#HHHH AND THE STRONGER THAN YOU SONGS

[luminousjellyfishy]

Pov: you suddenly remember Pafriskus

[flowercrowngods]

Okay here's hoping tumblr isn't hungry haha

PART 1

Soft steddie idea with soulmates, but instead of feeling the other person's pain you feel their joy and happiness. But steddie doesn't know who the other person is.

Eddie feels it when Steve was a kid and when he wins metals for winning in sports. Steve feels it when Eddie moves in with Wayne and gets his own mug from the collection.

Eddie feels it when Steve was with Nancy, and he never understood why he didn't feel hatred or jealously seeing them together, just a fond sense of happiness from somewhere deep inside him. (Eddie of course has a minor crush on Steve, I mean, how could he resist it?)

Steve feels it when Eddie gets his first acoustic from Wayne, a hand-me-down from his mother that was in storage. He feels the joy when he's learning to play and when he finally nails one of the songs his mother loved.

part 2

And then nothing for a bit from Steve, due to the Upside Down business, until a random summer night in 85'. Eddie's on stage playing a gig, the mood is a bit down because Eddie has to retake his senior year again, when suddenly he feels joy. So much joy he laughs and pushes himself and his guitar. The room responds and it's electric. Corroded Coffin were booked to play the same gig for weeks after that.

And in a Starcourt bathroom, Steve felt the response to his joy, an echoing he thought was due to finding his platonic soulmate.

And then they come together but it's stressful with the Upside Down and the murder charges. And they don't realize it but they're trying soothing each other. Steve's trying to take Eddie's mind off Chrissy's body floating and cracking, Eddie's trying to help Steve's burden of responsibility by making him laugh and complimenting him.

And then in the final battle, Steve throws the Molotov and feels a sudden burst of joy. It makes his aim true, and lights Vecna on fire.

And then nothing.

They say that the strongest feeling you'll get from your soulmate is their happiness. But Steve knows differently. It's the absence left behind the joy, when there's nothing left, and it feels like there's a block in your soul, taking pieces of you away.

It was the same feeling he got seeing Eddie's bloody body and Dustin crying over him.

It helped him ignore his own injuries and exhaustion as he picked Eddie up and ran to the gate, not stopping till he collapsed in the hospital when every was safe. Everyone but his joy.

The first thing Eddie felt when he woke up was happiness. Stronger than he'd ever felt before, and it empowered him to open his eyes.

Wayne was on his right and to his left, Steve.

He lifted a shaky hand to Steve's wet cheeks and smiled softly. "Hey sweetheart."

"You asshole, I told you not to be a hero." Steve sobbed and laughed.

"I knew you got me, my sunshine. My joy."

Wayne snorted, with eyes wet with tears. "You've always been a dramatic one, you get it from your mother."

Eddie hummed and closed his eyes.

He heard Dustin asking if he was alright and Steve answered for him.

"He'll be alright, he's happy."

Eddie squeezed Steve's hand tightly and smiled wider.

He was happy.

🤍🌷 THE END 🌷🤍

aaah oh my god??? feeling someone’s joy as the link?? (also not my angst brain getting stuck on eddie not feeling steve’s joy for months, if not a year!!! 🥺😭) BUT THEN THE ENDING!!!! god!! yes hhhh thank you so much they’re so!! 🥺🥹🤍 thank you for writing something for me!! 🌷

[lideria]

Give Me a Few. | Johnny

Request: hi hi can you write smtg with johnny? like anything hhhh im soft for the man

Author’s Note: I miss school. Yes, that might be a crime but hear me out: this quarantine’s got me missing school and having crises over assignments and quizzes and tests, which is crazy to me. So, this shall be a college fic.

Warnings: A few swear words and a little anxiety. English is my second language so there might be errors + my brain is pushing a writer’s block on me but I won’t let it so there might be some complications with the flow loves I’m sorry.

Word Count: 1.752 IT’S SHORT.

Genre: Fluff, Angst if you like squint really hard, college!au, platonicfriends!au

Hope everyone who reads it enjoys!! 💚Have a lovely time, and good night for me lol

“The fuck?”

Johnny’s head bolts up at the frustrated question. He sees you hunched over the printed papers with your mechanical pencil in your hand and your phone in the other, scrunched eyebrows looking at the white surface scribbled all over with equations and formulas. The desk has eraser dust all over it, all from the past few hours of tussling with questions he thought must simply be too difficult. “That doesn’t make any sense, you sure that’s right?”

