#GOD THEY DRIVE ME INSANE AAAAAA

[finalpam8000]

So uh, I finally listened to Scherzo myself and uh,,, I was wrong… they were a lot more than friends… they were best friends.

8 and Charley stans be like: “What’s a little body horror between friends?!” 🤝

[spokelseskladden]

Im so mentally ill right now pls hand me my vitamin d pills i need to be fixed, i haven't felt sunlight upon my skin for a week and it's raining over the snow so it's all sloppy and slippery and dark out so i can't go anywhere without getting my feet soaked and my inlaws are asking me what i want for christmas like specifically which means i have to share my interests but i don't want to be perceived right now because I'm feeling the winter paranoia/madness and also i had to take the trashcan out yesterday and faceplanted in the snow and my glasses are all scratched up so i think im going to need new ones and if i want to go ANYWHERE i need to defrost my fucking car on the daily and i hate it. I hate winter i HATE IT. And i have an exam on friday as well as work and a christmas party to attend. I need to move to the forest and become one with nature, just leave society behind and live like Isak in Growth of the soil even though i fucking hate Knut Hansun, that nazi bitch.

[johnslittlespoon]

hi sorry i can't stop thinking about your leaving!bikeriders au aaaaaa

big tough intimidating gale and his sweet little puppy boyfriend is just *chefs kiss*

but also just the potential for the future of these two is driving me crazy

john's always been a little smaller than gale, or just the fact that he's so pretty thin and lanky makes him seem smaller in comparison

but the years go by and suddenly he's got a couple inches on gale and he's beefy as all hell

gales loves it

gale gushing to his biker buddies about his baby bucky and then this brick wall of a man walks up and theyre all like holy shit

and bucky never loses his puppy tendancies, he just kinda becomes like a big dog that doesn't know his size, draping himself all over gale and almost crushing him in the process

and also gale with a little white in his beard im going insane

au post | STOP IT THIS MADE ME SO <33 i loooove this (also it won't let me add a 'read more' without messing up the images so forgive this wall of text lol)

just the thought of them growing so close and their lives intertwining over the years, sorting through their issues, getting over every hurdle and going through so much together. gale in a suit bringing flowers to john's college graduation, john getting a part time job despite gale's protests because he wants to help out but also so they can take a celebratory vacation together when he finishes his exams :((

they meet when john looks like this sweet little thing in his second year of college, early 20s, shy and still growing into gangly limbs:

and then suddenly a couple years have passed and he's graduating and he looks like this twunky frat boy (gale realizes somewhere in the first few months of living together that john's vision is absolute dogshit and john's just been writing it off as a lack of focus lmfao so he forces him to an eye doctor):

and part of gale feels a little bit sad when john doesn't have to tilt his chin up to kiss him properly anymore because yk it's like watching a puppy grow up lol but mostly he's just. insane. about his boy. he's in love with his brain, and getting to see him grow confidence and become at peace with himself over the years only makes him more infatuated (and he'll be damned if he doesn't go a little crazy at the feeling of muscular thighs beneath his hands when he's got john pinned down) <3

gale's friends going a good chunk of time without seeing john during his last year of college because john's so busy juggling part time and cramming for his final exams, and when he finally does show up at the pub or biker club or whatever just before summer, there's jokes about "what the hell have you been feeding him, buck?" because that is not the lanky awkward pretty boy that had been hanging off of gale's arm the summer before. although john's absolutely still the same personality–wise, still crawling into gale's lap whenever he can, making gale carry him to bed, loving to sit on the floor by the couch between gale's legs so gale has to lean down to kiss him. :')

maybe john gets an internship after graduating and ends up working part time at the mechanic shop instead of his old part time since gale can give him whatever hours he needs to balance the internship and income (i'm pretty sure that's what i'll have gale's job be, running a car and bike shop, because yk it just checks out). john does a lot of heavy lifting and physical activity working there and bulks tf up and it makes him feel so much more confident in himself and gale would lose his mind at the way john's work shirts stretch across his broad shoulders hsdgdskhj !?!

and oh my god yes salt and pepper beard gale. john would go fucking feral over him, catching himself staring all the time, as if he doesn't already do that enough. they both become more and more attracted to each other as time goes on, like they keep waiting for the 'honeymoon' phase to end but it just doesn't, even through whatever conflicts and fights they go through, even once they fall into routine and domesticity– they're just as crazy about each other sigh.

thx. these two are gonna live rent free in my head forever. i love them so much and i haven't even written them yet fml. ALSO THANK U FOR UR OTHER ASK WITH ALL THE BIKER INFO!!! i will absolutely msg u if i have questions ur a life saverrrr omg. i screenshot and saved that ask to my drafting doc bc god knows i'm gonna need it SJKDJG ur awesome <33

[julietasgf]

fandom appreciation

Just wanted to say that I love your takes on the Plinths! I love how you and others point out the immigrant-codedness of the Plinths! Genuinely, I've always thought that, and I was a bit confused seeing a few posts implying other people don't think that? Anyway, while we don't interact much, I still love seeing you on my dash!

I mentioned this in an ask to Ika, so you've probably seen it, but waterloo was one of the first fics I read for the fandom that I really liked! It took me a while I think to connect your tumblr to the fic, but I was like omg! when I realized! A celebrity to me.

abyssal!!! oh my god first thank you so much for sending this, I'm SO glad you enjoy my takes on the plinths, it's an honor 🥹 (specially regarding the plinths being immigrant coded, I got so much to say, it drives me insane!) and AAAAAA I remembered you once mentioned that you have read my strabo's fic, and I was already so so glad, and I'm even MORE glad to know that waterloo was one of your first fics of this fandom, I have no words for how much this means to me 😭

I also adore seeing you in the dashboard, abyssal! take care <3

[dangermousie]

W ep 9

You know, I am 9 eps into my rewatch and it's insane how there's still been not one weak moment for me in the story - narrative wise, acting wise, relationships wise, pace wise.

