#Hardin library

[uispeccoll]

Guest post from John Martin Rare Book Room at Hardin Library for the Health Sciences!

HEISTER, LORENZ (1683-1758). A general system of surgery in three parts. Printed in London for William Innys, 1743. 26 cm tall.

Hello friends. I am excited to present you this month with a book from the 18th-century physician Lorenz Heister. Not only because Heister was a snappy dresser who could really rock a powdered wig, but because his book was considered the gold standard surgical work of the time.

Lorenz Heister was born in 1683 in Frankfurt am Main, Germany, and became one of the most famous German multihyphenates. Never one to pass up an opportunity to learn something new or teach it to others, Heister was an incredibly accomplished physician-anatomist-surgeon-botanist-teacher.

Heister was the first to perform a post-mortem examination of appendicitis and suggest that cataracts were caused by changes in the crystalline lens rather than the cornea. He performed the first successful thyroidectomy and introduced the term "tracheotomy" in medicine. The plant genus Heisteria and the spiral valves of Heister (anatomical folds of the cystic duct) are named after him.

Heister's library contained over 12,000 volumes and 470 surgical instruments, most made of silver. In recognition of his work, Heister was a fellow of the Royal Society of London and the Royal Academy of Paris.

His most important book, Chirurgie [Surgery], was the first to systematically present surgery, detailing all surgical instruments, bandages, and operations step by step, including possible complications. Published in German in 1719, it was catered to students with limited Latin knowledge.

The book was popular for its detailed copperplate illustrations and was soon sold out, leading to new editions. It was later translated into Latin as Institutiones Chirurgicae and into English, French, Italian, Dutch, Spanish, and Japanese.

All in all, Hesiter's masterpiece includes 38 plates of multiple illustrations and 814 pages across two volumes bound together. Our first English edition copy is in fantastic condition. The calfskin cover has held up remarkably well, with only minor scratches here and there. The paper is in great condition, including the illustrations, all printed separately from the text and sewn in when bound. Because the illustrations are almost all wider than the textblock, they are folded to fit, sometimes multiple times. In summary, this beautiful and influential work on surgery is ready for action!

---curator Damien Ihrig

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If anyone wants to join my friends up and coming book server on discord, lmk 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[mckitterick]

Christofascist Republican calls LGBTQ people "filth" during public forum

The culture of hate among Christofascists recently led to the violent beating and subsequent death of Choctaw two-spirit teenager Nex Benedict in Oklahoma.

When questioned about how 50+ anti-LGBTQ bills might have affected this case, State Senator Tom Woods said,

“We are a Republican state - supermajority - in the House and Senate. I represent a constituency that doesn’t want that filth in Oklahoma.”

Several audience members clapped at his statement, while others appeared shocked.

“We are a religious state and we are going to fight it to keep that filth out of the state of Oklahoma because we are a Christian state - we are a moral state,” Woods said. “We want to ... let people be able to go to the faith they choose. We are a Republican state and I’m going to vote my district, and I’m going to vote my values, and we don’t want that in the state of Oklahoma.”

State Representative David Hardin added, “How you live your life personally, that’s between you and God... but what goes through our public schools - I will fall back on my faith. I want to make sure that at least the children in our public schools have that faith... what I want to make sure of is that our young children have the right to grow up with that faith."

After the forum, Woods reiterated his stance on the matter: "I support my constituency, and like I said, we’re a Christian state, and we are tired of having that shoved down our throat at every turn... I stand behind my statement, and I stand behind the Republican Party values."

When asked what he thought of Woods’ characterization of LGBTQ people as “filth,” State Senator Dewayne Pemberton said, “No comment.”

Again and again, today's christofascist Republicans (any other sort doesn't get elected these days) reveal that they want to indoctrinate public school kids into their own bigoted hatred, forcing children to hate anyone who doesn't subscribe to their narrow interpretation of their religious texts. Christofascists seek to impose their personal, misguided religious biases on the general public, including creating laws codifying hate and authoritarian control over the lives and bodies of everyone, not just others in their own religion.

Make no mistake, Nex Benedict's death was caused by christofascist indoctrination of the three girls who brutally beat Nex in that school bathroom. Nex Benedict's death was caused by the school failing to take their injuries seriously, by hate codified in Oklahoma state laws designed to harass LGBTQ folks and normalize bigotry against them, by Oklahoma Superintendent of Public Instruction Ryan Walters appointing hate-speech villain Chaya Raichik (responsible for "Libs of TikTok") to the Oklahoma Department of Education's Library Media Advisory Committee even though she doesn't live in the state (but he likes that she used Benedict's school and teacher for targeted hate). And on and on - it's a systematic attack on personal freedom and human rights - and the lives of queer folks.

Nex Benedict's death is exactly what christofascists seek through indoctrinating children into their hate that perpetuates bigotry into the future and forcing their religious fanaticism into the public sphere through unconstitutional laws built on hate and control.

Do you want to live in a theocracy dictated by those who narrowly interpret their personal religious texts to promote hate? Because as long as citizens fail to speak out against these harbingers of civilizational collapse, they'll only feel more and more emboldened to turn hate crimes into victories.

We must not let another of our people become victim of systemic bigotry. To protect children and end generational indoctrination, we must fire all public officials who subscribe to christofascist hatred and, when appropriate, prosecute them for the violence they incite.

If we fail to end the careers of hateful christofascists, we fail our children.

[floralcyanide]

𝐂𝐚𝐦𝐩𝐮𝐬 ∿ 𝐄𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐋𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐫𝐲

Ethan Landry x Gender Neutral!Reader

On Ethan's first day at his university campus, he gets a little lost. Then, you notice how lost he is and decide to help.

warnings: none!

word count: 668

author's note: I wrote this in like, 30 minutes but it's okay lol it's cute and fun and I hope ya'll enjoy this!

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To say that Ethan was panicking was the understatement of the year.

He had been to campus several times over the last few weeks to get comfortable with his surroundings and pinpoint precisely where his classes would be. Ethan had over-the-top anxiety about being late, embarrassing himself, or not knowing where things were. And he was all of those things right now because one of his classes switched locations at the last minute. So here he is, in the literal middle of campus, looking around like a lost and confused puppy.

“Fuck,” Ethan mutters, glancing down at the schedule he had printed out, running a hand through his hair.

He has officially crossed out the location for his history class, but where is it now? Who knows. He went to the original spot, but there was no note on the door or anything. He also has checked his email about twenty times. A moment after rechecking his phone, it dings, and sure enough, Ethan’s history professor finally sends an email to the class about the new classroom. He sighs with relief, darting his eyes around to see if he can locate the Hardin Hall anywhere around him. 

Checking his watch, Ethan wanders to the small campus directory by some benches. He narrows his eyes to search the board for Hardin, trying hard to avoid the thought of people staring at him for being lost. Even though in the back of his mind, he knows that probably no one gives a shit.

You’re on your way to your history class on the first day back to campus. It feels like the billionth one you’ve taken, but you have been in college for a few years now. You’re on your way to Hardin Hall with earbuds in your ears and your pace quick as the class starts in 5 minutes. But a tall, cute boy hopelessly staring at the directory catches your attention. You usually keep to yourself on campus, but something urges you to help him.

“Where are you headed?” you ask, pulling out an earbud.

Ethan turns to you, flustered that someone noticed him all but floundering at the map.

“Hardin Hall, I think?” Ethan furrows his brow, staring down at his phone, “Yeah. Hardin.”

Ethan takes a closer look at you and decides you’re reasonably attractive and doesn’t mind your help. He hopes that you’ll run into him again on campus by some stroke of luck, despite the university being quite large. Then, Ethan can awkwardly invite you out for coffee or tea and stutter his way into a date. He’s always thinking too far ahead, but he can’t stop staring at you and your amazing eyes.

“That’s actually where I’m headed right now! Professor Moore’s class?” you smile, motioning for him to follow you.

“Yeah,” Ethan blinks, a little stunned that the universe is working in his favor for the first time today. 

“Cool. Is this your first day here?”

“How could you tell?” Ethan half-jokes, scratching the back of his neck as he follows you.

