#I AM DECREPIT

[fortunatefires]

They crave that mineral, god damn it.

[glitterdustcyclops]

so im making a playlist of all the cringe emo/pop punk songs i was obsessed with in middle school and was forced to confront the fact that these songs came out almost 20 years ago now and i had to sit down for a moment to cope with that

[couthbbg]

– Chen Chen // x . x . x . x . x . x . x

[daily-pat]

Like?? Sure I guess.

[blackbatcass]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY ILY FOREVER🎉🎉

[lunarharp]

random stuff,,,

[present-mom-blog]

Bsd 118 spoilers under the cut!

It's just something about Atsushi losing hope. Everyone who he has met one by one is gone now, don't you see? Nearly in the order he's met with and worked with them.

Dazai? Mersault before this entire rodeo happened.

Kunikida? Gooped.

Tanizaki? Gooped.

Kenji? Gooped.

And now–

At Atsushi's lowest, where he can't even hallucinate someone either helping him or guiding him or even berating him! No one is there beside him! No one! He has no one and no one is there for him and–

And Dostoevsky appears.

He appears, destruction in his shadow, showcasing just who he is and his motives.

He tries to extend a hand to Atsushi, tries to tell him that he is here to help and that he is here to SAVE Atsushi.

How interesting. Atsushi is at his lowest. Atsushi is at his mental weakest. Atsushi's mind can't even summon someone to berate him for his weakness or guide him to fight. And Dostoevsky is here, trying so very hard to be someone that Atsushi could cling to in this time.

But we all know it will never work.

Maybe if Dostovetsky had gotten Atsushi first. Maybe if he had interacted with the boy first, maybe if he had drawn Atsushi in first. It could have worked then.

But it won't work now.

Because Atsushi knows Dostovetsky is the one behind this destruction of his world. The deaths of his family. Dostovetsky is behind it all, Atsushi knows that.

And to Atsushi?

That's the greatest sin that Dostovetsky could have committed.

[chiropteracupola]

harper and his horrible fucked-up cat of a commanding officer

[lofthousezzz]

sometimes i have the capacity to be funny

[loquaciousquark]

Just got my card for Hurt/Comfort Bingo from @sweetspicybingo! Info & signups are here!

Hilariously (sadly?), I think the oneshot I just sent @jadesabre301 to beta could qualify for about six of these. No bingo yet, but...closer than I'd like, lmao.

[osseincactus]

It’s my birthday!

[comet-frog]

this bookmark does not want to be here!!!

[esmeshardwoodfloors]

me calling Esme a milf when she's 5 years younger than I am 💀

[minothtime]

You don't GET IT mythra was reawakened against her will to a world she no longer knew and had to watch as every single person she once knew was either dead, experimented on, or chaned irrevocably!! She ended up creating bonds only for them to almost be snapped away once she got captured!! She had to watch mikhail and jin die and brighid and aegeon have no memory of her at all!! she saw a decrepit minoth having lived an entire 500 years still immortalizing her and addam as well as he knew !!!! she kept seeing glimmers of hope only for them to be crushed again and again!!!! mikhail is somehow still alive but he hates her and can't even properly talk to her !!!! she had to see the consequences of her creating pyra multiple times !!! she thinks lora died because she wasn't there !!! she thinks haze was preyed on by amalthus because she wasn't there !!!!! gramps and her are the only characters to not be horrified at jin's mercy kill at temperantia !!!! mythra suffered from intense trauma not long after awakening and she hasn't processed any of it and she's still seeing everything she sought to forget !!!! SHE WAS FORCED OUT !!! VANDHAM STILL DIED BEFORE AND SHE COULD HAVE MAYBE AVOIDED IT BUT SHE WAS NOT READY TO FACE THE WORLD AGAIN!!!!! SHE NEEDED TIME SHE DIDN'T HAVE SHE KEPT RETREATING BECAUSE SHE WASN'T READY SHE KEPT PEEKING OUT BECAUSE SHE STILL CRAVED INTERPERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS AND THE COMFORT SHE NEVER GOT !!!!! RRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

[seraphsfire]

i thought kpop boys meowed a lot of their own accord but then i met this guy

[itstimeforstarwars]

It's so funny how time catches up to you. I was rereading a fic I wrote in 2019 that goes "he was already 25, and running out of time to be young and brilliant" and like. Lmao. Lol even.