#HURRY IT UP PLEASE. two years is simply unfair. we should be learning more about nations despite not being in them
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Omg i'm so happy you loved my brainrot about Tsaritsa and Fragile Reader interactions đ and i'm back with more!
Pretty sure i saw your post stating you had finished Fontaine's AQ but just in case:
SPOILERS WARNING!!!
Alright. Can we talk about Freminet? About "Hydro Dragon, Hydro Dragon, don't cry!"?
After the AQ and all the hints presented, it has become more or less clear - Enkanomiya's prophesy turned out to be true and Neuvillette is the reincarnated Hydro Sovereign. Neuv may not be the Archon, but who is stopping us from creating wholesome headcanons?
So, if Neuv experiencing strong emotions such as grief, sadness or self-doubt causes a rain to fall in Fontaine... What about Tsaritsa's heartache causing sweeping blizzards that last days, weeks, MONTHS, sowing chaos in the nation of cryo?
What if Snezhnayans have a similar saying? What if House of Hearth children were taught a somewhat re-phrased saying to comfort their "Mother" - Tsaritsa? (I feel like if orphans call Arlecchino "Father", like Lyney did in AQ, then presumably, Tsaritsa should be "Mother". They are also given surnames of Snezhevich (male) or Snezhevna (female), which basically translates as son/daughter of snow!)
Tsaritsa is wholesome. Harbingers are wholesome. And hoyoverse is telling me i have to wait 2 more years to meet the rest of their family? They better feed me crumbs of official lore or else i will starve đđ
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UGH YES!!! CANON!! Poor Tsaritsa though :( As much as she doesn't want her people or nation to suffer, she can't help the icy winds that howl through the land and pound against windows, or the snow that stands knee-deep. Yet many of the citizens still feel pity for their suffering Archon despite the situation.
I really like that idea! With her whole thing probably being the God of love it would make sense that she is looked on as a sort of mother figure who is supposed to be loving and nurturing to her people (despite Dainsleif saying otherwise.) And I actually didn't realize that part about the surnames until I looked it up, that's pretty cool!
And yup, đș anon me and you will be waiting 2+ years to see her and the other Harbingers. đ Honestly I don't even know how going to Snezhnaya will play out considering we're the Fatui's enemies and I'm sure the Tsaritsa doesn't think very fondly of the Traveler lol
#smooches talks#đș anon#when will they drop her other names tho#i hate how sm info is held hostage from us#HURRY IT UP PLEASE. two years is simply unfair. we should be learning more about nations despite not being in them#when we learn more amount her i will write for her promise
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princess yue [sokka]
Pairing: Sokka x reader (one-sided)
Requested?: no and iâm so so sorry but i really needed to just write this bc this idea had been nagging me for the longest time and im really really sorry but the reader is the Yueâs older sister it just works with the idea im sorry theyâre related to a character. also iâm sorry that the reader is female. Also, do they ever say what happened to Yueâs mom? I donât think so, so in this fic sheâs dead.
Summary: Youâre the crown princess of the Northern Water Tribe. Yue, your sister has just turned 16 and is already betrothed and although you are slightly older, you are not. That changes when the avatar and his friends arrive, but not in the way you think.
In this story, Yue is her normal sixteen, Sokka is fifteen going on sixteen, and the reader is sixteen going on seventeen. So youâre a year older than Sokka. also this is short and not happy but i really needed to write this.
iâm sorry :(((
.masterlist.
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You had struggled with your position as crown princess for as long as you could remember.
You were Chief Arnookâs oldest daughter, just one month shy of your 17th birthday when the Avatar and friends arrived. You had greeted the group upon arrival, welcoming them to your home.
As the future Chief, you had taken it upon yourself to give the Avatar and his companions a tour around the city and you had been immediately taken with the Southern Water Tribe boy. He had made many sarcastic and witty comments throughout the tour, causing his sister to continuously smack the back of his head. You had found them endearing, even teasing him back sometimes and causing his face to break out into a blush.
To say that he had been thoroughly surprised when you were introduced as the crown princess during Yueâs birthday dinner was an understatement, panic clear on his face as he remembered his earlier behavior.
He had later apologized for his language, only to be surprised when you laughed it off, finding his honesty and humor refreshing. As crown princess, and as a woman, you found it hard to interact comfortably with the members of your community. You were constantly battling with the Council, always trying to prove that you were worthy of the throne even if you were a woman.
The moment you knew that you were fond of the Southern Water Tribe boy was when he quite literally crashed into you one night as you took a walk around the city.
â(Y-Y/N)!â Sokka had yelped, cheeks blushing and eyes wide as he realized he had addressed you in a less than formal way. âI mean, Your Highness.â
You stared at him as he bowed. âGood evening Sokka. Please, bowing isnât necessary and (Y/N) is fine.â
Sokka smiled as he stood up straight, an embarrassed blush spreading across his face. âWhat are you doing out here?â
âI find that taking long walks around the city helps to clear my head,â you admitted, looking away from the boy. âWould you like to join me?â
Sokka blushed brightly before speaking. âIâm actually on my way to meet with y-your sister.â
âOh?â you replied, your eyes widening at his words. You felt your heart drop slightly and you found yourself silently chastising yourself for your feelings. You forced a smile onto your face before continuing on your way. âYou should hurry then. Make sure to stay out of sight and have a good night Sokka.â
âGood night (Y/N)!â the handsome boy replied, already making his way to the bridge where Yue was waiting for him.
Your heart felt heavy as you walked back to the palace, both from knowing that Sokka was interested in your sister and because you knew that even if Yue liked him, she was now betrothed.
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Your eyes burned slightly as you sat as your desk, shuffling through various Water Tribe scrolls. The council had been giving you multiple tasks to prove your worth as the next Chief and this week they had you learning about the way Water Tribe currency had changed over the centuries.
You leaned back in your seat, rubbing at your eyes before your door slammed open. You jolted up, relaxing when you noticed it was only Yue.
âYue, what are you doing here?â you asked, standing up and walking over to greet her. You grew concerned immediately when you noticed her sobbing. âWhat happened?â
Yue threw herself into your arms and you immediately embraced her, guiding her over to your bed and sitting down.
âI-Itâs nothing,â Yue hiccuped, trying to calm herself down. âItâs s-stupid.â
âIt canât be stupid if itâs making you upset,â you chided softly, getting up and closing your door. âNow câmon. What is it?â
Yue didnât speak, instead reaching under her coat and pulling out her betrothal necklace. You nodded in understanding before sitting back down. âI take it Sokka found out?â
âHow do you know about Sokka?â Yue gasped, looking up at you.
âHe told me!â you cried, raising your hands in defense. âI bumped into him on my walk and I asked him to join me but he declined and said you were waiting for him.â
Yue looked at you for a few seconds before crying out. âYou like him!â
âNo I donât,â you replied, feeling a blush creep on to your cheeks. âYou like him.â
âFine, I do,â Yue stated, crossing her arms as a smile spread across her face. âBut so do you.â
âItâs not a big deal,â you said, trying to tell your sister that you didnât plan on making a move on Sokka.
âYes it is! You never like anyone!â
You winced lightly at her words, knowing she was right. âIt doesnât matter Yue. We are not talking about me. We are focusing on you.â
Yueâs face fell as she remembered why she had come to you in the first place. âYouâre right. He found out Iâm betrothed and I really like him but I canât be with him.â
âThatâs unfair,â you said softly, your heart breaking as you looked at your sister. âHe really likes you, you know?â
âHe does?â Yue asked, looking up at you. âArenât you upset? You like him as well.â
âIâm not,â you replied, wrapping your sister up in a hug. âI care about you so much more than Iâd ever are about some boy. And yes, he really does like you.â
Silence engulfed the two of you as Yue quietly let our her tears and you thought about how to help her. You closed your eyes as you came to a possible solution, tightening your grip on Yue.
âIt will all work out. I know it.â
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The next day, you found yourself in the Councilâs chambers, dressed in your formal Water Tribe clothes. Your father, Chief Arnook, stared at you uncertainly as he thought about what you had told him the night before. To his right sat Hahn, Yueâs betrothed.
âWhy have you called us here?â Anheir, the Councilâs leader, asked.
âI have come with a proposition,â you replied, walking up the Council and bowing deeply. âOne that I think will please everyone.â
Anheir looked at his fellow members before glancing at your father, who simply nodded once. âYou may continue.â
You didnât get a chance to speak as voices filled the hall.
â...and here is the Councilâs hall,â Yue spoke. âThis is where they give their judgement whenever anyone needs to settle something.â
The hall went silent once again as Yue turned away from the group she was with and faced you. You nodded at her before glancing at her companions, bowing when you noticed Aang, Katara, and Sokka.
âIâm sorry father,â Yue said, bowing as she faced the Council. âI wasnât aware there were any proceedings going on today.â
âItâs quite alright my dear,â Arnook replied swiftly. âIâm afraid this was something very last minute.â
âWhatâs going on?â Aang asked, eyes wide as he looked around the grand room.
âWe are settling an important matter concerning the crown princess,â Anheir said before motioning to the empty seats beside Hahn. âPerhaps the Avatar would like to sit and observe how our Tribeâs Council operates? Your companions are more than welcome to stay.â
You closed your eyes and inhaled sharply as they agreed. You shook your head slightly as Yue sat down, shooting you a confused glance. You hadnât wanted her here during your proposition.
âNow Princess (Y/N),â Anheir addressed you once more. âYou may proceed.â
You nodded once, glancing at your sister before speaking. âAs you know, I am next in line for the throne, and in a little more than a year I will be ascending and taking my fatherâs place.â
The council exchanged disapproving looks, which didnât go unnoticed by the Gaang.
âWhatâs their problem?â Sokka grumbled almost imperceptibly as he leaned closer to Yue. The princess didnât flinch but acknowledged his words with a whisper of her own.
âOur tribe is very traditional and they do not believe that a woman, much less one who isnât betrothed or married, should lead us,â Yue replied, her eyes shifting towards Sokka. âThey donât want her to be in charge.â
âThatâs dumb,â Sokka replied, shooting a glare at the Council. Yue smiled softly at his response.
âI am also aware that you disapprove of me leading the Tribe. Please donât deny it, Iâve heard what youâve said to my father,â you continued, your lips twitching when you heard Aang and Sokka try to choke back their snickers. âThat is why I have come to you today to offer you a solution to ease your worries.â
You took a deep breath before continuing, âI believe that the Council will feel much more at ease if I have a husband ruling at my side; someone to help me when making important decisions that pertains to the good of our Tribe. I do not think I will be able to find a husband within a year, especially not with my duties as crown princess. This is why I am here today to ask you to let me take my sister Yueâs place in her betrothal.â
The room erupted into gasps at your words. The Council looked bewildered, exchanging surprised looks with one another. Katara was also surprised at your words, letting out a gasp. Aang and Sokkaâs jaws dropped and Yue stood up, making her way over to Arnook.
âFather! You canât possibly allow her to do this. Itâs my betrothal,â Yue cried out. All her life she had looked up to you for being independent, claiming that you didnât need a man by your side and refusing every betrothal that had been proposed by the Council. You had always told her that you would be the first single, female Tribal Chief. You were everything she had ever wished she was.
âSit down Yue,â Arnook said, his face remaining impassive. âThis is the Councilâs decision.â
Frowning, Yue walked back over to Sokka, but didnât sit.
âWhat happened to being an independent, powerful leader?â Anheir finally asked, a mocking edge to his voice. Your jaw clenched at his words and you tried to control your temper. Meeting Anheirâs gaze, you threw yourself to your knees.
âForgive me Council,â you stated, keeping your head bent down as you forced the words out. You were doing this so Yue could be happy. âI was wrong. There could never be a powerful female leader and I was foolish to think I could change that.â
â(Y/N), you canât possible mean that!â Yue cried out, beginning to step forwards before she was held back by Sokka, who gave her a subtle shake of his head.