“I was very lost on my first day here. It’s a large campus for sure,” you chuckle while pointing at the building, “It’s right there, hidden behind Brackett Hall if you tilt your head a little.”

Ethan tilts his head as suggested and spots the old brick building, letting out a small “Ah.”

You lead the way as you ask Ethan where he’s from and his major. Before you know it, you’re outside the classroom, right on time.

“Well, I’ll see you after class? Maybe?” you purse your lips together, hoping you aren’t being weird.

“Yeah, sure,” Ethan smiles, opening the door for you.

Syllabus day feels like ages, but your professor lets the class out early when she finishes. Then, you and Ethan swing by the library coffee shop before your following classes. Little do you know, going there after history class will become an everyday thing. But you don’t mind. It’s nice knowing someone on campus for once. 

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We have an exciting new acquisition to feature this Friday! Last week, a generous donor gave the Libraries a copy of Pierre Borel's De Vero Telescopii Inventore (1655). This work is a history of the invention of the telescope from antiquity to the time of writing. At the time, both Hans Lippershey and Zacharias Janssen claimed to be the inventor of the telescope, and Pierre Borel found Janssen's claims to be more convincing. Present-day historians have tended to recognize Lippershey instead, but they do give Janssen credit for inventing the compound microscope.

Borel also printed a letter from Christiaan Huygens' in which he details his observations of Titan, one of the moons of Saturn. This letter also contained Huygens' identification of the rings of Saturn in an anagram - a sly way to sneak the idea into print without giving it away before Huygens' own publication of Systema Saturnium in 1659.

This volume is bound with several others: Johann Franz Griendel's Micrographia nova (1687); Anton van Leeuwenhoek's Ontledingen en ontdekkingen van levende dierkens in de teel-deelen van verscheide dieren, vogelen en visschen (1696); and Govard Bidloo's Brief aan Antony van Leeuwenhoek (1698).

Many thanks to donor Rick Hardin for this newest addition to the collection.

De vero telescopii inventore : cum brevi omnium conspiciliorum historia : ubi de eorum confectione, ac usu, seu de effectibus agitur, novaque quaedam circa ea proponuntur : accessit etiam centuria observationum microcospicarum / Authore Petro Borello, regis Christianissimi consiliario, & medico ordinario. VAULT QB88 .B72 1655

[wawamouse]

Oz Rewatch 3: S4E16: Famous Last Words

Plotlines

Hill is framed for using, Supreme Allah tells Hill to kill Redding; Hill double crosses Supreme and kills him by allergic reaction;

Colonel’s daughter comes to visit; at Redding’s behest, he tries to kill Morales in the elevator; Morales kills him instead

Cloutier resigns from his church; the prisoners turns on him; Mukada advises Cloutier to get on their level; they brick him into the wall

Hughes declares the Republic of Huhru in Solitary and gets himself killed

Glynn wants to resign; Floria secretly crumples up the letter

McManus loses the final basketball game; Omar keeps bugging McManus; McManus appears on Up Your Ante; Omar and Chico start a fight; Pablo Calderon gets shoved into the TV; Omar freaks out and beats McManus and is placed in Solitary

With Beecher’s parole coming up, Schillinger tries to cause trouble; Said and the Muslims try to make sure that nothing happens; Beecher dreams his release on parole; Said stabs Schillinger and Robson in the library

Bomb plot; kitchen explodes

Sister: (sigh) He was too attractive for this show anyway...

Me: Everyone’s meeting with their lawyer in the visiting room today… Sister: They’re having a convention at the Marriott so they thought they'd swing by.

Sister: Why’s he so tan? Me: ...Probably because they don’t actually live here.

Sister: Hmm… Well, since Egg Man is dead, guess he can be the new eye candy. They keep sending them all away, though, so I bet he’s going to die soon anyway…

Sister: Tendeth? That’s what [Sister] does. Adds an -eth on the end of words!

Sister: (gasp) The cast of monte carlo…. The cask of… amontadillo… What is it? The cast… the cask… of amonte… amontypython?

Sister: Going to start saying this when anyone tries to talk to me on the toilet.

Sister: (perks up) Oh, are we going to end Solitary confinement? (pause) Nah… He doesn’t have the brain power to make that connection… He just wants the delusions to end so he can stick him back in Solitary.

Sister: Not this again. [Sister] doesn’t want to watch this…

Sister: Yeah, he killed like four people! Me: He didn’t kill anyone. Sister: The guy in the TV? Me: Oh right. Well, before, though. He just stabbed McManus, he didn’t kill anyone. Sister: He stabbed your guy, too! Me: (laughing) Oh yeah… He didn’t stab anyone else, though. Just McManus. He attacked the reporter guy but didn’t stab him. Sister: (pained sigh) You have selective memory just because you find him amusing… He’s like a troublesome little dinosaur to me. Gotta keep my eye on him…

Sister: I can’t even remember it and I’ve been watching this every Saturday for months...

Sister: (suddenly turning to me) Question for the community: why hasn’t anyone noticed yet that the church guy is missing?

Sister: He’s not out?! Oughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh….

Sister: You know, when they say they’re hardened criminals, you don’t expect them to have, like, turtle plates… The hacks die so easily… It’s because they don’t have osteoderms like the prisoners… The doctor’s going to do another unethical medical trial and discover all the prisoners are turtle people.

Sister: Um.. they don’t really believe in you, though. They got, like, weak minds… And you constantly bamboozle them…

Sister: So embarrassing…. No boom?

Stray Thoughts

Prisoner named Hardin who works bedpans

Penis count: 1

Old man butt: 1

Sister was suspicious of Tobias’s entire release sequence due to how ominous she found the outdoors; she kept thinking Beecher would get killed

The J&B whiskey bottle looks pretty much exactly like Chinese black vinegar bottles which makes it funny to see characters like Glynn with the bottle on their desk

Spotted another Chico lip lick during the scene they finally get HBO in Oz lol

[beebeesiims]

GRACE: ...oh? that sounds interesting, where'd you get that? MARNIE: the library at school. ms. hardin said they were fairytales based on old moonwood mill legends...but she doesn't know. GRACE: yeah, 'course not...

[sheenashifts1217]

Hiii! I’m sending an ask about the shufflemancy post

Can I get a message from my s/o Mattia from my dr?

Thank you♥️

-Mel

Hello my love :)

I asked Mattia what they (idk their pronouns so I’m using “they” to be as respectful as I can) would like to say to you.

First song:

Lyrics that stand out:

“How’s life, tell me how’s your family

You’ve been good, busier than ever

Wishin I’d realized what I had

I haven’t been sleeping

Swallowing my pride standing infront of you

Nothing but missing you

I go back to December all the time

Your sweet smile

So good to me

I understand”

So I’m feeling a mix of energies when I listen to this song for you. Firstly Mattia cares about you deeply and can feel your love no matter the distance. However, it feels like you guys may be going through an argument or a rough patch at the moment, but DO NOT worry. Mattia is telling you they are here and ready to listen. If they messed up, they want you to know they will apologize. They may have a hard time admitting their faults but I’m hearing “you’re worth it”. Whatever happened between you guys, it will be or already is fixed because I’m seeing how you guys find a new version of each other once you resolve the problem.

Second song:

Lyrics stood out:

“Let her dance with me just for the hell of it

You got me wrong

Thank ya dear bring your sister over here

Get lonely after ya leave

The one you believe”

Do you guys have a miscommunication trope? That’s what it’s feeling like. The first song shows that you all had a deep history and then went through some kind of conflict. Then you guys figured it out and started to find yourselves again. THIS song is continuing you all truly finding each other. Mattia is trying to prove themselves to you. They want you to see they’re ready this time. They want to be the one for you. They’re saying “believe in me”. Almost as if it’s destiny.

