#Heretic Dad

[luthanraels-bignaturals]

match made in heaven. yaoi where both of them are the most self-righteous assholes ever and also unassuming grandfathers. if they dated eachother I just know that the relationship would make life worse for everyone else in the world. someone at the supermarket says that god hates them for being gay and they get into an massive public couples argument about whether they go in a trap or the theology dungeon.

[nachosforfree]

Referencing Christianity in my art is always so funny to me because I grew up so removed from it like. I don't know anything about biblical angels or demons or whatever I just think they're cool I experience 0 catholic guilt I was not raised in shame. It really just is fun to draw. I didn't know Eve was the one who ate the apple until like 3 years ago

[batsplat]

welcome back casey stoner !

https://www.tumblr.com/verdemint/761549873456775168/same-interview-they-asked-him-how-does-he-deal

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asjddkh SEE this is what I'm talking about!! something about those incredibly neurotic ducati champions, eh. in the post linked above, pecco's talking about how he deals with media pressure... which, yeah, pecco and casey really do share a fair bit of competitive dna there - from the insistence that it doesn't affect them whatsoever to how they do in fact get extremely pissy whenever they feel misrepresented by the media. very sensitive to that kind of thing, those two are... but at the same time they're also both their own harshest critics. from casey's autobiography (all quickly nabbed from this post, which ofc expands on casey's perfectionism):

I got a lot of criticism over the years for being honest because I always felt I could do better. Even if I won the race, if I had made mistakes it was important for me to admit them and address them for next time instead of congratulating myself for being the best on that particular day.

and:

Whatever challenges I take on now I am still driven by the same quest to improve - I can’t change who I am. As a personality trait this is both a good thing and a bad thing. I like that part of me but it would be nice to not be like that sometimes, to enjoy something without being obsessed with getting better at it. I am sure you can go through life a lot happier if you don’t analyse everything.

versus pecco:

The strength that I've proved in various situations comes from the fact that I am extremely critical of myself, and so it only takes a little bit for me to put myself down even more.

like yeah I suppose that's one way of looking at it - nobody else can get to you if you're already tearing into yourself. it's a motivational process that's very much built on negativity, right, on the need to live up to their own exacting standards. both pride themselves for their ability to put failures behind them quickly - to be able to immediately bounce back because they tell themselves they only care about doing better in the next race. plus, there's that interesting dynamic where both are like... pretty big on this idea they're not making excuses for themselves, committed to honestly assessing themselves and all that,, BUT also have reputations for being whiny to the press... because people for whatever reason end up thinking they're constantly blaming everything but themselves for their shortcomings. again, very prone to feeling misunderstood!! neither of them are necessarily terrible communicators - but there's a certain reluctance there (obviously more so from casey) to even play that game at all. mix in a learned wariness because they feel like they've been burned before.... that whole pecco episode last year where he said one reason for the increased injury rate is probably because the field is tighter now (which, yes! seems logical!) ,,, and then some unholy combination of clumsy phrasing, media framing and an ungenerous fan response ended up translating that to pecco saying he wanted satellite bikes to be slower again... gave me real casey vibes lol. casey had a fair few of those episodes himself - though at least the news cycle and social media fandom weren't quite as bad back then. in a lot of ways he'd struggle even more nowadays

also,, you do have to mention - they both end up defining themselves against valentino specifically when it comes to their public personas. casey might be the rival and pecco the mentee, but both of them have been clear that they do not desire to be the next valentino rossi. kinda what I said here, right

idk, obviously pecco had a heads-up a little earlier than casey did that sensibly communicating to the media WAS going to be a big part of the job. but there's still a wariness there, an unwillingness to be something they're not, knowing that they'd be miserable trying to match valentino's particular brand of flamboyance... it is key that it is a choice they're making. they just don't want that for themselves, never have. there's only ever so much outreach they're willing to do

also this

“Stoner and Bagnaia are two different riders, but they have the same mental attitude,” Tardozzi told��AS. “I think Pecco is still growing. He already took a big leap by winning the championship, but the biggest jump in his head has been done this year, after the two falls in Argentina and Austin. “He is an intelligent boy and has spoken a lot with the team, and what happened has made him take another step to make him even more of a champion. Now he has the right mentality. Pecco will become one of the greats. Right now it is showing that he is growing, as I told you before."

'resilience' is I think a word I associate quite strongly with both of them. they take their fair share of punches, do tend to get called mentally fragile a lot - but in truth there's a steel there that serves them well. did talk a little bit about the similarities of their motivational processes here too:

