#HOW DOES IT FEEL TO HAVE A TEAMMATE DIE AND YET THE WORLD IS NOT CRUMBLING

[typenonsense]

hey. hey. is anyone else thinking about how this is the first time skizz gets to properly mourn a teammate. is anyone else thinking about the fact that this is the first grave he can lay flowers at, the first eulogy he spoke.

[crystaljellie]

I honestly think that there are so many interesting songs that fit the life series characters so well, so I’m going to talk about them here and explain why I associate them with these songs!

Bdubs - Never love an anchor by the crane wives

"With this heart of mine that's guilty, not remorseful" | It's guilty because Bdubs feels bad, he feels bad he couldn't achieve what he should. He feels bad that he killed Impulse in third life, betrayed him, and even then it got him nothing. He's guilty because he knows the harm he's caused

"There is love that doesn't have a place to rest, but it would burry you if it had settled on your shoulders" | I notice that Bdubs has a lot of trust and faith in his companies, something about this brings back the 'He loves me' scene from last life back. Bdubs loves a lot more than people seem to think he does, so he must hold it back in case of that love being used against him

"I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel" | Maybe things that Bdubs wants to be, for the sake of letting go and letting himself detach from these people so losing them doesn't hurt as much. Letting other people label him as such

BigB - Know How by the Crane wives

"I am not brave; I keep my focus on what is safe," | I think this is fitting to BigB even if it's not necessarily true; I think from his perspective how he feels, ignoring how he is actually very brave. But at the same time he does keep his focus on what is safe, there's a reason why he always makes it to the final or session before the final.

"Just because I know what I'm supposed to do now, doesn't mean I know how" (Edited line to be shorter) | I'm not sure how to explain this but I do think it really fits him, he knows all the things he's meant to do, to survive, for example killing with the boogeymancurse, but he dragged it out till the very very end before he killed Cleo in last life, because he didn't know how he was supposed to do it.

Etho - I don’t know anyone I am by Salvia Palth

"I don't know anyone, I am in relation to anyone I guess" | Etho has always been seen as a loner throughout all seasons, he doesn't very much get the time to make meaningful bonds or understand his teammates. It makes sense he would struggle to see himself as more than just a survivor as well, he hasn't given himself the time to focus on anything else.

Scar - Icicles by The Scary Jokes

"Their shallow observations will only stall the transformation" | This is very secret life scar to me, maybe something something the watchers talking to him, everyone forcing the title of villain onto him, yet the watchers see him as a gift to them, as a victor and they're trying to make sure Scar keeps doing what he has been and not back out because they're calling him 'villain'

"But I admit it would be easier, To be relieved of all this shame and not have to wear it on my sleeve." | This fits Scar's feelings on the matter, not wanting to go forward, not wanting to be shamed and outcast by the rest of the lifers.

"I can only be forgiven if I'm giving myself up to you" | Secret life in general but also back in 3rd life, Scar believing he can only make up for killing Grian at the end by having Grian kill him, something something 'slay me and take the enchanter'

"My world has turned so cold, but I won't cry, 'cause icicles don't soften when they die so why should I" | Despite Scar being constantly alone, he stayed strong he never 'softened' or cried he also became cold which is why he won.

Grian - Bird Song by Florence + The Machine

"And he sang about what I'd become" | How Grian had slowly lost his mind in third life as well as all the other games, how Grian had became someone obsessed with getting kills, going out of his way to trick and trap people and find loopholes to kill

"I picked up the bird and above the den I said 'That's the last song you'll ever sing" | Grian doesn't want to think that he might be a bad person, or he might be going crazy, so he has to silence anyone saying otherwise, anyone that might prove a danger to him. Maybe because he can't let the watchers get word that he's exactly who they say he his. Maybe even so this is relating to the theory that he might have been the one to curse Jimmy.

Impulse - A Mask of My Own Face by Nature Tapes

Okay now hear me out on this one, Impulse is constantly in and out of alliances especially in third life, lying to everyone to gain vantage.

"And none of them would know that I am secretly myself" | Because they trust that Impulse is putting on a facade all the time, but maybe what they are missing is that the facade is what he considers to be him. Or at the very least keeps him safer

"I'd blame it on the person that nobody knows I am" | Something about him always being like 'Oh I did this so they'd trust me more I'm still on your side I promise' Or 'I did this for the task!' When he could have absolutely targeted anyone else.

Martyn - Metaphors by The Crane wives

"I've gotten good at living on someone elses page" | It's the way Martyn is always deceiving and always planning to betray, living on someone else's page, being content and loyal until he has the chance not to be.

"You can't trust a single thing I say" | Idk something about him talking about how he was planning to betray Ren in third life.

"Don't look too hard cause you won't like the scars he left in me" | THIS BEING SO TREEBARK LISTEN TO ME. HE GAVE UP SO MUCH TO REN THERE ARE SO MANY SCARS CAUSED BY FOLLOWING THE ORDERS TO KILL SOMEONE YOU LOVE

Lizzie - The Crooked the Cradle by The crane wives

"There's blood in the water" | Thinking about Lizzie showing up in limited life to play Pearl and the first thing she was tasked with is killing. Like she showed up and instantly was given the title of boogeyman, a gimmick that was only there in the one other season she was in, a sense of familiarity and a sense of dread.

"The quiet are restless the silent are still" | When there is peace on the server and it is quiet there are people waiting to kill. When it is silent it is because all is dead. And Lizzie knows that well being quick to die each time, she is the silent, especially when she fell into the void, she died alone and in scilence.

"If Mercy's abound I'll be safe I'll be sound, and the devil won't know of the love I just couldn't let go" | Something about Joel being the cause of her death In Secret life... loved him so much she went down for him, she couldn't let it go and it got her killed.

"Can anyone hear me?" | Her in the void not being able to be heard....

Mumbo - Saint Bernard by Lincoln

"To remind me that I am a fool" | I am very strongly of the headcanon that Mumbo is also a watcher, something something he needs to remind himself that he is fooling himself into thinking he could fit in with the world of the watchers or the world of the players

"When I am dead I won't join their ranks because they are both holy and free" | And Mumbo's not, Mumbo doesn't get to go where they go, he still has more to do, more to make up for. Still instructions left to follow

"There's really just one thing that we have in common, neither of us will be missed" This is so Mumbo talking to Grian coded for me

Pearl - Here I am by the Crane wives

"How long have I been here all alone" Double life Pearl in her tower....

"Settled in, had a plan but I never factored in, Everyone else saying goodbye" | Basically also double life Pearl she had a plan with Martyn go to the nether get stuff come back find her soulbound, and then they all left her.

"This ghost town is making a ghost of me" | Everyone dying around her, and being alone like this without chance of redemption slowly killing her.

"I promised myself I'd learn to be the one who leaves" | Throughout the next games, like secret life, she'd be the one who leaves instead of gets left behind, but she didn't seeing how she was always last one alive out of her teammates

Skizz - Wrecking ball by mother mother

"I made a fist and not a plan" | Skizz is usually quite reckless and goes action first plan second.

"You gotta see the artistry In tearing the place apart with me, baby" | This but more in the ironic sense, because Skizz while he wants to reign chaos he is also fiercely loyal and kind to his allies, so tearing the place apart with me, is important. He doesn't just want to cause chaos he wants connections

Scott - Icarus

"Climb ye higher and higher and higher 'Til you're far away and breathing cleaner air" | Scott winning last life, climbing higher and higher through the ranks until he breaks through the clouds into what he had hoped was cleaner air spoiler alert it’s not.

"Who have you become in the wake of all that's happened here?" | What’s happened to you, what happened in last life that changed you, what made you so cold and bitter and so quick to assume the worst when double life came

"Spreading out the ashes of a love That only gave and gave" | Either this as flower husbands, being the ashes of a love that only gave to others, or specifically Scott’s love, that only gave and gave to the one whom he loved

"There's no room for all the hearts who will not stay" | For the people who will not stay with him, the watchers pressuring him to do better and leave the, behind. He won’t though.

Joel - The Wolf by the crane wives

"I will join the wolf at my door Breathing out storms when she comes around" | Well yes we know Joel is a dog boy clearly, but also how he is oh so aggressive to everyone he meets, ferocious and knocking things down.

"I am always burning, burning, burning" | Burning with rage? Burning things down? So many emotions they're lighting up his world so much that it blinds him from seeing anything else

Jimmy - Hollow Moon By the crane wives

"In the darkness, Slowly crawling over my skin, Whispers at the door, "let us in, let us in" | Whispers of the watchers, or maybe his curse, something knocking to let death in.

"I won't be sleeping, There's too many monsters in the backyard" | Okay yes funny because of Minecraft mechanics. But also, idk something about Jimmy not being able to see the watchers but still feeling their presence.

(I'm giving Jimmy an extra song because he's special)

Strawberry blond by Mitski

"I love everybody because I love you When you stood up, walked away barefoot And the grass where you lay left a bed in your shape I looked over it and I ached" | YES I AM BACK ON MY FLOWER HUSBANDS BULLSHIT! Trust me so much they're so insanely in love, they love the world because they love each other, their relationship is so sweet and soft.