I love that YJ is given time to grieve; and the way she still keeps being dragged in for a few moments now and then because on a subconscious level KC thinks of her somehow. The scene where he has no idea who she is but picks up her ring and is so genuinely decent (but he always is) - aaaaa!

My heart!!!!

Honestly, I love that they show her grieving and grieving...she never can see him as not real or a pattern.

Dad's idea to finish the comic with KC catching the culprit to save everything so it ends and KC doesn't have time to develop sufficient awareness and the story to derail - and the fact that it's KC who sent him that idea and to protect YJ aaaaaa back before he had her reset everything - and telling him to do it with someone he believes and so Dad giving the culprit his own face - it's not a bad idea. But between plot holes even with that (the ending he came up with is much too pat) and the fact that the narrative by now developed its own drive and can be diverted only temporarily, and that KC's nemesis takes a life of its own - yeah. I did love this scene though because I love that the drama is so very consistent that under his sunny demeanor, KC is vvvvv fucked up.

But of course, the story derails. This is such a moment of pure horror!

I like @myechoecho theory that the dad lost his face because he tried to have the same face in RL and give it to the murderer in comic and you can't be in two places at once. But also that "murderer" entity was honestly going to possess whoever Dad made because it's so strong and driven now by its purpose - it's just since Dad was real, he took his face (and as @myechoecho said, dad lost in the "only one can have this face at a time, who will win" contest.) Like KC earlier, it acquired sentience and awareness but unlike KC who spent all that will and knowledge trying to escape the constraints of the narrative, the murderer is using all that will and knowledge to fulfill his narrative goal.

God, this scene, still shiver-inducing!

I love YJ being dragged in; and I genuinely don't think it was KC this time, he doesn't remember their relationship at all, it's the narrative drive. By now the story has taken over the driver's seat and it will tell what it will want to tell - it wants a psychotic murderer face off with KC (and the one dad created was too pathetic, so it made one who is a worthy foe) - it wants KC to have a star-crossed love story with a woman who it's impossible to be with and who he will want to protect no matter what and YJ fits that more since KC clearly never felt love for So Hui - so YJ gets dragged in. Narrative is the boss now and it's not human in any way, not even like dad who wants control and feels resentment. You can negotiate with a human. You cannot negotiate with narrative.

He wants her help treating the victims of the shooting but honestly, once again, I am struck by how decent a person he is.

He remembers her from the ring drop but the little beat before she realizes this is what he means by saying he remembers her and not their past - her face kills me. But then!!!

Oh girl, this is gonna get BAD!

[ssa-dado]

Writing a bit with P***r and it’s driving me insane - AAAAAA I CAN'T STAND HIM! I HATE HIM SO MUCH! It’s making me want to punch straight through the brick-cement wall of my room 👹👹👹👹

The way Aaron would kill him with his bare hands if he ever found out what he's telling Y/N through the phone. My god.

C.19 core

[kamiversee]

okay, i breathed.

holy shit kami.

first of all, “a tinge of angst” is a MAJOR understatement. my heart was pounding, my head was reeling, and my knuckles were turning white from gripping my phone. YOU KILL ME, KAMI.

i always understood the Gojo delulu, but holy shit. i’m sure this isn’t the last time we’ll run into him, but the way that last kiss felt so permanent made my heart shatter. THIS MOTHERFUCKER SAID HE’D THINK ABOUT KIDNAPPING THE READER and you have the audacity to write him so well that i was okay with it for a brief moment so long as it meant that we’d still have him around ��😭

that Sukuna passage was ominous from beginning to end 🥹 something is coming and i know i’m not ready for it. just talking to him gave me major anxiety again. it was like a reminder that while the list is over, the consequences of that list are still revealing itself. i’m overanalyzing that whole passage to see what it could be foreshadowing to. i have a few ideas, but every one of them is making me go crazy. oh my fucking god. while the Sukuna scenes have been so great, considering his relation to Choso i’m slightly going insane from the possibility (guarantee?) that Choso will find out about this. UGHHHHHHH

speaking of Choso… that motherfucker. Kami i don’t know if i mentioned it before, but i wasn’t a Choso girly before your fic came along. i never even watched JJK. to me, this is my JJK LMAO. but the amount of parallels from what the reader is currently experiencing with Choso with what Choso is now making the reader go through is karma not giving our girl a break 😭😭 if this ends up with Choso pulling a “there’s someone else” i think i’m going to bite off a piece of drywall 😭😭😭😭😭 CHOSO I’M ROOTING FOR YOU!! WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU!!!!

