#GONNA GO LISTEN YIPEEE

[thedndgoblinwholivesinyourwalls]

HOLY FUCK NEW DNDADS EPSIODE I FORGOT WOAHHHSGSHS

[imnotgrimimjustagrumpyreaper]

Whyyy does my mother who is currently very weak with spinal issues and had bad balance want to go KAYAKING oh I am in for hell. I am in for hell. This is going to be terrible please god save me.

[carmenized-onions]

It’s been a little while since you’ve posted on here so I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself!!! 💖

my darling loves, I'm so sorry

I'VE BEEN SO EMBARRASSED. I HAVEN'T WANTED TO SHOW MY FACE AROUND THIS TOWN BECAUSE I'VE GOT NOTHING TO SHOW FOR MYSELF AFTER TAKING SUCH A LONG TIME AWAY FROM YOU ALL.

I've been. violently busy. in a good way, mostly. One of my jobs is the best job in the world and the other one is such a bitch it makes me scream every day forever.

but i'm also spending time with friends and enjoying life !

My mom also finished her last chemo appointment just a few weeks ago!!! YIPEEE!!!! Her CT Scans look GOOD!! so no chemo for the foreseeable future. She's unfortunately got the type of cancer that doesn't go away, but at the very least, it's MANAGEABLE. And that's a huge win. I'm very very grateful.

I ALSO FOUND A THERAPIST!!! gone to 2 sessions so far. every session she uncovers a new fucked up facet of me and honestly, can anyone else relate to this, it's sort of nice for someone else to look at your life and go like "oh wow. oh wow there's like. there's like so much here." like it feels good to think oh hurray. i'm not crazy. life IS fucked!

MY BROTHER MOVED!!! this took up a lot of my time, honestly. i love him and my nephew and my sister in law dearly. so i spent a long time making their gifts. i'm silly.

OUR CAT GOT SICK!!! HE'S GOT PEE CRYSTALS CAUSE HE'S OLD!!!!! HE'S DOING OKAY NOW THOUGH!! HIS STUPID URINARY FOOD IS SO EXPENSIVE THOUGH!!!

ANYWAYS. those are my major life updates right. So what's with the no chapter happening??

i. hated. the draft i'm working on so much. that i didn't work on it for like. a month.

and then in a haze. i left myself this voice to text note in my notes app as i was falling asleep one night.

then i hated that too. a week passes. perhaps two, actually.

i finally gain the courage one night to read my draft over.

it's actually not bad at all

it's actually pretty good

some scenes definitely need reworking but that's because i need to fully realize some character feelings

I just had really intense writers' block and fatigue, honestly. But i'm finally writing and EXCITED about it, again. I'm pulling that shit up on my commute and writing whenever i can. which makes me really happy. i was not loving the way it felt like a chore, for a minute there.

that said.

100% going to be more realistic with this chapter waiting timeline, and put a 'hiatus' or some sort of 'delays' tracker on my landing page. cause like. i keep saying check back in 2 weeks. and that's not fair to me or you girl. let's keep it real.

i think we're like.... hm... 50-60% there. (i'll update my landing the day after this post, it's late and i'm eepy)

i MIGHT write some blurbs in the mean time, it really depends. i keep having ideas and then they blink out of existence. perhaps send ideas. i might do something with them.

BUT YES I AM OKAY AND ALIVE. My silence came from a LOT of life stuff getting in the way and also a lot of honestly embarrassment. i hate coming out here over and over and being like haha. i've got nothing <3

but i know that y'all will understand, and i need to trust in y'all's patience more. and i'm GONNA!!!

gonna try to start up my 'answering one ask a day' trend again. except wednesdays. i work late on wednesdays so fuck that. but perhaps all the other days you'll hear from me.

alright. i'm going to shut up now. was any of this coherent? i don't know. thank you for listening!! i missed you dearly!!

[leffee]

Sunil x Russell things

- Sunil is the only one who’s seen Russell without a shirt on since they’ve been dating for a while. (I’d like to add that whoever Russell is dating in the current time would see him without the shirt because it’s based on trust I know I’ve said it before with others)

-Russell may have a candle addiction and Sunil sort of helps him support it..

