#English lang question 4 when I catch you

[meanderingtext]

Just did three questions from an English language paper and I want to CRY

[o-sachi]

Blue Lock Filo! AU Headcanons

𖤓 feat. isagi, bachira, chigiri, kunigami, barou, nagi, reo, sae, rin, karasu, otoya, hiori, shidou, oliver, yukimiya 𖤓 tags: college au, filo au, crack (kinda), sfw, written in Taglish because ???, not proofread lel

note: I'm sorry if your uni isn't here. My knowledge of universities in the country is limited to the big 4 and some others that participate in uaap sobbb

note 2: Send me your own hcs too plspls

note 3: filo moots sana magkaron haha what if

Isagi

He goes to UST and will correct you (nicely) about how to pronounce "Thomasian"

Goes to church with his family every Sunday without failure

He's close with his extended family too, especially the grandparents.

Golden child. Siya yung bata na example ng nanay mo na dapat gayahin mo raw.

A fan of indie Pinoy bands and watches indie Pinoy films.

Cup of Joe fan lol

Too shy to ask anyone out for the Christmas event sa UST (sorry limot ko na ano tawag).

Is in UST, but probably not taking up medicine. Parents were supportive of it though.

Mabilis mag-reply. He uses the 👍 and 😊 unironically

Friends with a lot of questionable/cancelable guys, but he's still genuinely the nice one among them

When he visits a friend's house, he's always chatting up their parents and helping around the house without being asked

Generic sinigang enjoyer :shrug:

Pretty much an average guy. Though he is definitely nicer than most. It shocks you.

(Sorry wala na ko maisip pero basta green flag siya).

Bachira

Goes to UP Diliman for fine arts

A manic pixie dream boy that girls gush about when they see him hanging out at the sunken gardens

Knows all the brainrot and even the Pinoy brainrot

Does the "Ha? Halaman" and says "Sinong nagtanong?"

Loves Jollibee because it's cheap and it tastes good

Spaghetti and Jollihotdog enjoyer

Social anxiety fears him. He'll do mostly everything you ask him for 20 pesos (sometimes for free)

Celebrated his 4th birthday at Jollibee and has a picture with the mascot lol

Bardagulan enjoyer

Has been casted in plays before and is genuinely good at acting

See him running in campus because he's always late to class

Puts too many songs in the karaoke but never finishes the songs because he gets bored halfway through

Runs a FB meme page...

Actually dresses nicely. Hindi mukhang pakboi

Not afraid sumabit sa jeep. Either sa tabi siya ni manong or sabit

Chigiri

Went to some fancy all boys like Brent, then is now in Ateneo

Could be studying business ??

Not conyo. Just straight up English with a really good accent

imessage lang daw mode of communication niya

Always wearing a button up, khaki pants, and loafers na Sperry or sandals from Birkenstock

Was featured in a commercial when he was younger

His mom was very active in the PTA. Their family was often the topic of chismis because yk maraming inggit sa paligid.

Does not listen to OPM or watch Filipino movies because 'corny' daw 'yun

Mabagal mag-reply since he's always busy doing something

Calls people 'baduy' or 'jologs' or 'jejemon' because he can

MATARAY SI ATE KO

Will never catch him on a dating app because, again, it's so baduy daw

Kunigami

I dunno but... UP Baguio vibes siya lol

Will always always always post on his story of him running along the campus

May post palagi ng gym progress at Strava stats niya

People think he's thirst trapping, but really, he's not

Also very close with family and they celebrate all holidays together no matter what

Karinderya food enjoyer (same)

Loves anything na lutong bahay tbh. He's not picky with food.

Mabagal din mag-reply pero that's because he's not chronically online

Does not get internet memes or references. Lolo po siya.

A really good kuya! The type to intimidate his sisters' boyfriends if they ever come to visit their house.

Probably also plays basketball too. They used to live near a gym/ring. He played a lot with the neighborhood kids.

Watches NBA and Manny's boxing matches

Shot puno. Red Horse. San Mig.

Pag nalasing nag-dadrama tapos kakanta ng malungkot na song sa karaoke

Laging naka sando LOL

Barou

UP DILIMAN TOO AND STUDYING ARCHITECTURE

Makes insanely good plates

Laging napapagalitan ni lola kasi nakasimangot palagi

Lola's boy by the way

Gets insane road rage because of the god awful traffic

"Putangina traffic na naman." / "Parang gago 'to mag-drive." / "Sige. Singit pa, hayop ka." (sa naka-motor)

Fan siya ng F1

Malutong magmura lmfaooo

Also a gym bro but doesn't care about sharing it on social media

Barely any social media presence

Tutors his younger siblings

Isn't ashamed of taking food from parties, stuffing it in a tupperware, and heading his merry way home

Argues with people on FB because he can

"Anong sinasabi mo. Bobo ka ba?"

Term of endearment niya ay "Tanga"

Nagi

Parents always get mad at him kasi nga tamad.

Also because he was a picky eater as a child. Would rather starve than eat that one ampalaya dish (was always served at his household which pissed him off)

Wanted to go to the same university as Reo but Ateneo is too serious for him. So he went with sports science in NU

They make sure to meet up still

Always misses his stops because he falls asleep or zones out

He's the guy in class who always has his airpods on no matter what

Hoodie, baggy pants, dunks

Mahilig umutang, pa-unti unti, pero madalas nalilimutan

"Ah. May utang ako? Sorry, nalimutan ko siguro."

COD player na palaging may battle pass no matter what. Nainis siya isang beses kasi sinabihan siya ng PC MASTER RACE. Eh cellphone gamer lang siya

Obviously, he had his ML phase

Trashtalker siguro. "Tulog ka na. Bata," type shi

Teachers always forced him to join the events in the sports fest

Reo

Siyempre, Ateneo 'yan. Management Engineering pa. 'Di niyo kinayaaaa

CONYO 'YAN FOR SURE

He's in a bunch of orgs and stuff because he's a social butterfly like that

May nanay na judgmental sa ibang pamilya lmfao

Was in one of those interviews on campus asking students about their daily baon

"Ah. Isn't 1k a day normal? It's kulang pa nga eh since I live sa condo."

Ayun. Nakatira sa condo pala.

Goes golfing with his dad and posts his swing on IG stories

Crypto bro. Shares his crypto stats(?) sa IG stories

Humble bragger kahit saan. Personal or on social media

Same porma with Chigiri pero mas madalas naka-polo shirt siya

Ralph Lauren and Lacoste boy

Laging VIP seats sa concerts. May napila sa SM tickets para sa kanya

Lowkey a D-list or C-list celebrity

Friends with Filo actors and actresses

Sae

Also Ateneo (Sorry ang daming Ateneo. Alam ko. Pero those are the vibes eh.)

Definitely went for medicine and is planning to study even more sa foreign country

The golden boy of their clan. Always receives the most praise and pasalubong from relatives

He hates hearing the "Ang laki mo na!" greeting

Never engaged in the pagmamano and saying of "po" and "opo"

SURPRISINGLY, he enjoys the dirty ice cream they sell on a cone (it's not actually dirty btw, it's what we call ice cream sold by carts on the street. it's edible dw)

Possibly a frat boy

Gets so many message requests on messenger and insta but he ignores them all

Strava enthusiast din

You'll see him running in all of the best gear

Not conyo. He actually speaks mostly Tagalog but there's that slight 'maarte' accent there

Hates being called 'rich kid' kesyo baduy din daw LMAO

They have a driver, so many yayas, a gardener... ay basta kumpleto staff nila

Ayaw nung staff sa kanya kasi suplado

Drives a BMW

Rin

Went to La Salle and got into LeapMed just to spite his older brother and prove to them that he is better

Relatives always compare them

Even though they're rich, he probably got a lot of hand-me-downs from kuya, which pissed him off SO MUCH

Not a fan of Filipino movies, but he likes the horror movies. He says some of them are really well-crafted and gives a good scare sometimes

Unlike Sae, Rin likes homemade food. I see him liking Menudo lol (I mean, who doesn't?)

Refuses to commute. He's driving or he's being driven. No buts.

Mas gusto siya ng staff sa bahay nila lol

He grew up with a specific yaya. They're actually still close now. He's closer to her than his parents.

The conyo one. Mahilig mag-mura pero exclusively English 'yan.

Takes the longest to reply kaya 'yan walang ka-talking stage lol

100% has beef with the younger members of his extended family. He has that annoying cousin that he tripped once because why not

He hates family reunions, of course

Karasu

UPLB. Fo sho.

Chemical engineering definitely.

Halimaw yarnnn (heart eyes heart eyes)

Bro pulls up to class in a shirt, basketball shorts, and flip flops

Not a fan of the nightlife there, but is a certified manginginom LMAO

Can outdrink his dad and titos. Kahit lambanog pa 'yan

Extra respectful to the ladies in his family. Gets ultra pissed off when someone jokes about getting with his mom or older sister

Malutong din magmura

His personal favorite is "gago" HAHAHA

Medyo dry mag-chat, walang emojis (pero 'yun ang gusto ng mga babae apparently)

Not a fan of Manila (smells weird daw there)

Secretly makes fun of conyo people lol

Street food enjoyer. His favorite is probably isaw or squid balls. Matamis and maasim sauce please !

He can cook, but his mom cooks better, so taga-saing na lang siya ng bigas lol

Mahilig siya sa tapsilog siguro.

Lives off of energy drinks to survive the semester

Crush ko siya. Hala headcanon ba yan HAHAHAHA

Otoya (Oh boy oh boy)

Engineering as well, but at Mapua. Probably electrical engineering or industrial

Gwapo na mabango HAHAHA

VAPES. Onti na lang naka-lanyard na vape niya

Listens to Zild and Hev abi...

Araw-araw may IG story ng car niya, ng music na pinapakinggan niya, or panibagong soft launch

Fan siya ng American Psycho at Blade Runner kasi he is him daw (akala niya siya si Ryan Gosling na may pinagdadaanan...)

Nasa Tinder at Bumble. Bio reads: "Let's see where it takes us."

Na-cancel na sa Twitter before pero wala siyang pakialam (unbothered king?!)

Favorite song ang FE!N

Rap fan 'yan eh

Nako... may Telegram 'yan

Valorant e-boy. Kailangan may duo palagi.

Says he's into cute chinitas probably

Laging may note sa IG or sa messenger lol

"Kumain ka na ba?" texts (hala siya)

Of course, good morning at good night texts din

Frat boy siguro (may frat ba sa Mapua? sorry hindi ko knows)

Drinks a lot, but he can't handle his liquor. Gigising na lang siya the next day may video siya sa boy's GC na kung anu-ano ginagawa.

Hiori

Computer Science probably. Also in UPLB. (Ang probinsyano?? HAHAHAHA)

Studying? Why study when he can be at the computer shop? He lives there, pretty much

Dorms because he wants to get away from his family

Can't be bothered with org/frat culture

Tambay sa forums like freedom walls/reddit/etc

Sumasali siya sa e-sports tournaments

LoL and DOTA player, of course

Also plays a bunch of stuff on Steam as well though. Pero babalik at babalik pa rin sa LoL

Also plays Valorant. Smurfs for fun because he likes crushing the hopes and dreams of people. "Sala ka pa. Haha, tanga," type shi.

Always down for the early morning runs to 7-11 or whatever's open at that hour

Puro pancit canton kinakain. Puro Mountain Dew iniinom.

He and his friends always talk about PC specs...

"Hindi, pre. Mas maayos pa rin 'yung ano..."

Shidou

Also from La Salle maybe? Not the Taft branch though. Hindi kasing yaman nung iba siguro.

Fine arts student! May art account siya sa IG

Napalabas siya sa McDo dati kasi masyadong maingay

Would probably vlog a day of his life at La Salle

Posts all the unhinged shit on their freedom wall and fucks with the people from the Taft branch lol

The reason why their group chat cannot be leaked under any circumstance AT ALL

Always has the weirdest nickname in their messenger group chat

Somehow I get the vibe that he enjoys inihaw lol (same)

Napunta rin minsan sa computer shop. But very rarely because he gets too heated and starts making a ruckus there (mapapalabas na naman)

Expert commuter. Baha has nothing on him. Waterproof siya.

