#GOD im fucked up anout it!!!!!

[lbhslefttiddie]

I READ PLASTROMANCY AND IM HAUNTED AND BEWITCHED !!!!!! FUCK

[selfshippinglover]

Vent ignore

[skelespidey]

ohmmy god doctors take everything so seriously man i dont wnana do this??? “depression questionnaire” BITCH I ALR DID THIS?? IM GONNA GRT MEDICATED PROBABLY LIKE NEXT MONTH WHAT THE FUCK

whenever bitches worry anout me like this i just wanna close up into a fuckin shell or something ans never do anything good for myself again because then i feel like im doing it for them bleh

[aviangrian]

ITS THE ANON FROM EARLIER HI!!! but OHHHH my GOD???? YOU STILL HAVE SO MUCH OF THE STORY LEFT??? im actually SO scared 😭😭😭😭😭😭 soo much can happen in just 5 chapters........... and that makes me Worried. but also your quote about how part of grian opening up to scar was because of how scar let him do it in his own time and his own terms was just UGHHHHH. they make me so ill i love them. like obviously all scar wants to do is help and hes very respectful, so he respects grian being a bit secretive/mysterious abt his backstory and is very patient, and lets grian come to him when he is ready...

but i also feel like another part of scar waiting for grian to open up whenever he was ready is that it was just... Inevitable? no one has given scar ANYTHING to go off of. not even bread crumbs before his talk with grian in chapter 6... LIKE ESPECIALLY IN CHAPTER 3??? i saw a comment about how it felt like they were testing scar anout what to do with grian and honestly i?? Kinda see it??? like all scar wants to do is HELP but NO ONES THROWING HIM ANYTHING!!!! i have SO many feelings about chapter 3 its actually wild... but i can just *read* scars conflict in the chapters and its just ☹️☹️ like even after 12 weeks you would think theyd give him atleast something,,, that obviously doesnt overstep grians boundaries ofc. like i get how they arent saying anything because its grians story to tell, but i just wanna know what happens already!!!!!

i feel like there will be so much scar and grian angst during the time of these 5 chapters and im SO WORRIED. that tag of angst with a happy ending is making me SO FUCKING SCARED RNNN 😭😭😭😭😭 if something bad happens between them i will Sob... like i feel like one of those cartoon characters where the character is looking nervous and is rapidly biting their fingernails

but also holding onto the hope that scar Will eventually get p1 in one of the races during these 5 upcoming chapters. PRAYING FOR MY BOY 😭😭😭 someone give that guy a p1!!!!!! or at least a spot on the podium!!!!!

anyways i didnt even notice i started rambling again... this story just has me in an absolute chokeholddd,,, I HOPE UR DAY IS GOING GOOD THOUGH LMAOOO!!! good luck on your exams!!!!!! i hope ur semester treats you well 😢😢😢

i do have a lot left! we’re barely at the summer break so yeah, it’s going to be a long 5 chapters. keep angst with a happy ending! it’ll be okay for them. eventually ;)

ch 3 was not the kindest to scar! he’s new in a situation where so much has been established from a time before he even had a contract. texting him in that ch is a good way of putting it: while joel and others may be trusting, there’s still a level of unease going around.

scar being so patient is a big part of why grian even begins trusting him. he knew scar was going to stick around just because he’s joel’s teammate, but i think he was surprised when he felt his own walls go down. it’s why he’s so confused in ch 6. while he struggles w being vulnerable and open, scar does it so easily w him.

i love your rambling anon! i love talking about my story and i get to ramble in return lol. your asks are so sweet, thank you anon 🩷🫶

