#Even though I'm a ball of anxiety haha

[ladyofthelake]

Went to the fairy festival I go to every year in the woods it's so chill and fun and everyone is lovely and I got some gorgeous LOTR art prints 😍 plus a Glastonbury tor artwork 😭💚and also a Mumford and sons band played I will wait SO YEAH😭😭💚

[chuuyrrkisser]

A revised narrative.

— summary… It was supposed to be a regular Tuesday morning, you should be in college running to your next class and pray there were no assignments forgotten but here you were, isekaied to the middle of nowhere surrounded by nothing but cold snowed plane unable to move because your limbs are buried in the thick blanket of snow.

But hey, at least you were in your favorite anime– oh never mind, it's bungo stray dogs, you are so dead...

— content… dazai osamu/reader, chuuya nakahara/reader, reader has an ability, Dazai—typical suicide mentions, slow burn, slow updates, angst, angst with happy ending, because I can’t write angst endings, isekai and transmigration…

— chapter 3/?

Falling asleep on the chaise in Mori's office was awkward; he was at his desk, immersed in whatever tasks he had, while you tried to ignore the fact that you were in a room with the port mafia's boss. Eventually, the weight of your anxiety surrendered to slumber, likely from the exhaustion of being in constant stress that had become your companion ever since you found yourself in this fucked up world.

After what felt like an eternity, you began to shuffle awake, blinking slowly as your eyes adjusted to the warm light through the room. It took a moment for reality to sink in before a groan escaped your lips as you realized it was not just a vivid dream; you truly had transmigrated.

You shifted uncomfortably on the chaise, attempting to ease the ache in your back from sleeping on the plush but stiff surface, you doubt this couch was ever used by anyone other than just decoration. The room was quieter than before, and when you glanced around nervously, a small sigh of relief washed over you at the absence of Mori. However, that relief was short-lived, for as your gaze moved to the edge of the chaise, you were met with an unexpected sight—a little girl with unnaturally bright blonde hair and a vibrant smile.

"AH!"

"Hello!" she chirped, her voice high and cheerful, completely unbothered by your startled reaction. You pressed a hand against your heart, it was just Elise, Mori's ability, and not some eerie, possessed doll come to life... even though she looked like it.

"Oh... um, hi..." you muttered awkwardly as you sat up straighter, as you took in her innocent demeanor, you realized she was not a threat—at least not in the way you had imagined. Her hair seemed almost unreal, while her joints had balls that appeared reminiscent of a doll's. She bounced on her toes, clearly excited to see you awake.

"I'm Elise, but I think you already know! It's so cool that you're from a whole other world! 2024!? What's that even like?" she exclaimed, her eyes sparkling with curiosity as she gripped the armrest of the chaise.

"Horrifying..." you whispered, a shiver running through your spine as memories of the rough events that had unfolded back in 2019 to the current year. Her brow furrows in confusion, clearly unable to catch your words, "What?"

"It's nothing, haha... um, so, you're like Mori's ability—" you attempted to laugh it off, steering the conversation in a direction that felt more useful to you.

"You know that as well!?" she gasped, her eyes widening with excitement and disbelief. It was endearing how easily she shifted from one emotion to another.

As much as you feared your situation, it was oddly comforting to talk to someone as vibrant as Elise. She was a contrast to the darkness that surrounded the port mafia. "Of course... so, where's Mori?" you asked, genuinely curious.

"He's in a conference right now," she replied, "Hey, are the books about us popular?" she added quickly, seemingly eager to change the subject.

"How are you away from him? Doesn't he control you in a way? And, yeah, I'd say it's rather well known..." You engage with her curiosity while trying to learn about her existence.

"Yeah, I am an extension of him—his sentiments, his thoughts—while being capable of humanity as well as supernatural abilities. And I was told to keep an eye on you unless he summons me," she explained, her tone turning serious for a moment, giving you a glimpse into the complexness of her relationship with Mori. "So, did I have fans?"

You couldn't help but smile lightly at her wide-eyed wonder, "Many people prefer you over Mori."

"Cool!" she squealed, her face lighting up with joy, genuine happiness taking over her. After a few moments of sitting on the thought, she turned to you with her eyes sparkling when you adjusted the hair away from your face, "I like your hair!"

Her unexpected compliment caught you off guard, and you felt warmth creep up your cheeks. "Oh, well, I like yours too..." you stammered, feeling the awkwardness of the moment.

"Hey, you know what we should do? We should decorate each other's hair!" she exclaimed, practically bouncing on her feet with excitement.

"Oh, I'm not good—" you started to protest nervously, but she cut you off, "You don't have to be an expert with a degree! Let's use pretty colors and clips! Oh! I think I have some—" she continued, her voice bubbling with energy, as she dashed toward a corner of the room where a small box was perched on a drawer.

Just then, the door cracked open, and your heart missed a beat as Mori entered the office, a calm yet powerful presence. "Ah! I see you two are enjoying yourselves..." he observed, his gaze shifting between you and Elise. "Elise, dear, have you been keeping an eye on our guest?"

You answer before Elise does, "Yeah, she has... I haven't slept this well since kindergarten naptime!", Mori looks at you blankly, "You slept for 3 hours."

"I said what I said," you respond with a straight face.

He pauses for a couple of seconds, clearly processing your idea of sleeping well before speaking again, "Alright, well, I suppose we can continue where we last left off. Tell me, I'm curious about how this book goes."

You hesitate, a knot of anxiety tightening in your stomach. What if you unintentionally change the storyline? What would that mean for you? The thought of not being of use to the port mafia, and what they'd do to you if you weren't, sends a shiver down your spine. "Uh, well, it follows a couple of main characters, and from what I can tell, they aren't entering the scene until years later."

"And what events take place there?" he asks, his question reasonable, but made you wish you had used your slumber to prepare a script and revise it thoroughly on how you were going to navigate yourself through the plot without interrupting any of the major events.

"There is this book... anything written in it comes into—" he cuts you off, "reality... yes, I know about it. Do you know where it resides?"

You sweatdrop at the realization that you're not giving him exactly what he wants. "No, I do not. I just know a page was torn off and is in the possession of an ability user..." You trail off, hoping he won't press any further, but he continues to stay quiet, nudging you to continue, "There is also a side series of the previous events where... a member of the Port Mafia kills multiple vital associates."

"Do you know who they are?" Again, a reasonable question, but you didn't have a proper answer without affecting the plot with potential consequences if you told him the truth.

"Well, it is a side series so I don't know who it is but rather who they're after... Chuuya Nakahara. This person wanted to get rid of the people around him." You knew Paul Valerine was going to kill off the flags, whether you told Mori or not, and you doubted the world's most renowned assassin would be blatant about his plan.

Mori nods, his demeanor thoughtful as he walks towards his desk. He opens the drawers, rummaging through a couple of files and glancing at a few bundles of papers, his brow furrowed in focus. You can't help but wonder what contents were within those pages, but you resist the urge to creep closer. "Y/n, do you know any form of self-defense or even attack?"

You look around awkwardly, your eyes darting away from his piercing gaze. "No... I mean, a very few, but I usually just carry a taser if I can."

"Alright, I will have an individual take you off my hands and train you on whatever they think is best." His message takes you off guard, and you look at him agape, forcing a faux smile that does a terrible job of hiding your grimace. "Fun!"

"Elise, can you call in Albatross?" he commands, Elise hops off the end of the chaise you were sitting at, her energy contagious as she pipes up, "I'm on my way!" before skipping towards the office doors.

You stare at your thumbs, twiddling them awkwardly, the silence stretching uncomfortably between you and Mori as he continues to sift through whatever documents hold his attention.

"So... ya like jazz?" you blurt out a poorly timed punchline. Though it felt clammy, a desperate attempt to lighten the tension in the room, and for a moment, you wonder if you’ve completely lost your mind.

Mori raises an eyebrow, his expression shifting from judgemental to mild amusement. "Jazz? It's... alright. Why do you ask?"

You shrug, trying to play it off, "Just trying to lighten the mood, you know?" earning a chuckle from him, the tension easing slightly. "I suppose even amid the chaos, one must find moments of light." His gaze drifts back to the papers, as much as you couldn't tell, he was intrigued by you.

Elise returns, her footsteps are light and cheerful as she announces, "Albatross is on his way!"

"You called for me, boss?" A voice spoke as it entered the room. You looked to see the light blonde walk in. Mori looked up at him, his expression softening pleased by his presence.

"I have a young one who I presume can learn so much from you," Mori stated, his gaze shifting toward you. You felt a surge of attention and pressure as Albatross turned to look you over tilting his head to let his tinted glasses fall on his nose.