Would probably engage in frat culture, but only for fun

A party animal. 10 seconds niya yung Cuervo ez

Oliver

Umm UP Manila Political Science? Maybe?

Always nominated for council positions or other important roles in university organizations lol

Major kuya vibes kasi

ANONG VAPE VAPE? DIRETSO MARLBORO RED NA

Which is giving out first? His liver or his lungs? Abangan.

Unlike Otoya, he doesn't really date girls at the same time, but more so, he moves faster than what you'd expect (may rebound palagi kumbaga)

Posts on his IG story always with the intention of capturing the attention of someone lol (lagi siya humahakot haha)

"It's not you. It's me."

Bro thinks he's the male lead of a Filipino indie romance film

Cannot shut up about I'm Drunk I Love You

Frequents BGC clubs as well. Aspired to be a DJ once

Lahat ng messaging apps meron 'yan. Replies very fast too.

Search up BGC Boy playlists on Spotify. That's what he does, at least.

Yukimiya

Maybe goes to Normal U. because he wants to be a teacher/professor

The typical softboi you see at a cafe reading a book or typing away on his MacBook

So many girls like him, but he's the type to be in a long-term relationship with a high school sweetheart or something

Most of his stories are of him studying (his notes, his coffee with his notes, his laptop screen)

Ben&Ben listener LMAOOO

Possibly also a lifestyle vlogger or podcaster

Keeps getting offers to model for local brands

Possibly religious (his whole family is)

He looks like he would like adobo. 'Yung may toyo, hindi ung tuyo (ANG RANDOM BAHAHAH)

Munimuni listener (he was sad when the vocalist left)

Wants to win a Carlos Palanca award eventually

Looks like the type to advocate for the local culture and is against colonial mentality

My brain ran out of ideas that's why some are shorter than the others lol

[romihearts]

heyo ! ┊ft. ace trappola

synopsis. tropa callsigns niyo ni ace kahit dating kayo

content. gn reader, intended lowercase, minumura mo si ace, kissing, tsundere reader ???? ewan

her notes. filipino work muna :3 bukas na yung christmas post katamad ngayon e also english narration to pero dialogue is filo ><

"uy, pre pakiss naman" ace said as he walked over to you, asking you for a kiss. you rolled your eyes at his request yet fulfilled it, giving him a small peck on the lips.

"ay? yun lang?" he pouted, expecting more. "ayusin mo muna sarili mo, nasa public tayo tanga" you flicked his forehead in response. though, ace continued to plead for even one more kiss! "sige na bossing, isang kiss lang" he smiled. and you reluctantly gave into his request, giving him one more kiss

"ano naman gusto mo? aking minamahal na idol?" ace offered, it seemed he wanted something back in return. "pshh, sabihin mo na yung gusto mo, may pa ganyan ka pa" you answered, arms crossed.

"dahil sabi ni honeybunch sugarplum ko, paturo nga ng lesson 4 ni sir trein" ace said, coaxing you with a smile.

"yun lang pala, of course naman pre!" you responded, taking his hand and heading to thr library.

—

the bright light of the library shined down on the two of you, while you were explaining the lesson concept to him.

despite the fact that ace was the one who asked you to teach him, it seems like that request was disregarded by his own thoughts. all he could focus on was how attractive you looked.

you continued rambling on, not catching the fact that ace was simply staring at you. a few more moments of explaining that you finally noticed when you asked ace a question to test his understanding. but instead of answering, he just stared at you.

the longing look started to fluster you. "h-huy, ace focus ka nga.." you stated. "naka focus naman ako, sayo nga lang" his response made you flush even more. "tsk, mag aral ka na nga" you said, dismissing what he said.

"hala naman si bossing, i love you lang naman eh" ace said, continuing to speak sweet words.

you flicked him in the forehead once more, "love you din pre, pero mag aral ka muna" you responded, leaving him with another smile on his face.

[sammyluvr]

yh i’m british so i don’t think many skls r weird like mine but a lot of british skls r WEIRD and have some questionable ppl (students and teachers combined) and rules so yeah. but all the teachers at my skl (more so the younger ones and the english teachers) wanna know EVERYTHING but the english teachers at my skl r the literal sweetest like i love them all ugh they’re all awesome

my english teachers from last year were goated, my lit teacher matched my freak bc she thought chad michael murray and jared padalecki AND jensen ackles were hot, she was also a great teacher bc i got a grade 9 (A*) and my lang teacher was a supernatural fan, didn’t understand a thing she taught me and got a grade 4 (C) but yolo. anyways my english teacher now is literally the sweetest person, i finally understand lang but im not getting lit unfortunately but i love her sm anyways yeah sorry for yapping

-💽

don't be sorry sweets <33 but i'm so glad you like your english teachers!! i had some really great ones in high school too !! (not senior year though... marge when i catch you HAHAHA she was weird... overall nice but sort of conservative and it was unpleasant at time lmao) anyways good luck in lit though!! <3

[baroquebucky]

chemistry

part 4

A/N: omg you guys i am SO sorry this is so late :-( I’ve been so busy lately i haven’t had time to finish writing this chapter, sorry if it’s a little shorter than the rest. I don’t know when I’ll upload the next part but send in some questions or requests! Love u guys <33333333

part 3

It was Monday. You sat across from peter, looking intently at the screen and sharply back to the book you were reading in class. You knew he was with mj, he walked her to class. You weren’t going to let yourself be led on by him any longer.

——

“dude just ask her if she likes you! She’s came to every one of the home games and she watched you march every single time she obviously likes you” Ned spoke. Peter looked at you, a small smile on your face and ignoring the football game in front of you.

“what about mj?” Ned rolled his eyes. “You don’t even like her anymore, all she does is leave you and hang out with her friends.” Peter glanced at mj, they were broken up for right now, taking a small break so peter could get his head straight.

Without thinking Peter walked down the bleachers and next to mj, smiling at her and sitting down.

“hey babe” mj smiled before turning back to her friends. Peter muttered a small hi before putting his arm around her.

Maybe if they tried just one more time it would work out. So he sat with her the whole time, laughing and smiling at her jokes. But he didn’t feel what he felt with you, the spark if you will.

When saturday rolled around and they had a competition he didn’t want to break up with mj, he assured himself that his feelings would come back after spending enough time with her.

Then he got your text, he was on the bus, getting the goody bags from the band parents and giving his good snacks to mj in return for her bad ones.

He panicked, at the contents of the message. He was with mj, he couldn’t just say “i like you too :)” that’s just gross, he had to figure things out first.

After being ignored for the hours on end they were on the bus and on the field and bleachers peter knew he would break up with her.

He’d make sure he was done with mj, then he’d go and get you.

——

Peter walked with mj after rehearsal that Monday morning.

“mj can’t we talk?” He asked softly, tugging on the edge of his hoodies sleeves, mj nodded and leaned against the lockers.

“listen, you’re great and everything i just- i don’t feel the same anymore. I don’t wanna date you anymore, i don’t feel anything and i feel like we’re together just to say we aren’t single. i don’t think we’re gonna work out” he spoke out, palms sweaty as he spoke and waiting for her reaction.

Mj smiled at him and pulled him in for a hug. “I know, i felt the same but i felt too bad if i broke up with you” she spoke, peter let out a breath and smiled at her.

“so we’re done yeah? no hatred?” Peter asked and smiled at her as mj nodded, saying goodbye and walking into class.

He turned on his heel, a smile on his face as he walked to class. He finally knew where he stood. He was single for sure this time.

He walked into AP Lang smiling at you, but you didn’t even spare him a glance, ignoring him the entire class. He tossed you a crumpled up paper, a joke and a compliment.

You saw the paper next to your foot. You picked it up and walked straight to the recycling bin, tossing it in while holding eye contact with the curly haired boy.

You heard the paper ‘thump’ at the bottom of the bin. Your heart racing as peter looked at you, pain evident in his eyes.

Walking back to your seat and continuing to read the book at hand you stated at the page blankly, wanting nothing more than to read the paper peter gave you and continue to pass notes the whole class, getting nothing done and having too much homework.

The bell rang and peter watched you walk out of class, not giving him even a second of your time. He really messed up, god high school was messy.

You sat across Esmeralda at lunch you were quiet, picking at your before she spoke up.

“I’m friends with one of peters friends, Ned” you nodded for her to continue. “Well he telling me that peter didn’t like mj anymore, and that he was gonna break up with her for another girl” she spoke with a small smile.

“really?” You asked, looking at her as a smile broke onto her face.

“yeah i mean these past few weeks I’ve gotten to get to know him and talk to him during rehearsal i think we really connected and” she stopped herself, looking at you warily.

“what is it?” You asked, furrowing your eyebrows and moving your head a little.

“and i like him too now.” You felt your heart stop. Is this some kind of sick joke? High school sucks.

“oh” you let out, shock laced in the one small word, you didn’t know how to feel.

“i know I’m sorry it’s just hes so cute and so funny and he’s fucking hot” she blushed drinking some of her water. You clenched your fist under the table, wanting nothing more than to punch her because, hey thats my crush, get in your lane.

“it’s fine” you spoke, forcing a smile before stuffing your face with food so you weren’t clenching your jaw about to fight the girl in front of you.

Thankfully lunch ended quickly and you walked back to pre cal, checking your phone quickly. One text from peter.

are you mad at me?

You decided to not open it, sliding your phone into the back pocket of your jeans and resuming your work.

Soon you were down the hall of your chemistry class. You walked slowly, not wanting to confront peter and his puppy eyes just yet.

“y/n!” You heard peter behind you and you widened your eyes. You picked up the pace quickly managing to get into the class and in your seat before peter could catch up to you. You had a few seconds to think of what to say.

“hey man” peter spoke, looking at you as he sat in his desk. You smiled at him and looked back down at your bag, looking for your notebook.

The teacher handed out two worksheets and began to put on the slideshow for the notes today.

“are you mad at me?” Peter whispered from beside you, the teacher still explaining how to do some stuff with chemicals.

“no” you spoke, not looking at him and continuing to take notes.

“then what is it? is it because of mj?” he asked and you stopped writing for a split second before continuing.

“no” you spoke, trying to keep your usual tone.

“just let me explain what happened” he spoke. You looked at him with a scowl on your face.

“peter just drop it” You hissed.

“Ms Parks and Mr Parker is there something you’d like to share?” She spoke and the whole class looked at you, sami laughing quietly at your red face and Ned biting his lip to stifle his laughter.

“no ma’am sorry” you spoke softly, looking back down at your notebook and writing quickly. Peter heard your increased heart rate and saw the slight shake in your hands. You hated getting in trouble.

“sorry i was just asking about what you said i didn’t see the last sentence of the slide” peter covered giving her a sweet smile before she continued.

He stayed quiet for the rest of the period.

When the bell rang and peter watched you walk out with sami he slumped in his desk before heading out with Ned.

“I messed up badly dude” he groaned walking to band with his best friend.

“she won’t talk to you?” Ned quiestioned and peter nodded.

“just give her time, she’ll get over it” Ned shrugged and peter let out a sigh. That was the only option he had huh.

As the week passed you and peter got back into the groove of things, whispering in class and passing notes to each other. You kept every doodle he gave you. And he kept every doodle you gave him.

Peter didn’t expect to see you at the football game that Friday. But there you were, sitting on the bleachers with your friend Genesis from math class, laughing at something she had said.

You looked like the most beautiful girl peter had ever seen. A jean jacket over a black hoodie with some slightly ripped skinny jeans. The stadium lights made you look gorgeous, peter smiled at the sight of you.

Your eyes quickly found him and you gave him a small smile before waving at him. He waved back quickly, blushing as you turned back around.

At halftime peter was down on the track, getting his shako and his plume to get ready to march. He searched for you in the bleachers and shot you a smile. You waved at him and gave him a thumbs up.

Peter marched beautifully, you could tell why the band directors liked him so much, nailing his every step and owning his solo.

When he was back on the bleachers you gave him two thumbs up, mouthing to him how great he did. He pointed down and you nodded, telling genesis you’d be back in a bit before heading under the bleachers.

you stood there looking for peter before you saw him walking with one of his band friends.

Once he spotted you he walked quickly towards you and you smiled.

“hey” he spoke, slightly red and out of breath from marching.

