#He cared about his family in the slums and he cares about Atsushi so much he gave his life to save his

[kyouka-supremacy]

Talking about BEAST Atsushi x Canon Akutagawa is so funny because the only thought that went through my head is how much of a hell pair they would be if they meet. It’s very much the epitome of “Cares Too Much” x “Couldn’t Care Enough” if you personified them

BEAST Atsushi breaking down, never having a good day in his life: H

Canon Akutagawa, Joey Diaz voice with the American Anthem in the background: Get up cocksucker, it’s all over. Listen we had a rough couple of months but we got work to do—

WHO'S THE ONE WHO COULDN'T CARE ENOUGH

[anonymous-dee]

Akutagawa Thoughts...

I definitely think that Akutagawa is a misunderstood character, unless he's not and I'm just rambling for no reason LOL. Regardless, he's my favorite character so I just wanna talk about him so please hear me out! (obvious spoilers ahead)

I don't think that Akutagawa is as evil as many people may portray him as. I definitely think that Akutagawa has the potential to be a good person but he simply doesn't know how to.

HEAR ME OUT THOUGH! So obviously we know that Akutagawa's childhood was not pleasant: he grew up in the slums, where it was a dog-eat-dog world. If he wasn't constantly guarded and ready to attack at any given moment, he would lose those closest to him. He grew up in an environment where, if he didn't learn to kill others, both he and his sister would not survive. This was all that he knew, up until Dazai took him in and inducted him and Gin into the Port Mafia.

From there, what he already grew up with was enforced tenfold. Though he wasn't living in squalor anymore, he was raised in a world where killing was the only way for him to survive. Not to mention all of the trauma and the inferiority complex Dazai gave him.

While I don't think that Akutagawa should necessarily be excused for hurting Kyouka, but I also think this is an excellent example of how the cycle of abuse works. Abuse and survival are all that he has ever known, and I think that in a sense he was trying to teach Kyouka that this was how life operated in the Port Mafia. Trying to see the light, being a good person, and acting on one's feelings could very easily lead them to an early death. Think of Odasaku. The Port Mafia is not the place or profession for one to be weak or soft, and Akutagawa was probably trying to rid Kyouka of what he perceived as "weakness," unaware of what the actual truth was. (The truth being that there is good and light and that Kyouka should not be shamed for wanting to be a good person).

I think that Akutagawa has the potential to be good and we can see this very clearly through Wan, as well as Beast. Akutagawa has been upholding his 6 month promise to Atsushi not to kill, and although this may be for his own desire to fight Atsushi rather than an innate desire to be a better person, we at least know he is capable of not killing.

In Beast, the entire premise is that Akutagawa joins the ADA (I've only read the first two volumes to bear with me here); But I don't think a person who is inherently bad would care that much about their friends and family (Gin). Also, the fact that he got mad at Tanizaki for treating Naomi roughly during the entrance exam also shows that Akutagawa has human empathy (even if Naomi liked the rough treatment but we don't need to talk about that).

Another thing to mention here is that Akutagawa ONLY knows how to be in fight or flight mode and he GENUINELY only knows how to respond in extremes. When he's supposed to question people, he threatens them. And when he wants something, he can only think of using violence or force to achieve his goal. He is a direct product of his upbringing in the slums. (and in the main storyline, the Port Mafia as well).

And when we get later into the manga (main canon) we can also talk about how in Chapter 88 we can see how much Akutagawa has changed and the amount of influence Atsushi has had on him. Akutagawa sacrificed his life for Atsushi, knowing that he himself didn't have much time left. The CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT he had to undergo to get to this point *sobs incoherently*

ANYWAYS That's it for my little ramble thank you for your time

[mahkaria]

BSD Time Travel AU

Or the time where Chuuya was endlessly confused by his partner.  Bungou stray dogs AU 

The mackerel had been acting weird for days and Chuuya still didn’t know why. It had nothing to do with another failed suicide attempt or a woman refusing to go on a date with him, the bastard’s whining would have betrayed it. Nor was it anything to do with the Port Mafia or at least nothing important enough for the whole organisation to be informed. Instead, one day, Dazai had entered the sub executives’ office, eyes wide and slightly lost although only someone familiar with the mackerel would have noticed it. Two cinnamon eyes had explored the room until they had landed on Chuuya. 