He took a moment, then hummed thoughtfully, "You askin' me to train 'em?" There was a hint of playfulness in his voice, which made you both nervous and intrigued.

"I believe you'd be best suited for their... personality." Mori's tone was laced with a subtle implication that you were somewhat bothersome, but you couldn’t quite decipher whether he meant it negatively or positively.

"Sure, I'll take 'em off your shoulders," the blond grinned, nodding with a confidence that was both welcoming and intimidating.

"Good," Mori replied, his tone shifting back to business. "Y/n, don’t hold back. Whatever skills you have, we need to refine them into something practical." you felt a rush of fear fall on you all at once. Training under Albatross promised a chance to learn how to defend yourself in this unforgiving place, but anxiety clung to you, What if you weren’t enough? What if you failed? Would the mafia simply dispose of you as if you were nothing? All these thoughts only established one thing: you needed a plan to escape.

"Follow me, kid! I ain't waiting for you," Albatross shouted, turning on his heel and striding out of the office. You hesitated for a moment, glancing back at Mori, whose expression remained unreadable, before hastily shuffling off the chaise and following behind Albatross.

The two of you made your way to the elevator, where he scanned his ID before pressing a button to whatever floor awaited you. The elevator ride was long and silent, the weight of unspoken words filling the cramped space, your mind raced with thoughts of what was to come.

Once the elevator dinged, Albatross exited, and you followed him into a dimly lit room. You were immediately struck by its vastness; the space was empty and huge, with a locker room and several benches. It was unmistakably a training hall, and a wave of dread washed over you. Oh god, you were utterly and completely fucked.

"Alright, why don't you try throwing a punch, kid?" Albatross said, his voice breaking your train of thought. You looked at him, shocked and hesitant. You had no idea if he had weapons or if he was going to attack back, and it made your heart race in fear.

"Just go for it! I'll be gentle with ya', don't stress!" Albatross opened his arms wide, presenting himself as an open target. The casual way he spoke made it seem almost inviting, but it did little to suppress your anxiety.

You took a deep breath, before stepping forward to throw a punch. Just as you threw your fist, it was abruptly cut short. In a blur of motion, your arm was yanked, and twisted, and before you knew it, you were pushed onto the floor, the crash sending a jerk to your senses. In the rush of confusion and pain, you caught a glimpse of his hand reaching down toward you, which sent your adrenaline soaring in a panic. Instinctly, you rolled away as fast as you could.

Everything felt dizzy, and you assumed it was due to the shock of being thrown to the ground so easily. You coughed up repeatedly, the taste of iron filling your mouth, before groaning in pain. When you glanced over at Albatross, he was staring at you with an expression that was somewhere between amusement and disbelief.

"Okay, I was not that bad!" you managed to cough out, resentment mixing with your confusion. Albatross burst into laughter, his amusement only intensifying your irritation.

"No! That was amazing! You just teleported!" Albatross exclaimed, pointing excitedly to where you had been just moments before and where you were now sprawled on the floor.

"I did what!?" you gasped, trying to pick yourself up from the ground while scanning your surroundings. "Yeah! Probs didn't notice because you're coughing up blood!" He pointed at your mouth, where crimson droplets dribbled down your chin.

  "WHAT!?"

— next chapter…

[mrsnancywheeler]

omg i was offline for a while but now im feasting on ur fics as i catch up HAHA😋🍽️ (sorry if i flood ur inbox in the process </3)

but with ur recent post talking about the reader��s trauma with hypothermia has got me #thinking. bc where i live, the weather is so spontaneous. it could be clear skies for one minute and suddenly just pouring rain/snow the next.

so i wonder what it would be like if the weather in district four was the same :( like it hurts so much thinking abt finn and the reader having a good day outside (it might be one of the first few times they’ve gone out together in a while) bc she finally feels ok enough. Then it suddenly starts raining and she just shuts down— or maybe she tries to act okay for finn because he was really looking forward to going out with his sweet girl :(( im just rambling lmao sorry

but i was also #thinking abt how on their first date, the reader jumps into the water and finnick joins her :(( and they spent the rest of their date swimming etc :(( and tft, shortly after winning her games, they probably couldn’t do that for a while bc either the cold water reminds her of the hypothermia or when marlow nearly drowned her :( I just imagined finnick swimming by himself and missing his sweet girl :((

idk i just be saying things HAHA ok time to catch up on everything 🏃‍♀️💨

-🦅

literally missed you so much pookie 💋💋

I hope you eat well and literally please flood my inbox I love it so so much

reader is literally like a professional masker most of the time lmao. so like maybe they're a few months out from her games, the spontaneous weather of it all has made it really difficult for her to go outside besides going to the markets with finnick a couple of times or sitting on the balcony. and she's so confused about how she feels about the ocean now because she loves it and always has, but now it makes her survival instincts kick in or brings her back to a place of near death. eventually when the water was warm she'd be able to to do warm water, and after a few years it really restricts itself to the cold and freezing rain, but for a while her relationship with water and the weather is very tumultuous.

but like finnick sees the weather is nice one day and asks reader if they can go sailing again. he hasn't been able to enjoy doing it alone since he first did it with her, and he misses it. and she misses it too even if it's difficult to let herself do, and she wants him to be happy. so she agrees. he packs lunch, she picks a book to read to him, he's got his fishing poles, and everything is set up. for most of the day it's good, it's warm and sunny, they're both grateful for the heat to be beating down on their skin. finnick would notice the clouds coming in first and quietly try to start leading the boat back to shore. letting her keep reading as not to disturb her, so this will just be a close call instead. but the weather has other plans and when he realizes this he has no choice but to mention it.

"angel, I'm sorry, I'm trying to get us back to shore, but it looks like it's going to rain. we're not going to be in it for long, I'm sorry."

and she's his sweet girl, so even though her stomach is turning with anxiety, she smiles through it. "it's okay, finn, I'll be fine." he knows it's a lie and she's already curling up into a ball, but there's not much he can do except reassure her that it will be okay. then the rain starts, it's not terribly cold, but it's rain. she strains to make small talk, but it's impossible to resist the urge to transport herself back into the arena. to cover her ears and try to provide warmth from curling up.

and finnick is trying to sail back, but also protect her from the rain, to tell her that it's all okay, to rub circles on her hands to keep her planted in reality. but by the time they've made it back to the pier she's having a full blown panic attack, that she can't hide even if she tries.

and he's getting her back out of the rain, into the house as fast as he can. getting her dry, bringing her back, breathing deeply, asking her to name things she smells, sees, hears, feels. when she's calmed down she's still crying and so apologetic.

"I'm sorry, you should go back out, I know you were excited. I'm really sorry, I always ruin everything."

"no, no, no, no, hey, hey sweet girl, don't be sorry. I'm not upset and you didn't ruin a thing, I just wanna take care of you."

once upon a time reader and finnick could swim every single day, multiple times and then suddenly it was stopped. not just because of the weather, but the water. and he'll never push it but he misses swimming with his sweet girl. he'll think non-stop about her, collect little treasures for her, but he diligently waits for her to slowly get accustomed to everything before then. but when she finally does start swimming with him again it'll be totally worth the wait.

yes yes yes, I hope you enjoy it ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[vitamango]

Oh! Hello there! Here's something different! A rare text post! I realize I interact very rarely here (and tbh interact very rarely on social media at all, in recent years) but I'm trying to figure out a nicer balance than just dead radio silence.

I guess, hi hello. I'm King -- I'm a nonbinary artist. I draw. I love video games and cute things. And I am trying to beat my anxiety over using social media back with a stick. I dunno how many of my followers are still active here, but regardless of whether you have found me recently or stuck with me for years, you guys really mean a lot to me. It's a really quiet little corner of the internet, but it's mine, and I find comfort in knowing that there's someone out there who was kind enough to take a moment out of their life to see my work.

I want to challenge myself to start posting a little more so I'm slowly posting some of my old art backlog, but maybe also just chattering mindlessly and finding comfort in blogging again.

Man, it's really been a while since I last posted a text post, huh. To be honest, somewhere in the last 2-5 years, I've developed some kind of crippling fear of being perceived and just kind of drop my art on social media like a cat dropping a dead mouse on someone's pillow for praise and just disappear back into the ether. I miss it, though! I miss interaction even if I'm not a particularly chatty person in blog form but, hell, it's a blog and it's silly to be worried about blogging... on a blog.