“you did so good!” You cheered, wrapping your arms around him before you could stop yourself, peter didn’t hesistate to hug you back, holding you close and hearing your heart beat clearer than ever.

“thank you” he blushed, his friend gone to use the restrooms.

“i have to go in a bit, i have some stuff i have to turn in for English since someone always distracts me” you smiled and looked at peter accusingly. He smirked at you and you nudged him.

“you wouldn’t trade it for the world he smiled and you rolled your eyes.

“no i wouldn’t Parker” Peter smiled at you before seeing his friend motion for the two of them to head back up.

“I’ll text you yeah?” He spoke, walking backwards slowly with a smile on his face.

“yeah” you spoke, biting your lip to hide the smile itching to break onto your face.

“okay” he spoke before turning around and jogging to catch up to his friend.

You felt your face flushed and went to go get some water, you felt like you were burning up even in the cold.

You said goodbye to genesis and headed home, finishing the work due at midnight just in time at 11:39 pm.

You closed your eyes and let out a small sigh, happy that you had the whole weekend to relax. The light from your phone lit up your dark room. You rolled over to check it, the bright light blinding you for a second.

from peter:

I’m home i hope you finished your work you scholar :P

You smiled at his text, remembering what Esmeralda had told you. He liked another girl. Was it you?

I am an AP scholar actually so shut your mouth >:)

You smiled as peter replied quickly,

so am i, your point is?

You and peter talked for hours, sending each other texts and memes until 2 am.

i have a competition tomorrow hehe i should probably sleep

oh my gOD I KEPT YOU UP ALL NIGHT AND YOU DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING PETER KSJXJXBSJ

I didn’t wanna end the conversation :(

whatever you dork goodnight and good luck tomorrow <3

Peter blushed at the heart you had sent him, his own heart racing at the sight of it and his face hurt from smiling even harder than before. His hands shook slightly from how nervous he was.

goodnight :) <3

You locked your phone and tried to stop yourself from smiling, your cheeks hurt way too much but even your best attempts couldn’t wipe away your smile. You closed your eyes and let out a happy sigh, maybe high school wasn’t so bad.

Peter woke up reluctantly at 5 am, throwing himself out of bed and giving a small wave to Aunt May as a good morning before eating the breakfast she had made for him.

“You look so tired pete! did the internship keep you up again?” She asked concerned, ready to fight tony stark if it meant her poor nephew could get some sleep in.

“no” peter spoke, a small smile played on his lips as he remembered the night before and texting you all night. “I was talking to this girl” he smiled as May’s mouth opened a little.

“wow okay, she must mean a lot if it means not sleeping before a band competition” peter groaned and cringed slightly at her words.

“that makes me sound like such a loser may! I’m not a loser, right?” His eyes widened a bit as May laughed at him, getting the car keys and rushing him out.

You woke up as the alarm you had set went off. You quickly turned it off and went to text peter.

good luck today !! you got this in the bag and make that field your bitch >:)

You sent the text and your eyelids grew heavy once again and sleep soon overtook you.

Arriving at school peter checked his phone as he received your message, his cheeks heating up and ears turning a shade of pink. He smiled and replied quickly.

thank you :)

Peter rushed into the band hall, going to find his uniform and matching shoes and rushing right back out to go change.

“you are awfully giddy this morning” Ned spoke from beside peter and he helped him with his zipper.

“y/n texted me this morning, she woke up just to message me” he smiled and Ned’s mouth flew open.

“oh my god she is totally into you dude!” He spoke hitting him roughly on the shoulder. Peter stumbled and bumped into the wall, being caught off guard since he was too busy wondering what you looked like when you woke up.

“i mean i don’t know Ned” peter mumbled, grabbing his clothes and walking back to the band hall with Ned. He rolled his eyes at his best friend and sighed.

“you’re so bling peter she goes to football games just to watch you march, she woke up to text you good luck and you both have so many inside jokes and make each other blush all the time” Ned shrugged his shoulders and left to go put his stuff in his locker.

Peter unlocked his band locker and took out his instrument, shoving his clothes in and taking a deep breath.

“hey peter!” A female voice spoke beside him and he turned to see Esmeralda.

“oh hey” he spoke giving her a right smile before turning oh his heel. She quickly followed him and attempted to continue her conversation.

“how’s your morning been?” She asked, and peter gave her a thumbs up, looking for anyone in his section to be with.

It’s not that he hated Esmeralda, she just tried so hard to flirt it was annoying. He cringed as she continued to follow him around, laughing at the small comments he made. Peter finally just pulled his phone out and texted you.

I’m so sleepy maybe i do regret texting you all night

He locked his phone, knowing you were dead aslee at this hour and instead went to find his section since he somehow couldn’t find them. Esmeralda was left talking to herself about a story even she wasn’t interested in. She furrowed her eyebrows and let out a huff.

She would get peter, no matter what it took.

The day passed quickly, you didn’t do much and just lounged around, relaxing before the hectic school week began once again. Peter texted you throughout the whole day, send you updates and pictures of him and Ned in their marching uniforms. You definitely saved the mirror selfie peter took, a bright smile peeking out behind his phone.

Sunday rolled around and you went to take a walk, seeing as though you had done all your homework and had no missing work.

“long time no see” you heard a muffled voice and you turned your head, a wide smile playing upon your lips as you waved at the hero.

“hey spidey” you spoke, looking at him as he walked up next to you. “how have you been? any crazy things happen?” You asked, kicking a rock infront of you and trying to keep it going in a straight line.

“Not really, i missed your company actually, I’ve been spending my nights just chilling on rooftops” he spoke, kicking the rick back into your path when it went sideways.

“aw a super hero missing little old me?” You smiled, wiping an imaginary tear from your face and laughing. You could tell the hero was smiling.

“so anyway, when are you gonna tell me how old you are?” You bluntly asked after a moment of silence. The eyes on the suit went wide and you quircked an eyebrow.

“what? not even who i am?” He asked, looking at your face for any hints as to what you were up to.

“well i mean i wanna know if i should refer to you as a boy or man in my head!” you huffed, arms crossing over your chest and stopping in your tracks.

“I don’t know y/n” he spoke hesitant to reply. You uncrossed your arms and put them into your sweaters pockets.

“you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want you, i just wanna know even one thing about you” you shrugged and continued walking.

if only you knew how much you already know peter thought in his head.

“16” he spoke out and you turned around quickly. A smile on your face, but that quickly turned to shock and then concern.

“16?!” You squealed and quickly ran up to him, poking his side as if to make sure you weren’t making this up.

“yeah i know don’t make fun of me” he spoke, you snorted lightly.

“you’re my age and you can probably pick up a car like it’s nothing! I am never making fun of you spider boy” you smiled and took a seat on a bench looking over a small pond. Peter sat close to you, hearing the way your heart rate was a little faster than usual.

“so how did that talk with the boy go?” He asked, clearing his throat, heart rate sky rocketing as he awaited your response. Karen took note of the spike in heart beats and informed peter to calm down. He only ignored the AI, wanting to just hear what you had to say about him.

“it wasn’t so bad, we didn’t really talk, he mentioned it once but never brought it up again” you spoke, watching two ducks swim together.

“did you ever find something out about him and his girlfriend?” He asked, nervous about the fact that you might not know peter had been flirting with you and that he was single.

“oh yeah, i figured everything out but i let him think i don’t know anything, it makes him work harder” you smirked at the boy and he laughed, partly out of relief and partly out of the fact that you really did make peter work hard to flirt with you.

“well I’m very sure that he’d work hard for someone like you regardless” you smiled at him and you got up, stretching and letting him know you were gonna head home.

“text me when you’re home” he spoke and you looked at him confused. “sorry it’s a reflex, but get home safe please” he spoke before swinging off to some other lady of the city do do more hero things.

You smiled at the fact that it’s his reflex to ask people to text them when they’re home, it warned your heart a little. A blush spreading across your cheeks when you thought of how close the two of you were on the bench.

The next day at school you wrote an essay in class, leaving no time for you to flirt with peter andyet somehow he snuck a piece of paper into your backpack.

As you headed to lunch and sat across Esmeralda she had a bright smile on her face looking straight at you.

“y/n! You’ll never guess what!” She smiled, and you raised your eyebrows, looking at her silently as she leaned in closer to you.

“so i was talking to Ned yesterday and he was saying that peter and MJ broke up” you nodded, along and signaled for her to go on, already knowing this information but not wanting to sink her boat.

“and he said that it’s because he likes another girl!” You chocked on your pasta and quickly drank some water.

“do you know who? who he likes?” You asked, your heart rate increasing as she smiled at you.

“Ned thinks that he likes me!” She smiled, her hands flying over her chest and she let out a small noise in glee.

Your heart fell and you were sure that you looked like you saw a ghost. Peter likes Esmeralda?

What about all those times you two giggled at the back of the clas sin chemistry and helped each other with the homework? What about him sacrificing sleep to talk to you? Had he done all that with her too? Were you always the second choice?

“y/n you okay? you look like you’re gonna throw up” Esmeralda smirked and you shook your head, excusing yourself and saying the pasta was bad.

You pushed open the cafeteria door and rushed to the restroom, pushing in one of the stalls and standing over the toilet, your heart rate slowed down and you felt yourself calming down.

Meanwhile Esmeralda smiled to herself in the cafeteria. Ned has only said that peter liked someone else, not once did he specify that it was her, actually he told her that peter didn’t like her. If she could get you to not like peter at least then you wouldn’t have him.

You walked back to the cafeteria, talking to Esmeralda about something you didn’t even know about. You kinda just went on autopilot, not wanting to think about the fact that the girl who wanted to play match maker took the one you wanted to match with.

You walked into chem dreading seeing Peter. He smiled at you and you looked down at the ground, you knew the moment you smiled back at him you would forget the fact that you were his second option.

“did you see my note? did you get it? francium and for real, because it fr” he giggled softly and you nodded, not looking at him as you passed your homework to the front.

Peter noticed the change in your personality, more closed off and not even sparing a glance at him, what had he done wrong?

“what’s wrong? are you mad at me?” Peter asked innocently, he heard the way your heart rate sped up as he asked you.

“listen Parker you can stop acting like you think I’m special, i know I’m just a second choice so you can cut the shit, i don’t even know what we were to begin with but whatever it was it’s done” you snapped at him, face red and jaw clenched, you got out of your desk and walked to the front of the room, grabbing the instructions and heading to the lab table with sami.

Sami gave peter a death glare and turned back to you, comforting you and soon starting on the lab. It was easy to tell there was tension in the room seeing as though everyone was pretty close in that class and kept glancing at you and peter.

You and sami headed to orchestra, peter and Ned hot on your heels as you all walked the same way, this time you weren’t all talking and peter wasn’t making fun of you for being in orchestra.

Orchestra passed quickly, your concert next week and you were scared about playing your solo. You remembered how peter was counting the days to the concert, promising he wouldn’t miss it for the world and he’d be the first to cheer for you during your solo.

You shook your head, sadness and anger rising in your chest as you headed home, taking a ride from sami’s mom to get to your apartment, praying that your mom didn’t make food so that you all could go eat some fast food.

You called out to your parents announcing your arrival, tossing the keys in the bowl your dad had bought and walking into the small living room. Your mom and dad smiled at you and you threw yourself on the couch.

“i didn’t cook today what do you wanna get?” Your mom asked and you smiled immediately blurting out “Thai” as a grin spread across your face. You dad laughed at your eagerness and you blushed.

Your phone buzzed in your pocket and you quickly took it out, seeing a text from peter.

I don’t like Esmeralda, i don’t want she told you but it’s not true please trust me.

Peter sat in his room, partially not wanting to go patrol today, he just wanted to fix things with you. He was too scared to admit his feelings. That would make it so real. And then he’d have to tell you he was Spider-Man and oh my god you would think he was weird for always looking out for you, like a stalker. What if some villain rolled up and found out his identity and tried to go for you! He couldn’t do it.

His phone buzzed in his hands and he saw your message.

Sure

This was gonna be a long night huh.

You have to trust me! I don’t even talk to her as much as i talk to you

I mean not that i talk to you both

I don’t

I mean i do but you know

you’re my best friend you should understand

You felt your heart fall even more at his last message, peter felt his heart implode when he read your response.