[aknosde]

hi!! im queso again, im going to send some stuff anout tpth if thats cool :)) - tag: "I promise this isn't as sad as it sounds" you lied to me - i like how you describe the different climates in the different months!! im usually not a fan of weather descriptions to start a story but they were interesting :) - the crushing hug!! gaghhh theyre so cute - i absolutely loved everything from the point they reach the jackson-blofis house to the end of the dancing scene.. i had read the sneak peek of sally and grover dancing and that was what got me hooked and waiting for this fic!! may draw that some time - i also remember the flip phone from the six sentence posts!! it's cool and cute despite the sadness of the situation - WOAGH THEIR FIGHT... THAT'S JUST. SO WELL DONE!!! THE WHOLE SCENE!! i think that is where i found annabeth and grover the most in-character in the whole fic and other than the dance it's my favourite part of it. hands down a great moment. i'd quote some lines but they'd take over this ask - the boxes!! THE RECEIPT. i fucking died. - i honestly thought i was the only person who also thought grover's mother had left. i thought i was the only person who thought about him being an orphan in the first place - the memory with percy.... the gughh EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT PART!!!!! - "Just this once, he thinks, I’ll be selfish." i am deceased i am laying down on your front door user aknosde - the receipt. is not inocuous at all. - SALLY GIVES HIM THE KEYS AND. UGH. I KNOW BABY. IT'S HARD BUT WE'LL BE ALRIGHT. DO YOU WANT ME DEAD - clarisse was a great choice for a character to play the role she plays in that point of the story i love clarisse and her and grover interacted very nicely - he cared enough to try and try again. fucking hell - ITS A CHANGE BUT ITS NOT A BAD ONE!!! YES!!! SHE'S GROWING AND LEARNING!!!! - the percy and grover scene is so sweet and kinda sad but sweet and nice and they really know eachother and they have that stupid tiny disagreement but it's resolved so quickly... preserve MY heart bc it's dying with me - THE PRINCESS DIARIES... THEYD DEFINITELY WATCH THOSE FILMS TOGETHER ALL THE TIME - love this fic ive been waitin for it since september or so and AGH,, thank you !!!

oh my god of course thats okay!! this is such an amazing ask im gonna answer it point by point but that'll take a while so it's under the cut!

i put that tag in bc i wanted ppl to know it wasnt all sad!! (also mb bc i cant tell w my own writing after looking at it for so long)

im glad you liked the descriptions, usually they aren't my thing but the passage of time was really important in this one so i wanted it to be apparent!

crushing hug!! my bsf is really good at cracking backs and has several ways to do it through hugs and i thought annabeth would too

im glad you liked that scene. it was inspired by the entire whats going on album and the song dancing with your ghost by sasha sloan and i ended up really liking it too. also it does some pretty heavy lifting by setting the "norm" so you can see how things change, esp vis-a-vis sally, which is signified by grover taking over for annabeth in leading their dance (also your art is so cool if you did that i’d never shut up abt it)

flip phones!! they'll be showing up in my aie fics

im glad you liked the fight and found it in character!!! i felt it was super necessary for the story but also it was so much fun to write!! i love to see them all get angry!!!

packing up your friends' bedroom can be such a personal thing

the fact that grovers lost all his family!!!! and no one ever talks about it!!!!! 😡😫🧍‍♂️

the memory!! also very important to the story but it was also a chance for me to show percy being emotionally intelligent and deeply kind which are things i love him for <3

i think grover deserves to be selfish!!

i love sally jackson so much and while i dont think she's perfect i think she is very deeply good and she cares abt percy and his friends so much!! (also shout out to aftg for making me think abt the significance of keys 24/7)

i love clarisse i love her friendship with percy i love how mean she is and how much she cares ❤️ (also like ik annabeth isn’t a bitch in the books but she is assholeish towards rachel in botl when she’s concerned abt percy and i wanted something similar in this. so the target was drew. along w like,,, everyone else)

i never stop thinking about how percy didnt have any friends until grover and how percy was the first kid that grover treated as an actual friend, not a charge

annabeth is growing and learning!! she has so much growth even between tlo and moa!! the fact that she becomes comfortable saying ily is sooooo important to me and i decided that it was partially bc of grover

i wanted the final scene to wrap up the facets of percy that grover points out through the rest of the story and it was also important to me that we see that things aren't perfect once he gets back and that he and grover have points of contention just like grover had with annabeth. but also they've known each other forever and dont sweat the small stuff. thats real friendship <333

princess diaries!! like i said, i def think there are parallels between percy and mia and whether or not he and his friends realize it at this point i think its one of the reasons he likes watching it

im so glad it was worth the wait!!!