"All I need, darlin', is a life in your shape I picture it, soft, and I ache" | because all they ever needed was each other, not the death not the violence, just to be in love

Tango - Monster by Dodie

"I'm guessing that I've grown horns I guess I'm human no more I can tell I've rotted in your brain" | Tango's anger and wondering if those reactions made others see less in him. Make him a monster

"You think I'm a crazy bitch I craft my words to fit your head 'Cause no one listens to the dead" | Idk... something about this and Tango, he always dies relatively early too, maybe it's only death that'll comfort him

Cleo - The Garden by The Crane Wives

"My stone, My shield, my steady hand, Hold your light To the darkness in my head" | Something about this being about how Scott has been her friend and ally throughout all seasons

"Give me something pretty to wear beneath my blood-stained clothes" | I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT BUT THIS IS LIMITED LIFE CLETHO, DOES ANYONE HEAR ME PLEASE TRUST

"My darling, the devil knows my name" | Cleo makes a name known for herself by fighting, making a point with their sword

"Get on your knees and, Dig up the garden, Won't you throw down that spade and, Dig up the garden, darling?" | Something something a wife talking to her husband

Ren - Arms Tonite by Mother Mother

"I died in your arms tonight" | Martyn killing Ren in 3rd life....

"I lost sight in your arms tonight, it was nice" | Lost sight of the goal so obsessed with his kingdom and the Red army

"I cry hard because I have died, and you're alive" | Martyn out living him (Not by very long) In third life

Gem - The Well by the Crane Wives

"All the words I couldn't say to you Fill up the spaces in my chest" | This being Shiny Duo and Gem and pearl being on different sides unsure of how to stay together

"Send me anywhere, take me out I'm the well they're gonna drag you down" | Gem knowing she's only going to be used as a catalyst to hurt others despite her wants

"That old house, those rotting memories Burned easier than I'd have thought" | Those short memories of limited life being replaced by the nicer memories of at least the first half of secret life

And I am done yapping, mayhaps I will do more someday

[angelstate]

Husband!Price x Wife!reader

Captain Price isn’t a good man, he never claimed to be one and barely fills the requirements to be considered a moral being in the most mundane aspect of questioning life scenarios he is put to experience over and over again as he grows consciously older.

He knows just how tarnished he is, how dirty his hands are with blood, and how the closest he’ll ever get to heaven is by your side, and in all honesty, he wasn’t a man who craved a peaceful afterlife, nor did he crave for the existence of the promised afterlife his religious mother talked to him about every night to be true. 

Your existence is the only thing that soothes his aching heart, the only person who makes him feel better and unconsciously worse for being the man he is. Because you hold him so gently, speak so softly, and mutter praises for putting his life on the line, for losing morals so the entirety of the world didn’t lose theirs.

He feels as if it’s rotten work to love him, a tortuous action you keep because of the high morals he was never able to develop or comprehend. He sees you as a Martyr for staying with him when he continuously leaves you, disappearing to fight the evils of the world he knows won’t be eradicated anytime soon. 

Aren’t you the kindest of angels for guarding him everywhere he goes, a photo of you hidden in a small pocket on his hat, the smell of your sweet perfume on his suitcase “so you don’t forget my smell” you explained while saying goodbye to him at the door of your home. Oh, sweet angel, he will never forget you.

He usually doesn’t make promises he can't keep, not wanting to feed false hope to the people he cares for, but when you stare at him with teary doe eyes and a pretty smile on your lips because you refuse to cry in front of him, refuse to that be the last expression he sees on your face if the inevitable thing that is death happens to him in the battlefield and not in your arms, of old age with a peaceful mind, he feels compelled to promise his return, to ease your mind and take away the crushing pressure on his chest.

he would die for his teammates, but he would live for you.

“Try and return to me” you whisper in his ear, kissing him on the cheek before pulling away, you have no idea what he would do to ensure he finds his way into your arms one more time before perishing. “Of course, love” he replies, voice gruff yet holding an endearment he only has for you. 

And he remembers your last conversation with pain because Captain Price isn’t a good man, but Jonathan Price is, your Johny is a good man, one who holds you close to his chest at night despite his aching bones from War and violence, who opens the door for you and buys you flower every Sunday after church.

But tonight the night sky has a dooming dark he has never seen before, and the stars above him as he bleeds out on the soil are too blurry to stargaze the way he does with you back home, there is no grass on the floor to soothe the ache of his sore bones the way the backyard of your home does.

He knows he has never been a religious person, never been one to have a relationship with God, but you do, he knows you pray for him to return safe every day he is away from you, so tonight, knowing he isn’t returning to you, he prays for you. he prays for God to be kind to your soul and guide a new lover your way, one who won’t die thousands of miles away from you, one with a body to bury when death catches up to them. 

He prays for nothing more than for God to allow you to live peacefully the rest of your time while his time reaches an end in a secluded place on earth, looking at your picture for one last time before pressing it close to his heart with the hand that has his wedding band, feeling his skin slowly match the temperature of the cold material, his last heartbeats only known by the picture of you and him, a last secret to share with you.

Husband!Price prays for the afterlife to be real, so he can have a chance of seeing you again someday. 

[fingerless-glovez]

Twisted Wonderland Vice Housewarden Persona AU

TW mentions of death

No beastmen, merfolk, or fae outside the Shadow World

NRC is a normal non-magic school in a modern setting (Either UK or US but probably UK)

Everyone lives in their own house 

^ Working title

To enter, you must find the places where the most blot from one person accumulates and dive into the ink

Anyone who hasn't been in the Shadow World can't see or feel the blot. The only exceptions to this is are the Velvet Room residents and Yuu, who unlocks the ability after their first interaction with Igor

Someone who can see the blot can bring those who can't into the Shadow World if they have physical contact while transitioning between worlds (ex: holding hands or bumping into each other)

Those who get sucked into the Shadow World are brought to a place that represents the state of their hearts (aka the dorms)

Think of the dorms as Palaces

They also change into their dorm uniforms and kind of wander around until they meet their shadow (overblot) selves 

They can't leave until they either die or decide to move on from whatever turmoil they're going through that brought them here

The shadow selves manipulate their real-world counterparts into letting them take control until they use too much power and die

The shadow forms become the overblot entities when they capture and take over their host

Once a shadow is defeated, the real world counterparts can leave, but they have to get out before the place implodes on them because the shadow is gone

When someone dies of overblot, their bodies return to where they last were in the real world covered in ink

This has been happening a lot recently, which prompts Igor to summon Yuu to deal with it

(WIP)

The squad is called the Vice Wardens

When they get their Personas their outfits change to their dorm uniforms 

Yuu is the wild card. Yuu's first Persona is either the Ramshackle ghosts. Their Arcana is the Fool and their weapon is a large hammer

They're a first-year transfer student that was found unconscious somewhere and has no ID or anyone to contact 

Leader of the Vice Wardens and, of course, the resident therapist 

Grim doesn’t have a Persona yet, his Arcana is undetermined, and his weapon is hand claws

Joins during the prologue

Grim is in both a Teddie and Morgana situation where he's a shadow but doesn't know it, and when he's in the real world he's just a regular cat that only the team can understand 

Trey's Persona is the Mad Hatter, his Arcana is Temperance and his weapon is a sword 

Joins during the Riddle arc

Before Kalim joined the squad, his house somehow became the team meeting spot. He did NOT agree to this arrangement

ESPECIALLY since his teammates decided it was more appropriate to climb through his window instead of knocking on the door like normal people

Ruggie’s Persona is Shezi, his Arcana is undetermined, and his weapon is undetermined

Joins during the Leona arc

Lives with his grandma and forgoes school to work and help support her financially 

Ruggie can’t afford to attend NRC, but he does sneak in to meet up with the others. And steal food from the cafeteria 

Gets his hyena features with his Vice Warden uniform

Jade's Persona is Jetsam, his Arcana is the Wheel Of Fortune and his weapon is a spear 

Joins during the Azul arc

The team weapons dealer. You give him money, he gets you upgraded artillery. Where and how does he get it? That is an excellent question.

Gets his eel features with his Vice Warden uniform.

Kalim’s Persona is the Sultan, his Arcana is the Star, and his weapon is a staff

Joins during the Jamil arc

Happy sunshine boy

His house becomes the meeting spot because it's super big and Kalim’s room is very soundproof 

Rook’s Persona is the Huntsman, his Arcana is undetermined, and his weapon is a bow and arrows

Joins during the Vil arc, but is involved with the Shadow World prior to that

This fucking guy has been following the squad into the Shadow World since Trey joined the team in the FIRST ARC

Dude is fascinated by the whole “entering people’s hearts” thing and even more fascinated the Vice Wardens

Jade is the first to realize that they’re being watched and the others are FLOORED when they find out how long he’s been following them

The only reason he’s not dead yet is because he’s a hardcore survivalist and always brings his bow and arrows with him

Ortho’s Persona is Hercules, his Arcana is undetermined, and he is the Navigator

Joins during the Idia arc, but is involved with the Shadow World prior to that

Works for STYX, an organization trying to study the blot and the deaths linked to it

Goes into the Shadow World to do field research by studying the Shadow selves and the Vice Wardens

His job is to buff, heal, analyze the opponent, and occasionally contribute in All-Out Attacks.

