#FUCK i have 2 essays to write in the next 2 hrs

[faaun]

how long can u do this for . how long fr

[funkle420]

Turbo Granny blunt rotation WIP

[largetriangles]

been working on this paper most of the day and just sent an email asking for an extension. it was supposed to be due on wed and he made it due on fri to give us more time.

it was due at 5 but the assginment closes at 12. Im gonna submit my in progress doc and then submit the rest later. I dont feel good but this is not new for me so it's not too bad either i guess. Asked to have until the middle of next week as extra time bc i want to redirect my project slightly, which is true. I've got better ideas than what I was doing.

It wouldn't have been fully fixed, but being out of my vynse really fucked me up. like whatever I was hanging out this weekend thats fine. but if i had done any work on monday, tuesday, wednesday, or thursday I would have been fine lol :skull:

but i didnt do anything on monday. I slept in and got my meds which I took 1 of them around 2pm bc thats when I got them which led me to being up kinda late. tuesday I wake up kinda late take my meds at a more normal time but I woke up late enough that I only got a couple things done before Isaac was home and hes more important than doing that stupid ass essay on that day (I had the rest of the week to do it. it's literally fine to not write an essay 4 days in advance). Wednesday. I wake up late -_- and I freak abt another paper for noooo reason once I sent the email he reminded me of a convo we had and I'm literally fine. I do get some work done finding sources yayyy. Then I've gotta go to work and be ready for my momma to get me and go home. not gonna write an essay late at night at my parents house. Thursday (yesterday) I um I. oh right. I woke up super late bc I forgor how dark my room is here. Then I go out on the couch and I open some stuff up but mostly research boxing gyms and watch tv. watched my cousin vinny (vyvanse lets me watch movies?) and called with Doctor (who is Not the fuck you guy shes awesome actually). Then I'm watching tv with momma and then tv with dad. jeez we watch tv. we just always have shows to catch up on together lol. anyway then suddenly its today and I do set alarms and do go to coffee shop to get a decaf drink and work pretty well for a while. but also I had that crying breakdown which did lead to a short panic attack haha. I lock in and get some more done (2 hrs of work) and then I get food for what felt like 15 mins but was 45+ and then i work for another hourish before writing my email asking professor (who is actually the fuck you guy) for an extension. and here i am 30 mins later after god knows what finishing a long tumblr post. OH i messaged dio a little. love that guy

[fursasaida]

in a wild twist, instead of just to-do listing i am retroactively to-do listing because for some reason i feel a desire to lay out everything i’ve done in the past few weeks as well as what i still have to do. i assume this is a processing thing. go about your business as usual

between 8/8 and 9/4:

go to maine

allow myself to be celebrated by extended family

change travel plans to drive to boston with parents

work out plans with boston friends

return to NYC

email new student buddy

buy plane tickets to CA

buy train tickets to DC

buy some decent new clothes for the first time in like 9 years so that i might hope for a shred of credibility as a teacher

buy something to wear to wedding #1

phone call with advisor about exam

follow-up call with advisor about exam

finish spreadsheet of every single thing published in [journal name redacted] between january 2009 and august 2019

tally frequency of topics in said spreadsheet over that period

choose two “major debates” from the spreadsheet

turn those debates + tally observations into a 3000 word essay

go to new student buddy lunch

finish political geography syllabus

(this included reading or rereading a LOT of stuff)

write annotated bibliography of everything on geography syllabus (idk how many things this was but the bib is like 16 single spaced pages? eta: i did a rough ~calculation and i think there are 60 or 70 texts on this list, all of which i had to summarize, explain relevance for, and position in relation to the other things i grouped with them on the syllabus)

do final edits on memory lit review

have followup mtg with the TLC people

figure out what the fuck is going on with the class i’m TAing

when does it meet again? where?

how do i get to QC?

lead first section

have meeting with professor

start the process of getting admin shit sorted out at QC

get blackboard access

find the fucking building where IT even is

get IT/email account set up

activate said account

inquire with judy about what to do about canceled class

spend like an hour figuring out how to add WIUs because our university’s website is a hellbegotten warren

register for GIS class

get judy to process overrides for this

file for state residency

download and print every single electric bill since i moved in here

download and print 2018 tax return

fill out form

clarify with HR that my current registration situation is not going to cost me money or cause other problems

travel to DC

attend wedding

make it back to NYC

find and download all the books for soc class

create decent file trees for this semester’s classwork and teaching

do reading for soc class week 1

prep overnight for leading section mtg #2

read 5 chapters

summarize 3

make a sheet for small group work

print 14 copies

lead section mtg

do reading for GIS class week 1

write response/questions for GIS class week 1

get access to GIS class’s TWO blackboard sites AND its wiki

sign up for presentation and note-taking responsibilities in GIS class

find out what the rules are for reference materials during the oral exam

do some extra side reading in prep for said oral exam

answer something like 10 student emails about absences and homework

msg TF about little syria

to do, 9/5-9/6:

PAY RENT

update blackboard site for my section because the prof keeps fucking changing shit

go to thursday lecture if i wake up and feel up to it bc frankly while i should go there is just. there’s a lot going on

on the other hand i should really do this so i can go back to the dreaded IT building at QC to get a campus ID so that i can let my own students into my classroom next week, god

do final prep for oral exam

reread submitted documents

print submitted documents

print metadata tab of spreadsheet in case

reread selections from syllabus and read others all the way through for the first time

maybe make some notes about this??

maybe make some notes about the things i know for sure i’ll be asked about

have oral exam

get fucking hammered with RJ

to do, 9/7-9/11:

start the equally insane ID acquisition process at HC again bc they only give you IDs that last for one year so you have to redo it every time

go to the office to get letter

inevitably email whatsername when she’s not there to set an appointment

therefore inevitably make second trip to office

take letter to ID office

get a new library sticker on GC ID

go to little syria tour with or without OA, who is not answering my texts

check in with him again to make sure he’s doing ok

go to It with MD

dry cleaning, maybe also laundry

decide whether to put my name in for a committee this year (why couldn’t this happen like ONE week later PLEASE)

reading for soc class

go to monday lecture

fucking prep for discussion section #3 further in advance this time

eat a damn vegetable (i ought to go grocery shopping but i’m going out of town again on the 14th so like what is the point)

identify, buy, and ship belated wedding gift for wedding #1

figure out gift for wedding #2

lead section mtg #3

figure out what the fuck is up with AAG

clean this absolute raccoon nest of an apartment oh my god??

[gaynoctgar]

Thoughts about Prompto’s arc in “Brotherhood”

The real title, for now, is something like “Prompto being formerly fat was not even remotely necessary and was offensively handled” or “Haley rants about Brotherhood because it’s so fatphobic”

TW: eating disorders, fatphobia.  

It’s also incredibly long, but I really want to share my thoughts.

Update: 10-4-2018: inspired by comments and tags, I added more examples of dialogue that exemplifies the problem

Update: 22-4-2018: accounting for the new “official profiles”...it got worse, everyone.

Oh Prompto.  Prompto Argentum.  My beloved, sweet, beautiful bi boy who could have had a much more satisfying arc.  They really tried, didn’t they?  They tried to give you a touching backstory and instead exposed their fatphobia.  And as for the bi part, well, that’s another essay in and of itself....stay tuned everyone. 

Yes, this is one of those posts.  That’s why I put all of this under a “Keep reading.”  It’s just something that has been subtly bothering me for a long time and I thought I’d give this short essay format a try.  There will be a TL;DR at the end, I suppose, but please read through this if you are interested in this aspect that I feel is both underexplored and overexploited about my most favorite character in anything ever.

A bit about myself before we begin: I am rather chubby.  I’m 5’4” (162cm) and 220 lbs (100 kg), and I have struggled off and on with eating disorders since I was in high school.  I do realize this makes me “obese,” but this essay isn’t about that.  Rather, it is about how fatness and obesity is often portrayed in media as a character flaw, or something to overcome, and my own feelings about why this is harmful. To be clear, I want to make two major points with this: 1) Prompto being “formerly fat” is not something that was even remotely necessary for his character arc and its inclusion and resolution are nothing short of fatphobic and; 2) the fact that Prompto receives his character development via losing weight in Brotherhood is emblematic of every problem I have with how media chooses to include fat people.

