#GUYS I AM A CHANGED PERSON

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hey now, Let her cook!

[mohntilyet]

illario as the grandchild that is most like caterina is something i'm loving to chew on. the grandson that took her lessons to heart the most. kill anyone who sees your face and knows your name, "we are not revolutionaries", the first out of the two to prioritise the contract. power at any cost, and the only one to lean into the unnecessary abuse that their grandmother told them was tradition. why is anyone surprised he allied with the venatori? and then there's illario's considerable skill in infiltration and manipulating any mark, he has always had the charisma that lucanis lacked. illario isn't attached, he has/can/will use someone and immediately drop them; "that does free me from promises i don't intend to keep". he can lie about how much he cares so well that he fools a magister into believing he loves her. he kills zara without hesitation to cover his own tracks, meanwhile lucanis blindly promises a young girl in the middle of a siege that he will help her find her father. even the lessons about family stick with him, and in this entire messy power struggle, he never actually orders anyone to directly kill caterina or lucanis, not until he's backed into a corner.

and even after all that. despite even lucanis believing illario should be first talon, lucanis is still the better killer. illario is not strong enough to be the brutal assassin caterina needs him to be. so when lucanis seems to fill the role his mother left, grief and love for her dead heir apparent remains, and any of the other qualities caterina needs in her next talon doesn't matter. whatever his mother was, lucanis has to be. what illario does doesn't matter, because he will always be second best to caterina's memory of her favored daughter.

[autisticrosewilson]

While we're on the topic of De-aging AU's I wanna talk about Jason and Damian if Jason was 14 again real quick.

Do you guys think that Damian looks at this version of Jason, so different from the version he knows, nothing like the person he was told Jason was, and feels uncomfortably seen?

Damian was always told that Jason died because he was reckless, because he disobeyed orders, he was fired as Robin and he got himself killed. A cautionary tale, not a threat to his position. He dismisses Jason because Bruce does, because Dick does, because sometimes even Babs and Alfred do.

That's not the kid that he's looking at now. This Jason is happy, and smart, and full of love that has not yet soured into grief. He hangs on Bruce's every word, trains until his hands bleed and his body gives out to perfect the moves Bruce teaches him. He looks at Bruce with stars in his eyes and he calls him dad.

And Damian can't help but think, that this is the perfect Robin. The perfect son. And if Jason - sweet, loving, strong, Jason - can be fired, can die and have his room locked away and his pictures torn down, can have his last memory as Robin be as A Good Soldier, how could the rest of them ever compete? What could Damian do to stand a chance?

Jason will never grow out of the shadow of Robin, like the rest of them did. As long as Bruce, and Dick, and Babs, and Alfred look at him and see a dead kid who came back wrong, he will never get to be anything else. He will not get to be looked at through who he is now without the shadow of a dead boy looming over him.

And the worst part? Jason is exactly the same person he was back then. Bitter, sure, angry, justifiably, but he is still the boy with too much love in his heart and righteous fury festering in his gut. He is exactly the same boy who threw himself in front of an explosion to save his mother.

(The lines between the mother that betrayed him and the father that disgraced him are so very blurred. Fire or blade or crowbars or fists it does not matter. It ends the same way it always does because Jason Todd always dies, in every universe, in every timeline, Jason dies and crawls out only to be killed again and again and again.)

[aomdc]

afraid of mounter day... everyone clap ... 19 years of this stupid gay mod

[ohitslen]

Living together.

The snail video if you are interested :)

[anastacialy]

tracked down this clip just because of this post! have jokes from skizz and scar

[teethbomb]

just saw a bad take I need to smash and kill with a rock

[vulcanette]

📸: saamhallett via highwatermain

[bitchfitch]

I had a shrink appointment today and while I could not see it I knew my doc was going through the five stages of grief while I explained my fool proof strategy for doing my t shots despite a crippling fear of needles: By abusing my vastly more crippling fear of being an inconvenience.

My mother and I play phasmophobia together every week. she usually has a pretty limited time to do this bc she's like. a doctor and a college professor whos always busy. So I asked her to just. hold me to doing them. We don't start playing until the shot is done. so my needle fear doesn't matter because now it's Wasting™ her time and I have to do it quick. Using one neurosis to defeat another.