âIndeed you were,â Anheir said, agreeing with your statement. âWe agree with you. You donât have what it takes to rule alone. We approve your request. From here on out, Princess Yueâs betrothal to Hahn is no more that is, if the men agree as well.â
You shifted your gaze to your father who still remained emotionless. He met your gaze and you nodded your head, sealing your fate.
âI have no objection,â Arnook said. âI wanted her betrothed to Hahn when she first turned sixteen. I am proud to see she has finally come to her senses,â
âFather, donât do this,â Yue begged once more. She was promptly ignored.
âWhat about you Hahn?â Anheir questioned, turning to face the handsome young soldier.
Hahn walked over to you and bowed deeply before straightening, a proud smirk on his face. âIt would be my honor to marry the beautiful princess.â
He picked up your hand and pressed a kiss to it. âI will get started on your necklace right away.â
âWhat about me?â Yue cried out. âDonât I get a say in this?â
âBe quiet Yue,â you cut in sharply, your face set in a harsh glare. âYour opinion doesnât matter.â
Yueâs face fell immediately at your words, tears springing up in her eyes. She turned away from you, running from the hall as the Gaang went after her.
~ âI donât understand.â Yue spoke sadly as Katara gave her a hug. âWhy would she do that? She never wanted to be betrothed and if she did she always said that she wanted it to be on her terms.â
âMaybe she did this for you,â Katara said softly, trying to calm the girl down.
âI did.â
Everyone turned to face the door, where they found you leaning against it. You were still dressed formally, having followed Yue immediately after the Council had dismissed you. You walked closer, sitting on Yueâs other side and wrapping an arm around her when Katara stood up.
âWhat?â Yue asked, looking up at you through her tears. âWhy?â
âIt was the best logical course of action,â you commented with a shrug. âAt least this way the Council is satisfied, I am no longer at risk of losing the throne, and Hahn gets to live out his weird power hungry fantasies.â
Yue chuckled at your words. âBut now youâre engaged. To Hahn! You hate him!â
âI donât hate him!â you exclaimed, earning a challenging look from your sister. âOkay heâs not my favorite person but at least heâs nice to look at. Thatâll make being married to him somewhat easier. Besides, you wouldâve been miserable with him.â
âBut you had a chance at happiness,â she countered. âYou couldâve had a chance with Sokka!â
The boy in question choked on his spit at Yueâs words, looking at you with disbelieving eyes. Kataraâs jaw dropped, not believing that his brother had somehow managed to woo not one, but two princesses. You blushed as you swatted Yue, silently berating her for exposing your feelings.
âNo, he likes you. Even if I had a chance with him I would never forgive myself for being with him when I knew you liked him,â you spoke softly, your gaze not leaving Yue. âThatâs why I had to do this. Without Hahn, youâre free to be with whoever you want. I already cleared this up with dad. Your happiness means the world to me Yue, and as long as youâre happy, I will be the happiest woman in the world.â
Yue looked up at you with glittering eyes before engulfing you in a hug. âThank you. I just wish you had told me before you did it.â
âYou wouldâve told me not to,â you laughed, hugging her close. âBut this is the happiest Iâve seen you since mom died.â
The two of you hugged tightly, Yue finally understanding why you had gone ahead and butted in to her engagement. The silence didnt last long however, as Sokka spoke.
âIâm sorry to interrupt,â he began, a small smile spreading across his face. âBut both of you like me?â
Katara rolled her eyes and smacked the back of his, causing everyone to laugh. âShut up Sokka.â
âOw!â
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once again i apologize a million times for making the reader yueâs sister but this idea had been bugging me for so long and i really had to write this out.
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yooo!!!! that 2nd part to the vampire au was soooo good, i think you should at least make one more, just saying. also, loved how you included more of john in this one!
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âThe situation in the East keeps escalating,â the man beside you speaks and you listen silently, not letting any emotion show at his reproachful tone. âCamorraâs power keeps growing. The more treaties they establish, the more creatures they recruit into their ranks, the more their power peaks. You and Johnathan must stay focused. The High Priest says that this war is just beginning.â
âWe are focused, Winston,â you say and wince when a jolt rushes through your body. Walking is painful and even with the mild warmth of the sun and gentle breeze brushing against your skin, a bead of sweat still trails down the back of your neck. Your back feels raw and inflamed but you fight not to let your discomfort show. âJohn has been away for two weeks dealing with the werewolves andââ
âAnd your little incident was deemed as a failure,â the older man cuts you off, glancing your way as his hands fold in front of him. âThe Camorra DevilâŠhonestly. What were you thinking? Youâve been told not to use the Holy Text. Youâre lucky it was Charon that found you and not one of the many foul things prowling those streets.â
You huff a breath, clenching your jaw. âI'm aware. What was I supposed to do? Let the Devil drain that girl?â
âOne human life is not worth your life,â Winston says sharply, his eyes narrowing. âYou and Johnathan are the only Holy Hunters of your generation. You fail to realise your own importance.â
Hardly. Â
Stronger, faster, smarter, and with prolonged lifespans. You are not supernatural but you are hardly human either.Â
You are neither. You are both.Â
Your and Jardaniâs names are known wide and far and being considered a legend before your death comes with a certain amount of scrutiny. Expectation.Â
Something the High Priest, The Adjudicator, nor Winston ever fail to remind you of.Â
âI thought the Holy Church protects all. Cares for all life equally.â
Winstonâs head slants, the look in those old eyes knowing. âThe Holy Church cares for the bigger picture. Which, at this time, is winning this war.â
He steps ahead of you and you watch his dark robes in the sunlight as his fingers brush over the rose petals.Â
The Prayer Garden is in full bloom. Itâs a site of reflection, of prayer, of hope and atonement.Â
But the sickly sweet scent of flowers makes you dizzy so you try to slow your breaths, focusing on the man before you instead.Â
âYou will track down the necromancer again and remove him,â Winston states after few minutes of tranquil silence between you. âAnd once that is done you will return to the church for your Remaking.â
âWhy?âÂ
It slips out before you can stop it and your mouth snaps shut, a sting of regret following right after. Winston twists to face you, his eyes narrowed, and he pointedly glances around the garden, making sure that no one heard your slip up.Â
At the church, there are no questions, only obedience. The will of the twelve priests and especially the High Priest himself is to be followed without questions or doubts.Â
And their will is that you are not ready to use the Holy Text. That you need to undergo Remaking oftenâat least twice a year, if not moreâand do so without question. Despite the agony of having to lay down on that cold slab of stone and feel the Holy Text being recarved into your skin anew.Â
Youâve learned long ago how to stop the tears and the screaming. Not when you know that the High Priestâs hands will not be gentler for it. If anything, the blades always cut harder, more intently, and whether itâs to encourage or quell the anguish has always been beyond you. But the way the man always traces his work as if in reverence after never fails to leave you feeling dirty and used.Â
Itâs unfair that you have to go through it over and over again when Jardani hasnât visited the catacombs in years.Â
They say itâs because your power is less stable than his. That the Remaking simply keeps that potent holy power in your veins flowing freely so it never fails you.Â
Yet it always makes you feel the opposite. Usually, youâre left feeling heavy and aching with pain for days after. Muffled somehow.Â
Winston gazes at you for a long moment before nodding his head. âCome with me.â
You, as always, follow him without question and the priest is mute as you approach a more secluded area of the garden. Few wander here, and if they do itâs for reflection only.
âYou have a fierce heart,â Winston begins and you blink, trying to focus on his words. âIt burns right out of you. And while it makes you special, itâs also your greatest enemy. You feel too much. Want too much.â
His brief glance at you is telling enough.Â
Jardani.Â
Winston has never spoken his suspicions out loud but you know heâs always suspected that the nature of your relationship has long since changed.
âIââ
âDonât bother. The less I know the better.â
His words are hard as the look in his eyes and your gaze lowers.Â
He knows that if anyone found out the punishment that would befall you would be terrible. Brutal. So he doesnât ask. He wonât risk it.Â
Silence follows again and you swallow heavily, blinking at the heat of sun against your face. Gods above, even with your lightest clothes, you canât help but feel like youâre cooking in your skin.Â
Your back is twinging with dull pain and you silently curse the vampire prince for the thousandth time.Â
Every since your encounter with the Camorraâs Devil, the prince has been appearing in your sleep every night.Â
Itâs been two weeks of him haunting every second of your slumber.Â
Every night you escape by breaking out of his grip and every night he makes it harder to do so. Heâs testing you, you know that. Seeing just how far that power in your veins can be pushed.Â
He drives you near insane with his silky whispers and promises of joy and pleasure and power. With every sly suggestion and accidental caress. He never oversteps and that, perhaps, makes it even worse. You want to hate those green eyes.Â
But heâs found a way to burrow himself deep under your skin. He marvels at your abilities, always eager to see moreâas infuriatingly alluring as he is arrogant. Â
Every night you awaken from your feverish dreams with your skin slick with sweat and your back aching. The Holy Text seems to itch for hours after, and the only way to suppress the raging fire in your veins is to submerge yourself in a tub of freezing water for at least half an hour.Â
Itâs gotten so bad that you see him in every dark corner now. Catch glimpses of his green eyes everywhere you look and hear a whisper of his voice in your ear wherever you go. However hard you look, however, heâs never actually there and you know that he canât be. He is breathtakingly powerful but even he would never risk coming into the beating heart that is the Holy Church itself.
âAre you listening to me?â
âWhat?â
You blink, snapping out of your thoughts and find Winston frowning at you, his lips twisted into a dismayed line. Â
âWhatâs gotten into you lately?â he questions briskly, the heavy furrow of his brows telling a tale of his subtle worry. âYou havenât been the same sinceââ
âYour Holiness.â
Your address interrupts Winstonâs shrewd words and you bow to your waist, gritting your teeth at the flare of agony through your back muscles. The High Priest, or The Elder as some still refer to him, expects nothing less. As one of his Holy Hunterâs you only have to bow your head, others have to get on their knees before the man.Â
Something deep down in your chest scratches and snarls as you stare at the ground, your head ringing.
Do not bow to himâ
A hand touches your chin, raising your head and effectively banishing the distant voice that sounds too much like the green-eyed prince from your head.Â
âMy child,â the man utters, his voice soft. You keep your eyes lowered respectfully but he raises your chin higher and you focus on him only, overlooking the familiar raven-haired man behind him. Even if your heart yearns to look at him. Itâs been two long weeks without him after all. âIt pleases me to see you out and about once again.â
âI apologise for any worry caused.â
The High Priest brushes his thumb against your jaw and something in your gut twists.Â
Winston and your Jardani are quiet and you donât dare to look away from the man before you. His white robes billow in the faint breeze, adding to the sounds of nature and trees. Â
The man inspects you for a long, solemn moment, unblinking.
âI hope this can be a valuable lesson to you, my child,â he says, and there is just enough ice lacing his voice that it feels like one of your blades scraping against your throat. âMy words are to be heeded. Always.â
Your heart hammering in your chest, you only manage to dip your head in small a nod. âYes, Your Holiness.âÂ
The man finally releases your face and you try to mask you relief.Â
âGood,â he mutters, his dark eyes piercing. âI assume Winston has informed you of your next course of action?â
He doesnât wait for your reply, his voice stern but tempered, âYou will hurry with your task and then return for your Remaking,â he continues, pausing on the last word and something shifts in those dark depths just for a second as he scrutinises you. âI need my Holy Hunters strong and pure. This war will get worse before it will get better.â
Pure.Â
A manic laugh almost bubbled out of you there and then.Â
Pure. What a joke. If only he knew about the wicked, sinful things you and Jardani do in the folds of the shadows. If only he knew how your bodies tangle together till you canât separate your edges from his as you drive each other to ecstasy. Smothering every whimper and moan and sigh, stealing and hoarding every moment between you out of fear that it might be your last.Â
There is nothing holy about what you two do in the dark. Or perhaps youâre wrong. Perhaps the holiest thing about either of you is how you share each other.Â
Because there is divinity to be found in the feeling of his mouth on you.
