#HIS DENSE SELF
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kicking my feet rn omg... i need movies of all of these!!!
tropes i'd give to boynextdoor + their theme songs
it's my first time writing here on tumblr so i hope u like it! reading experience would be better if ypu try to listen to the songs! enjoy <3
sungho - strangers to friends to lovers
- song: get you by daniel caesar
𓍯 it all started from the cliché 'i was dozing off and was too sleepy after school i slept on his shoulder without my knowledge.' he smiled to himself once you got off of the bus because he thinks you were too cute.
𓍯 you started running to each other often ever since you take short walks by the park every afternoon, and sungho walks his dog there as well. (he saw you once walking and he started doing the same so he could see you everyday)
𓍯 "can i pet your dog? what's his name?" you slouched to pet the corgi you thought was cute. "sungho." "pardon?" you chuckled. "ah-i mean sochi."
𓍯 you started being friends with him when you offered to walk his dog one day. luckily, sungho lives across the street in the same neighborhood.
𓍯 walks with his pet turned into walks with sungho himself where you would find yourselves eating at a restaurant for dinner. sungho would offer to walk you back home just so he could spend more time with you even though your house is just five minutes away from his.
𓍯 sungho has always liked you from the beginning. you liked him when you two were walking late at night and he was yapping nonstop about his hobbies, favorites, and of course he would also ask about your interests. you realized he's so nice to also talk about you and he wasn't that narcissistic guy who just talks about himself. "what about you, do you like this too? i didn't think you'd like that...oh! i felt like you were into these kind of things!"
𓍯 you never found out you two have met before at the bus until you asked sungho his first impression of you.
𓍯 "ms. y/n..have you ever dated before?" he dropped a random question on a normal day where you'd walk with him and sochi. "uh..i haven't...?" it was kind of embarrassing for you that you've never dated before. "then would you be fine with dating a guy like me?" he stops walking and faced at your direction as the corner of his lips form a smile.
riwoo - second chance romance
- song: everything by the black skirts
𓍯 this hurts because you're in the same circle of friends with him. at first, youre the type of exes who would walk past each other without a word. riwoo's heart would ache everytime
𓍯 couldn't and would not entertain other girls because he's waiting for you to come back
𓍯 he would message your close friends in the circle to ask how you're doing. one time, he found out you were sick and your friends were all busy and your classmates didn't know where you lived so he rushed to your apartment with medicine and porridge and ended up taking care of you. despite knowing your door passcode, he knocked on the door to give respect without actually barging himself in until you let him inside.
𓍯 "are you okay?" he hugs you out of worry. "riwoo, you can't just hug me like this." he snaps out of it and realized what he's done which might have put you in an uncomfortable situation. "i'm sorry." he apologizes. "no, it's okay. i'm worried you might catch it too. thank you for taking care of me."
𓍯 he's very caring and thoughtful even as exes. when he notices you're down, he would anonymously leave your favorite food on your desk because no one else knows you best aside from him. he knows you would not eat it if you knew so he tries his best to keep it a secret from your friends.
𓍯 cried on your shoulders when he was at his peak of vulnerability because he misses you so much and he said he could not handle walking past each other anymore and acting like nothing happened between you two. "can we try again?" he looked straight into yours with his eyes pooled with tears. "only if we both promise we'll do better this time." and from that day onwards, your relationship with riwoo was better than before.
jaehyun - 'i wont give up until you fall for me'
- song: adore you by harry styles
𓍯 this man is a down bad loser in love for you. when i tell you there's no other woman in the world for him, trust me.
𓍯 he likes you a lot but not in an overwhelming way. he just wants to prove he can take care of you well.
𓍯 jaehyun is very open when it comes to expressing his love for you. social anxiety is scared of him because he's always verbal about his feelings even when surrounded with a lot of people. "can you slow down, pretty?" you've been trying to walk in a fast pace because he's been calling you pretty. you weren't trying to run away because you hate it, you just don't want him to see your red face because you honestly love it when he compliments you. "there's so many people can you please stop calling me that?" he quickly catches up after you. "then you should stop being so pretty and cute in front of me." he sniffs like it was so easy for him to say that. the people around you looked in your direction and smiled at jaehyun's remark.