Being a robot, he doesn't attend NRC, but he does sneak in to meet up with the others.

Lilia's Persona is the three good fairies, his Arcana is the World, and his weapon is a cleaver

One Yuu's first allies and mentor for Shadow stuff

Joins during the prologue

Poses as a high schooler and transfers to NRC to gain access to the areas in the school that blot accumulates

Gets his fae features with his Vice Warden uniform

(Spoilers for chapter 7, scroll until the next image)

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Lilia was a wildcard that used his Persona powers to protect Briar Valley against a diety, but the diety decided to play dirty and manipulated the kingdom of Dawn to start the war, thus limiting Lilia from his fighting capacity.

Lilia's Persona was unresponsive due to all the changes in behavior and the mourning over the lost lives, but years later, he gained his first Persona back, weaker, when he decided to raise Silver. So with time, his Persona could grow stronger and Lilia could realize that his time as the lone fighter is over and that he needs to train the new Persona users to team up together and succeed where he alone failed.

^ (credit to @lowkeyclueless5137 for the specifics of Lilia’s backstory)

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The Velvet Room takes the form of the Mirror Chamber 

But instead of the Dark Mirror it's Igor 

Yuu enters through a coffin in the ceremonial robes

Ace and Deuce are the Velvet Room attendants

Ace’s Arcana is Strength and Deuce’s is the Chariot

They work together to do fusions, where Ace has his playing cards and Deuce has the giant book

Sometimes they fight and cause a fusion fail, which I’m sure surprises no one

Ace can often be seen in the real world hanging out with the team or annoying people

That’s how he meets Yuu, and Trey later on

Deuce usually stays in the Velvet Room, but if he has Igor’s permission, he’ll go hang out with Yuu

Deuce has some… issues

Due to some bad experiences in the past, he’s nervous about going to the real world

Basically: Unfamiliarity with human customs/social cues + People that really suck = Pent up anger that he sometimes loses control of

Yuu tries to help. Ace does not.

That's all I have for now. Ideas and criticism are always welcome! :)

[trans-queen-administrator]

Y'all ever think about the first chapter of Gold Morning when Taylor realizes she threw away everything and cut ties and poured her soul into trying to stop the end of the world only for it to all be for nothing and her hometown is gone and her dad is probably dead and she gives up for the first time in the book? Like she's a person of nearly infinite determination and willpower, but it finally ran out after she realized it was all hopeless. And it's such a fitting method of attempted suicide too for someone who passively tried to kill herself via caping without even realizing she was doing so. She just floated out over the ocean at sunset, surrounded herself in a cocoon of bugs, and stayed there as her flight pack's fuel drained to the point of no return. She didn't say it outright, but she fully intended to die there.

And the whole time she couldn't bear to ask anyone for help or a hug. She said the only two people who would give a hug without further questions were her dad and Rachel who weren't available, and that's heartbreaking to me. She's been so focused on being composed and threatening and strong enough to not be fucked with that she can't bring herself to let down the mask, so she'll drown instead. And she's wrong, she's so so so wrong but she's such a bundle of paranoia and self loathing that she can't fathom her friends would accept her in her moment of weakness and give her a hug. But Lisa does.

I'm moving past the "now we were like lesbians" real quick because yes they're so gay but that's not the point of this post. Lisa gave her a hug immediately, she saw her friend hurting and wanted to comfort her, but I think it's important to note that Taylor's inability to ask for comfort and the fact that she didn't want to inconvenience her friends with her feelings led directly to her hurting Lisa so much more. When Lisa opened the door she was genuinely unsure if Taylor would come through or let herself die, she was forced to see her worst nightmare for a moment as everything she tried to stop happened. How much would that destroy her? She doesn't show it because she's just like Taylor with her emotion bottling, but I honestly think if Taylor hadn't come through that door Lisa would have second triggered.

Anyway I'm getting off topic even if I don't know what my topic is. Taylor being afraid of being a burden when she's emotional around her teammates happens a few more times through Gold Morning, Rachel accepts it obviously, Lisa hugs her, and Aisha tells her to stop apologizing because she's allowed to feel shit when the world is ending. Everyone (sorry Brian) is 100% ready to help her, but because Taylor has had every strong emotion she shared with Emma weaponized against her and has been taught to appear strong she just can't fucking comprehend it. Her friends would fucking follow her to the ends of the Earth and she's thinks so little of herself that she believes she wouldn't give her a hug. I'm repeating myself but fuck she's really kill herself before asking for a hug during the apocalypse. She's just completely incapable of believing people like her I want to throttle her and yell that she is loved but she would genuinely just somehow rationalize that as a lie. She's surrounded by friends and people she's saved and so many lives that she's touched yet she's completely alone in her head because she keeps them all like 20 feet away emotionally.

[cultpastorkevin]

Jean ;; On Giving A Fuck

I have seen mixed reviews from the chat regarding how much yet simultaneously how little Jean cares for his Raven-teammates. They seem to settle mostly on a “he can’t help it, he cares so much, he’s just a softie at heart, all that torture and he still gives a fuck”

put the brakes on yourselves and let me explain to you something about cults : )

When you are in a cult, especially one that engages in violence and extremes, connections fucking matter. They don’t need to be deep. They don’t need to mean shit. What you need is an understanding, a “I scratch your back you scratch mine” and humans inherently will depend on and become bonded to the people they spend all their time with and are forced to trust. You need someone reliable. You need consistency. You need safety. People within the cult can provide you that, often at a cost, but in the end it is for self preservation.

Jean does not love his teammates because he is kind at heart. He does not save Zane’s life because even after so much, he values Zane. Fuck no. Jean gives a fuck because he had to; he had no choice but to, and cult connections are strong enough to kill. You don’t get to walk away from something like that.

The Ravens are dropping like flies. You ever wonder why? Once one of them killed themselves (Riko) the Nest fucking shattered. As soon as cult members start losing who they have to keep them sane and push them through the worsts, they snap. 16 Ravens got put on suicide watch. 16. That’s an entire classroom.

Riko. Jean tried. Wayne. Colleen. Zane tried. Jasmine would’ve if the suicide watch wasn’t implemented. You don’t put people in the trenches together, make them dependent on a partner setup, then forcibly rip them away from each other and expect them to be able to just cope.

Cults are a hive mind. You orbit each other whether you want to or not. Your lows drag each other down and your highs elevate you to the gods. Partnerships in cults are one of the best ways to anchor the members into them, to keep you there and trap you. You and your partner will become each others air and water. One of you stumbles the other is there to catch, and if one of you wins, the other was right behind pushing you up. There is no “me and my” there is only “us vs the world” because a cult takes you, melts you down and remolds you into a link that helps them build their fence.

The Ravens didn’t deserve it. They didn’t deserve feeling so lost after being removed from the Nest that to them the only natural option was to kill themselves. Jean knows this, he’s been there. He wants them all to burn because he is seeped in anger and hatred and god he wants them all to rot in hell because he loathes what the Nest stands for but it is home but he doesn’t want them to kill themselves because they don’t fucking deserve to die before getting a second chance, because them dying off makes you wonder if it was all worth it. Was it? Is continuing worth it if everyone you bled with for years is dying around you and you’re left clutching onto memories that are too heavy for one person alone to keep? Last man standing is a trope that people idolize, it means resilience and strength, an ability to beat the odds. Last man standing for a cult means indescribable guilty grief.

He is trying to unlearn soulwrenching, forced loyalty. They all are. They are so young. They didn’t deserve this.

[thecoolerliauditore]

I really liked this gimmick. Wasn't intensely intrusive like the snails wasn't boring like the tick speed. Watched Scar's ep here are my highlights:

It's funny seeing people treat a red name killing a dark green teammate to gain a life as ridiculous and unthinkable given how often Scott does it

Scarian fans we're so back

So fucking funny watching Jimmy kill and attempt to kill Joel repeatedly and yet Bamily is still going strong and their alliance has never faltered

SCAR'S FIRST TRIVIA QUESTION WAS WHO DID YOUR MAN CHEAT ON YOU WITH 😭

Jimmy's not first out again and I doubt he'll die next episode either, they've been doing good :D

He IS being a little shit to Grian. Good for him but please don't make him even more pissed than he already is 😭

SCARPEARL CRUMBS. Scar seems on good terms with Pearl, he just doesn't want her to kill his alliance. He's very friendly with everyone actually

The question "What did Scar and Pearl use to hurt their soulmates" and Scott staying silent and Scar and Pearl looking into each other's eyes.....

JIMMY WANTED TO KILL SCOTT

but he seemed like hesitant about it. in my brain because he was giving in and asking for a life maybe? While meanwhile Scar was talking his ear off about murder strategies and Jimmy was saying he didn't think Scar could help...

This whole session was a load of previous season nostalgia bait and I got baited. I love it. I love Grian telling Scar that BigB treated him right. Scarian fans it's so over we're so back it's so over we're so back

I actually really liked the time changing mechanic mainly cus I'm a gimmick hater 😔 it hit the sweet spot for me between gimmicky enough to have funny unforseen consequences (like with lava and the looney tunes lookin fight sequences) and simple enough to not feel disruptive.