Third song:

Lyrics standing out:

“Don’t make a sound

I know they’re watching

Sex is on fire

I’m driving

We’re the ones to transpire

We’re still the greatest”

First thing I want to say about this song is that towards the end of it, I saw that montage of Hardin and Tessa from After, where they’re running through the library and then get to know each other more and more. So, again, you all have found each other on a new level. Mattia is incredibly grateful for you and thankful that you have them a second chance. They know what people say and they know you hear what people say, but mattia is saying “let them watch” and you couldn’t agree more. You all are happy and thriving. They feel like your relationship will definitely last and they want it to last. They are reminding you to take care of yourself and know that it’s all going to work out. I just heard “you got it, come see me”. Mattia feels almost giddy at just the thought of holding you in their arms. So they want you to hurry but also to put yourself first.

I hope this resonates, please let me know if it does or doesn’t. I hope you’re doing well and I love you so much!!!

[mikidoink]

Ako si Anneza, ang hilig ko ay mag document ng maraming karanasan gamit ang litrato. Mahilig ako maglibot at sumubok ng maraming bagong karanasan.

Kada taon, ang aking pamilya ay nagbabakasyon sa ibat ibang parte ng mundo. Noong Hulyo 2023, nagtungo ako sa Korea para sa aking kaarawan. Malaki ang aking pasasalamat sa aking pamilya dahil nadala nila ako sa lugar na hindi ko akalain na aking mapupuntahan. Sa airport palamang ay hindi ko na mapigilan ang mga ngiti sa aking mga labi.

Paglapag ko sa aiport ng Korea, ako agad ay tumikim ng kanilang donut. Ang korea ay kilala sa makukulay at madisenyo na pagkain, kaya ako ay hindi na nagdalawang isip na bumili. Sumunod ay kumain naman ako ng “Samgyupsal”, kakaiba ang pagtimpla nila ng pagkain dito na kung saan ako ay nagkaroon ng isang masayang karanasan sa Korean cuisine.

Upang hindi masayang ang aking araw, ako ay naglibot sa Myeongdong. Malapit lang dito ang aming tinutuluyan kaya sinadya na namin na puntahan agad. Ito ay isang lugar na kung saan punong puno ng maraming tindahan at streetfoods naman kapag kinagabihan. Sa bawat sulok ay maraming kainan ang nagaalok ng ibat-ibang uri ng pagkain. Tampok dito ang pagkain ng keso na mayroong condensed milk, lobster o ulang na mayroong ibat-ibang keso, at marami pang iba. Bilang isang bata na mahilig sa keso, ako ay nag enjoy ng sobra. Hindi ko mapigilang maglakad dahil sa nakakamangha nilang estraktura at paligid.

Kinabukasan, ako naman ay bumisita sa Gyeongbokgung Palace upang masubukan ang kanilang “Hanbok” sa isang rental place kung saan ikaw ay maaari mamili ng iyong kulay ng damit, haba, at ibat-ibang mga accesories. Habang naglalakad ako sa malawak na hardin, nadama ko angpagpapahalaga sa kultura ng iba. Tila ba na ako’y isang prinsesa sa loob ng isang malaking kaharian. Isa ito sa experience na hindi ko makakalimutan sa aking buhay. Ang renta sa hanbok ay nagdedepende sa iyong oras ng pagbalik. Ang pagsuot ng “Hanbok” ay hindi lamang karanasan, ito rin ay simbolo ng pagtangkilik ng kultura ng iba.

Sumunod sa aming ginawa ay pumunta sa taas ng N Seoul Tower. Mula doon, tanaw ko ang buong lugar, sumakay rin kami ng malaking cable car papunta. Sa itaas ay maaari mong bisitahin ang love lock place na kung saan punong puno ng kadena o lock ang isang buong lugar. Ipinapakita dito ang pagmamahalan at isinusulat ang pangalan ng mahal natin sa buhay. Kinagabihan ay kumain kami sa tanyag na kainan, pinilahan namin ito sa loob ng 45 na minuto upang matikman. Sa murang presyo, ang lasa nito ay kalidad at masarap. Ito ang inirerekomenda ko pag ikaw ay pupunta sa Korea.

Kinabukasan, ako naman ay tumungo sa Fortress Wall of Seoul. Ito ay ang mga bahay na nakikita o napapanood sa isang Korean na movie. Napakaganda ng mga bahay dito pero ang pagbista ay nililimitahan lamang dahil bawal magingay. Ako ay nabawalan dahil sa aking malakas na tawa, ako ay agad humingi ng paumahnhin. Sumunod ay pumunta ako sa Gangnam kung saan nakita ko ang statwa na sumisimbulo sa kanta na “Gangnam Style”, isa sa aking paborito noong ako ay bata pa lamang. Sinubukan ko rin ang mga pagkain sa kanilang 7/11 dahil ito at araw araw ginagawa at marami dito ang gusto kong masubukan. Isa sa tumatak sa aking isip ay ang kanilang cake. Pumunta rin ako isang malaking library, na itinawag na “Starfield Library”. Ito ay puno ng ibat-ibang libro at nasa gitna ito ng isang magarbong mall. Napakasaya sa pakiramdam ng makaranas ng maraming bagong experiences sa loob ng isang araw.

Ika huli ay ang aking pagpunta sa Alpaca World. Ipinilit ko talaga ang aking pamilya na pumunta rito kahit ang byahe ay umaabot sa higit na 2 oras. Ang pagpapakain ng Alpaca ay isa sa aking bucket-list na hiling matupad. Ang pagpunta ko rito ay mas napadali sa pagbook ng tourguide sa klook, hindi kami nahirapan at mas napadali ang pagpunta rito. Liblib ang lugar at ito ay nasa lokasyon na kung saan ito ay nasa bundok. Mahirap makapunta dito kapag ikaw ay magisa lamang kaya mararapat na maghanap tayo ng tourguide. Pagtapos nito ay dumeretso kami sa Nami Island na kung saan makikita ang mararaming mga puno. Sumakay ako ng zipline papunta at ferry naman pabalik. Pagkayari ay sinubukan namin gumamit ng 4x4 bike train upang bumalik sa aming kinaroroonan ulit. Isa itong karanasan na gusto ko pang maulit sa aking buhay. Marami akong nakilala na ibat-ibang lahi, naging masaya ako ng lubos dahil dito.

Sa huli, kami ay bumalik ng Myeongdong upang magpahinga. Sa bawat hakbang, napuno ako ng ibat-ibang karanasan. At ito ang bumubuo sa ibat-ibang parte ng aking sarili. Mula sa paglipad sa paliparan hanggang sa pabalik, naging buo ang aking kasiyahan. Sa pagtatapos ng aking lakbay, ako ay umaasa na muling makabalik sa isang lugar na kung saan natutunan kong sumubok ng maraming pagkain at activity. Hanggang sa muli.

[uispeccoll]

Guest Post from John Martin Rare Book Room

Hardin Library for the Health Sciences

FOX, JOSEPH (1775-1816). The natural history of the human teeth. Printed in London for J. Cox, 1803. 100 pages. 13 illustrations. 30 cm tall.

Welcome to spring, everyone! As we count down to longer days, more sun, flowers in bloom, and a twitterpated animal kingdom, I naturally want to talk about...teeth. So let's sink our teeth into Joseph Fox's (1775-1816) The natural history of the human teeth (first edition - 1803).

Joseph Fox was a trailblazer in dentistry who made significant contributions to the field during the early 19th century. Born in London in 1775, Fox received his medical training at Guy's Hospital. A student of John Hunter and Henry Cline, Joseph Fox was eventually appointed the first lecturer on dentistry at Guy's Hospital.  He was the first dental surgeon appointed to a hospital position and one of the first medical practitioners to devote themselves completely to the care of teeth.

For those with dental anxiety, you can thank Dr. Fox for stressing the need for regular dentist visits. He argued this was especially important for children as they grew and "shed" their first set of teeth.

Fox cared deeply for his profession and wrote and lectured on the importance of improving the quality and standards of dentistry. He stressed that dentistry must have a scientific foundation as it was a medical field.

Beyond teeth, Fox was a passionate proponent of Edward Jenner and vaccination, even offering up his house as a vaccination location, and helped to found the Jenner Society. He was also involved in educational and abolitionist causes.