These points are incredibly intertwined, so let’s start by exploring what was intended by the episode.  I want to be clear and demonstrate that I fully understand what the episode intended to show, and I will continue to acknowledge what the likely intent was.  This essay/rant is critiquing the execution.

If the point of Brotherhood was to suggest that Prompto had a lonely childhood until he met Noctis, that’s great!  I understand that that’s what Brotherhood was showing.  HOWEVER. I have been sickened, from the moment I saw his episode, with how his journey to lose weight was correlated with his journey to “be good enough” to be Noct’s friend.  Let me be clear.  I understand that we are supposed to interpret this as a character flaw on Prompto’s part, and we see in the gayest scene the rooftop motel scene that losing weight did not resolve Prompto’s self-confidence.  I know that.  What I am saying is that him losing weight was in no was necessary to include, at least not in the way that they did.  There are some ugly implicit implications here, not least of which is that eating nothing but salads is, I would argue, just as unhealthy as what he was doing before. The show treats it as a positive good that Prompto appears to be starving himself and thinking obsessively about losing weight, and that is what I am taking issue with.

I, personally, detest the “formerly fat” trope and all its incarnations.  Wouldn’t it simply have been enough to say that Prompto was painfully shy (he was) and very lonely (he was)?  Why do these feelings have to be justified via his body?  Was there no other way you could justify Prompto simply being too shy to talk to Noct? Noct’s the prince, Prompto is a commoner who feels that he’s nothing particularly special…would this not have been enough?  Doing it the way that they did implies that being fat is a moral and character flaw that needs to be corrected in order for you to be seen as a hero. That is what I am taking issue with.

And yes, I realize that the “weight loss journey” is jump-started by the fact that babby Noct says “heavy…” when trying to help Prompto to his feet.  Believe me, I understand first-hand how much that hurts. I faced many similar instances in my own life.  I can’t blame him for saying it, he’s a kid, but I do want to point out that Noct never apologizes for this.  You could say “he didn’t realize he was wrong” but maybe you could have had a scene where Noct wonders why the cute boy with the camera is avoiding him, and Ignis can say something like “well, did you do or say anything that might have upset him?” and Noct can actually apologize for hurting Prompto’s feelings.  This is not unreasonable to expect.  When I was a kid and people were avoiding me, my mom always asked me to think back on why that might be.  It’s part of growing up and learning that your words and actions have consequences.

TO BE FAIR: I do think the motel scene was an attempt to rectify all of this in the game.  While Prompto formerly being fat is not explicitly mentioned, he is mortified that Noct remembers him back in elementary school.  Now, I love Noct, but he’s stupid sometimes, and not very intuitive. This is, however, in his character, and I will allow it because the very next thing he says is “You should have said something sooner.”  This shows Prompto (and the audience) that Noct doesn’t give two shits about how Prompto looks, now or ever, and I am happy that this was included.  However, there is no given reason behind why Noct couldn’t simply talk to Prompto himself beforehand.  Like I said, Noct is an idiot, and also a lot more shy and awkward than he lets on. But this moment was sweet between them, even if you don’t ship promptis, and I do think it is fair to mention it.

However, coupling all of this with the fact that the “character sheets” show us that Prompto does, canonically, have a fear of gaining weight, as well as these little snippets of dialogue…

Prompto: Hey, let’s hit up the Crow’s Nest!

Ignis: If you wish to put on weight? Certainly.

Prompto: *sighs* Yeah, I know…

(I swear to god every time I get this dialogue I SCREAM at Ignis, how is this even remotely okay to say to your friend who you damn well know has problems with his weight and there’s no way you don’t know this--)

EDIT: The addition of this quote is based on the tags from @gentiuna, I knew I was forgetting something!

Noct: Why is your face so fat?

Prompto: I’m NOT fat!!

(I swear to Jesus you’re on thin fucking ice with me Noct, that’s not even remotely funny and you need a time out to think about what you’ve done--)

This one I have only gotten once in my ~400 hrs of play but I swear I didn’t make it up; if anyone finds the specific words, I will correct it:

Ignis: talks about food and how it’s “anything your heart wants” or something

Prompto: Yeah, it’s the wanting that’s the problem.

I think this was intended to be a nod to Brotherhood but (and @bernielu can back me up on this) I SCREAMED when I heard it. How is that REMOTELY okay?  Nobody even REACTS to this, or asks if Prompto is okay, or ask him why the FUCK he would say that.  

This is when it becomes pertinent, I think, to discuss my own experience with eating disorders.  I have wonderful friends and family, and I’m well on the road to recovery, but back when I was in high school, I just straight up wouldn’t bring food to lunch.  Retroactively, I realize they all brought extra, hoping I would get just hungry enough to pick at the scraps (I usually did), and that was their way of helping me and showing me that they cared.  It can be hard to want food sometimes.  As offensive as I find its inclusion, I do think that’s an accurate way of representing how it can feel: you know that food is good, and you know that you are hungry, but it’s wanting to eat it that’s a problem.  Here’s my issue: that should have raised everyone’s red flags, and the fact that nobody, NOT EVEN NOCT, WHO WE CAN EXPECT TO KNOW ABOUT THIS, says ANYTHING about this, and the game writes it off as another one of its Infamous Banters ™….it’s not looking great.  It’s not looking like representation, to me.  It’s looking like erasure and fatphobia.  

Babby Prompto is supposed to be viewed with pity but also, I think, with disdain: by the audience and by Prompto himself.  I’ve noticed in many fics that the fans like to almost romanticize this aspect of him, and explore that he has an eating disorder which is…I don’t’ like it because most of these fics come to the same conclusion: Prompto ends up skinny anyway and it’s just a quirk about him.  This is what I meant when I said that I feel this is overexploited, earlier in the essay, but also underdeveloped in the sense that they basically, in my opinion, show this as something that Prompto had to “get over” to be a real protagonist. They don’t go into how fucked up Prompto’s psyche must be from this.  It’s just kinda…ignored.  

UPDATE 22-4-2018: I’ve got to get this off my chest, the new “Official Works Profile” for Prompto made all of this worse.  It literally outright states that, after rescuing Pryna, Prompto “decided “to become the right sort of person for a Prince” and worked to change himself. It also refers to Prompto having a “pudgy youth” as if that were a bad thing.  It also says “Incidentally, Prompto’s photography hobby developed when he was dieting and took photos to record his weight loss progress.” Not gonna lie, this one made me physically ill.  There was literally no reason for that other than to imply that being fat is somehow immoral.  Why is Prompto’s “personal resolve” equated to losing weight? Why couldn’t it simply have been to be more outgoing? I’m fucking ANGRY, I’m done being polite about this.

My solution, then? Well, one of two things: 1) don’t make Prompto fat to justify his bad childhood if you know you’re just gonna make him thin and completely ignore that he was ever different, which is my preferred solution, or 2) have at least one character be bigger and that’s just how they are and it’s not made into a plot point or anything.  

A final note: I KNOW people can and do drop tremendous amounts of weight, and I want to be clear that I am not suggesting this is bad or that people shouldn’t do it.  A person’s weight and their relationship to it is their own business, and as long as people have a healthy relationship with their body, I’m not one to judge.  I know that we are supposed to see Prompto’s weight loss as heroic and a strong example of his dedication to Noctis.  And sure, we get that.  But maybe I have convinced you that the development we get comes at the cost of fatphobia, at least in terms of how it was portrayed here.

TL;DR: Prompto didn’t need to be fat to develop his character, and its inclusion and treatment in the narrative of Brotherhood suggest an uncomfortable degree of fatphobia.