𓍯 would intensely stare at you every chance he gets because he loves admiring all your features. "has anybody told you you have such pretty eyes?" his comment would leave you all flustered. "when will you stop looking at me?" you rolled your eyes. "hm...until you melt?" he gave you the sweetest wink, teasing you.
𓍯 you started dating when you accidentally confessed he's good looking and he makes your heart race. "i bet there aren't any other guys in the world like my boyfriend!" your friend starts bragging about her man. "tch! i bet no one's as handsome and sweet as jaehyun!" both jaehyun and your friend were surprised with what you just said that you started running away when jaehyun was asking you to repeat your words. "what? you think i'm handsome? does that mean you like m—oh my god! do you like me too? are you my girlfriend now?!" he jumps around the street with how happy he was to finally win your heart.
taesan - brother's bestfriend (jaehyun as your brother)
- song: sweater weather by the neighborhood
𓍯 your brother brings him home a lot to play games and you'd ask your mom if she has prepared some snacks for them just so you can enter their room to deliver the food and shoot a glance at him
𓍯 you know a lot of girls like him and you're glad he's best friends with jaehyun because you get to see him hang around your house.
𓍯 although he's not the type to strike a conversation first, he actually looks at you when your brother talks to you and you would accidentally meet eyes with him where you would immediately look away
𓍯 he unconsciously grew this habit of watching out and taking care of you after all the times he has seen your relationship with your brother. one time jaehyun left the two of you at the park after forgetting something at home. taesan would grab the end of your shirt to pull you closer after a bicycle just passed by. "be careful, jaehyun might scold me." no. it wasn't because of jaehyun. it's because he cares for you.
𓍯 he tried to keep his little crush on you a secret because he's scared jaehyun might not like him for you.
𓍯 "hey! you're supposed to wash the dishes today! dont even dare to pass that job to me again and run away later!" you threw a pillow to him before walking away. you glimpsed at taesan who was sitting beside him before you run upstairs. jaehyun chuckles, "ah that kid...isn't she cute?" jaehyun glued his eyes on the tv while pressing the keys of his game console. "yeah, she is." taesan didnt know it would come out of his mouth. jaehyun slowly turned his head to the flustered taesan. "what did you say..?"
𓍯 your first kiss with him happened when you were reaching your brother's book in the shelf. when you turned around, taesan was towering you while he reaches the book for you. your faces were too close he ended up kissing you with consent and that's how you started dating.
leehan - slowburn/first love
- song: spring snow by 10cm
𓍯 he's just so first love coded!
𓍯 the opposite of jaehyun. he tries not to make it obvious that he has fallen for you.
𓍯 the type to look at you when you're not looking. he knows you were looking at him from afar at the cafeteria and when your friend talks to you, he'd grab the chance to look at you the same way and he would find himself smiling on his own.
𓍯 would tilt the umbrella towards your side while his shoulders are already wet just so you wouldn't get rained on.
𓍯 loves admiring you from afar because he gets to look at you without feeling embarrassed.
𓍯 during a class retreat, you got asked by your classmates what's your ideal type. leehan was too dense to realize you were talking about him. "someone with sparkly eyes...and fluffy hair? someone who looks like they'd make a good partner?" you answered. 'hm? is there some guy like that in our school?' he thought to himself.
𓍯 king of acts of service. not good with words but he's insanely good in expressing his feelings through actions.
𓍯 it took wayyy too long before the two of you confessed to each other. it was so obvious to all of your friends that you like each other but you and leehan are the only ones who don't know about it. maybe because you're refusing to believe he would like someone like you.
𓍯 "how could you fall for someone like me? i don't think i'm as good as other girls and you're just...way too out of my league." your eyes were glued to the ground, in a disbelief that leehan likes you. "what do you mean 'someone like you?' you're everything i could ever ask for..." he brushes your hair with his fingers before pulling you into a hug.
woonhak - friends to lovers
- song: this is what falling in love feels like by jvke
𓍯 he's very extroverted, but when it comes to expressing his feelings, he tries to be nonchalant about it. (he doesn't want to be teased by his friends).
𓍯 would get this and that for you because he remembers you mentioning how much you liked it. "what's this?" you asked wonhak who placed a cinnamon bun on your table. "just saw it when i was passing by." he answered without looking at you.
𓍯 would use "y/n, wanna try the newly opened restaurant down the street?" as an excuse to go out on a date with you because he infact have been to that restaurant already.