I did like this gimmick tho I thought it was fun albeit a bit.. extra.? It was really fun to watch and interesting to find out what people do and don't remember -- I was really taken aback by how much Bdubs remembered, for example, or how Joel remembered a very specific line from Cleo in LL but couldn't remember Skizzs red skin in LimL.

But at other times it felt like some of the questions could've been better worded, like the zombie pool party question Scar got. And the mechanic as a whole felt more like an extra on-top of gameplay than anything that really melded into the session. But again this is all from me being a hater of gimmicks in general lol and this is absolutely one of the more mood-killer/pandering ones.

And yeah, Lizzie's refusal this episode and Ethos last episode really paint a picture of how. Unique Scott is in his insistence on his suicidal tendencies. Mind you Lizzie wasn't there for LimL where this was more expected due to the mechanic so it's probably even more unthinkable to her than the others. That combined with Scott admitting he doesn't want to die is... Sighs. My son.

sometimes I wish I had the crazy scarian phase that everyone other than me seems to have gone through because scarian is really. Really awesome and I think they deserve their hype. I would say this season emphasizes that but really every season emphasizes that.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO MAKE OF JOEL AND JIMMY MAN. Jimmy HAS become the world's worst toxic ex boyfriend to Joel and Joel just doesn't. Give a fuck? My brain is confused. I need to figure out whether this is silly or angsty or mayhaps both.

"bigb treated me right" grian should go to jail for this

jimmys the only one on red by the end of this episode which has me scared but I still believe in him.. :'D he has managed to piss. Literally everyone off though which is unfortunate.

YESSS I WASNT THE ONLY ONE WHO SAW THE SCARPEARL CRUMBS. The way they keep silently empathizing and supporting eachother and orbiting it's so good.

And YES JIMMY GO GO GO KILL 💥💥 Jimmy's desperation to kill Scott is. So telling of not only his growing resentment but also of his naivete. Accentuated especially by that last episode where everyone from Etho to Skizz pointed out that Scott wasn't an easy target for a variety of reasons.

I'm sad that he no longer really has a reason to go after him (the disappointment in his voice when he realised he turned light green lmao) but I'm proud of Jimmy I'm always proud of Jimmy. I think he could kill him I really think he could.

[rattkachuk]

For the writer‘s prompts, Mattdrai and 54 please 💙

(Sensory prompts) 54. The moment when reality starts to make sense again.

The last day had been a haze to Matthew.

The hit itself had been a complete blur. It was a rough and heated game against the Lightning and they were all caught up in the fray, but then his head was down for a second…and that was all he really remembered. He couldn’t even watch the footage yet because screens were a no go until tomorrow at the least, so he only had his teammates recounting the whole event to go off of.

It was bad though, he knew that much. From the doctors telling him, but also from the incessant throbbing in his skull and the way nothing felt real quite yet, and especially in the pitied looks he got from everyone. He really hated that part.

Sasha and Carter had stayed with him the night before and taken turns waking him throughout the night, asked him questions and made sure he didn't, like, die. Of course they had lives and things they needed to do, so he insisted they left him (an hour or two ago, maybe, he couldn't be sure) but they told him that they’d send someone else back in their place. That’s why the distant sound of his front door opening doesn't bother him enough to even try getting out of bed.

A soft rap of knuckles on his bedroom door frame does get him to shift around in his bed, though.

“Holy shit,” he mutters as a violent wave of nausea washes through him and sends him scrambling towards the bathroom as fast as his body lets him, just in time to dry heave over the toilet.

“Not the typical reaction you want your boyfriend to have when surprising him,” Leon’s voice is gentle, no real malice, as he crouches down beside Matthew, rubbing a hand over his back soothingly.

“Shut up,” Matthew winces, “You get hit in that pretty head of yours and then fucking talk to me.”

“Sorry, Matthew,” Leon is smiling, Matthew can tell without even looking at him.

Matthew’s stomach is still reeling, but once he’s sure nothing is actually coming out of him, he accepts Leon’s hand to help him back to his feet. The bathroom lights are still off, but Matthew still has to squint to look at Leon, head spinning. The sudden rush had put him back on shaky ground. He braces himself against the other man, gripping his arm so tight he can feel his pulse thrumming through his own fingers.

“I need to lay down,” Matthew says, voice small.

Leon leads him back to bed, tends to him and makes sure he drinks some water before pulling the blankets over his cold body. He drapes himself around Matthew so gently, and Matthew curls into the touch desperately like Leon might disappear if he doesn’t. He's still not sure that this isn't some concussion spurred dream.

“How did you even manage to…you’ve got a game tonight,” Matthew breathes, his fingers absently smoothing the hair on Leon’s arm.

“Family emergency,” Leon says like it’s a no brainer.

Matthew’s head pounds and it pulsates all the way down his neck, “Oh.”

Leon kisses Matthew’s shoulder, “You should rest. I’ll wake you up in a little while.”

“Okay,” Matthew says, a small smile on the corner of his lips. Through the brain fog, things become a little clearer, and the world around him starts to feel real again.

[kandisheek]

FIC REC WEEK 20 - 616

AUTHOR SPOTLIGHT: Sineala

One of the things I love most about Sineala's writing - other than the general brilliance of it - is how much work she puts into tying her fics into canon. I feel like most of what I know about Marvel Comics I learned by reading the helpful notes she adds to her works, explaining which volumes and arcs each canon element is from. Aside from that, Sineala is one of the best writers in the fandom (in my opinion, but honestly, it's just a fact), and I love everything she's ever written. I've recommended a bunch of her stuff this year already, but honestly, you should just read her entire AO3 catalogue.

Here's some of her work that I think you should check out:

Every Now and Then I Fall Apart

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: T Words: 6,000 Tags: Truth Spells, Chronic Pain, Secrets

Summary: When Tony gets hit by a truth spell, the consequences aren't what anyone expected. They're sure not what Tony expected. He wishes he could stop telling his teammates about all the medical problems he tries to hide. As long as he doesn't open his mouth and reveal his secret feelings for Steve, or all his secret inadequacies as a human being, though, everything's going to be fine. And Tony's good at keeping secrets... or so he thinks. But maybe Steve knows him better than he knows himself. And just because Tony believes something, that doesn't make it the truth.

Reasons why I love it: I'm always down for a truth serum fic, and this one is absolutely lovely. Tony being a fan of Total Eclipse of the Heart makes me unreasonably happy, and I love how angsty his accidental confessions are. And of course, the Stony in this is wonderful. I love this fic so much, please go and read it!

Down to Zero

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: T Words: 18,336 Tags: Temporary Amnesia, Extremis, Hurt/Comfort

Summary: After a battle against the Controller goes awry, Steve is bewildered and guilt-ridden when Tony begins to treat him exactly the same as he treats everyone else.

Reasons why I love it: Holy fuck, this fic is good. I love how guilty Steve feels about taking Tony for granted, and how he immediately knows that something is wrong with him, even when nobody else does. The resolution, once Tony gets his memories back, is fantastic and always puts a smile on my face. I adore this fic, and if you haven't read it yet, you absolutely have to!

Trust Fall

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: E Words: 39,107 Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Love Confessions, Coming in Pants

Summary: Tony needs someone who cares about him, bandages, a jacket, ibuprofen, dinner, a lasting romantic relationship, a nice time in bed, and assistance committing federal crimes. He gets them. In that order.

Reasons why I love it: Aaaah, give me all the feels!!! The hurt/comfort is incredible. Steve is so caring, and I want to wrap Tony up in blankets. And oh my god, the smut! It's everything I never knew I needed. This fic was an instant favorite for me, and I've probably read it twenty times since it came out. So yeah, if you haven't read it yet, please go and do that now, you won't regret it!

The Fall and the Rise

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: T Words: 5,148 Tags: Fix-it, De-Serumed Steve, End of the World

Summary: After the Great Society incursion, the Illuminati refuse to destroy another world. When the next incursion looms, they go to await their deaths in peace. Tony ends up on the doorstep of the last man who ever wanted to see him. At least he's going to die at Steve's side.

Reasons why I love it: This one HURTS, but in a really hopeful way, if that makes sense? The angst is superb, and I love how the bitterness can't quite overshadow the affection they still have for each other. This fic stuck with me for a long time after I read it, so I hope you go and experience it for yourself.

And in Your Head It's Worse

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: E Words: 30,204 Tags: BDSM, Scene Gone Wrong, Aftercare

Summary: Tonight is Steve and Tony's anniversary. And since they have the night off, it's the perfect time for Steve to tie Tony to the bed and drive him out of his mind, until Tony can barely remember his own name. It is definitely not the perfect time for Ghost to attack Stark Tower.

Reasons why I love it: This fic explores subspace and especially subdrop in a really compelling way. I love how Sine created the perfect awful situation for Steve and Tony to be in, only to fix it with the fluffiest fluff to ever fluff. It's lovely, and cements its status as one of my all-time favorite comfort fics. I love it so much, and I bet you will too!

[dailywusiala]

english translation of this paywall-hidden interview:

find the german version here

Jamal Musiala is only 21 years old, but he is already a key player for the German national team. He has only just moved into his first own apartment. A conversation about growing up in the public eye and dreams outside of sports.