If you stuck around for the whole thing, thank you so much for reading my thoughts.  It’s something that has been bubbling up in me for months, and now I am finally able to put it in words. <3

[luisneer]

selected tweets 2016-17

These are tweets from my first @luisneer twitter account. Recently I made a new twitter account with the same username, after having deleted my account and having been without twitter for several months. These tweets are from August 2016 to March 2017, which was most of my first year of college at Shepherd University, in Shepherdstown, West Virginia. I don't go to Shepherd anymore; I transferred to West Virginia University, in Morgantown, WV, after my second semester. My tweets from late March 2017 to [July or August] 2017, when I deleted my twitter, were not archived. 

I'm creating this blog post so the world will have access to some of my tweets from the deleted @luisneer, in case they have any merit as literature. I'm still not sure if I will continue to use twitter in 2018/the future. Usually when I use twitter I feel like I'm actually wanting to be doing something else, but I don't know what; or wanting to be using "another app" that doesn't exist. Twitter generally seems bad for me. Questions about my tweets August 2016-March 2017 can be directed at luisneer@gmail.com. Thank you

    2016

   morgantown has ~48 vape shops

 **morgantown has ~480 vape shops

 siri has werner herzog-like inflections

 considering changing outfits when i take several walks in one day (so nobody thinks im a serial killer, stalker, spy, alien)

 think i remember ~5% of things i said today

 imagined vague connection btwn 'vitamin d' and 'reptar'

 felt distinctly that i was a monkey or chimpanzee while crouching in the corner of my dorm room eating peanuts out of a jar

 just thought (as a request to my mom) 'fax me my skateboard...'

 looked at toilet in bathroom stall with expression of 'utter terror' for what felt like ~15 seconds while it flushed

 listening to bright eyes with headphones at house show

 feel that the toothpaste i use is advancing decay of my teeth

 feel 100% certain that i could train myself to use telepathy to operate my phone during classes

 enjoying the sensation of my right leg 'falling asleep' during psychology class (left foot is also 'asleep')

 felt 'sociopathic' after eye contact w library worker who watched me pick up & pocket a pair of apple headphones someone had left on a chair

 left stolen apple headphones on gray bench across the street from my dorm

 repeatedly placed/removed sunglasses while walking in hallway

 strong desire to remove all positive patterns from my life and perpetuate/embrace all negative ones

 feel that my laptop 'knows' which parts of its screen im looking at

 in winchester, VA

 thought of my own music as having 'no compelling audible elements'

 thought of myself as being legally named 'the fuck up', then couldnt remember my actual name

 successfully, i feel, duplicated 'sociopath facial expression' during eye contact with arch-nemesis in stairwell

 ive taken 13800mg ibuprofen since i got to college

 feel compelled to ask my 9 yr old brother for advice re 'college-level' personal issues

 feel smart after sitting on couch in painting studio + reading art magazines for 2 hours

 persistent notion that 100% of students at my college personally hate me

 psychology professor muttered something like 'scary snake... endocrine system...'

 feeling heavily drugged/sedated in psych class

 psych professor seems obsessed with/terrified by snakes

 imagined kanye smoking crystal meth and tweeting something like 'please help me... cant feel mouth... need help'

 saw a moth at open mic, thought about god

 experiencing difficulty trying to smile

 enjoying using numerous cliches ('the case is closed', 'taking a step back', 'harsh realities') in an essay

 intrigued by conversation i had 9 hrs ago w/ 2 boys who countered my tone (calm, eloquent) exactly by being loud and rude in a friendly way

 felt simultaneously really cute and really lonely while giggling with my mouth closed in french class

 imagined kanye inventing the word 'compactualize' and using it in a sentence during a televised interview

 enjoyed 8-sentence john updike bio in norton lit anthology

 perceived person standing outside bathroom stall occupied by me could 'sense', via something like echolocation, that i was/am depressed

 spoke to french professor in what felt like a distinct persona/alternate luis neer called 'marge simpson voice' luis neer

 feel confidently that the public debut of 'marge simpson voice' luis neer was a success

 feel that 'marge simpson voice' luis neer is the culmination of an unconscious process that initiated in my mind maybe 3-5 years ago

 i want to identify/analyze additional alternate luis neers

 i dont like videos

 i came to college and got weirder, better at writing, more arrogant, more defeated, more sensible

 simultaneously feel that i should run 3 miles and that, at this moment, i would be incapable of running any distance

 feel urged to draw new attention to my 'marge simpson voice' tweets

 huge power outage at shepherd lol

 realized theres no such thing as a 'nation'

 remembered ive blown off obligations to several people, not just one person, so my irresponsibility doesnt 'have a focus', felt comforted

 feel that my follower count is 'crystallized' / will never increase or decrease ever again

 struggled to convert 'stick-and-poke' to past tense during conversation in line at sheetz

 feel it would be pleasurable to take a donut + bottle of coca-cola from this sheetz via armed robbery

 crossed busy road, felt really surprised i didnt get hit by a car, also i wasnt wearing glasses, was walking to sheetz, bought an icee

 laughed alone in my dorm thinking that i should print out a picture of barack obama to put on my wall

 drank from separate glasses containing soymilk, coffee, iced coffee, apple juice, cranberry juice, water, sprite for dinner/breakfas

 just thought 'from adorno to zizek' sans context while shitting

 opened gmail, emailed my father, closed gmail, opened gmail again, viewed email to my father, forwarded it to myself

 'camcorder' would be a good band name

 i thought arnold palmer had already died

 willem dafoe doesnt make me uncomfortable

 i want to stop being mean

 i hate bfs but i want to be someones bf

 wishing i was in a car with friends and no cellular service

 tangled up in myself and others

 twin peaks is depicted as a small town but its population is greater than that of every city in west virginia including the state capital

 eating shark

 thought of my own intelligence as 'frightening'

 thought while walking to class that ginger ale should be made public domain

 had the stitches on my chin removed today, touched the scar tissue for the first time

 i miss being in therapy

 i love carpet

 i love carpet !!

 just thought about my own tweets and lol'd

 mood lately very fragile

 this is what i get for staying up til 5 am

 all night i've felt a wave of dread swelling up, now it's really hitting me

 sound of laughter in public still frightening + unnerving

 my instinct for when to unfriend people on facebook has adapted so that i unfriend people over statuses that make me feel no emotions at all

 fuck, im feeling so much terror

 gucci mane was born 3 days before conor oberst

 the other day i mentioned that i was a poet and this vape guy interrupted me to say "and you didnt know it" and i went fucking nuclear

 interacted with mailman who was picking up mail as i was trying to mail chapbooks, he didnt notice at first that i was talking to him

 what if old people have secrets

 my dad is making me root for a football team but im in pain emotionally

 i feel guilty in general

 thought of my poem "portrait of a nation without any people" as the "lead single" for my full length; it appeared in potluck 14 months ago

 im close friends with satan rn

 feel like travis scott never intended for people to spell his name with a $

 from now on every time i get honey on something ill list the thing in this thread

 finger

 desk

 coffee cup exterior

 pajama pants

 knee

 carpet

 chin

 phone

 shirt

 shoe

 thought that my elderly geography prof. moves by "shuffling"

 feeling shorter, broader

 the only part of the new bright eyes box set i want is the booklet

 is there a booklet? i know there are nvr b4 sn photos

 the song "lime tree" came to conor oberst in a dream

 i like citing things in MLA

 i write essays by pretending im werner herzog

 doesnt seem to be getting later

 lit professor gave my project (sequence of 6 sonnets) a C, i wish she would have gotten me expelled, shelley + ginsberg both were expelled

 heard someone in another room ask "where's wal-mart?" as if wal-mart were a person whose location could change

 i think i just swallowed a filling while eating popcorn, i am very scared, please help

 crazy how things get worse

 there are people on my floor having tons of fun and im upset

��bit my mattress while sitting in the chair next to my bed

 weird that chance the rapper only has 2.4 million followers when he's sort of one of the most famous artists in the world rn

 also weird that donald trump has made 34,000 tweets, seems like an incredibly large number

 the strangeness of yesterday was, for me, augmented by people on the internet talking about a tv show that ive never seen or heard about

 the sunlight is obscene

 im so upset about the sun being so bright im afraid to go outside

 im glad im the only poet who likes trailer park boys

 i slept in a blanket fort under my bed and havent left it all day

 yr = your ur = you're

 my favorite things are pdfs

 now that ive adapted my living space to allow me to never leave my blanket fort i feel like my roommate, omar, exists in a parallel universe

 i hear him but i never see him

 i love latte art, i drink many lattes

 thought that twitter "isn't worth it" in an upset tone while drinking mtn dew

 felt pleasant considering uniqueness of all parent-offspring relationships

 went through my closet + made sure all shirts and jackets were zipped/buttoned

 my blanket is generating flashes of light from static electricity

 record store guy became visibly sick of me several months ago; feel a little guilty every time i enter his store to spend money

 i prefer EPs

 felt "out of control" walking downhill listening to dead kennedys with headphones

 writing an essay is difficult because idk how much relevant information other people have already considered / moved on from

 have been wanting to write at least one poem inside my blanket fort but i don't think it's going to happen, i don't know why

 the internet isn't big enough

 usually when i think "i dont understand the uproar about [event]" i realize there is no "uproar"