They had widened then closed and a sigh of relief had escaped him, his whole body relaxing in a manner that Chuuya had never seen before. The cold exterior had melted away to reveal a younger face and fuck-  the bastard had actually smiled while looking at him ! 

For the first time since they had met in the slums, Chuuya had understood that he had been dealing with someone of his age. Not a demon but a genius child who felt just as much as him. 

He had run forward to ask what was happening but even with the influence of For The Tainted Sorrow, Dazai had disappeared before he could join him. He  had cursed for hours in frustration

Teasing and pranks had followed. A lot of them. Chuuya had found yellow and green paint on his precious bike, vinegar had been added to his wine and a very nice watch, courtesy of Kouyou for his sixteenth birthday had disappeared only to be returned with  very bright, very pink glitter. 

Although they were annoying, those pranks felt like nothing when compared to Dazai’s usual ones. They were tame and easily ignored if he desired it.

Chuuya didn’t understand what was going on. Even their missions didn’t unfold the same way. There was a carefulness in the orders he gave which hadn’t been there before. As if he had in a matter of days learnt how to see the men under him as more than just pawns. 

It had reached a point where Chuuya had seriously considered the possibility of a doppelganger. He had started asking questions after questions, hoping he would betray himself. 

 The bastard answered each of them with an indulgent grin which had annoyed him quickly and dissuaded him to continue. 

Because Chuuya still considered Dazai as his partner despite his Dazainess (which Kouyou had dubbed as the beginning of Stockholm Syndrome), he didn’t warn Mori of this new development. Instead, after another mission where no life had been lost because of Dazai’s newfound kindness (???), Chuuya confronted him by making him collide with a wall.   

“Kinky.” Dazai had blurted out  because he was this kind of shameless moron. 

“What the hell is going on with you?”   

He was well prepared for another cryptic explanation or for no answer to be given to him but Dazai brightened at the question. As if he had been waiting to be interrogated on it. 

“Well, chibi should be allowed to meet my favorite person in the world.” He said after a moment of consideration. So it was a girl after all, huh? 

“Gross. Don’t show your feelings like that. You’re freaking me out.” 

Dazai chuckled. “Now, I wouldn’t want that, would I?”

“Shut up, asshole !” 

The neighbourhood Dazai led him to after that was, for lack of a better adjective, comfortable. It was the kind of place where young couples would imagine starting a family. The fresh air, fresher than the one near the dock polluted by oil and the sea’s iodine, was relaxing his body. 

They arrived at a small house protected from outsiders by a tall hedge where purple and  golden flowers were blossoming. Dazai didn’t even bother to ring. He caught the handle of the portal and fought with it until it relented and allowed them to enter. “Why is the rust always making this so difficult for little poor me?” He whined. “You just have noodle arms.” 

“We can’t all be small mastodons, chibi.” 

“Listen here, ass-”

“Osamu-san?”  

Chuuya felt himself be paralysed by the young voice.  Who in this world was crazy enough to call the bastard to reign over all bastards by his first name? A boy exited the house, cups and teapot in hand. For the first time since he had joined the Port Mafia, Chuuya felt apprehension. The boy wasn’t anything special, small and thin, a gust of wind could have knocked him over without too much trouble. He was walking on the thin line between slander and undernourished.  Only his silver hair stood out and he had already seen ability users with stranger hair colours. Yet, something in him made Chuuya uncomfortable, all his instincts were screaming at him not to underestimate what looked to be a child no older than ten. 

It wasn’t the same kind of fearful awe Kouyou and Mori inspired nor the respect gifted to Hirotsu because of his anciennety. If Chuuya had been forced to explicit it, he would have said it was like watching the sky during a full moon. As if he was standing  in front of something too powerful to be named. 

Something that even the calamity living inside of him was failing to understand.

It was miles away from the naive civilian girl Chuuya had been imagining. 

A wide smile spread on the boy’s face as he noticed him. “You brought Chuuya-san !” He tried to clap his hands together and panicked when it almost made his teacups fall. 

“What the fuck ?!”

The boy blinked at him. “Would you prefer me calling you ‘Nakahara-san’? It’s true that I might have been a bit too familiar.”  