[azlovesem]

Or itll fall on your head. 8ve slways preferred fiction to philosopgy or reality books. Theyre just better and snyone who knows anything kkows that much. Noth g changes when i oresident changes nothing i ever seen. Zero nothi g its hype its nonsense. Zeto chabfes mothing changes fast. Everyone giws sits on thrur habds noth g gets done. Im more concerned anout ky baby ive been in charge in north smerica fir over 1500 years. Ive seen sll the fing bats cone n go. None of those morons are any different than the last one. Watch how nothing changes fast, well theres always back to the bullet jusg missed ttat fool. YeH i dont a fuvk who hot ekectted american fuck yiu people. I said fuck you people trumpZ what you wwnns a war we ll go yo war fuxk evetyobe yiu nb ok e. You jnpe hwho this is bitch i saud fuck uiu we ll have uour fuckn head if you get. Out if lone. I said yheres a good chance we wont fugin survive if uou get yoo fae out of line. Fuxk kid rock that ounk i see you innmichiygan i fuckn kill you. I said fyvk you republicans lets see how longbhe kasts. We ll get hom. I said fyck iid rock efats up budch. Oim gonna fuckn kill tgat lil twar. I said michigsns my state cunt and ur fuxkn dead. I dont think this is gonna go well. Get the Ukranian back kver here. Leta see how long we can nig ve at war. Abd tgat skid rick ickdnsy hom God fuesnt like that kis” d fucj pbp c ill eat hos doul. I said fuck kid rock youre fuckn dead. Het sll our troops be ready to kill. I said fuck iff my stste. Yeah kid rocjs outstayed his welcone. Fyck yiyr guy its war. Waaaaarrrrr, yiu fuck aeound in Ukraine ur dead trump

If you get the inside right, the outside will fall into place. Primary reality is within; secondary reality without.

-Eckhart Tolle

[gayspock]

i did redownload twitter and im not using it i just scroll through the #loveisland hashtag whenever an ep is on for the craic there as im sick in the head andhpnestly this whole new fascination is terribly twisted of me but what can i say. im haunted and possessed but listen babes everyones like "i cannot understand brad" and let me be clear i do not like brad hes a right knob for someone whos, like, comparable to a slightly stale slice of supermarket bread (bestie, he just kinda drones on?) BUT i will insist - and not to be northern here - that his accent is the most familiar he just mumbles i dont care what the girlies say i dont care listening to chuggs&chloe its sick chloe literally has that rah where's my baccy voice like OUTRIGHT babe

[mrsbluebertgreggleson]

Fuck, man, it feels GOOD to be so angry that you snap and start standing up for yourself. Second-guessing yourself and fear of confrontation suuuucks, I wish I had this don't give a shit attitude on 24/7

[thedappleddragon]

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[loveshroom-remaking]

Idk why when I Verbally say I’m trans in a semi vulnerable moment I start shivering/shaking and it isn’t very cash money of me

[prttydolls]

miscommunications ❝ d . m ❞

sypnosis ; you were angry at draco for his assistant flirting with him, but what happens when you actually hurt his feelings?

warning(s) ; miscommunications, jelly!reader, angst

a/n ; thank you c, for the last name idea and noa & ani for motivating me🤍

you wanted to suprise draco because his company got over 5 thousand clients in one year.

you got him a cake, with bold letters stating “ congrats on the 5 thousand clients ! ”

you were skipping happily to dracos office when you suddenly see a scene you did not want to see.

you saw, martha wormwood draco’s newest assistant because his old one got fired for stealing all the company supplies for their own greedy reason.

she was flirting with draco, and he wasn't even bothered to tell her to bugger off or something.

you felt so, angry with him. he didn't even mind the fact she was touching him all over the place! he probably even enjoyed the attention he was getting from the famous martha. you just left the cake on the floor outside his office and stormed out the building.

you needed to cool off.