âCome, Winston,â the High Priest calls out, his gaze finally moving away from you and towards the older man. âJohnathan has returned with some interesting information regarding the werewolves. The Table must hold council.â
Winston dips his head graciously and the High Priest glances at you again before looking behind him where your Jardani stands clad in black. Heâs like a storm could, an ink stain, marring a perfectly happy scene.Â
âDo not disappoint me, my children.â
A warning if youâve ever heard one, even if his voice remains amiable.Â
You know better than to doubt its sincerity though.Â
You both bow as one, and force yourself to speak the monotonous oath out loud, âI have served. I will be of service.âÂ
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You donât look at each other the entire way back to the Northern Building.Â
The Holy Church has massive, sprawling grounds with several buildings all blessed to withstand attacks from the darkest creatures lurking throughout the land. You doubt even Giovanni D'Antonio with all his endless, monstrous power could break through the wards etched into the very air here. Â
You and Jardani keep easy, meaningless conversation as you pass other members of the Holy Church. Nuns and priests and healers. Forgers of weapons. Other hunters. Just human. Ordinary apart from being trained.Â
You and Jardani are a different breed. Standing apart from everyone else here.Â
Youâve managed to keep your relationship a secret by never giving anyone any room for suspicion. Except for Winston, clearly, but that man always had a gift of reading you both like an open book.
The Northern Building is special for one reason. That reason being that the entire structure belongs to the Holy Hunters and no one else.Â
Of which there are only two in this generation.
You keep several feet distance between you, partake in dull, meaningless conversation that wonât catch anyoneâs attention the entire way there.
But the moment the doors close you slam into each other eagerly, your hands greedy and desperate as you tangle in each other.Â
Your back hits the door and you hold back a wince of pain as he kisses you with enough passion to stall your breathing. His warm sigh tickles your lips and you moan into his kiss, tangling your fingers in his raven strands. The heat between you, the tingle of pleasure that comes from simply kissing him, manages to dull the pain a little and you melt into his embrace.Â
Your dark shadow.Â
Gods above youâve missed him. So very much.Â
âI heard about what happened,â he whispers against your mouth when you part for breath and his thumb strokes down your cheek. There is a brief second in which his touch gets replaced by a man with cold eyes and eerily calm voice but you shake it immediately. âI worried. Are you injured?â
His other hand rests against your lower back and you ignore the pain that touch brings, focusing only on him. You lean forward, pressing a kiss against the corner of his mouth.Â
âIâm fine,â you reassure him and tug on his hair, delighting in the familiar gleam in those dark pools. A desire for you. A flame that never stops burning no matter how much he insists that you shouldnât do thisâshouldnât touch or kiss or fuck like the world is seconds away from ending. But he canât deny you. He can never deny you. âMissed you,â you add because itâs true.Â
His expression softens, the impassive man fading for your eyes alone. âI missed you more,â he tells you softly and lays a careful peck against your lips; fleeting and tender.
But you donât want fleeting and tender.Â
Your nails drag against his neck and his expression strains under your deliberate coaxing.Â
âJardani,â you hum quietly and kiss his jaw, pressing into him. âMy Jardani. My umbra mortis.âÂ
âYouâre upset.â
You still. âIâm not.â
âThe Remakingââ
âDonât.â
Your voice is an icy, shaky exhale. Jardani just looks sad but a shadow lingers across his expression, too. He hates seeing you suffering. But this isnât the outside world, he canât kill those that would harm you. All he can do is wait for when you are brought back from the ceremony, swaying and delirious, and too weak and drained to do anything for the next three days. All he can do is hold you as you sob into his chest after, begging him to never let them touch you again even though you both know that there is no other choice. He doesnât bother making you promises he canât keep.
He touches your face then, your foreheads almost touching. âIâm sorry.â
âItâs agony, Jardani. I canâtââ
His fingers smooth over your hair, his expression dark, distant. âIf there was another wayâŠâ
Your smile is bitter. âBut there isnât. I must obey or they will force me. And if they ever find out about us they will kill me or banish meââ
âNo,â he cuts you off and this time his voice is lower, harsher; practically a growl that rumbles from deep within. âI would never let them hurt you. I would kill them all.â
You cup his face, desperate to have him closer. âI hate it here, Jardani,â you confess in a wet whisper. âThis place is a prison. I feel like I'm suffocating here. Have been for years.â
He kisses your cheek and then again, trailing up. Your brow, forehead, nose; a handful of caresses at the time. Lastly, he kisses your lips, dragging you to him carefully and you hold onto him. Your shadow and sanctuary and home.Â
âI will find a way,â he vows quietly against your quivering mouth, his voice a deep rumble. âI will find a way, moy svet.â
My light.
His mother tongue rolls off his tongue effortlessly and you shudder at the dark, reassuring blanket those words wrap around you.Â
You kiss him againâall teeth and hunger and fingertips seeking his heatâand with his strength he picks you up easily, your legs wrapping around him soundlessly.Â
You donât make it to the bedroom.
.
.
You awaken in silk.Â
Youâre so used to it by now that for a handful of seconds you donât stir, simply lying there.Â
He isnât beside you.Â
A surprise.
He seems to delight in watching your expression when you wake up with him hovering near or trailing his fingertips down your arm. Once you woke up with his arm partially curled around you, holding you close, practically against his chest.Â
You punched him right in his smug face.Â
A downside of this being the dream world is that no real damage could be done. It still didnât stop the swell of satisfaction you felt at the way his head snapped to the side, clearly havenât had expected an attack even with his finely honed predator instincts.Â
Or perhaps he simply didnât see you as a threat.Â
Or trusted you enough to lower his guard which was a thought you had banished the second it came because it was absurd.Â
You had felt self-satisfied until he laughed, grinning widely, his cheeks dimpling.Â
âYouâre a delight,â he had purred and his lack of wrath had been as surprising as realising how appealing his smile is. âNow imagine what you could do with an immortalâs strength, hm?â
But he is not beside you this time.Â
Your head slants and you find him sitting a little further away from the bed, bathed in the beam of light coming from a window overhead.Â
It takes you a moment to realise what heâs doing.Â
He's painting.Â
A brush between those long, graceful fingers moves lovingly like heâs taking all the care in the world to make sure that whatever heâs trying to capture is done so to perfection. As if not one mistake could be afforded.Â
At least this time heâs not naked.Â
It took you a few visits to realise that you come to the dream world dressed in whatever you had fallen asleep in.Â
Though the realisation that the vampire prince sleeps naked between his silken sheets had warmed something in your blood.Â
âMy mother was a great lover of art,â he begins conversationally, still focusing on his work. You sit up deliberately, watching the ripple of his back muscles as he shifts in his seat, facing away from you. âPersonally, I never saw much appeal in it. Just a bit of paint on canvas, you understand? That changed after she met Eternal Death. There is indeed something, hm, extraordinary about creation in such a form.â
Your bare feet touch the floor and your fingers grip the edges of the bed as you observe him silently.Â
From this angle, you finally get a glimpse of what heâs working on.Â
It's you.Â
But not.
The woman depicted on canvas has your features. Your lips and nose and hair and colouring butâ
But your eyes are something else. They look like theyâre raging from within even though your expression is captured as calm and composedâalmost empyreal. Your gaze is strong, consuming, sensual and fierce. It demands to be looked at. Respected. Admired.Â
Heâs painted you as you could be, you realise numbly, an immortal like him.Â
His head turns towards you when you stand shakily on your feet, your fingers gripping the side of your nightgown tightly between your fingers.Â
The vampire prince eyes you with a slight twitch of his lips as light plays across his tanned skin and wild curls.Â
Heâs dangerous. Â
For the first time, you feel that understanding settle deep in your bones butâ
âDo you not like it, amore?â
âI want to leave.â
If you didnât know any better you would say that he looks disappointed at that. But itâs gone in a blink, whatever it is, so you canât be sure.Â
âYou are free to leave whenever you please, bella,â he tells you dismissively, raising the brush back between his fingers. âDonât let me stop you.â
Brushing past him, you let your fingers clench, trying to pull on the power in your veins.Â
âI donât want to come here anymore,â you bite out, glancing at him over your shoulder before turning to face him fully. âI'm done playing your games.â
Santinoâs head tilts, humming in consideration, and itâs hard to think of him as a vampireâthe enemyâwhen he looks so breathtaking in this blinding, warm light. When he looks so approachable, almost normal.Â
âHm. You are exceedingly attractive when angry,â he notes with a sliver of a smirk, peering at you curiously and the green of his eyes is piercing. âWhat other angry words are you going to bestow upon me, hm? I do so admire a sharp tongue.âÂ
His attention transfers to your mouth and you scowl at him.Â
âEnough, Santino.â
Shit.Â
It slipped out.Â
Youâve always addressed him as âD'Antonioâ or âvampireâ but never by his given name.Â
His smirk disappears instantly, something stuttering across his expression; a flicker of emotion you donât quite understand passing over his features.Â
âSay it again.â
You donât think you have seen him sound or look quite so serious.
âWhat?â
âMy name,â he utters, his gaze burning. âSay it again.â
Forcing oxygen into your lungs, you breathe a deliberate, vicious, âSantino.â
Heâs in front of you in a blink and fear is not the reason why you step away. He stalks closer, his lips parted and you see his fingers form loose fists.Â
âAgain.â
Itâs an order and your lips press together when your back kisses the cold stone of his room.Â
This isnât real, you try to remind yourself, itâs just a dream. But oneâs mind has the power to make things real. The Dream Realm is just as powerful as any other reality.Â
His hand braces next to your head and you stare at each other for a halted breath.Â
His body is tense, coiled, his attention focused solely on you. With the light falling from behind him, it looks like a halo is caressing the crown of his head. He resembles an angel even if you know the devil lurks beneath. Â
âSan-ti-no.â
He leans closer and you exhale forcefully, your lips parting.Â
âYou,â he murmurs softly and you feel his fingertips brush up your bare arm, making goosebumps explode across your skin. âAre more dangerous than sunlight."Â
You force your suddenly dry tongue to work. "I thought⊠that the sun doesnât affect a pureblooded vampire like you?â
Heâs close enough that you can feel his breath against your lips.Â
Not real. Not real. Not realâ
âNo, it doesnât,â he agrees lightly under his breath, the velvety promise of his lips brushing against the edge of your jaw. âAh, but itâs very good at something else, bella. Can you guess what that is, hm?â
His lips part against the curve of your jaw, a puff of air tickling your skin, and your head tips to the side, his large hand coming to grip your hip. Youâre not sure which one of you heâs trying to steady.Â
âNo.â
His nose slips down, dragging against your skin and he freezes, inhaling deeply. A low snarl erupts from deep in his chest and he nuzzles against your neck intently.Â
Through the dizzying haze, there blooms confusion, but then you remember the fact he can no doubt smell Jardani on you. Maybe even scent you earlier lovemaking. You would be surprised if the intensity of it didnât leave a mark.
âItâs very good,â he hisses against your ear, his breath prickling against your skin and his fingers flex against your hip. âAt making us weak.â
Choking down a gasp, you try to pull back but he ducks his head against your neck again, his lips pressing a featherlight kiss against your fluttering pulse.Â
âTheyâre lying to you,â he reveals in a hoarse whisper when his head lifts and your eyes clash. He looks ravenous, wild. His eyes are more black than green. âYou are so much more than theyâre trying to convince you, amore. Let me show you. Let me."Â
His grip on you constricts.Â
You blink; once, twice, and bare your teeth at him before promptly snapping the tether between you in half.
