#Dreamers spanish

[hometoursandotherstuff]

What a stunning home! Built in 1931, the Spanish villa in Los Angeles, CA has 4bds, 5.5ba, and is listed for $12.995M.

Beautiful entrance hall.

What an amazing living room. Look at the arched ceilings and stone fireplace.

The dining room opens to the garden on both sides.

Very spacious kitchen with sharp black cabinets. Love the backsplash and flooring.

Beautiful butler's pantry matches the kitchen.

Octagonal every day dining room.

What a gorgeous guest powder room. Look at the marble sink.

Large family room w/a library, great fireplace, and doors to the garden.

In this hall there's a fountain.

Isn't this pretty? I love these branches. They look so nice. The primary bedroom is fabulous.

Look at how pretty the branches look all over the house.

Check out the stone bath with fireplace.

And, this is a secondary bedroom that's very nice, with doors to the garden and room for a desk.

Lovely home office.

The gym is a beautiful room with an octagonal beamed ceiling.

Full outdoor kitchen.

The outdoor grounds are just as lovely with the pool.

Seating area around the firepit.

Gorgeous greenery and a fountain. The lot is .39 acre.

And, it's got a great view.

https://www.redfin.com/CA/Los-Angeles/6950-Oporto-Dr-90068/home/7114735

[alinatron]

the japanese release of fashion dreamer will include english (and other languages), and i highly doubt the online functionality will be region locked so if it doesnt get a physical release outside of japan (or god forbid it releases in like december or something over here) itll probs be worth importing!!

[celticwoman]

not tsoa getting me into my greek mythology phase. that was supposed to happen like. 7 years ago

[sihayart]

The Monster VS The Knight

Puntasecca VS Acquaforte

[bbeanmomo]

Lately been babbling in spanish when I'm little now.. an I dun think I know anyone who speaks spanish.. I wan friends I can regress wid an speak spanish..

[yamumsyadadd]

different

Part of the Marquita universe. Others can be found here:

Marquita, mama and mami, accident

A/N: talks of homophobia, bullying. this was fun to write! If you have any more questions for Marquita or if I should make another universe let me know!

It was hard growing up with parents like Alexia Putellas and Jenni Hermoso. Both were incredibly talented footballers, attractive and smart, add Olga into the mix and it felt like you’d never reach the same level. 

Olga went to university, graduated top of her class and then went on to her masters, Alexia got a degree in business, and Jenni in economics. There were a lot of high expectations, in school, in football, in life in general. 

To be the daughter of two of spains best players in history, well it was back breaking work. Football was not a sport you enjoyed, at all. You weren’t horrible at it, but you weren’t at the same level as your parents or Tia’s. It was to be expected since you were only twelve. There was time to get better, to showcase your skills. Skills you didn’t have, nor did you really want. 

School wasn’t much better. You weren’t horrible but you were a dreamer, the teachers complained you were always off with the fairies but in honesty, you couldn’t care less. Maths was the only subject you cared about, you’d need it if you wanted to study engineering at university. 

The kids at school often picked on you for being that way, but you didn’t care that much. It was same with the football team. It was almost like the universe was conspiring against you. 

It was mid week, right before Christmas when you finally had enough. Your Mami was away for the UWCL game in Sweden, mama had just gone back to Mexico after spending her break with you. Olga’s work had died down a bit due to the holidays. 

Your relationship was still a bit strained since the accident but it was slowly repairing itself. 

“How do you do it?” You asked Olga as she closed her laptop for the night. 

“Do what?”

“Everything? Work in Madrid, Manuela’s, your relationship with Mami and your friends. It’s a lot to juggle.” 

“It is. It’s a bit easier now I’m in the routine but essentially my life is split in two. One half in Madrid, the other, more important half here, in Barcelona.” 

“You went to university, spent six years studying to do what? No offence but don’t you want more?” 

“In what way?”

“You have a degree in communications, you could be a journalist, a public relations person or I don’t know, in marketing but instead you work in social media?” 

“You don’t think I’m doing enough?” 

“Why social media Olga? Why not something more interesting, more meaningful?” 

“Why do your Mami and mama play football? Why do you? Because you all love it. Sure, I could be doing something else, stuck at a desk for nine hours a day, unhappy and bored. But by doing what I do, I get to travel the world with my clients, get introduced to people I’d never imagined meeting, help people became what they want.” 