So here I am. I think part of the anxiety has stemmed from trying to slowly make the switch to twitter and there being so many unspoken rules of engagement on twitter that at some point it all just got all twisted up into a big ball of "well idk how to interact so I guess I won't!" and somehow that just kind of extended to pretty much every social media thing I have. It's kind of wild how hostile social media feels nowadays -- is it just me? I know I have a lot of anxiety but I hope someone out there relates!

Tumblr is a strange blogging platform, isn't it? It makes interacting with people kind of hoop-jumpy and difficult, and yet it still feels a lot more approachable than something like twitter in my opinion (my beloathed).

I've been considering making the jump to Cara seeing so many other artists do the same (and I have made an account), but to be honest, the idea of maintaining yet another social media account fills me with so much bone-deep exhaustion.

I've been really struggling with artblock recently and finding it difficult to find enjoyment in the hobby that I loved so much and has been so formative to me. It feels strangely alienating finding myself incapable of producing artwork the way I used to, but it's been a slow work in progress. Reviving my social media accounts is a step in some direction, honestly! Or at least, I'm hoping it will be.

Tangentially related, I don't draw a lot of fanart -- not because I'm not a fan of things but more because if I spend the energy on drawing, I often want to spend it on original creations (as the #1 and singular fan in that fandom LOL), but I always feel like I should do it more often -- mostly because it's such a delight to see other fans trickle in out of the woodwork. I think this every time in the rare occasions I do post fanwork, haha!

Anyways, I'm not actually expecting anyone to read this but if you did, hello! I hope you, specifically, (yes, you!!!) have the bestest of days! ;)

469th post on this blog, too. Nice.

[emetogirl]

Saw your post about wanting to hear other people's emeto experiences and I'm going through one right now so thought I'd share. I've posted a few bits and pieces as they happened over on my blog, but I'll combine them all into one post for ya.

On Friday at work, I noticed that the co-worker I share an office with kept excusing herself to go to the bathroom. And then I knew something was really up when she didn't eat anything at lunch (we had a potluck). I confronted her about it and she admitted that she had been feeling nauseated all morning, but she hadn't thrown up. She looked exhausted and I encouraged her to go home; there had been a bug going around work and it was likely she caught it.

She left and I went on about my day. Later that night, right before I went to bed, she texted me saying she'd finally thrown up. And me, being a bit of a emetophobe in real life, immediately started feeling sick too. I tried to tell myself it was all in my head and went to sleep.

When I woke up yesterday morning I felt "off." Just kind of achy and I had no appetite. My stomach didn't really hurt, but it felt like a pit of looming dread. I usually wake up really hungry, so not having an appetite concerned me. I forced myself to drink some water and continued nursing my water bottle to stay hydrated throughout the day. I really wanted to believe it was all in my head, but deep down I knew that it wasn't.

I also had an appointment to get my taxes done yesterday afternoon and that one little errand exhausted me. I took my temp when I got home because I was shivery and still really achy. My temp was a pretty low-grade fever (100.8) but it was definitely enough to make me feel blah. My stomach had also become really uncomfortable at this point, but I hadn't eaten anything all day so I wondered it was just hunger. I heated up some chicken noodle soup, ate a small bowl, and then went to sleep around 8 pm, hoping I'd be able to sleep it off.

A little after 2 am I woke up sweating like crazy and just knew I was going to throw up. I bolted out of bed and made it to the toilet just in time. I didn't even have time to freak out about it because it happened so fast. My anxiety skyrocketed after the fact, though, because I didn't want it to happen again but I still felt so bad and knew that it was probably inevitable. I was dizzy and seeing spots and felt so weak.

I stayed on my bathroom floor for about an hour just fighting the nausea until my stomach calmed down a little. Eventually I decided it was safe to drag myself back to bed with a trashcan nearby. I curled up in a ball to take some pressure off my stomach and ended up falling back asleep.

Woke up three hours later to a mouthful of saliva and grabbed my trashcan to throw up again. Emptied my stomach in three more liquidy waves.

I feel soooo much better after the second bout. I still have some lingering nausea but I don't feel as weak and foggy anymore. I had some water an hour ago that has stayed down and later I'll try some Liquid IV. Probably won't attempt food until tomorrow. My coworker said she only threw up a couple of times so I'm hoping I'm over the worst of it and it's smooth sailing from here.

Trying not to read too much into the fact that I caught a stomach bug the same week I started posting emeto content again haha.

Okay, first of all, Maddie, I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON THIS SUCKS SO MUCH!!! So many of us that are into emeto also experience emetophobia, and I’m probably one of the odd one’s out being someone that doesn’t. When you feel ready for food I always tell people it’s best to start out with the BRAT diet- banana’s, rice, applesauce, and toast! Usually sick tummies will tolerate those foods better than, like, a whole ass steak dinner😂

But worries aside, this was an epic story nonetheless and I can’t wait to read your post about it!

[shytastemakerthing]

Hii!! I would like to request a romantic matchup for enstars! :D

Starting with the basics : I am 158cm (5'2), I'm an INFP-T, my favourite colour is pink and I love penguins! Some of my hobbies include drawing, shopping, fashion, dancing, and playing video games!

I am a very socially anxious person, so I would need someone who is understanding and patient with me because it will take a While for me to come out of my shell. HOWEVER, once I do open up I am a ball of energy and chaos. I love joking around, making people laugh and overall being super lighthearted! The jokes I make are usually weird or obscure, or describing funny anecdotes that happened to me!

On the topic of energy, I am quite active. I like to dance and jump around at random times haha. Although I tone it down when around most people, It would be nice to have someone who likes that side of me.

I LOVE DRESSING UP. It's rare that you will catch me wearing a boring outfit. My style in fashion varies a lot, but I typically lean towards wearing colours (though I love an all-black outfit!) and cute / feminine styles. I love makeup too!

I'm an introvert, but I love hanging out with people I'm close to! Whether it's going into the city, shopping, chilling at someone's house, I'm down! Even when the occasion doesn't fully interest me, if I'm invited I'm going 🤣 (like when my friends invited me to see Fantastic Beasts 2 in cinema and I went, even though I hadn't seen the first one or any Harry Potter movie aside from the first one. I just like the company of my friends!) You Will catch me sleeping as soon as I come home however.

Now, due to my social anxiety I can be a bit pathetic when it comes to communication and get SUPER nervous when talking to strangers. I'm not assertive and I fear conflict (especially with loved ones). I'm a kind and accommodating person deep down, but people's first impression of me is probably that I'm kind of aloof and reserved and VERY quiet. I would also say I'm not that great at comforting people, I want to help but I struggle with thinking of the best things to say to them.

I can also be quite sensitive and take things personally a lot so I don't particularly like when people tease me about things such as what I'm wearing or how I look because I get insecure.

My love language is probably words of affirmation and receiving gifts. I like being reassured and encouraged and it's super sweet knowing that someone is thinking about me even when I'm not with them by giving me gifts! Even small things matter to me, I still own rocks and little origami that my friends have made due to the memories they hold.

I am a weird mix of optimism and anxiety. I think I have underlying abandonment issues and tend to lower people's expectations about me and my abilities in fear of disappointing them. Yet I also have a very carefree view on life, very much a "go with the flow" and "whatever happens, happens" type person who doesn't like being tied down by strict rules and constraints.

Sorry if I wrote too much, or it's a bit all over the place! Thanks so much!!! :3

Hello and thank you so much for your request and your patience while I work through the remaining ones! I hope that you enjoy it and have a wonderful day/night!

Request: Romantic Enstars Match-up

I match you with........

Hiyori Tomoe

Knowing that you love to dress up and go shopping, this man will absolutely take you to the best places that there are, money is really no issue to him

Granted there are times where he might get more for himself than for you but you both have fun regardless

Giving gifts is something that he will certainly do, he wants to spoil you in a way that only he can

Will certainly bring you to meetings that the Pretty 5 will have, you are absolutely perfect for their group!

Not to mention, they all love you as well

He loves that you enjoy the company of your friends! It's a rather rare sight to be able to see, to enjoy the company of others, truly enjoying their presence

In any moments where you are feeling more insecure over things, just know that he will be there in a heartbeat

He can't have his beloved partner feeling so down now, can he?

He will be at your residence with movies, snacks, blankets, and anything else to help you feel better

There are also times he will bring his unit mates or club members along

Make a date out if it

Just know that in the end, he will see you as his everything and will absolutely treat you as such. He may have his moments form time to time, but know that even then, he will be here for you

Thank you for your request!