𓍯 you knew you were starting to fall for him because his smiles started to hit different than normal days. "oh, woonhak? i dont remember you being this cute?" woonhak shyly rubs his nape, at a disbelief that you found him cute.
𓍯 you fell asleep on their couch while hanging around his house and he pulls the blanket over your body so you won't get cold. he started admiring you in your sleep and thinks you have such long eyelashes. he'd flinch when you move and pretended he was doing nothing.
𓍯 "hey! woonhak! look at this!" you were all giggly while playing around the water fountain and he was standing, watching you have fun before deciding to get himself wet and play with you around the fountain as well.
𓍯 he offered to dry your hair with a towel. he'd be so playful with it and mess with your hair for fun. "hey! stop it!" he would laugh and then pat your head with so much affection.
𓍯 you love teasing him that he likes you because he's so cute when he gets flustered like his secret has been revealed to the world, but you didn't expect it to backfire immediately. "what would you do if i do like you?" he says.
reblogs are very much appreciated ><
#pawz reqz ✒️. <3#this was so. sweet.#like my heart was warm the entire time#AND ALL OF THE SONGS MATCH SO WELL???!?!?#spring snow had a tear rolling down my cheek#these are all so fitting#just lovely#sungho accidentally introducing himself instead of the dog#I GIGGLED!!!!#and riwoo omg...#i need him so bad#lover boy forever i could cry#JAEHYUN IS SO#he is literally adore you#that little flirt!!!! (lovingly)#taesan is so brother's best friend it's unreal#like subtly looking out for you all the time#secretly thinking you're cute#UGH ITS SO REALLLL#leehan slow burn...i need this so bad#HIS DENSE SELF#but hes in it for the long run#i could cry fr#WOONHAKKIE SO CUTESYYYY <\3#i am a big advocate for the woonhak f2l trope#and this is everything to me#this whole post was perfect
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Glamtober 24- "Dress To Impress"
"And you're sure this'll help?" "If that simpleton doesn't take notice of you after this, then he is by far the most dense man I have ever had the displeasure to know."
Lady Laniaitte de Haillenarte assisting Hazel in getting ready for an outing with one Emmanellain de Fortemps, mostly for the sake of her own sanity watching the "Will They/Won't They" unfold right before her eyes.
Hazel Glam-
Boulevardier's Hat (Jet Black & Dalamud Red)
Valentione Emissary's Ruffled Dress (Jet Black)
Dirndl's Wrist Torque (Dalamud Red)
Woodland Warden's Skirt (Jet Black & Dalamud Red)
Loyal Housemaid's Pumps (Dalamud Red & Jet Black)
Rakshasa Earring of Slaying
Archeo Kingdom Choker of Slaying
#ffxiv#ffxivglamtober2024#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv screenshots#ffxiv oc#au ra#xaela#hazel kha#Reg!Hazel#elezen#laniaitte de haillenarte#emmazel#Fun fact: Hazel's red streaks in her hair are canonically from hair dye#Might've been obvious from my other shots but I still wanted to mention it#I'm now obsessing in my brain over the pre-relationship status of Emm and Hazel#Not that Emm would be that dense to see her advances#But rather his self-esteem issues keeping him from committing to begin with#“She can do better than me” or along those lines#He's still working on his self confidence after all#Some might think it's a step too far but it makes sense to me#Especially with how before he was fawning after someone that clearly had zero interest in him#As if it was a distraction from ever seriously considering a relationship#Did NOT mean this to be a dive into Emmanellain's confidence issues but here we are lmao
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I have a lot of thoughts about queer readings of Ranma and I think all headcanons are valid but in my heart of hearts I think you could sit Ranma down and explain every single flag, identity, gender, and sexuality under the queer umbrella and he would end the conversation by tossing you a smile and thumbs up and going “that’s cool and all but I’m cishet” on his way out the door. He’d believe it with his full chest too, despite the fact that he got splashed halfway through the conversation and he ends up in a liplock with Akane while in girl form after not checking if there was anyone in the doorway before trying to exit.