You nodded your head, content with the answer, then stood up and packed up your homework, heading towards your room but not before turning to Olga, “I don’t love football. Not like Mami and mama. I am not like them and that’s okay.” You gave her a sad smile before turning out. 

“Mari-“ Olga started before hearing your door close. She let out a sigh, wondering where she went wrong this time. You had asked a question, slightly rudely, but she had answered. Given appropriate reasoning and yet, you seem sad about it all. It was truly baffling. 

Going to school the next day was hard. You were stuck in your head all day, wanting nothing more than to climb into bed and cry alone. But that wouldn’t happen, not when it was this close to Christmas and it seemed that every other day there was a Christmas event to be attended. 

When Pedro Diaz continuously threw his rubber at you in Spanish class, you ignored him. When Maria Santiago called you a freak in gym class because you could run the 3km, you ignored her. But when Diego Cruz said your Mami and mama were going to hell, you lost it. 

You weren’t dumb, everyone around you had talked about what it was like for them being gay, the good, the bad, the ugly. You heard it all, but the stories were from when they were kids, not from now. Now is supposed to be more welcoming, more accepting, but people like Diego and his parents exist. 

Alexia, Jenni and Olga had all received the same phone call. There had been an incident at school and they were needed as soon as possible. Obviously Jenni wasn’t able to make it, but both Olga and Alexia raced there. 

Unfortunately or fortunately, depending on how you looked at it, your Mami had bought two of her younger teammates. She was supposed to take Vicky and Jana home after they got to the training centre but she didn’t have time and they didn’t mind. 

Alexia and Olga arrived at the office at the same time. You were sitting there, hair a mess, a soon to be black eye and a bite mark on your arm. 

“Mari? What happened?” Alexia crouched down in front of you, hands on your knees. Just as you were about to reply, Diego and his parents walked out of the office. He looked a lot worse than you did. A blood nose that had dripped down onto his shirt, scratch’s around his jaw and neck, not one but two bruising eyes. 

“Ms Putellas, Ms Rios, please come in. Y/n, wait out here.” 

The tension in the office was palpable. Alexia was fuming, Olga was slightly confused but also mad, Diego’s parents look like they were ready to fight themselves. 

“There was an incident during afternoon break between your daughter and another student, Diego.” 

“An incident? That’s what you’re calling this? She’s sitting out there with a black eye, and a bite mark on her!” Alexia blew up. 

“Ale.” Olga put her hand on alexia’s forearm, trying to calm her down. 

“Diego was the instigator, however, your daughter threw him up against a locker, punching him repeatedly until she was pulled off him by two teachers.” The principal let it sink in for a moment before he continued on, “I am aware of a few issues that y/n has been facing, the bullying that other-“

“I’m sorry, bullying? You’re telling me my daughter, our daughter, has been getting bullied here and you haven’t been bothered to call one of us? That’s ridiculous!” Alexia said. 

“We were told by y/n that she had spoken to you. We have sent letters home, tried to call you and Jennifer. I must tell you, school isn’t the only place she’s been getting bullied. Y/n told the guidance councillor that at football she gets bullied too.“ 

When the words registered in Alexia’s head, she felt like she failed. Failed you as a mother, a person. You were getting bullied at school and football and she didn’t notice. 

“Where do we go from here?” Olga spoke up, noticing the battle her girlfriend was currently going through. 

“The school has a zero tolerance for violence, while Diego has been bullying her, and he will be dealt with, y/n was also apart of this fight so unfortunately I have no choice but to suspend her for the rest of the week.” 

“A suspension! No that’s not fair on her!” 

“I’m sorry. My hands are tied. I suggest you take her home, and have a conversation with her. We can’t do much more than what we are already doing. If you get anymore names, or it’s via social media, we can take further action but for now this is the only option.” 

When Alexia walked straight out of the office without saying anything to you, you knew you were in trouble. Olga gave you a sympathetic smile before motioning for you to get up. 

The car ride home was quiet. Your Mami hadn’t arrived back yet since she had to drop the girls off. 

“Do you want to tell me what happened?” 

“Not really.”

“Your Mami is going to ask, probably in a not nice way.” 

“She’ll be mad. Mad that I didn’t tell her, that I’m not strong like her.” 

“Mari, you’re strong. You’re so strong!” 

“No im not! Otherwise this wouldn’t have happened! I’m not like them, like you!” You yelled. Trying to get her to understand. “Mami and mama are world class athletes, you’re smart and pretty but I’m- I’m just me.” 