also you’re revealing red flags in me that i never realized before bc why was i jealous over Choso’s interaction with Yuki 🥲 it makes no sense bc like… Yuki is so fine. i’d usually be like “FORGET CHOSO, I WANT HER” (i’m still kinda like that hehe) but the fact that they’re hanging out makes me civisjndjdjcjdnfbdbvbennfjenf AAAAAA. like yeah, he has a point when he mentions how he’s not tied down in a relationship, but holy shit. Choso feels like the reader’s karma that she lowkey doesn’t deserve since the situation has been out of her hands from the beginning 😭 KAMIIIIIIIIII

the cliffhanger. i’m about to rip out my hair. KAMI PLEEEAAAAASE WHO?????? A CRUMB OF A HINT. JUST A CRUMB. THAT WAY I CAN AT LEAST HAVE AN IDEA OF WHO I’M GOING TO GO IN A SPIRAL OVER FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF DAYS. the fucking possibilities 😭😭 the thing that would kill me considering the mention of the nightclub proximity my brain was immediately like “oh god, Nanami???” but i was also like “hold on… Naoya…” but then i remembered that the reader met Naoya at a bar and not a nightclub (and he doesn’t seem like the type to be at a café 😭). KAMI YOU’RE DRIVING ME INSANE AND YOU HAVE ME JUMPIN TO ALL SORTS OF THEORIES AAAAAAAAA

- ☃️

Gotta be one of my fav anons fr, I seriously love these long rants sm😩😩

ALRIGHT LETS UNPACK

Hi my name is Kami & welcome to my podcast😉

Lol jkjk, honestly I didnt think the angst was tht bad?😭 There were no tearssss but I SUPPOSE I’ll change the warning😔

Guys Sukuna’s just a silly lil guy, I gotta include everyone again SOMEHOW before the story ends y’know😹

As for the Choso & Yuki situation…

ANYWAYS !!

Guys I promise the person tht she sees isn’t tht bad💀 well, it can be but uhhhhhh yeah lemme shut ip before I spoil everything😭

Like ik the cliffhanger is spooky bc like… it’s me writing it BUT BUT it’s nothing y’all needa worry abt fr

TRUST ME !! Do NOT trust me

[crabknight]

AH SHIT I DIDNT MEAN TO SEND THAT RIGHT AWAY!!! What i was going to say was "Huh no cutscene this time! Straight into it!"

GOD, MILA IN HEAVEN

WOAH FRIENDSHIP

Huh??? Their suppourt didnt increase?!?!?!

GOOD GOD THE LEVIN SWORD IS BROKEN ON ALM!!! WHY DOES HE GET +13 MIGHT AAAAAA

a bad level up, balanced out by some good stuff. This game drives me insane.

Aaaaand map done! Good job everybody!

You look a lot younger than you probably are.

Smells like Green Caviler. Now where's your buddy?

Alm, Two Apples tall:

They look like two sides of the same coin on this screen. like wow. If you told me these would be our Christmas Cavs, i would Believe you.

Bestie. Have you seen faye? she has a whole ass pegasus.

What the hell happened to "Status doesnt matter?" I wanna shave this man.

AUGH I LOVE HIM!!!!

YOU TELL HIM!

Nevermind shave; I wanna wax this mans legs. I want him to feel pain.

HE SAYS WHAT WE'RE ALL THINKING!

+ Vinny Approves

Do you wanna elaborate or keep it a secret/j

Anyways, I'm prolly gonna Pause here, I wanna do other stuff today, but ALM SHALL BE BACK!

Yeah the levin sword is very overpowered on any sword wielding character for when you get it 13 might, magic damage in the game with no res AND 1-2 range, yeah, this sword is very good

Angery boy...

Also yeah fernand is kind of an asshole, but he's my asshole

[milkbreadtoast]

twsb ch 59 spoilers ///

WRONG ANSWER JESSE....

THIS IS DRIVING ME FUCKING CRAZYYY IM GOING INSANE... ARGH... AUGHHH!!!!!

okay so cedric... i think this def means he wants jesse as his religious partner/"soulmate"... MFJSKFJ THEN JUST TALK TO HIM AAAAAA this is making me feel insane. to cedric jesse rly seems like an angel and like he sees straight thru cedric and understands him like no other... but he has no idea how far off on a different page jesse is ckdbfndb... he felt understood by jesse and touched by his selfless kindness so he prob just assumed jesse actually does understand him... BC BDNBF BABY U NEED TO COMMUNICATE W HIM PLEASE😭😭😭 pls take the cardinal's advice... "it's not easy to earn trust. work harder at it" BUT I LIKE THAT THIS IMPLIES THAT THE EMPRESS/CARDINAL DONT WANT HIM TO GIVE UP... and i think our prince cedric will def not give up even if he was hurt and disappointed by jesse's answer... i mean... "I wont let you go" KFJSJDJJ...

...also yeah, i agree w this comment 100%...

we know that cedric has a pure heart under everything but god he's emotionally constipated af... he rly needs to communicate and talk w jesse and ACTUALLY gain his trust... just bc U trust jesse and think youve found ur soulmate doesnt mean he trusts u and even knows that u think so highly of him... in fact he still thinks u HATE him bc u never communicate anything to him skfjskdjsk... it seems like everyone else knows including his best friend and (maybe)cristelle tho😭😭... Jesse's answer of "i don't know" hurts bc even tho he just said it bc he thought it was what the situation called for, it really is true... he doesn't know anything about Cedric... and Cedric doesn't know anything about jesse either... They have sooo long to go TT but the fact that it's basically confirmed atp that cedric wants jesse as his partner makes me 🤭🤭

[lycanstonebutch]

44?