-In the beginning of their relationship Russell refused to do anything gross in front of Sunil for the longest time (examples: puke, poo, blow his nose,cut his toe nails,fart ect.

-Sunil and Russell have to survive on coffee but have such different coffee tastes and it sometimes switches so they have so many different flavors and add ins stocked constantly as well as a fancy coffee maker.

-Russell tracks Sunil when he goes out not because he doesn’t trust him but because he worries.

-They watch old movies together.

-Sunil has over time figured out Russell’s cleaning style and has worked on getting it down pat so he can help with chores the “right way.”

-They people watch in public a lot.

- Russell actually enjoys being picked up more than he says he does especially when he’s tired.

- Russell has so many pillows everywhere but Sunil doesn’t mind he has his favorites.

-Sunil hates Russell’s alarm clock with a burning passion lol

-Sunil will sometimes nuzzle Russell’s nose instead of kissing him goodbye so he doesn’t embarrass him in front of others ...Russell still blushes when it happens though.

-Sunil has given up anything marshmallow related he refuses to buy or eat anything with marshmallow in it since Russell hates them so much he just thinks of it as an allergy to make life easier when people ask.

Would you like more?

I think I might do other ships to but this one has been it lately.

Yipeee! No Vinnie this time but I think I will survive. Vinnie withdrawal is real after all.

that first one, yeah, I know. Russell does not go around without a shirt just like that so he will only do that with whomever he's dating, this time it's Sunil :)

ayo? Candle addiction? I like candles very much too, though probably not as much as he does. Sunil enables him. I just hope neither of them is a piromaniac too uh oh

yyyeah I imagine Sunil too wouldn't do something like that especially at first. But Russell especially and it would take him longer. Can I say we should normalize farting around others? Listen, if I need to fart then I need to fart, ain't nothing funny about that, it's something everyone does

oh no, both coffee addicts, ahhh just like Vinnie is with energy drinks (I miss him and sometimes still hear his voice :( ). You open their cabinet and it's just... coffee, that's it. I'm gonna imagine that the coffee maker was a gift from one of them to the other but he knew he was gonna be using it too so it was for both of them really

tracks? I wonder how he does that... like he could have Sunil's phone bugged or something but he could also just text him all the time, know what I mean? And there's also the question if Sunil is aware of it and if so if he has any thoughts about it. He could be creeped out but he could also understand given how nervous he himself is

damn, I can't believe Sunil is cheating on Vinnie and watches movies with someone else then him :(. But actually as soon as Vinnie would hear that they're watching old movies I think he'd be like "Ohhh, oh, okay, no, nope, cheat all you want." he doesn't like old movies here so it's alright

maaan, man, I heard of changing your entire personality to appease someone, but Sunil changing his cleaning style so that Russell's happy? Understandable, especially given how much Russell cares about keeping his space tidy and how he has his own rules and think they are the best ones out there

hehe, their dates just consist of sitting on a bench and observing others like 👁👁 ah yes, another satysfying date

yeah, I say, Vinnie, Minka, and Russell being the small ones are also most pickable, but while Vinnie and Minka are all happy about it Russell probably just thinks it makes him look childlish cause he "can take care of himself". Fortunately, he has a tall bf who will pick him up and carry anyway, he's used to that already

yipee pillow person! I bet he has them everywhere for comfort, at least partly. And damn, Sunil couldn't be more happy actually cause why wouldn't he want pillows everywhere? He probably gifts Russell them often because of it and once again they both use them

ahaha yeeeah, I would probably hate it too if someone else's alarm woke me up when I didn't need waking up. Sunil just wakes up all grumpy

awww nose nuzzles <3 idk Russell, I think this is still very telling. As long as he's comfortable tho

oh no, Sunil has seen Russell hate marshmallows so many times he learned to hate them too, negative reinforcements worked like a charm. I imagine Russell is very happy about that

Yes of course I'd like more :D be it those two or any other pairing, I think I can live without Vinnie every now and then. He is Sunil and Russell's third wheel anyway.

Russunil? More like Susell, of course.