#Hopkins days

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Shattered

Book: Open Heart (pre series- Hopkins years)

Characters: Ethan Ramsey, Tobias Carrick, F!OC Estelle Campion

Warnings: Language,

Rating: Mature end of PG

Category: Angst

Word count: 1524

summary: the fallout from Estelle and Tobias sleeping together and the impact it has on everyone.

Disclaimer: Characters (except Estelle) belong to Pixelberry

Authors note: Again, like with Instant regret, some of the dialogue will be lifted straight from part of my Medical school series. Enjoy the angst

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Ethan made the walk to Estelle’s apartment. It was one that he had made quite a few times but never had it been done with such raw emotion. The closer he got the more angrier he got. Angry at himself for not going after her when she stormed out last night but anger towards her. He knew that by the time he left, she would be under no illusion as to where they stood, it should have saddened him but all he felt was anger. He took a deep breath, knocking on the door for the final time. She answered, she did not looked surprised to see him.

Is it true?”

Estelle knew what he was talking about. She thought about denying it but Tobias had already spoken to her and she knew that they must’ve spoken.

“Yes and, you said you had not imagined a future for us, how I was I supposed to interpret that?”

“Just because I haven’t seen it, does not mean that I thought it impossible.”

“Well you could have said that Ethan!”

“How? you stormed out before I had the chance to say and fucked Tobias.”

“Yes we had sex, but we were over.”

“Well to me we were not..”

“Were?…”

“We are over now.”

Ethan walks off and Estelle follows.

“Wait Ethan, can we discuss this?”

“What is there to discuss? Both of you betrayed a trust you know full well was difficult for me to give. We were together barely six months. Why do you think I was in a position to think big future thoughts given my issues?”

“But I love…”

“Don’t, just fucking don’t say that. if you fucking meant it, you would not have fucked Tobias last night. We are over Estelle.”

He storms off and Estelle starts to cry. The realization that it was all over started to sink in.

Despite knowing Tobias was home. He went back to their apartment. He was relieved to not find him there when he came home. A part of him wanted to have it out with him but he also needed sleep himself. Try as he might sleep did not come so he went into the kitchen and made a coffee and went back to his room to study. Between study and final exams both men found it very easy to avoid each other. Tobias could see how hurt his actions had caused Ethan but whenever he approached him he went in the opposite direction. It was summer vacation and it was not a pleasant one. Things were that tense in the apartment that Ethan went home to Providence for a few weeks. He did not overly enjoy the holiday but it was good to see his dad again and he was reminded again about the importance of communication. His dad had a point but he did question how he could trust Tobias again.

Tobias at this time decided to head to Philadelphia to visit his mum for a few days. Beth was happy to see him but became anxious when she saw how upset Tobias was. Tobias told the whole story and a part of her was disappointed in her son but she could see how badly the guilt was eating him and she hoped they could reconcile.

Meanwhile, back in Baltimore Estelle came to a realisation. She wanted Ethan back and she was going to do whatever she needed to do to do so. She knew she fucked up but she did not care. All she knew is that she still loved him and wanted to give them another shot.

Ethan returned to the apartment. Tobias was home to greet him.

“Are you ever going to forgive me?”

Ethan took a deep breath.

“I know technically You were lied too, but that does not negate the fact that you slept with my ex…”

“I would not have if I had known the truth!” Exclaimed Tobias

“That is beside the point, you stated to me that you find her attractive, how can I trust that you will not do so again, with her or any other girl.”

“And I also said I could see she only had eyes for you. If I wanted to pursue her seriously I would have gone for her then!”

“I hope we can get past this Tobias, I really want to…”

“So do I, buddy.”

Tobias was genuine in his desire for reconciliation but Ethan was still not sure. What had happened was a large betrayal of trust and he was not sure if it could be repaired.

The new year started. The men were in their third year and still did tutoring and research projects. This made it hard to avoid each other but to a degree Estelle. This was especially difficult for Ethan as Estelle was working on similar projects with him. He knew he had to speak to her for work related things only but it became quickly apparent that Estelle had other ideas. Estelle was determined to get Ethan back but he was not having a bar of it. It all came to ahead one night when Ethan was at home. There was a knock at the door and since he knew Tobias was due to come and collect his keys he assumed it was him so he called out that the door was open. To his astonishment, it was Estelle and not Tobias. Estelle made her move and it was swiftly rebuffed. Estelle was mortified and was even more shocked when Ethan more than stood his ground in firmly stating that he did not want her and told her to get out. She did and walked past Tobias. Tobias went to the apartment to grab his keys and was told by Ethan he could have her. Tobias was shocked. Yes he had slept with her, majorly violating the bro code in the process but the one thing he had been resolute on was to repair the friendship with Ethan. Tobias bid Ethan farewell and went out. The next few weeks were frustrating as they were uneventful. Try as he might to repair the friendship between himself and Ethan, Ethan kept putting up a wall. The wall did not seem to bother Ethan, at least on the surface, deep down he was hurting and he was seeing that Tobias was repentant and not wanting Estelle but the betrayal hurt and he was not sure that he could or even if he should try to trust him again. End of the year, they were still one and two, Estelle was gone, neither bothered to follow up on where and despite the drama they decided, mainly out of convenience to stay where they were.

With Estelle gone and another summer spent mostly apart, Tobias hoped that they could focus on repairing their friendship but it was not to be. Missing out on a summer study hurt but when Tobias continued to be overlooked he could not help but be curious about Ethan being behind it. Resentment kept growing and Ethan’s assurances that he was not behind Tobias missing out grew less and less convincing. This drove an obsessive streak in Tobias to topple Ethan at all costs. Just when Tobias was getting the upper hand, Ethan would find ways to thwart him. Then came residency interviews. Tobias was pleasantly surprised he was getting the chance at some of his preferred hospitals given the lukewarm recommendations from his professors and a part of him was annoyed that he did not hear from Edenbrook, he knew that was Ethan’s dream and a part of him wanted to get it just to spite him, until one day an opportunity presented itself. He had just returned home from a rather fractious tutorial when the checked the machine. It was a message for Ethan from Edenbrook. He knew he should not have but he hit delete and it was not accidental. He knew it was the final nail but at that stage he did not care.

Two days later the final nail was hammered in the coffin that was their friendship. This is when Ethan received a call from Edenbrook on his mobile. He was furious and was even more so when he confronted Tobias about it. There were still a few months left of school. Classes and finals flew by but outside of that time seemed to drag. Ethan got the coveted residency at Edenbrook and Tobias got Kenmore. Graduation came and went and Tobias was number two in his class. It was at that moment that the real regret at what he did that night and since fully set in. He knew that they should have been celebrating together but his foolishness and arrogance got in the way. He knew at the beginning he put all that he could into reconciling but it was not to be and this saddened him immensely.

Both men spent the summer before residency in their respective hometowns and both found somewhere separate to live. Both were looking forward to embarking on their careers but Tobias wished that they were to do so together.

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Authors note: well that is the end of my little Tobias appreciation week inspired dalliance. I have always believed that Tobias always felt really bad about what had happened and I wanted to write a bit from his side. Yes he did some really not cool things but also it takes two to reconcile also and the feelings Ethan had were real, many stemming from Louise abandoning him. But as time goes on, they grow up and Ethan especially works through his issues and then they cleared the air and reconciled in the end.

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