After training with the national football team, Jamal Musiala arrives in high spirits for his interview with WELT AM SONNTAG at the Adidas Homeground, the training facility of the German Football Association in Herzogenaurach. Inside the building, golf bags are lined up for the players to use during their free time. Musiala examines them closely. "I need to stay up to date when it comes to equipment," he says with a smile.

A few days later, he will play an outstanding international match, scoring one goal and assisting three more in a 5-0 victory against Hungary in the Nations League.

WELT AM SONNTAG: Mr. Musiala, do you play golf?

Jamal Musiala: Yes, but I haven’t played in a long time. Thomas Müller and Harry Kane, my teammates at FC Bayern, are very good golfers. Thomas is the better of the two – at least that's what he says (laughs). So I definitely need to practice again to get on their level.

WAMS: There’s a stereotype that golf is more popular with people over 30. Do you feel too young for this sport?

Musiala: Not at all. Golf is just fun.

WAMS: You’ve already won the German Championship four times, two European Championships, played in a World Cup, appeared in 34 international matches, and over a hundred games for FC Bayern – and you’re only 21. Recently, you moved out of your mother’s house.

Musiala: Yes, I moved from my mother’s house into an apartment. It’s a bit different now, but I like it. I really enjoy having my own peace, as we say in English, my own space where it’s quiet. What I really miss, though, is my mom’s delicious food. But I’ve found a good solution – and I enjoy cooking myself now and then.

WAMS: Are you a good cook?

Musiala: Not at all (laughs). But, like with golf, I just enjoy it.

WAMS: But you can manage to make your beloved Maultaschen?

Musiala: Yes, they’re easy. But I can’t eat them too often.

WAMS: At the Euros, you were the top scorer with three goals, along with five other players. Have you set up a trophy room in your first apartment yet?

Musiala: I don’t have much space, so I’ve left all the trophies at my mom’s house.

WAMS: Others your age are just moving into shared apartments, studying, or starting apprenticeships. You debuted in the Bundesliga at 17. How much do you actually experience the everyday reality of your generation?

Musiala: I’ve been in the football world from a young age, so I don’t have many friends outside of sports. I’d like to have more, but you can’t force it. Friendships are important to me. As a teenager, I was in the FC Chelsea Academy, and that’s where friendships formed that have lasted to this day. That means a lot to me.

WAMS: If you hadn’t become a footballer, what do you think you’d be doing today?

Musiala: Funny that you ask, because I was just thinking about that a few days ago. I would definitely do something creative. Maybe study architecture or work as an architect. I always enjoyed drawing in school.

WAMS: Your first own apartment, your fifth season with Bayern, your fourth year in the national team – your nickname "Bambi," which teammate Leroy Sané gave you because of your skinny legs, no longer really fits. Does this current phase of your life feel like growing up?

Musiala: I don’t mind the nickname Bambi; anyone can still call me that. Of course, I’ve grown with experience and I’m no longer the Bambi player. I’ve been through a lot at a young age, and hopefully, there will be many more games and titles to come. Consistency is key, and I do everything I can to maintain that. I rely on good routines and take care of my body.

WAMS: It’s said that you also do a lot of individual training in addition to your team practices.

Musiala: That basically started in our garden when I was a child. My dad played football himself and always told me, "Your coaches will do everything they can to help you become a pro, but the extra effort, the extra miles, you have to do yourself. No one will force you to do that. That drive has to come from within." I thought that message was cool and it made sense. I still take it to heart and always think about what I can do to take another step forward. No matter how many titles I win or how much my status changes, my work ethic and mentality won’t change. I’ll always look for ways to improve and stay open to learning and growing. This mindset has always worked well for me.

WAMS: You also do neuro-athletic training. What exactly do you train?

Musiala: It’s mainly about stability and movement. We train my eye speed, which is very important for my turning movements and positioning on the field. The faster my eyes move, the quicker I can anticipate. The first touch of the ball is often decisive, and this training helps me execute the ideas I have on the pitch.

WAMS: You mentioned your routines earlier. What do they look like?

Musiala: For example, I have a set routine on matchdays. I always take a nap in the afternoon, and then I recite my affirmations. I always step onto the pitch with my right foot. And if I’ve scored a goal – whether for Germany or Bayern – I wear the same pair of boots in the next match until I stop scoring (laughs).

WAMS: What affirmations do you say?

Musiala: They’re affirmations that I’ve tried out and developed over time, and they work well for me.

WAMS: Can you share one with us?

Musiala: Sorry, that’s like making a wish when blowing out birthday candles – you’re not supposed to tell anyone.

WAMS: Who is the most important advisor in your life?

Musiala: I listen a lot to my coaches and teammates, and to the feedback from my family and close friends.

WAMS: Young adults your age are often referred to as the “TikTok generation.” Do you check the feedback on social media?

Musiala: Not much. After a match, I do look at the comments sometimes. Using social media is normal, I think, but over time I’ve learned to distance myself from it. I don’t need it. Negative comments can bring you down.

WAMS: So you haven’t left an angry or praising comment on your idol Stephen Curry’s social media accounts yet?

Musiala: (laughs) Now that you mention it, maybe I’ll do that with a fake account. No, Curry knows how good he is. What he did at the Olympics was incredible. He represents top performance and entertainment. And he never makes unnecessary moves just to show off. He always focuses on the team. That’s the standard I want to live up to as well. I want people to come to the stadium and enjoy watching me, while I always give everything for the team. I can learn a lot from Curry.

WAMS: Do you watch a lot of NBA?

Musiala: Every Warriors game. I’m a real fan. I’m really excited for the season to start again in October. I thought the Warriors would make a few more trades, get a few more players, but okay – we’ll see how the season goes.

WAMS: Teammates and coaches describe you as very down-to-earth. Yet your rise from talent to star was rapid; over five million people follow you on Instagram, and you’re seen as the future of German football. How do you manage to stay grounded?

Musiala: That has a lot to do with how I was raised and how my parents brought me up. I just stay the way I am – open and respectful to people. You always get that back. Fame and money might change the lifestyle a bit, but not my values and attitude.

WAMS: With Thomas Müller, Manuel Neuer, Ilkay Gündogan, and Toni Kroos having retired from the national team, are you now expected to step up as a leader? Is that what coach Julian Nagelsmann is expecting of you, despite your young age?

Musiala: At the Euros, I realized that I can take on more responsibility. But all of us have to take responsibility on the pitch. We help each other. The more experience I gain, the more I’ll grow into a leadership role.

WAMS: Nagelsmann recently announced the new team council, and you’re not part of it – which record national player Lothar Matthäus criticized.

Musiala: That’s totally fine with me. We have a very open relationship with each other and with the coaching staff. Whenever I want to express my opinion or it’s asked for, I’ll say it. I don’t have to be part of the team council to be a leader. I’ve known Julian for quite a while, and we get along really well.

WAMS: After the quarter-final exit at the Euros in Germany, Nagelsmann set the goal for the 2026 World Cup: "We want to become world champions." How realistic is that?

Musiala: We can definitely win the title in 2026. With a bit more luck, we would have at least made it to the semifinals at the Euros. As a team, we've made good progress recently and will continue to develop over the next two years. We’ve learned from the Euros and want to go far in the World Cup.

WAMS: What are your personal goals for the coming months?

Musiala: I always want to be better than in the previous season. I want to further improve my strengths and work on the things I didn’t do so well recently.

WAMS: What are those things?

Musiala: Decision-making – making the right decision quickly on the field; there’s still room for improvement. That’s crucial in football. I also want to get into more scoring positions. That worked well during the Euros. I definitely want to get into the penalty area more often. That’s why I was very happy to score a “simple goal” recently for FC Bayern in Wolfsburg, where I was in the right place to tap it in.

WAMS: You once mentioned a principle for your play: no dribbling in your own half.

Musiala: That’s not always the case, but it's generally true. Recently, at Bayern, I’ve been positioned deeper during build-up play, so sometimes you need to dribble to start an attack and pull an opponent out of position. I do what the situation requires. In football, anything can happen, something unexpected. Intuition and anticipation are crucial.

WAMS: You were influenced by English football as a youth – and you’ve moved around quite a lot in your young life…

Musiala: … very often, yes.

WAMS: You were born in Stuttgart, then moved to Fulda because your mother Carolin began her studies there. From there, she took you to Southampton for an Erasmus program, then back to Fulda. Chelsea scouted you, and you moved to London – and eventually to Munich when you joined Bayern. Where is home for you?

Musiala: That’s something we’ve often asked ourselves within the family. For me, home is where I live. And where my family is. They are the most important thing in my life. We have a very close bond. That will never change. I have a younger sister and a younger brother. The fact that we siblings tease each other for fun will never change either.

WAMS: Are you already thinking about starting your own family?

Musiala: I’ve always been a family person. But I haven’t thought about starting my own family yet. I don’t have a timeline for that. I like my life the way it is right now. Football, occasionally going out with friends – it’s perfect for me at the moment.

WAMS: One of your best friends is Joshua Zirkzee from Manchester United, and you were recently on vacation together in the USA. He recently told a fan that he tried to convince you to move to United.

Musiala: Friends always joke and dream about playing on the same team one day. The teasing goes both ways: I also told Josh to come back to Bayern. But you shouldn’t take that too seriously.