• a few hours later . . .

you were currently smoking on your front porch, you werent waiting for draco no. draco was far from your concern, he could stay in that stupid office of his and let martha rub herself all over that pathetic twat-

“hey.”

you turned to see it was draco, you rolled your eyes at him and replied ; “oh, i thought you werent coming home.” with obvious sarcasm.

he sat down next to you at the swing, looking confused. “whats that supposed to mean?”

you scoffed at him for being so clueless, “nothing, anyways how was your day?” you quickly changed the topic before he qould realise what he done.

“uhm, well .. its been quite tiring i could need some stress reliever...” he said as he motioned his hand onto your inner thigh, god this man was hot- you almost forgot anout your cold attitude towards him.

“yeah, no.” you quickly moved away, dracos eyes quickly widened, did he just- make you uncomfortable? that was never his intention?

“darling? did i make you uncomfortable? im very sorry i know i shouldn't-” he apologized.

no, you werent uncomfortable you just didn't wanna deal with him after what you saw in his office.

“no, you didn't. shouldn't you have that martha girl to help you relieve your stress?” you spat harshly at the blonde.

“what? what about martha?”

“oh please! dont act dumb, i saw her flirting with you in the office when i came by to drop the cake, but obviously you were too busy with wormwood to even notice your so called ‘love of your life’ passing by!”

draco was shocked at your sudden outburst, you rarely raised your voice around him.

“i- what?, i didn't even notice-”

you let out a cold laugh at his response, “ofcourse you dont notice things , afterall you were draco malfoy. YOU NEVER NOTICE THINGS! ugh, your just like your father! always so careless around womens hearts!” you quickly slapped your mouth with your hand, fuck. you messed up, big time.

“wait no- draco i didn't mean like that-” you explained, draco already looked like he was about to cry.

He never wants to me compared to his father, even it was from his mother, friends etc.

he didn't expect it to be you saying that to him.

“is that what you think of me huh? that im like my father?”

you instantly shook your head as a "no", you felt terrible. draco looked like he was about to cry.

“y/n, i didnt expect this from you.”

.....

no words were exchanged for a minute or two.

“im staying at blaise for the night, im sure you wouldn't want a man whos careless about a womans heart around you.”

• the day after the fight . . .

you felt so disgusted with yourself, you hurt your own husbands feelings.

you were sulking in the manor, alone.

you walked around the halls , until you saw draco in his study sobbing. you didn't wanna disturb him, but your heart broke at the sight.

draco was facing at the side of the couch, him laying down and crying.

“im such a bad husband, maybe y/n is right...im like my..- my father.. god how did i even mess this marriage thing up ...”

you wanted to hug him and console him that no, he didnt mess up you did. you were just so angry at martha , you took it out on draco and you felt shit about it.

but both of you needed to just have space for now. so you just left him sobbing at the couch, as guilt slowly eats you alive.

• 2 days later . . .

guilt, the feeling that you have been experiencing for the past 2 days. you needed to apologize to draco, but it was like he was ignoring you and that drove your mind crazy.

this was the first time, in seven years of dating, and two years of being married that a fight has lasted over TWO whole days .

yes, of course you and draco weren't a perfect couple there was ups and downs, and bumps in your relationship but you both loved each other endlessly.

when you used to fight, you both cant sleep while being mad at eachother.

always resolve conflict before bed.

now, that rule was broken over a silly little argument.

you lit up a cigarette, and sat down at the porch.

suprisingly draco sat down next to you shortly after you sat down. there was an awkward but comforting silence between you two.

“l-look, i-” this was now or never y/n.

“im sorry what i said 2 days ago.. i w-was just so upset at martha- and didnt even give you a chance to explain your side.. im so sorry draco..” you confessed, as your eyes turned glossy.

draco cooed at your teary eyes, and held your cheeks.

“im sorry too, i should've- I should've told martha to fuck off, i am so sorry i should have been really considerate in picking my assistants.”

you giggled at him as you threw your *now unlit* cigarette somewhere on the ashtray .

“we are really stupid over fighting something silly.” you laughed. “yeah, we are. i promise id fire wormwood tommorow alright?”

you nodded at him and kissed him lovingly, you were so lucky to have this man.