#Ranma 1/2#to be fair he’d say I’m a man not cishet but for the sake of the conversation pls imagine he’s using the terminology that was just explained#he identifies as cishet and it doesn’t matter that he’s a girl sometimes or wants to kiss girls he’s a guy who likes girls#absolutely no self awareness of gender or sexuality#he’s so dense and stupid I love him#maybe post-manga he can gain self awareness#I do believe in his ability to grow#as it stands in canon though I don’t think he’d identify as queer at all
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Finally saw Wicked today. I fear it is, in fact, actually all that and a bag of chips. Like it is genuinely that good
#ramblings of a lunatic#storywise i actually found that they were stretching act 1 a bit thin and it showed in the pacing#but in terms of execution of the musical numbers and aesthetic quality of the sets/costumes/etc???#ohhh bitch. I'm sorry im so fucking seduced by john chu's vision of oz#i am also on team 'this bitch should be more technicolour' but I'm also not a lighting/cinematography guy#like i like Pictures and Images but I'm shit at lighting + composing film shots so yknow. stones and glass houses and everything#anywayyy i love the wizard of oz im a little obsessed w the wziard of oz and all related properties maybe. maybe#god idk if I'd actually enjoy it but i would be really curious to read the book version of wicked. i know it's incredibly different#not just in terms of focus and content but also in terms of being very dense and reportedly a lot drier#but also i do want to see his vision very badly. like when he made oz a surveillance state?? that's smart! it's plainly in the og series!#it's just treated as normal there#but anyway yeah back to the musical i am NOT ashamed to admit i got full body chills during defying gravity#there were parts that were so. sincere and self serious and melodramatic that i couldn't help but love#like YES enough!! with the self referential ironic humour crammed into everything!!!#linger on a moment for far too long and make me sit uncomfortably in the saccharine melodrama!!! it's good for me!!!#the people want big budget fantasy musicals gang...they want razzle and dazzle and heartfelt song!!#and i agree with the ppl. i AM the ppl#wicked movie. good. i enjoy#might just be riding the high of watching it but like idc I'm allowed
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missa, after his self resentment and lamenting about how he doesn’t feel worthy or like he should be accepted, after telling himself and the capybaras that he doesn’t have a home, not really - after all is said and done, he returns to phil & missa, leaving his mini mi in the house on the wall. as if he’d consider anywhere other than the house he shared with phil safe enough. seeking out safety and home brought him right back where he started.
something about how despite his internal conflicts and issues about what he thinks he deserves, he’ll still come back. and for all he worries that he is not enough to be loved in return, his name is still on the warp stone.
#he’s got issues out the ass of his self worth and it’s like. yeah shit man you haven’t been reliable but you’re not unloveable#he wants to be better and he tries and he cares the issue is he holds the rest of his family on such a pedestal#this shame and guilt bubbles up and is only made worse when he isn’t rejected or hated like he’s expecting. he’s taken back with open arms#so he follows phil for guidance as to what’s acceptable. without phil there how can he know if it’s ok for him to stay in their home?#as if he didn’t also build their home yknow#but even when all is said and done he returns. even if it makes him feel guilty even if he thinks he doesn’t deserve it#because as much as he doesn’t want to be a bother he wants to be better most of all. wants to be present#I just don’t think he ever expects to be wanted to keep around. like he wants to prove himself and he’s expecting his loved ones to reject#any sort of redemption. meanwhile they don’t see the need for a redemption in the first place#shaking missa you wet cat of a man you dense self sabatoging silly silly man#stop your hero worship. own up and show up. and let your family love you because my god you are so loved#sorry tags got away from me it’s like 5 am and I’m like ahfhhrhfhshfhhs#mcyt#qsmp#q!missa#missasinfonia#z speaks
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from your character analysis ask meme, for alhaitham: Are they prone to jealousy? would he be too logical to be jealous? Would his jealousy be in vain or would it perhaps be a sign that his partner has crossed the line of sorts?
Definition of jealousy:
I apologize for taking some time with this ask. I’m going to answer this in a more analytical format because I think this situation calls for it. I want to say that no, under normal circumstances, Alhaitham is not the kind of person to get jealous. In my experience, there are usually three triggers for jealousy:
1. Reader interacting normally with friends and hobbies and partner gets (unreasonably) jealous
2. Reader getting too involved with spending time with friends/hobbies not realizing they’re neglecting partner which gets them (reasonably) jealous
3. Reader specifically does things that will incite jealousy within partner by purposefully doing things like ignoring partner or flirting with others
Alhaitham would not get jealous under the first instance. Being a very independent person, he would understand and respect his partner’s need for it as well. The second instance would be the closest he’d feel to your definition of jealousy. While he’d be able to withstand it for a while, eventually he’d probably feel neglected and would pull you away to capture your sole attention.