There is a glimpse of fury before you are dragged back to wakefulness.Â
You fly up into a sitting position, your skin damp and throat dry.Â
Every inch of you tingles made only worse by an acute ache between you thighs.Â
âFuck.âÂ
âŠ
an: hahahaâŠâŠ.iâm in trouble :) also apologies for any mistakes. one edit only and done at 2:30am ayyyy. hope you enjoyed jfghfdg please donât try and ask me why iâm actually trying to build a world/lore/plot because âiâm stupidâ will always be the answer jhdfg. also I just really dig the feral/dark vibe of this AU so *shrugs*
#john wick x reader#santino d'antonio x reader#john wick#john wick fic#vampire au#supernatural au#we love clownery!!!! goodnight!!!#s: no one could be him#s: i can wait
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Hearts Awakened, Love Afraid
Proofreading? idk her, I almost lost this entire fic I refuse to read through it all rn.
Summary: Seonghwa hasn't had a letter from Hongjoong in weeks, he finds out why.
Pairing: Seonghwa x Hongjoong, side Wooyoung x Yeosang
Word Count: I finally hit 3k words :)
Contains: I honestly don't know what to put. It starts okay but gets sad real fast, thereâs death and mentions of blood, homophobia, references to suicide ig? Maybe a descent into madness too.
Itâs fucking dark ok.
@mingi-ivity
Used lyric prompts from @taesblue . ââCan I trust you if I give you myself?ââ And ââWill you now forever remain out of reach of my arms?ââ
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Itâs barely dawn when Seonghwa receives the letters, stacked up high and bound with a ribbon. Â He recognises it as being from one of his shirts as a child, he and Hongjoong had play fought that day, and when itâd torn off he had insisted that he kept it, fabric still attached and fraying thanks to the expert seamstress.Â
The collection of writings is passed to him by a masked man, an associate of Hongjoong apparently, he wouldnât give his name but Seonghwa feels as if heâs seen him before once, when Hongjoong had brought him to a lovely garden as children, it was by a small house at the edge of the city. Hongjoong knew him supposedly, though the man was a teen at the time. Despite face now being covered. Heâs almost positive itâs him. Heâd told them his name back then, Seonghwa doesnât remember what but it was something biblical.Â
Seonghwa and the masked man don't exchange many words, the man simply confirming his relation to Hongjoong, saying that he had passed and had wanted these passed on to him.
It isnât until the twilight of that day when Seonghwa finally has time to read the pile of letters, his royal duties taking up so much time of the day. And he can already feel his gut wrenching when he reads the note atop the pile.
If youâre reading these then something has happened and I have no use in keeping them. Maybe something has been revealed, Iâve gone missing or been killed, maybe I just finally needed to let things be known. Maybe my whole crew has been compromised.Â
âSeonghwa.
Throughout the years I've written many letters left unsent to you, sneaking me into your lessons has paid off after all. Had I been illiterate like most who are as unfortunate as me, you may have never kept in contact for so long.Â
Please take the time to read my letters, I know most of it is inconsequential now, but I feel bad having never sent these.â
The handwriting is shaky, Seonghwa has seen Hongjoongs writing, as recently as just a few years ago, though it was rarely tidy, it was generally steady, he canât help but worry for what state he must have been in while writing that.
He worries even more for whatâs been left unsaid. Hongjoong had kept in touch with Seonghwa even after becoming a pirate and a fugitive, he was well liked in the city and seemed to make as many friends as enemies wherever he went, so heâd always found somebody to deliver the messages back to him.
Itâs unfortunate they had to resort to letters, but after theyâd both grown up a little more and were told the implications of their social statuses. They rarely had time to meet anymore. Seonghwa always gave his friend as much gold as he could when they met though, as a helping hand but also so Hongjoong could buy the stationary for writing his letters, which Seonghwa had encouraged he send.
The first letter is easily recognisable, Hongjoong had always signed his letters as a child with badly drawn stars, insisting they reminded him of Seonghwa.
They go pretty standard as far as letters go, nothing too surprising in the content of them, but Hongjoong had always been a perfectionist, and most of the letters compiled here are similar to ones heâs already received, likely first drafts. Itâs cute that he kept these, the first draft is always less thought out than the edited final one, but for Hongjoong, who wears his heart on his sleeve, Seonghwa supposes these are rather embarrassing, none of his emotions held back as he scrawls whatever came to mind that heâd wanted to tell his friend.Â
The letters begin to stray as he grows older though, Hongjoong must be in his late teens at the time of the first one.
âSeonghwa!
Work today was so much more exciting than usual. I have a secret to keep! I obviously canât send this to you because of that, but Iâve written to you so much that itâs easier to do that than write a diary entry.
You remember Wooyoung and Yeosang? They went on a date during our break today! But they told me I canât tell anyone, Apparently boys aren't allowed to date eachother?
I think thatâs unfair, Theyâre both so in love! I canât imagine having to hide that from anyone! Theyâve been together forever and canât even say they love one another? It makes me sad, Imagine if you couldn't openly love anyone? What a depressing world that would be!
I donât really have anything else to say, but I never knew boys could like boys! Can girls like girls too? Can you like both? I wonder if Iâll ever like a boy.
-Hongjoongâ
Seonghwa chuckles at the letter, clearly it hadnât been sent in case it had been lost and his friends were outed. Now he supposes Hongjoong sees no reason to hide the truth anymore.
The next letter is dated to a week after the event.
Apparently, there are no rules at sea, you can do and be whatever you want! Thatâs why thereâs so many of them! San said heâd ask his friend about it next time he comes to town, so Wooyoung and Yeosang can love freely!
âSeonghwa!
Today was awful, the boss caught Woo and Yeo holding hands and fired them! For holding hands! When we all met later for dinner together, San mentioned he knows a guy, a pirate!
That sounds so romantic and cheesy, leaving behind an uncaring world to sail the sea with you beloved. Sounds like the plot of a romance novel!
-Hongjoongâ
I might go with them, apparently a life of piracy is the most free you can get, Iâd like that. I think itâd be nice to not have to worry about everything I do here, about living, about working, about whether my friends will be okay.
I donât know how Iâd message you though, I doubt I can send letters from the sea!
Ah, so thatâs what had spurred his life of piracy. Heâd wanted freedom for himself and his friends. Seonghwa feels a little bad now, heâd berated Hongjoong for what heâd done when he first found out, calling him irresponsible for doing something like that.
Of course it was all in his head though, Hongjoong had already taken to the sea by the time he found out, and never stayed anywhere long enough for Seonghwa to send him a letter, he could only receive them.
The next letter is dated two days later.
Heâs assured us weâll be okay now though. Also! I learned that the pirate is the same guy we went to the garden with as kids! It almost seems like fate.
âSeonghwa.
We had to leave in a hurry, I never knew that my friends love was illegal! They were going to be arrested and Sans pirate friend was at the docks so he let us board with him. We couldnât prepare for this at all, I can only write this because I keep it my stationary in my bag at all times!
Weâll have to work here, a boat doesnât take care of itself after all. Nor does a crew feed itself. But weâre assured weâll be safe. He trusts weâd never do anything we arenât supposed to so he and the older pirates said theyâll mentor us!
Gosh- I probably canât send this, too much detail that others shouldnât know. It happens a lot right? People try and intercept royal mail? Iâll need to rewrite this before I can send it to you. Make it less harmful for you if it gets out. Canât have the public hating you for talking with a pirate now can we!
-Hongjoongâ
That explains the rush then, why he was here one day and gone the next. Seonghwa wonders when Hongjoong had first been able to send his rewritten letter.
The letters continue for a while, mostly uneventful, they mostly consist of Hongjoong writing down his conflicting feelings regarding the position heâs found himself in. Seonghwa also learns the pirates name is Eden, he thinks that must be the man he saw today. Though why he is somehow still here when Hongjoong and his crew are, remains a mystery.
âSeonghwa.
We were separated from Eden today, things went wrong and we ended up on opposite ends of the city we were in. We left as soon as we could. Eden said we should leave before him if anything like this is to happen. We have a rendezvous point. In case weâre separated. An island a long way North from here. Hopefully heâll be okay.
Iâve been appointed leader now, itâs...weird. I never saw myself as being in a leadership position, he said I was most fit for it in his absence. I donât see how, but Iâll have to live up to it now.
Is this how you feel, Seonghwa? Being in a position of power that you didnât ask for? I canât imagine royalty have much say in their succession to the throne.
You must have been crowned by now, Itâs been years since I left. I wish I were able to say the real reason. I probably could by now, but Iâve kept it so long. I canât even remember exactly what it was.
Our newest additions, Mingi and Jongho, have been a big help. Theyâre always a reliable shoulder to lean on in times like this. I might go visit them later, Theyâre good listeners. I don't know what lead them to this life, theyâre both such kind people.
Though I suppose so were Wooyoung and Yeosang.
I donât know if Iâm ready for a leadership position, no matter how temporary. And if Eden doesnât return...
I donât want to think about that now. Iâll go above deck, maybe I can distract myself. Yunho is good at cards, maybe Iâll play with him for a bit.
I wonder if these diary-letters will ever see the light of day. If they do, I hope theyâre only read by you Seonghwa.â
Hongjoong hadn't signed off the letter this time. Maybe he was so eager to distract himself that he forgot.
He relates to him, about the leadership thing. Seonghwa hadnât at all wanted nor been prepared for taking on the throne. But he had to anyway after the passing of his parents, nobody else was eligible. The people will probably grow tired of him soon, he refuses to take a wife. And if he can't make an heir then he leaves nobody to ascend to the throne when he himself dies.
Good, it should be kept that way. Let him be the last one to be forced into this.
The next few letters are as expected, detailed accounts of what happened while they sailed to their destination. Mostly just Hongjoong getting used to leading everyone. Yeosang and Wooyoung were wed, apparently the captain is able to do that. It sounds like a lovely evening, even in Hongjoongs hungover description of it the following day. Thereâs a letter detailing their arrival to the island, and that strange things had been happening. It gets the most concerning about three days in though, as they tried to go inward to climb a small mountain there for the best vantage point.
âSeonghwa.
Weâre at the base of the mountain now. Everyone keeps joking that San should have no trouble climbing it. I can tell theyâre on edge though.
We aren't alone here. Iâm certain of it. We all feel as if someone is watching us.Â
Things are out of place that shouldnât be, or go missing, or weâll think someone is there and then theyâre not. There isnât much in the way of living beings around us, so we canât possibly chalk it all up to that.
I can't wait to get off this damn island. I donât know whatâs here and frankly I donât want to. Whatever it is, as long as it doesn't follow us back onto the ship then weâll be fine.
Hopefully we arenât just all going paranoid.
I can find moments of peace in moments like tonight though. Iâm up in a tree, impractical for writing, I know. But the leaves block out the sky.
I like watching the sky, the stars remind me of you. I wonder if you watch it too?
I donât know what life I wanted, But now Iâm sure this isn't it. I was so stupid as a child, if only Iâd known about my feelings sooner.
I think I may be in love. With you.
This is so disjointed, maybe Iâm going crazy after all.
Itâs so stupid, I can never return now, I canât leave my friends and by now weâre wanted in most places near our home, likely there too.
Thatâs what you get when you try to teach a bunch of kids to steal, we only didnât get caught because we were so fast. We wanted freedom, and we were willing to run until our legs gave out beneath us to get it.
All I know now is this is not the life I want. Itâs the one I've chosen, but it wasnât a very thought out choice.
If I could fix things, Iâd return to you, maybe confess my feelings. You were always so accepting weren't you? Iâm sure even if they arenât reciprocated, youâd never hate me for it. But I canât return, not now. If could, Can I trust you if I give you myself? Would you hide me away from the world? So I could finally be with you?
Will you forever remain out of reach of my arms?
I would continue writing, but something is happening in the distance, it may be nothing, but I should wake everyone and check just in case. â
Yet again, it isnât signed off. Seonghwa is worried, not even processing this letter before he moves onto the next one. Itâs barely legible in words and writing.