44. Do you like lingerie?

Oh my god yes i love lingerie, not really on me but on my partners it drives me insane, im very into clothed/half clothed sex n stuff and lingerie is jsut perfect and i love the way it makes my partners feel good and cute and its just aaaaaa

Thanks for asking!!!!! 🐺💕

[samioli]

god bless you for the caught jacking off fics you’ve written. i always come back to them they are so fucking good. also “where there’s a flame” that one is such a treasure, so excited for when you finish it <3 <3 <3

AAAAAA thank you so much!!! I really appreciate it <3 these men drive me insane

Also. A hint of sorts for the next chap of Flame:

[incorrectquotesconaisseur]

SO GUYSSSS I JUST FINISHED READING RULE OF WOLVES AND WHAT THE HELL???? I am a MESS

(so here are my thoughts that I had while reading it)

❗❗RULE OF WOLVES SPOILERS❗❗

• Lol Nikolai has a horse named Punchline, I love him so much

• Sankta Zoya Y E S

• Nina is sooo badass I love her - Brum needs to die btw

• Fjerda is a little shit

• "If not for Nina, their blessed termite eating at the heart of Fjerda’s government" - did I mention I love Nina?????

• Nikolai is a freaking mastermind and I love him

• OMG THEY HAVE AN ANTIDOTE FOR PAREM NOW???? HELL YEAH take THAT Fjerda!!!!

• Nina adopting Kaz's mindset when back at the Ice Court is what I live for

• UGH THE APPARAT

• Nikolai is soooo in love with Zoya I AM GOING CRAZY

• Zoya's "you forget that in Kerch greed is a virtue" gave me MAJOR Kaz vibes... I miss my crow babies

• Maybe it's an unpopular opinion, but I don't really like Ehri

• ZOYALAI NATION, HOW ARE WE??? ARE WE CRYING?

• I just REALLY love the found family trope and seeing everyone gathered in Zoya's rooms and Zoya curled up on the couch next to Genya I just AAAAAAAAA

• I absolutely adore the whole concept of the Darkling's prison and the CONSTANT sunlight he has to face HA - Alina vibes

• OMG "bring me Alina Starkov" WHAT THE FUCK I have literal chills ESPECIALLY after seeing the S&B trailer:)

• Nina being so confident in everything she learned from the Crows gives me so much serotonin I WANT MY BABIESSS

• Oh my god... I like prince Rasmus, he gives me major Nikolai vibes

• I draw immense satisfaction from Kaz and Zoya using "podge" as their preferred curse word :))))

• NIKOLAI CAN SEPARATE HIMSELF FROM HIS DEMON???? King behavior

• HOLY SHIT ALINA AGREED TO THE MEETING here we go again, fam

• I'm seeing Nikolai talking a lot about accepting his death and being undisturbed by the prospect of it and it feeaks me out - if he dies, I die with him

• Random, but: they need to get the thorn stuff from the Order of Sankt Feliks or whatever, right??? Maybe they have to steal it... and they would require expertise... MAYBE SOME CROWS PLS???????? (I am such a clown)

• Okay wait... so the letters that prove Nikolai is a bastard are in the druskelle sector... PLEASE TELL ME NINA HAS TO BREAK IN THE ICE COURT the fact that she is back there ALONE makes my heart clench so hard... I MISS MY CROWS

• FUCK ALINA SHOWED UP (also Oncat apparently and now I want to cry about Harshaw again)... AND MAL I can't take this I AM HYPERVENTILATING

• I AM LEGIT ON THE FLOOR Yuri is still there FINALLY understanding that the Darkling is evil AND NOW MY MAIN MAN GOT HIS POWERS BACK oh, I love the chaos

• NIKOLAI FUCKING CARRIES ZOYA'S RIBBON IN HIS POCKET nobody fucking touch me

• THE WEDDING IS FOR GENYA AND DAVID????? I AM SOOO CONFUSED what the heck

• Nikoali is the most fucking badass amazing cunning freakishly intelligent idiot I have ever seen in my entire life, my love for him is immesurable, I cannot put into words just how awesome his awesomeness is TAKE THAT MAKHI YOU BITCH

• OH HELL NO the demon is trying to escape SMACK THAT BITCH NIKOLAI BABY

• Oh wow, Rasmus is crazyyyy af he isn't anything like Nikolai my perfect boi SORRY

• OMG Nikolai's dad us a good guy??? I feel so sorry for him... SO NIKOLAI WAS RIGHT TO BE A ROMANTIC huh

• FUCKING HELL again with the nichevo’ya???? Darkling bby, what the HECK

• Nononononooo NO NOOOO NOT DAVID WHAT THE FUCK LEIGH

• "This is what love does" one of the most powerful quotes tbh

• Wait... they want to???? STEAL??? titanium from the Kerch??? .... DOES THIS MEAN.... C R O W S?????

• Okay but... the Darkling's POV? POWER MOVE I love it!!! And the fact that he uses Aleksander as his name with zero reticence now is just *chef's kiss*

• I'm sorry but... I don't like Mayu's chapters I AM SO SORRY I DON'T

• Nina is my badass queen STEP ASIDE PEASANTS

• All these SoC Easter Eggs and mentions are driving me insane

• Idk why but imagining the Darkling drinking beer is sooo funny to me

• I AM LOSING MY SHIT they are in Ketterdam KETTERDAM does that mean ....DOES THAT MEAN ....I better see my Crows or I am throwing hands

• The Zoyalai conversations in this book are KILLING me

• OH MY FUCKING GOD so Kaz took the Emerald Palace over and renamed it THE SILVER SIX???? LIKE???? I AM LEGIT CRYING???

• Ummm...Zoya, honey, WHY do you want to VOLUNTARILY stay away from Nikolai, HUH?????