“Atsushi-kun, don’t worry about what dwarves think. You’ll waste your time !” He shrieked as Chuuya almost kicked him in the face. 

“What the hell are you doing, bastard? You’re not supposed to talk about the organisation members to outsiders.” Dazai pouted.  Another thing which had changed, before this fateful day, the bastard would have never shown so much emotions before. “I didn’t, Chibi ! Atsushi-kun already knew.” 

A red glow started to surround Chuuya. “So he is an enemy, huh?” 

A glance of his ability was usually enough for people to run away or to go into a frenzy. This ‘Atsushi-kun’ did none of that. Instead he remained unfazed and walked to a little table in the garden and started pouring tea. “Do you want a cup of tea?” 

“The one from this little shop in Chinatown?” Dazai cheered as he trotted to one of the chairs. He moved it until it was all but stuck to Atsushi’s side.  

“Osamu-san,” Atsushi sighed, voice filled with fondness instead of exasperation. It was probably one of the most disgusting displays Chuuya had ever had the displeasure to watch. “You told me you were going to bring a guest, I wasn’t going to prepare your favorite tea. Oda-san gifted me one made with cherry blossoms and rose petals and I thought it would be the perfect occasion to test it.” 

“Betrayed by my own best friend, where is the world going?” Dazai whipped a fake tear away. “And my husband doesn’t even try to prevent it. As they say, you can count on no one  but yourself.” 

Husband… “What the fucking hell?” Chuuya screamed.  

[askthedespairkids]

A Game of Questions

*Nakashima approaches Maverick Storm.*

Maverick: Atsushi. What do you need?

Nakashima: I heard you were around, so I figured I might as well visit.

Maverick: Well, I appreciate the courtesy. If I remember right, you were about the only underclassmen I could stand.

Nakashima: That so?

Maverick: Pretty much. Considering Ando and Izayoi were always making out, Kimura was just… weird… Hyde and Mori were… well, still are insufferable, and don’t get me started on Oroya and Suzuki, optimists get on my nerves. Both of the 77th classes were full of annoying little fucks as well

Nakashima: I see. Perhaps I should be honored to be given such prestige.

Maverick: If you are, then you are, if you’re not, you’re not. Really doesn’t matter a whole lot.

Nakashima: I suppose not.

Maverick: What did you think of your classmates? If you hated them all from the start, you certainly did a better job of hiding it than I did.

Nakashima: I was a bit skeptical at first. The only one I knew going in was Malcom. But I can’t say they’re the worst people you could meet.

Maverick: Heh, that honor probably goes to mine.  So glad I’ve already taken out more than half of them… I think I’ve only got four of them to go? Something like that.

Nakashima: Sounds like you’re pretty dedicated to this manhunt of yours.

Maverick: There’s only one that hasn’t actually made it to the Future Foundation, but she’s proving such a pain to hunt down…

Nakashima: Though it’ll be much more satisfying when you kill her.

Maverick: True enough.

Nakashima: I dunno if I’ll end up doing the same with my class. I feel they could probably destroy themselves without my help.

Maverick: You know, I should’ve done that. Planted little pieces of evidence here and there, then sat back and watched as everyone tore each other to pieces… perhaps I’ll do that to whatever-her-name-is, get her to go and blow up the Future Foundation building or something.

Nakashima: That would certainly create some fireworks.

Maverick: Not to mention get rid of a lot of pains in the ass… Though, knowing Nakamura… fucker’s like a cockroach, he’d probably survive and come on a roaring rampage of revenge because his girlfriends died.

Nakashima: He’s certainly hard to put down.

Maverick: Too hard for any reasonable human. Thankfully, I’m not reasonable… well, not when it comes to him… *He walks over to his possessions and pulls out a bottle of wine* Thirsty?

Nakashima: I suppose I could use a drink. Walks over

*Maverick pulls out a couple shot glasses and pours* Sorry there’s nothing fancy to drink out of, but it was a stroke of luck finding this thing almost a year after everything went down. I mean, first thing you’d think people would do would be to get drunk off their asses and wait for death

Nakashima: I’d figure if someone wanted to kill themselves, they would’ve just gotten it over with.

Maverick: Some do. Some don’t. Humans are weird like that.