Yeah i am your best friend, so go date her, I’m your best friend so I’ll support you, I’m sure she’d love you.

I didn’t mean it like that y/n and you know that

do i know that? tell me Parker, how would i know what you meant?

Peter was at a loss for words. He i mean yeah he had been flirting with you but it was never any serious sign of affection, it was just jokes and laughing and talking.

you know what i mean :/

You opened his message and locked your phone, finishing your food and excusing yourself from the table, going to your room and changing into a baggy t shirt and some short shorts.

it was only 10:37 and you weren’t sleepy, you tossed and turned but one thing kept you awake. Peter.

Meanwhile Spider-Man was swinging around queens trying to find some yellow roses, to ask for forgiveness. He knew texting you would be useless so he called you.

Your phone rang and you jumped at the sudden noise, debating wether or not to pick up when you saw it was peter.

“what” you spoke, trying to sound mad but you were already smiling at the fact that he really wanted to talk to you.

“where do you live, don’t ask questions now, just-“ he sighed and spoke up again, “please tell me.” Peter was walking towards your house, he knew where you lived due to previous encounters with Spider-Man but you didn’t know that, so he had to ask for your address or else that would just look creepy.

You stayed quiet for a bit before telling him, he let out a breathy “thank you” before hanging up. You felt your hands grow cold and your heart was racing.

Peter swung into a dark alley next to your apartment building and changed from his suit to some regular clothes, taking out the yellow roses and mentally preparing himself.

Your parents were already sleeping so you quietly left your room and opened the front door slowly, making sure it didn’t squeak.

You stood there with your arms crossed for a minute before you saw peter come out of the elevator and walk your way. Your heart speeding up even more as you saw the yellow roses in his hand.

He smiled at you softly and you gave him a small wave, “hey man” you spoke and he smiled widely at your words.

“hi” he breathed out, checking you out not so subtly and his breath getting caught in his throat at the sight of you in such short shorts. “i got you these flowers” his voice cracked a bit and you stifled a laugh, taking them from his extended arm and saying a small thank you. “They’re yellow, for forgiveness, because I’m sorry” he rambled, cuddling with his fingers and looking up at you after he finished speaking.

You felt your heart rate pick up and your face heat up, your insides were almost shaking at how excited you were or maybe because of how cold the hallway was in your pjs. “Peter-” you began but he cut you off.

“no y/n listen i know it’s not fair of me to kinda lead you on and i don’t want to. You’re my best friend and i want you to trust me” peter looked at you, your eyes briefly meeting his before he looked down at the ground and then back up at you.

“i don’t like Esmeralda, really i don’t, i don’t know what she told you or what you think is going on between me and her but really there’s nothing” he spoke, his mind screaming at him to tell you he liked you. He could hear Tony’s voice yelling at him for being such a wuss and not confessing already.

You felt your stomach fall just a bit but it was expected. You gave him a small smile and nodded at him. “I believe you Parker” you spoke, youvoice shaking a bit and the hair on your arms standing from how cold you were.

“okay great” he smiled, quickly noting how cold you were, he quickly took off his jacket and placed it on your shoulders, you barely even had time to react by the time peter had finished placing the jacket on you.

“you already rejected my gloves at the game I’m not letting you stay cold again” he smiled and you blushed.

“such a gentleman parker” you looked down at the roses and back up at peter.

“only for you parks” he smiled and you blushed, giggling softly at his comment, peter wanted to take millions of pictures of you in this moment.

Your hair was messy and loose, you were wearing short short and oh my god if he doesn’t stop looking at you he’s gonna have to run. Your shirt made you look so cozy and you were wearing his jacket and holding flowers almost as beautiful as you.

Maybe he wanted to just risk it and ask you out now. Maybe he should. Actually, he will.

“y/n look what i meant-” he began, heart pounding before it was interrupted by his phone, he quickly pressed decline without checking who it was.

“what i wanted to tell you” he began once more before getting another call, he sighed and checked the phone, Tony. His eyes widened, he quickly spoke a quick sorry and moved a bit away from you.

“hello?” Peter asked, worried something big had happened.

“hey Pete i just wanna know what’s so important that you’re missing training? You realize you have a mission this weekend right?” Tony was obviously upset, and peter was shocked, he totally forgot he had training.

“mr.stark I’m so sorry something came up with decathlon and i just completely forgot i promise I’ll get there right after school tomorrow!” He spoke quickly, apologizing a million times before tony let him off the hook and told him to be safe.

“Sorry it was for my internship” Peter spoke timidly, looking at you with a small smile.

“it’s okay it’s pretty late so i should probably get back inside and sleep” you spoke, looking at him as he stared at you almost in awe. “you definitely should go to sleep you have band in the morning you nerd” you smiled and he blushed, stuttering and just nodding his head.

“I mean if it meant being with you i wouldn’t sleep” he spoke, blushing even deeper when he realized what he said.

“I’m not sure you mean that parker” you replied, taunting him slightly, your voice just above a whisper.

“i can prove it to you if you want parks” he replied, voice just as soft as yours. Both of you were very close now, not even a foot in between you guys.

“maybe you should” you whispered, looking at him and searching his eyes for something, anything to show that he really liked you.

Just as you were leaning in the door down the hall slammed shut and you both jumped apart, coughing a little to hide your embarrassment.

“I’ll see you tomorrow?” Peter spoke after a moment of quiet. You nodded quickly and began to take his jacket off.

“You can give it to me later, i don’t want you to be cold” he winked before turning around to go to the elevator.

“text me when you’re home!” He called after he had taken a few steps. You furrowed your eyebrows and he gave you a bright smile.

“you text me when you’re home too” you spoke before heading back inside to your apartment quietly, quickly putting the roses in some water and sneaking back into your room.

that’s when it hit you.

text me when you’re home.

Spider-Man said the same thing, almost the same tone. No, surely peter couldn’t be him? Spider-Man knew where you loved peter didn’t. Maybe peter asked so he could cover up the fact that he knew?

Your thoughts were working over time when you got a text a few minutes later.

I’m home :)

Peter visited you tonight, Spider-Man didn’t. He usually even checks in every not and then, you usually give him some grapes or a snack.

You wanted to ask him but decided to just wait it out, gather more evidence and then present it when you were sure.

good now go to sleep :~) sweet dreams <3

Peter smiled at your text and quickly replied with a ‘sweet dreams’ locking his phone and setting it aside.

Things will work out. Everything will come in time. Both good and bad things.

part 5

taglist (let me know if you want to be added !):

if there’s a line in your name it means you couldn’t be tagged idk why :/

@savedbystark @teenageeggsneckpasta @hphmincorrectquotes @squirtsquirtjigglejiggle @sonicisnotsober @qrangr @ghostiinparker @acenright @ksmy-99 @mutuallynotmutual @holland-tingz @martinafigoli

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Time for Another Tag Game

Thank you @reedyalikeabook for this tag!

Rules: Answer 20 questions ans tag 20 followers

1. Name: I go by Anni around here

2. Nickname: Anni is a nickname

3. Zodiac: leo

4. Height: 160 cm

5. Languages: German, English, trying to learn Trigedasleng (the con lang from The 100)

6. Nationality: German

7. Favorite season: I’m torn between spring and summer, but I guess summer

8. Favorite flower: Never thought about that ^-^

9. Favorite scent: horses, or tack stores. The smell of the woods after rain. Books, but only certain ones.

10. Favorite color: to wear: burgundy/bordeaux red. But I also like blue and purple

11. Favorite animals: horses and cats

12. Favorite fictional characters from books: Luna Lovegood (HP), Kady Grant (Illuminae), Lee Chase (This Shattered World), Spensa Nightshade (Skyward), Carswell Thorne (Lunar Chronicles), Finnick Odair (THG). These are all I can think of right now.

13. Favorite hot beverage: hot chocolate

14. Average amount of sleep: 7-8 hours

15. Dogs or cats: cats

16. Number of blankets: I have 2: one normal blanket and one fleece blanket.

17. Dream trip: I’ve already travelled a lot so it’s kinda hard to chose. But I wanna go to the Catching Fire filming location on Hawaii, go horse riding in Iceland and go to a big con in the US!

18. Blog established: 2014, reestablished 2019

19. Followers: 368

20. Random fun fact: I wanted to be a pilot when I was a kid and I still love flying a lot!

I tag: @angelonyourwright @passion-in-writing @princessofthefandomrealm @libri-et-coffea @castibella-shipper-of-the-lord @essentiallybookish @fancymyselfwonderwoman @thefairybookhoarder @missravenegade @fireheartswestfall @awkwardauthoradaeze @herbookaffair

Those are not 20, but I like to cheat on these rules. I also tag anyone else who wants to do this!

[pensatingbik]

Learning Lang Belta: The Basics List

Oye, xunyamwala!

This is going to serve as a go-to link to pull together links to the various lang belta learning resources I recommend to people. It'll be updated as new resources become available.

Entry Level:

The Lang Belta Memrise Course. Where everyone should begin their studies. Learn your essential phrases and vocabulary here. By the folks who brought you The Expanse Cocktails.

Lang Belta Cheat Sheet by @ItReachesOut. Original debut: Worldcon 75

Da Tékidok Da Lang Da Belta Da Lexica ("Lexica's Belter Vocabulary Spreadsheet"). This is as close to a dictionary as we currently have. Everything is sourced either to something Nick Farmer has tweeted, or confirmed via his Patreon. NOTE: the sheet “Eyepatch & Cork” is valid LB entries that Pirate made that still needs Lexica to go over it and verify the formatting. before moving to the main “Words” sheet. Yes; that is a “Dirty Rotten Shoundrels” reference.

Moving Beyond the Basics:

BELTER GRAMMAR: Tense & Aspect. Tense is about place in time (past, presesnt, future). Aspect is about relation to the low of time (ongoing, habitual, or completed actions).

BELTER GRAMMAR: Mood. Mood describes the speaker's attitude towards what they are saying. Ideas like "must", "should" "would", etc.

BELTER GRAMMAR: This, That, & Which; Interrogatives, Relatives, etc English is very casual about how one deplys words like "this", "that", "which", "who", etc. Belter is much more specific in how one says things. The interrogative such as "which(?)" are not only different from the relative "which…", there can be different words depending on number and proximity, as well as what the subject is (thing, person, time, place…)

BELTER GRAMMAR: Of Being, and Being Of: Copulas, POssessives, and Genitives (NEW 4/2020)

Written Belter: An Alternative Orthography: Why does Pirate often write the digraph "ow" as "ɒ"?

Fo finyish vedi ɒta xunyamwala (“To find other students of lang belta”):

r/LangBelta

Sharing with the Class: Questions and answers to/from Nick Farmer’s Patreon.

The Expanse Discord: Lang Belta channel

The Paine x MacTane Lang Belta Class Convention Scedule (COMING SOON): Introduction To Lang Belta taught by some of the earliest students.

Lang Belta as a Creole Conlang

Unpacking Creole Languages: a 4-part series.

Creole Exceptionalism and the Mis-Education of the Creole Speaker:

Pwof. Michel DeGraff is an MIT Linguistics Professor and creolist who helped Nick Farmer get his head wrapped around creole languages so that he could create a creole conlang.

“Unpacking” heavily cites DeGraff, and is very much an introduction to his (and related sxholars’) ideas around creole linguistics and sociology. “Mis-Education” is by DeGraff and while it’s not obtuse, but it is dense. But Pirate & Lexica Have found the comparisons of Kreyol and French very illuminating when thinking about how Belter works.

These two articles above are for people who want to know more about creole languages and the history of racism/colonialism around them, as well as get an idea of what Nick was going for when he designed lang belta.

More about Belter:

Ars Technica interviews the Creater of Belter Creole from “The Expanse”

Deciper Sci-Fi Podcast ep. 46: Language & The Expanse (w/ guest host Nick Farmer)

Nick Farmer (Lang Belta) & David J Peterson (Dothraki, Valyrian, Trigedasleng) in conversation: “The Art Of Language Invention”. Stay all the way to the end of the Q&A. Yes, Pirate manipulated his place in line so he was last Q. Yes, Pirate’s Belter was once that jankety. So keep practicing!