WAMS: Your contract with FC Bayern runs until the summer of 2026. How much would you like to play for a global club abroad someday? Your friend Jude Bellingham moved from Borussia Dortmund to Real Madrid.

Musiala: I’m very happy at FC Bayern and fully focused on our goals with the club and the national team. I don’t give much thought to where I’ll be playing in five years. In the football world, things can change quickly.

WAMS: Mr. Musiala, what is a dream you have for your life outside of sports?

Musiala: I would love to go on a world tour. You need time for that, though. Between seasons, I only have a maximum of three weeks of vacation, and that’s not enough. It was exciting to visit the USA for the first time. For example, I was fascinated by Las Vegas. I’m also very interested in many Asian cities. Discovering countries and cultures is fun and broadens your horizons. Someday, I’ll travel a lot. In ten to fifteen years, I’ll start planning that more seriously.

[lifetimeshipper]

My Little Dancer

Chapter 3

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Someone pointed out to me at one point that the selling thing I did with Arcee was like sex trafficking, I didn't even realize it. 

There's a small conversation in this chapter about sex trafficking so please be careful reading it if it's a sensitive topic for anyone. But trust me, Megatron will make sure that couple gets what's coming to them.

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"Wait, hold on. Arcee and Megatron know each other?" Jack asks in confusion.

"What did buckethead mean when he said as you should be?" Bulkhead asked next.

Ratchet turns to look at them, guess it's time for them to find out, "Arcee was hesitant about telling you guys but, she's sparkmates with Megatron."

"What!?" Bulkhead asked in surprise while the kids looked confused.

"Sparkmates meaning?" Miko asks in a way that lets them know that they need to explain.

Bulkhead looks at them, "Sparkmating is like getting married for us, except is permanent and there's no breaking it. Once a bot sparkmates with another bot they're mated for life because their sparks are connected."

"The spark is like a heart for you guys, right?" Raf questions.

"Yes, and that's why it can't be broken," Ratchet responds. "The bot will also be able to feel everything the other one feels as well as see each other's thoughts, and if one bot dies there's a big chance the other one will die as well. Doesn't always happen but a majority of the time it does."

"Which explains why Arcee was close to death when Megatron was supposedly killed," Bulkhead says as he puts everything together, "How long have they been sparkmates? Does Optimus know?"

"They met and became mates before the war even started and yes Optimus does know, he was the first to find out."

"So, does this mean we can't kill Megatron since doing so could kill Arcee?" Jack asks as he begins to worry for the safety of his guardian.

"It's part of the reason why Optimus would rather try to negotiate peace rather than kill him," Ratchet responds.

"What about the situation at hand? Is she gonna take the deal?" Raf asks and they all look to the monitor waiting for her to respond to Megatron.

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Arcee looks at Megatron's servo which remains extended for her to take as she thinks about the choices. If she refuses they could lose the chance to save Optimus but if she accepts then... Wait, she doesn't have to fall through with it. She could accept and get the cure for Optimus then have Bumblebee detach her and she never comes back, but...

"Alright, deal," she says as she takes his servo, she will go through with her plan.

Megatron chuckles, "Well played, my dear," he says before showing her the formula for the cure, "The chemical formula for the cure you seek." Arcee reaches for it but Megatron closes his servo, "Not yet."

"What?" Arcee asks as she starts feeling uneasy by the smirk that's plastered on his face.

"How exactly am I supposed to accomplish my goal of killing Optimus when I'm trapped here in a daydream? Once you release me from this prison, you will have the cure," Megatron says as he holds up the servo that was holding the chemical formula.

Before Arcee could make a response the world around them started to crumble. Ratchet must have got the formula and Bumblebee disconnected me.

Megatron looked around as his anger started to grow, "It was all a trick! Your teammates were watching!"

Arcee could feel herself begin to fade away as she started the process of returning to her body. "No!" Megatron shouts as he runs towards her, "Take me with you!" Arcee could feel his servo almost wrapping around her body but she disappeared before he could get a grip on her.

Arcee wakes up back in her own body to find Bumblebee standing in front of her with his guns out and Starscream making his way toward their position. She stands up and transforms her servos into her guns just as the Ground Bridge opens up behind them.

"Intruders!"

They heard Starscream shout as they backed away towards the Ground Bridge, "Allow me," Arcee says as she points her gun at Megatron before shooting. She felt a little guilty removing his life support but that's not the mech she fell in love with. She jumps back into the Ground Bridge going through to the other side where she's greeted by her team.

"So, uh," Bulkhead begins while Ratchet gets started on making the cure for Optimus, "Ratchet told us that you're sparkmates with Megatron."

Arcee looks over at Ratchet who just threw her a glance over his shoulder, "They heard your conversation with Megatron and had questions," he said before getting back to work.

Arcee looks back at the others, "Yes, we're sparkmates. We sparkmated a long time ago before the war, and before he became Megatron."

"How did you two meet?" Miko asked anxious to hear the story.

"I was traveling around Cybertron with a group of dancers. The group was owned by a mean old couple who went around taking young femmes off the streets and making them part of their group. Some of the femmes, like myself, were taken from their parents. We would perform at different clubs, bars, events, anyplace that would pay. We went to this one club to perform and he was there with his friends, at the time he was known as Megatronus, he was a gladiator and very famous for his fights."

"Cool! I didn't know you guys did gladiator fighting!" Miko said excitedly.

"Only certain bots did. Well, the couple that owned the group was always willing to sell one of us to any mech that could pay a good price."

"Like sex trafficking?" Jack asked.

"Sex trafficking?" Bulkhead asked in confusion while Bumblebee and Arcee just looked at them with confused looks.

"It's a thing we have here where people go around kidnapping girls and young women or find women that are trying to escape from a bad place and promise them a better life, then they would transport them to a place where they would be sold off for sex. It's called a sex trafficking ring, law enforcement has been trying to put an end to it for a long time," Jack explains.

"Oh. Yeah, that's pretty much what they were doing. So, when Megatronus found out that they were selling femmes he made a deal with them to buy me. I hated it at the time, but later I found out that he did it to save me, he was a really kind and gentle mech back then. I was in such disbelief when he turned into a tyrant and started a war."

"I'm sorry, but I can't see Megatron being kind or gentle," Bulkhead says and Bumblebee nods in agreement.

"Well, he was."

XXXXXX

Arcee walks out of the building with Megatronus, and his friends walk out behind them. She looks around at the city, it's nighttime and all the lights are on, the city looks beautiful. "I've had enough of the club scene for one night I'll be heading home with Arcee."

"Well, what do you know? Even the great Megatronus has desires, be careful that you don't break her," one of his friends says in a teasing manner.

Megatronus rolls his optics, "It's not that! We're gonna get some sleep."

"Sure you are."

Megatronus just ignores them as he transforms, they all laugh as they transform and drive off, "Don't mind them, they just like to tease me. I won't do anything that you don't want, just transform so we can go home." Arcee looks down at the ground as she shifts uncomfortably. Megatronus transforms back into bot mode, "Do you have a vehicle form or even know how to transform?" Arcee keeps looking at the ground as she shakes her helm.

She does know how to transform but she's hoping that if she appears to be too useless or too much of a burden then he'll let her go, she has to get away from him so she can look for her parents. "Let's go find you a vehicle form then, I'll walk with you," he says and they start walking off. Arcee looks up from the ground to look around at the city some more as they walk. "Like the city so far?" He asks and she just nods.

"Do you talk?" She just nods again, "I'm guessing only to bots you feel comfortable with."

She looks at him, "That and when I have something to say, but I don't really know what to say to you."

Megatronus was taken aback a bit by the fact that she even made a response, but he loved her voice and wanted to hear it again. "I want to be your friend, Arcee, maybe in time you can learn to trust me and maybe even share my feelings that I already have for you."

Arcee turns her attention back to the city and bots passing by, "We just met. How could you have any sort of feelings for me already?"

"Not sure, but there's something about you that makes you stand out from the other femmes."

Arcee wrapped her arms around herself as she started to feel pain in her body, "Scrap, not again."

"When was the last time you had some Energon?"

"Around two weeks ago."

"Two weeks!? Why so long? Do they hold Energon from you?"

"Only when we misbehave or try to escape. I'm the main one that tries to escape or refuse to do something they tell me to do so I'm the main one that goes without Energon."

Megatronus could feel his Energon begin to boil, he's definitely gonna look into those bots and see to it they're stopped. "Come on, I know a place where you can get some Energon. Wish I had known before we left the club or I would have gotten you some there."

"I don't much care for High-Grade Energon."

"I see, well I know a good place that sells regular Energon."

XXXXXX

"That's it, take it easy."

Arcee comes back to the present and sees Ratchet helping a cured Optimus off the berth, everyone claps and she joins in. "Please," Optimus begins, "Reserve the hero's welcome for my physician and Arcee." Everyone turns to her as they keep clapping and she smiles at them.

Reminiscing about our past together I see.

Arcee heard Megatron's voice and her spark quickened, she was hoping he didn't follow her through the patch but it looked like he did. 