From 1799 until his death, Fox lectured on dentistry at Guy's Hospital in London. Based on his lectures, he first published The natural history of the human teeth in 1803 and the companion volume, The history and treatment of the diseases of the teeth, in 1806.

Improving and expanding the work of foundational dental scholars, such as Pierre Fouchard, these were the first works in English to provide instructions for the correction of certain dental irregularities. They also have several detailed and sometimes striking illustrations, including the first to show operative procedures and dental pathologies.

There were many editions, including in other languages, and though much of his theory of oral physiology and pathology was of dubious value, his operative procedures remained in vogue for more than fifty years. Along with the clinical and surgical aspects of the book, Fox also provides his thoughts on the biggest issues in the profession, giving the reader a fuller context of the profession at the time.

The book is bound in blue-painted paper over thin paper boards and rebacked with a thick cloth spine. The book is not only striking for its illustrations but also for the text pages. As can be seen from the image above, the book was printed with slightly larger type and very large margins. Anyone with eyesight as poor as mine is grateful for that.

--Curator Damien Ihrig

[driftwork]

names, mostly surnames (1)

let me apologise for this partial list of names in the library,  titles available on request...

, Adorno, horkheimer, anderson, aristotle, greta adorno, marcuse, agamben, acampora and acampora, althussar, lajac kovacic, eric alliez, marc auge,  attali, francis bacon (16th c), aries, aries and bejin, alain badiou, beckett, hallward, barnes, bachelard, bahktin, volshinov, baudrillard, barthes, john beattie, medvedev, henri bergson, Jacques Bidet, berkman, zybmunt bauman, burgin, baugh, sam  butler, ulrich beck, andrew benjamin and peter osbourne, walter benjamin, ernest bloch, blanchot,  bruzins,  bonnet,  karin bojs,  bourdieu,  j.d. bernal, goldsmith,  benveniste, braidotti,  brecht,  burch, victor serge, andre breton, judith butler, malcolm bull, stanley cohen, john berger, etienne balibar, david bohm, gans blumenberg, martin buber, christopher caudwell, micel callon, albert camus, agnes callard,  castoridis, claudio celis bueno, carchedi and roberts, Marisol de la cadena,  mario blaser, nancy cartwright, manual castells, mark  currie, collingwood, canguilhem, mario corti, stuart hall, andrew lowe, paul willis, coyne, stefan collini, varbara cassin, helene cixous, coward and ellis, clastres, carr, cioren,  irving copi, cassirer, carter and willians, margeret cohen,  Francoise dastur, guy debord, agnes martin,  michele bernstein, alice, lorraine dastun, debaise, Gilles Deleuze, deleuze and gattari, guattari, parnet, iain mackenzie, bignall, stivale, holland, smith, james williams, zourabichvili, paul patton, kerslake,  schuster, bogue, bryant,  anne sauvagnargues, hanjo berresen, frida beckman, johnson, gulliarme and hughes, valentine moulard-leonard, desai,  dosse, duttman, d’amico,  benoit peters, derrida, hinca zarifopol-johnston, sean gaston,  discourse, mark poster, foucault,  steve fuller, markus gabrial, rosenbergm  milchamn, colin jones,  van fraasen,  fekete,  vilem flusser, flahault, heri focillon, rudi visker, ernst fischer,  fink, faye, fuller, fiho, marco bollo, hans magnus enxensberger, leen de bolle, canetti, ilya enrenberg,  thuan, sebastion peake, mervyn peake, robert henderson, reimann, roth,  bae suah,  yabouza, marco bellatin, cartarescu, nick harkaway, chris norris, deLanda, regis debray, pattern and doniger,  soame jynens, bernard williams, descartes, anne dufourmanteille, michelle le doeuff, de certaeu , deligny, Georges Dumezil, dumenil and levy,  bernard edelman, victorverlich, berio, arendt, amy allen, de beauvior,hiroka azumi,  bedau and humphreys,  beuad,  georges bataille, caspar  henderson,  chris innes,  yevgeny zamyatin,  louis aragon, italo calvino, pierre guirard,  trustan garcia, rene girard, paul gilroy, michal gardner,  andre gorz, jurgan gabermas, martin gagglund, beatrice hannssen, jean hyppolyte, axel honneth, zizek and crickett, stephen heath,  calentin groebner, j.b.s. haldane,  ian hacking,  david hakken,  hallward and oekken,  haug, harman, latour, arnold hauser, hegel, pippin, pinksrd, michel henry, louis hjelmslev,  gilbert hardin, alice jardine, karl jaspers, suzzane kirkbright, david hume,  thomas hobbes, barry hindus, paul hirst, hindess and hirst, wrrner hamacher,  bertrand gille,  julien huxley, halavais, irigaray, ted honderich, julia kristeva, leibnitz, d lecourt,  lazzaroto, kluge and negt, alexander kluge, sarah kofman, alexandre kojeve,  kolozoya, keynes,  richard kangston, ben lehman, kant,  francous jullien, fred hameson, sntonio rabucchi, jaeggi, steve lanierjones, tim jackson,  jakobson,   joeseph needham, arne de boever,  marx and engels, karl marx, frederick engels, heinrich,  McLellen , maturana and varuna,  lem, lordon, jean jacques-lecercle,  malabou,  marazzi,  heiner muller,  mary midgley, armand matterlart, ariel dorfman, matakovsky, nacneice, lucid,  victor margolis, narco lippi,  glen mazis, nair,  william morris,  nabis,  jean luc nancy,  geoffrey nash,  antonio negri,  negri and hardt, hardt, keith ansell pearson, pettman, william ruddiman, rheinberger, andre orlean, v.i. vernadsky,  rodchenko,  john willet, tarkovsky, william empson,  michel serres,  virillio, semiotexte, helmut heiseenbuttel,  plessner, pechaux, raunig, retort,  saito,  serres, dolphin, maria assad, spinoza,  bernard sharratt, isabelle stengers,  viktor shklovsky,  t. todorov,  enzo traverso, mario tronti,  todes, ivan pavlov,  whitehead, frank trentmann, trubetzkoy, rodowink, widderman, karl wittfogel, peter handke, olivier rolin, pavese,  robert walser, petr kral, von arnim,  sir john mennis,  ladies cabinet,  samuel johnson, edmund spenser,  efy poppy, yoko ogawa, machado,  kaurence durrell,  brigid brophy,  a. betram chandler, maria gabriella llansol, fowler,  ransmayr,  novick, llewellyn,  brennan, sean carroll,  julien rios, pintor, wraxall,  jaccottet, tabucchi,  iain banks, glasstone,  clarice lispector,  murakami, ludmilla petrushevskaya,  motoya, bachmann, lindqvist,  uwe johnson, einear macbride,  szentkuthy,  vladislavic, nanguel,  mathias enard,  chris tomas, jonathan meades,  armo schmidt, charles yu, micheal sorkin, vilas- matas, varesi, peter weiss,  stephenson, paul legrande,  virginie despentes, pessoa,  brin,  furst, gunter trass, umberto eco, reid, paul,klee, mario levero, hearn, judith schalansky, moorhead,  margert walters, rodchenko and popova, david