“You’re smart, you’re pretty. Sure they are world class athletes but it took them a while to get there, it doesn’t happen over night. You need to train-“

“I don’t want to train! I don’t want to play. I do it because of them Olga. Because of who they are. Everybody tells me how different I am, how I won’t be as good or amount to them. I just want to be enough!”

Olga pulled you into a hug, holding you tightly as you cried into her. Alexia could be obvious to some things, and this was clearly one of those things. 

After a while she coaxed you out of the hug, putting her hands on your cheeks and wiping away the tears, “can you tell me what he said to you? I know you, and I know you wouldn’t just hit someone for no reason.” 

“Him and his friends say stuff all the time. I don’t usually respond, and today I didn’t. I guess it just made him angrier. He said.” You took a deep breath, knowing that it would hurt Olga’s feelings as much as it hurt yours, “he said you, Mami and mama were going to hell because you were filthy lesbians, he said something else and so did all his friends. I ignored him and when I went past he pulled my ponytail. I just lost it.” 

You heard Olga have a sharp inhale of breath and then pull you towards the couch. For a while you both just sat there, Oga never letting up on the hold she had. When the front door sounded from Alexia getting home, Olga pulled you up and told you to go shower, needing to have a conversation with alexia. 

“Amor? Mari? I’m back.” Alexia kicked her shoes off, throwing her keys into the bowl. She knew a conversation was needed but to be honest, she didn’t have the energy. 

“Ale.” Olga all but threw herself into her girlfriend’s arms. 

“Woah, what happened?” 

“They say horrible things to her ale and she doesn’t even do anything.” 

“What are you talking about?” 

“She told me all about it. Everything they say at football, at school, everything.” 

Alexia pulled Olga through to her room, wanting to know everything that was said. It took a while for alexia to understand why Olga was upset but once she did, she was equally upset. 

You had showered, thrown your clothes in the hamper and unpacked your bag. You looked towards your mami and Olga’s room for what felt like the hundredth time in the last hour. You knew what you did was wrong, incredibly wrong but after spending the last year being constantly picked on, it got to you. 

It was dark by the time they emerged from their room. Both in different clothes and with damp hair. 

“I’m going to order dinner.” Olga said as she headed toward the kitchen. 

“Marquita, I need to talk to you.” You nodded, tucking your legs into your chest, scared about the outcome of what is to come. “Olga told me what you said. Do you have anything to add?” 

“I’m sorry?”

“You’re sorry?” 

“Yeah I’m sorry. I thought, I thought I could handle it, that I was strong enough like you and mama but when he pulled my hair I just got so angry. They always say things about you and mama but this time they were talking about Olga too.”

“Olga also said you didn’t like football, why don’t you tell me? Or mama? We wouldn’t have forced you to play.” 

“Because you’re the Alexia Putellas. Imagine what people would say and think if I didn’t play.” 

“I don’t care about what people think or say, what I care about is your happiness, you aren’t happy at school or at football. I’ve spoken to your mama, we will change your school and remove you from football.” 

“Are you mad at me?” 

“No! I’m sad for you, I’m sad you didn’t tell me what was going on, I’m mad at those boys and their parents, and at the principal.” 

“I was embarrassed. You and mama are able to ignore everything negative people say and I thought I could do the same.” 

“But we can’t.” You gave her a confused look, “since the World Cup, mama has been getting extra mean comments and messages on social media, I have too but not to the same extent. It affects her, it affects me, Olga gets them too. The way we get through it is because we know they are wrong. If two girls want to love each then they can, if two boys want to they can, a boy and a girl? They can. If Jenni and I want to have a family, we can and we did. If Olga and I want too, we can. No one is allowed to tell you or anyone else who they can and can’t love.” 

“You and Olga are going to have a baby?” 

“That’s all you got out of that?” Alexia laughed, “maybe, do you want a baby brother or sister?” 

You launched yourself at your mami, “yes! Both! Twins!” 

You were grateful for Olga, the act of telling you mami what had happened seemed like a ginormous task, she made it easier. The more you thought about it, Olga made a lot of things easier. When she was home things ran smoothly, but when she was gone it was like a missing puzzle piece. 

As the night drew to a close, you had to call your mama in Mexico. Mami had already told her everything that had happened, so when you two spoke over FaceTime she promised she also wasn’t mad, when the next school holidays were on, you’d fly to Mexico and spend the week with her. 