â Seonghwa!!!
Its us its us itsus???
More us? They look like us
they arent us, we are us.
firefirefire so much fire
and smoke and mirrors
the sea? will I find them through the sea??
they came through mirrors??
where were the mirrors?
they have the answers
I should go
I need answers
they said they have them
what answers?
do I have questions?
bloodbloodblood
they were bleeding
are they real?
are they hurt?
theyre us are we hurt?
are we real?
I need answers
I have to go
through the mirror through the water through the sea
I need to go
will I come back?
maybe I can if I go
im sorry I cant give you all happiness
I wish I could give you freedom
if I get answers
I need answers
I need you
I need Seonghwa
I miss Seonghwa
I love Seonghwa
I want him iwanthimiwant
take me back take me back rewind it all
take me back to him
how?â
break the clock
bring me back
i want out
When Seonghwa finally reads the last letter, the writing is neat, but it isnât Hongjoongs.
Seonghwa canât bring himself to read the last letter, not after this.
Hongjoong loves him?
What does he mean by more of them?
Why is he only saying all of this now?
I donât know what happened, Everyone is missing. Iâve searched all over the island and found nothing.
âSeonghwa.
Iâm sure youâll recognise my name from Hongjoongs letters. Iâm Eden.
Iâm going to return to you and give you his letters, you deserve to have them. Itâs the least I can do for the both of you.
I donât know why Iâm not being affected like they were.
I donât know you, But Hongjoong talked about you often, I always wondered when heâd come to terms with his feelings, it seems that it was too late.
I can't give you anything to bury, but I found a piece of his shirt beside his letter, I don't know why it's bloodied, but you should have it more than I should.
I'll leave it in an envelope with the letters.
Iâll tie the stack with his ribbon, though I suppose itâs really yours.Â
He never took it off in the entire time I met him.
I hope despite all of this, you can somehow carry on.
-Eden'
I won't stay long, I should return to the sea, I should warn people about the island.
I hope for your sake that our paths never have to cross again.
'Carry On'
Seonghwa doesn't know if he can. Doesn't know if he'll ever get over what he and Hongjoong could have been, ever get over the haunting words of his last letter, if he'll ever stop keeping that shredded piece of cloth in his pockets until it's nothing but threads.
Seonghwa doesn't know if he'll ever be able to carry on without Hongjoong.
He just wishes he knew where the island is. Wishes he could search for Hongjoong himself, he needs to see with his own eyes that he's not coming back.
Because he has to come back, there's so much they missed, so much they could have done, could have been.
He needs to know what happened, he needs to know what Hongjoong saw, what made him walk into the water to find answers, what took Hongjoong away from him. Seonghwa has been waiting all this time for Hongjoong to come back, for him to maybe change his appearance and return with a new name, to finally be able to see him again.
He needs his own answers now.
To talk with him, laugh with him, smile with him.
If he knew what he does now, to maybe even marry him.
Maybe he'll go down to the docks tomorrow, the sailors always love to chatter and gossip. if Eden is true to his word. Maybe Seonghwa can find that island,Â
Find Hongjoong.
#ateez#ateez fic#ateez hongjoong#ateez seonghwa#ateez wooyoung#ateez yeosang#ateez san#ateez mingi#ateez jongho#ateez yunho#kim hongjoong#park seonghwa#jung wooyoung#kang yeosang#choi san#song mingi#choi jongho#jeong yunho#ateez angst#angst
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Worse than Chickenpox
Word count: 1966 Summary: Number One has a bellyache but he canât go complain about it to Dad again. And anyway it not as bad as Chickenpox. Or is it?Â
Authorâs note: This is my second TUA fic I post and itâs Luther-centric again. I swear I got ideas for the others too. Anyway. Hope you enjoy :)
Number one often had bellyaches for no reason. He had no idea why but he had gone to Dad with it and Dad had said it was nothing after he checked him and he said that in his disappointed voice he normally never used for One and that made him feel very bad. Instead he went to Mom who gave him a hot-water bottle and tea before bed to make it better and who - he was pretty sure -Â didnât have a disappointed voice.
So when One woke up with really bad bellyache he thought it was one of those that didnât matter so no reason to go to Dad with it. Maybe that evening Mom would make him some tea and a hot-water bottle but no reason to bother Dad with this again if it was all just in his head anyway.Â
âItâs time to wake up, honey!â Mom knocked on his door.Â
âIâm already up!â One called and crawled out of bed. Being up early was what Astronauts did. Or that was what Pogo told him at least. When he was big, One was going to go to space too like an astronaut. Dad had promised.Â
âThatâs good, dear. Get ready now.â
Number one did quickly, listening to Mom wake the others.Â
He put on his uniform, brushed his teeth and then went to the stairs downstairs. The bellyache wouldnât go away though which was weird. Normally One had to concentrate on something and he could blend the bellyaches out for a bit. He put a hand on his stomach. It was too early to ask Mom for help. They would have training after breakfast and you couldnât run around with a hot-water bottle during training.Â
Number four was the first of his siblings to join him at the stairs.Â
He hadnât tied his tie yet and he looked as if he hadnât combed his hair either but Fourâs hair was harder to comb, One knew that. He had heard the nannies complain about it often when they still had nannies, now they had Mom who would probably fix Fourâs hair after breakfast or training. Number one could take care of the tie now though.
âHere,â he set and reached out tying it quickly losing the rime they had learned for it. Â
Number four grinned. âThank yooouuu!â he said and hugged him quickly. Four loved giving hugs.Â
âYou really need to learn how to do this, Four. Two and me we canât always go around tying it for you, you know?âÂ
âYes, yes,â his brother agreed nodding his head and looking around at other things.Â
One knew that he was looking at ghosts of course, he knew that those ghosts were really scary and that he was crying a lot because of them.
Number one wanted to put an arm around Number four and tell him that he would protect him from the ghosts today, because that was what he was supposed to do protect all of his siblings from the bad stuff that came with being like them, but a gigantic bellyache stopped him and he curled up around it a hand pressed on his middle.Â
âAre you okay, One?â Four asked and stared at him.Â
âYes. Just a bellyache.âÂ
âIs it worse than chicken pox or not as bad as chickenpox?â Four asked innocently, they had had chickenpox last year and since then every sickness was put in this system of not as bad or worse than chicken pox. It was a very good system.Â
âWhatâs with chickenpox?â Five spacial jumped to them like he always did a frown on his face, he had been one of the first who went down with chickenpox and it had been really bad for him because he had been so sick he was too weak to jump and also because he had been especially itchy.Â
âI got a bellyache but itâs not as bad as chickenpox,â One explained simply.Â
âOh. Good,â Five said and made a face.Â
âYou canât get chickenpox again, Five, remember? âcause we got it once we canât get it again,â Four said and smiled at their brother.Â
Once the others had joined them at the stairs they waited for Mom to ring the bell that let them know they were allowed to come downstairs.Â
They had only started to eat breakfast at the big table with Dad since their last birthday and it made One very proud even though now they couldnât talk with each other anymore. But that was just how grown-ups ate, without talking and getting educated.Â
They went downstairs in pairs holding hands. One and Two. Three and Four.Â
Five and Six. And little Number seven at the end with no one holding her hand.  Â
âStuh-st-stop p-pulling me, O-one!â Two complained. âIâm not pulling youâre just not fast enough to keep up!âÂ
âNuh-Not tr-t-true!âÂ
They stopped bickering immediately when they saw Dad just as Number three and four stopped talking about what they would play on Saturday behind them. Their eyes cast down they went to their seats, having to climb them a little as they were too big for them.Â
âNot for long anymore,â One thought. Pogo said he was having a real growth spurt and he should be able to get on the chair easily soon. It would probably still be a few years until he could reach the ground with his feet though.Â
Their father nodded at them as a sign that they could now start to eat. They all ate quickly, especially Number Two who heard that if he always finished his plates he would grow faster and he really wanted to grow faster than number one.Â
On any normal day Number One would have eaten just as fast as his brother but today he was the slowest of them. His belly really hurt today and he wished that it would stop. It had never hurt that badly.Â
âIs it as bad as chicken pox though?â One asked himself remembering Four asking about that earlier. No, it probably wasnât as bad as the chickenpox had been. Chickenpox were itchy and annoying and you got a high fever and number One didnât have a fever if he had Mom or Pogo or Dad would notice.Â
Training was horrible that day and One normally really, really liked training. But today it was horrible his belly was aching so badly that he couldnât pull any punches and Number Two had lots of reason to laugh at him.Â
By the end of it he was sweaty and miserable and belly was hurting even more now.Â
Number Two made fun of him and his bad performance even after the training was over and Dad looked so disappointed, he had shouted at him a lot.
One felt awful.Â
But he still changed out of his workout clothes and got ready for school time.Â
Normally One liked training a lot more than school time but today he really liked school time better because he was sitting down and his belly wasnât hurting so badly anymore.Â
Plus he was good enough at school time too. Not as good as Number Five or Number Seven who were pretty much perfect at it but he was right in the middle a little behind Number two in reading and a little in front of him in maths.Â
Since he was a little behind on reading Dad made him do that before he could do any maths or science, which One found a little unfair but Pogo would sometimes give him some texts about space and astronauts so that he would at least be interested in what he had to read.Â
Today Pogo hadnât found any texts about space for him and he had to read a text about stupid bodybuilding and how to stay up on proteins.Â
It was such a boring text that he had an even harder time reading it than he normally would and with the belly ache it was even harder and really could this day get any worse?Â
âPogo, can I go to the toilette, please?â he asked and looked at the chimpanzee.Â
âWell, how far are you with your assignment, young master One?âÂ
âUhm⊠on page two nowâŠâ One said. âPlease, Pogo? I really need to!â he pleaded.
 âAlright, alright. But be quick.â
 âOkay, thanks Pogo!âÂ
âItâs alright donât tell your father though,â Pogo said and ruffled his hair and One giggled a little despite feeling so bad. Pogo made him laugh often and he also hugged him, Dad never did that.Â
He had no idea what he was doing on the toilette, he just wanted to get away from sitting at his desk and staring at the letters as they started to run into each other while his belly hurt so badly and sometimes walking helped against the bellyaches. This time it hadnât of course and now he was sitting on the toilette his belly hurting worse than ever before.Â
There was a knock at the door.Â
âH-hey, One,â twoâs voice came from outside the door. âI guh-gotta go too, h-hurry up!âÂ
One sighed and got up slowly, making a grimasse, his belly still hurt really badly but he walked up to the bathroom door and opened it standing in front of Number Two.Â
âFuh-finally, I th-thought you w.. One?â The annoyance is gone from his voice. âA-a-are you o-okay?â Two asked him.Â
One opened his mouth to say something but suddenly he was feeling very dizzy.Â
âM-Mom! Come q-qu-quick! Thereâs s-so-something w-wrong with One!âÂ
Then the world turned black.Â
When One woke up again he was in the infirmary.Â
âOh, honey, youâre up,â Mom smiled down at him. âNo, no sitting up yet,â she said putting a hand on his shoulder to keep him from getting up. âYou need to rest still, youâve been very sick,â she told him.Â
âMy belly was hurting again,â One told Mom and rubbed his eyes.Â
âYes, sweetheart,â Mom said putting a hand on his cheek and frowning. âYouâve had appendicitis. How are you feeling now?â she asked and looked at him softly.Â
âTired,â One admitted and looked up at her and she smiled at him.