He can hear the faint “Dude yes, I used the calculator.” of your friend on the other end of the line, and sees your hand spring up to your temple, rubbing the spot as you let out a sigh. Shortly after, though, the mechanical pen comes back in contact with the paper. “Okay okay. Just guide me through that one more time please.”

Your friend cleans their throat so clearly Johnny can hear it, and with that he returns to his own share of notes. He is much more relaxed than you are since he has left his fair share of difficult examinations behind, and although he has a lot more memorizing to do still, it is whatever. Just two more to go.

It takes a few minutes for your friend to go over everything they had just told you, with you writing the formulas and equations down step by step, circling the ones you deemed important. You thank your friend for helping before hanging up.

Which is when the mechanical pencil is thrown out of your hand and onto the desk. “I’m gonna fail this final so bad,” You whine out. “Why make the course mandatory if half the faculty doesn’t even get it?” Leaned back on the chair, you rub your eyes with your fists. There is nothing more you want other than being done with the finals already and to never have to be acquainted with this course ever again— but you also have to pass it in order for that to become true.

“Should I just help?” Johnny suggests, his own studies long forgotten at that point. Not that he had been doing a particularly good job at focusing on them.

He sees you hunch back over the desk, looking at him with your hands tiredly placed on your cheeks. “Hasn’t it been like.. 2 semesters since you’ve taken this? Plus, you have a test tomorrow.”

Johnny clicks his tongue. “It’s history anyway— I couldn’t care less, it’s easy. Multiple choice.” Shutting his notebook close (which still amazes you how he can take notes by hand of a class like history where it is dominantly lecture material that matters), he stands up and instead takes a seat on the chair beside yours. “I’d rather struggle with formulas than read about every revolution there ever was.”

“Easy to say when you ace tests without studying for them.” You mumble, which makes Johnny smile. He could not protest that because it was true. He was a good listener during class, which helped him tons with assignments, which in turn helped him not forget the class material. The only type of courses that truly got to him were the ones where most things are dependent on discussions, arguments or debates where he needed to improvise. Not because he is bad at any of them, just because he is the type to take problems more subjectively rather than objectively.

Johnny tells you to take a breather for a few minutes while he tries to get what is going on in the question. You see this as an opportunity to take a few sips from your sugary drink that is supposed to get you through this night’s study session that is sure to become an all nighter considering you still have a couple of pages to work out. Then you check your phone, scrolling through your social media for a little, until Johnny’s hand lightly lands on your forearm. “I think I figured it out.”

“You did?” The question sounds more hopeful than it should have. “Mhm,” His eyes land on your phone momentarily before he continues speaking. “Let’s have dinner first, though.”

For you to agree he almost has to literally drag you outside of the study room the two of you had occupied, but he manages to bring you out by wrapping his arms around your shoulders and waddling his way out until the door closes and locks behind you. The two of you then make your way to the cafeteria just because you could not be bothered with making any food or asking for delivery.

While you eat, Johnny tells you he is almost sure you could not get the question because your brain was fried rather than being unable to do it. Although not knowing if it is true or not you are thankful that he says it, because it gives you a motivational boost.

Both because you are hungry and because you really need all the studying you can get, you hurry up eating— barely even tasting the food before you leave to get back to the study room.

When you are back both of you immediately go back to your seats, putting your phones on flight mode before abandoning them at the far end of the desk. Johnny takes your mechanical pencil and eraser, erasing your jotted answer before starting to re-read and rephrase the question for you. He writes down the answer step by step, making sure you truly understand everything and stopping when you need to get your head wrapped on some things.

And when he erases his writings so you can write the answer down, he gives you encouraging pats on your shoulder, letting his hand rest there as a reminder that he is there if you need to ask something.

At some point he places his chin on your shoulder as well to watch you. Not you writing your answer down, but you. “You’re being annoying right now.” You mumble, to which he chuckles slightly. “Am I?”

“You are,” Confirming the statement, you tap down at the desk. “Just look. I got the right answer this time.”

He does. The smile that spreads across his face soon after he does so makes you proud. “See, I told you it was only your overworked brain.”

With a roll of your eyes you thank him, before turning back to the many practice questions that awaited you. The questions start coming as a breeze for the first couple of hours as you gather help from your textbooks with your freshened mind. Johnny starts to play one of his many playlists with chill songs on it, reaching out for his phone to do it before also reaching out for his notebook and highlighters, returning to history out of the sheer fact that it would make him feel better if he studied while you were.