• THE ONLY REASON HE AGREED TO HELP NIKOLAI WAS BECAUSE HE GUARANTEES INEJ'S PROTECTION if that's not L O V E idk what is YAAASSS KANEJ

• FUCKING SHIT JESPER!!!! IT'S JESPER!!!! WYLAN!!!! I AM FAINTING MY BABIESS

• The Crows' banter is WHAT I LIVE FOR

• Kaz is the most cold, badass and calculating motherfucker on the planet, I love him soooo much

• No NO NOO JORAN IS THE ONE WHO KILLED MATTHIAS????? HOLY SHIT I am sooo scared LEIGH WHYYYY

• Kaz's reaction to Nikolai's demon is legit the funniest shit ever

• Kaz and Nikolai are bffs - THIS IS HEADCANON LEAVE ME BE

• Queen Leyti has severely disappointed me

• I am having waayyyyy too much fun reading about the Darkling among blindly faithful monks - this is the stuff of sitcoms

• (I know the Crows only had a cameo and they won't pop up again, but I can't help desperation wanting to see Nina reunite with them and PLEASE GIVE ME INEJ!!!)

• Honestly, it's pretty cool getting to have a look in the Darkling's head - it's SUPER fucked up

• OOOOO the blight vs the Darkling = the only confrontation I want to see

• FATHER AND SON REUNION

• I don't care much for Hanne x Nina, but I have to admit that they make a very cute couple

• FUCK THEY BROKE STURMHOND'S BLOCADE FUUUUCK

• WAIT NO it was their plan all along HOLY SHIT electricity RULEZZZZ who knew physics would prove THIS useful???

• UUUGHH FUCK THE APPARAT I am so sick of this guy - Zoya was right, they should have killed him

• I am really pissed at the Darkling- YOU FUCKING ACKNOWLEDGE HOW MUCH RAVKA NEEDS YOUR HELP, YOU SEE NIKOLAI'S BRAVERY, YOU KNOW YOU CAM HELP, AND YOU DO NOTHING??? BRO WHAT THE FUCK

• HELL YEAH ZOYA IS A DRAGOOON fuck some shit up sweety Y E S

• MY SKIN IS CLEARED AND MY CROPS ARE WATERED BY THE DARKLING RAISING A MOB TO CALL ZOYA "SANKTA"

• Also... the Darkling winking at Nikolai? FLERT

• WHAT THE FUCK???? HANNE DIED??? holy shit, why???? WHY CAN'T NINA BE HAPPY???????

• Nikolai is an absolute SAVAGE in a debate

• Idk what to think abt Rasmus... he was kinda badass for standing up against Brum

• SOLDIER. SUMMONER. SAINT. slap me and call me a hoe I SCREAMED WHEN I READ THAT

• ZOYA AS QUEEN, SIGN ME THE FUCK UP

• Okay I stan the Darkling again

• ZOYALAI IS CANON I REPEAT ZOYALAI IS CANONNNNN

• OKAY WOW HANNE IS A FULL-ON BADASS yep, I stan

• I really???? LOVE??? this ending for the Darkling??? Idk but it is VERY fitting

• ALINA!!!! AT ZOYA'S!!!! CORONATION!!!! my life is complete

• FUCKING SHIT INEJ!!! INEEEEEJJJJ my queen my love AAAAAA

• The conversation at the end between Alina, Zoya and Genya DESTROYED ME

• STEALING THE HEART OF SANKT FELIKS yes please BRING THE CROWS BACK!!!!! I NEED ANOTHER CROWS SEQUEL!!!!

• I fainted, I ascended, I DIED at the last page

• NOW I NEED A SEQUEL!!!

• Leigh, you ARE goig to write what happens next, right? RIGHT? RIGHT????

[inkykeiji]

write it!!!! imagine dabi being a bratty dom bc hes jealous of natsuo aaaaaa

i can see him pout and he like "not i wont kiss you, go ask natsuo"

aaaaah it’s not exactly bratty dom dabi but,,,, it is dabi touya getting v jealous n possessive over u getting along w natsuo 🥰

❅ cw: toxic relationship (possessiveness, jealousy), face fucking, mild degradation

❅ words: 1.3k

Usually, he loves your laugh. Usually, your giggles evoke a warmth unlike any other that seeps deep into his chest, to the very core of his body, and then spreads to his fingers and toes, engulfing him. Usually, your laugh makes him laugh, no matter how bad a mood he’s in.

But not today.

You’ve been huddled up with Natsuo on that fucking couch for over an hour now, asking him question after question about med school, entirely captivated by his answers, shy giggles slipping through your lips as you admit that you didn’t know that or that you had no idea that’s how it worked, Natsuo absolutely preening under your praise.

It’s disgusting.

He’s gonna grind his molars into complete dust at this rate, jaw sore from being perpetually clenched, eyes dry and burning from unblinkingly glaring at the pair of you, all while you stayed blissfully oblivious. No, you were too wrapped up in Natsuo to notice—to even care at all—that your boyfriend’s about two seconds from driving himself completely insane, blunt nails sinking into the fleshy heel of his palms hard enough to leave deep, dark purple indents in their wake.

It’s disrespectful. As far as Touya’s concerned, your attention should be on him at all times. Never on another man, especially not his fucking brother.

But it’s when you ask to see Natsuo’s tools that finally has Touya shooting up, crossing the living room in a few long strides and wrapping a large hand around your bicep. A gasp escapes your lips as your eyes widen in shock, the hand squeezing once, forcing a soft whimper from the back of your throat.  

“Tou—” your voice cuts off as you look up at him, blue fire blazing in his eyes as he gazes down at you, nostrils flared and sharp jaw set as he exhales, the breath slow and controlled. A hard lump forms in your throat as you hold his eyes, heart pounding against your ribcage.

