#HOWEVERRRR

[apricusapollo]

there are two wolves within me: one urging me to write lestappen fanfic & one reminding me of the promise I made to myself 4 years ago

[evaofkonoha]

happy sunday scaries friends! I doodled to mentally prep for my 10hr shift tomorrow!

[mariamlovesyou]

i dont want my credits line to be "and then she never shared herself with anyone ever again"

[ppgxrrblove]

It's my 9 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Good grief it's been 9 years already? I thought it would be more than that...- fairly I came in while I was young..if I would've came before, before...yeesh it would uhh be awkward time than before lol.

[yuuzuforia]

ive been on that lee donghyuck grind tbh like icb i used to be just a mark girlie but …BUT I SEE THE APPEAL OF HAECHAN its so fucking potent its a problem

the amount of haechan fics ive read in one night dude its crazy haechan has a hold on me

[chomfoolery]

everytime i remember that i can listen to music with both earbuds in i fall in love with music again

[spacesymbol]

well, you will never believe who also forgot to post on tumblr today! despite saying i would yesterday!

anyways ummm today was mediocre. went to brunch with family and promptly threw up everything i ate during the car ride home. yaaay

later i stopped by my dads house because hes out of town and i had to check on his cat also known as my baby! i got a lot of pictures and videos of her to send to my dad, along with a fathers day message. on a similar note, fathers day is NOT real and it CANT hurt me....!

[bad-euphoria]

YUTA WALK MV

[sibswin]

Btw if I ever take a while to respond to you, whether on asks or DMs, dont assume im deliberately ignoring you or anything - this might just be me overthinking things heavily but i feel kinda bad leaving people on read so...idk, i just wanna say it. i really appreciate the attention but, idk, if i dont respond, i just. have a life to live, and other interests besides sex.

Again this is just my ass overthinking how other people might react to me not always responding immediately, but, idk i need to say it for my own sake.

Woooo, sorry if this sounds rude, this is just a general vibe ive been starting to feel. i try to get around to people, just not always up for it.

[shivology]

ok so re: logan and racism (and marcia) because i’ve been having Thoughts TM rotating in my mind for a day or two but like. logan, obviously, is a very racist individual, but i think mostly in the sense that he perpetuates and weaponizes racism rather than actively, like, unironically having said bigoted beliefs (for the most part of course lmao)

in the sense that, like, he does not believe that, say, white people are inherently superior, and he knows and acknowledges that they have a leg up in the world because he’s many things but he’s not stupid. but to him, that’s not a bad thing. it’s not a good thing either. it’s just .. a Thing. it’s the way the world works. (same with misogyny and other forms of oppression. “i didn’t make the world,” he says to shiv after saying her being a woman was a minus.)��

he’s got a, like, might makes right natural selection type proto-fascistic sense of morality that prioritizes power and strength above all else.  rather than condemning systemic bigotry that he is very very very aware is real and exists, it’s like -- it is what it is. the world isn’t fair, tough luck. he’s aware that spreading racism, islamophobia, antisemitism, etc is profitable for him and therefore he will do it and he won’t feel bad because he didn’t create the world and it’s not his fault that that’s the way things are. racism and bigotry are tools and he won’t hesitate to use them if it’ll serve his interests. it’s all part of the game.

like he’s one of those people who would look at african and asian countries who have had their resources fucked to hell by colonialism and capitalism and imperialism and white supremacy, like iraq, egypt, iran, ethiopia, etc, and he wouldn’t try to downplay how much they contributed to humanity or whitewash them the way your run-of-the-mill old racist man would, but he’d also have no sympathy for their current suffering. he’d think well it’s their fault they let themselves get lazy and soft. that’s what you get. he wouldn’t downplay the crimes europeans have committed against native americans but he’d say that “they were conquered” and that’s the way the world works. oops sorry tough luck you lost. 

which brings me to: he respects people of color who, to him, “rise above” racism -- like marcia. because to him, human rights aren’t inalienable. you have to claw your way through the world to be respected and perceived as a human being but if you DO manage to do that -- then you’re one of the good ones. you deserve respect. (romanticizing suffering like a good old catholic lol) i think he feels like him and marcia are similar in the sense that they both rose above hardship -- in the sense that they’re both immigrants (obviously with VERY different experiences) who made something of themselves.

so he respects marcia in a way he doesn’t respect anyone else in the show, in a way. he doesn’t respect his kids or the pierces because they were born with a silver spoon in their mouths and he doesn’t respect poor people either because he grew up poor too and he still made something of himself so fuck that everything’s an excuse. he’s like the poster-child of someone who has personally experienced injustice (being abused as a child, living in poverty, etc) and rather than not wanting anyone else to experience these things, you’d rather everyone else did because that’s only fair. like why do YOU get to have a safe space when I didn’t? no fuck that

so like i think if one of the kids were to say something bigoted or micro-aggressive to marcia in his presence he’d be quick to be like, okay, well what do YOU do successfully. quickly. however. he wouldn’t of course actively make the environment they live in safe for her, and he WILL actively promote racism against her people because that’s what works for him, just like he didn’t take measures to keep his kids safe from the people he associates himself with.

[maybebi47]

I always knew in my heart i was never wrong for loving him!!!!!!!!!

[ladyinthebluebox]

she's comin' to get ya'!

[roboyomo]

just woke up. it is 6 am. and after that 57 paragraphs rantpost about the doomed guys i decided that i'm Not going to be nice to azranix today

[pprodsuga]

WHAT you cannot stop writing you’re so talented 😟

you’re so sweet 😭 i don’t usually care about notes but im on some kinda bullshit rn and don’t really see the point if i’m neither fulfilled with my work or if people don’t really wanna read it

[sukirichi]

aaa suki is there any way we'll get a pov of suna once he found out abt y/n kissing omi? 😭😭😭 i need to know he hurts

hi baby!! and no i’m sorry, but we won’t be getting a pov of that from rin :( the epilogue will be more on rin’s pov tho!!

[calvinandhobbes]

i saw the national play lit up, squalor victoria & the geese of beverly road live last night