The music in the background provides a nice ambiance in the room, much more lighthearted and relaxed than how it has been for the whole study session so far. Johnny and you take turns leaving the room to walk around, partly to get some exercise and partly to delay the point where you would get sleepy.

The night seems to go by faster after you start studying for the second time. And surely after some time, you had to start leaving the study room not for short walks, but to wash your face in order to stay awake.

Letters slowly start to form a gibberish language in your mind, numbers becoming a jumble of weird lines and strokes. What really breaks all that you have left of wakefulness, though, is when Johnny starts softly humming to the songs on his never-ending playlist.

His voice is deep and strains when he is using such a low tone to hum to the songs, but it is still quite the attention catcher. You cannot help but start listening to him, and you certainly cannot help your hand that trails off of the practice questions. Within a few songs’ time, your eyes get droopy and your world gets droopy, too. But you honestly try to fight off the sleep.

Yet, sleep is much stronger than whatever is keeping you awake.

“I think I’m gonna take a nap,” The announcement comes as a surprise even to you, but you reach out for your bag and drag it until it is in front of you on the desk. “What’re you doing?”  Johnny throws a soft yet questioning look at you even though it must be obvious what you are doing. “I’m gonna use it as a pillow.”

“Just lay your head on my arm,” He says as if it is nothing, and shrugs a little when you look at him with your own pair of questioning eyes. “My cardigan’s thick and soft enough to be comfortable for both you and me.”

You smile at him, and pull your bag full of books and binders aside. Reaching out for his left arm, you hold his hand lightly— even though he is fully capable of lifting his forearm to place it in front of you— and drag his arm to the space previously occupied by your bag. He returns to his notes, unbothered, and gets back to humming along to the songs.

When you place your head on his forearm you smile at the scent of his cardigan, the scent of the coffee he had had before you started studying still embedded into the fabric.

You shut your eyes that do not have the motivation to fight off the sweet invitation of sleep. And if anybody ever asked you, you would say you fell asleep before Johnny finished the line he was humming to.

And if anybody ever asked you, it was the one of the best (and deepest) sleeps you had; your face engulfed in him and his cardigan’s warmth, your arms closed around his forearm, hunched over the desk in a position that is surely going to ache your back— until there is a scratch at the top of your head and through your hair. “Hm?”

“An hour’s passed.” He whispers, his hand still in your hair. You draw his arm closer to you, nuzzling your face into the fabric. You were not the one with a test tomorrow, and you were surely not the one with a test tomorrow that you could ace with your eyes closed. “Gimme 15 minutes.”

You hear him laugh. “Okay, big baby.”

[laracroftsleatherjacket]

for the cute asks! blossom, bubbles, buttercup, calm, cutie pie, fluffy, jewel, joy, pretty, roses, smile, wobbly 💖

(blossom bubbles and buttercup lol powerpuff girls !)

blossom; favorite book/movie/song?

Book? Throne of Glass probably but I havent read it in a long time. Movie? hmmm..  Spirit. and my current favorite song is probably Free by Mother Mother (did you expect anything other than Mother Mother? sjhfs)

bubbles; do you have a best friend?

My gf is my best friend c: I mostly just have like regular friends I guess other than them but I do love my friends even if I dont talk to them much

buttercup; showers or baths?

If i had to choose.. showers. I feel cleaner but I like to take baths occasionally to relax. Also I always thought it was cute for couples to like take baths and/or showers together gskjdfn

calm; favorite scent?

oh hard question. Fav smell overall rn? The smell of whatever laundry detergent my gf uses with the shampoo they use mixed together uwu. I also like Lavender Vanilla and also like darker/musky smells? I really like the In The Stars bath and body works I use rn. Stronger smells and also perfumey smells are a trigger for my migraines so even if i like the smell i cant handle a lot of smells :(

cutie pie; most precious item you own?

Im a very sentimental person so I have too many but probably my flag grommet necklace. It means so much to me and I wear it all the time. But also my childhood stuffed bunny and also the fox stuffed animal (Little Fox) that my gf gave me for Christmas c:

fluffy; ocean or mountain?

mountain. not really a beach person

jewel; what’s your favorite kind of weather?

Like a cool ~70ish or less degree day slightly cloudy and a good storm at night 

joy; do you laugh loudly or giggle more?