He’s fuming.

He says nothing as he gives one harsh yank on your arm, hauling you to your feet with enough force that it has you stumbling into him. Another rough jerk on your arm has you following behind him, Natsuo beginning to say something but cutting himself off immediately at the snarl that rattles in Touya’s chest.

“Wh-What’s—” you’re asking as he all but shoves you into his old bedroom—into the bedroom he and Natsuo used to share—tripping over your own feet a little.

“Don’t,” he spits, voice dark and low, the word coated in venom. The door slams shut behind him, a booming sound that echoes all throughout the Todoroki house. “You know what’s fucking wrong,”

“Touya, I…” you blink a few times, shaking your head slowly in confusion. “I don’t understand—I was just talking to Natsuo—”

“I was just talking to Natsuo,” he mocks with a roll of his eyes, voice pitched higher to mimic yours. “Yeah? Were you? Were you just talking? Was that hand on his knee—does that count as just talking, too?”

Eyebrows knitting together, you steel yourself, straightening up a little. “You were right there; you know we were only talking—”

“It wasn’t only talking to him,”

“Please, he’s your brother—”

Moving in a flash, he crowds you up against his childhood bed, the back of your knees pressing against the edge of the mattress, legs finally giving in as he continues to push forward.

“It doesn’t matter!” he’s roaring as he moves, towering over you, hot breath fanning over your face as trembling hands fist in the comforter, placed on either side of your hips, arms caging you in. Wild eyes search your face in a frenzy as he glowers down at you, breath leaving his nose in sharp, uneven huffs, his chest rising and falling rapidly. Sapphire eyes hold yours for another moment, your ears beginning to ring from the tense, heavy silence, before he tangles a fist in your hair, yanking hard.

A loud cry falls from your lips, but he ignores you, straightening up to his full height again as he keeps the fist rooted firmly in your locks. The swift action forces your body to be jerked forward, face bumping against his lower stomach.

“Get on your knees,”

“What?” the word slips from your lips subconsciously, partially muffled by the material of his black t-shirt, mind hazy from the pain, and you whine again as he tugs.

“You heard me,” he growls. “Get on your fucking knees,”

Your body slides down his, slipping into the small space he’s provided for you between the bed and his legs, your knees on his toes.

“Make it up to me,” he orders, the hand knotted in your hair pulling your head to force your face up. “Show me that I mean more to you than he does. Prove it.”

It’s absolutely ridiculous—of course he means more to you, you only just met Natsuo a few hours ago—but the words get caught in your throat as your fingers move on their own, hastily undoing his belt, powerless to disobey a direct demand.

The large buckle jingles delicately with your movements—unzipping his black jeans and tugging them down just enough to free his cock—and the sound makes your stomach swoop.

You know the routine by now, not daring to touch him, traitorous mouth beginning to salivate at the sight of his thick cock, flushed and leaking. Little hands find their usual place on his thighs, bracing yourself as he takes his cock in his free hand, smearing precum across the seam of your lips before tapping the head against them once, and they part immediately.

A dark chuckle rumbles deep in his chest at your obedience, your heart deflating a little when his usual praise doesn’t follow.

There’s no warning—there never is—only his other hand threading through your hair and stilling your head as he stuffs his cock down your throat in one swift thrust, groaning loudly as you choke around him.

The pace is brutal—like it always is—Touya’s hips snapping hard and fast as he rams his cock into your warm, wet little mouth. You’re whining around him, the sound muffled and interspersed with the sickening slick sounds as he fucks your throat.

Drool oozes from the corners of your mouth, sticky and dripping off your chin, and you force your jaw open wider, blinking hard to clear your bleary eyes. Glistening tears stream down your cheeks, and Touya practically whimpers at the sight, the speed of his thrusts increasing.

“Yeah, that’s it,” he breathes out, voice fading into a whine. “There’s my good little whore—” a choked moan cuts him off. “Can’t talk to Natsuo now, can you? Bet you—fuck—Bet your little brain can’t even think about him, not when my cock’s shoved down your throat,”

You’re gagging around him now, tears steadily flowing from your eyes as you desperately try to inhale enough air, whimpering around him in response—yes, yes, yes, you, you, you.

And it’s the whimpering that does it, paired with the way that you’re looking up at him with those gleaming eyes like he’s a fucking god, taking everything he’s giving you so well like the good little girl you are, that has him filling your throat with hot, thick cum, nose pressed against his pubic bone as rough hands hold your head steady, cock throbbing on your tongue.

Pathetic little gasps hitch in your chest the moment his grip loosens, slender fingers flexing in your hair, and your head falls forward, body slumping against his legs and forehead resting against his lower abdomen as you try to catch your breath. The mingled sounds of your combined panting echoes out among the room, small hands fisting in the material of his jeans, weakly pulling him closer, practically hugging yourself to his legs.

“Oh no, baby,” Large hands yank you up by your hair, pulling you to your feet, an ear-piercing yelp leaving your lips. “We’re just getting started,”

Glassy sapphire eyes dart towards the neatly made bed across the room, a devious smirk forming on his lips.

[constablegoo]

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mint: does your muse view themself as virtuous & moral? what do these words mean to them?