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Chapter 1

Next Chapter

[leorawright]

I asked for a platonic one with sigma, but i wanted to ask this for multiple characters and with the updated and possibly final (?) version of the design and abilities and stuff ^^

Romantic/Queerplatonic: Reaper, Lucio, Junkrat, Roadhog, Reinhardt, Baptiste and Zenyatta

Platonic: Sigma, Sombra and Brigitte

So basicly just when their s/o / friend has thease abilities and stuff and how would the chracaters react to them and how they look and stuff ^^ (and not just the support part only please :"))

I also added an image of the character if you want to add that bit to the thing :D (also the character might look angry, hes not, hes actually a really happy person, also kind of a sona of mine but yea :D)

.

Role : Support

Gun :

Weapon 1 : sniper rifle, 15 ammo, quick reload,

Weapon 2 : minigun, 75 ammo, slow reload, reccomended for enemies who get too close,otherwise use sniper rifle

Bullets are all colored with one of the colors of the rainbow

Ability 1 / E ability :

A disc that attatches itself to a chosen teammate, heals teammates around the disc including the one who it is attached to. Burst heal 3 times.

Ability 2  Shift ability :

A paint ball is thrown on the ground or at an enemy, when the enemy walks over it, it makes a line that follows the enemy visible to your team even trough walls. If thrown on an enemy, it makes them unable to be healed and will be shown fully trough walls to your team. The paint only lasts for 5 seconds after contact with an enemy. They also bounce off walls 1 time. This does no damage. Can only be attached to 1 enemy at a time.

Ultimate:

The minigun is filled with paint balls (shift ability) and some healing variations of them for the teammates. They bounce once off a wall if shot at one. (or the floor or ceeling) Infinite ammo during this and you cant change the gun or use other abilities.

Passive:

Deafult support passive

I drew it myself like a day or two ago and havent posted it on my instagram yet, or i might post it never, i drew it as more of a personal thing to thease asks and for my daydreams ^^

THAT DESIGN IS AMAZING I LOVE IT! (I know it goes over my character limit but I'm having fun)

Overwatch with support reader

Reaper

Honestly your happy personality surprises him considering he works in Talon

Honestly, you immediately intrigued him with your bright clothing and minigun

He hates losing the person he was chasing so if you happen to throw a paint ball of them he'll thank you

When you use your ultimate he always makes sure your have someone behind you so you don't die

Lucio

He's estatic to meet another support who's as happy as he is

He adores all your colors and asks if you can paint his rollerskates and his outfit

Honestly, your kit revolving around colors is one of his favorite things in the world besides you of course

When you ult Lucio is often healing you or speed-boosting you so you get the most value you can and seeing you smile after makes his chest feel warm and fuzzy

Junkrat

Just like Lucio, he loves your colors and insists you paint his tire

Anytime you heal him expect a big smile on his face

He's super intrigued by your minigun and he has suggested filling it with bombs but it's Jamison sorry if you expected something different

You sometimes stick stickers on his forehead to see him get confused like a cat

And your naturally happy personality really has him vibing with you despite his naturally chaotic attitude

Roadhog

Even though he can heal himself if you ever heal him he'll always thank you when he gets a chance

He often uses your paint balls to scout out an enemy in order to hook them

With a bit of convincing he might even let you decorate his mask

He's really glad your calm and happy because after dealing with Junkrat he just wants to relax with you

Reinhardt

He absolutely adores you and your attitude and all your colors

He's always super polite with the supports on his team and you are no exception except he might throw in a quick hug/head pat

Whenever you're in danger or when you ult Reinhardt will always be your shield when you need it

After looking at all the colors on your weapons and outfit he'll happily let you decorate or put stickers on his hammer. Seeing them makes him smile

Baptiste

Even if you two can heal yourselves it doesn't stop the both of you from healing the other

Baptiste is really interested in all the colors on your outfit and the ones incorporated into your weapons

He really enjoys your happy personality because he likes to be goofy as much as he is serious

He thinks your minigun is hella cool and will be estatic if you let him use it

Zenyatta

Whenever you heal him when he's low he'll give you a heartfelt thank you

He's not used to seeing someone so colorful and honestly he really enjoys bow bright you look and how happy your personality is

Your minigun and his discord orbs are a dangerous pairing and everyone knows it

It takes a bit of convincing, but Zen will let you put stickers on his face and arms

Sombra (platonic)

She's not afraid to make it known that she thinks your color scheme is 👌 perfection

She'll always come to you for healing before Moria (no kidding she'd rather cross the map to get healed by you than go to Moira who's beside her)

She appreciates your paint balls and the trails that enemies leave after walking through them because then it's much easier to track down her prey😈

Your minigun is hella cool but unlike Baptiste to not give her the minigun it's a recipe for destruction

Brigitte (platonic)

She straight up adores all the colors you have and insists you two paint her armor with the same colors so you two match

If you're next to her and heal her when she's low expect a thank you or, if you're a hugger, expect a quick side hug for her bestie

Even if her shield is smaller than Reinhardt's she'll still stand in front of you if you're in danger

Sigma

He's not used to seeing someone with that many colors and he finds it super cool

He's extra polite and thankful to you when you heal him at any point

Before the incident he didn't get out much so he's super interested in your minigun and how it works

He's charmed by the idea that you use paintballs as bullets he thinks it's creative

Just like Reinhardt and Brigitte, you are always behind his shield whenever he has it ready

[everyneji]

Bouncing off this post here, I want to talk a little about Neji and romantic relationships beyond just my shipping preferences. Though I wouldn't call this very exact meta either, as there's nothing to really go off of.

The truth is, Neji died before his love life was relevant. I know a lot of people think that he and Tenten would have ended up together but I'm not so sure. I believe he would have stayed uncoupled like his teammates in canon. Team Gai are Team Comic Relief and have genuinely had the most wholly platonic team-centric content of any of the Konoha 12 and the only crush we see from any of them is Lee's on Sakura, which was never gonna happen. I doubt Kishimoto would leave only Lee uncoupled of the team. At most, I think Neji would end the series with an implied off-screen Hyūga wife and a kid.

To add to this, as far as spin-off/AU/filler content goes, we only see 'Neji is a perv' 'Neji has a sister complex' 'Hinata considers Neji a romantic rival' 'Neji is unaffected by Sexy no Jutsu', none of which are a serious attempt to answer the question of 'What does Neji want?'

I also wonder if Neji could even marry out of the Hyūga clan, not just because of his caste status, but because he's a nobleman. He's not likely to be taking someone else's name. Historically speaking, men tend to be the only ones who can start a new branch clan, but in canon the equivalent of this is Hizashi being sealed. Hyūga seem to keep to themselves; Himawari and Boruto imply that the white eyes are a recessive trait. Hinata marrying out is an exception because she was already effectively disowned and she's marrying the Ninja Saviour.

(Of course, if Kishimoto wanted it to happen it would, the Hyūga entering the modern world and changing, but I'm working within the understanding of what we have.)

Narratively speaking, Neji is also far more intertwined with the destiny of the Hyūga clan than Hinata, whose story has centered her feelings for Naruto from the jump. I have a hard time seeing him leaving his family behind for love. Though he's had some very valid issues with his family, he's also fully embraced their techniques and their name; he just wants the respect and equal treatment he's owed within that.

With no canon evidence of romantic interest to go on, I personally focus on how Neji is like Gaara, that is, such a Naruto fanboy that it becomes its own beast of the headiest affectionate feelings we see displayed from them. Neji smiling so genuinely at what could be his final moments because he's thinking of how Naruto saved him is pretty intense.

'Hope is a thing with feathers, that perches in the soul ...'

I've touched on it in another post, but I also think it's sincerely amusing that when Hinata sacrifices herself in the Pain Invasion Neji goes "Why'd she do that?" His own dad sacrificed himself for love! And he has to know of her feelings for Naruto. He even asks if she wants to see Naruto off at the end of part one and hears of how the mere sight of Naruto gives Hinata the vapours. Yet he just doesn't get it ... until you fast forward a bit and put him on that battlefield with Naruto and Hinata in danger, and suddenly Neji's taking the bullet. As he dies in Naruto's arms, he says, "Naruto, Hinata-sama is willing to die for you. So remember you hold more than one life in your hands. And it seems that my life too may have been one of them." He directly parallels himself to Hinata (who sacrificed herself for love of Naruto) and says Naruto holds his life too. I mean, alright!

I'm not saying Kishimoto deliberately wrote Neji in love with Naruto but I think so long as Neji and Hinata are foils to each other who are both moved by the same man, you can derive interesting interpretations from that.

To return to 'what would Neji want' my personal answer is 'Someone able to offer perspectives he had not considered.' It's not just about being challenged -- the person needs to have a real point to make that they can back up. This suggests the person in question would need a certain strength of character, intuition, and likely the power to influence the world around them. This is generally what I go with when writing, but of course, it remains all headcanon.

I hope people forgive me for this very speculative post, I just ... got carried away writing it so hey. Here ya go! 👋

[origami-is-life]

DREAM SEQUENCE PART TWO ELECTRIC BOOGALOO THE SECOND PART

Sorry for the cliffhanger, also you finally get an actual description and name for her old teammates.

Sitting before our beleaguered heroine are four magical girls she knows quite well. They’re seated in a circle, the same way they’ve always done.