Nick Farmer on Geek News Radio (NEW JAN 2020)

Q&A With Nick Farmer (NEW JAN 2020)

A Silicon Valley Linguist (NEW JAN 2020)

The Belter Bartender Playlist: videos in & about Lang Belta

Nick Farmer’s Conlang Patreon. Got questions about Lang Belta (or language in general)? Wanna request new Belter words that we don’t already have? Join up, and drink from the source.

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ANSWER ALL THE RUSSIANMAJOR MEME QUESTIONS!!! i wanna know!!!

HERE YOU GO ANON!!

1. What is a sound that you can’t make?

tbh most of them, I can’t speak, but one notable one that I’d like to learn properly would be the emphatic/glottalized consonants in Arabic and Tamasheq, which I just sort of don’t do right now

2. Tell me what language you think of first when you see my url.

you’re on anon but i’m gonna guess who i think this is...catalan and french ;)

3. What’s your favorite script / writing system?

answered 

4. How old were you when you first started learning a second language? What language was it?

I think officially it would be Spanish, which I started learning when I was 12, but I did actually learn a fair amount of Malayalam when I went to India in 4th grade (10 years old-ish), so that might technically be the first time I really learned a language.

5. Tag three of your favorite langblrs.

ahsdjhkjhsjfkh don’t make me choose

Some langblrs that I think are really inspiring and cool are @goazen, @elnas-studies, @learngreenlandic, @fractalrainbow, @native-langs, @langsandlit, @languagemoon, and @culmaer, there’s probably more but that’s all that I can think of rn (and if I left you off the list it’s just because I’m just bad at keeping track of people not because I don’t love you

6. What’s something you have a hard time expressing in your target language(s)?

One thing that it always irks me that I can’t get across in my TLs is my really distinct way of talking in English which is a weird mix of random, oddly placed words, which in English is very calculated and is a stylistic choice, but if I do it in other languages I just sounds like I can’t talk. If one day I got good enough at one of my TLs to be able to do that, I think my soul would literally leave my body. 

7. Name a grammar point that seemed really heard to you at first but is now second nature.

Hmmm....maybe Welsh mutations. I’m still not great at them, but they’re a lot less scary with a couple years of perspective.

8. Are you a grammar snob in your native language(s)?

...........no comment................. (We Are Trying because in this house we do not support prescriptivism but also elementary school habits die hard)

9. Language pet peeve?

answered 

10. What’s your opinion on learning dead languages?

Okay, I’m all for dead languages if you want to, but there are also so many beautiful and wonderful living languages that I feel like people just outright ignore, and I prefer to learn those languages because learning languages is a way for me to learn about cultures and people that I might not have known much about before, and to understand where they’re coming from and what’s important to them, so dead languages to me just kind of....don’t get me anywhere, and I’d rather use that time to learn living ones. That being said, other people who study and love studying dead languages are so extremely valid and are doing really important work! It’s just not something that interests me personally.

11. Who is one person (famous or not) that is a language-learning inspiration for you?

Tim Doner was the first polyglot who I ever saw, and was my main inspiration for getting into this whole language thing, so I have to give credit where it’s due :)

12. Have you achieved any of your language goals yet?

I did set a goal, sort of as a joke, that I wanted to be better at Catalan than Spanish by the end of high school, right when I was starting Catalan, and that was actually what ended up happening. But besides that not really...then again I don’t really have any long term goals either, so it’s hard to say.

13. What’s a part of your personality that doesn’t translate when you speak another language?

See comment about esoteric words above

14. Which language sounds the most romantic to you?

I don’t really know if I have a language that sounds romantic to me...probably Catalan although Arabic is really pretty too

15. Have you ever dreamt in your target language(s)?

Definitely in Catalan. I remember with Spanish I kept having dreams where I would be in Spain or going to Spain but I never spoke Spanish (in one of them everyone in Spain spoke Hebrew and all the road signs were in English, and I woke up really angry that I hadn’t dreamt in Spanish; in another I was at a train station in Germany and the conductor talked to me in German but when I was going to catch the train to Spain I missed it). I also once had a dream where I talked to Xabi Solano in Catalan and he replied to me in Basque, but that was before I actually knew any Basque at all so... And I think I’ve dreamt in Welsh, but I don’t know how real the Welsh in the dream was.

16. Your favorite regional word or colloquialism in your native dialect of your native language?

answered 

THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME SCREAM ABOUT LANGUAGES ANON

(also sorry this took me so long to answer i was out for most of the day)

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6 Things I Learned After My First Semester of Junior Year

    I just finished my first semester of junior year in high school, and now that I have so free time after exams, I thought I would share what I learned in my first ever masterpost. Junior year is definitely hard, and there is no way to avoid stress sometimes, but hopefully these tips will help make life a little easier and less stressful no matter what point of your education you are in.

1. Percentages do matter.

    I started off junior year thinking a low A was still an A, but I didn’t think about how stressful it would be at exam time when I had 90s in most of my classes and no room for mistakes. Shoot for higher than your goal grade is, so that if the class gets a lot harder, your grade is still safe. Don’t skip out on homework or studying that you are totally capable of doing just because your grade is high enough. Take it from me. I did that and just went through all of finals week on the verge of a breakdown because of my earlier actions. So try your best if you can. 2. Keep up with your assignments.     Okay not gonna lie I’m still working on this one, but that doesn’t mean it’s not super important. Make the time to do the homework problems or reading, because it gets to the point when there’s no way to catch up if you don’t. For some classes like English or History you might be able to occasionally do it later and be fine, but in science and math especially, if you don’t do your homework the night it’s assigned, you’re getting nothing out of the time spent going over it in class the next day. You won’t have the concepts reinforced and more importantly, you won’t know what you don’t know when you’re trying to cram later.     I would suggest writing down everything you have to do in your planner, bullet journal, or phone, and setting time aside each day to get homework for each class done. When you’re doing the homework, don’t shy away from the hard questions. You aren’t learning if you’re only completing the problems you can easily do. Instead, challenge yourself to solve the perplexing questions. Spend the time necessary to attempt to solve a problem, but if you’re just not getting it, clearly mark the problems that confused you and ask a friend or the teacher when you can. 3. Reading. Is. Everything.     This is a truth that my AP Lang teacher beat into my brain. If you want a better SAT reading/writing score, better writing skills, a bigger vocabulary, or just more knowledge, you should be READING. Make it a habit. Have a time set aside every day – as soon as you wake up, when you get home from school, before you go to bed, whenever is convenient for you. Always have a book around to read, and be sure it’s something you enjoy. It’s good to challenge yourself, but it’s okay if you read cheesy YA novels too – as long as you’re reading, it doesn’t really matter because your fluency, comprehension, and vocabulary is still improving. 4. Being tired sucks.    Honestly, y'all. Go to bed. You will thank yourself in the morning. Get your homework started earlier if you have to. Procrastinating and then starting homework at 9pm is pointless. Do whatever you have to; just make sure you get your 8-9 hours of sleep. You do not have to be yet another sleep-deprived junior. Learn time management (I will link some sources for tips on that at the bottom) 5. Avocadoes     I learned to love them. They��re delicious, they’re healthy, they look aesthetic in studyblr photos, and they’re easy to make – all you have to do is cut one in half, take out the pit, add salt and pepper, and eat ‘em with a spoon. If that doesn’t align with your tastes, start by putting on toast with egg or just by itself and then eventually work up to liking them plain. If not avocado, find a vegetable you love that you can eat without any prep because then “no time” is not an excuse to eat junk food.

6. Don’t be afraid to quit.      I started off junior year by quitting rowing, something I had done for five years. It was starting to be a huge cause of anxiety and stress for me, plus I didn’t have many friends on an incredibly clique-y team. Point is, don’t force yourself to stick with something that’s making you unhappy. Drop that class that you hate. Cut out that friend you don’t like anymore. It’s not too late to leave one club and join another one that you always thought was cool. You may feel like you’re quitting or losing something, but in reality, you’re making room for new things – better friends, cooler classes, and more interesting extra-cirriculars.

Additional

productivity and time management masterpost by @effortanderudition​

more time management tips by @juniorincollege

general study tips from @elkstudies

if you’re a junior in the us like me you’re probably taking APs. here’s an amazing ap masterpost with resources for almost every ap class from @studaeing

this self-care post by @thegrangersapprentice 

I really hope this helped. Good luck to all!

[spacefires]

IB Survival Guide: PART ONE

As someone who’s been through the IB program and finished with horrible mental and physical health, here are some tips and tricks so that you guys don’t end up like me :)

Disclaimer: subject specific tips vary for SL/HL students, go to the bottom of the post to see what HLs and SLs I took

IAS

Please please start your IAs early! Split it out across multiple days! Honestly each section takes around 30 minutes for IAs

GET ALL YOUR THOUGHTS ON THAT PAPER AS SOON AS POSSIBLE FOR ANY IA.

Even if it’s the worst rough copy in the history of the planet, get all your words on there, THEN start editing, formatting, and adding pictures. Trust me, this is much less stressful and your final copy will probably be much cleaner

Science IAs- START YOUR EXPERIMENTS EARLY get as many trials as you can in!

Be sure to talk to your teachers about ideas for your papers beforehand!

Geography/English/French IAs- start early for these too. If you’re like me and you have “oh shit” moments when you suddenly get really good ideas half way through your work and have to restart, starting early for these is a good idea. Especially for geo, writing the IA is relatively easy, spreading it out over 4-5 days works well.

Peer editing is always a good idea, people may catch things you didn’t

EEs

CHOOSE A TOPIC YOU LIKE- Interest plays a big part in how well you do, choosing a topic I was interested in made me not mind spending so much time on my EE

Choosing a topic you don’t like may increase your chance of leaving it to the last minute

START YOUR EEs EARLY and have at least 3 drafts. I split mine up over the course of 4 months, and came out with an A on my Geography EE.

Like the IAs, do one section a day, for example, start with introduction, then methodology, etc. etc.

DO NOT LEAVE YOUR EE TO THE LAST MINUTE PLEASE

I highly suggest doing a geo EE because even if you don’t have results you’re okay, you just have to explain why there was no correlation

Geo EE protips: have lots of pretty handdrawn maps, you can have an ok data analysis and still get a good grade, have good methodology, 

discuss your EE with your supervisor often, make sure you udnerstand what you’re studying

EXAMS

Oh boy this is the scariest part of IB for any student

REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW as much as you can!

Study each subject for at least 5 days!

DO AS MANY PRACTICE EXAMS AS YOU CAN

Seriously, doing practice exams helps you get used to IB’s way of asking you things and you have an idea of what to expect

Do the practice exams guys

Just do them

If your school has mock exams, study really hard for them so you get an idea of how you need to study for the actual examsLook back on mistakes you’ve made on tests/mocks

While studying, focus on your weak points, but don’t ignore your strong points-- forgetting things is easy

SLEEP EARLY DURING EXAM WEEK 

Being refreshed and ready to go is important because youll be able to focus better and your brain will work better-- I did this and it was good

If you’re allowed to take snacks into the exam, take snacks into the exam (but not loud snacks, gummies and stuff)

take water into the exam but don’t drink a lot of water-- pee breaks are a waste of time

if you need to pee during an exam try to hold it in

just try to avoid having to pee

ENGLISH/FRENCH EXAMS:

You can study for your English Lit and French A lang lit exams in like a day if you’re not too keen on getting above a 5. Be familiar with the material

Memorize 5-7 important quotes-- preferable really short ones

Even if it’s not mandatory to memorize quotes, sticking quotes in is an asset

Spend 10-20 minutes planning your essay out, get your ideas down on a paper before writing your essay

Remember: quality over quantity, even if you have lots written down, it’s your ideas that get you most of the marks

Use highlighters, highlight important words, quotes, etc in the passages you’re given

annotate your passages

Have a colour coding system for your passages when you highlight, each colour should be an important point, but have 3-4 main important points, so 3-4 colours (this helps with planning as well)

If your prompt is like, discuss 2 OR MORE something something, discuss only 2, it’s easier, and you waste less time planning/writing, and you can have more ideas

SCIENCE/MATH EXAMS:

Practice problems are good, on top of practice exams

Understand the material!!!!!!!!!!! Memorization is not understanding!!! IB asks a lot of questions that require application

If you suck at calculus, try to understand it better and don’t be like me and assume there isn’t going to be a lot of it.