As for the third scenario, while he would get upset and would get jealous, I don’t believe this would happen in a normal relationship. Personally, I would never flirt with someone that isn’t my partner just for fun, even if I’m close to them. I think that’s a very hurtful thing to do to someone that has feelings for you.
So long story short, no, I don’t think Alhaitham is prone to jealousy. Not that he’s “too logical” to be jealous. He just understands and respects people’s need for independence. That being said, he probably can end up feeling neglected if left alone too long.
#genshin impact#genshin x reader#alhaitham#alhaitham x reader#anon#character analysis ask meme#now as i always do i’m going to answer the part you’re looking for in the tags#the reason why alhaitham wouldnt be a jealous person is that hes both reasonable and he doesnt play games#when you enter into a relationship with alhaitham he will make time for you and seek you out#he's self-regulating in that way that he'll make sure to get his fill of you regularly#even if you are busy he'll find some way to slot yourself in your schedule#and like... the thing with him is that he really doesnt need much#itd take you turning him down consistently for other things for him to get jealous and feel neglected#this is when he gets immature because if you try to spend time with him after you can expect some passive aggressive sass#'hmm... you seemed to be having a lot more fun with them instead'#you'd have to make it up to him#add onto that someone flirting with you? he'd swoop in there to stake his claim#that being said i highly doubt this would happen often?#you'd have to be REALLY DENSE to neglect him up to this point#when he is feeling neglected expect him to be more physically touchy#he'd just want you near#haha#sorry this isnt much#i'm the wrong person to go to for jealousy asks#i'm not a person that finds jealousy attractive#unreasonable jealousy i find restrictive and childish#reasonable jealousy i find as a sign i am not doing my job as a significant other#my job as someone's partner is to make them feel loved and needed no matter what#so if theyre not feeling that that means i'm doing something wrong and i need to fix it
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when the lip differs from the lip
#aizo’s really too good for this series (sometimes). very male lead of him i have to say#he forgives his mother for being like *that* to him and still loves her despite everything#he shows kindness to people who openly hate him (mona; granted it was only to make up for his bf’s earlier misdeeds)#a n d he tolerates yujiro’s nonsense (bc he loooooves him) despite their frequent arguments and disagreements all#meanwhile yujiro openly hates on people who go after his bf (kanami 2k20: never forget… and chizuutan to a degree too ig)#man i miss honeypre event stories (says this all the time). i miss seeing aizo pine on main (while being dense about his own feelings)#and yujiro being salty on main (while somehow being even denserrrrrrrr about his own feelings for aizo)#those event stories truly were some of the best shipping fuel for ss lxl#(also ngl but. i liked how hiyoko was still present in their stories as the supportive friend role to them…)#(unlike a certain [redacted] anime which turned her into a horrible self-insert who shoehorns herself into situations unrelated to her)#(*cough* aizo’s so-called ‘fake trauma’ *cough* ‘how could yujiro’s family hate him when his mom makes him such a nice lunch????’ *cough*)#(wished we could’ve seen more of the jk trio in the event stories though [sadge]. bring back honeypre p l s)#um anyway!!!!!! see y’all when the next lxl mv drops ig???? maybe later in the week???? sometime between wed-fri???? idk?????