OHOHO. hey hi ily. this is, of course, one of odo’s deepest ongoing battles, and the moment he stops questioning it is the moment he becomes a founder.

the founders grant themselves god status.  GOD!  status. they just reach out and pluck it. Within their range of power, the founders become unquestionably Just and Virtuous and Moral, their Word becomes Law, it becomes “the way things are” and “fact” and they create their own reality stemming from thousands of years of intense xenophobia. they’re above it all. gods don’t make mistakes, right? sure, maybe changelings were hunted and feared ages ago but they still fear it, and that drive for Order and Control over the galaxy is now encoded into their genes and they place a companion structure into the genes of every other species they control, subjugating them to the founders’ own cozy position as Gods, or-- ‘gods’. the founder (i rly don’t like saying “female” founder so she’s THE Founder. she speaks for the link.) makes it quite clear on many occasions that the founders are not here to negotiate. they fully intend to control EVERYTHING at any cost. it is absolutely  chilling  when she cuts garak down with: “they’re dead. you’re dead. cardassia is dead.” and draws the line between the dominion and everyone else miles deep into the sand.

that same genetic coding is one of the first semi-concrete things odo comes to understand about himself and, horribly, he’s landed into conditions under the occupation that very easily could have taken advantage of a less meticulous or stubborn changeling. no, odo says initially (and incorrectly), i am not bajoran** and i am not cardassian and i stand apart from either side of this conflict and so i am bound to PURE Virtue and Morality because of it. he can’t be bribed or bought or won over, and he won’t allow for anything less than a kind of incorruptibility. this effectively wins him allies (and enemies) on both sides, however -- that’s just not how the universe works. the truth of it is that no matter how much he tells himself he is not a part of their regime, his working with the cardassians makes him a collaborator in that he has then recognized their authority and ultimately upheld their legitimacy, even if he never agreed with the cause, even if he was also on some level a casualty of it. at some point when he moves past ‘contract’ investigation and begins to work permanently, he falls into the trap of thinking Order is the same thing as Justice... huge yikes. in that moment he becomes a true and apathetic villain, but he’s subsequently haunted by the resulting execution of innocents. it shakes something up in him. years pass and he still wonders, what other mistakes has he made? what other less direct consequences of his ‘neutral’ arbitration exist? he (and everyone around him) has to live without really knowing, and it’s a constant reminder to him of the power he holds and it informs his understanding of what Real (and imperfect) Justice Means.

**sidenote but later in s7 he introduces himself as ‘from bajor’ and AAAAAA. its good. very good. yeah, you’re bajoran, odo. he gets it now.

Mirror odo is really the ultimate example of an odo having taken those instincts to extremes in an environment that rewarded him for them -- there is no guilt there, and even a sadistic kind of pleasure in it. i’d argue that gaia!odo is another, less extreme example of an odo who’s been alone too long and lost sight of things when he single-mindedly (and against kira’s wishes) chooses her (one person) over 8000. like holy shit? NOT ok? uhhuhhhhfff. anyway. very fortunately, neither of these are OUR odo, but act as great foils to reflect on the worst (bastard cop) qualities or potential qualities of our goo pushed to highly visible extremes, which star trek just loves to do all the time.

but regular/prime odo isnt exactly a rule-follower, either. throughout his life, he frequently takes things into his own hands, uses his abilities to his advantage, spies, wiretaps, eavesdrops, and yes, harasses [quark] sometimes -- he develops his own set of values and personal rules and follows them; even starfleet comes in wary of him and how he operates and hes on thin ice. but because of possibly his most redeeming quality, odo is able to adapt those self-ordained values toward something increasingly honest: for how rigid he can be in personality, he is HIGHLY influenced by the world around him,  listens hard  to what his friends and allies have to say and adapts that feedback; this allows him to evolve and grow and take important matters to heart. he becomes more flexible and better able to hold onto what’s really most important after locking into a decision, because above all else, he is passionately committed to doing the Right Thing. he PLEADS with himself in things past, “your job is to find the truth, not obtain convictions.” by his tendency to push back against what is laid down as ‘law’ (something he becomes more and more aware of and effective at doing) as not always being good or right, or necessarily even creating Order (the thing he’s driven genetically to want), he prepares himself to challenge the most deadly voice of authority -- that of his own people.

so... yes and no. odo’s role and persona as ‘your average security chief’ might dictate that he be virtuous and moral, but he so obviously can’t fit the same exact mold as others in his position -- he has these insane abilities and this mind-consuming nature and it requires he tread with extra care, but he also has a potential for more adaptive, more nuanced morality. he has to build up his own definitions to the words, constantly examine and tease and test them, or else he risks straying too far from what he really wants to achieve -- harmony, honest justice. he has to accept that he’s a part of the system he operates in (not, in fact, alone or isolated! something he actually wants), and know that he is not exempt from making the wrong choice, just like anybody else.

carnation: what is your muse’s relationship with their gender? how do they express or not express this relationship?

ODO AND GENDER!!! i love odo and gender. let’s take this one step at a time. he starts out as an amorphous glob -- he has no gender. there’s no basis for assignment, no culture of difference, and all the goos are goo. odo takes on the shape of the first living thing he sees / the thing he sees most frequently: dr mora. he adopts an image of masculinity from mora and he adopts the hair. that’s about it, and it’s pretty much arbitrary. (maybe the hair is simple enough for his skills, too?) the next people odo meets are also these very masculine, military, cardassian leaders, so again -- this is all he knows! this is neutrality. i imagine it takes him some time to work out what the differences in gender are, and sex, and orientation, romantic vs sexual stuff, all of that. it’s all got cultural baggage he knows nothing about and does not experience, and he’s also dealing with multiple, clashing cultures to boot. since he doesnt have any strong inherent leaning, he simply opts out. he/him becomes his default because thats where he started, thats what he’s been able to successfully present and how people know him, and, terrifyingly, under cardassian rule, it probably offered a bit of safety, too, which was obviously something he needed at the time.