[shingetsu-online]

...Is it mean to say I like Hugh better?

actually yeah no that makes complete sense. the guy's a ball of anxiety and self-loathing most of the time. oh yeah and he's very gay too. how did i forget that haha

^ all perfectly likeable traits. I'm just a guy though. a guy from a pokemon game. also hugh started the paper eating thing btw /srs

but it's not mean at all. perfectly reasonable statement, even! 👍👍

[amazingmsme]

Omg that tag vid 🤣 I can completely picture the main trio just spinning around the watch post and feigning going left or right at the cafe tables, tossing chairs to try to slow down each other. As for your most flustering fics hmngh so many of yours put me in Lee mood, and this got long and turned into my rambling like a nerd- apologies in advance!

I'm gonna say the Stanley Parable fics Disobedience Shan't be Rewarded, and Is the Bucket Worth it, Stanley? are some of the ones that get me the most. I think it's the way you right the Narrator. I have a weakness for Gods using their powers to mess with someone helpless and those fics scratch that particular itch for me wonderfully. Also, mock sympathy, and condescension fuck me up so bad in Lers and you write it so well? 🫣

Ooh Hands To Yourself gets me bad though 😭 Pretty sure that fic made me hide my face in blush multiple times; Essek especially took me out in that good Lord I haven't even met him but you made me frightened to haha as an easily flustered Lee. 🤣 There was also quite a few neck and ear tword focus and given those are some of my own worse spots, I was scrunching up reading certain parts there lol. Oh! Another thing about Essek's characterization I loved- how he feigned genuine anger, because I would absolutely panic and trip over myself to people please out of fear and fall right into his trap 🤣 Then after it comes out he's not actually upset and my bad anxiety would go away and turn into anticipation, like right before i go on stage for a performance. I think I'd more just get flustered, jumpy and skittish.

I thought your Castlevania fic The Moderator and the Monster are One in the Same was also super cute; I also wrote an Alucard/Reader fic a while back based on the library scene since it took me out. Still haven't finished the show because I don't want it to end/make me sad haha.

Fuck Off and Let Me Sulk took me out jfc, just found that now and we have similar tword thoughts lmao- Alucard calling Trevor out? I am always down bad for mean, teasy as Hell, Alucard. His voice and mannerisms kill me, and his adorable back and forth with Trevor at the end was so cute?

Okay no more rambling I swear! Hope you had a good rest and that this is semi-coherent; I'm gonna pass out now cause it's nearing 7am 🤣 Getting creative in the middle of the night is both blessing and curse

LXGSMAHSKD THIS IS LIKE THE NICEST THING ANYONE’S EVER SAID OMG THANG YOU ILY!

I remember having so much fun with the Stanley Parable ones, especially the first one! It was pure self indulgence rewarded by an unexpected shower of attention lmao. & omg my sweet baby boy Essek, trust me you’re gonna love this prissy bitch once you meet him! I was literally like a horse trapped in that box before the race & once I officially met him I shot off like a rocket! I really need to write more critickle role tbh cause I have so many ideas! Although I gotta admit, I’m not sure that one’s mine, so can’t take credit for that one, but I do have a long ass shadowgast fic that just so happens to have a very teasy Essek. & don’t get me started on castlevania! Omg I fell so hard for those boys! Their dynamic is so fun & their banter is hilarious! They need their own get along shirt, I feel like it would end badly lzavakdhkq but yeah, Alucard is a teasy bastard & he loves to bother Trevor, & the human is just too cute for his own good

Please don’t apologize for rambling! This made me really happy & it’s so cool to hear about what fics y’all really like! Especially when they’re ones I really enjoyed making! Wish I got better sleep, but the fucking construction woke me up & bug man is coming to spray, so fuck it, we ball. But omg please get some sleep! I mean, I’ve definitely been there after a night of endless creative flow, so I absolutely feel you. Sleep tight, & hope you have sweet dreams! & to everyone else… good morning! 😂

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Saturday November 18th, 2023

5:20am thought about him a little, but it hurts so much less now. I know my worth ❤️ also, my tummy hurts from that burger ig, but I will persist 🫡🧑‍🍳

Physical pain/ discomfort once again is being associated with wanting to be comforted emotionally really. If my stomach didn't hurt so bad, I probably would've slept soundly through the night. Plus the stomach achy feeling I think my brain confuses with anxiety/ nausea feelings, even though I think it's just my diet. Better diet = better physically = better emotionally/ spiritually.

My back really hurts too, so there's something else contributing to the generally anxious feeling.

8:41am I want to start waking up earlier I just need a good reason why tbh

4pm! He called me wow I'm kinda surprised bro it's like he was just waiting for a chance to get away from her 🤣 lmao. He was talking about getting a second job bc I guess this one is not giving him enough hours/pay welp. He still obsessed with how he looks and all he does is work, sleep, and go to the gym so what's new ig 😂 girly you already know you're straight so don't let anyone knock you off course 👑 haha he couldn't keep up so he left now he's trying to copy your grind 🤦🙄 he literally couldn't handle having a woman more successful than him that's literally balls crazy 😳

Anyway just got out of work so I'm a free woman! Going to change into my chill outfit and go soak up some sun! Oh and I also got free Thanksgiving lunch at work so yay! Let's keep the good vibes goingggg :)

8:23pm I have a fucking huge bag of kettle popcorn and I'm actually watching silence of the lambs now lol. Also PLEASE stop buying lobster from food trucks it's not WORTH IT. Pro tip I just need to learn how to do that at home 😂

[hyenabrainedpup]

Even more sexy asks OvO

28: Would you have sex in public?

D: What food if any would you use during sex?

E: Would you give somebody a sex toy as a gift?

28. Mm it'd be a complicated topic for me but maybe. It definitely depends, I'd get pretty worried about getting caught because i mean I'm a ball of anxiety anyway. Thoughh in a semi-private (as in no people around) area like idk a rarely used trail I'd maybe be okay with it. Despite my fears I've definitely had a few fun fantasies about meeting someone and having sex in a public bathroom somewhere. Being out together, maybe in town or at a nice restaurant and both of us just getting too needy to wait till we got home. Hmm

D. Might be a little basic but chocolate covered strawberries are always sexy and tasty. Oorr having some kind of puppy treat for me during 'training', maybe a little piece of chocolate or something that i like would be fun too. Would never put anything inside because yeast infections are the devil though haha

E. Yeah, probably! If it was an affordable toy and we were close or together i probably would with no questions :P. I've actually thought abt giving a toy of mine that i don't use to a friend who wants to start their own monster collection lol

[alexandraisyes]

Let's actually break into why this is so fucking harmful and demonizing to people who actually have ASPD (like me).

First off what the fuck is this thing. I'm literally just going to say it, if someone got me that and said it was supposed to "be like me" I'd sock them in the nuts. "This represents aspd" didn't know aspd was the fucking monster under my bed thanks buddy really fucking validating.

But oh no it gets better let's look at the product description.

First here's the bad it comes with.

That's real fucking cute and welcoming isn't it? Creepy ass eyes, drooling, pure void. Soulless, right? Because that's what people with ASPD are, right? They're soulless little monsters.

Oh even better he's in the dumpster. He's trash that's been thrown away because no one wants him and he's unloveable. That's the message we want to send about people with this disability, right? Dead animals painted onto the trash can with a </3 broken heart. Surrounded by trash bags because the person with ASPD takes up so much room that the trash piles up around them because it won't fit with them in there.

They're dirty and mangy and angry at the viewer, looking very cuddly and inviting, right? No, you don't think so? That doesn't look like a plushie you'd want to bring home? Yeah, me neither.

Oh, and of course the dumpster is on fire too, because we're just fucking dumpster fires of people who can't function, right? Or maybe it's supposed to be "edgy" but there's nothing edgy about having ASPD. It's extremely numbing and even distressing at times, not "edgy". Or maybe it's to tie into the stigma that people with ASPD are violent criminals and the most common crimes that are stigmatized in people who have ASPD is murder and arson, even though the disorder does not make you any more or less likely to be a violent criminal as literally any other disorder, and sadism and pyromania are not symptoms of ASPD in any way, shape, or form.

Let's look at the "symbolism"

The only part I even mildly like is the Rorschach coverings because I think that's neat, but we don't "see things differently". We're literally just neurodivergent, and often times I find that my opinions and world views align with my AuDHD spectrum friends. It's just neurodivergency.

It's not a vision disorder, for fucks sake, haha.

However they could have done the rorschach coverings MUCH DIFFERENTLY BECAUSE HE JUST LOOKS MANGY AND UNKEMPT!!! Which are both stereotypes of socio/psychopathy.