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[kippzart]

welp

[fawn-paws]

There’s a post going around here saying that bulldogs aren’t in the meat trade in China because they’re so expensive to breed and they don’t produce enough meat and that it’s racist to say that the dog rescues pulling the dogs are getting them from the Chinese dog meat trade?

I’m sorry but?? It does happen?? There is a dog meat trade in China??? There just is and you can’t just say there’s not? There’s dog meat trades in other countries as well?? Yeah, of course it’s racist to say that ALL Chinese people eat dogs, or even most, it’s racist to make jokes about it, and it’s racist to say that China is the only place where eating or abusing dogs happens.

But that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t happen. There are so many people who rescue dogs there, most of them Chinese people!! They are fighting for animal welfare laws and animal rights in their country and it’s racist and ignorant of you to invalidate their struggle and pretend like it doesn’t happen. You can’t throw Chinese people under the bus for your stupid arguments while they’re out there fighting against VERY REAL things happening in their country. Same with bull fighting! People in Spain and Mexico fight against that shit and trying to act like doing anything other than protecting their tradition is racist is just idiotic. And denying it even exists? Delusional.

Yes bulldogs are expensive and they are hard to breed. Yes there are bulldogs on the meat trade. In fact, a LOT of dogs in the meat trade are bullies and pitties or mixes. A lot of them are mutts. A lot of them are designer dogs. There are so many rescue organizations dedicated to just rescuing bullies, or pitties, or chow chows, or what have you. Almost all of these dogs were taken from their families, which is not only devastating in itself, but they can’t do much about it because there are no laws protecting animals. Animals get beaten, poisoned, skinned alive, burned, and killed in the streets and no one can do anything about it, in fact police officers will either participate in this or protect the people doing it from people who try to stop them. Am I saying it happens often? Or only in China? Or EVERYWHERE in China? No. I’m not saying people run rampant in the streets kicking puppies. I’m not saying all people in China do this. It just does happen, and pretending it doesn’t isn’t going to solve anything.

You can pull out the facts and the statistics on how hard it is to breed a dog, etc. and how expensive it is to breed or take care of them (proving you most likely support the breeding industry and therefore supporting the euthanasia of billions of innocent and healthy/treatable animals every year), but the fact of the matter is, it still happens, despite all your numbers and shit. They can and will steal expensive dogs that people purchased for hundreds of dollars from breeders, I don’t care if the numbers of dogs in their possession is too staggering for you to believe. That’s just how it is. They have have cages and kennels packed to the brim with dogs waiting to be killed and skinned, warehouses full of dead or dying dogs, rotting away. It doesn’t matter to them. It doesn’t matter how much meat a certain dog produces. It still sells. People still eat it. Doesn’t stop people from eating squirrels or frogs or any other animal out there that hasn’t yet been genetically modified to produce more meat than it should. If it wasn’t happening, there wouldn’t be so many dogs in their possession?? Lol?? You’re trying to act like all the research and work done by rescue organizations and people trying to fight against this trade in their own country just doesn’t matter, doesn’t exist, or is incorrect? All the photo and video evidence, again, recorded by Chinese people, doesn’t exist or is fake?? I don’t understand. What are you trying to prove here. What are you trying to achieve?? You want people to stop rescuing animals? Stop donating to rescues? Why does it matter? Why do you even care? You’re just ignorant and fucking delusional and want to use Chinese people for your own gain, and that’s what’s fucking racist.

[leyyvi]

LEY HONEY!!! I’ve been putting off sending something for some hours now cause every time I think of something, I see someone else asked it or mentioned it and my questions are answered aisknfjd BUT NEVERTHELESS I HAVE SOME THINGS I WANNA SAY

1. I wanna thank you for making this sugar daddy Levi as he now just haunts my mind 24/7 alongside Liv’s percolate Levi and have combined together when I think about my fwb who reminds me so much of Levi to begin with?? like this is all my stupid little mind can think about and both of you spoon feed it repeatedly and it doesn’t help that this little fwb of mine decided he wanted to give a relationship a try because it’s me ?? LIKE SOME OF THE THINGS HE SAYS I SAEAR IVE READ THEM IN BOTH OF YALLS FICS AND I CANT HELP BIT THINK “does he read them too? or does he listen to me so well when I talk to him about these fics because he actually cares??” OTS UNHEALTHY HOW MY THOUGHTS ARE JUMBLED UP AT THE MOMENT BECAUSE OF THIS (sorry for this little rant, I had to get it out)