way way way way way down the line in season seven, odo asks kira to (paraphrasing) look at me. what do you see? [i see you.] but this is NOT me, this is only a shape ive assumed in order to fit in. she says, yes, i know that. but this is who you have chosen to be. “a man. a good and honest man.” (i knowww shes not really talking abt gender here BUT) its hard as a trans person not to read the metaphor. he’s chosen to express SOMETHING. he’s chosen something other than what he was given (neutrality) and although he doesnt personally buy into what ‘masculinity’ “should be” (ie the ferengi, smh) / would certainly not argue he doesnt feel non-binary, this is how he has presented all his life, its how hes been treated, and it is what he has chosen to adhere to. there’s a choice in that, kira’s right, and now it reflects something about him.

parallel this, i’ll mention the “female” founder again bc of course there is no discernable reason for her to have a gender -- other than to appeal (im not talking sexually here although there’s,, obviously weird shit happening with the link... yike) to odo in the sense that until that point odo has lived with “gendered” individuals and, i think importantly, kira is with them when they first meet. i think its safe to say the founder saw her, figured she was a friend/ally to odo or at least familiar to him, and took her general representation to appeal as a friend/ally.

otherwise... why, honestly? the founder’s got NO love of humanoids lmao why would she bother.

anyway i’d like to see odo experiment a bit. because when hes safe, he can!! aside from his own doubts and insecurities about shapeshifting, at some point he really has no reason not to, at least a little bit. really, it should just be another thing to practice, much like becoming a convincing rock or a leaf, its just that there are other significances in the cultures around him. i’d just like to see him loosen up a little. have fun. grow ur hair out a bit, odo, why are u still looking like ur terrible dad.

[farm-lesbian]

Your replies are driving me insane sorry. Part of the Easter tradition is that Jesus descended to hell for three days to rescue the souls of the damned, everyone since the beginning of the world. Some people call this the harrowing of hell apparently, but I’m not catholic so I wouldn’t know. Everyone who died after that without being converted, it’s always been up for debate. Some missionaries would bargain with people like if you convert your dead granny can go to heaven too maybe who knows.

aaaaaa i read your 2nd reply first so i was a little confused but this is making more sense thank you. that is such interesting theology i really need to read this whole bible thing.

(if heaven exists i know both of my grannies are there like they both died in the 2000s so they had ample time to learn about the good lord and all that, but they were also just good women. but was thinking about the cavemen and their place in god’s kingdom last night.)

[queenieships]

1,2,5,24 for you & Ellis pls

aaaaaa omg thanks for actually asking!! Please keep in mind that even though I’ve liked Ellis for years p much I’ve only just recently decided to self ship with him so I’mm not too solid on strong details yet!!

1. How did you two meet?

I’ve mostly been thinking that I’m a survivor travelling on my own - was originally with a group but that didn’t go too well - and I end up trapped in one of the motel rooms in the Dark Carnival run. When running through and searching the rooms the group unknowing break into the room I’m in and after a bit of a stand off and awkward shouting and introductions there’s a bit of an argument of nick vs everyone else over whether I should join them or not. Spoiler: I do. (Nick: ELLIS YOU ONLY WANT HER TO COME ALONG BECAUSE SHE’S DESCENTLY CUTE. Ellis: Nick that is a rude understatement she is gorgeous. Also she’s right there so don’t talk about her like she can’t hear you.) 

2. Was it love at first sight, or did it take a while for you to warm up to each other?

Not quite love at first sight but definitely attraction right away. We’re within a similar age group and Ellis was nice to me from the first minute and we were both just kinda like ;^) what a cutie. Once we start talking a bit more and just experiencing things together on the road to being evacuated we get a lot closer and I kinda end up looking up to Ellis? Definitely envious of his insane confidence levels, bravery and just downright kindness. Plus Ellis is lowkey a bit of a nerd (references TF2 in game and also is listed on the wiki as knowing a little knowledge on Japanese culture?? total god damn weeb) So we bond together based on common interests there.

5. Have you given your ship a name?

Not quite yet!! Most of my ship names a puns or just references to the characters themselves ( - My Scooter tag being ‘Catching a Ride’ and my Leorio tag being ‘The Love Doctor’) so I gotta keep thinking up ideas for a ship name!! Suggestions would definitely be appreciated lmao 

24. If the two of you are apart for a long time who takes it the hardest?

Difficult to say. We’d both take it pretty hard because Ellis is definitely pretty protective of me (I mean, of course, it’s a god damn zombie apocalypse) and not being able to look out for me or even know that I’m okay would drive him crazy. I’d take it pretty poorly as well because Ellis’ upbeat and supportive nature is something that would absolutely keep me afloat - lowkey as someone with suicidal thoughts and depression, I’m almost certain the only reason I would still be surviving in a zombie situation is out of spite and stubbornness. I’d probably think about giving up a lot and after finding this out Ellis becomes pretty protective but also insanely supportive and tries his hardest to make things a little more positive for me. Losing that support would be difficult for me and Ellis would struggle with not being able to provide me with that support. –AAAA WOAH THAT GOT SERIOUS AND KINDA SAD AT THE END,,,, SORRY. But I’m so completely like that,,,, I’d just be like “What’s the point in struggling so much I’ll just die” but when it actually comes to it just being like “NOPE I WILL NOT DIE I DON’T WANNA BE LISTED AS ‘DECEASED’ ON THE WIKI OF LIFE” or some shit,,, y’know,,,,, ??