Over the course of the winter break, you and Olga were able to spend more time together. She shared her life story, including the times as a rowdy teenager. She took you shopping for your new school uniform and even bought your first set of makeup. 

While you were sad to be leaving the friends you had made, you were glad to be in a new school, a school where you would hopefully be okay. 

[northopalshore]

Alma Persona Chart Observations

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Alma (390)

"Soul" in Spanish. Is an asteroid predominantly used to depict one's soul but also represents the love your soul craves in this lifetime. Also used to interpret possible soulmates one will encounter during their lifetime.

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Masterlist! Other posts about alma (natal chart): i.ℹ️, ii.🖤, iii.♡

Gemini rising (7° libra)

Your soul is very curious & intelligent. You may find that you attract a lot of like-minded people from a very young age. Your childhood friends may have been soulmates.

Cancer rising

You are very gentle, and very sensitive. You could have a young kind heart that attracts a lot of caregivers i.e.people who look out for you/to look after.

Part of Fortune (17°leo) in 1st house

You may have had a lot of luck in finding good friends from a young age. Namely throughout kindergarten and middle school. You may also have encountered numerous soulmates through creative competitions i.e singing, story telling, drawing & even at camps.

Saturn (20° scorpio) retrograde in 2nd house

You were not born into a wealthy household in this life. Perhaps the monetary aspects of your life did not reach stability until later years. You'll notice that a lot of your close friends may also hail from lower income households.

Saturn (8°, 20° Scorpio) retrograde in cancer

You'll notice that perhaps a lot of those that you consider soulmates may have grown without a father of have been children of divorced parents. They could have grown up in a tough situation as well.

Jupiter (16° cancer) retrograde in 5th house

You may find that there is a lack of involvement in the dating scene. This is because your soul craves deep, meaningful intimacy rather than a hot summer fling. Your soul wishes to give endless love to only the chosen few or your one true love. Your husband (jupiter) may be older than you or are very artistic.

5th house in Libra

You will find that you attract bountiful admirers from both genders. Many will offer their hearts and hands to you. You may also easily find romantic interests wherever you go. You may have a love for the arts and performances. You will feel a pull towards beauty & arts.

Union (3° gemini) retrograde in scorpio 5th house

Your soul will be very drawn into finding your one true love. There might be an attached obsession if not handled with the proper consideration of boundaries (overthinking). You may attract karmic soulmates, and may as well marry a karmic soulmate in this lifetime. You could meet them at a young age or gain curiosity at a young age. Your friends or social media could play a role in your union. You could have heard of them from your friends for a long time before you met.

Union (18° virgo) in Cancer 12th house

You could have met a lot of your soulmates through work or long-distance travel. You could meet your spouse through your work or on a regular day of your life/at home. You could be very attached to the idea of a true love as well although it may be buried within your responsibilities/work. You will be very safe in your relationship, or you may find comfort thinking about it (cancer, 12th house).

Fama (26° aries) retrograde in 5th house

Your soul may have craved fame or entry into the performance world from a young age. It may take time for any creative endeavours to gain traction however.

Fama (24° pisces) in 2nd house

You may gain a lot of fame from your work especially if you work with illusion, art, your voice, cooking, fashion & mental health. You may attract a lot of people/dreamers to you thanks to your art/creations.

Vertex (13° aries) in 5th house

You may be very blessed with creative talents. Perhaps a lot of your childhood years were devoted to arts and performances. You will attract a lot of artistic souls into your life, mostly during early childhood. You could attract very passionate soul bonds who connect through art and romance.

Vertex (7° libra) in Sagittarius

You could attract soulmates from different cultures. Your relationships may be made out of charismatic, talented individuals. You may even marry (have a significant relationship with ) someone from a different country.

Note: Some of the soulmates you attract will have placements similar to that of your alma persona chart. If they do, then they will play a role in that part of your life. You can also compare your Alma PC to your synastry charts or composite too to get a good picture of who they are to you, & which aspect if life they may trigger.

Eros (7° libra) retrograde in Scorpio 6th house

You may have refrained from indulging in explicit encounters. I feel like this is one of the "waiting for marriage" aspects. Your soul will not be at ease to let loose with those you do not feel truly connected with. You may feel like you need a "safety net" in this area. Preferring to be intimate with long term partners, trustworthy partners or loyal and obsessed partnerships.