I think I tend to giggle more bc Im a very quiet person but I do laugh loudly occasionally 

pretty; do you like to cook or bake more?

I do both but I prefer to bake! It also seems easier to do? More exact measurements and I love the smell of stuff baking in the oven. Bread, cake, cookies, doesn't matter 

roses; what is the most significant event in your life so far?

hhhh tie between Gold Award Ceremony and getting to meet you and spend time with you for the first time at my first furry con

smile; what is one thing that has greatly affected you?

thats a hard one so Ill go with the most recent thing. And that was when I was talking to you late at night and you kept reassuring me how much you loved me (and then I cried lskfj) and I just felt really loved and sure of everything in that moment 

wobbly; have you ever wished upon a star?

Yeah. more often when I was a child and Im not sure I believe in like it working? but I do believe in like putting good feelings out there in the universe and if your wishing on a star bc you want something so badly that things will eventually work out as long as youre working towards that thing yourself too

[woodswolf]

Let's go buck wild. Even numbers

i did this........ on mobile........ for You............

also im not bolding all of these its absolutely painful on mobile

2. How old did you turn this year?

21

4. Did your appearance change in anyway?

uhhh not really, been that kinda "lowkey dumpster fire" look for like the entire decade tbh

6. If you traveled, where did you go?

went to las vegas with family for three days over thanksgiving

8. Which fashion trends did you hate?

i dont even know what fashion is i just wear business casual for work and dont get dressed at all on the weekends unless i need to buy food.

10. What song sums up this year for you?

home by cavetown and/or strawberry blond by mitski

12. What was your favorite movie of the year?

i cant even remember if ive SEEN any movies this year tbh but uhh did good blood's oot analysis video essay come out this year? because if so ill go with that

14. Favorite new TV show?

i dont watch SHIT because i am uncultured and have no time!!!!!! but i guess steven universe future has been entertaining to watch from the sidelines

16. What food did you try for the first time?

uhhhhhh i guess i had shepard's pie. i know very new and original but considering my usual diet is "pre-portioned shit that can be thrown in a microwave and consumed" its something

18. What was one nice thing you did for someone else?

i dont remember things that happen more than like 3 days ago at any given time so idk

20. Did you develop a new obsession?

not particularly? just a few old hyperfixations came on stronger

22. Did you move?

yea for work, im in the civilization now

24. Did you get a pet?

sorta? my parents adopted a puppy but shes not mine n im not up there to see her most of the time so

26. Do you regret doing something?

sorta but its hard to explain

28. Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days?

sorta yea? but idk how to explain it in short form

34. Did you have to cut ties to someone?

not really? i dont remember

36. Who wasn’t as important to you this year as they were last year?

i dont remember. this whole list is just kinda reminding me of how fucking long this year has dragged on tbh

38. What was the best moment of the year for you?

not really any one specific moment? idk, just goofing off with friends

40. Did anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really didn’t?

this question makes me feel Things in a way thats hard to describe. same with the companion question thats an odd number. how the fuck are you supposed to determine if something should change you as a person? how do you quantify that? and then how do you make a comparison at the end? i have megabig identity issues that im not really public with on this blog and pretty much never have been! it's just a huge series of cop-outs and shit! and like this isnt even getting into the idea of how im supposed to anticipate a change ahead of time? like whats up with neurotypicals n their future vision shit i want that?

42. What are you most proud of accomplishing?

uhhhhhh i got a job n i finished my first big project on that job. i am still working at that job and i hope that i can continue to work there because if i cant im beyond fucked.

44. Did your opinion of anyone change for the better?

uhhhhhh i dont really know? i mean sorta but can an opinion really qualify as having changed for the better if it previously just didnt exist? like oh, i now know more about this person other than their name and the fact that they exist and turns out they are cool and nice. like that doesnt really count as an opinion change imo

46. If you make resolutions, did you complete them this year?

if i made resolutions i sure as fuck dont remember them. but i got a job in my field at least so thats something

48. If you could go on an adventure during the remaining days of the year, where would you go and what would you do?  Who would you go this?

kinjago reunion party in fuckin uh. some big cabin in the woods where we can subsist and have sleepovers. n we never leave we just stay there forever.

50. What do you wish for yourself?

really need to keep my job hhhh. really need to fix my pc hhhhhhhhh.