It's a horrible coping mechanism because it's feeding the inconvenience fear, but it is definitionally a coping mechanism.

[cobaltfluff]

so i started playing persona 4

where are the QoL features

[all-our-turf]

thinking about swan (as usual) and how she handles being in a leadership position and i think it'd be interesting if That Night was like. her first time actually holding that level of responsibility. like i think from early on when swan joined the warriors everyone could kind of see the relationship cleon was building with her and that it was likely swan would be named her number two, but what if it hadn't been official for all that long before the events of the album. and even once she did become cleon's number two, most of what that entailed was being at cleon's side and maybe she became more directly involved in decisions, but she wasn't really in charge of the warriors - at least, not in the way a traditional hierarchy would suggest.

swan steps into the role of leader because she thinks she's supposed to, and that it's what cleon would want her to do, but i don't think it's a position she's at all used to holding, which you'd think as number two she would've had some sort of experience leading, but both her actions and those of the other warriors don't really suggest that. swan makes plans, and the warriors go along with them for the most part, but she never throws any sort of authority around.

i know it's been brought up by others how the warriors don't necessarily follow such a strict hierarchy (like the riffs), but what if ajax questioning swan in woodlawn cemetery stems more from the fact that swan's position is "cleon's number two", and because cleon isn't there anymore then that role no longer holds any real weight. if swan had frequently been responsible for the warriors whenever cleon wasn't around, i doubt this confrontation would've happened at all, because swan taking charge would've been a given.

even her lines in light or somethin' ("don't put your hope in me" // "do not put your trust in me") don't exactly suggest that she's comfortable being in a leadership position. the way swan thinks about herself practically contradicts her role to the warriors, which is why i think it's interesting to explore the idea that this is still relatively new to her. that she hasn't really gotten much experience without cleon by her side to sort of solidify her role. sort of like imposter syndrome - she has the position but she doesn't think she should.

this is more of a personal hc but in my head swan is also one of the younger warriors in the group, which i think would further add to her insecurity as number two. i saw someone mention that fox being the youngest makes her character that much more tragic, and i think swan also being on the younger side has a similar effect. and just like fox spends the album wanting to prove herself as a warrior, i think swan similarly wants to prove herself as a leader. that she's capable of protecting the warriors. the way fox says "i won't let you down" in outside gray's papaya and the way swan says "i'll get us home alive" in woodlawn cemetery carry a similar weight imo. and they both have their moments (fox in reunion square and swan in the finale when she goes up against luther) but i think what makes it all the more painful is that swan would look at how everything played out through the night and view it as evidence that she isn't good enough. that she finally had to step up and prove that she deserves her position as number two and she let everyone down

[narratwoda]

Invisi-Bill misses his boyfriend.

(Original under cut)

[getosugurusbangs]

there’s something about how the king of curses is a man who willfully turned into what he did, a man who acts upon any and all of his desires; and how the queen of curses is a girl who loved and was loved by a boy, and because of it ended up turning into something so truly herself, yet so twisted and unrecognizable from who she once was.

[marymekpop]

⟢ highlight of the hour: love scout [03/12] ⟣

night drive

[shalom-iamcominghome]

As I've gotten deeper in conversion, I have increasingly imagined jewish life throughout time. And what I mean by that is...

So when I looked at the Western Wall before this (maybe a few years ago), I just saw a wall. It held no deeper meaning than that. I imagined nothing when I saw that.

But now when I look at the wall or even when I'm praying idly, I'm imagining myself in the temple when it stood there. It's bright outside - a summer day so bright, I think the temple will blind me. A soft wind surrounds me. I'm stood in the middle of a huge crowd of people, simply observing. Women pass by me in small crowds, laughing and talking. Some of these women are wrangling their small children who keep running away, laughing like it's a game. And men walk by smelling of spices. The air is light, the city around bustling with people living fulfilling, meaningful jewish life. The wall now symbolizes that jewish life, and even though it's not just about the temple when I imagine it, it means something to me.

I think that's the result of seeing myself in judaism, turning the "you" into a "we," and I feel about this what I must imagine a married couple feels.

[yo-yo-yoshiko]

So… An update…

(We’re watching episode 36 next, can’t recommend Toqger enough)