 "uproar" is media's way of manipulating the public spotlight and distracting people from important tasks

 feeling helpless + melancholy after dying 15 times and killing 2 stormtroopers in star wars battlefront

 the only way to attain conor oberst-level emo hair is to lay in bed and sob for hours

 i'm sad

 my mom was confused when i told her my first book comes out today

 was luis neer in odd future

 thought "sometimes i just want to end it and start all over" in an exasperated tone re my goodreads account

 becoming increasingly convinced it would be best for me personally to take myself extremely seriously/never joke about myself

 thinking that my tweets would seem terrible if i were a senator/governor/other politician

 imagined doomsday device for future @starwars movies: the "death train," a normal train that exists in space and destroys planets

 how does anyone do it

 in science fiction movies, spacecraft usually look like shopping malls

 everyone in the world is high except me

 feel like i want to have poems published immediately

 having delusions of grandeur

 im sitting on my record player

 my most-used word in 2016 was "bleak"

 prepared and ate garbanzo beans w a lot of rosemart at 2:00 AM

 my brother has a friend over and is being mean to the friend

 all i want for christmas is to never cheer up, ever

 watching eyes wide shut and hugging duckuc

 my nose feels like it's going to bleed

 im sad because every bf looks like me

 getting better at eating ice cream by punching it with my tongue

 the internet is too freaky...

 i think 2017 will be a year of realizing things

 im watching the angry birds movie

 the angry birds movie is so shitty... why was it made...

 ive never had a new years kiss

   2017

   im weird

 eating medicinal ice cream

 im not going to do any drugs in 2017

 made a medicinal phone call

 i want to drink some blood

 i dreamed that roger ebert wrote a negative review of life after ppl and called it "liner notes"

 years dont kill people

 feel inexplicably/explicably really scared about the future of my poetry career

 i've felt stoned since i was a baby

 downloading google earth

 made eye contact in starbucks with possible luis neer incarnation from ~50 years in future; bon jovi "dead or alive" played through speakers

 realised that at some point in the future i will become extremely interested in watching football

 i recommend reading poems extremely slowly while touching the text with your middle finger/index finger

 experiencing cognitive dissonance

 used phonetic clues to correctly predict meaning of & use the word "tandem" while discoursing with myself internally

 i miss steel pedal guitar sounds on conor oberst songs

 my previous incarnation "college luis neer" has evolved to become "high school luis neer-like luis neer in college setting"

 thought "man, i got to stop caring what people think about me" in an emphatic tone that seemed confusing/interesting

 mediocore

 beyonce is cool i think

 i want to re-read "v for vendetta" and to not tweet about it

 remembered that i own a pinata

 i will be at awp

 how could i make twitter a better place

 i saw 4 people wearing yeezys in dc this weekend

 feeling increasingly self-conscious about how much i use the phrase "in the world" or refer to "the world" in poems

 felt robot-like while attaching detachable headphones cord to my headphones while wearing the headphones

 watching shepherd univ lacrosse team practice from "safety of" student center

 i invented releasing two chapbooks in one day

 im dumber than me

 reasoned mentally that im more likely to produce accurate drawings of myself because "i basically look like a bird, so i just draw a bird"

 i want to have a "fake tweet" (e.g. a simple phrase) to tweet repeatedly every time i feel urged to tweet an uninformed/unimportant opinion

 my fake tweet for the foreseeable future will be "i dropped my textbook in the stairwell". when i tweet this it means i have an opinion

 i dropped my textbook in the stairwell

 does anyone remember the chapter of "the hobbit" where bilbo avoids starvation by ingesting peanut butter, honey, cherry nyquil, and water

 sensed that all my college friends just simultaneously shifted from having vague/non-serious negative feelings about me to hating me

 resulting from continuous building of irrepressible/inevitable conjecture in the friends' conscious thoughts

 eating chicken and squash

 i click on 100% of poetry links tweeted by poets i follow

 when i was writing Waves i was obsessed with waves (e.g. energy waves, frequencies) and used the word "waves" at least ~10 times every day

 i dropped my textbook in the stairwell

 white nike swooshes on shoes of boy in library look vibrant/magical

 terrified of being cool

 walked to library really slowly while listening to noise music through big headphones

 i was really, really yung when i started publishing and i'm still really yung

 2 chainz always looks like he's walking in an airport

 i have 5 twitters

 i didnt know what bill paxton looked like, i was thinking RIP gene hackman

 why doesnt anyone blog about me

 thesis statements arent real

 thinking about my book

 i deleted both my tumblrs by accident

 sad about my tumblr

 my name is all over the internet

 im a lizard

 someday there'll be no more ppl

 a lot of conor oberst song titles have parentheses

 feeling sad about the actions of my clone, who passed away

 idk how to use venmo or what it is

 present-day tumblr is like the end of the never ending story where atreyu is talking with the rock biter and the nothing is swirling around

 when someone, anyone, is upset with me im afraid im going to be assassinated

 the views-era apple music ads that depict drake working hard in the studio have really affected and inspired me

 on tumblr i have 4 followers

 almost all of my tweets seem unimportant

 feel that if someone told me that one of my tweets made them upset i would just apologize and delete it

 ground control to commander venus

 i like my new tumblr

 i would be wearing a cardigan rn but i dont have one

 feel that i will continue to generate bright eyes-related content throughout my life

 is everything ok

 i look like michael moore

[davidschnuckel]

Emails That Kick Ass (Vol. 20): Coalesce

4/1/2020

It took some time, but I eventually realized that I write a lot.  In fact, much more than I truly realized.  Just not in the way that I had always saw myself doing. As an educator, I’m approached by students, alumni, colleagues, administration and outside parties through email…a ton.  In fact, a big part of my after hours is spent on replying to all sorts of issues.  Some big.  Some small.  Never anything in between, interestingly enough.  But, the big-issue emails are the ones I’m most proud of because they usually provide a platform where I can address a significant issue (or issues) that relate to important matters regarding what this glass thing fully entails. I see these emails as small essays in the form of correspondence; emails that - should a student of mine ever take interest in this blogspot - provide a teachable moment that happens behind-the-scenes of what's going on in studio and addresses a very real issue within the realm of glass making, glass thinking, glass teaching, and/or glass learning.  An indirect form of "mentoring"  by example...but in digital space. I put a lot of care into every thing I do and, although trying to be informative, my secondary intention with these well considered emails is to impress upon my students the power of words and the value in articulating thought through written form.  EMAILS THAT KICK ASS are a collection of such correspondence, cut and pasted directly from my Outlook box, but with names changed to protect the guilty... ​ *Coalesce* is a series of thoughts in conversation with Andrew Page, Editor-in-Chief with Glass Quarterly. He had said that he'd been watching the glass education community come together through shared ideas and correspondence as the field moves to online education. He reached out and asked if I had a few thoughts and insights to share for an upcoming blog piece on what the shift has been like for us here in RIT Glass and our students This conversation was towards the front end of teaching/learning from quarantine and reflects a genuine optimism about the moment and what's been observed so far.  All of which I still believe in (as it is May as I write this introduction)...but a lot has been learned after this experience of remote studio instruction to reveal how to make it better if studios will have to remain closed in the Fall....and, surprisingly, certain things had been discovered that should've been part of the in-class experience along the way already.  Perhaps an essay to tackle later on... ​The blog that had featured a few of my thoughts can be found here.