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blacked out and came to with a document full of macden
#ada speaks#ada writing macden in 2024........ hm#its all dennis introspection but i have a Plan#the funny thing abt macden is that mac is so goddamn dense i can commit to usual den shenanigans#charlie is way too perceptive it doesn't usually work#i will laugh if i manage to post this before any of my longass fics#its. playing with some concepts i have used before (i will say. victoria being conceptualized as an entirely separate person.)#i find den's separation of self really fascinating bc for me the trans experience has been. hm#playing a part for the masses but knowing who i am beneath that#its opposite for dennis but also the same. he doesn't see vicky as himself but he doesn't have a core either#he's a shell hosting her in his body but she also feels like the most authentic version of the self#and thus. gender euphoria. very weird and complicated gender euphoria.#one dennis holds himself back from expressing to its fullest extent#what was i talking about again#oh yeah macden. that's there too. i think probably den's gonna put the moves on mac but i haven't decided how itll go.....#this fic is just dennis doing psych student brain things thinking abt mac and their relationship and breaking it all down
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discliamer since i havent really done that for these kinds of posts and i feel like this one is worded in a more demanding way than i usually do: any post of mine regarding what the ccs "should" do is less me actually wanting them to do what i say and more me speculating on the kinds of actions that they could take, not cause i think im smart or tactical or anything but because this is my idea of what fun is
im watching the tower vod rn and i think the only real way to deal with minute and jumper at this point in the server is to. not
like it probs wont be satisfying to the PlayersTM considering the kind of ppl they are (proactive, confrontational, plays along with the spirit of the server, self-focused morals) but considering the kind of ppl minute and jumper are (reactive, avoidant, prioritizes survival even if it means not great content, normative morals) i think its the only real way to engage with them when it comes to this kind of recursive conflict
like everytime they confront one another it keeps circling back to this moral debate regarding the ethics of killing ppl on fucking Lifesteal of all things and i highly doubt its ever gonna stop (at least for this season) considering none of the new members have really been traumatized the lifesteal way, i dont mean regular smp trauma like war and betrayal and all that jazz cause theyve already got that, i mean Lifesteal trauma: the realization that everything is a cycle, that good and evil doesnt matter, that feeling of hope shattering over and over again, that realization that in the grand scheme of things your ideals dont matter and the only thing you can truly hope for in the server are teammates and allies that wont backstab you, and that even then thats a tall order
so back to Not dealing with jumpertech, i dont mean forgetting what they did, i mean actively avoiding them, acting irrationally scared of them even when theyre being civil, fully putting them in the role of big scary villains, basically still putting what they did at the very forefront but acting like its an insurmountable trauma, planting doubt in their status as heroes, continually being the aggressors just cements in their minds that yes they are the heroes and that yes they are doing the good things
like whether the PlayersTM like it or not this is an unstoppable force vs immovable object kind of situation except the unstoppable force has more to lose by virtue of having a goal that can easily be tided by the immovable object
and i do think they can pull it off, they can lose a fight and lose so much that it breaks their spirit, like jumpertech have both been in kings, they both know how determined at least zam and mapicc are, surely it would be really offputting to see someone youre so used to seeing never giving up to do just that
#mine.txt#i think 4c is maybe the closest to having that Lifesteal TraumaTM i was talking bout but hes not quite there yet#possibly wemmbu as well but truth be told i dont think hes absorbing any of it lol#not even cause hes dense or whatever i just dont think he gives a fuck since hes already inclined to the kind of server ls is#so it would take A Lot to give him Lifesteal TraumaTM#pentar i think rather than being Inclined to the server its more that hes uhhh Adaptive to it for lack of a better word#like hes got the kind of personality where it would also take A Lot to give him Lifesteal TraumaTM#but i think its in the opposite way to wemmbu almost#where rather than it being because hes got the exact kind of personality the server looks for#its instead where his inclinations almost. parry everything that could give him Lifesteal TraumaTM#like he doesnt care that much about loyalty but hes no traitor either; hes good at pvp but doesnt engage in it self-destructively#he goes along with plotlines if he gets involved in them but will set up his own plotlines as well#so om the topic of jumpertech#they seem to firmly put themselves into the role of ''cyclebreakers''#im curious to see how far they go with it as well as how theyd react to the servers inclination of breaking the hero archetypes#would be interesting to see at least one person not be caught by the cycle even after the Lifsteal TraumatizedTM and actively reject it#i dont even know what thatd look like#closest i can think of is spep but i think he has an acceptance of things and just finding joy in it rather than a rejection#i wrote this all at around midnight so maybe this is all just complete nonsense but its interesting to think of at this moment at least
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why is it that reading is one of the hardest things to do when your personhood is being semi-subsumed by your mental illness, yet also one of the easiest fucking ways to keep your personhood from being semi-subsumed by your mental illness in the first place? what the fuck is up with that? who decided that this would be the way things work, & where do i go to find them?
