru#satoru gojo#gojo#bugs/#insects/#eye horror/#every time i post gojo art i feel scummy using like . the slew of tags this mf has#im like wow u look desperate gdfjkdjkg#listen ok im not a gojomain idk where people look fr content#anyway for not a gojomain i sure do have a lot of artistic breakthroughs whenever i draw him#first th eyedoves then lmhs gojo then gojo in the (club) bathroom by himself now this#loathe as i am to admit it i Love how much there is to pick apart of him in art theres so much theres so many angles u cld take#personally my favourite gojo angle in art (tm) is the Cryptically Unsettling Not Sane Not Human what can i say#keep ur thirst trap gojoart i like this guy unblinking and twitchy#on that note here he is pinned down as god intended#i ATE w this concept i fear fgfgsd i wanted a like. pallid formaldehyde dissection table under examination motif#and i was torn between using snakes or bugs to convey it and im SO SOOSOSOO happy i picked the bugs#ive used butterflies a lot they arent anything unfamiliar but truly i felt a chakra unlock when i thought of gojo+butterfly pinning#the burning light the eye the composition i rly think this is some of my best work#also also th poem was smth i came across when i was brainstorming captions and i ws like. gagged @ how well it fit gojo i had to include it#im not a poetry buff so my opinion is very uneducated but i think it was rly haunting and sad and beautiful#fit my target vibe so i took it slapped it on gojo w bugs said thank you verymuch smile :)
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Day 44- GERUDO TOWN
Bug Zapper 9000 worked too well. Not only did we get the terrifying normal corpses, we accidentally found its brood mother that can summon localized sandstorms to protect its underlings.
At least it got chased away by Riju’s lightning. Big win.
This totk au is called familiar familiar! It all started when zelda didnt fall back in time and devolved into wild violence
((Wanna support me? Check out my patreon, with my throw away sketches and references! Remember to use web or android folks, apple charges 30 percent tax.))
#nightmare nightmare nightmare#i am never drawin this many frames every again why do i do this to myself#loz#critdraws#art#botw#zelda#link#familiar familiar au#lonks diary#tears of the kingdom#breath of the wild#riju#chief riju#totk riju#totk zelda#totk link#bularia#gerudo#gerudo town#queen gibdo#gibdo#loz au#tloz#the legend of zelda#gerudo desert#loz comic#the gibdo queen carries a locomotized sand storm to protect it from the sun#its a tad evil me thinks#long post
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catalysts, protectors
#man those episodes#so many things put into perspective#like Simon’s role as a protector and his kindness and empathy and compassion and existence being the catalyst for the rest of ooo to#flourish#and Betty is a protector of Simon#I wonder if the last two episodes will explore more of her character? there’s so much to be explored about her giving so much of herself#to Simon but not thinking about what she wants for herself#do we get to explore her feelings or see her at all? will she have changed or learned to let go#I think there will be some sort of closure for the both of them#but at what cost#I am still crying over that scene with Simon’s memory of Betty and their song#my art#fionna and cake#fionna and cake spoilers#simon petrikov#betty grof#petrigrof#golbetty
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some grief Paulings
#i wanted to expand upon Pauling's identity and struggles after the final comic#i wished they showed her struggling but am ok with what we had!!#sloowwwwly trying to finish so many art i have#im trying!!!! ill post them!!! hopefully#you can think of this art as her having cramps also im not judging#tf2#team fortress two#team fortress 2#miss pauling#myart
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trapped in amber
#illustration#digital art#original art#artists on tumblr#character art#marcia#marciaillust#marcia continuing her mission to shit colour maximalist style#i am really enjoying making this garret centric series of paintings#and its been fun seeing the reaction of people to the previous one! many kind words and some people even included their interpretation#of what it means about the characters#i remember one was very sweet... very much the opposite of what I meant to say with the picture but you know what#a knee jerk reaction to interpret things with love at the helm - what a glass-half-full kinda worldview. what a wonderful trait#as an author is talking about the meaning allowed or is it giving the game away#i think i should stay dead. even if i create these with a very specific message at the core#all i can do is create the artefact and try to align and point its elements in a specific direction but what the audience does with it#is outside of my control. to try and control the perception of an artwork speaks to its weakness in its ability to communicate#not to mention the insecurity of the author#i think art is the relationship created between the artefact and the audience member. whatever shape it takes#and to try and forcefully mould it is sacrilege frankly#even if (arthur clenching fist dot jpg) even if sometimes some people are misguided.