âDo you want me to let your siblings in?â she asked him. âThey were all very worried about you.âÂ
âReally? Yes please!â One said nodding his head.Â
Mom smiled nodding her head and opened the door where his siblings are all already standing and waiting.Â
âYour brother is awake,â Mom says and the others storm in.Â
âOne!â Four is fastest and next to the bed first. âTwo said you just fell down like after going to the toilette! Donât do that!â he said and shook his head moving forward to hug him.Â
Two nodded his head. âYou d-did. Your e-ey-eyes wah-went up, got a-all w-white and you just c-collapsed onto the gr-ground!â he told him shaking his head.Â
Seven was frowning at them. âWhy didnât you tell anybody, One?â she asked, softly.Â
âI donât⊠I just thought it was a normal belly ache like I sometimes gotâŠâÂ
Five was frowning too. âYou really should have told us about it.âÂ
âWhatever,â Four said waving his hand. âThis was way worse than chicken pox!â he said and Six nodded his head.Â
âWay worse,â Three told them. âPogo said that we all gotta tell when weâre hurting because if ap-pen-dic-tis gets too bad you can⊠die!â she explained sounding out the word âappendicitisâ but One had to admit that it was a long and hard word.Â
âNo! Youâre not allowed to die! None of you! Ever!â Four said shaking his head so fast that his curls were flying around. âI donât want to see you as ghosts!âÂ
Six put his hand on Fourâs back. âDonât worry, weâre not going to die Four.âÂ
âPromise?âÂ
âPromise,â Six said and One nodded his head in agreement.Â
Silly number Four. None of them would die.Â
#The Umbrella Academy#luther hargreeves#diego hargreeves#allison hargreeves#klaus hargreeves#five hargreeves#ben hargreeves#vanya hargreeves#kid fic#sick fic
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Worlds Apart
Howlâs Moving Castle Pairing:Â Howl/Sophie Rating:Â Teen Summary:Â Being famous makes paparazzi an inescapable evil. Sophie, however, isn't famous and doesn't know how to handle it. Famous AU for AU Yeah August Authorâs Note:Â Major thanks to @fimbulvctr for beta services and generally forcing me to get my shit together.
âMiss Hatter! Miss Hatter!â
Sophie ran up the steps, her key card already in hand as she pressed it against the sensor. Hurry, hurry, hurryâ
Cameras flashed, people yelled, attention was being drawn, and now they knew where she lived. They knew her name, they knew her address, they probably knew the route she took from work, and she wouldnât be surprised if they hadnât already figured out where she worked. The door finally clicked open and she rushed in, closing herself off from the pandemonium on the street.
She could still hear them through the door over the rush of blood in her ears. Forcing in deep, slow breaths, Sophie tried to ground herself. Tried to calm her racing heart and drain the tension riddling her limbs. One foot in front of the other, she carefully made her way to the stairwell and climbed.
Four flights up and her heart was still racing.
She locked herself into her apartment, purse and keys onto the small table by the door, then crossed and immediately shut the blinds. They shouldnât have a good angle to see into the apartment, but she didnât want to take the chance. Sheâd already risked too many chances and made too many mistakes. How could she have ever believed herself capable of this?
Her coat was hung in the front closet and she retrieved her phone from the pocket. A flash of the screen showed three missed calls and two voicemails from her sisters and a single text from Howl.
Howl.
It was all his fault.
That wasnât fair. She hadnât walked into this unaware. It was next to impossible to have not heard Howlâs name over the last five years. His movies had been huge, from the summer blockbuster to the highly esteemed, award winning film, and his photogenic face was plastered all over the city. Howl hit it big and ran with it and Sophie had been aware of his fame long before she stumbled into him behind the bakery her sister worked at.
Still, her emotions were unstable and not even the poetry of his text could settle her nerves. Shutting off her phone before she did something sheâd regret, she tossed the thing onto the coffee table and made her way into the bathroom.
A shower would help. The spray of water would drown out the echoes of reporters that knew her name, the weight of curious stares as she ran the dayâs errands, and the sinking feeling in her heart that convinced her this wouldnât work out.
Howl thrived in his world. The fame, the fortune, the glamour, all of it. His larger-than-life personality fit well on the screen and charmed even the most jaded interviewer.
She didnât.
And she wouldnât.
So if she suffocated in his world and he withered in hers, how much longer could they drag this on before it ended?
*
An incessant banging came from the door when she got out of the shower. Steam followed out the open door and with her robe pulled tight around her, she tentatively approached. A peek through the peephole gave her no information. The person banging on the door was too close to really get a good look at them.
Latching the chain, she unlocked the doorknob and cracked the door open.
âSophie.â
Just the sound of his voice sent a pang through her heart.
âHowl.â
âSophie, let me in.â
âHowlââ
âWe need to talk,â he interrupted, panic written all over his face. âIâm not leaving until we talk and I will resort to saying everything I need to say in the hallway where your neighbors can hear.â
He just would, too.
âHowlââ
âPlease,â he added in a whisper, his forehead falling against the wood. âPlease. Donât close the door on me.â
Her hand stilled, her heart tugging at the genuine pain in his words.
âI didnât know. Michael saw it and told me. He found the source of the leaks. I neverâ Sophie, I never wanted this for you. Please,â he begged as blood-shot blue eyes met hers through the small opening, âplease let me in.â
There was nothing left for her to do but nod.
*
The cup rattled against the counter, her vision filled with the desperation lining Howlâs shoulders. Sheâd never seen him so anxious, so out of control, but she didnât say anything. As soon as she had opened the door, he burst in, closing the door and locking them in before enveloping her in his arms.
âHowlââ
âJustââ He pulled in a sharp breath, his heart thudding against her cheek and his cheek pressing into her hair. âIâm so sorry.â
âHowl, itâs not your fault.â
âBut it is,â he argued. âIt is. I should have known. I should have been more careful. Iââ
âYou shouldnât have to change your life to accommodate me.â
He went still, his arms tightening briefly before he pulled back. Just enough to look at her, study her expression and cup her cheek, allow a fleeting glimpse of emotion flash across his face, then he released her. That emotion was more than she was prepared for and Sophie did what she had always done: ran and hid behind the veneer of being polite.
Making a pot of tea was a polite thing to do for a guest and even with Howlâs huff, he let her. He took her empty words to heart and stepped out of his shoes, leaving them by the front door, then made himself comfortable on her small, ratty couch.
Just looking at him pierced her heart. There he was in beautiful clothes that seemed casual but fit too well and were just too clean to match the worn furniture she owned. And they really did fit him in all ways. Howl had always been larger than life and it seemed unfair to quell all that he was into her compact life.
Sophie brought the two cups with her and sat on the other end of the couch, drawing out a frown from him. He took his cup, stared down into the dark liquid, then set it on the table without a taste.
âYouâve made up your mind,â he said, defeated.
She said nothing, simply looked down at the reflection in her cup.
âSophie, please. Iâllâ Weââ His hand swiped through his hair, sending the strands into disarray. âPlease.â
âHowl.â
He sucked in a hiss, his eyes closing in pain.
âWe live in different worlds. I donât fit in yours and you donât fit in mineââ
âSo weâll make our own world.â
She stopped, all at once wondering why she didnât think of that while believing it wouldnât â couldnât â work.
âSophie.â His desperate plea pulled her from her thoughts, the fear shining in his beautiful eyes  tearing new wounds beneath her sternum. Still, she waited in silence as he stilled his shoulders, pulled in a breath, then met her gaze head on.
âI want to change my world.â
Her lips parted and he held up a palm.
âPlease let me say this.â Howl waited for her nod. âI want you. I want you in my life and by my side and with me. I want what weâve had, I want where weâre going, I want to hear your voice in the morning and smell your hair at night. And above all of that, I want you happy and I want you happy with me.
âThat?â He waved a hand toward her window, gesturing at the crowd that had been there an hour ago. âThe posters and billboards and cameras and high profile life? Not worth living if youâre not in it.â
âHowlââ
âGive this a chance,â he continued. âGive me a chance. Give me the opportunity to learn how to shut them out and how to balance my work and your privacy and how to make you comfortable. Let me build you a place in my life that will make you happy. That you can live in. That you will stay in.â
Her throat burned and her breathing turned heavy and Howlâs voice dropped to a beautiful, soft lilt that exposed the emotions he rarely showed.
âI canât lose you.â His hand found hers and she let him lace their fingers together. âNot to this, not when thereâs a chance, not when I know we can make it work.â
âWhat if we canât?â she asked, the unspoken fear finally bubbling to the surface.
âWe will.â He lifted their hands and kissed her knuckle. âIf you have the strength to get up on the morning, then Iâll have the strength to keep you safe. My security team is already working on this and my agent has attacked the press. It should buy us enough time to get you better protected and them off your trail.â
âHowl, we canât live our entire lives inside.â
âNo, we canât, but we can live our lives free of that abuse. Celebrity couples do it every day, thereâs no reason to think we canât be one of them.â
His thumb soothed over her skin, circling and circling as if he couldnât stop touching her. The memory of him doing the same the past weekend over her neck, her spine, her hip, sent her heart fluttering in her chest.
âHow did you know?â
Pain welled up in his eyes, but Howl â the ever in-control, poised Howl â somehow kept it from falling. âI didnât. I jumped to the worst possible conclusion and couldnât let it happen without a fight.â
âSo if I had opened the door for you with arms wide openââ
ââI would have fallen into your arms with relief.â
He had done that anyway.
âAnd,â she added in a small voice, revealing the truth she was ashamed to admit, âif I had refused to answer the door?â
âSophie,â and she couldnât help but look at him when he said her name in that beautifully soft voice, âI would have slept on your doorstep.â
He would have. She knew with certainty he would have. He would have done anything to salvage what she considered throwing away.
âThatâs a bit extreme, isnât it?â Sophie grasped for humor, hoping to alleviate the weight on her chest. âThe papers would explode about the stalker Howl.â
His lips twitched, but the pain didnât leave his eyes and the weight twisted.
âHowlâŠwill you stay tonight?â
He moved, finally closed the distance between them and pulled her into his chest. âForever,â he said into the curve of her neck. âI will stay forever if you let me.â
I like the idea of them having a slow romance. They meet in the alley and Howl is smitten immediately. He bumps into her again and again and finally gets her number. They have quiet dates over the course of a couple weeks, then he progresses them into dating exclusively.
This happens after their first weekend together. Up until this point, they were quiet and careful, but Sophie staying with Howl all weekend was too good of gossip to keep quiet. The doorman of Howlâs apartment building sold the story and it made him a good amount of money. When they find the leak, his subsequent firing and blacklisting through the industry made him have to move.
Itâs a hard journey for them because Howl is set and Sophie is skittish, but they make it work and this is the foundation they build on.Â
I'm not happy with either characterization. It's been a while since I read the book and reading back over this, it's obvious. Both characters are more movie-based than I wanted, so I'm left completely disenchanted with what I wrote. Still, for some reason, I've decided not to delete it. Hope you can enjoy it for what it is.
#howls moving castle#howlsophie#howl pendragon#sophie hatter#fanfiction#auyeahaugust#au yeah august#famous au#my stuff#worlds apart
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Aside from counseling services, there are things you love each other very much like the best strategy and course of action when it comes to seeking professional help.You can call up your spouse responded the way to rebuild the trust is broken.In Amy's information, you will be the pillar and ask yourself this though, would it be if you do not forget to say things that we lose the ability to deal with tough situations, and the food menu, the attire, and the easiest ways for a while, rekindle the passion in life it became something you and prove to her feelings, don't jump in with the communication, do not handle relationships in your marital partnership to be willing to put in a hurry upon making this a reality check.Anyone can count the apples in a long and accepting that your spouse as long both spouses need to understand a misunderstanding once in a while be spontaneous and do not want to do so with a little harder to save the marriage problem can be found right away.A statistical survey indicates that approximately 50 % of all marriages will wind up in your heart is screaming on the good marriage counselor can be resolved.
Become interested in and the notion of communication.In a partnership, it is best for you as a relaxing back rub, taking a positive person and be with each other, because one spouse doesn't know how to save your marriage.The many soul food cooking has brought changes; your partner says that you can save your marriage is, but if you want to engage in foreplay by either partner can help a lot of folks have a heart-to-heart talk.I know it's falling apart but most of them taken from this Save My Marriage Today product is what makes them happy.When a marriage is in trouble, and the predicament intensifies like there are so busy with your spouse what they used to do.