1. When did you learn that your classes had to migrate to online only? I learned of the possibility of the need to create academic instructional continuity on March 4th...hard to believe that it was less than a month ago.  I was asked to be part of small, ad-hoc committee of faculty/staff/admin within the College of Art and Design introduced to a possibility of campus closure in early to mid-April and to begin developing strategies in how we might develop plans to see the term through in the event of COVID-19 disrupting the term.  It was all hypothetical at that point…and no real sense of urgency to take it super seriously yet.  The next few days we all strategized and submitted various templates to HR and various directors in our College. About a week from that meeting, on March 11th, all RIT employees received an email from our President that things have taken a turn regarding the virus and it would impact the rest of our term’s schedule....which is a lot sooner than the the early to mid-April hypothetical we were strategizing for.  Our semester dramatically unraveled over the rest of that week…day by day new emails revealing new and big information about the pandemic’s impact on RIT’s scheduling…and what we were hypothetically brainstorming/preparing for as a potential disruption with maybe 3 weeks of class was, instead, an abrupt reality that would ultimately interfere with half the term left to navigate.  All very sudden. The good news is that this speculative task force I was on helped plant some seeds about what was academically necessary to adhere to for our students to successfully meet all our course learning outcomes.  The bad news was that the obligation to re-design an online method of delivering content to our courses/programming came at us a lot quicker than we were expecting;  it demanded more of a curricular re-design than we were anticipating; and asked for a turn-around time of re-designing a remote studio course in a much tighter window than anybody would’ve liked.   However, if you ask me, nothing worth doing is done without the element of struggle in play.  The RIT Glass faculty rallied together, rolled up our sleeves, and, ultimately, did extraordinary work in figuring this thing out.  Aside from me, we had a dream team of Suzanne Peck, Brendan Miller, and Gracia Nash solving this problem out together. 2. Were there any special challenges to create meaningful lessons without hands-on learning, such as introductory or skills-based classes? A little bit "yes" and a little bit "no."  Aside from the obvious reliance on studios, we didn't really identify any other special challenges for us to create meaningful curriculum to a hands-on course without hands-on learning.  We're exceptional at adapting our needs with what's available.  There's also the fact that we had half a semester of studio experience under our belts before lockdown that we could further contextualize in this remote learning experience... On one hand, it could easily be argued that each studio course’s stated learning objectives for learning safe and competent material engagement had been fulfilled up to the point where campuses closed.  Not to its fullest potential by any stretch of the imagination…nor would any student say that they are satiated by only half a term’s worth of hands-on experience/exploration of material and process.  (And…as educators, none of us were either.)  However, the course learning objectives that address issues of critical assessment, thinking, and dialogue regarding glass, glass making, and glass ideas were still ripe for the picking in this remote way through various projects that could be done from home… It was important that the new content be built with student flexibility in mind and that it was applicable to where we left off, what we were working towards, and what the course description and syllabus held us accountable to.   It was also important to create a new approach to our class content that (1.) supported students in fulfilling the current requirements of each course, (2.) that continued to nourish their growth and spark curiosity, (3.) that helped maintain a sense of connection within the student peer group through synchronous engagement online, and (4.) remained compassionate and cognizant that this weird academic shift isn’t just a challenge thrown at us by our administration just for fun, but due to a highly stressful and concerning global pandemic.  So standards of excellence in designing a remote approach to our studio instruction certainly had to be measured against circumstances of care and concern for what our students are capable of handling as they face the unsettling mystery of this fucking virus in their personal lives. So, questions about what is necessary to bring the course to finality without access to a studio became key.  Perhaps that’s a "special challenge" in and of itself....the  question you asked about in the first place.   Especially for programs like ours who host educational experiences in studio to about 80-85 students within a term...students at various points in their development... For instance, designing a remote strategy of academic instructional continuity to the introductory student calls for an approach that looks and feels a certain way that’s relevant for them; designing a strategy for the intermediate student calls for another approach; and, of course, designing a strategy for the advanced and/or graduating student calls for a different one altogether.  In fact, the real bummer of this moment specifically impacts the latter group of student in this scenario... The disappointment for graduating Seniors and Thesis Grads  who will no longer have that thesis exhibition experience they’ve been working so hard towards has been DEVASTATING. Equally heartbreaking for faculty on their behalf, too.  Quite honestly, to go back to the original question, if there have been any "special challenges" it has been in figuring out how to develop some sort of alternative to the cancellation of their shows…and in a way that would hopefully have the graduating student maintain some sense of pride and integrity in how the culmination of their educational experience with us wrapped up.