Most people with ASPD develop it instead of being born with it, so most people with ASPD are sociopaths. Anyone who has ever met a sociopath knows that we are not less afraid of stimuli, we just process it differently because we compartmentalize damn near everything. Literally every sociopath ever has PTSD and some kind of anxiety disorder, it's literally part of developing ASPD. So all the "wide smile and eyes" do is further play into the stereotypes that people with ASPD are soulless and heartless.

Especially since it looks like it's getting ready to fucking murder you.

And yeah, the thing about the eyes is true to an extent, but not to that extent. We just tend to be less emotive with our eyes is all, and there's literally nothing wrong with that. We're less emotive because we're constantly assessing everything around us, hypervigilance is a symptom of ASPD, and so it's unlikely to see us actually relax because we're actively documenting other people's social cues in every interaction.

We're also hypervigilant because in those who develop ASPD they've literally survived hell and are walking balls of trauma and nerves.

But sure, call it an "insentivity to stimuli" when in reality we're oversensitive and aware of stimuli.

OH YEAH HERES THE BEST FOR LAST

"Bunny".

"Bunny"

What the fuck do you mean by that.

I'll tell you what it is. It's a reflection of the demonization and dehumanization of people with ASPD. We're not considered to be proper "humans" by the rest of society because they aren't able to understand us and aren't willing to understand us either because we have a "scary disorder". It's an excuse to strip us of our human rights because we aren't "human" enough.

That's why it's a "bunny".

Once again, making it look purposefully wrong to enforce the stigma that people with ASPD are demonic and diseased, and that people who look "wrong" are "evil". The idea that you can tell someone has the disorder by looking at them.

And fuck them because we fit into social norms so well that people don't even know we have ASPD unless they tell them. The people who raised me didn't understand that I have ASPD until I sat them down and pointed out the symptoms that were present throughout my childhood and have remained to this day. It's not something that's easy to detect. We follow social norms to the point that it scares other people because they want to be able to spot us so they can isolate us because we have a scary disorder.

So fuck this design. They really fucking failed this.

The Plushy Dreadful for ASPD is actually ass and I’m tearing into my sides to not start screaming about why it missed the bar so badly that it’s in hell.

[salemorbit]

Thanks so much for the Imagine, I absolutely LOVED it!!! And by matchups, I meant the one where you send in a description of yourself and get a character you'd be shipped with. If it's alright with you, could I please get one of those for Breath of the Wild?

I'm an Autistic Bisexual Girl, very Boyish and Nerdy, but I'm still friendly and polite, if not a bit socially awkward, flustered and aloof at times. I can ramble on for hours about the things I like, namely Nintendo Games, Animation, Art, Folklore and a bunch of other stuff. I'm an Artist and Writer mainly, but I also love adventures and such. I'm very short, only 4' 11" tall, and I have a bunch of health conditions ranging from sleep apnea to asthma to anxiety. That being said, I'm actually relatively healthy and am working to build muscle, and I especially live swimming and taking walks for exercise. I have long fluffy brown hair, blue eyes, pale skin with a ton of moles and freckles, and a lean body type. I've been told I'm very cute, but Im also pretty tough, though you wouldn't really know it at first glance. I'm very excitable and open, but I can also be nervous and aloof at first.

Sorry this description was so long, I hope you don't mind too much! Thanks so much for the awesome request and offering to do these, I wish you the best hun!!

hehehe thank you!! i'm so glad you liked it that one was fun to write :)

gosh i had two matchups that i think would fit for you! i couldn't make up my mind to do just one so why not both HAHA

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BOTW Matchup!

Based on your description, I think you'd match best with......

Zelda and/or Revali!!

✨Zelda✨

Zelda loves to ramble herself about research and the like, so she definitely wouldn't mind if you found yourself rambling about something you were passionate about!

She would do the thing where she would take some time to talk about what she wanted to and then switch it over to you and give you time to talk and listen

Cute mutual stuff like that!!

She would also love to get you up and moving whenever you felt like you needed to stretch or your anxiety was getting overwhelming

Zelda would take you through the palace gardens and either talk to you to keep your mind active or walk in silence with you if you want just a peaceful little stroll :)

She especially loves your openness and willingness to go on adventures because she's always looking to further her research!

Zelda is also big into braiding hair so she would LOVE your hair and would always fawn over it if you like that

If you were to attend royal dinners or balls or something with her, Zelda would always be at your side if you ever got too nervous or flustered being around so many people you didn't know or starting conversations

If you like physical reassurance, she would most definitely give you a quick squeeze to your hand every once in a while to let you know she was there!

I just think yall would get along so nicely honestly and she would treasure you so much 🥺

🏹Revali🏹

I think you'd do pretty well with Revali because of your ability to put his own mind at ease

The poor Rito worries a lot himself (even though he never wants to admit it but, come on, we all know his mind is always working) so you being exciteable and talkative would do wonders to pull him out of his own head and into the present

Oftentimes he would use your ramblings as background noise as he cleaned or tweaked his weapons, though he would actually be listening and chime in every once in a while

He 100% would tease you if you ever got flustered, but it would be out of love every time and he would make sure that his voice had a joking tone to it so you wouldn't take it badly

If something ever did come off like he wasn't joking, Revali would continuously apologize and keep himself in check

In terms of exercise, Revali mainly gets his by flying but he doesn't have a problem with stretching his legs now and again if you want to take a walk

He appreciates your physique and desire to gain some muscle, so sometimes he'll have you train with him to get in different exercises

You're also the best size to fly around on his back, but he would be so conscious of not going too fast or too high so your asthma wouldn't act up

All around he has the BIGGEST soft spot for you and will show it in small ways when he's around the others, but very grandeur ways when it's just you two!

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i hope i did this all right! it's my first time doing a matchup and i wanted to get in things that i felt would match what you sent in :)

also i just figured out how to add gifs and images on mobile

thank you so much for sending this in! i'm open to doing further matchups if anyone wants

requests are welcome :D

[babblable]

SO, I am so sorry, but I can't decide what to ask for the character ask meme, so I'm asking EVERYTHING for Jackie pls forgive me ;w;

1. How likely are they to have a stuffed animal? What kind? How many?

They currently only have one stuffed animal atm. Their Sheepy Sleep Sheep. Or Fluffy as Jackie calls it!

If they had any more stuffed animals, they'd name every one of them. They do not though, only got the one.

2. What does their bedroom look like?

Currently, unless they're bunking with Abbigull in her captains quarters, it looks like your regular Salty Squabble barracks. I don't know if they're able to personalize it or not, due to the barracks being for crewmates hired for short voyages rather than long staying family.

Regardless, their room has always been pretty empty. Jackie doesn't have a lot of belongings. They didn't have enough to fill their studio apartment and what they had there is all being abandoned due to Reasons™️. They certainly don't have enough to fill a room right now.

3. Do they collect things for themselves? What do they collect?

Things to chew on, mostly? And Jackie, the child brained dumbass that they are, will put damn near anything in their mouth. They also like to collect gears, bits, bobs, screws, small pieces of metal and tools, though! Also anything dinosaur related. They LOVE dinosaurs.

4. Do they cuddle/snuggull/hug in their sleep? Do they talk in their sleep?

Jackie is the kind of toon that needs pressure when they sleep and thus snuggulls Very Much Into Things, but really only allows two birds, a dog and maybe a rat they've known for a while to be PEOPLE they snuggull into. Otherwise, they mostly just burrow into blankets and hug Fluffy.

5. What are they most afraid of? Does it cause them nightmares? How bad?

Haha, Listen to Warships for your answer to this one! :D

6. How do they respond to stress? Any habits they have when stressed?

Oh boy. They respond to stress mostly by becoming irritable and itchy. If it gets bad enough, they begin to stress molt and combined with their scratching? Depending on what causes it as well, they have gotten physically ill and lost their lunch before. Not Good. Tbh though, Jackie is easily prone to stressing out. They may not look/show it, but this penguin is a ball of anxiety with damn near no skills to manage it, yet.

7. Do they prefer warm, mild or cold baths/showers?

Warm baths, tbh! Showers are nice but they're small and sometimes the strength of the water from the showerhead hurts. Also, they can't splash around as easily in a shower, so not as fun! Don't expect them to come out actually clean though. They learned how to bathe from their dog Todd.

8. What's their view on socks/shoes/pants?

They wear pants usually anyways, so their viewpoint on those is just: [Meh!]

Socks and shoes though? That's a different story. They can't wear socks bc of their talons, but they can wear shoes! It's a learning process, tbh, but they're doing it! They can't figure out how to tie them though. Hmm...

9. Do they like ice in their drinks? how much?

Yes and no. Depending on the drink. They don't drink as many cold beverages as they used to anymore, but when they do, it's usually either icy cold or has plenty of ice in it.