2. Now for the good part, HOLY SHIT LEy the TALKING OF THE TOYS ??? If you do one of those where he has full control of it and they’re somewhere like say the event that he was going to ask her to join him to (was it a ball of sorts?? I already forgot!!) but I’m just thinking of them doing this there and him watching her lose her mind while she’s trying to manage a conversation with maybe Erwin or even Hange or just anyone!! and he’s watching from afar until she just excuses herself and he follows in pursuit and when he catches up to her tells her something like, “who said you could just leave when I’m having fun?” (IDK MY MIND ISNT GREAT AT THINKINN OF LEVI THIS WAY BUT I CANT STOP THEM)

3. If it is someone else who said hello upon answering the phone call, i won’t hate you and I’m sure none of us will (it’s your story, you do with what you will!!) BUT OMG THE AGONY ILNGOING TO FEEL !!! unless it is Levi and he said it in a question because they haven’t talked in like a week and she’s suddenly calling so he’s confused and worried ??! (I know my comment on ao3 showed a different perspective on this but I’ve had time to think okay??!) if I knew how to hack your computer, I would just so I could see what you have planned out next for these idiots!! I JUST NEED LEVI TO GET HIS SHIT TOGETHER AND KISS HER OR FOR HER TO JUST SUDDENLY KISS HIM AND WHEN SHES ANOUT TO LULL AWAH FOR JIM TO GRAB HER AND KEEP IT GOING !!!!

4. I forgot what else I wanted to say/had in mind so uh, I’ll leave it here and just tell you to have a good day!! You deserve it!! Take your time with the next chapter/s, we’ll all be patiently waiting for whatever you’ve got up your sleeve!! 🤧💕 I just hope my heart won’t be broken 🥲💔

ALEXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX GODDD YOUR THOUGHTS i LIVE FOR YOUR THOUGHTS PLEASE.

god okay let me just say Liv's percolate Levi...i am both intimidated but also in love with him. i am so fucking in love with her depiction of him bc it's very similar to how i view him actually shhh don't tell her. or do idk djkfhsdk

also her moodboard for him i have not forgotten and fdhfjkhs i lowkey had some of the same pics for reference in my pinterest for paychecks levi uwu

YOUR FWB WTF omg I'm?! VERY HAPPY FOR YOU WHATG THE HELL IF HE'S TAKING NOTES IM-GIIIIRL he better treat you right <3 you deserve it <3333 PLEASE IM LIVING FOR THIS I truly love that for you :')))

oh my god i--i have IDEAS. WAY TOO MANY FUCKING IDEAS and it's gonna be so hard to weed them out. i honestly might have to just make oneshots after paychecks ends because of the possibilities jfkhsdfjkh "who said you could leave" GOD PLEASE you're only feeding more into my ideas holy shit.

I CAN'T WITH THE PHONE THING LMAOOO i really don't know how to respond to it when you guys bring it up but i will just casually slip in the reminder that there is a light angst tag on this story (tho idk how accurate it is anymore) and a happy ending tag so :) take that as you will <3

and not to sound ominous but next chapter is another one i've been looking forward to working on so much, it's probably one of the more cathartic ones that i've written so far. <333 i love the change in your perspective though!!! it's so interesting to see how just a little bit of time can shift things sdfjhksdkj

BESTIE if you SAW the draft it's a complete MESS BUT bc i love you im going to offer the smallest of crumbs and to any1 who bothered to click the readmore HAHA (ill put it at the end in case you don't wanna read it)

bb as always thank you for reading and offering me such wonderful input and your thoughts, truly live for them bc the same way HAHA GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR MANS BTW OMG dsjhkf ROUTING FOR YOU<3

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[kaori-flowers]

I kinda rushed the ending bc im tired but here's another one! Enjoy :)

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Technoblade was up in the night doing his usual research but a light caught his eye. He gently set his books down and looked out his window on the right side of his house. He could see Ranboo's house was well lit and smoke was coming out of the chimney. Techno watched the house quietly, unsure of what Ranboo was actually doing.