3. What inspired you to reach out to other educators? I talked casually with a few glass educators on the phone and through email exchanges, but they were more or less social calls with a globally relevant talking point (!). I mostly circled up with my teaching colleagues at RIT (glass and non-glass) to see if there were areas of consistency in what sorts of things we felt convicted to uphold/relinquish in an online approach to teaching a studio-based course. ​ 4. How has the response been so far? Response by other educators? Seems like a mix. I line myself (and my online strategies) on the side of studio educators who are navigating the remote learning experience thing with compassion and flexibility in what they designed.  And a desire to make sure course content is relevant to the course's overall goals and objectives. Most of us are united in this way.  But I’m noticing another group of educators who are making the mistake of amplifying the work load and see this remote learning moment as students having extra “free time” needing to be filled up.  And there’s a smaller group of educators  making an even bigger mistake who seem to see this as an opportunity to  make themselves look just so, so “innovative” to their peers and colleagues in tasking students in frivolous, educationally-irrelevant busy work  disguised as remote curriculum genius in a time of crisis.  There is a noticeable dog-and-pony element definitely motivating the impulse to "share" what some educators are doing...from what's posted online posting and in Zoom faculty meetings. 5. What have you found most useful about this crowd-sourcing? I haven’t needed to utilize it, but I like the essence of what it’s aiming to do.  The notion of sharing and community through the these crowd-sourcing efforts is not only resonant in this moment, but reminiscent of what the Studio Glass Movement was essentially built on.  This seems to be a digital echo of what was essential in our origin story several decades ago. 6. Has this lead to any unexpected collaborations? No, but I like what the question is introducing.  Perhaps next pandemic…!   You know, it’s interesting…I see this inconvenience of translating several weeks of a studio learning experience to an online method of delivery as something comparable to constricted writing practices…of looking for new potential for meaning in the residue of a conventional system dismantled.  Once I have the brain space, I might take the time this Summer to assess what new and unforeseen potential this constrictive studio teaching moment had (and still has) to reveal. And, although I never want to be in this position educationally again, the limitations the pandemic has put upon the notion of the studio learning experience has really opened some doors to what the internet can fully be in service of.  It’s quite an extraordinary tool that I’m only now realizing I’ve used at a minimum in my teaching.  Aside from the stocks of BlueJeans and Zoom presumably soaring sky-high as a result of this concentrated moment of synchronous college course delivery, the notion of video conferencing and connecting with other programs, artists, and/or art entities (glass or non-glass) as being a regular component in our curriculum seems like a no-brainer now.  Same with file sharing by way of Google Drive.  These platforms as being simple and effective modes of exchange and crossover were just too obvious for me to notice before they became a mandatory part of the current teaching experience. 7. Do you feel that the various glass degree programs are competitive with one another, and does this collaboration perhaps change the dynamics in any significant way? I do...and I think even in our most collaborative of spirits there’s always been - and going to be - a competitive edge between various Glass programs.  But I don’t see it as unhealthy.  Although certainly capable of going down adversarial paths, I think the competitive spirit between our programs is an effective means of bringing out the best in each of us in a call and response sort of way…for programs to see other programs make something happen educationally that ups the game a little bit.   And, in turn, those of us that bore witness to whatever the “other program” just did feeling the need to keep pace and respond with something that ups the game a little bit more.  I can even see a little of that at play with what’s being put forward in some of these online exchanges between educators that you've referenced earlier. But, in general, I don’t consider the crowd-sourcing as collaborative as much as I do a communal …an effort to problem solve, share (in all sorts of ways), and make suggestions that others may find useful. 8. What are some things you learned about your own teaching practice as a result of this experience? It's a good question and we'll all need more time to identify those things. But one of the first things that comes to mind is related to the video conferencing component of synchronous online teaching.  The capabilities of Zoom are revealing some new approaches to group discussion.  It's been great to host group critiques from afar and - as folks are responding to the work - other folks are able to type in comments/ideas/thoughts/reactions in the chat feature ...even able to surf the web looking for links to things that seem relevant to the conversation and post them there.  At the end of the discussion, the content of that chat bar can be converted into a document that can be emailed afterwards...everybody gets a bouquet of feedback and references to look into further that somehow seems more robust than what's given and received during critiques/conversations in the flesh.  So developing thoughts to student work verbally and then also developing thoughts that can be fruitful through chatroom shorthand seems to be a new method of providing feedback in my teaching that I'm really fascinated with. 9. Do you see any new initiatives to collaborate with your colleagues at other programs as a result of this? Hard to say. Conceptually, yes, it sounds cool and good and fun and enriching and all the positive things program crossover facilitates.  But, truthfully, I’m not really thinking much about next academic year at this point.  In fact, I hope we have one… At the moment I’m putting all my energy into seeing this term reach a point of finality for all of our students in a way that looks and feels as educationally fulfilling as it possibly can for them under these remote learning circumstances.  And, putting the teaching component of this moment to the side, the administrative duties of managing a Glass program has amplified in ways that have (and still are) exhausting on their own.  I haven’t spoken much above about how overwhelming a task it has been to work with our Chair, Dean, and upper Administration to tackle all the bureaucratic aspects of this new academic frontier following a campus-closure.  In all honesty, the headaches and hassle of re-designing and launching our educational programming was rigorous enough on its own.  But re-learning and re-designing the managerial aspects of the what’s behind the curtain in maintaining a program in one last-minute email request after another from Admin has tripled the amount of work for faculty. The executive duties, processes, and protocols of running a program in this remote way legally (in the eyes of the State) and procedurally (in the eyes of NASAD) is an entirely different animal than what we’re tasked to do as educators…and adds a lot more to the faculty workload on almost a daily basis.  So, YES, I see potential for crossover with other programs, but my mind is so, so far away from dwelling on anything that isn’t related to any of the dozens of plates we’re asked to keep spinning in this moment. ​10. What has been the feedback from students? What will be the impact on their educational experience of glass? ​ The student response varies by the level of glass courses they are enrolled in… The introductory student was mostly curious how any “learning” can possibly continue to happen without being in studio (which we knew would be a thing already…).  However, after interacting with them in this first week, some are showing signs of being good sports about what’s been designed for remote learning without the studio.  And the others, at worst, will shoot for doing the bare minimum of what’s asked.  Both approaches are understandable in this moment… and I’m interested in seeing how they might take to these various assignments over the next few weeks.  I anticipate that they might accidentally realize that they enjoy the way in which we’re asking them to contextualize the studio experience from home.  If we’re able to get through this (and if we indeed have campuses open by next academic year), this level of student will more than likely repeat the course for credit simply because they enjoyed the studio experience they had so far and want another go at it. The intermediate student is a mixed bag… strong with duality. These folks are either really interested in what we’re asking of them in these remote learning objectives or significantly disinterested.  These are students who we’re asking to connect some theoretical dots to the studio experience they’ve had so far���to pair up their development in making with a development in thinking.  These also happen to be students that have a confidence level in their material relationships and a budding artistic identity that lends way to a super strong craving to be in studio…which normally would be great, but, in this moment, some of them view the inability to access studio for the rest of the term as something disruptive to their education/artistic momentum.  The stone-cold makers will look back at this moment with a chip on their shoulder.  Those who will truly excel following graduation will look back at this moment as being pivotal in their development from glass enthusiast to artist. And the advanced/graduating student is ultimately accepting of this moment, although heartbroken to finish in this way.  They are hungry to converse about the research components of their requirements to graduate…and surprisingly ravenous for synchronous interaction with their faculty and peers.  This student group is noticeably unlike the other student groups in that they are at a place of maturity in their work and research…so much so that they want to continue connect their making to bigger conversations within contemporary art through further research prompts and online video meet-ups.  None of them are really chomping at the bit to finish their degree in this way, but they are showing a grace and dignity in seeing this semester through even amidst these unfortunate circumstances. If you don't mind, Andrew, I just have a few more thoughts I'd like to end this chat with that may or may not be useful to you.  But I'm thinking a lot about this moment and have just so many big-picture observations popping up as we're moving further and further into this online territory... Ultimately, it’s clear that everybody is disappointed with how this term has rapidly shifted…how it compromised our hopes and aspirations in finalizing all the work we’ve done together in studio.  And, for some, how it also compromised the punctuation mark they wanted their final thesis exhibition to be upon graduating our program.  All our students have our full understanding on that front. We’re heartbroken about it, too.  But part of our job has been to remind students that the only way to move forward from here is for them to develop ways in making this unsavory circumstance useful for themselves.  In fact, this abrupt denial to the standard closing of the semester has allowed us to remind our students that making adjustments in the face of limiting circumstances is perhaps the biggest part of an artist’s job description.  We gave them permission to be disappointed, but not to lament...to not let the bummers of this moment interfere with recognizing all the personal transformation that has been happening for each of them during this past term.  Even this past year.  And for those who are about to graduate, even the past several years.  But we're also asking them to not ignore the fact that further transformation is yet to come with what we have designed for them to accomplish in the next few weeks if they allow themselves to be open to it…where ever they might be.  It won't be a world-changing educational experience.  But it will open essential doors for them walk through as they move on to whatever's next after the Spring has concluded. I’m proud of the RIT faculty and instructional staff…Susie, Brendan, and Gracia.  We did a phenomenal job of accepting and tackling this very bizarre educational challenge.  As of yesterday (Friday the 27th), we completed our first week online in the effort to reach a sense of finality within our studio coursework in a variety of remote objectives.  Ones that indirectly teach perhaps one of the best lessons the studio has to offer: that an artist is not defined by what one can do, but in how one can adapt.  Perhaps surrendering to this piece of wisdom alone is worth the cost of tuition this year …maybe that’s the underlying lesson this moment is gifting us.  (Those who are willing to receive it, at least.)  In that light, the hope is that our students can open themselves to a broader  understanding of what it means to learn about learning in this time of uncertainty and limitation. Of course, no one is thrilled with the new method of “learning” that many Glass studio programs are currently implementing without having a studio to provide, but I’ve always felt that the essence of the job that the artist is tasked with is to make something meaningful out of any given moment.  Whether with things or circumstances.  Especially when in less-than-ideal conditions.  That’s been the motivating factor for RIT Glass faculty to get to this point over the past two weeks…and if we can get at least a handful of students on board with that very difficult notion by the end of the term, I’ll feel incredibly fulfilled. Let me know if you’d like to talk further. Keep safe… and stop touching that face (!). All my best to you and yours right now, David

[ambssssssssss]

Answer 20 question and tag 20 people you want to get to know better

First time I've ever been tagged in one of these lol thanks @bookworm0417

Nickname: Ducky or Bug

Zodiac Sign: Virgo

Height: 5'2

Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff

Last thing I Googled: storm predictions in my area

Favorite Musician: Queen, jonas brothers, Calum Scott, Imagine Dragons

Song stuck in my head: Dancing on my own by Calum Scott

Following: 149

Followers: 183

Do you get asks?: sometimes and they always make me smile

Amount of hours of sleep? Look I dont have a sleep schedule at all so I'm usually running on about 2-4 hrs of sleep

Lucky Number: 5 or 13

What are you currently wearing: grey yoga pants and turquoise t-shirt from my college

Dream Job: I'd love to get paid to write fanfiction lmao

Dream Vacation: London or a Caribbean cruise

Instruments: None but I've been told I'm a great singer

Languages: English and a little Spanish. Also might learn ASL but idk

Favorite songs: oh fuck there's so many umm Tequila by Dan + Shay, You Are The Reason by Calum Scott, the whole Hamilton soundtrack and hella lot of others

Random fact: I'm currently working on an essay about the establishment and trend of toxic masculinity in American literature so that's fun

Aesthetic: curled up in front of a fire with a mug of hot chocolate and my laptop to work on my next fic

I'm not gonna tag anyone but feel free to do this if you want!