[inkivaarinensart]

HHHH- tries not to die

Okay! First of all thank you all who have messaged me <3 You have no idea how much joy this brings to me while I’m writing and struggling with chapter 4.

Then for some answers... Under read more because I ramble!

I’m winging it so much with this fic, mixing together different elements, from my own folklore to things straight outta my own head and then some. This is a strange melting pot. I know this is a smut fic, and it purely started out of smut reasons... But I fell in love with this idea, and I really wanna make this so much more than just smut. I want there to be feelings, love, friendship, beauty. So this is a weird... From strangers (who kinda fucked) to friends (who still fuck) to lovers (who definitely will still fuck) fic.

About the bond and seal: It transmits really strong emotions, and things like danger and hurt, and it’s felt stronger the closer the two bonded are. This will be... Told more in the fic, in coming chapters. But the bonding itself has no way to interfere with actual feelings, like love, they still originate from the person itself. It’s not uncommon for a demon to hate and resent their summoner (in this au).

There will be some (sexy) shenanigans because of the bond!

I actually listened to NFWBM by Hozier and holy hell pretty voice. Also it kinda did have fitting thematics! Hmmm... The fic might have some... Sub/dom undertones? But in a healthy way. Reader wants to take care of Toshi (who doesn’t, he is a precious bean), and Toshi is just so intense about it all, he wants it so much, he is shy and timid but gods does he crave that touch and soft words. More of that in the upcoming chapter. And, ah, I’m so glad that this silly fic can bring joy to someone! It kinda is my passion project right now, and I like escape my own life and problems into it.

Lastly, but not least, @kojiyamas ! Thank you! Hmmm, like I earlier said, this is not purely based on my own folklore alone, but if Finnish paganism interests you can read a little about it in wikipedia. Unfortunately there’s not so much stuff in English. I’ll try to fish around a bit more for legit English info about this all.

As for the spells, I have used the book “Magic Songs of the Finns” as a base. It has about 400 pages! A lot of spells! It has been translated to English as well. Unfortunately I’m not sure if you can find any translated spells in the internet. Some maybe, Probably. 

I also have tweaked my own spells, using the book as a basework. We have a strong oral tradition, and the base of our spells is knowing the origin words of things, that gives the spell power over things. I usually chant my own conjurations, going with my gutfeeling. Idk, if any of this interests you guys and you wanna know more of my traditions and spells and such, hit me with a dm! I’ll talk gladly lol.

But I’m happy! So happy! This fic is so fucking self-indulgent so I’m a bit nervous about it, and the reader miiiiiiiight veer into more of an OC character in the near future idk lol. This is my first fic, I’ve never written anything long, and akfdfkgdfkg I keep comparing myself to other writers and think that I suck.

Sorry for my ramblings!

[taramatsu-san]

Okay so I said before I would talk about some of the deleted scenes and other such things from UN//Forgotten, in case anyone is curious! There will be spoilers under the read more, so be warned if you haven’t finished the story yet!

Before we get into that, also have some art that I never used for some reason that was supposed to go with this fanfic:

Alright, the rest of the cut content under the read more! Also sorry I don’t know how to make the Read More work on mobile? It just refuses so everything after this is a spoiler!

So the first thing that was changed from the first draft was the roles of Kara and Oso within the story. Before I started writing I wanted to have all the characters follow the roles they had in the Hesokuri Wars Steampunk set. That would mean that Kara was a bounty hunter. I tried to fit that into the plot in various ways, such as Kara being a slave to Chibita, but still working as a bounty hunter, and then having Oso killing Chibita. But that didn’t really work with the plot. Like if Kara didn’t know Oso before he killed Chibita, why would he go with him and join his group? He wouldn’t. And then Oso would have no reason to rescue him, and ect. It didn’t work so I made Kara a normal slave/outlaw like Oso instead. Then the plot made 100% more sense, especially after I decided how Chibita would die in the story, but more on that later.

I wrote the first four or five chapters before uploading any of them. I had written the Choro family as not knowing each other as children originally in those first few chapters, they had all escaped from separate farms and such. I then realized that made a huge plot hole. How did they all escape? How did they find Choro? Why did Ichi trust them, but not Kara? It just didn’t make sense so after uploading the first two chapters I went back and edited the other chapters to them knowing each other from the beginning. This made the story stronger and just made more sense.