While Technoblade was watching Ranboo's house, Ranboo was working in his basement. He carved out a small edward figurine, and a small Carl figurine. Ranboo was using Dark oak wood for edward, and Spruce wood for Carl. He hummed quietly as he whittled the wood down to make it take shape. Despite being very tired he continued working, being very grateful that Techno was letting him live so close. Ranboo was greatly appreciative of Techno, and even though he had to pay rent in gifts he was still happy.

"Hmph."

Technoblade turned away from the window and went back to reading, since he couldn't see movement in the house. The curiosity of what Ranboo was doing was still in the back of his mind though. It made it hard for him to focus on any work and so he got annoyed and slammed his book shut. Technoblade put the book on the shelf before sliding down the later into his room. He sighed heavily and flopped down in his bed, pulling the pillow over his head and growling.

Techno was severely annoyed at the curiosity that Ranboo caused, because he figured he shouldn't be curious. Techno didn't really want anything to do with Ranboo, because he was afraid. He was worried really. Techno didn't want to get attached to Ranboo, because everyone he's gotten attached to has either left him or died. Except for fucking Phil. So Techno doesn't want to risk the loss of another person that he has grown fond of seeing all the time.

"Phil...."

Ranboo couldn't decide if he should whittle a small figurine as well. Ranboo knew how well Techno and Phil was conncected but he didn't want to go overboard with gifts. As much as Ranboo appreciated Techno, he didn't want to seem like he was trying too hard. Ranboo didn't want to push Techno with all the things he's giving him and annoy him. So he had to be cautious with what to make for him and when to give it to him.

"Ugh."

Ranboo stood up from the small chair and cracked his fingers, then his back. He walked up his stairs to the main part of his house and looked out the window. Technoblade's house was completely dark and there was no movement inside. Ranboo figured he went to bed, and checked the clock on his wall. He sighed and cracked his fingers again before walking back downstairs to his basement.

Ranboo gently took care of his carving tools and swept all the little pieces up with his broom. He dumped them in his recycling bin before gently grabbing the little figurines. Ranboo walked back up stairs with them in hand, and sat down at the table. He got a pen and paper, scribbling down a small note neatly. Then he set the figurines in a basket and taped the note to the handle. Ranboo also put 4 potatoes and a 2 brown mushrooms in the basket. He got up from the table, and began getting dressed quickly. It didn't take long and as soon as he eas fully dressed he was headed out his front door.

"Get up, you got a present!"

Technoblade was woken up abruptly by a very loud Phil, and slight shaking. He groaned and sat up in his bed, rubbing his eyes softly and trying to focus on what was happening. Phil gave him his glasses and held the basket he found on the porch patiently. Techno put his glasses on and blinked a few times, finally focusing in and waking up more. Phil set the basket on Techno's lap and read the note out loud for him.

"Techno. Thank you for letting me live so close to you. I hope you enjoy this as I hand made them just for you. I will be out of the house collecting things for a while so if you need me come find me. From Ranboo."

Technoblade didn't need time to process what he heard because it hit him hard. Especially the part about hand making something just for him. Techno still slightly dazed opened the basket gently and looked inside. The figurines were the things that stood out to him right away, and he waisted no time in grabbing them. Techno made sure to be gently with them as he looked them over slowly, and Phil watched silently. It took a second for Techno to realize that they were little carved figurines of Edward and Carl. Once he figured it out though he woke up fully and looked them over more quickly. Techno was surprised at all the detail in such little figurines, and how soft they were was astonishing. No one had actually ever MADE him something before so he was flabbergasted.

"He's real sweet huh?"