king, alisdair gray, burroughs, ben fine, paul hirst, hindess,  kapuscinski, tchaikovsky,  brooke-rose, david hoon kim, helms,  mahfouz, ardret,  felipe fernandez-armesto,  young and tagomon,  aronson,  bonneuil and  fressoz, h.s. bennett, amy allen, bruckner brown, honegger, bernhard,  warren miller, albert thelen,  margoy bennett, rose macauley,  nenjamin peret, sax rohmer, angeliki, bostrom, phillip ball, the invisible commitee, bataille and leiris,  gregory bateson, michelle barrett and mary mcintosh, bardini, bugin, mcdonald, kaplan, buck-moores,  chesterman and lipman,  berman,  cicero, chanan,  chatelet,  helene cixous, iain cha,bers,  smirgel, norman clark, caird, camus,  clayre, chomsky, critchley,  curry,  swingewood,  luigi luca cavelli-sforza,  clark, esposito, doerner,  de duve, alexander dovzhenko, donzelot,  dennet, doyle, burkheim, de camp,  darwin,  dawkins,  didi-huberman, dundar, george dyson, berard deleuze, evo, barbara ehrenrich,  edwards,  e isenstein, ebeking, economy and society, esposito,  frederick gross,  david edgeerton,  douglas,  paul,feyerband,  jerry fodor,  gorrdiener,  tom forester, korsgaard,  fink,  floridi, elizabeth groscz, pierre francastel,  jane jacobs,  francois laplantinee,  gould,  galloway, goux,  godel, grouys, genette,  gil, kahloo, giddens,  martin gardner,  gilbert and dubar, hobbes,  herve, golinski, grotowski, glieck,  hayles, heidegger, huxley, eric hobsbawn, jean-louis hippolyte,  phillip hoare, tim jordan,  david harvey, hawking, hoggart,  rosemary jackson,  myerson,  mary jacobus, fox keller, illich,  sarah fofman, sylvia harvey, john holloway, han,  jaspers, yuk hui,  pierre hadot, carl gardner,  william james, bell hooks,  edmond jabes,  kierkegaard, alexander keen, kropotkin, tracy kidder,  mithen, kothari and mehta, lind,  c. joad,  bart kosko, kathy myers,  kaplan,  luce irigaraay, patrick ke iller, kittler,  catherine belsey,  kmar,  klossowski, holmes, kant, stanton,  ernesto laclau, jenkins, la mouffe,  walter john williams, adam greenfield, susan greenfield, paul auster, viet nguyen, jeremy nicholson,  andy weir, fred jameson,  lacoue-labarthe,  bede,  jane gallop, lacan,  wilden,  willy ley,  henri lefebvre, rob sheilds,  sandra laugier, micheal lowy, barry levinson, sylvain lazurus, lousardo, leopardo, jean-francois lyotard, jones,  lewontin,  steve levy,  alice in genderland,  laing, lanier, lakatos, laurelle, luxemburg,  lukacs, jarsh,  james lovelock, ideologu and consciousness, economy and society, screen, deleuze studies, deleuze and guattari studies,  bruno latour, david lapoujade,  stephen law, primo levi,  levi-strauss,  emmanuel levinas,  viktor schonberger, pierre levy, gustav landaur,  robin le poidevin,  les levidow, lautman, david cooper,  serge leclaire, catherine malabou, karl kautsky, alice meynall,  j.s. mill, montainge,  elaine miller, rosa levine-meyer, jean luc marion, henri lefebrve,  lipovetsky, terry lovell,  niklas luhmann,  richard may, machiavelli, richard mabey, john mullzrkey,  meyerhold, edward braun,  magri,  murray, nathanial lichfield, noelle mcafee,  hans meyer,  ouspensky, lucretius, asa briggs, william morris, christian metz, laura mulvey, len masterman,  karl mannheim, louis marin, alaister reynolds,  antonio  munoz molina,  FRAZER,  arno schmidt,  dinae waldman,  mark rothko, cornwall, micheal snow, sophie henaff, scarlett thomas,  matuszewski, lillya brik,  rosamond lehman , morris and o’conner,  nina bawden, cora sandel, delafield, storm jameson,  lovi , rachel ferguson,  stevie smith, pat barker, miles franklin, fay weldon,  crista wolff, grace paley, v. woolf, naomi mitchinson, sheila rowbotham,  e, somerville and v ross, sander marai,  jose  saramago,  strugatsky, jean echenoz, mark robso,  vladimir Vernadsky,  chris marker, Kim Stanley Robinson,  mario leverdo,  r.a. lafferty, martin bax, mcaulay, tatyana tolstaya,  colinn kapp,  jonathan meades,  franco fortini,  sam delany, philip e high, h.g. adler, feng menglong,  adam thorpe,  peeter nadas,  sam butler, narnold silver,  deren,  joanna moorhead, leonara carrington,  de waal,  hartt, botticelli,  charbonneau, casco pratolini,  murakami, aldiss,  guidomorselli, ludmilla petrushevskaya, ,schulz,  de andrade, yasushi. inoue, renoir,  amelie  nothomb,  ken liu,  prynne,  ANTIONE VOLODINE, luc brasso,  angela greene,  dorothea tanning,  eric chevillard,  margot bennett w.e. johns, conan doyle,  samuel johnson,  herge,  coutine-denamy, sterling, roubaud,  sloan, meiville,  delarivier manley, andre norton, perec, edward upward, tom mcCarthy,  magrinya,  stross,  eco, godden,  malcolm lowry,  derekmiller,  ismail kadare,  scott lynch, chris fowler, perter newman,  suzzana clarke,  paretky, juliscz balicki,  stanislaw maykowski, rajaniemi, william morris, c.k. crow,  ueys,  oldenburg,  mssrc chwmot,  will pryce,  munroe,  brnabas and kindersley, tromans,   lem, zelazny,  mitchinson, harry Harrison,  konstantin tsiolkovsky,  flammerion,  harrison, arthur c clarke, carpenter, john brunner,  anhony powell,  ted white, sheckley,  kristof, kempowski, shingo,  angelica groodischer,  rolin,  galeanom  dobin,  richard holloway,  pohl and kornbulth,  e.r. eddison,  ken macleodm  aldiss,  dave hutchinson,  alfred bester, budrys,  pynchon,  kurkov,  wisniewski_snerg, , kenji miyazawa,  dante,  laidlaw,  paek nam_nyong, maspero, colohouquon, hernandez,      christina hesselholdt, claude simon, bulgaakov,  simak,  verissimo,  sorokin,  sarraute,  prevert,  celan, bachmann,  mervin peake,  olaf stapledon,  sa rohmer,  robert musil,  le clezio,  jeremy cooper,  zambra,  giorgio de chirico,  mjax frisch,  gawron,  daumal,  tomzza,  canetti,  framcois maspero,  de quincy, defoe, green,, greene, marani,  bellatin,  khury, tapinar,, richmal crompton,  durrenmat,  fritz,  quintane,  volponi,  nanni balestrini,  herrera,  robert walser,  duras,  peter stamm,  m foster,  lan wright,  their theotokism  agustn de rojas, paul eluard,  sturgeon,  hiromi kawakomi,  sayaka murata,  wolfgang hilbig,  hmilton,  z  zivkovic,  gersson,  mallo,  bird,  chaudrey, Toussaint, Can Xue, Lewis Mumford, neitzsche, popper, zizek, scott westerfield, rousseau, lewis munford, tod may,  penelope maddy, elaine marks,  isabelle courtivron, leroi, massumi,  david sterritt, godard, millican and clark, macabe, negri,  mauss, maiimon, patrica maccormack, moretti, courtney humphries,  monad, moyn, malina, picasso, goldman, dambisa moyo,  merleau-ponty, Nicholson, knobe and nichols, poinciore, morris, ovid, ming, nail, thomas more, richard mabey,  macfarlane,  piscator,  louis-stempal,  negrastini, moore,  jacquline rose,  rose and rose, ryle, roszick, rosenburg, ravisson, paul ricoer,  rossler,  chantl mouffe,  david