10. Do they have a comforter? What is it?

Yes! Fluffy! Their Sheepy Sleep Sheep!

11. Favorite article of clothing/accessory? Favorite home decoration?

Hmm... Probably their light up sneakers! As for their favorite home decor... they don't really have any.

12. If they could live anywhere, where would it be? What kind of house would they have?

A lighthouse by the shore! With a sunrock to lay on!

13. Favorite game to play with family/friends?

Any game! Even dangerous ones!

14. Favorite moment in their life right now?

Hm... Perhaps their Mama Abbigull holding them til they fell asleep in the nest in the drifting cube. They had never felt more safe than in that moment, in the arms of their Mama after such a frightful day.

15. If they could have any pet, what would it be?

A frog! But they really really do love their dog Todd. He's a very good boy! The BEST Boy!

16. Chili, Soup, Stew or Other? What kind is their favorite? Why?

Soup! Jackie gets colds easy and soups are lighter on their already sensitive belly than the other two.

17. What's their opinion on their childhood, if they had one?

:'D Haha! Warships!

18. What's their view on their siblings?

They haven't quite adopted any yet, so I couldn't tell ya. Although one person is close enough to start being considered...

19. Who do they miss the most right now?

Their best friend, Legs and friend Bilgerat. Legs deserves an explaination the most out of all their friends and Bilgerat deserves to be told what went down, but also to enjoy his vacation.

20. What kind of touch do they need the most right now? Forehead kiss? To hold someone? To be held? [Insert other options here]?

To be held or hugged. Always. Tbh, more specifically from Abbigull and Legs.

21. What do they think their base needs are?

Water, Play, Attention, Todd, Fluffy, Sleep, Food. In that exact order.

22. Opinion on touch in general?

They Cannot Handle. It causes them severe physical pain if from a stranger, unprepared for it, and/or it lasts for too long.

23. Soft, stiff, normal or fuzzy blanket?

Soft and fuzzy!

24. Do they have a secret hideaway they retreat to?

There is a garden hidden away in one of the parks they like to go to...

25. What is their deepest desire right now? Will they work to achieve it?

To get away from Mortis. They'll do their best, but really, they have very little faith in themself and for good reason when compared to him.

26. What's something they're in denial of, if anything?

Wanting to be Bilgerats sibling. And also their worth.

27. What's something they're starting to admit to?

Abbigull being Mama Your Honor.

28. What would they do if they could go back in time?

Dare I say... leave the Glacier Rider.. They had plenty of opportunities to just. not go back to her. But they did.

29. Their favorite color?

Yellow!

30. Do they celebrate their birthday? How do they do so? How would they like to?

They've never celebrated before and honestly wouldn't unless the one person who knows when their birthday is threw them a party or did something to initiate the celebration.

31. How often do they get sick/injured? How are they when they're sick/injured? Sleepy? Needy? Bored? Fussy? [Insert Something Else]?

Jackie gets lethargic as hell and incredibly needy. Growing up a sick kid, their immune system isn't the greatest and combining that with what else they went through? Yeah, no, they're pretty prone to getting sick. It doesn't help that they really don't know what to do other than eat soup and sleep to make it better.

[sleepyfan-blog]

*Tired nyoom* I'm tired, stressed, and requesting some angsty Angel's Flower with that thing we discussed in Discord with Ink trying to basically get rid of Venus and take Heelies back home

fandom: Undertale AU

characters and pairing: Ink, Heliotrope, Venus - ocs by @izzy-the-bizzy Angel’s Flower

warnings: attempted murder, kidnapping

word count: 2,116

Summary: Ink is determined to save his poor, brainwashed son from the seductive clutches of Evil. Even if he has to kill to do it.

tagslist: @anxiety-is-married-to-depression @angelofthehalfmoon @trainwreck-of-skeletons @hisame-amadashi​ @therandomskelekey @capisnotonfire

Ink was pacing back and forth, the more that he thought about the argument that he had with Heelies, the more upset that he got.

“You do realize that Venus is Nightmare’s top spy! They are trying to turn you to his side, so that you will fight against us and spread evil!” Ink had pointed out with a growl, not wanting his precious son to be tainted by Nightmare’s darkness.

“Yes, I know that they work for Nightmare! But they would never hurt me, and I love them. They love me.” Heelies snapped back, his generally laid back and easy going demeanor having changed completely. The younger skeleton is glaring at his dad and his fists are balled at his sides.

Ink has never seen his son so aggressive before - further proof that Nightmare and this Venus have been trying and are succeeding in twisting his gentle, naive baby boy into someone dangerous and deadly. “Nightmare is an expert in breaking minds and twisting people to suit his will. I don’t want him to break you and turn you into a parody of who you are, Heelies. I love you dearly, and I want you to be safe.”

“I am safe! And you say that Nightmare is evil and wants to destroy the multiverse. He doesn’t - I’ve seen how he deals with some of the worst timelines I’ve ever seen. He negotiates with their leaders - the human and monster - in exchange for resources or space. Yes, he is interfering with the stories that the timelines are supposed to take… But he seems to be trying to interfere for the better.” Heelies huffed, glaring more at his papa, shaking with anger.

Ink’s eye lights widen, and he whispers just loud enough for his son to hear “By the creators… I was worried that things were bad, but I… I hadn’t thought that Nightmare and that seductive spy of his had twisted your mind so far…” He reached out to his son, but Heelies darted back, the scowl on his face darker than Ink had ever seen it.

“Ven hasn’t twisted my mind, and neither has Mr. Nightmare. Both of them are very different hen who you believe them to be, dad. I… This was exactly the reason why I never wanted to tell you that I was dating someone. I knew that you’d freak out about it, especially since Ven isn’t the sort of person you’d approve of me dating.” Heelies had hissed, hurt and frustrated and unwilling to let Ink reach out and hug the other close, to help him calm down.

“Heelies, please be reasonable. Don’t-” Ink began, trying to placate his son, but the other cut him off abruptly.

“I am being reasonable! You’re the one who won’t listen! I’m leaving and you can’t stop me!” Heliotrope had yelled, teleporting away and though Ink tried to teleport after the other, Heelies had used several portals through a half-dozen AUs, and Ink couldn’t track the other.

Ink had managed to find his wayward, manipulated son. Heliotrope was, of course, in the timeline that Nightmare had set up his main base - or at least one of them. It was the base that Nightmare held Dream hostage on numerous occasions, and trying to get into that timeline was always a pain, as the very magic of the AU seemed to resist his presence entering it. Ink was fairly sure that NIghtmare had somehow woven spells into the base code of the timeline itself so that he couldn’t enter timelines with liquids in them somehow.

But for now, the creative guardian wasn’t wondering how that was fucking possible. He had decided on a course of action. Venus was the one who had stolen his precious’ son’s heart, and as long as they were alive, they would have a pull on his heart, as Heelies was an intensely loyal and caring person (much like his papa, Blue)… So Ink was going to kill Venus and take his son back. He was well aware of the fact that killing them would hurt Heelies, but it would be for the best. Heelies would eventually forgive him, especially after the other forgot about Venus - as Heelies did have some of Ink’s own forgetfulness tendencies, needing to keep a pad of paper and something to write with in his inventory to keep track of important things.

He and Blue had argued about what to do for months and months. But Ink was certain that the longer that they hesitated and delayed, the more deeply brainwashed and darker Heelies would become, and the longer it would take for his son to recover from the awful misery that Nightmare was doubtlessly putting their son through. He wrote a note to Blue and Dream - in case either one of them stopped by the house before he was back.

I’m going to go get Heelies back! And make sure that the one who took him from us is permanently dealt with. See you later! ~Ink

With a roll of his shoulders, Ink concentrated hard on Nightmare’s castle, intending to appear on the roof, rather than inside one of the rooms, where someone could be in and then alert the rest of the castle to his presence. It took a solid ten minutes of focusing, but Ink felt his magic shift and twist.

He activated his eye lights and sure enough, the rust-red sky was overhead, the miserable bare dirt fields that extended in rolling waves all around the spikey, intimidating looking castle. Ink closed his eyes, a small smirk playing on his lips as he sensed Venus’s magic. They were alone from what he could tell. Good, that would make things easier. He teleported directly outside of the younger skeleton’s room, broom in hand. He activated a bit of his magic, the magical paint beginning to drip from the tip of broomy’s brush as he walked in.

Venus turned towards him, the smile on their face falling somewhat as they recognized him “I… Oh… Hello?” They looked a little cautious but confused. “Uhm… Why are you here?”