Nakashima: Indeed. *Takes a glass*

*Maverick drinks*

*Nakashima drinks as well*

Maverick: Shit… either I’m a lightweight or this stuff is stronger than I thought.

Nakashima: *Coughs a bit* Might be the former.

Maverick: *He shrugs, before pouring himself another glass*

Nakashima: If my sister was here, she’d have a riot with this stuff.

Maverick: Akagawa, right? That’s her name?

Nakashima: Yep.

Maverick: I’m curious… what’re your plans for when you cross paths with her next?

Nakashima: I’m not sure, but there will more than likely be an alteration.

Maverick: Heh, sounds like fun. I’m curious though… think you’ll kill her?

Nakashima: I’m not sure, honestly.

Maverick: Fair enough. Can’t imagine killing a family member would be easy.

Nakashima: No, it wouldn’t.

Maverick: I wonder… would you rather kill a family member or die for them?

Nakashima: That’s….difficult.

Maverick: Fair enough… you in the mood for a game? We give each other hypothetical scenarios, and see what the other answers

Nakashima: Sure, sounds fun.

Maverick: All right, I’ll start. You’re a bodyguard, being paid a million yen an hour to protect someone rich. Someone offers you a hundred million yen to kill them, but you have to do it in public, in front of millions of people, where you’ll probably get caught. You’ll still get paid though. Would you accept?

Nakashima: Hmm….this might sound stupid, but I wouldn’t do it.

Maverick: Really? Care to elaborate?

Nakashima: What good would a hundred million yen do for me if I’m in prison?

Maverick: Bribes. You’d be surprised at how the judicial system can be swayed by a little bit of cash.

Nakashima: *Shrugs* I guess.

Maverick: All right, your turn. Give me a scenario.

Nakashima: You live in the slums, and you can’t afford much. One day, you’re approached by a man who’s willing to give you a job and pay you a lot of yen. However, you have to break into the home of an old lady and steal as many belongings of hers as you can. Would you do it?

Maverick: Hell yeah. I mean, I’d probably do it even if I didn’t live in the slums.

Nakashima: Heh, I suppose she wouldn’t need them for much longer.

Maverick: Exactly. Old bat’s already on her way out, might as well grab what we can before the lawyers descend and take it all.  Now… next scenario… let’s say that a coworker of yours plans to leave and start up his own company to rival the current one. He offers you a job there, and tells you that if it all works out, you’ll be paid better than you are at your current job. You know your boss isn’t a fan of this idea, but a few of your fellow coworkers see the appeal and are willing to sign up with the leaving guy. Whose company do you join?

Nakashima: Might as well go with the coworker.

Maverick: Taking risks then? Nice.

Nakashima: If I think the guy could run a better company, it would make sense to go with him, no?

Maverick: Very true.

Nakashima: Alright, here’s one. You’re a wealthy tycoon with a ton of cash, but you find yourself in a gambling circuit with incredibly good players. Would you play with them and risk losing your fortune, or wouldn’t you risk it?

Maverick: I’d play them. And I’d find a way to win… bending the rules if necessary.

Nakashima: I’d expect nothing less from you.

Maverick: Heh. One more, then call it a night? My head’s starting to get really fuzzy…

Nakashima: Sure.

Maverick: All right… so, you find out someone who you were once very close with has been keeping a secret from you. A really big secret, in fact. They gave something that you wanted, something you really wanted, more than almost anything else, to another person. Eventually, you find out that thing you wanted, that you didn’t even know existed up until now, was broken beyond any sort of repair… and you find out who both the person who’d been keeping it a secret and the person who broke it was. What do you do to them?

Nakashima: Probably sock ‘em. As hard as I could.

*Maverick nods at this, then indicates for Nakashima to give him the final scenario*

Nakashima: You have a kid who’s a major troublemaker. He gets himself into an illegal situation that could result in him being locked up for life, but the cost the bail him is more than your yearly income. Do you bail him out or let the law have its way?

*Maverick stiffens slightly at the mention of him having a child, then relaxes once Nakashima says “he”* This is tough… but ultimately, I think I’d bail them out.

Nakashima: Yeah, I probably would too.

Maverick: Gotta look out for your own flesh and blood right? *He stands, only to sway and lose his balance, collapsing into a heap on the floor*

Nakashima: *Smirks a bit* Need a hand?