#sol chats#i think the tag was different before but it is that now sorry guys.#anyway in TOTALLY unrelated news i’m about a third of the way through the motorcycle diaries & it is very good thus far.#like obviously it is just super compelling to be granted insight into the personal & experiential development of such a major and#impactful political figure and to get to see the influences and the insights that built themselves into the man & revolutionary he later#became and the ways in which his sense of romance acts as a through line therein in many ways. but also it is just wonderful as a work of#literature honestly. like the way guevara chooses to honestly & humorously approach the subject of identity- both as it pertains to his#view of his own & the way identity is prescribed- is both very thoughtfully done & somewhat atypical within this style#of memoir which makes it all the more refreshing. & there’s this very clear almost brazen intentionality to the way he approaches atmosphe#-e. it’s unflinching without being jarring or abrasive. it simply is. and as such it leads to these incredibly vivid depictions of event#in which the image of them is enhanced by their recreation rather than marred by what could not be recaptured. and like he’s very clearly#self-aware & very very considerate of how and what it is he says in relation to that which he is trying to relay.#like cintio vitier says in the introduction that “it isn’t literary skill but fidelity to experience and narrative effectiveness that is#sought. when both are attained skill follows naturally taking its allotted place neither blinding nor disturbing but making its#contribution. here with little fumbling or hesitation che’s style is already formed. the years would polish it just as he himself polishe#his will with the pleasure of an artist though not a wordsmith: a quiet shyness forced him not to dwell too much but to push on with the#words howard the poetry of the naked image which his minimal touch turned into reality. his “i—it-in-me” circle opens and closes continual#-without ever becoming dense accommodating a style that prefers to remain hidden. The prose on the page sheds light though it does not dra#on the imperceptible lightness of the narrative. it flows between description of feeling and narrative accounts in which he searches for#himself and sometimes even seems to be watching us.” & just like yeah. Yeah! that is really the most apt way to put it!#cintio vitier that was so fucking real. like there’s something both clawingly forward & very intimately retrospective about it & guevara#very much uses this contradiction to his advantage. there’s something almost prescient about it due to the framing of the perspective bein#that we are listening equally to guevara as experiencer & editor that deeply grounds the reader in the narrative’s present. like it’s just#an interestingly written piece of literature.
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all i want to think about right now is leon chained up and beating asses despite the fact. it brings me comfort.
handcuffs and ankle cuffs. let's turn this into a stealth mission, too. fuck it, why not. try not to be noisy during an escape.
... if you think about him strangling someone with his cuffs... think about him doing it with his ankles, too. then consider him snapping someone's neck with his thighs alone.
#self care is padlocked in a cocoon#me in my anxiety hoodie and wrapped up in my happy blankie#struggling with art a bit still and trying to just fuckin relax#but leon whump calms me down lmfao#image in my head of leon headbutting someone with his arms tied behind him#his skull is so dense he probably breaks theirs#would like to draw more leon in chains but must... relax...
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No better way to end your day than to have your eye shanked by your boss' son! without any safe way of receiving medical attention! Then smiling about it to your last remaining family!
...Being a variant in this world is hard.
#amontag#adratag#featuring amon's shitty apartment#woa bad words#Amon could REALLY use a break. And actual rest. And money. Lots of it. poor boy's 17 and his only inheritance from his dad was $500k of deb#in which working as a mafia grunt is not cool and cash money#oc comic#oc lore#oc backstory#Amon's muscle/bone structure is SUPER dense! (contrary to birdpeople) most of the punches were reserved for the tender spots of his face.#he is violently holding back the urge to kill Mr.Richard Wucci here. Gotta stick to his grits because otherwise they can destroy everything#sometimes even having the advantage of immense strength means nothing and does nothing. talk about salting wounds!#needless to say Amon has built up an insurmountable amount of self-restraint. Not to mention endurance to obvious disrespect.#“Auntie” is actually not related to them at all. She and her husband run a local bodega and are close family friends. free dorto's!#Amon's fridge is holding on for dear life. Almost everything in his home was thrifted or just refurbished by him to try making things cozie#Both of them smile in an attempt to keep things light... But they're both painfully alone in a world that is entirely uncaring for them.#they need a hug.#If only someone short winged and angry could come and break them from this situation... but that doesn't come for two years or so.#ARK_SYSTEMA#art#artwork#digital art#my art#my artwork#MY OCs#original character#OC#my OC#OC art#Illustration