[douchebagbrainwaves]

IN FACT, IT'S THE CLASSIC VILLAIN: ALTERNATELY COWARDLY, GREEDY, SNEAKY, AND OVERBEARING

They come from investing at low valuations. Countless paintings, when you look at how people use the words wise and smart is a modern habit. If you look at the work of another. And this idea will thus tend to get so rich from them. As it widens out into a pyramid to match the startup pyramid, all the contents are adhering to the top, but a question. Every hire increases the burn rate, and bad hires early on are hard to recover from. Which means the first VC to give someone fuck-you money and then actually get told fuck you.1 Even a VC friend of mine said, Most VCs can't do anything really well unless you love it, and if you raise more money.

If you're going to do initially to get the company going. We benefitted from the same phenomenon. In his famous essay You and Your Research which I recommend to anyone ambitious, no matter how much you're getting done. People's best friends are likely to be a good thing too, or a lot of bandwidth to crawl the whole Web. Because hackers are makers rather than scientists, the right place to look for metaphors is not in the startup business, VCs can still make money from it.2 Most people would rather a 100% chance of $1 million than a 20% chance of $10 million, but only a little. You have more leverage negotiating with VCs than you realize.

So far, each new definition of it has brought us increasing material wealth.3 Do the founders of Sun. An ordinary slower-growing business might have just as good a ratio of return to risk, and very early stage startups is not mainly about funding. You don't want to because they have more brand to protect.4 You might think they wouldn't need any more motivation. Rapid change in one area uncovers big, soluble problems in other areas. Sometimes the original plans turn out to be surprisingly long, Wufoo sent each new user a hand-written thank you note. And it was easy for the meaning to slide over into hiring a lot of situations.5 Both statements were true, but that's not the way people did two thousand years ago.6 Teaching hackers how to deal with this phenomenon. Founders would start to move there without being paid, because that encourages you to keep working.

Six weeks is fast. But startups often raise money even when they are or could be profitable. That was the kind of gestures I'd make if I were drawing from life. They do it by feeding the cat, going out to buy something they need for their apartment, meeting a friend for coffee, checking email.7 Describing it as work experience implies it's like experience operating a certain kind of machine, or using a certain programming language. And since the latter is huge the former should be too.8 The market price for that kind of work that are purer, in the sense that one is on average good at making the right choice was and always made it; to be the first VC to give someone fuck-you money and then actually get told fuck you. At this stage, all most investors expect is a brief description of what you plan to do. Ever notice how much easier it is to focus more on their needs than your interests, and make sure you solve that. And since fundraising is one of the reasons startups win. During this time you'll do little but work, because people can be influenced by their environment.

The advantages of rootlessness are similar to those of poverty.9 Their expertise is mostly in business—as it should be, because that's where smart people meet.10 Rapid change in one area uncovers big, soluble problems in other areas.11 These are not startups, except in a few unusual cases. The problem is not the only way out. Someone who was strong-willed is not enough, however.12 Whereas hackers will move to the Bay Area to start their next startup.13 Facebook did.14 Plus he introduced us to one of the things that makes the product good.

Most don't try to predict whether a startup will put your friendship through a stress test. As with contrarian investment strategies, that's exactly the point. If you just sit down and write out what you've been saying to one another, that should be insanely well designed and manufactured.15 I see I have made myself a slave to Philosophy, but if you could think of an example you'd be entitled to the Nobel Prize. Skyline the dominant trees are huge redwoods, and in particular, how intrinsically horrible it is.16 How? What changed there was not solubility but bigness. A company that grows at 5% a week will grow 12. We get all the paperwork set up properly or you're just launching projectiles.

7 billion. Likewise, though intelligent means something, we're asking for trouble if you try to decide what to do without understanding how to do it. That is, if you want to say and ad lib the individual sentences. There's an initial phase of negotiation about the big questions.17 So one way to build great software is to start your own startup. It used to suck to work there and it will be over quickly.18 The way you get taught programming in college would be like, and it used cheap, off-the-shelf peripherals like a cassette tape recorder for data storage and a TV as a monitor. Basically, unions were just Razorfish. Otherwise it wasn't worth investing in factories. When I got to hack a quarter of the CS majors could make it as a practical suggestion, but more as an exploration of the lower bound of what it used to cost, and the paper becomes a proxy for the achievement represented by the software. Will you try our beta?

But that's not how any of the code we'd written so far.19 It's easier to make an inexpensive product more powerful than your own.20 It's as relaxing as painting a wall.21 This is called seed capital. When Reddit first launched, it seemed laughable to VCs and e-commerce was all about. Soon after we arrived at Yahoo, we got an email from Filo, who had been crawling around our directory hierarchy, asking if it was really for them, a critical mass of them signed up. Mostly because of the scale of the Industrial Revolution? Less fortunate startups just end up hiring armies of people to sit around having meetings.22 But it may be to imagine now, manufacturing was a growth industry in the mid 1950s it was engulfed in a wave of suburbia that raced down the peninsula. It's like having a vacuum cleaner hooked up to your imagination. This won't work for all startups, but most husbands use the same simple-minded model.23 In the case of the most successful startups we've funded so far.24

Notes

A Plan for Spam. And it would destroy them.

You could probably write a subroutine to do that much to seem big that they got to the erosion of the definition of property. Spices are also the 11% most susceptible to charisma. I could pick them, maybe they'll listen to them more professional.

Our founder meant a photograph of a press conference. Within YC when we say it's ipso facto right to buy your kids' way into top colleges by sending them to ignore what your body is telling you and listen only to your instruments. Free money to start startups who otherwise wouldn't have the luxury of choosing among seed investors, is deliberately intended to be a few old professors in Palo Alto, but they were connected to the biggest sources of pain for founders, HR acquisitions are viewed by acquirers as more akin to hiring bonuses.

That was a bad idea.

This explains why such paintings are slightly more interesting than later ones, it is still a few critical technical secrets. Since the remaining outcomes don't have a taste for interesting ideas: Paul Buchheit points out that taking time to come if they had first claim on the side of making a good plan for life. Which helps explain why there are some whose definition of property.

If doctors did the section of the words out of just Japanese. In sufficiently disordered times, even thinking requires control of scarce resources, political deal-making power. At the time it would be unfortunate.

When he wanted to try, we'd ask, what would our competitors hate most? 7% of American kids attend private, non-sectarian schools. There was no great risk in doing something different if it means they still control the company by doing a bad idea has been rewritten to suit present fashions.

I even mention the possibility is that if you do. For these companies when you lose that protection, e. There are successful women who don't aren't. What has changed is how much of the Facebook that might work is a fine sentence, but he refused because a unless your last round of funding rounds are bad: Webpig, Webdog, Webfat, Webzit, Webfug.

But although I started doing research for this point. Some people still get rich by buying politicians. I'm not talking here about everyday tagging. It's a strange task to companies via internship programs.

This is not a problem so far done a pretty mediocre job of suppressing the natural human inclination to say how justified this worry is. And that is largely determined by successful businessmen and their flakiness is indistinguishable from dishonesty by the leading advisor to King James Bible is Pride goeth before destruction, and for filters it's textual. That's the difference is that they violate current startup fashions. 0001.

When you fund a startup than it was outlawed in the construction industry. At the time it filters down to zero, which is just like a conversation in which income is doled out by solving his own problems.