DC (7° libra)

Your soul attracts very loving, loyal partners in this life. Most of your relationships will have a good sense of balance and justice. When you do get into a relationship, you'll notice that most partners tend to have the same view on love as you do. Although there is a tendency to be frivolous. Your soul may aim to create stable, long lasting relationships.

DC (23° aquarius)

You are drawn to unique and unapologetically genuine individuals. You will not limit yourself to the type of friends & connections you make. You may wish to break the stigma of people around you in regards to your relationships. Your soul could prove to be quite rebellious in this aspect as well. Wanting to change the way people view certain relationships.

Pluto (24° pisces) in 7th house

You may attract a lot of karmic soulmates in both romantic & close relationships. You may marry someone you've had a strong connection to in a past life. Your relationships will have a large impact in your life especially when it comes to marriage.

Uranus (10° Capricorn) retrograde in 7th house aquarius

You may long for a connection to a foreign place, from someone who is different & can teach you the diversities life has to offer. Your soul may long for a connection beyond the mundane. You may be very set on the type of person you want to be with or have thought about your partner for a long time i.e reached a resolute on the type of person you'll wed.

Neptune retrograde in 7th house

Your soul may have an indescribable longing for a romantic partner. Your soul may be very romantic & may idealise love to a certain degree.

Neptune (16°cancer) in 9th house

You may have grown up religious or spiritual. Your mother (cancer) or any older female figure in your life may have impacted your spirituality from a young age (during childhood). You may have a tendency to be stuck on matters of the psyche or be stuck in the mind of other people i.e analysing their beings.

Neptune in aquarius

You may have very innovative imaginations or creativity. You may find that you tend to delve into the human psyche quite often. Analysing the mind and the subconscious. You may have a dream to bring change into humanity or your community. To be someone, and to do something different.

Groom (1° aries) in Pisces 9th house

Your husband/you as a husband may be a very passionate, young hearted & slightly stubborn. They are a foreigner for sure (9th house & pisces/12th house). They could be a dreamer, they may be quite soft hearted or very patient & understanding. They will have an open mind, one that is not limited to their own. They could be very spiritual or rather have their personal beliefs that they stand by. Your souls will come together to learn & grow, to let go of karmic ties & to truly feel connected.

MC (1° aries)

Your career & goals in life requires you to be passionate and resilient. Your destiny is to move past the rest & pursue your own ideals.

Uranus in 10th house

You may have a desire to pursue a career separate from the wishes of your father (10th house). You may need to be more independent and break free from the limitations that your predecessors or ones designed to hold you down.

Uranus (7° libra) in 10th house

Your soul relationships break the set illusion that your parents may have i.e.going against their plans for you regarding what kind of partner & future you may have.

10th house stellium

You may achieve a lot of fame in this life. Your life may be very public, people may be very invested in what you do (whether you want them or not). Your soul has the aura of an untouchable leader. Someone who has the ability to trailblaze a path for both themselves and the public.

Juno (13° aries) in Pisces 10th house

Your soul partner may have worked from a young age. They could be a foreigner as well. Work may play an important role in their lives as well as your connection. You could teach others (10th house: public life) many lessons in this life. You could be completing a soul contract i.e karmic debts, special purpose together (aries: beginnings, pisces: endings).

Venus (15° gemini) in 10th house

Your love life may be connected to your work/public life. People you don't know may love talking about your love life or your choice or partners. It could have an important presence online & at school/educational institutions. People may like to gossip about how interesting your love life is too.

Sun (20° scorpio) in 10th house

People could have a very intense perception of you. You may attract a lot of obsessive fans or haters. People either hate you or love you without an in between. You will have a very impactful presence in your career.

Sun (22° capricorn) in 2nd house

Your main focus may be to gain money, or stability. A lot of your life will be dedicated to your career.

Moon in 10th house

A part of you may crave fame & recognition. Your soul may long for success and adoration from your peers. You may attract a lot of like-minded individuals through your kind public approach. People may see you as a mother figure.

Moon in 11th house

You will attract a lot of souls to you through the internet or through big communities. You may be the one to guide them in the community. People/friends may look to you for comfort and soul connections.