Around chapter seven I realized the plot was taking too long. I then edited the rest of chapter seven, which became chapter seven and eight actually, severely. I put too much in and there wasn’t enough room. The biggest things I took out was a scene where after Dekapan examines Kara, Kara helps him out with a delivery to Nyaa-Chan. On this delivery he would see Oso walking around, his eyes glowing red. This would establish he was more actively looking for Kara, although he mostly hung around the main street and the bank, aka where Chibita died. It was unnecessary and dragged the chapter on too long so it was cut. I instead put a tiny scene with Oso in the next chapter, but I don’t think it had the same impact. Oh well.

Next scene I cut out in chapter eight was Todo talking about his past experiences as a slave. It made that chapter drag and Todo’s past had very little importance on the plot as a whole, so Homura ended up talking about it briefly instead. Side note, when Homura says, “I never had a choice in anything! I just, I just want to make my own decision for once.” That was extremely obtuse foreshadowing of her suicide attempt. She made her own decision for once, it just wasn’t a very good one. sobs

Chapter 9, or chapter ——- (seven dashes), those dashes standing for both suicide and Chibita, didn’t exist in my original outline, throwing off my outline even further, cause you know I’m like that. There was just a small scene in the notes that said “RW: Karamatsu can’t decide if he wants to continue story,” which I somehow turned into a whole chapter. Go me!

Chapter Thirteen (actually 14) had a much darker tone in the first draft. It had Karamatsu contemplating suicide, holding his box cutter against his wrist before the voice of Kara stops him from doing anything stupid. Then he would run away. I changed it because he wouldn’t have enough time between Choromatsu leaving and returning to do all that, and because it would lessen the impact of his actual suicide attempt and Kara trying to stop him at the end of the story. It flows better with him just running away and leaving his poem behind! I think!

There was a dream sequence that got cut out of chapter fourteen (15 number wise) in which it was clearer that it was about Chibita. I made it far more vague in the actual story.

Also something I never saw anyone mention, but I’m sure people noticed, Oso says, “We were more like test subjects, because the five of us have magic that’s considered to be too ‘powerful’ or too ‘dangerous’.” He messed up and said five instead of four, since he was counting Chibita. I tried to make this clearer by mentioning four in relation to the futon.

Also this is something I never mentioned either, but Kara’s headaches got worse after he used his magic, and the “Find Oso,” was memories leaking through. It was his own brain trying to save him and get him to remember. On that note, the reason Oso didn’t know about Kara’s entire plan to make his memories obscured was because he can only use one part of his magic at a time. He can either track someone or read their mind, and since Kara was so far away he used all his power to track him instead.

Oh and another thing. Kara never mentioned Oso’s name to anyone until he ran away from Choro. This is mainly because while Choro and the others wouldn’t know if him, Professor Dekapan knew of his existence and that he was an outlaw rather than a bounty hunter.

Oh and when Oso says people think real loud at him about jobs, that was actually a lie. He just didn’t feel like explaining it to Kara, but he has informants who at a certain time in the morning relay their thoughts to Oso about any jobs. So it’s kinda like thinking really loud but not really lol.

So as for the memories, they were one chapter at one point, but I changed it to two. I also changed around the order of the memories from my notes to what is in the story since it made the reveal of Chibita happen later. That meant I had to edit out a mention of Chibita in the memory of just Kara and Oso after Kara obscured the house. It was only one line so it wasn’t that big of a deal.

The memory of Kara and Chibita at the top of the second chapter of memories wasn’t in the notes at all. I added it in to give context to Kara attempting to throw his magic across the room. Neither was the memory where Kara and Chibita are talking through the wall. That scene wasn’t even added until like moments before I uploaded that chapter omg. I thought the story needed more Kara and Chibita bonding moments!

Another big change was Chibita’s death. In the original script it was from a botched rescue job. Basically they were helping to rescue some slaves with the wagon, but got chased by real bounty hunters, Chibita fell off the wagon and Kara couldn’t save him and he got captured. That didn’t have the emotional impact of an on screen death, and didn’t echo the real life Chibita’s death, so I changed it to a bank robbery. Originally it was a more normal bank robbery, like Kara ghosted them in and they robbed the bank with guns but Chibita was killed, but I couldn’t figure out a way that would work well? And also Kara can walk through walls, why wouldn’t he walk right into the vault? So it became what it is in the story because of that.

Also the title, Chapter ___ ___? Stands for “Bad End?”

So now for changes to the ending! At first Karamatsu was going to jump from a bridge, not the cliff. The cliff made more sense because it echoes what Kara did in the story.