Seriously study the calculus @all you SL students

Study the calculus

GEO EXAMS

Yeah for this you need to memorize really well, see how well you know the material by going out on walks pointing at things and seeing how you can relate it to what you’ve earned

Study from multiple sources for geo, sometimes there are details that are missed

Memorize lots of case studies and stats!!!!!!!

memorize graphs and maps too, drawing them to support your points in your answers shows how well you understand the material

STUDYING

REVIEW OH MY GOD REVIEW E V E R Y T H I N G as much as possible throughout the year!!!!!!

Tips to force yourself to review:

Take shitty notes in class

This way you have to retake good notes-- wow you’re going over material that was previously taught!

Make cheatsheets! Even if you don’t use them during tests, cheatsheets are a great way to have all your material on one page and ohmygod look at you you’re reviewing your notes again to condense them!

Flash cards work too

Find a way to enjoy writing notes--  for me, I like using fancy pens and highlighters, that way I looked forward to doing it

Find a study environment you like! A cafe, the library, the park, even a different part of the house

Changing your study environment can also help you focus-- a change of scenery helps sometimes and you won’t get bored!

Talk to yourself

Seriously just explain concepts to yourself talk to yourself hearing yourself say it makes the info sink in better

Make really weird mnemonics idk it worked for me

Group studying can help for courses that need discussion in order to better understand concepts-- Geo, English and French

Explaining things to people also helps

Do your homework kids-- even if your teacher doesn’t check it, always find time to do your homework

Do things based on a level of priority

example: I have a test and a big project worth lts of marks due tomorrow (I would focus on the project, but still study for the test enough to have a good grasp of the material)

I know tests don’t count for IB but this is what your teacher bases your predicteds off of, so study hard for them kids. It is also a method of review

Most teachers understand how students can get extremely stressed out with the amount of work we get, if you need an extension for a non-IB related thing, you should be able to ~politely~ ask them

Time management is key, set up schedules for yourself

If you’re studying something you hate, go hard at it for a limited amount of time, then go and study for something you like, or take a brain break

TAKE BREAKS MAN

seriously taking breaks while studying is good

Use apps like forest to keep you focused

reward systems are good too, I do it with chocolate (one piece everytime I finish a chapter)

TOK

 lol good luck

The essay and the presentation are tough-- but you can do it.

The nice thing about TOK is it’s mostly a thought dump, so dump your thoughts before organizing them into an essay

Discuss TOK things with your friends a lot-- you’ll understand better, trust me, you’ll also get good ideas for presentations and stuff!

Get an interesting topic for your TOK presentation ok

discussion is the best advice I can give you guys

TOK is a special course

be prepared to get very angry because all your thoughts will contradict each other

existential crises are fun

That should be about it for Part 1 really, this is mainly academics based, I might add to this as time goes on.

If you have questions!!!! I took Chem HL, Bio HL, Geo HL, English Lit SL, French A Lang Lit SL, and Math SL, and did my EE in Geo. I’m happy to help any young ones out :))

Good Luck all you IB Students! You guys are brave, you can do it :)

[errolcandelaria]

2018

          Another year has passed. That’s another three hundred sixty-five and one fourth days, eight thousand six hundred seventy hours, five hundred twenty-five thousand and six hundred minutes, and thirty-one million plus seconds. That was a lot of numbers. I don’t know about you, but this year has been a ride!! I really went out of my comfort zone, I have met amazing people, made more friends, experienced a few firsts, released a pint of tears and at last, made a decision that I think would change my life forever.

          Let me break it down. January was good. I started the year with cough and colds, alone in my room taking videos of myself and the fireworks that can be clearly seen right on my window pane. This was also the month ~ I think~ when I made up my mind that I really want to pursue medicine. This was the month when I fell in love with all the hospital works. That I had envisioned all the times that I’ve been in a hospital, trying to remember the smell of alcohol drenched cotton balls; the hallways, the rush in the emergency room, everything. I never knew I loved those things until last 2016, when I started watching this surgical TV show that I am now obsessed with.

          February was okay. Like the usual, I hated my birthday. It’s eerie that I feel like there really is something in my birthday that I don’t quite feel like it’s worth celebrating for. I am not worthy of their time, money and efforts. There were also lots of questions that roamed my mind. To whether tell my parents about my plans or not; is medicine really for me; will they support me with my decision; and WILL I SURVIVE IF EVER I GOT INTO MEDICAL SCHOOL. There were days that I am adamant about my decision, that I tell myself ~ Of course I can do it!! And there were also weeks where I get discouraged, and the fear of making bad decisions really gripped my body tight.

          March, hmm. I couldn’t quite remember the events that had happened this month. But I am pretty sure this was the month that I went full on crazy about someone in our college. I really want to know that person’s name, but I had to go incognito because everything will be messed up if that person knew.

          April. CSSP NIGHT!!! LIT LIT LIT LIT!!! This was one of the happiest night of my life. Played bingo for the first time, got to see my crush perform on stage for the first time, AND ACTUALLY KNOWING THY NAME!!! Added on facebook, then got accepted the next day. O diba. I don’t remember that much events in this month. I am pretty sure I was still in the phase of constant dilemma about the decision I made for my future.

          May. The semester is almost over!! But say no more, I still had an internship over the summer.

          June. INTERNSHIP WOOOOH!! Lit lit lit rin. Pero hindi capital letters kasi muntik na ko magkaroon ng mental breakdown. Why? Internship. I never had a hardtime naman looking for a company to train to unlike some of my classmates pero the ~pressure? That’s what held me back talaga. I think? Culture shock siguro is the best term to describe what I felt. Ano ba. I was just a normal student tapos I get to be an intern in a huge BPO company tapos I had to talk to potential employees pa. IN PURE ENGLISH!! Syempre na shookt ako. Tapos I got assigned in a station right next to our boss pa!! Imagine the pressure. But she was really nice. She’s funny, approachable and all. Pero still nu, I couldn’t help but get intimidated by her presence. I lost track din on how many times I got scolded for doing the call outs wrong. I got the feeling that my supervisor has this impulse deep down to strangle me with the cord of the telephone I use. But in all, I still got to finish it. I finished it without even noticing I was almost done. Days passed by like hours. Literal. 10 hours a day ba naman ang oras na nababawas sa 240 hours ko eh. But seriously, I didn’t even notice that I was almost done with it. I met amazing people there, I got to talk with real people looking for jobs, interact with people older and far superior than me, which was my greatest fear!! Talk about getting out of your comfort zone huh.

          July. This was the month when I finished my internship. Actually, it wasn’t easy coming back to your old shit. I missed waking up way early to catch the 6:30 am UV so I would arrive at work at exactly 7:45. Separation anxiety? No. I just miss the ambiance. The faces of the people that I get to interact with daily, the cold work room that would chill you right to your bones, and yung pag kain ko ng Richeese every after lunch. WOOH!

          August. Back to bizz. FIRST SEM. 4TH YEAR. I’M OFFICIALLY A GRADUATING STUDENT!!! What’s with the enthusiasm? Boy doesn’t even know what’s about to come at him. If there’s this saying na life throws you lemons, and you would just make lemonades out of it, oh boy. Life threw me pineapples, sea urchins, a school bus and a nuclear bomb. Which I don’t know how to deal with, cause HOW DO YOU EVEN COOK A SEA URCHIN? August was one of the months of this year that made me cry. Not even because of a heartbreak, nor a typical teenager shortcoming, but because of the terrorizing spirit that lies within the subject that is research I. Starting from the day that our professor had assigned us to do an individual research proposal, all of us knew that it will be the beginning of the tormenting last first semester in our college lives.

          September. Wake me up when September ends. Cause there was no relevant thing that I could remember happened this month. Again, I am pretty sure that I was still rehearsing the words that I would tell my parents about my plans after graduation. Still uncertain on what’s gonna come next.

          October. We were assigned to our respective thesis groups. This was also the month that we submitted the first draft of our real thesis proposal. Mind you, we almost got rejected. Title lang tiningnan nung prof naming bes. This was when the inside joke ‘bibili na naming ng condensed milk si prof para di na sya ma-bother sa proposal naming evaporada’. Beh. This was my busiest month this year. Revisions here and there, almost everyday we were in school since we refused to have another overnight cause we accomplish nothing when we are in an air-conditioned room. The impetus of the warm and cozy bed was really inviting and irresistible. So ayun, we were in the school almost everyday.

          November. Thesis proposal defense!!! Holy shit. We had an overnight to rehearse everything we have to say the day before the defense. I was so nervous, but my group mates were just chilling. Literally. Kasi nga ang lamig sa kwarto. I don’t know but I have this thing that I always overcomplicate things. Things that can be handled by a five-year old child I tend to make it seem like the apocalypse is about to happen. I have always had an anxiety in speaking in front of the class, so imagine my nervousness about this one cause I have to present a proposal in front of three intimidating research gods. And then the day of the defense came, WE PASSED!! I couldn’t forget the awkward shriek I did when the assigned panel to our group delivered the good (?) news to us, in his timid, kinda shy low voice. All the stress, the fear, the anxiety I have that day flew away as he uttered the words “Eheh, uhm. Pumasa kayo…. Pero with major revisions”. Boy I didn’t even hear everything the panel said after those words. Buti na lang our mentor recorded everything, cause if not, mangangapa kami and mamatay sa kakaalala kung ano ano yung mga suggestions na binigay nila.

          December. Ahhh. The final month of the year!! Was there something relevant that happened this month? YES!!! LIT LIT LIT LIT ULIT!! Our section had THE most extreme, wildest, and craziest after-defense slash victory party slash walwal party ever!!! What a wonderful way to welcome the last month of twenty seventeen! I also met a new friend, a twitter friend from our college. Haha. Ooh. I also decided to tell my parents about my plans. Imagine my fear, anxiety, fear of rejection, lahat na pota!! Aaaaand. It didn’t go well. They did not approve. But anyway, I still want to prove myself that I got what it takes to be a good physician, so I have decided that even though I am not certain that I will go to med school right after graduation, I would still review for the NMAT and take it this coming March or April. Diba. Because, sabi nga sa bible, for the Lord has plans for all of us. Plans that will prosper us and not to harm us, plans that will give us hope and future. Honestly those are the words that give me hope. That I could still be something I want to be despite the fear, the people that hold me back, and the discouragement I get from my own environment. I can do it naman diba?

          I think the word that encapsulates the events that took place this year is uncertainty. For me at least. It is what I feared the most. Afraid of what will happen next. Maybe it is the utmost reason why I missed a lot of chances to – prove myself, to show off what I got in my jacket pocket, what I can offer, and to improve the things here I am good at. 

I have had a lot of shortcomings this year. The tears that I let out were way fewer than last year, but the tears from this year came from a deeper source. Maybe because I already decided what I want to do until I die, but the people around tell me otherwise. I felt like my dream was invalidated. Trashed. Thrown away. Just because the dream is a 24-karat gold and I only have a couple of gravel and sand. And it cuts even deeper and the wounds won’t heal in an instant.

I’m a fond believer of that famous saying that’s about crossing a bridge when you arrived there, but what if there are even no roads, or pathways or pavements that will lead you to that bridge? You haven’t even reached the bridge yet, but you have already been stopped because the enforcers told you the roads are closed. I could handle everything life throws at me. I made a ridiculous stewed sea urchin, I put the pineapples on my pizza, I defused the nuclear bomb and used it as a decoration in my room, kasi nga I cross the bridge when I get there. I deal with what’s in front of me. Pero how could you deal with something, if along the way, the people around you have already poked a hole in your tires? That even though they believe in you, unconsciously they are telling you that ~no, you won’t do it cause we won’t allow you. It will just fuel your fear kasi you will never know what’s on the other side. You cannot cross the bridge because you won’t even get there. The fear of uncertainty will eat you alive, chew you and spit you out to where you started. And I don’t want to be that person who grieves, and regrets his life decisions after a couple of years because he patterned it out from what the people around him pressured him to do. I want to dictate my future, but there are just inevitable circumstances that make it hard to do so, and it makes me real sad. I thought this year will be different. I had high hopes with it, but it just let me down. They let me down.