reiff, plato, slater, rowlands, rosa, john roberts,  rhan, dubios and rousseau, ronell,  jacques ranciere, mallarme,  quinodoz, peterpelbert, mary poovey, mackenzie, andrew price, opopper,  roger penrose, lu cino parisi,  gavin rae, parker and pollack,  mirowoski, perniola, postman, panofsky, propp, paschke and rodel, andre pickering, massabuau, lars svenddsen,  rosenberg and whyte, t.l.s. sprigger,  nancy armstrong,  sallis,  dale spender,  stanislavski,  vanessa schwartz,  shapin and shaeffer, sally sedgewick,  signs,  gabriel tarde,  charles singer, adam smith,  simondon,  pascal chablt,  combes, jon roffee, edward said,  sen,  nik farrell fox, sartre,  fred emery,  scholes, herbert spencer, ruth saw, spinoza,  raphael sassower, henry sidgewick, peter singer,  katarznya de lazari-radek,  piaget,  podach,  van der post, on fire, one press,  melossi and  pavarini,  pearl and mackenzie,  theirry paquot, tanizaki, RHS,  stone,  richard sennett,  graham priest,  osborn and pagnell, substance, pedrag cicovacki, schilthuizen,  susan sontag, gillian rose,  nikolas rose,  g rattery taylor, rose,  rajan,  stuart sim,  max raphael,  media culture and society,  heller- roazen,  rid, root, rossi, gramsci, showstack sasson, david roden,  adrew ross, rosenvallion, pauliina remes, pkato, peter sloterdijk, tamsin shaw, george simmel, bullock and trombley, mark francis,  alain supiot, suvin, mullen and suvin, stroma,  maimonides,  van vogt,  the clouds on unknowing, enclotic, thesis 11,  spivack,  kate raworth,  h.w. richardson,  hillial schwartz, stern, rebecca solnit, rowland parker,  pickering,  lukacs,  epicriud, epicetus, lucrtious,  aurelies,  w.j.oates,  thor Hanson,  thompson, mabey,  sheldrake,  eatherley,  plato, jeffries,  dorothy richardson,  arno schmidt,   earl derr biggersm  mary borden, birrel, arno schmidt,  o.a. henty,  berhard steigler,  victor serge,  smith,  joyce salisbury, pauer-studer,  timpanaro,  s helling, schlor, norman and welchman,  searle, emanuele severarimo,  tomasello, sklar, judith singer, walmisley,  thomas malthus,  quentin meilassoux,  alberto meelucchi,  mingione, rurnbull,  said, spufford and  uglow,  zone,  j.j.c. smartt, sandel, skater, songe-moller,  strawson,  strawson, strawson, raymond tallis,  toscano,  turkle,  tiqquin, diggins,  j.s. ogilivy, w.w. hutchings,  rackgam,  deiter roth,  dowell,  red notes,  campbell and pryce,osip brik, lilya brik, mayakovsky, zone, alvin toffker, st exupery, freya stark, warson, walsh, wooley, tiles and oberdick, timofeeva, richardson, marcuse,  marder,  wright,  ushenko, tolson, albebers and moholy- nagy, alyce mahon, gablik, burnett, barry, hill, fontaine, sanuel johnson,justin, block, taylor, peter handke, jacques rivette,  william sansom, bunuel and dali, tom bullough, aldius huxley, philip robinson, spendor, tzara,  wajcman, peter wohlleben,  prigogini,  paolo virno,  jeremy tunstall, theweliet,  taussig,  tricker,  vince,  thomss, williams,  vogl, new german critique,  e.p. thompson,  jean wahl, paul virilio, lotringer, christy wampole, verhaeghe, janet wolff, anna kavan, vergara,  uexkull,  couze venn, barry smart, vico,  vatimo, vernant, raoul vaneigem,  ibn warraq, vertov,  williams,  meiksins wood, norbert weiner, peter wollen,  h.g. wells,  michelle walker, , jeanne waelit  walters,  shaw and darlen, whorf,  ward and dubois,  john wright,  weinart, wolff, willis, wark, cosima wagner, j. weeks,  judith williamson,  welzbacher, erik olin wright, wittgenstein, kenny,  zeldin, wenders,  henry miller, wenkler, arrighi,  banks, innes, ushereood, kristeva, john cage, quignard,  t.f. powys, siri hustveldt, lem,  zelazny, mitchonson,  tsilolkovsky, toussaint, heppenstall, garrigasait, de kerangal, haine fenn, jean bloch,  geoff ryman, reve, corey, asemkulov, ernaux,  gareth powell, cory,  deleuze and guattari studies, cse, allain and souvestre, apolinaire, jane austen, john arden, aitmatov,  elizabth von arnim, paul auster, abish,  ackroyd, tom gunn, lorca, akhmatov, artuad,  simon armatige, albahari, felipe alfau, audem auden and soendor, varicco, barrico, bainbridge, asturias, ronan bennett, beckett, paul bowles, jane bowles, celine, bukowski,  wu ming, blissert,  kay boyle,  andrei  bely,  hugo barnacle,  BOLL,  isak dineson, karen blikson,  brodsky,  richmel crompton,  berry, barthleme,  mary butts, leonora carrington, cage,  chevhillard,  canetti,  cendres,  butor,  cortazar, danielewski,  bertha damon,  dyer, havier cercas, micheal dibden, marguerite duras, john donne, duras, durrell,  dorrie,  Fredric durrenmatt,  heppenstahl, eco, enzensberger, evanovich, fruentes,  farrell,  alison fell,  alisdair gray,  hollinhurst,  andre gide,  jean giono, gadda, henry green,  grass,  andre gorz,  william gibson,  joyce,  gombrowitz,  alex laishley, murakami,  herve guibert,  franz kafka,  juenger, junker, kapuscinski, laurie king,  kundera,  mcewan, ken macleod,  ian macdonald,  moers,  meades,  vonda macintyre,  nalmstom, maillert,  havier marias,  jeff noon,  anaus nin,  david nobbs,  peter nadas,  nabokov,  iakley, oates,  raymond queneau,  cesare pavese, paterson, ponge,  perte, perec, chinery, ovid,  genette,  kandinsky, robert pinget, richard piwers,  rouvaud, sloan, surrralist poetry, ilya troyanov, paul,raabe,  julien rios, arne dahl, pierre sollers, rodrigruez,  chris ross, renate rasp, ruiz, rulfo, tove jannsson, cabre,  vladislavic, tokarczuk, pessoa, jane bowles, calvino, lispector, lydia davis, can xue,  sebald, peter tripp,  hertzberg,  virginia woolf,  zozola, sorrentino, higgins,  v.w. straka, cogman, freud, jung, klein, winnecot, lacan,  fordham, samuels,  jung, freud, appignesai,  bjp, pullman, magnam, sybil marshall, mccarten,  galbraith, jewell,  lehmann,  levy,  levin, jung,  spinoza,  fairburn,  jung, sandler,  lacan,  laplanche,  pontalis, can, xue,  klein, cavelli, hawkins, stevens,  hanna segal, bollas,  welldon,  williams,  sutherland, buon,  symington,  morrison,  brittain,  sidoli, sidoli,  holmes, bowlby, winnecott,   bollas,  kalschiid,  malan, patrick casement,  anna frued, wittenburg,  liz wright,  fordham, fairburn, symington, sandler,  jung, balint,  coltart,  west, steiner,  van der post,  stern,  green,  roustang,  adrew samuels,  d.l. sayers,  salom, krassner,  swain,  rame and fo,  storr,  cogman,  hessen,  penelope fitzgerald,  cummings, richard holloway,  juhea kim,  glenville, heyer, cartland,  kim, cho,  atkinson,  james,  king, audten,  hartley,  du maurier,  bronte,  thomas, plath, leon,  camillairi, kaussar, fred fargas, boyd,  sjowall and wahloo,  pheby,  morenno-garcia, perrsson,  herron, nicola barker, arronovitch,  karen lord, stephen frosh, ernest jones, flamm o’brien, shin, mishra, chin jin-young and so on to the warm horizon