Osomatsu also talked more with Karamatsu in the first draft, but I cut a lot of it out. Things he mentioned include the way he found Karamatsu being the cellphone he called him from. He got it from Dekapan and it tracked him. It only worked since he picked up the phone, so if he hadn’t answered Osomatsu never would’ve found him. That wasn’t really plot relevant and I couldn’t fit it in with such a tense moment so it got cut. Another change was it cutting off at Osomatsu screaming “Wait,” and the rest just being told in the video. I wrote more of the ending with Osomatsu saying a few more things, but it was dragging and not important, so bye bye to all that.

Chapter True End (21) started differently, with Kara still cutting his throat but missing any main arteries which would’ve killed him. So he just passed out from blood loss instead of over-using his magic. I liked Oso saving him more to reflect what happened in reality, so that was changed.

The scene at the end with Ichimatsu was longer, with Karamatsu also fretting about his scars and Ichimatsu telling him that they were like battle scars, showing how hard he had struggled and still lived, but I couldn’t get it to fit in right so I cut that out as well.

One last note, if I ever did a bad end, a real bad end that is, I would probably make a video and I would use the song “Transparent Elegy”. It’s the sister song to “Farewell Wonder Noise”, kinda. It’s sort of like how in my other fanfic The Heaviness of a Heart, I had the song “Q” as the good end and “RE:Overdose” as the bad end because those are like sister songs as well. Speaking of which, “Heart Nonsense” and “Falling Apart Heart” are also sister songs. I like to use songs by the same artist with similar themes I GUESS.

Actually, since I haven’t rambled enough, a lot of this story was inspired by THOAH. Both Karamatsu’s and Choromatsu’s online names, MyLightShinesForYou and NyaaFan96, come from that fanfic. There are other inspirations from THOAH, but let’s not get into all that since I could write another 1000 words just on the similarities, hhhh.

So anyway, I think that’s it! If you have any other questions feel free to ask me I’ll answer them!

[patriciaselina]

8P Unit Song CD Vol.1 - Hatanaka Tasuku + Chiba Shouya

duet -  哀シキ宿命ニ (To A Sorrowful Fate)

And for as long as I am burdened by this fate, I'll burn through this life and change it.

Hatanaka Tasuku - You&I [08/17 - Happy birthday!]

Cry when you want to cry, laugh when you want to laugh, So let's go, stay as you are, always by my side.

Chiba Shouya - 君空模様 (Looking at your sky)

With my head hung in shame, I’d found myself thinking, "I want to be with you."

Full translated lyrics for all songs under the cut!

哀シキ宿命ニ (To A Sorrowful Fate)

H: Quietly lingering at this lonely daybreak, What you're thinking of is a wish, isn't it? C: Until the time you fulfill Your lingering desire for that far-off promise,

H: The feelings scorched into memories shall slumber - Both: Leaving the merest bit of pain shall name one as the culprit.

Wielding this sorrowful sword, I'll go on onwards It's too late to ever turn back, As the moon shines upon us. As years go past, I'll reminisce And for as long as I am burdened by this fate, I'll burn through this life and change it. 

C: The pure white sky, reflected by the river, Spreads out softly, like my sorrow. H: And still the battle continues; With the things entrusted to us, let's go onward.��

C: As overflowing droplets fall, Both: Only an unrelenting heart can make you stronger.

Even if this limited fate bursts into flames This heart has decided - At my dying breath, If I am to be but stained by red, If fate is to catch up to me, On my path...

H: Even though these hands can no longer bear C: The sorrow, wounds, lamentations... Both: I still cannot deny my strength!

Wielding this sorrowful sword, I'll go on onwards It's too late to ever turn back, As the moon shines upon us. As years go past, I'll reminisce And for as long as I am burdened by this fate, I'll burn through this life and change it.

Hatanaka Tasuku - You&I

I'm a bit clumsy, so even though I knew you, who always took the long way out, I've been hiding I'd always been stretching up on tiptoe, so every time a strong wind blows, I'd topple down.

You know, I've been thinking about the things I could do, I still haven't found my answers yet, but, however, and always,

There are times when I want to cry, and find it a bit impossible to laugh So let's go, I want to go meet you, no matter where you may be Even though, honestly, I still can’t tell you "I'll save you," Please listen for me.