But I will still continue striving. This time, I will have enough courage, and bravery to stand up for the choices I make. I will never let any opportunity slip through my hands like water. I will face this year in my warrior suit, equipped with the disappointments, discouragements, fears, heartbreaks, anxieties, regrets, and problems the past year had thrown at me, that I have successfully overcome.

I can already feel that this year will be tiring, productive, troublesome, hard, insane, bountiful, delightful, pleasing, satisfying, wild, I can list a couple more adjectives but in all, I will sum it up with just a word stressful. But hey, being stressed means that you are actually doing something. I expect a lot of disappointments and heartbreaks to come this year, but deep down, a spark of hope still shines. I have the right to be a pessimist, cause hello, 2017??? But it does not mean I will be for the rest of the year.

I’m on my *crossed fingers* final year in college, so that means I will be graduating this year. That alone is one hell of an event to look forward to. Alongside that, my medical journey will also be put on trial this year 🤣. My fate to becoming a medical doctor will be decided hopefully before I graduate from college. But again in crossed fingers, I really hope that whoever is to decide, I want the decision to be in my favor cause not only it will trace my future, it will also reveal how tough, matured, brave and steadfast I have become. These are just two of what I think be the highlights of this year. Here’s to a handful more of new experiences!! Cheers. 🥂

May 2018 be my year.

Seriously. Cause 2018 is Year of the Dog, and I’m a big big huge enormous fan of dogs. so can this year be my year?

[kpop-morelike-kstop]

Junior

This is a bit of a rant that i’ve been meaning to get out of my system for the past like..three weeks probably...So, if you guys don’t like swearing or mentions of suicide and self-harm, i suggest you not read this. 

So, some of you are probably looking at the title of this post and are going, “Is he gonna talk about that Junior guy from Got7?” to which i say, No, because his name is Jinyoung not Junior. 

The point of the title is because i am currently a Junior in high school, for those of you who don’t know. But i’m not JUST a Junior. I’m also a part-time senior. To make this a bit clearer to those who aren’t catching on, i’m a Junior who is Graduating early. 

Some of you are probably saying the same thing my parents said when i told them that i’d be graduating early: “Oh my gosh, you are SO SMART. WOW.” 

To which i say, No, No i’m actually really not. I am a pretty average person with equally average intelligence. 

Or, some of you are saying what A LOT of my teachers and peers are saying: “Why would you want to do that? What’s the point?” 

To which i say, It’s personal and i’d rather not talk about it. 

So this post is going to go into the reason as to WHY i decided to graduate early. Not just that though, no, otherwise this would be rather short. No, I’m also going to talk to y’all about how it is and how i’m dealing with it. So buckle yourself in, Freshy, it’s about to get fucked up. 

Reason Why: 

I feel like it’s a little rude to have to explain myself to everyone, especially since the reason isn’t really a good one. 

I want to leave my home. Yup, that’s it in a nut shell. Now, let me get a little bit more in depth because i’m sure some of you out there are pissed with a vagueness of the statement. 

So, for the past 6 years of my life, it’s bee a serious down hill struggle for my brother and i. Ever since i came to America with my mother, my father has been so cruel to the three of us. He yells and treats my mother like shit, my brother was especially quiet and slow when it came to learning English and reading, and i was a quiet but rude little shit who clearly did not like him. Now, i don’t want you guys to think that i just hated him for no reason, that’s not it. 

During my back and forth years of going from Mexico to America, in my middle school years, i began to self harm because it was my way of coping with what i had to deal with at home versus my internal struggles. Eventually my middle school councilor told my parents, my father being the violent man he was, when i tried to reason with him to not beat me he just hit me twice the amount of times. 

Now, lemme ask y’all a question: How is it helpful to hit a child who is already harming themselves? Hm? 

I asked my father the same exact thing, and you wanna know what he said to me? “You can’t tell me how to punish you, you are MY child. And i am YOUR father. I can do whatever the fuck i want because you are my child to deal with.” 

Those words will never leave me. And neither will i ever forget when i was only 13, yelling to my father that i hated him with a burning passion. Ever since, my father and i have not been on the same terms. Instead, i’ve clung to my mother. 

Now, my mother was supposed to have kicked out my father a little over 3 months ago. You know what happened? My brother got himself in trouble with the law. My parents thought that it was because of them separating. HAH. No, actually, he was just falsely accused of stupid shit. 

Ever since my brother got himself in trouble, i’ve been coping in my own way. A very illegal way. I just want to leave this little hell hole and go live somewhere where i won’t feel attacked as soon as i walk into my home. 

How It is and How i’m dealing with it: 

Now some of you probably are looking at what i said previously and are saying, “Wow, Cas, that sucks. It probably doesn’t get worse, right?” 

Well, you’d be wrong. 

I am a very school-loving kid. I know, my parents love it. I am the only kid out of my 6 other siblings who is finishing school and actually enjoyed it. Well, this year so far has been the most stressful one in my entire life. 

My partner can speak for me, he was there the first week of school and was present for the three breakdowns i had during the first week. 

They say sophomore year is your hardest year, to which i say: “Fuck you, do not speak to me.” 

My Junior has been hell and it has only been more stressful with the two extra classes i have to take. 

I remember crying to my partner about wanting to leave everything, wanting to drop school and run away from home. I just wanted to stop everything. I had never felt so sad, hopeless, i was feeling so suicidal and i still am. I have self harmed maybe three times since the year has started just to get myself to clear my head little with a tad bit of pain. 

Hell, i’ve even resorted to smoking again. 

So far, things have calmed down a little but, it is really REALLY hard to keep my grades up. I feel like the least stressful of my classes is probably my online Government and English 12 classes. Because for those, at least the assignments are straightforward. 

Now, Let me Just lay out my schedule for y’all. 

0 period/ Early Bird: APUSH (AP U.S History)

1 Period: AP Psychology

2 Period: AP Lang. (AP Language and Composition)

3 Period: Personal Finance (1st math)

4 Period: Physics

5-6 Period Block: Band

7 Period: Algebra 2 (2nd math)

8 Period: AP Seminar

Online Classes:

English 12

and U.S. Government

Now, Band takes up all of my time, from Wednesdays late night rehearsals and sectionals to Fridays football games or late night rehearsals and Saturdays being late night rehearsals. Any free time nowadays goes to my homework. In fact, right now, i should probably be asleep. Hah, even better, getting started on my APUSH notes. 

Doing this to myself was not a good idea, i must say. Last week, i actually had to miss a day of school because i just couldn’t handle the stress of the day. I was there for maybe 30 minutes of school before i texted my dad and told him to pick me up. Yeah, it was pretty bad. In any case, i am doing my damn best now. I probably tend to get 5 hours of sleep or less, i stay awake in classes as much as i can and i get my assignments in as soon as i can. 

I made this post not to worry anyone, really, just to let out all my pent up frustration from the past few weeks. I hope you all are somewhere doing a lot better than i am. I hope you are all somewhere where you are happy and don’t have to worry about petty things like grades. 

[beautyinfiction]

Tag game :)

1. rules: answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions. tagged by the wonderful @pamshalpurt tagging:  @huliganships @draineddreamer @loboselinaistrash @thatgirlwiththedeepblueeyes @weltraumfee @stephisinspace @firewithinyou @unicornswithbowties @trensu @motherfuckingspiderman @7thstreetportal @szarjekyllunhinged @darthmual @vulcanite @sausagewallet @alinaisalright

1. coke or pepsi: pepsi… although I don’t really drink either anymore :D

2. disney or dreamworks: disney disney disneyyyy… I love HTTYD tho :3

3. coffee or tea: I used to drink so much tea but coffee has taken over my life

4. books or movies: both! both!? both is good! always both!

5. windows or mac: I’ve never used a mac in my life, windows all the way

6. dc or marvel: I grew up with DC but ever since my teens I’ve been such a Marvel fan… both, I guess, but I prefer Marvel

7. x-box or playstation: playstation always and foreverrr

8. dragon age or mass effect: haven’t played one single second, but I’ll say DA nonetheless because dragons… (can’t wait to see Huligan answer this) 

9. night owl or early riser: catch me in the trees at night, annoying the shit outa you and bitching about everything

10. cards or chess: cards. cards! grew up playing All the card games and love them still

11. chocolate or vanilla: vanilla

12. vans or converse: vans. I wore many pairs of vans throughout all my teen years, I had one pair of converse.

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar: no clue

14. fluff or angst: I have enough angst in my life, gimme all that fluff alwaysss

15. beach or forest: forest :)

16. dogs or cats: both. but lbr. cats

17. clear skies or rain: clear skies, grey clouds and rain give me headaches and migrane

18. cooking or eating out: eating out… both types ;)

19. spicy food or mild food: mild or with a bit of spice. I love curry but I can’t eat food that’s too spicy

20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: everything involving dressing up has my vote!

21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: either is terrible. a little too hot, I guess

22. if you could have any superpower, what would it be?: teleportation or time manipulation

23. animation or live action: depends… I love both

24. paragon or renegade: renegade for life

25. baths or showers: showers, because the bathtub is never big enough for me…. :(

26. team cap or team ironman: CAP all the wayyy (i love tony too tho)

27: fantasy or sci-fi: fantasy 

28. do you have three or four favorite quotes, if so what are they: Faßt frischen Mut; so lang ist keine Nacht, Daß endlich nicht der helle Morgen lacht.

29. netflix or youtube: youtube! I love netflix, but it doesn’t have everything I want where I live, which sucks sooo much

30. Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: I mean…. it’s HP

31. when you feel accomplished: after finishing a task that took a long time/I’ve procrastinated for a while

32. star wars or star trek: star wars~~

33. paperback or hardback: paperback.

34. horror or rom-com: never horror, omg, no, just no.

35: Tv shows or movies: tv shows! movies, too! but tv shows

36. spotify or pandora: neither

37. zootopia or inside out: zootopiaaa

38. favorite book: the perks of being a wallflower

39. favourite flower:  bluebells and roses

40. what field of study are you in (or aspire to be in): English and German lit

41. song lyric you really love?: there are a lot I love, but I can’t really think of any atm…. 

42. My question: what’s your MBTI type? (I stole this from @pamshalpurt because I love this question) I’m an ISFJ

[liveandletrain]

Tagged by @zannatinuviel

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 more people. (I don’t have 20 more people to tag so I’m just going to leave it open for whoever wants to. Say I tagged you and I’ll come check your blog out!

1. How tall are you? 5′ 4″

2. What color and style is your hair?

That is my hair. No exaggeration. This wild mass of (slightly darker than Merida’s) red curls that I alternately adore and loathe. (And definitely don’t go galloping through the woods with it down, just begging to get caught in something.)

3. What color are your eyes? Hazel

4. Do you wear glasses? Only sunglasses, when the occasion calls for it!

5. Do you have braces? Not anymore, thank all that is holy! That was a miserable two years.

6. What is your fashion sense? Alternates between “thrift-store-neo-hippie-librarian” and “teacher” with a liberal side of “jeans and t-shirts” (I love and adore 50s skirts.)

7. Do you have any siblings? Five of them

8. What kind of student are you? The last minute is my bestest friend in the whole wide world! But if something catches my interest I will spend hours researching the heck out of it just for fun.

9. What are your favorite subjects? I love Special Education, I think I have scared people with how intense I can get about the topic. Political Science was almost my major before I elected to go into education and major in English instead and Literature and Languages are great too.

10. What are your favorite TV Shows? CW’s DC shows, The first three seasons of Grimm, Person of Interest, Hawaii 5-0, The A-Team, Young Justice, BBC’s Merlin.

11. What are your favorite books? This is hard. I’m going to just go with top five at the moment or we’ll be here all night. Chronicles of Narnia, Shakespeare’s Star Wars, The Sillmarillion, Andrew Lang’s Fairy Books, and The Ordinary Princess.

12. Favorite Pastimes? Reading, writing, trying to write, knitting, playing with small children, acting out my writing as I attempt to write it, hanging with my sister, reading fanfiction, watching cartoons, staring blankly at notebooks and trying to write.

13. Any regrets? Doesn’t everybody have regrets? The goal is to minimize them and make sure that the ones you do have are ones you can live with.