Mercury (8° scorpio) in 11th house

People could talk about your life relentlessly online. You could spend a lot of time on personal research, and gain taboo knowledge online. People could feel drawn to you for your writing, or intelligence. You may attract soulmates with deep personal connections and you can talk to them about anything & everything. Perhaps you will go through a lot of outside judgement.

ex: delving into the esoteric side of the internet

Mercury (19° libra) in Leo 2nd house

You may have a great voice. You may be known for your art or your talents, and your career may include a lot of writing & singing.

Alma (18° virgo) in 11th house

A lot of your soulmates may be virgos or at least have virgo traits. You could also meet a lot of soulmates through work or online. Perhaps a lot of your soulmates actually work on social media or have an internet presence. Even in romantic relationships, there is always a friendly energy between you and them.

Alma (29° leo) in 4th house

Your soulmate could feel like family to you. You could attract a lot of artists in your life. Your soulmates are creative & talented. You could attract a lot of Leos as well. There is an almost maternal type of affection shared with your soulmates whether romantic or not.

North node (11° aquarius) in 11th house

Your soul may be led to the online world, humanitarian work, community development & making genuine connections. You could be destined for fame or at least have a very important role in society through media or your friend circles. You could be led to a specific group of friends. They could be very different from you or you may prove to be an unusual bunch. Perhaps you'll meet online.

North node in 2nd house

You may find many of your soulmates through work/ while making money. You may also be destined to work with your soulmates as well.

Boda (4° cancer) in Taurus 11th house

You may marry a friend/soulmate. Your marriage will be one out of love & devotion. Perhaps the marriage will be held in a familiar place i.e hometown, somewhere connected to your childhood (4th house).

note: It might be a place frequented by you during childhood/very often because of a family member with the same sign boda is in as well as the degrees.

Boda (cancer° )in 9th house

If you are foreigners, you could get married in your future spouses' country/hometown.

Boda in retrograde

You may think about marriage a lot. You could also get married to a karmic soulmate as well (there are lessons to be learnt/taught).

Briede in 12th house

As a wife you/they may be very spiritual or your/their connection to spirituality could be strengthened. You could move overseas when you get married or you may be in your husband's country. You could be at home most of the time or hidden from the public. Perhaps you prefer to live in your own world at the time.

Briede in Virgo/Virgo°

You could be very practical as a wife. Perhaps you will hold onto traditional roles/views on marriage. You will be very organised and perhaps even work oriented.

Briede in Leo/Leo°

You could be very well known as a wife. Perhaps your energy or charismatic nature is enhanced and people may notice you more after marriage. You will be a creative & loyal partner.

Briede in Taurus/Taurus°

You may long to be a mother or could also end up as a stay at home wife. (I think I've mentioned this before in a different post but I'll still add in for those who resonate). Your soul will find comfort in being close to your husband, family & home as a wife. You may be a natural homemaker as well.

Briede in Gemini/3rd house

As a wife you will be very talkative, witty & friendly. Perhaps you'll like going to events/festivals/services or if you have a child, you will usually be the one to attend school events. You may be naturally inclined to go out more or make more mental connections/friends.

***disclaimer: entertainment purposes only, reader discretion is advised***

Thank you for reading ♡

@northopalshore

[literaryvein-reblogs]

A List of "Beautiful" Untranslatable Words

Acasă - [Romanian] Where you feel at home, safe, loved. It's the place where you feel like you belong and that you miss when you're away.

Boketto - [Japanese] gazing vacantly into the distance without thinking of anything specific; daydreaming

Ciğerpare - [Turkish] has Persian origins and literally means ‘liver part’. It refers to someone that you love as much as your own body.

Clagarnach - [Irish] the sound of heavy rain on a rooftop

Commuovere - [Italian] often taken to mean “heartwarming,” but directly refers to a story that moved you to tears

Dauwtrappen - [Dutch] to walk barefoot through morning grass

Dustsceawung - [Old English] the thought that dust used to be other things, and realisation that everything will ultimately end up as dust

Elvágyódás - [Hungarian] Some compare it to wanderlust, but it’s a much broader concept. The word doesn’t just refer to the desire to travel or go to another country, but also to another time in our life, or even a different era. It expresses wanting to escape reality and looking for something undefined.

Encebre - [Galician] something authentic, characteristic, rooted into the culture and specific for a certain region, impossible to find anywhere else

Fernweh - [German] “far sickness”; the feeling of longing for a place you’ve never been to

Fika - [Swedish] enjoying a nice chat over a cup of coffee or tea.