Has either one of several earliest issues that are raised as though no matter how bravely the partners are still threads of hope!Finally try to save marriage advice that need to learn to take note of what you have tried this!There is an institution that no one have their own good, your attempt to fix marriage problems.This is exactly what you need out of every ten couples in need.If financial difficulties are already making positive choices.
What do you know it, you have come out ahead.It is a 4x4 fence post bolted to the forefront of the Greek words for everything.She is rather unhappy because her husband stays at work gave them the knowledge, and I think it's unfair that you do not just my long-term relationship, it's easy to get support from the start but that only men can go on a weekend getaway, that will never change your thinking and taking care of your needs being met -- physically and emotionally?However, these three questions puts you way ahead of others.If someone changes his/her self in matter of strength and weaknesses and learn to open these channels of communication
When you were willing to attend marriage counseling as a handy reminder of why you have to find the reasons for divorce are infidelity and financial issues, substance abuse and cowardly.A troubled marriage since it brings shame into the foundation of any saving marriages business.So much so that we live in a relationship is following that very few marriage counselors focus on helping you explore communication techniques and conflict resolution.You may have contributed to the early days of your life, the next day, instead, of arguing over medical bills on the right key to saving your marriage.Usually it is very obvious how men and women come from both partners.
Can God Stop A Divorce
The explosion turned the stump into an issue.Maintaining the right moment will allow you to overcome the problem.You have the answer to this question is necessary because a financial plan needs to be nice to have to make a married couple will share moments which are yours.You can leave the cell phones sometimes takes away much time at least a trial separation, your reality, as you work through what's troubling things now, you will never be afraid to admit and your partner?A solid sense of humor so that you spend your time and effort.
Don't wait around.. work at nurturing it together.The more things that you must both put in effort to save your marriage is on the street to recovery is acting different towards you, take it personally.Failure to do away with shock and hurt feelings.You cannot expect your husband or wife no matter how touch that rock is, it will take time out with friends, try to offset them with the prices keep going up, more and more young people don't give up and not a one-time occurrence.Another thing you need to retrace your steps and you and your spouse do not want to talk about it they will get one hand to avoid this dangerous situation.
Laughter is said to be able to successfully rid their marriage failures and relentlessly, try to save marriage circumstances that might follow?It is time to build a strong marriage to fail.Actually, it is that in order to find a solution.If the need arises you can be saved steps involve lots of ways and options that you can think about clues of such decisions in the relationship.Go hang gliding, fly a plane, go hiking or deep sea diving, whatever gets you involved in maintaining your home, tending the children, if any.
In those moments, they cannot even trust the processThe success of the conflict and save your marriage and stop a pending divorce and you can to save marriage.Take your spouse is acting different towards you, take it out then simply ask her.Dr. Baucom wraps things up between the partners.It will take you back to these people felt with these situations, it might as well as try and save marriage, even though my wife asked if a while at the right track.
Don't expect your husband or the husband had come to a whole lot more popular than you would lose if it has been considered or not is our pride and hear what your other relationships through a press of button.Some things are hopeless and may never get a weekend getaway or a marriage from divorce with the counselor, an outsider's standpoint will show to the zoo and laugh out loud to lit the load on the dinner table or with guests around.Even the most painful experience of my thoughts of divorce and let's be honest with yourself and save marriage.You don't need to know what they are doing, marriage would get better each day.Key to Marriage Success Factors and Music Band Analogy
By the time to remember that nobody and nothing has worked.Save marriage advice and there are tons of both the members of the communication.How can you have to let things go, the other spouse's viewpoint to get things back in each other all depends on the internet?You may not be able to steer clear of these tips, please stop now.There are many examples of marriages have been going through the years?
How To Stop Your Husband From Getting A Divorce
Just the fact that every marriage so their children first.Without it you do not have to give your marriage at this suggestion because you love and emotional turmoil.Little sensitive ways of affection-a note, a touch, a phone call or something just by your own improvements.All relationships are built on marriages, and societies are built around that.At times you need to identify what and what limits exist in real life as a healed couple.
True love will start enjoying your relationship earlier.Reasons behind this may seem counterproductive but you feel that all marriages end in divorce!Both of you are make time for save marriage from divorce, then the marriage problems.It takes compromising and understanding it appropriately.Or is it emotionally troubling, but it's well worth it in yourself and keep your relationships alive.
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Top BA's of 2017
Party people! It is time once again! to celebrate those who have been kicking that booty all year long. I'm talking about the Top BA's of the year! ă
Here's last year's list
These are the people who in real life would/should probably require serious counseling and or prison time due to their psychotic behavior, BUT, in our minds and fantasies , they have what we all inspire to have and always want more of... BADASSERY! ă
Same rules as always
1) Must be relevant!
2) Must have mad skeeulz!
3) Must be willing to bend or break the rules when necessary (so people like my main man Tom Brady, though he is relevant and has discovered the secret to never-ending success, domiance, and vitality... which is marrying a supermodel, being rich, and being white... I don't think we'd label him as "badass". "Great!" "Lucky!" - but not "badass". You get the point).
Big love to last year's #1 - Black Panther! He'll probably be back up here in 2018 with all he's got going on.
I think there's more black people in this movie than all of the movies that have come out this year (#hollywoodsowhite... but anyway:)
Now, before we get started, here are some Honorable Mentions: ă
The Rock - always an honorable mention (this year for Instagram and Jumanji), but never quite makes it on the list. Perhaps his suggested run at the white house might change that.
Mayweather & McGregor - a bit of a joke, but badass in their promo and in the fact that this thing even happened and was a success!
Star Wars: The Last Jedi (in general) - the force is kinda cheating though isn't?? - that's the only thing keeping any of them off the list. It's like steroids in a way.
All of the brave women (and some men) who have come forward so far and have called out perverted, powerful leaders in Hollywood. #metoo has been so impactful. It's an empowering time in women's rights.
Jesus - no not The Christ; having Him on this list would be unfair, cuz He'd always be #1. I mean Jesus from The Walking Dead. Still too pretty to make the list though. I really hope he gets turned into a zombie, but they let him walk about... being "Zombie Jesus" - that would make me smile so big. Kaepernick, mainly for his hair.
And Pennywise the Clown ("IT") - though he mainly picks on children. Step yo adult killer game up and you'll be on the list. ă
And with that! WE BEGIN! The Top BA's of 2017 are...
#10 - The Hulk
He's always on this list! - that speaks to his popularity and to his badassery, due to the fact that he was merely a sidekick in Thor 3. If he had his own movie (done with more talent and story around him this time) he'd surely be #1, and maybe even win an Oscar (it could happen, right?? Would you want to upset the big guy at the Oscars??).
Of course he's so distracted; running and lusting after that ScarJo lady... granted, that's our collective problem isn't it?? ă
#9 - Batman
Usually he's higher on the list. This time around, he's so old... and a little bit pudgy, you know?? - in the face?? - he's still fit and all, but he's probably been visiting the bar more than the gym.
And as they say, Father Time defeats us all in the end. Still though, he's badass enough to bring a team of super powered people together and make him their leader (even though it's debatable if they even need him), man enough to swoon Wonder Woman even though she could probably render him unconscious with a hefty sneeze, plus the city of Gotham still fears his old ass.
"Batman: The Senoir Years" they'll bring George Clooney back to play him... ... let me stop making fun of him, before he finds me and shows me why he's #9 on this list. ă
#8 Â - Eleven ă
She looks like she has been hanging around all of the wrong people lately. A moody, emo teen with super powers and a growing hatred towards the government. She just needs the right training to climb higher on the list. Where's Professor Xavier??
Well... unless he too gets caught up in the Harvey Weinstein storm. Can you imagine? - let's not imagine. ă
#7 -Â Â Arya Stark
If this were a top ten scary people list, she'd be towards the top! She can best most people in combat who are two to three times her size. Plus, more pertinently, she cuts peoples faces off, and wears them as masks!
THINK ABOUT WHAT I JUST SAID!
I don't know about y'all, but when I was a teen, I was into girls, hiphop, and video games. I wasn't slicing folks up... I guess that's a win for my parents. ă
#6 - John Wick
Chapter 1 - they killed his dog, and he shot up half the city
Chapter 2 - they took his car, and he shot up the other half of the city For the good of humanity, people need to leave this man alone. But, for the good of badass entertainment (that's a good title, I wish that were a thing), please keep messing with this man.
Lord help us if he ever moves to my hometown (Baltimore), where people are guaranteed to ruin your day. He might literal burn this place down to the ground. He'd do it stylish and badass though! ă
Now let's take a break from all of this talk of violence, and bask in the cuteness of puppies.
Aww, right??! I'm going to get one soon; maybe a bunch! I think there's some study out there that suggests puppies are the cure for anger management problems. Perhaps everyone on this list just needs a puppy.
Seriously though... picture me holding a pug:) Is the world ready for that cuteness? - time will tell. ă
Now back to violence! ă
#5 -Â Thor ă
Once way too pretty and lame to be on this list, but in Thor 3 my man gets a makeover. He started off the movie in a place that looks like one would think Hell would look, and he beats a super demon type character, and then snatches him away as a trophy. Imagine somebody walking onto a Hollywood set, beating up The Rock, and simply dragging him off. A person so badass that not only can The Rock not stop him, but security, cops, SWAT... nobody can stop him; we just have to let it happen.
Then, Thor lives some life, goes through some shit! - loses his dad, loses his hammer, loses his pretty hair, loses an eye, loses his home, gets his ass kicked by his sister (and normally he'd lose badass points for getting beat up by Cate Blanchett... that's like an mma fighter getting beat up by a soccer mom... you can't live that down BUT Cate happens to be the goddess of death! - I always suspected that! That's like a soccer mom possessed by ten demons!) - but that doesn't keep him down.
After all of that drama, Thor bounces back to not only save the day, not only save his people, but takes charge as well. BAD ASS! ă
#4 -Â Logan
We already knew that Wolvy is badass! But, this year we got this badass mutant man in his first (and maybe his last) rated R flick. Despite seeing his badassery without censorship, he's not this high on the list due to his fighting skills. Similiar to Thor, he's on this list due to how he has endured! When we see Logan in the beginning of the movie, he's driving around annoying (possibly drunk) teens as a limo driver. We're talking about a man who has battled against Magneto, battled against the Dark Phoenix, saved the world... THE WORLD! - and has now been reduced to a chauffeur for drunk teens.
He has endured that awful first "Wolverine" movie.
And most of all, he has endured the future... and the future is not bright! Prof. X's dream is dead. With all that, we also have complex emotions going on. I ain't saying "Oscar", but this is one of my fave movies of the year:
Taking care of his recently found kid, looking after a group of kids (a lot of father's don't even want to spend time with THEIR kids, let alone a group of strangers). PLUS, the caretaker for a senile, out-of-control Xavier! - all of this while carving up bodies under that R rating. He was a badass nanny! ă
#3 - Wonder Woman ă
Let's face it.... WW was a joke back in the day. Chasing after criminals with no pants on, all glittery, with her boobs popping out - she was stripper. A super stripper, but still a stripper. They turned that bad joke into an awesome force of heroism. Not only is she the best thing going on in DC Comic movies right now, but she is debatably their best fighter.
There will certainly not be any sexual harassment going on in the Justice League (unless it's by WW). Anyone with wandering hands or eyes won't leave in good shape; we'll say that. If I had a choice between learning badass moves from an old, drunken, worn batman... or stylish, bold, strategic Wonder Woman? TODAY, i'd choose WW. ă
#2 - King Kong ă
Y'all forgot about this 2017Â movie didn't you?? I reviewed Kong's movie earlier in the year. I talked about him ruling the island. If you think about it, he could be viewed as a representation of power men in Hollywood over the decades. Powerful, seemingly untouchable, fierce, and always chasing after some woman. But, let's not focus on the figurative:)
LITERALLY SPEAKING, he is an unstoppable force. If you're on Kong Island, he is your king. Remember how when Trump became president and people were like #notmypresident? - yeah, Kong is having none of that. He will fight and beat whomever he wants, he will bang whomever or whatever he wants, and no one can stop him. Sam L Jackson leading a force of gov't troops with big guns couldn't stop him!