#orion lavont#garret#tcm#oc#the clockmaster#GOLDEN CALF!!!!! BEHOLD AND OBSSES!! OBSERVE AND POSSES!!!!!! HOLY AND WITHOUT A SOUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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#my posts#robophilia#objectum#machinekin#robotkin#mechanophilia#robot fucker#techum#ultrakill#yes i am tagging this as ultrakill what about it#this is a post made by gabriel probably#this is also about harley sawyer#securityangel#many others i could probably tag this about but i think these two will do#also holy mackeral this post was barely up for a day when it got 100 notes#im glad it found the right audience LOL#dca fandom#fnaf daycare attendant#500 NOTES?? this is insane /pos#1000. ONE. THOUSAND. where did you all come from#glad its a hit lol#suggestive
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I'm really hoping that after book 7 they release all the overblots as cards. Also if this is the year of Riddle I think they might release the equestrian club finally and I can see him in the new years event since cater and Trey have done It. Which club r u most excited for? I can't wait to see them all.
at this point I, too, cannot wait for my sweet HORSE BOOOOOOOYS
...although I'm also VERY curious as to how 1) they're going to wrangle a super special club uniform out of the board game club, and 2) how they're going to force Idia into wearing it. will there be dice pockets? I hope there are dice pockets.
#art#twisted wonderland#i don't THINK this is spoilers but lemme know if it needs tagging#we really don't have many clubs left at this point! i think it's just equestrian + film + board games?#and honestly i am excited for all of them. i love ~acteur~ vil and i very much want to see baby ~acteur~ ortho#there was that one throwaway bit in 7-11 though that made me really really want the horse boys#i am susceptible to any and all diasomnia content but ESPECIALLY silver and sebek being huge goobers#sebek astride a majestic magenta pony: we're gonna win the heck out of this dressage competition tempest shadow#(<- this is officially my Horse Boy™ sebek tag now)#(that's too overly self-indulgent and unfunny? ah you must be new to egophiliac dot tumblr dot com)
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quick megumi style study
#my art#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#fushiguro megumi#jjk fanart#megumi fushiguro#i LOVE trying to 1:1 art styles it's such a fun challenge#and it appeals to me bc i love deception and lying for sport and trying 2 mold all aspects of myself in2 something else#trying to draw like gege felt like trying 2 forge someone's signature and trying 2 draw like the anime felt like going against all instinct#theres NO midtones in the anime shading i was like. is this it. surely this cant b All the shadows i am allowed#cell shading without blended areas feels so wrong 2 me#and the shape of his hair.....he looks so silly......why does he look like that.....#i was fighting the urge to 'fix' it w every bone in my body#rly opened my eyes to just how many favours i do him in my art style#i will happily bear the burden of being megumi's hairbrush good god he needs it#it's not so egregious in gege's style bc it's all so blocky and angular everywhere + the b/w balances out w negative space#w trying 2 replicate gege's style i think my main challenge was finding a good brush dupe to mimic his crosshatching#my current render style is all over the place tbh im not even sure i'm super happy with my own which is kinda embarrassing#i think im in an in between phase that's neither smooth nor rough so i try to lean in2 the messiness to make it look intentional#instead of confused#but overall i think i did rly well in that i like these all ok and i had fun smile :)#maybe ill do th other first years
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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not#“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
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The Dellamortes