The only thing I can't catch up with is your courage, but, Clumsily, I'll go and meet you, And just like sunlight passing through leaves, my sleeping strength will carefully wake up

You know, I've been thinking about the things I could do, But the answers are ever-increasing, so, always, 

You & I - that's all I'll ever need, for eternity, So let's go, no night would scare us anymore I want to seriously be able to tell you "I'll save you," So it'll be alright.

Stuff like wishing and getting lost, The words inside your heart right now, Say them out loud, say them out loud, even in a soft voice, We're looking to the same dream, So even when I'm alone, I'll never worry. You & I-- 

Cry when you want to cry, laugh when you want to laugh, So let's go, stay as you are, always by my side You & I may be taking the long way out, And even if a strong wind blows, since we're together, woah, We'll go onwards, it'll be okay.

Chiba Shouya -  君空模様 (Looking at your sky)

Under the crying sky, Those are definitely raindrops flowing down your cheeks, or are they...? Your sunshine smile had taken a day off But, because of that,

With my head hung in shame, I’d found myself thinking, "I want to be with you."

I can feel them, Your sighing breaths, your temperature, The feelings that tie you together, Coming from inside your heart, I'll read them all, aah... And when your tears overflow, I'll catch and hold you, It'll be alright, because I'm right here with you. 

Let's go beyond the white clouds, And retrace these footprints ourselves.

As the unstopping rain (the unstopping rain) trembles (trembles) I touch your warm (gentle) fingers (softly) I wonder if the blue sky is coming soon? Cuz we've been waiting for so long 

These forgotten emotions, I'll just straightforwardly move with them.

It's okay to cry. Your strength, your weakness, I want to know all of it, all of it. Of course I'll be taking them down in the notes of my heart, aah... Even in painful and sorrowful times, there will be a page of happiness It'll be alright, I'll open the door, 

The sunset seen beyond the white clouds Will definitely stain our hearts with color

I can feel them, Your sighing breaths, your temperature, The feelings that tie you together, Coming from inside your heart, I'll read them all, aah... And when your tears overflow, I'll catch and hold you, It'll be alright, because I'm right here with you.

Let's go beyond the white clouds, Where our tomorrow, and you, shall shine their light.

You can hear the samples of this album on this page!

You can purchase the album here!

my translation index (i really need to update this hhhh)

first and foremost: happy birthday hata!!!!

lyric scans graciously provided by the darling @tottobag79 on twitter!

so this is not a sponsored post but jesus christ fam this is so good these boys deserve all the support and i love them some more than others i meAN WHAT

okay so, context note #1: the duet songs for this unit song series are supposed to be theme songs of the drama skits the pair singing plays the main roles in. in hata and chiba's case it's - i haven't watched it myself, but from the looks of these lyrics it seems to be some sad samurai drama - so yeah!! that's that!

"leaving the merest bit of pain shall name one as the culprit" - ok i know this sounds weird but basically, whoever feels emotions has the weak point, and thus is the one who gets caught,

hata’s 8p color is red, and "daybreak" in the first verse's first line is also a "red sky". chiba’s image color is white, and he has "white sky". as you may see later, this continues... (daybreak and white clouds also appear in chiba’s solo!)

context note #2: during their first episode, when asked which of the 8p members he'd hypothetically want to date the heck out of, hata says he chooses chiba cuz he's cute and somehow he wants to take him places. chiba says that he'd originally been choosing between (yashiro) taku and masuyama (takeaki), but upon hearing hata, decides that he wouldn't mind being taken around by hata either. since then they've kinda sorta been playing the part of a gachi koi loveteam LMAO

that in mind, it's not really surprising the lyrics of their respective solos seem to be interlocking with each other - common themes: "we'll be okay", "i want to save you/i want to be with you"

copy-pasted from my twitter: hata is the "i'm weak but when i'm with you i can be strong" song and chiba is the "you think you're weak but i know you're strong" song

this in mind, some of the parts where japanese completely screws me over by not giving me clear POV references are kinda cross-checked in my mind by the fact that their POV singers are most likely singing to each other!

i know i can’t ever bring these lyrics justice but JESUS CHRIST TAKE IT FROM ME THE LYRICS ARE BEAUTIFUL---

thank you 8p ily

personal note: “i wonder if the blue sky is coming soon?/cuz we've been waiting for so long” - OI WTF I WASN’T WAITING THAT LONG, (coughs, volume three of this series, when the heck are you going home)

thanks for reading! please do not redistribute these lyrics anywhere without credit and permission!