“To see you and Heelies, of course. It’s been months since I’ve seen my son, and I’m worried about him… You are in possession of his heart. He’s’ a gentle soul. Sweet, cheerful… Oh, he can pretend to be scary and bluster all he likes… But you and I both know that he couldn’t hurt a fly.”

“Haha… Yeah. Heelies is such a pacifist. It’s really endearing to see him try to spar against a couple of the others though. He tries really hard. He just… He’s wonderful.” The vile villain hummed, an amused smirk playing on their lips, a cruel parody of a loving tone in their voice. “He misses you and Blue. He won’t admit it easily, but I can sense that he does. He’d be so happy to hear that you’re in the castle ‘cause you want to talk to him.”

“Actually, I wanted to speak to you, first. As I previously stated, you hold my son’s rather fragile soul in your hands… And I just…” Ink sighs, shaking his head as he takes his brush from behind his back, beginning to lean on it, faux-casually “I’m just not convinced that you’re the right person for him. How many have you killed? How many AUs have fallen into NIghtmare’s control because of the intel that you gather? Dozens? Hundreds? I know that your LV is comparable to Dust or Killers, and they’ve both slaughtered their entire timeline - and that was before Nightmare got his hands on them.”

Venus flinched, looking away from him, shifting uncomfortably, their wings partially wrapping around themself in a gesture that would be a subconscious attempt at soothing themself if Ink didn’t know that they were a master manipulator - just like their boss, Nightmare. “I… I’d rather not think about how many people I’ve killed. I-I’ve killed many of them in s-self defense. Besides we’ve… We’ve been doing things differently in the past decade or two. Less murder and more negotiation. It helps that Papa and Sat drop by and visit. Their nagging helps Dad think things through a bit more logically. I… I know that I have blood and dust on my hands… But… Mr. Ink, sir. I… I really, truly love Heelies. He’s the light of my life, and I… I’ve never realized what it was like to be in love until Heelies came crashing into my life. I… I know that I’m not what you’d hope for in a partner for Heelies, but I try to be worthy of him. I… I know that I’ve become a better person, since I’ve gotten to know him.”

Hmmm… Venus had definitely been taught how to persuade others by Nightmare - that same silver tongue… Wait - dad. Papa. Whoever the fuck Sat was. Ink’s eye lights swirl in a chaotic swirl of colors and shapes as something that he’d been just about to connect for a while now finally slid into place “Wait… You’re Nightmare’s child? Not someone who he picked up in a timeline because he found you to be useful?”

“Yes. I’m his oldest child. Saturn is my younger brother… Did you not know that?” Venus responded, a startled frown appearing on their face.

By the creators, that added another layer of twistedness to all of this! It also explained why Dream was so… Strange when it came to Venus. He had a tangled past with Nightmare, and would of course be aware of Venus’s parentage. Why Dream knew so much about Nightmare, the positive guardian never said. But this… Perhaps with Venus’s death, it would give the dark and destructive lord of negativity a bit of pause to grieve, and give him and the other Star Sanses time to breathe and plan how to deal with the other’s charm offensive. “No, I did not. Is Saturn in the castle as well?” Killing both of Nightmare’s children would surely be a benefit to the multiverse - but he’d settle for the one who had stolen his son’s soul for now.

“No, Sat is usually with papa, or hidden away in some timeline that dad and I can’t get to, due to being negative beings. But papa’s gotten better about that as dad’s calmed down and the two of them have started talking instead of just fighting.” Venus responded.

Ink squinted at the other for a moment, before deciding that they were telling him the truth. He knew that Nightmare didn’t lie with every breath, though the creative guardian didn’t trust the bastard at all. He sent the other a warm smile “Well, this has been a very enlightening talk.  It’s just… It’s a pity that you are Nightmare’s child, haha. I was almost convinced that you actually love my son. Goodbye.” He struck as confusion filled the younger being, their movements slowed to the point where Ink was able to strike them down.

Venus had managed to dodge just enough to avoid a completely fatal blow, and the other screamed, their magic reverberating around the castle as a wave of pure negativity hit Ink hard, sending the creative guardian staggering backwards and falling to his knees.

Nightmare himself teleported in, confusion and fear on the other’s face at the gaping, paint-splattered wound, hissing as a couple of tentacles wrapped protectively around his child. “Ink-” The other growled, lunging for the creative guardian.

“Pfhaha… Good luck keeping your child from dusting, Nightmare. Perhaps now you will know the pain that you have inflicted on countless others. Ciao~!” Ink purred, a feral grin on his face as he teleported out of the room, reappearing next to Heelies - who was running towards the dying Venus. “Heeelies, my darling son! Time to come home!” Ink ordered, flicking his magic over his son, even as the other tried and failed to dodge, the other’s form losing cohesion as he turned into a purple puddle, the other’s soul floating on top. He scooped the other up and gently put him in a magically protected mason jar. “You be a good boy now and try not to reform. Papa’s got you. I’ll make sure that you’ll be all better. Besides, the wicked creature who stole your heart won’t be distracting you any more. Papa made sure of that.” With that, he teleported out of the AU, dodging several different bone and blaster attacks from Nightmare’s furious lieutenants.

Heelies was safely ensconced in his arms, bubbling and shifting in the jar in great distress, but the other would settle down soon enough. Ink was sure of that “Shhh… It’s okay… Papa’s got you… Shhh… Things will get better, I promise…”

[vantekay]

thankful for you

its (almost) officially the new year! although I am writing this post in advance, its a new year and its time for some fresh starts.

I wanted to start this new year off by making a thank you post to my mutuals, anons, and followers; starting out with my mutuals. Also this will probably be pretty long and sappy so just a warning haha.

@peachyuns was the first mutual I made on this site, we met over the dora au that plagued Twitter and freaked out over it together, although we don't talk as much anymore she still helped me kick start this blog! she sent me some tumblrs who did the hex code layouts I told her I wanted to start and I will forever be grateful for that, never forget how talented and sweet you are, I love you tam 💕.

@couture-kookie was the second mutual I made on this site and helped me a lot when it came to understanding how to make a masterlist 😂 we would send each other memes and talk about how ugly twitter is and I always laughed when we would message. You are such an amazing writer and an amazing person! I love you court 💕.

@melonkooky was the next mutual I made and I am so grateful for her as well. She helped me with this blog a lot too, mostly just me spouting ideas out and her telling me I should go for it 😂 but it was the motivation I needed to get this blog to where it is now even if it isn't too big right now. You are so sweet and funny and just an amazing person, not to mention talented at writing. I love you mina 💕.

@bangtanmssg thank god I got the balls to message you about making your masterlist for you. I'm so glad we met, and I'm so excited to be an admin for you new blog! It makes me so happy to know that you have enlisted so much trust in me and I hope you know I trust you a lot too. you're such a sweet and caring person and I hope we can grow as friends. never ever lose the light that you possess, because believe me when I say you can make anybody's day better just by being you. I love you sol 💕.

@vantaeta we met through the new blog! I was very nervous when I first messaged you about the theme of the blog but you were so nice it melted all my worries away. We clicked pretty much instantly and I'm so grateful to be working with such a funny and kind person. You are super talented and I hope you have happy days forever. I love you rae 💕.

@triviamang , you are so so so sweet and caring its so endearing and makes me happy if that makes sense haha. you have such a pure soul and I'm so glad we became mutuals. You're so talented at writing and I'm so excited to see how your account continues to grow, hopefully our friendship can grow along with it :) I love you ness 💕.

@ethertae you are absolutely lovely and I love you. we don't talk much but thats okay! seeing your posts on my dash makes me so happy. You are an absolute sweetheart and I love being mutuals with you. You are incredibly talented and such an interesting person, I hope we can grow closer this year :) I love you kina 💕 .

@namiiy I am so glad we met, you are the brightest and most positive person I have ever met. You've made my bad days just those little bit brighter and made me hopeful for the next days to come. Thank you for always being so kinda and having such a beautiful soul. I love you nam (sorry idk what to call you ah) 💕.