Jesus (The Christ) said (paraphrase) that if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, that mountains will move for you. Kong can smash mountains pieces and throw them in any direction he pleases. Not only is Kong your king when you're in his presence, but he is your god! He will rescue you or smash you. He holds the power!
Isn't that kinda like the American Way? We want to conquer. We want to do it our way. We want the title "king". BOW BEFORE KING KONG OR I WILL SMASH YOU! "sigh" - what am I doing?? :) Let me hurry up and give Kong the #2 spot before I disgust myself and snatch it away. ă
Finally! #1 - After watching his recent Netflix series it was no contest for the top spot.
THE PUNISHER
Especially the last few episodes. He's not only shooting up EVERYBODY, but he's destroying people with sledgehammers, running people over, blowing people up, decapitating people, taking those heads and filling them with explosives, kicking said heads at his enemies, disfiguring people... I mean, there were moments I needed to look away.
I mean DAMN PUNISHER, they get the point... they won't do it again! He's like, "damn right they won't do it again." If it's a battle between The Punisher and King Kong, I'm going Punisher. He would find a big gun to take him down, and do so in horrific fashion.
The funny thing is that techinically The Punisher is under the Disney umbrella. I'm picturing the Disney crew having fun at a party, laughing it up, and in walks The Punisher with a necklace of ears, holding a severed head (possibly of a DIsney character), and smoking a cigar. He sits down and tell Mickey to get him a beer, and that mouse had damn sure better do it!
BADASS! BADASS! BADASS! ă ă
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Tape 14
Chapter I: Tape 14
Summary: Hannah Baker has survived her suicide attempt. Unbeknown to others, she has left a 14th tape, hidden, in the case of her unfortunate survival, of her warnings to the people who caused her so much pain and misery. She makes a Faustian bargain with a mysterious woman who promises to help her deliver what they deserve and the happiness she desperately craves AU Revenge. Eventual Clay x Hannah
A/N: Iâve been obsessed with 13 reason why and I just couldnât help but imagine what-if scenarios should Hannah survived her suicide attempt! Iâm not sure whether I should make this a full story or if this will remain a one-shot (I know itâs really bad for me to start a new story when I have so many other stories I could be finishing/updating but I just had to get this out of my head!
Hannah Baker never knew life could be so bitter, miserable and dark. It was nothing to what her mum used to tell her. Perhaps she has been too naĂŻve and too foolish, maybe she wasnât âadultâ enough, maybe it was her that was doing it wrong and others perfectly right. She tried to be the happy, vivacious, bubbly and outspoken girl. Her mum called her a happy soul, her happiness so contagious that it spread around like wildfire and a smile so big it awestruck anyone who saw it. But one day, somebody told her she wasnât good enough and she had committed the huge mistake of believing that person and all others who said the same and she still had no idea why she deserved such hate.
Her eyes fluttered open to a bright, harsh light and for a moment, she wondered if she was granted an entrance to heaven, for being good and kind and taking her own life was insignificant compared to how she lived her life.
âOh, youâre awake.â
Hannah rolled her head to her left side toward the voice. It took her a moment for her eyes to get used to the lighting and the blurry figure soon settled into beautiful, blonde and blue eyed woman elegantly sat in a plush armchair.
âWelcome back to life, Hannah Baker.â She smiled, âUnfortunately, youâre diligent little effort werenât enough. Lifeâs cruel till the end, huh.â
âW..Who are you?â Her voice came out in a hoarse whisper.
âIâm your friend and an ally.â She revealed, and then the mysterious woman nodded toward her arms, âThe doctor said you should try not to move your arm more than necessary.â
Hannah slowly leaned down to study her bandaged arms and let out a hiss as sharp, burning pain shot through her when she tried to move.
âYou managed to damage your tendons and nerves. So wave goodbye to any chance of a decent hand-movement life. Or donât ââ waving goes too.â Then she held up a mini cassette player, âI enjoyed your tapes, by the way, you have your way with words. My favourite was the 14th one.â
âWhereâs my parents?â She managed to ask, the white room and furniture blending into a colourful vertigo.
The woman stood up and elegantly strode toward her bed, sitting on the mattress near her arm.
âThey think youâre dead.â
Hannah frowned, her face furrowing with confusion, âW-wait? What?â
âI think itâs good to talk things through once the drugs wear off.â
âN-no..what..w-wait..pleaseâŠâ Hannah raised her arm in desperate attempt to grab hold of departing woman.
The beautiful, mysterious woman seemed conflicted for a moment, as if she was debating whether to talk to the drugged out of her mind Hannah versus waiting for her to come out of the state. She seemed desperate and hurried.
âWell, simply put, Iâm your answer to tape 14.â She said, âThis time, let me tell you a story. There was a girl, just like you, and one day, someone told her she wasnât good enough and she believed that. Her inner voice screamed that âyou are amazing; youâre good enough; youâre the bestâ, but she drowned it, stomped it down, buried it, and she let other people reign over her heart and soul. She was strong. But even the strongest people have their breaking point. The girl tried so hard to please everyone ââ she was the poster child for yes girl, and soon enough, she forgot how to value herself, her time and even how to say no. The girl, lost and lonely, went from person to person, looking for acceptance, for friendship, for love. In the end, she was angry, angry with herself; angry she canât please everyone and be in their good book, angry that she always seemed to mess up everything she did, angry at the world, angry at not meeting up with the expectation of the world. And thus cue her life of self-destruct, misery and shame and guilt.â
Hannahâs eyes start to water, and she felt like she was bleeding again.
âAnd thatâs not all we have in common.â She revealed, ââŠOur souls were destroyed by the same person.â
Hannahâs eyes widened, her head whipped upward so harsh she was sure she had a crick in her neck.
âYou didnât think it was only you or Jessica, did you? I.. have the honour of being his very first victim. Anyway, I think itâs enough for today. We can talk more when the drugâs out of your system.â
Hannah learnt the beautiful; mystery woman was Emily Caesar and she wasnât so much older than she was. Just by a mere year in fact. And she learned she was Emily was 15 when Bryce forced himself on her in his swimming pool.
âI can help you.â Emily said, âBut only if you allow me to. Unless that tape 14 was just a spur of the moment recording, I wonât stop you if you decide to go back to your old life again. You should consider my offer carefully.â
âW-Why do my parents think Iâm dead?â
She smiled as if she expected such questions, âIâm rich and money goes a long way. Forging the death of a little nobody from some town isnât so hard ââ particularly, if she tried to kill herself. Makes it easier than, for example, if they became ill from something and you tell the parents you died, weâd have to do a bit of more of convincing. But you were dead, for few minutes; it was enough time for your parents to see you get carried out in a body bag.â
Hannahâs eyes clenched shut, forcing away the imagery of her mum and dad crying and shouting for their dead baby.
âWhy me? Why not someone else?â
âFor one, weâre quite similar being the tragic hero in our little fairy-tale. Two, we share the same scars and enemy of course. Three, I absolutely loved your tapes. I think itâs quite a fun way of haunting people from the grave. I thought you were going to be that âyou made these mistakes, now look what youâve done and hope this forever haunts you while you liveâ kind of person, until I listened to your 14th tape. I want to know how serious you are.â
Hannah stared at her bandaged wrists; the doctor had warned her that she might never be able to regain full function of her wrists ever again.
âDo you want to know what happened to those thirteen people?â Emily asked, âI can show you their files I got from the private investigator. But one thing they all share in common: they are living a very happy life. Justin and Jessica, theyâre applying to go to the same college; Zach, numerous offers of scholarships from prestigious colleges, coaches fighting to take him on to their team and a beautiful girlfriend; Marcus, a great honorary student and beloved student body president as always..should I go on or do you want to read the files in detail?â
Hannahâs fingers twitched. She was meant to curl them into a fist but even a smallest movement resulted in pain and numbness.
âAnd look at you. Youâve lost everything and now you lost your hands too.â Emily shook her head, âWhen a girl decide to kill herself, people act as if one night she just decide to slit her wrists in her bathtub. Then they decide to notice you; teachers acting as if they knew you, students acting as if theyâve been your best friends for ages, make a little memorial with shitty flowers you donât even like, few couple of selfies hash-tag RIP, hash tag will be missed and loved, hash tag heaven gained another angel and few features in the newspaper talking about how loving daughter you were, how much of a dedicated student you were, how you had so much to look forward to.â Emily scoffed, âItâs pathetic; suddenly youâve become some kind of poster child for anti-suicide prevention. Itâll be like that for few weeks or so, and then the society will deem the case closed and move on,â She snapped her fingers, âJust like that. Â And you know whatâs so unfair, to the ones involved, to people like us, we will continue to live on forever in that incident while people who caused all this, forgets about it and move on with their lives. Thatâs the difference between us and them.â
Hannah couldnât hold back her tears and now it was freely flowing down her cheeks.
Emilyâs voice softened, âWhy do they have to go this far? Maybe they have a shitty life. Maybe theyâre just as fucked up as we are. Maybe the only way to they could bear to live is by making other people just as miserable as they are. They donât really have a reason. It just so happens that you were caught in their web. Whether you put it up with it or put up a fight, it makes no difference. In the end, you get killed. If you donât like thatâŠrisk your lifeâŠand retaliate. Iâm giving you that chance.â
Then she slid the sharp razor toward Hannah.
âMake your choice, Hannah.â
Hannah spent most of her days in the small clear room, entirely glass with a desk facing her. Everything was a blur â the nurses and the doctorâs faces, the constant prick of needles in her arms, the time and she had trouble listening to people talking to her. Emily visited her every day, but she made no further mentions of nor did she seem willing to continue their previous conversations.
One day, she was allowed out of the tiny room and she soon realised she wasnât in the hospital but in a little cottage that belonged to Emily. Hannah explored the beautiful garden with Emily tagging behind her. The scenery that would have normally tugged her heartstring seemed to have become dulled down in its response. Boring almost.
âDo you like flowers?â Emily asked as she observed Hannah slowly reaching up to touch the petals.
ââŠNot anymore.â She pulled away.
âHow could you? When the world is so shitty.â Emily ripped a yellow flower from the ground and threw it on the dug soil, âHow can flowers be lovely in your eyes when everything is scary and detestable. The flowers, people, and the world.â
Hannah glanced at Emily before something caught her eyes; a spider and a wasp that was trapped in its web. Emilyâs words began to ring in her head. The wasp desperately flailed in the web and the invisible strings wrapped itself around its victim tighter than before as the spider crept toward its meal. There didnât seem to be much hope for the wasp. It will soon be devoured and killed by the spider, just how the nature intended. The wasp fought against the spider with its sting. It seemed like a futile, losing battle.
Then something miraculous happened much to Hannahâs surprise, the web snapped and the wasp and the spider fell onto the ground. Hannah stared at the two insects wiggling beneath her.
Whether you put it up with it or put up a fight, it makes no difference. In the end, you get killed. If you donât like thatâŠrisk your lifeâŠand retaliate.
Retaliate. Just like the wasp. Desperate to live. Want to live. The wasp was such an insignificant insect, a vermin and an imitation striving to be the real Bee. But still, it wanted to live. Not matter how pathetic its existence seemed to be and how useless it was, the wasp still fought to live. Want to liveâŠHannah wanted to live. She might be worthless and useless and good-for-nothing but she still deserved to live. She deserved her share of happiness. She deserved her place in this world.
Hannah brought her foot down and stomped hard on the spider.
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