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Daughter of day laborer. Scioto Marshes, Hardin County, Ohio (colorization) by Library of Congress

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Elena e Tessa: in questo mio ennesimo commento dell’Amica Geniale voglio comparare Elena con Tessa di After. Per caso nel periodo in cui ho ascoltato l’Amica Geniale 3 stavo anche leggendo After 2 e e mi sono ritrovata a comparare le due bionde e in un certo modo folli protagoniste che ormai considero amiche mie. I personaggi dei libri diventano amici tuoi con facilità quando ti parlano in prima persona e ti raccontano le loro storie considerandoti loro degna ascoltatrice. Anche se si tratta di due libri ben diversi per stile e qualità ritengo che queste due ragazze si somigliano molto ed è soprattutto la loro follia a renderle simili: entrambe decidono di abbandonare una vita che hanno costruito con qualcuno che le amava senza ombra di dubbio per correre dietro ad un ragazzo che fa loro perdere la testa, un classico colpo di fulmine per chi ha quella qualità di essere irresistibile. Se nelle prime letture ho accettato questa loro scelta senza farmi domande ultimamente mi ritrovo a chiedermi soprattutto con il senno di poi di come andranno a finire le loro storie se hanno fatto bene. Elena si era finalmente svincolata dalla sua odiata città, era diventata benestante e aveva tutto e Nino non solo l’ha riportata a Napoli ma le ha dimostrato che non era la persona degna di quel suo sacrificio tanto che poi Elena alla fine si ritrova sola, non triste ma ci possiamo chiedere: ha fatto davvero bene? Forse no. La differenza fondamentale tra After e l’Amica Geniale è che su After c’è il classico lieto fine, anche se quattro libri sono stati realistici alla fine Tessa e Hardin trovano l’armonia di cui lei aveva bisogno e dunque il sacrificio di Tessa di lasciare Noah è stato ripagato. Elena invece si scontra con la dura realtà che sempre Ferrante ci mostra, i personaggi rimangono realistici fino alla fine, sono persone vere e non hanno quella necessità di dirci “andrà tutto bene vedrai” come succede con After. L’amica geniale 3 🎧 commento: Elena e Tessa My #bookstagram 📚 #recensione with #portrait I’m the #librarian 🐱 #instagram Here there are #books #libri #library #photography #comments and #reviews 🇮🇹 #audiobooks #audible (presso Falconara Marittima) https://www.instagram.com/p/CnpBPfbqheL/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[clemiju]

Someday, I’ll make a home with you, it may be big it may be small. Pero sandali nga, ano ba ang dream house mo? sa’kin kasi, simple lang naman, nothing too luxurious— isang kubol, pero ang gusto ko sa Baguio o kundi sa Tagaytay.

Sa aking pangarap na tahanan, gusto ko ng balkonahe with a great view of the mountains, pine trees at ang mga bahay na sobrang ganda kahit sila’y nag ka dikit-dikit, ito ay nakaka-hanga pa rin. At gusto ko rin ng malaki na kusina, at sa lutuan mismo, nais ko ng bintana na sakto ang laki, at may magandang tunawin. And, you don’t need to worry about cooking dahil ako na ang bahala sa lahat— I’ll make you breakfast every morning. Ako na ang mag luto, ikaw na ang mag hugas, pero gusto ko rin sa tuwing ako’y nag luluto, niyayakap mo ako mula sa likod, para mas maramdam ko ang lambing mo. (Sabayan mo rin ng kiss, please) O kaya naman, p’wede rin na tayong dalawa mismo ang magluluto, while we do this side by side— our daughter will be in charge of arranging the plates on the table, with 'Be With You' by The Ridleys playing in the background.

Gusto ko rin ng malaking hardin na puno ng mga magagandang bulaklak at halamang gulay, sa gitna nito, I want to put a patio so all of us three can sing together, listen close— I’ll sing your name. And ikaw mismo ang maglalaro ng gitara. As the gentle breeze blows, we’ll create beautiful melodies, and our laughter will fill the air— making every moment magical.

Gusto ko rin pala ng maliit na library so you can read all of the books na gusto mong basahin, kaya sa tuwing wala ka sa bahay o sa tabi ko— ako nalang ang mag babasa sa mga paborito mong libro habang nakikinig sa mga paborito mong musika, dahil in them, I find little bits of you.

At tsaka, gusto ko rin ng kwarto sa second floor na may magandang tanawin. It’s like ang bungad mo sa umaga ay ang balcony mo and the amazing view of the mountains and pine trees. Plus, waking up beside her every morning will be the first thing I see— her beautiful smile, which totally brightens my day and makes everything feel so right in this world.

Minsan naman, nag-uusap kami tungkol sa mga pangarap namin habang naka higa, hawak ang telepono— sharing our hopes and aspirations, making plans of our future. Like, 'Magkakaroon din ako ng madaming Jollibee Franchise, bibigyan ko lahat ’yung mga ex mo para hindi mo na sila ilibre.' And, ang cute pa ng laugh niya whenever I make my stupid jokes, her voice is like a music to my ears.

I can already imagine how I’ll hold her close, wrapping my arms around her. I’ll always make sure na she feels just as loved as she makes me feel, kasi ’di ba nga sabi ni Pablo Neruda, 'I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where'— ganon ka deep ang love ko for her.

Pero nga, ikaw ang kasama ko. Every little thing you dream of will have its place in our home, dahil nga it’s not just my dream house— it’s ours, built for us and filled everything with everything we love.

Beyond everything, I want our home to feel like a sanctuary. Not just a place to live, but parang isang warm embrace after a long day. I once asked my self, 'What makes a home?'— and I realized it’s not just about where you go, but who you’re with. I want our house to be the place you safe, the place you return to when the world gets tough.

But if the dreams don’t happen right away, but as we wait, I promise I’ll be here, working on myself— for us, in our on ways and for the better. I’ll make sure na our home reflects all the love and effort we pour into it. It’s a place where you’ll feel cherished, no matter what life throws our way. I’ll be more of a shelter than less a storm, I will work on my temper and be more careful with my words para hindi kita masaktan. Hinding-hindi ko papatawarin ang sarili ko kung nasaktan kita, habang minamahal kita at the same time. I will do everything to be with you every single day and for the rest our lives.

When our hearts lead us there, we’ll craft a sanctuary that resonates with our laughter and love. Hindi ‘yung puro sigawan at masasakit na salita ang umuugong, kundi puno ng saya at pag-unawa. Sabay-sabay tayong kakain tuwing almusal, tanghalian, at hapunan. There will be no explosive rage, no slamming doors, no breaking things, and no holes punched into the walls. Our home will be gentle and warm. Both of us have come from broken and twisted places, but I promise to do my best to build you a home that truly feels like a home. I want our daughter to grow up without needing to heal from the past or carry the burdens and trauma we endured back then in that terrible place.

Together, we’ll create a haven kung saan our Lavinia (this will be our daughter’s name hehe) can thrive, surrounded by love and kindness, para malaman niya na she is safe and cherished every day.

[fragilelunar]

2023 Reading Wrap Up

General Stats:

Total Books Read: 105

Pages: 25, 224

Time: 194.17 Hours

Average Rating: 4.31 Stars

Library Books: 41

Books Owned: 14

5 Stars: 38

hello! for my first post on this new blog I figured I'd do a little wrap up of my reading from last year!! Tiny bit of back history to give y'all before I start doing monthly wrap ups and things. I always make my reading goal 50 books so that I can easily hit it and then just vibe the rest of the year btw!!

anyways!! here are all the books I read last year and my ratings of each:

Finale - Stephanie Garber ✭✭✭✭

The Sun Does Shine: How I Found Life and Freedom on Death Row - Lara Love Hardin, Anthony Ray Hinton ✭✭✭✭✭

The Inheritance Games - Jennifer Lynn Barners ✭✭✭✭✭

Unmasked: My Life Solving America's Cold Cases - Paul Holes ✭✭✭✭✭

Aquicorn Cove - K. O'neill ✭✭✭✭✭

Highly Suspicious and Unfairly Cute - Talia Hibbert ✭✭✭✭.5

Doughnuts and Doom - Balazs Lorinczi ✭✭✭✭

The Severed Thread - Leslia Vedder ✭✭✭✭

Anya's Ghost - Vera Brosgol ✭✭✭.5

The Hawthorne Legacy - Jennifer Lynn Barnes ✭✭✭✭

The Final Gambit - Jennifer Lynn Barnes ✭✭✭✭

Cultish: The Language of Fanaticism - Amanda Montell ✭✭✭✭

Babel - R.F. Kuang ✭✭✭✭✭

Save Yourself! - Bones Leopard ✭✭✭✭✭

Blink - Christopher Sebela ✭✭✭

The River Has Teeth - Erica Waters ✭✭✭✭.5

Hold Back the Tide - Melinda Salisbury ✭✭✭✭

Atari and Tika - Efa ✭✭✭✭

Goblin Slayer Vol 1 - Kumo Kagyu ✭✭✭.5

Goblin Slayer Vol 2 - Kumo Kagyu ✭✭✭✭

The Memory Eater - Rebecca Mahoney ✭✭✭✭✭

Legends & Lattes - Travis Baldree ✭✭✭✭

Amari and the Great Game - B.B. Alston ✭✭✭✭.5

Thanks a Lot, Universe - Chad Lucas ✭✭✭✭.5

Coming Back - Jessi Zabarsky ✭✭✭.5

I Wish You All the Best - Mason Deaver ✭✭✭✭✭

Heartstopper Vol 1 - Alice Oseman ✭✭✭✭✭

Heartstopper Vol 2 - Alice Oseman ✭✭✭✭✭

Heartstopper Vol 3 - Alice Oseman ✭✭✭✭✭

Heartstopper Vol 4 - Alice Oseman ✭✭✭✭✭

Chaos & Flame - Tessa Gratton, Justina Ireland ✭✭✭✭

Heart, Haunt, Havoc - Freydis Moon

The Feeling of Falling in Love - Mason Deaver ✭✭✭✭✭

Ana on the Edge - A.J. Sass ✭✭✭✭

Hell Followed With Us - Andrew Joseph White ✭✭✭✭✭

The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes - Suzanne Collins ✭✭.5