#Rook being denied her stupid ass pointy Tevinter mage shoes made her almost leave him at the alter#something something rook you know nothing about fashion leave this to the antivans#but also she would’ve had 0 interest in planning it I know her ass showed up to her own wedding like a modern groom does#just shows up 0 input#the wedding portrait is FINALLYYYY here#when I tell u I redesigned rooks dress 1000 times#I was fighting with making it Tevinter styled because she’s a Mercar rook but then I was like no no she’s marrying into a crow family those#mf’s would GLUE feathers to her if they could#also do love the idea of them both being like do we have to wear white I don’t think anyone is thinkin the god killers r pure pious virgins#of course you have to wear white I SAID SO DAMNIT#dragon age veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#dragon age#rookanis#lucanis x rook#rook#lucanis dragon age#rook mercar#rook dragon age#I was tryna keep it ‘humble’ cause chantry but also the antivans….. do not do humble#also I wonder if Rook Mercar saw a woman leading the chant and was like w hat the fuck#cause imperial chantry#also the idea that illario was at the wedding??? I know my rook was PISSSED#also so funny to think lucanis was desperate to leave his own wedding because p arty ugh#I know this is so much yapping but I just have so many feelings about their wedding lol#Vivienne Rook Mercar#well Vivienne Rook DELLAMORTE NOW BOYS AM I RIGHT HAHAHA#I just know lucanis would’ve heard the chantry mother say ‘do you Vivienne take this man’ and he would’ve been like#who the fuck is Vivienne#my art
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8/20/1911 tornado near Antlers, ND
#by e.s. karlan i got it from tornado_outbreak2#fuckin wow#i can’t believe i have not seen this picture it’s so good#like so so good#one of my favorites i’ve ever seen i think#oh my gawd how many beautiful old tornado photos am i missing#severe weather#tornadoes#tornado#north dakota
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XII - The Hanged Man, Upright: surrender, sacrifice, faith, perspective
#hsr aventurine#Penacony#2.1 spoilers#honkai star rail#fanart#everyone's new favorite sad boy#i am no exception#i haven't had the fanart bug this bad since Zhongli#what is it with hoyoverse and creating men perfectly tailored to my tastes??#i can't#i had no plans on drawing him or his intricately complex outfit#but then i had a thought#on how well this card fit him#and then i was doomed...#tarot cards#tarot#the hanged man#(no he's not dead. i really dont get why so many people think he's dead)#my art
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Once in a while my brain gets overwhelmed and I just can't keep up with any social interactions, can't properly make words and feel nothing over everything. You just have to close everything and close inside your head to relax. Surprisingly, after 1-2 days you end up being full of love to the world, you still can't properly do anything but you are exploding from the love to the world and people Then I come here, and I get reminded yet again why I love creation and people who make wonders out of their minds Apocalyptic ponyo mermaid Jazz by Keferon, because apparently relief in freedom is what keeps people above
#Ahah I think I will need more days I feel like my brain will burn out the moment I try to get my emotions out in words#pretty stupid XDD#But quickly scrolled down arts and concepts and ideas#I want to sleep inside everything#maccadam#transformers#merformers#apocalyptic ponyo#jazz#prowl#jazzprowl#cockroachdoodles#Man I am the worst social example no matter how I want to ahah#I saw crazy kids and how big Shockwave is#I saw so many fics already feels like a pillows getting stuffed before I jump on it
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“I hate the script, the vault dwellers sound so cheesy—“ my Brother in Steel you realize that’s the point, right? They were bred to act like the physical embodiment of an HR e-mail. Did you not catch the memo that Vault-Tec put out regarding their experiment facilities?
#fallout#fallout tv show#fallout tv series#they were raised to respect the Golden Rule they’re a bunch of fucking kindergartners#theyre MEANT TO BE CRINGE#plus if you keep watching you’ll SEE WHY THEY DO THAT#don’t quit in the first episode when you have so many more to explore wtf is wrong with them!!! it’s a good show!!!#sometimes I think people like to hate things just to hate them and I understand. truly. i am a certified hater too#but don't dog something that has reasoning!! you're meant to cringe! and you'll see why!!!#GIVE IT TIME IT WILL MAKE SENSE I PROMISE#fallout spoilers
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