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If an album has a strong bass and rhythm section, well crafted danceability with smart production choices on how to frame an artist's voice I'm absolutely going to love it
#LOOKING AT YOU TENS SELF TITLED#i get why jay was saying it reminds them of Kai's self titled#its cause it follows the formula above#only criticism i have is 'on ten' tens vocal tone is too light and thin for a song that dense#and speaking of vocals i feel like his vocals are little bit under the mix and should be brought forward a lil more#like the oooh's in on ten is how the lines should sound not the backing
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actually I kinda cannot stand s2 alina…
#everytime she told the darkling that he doesn’t know what true loss is cuz he hasn’t suffered any….#girl are u DENSE??????#he’s been fighting the persecution of his ppl for 500 years and YOU missy only started to care like a year ago#talk about self conceited geez
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*in the 2020s* he would do numbers on twitter *in the 2010s* he would get shares on his blog *in the 1990s* he would be a wiz on the multi-user dungeon *in the 1950s* he would get ratings on the television *in the 1930s* he would command the masses on the radio *in the 1880s* he would do dots and dashes on the telegram *in the 1790s* he would do arm signals on the semaphore *in the 1600s* his prints would be distributed widely *in the 1400s* he would sound the trumpet in battle *in the 700s* his words would be passed down by oral tradition *in the 300s* he would do smoke signals in the sky *in the neolithic* his artifacts would enter the archeological record *in the pliocene* his bones would be preserved in the sediment *in the mezozoic* he would do permineralization in mineral rich groundwater *in the paleoarchean* he would facilitate recombination of his genome *in the hadean* his molecules would self replicate in the early ocean *in the matter dominated era* his stellar nursery would collapse into a star and an orbiting cloud of dust *in the cosmological dark ages* quantum fluctuations in his density would form the first cosmological structures *10^-32 seconds after the big bang* his elementary particles would dominate in baryogenesis *in the plank epoch* he would do cosmic inflation in the energy dense early universe *10^-43 seconds after the big bang* he would be
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Red Dead Redemption 2 was so real for creating the most in-depth, realistic clothing system I've ever seen in any game, and exclusively using it on burly, unhygienic men.
You choose every layer, every accessory, with dozens to hundreds of each to choose from. You can go in and fine-tune minute details like whether or not to roll up the shirt sleeves, or button the collar, or whether to wear your pants under your boots. These clothes get dirty in real time depending on what you do in the game. Mud, dust and blood linger unless washed off. Every garment has a warmth rating based on its material, and the game calculates what temperatures an outfit is suitable for based on the combined total. Dressing too cold or warm for the weather causes health debuffs.
You can choose which way he parts his hair, and whether he gels it. If you eat too much he gets bulkier and gains a double chin, and if you eat too little he can go underweight and get all bony and sallow. Both of these states come with stat changes. His hair and beard grow in real game time, and you need to routinely style and shave his facial hair if you want any style other than a full Santa. You need to bathe him regularly or people will start commenting on his BO, and he'll start visibly appearing filthy long before that. He sunburns in the sun, and in the heat he becomes slick and glossy with sweat.
This shit is IN DEPTH. It blows the customization systems of actual fashion-centric games like tf2, Monster Hunter and Splatoon out of the water in every regard. They honestly look basic in comparison. It's a paradigm shift for sure once you experience RDR2's level of customization. Everything else starts to feel smaller.
The player character all this customization is applied to, and I simply cannot stress this enough, is a 36 year old, 6'3" smoker weighing well over 200 pounds, with facial hair thicker than a sheepdogs, forearms like gnarled tree trunks and a dark, dense forest of body hair covering every reasonable surface. His skin is pocked and marred with scars from a rugged, nomadic lifestyle, and his teeth are the colour of cornbread. He has a thick southern accent, is a known mean drunk and knows how to skin pretty much any North American animal. He has never worn deodorant, flossed or moisturized. He eats canned beans, fruit and the like by simply pouring them into his mouth and gulping, often while walking or riding a horse at full gallop.
I can think of NO better use case for such customization. Not some fresh-faced little twink, not some busty anime babe. Just a gross, hairy, unwashed homeless dude with crippling self esteem issues and a chest broader than a barrel laid lengthwise. A non fashion-centric game, certainly a non-fashion centric character, but for some reason the best clothing and customization system ever concieved, bar none. What the fuck.
#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption two#arthur morgan#rdr arthur#rdr2 arthur#rdr2 fandom#video game#video games#gaming#rockstar games
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