14. What is your dream job? I am on my way to obtaining it? Elementary School Teacher! (I am so excited about getting my own classroom you have no idea.)

15. Do you want to get married? Yes.

16. Do you want to have kids and how many? As many as I can. Hopefully a couple biological and I fully intend to foster and/or adopt as well.

17. How many countries have you visited? Counting the States, three, but I have also done a good deal of traveling within the states themselves. And I should be adding at least two more in the upcoming weeks as I travel around the UK.

Tagging: You! I’m tagging you.

[rosefiassahra]

Of Being Inspired by Reviewers

Okay so as promised! This is about the reviewers I met during my review school, who are all amazing!

I’d already met a lot of reviewers which I had already posted here in tumblr one upon a time. And I’d always been inspired of their stories and of how they are so dedicated in teaching. It’s not a joke - the job, I meant. I saw how some reviewers discussed and talked in front from the morning til the evening, only few breaks in between. I saw their fatigue sometimes almost falling down from the stage. I saw how sometimes they slurred in their words not knowing anymore what they were saying due to exhaustion. I saw them haul a deep breath before continuing and release them tired. They’re basically just tired but they need to continue...for the reviewees and their future.

It’s very noble - this profession. Just teaching in general is a noble profession we all should respect them. Yet somehow we overlooked this. We tend to sleep more, or disrespect them by talking unnecessarily during their discussion. I’m guilty to this, sometimes we just couldn’t help but gossip or be distracted... but what I’m saying is we should also give effort in studying, answering the hand-outs, just you know, just don’t take anything for granted.

Anyway, I’ll be having a sermon (LOL, kidding) about this in my next posts.

Now, we’re just gonna talk about the reviewers I met in ReSA. I’d already heard some things about them prior to coming to this review school. But still I was awed when I met them finally.

So let’s start with...

Sir Asser Tamayo or Sir Tams (Taxation)

Sir Tams, as we call him, just basically has a dirty mouth, and I think he’s well aware of that. He spurts out green jokes once or twice in our one-hour discussion. Some were tolerable (not green at all, or mildly green) and some were just ugh! Can I close my ears, Sir Tams?! Haha Srsly, tho, Sir Tams is great. His handouts just contain everything, all you have to do is read them and listen to his discussion to further understand. Personally, I liked his reviewer so I kind of just depended on that reviewer for the subject. It was even helpful to listen to Sir Tam’s discussions and his handouts.

Sir Ivan Bagayao (AFAR or Practical Accounting 2)

I’d only been to his class few times because he wasn’t my orig reviewer on the subject, but I can say he’s good. I didn’t know about the others who said otherwise, but for me I’d say he’s alright. He introduced some mnemonics which made some AFAR matters easier. I particularly listened to his Process/JO Costing discussion and although I couldn’t say I totally understood everything, he was a big help for me to understand the topic. (And! Andaming me crush ke Sir Ivan. Future lawyer, mga bes!)

Sir Earl Garcia (Taxation)

I’d only been to his class once, during the final coaching moments. Too bad, he was just reading the hand-outs, so there’s not much new I learned from him.

Sir Christopher Espenilla or Sir Chris (Audit Probs/Prac 1/FAR)

Ito na, bes. Haha No, really. I loved AP because of him. I understood the concept with his discussion. Others didn’t like his fast-paced plus straight English discussions, but I was totally fine with it! I didn’t know why I only had to find out about him during the last months of review. What I appreciate most about Sir Chris was his passion in teaching that’s set on another level. Guys, I had seen him teach from morning til the evening and salute for having that kind of endurance just to be able to teach. Maa shaa Allah. (Blockbuster ung classes nya. Need to save a seat just to be in his class. But it was worth it. :D)

Sir George James (Audit Theory)

Been to his class only a few times and I could say I liked his teaching style. He let out jokes and uses them in his discussion for clear picture since it’s Audit, eh. We didn’t exactly know what’s going on with Audit life. So with his help, topics were easier to understand now. (AT was something I already got in jive with during iCPA days because of Sir Nacion so there’s not much problem.)

Sir Aljon Lee (Management Services/Theory of Accounts)

He’s just lit! Like legit lit! I loved his handouts, everything you should know, it was there.. All the more when he starts discussing what’s on your HO, you’re like powered up in another level! He gave quizzes consistently forcing you to study every now and then I topped in the quizzes first pre-board in MS because of how easy I found the subject through his help. That’s also the reason why I tok it for granted on the finals because I had thought MS is okey lang. Haha Just amazing si Sir Aljon. MS and TA just became chewable, choss!

Sir Conrado Uberita or Sir Ube (Prac 1/FAR)

Most found him really hard to understand because he’s just too intelligent, I guess? He teaches his own techniques, on how he understands them and on how he solves them, not your typical Valix reviewer method of solving problems that you got used to. It took me awhile to appreciate his style, really. It was only in the final coaching was I able to fully grasp on what he wanted to convey. And I was so amazed and so regretful at the same time that I was too late. Lol. But I did learn some important techniques from him that I wasn’t able to learn in the Valix reviewers na nagamit ko sa Board Exam at sa pag-teach. So please...pagtiyagaan nyo na. May nilaga talaga sa pinagsasasabi ni Sir Ube. Pramis!!! Peksman!

Other Reviewers:

Sir Antonio Dayag (P2/AFAR)

It was honestly a challenge being in his class because he speaks this French/Arabic version of English/Tagalog language and his penmanship’s just too cute I’d have a hard time deciphering what was written on the white board. He also talks and writes fast, that if I space out for a second, I’d have hard time catching up. Haha But what I like about Sir Dayag is his vast knowledge in P2. You’d think that he already said everything in his thick reviewer but you’re wrong! He has a lot more to say during the classes which are mostly important! Don’t miss a thing and just hold your breath!

Ma’am Shirley Ireneo (Audit Problems)

Eccentric. That’s what I can say about her. She has this own way of understanding, teaching, solving AP probs. Most of her techniques need a lot of work, some are very short ones, rest are so-so. She explains in Tagalog and in layman’s term so it’s easy to comprehend what the topics were all about. She’s very motherly like who can also give you advices that you just seemed to need in those moments.

Sir Jose Ireneo (Audit Theory)

Good point about Sir Ireneo is his vast experience in Audit world so he can tell you real-life experiences in the field which is very relatable in Audit Theory. What happens in undergrad kasi is we’re being taught by newbie teachers/CPA who also don’t have much experience in Auditing so that we resort to just studying it theoretically. So being under his class was eye-opening. His mnemonics (which I already heard from Sir Nacion, seeing as he was anak-anakan daw of the Ireneo couple) were very helpful I think I could still remember it to this day. His handouts are helpful too!

Atty. Marceliano Bonafe or Sir Bon (Business Law)

Haven’t even gone to his class and I already heard some negative feedbacks. And I found them true. During my first class with him, we spend three quarters of our time just listening to him talk about non-BL matters like his car, his wife and byenan..etc. This happens quite frequent. BUT! Your loss if you decide to leave, because somewhere in between those talks are actually jewels you need to listen to. They’re like keywords you need to remember so you will not get lost in the numerous questions of Business Law. Trust me. Read his handouts multiple times, listen to Sir Bon as much as you can, take notes of those things he said...you will find them beneficial in the board exam!

Sir Gorgonio Macariola or Sir Gor (Prac 1/FAR)

I think his classes are the most crowded classes ever! I tried standing up during the whole three hours of his class and getting evicted in the room because there’s no more space (that’s when I found Sir Chris, LOL, ♥). The number of students swarming in his classes speaks volumes of just how good his discussions are. Blockbuster, they always said. And it’s true. P1 just became an ordinary subject to me (WOW!) whenever I end his classes because they’re just so helpful!

My views may differ from others, but these are but my observations during my 4 month-review in ReSA. These reviewers just inspired me to strive better, I learned so much from them and they made me feel like I was board exam ready!

[fruitbatwalton]

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Tracks from the Top Ten Blogged Bands are played 

every Sunday 5-7pm on Radio KC as part of 

Ralph's Indie Show.

LISTEN TO LAST WEEK'S TOP 10 HERE

AS PLAYED ON RADIO KC - 12.3.17

  RALPH'S BRAND NEW TOP 10 CHART 

PUBLISHED - 11.3.17

No 1: Floodhounds

FloodHounds - 'I Wanna Know'

Pre Order the single from floodhounds.bandcamp.com Officially released on iTunes/Spotify etc on 4th March. Video by Tom Flynn Using footage from Fritz Lang's 1927 film Metropolis.

Make Noise Studios/Practice Sheffield provided the live band footage.

No 2: Snippet

Today's post focuses on the quintessentially English songwriting of Johnno Casson who performs under the pseudonym of Snippet. 

April 7th will see the release of his new album Future Melancholy Pop Music and the title sees the contents doing exactly what it says on the tin. It's 15 tracks of reflective, retrospective, introspective, captivating, engaging, satirical, funky and just plain compulsive lo-fi listening pleasure.

No 3: Scott Lloyd

The In The Garden EP will be the sixth Scott Lloyd release to date and covers insightful themes such as getting older, childhood, mental health and loss. Normally a solo performer, Scott has used a full band to back him on the EP, which is a step away from his previous acoustic sound. The EP was recorded at Limefield Studios, Manchester in July 2016 and will be released independently by Scott.

No 4: Ian Roland & Simon Yapp

On Ralph's Radio KC Indie Show next Sunday (March 5th) we'll be featuring a few a few Americana styled tracks so it was very timeous when Day Became You, the new EP from Ian Roland & Simon Yapp was dropped off via the good offices of the postal service.

Produced by Nigel Stonier (Thea Gilmore, The Waterboys, Joan Baez, Martha Wainwright, Fairport Convention et al), the EP is the new release by Folk, Americana duo Ian Roland & Simon Yapp.

No 5: The Farm

The Farm are using Pledgemusic to release 3 brand new songs plus a re-mix of Feel The Love, all signed by the band, as well as the new EP being part of some extremely groovy merchandise bundles.

Founding member Peter Hooton said - "We're releasing this music now because we've been playing festivals for a few years and everyone we meet always asks the same question, 'When are you releasing new material'."

No 6: Syd.31

Self-styled angriest band in the UK Syd.31 have pronounced that they're taking rage to a level rarely heard before.

With two successful EPs and a single behind them, they are attempting to redefine what it means to be a band as society rips itself apart - music with purpose and impact. Imagine Slayer joining forces with Die Antwoord, or the bastard love child of Grace Jones and the late lamented Sid Vicious fronting Atari Teenage Riot.

No 7: Sam Jefferson

Ralph's giving Too Much For You by Sam Jefferson a spin on the Radio KC Indie Show on March 5th so we thought it'd be nice to run a feature too. 

Raised on a steady diet of Blind Lemon Jefferson (probably no relation), Bert Jansch, and Woody Guthrie records, traditional Blues and Folk music is at the heart of his musical soul. 

No 8: Graham Marshall

It's fair to say we're fans of Graham Marshall here in the kennel, not only due to his infectious glass-gargling voice but also due to the tenacity of the man in what is for many, a long and difficult path to achieve anything close to recognition, never mind fame and fortune. 

Ralph will be giving a track from Mr Complicated a spin soon on the Radio KC Indie Show so make sure you tune in every Sunday from 5-7pm GMT on rkc.noip.me. and hopefully we'll see Graham Marshall hitting the road soon and not just in his 40' ASDA delivery truck.

No 9: Factory Acts 

Ralph's long been a fan of Factory Acts who are a Salford post-punk electro duo who live on the edge of the analogue-digital divide, sometimes dreaming, always dancing.

After garnering copious amounts of critical acclaim with their debut EP Thirst in 2014, Salford's underground, post-punk maestros Factory Acts return with their highly anticipated sophomore release Second Amendment which is available on official release April 21st.

No 10: Partisan

Formed in Manchester in 2013, Partisan are a Rock band who are committed to their cause. Their punchy, bold and unflinching anthems are taking authentic Rock back into the mainstream, evidenced by their ever increasing fanbase.

Ralph's giving Ashes a pre-release spin on the Radio KC Indie Show March 26th so make sure you tune in PLUS you can catch Partisan live at the following...

30th March - The Castle, Manchester