Solitaire - Alice Oseman ✭✭✭✭✭

Nick and Charlie - Alice Oseman ✭✭✭✭✭

Radio Silence - Alice Oseman ✭✭✭✭✭

Belle of the Ball - Mari Costa ✭✭✭✭✭

Devil on Her Shoulder - Cédric Mayen ✭✭✭✭

City of Vicious Night - Claire Winn ✭✭✭✭

SpyxFamily Vol 1 - Tatsuya Endo ✭✭✭✭✭

Joe Hill's Rain - David M. Booher, Joe Hill ✭✭✭✭

Small Nozomi and Big Yume - Sou Hamayumiba ✭✭✭

Girls Like Girls - Hayley Kiyoko ✭✭✭✭

Cursed - Marissa Meyer ✭✭✭✭

I Was Born for This - Alice Oseman ✭✭✭✭✭

Threads That Bind - Kika Hatzopoulou ✭✭✭✭✭

Mooncakes - Suzanne Walker ✭✭✭✭

Ellen Outside the Lines - A.J. Sass ✭✭✭✭✭

Always Human - Ari North ✭✭✭✭

Out of the Blue - Jason June ✭✭✭✭

The Backstagers Vol 1 - James Tynion IV ✭✭✭✭.5

The Backstagers Vol 2 - James Tynion IV ✭✭✭✭✭

Dear Mothman - Robin Gow ✭✭✭✭✭

The Alchemy of Moonlight - David Ferraro ✭✭✭✭

Fake Dates and Mooncakes - Sher Lee ✭✭✭✭✭

The Backstagers Vol 3 - James Tynion IV ✭✭✭✭

So This Is Ever After - F.T. Lukens ✭✭✭✭

Bruised - Tanya Boteju ✭✭✭✭✭

Spell Bound - F.T. Lukens ✭✭✭✭.5

Sensory: Life on the Spectrum - Schnumm, Bex Ollerton ✭✭✭✭✭

Gender Is Really Strange - Teddy G. Goetz ✭✭✭✭✭

If You'll Have Me - Eunnie ✭✭✭✭✭

Fourth Wing - Rebecca Yarros ✭✭.5

Ode to My First Car - Robin Gow ✭✭✭.5

Save Me! (From Myself): Crushes, Cats, and Existential Crises - So Lazo ✭✭✭✭✭

Soppy: A Love Story - Philippa Rice ✭✭✭✭

You're Not Supposed to Die Tonight - Kalynn Bayron ✭✭✭

Rebent Sinner - Ivan Coyote ✭✭✭✭

The Bone Shard Daughter - Andrea Stewart ✭✭✭✭

Legendborn - Tracy Deonn ✭✭✭✭

The Bone Shard Emperor - Andrea Stewart ✭✭✭✭.5

The Spirit Bares Its Teeth - Andrew Joseph White ✭✭✭✭✭

Open Throat - Henry Hoke ✭✭✭.5

Girl Juice - Benji Nate ✭✭✭✭

Flavor Girls - Loïc Locatelli-Kournwsky, Eros De Santiago ✭✭✭✭

The Love Report - Béka ✭✭✭.5

Last Chance Books - Kelsey Rodkey ✭✭✭.5

Red Rising - Pierce Brown ✭✭✭✭

Where Darkness Blooms - Andrea Hannah ✭✭✭.5

Bittersweet in the Hollow - Kate Pearsall ✭✭✭✭.5

Dead Women Don't Tell Tales - Adrian J. Smith ✭✭✭.5

The Black Cat & the Vampire Vol 1 - Nikke Taino ✭✭✭✭

Mortal Follies - Alexis Hall ✭✭✭✭

The Hundred Years' War on Palestine - Rashid Khalidi ✭✭✭✭✭

The Black Cat & the Vampire Vol 2 - Nikke Taino ✭✭✭✭

These Violent Delights - Chloe Gong ✭✭✭✭✭

The Brothers Hawthorne - Jennifer Lynn Barnes ✭✭✭✭

Squire - Nadia Shammas ✭✭✭✭

The Companion - E.E. Ottoman ✭✭✭✭

Unfamiliar - Haley Newsome ✭✭✭✭

Something More - Jackie Khalilieh ✭✭✭.5

Turtle Bread - Kim-Joy ✭✭✭✭

Our Violent Ends - Chloe Gong ✭✭✭✭✭

Lore Olympus Vol 1 - Rachel Smythe ✭✭✭✭

Lore Olympus Vol 2 - Rachel Smythe ✭✭✭✭

Minor Detail - Adania Shibli ✭✭✭✭✭

Unfamiliar 2 - Haley Newsome ✭✭✭✭

Lore Olympus Vol 3 - Rachel Smythe ✭✭✭✭

Freedom Is a Constant Struggle: Ferguson, Palestine, and the Foundations of a Movement - Angela Y. Davis ✭✭✭✭✭

Lore Olympus Vol 4 - Rachel Smythe ✭✭✭✭

Us - Sara Soler ✭✭✭✭.5

(titles in italics were ARCs!)

[darkcrowprincess]

I haven't read the After books or experienced this particular phenomenon. On the other hand, maybe I had to see the first 3 films ? (With a friend and we will watch the sequel at some point because we laugh a lot in front of it, basically we watch for the joke) Which I find really really bad, but I have no doubt that the books must be better. There was a time when I had volume 1 in my library but I never read it. Perhaps I should just to finally understand what could have pleased you so much ? On the other hand, I experienced the 50 Shades of Gray phenomenon thoroughly at the time when I was 13 / 14 years old when the first film came out ? I read all the books before the first film came out and I absolutely loved it even if today I find it not crazy, but still entertaining. And the books remained better than the films, especially the last one where they massacred Anna's accident in the adaptation. 😂😭

I haven't read the books. I've seen the movies. But I want to read them. Mostly because I find the drama entertaining. I dont see it as romance. I see it more as entertaining smutty dumpster fire drama. Like soap opera on crack. Thats what I think makes them so interesting. Its suppose to be toxic. It's suppose to be messed up. Thats the point. Mainly I want the first and second books because those were my favorite of the movies(though the third movie had my favorite ending). Both the main characters are two messed up people. But what makes them interesting, is that they're hilariously interesting about how equally messed up they each are, its not just the guy. They both have issues, and they make each other worse! 😈 I know its bad, but I take pleasure in watching their drama. It makes me want to sit back and eat popcorn. Just messy dramatic white people drama.

For example my favorite scene in the second movie is when a drunk Tessa gets into a fight with one of Hardins ex fuck buddies Molly. Its just hilarious to watch. Especially when Hardin(and god is Hardin such a stupid name. Sounds like hard on lol 😆) pulls a drunk Tessa away from the fight. Tosses her over his shoulder and walks away with Tessa drunk laughing evilly and giving a bloody nose Molly the middle finger as she says, "Happy New Year bitch!" And Hardin the alcoholic and one always getting into fights is the one that told her they shouldn't go to this party.

Lol honestly I still laugh about that. They both so many issues.