and

and one other thing I've been thinking about is that this... y'know, use of spite, of self-criticism, of how annoyed they get at others' criticisms - for both of them, it is also paired with a determined refusal to countenance they could be mentally affected by anything. with casey in particular, it's a bit of an overcorrection in response to how often he was described as mentally weak; it's understandable you might get extremely sensitive about the whole thing, if you weren't already. a lot of it is also stubbornness... a bone-deep contrarianism that immediately makes them push back if somebody suggests they might struggle for any reason related to psychology. where this really jumps out is how they talk about their rivals. obviously, nobody is going to say that their opponent's mind games work on them because that'd be deeply stupid to admit - but there is something about pecco's firm insistence marc's mind games don't have a hope of working on him that is really reminiscent of how casey has talked about valentino. it's that dynamic of ,, well, they're not wrong in that they're stronger than people give them credit for, but obviously they are also. like. extremely defensive, past the point of necessarily being reasonable. sometimes, what your rival does will affect you. that's kinda how rivalries work lol. but both of them are very committed to this narrative that their working process is super self-directed. casey's whole thing about how he's never gotten obsessed with rivals, pecco's 'we work in silence' schtick... it comes back round to the relationship with the media, right, where they have a natural inclination towards framing that as an oppositional dynamic - and automatically chafe against any narratives that might be externally imposed on them. actually, you see, rivals don't affect their performance at all, they don't need to constantly slobber to the press to hype up their performances, they'll do their talking on-track... but the unspoken truth there is that all of those things do matter, they are paying a lot of attention - and in the end, 'proving a point' to someone becomes a central part of the motivational process. they hear all the criticisms, they seethe in 'silence' (often involves a fair bit of public complaining but let's allow it), and then they determinedly show how all their critics were fools and losers. rinse and repeat

anyway yeah apparently that's part of the ducati magic - a dash of neuroticism, a heavy dose of self-flagellation, inject a desire for authenticity that might at times read as whiny, stir in the makings of a persecution complex and top it off with a sprinkling of spite. probably not the easiest type of guy to handle, but clearly there's something to the formula. a compelling approach to be sure

[deanmarywinchester]

i love the mountain goats songs that are about how something bad is about to happen but it’s not happening yet, or maybe it’s already happening and you’re just riding out the joy you’ve found in a place where bad things can’t touch you. that’s just life innit

[sylverbough]

House Belanger. What could have been, and what is.

[katara-stan-club]

there is no better way to spend New Year’s Eve than by building a Lego Star Wars set while listening to the Dune soundtrack

[chais-corner]

[moonlightheretic]

Eluding The Dread Wolf

The Dread Wolf comes in many guises, some humble, others noble, a messenger cloaked within an offer of solution. But today, he was just another man trudging through the waste-lined streets of the famished and weary. Starkhaven’s undercity bore no fruits of exclusivity, it was not unique to any other impoverished town wallowing in the pits of uncertainty. People starved, people sickened, people died. It was only notable in its overwhelming proclamation, red chantry banners displayed hollow hope, an escape from destitution through prayer.  Planted upon every windowsill and exposed beam. A smothering of Chantry propaganda did nothing to inspire the hungry, in fact it would only lead to their resentment. Divinations of Andraste could only offer empty words to fill empty bellies.

The exterior of the building spoke of theft, the cold tethered by threadbare blankets maneuvered onto glassless windows. A donation box lay in a shattered heap in the shadow of the Chantry orphanage. And yet, this crumbling edifice still held onto a bastion of compassion others sought to destroy. Solas found himself hesitating outside its decrepit door. A torn sign warned intruders to disarm themselves in sight of the Holy Maker. A warning with the weight of a slice of parchment.

Solas’s hand reached inside the pocket of his cloak. He produced a rolled-up scroll and unfurled it. Two familiar charcoal eyes stared back. He grimaced, did he dare hope? Again? Or like the other false alarms, was this just another case of mistaken identity? He had been thorough. Drawing her likeness across all emotions, across all expressions. Obsessive illustrations of each smile and frown, surely there could be no more mistakes by his agents. They would know her, as he did. Solas gathered himself and his fingers conformed around the iron door knocker. Could he handle another disappointment? He could kill a man in less than a fraction of second, but he toiled to reclaim his own offspring in a narrow-minded world of his own make.

[add1ctedt0you]

Also, Huang Yaoshi, then, leaving Peach Blossom Island after his daughter run away (again) (this time for a boy), looking for her:

[wulfhalls]

utter emotional breakdown over cromwell and his dad master cardinal wolsey part 48292

[theintoccabile]

back to watching last boss queen

and omg this girl going around telling all her biggest fans (who are all like 10) to kill her if she ever becomes an evil queen

please I realize you reincarnated into a villainess but calm down

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

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[staticymaticyyourlifeisatravesty]

Lilith has a couple of times, once because she's a mutant, the second because she flayed alive some baseline from the Imperium because he was touching her girls (Read: Blood thralls that she's very fond of). She has no regrets. People are just wondering how he was still alive when she was done with him. There was third time she was arrested for being a heretic because she didn't believe in the God-Emperor.

has your oc ever gone to jail?

[rorykillmore]

that heretic movie with hugh grant constantly has me making jokes about my dad because he once befriended these like. mormon missionaries that came to his house, and every time they came back he would invite them in and like argue with them about religion

[sunsetsover]

when you ask the universe to help you deal with whatever wounds it thinks you need to deal with and not even 48 hours later there's a man in your bathroom so drunk he's almost passed out on the toilet and suddenly you're five years old and your dad's so drunk he's passed out in the bath and you're a grown ass woman who's perfectly safe but your limbs feel like jelly and you kinda feel like throwing up maybe and suddenly out of nowhere you get this massive headache and you're like oh! ok

[ahrisaamariyo]

also, since ahris'a's parents are alive, i do wonder how involved they are. they don't come up much, but im sure ahris'a has gone back to visit a few times. itd be nice to brainstorm about ahris'a bringing his father back to ishgard...