Maverick: Thanks for the offer, but I’m good. *He makes no move to get up* This was fun, Atsushi, we should do it again sometime.

Nakashima: Indeed. You’re probably the most enjoyable person to be around here.

Maverick: Well, thank you for the compliment. See you ‘round.

Nakashima: Yep, later.

*Once Nakashima’s walked off, Maverick stands, dusting himself off. All signs of nausea or intoxication are gone as he tidies up, then lies back down with a notebook. He jots down a few things, then smiles to himself. Nakashima Atsushi was an interesting case study… a very interesting study indeed…*

[sambart93]

2017.07.07 Minoru Review!

I got to see my Hiroki again a few weeks back and unfortunately this one will not being making it to DVD and I could only go and see it once (but from the front row because it was free seating, not set), but I thoroughly enjoyed it and it left a lot to think about later.

Cast/Characters

Saito Kenshin as Kirishima Minoru Yamamoto Mayu as Matsumoto Natsumi Akaba Mio as Morita Minoru Tanaka Hiroki as Takimoto Minoru Kagotani Kazuki as Ishimura Minoru Hasui Yuuma as Sekido Minoru Uta Aoto as Akagawa Minoru Megane as Sato Minoru Adachi Yuna Arisa Toda Reina Hayashi Chinami Hamano Atsushi Tamimoto Shouko

Story:

Kirishima Minoru wakes up in a room one day full of other Minorus. Turns out they all died and now have a chance to either live another Minoru’s life or to relive their own. So one by one they talk about their lives and decide who’s life they’ll take next. Naturally, none of them had easy lives and all of them have a few scars (either physically or mentally). It raises lots of good questions like: if you redid your life, would you do it differently? Would you be happy if you had another’s life? If you could live another’s life, would you, and what kind of life would you want?

Stage:

The seating was split into two parts with the stage smack bang in the middle of the room. The area I sat on was about 4 rows and raised up a step per row. The other area was up some stairs and about three rows, raised one step per row. The actors would come out from behind that section and down the stairs into the stage. 

The total run time was 1 hour 45 minutes with time after for talking to the actors and chekis/polaroid pictures.

Review:

I want to talk about The Characters a little first. 

Kirishima Minoru is our main character (and is a cutie!) and turns out his life was DARK. He was abused by his father, as well as his mother, and one day he has enough and kills his father. His mother puts the blame on herself so her son can have a life but it means she’s in prison for most of his life. He finally meets someone who he falls in love with, Matsumoto Natsumi, and wants to marry. Luckily it all goes okay with her father too but there’s a scene where he asks his daughter ‘did you tell him?’ and Natsumi replies ‘not yet’. Turns out she’s dying, and there’s this beautiful scene where they carry her in one of those patient beds as she apologies to Minoru and that she’s loves him etc.

Then we have the high school delinquent/yankee: Morita Minoru. Naturally when they all first meet he’s very forward going and very aggressive but very soon he shows his true colours and how weak and sensitive he is. Especially when Takimoto figures out Morita has an older brother (who he looks exactly like except the older brother wore glasses and wasn’t a yankee) who Takimoto used to date(?) -- He definitely implied that they dated. Morita’s sad story is that his brother committed suicide after it came put that he was gay and couldn’t cope people abandoning him. Morita loved his brother a lot. I’ll get to it later but this scene is amazing.

And now onto Takimoto Minoru who is very unapologetically gay and while being gay gave him a hard life, he’s not embarrassed to say and show who he is. He talks about how he was super, super popular with the girls growing up and all of them wanted to date him but deep downside he always liked boys so never dated any of them. And then he met Takimoto’s older brother who was also gay and they formed this great friend/relationship. But one day, he committed suicide and was gone.

Ishimura Minoru has a sad back story. When he son was about 6/7 years old, his wife got very sick and died of cancer and the doctor who attended to him was Sato Minoru. It’s such a sad scene that definitely got me crying the most.