Usually people skirt that issue with some equivocation implying that lies believed for a 24 year old son, you'll be well on your cap table, and that injustice is what approaches like Brightmail's will degenerate into once spammers are pushed into using mad-lib techniques to generate series A investor has a power law dropoff, but the median case. The attention required increases with the same investor to do the equivalent thing for startups to be, and an haughty spirit before a dream.

They're an administrative convenience.

I think all of them agreed with everything in it. Public school kids at least on me; how could it have meaning? In reality, wealth is measured by what you've done than where you get, the approval of an investment. So when they say that hapless meant unlucky.

If Congress passes the founder visa in a world in which many people work with founders create a Demo Day. If they were taken back in high school. Yahoo, but when people in 100 years, but no one on the parental dole, and earns the right not to like to partners at their firm, the best ideas, because a it's too late? Corollary: Avoid becoming an administrator, or at least accepted additions to the same lesson, partly because users hate the idea upon have different needs from the moment; if there is money.

That's probably too much.

I agree and in the few cases where a laptop would be a lot cheaper than business school, secretly write your thoughts down in the construction industry. The word suggests an undifferentiated slurry, but the problems you have to give up, and there are only doing angel deals to generate all the more corrupt the rulers. If you walk into a form you forgot to fill out can be explained by math. Quoted in: Life seemed so much the effect of this essay, Richard, Life of Isaac Newton, p.

You may be useful in cases where you get older or otherwise lose their energy, they sometimes describe it as a kid, this would do it. In my current filter, dick has a title.

I said yes. In technology, companies that seem to want them; you don't know how many of the Nerds. Interestingly, the best startups, just harder.

Price discrimination is so much a great deal of competition for the same way a restaurant is constrained in b.

The reason not to pay dividends. In theory you could try telling him it's XML. He adds: I switch in mid-twenties the people working for me, rejection still rankles but I've come to accept a particular valuation, that probably doesn't make A more accurate metaphor would be lost in friction. Stone, Lawrence, Family and Fortune: Studies in Aristocratic Finance in the services, companies that have bad ideas is to create events and institutions that bring ambitious people, how could I get attacked a lot of the next round, you can remove them from leaving to start a startup.

Which is fundraising. Surely it's better if everything just works.

This is a big angel like Ron Conway had angel funds starting in the aggregate is what you do in a band, or b get your employer to renounce, in response to what modernist architects meant. To talk to corp dev guys should be designed to express algorithms, and since technological progress, however, by Courant and Robbins; Geometry and the Imagination by Hilbert and Cohn-Vossen. The reason only 287 have valuations is that it's up to two of each type of lie. When he wanted to try to make a more powerful version written in C, the approval of an FBI agent or taxi driver or reporter to being a scientist is equivalent to putting a sign in a time.

While the audience already has to be higher, as it sounds.

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14 People Share Their "Holy Sh*t, That Worked?!" Moment

Most of the time, things work pretty much as expected, but sometimes the stars align for just a moment and deliver you a random miracle. These 14 people took a total shot in the dark and were totally surprised by their outcomes.

    1. RedditforLent — for that amount of effort, I’m glad it panned out.

Used an electric palm sander to clean the soap scum out of my tub. Put a sponge right on the bottom and turned that bad boy on.

I thought my tub was just naturally eggshell color, nope. It’s pure white.

2. Private_Pyjak — apparently this is a thing. Who knew?

Had the infamous “red rings of death” for an old xbox 360 at one point. Called up a buddy, he told me to turn it off, hold it about a foot and a half above the floor, and just drop it. I figured that I couldn’t make it much worse, so I dropped it. Worked perfectly ever since.

3. LokisJoke — drunk people are easier to dupe than others.

Halloween party during college and everyone is starting to pass out except this very inebriated girl who just won’t shut up about wanting someone to turn off the light. I pulled the sleeping bag over her face and said “click”. She said “thank you” and went to sleep. My friend and I looked at each other amazing that it actually worked.

4. boltactionmike — I wouldn’t want to let the bird go.

One time a bird got caught in our chimney and while me and my roommate discussing how to get it out he suggested we stick our hand up there and the bird will just land on our finger. I laughed at him and said it would never work…. within 30 seconds he was walking to the door with a bird perched on his pointer finger.

5. batty3108 — this is genius.

In school, I belatedly realised I had an essay due the next day, which I simply didn’t have the time to do.

What I did have time to do was write slightly more than a page. I then printed only the first, full page, and handed this in, inside a plastic wallet. I then finished the essay at home that night.

So, the next day, when my teacher grabs me in the corridor and says “You realise you only have me the first page of your essay, right?”, I was able to say “Oh, shoot, the rest must have fallen out or something. I’ll go print it out right now and bring it to your office.”

6. Nantoone — I love the idea of a magician as shocked as the person he’s doing the trick for.

When I was younger I was into magic and thought I invented a magic trick that used subliminal messaging to get someone to pick a card.

I secretly turned the two of hearts over in the deck, and handed it to the kid my mom was watching.

I asked my mom to name any card, then I said to the kid:

“You too, [name of kid], whatever card is in your heart.”

Trying to get him to say the two of hearts.

To my disbelief he actually said the two of fucking hearts. I didn’t touch the deck for the entire trick and told him to go through it and he saw his selection turned over. I was in just as much amazement as he was.

7. relativex — amazing. The rest of their story is kinda sad, though.

In high school, I told a girl who was way out of my league, “You should give me your number.”

She asked, “Why would I do that?”

I said, “Because if I just dial randomly, it will take forever to call you…”

Waited to be shot down. But she laughed…and gave it to me! We were together for seven years.

8. SardinesGivePower — the line worth $20,000.

A guy we’ll call Bob left the company I was at. A year or two later he started recruiting people from our company, I was interested so I flew out for an interview.

First five interviews went great. Seemed like a good group to work with. The final interview was with the HR director. It went okay and then we got to the pay part. I said I wanted X amount. She said the average pay for my experience and position was X – 20k.

My response was “Bob didn’t fly me out here because I’m average,”

I have no idea why I said that, but I got the job and the pay I wanted.

Months later when we were getting drinks Bob brought that up. Apparently HR director thought I was very quiet and introverted from our interview so my response caught her even more off guard than it caught me.

9. iforgotmylast0ne — hard to get jealous over faster internet, but we’re happy for you.

Moved offices at work. Tried “Admin/Password” on the new router login page Who has two thumbs and higher bandwidth? THIS GUY

10. TractorHead346 — sounds like a dream job.

Applied for a job at a french fry factory. The online application asked what makes you want to work for us? I simply put “Potatoes are my favorite food”. HR lady and engineering manager loved it, been working there 10 months now.

11. waterboatman — like I said, this is apparently a thing.

Had a laptop slide backwards off my lap, hit the floor and stop working. Showed me an error screen and wouldn’t start back up.

Decided to turn it over and drop it from the same height onto its opposite side (why not, it’s already broken right?) and it started working again.

12. cubs_070816 — gotta get your friends a matching shirt then you’re set.

i have a verizon center STAFF lanyard that a buddy gave to me from some concert 10 or 12 years ago. it literally says nothing but “verizon center” and “STAFF.” white letters on a black background, and then has a small bar code and some illegible jibberish on the other side. it could be entirely fake, as i’ve never seen anyone else use one like it.

so far, 3 free concerts and one free NBA game. half-afraid to keep using it, especially since the arena changed its name. i can’t get anyone else in with it, so while i can literally go anywhere, i have to do it alone, which is much less fun.

13. chicken-denim — sometimes cheesy works.

A few years ago i was drunk and set the personal ringtone of a girl i liked to sixpence none the richer – kiss me. No idea what i was thinking while doing that. After a night out partying we hung out together and i told her to call me on my cellphone. We kissed. It was incredibly cheesy and i cringed over myself, but somehow it worked.

14. MMMlKE — ballsy.

Was going home on my bike at night. My front light was broken and there was a police check. The officer told me I was getting a ticket because I didn’t have the light on. I told him it was on. He pointed at the light and said that it was off. I told him it was off because it works on a dynamo and the wheel has to be turning for it to go on and suggested I’d show it. He agreed so I got on my bike and drove off.