“It’s been a while.”

The first speaks up. She’s wearing what looks like a slightly fancier school uniform, but the soul gem on her bow and the odd spider motifs betrays this as her magical girl outfit. Her hair is short, straight, and deep blue. She quietly examines Kitsune through a pair of glasses. This is Patricia, the Class Representative Witch.

”I-I hope you’re doing well!”

The second nervously fidgets with her gloves, not sure how to interact with what has become of her old adoptive sister. Her verdant hair cascades over one eye, adorned with red roses. Her outfit, which looks like a combat adaptation of a masquerade ball outfit, is covered in rose motifing, even her skirt replicates the look of a swirl of petals. A familiar sits on her shoulder. This is Gertrud, the Rose Witch.

“You took forever!”

The third girl beams excitedly. Her outfit is flashy and old fashioned, looking like a proper princess gown, it’s a wonder that she can fight in it. Her color scheme is soft, deep blues and whites. Her hair is white, and partially tied up. A veil falls over her back. This is Walpurgisnacht, the Witch whose nature is Helplessness.

“Hiya again!”

The fourth girl waves. Her hair is black and tied into twin-tails by red ribbons. Her outfit is a more classic magical girl outfit, colored in white and bright aquamarine, accented with lights. She looks a bit like Miku, to be honest. This is Kirsten, the Box Witch.

“H-how are you here?!”

“MAGIC.”

“We cannot stay for long...”

“The mortal plane is not one we should visit more than we need to.”

“Dream sequences, however, are generally allowed!”

“…Why didn’t you come sooner?”

“…We all know the answer to that: you would have lost it. Besides, the only time you’ve slept since we died was you being out-cold unconscious after getting shot.”

Kitsune does not reply to that, staring at her hands. She knows quite well what kind of damage she was willing to do to herself and others just to see them one more time, just to have them by her side again. She would’ve torn herself apart trying to get back to them-

Gertrud smiles warmly, placing a hand on Kit’s shoulder.

“But no need to worry, that time has passed.”

“Yeah! I missed you!” “Guys, we have a mission, now is not the time for antics.”

“Awwww-“

“…We are here to deliver a message, and then we must leave you.”

Kit’s eyes fill with tears of panic, but Kirsten speaks before she can.

“You fulfilled your wish.”

“…How?! I couldn’t save you, I-“

“I can’t speak for the others, but you were one of the best friends I had in life.”

“I second that! You’re fun, and dramatic, and you always make even boring stuff a good time.”

“You work so freaking hard to make everybody happy and okay, Kit, give yourself some credit for once! I didn’t sacrifice myself just to watch my teammate throw the life I gave her away!”

“This team made me feel loved when nobody else did. And we wouldn’t be a team without you, Kit.”

“Awww, guys…”

“…But the past is past, and you’ve done all you can. Origami’s right.”

“You may lose flowers to frost, but new ones will grow in spring.”

“I dunno what that means but YEAH!”

“Stop rewatching Act 1 and get on with the next scene already!”

“It hurts more seeing you try to get us back, trust me…”

“Move on.”

“I tried so hard, I’ve lost so much for this…”

“You’ll just lose more, you can’t outfox death. Cherish what you have, the team you have, the world you have...”

“Besides, you’ll see us again someday! But now’s not the time for you to die, not yet!”

“Mada Dame Yo*.”

Kit stares down at her hands, lost in thought for a moment. …Maybe she’d be less miserable if she listened to her friends, maybe the world’s better with her in it…

“…I can try. I-I’ll try my absolute hardest.”

“You’re gonna do great! You and Origami and Hammer and everybody! WHOO!!”

“Now, get some rest. It’s time for us to go.”

They hug her before standing up, smiling warmly at their friend. At their sister. …And then they’re gone…

…But Kit doesn’t wake up, her dream doesn’t have to end just because they left it. She stares from her vantage point at the risen sun, at the city skyline, smiling, tears dripping down her cheeks.

“…I wish…I wish my teammates could be here with me to see this, heh…”

*translation: “it’s not time yet”. This is also a song from Madoka Magica lol

[mod magic to give ori that sense of peace for a moment, excuse me a sec]

*origami pauses in her search, feeling a strange sense of peace wash over her. like all her problems have been resolved somehow. she suddenly pictures herself standing beside kit, watching the sun rise over a gorgeous city. she blinks, and the image is gone. the peace takes longer to fade, but she cant seems to get rid of the smile on her face. she has no idea what just happened, but she feels as though its a good thing. she continues her search, a little bit of some pep in her step once again.*

[ELSIE THIS IS SO SOFT AND BEAUTIFUL AND SWEET AND JHJBWCHBWKCHBWKDCBHWVHW]

[I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH OH MY GOD]

[KIT GETS PEACE OF MIND LETS GO]

[vilonnie]

I’m just sort of living in an annshiho and sumiren and makoharu world with hearts floating out of my eyes like oh my god I love violently furious screaming criminal girls with sharp weapons in black or leather who are villainesses and gentlemen and bikers and samurai and knights and monarchs and geniuses and dumbasses, whose love is barely touched upon relative to the cruelty and the coldness and the injustice of the world around them and yet shines so brightly somehow more intimate and more true than the bonds between characters with hundreds of hours of screentime because games of fate and gods and betrayal have nothing on the realness that is the small embrace of two vulnerable high school girls on a roof somewhere perhaps irrelevant in the grand scheme of things and yet so painfully stuffed with meaning and warmth and the most honest form of love it leaves you breathless, who the whole world is trying to force into a horrible pantomime of savior and damsel and yet unmask each other anyways and care less for the terrible kindness of authority that tries to victimize them than they care for the silly little games they get to play with each other in a tiny corner of the world where just for a moment they get to be dumb kids, who see each other for their sharpness or their softness and their rage or their weakness and rather than find each other monstrous adore each other instantly and what’s more respect each other instantly and cannot go a minute suffering without the other’s concern and quiet gentle care and who have seen insurmountable forces of respectability politics and economics twist the people they loved into unrecognizable limping things but rather than give up chose to cling to one another all the more and rely on love and friendship and move forward with more affection and significantly more strength than those who scorn them could ever understand.

DANCE HECATE RAOUL ANAT ANAT COME. ON YOUR KNEES FEEL MY RAGE MOOORE MOOOOOOORE. I’LL FILL YOU WITH LEAD YOU OPPOSE US YOU NEED PROPER PUNISHMENT. I just think there are worse fates than death will you jump or would you rather die here I’m not some cheap girl you can toy with asking for help is the hardest thing to do I won’t lose anyone else never again I’d never elect someone who made a teenager kill people I can feel the artist’s anger that seems like a lie to me I’m going to get stronger I want to be a ray of light for people who are suffering. I’ll go full speed nonstop shut your mouth you moneygrubbing bastard makoto the sycophant dies and the corrupt adults along with her YOU HAVE AMNESIA I think I’ve learned something about how people have fun I just wanted to prove I was useful in some way to someone this is gonna hurt leave room for dinner so the phantom thieves are evil and you are just think about your justice sis I’ve finally found my place to belong. I NEED MORE POWER MWAHAHAHAHAHA STAY DOWN though thou be chained to hell itself BEGONE CHECKMATE where are my teammates it’s showtime see ya it’s a deal sumire is one strong lady are you familiar with gunplay detective they do more than the cops I want to help people when he helps other people he’s really helping himself on that night it wasn’t a mistake there’s a truly despicable inmate in the quarantine cell if I don’t do this takemi won’t sell me her drugs I thought I deleted this app if they stick to their principles and make the world a better place then without a doubt that is justice. does this make any sense to the people who are not infected with permanent brain rot or like does god need to make a special prison cell just for me

[shadesofpurity]

"Artur..." Kurthnaga's voice is weak as he approaches the other man, crimson eyes trembling with a fear that he is a bit more unwilling to let shine through in front of the teammates he has been assigned. Even with Micaiah around, there are still many people he does not know, people he is not willing to expose his whole soul to as of yet.

He knows Artur has been assigned to the guard, and he hopes, he prays, that nothing bad will happen to them outside of the dream. He also knows his love isn't the strongest person in the world, and he almost wishes that they could trade places, however weak willed Kurth was when it came to battle.

He takes Artur's hand in his own, gripping it tightly, seeking one last bit of calm before the storm, before he has to leave him for who knows how long, and he feels like crying standing there. He leans his head gently into his lover's shoulder, holding back tears to the best of his abilities.

"Please stay safe, my love. I'd hate for anything to happen to you while I am helpless to keep anyone who remains outside of the dream safe. And please keep me safe as well... I'm afraid of what could happen out here in the tangible world. Just... just stay safe, alright. I... I love you..."

“I promise.. I promise I will come back to you safe, Kurth. I swear, on the gods above, if they have heard my prayers.. that none of our comrades will be taken from us on this night. I don’t know what kind of incomprehensible horrors could await in Rusalka’s dreams, but i beg of you… you mustn’t give in, never lose sight of reality and the dreams you still have yet to fulfill in the here and now.”

Artur had to blink his tears back, doing his best to give Kurth his usual gentle smile. Nobody was going to die, especially not his beloved or his friends.

“I love you too, Kurth, I promise i’m not going anywhere.”