Sekido Minoru is known as the ‘Normal Guy’ his entire life is completely normal. Normal family, normal upbringing, naturally went to school, then university and finally got a job at an office. He naturally found someone he wanted to marry, and she was attracted to him by how normal he was. So they get get married and get pregnant and then... she loses the baby. It also leaves her very infertile and this crushes her. She just wanted a normal life. But here’s the thing; Sekido hates how normal his life is so he finds the positivity at the end where she says ‘I just wanted a normal life. I just wanted a baby and a happy life’ and he says ‘well we’re not normal anymore... having a baby is not normal anymore. It’ll be special.. it’s now special for us if we have a baby’ and somehow they get happy again.

Akagawa Minoru is the hikkikomori (the shut in) of the group. He doesn’t really care for anything, doesn’t really want to do anything and just spends his time alone and in his room and doesn’t really have any emotional feelings for anything.

Last we have Sato Minoru who was/is a doctor. Al he ever wanted to be as a kid was a super hero so he decided to be a doctor but soon learnt that being a doctor is more stressful and heartbreaking than he imagined. All he sees is death and cannot see the glimpses of hope coming fro being a doctor when he saves someone. He mentions how he remembers the first patient he ever lost and that he’s been counting how many he’s lost. A doctor isn’t the type of super hero he wanted to be.

Now onto Scenes and Opinions etc.

Of course I cried at this! This was overall not a happy play but having said that it also had light, comedy moments and scenes of hope and is quite uplifting but in terms of the crap the characters went through; it’s dark.

Especially when we watched the mother slowly dying of cancer. It’s just this one spotlight on the mother and we see her happy when she first finds out she has cancer and then slowly the light gets dimmer and we see her start to slum and lose energy and her movements get slower and her face drops into a straight face. It was super sad to see that development.

And of COURSE Hiroki-kun was playing a gay character!! I almost died laughing when he said it. OF COURSE!! I wouldn’t expect anything else from him. This is the 3rd time he’s played an openly gay character and I’ve always assumed he was gay anyway and after this play he wrote on his blog something like ‘to be able to play a character with the same sexuality as me’ (I could’ve read it wrong but) so I was like ‘I knew it! And please keep playing gay characters!” because he plays them so perfectly and he’s not embarrassed to do kiss scenes and stuff which takes balls! I really loved his performance in this too <3

The Normal guy is cute! So was Kirishima, and of course my Hiroki was totally cute(!). 

Coming down the stairs to the theatre, I noticed that the actress Yamamoto had flowers everywhere, and now I know why. She's a VERY good actor, and is very cute!! 

The comedy was very well done! And there was some bad English too which made everyone, especially me, crack up. I think it was the doctor and he’s just like (in English) ‘I CANT STOP-ING’ I died laughing. And of course I laughed at ALL the Dajare because I LOVED dajare! It was with Kirishima and Natsumi when she confesses her love to him and she’s like ‘KOI!....COME!!! == It’s love! Come here!’  If you don’t know Japanese, you’re not going to find the Koi/Come funny, sorry...

Also, I really liked how they all came in and I like how they all stayed on stage for such a long time and watched each other's stories and such. Kudos on their behalf for being able to do massive chunks on stage at a time and not mess up. 

AND! How their stories are all connected was really cool too! I love how the Morita and Takimoto are connected through the brother, and how Sato and Sekido, Sato and Ishimura were connected too. 

Speaking of Morita and Takimoto, their scene is so good! So Takimoto looks at Morita strange, and Morita being a bit put off him because he’s gay backs away, and Takimoto take’s Sato’s glasses and places them on Morita; that’s when he figures out he knows Morita’s older brother. This causes Morita to break down and cry about how painful it was to lose hos brother and how he committed suicide because he couldn’t accept he was gay and Takimoto talks about how much he loved his brother and was also heart broken when he died. And all this was RIGHT in front of my eyes, I was literally less than 30cm away from them two as this scene played out and I was part in heart pain and tears because it’s a heartbreaking scene, but I also had heart going 200000 times an hour because Hiroki was doing this intense scene RIGHT in front of me, my heart couldn’t take all the hotness xD

And all the cuties!!

In the end, they all agree that they don’t want to switch with another’s life and they see the goodness and happy moments in their life and that they want to redo their lives over, instead of switching.