Technoblade looked up at Phil quickly, and then looked back to the figurines. He got up quickly and began putting his shoes on in a rush. Phil watched him as he rushed to get around and get dressed. After Techno assumed he was fully dressed and ready to leave Phil grabbed his arm, yanking him to a stop. Techno looked at him unsure what else he was forgetting. Right now all he wanted to do was find Ranboo and thank him.

"Eat. And coat."

Technoblade grabbed the basket and pulled a potato out of it, quickly scarfing it down in front of Phil. Phil rolled his eyes but let go of Techno because he technically ate. Techno then grabbed his coat and put it on quickly, before rushing out to his little barn. He untied Carl and hopped on him riding him out into the snow quickly. Phil rolled his eyes again and began cleaning up Techno's scattered and messy house.

"God damn it...."

Techno growled to himself as he qucikly got his emotions under control and stopped Carl from running any further. He clenched his jaw and looked down at his lap, closing his eyes for now. Carl stood patiently, feeling the difference in his emotions and voice. Techno was severly upset with himself. Technoblade didn't want to get close to Ranboo, because if he did then he would lose him. He always loses others. They die or they leave him and he didn't want Ranboo to die. He especially didn't want Ranboo to leave him. But....

Ranboo would never leave him, not now and not ever. Ranboo was insanely grateful for how well Techno was treating him. Ranboo felt like he wasn't walking on eggshells anymore, and he felt safe here. Ranboo felt safe living close to Technoblade in this snow bionome. Which was different than what he felt when living in L'manburg, and he liked this new feeling. He liked feeling safe. There was no way he would ever give that feelimg up. Not now. Not even.

"Are you alright?"

Techno's chest tightened as he heard Ranboo's voice, and he didn't move from his position. Techno didn't want anyone to see him like this, especially not Ranboo. It was Ranboo's fault! Techno was all upset and struggling because of this awkward enderman asshole! He annoyed Techno for that reason, and yet there were 1000 other reasons why Ranboo was so good. Techno's heart was set on getting attached to Ranboo no matter how afraid he was. It was inevitable. This tall lanky enderman boy was winning Techno's heart over just by being his nervous introverted self.

"Techno?"

Technoblade finally looked up from his lap and opened his eyes, finally getting his emotions under control. He cleared his throat a few times before holding his hand out to Ranboo, indicating he would give him a ride back. Ranboo hesitated a little but grabbed his hand and climbed up on Carl, behind Techno. Ranboo gently held the side of the saddle and Techno turned back to the house, both silent now. Techno's ears kept folding back slightly as he fought with himself mentally to say somethimg anout the figurines. Finally he decide and cleared his throat once.

"The gift is very well appreciated."

Techno cringed mentally as he heard himself speak. That sentence was absolute shit but it was the best he could do. Ranboo smiles gently and enjoys the attempted praise from Techno. It wasn't exactly an amazing one but it was Techno, so what do you expect.

"You're welcome."

"Yeah. I'll make sure they're taken care of it."

Techno grumbled and went silent after that, and Ranboo decided not to disturb his peace. Technoblade thought of the figurines that were in pocket and his ears folded back slightly. He wanted to put them up so they would never get hurt or lost but.... Techno wanted to keep them with him. For good luck. And maybe a memory of Ranboo. So just incase Ranboo did go away....

He would have this left of him.!

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Catholicism is an ADVANCED behavioral control system my man. You have no idea how many pores and cracks that ideology is capable of seeping into unless you’re really a part of the culture. I literally stopped going to CCD when I was 9 years old and I still sign the cross and pray every time I make a joke about religion. You wanna gossip? You wanna fuck around on lent? Get ready for body-shaking shame and guilt motherfucker. You Will Believe That It Is Your Fault For Not Being Good Enough When Bad Things Happen To Your Loved Ones and that’s just a part of the damn deal baby!!!! That shit INTERNALIZES.

before i had gotten close with ex-catholics i was under the assumption that "catholic guilt" was mostly about sex, or serious topics.

but i was naïve. it's apparently about every positive experience. enjoying a meal? you're so lucky, children are starving. spending your day off cosy in bed? wow, so selfish, homeless people are freezing to death.

every former or present catholic i've met has a very obvious anxiety disorder and it's so painfully not a coincidence.