@taes-strawberry we only just met but! you are so amazing and incredible and just all of it. I thought our first convo would be awkward but it was so easy to talk to you and that is so amazing to me. I love how alike we are and I really hope we continue to be crackheads together. I love you rahmah 💕

to all of you I just made little messages for, please never forget that you are loved and valued. and if you ever need someone to talk to I am here :)

to my handful of anon friends:

I really do love you guys a lot, your asks never fail to make my day even if it’s something as simple as a hello. I always thought it was kind of silly when I saw other and bigger blogs posting simple asks and saying that it made their day until I actually started receiving them myself. even if you think whatever you have to say isn’t important believe me when I say it is. please never hesitate to send me an ask- anon or not- and tell me about your day, tell me something good that happened to you recently or even tell me something you just need to get off of your chest. I’m the kind of person who loves to help others, I always give advice and I always try to help to the best of my ability and knowledge so please always know that I am here for you, and if you don’t want everyone on the blog to know about what you’re going through you can always just message me privately! I promise it will always stay between us. my messages are always open for anybody and any situation :)

to my followers:

thank you guys for being here for me and enjoying the content I put out on this blog. I’ve always somewhat felt bad about myself as a content creator (though I feel like I shouldn’t even call myself that cause I do the bare minimum compared to other really good art or writing blogs but thats just me) because I don’t put out things like fics or reactions but that’s simply because I don’t feel confident in my writing abilities and I would be afraid to make assumptions about the boys personalities and just all that stupid stuff but even still, I hope you guys can always find something you like on this blog. I’m a very indecisive person who changes their mind a lot and is always wanting to learn and explore new things so this blog will probably have a wide array of things on it within the next year or so, and I hope you guys will stick with me through all and any content changes I may decide on. I have never been confident in myself as a creator but through this blog I am starting to find worth in the things I put my time and energy into, and I will always be eternally grateful for that and the only way I can think of expressing my gratitude for this is by saying thank you.

I haven’t been on tumblr long- if I remember correctly I made a blog in june maybe but didn’t start posting my own content until around august but I can’t remember- but in the short amount of time I have been, I have made incredible friends and laughed so so so much. I haven’t really talked about it openly on this site, but this year was probably one of the hardest, longest and most mentally draining I have ever had. Life was rough, I went through a lot of hardships and found out more about my mental health issues and how to start coping with them, I moved from my childhood neighborhood and started a whole new life at the peak of my highschool career and faced (and still facing) a lot of anxiety issues because of it but thanks to this blog and the amazing people I have met through it and the people I follow I have been able to end this year with a smile on my face, high hopes for the future, and dreams I feel I can actually accomplish. I said it before and I’ll say it again although I feel as if it doesn’t really express how thankful I am, thank you all for everything. My experience on this site has been nothing short of joyful and I hope it stays that way for a long time. I hope you guys, no matter if 2018 was a good or bad year for you, can also go into this new year with a little bit of hope and happiness for yourself and whatever you wish to achieve in the future. thank you for an amazing end to this year :)

[lenteur]

you're so precious !!! i'm sorry i've been away for a couple of days, work is really busy because it's christmas time and ugh STRESS

i'd love my job more if some customers weren't so rude all the time. i had an absolutely horrible call today with a guy who thought that trying to intimidate me was the way to go. (he didn't get far but he really got on my nerves.....) i wish some people were nicer to employees :( honestly i don't know what i want to do as like, a full time thing. i'm interested in a lot of crime stuff (not committing crime but solving it!) 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

maybe a bit of both?? 💕🥺 you're so sweet omg!! :(

oh my god SAME, i share ur pain 😭

it definitely does :( whenever i get into a new group, i always like to read about them so i can get to know a little bit about them (and see who shares my mbti or birthday if possible haha) and on kpop profiles, they always have their little "who's your bias" poll at the bottom. i get curious all the time and i just vote on them to see, and it's hurtful when i see one member has like 50k+ votes and the member at the bottom will have a couple hundred thousand :( i honestly hope no k-pop group ever reads into these because they can be damaging :( i mean, i know we all have our favourites but i love all members of every group i'm into equally. no one is least liked than the others <3

i'm definitely the same when i get into a new group, i have to paste the names into google to make sure i'm spelling them correctly 🤣 that's okay!!!! i forgive you in advance 💗

i'm EXACTLY THE SAME. my favourite show is criminal minds and every time i see the killer coming towards someone, i'm like LOOK OUT and then when someone gets hurt, i turn to my boyfriend like "HOW DARE THEY NOT LISTEN TO ME YELLING" 🤣 i think i am the worst person to watch things with. in the cinema, i'm as quiet as a mouse but in my own house, i do talk through things (unless the other person tells me to shut up)

i signed up to a stray kids secret santa and i followed this person who liked one of my gifs and then two minutes later i got an ask saying "this person is your secret santa" AND IT WAS THE PERSON I FOLLOWED !!!! like what r the chances <333 we became moots but they don't know it's me............. i hope.........

i hope we can definitely keep in touch once i've revealed myself <3 ily already, you're just so lovely and even though i'm a ball of crippling anxiety, i LOVE talking to you ❤ you made my heart SMILEEEEEE, i am sending you the biggest virtual HUG EVER 💚🥰

YES to all of those groups !!!! it'll never happen but i want a 2NE1 cb. my heart still hopes, i was OBSESSED with them !!!! was literally listening to "pirate" when i saw you liked everglow. they're so so underrated 🙄

their debut song was probably one of those songs where i was like what the hell is going on >.< i really did not like o.o, it wasn't until i watched their perf at mama that i was like THIS IS CATCHY :( loona deserve better honestly :((

also.... i have to ask...... do you like cats 🐈

(i know. u are the highlight of mine (brb kinda sobbing bc ur so sweet)

—svt secret santa 🎅 🎁🎄

It's okay 🤗🥰 you never have to apologise for something like that. Especially because you're braver than the marines for working in service (from what I've gathered 🧐🤔) I'm so sorry you have to deal with people like that man 💔 I don't know why people seem to think shouting and threatening is the way to go... I think the best way to make others understand you and help you with your problem is to be nice and cordial to them 💓 At least, that's the way I see things. And, whenever I go to a shop, I always try to compliment the people working there so their day isn't all sadness and frustration ♥️ Sending you good vibes and giving you big hugs for the holiday season 🫂💙💪

Yeah, especially for nugu groups, you'll only have one or two popular members (aka the ones they send on a bunch of shows to make the group more known) but the rest will be forgotten 😭���😭 I've learnt to not look at those surveys and go on with my life 💕

Oh 👀👀👀 I see you're a fellow criminal minds enjoyer 😊 I think this is a big clue as to who you are 🤭🧐👀 Who's you favourite? If I had to guess, I'd say Dr Reid (is that how you spell his name?). Let me know if I'm wrong 🤭 Mine is Penelope and I really like her little flirtations with Derek (I hope that's his name 🤞 it's been a while since I last watched an episode) I don't watch it as often now because I used to have nightmares about the killers 😭💔 TMI TMI !!! And, I'm the same 🤣 I can't help but comment every single thing on a show I'm watching on TV (I got that from my mom 💕) but at the cinema, I'm the one getting mad when there's someone talking 😭🤣 Call that duality if you will 🤣🤣🤣

No way 😳🤯 What are the chances of that happening? I would've been so shook if I was you 😱 I wouldn't know what to do 🤣 Hopefully the stayblr secret Santa event is going well for you 💞 I don't know how you manage to juggle with two events at once wow! I always stuck to only one because, knowing myself, I'll mix things up and then the one reviving my messages would wonder if I'm okay 🤣🤣🤣😭

Awee 🥺🥺🥺 the feeling is mutual 💓 You're so sweet and fun and kind and I can't wait to know more about you 🫶 Sending you the biggest virtual hug back bestie 🫂

Even if they never have a cb, I'll consider the Coachella reunion like their last ot4 comeback... The lengths we go to as blackjacks to keep hope 💔 Literally when you sent me the mouse game episode, it was already in my recommended videos on yt 😱 I was so shocked! And I see we both like everglow 👀 We were meant to be 🫂💓 I would've followed you and we would still be besties, even without this event 💖 I can't wait to have a nickname specifically made for you 🥰 with an emoji as well

Kind of a controversial opinion but o.o was kinda okay for me. I mean it's certainly not the best song that I've ever heard but I did enjoy it a bit ☺️ Still would've preferred if the entire song sounded like the second verse but yeah, I did enjoy it haha

Uh do I like cats? Is that even a question? OF COURSE I DO 😍😘🐈 (the caps were necessary because I had to show you how serious I am about my love for cats) I actually plan on adopting one 💗 But I have to see if my apartment and the area where I live match with the cat. I don't want to make a rushed decision. I want to give it the best conditions ever 💖 Do YOU have cats? If so, what are their names? I would've asked for pictures but you can't send them on anon 😔💔 I'll ask for some when you reveal yourself 🥰

You're so sweet too 🥺😭 I don't care if I look like a fool rn you're too kind and adorable and precious to not smile and feel warm all over 💖

Wishing you a lovely weekend and a lot of fun for the holidays ☺️💕