The ending is a little bit of a twist though. We see Kirishima finally meet his mother after like 15/16 years of her being in prison and they’re super happy to see one another but Kirishima’s says ‘I’m not the Minoru you know’. The scene then changes to Kirishima and Natsumi and it’s Natsumi admitting that she kept a secret from him about her illness and that she’s dying and Kirishima is like ‘I don’t want you to die!!’ and she’s fully accepted she’s going to die and tells him to live a happy life and to not be scared and finally meet his mother, but he can’t take it; so in the end he decides to switch bodies with her; he dies in Natsumi’s body and Natsumi lives on in Kirishima’s body. And the stage ends there. I was totally blown away that they kept that massive reveal until right at the very end! Such a good ‘oh my god!!’ moment.

This was a really good play and I am not doing it justice and it’s a shame it didn’t get a DVD. Maybe they’ll do a rerun of it next year with the same cast or something. I wish I could’ve seen it two or three more times.

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Cheki Time!

Guuuuuys!! Hiroki's so adorable! I say this everytime but seriously he is!! First we took our cheki and then asked if he would take my letter which he said he will (of course). 

AND(!) he knew where I was sitting, during the cheki time he was like ‘ バ���チリいましたね/ You were right there weren’t you!’ He asked if it was difficult for me to understand and I said ‘no. Even through the feelings I could get it’ -- I didn't think it was difficult to understand!! Why did I say that?!?! Ugh nerves!!

Then he told me to come to Rabo Vol.5 because there's a lot of talking and he's always happy to read my letters and my tweets. And we had the awkward hand shake *just let me bash my head in*

At the end I said 'get home safe / 気をつけて帰ってください' and he said thank you. Then as I walked away, he grabbed my shoulder and was like 'you get home safe too!! / お姉様も気をつけて帰ってください！' . Looks like we both get just as nervous as each other when it comes to these things.

He’s so adorable.

Okay I’m good. Done!

[phtalogreenpoison]

#Okay I wanted to get back to this with more cohesive thoughts that weren't just a string of AKUTAGAWA but really.#He's my only thought about the chapter lol#I love Bram I really do I adore Aya and I really enjoy their relationship it's so sweet#I really would have cared about Bram's death if I wasn't completely absorbed by the possibility of Akutagawa showing up.#But that's on me really amhdvaskjhvfakwshvd#I think the two Akutagawa panels at the start were distracting I wasn't able to think about anything else 😅#I have some mixed feelings about Bram using “[his] power to store the final dregs of his consciousness within [Akutagawa's] being”#Like. I'd like Akutagawa to maintain consciousness autonomy please and thank you.#the concept of Bram now being part of him is weird. Which tbh contributed in making me feel all the less moved by his death of the sort#“Okay can he die (and let go of Akutagawa's body completely) already”#Which to be fair was very mean of me. I apologize#The thing is. Bram's consciousness shouldn't stay attached to Akutagawa because as Bram said “my consciousness shall too disappear”#But on the other Akutagwa seems to pledge to protect Aya which supposedly he wouldn't do unless Bram still had some influence on him#Really lol. Akutagawa doesn't take orders much less to openly protect children. It just feels pretty uncharacteristic#Which opens from some intersting concepts to explore tbh. I find it hard to imagine Akutagawa caring about children#but at the same time he took care of his family in the slums and loves Kyouka and in Beast he shows beingsomewhat good with kids#(in the unconventional way). So maybe I'm just mislead#And I've seen the take going around that Akutagawa is a protector at his core and I don't feel particularly strongly about it#but maybe this is something going in that direction. Who knows.#It's for sure that now that he doesn't kill he'd be more inclined to protect people instead#I wanted to talk about the rest of the chapter and I still ended up only talking about Akutagawa didn't I akjshvafsjhblsavfbk#Idk how to feel about Kunikida like I don't... Care about him really but I know a lot of people love him so I'm sad for them :(#At the same time I am pretty skeptical to believe he's actually dead 🧐#He is very much the core of the ada y'know. And a very main character. I just find it hard to believe and too many characters have been dyi#I think there's a real possibility everything will be back to normal once the ada get their hands on the pages of the Book.#Isn't that what they've been working towards since the beginning anyway?#WHICH MEANS (and that's the second thing I cared for the most about this chapter) THERE'S A CHANCE FOR TERUKO TO RESURRECT SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!#Please#random rambles#Edit: OH ALMOST FORGOT: ATSUSHI WAS SO PRETTY THIS CHAPTERRRRRRRR

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