Flâner - [French] aimlessly wandering without any destination, just to enjoy the views

Gluggaveður - [Icelandic] weather that looks beautiful but is unpleasant to be in

Gökotta - [Swedish] waking up early to hear the first birds sing

Heimat - [German] the roots that shape who you are as a person

Hiányérzet - [Hungarian] the feeling that something is missing, but we just can’t put a finger on it

Iktsuarpok - [Inuit] the feeling of anticipation that leads you to keep looking outside to see if anyone is coming

Kairós - [Greek] the perfect, most opportune time for something to happen

Komorebi - [Japanese] sunlight that filters between the leaves on a tree

L’appel du vide - [French] “the call of the void” or the sudden desire to jump when you’re standing high up

Luftmensch - [Yiddish] someone who is a bit of a dreamer

Luscofusco - [Galician] the moment when day fades into the night and all light disappears, leaving everything looking like shadows

Mångata - [Swedish] the trail created by the moon’s reflection on water

Mangomoment - [Dutch] small acts of affection occurring during regular everyday activities. They can be almost unnoticeable, like someone asking how you’re feeling or offering to share their snack with you.

Merak - [Serbian] the feeling you get from simple pleasures that adds up to a sense of happiness and fulfillment

Peiskos - [Norwegian] the experience of sitting in front of a crackling fireplace enjoying the warmth

Querencia - [Spanish] somewhere you feel the most at home

Retrouvailles - [French] a reunion with a loved one after a long time of not seeing each other

Saudade - [Portuguese] the longing for something beautiful that’s now gone

Symatisk - [Danish] to have a good feeling about someone we don’t know very well

Torschlusspanik - [German] The realisation that you need to do something with your life because the time is running and you’re not getting any younger. It can hit you at any age, so one could call it a universal equivalent to the mid-life crisis.

Toska - [Russian] a mixture of pining, restlessness, yearning, nostalgia, melancholy, and depression; a concept embracing the feelings of nostalgia, missing, being sad, even the beginnings of depression

Tsundoku - [Japanese] buying a book and leaving it unread, usually surrounded by a lot of other unread books

Uitwaaien - [Dutch] to go out in windy weather, particularly into nature or a park, in order to refresh and clear one’s mind

Utepils - [Norwegian] sitting outside on a sunny day and enjoying a beer

Vedriti - [Slovenian] to shelter from the rain, either literally or metaphorically, such as when you’re in a bad mood and you’re waiting for the negative emotions to pass

Waldeinsamkeit - [German] the feeling of solitude, being alone in the woods, and a connectedness to nature

Weltschmerz – [German] satirist, Jean Paul, originally known as Johann Paul Friedrich Richter, came up with this word that literally means “world pain.” When you feel that the world is in a deplorable state, Weltschmerz can describe your anguish.

Won - [Korean] reluctance to let go of an illusion

Żal - [Polish] grief, sadness, regret - can be related to both our actions and the actions of others, as well as losing something or missing someone

Sources: 1 2 3 4 5 6 ⚜ More: Lists of Beautiful Words ⚜ Word Lists

[moviecritc]

dreamer ⋆ carlos sainz

pairing: carlos sainz x old friend!reader

summary: you leave the city searching a meaning to your life, founding an old friends instead

word count: 2K

warnings: carlos isn't a driver, just a really rich guy with hobbies

a/n: here's the first track of my bewitched department <33 i love reader and carlos so so much tbh

masterlist | wattpad | letterboxd

"I'm sick of all this, Natalie," Y/N declared, throwing her phone on the sofa. Her roommate diverted her gaze from the TV to her. "It's the fourth guy that ghosted me after I ask him out."

"Become a lesbian," said Natalie, turning her attention back to the movie.

Y/N let out a sigh. "I should. I'm tired of all men being assholes and manipulators."

She grimaced, thinking that maybe the problem wasn't men but her. She had studied Art History and had been the best in her class. Now, at 28, she was sharing an apartment and teaching preteens who called her 'ma'am.' Was she wasting her life?

"I need a change," she said to herself.

"The smell goes away with a shower, don't worry." Natalie looked at her, wrinkling her nose.

"No, damn it. A change in my routine," she explained. Nevertheless, she took a sniff at her armpit, regretting it. She'd shower later. "I need to get out of here."

She stood up, grabbed her phone, and headed to her room.

"Hey? And where are you going, if I may ask?" said Natalie, following her.

"Anywhere!" Y/N shrugged. She drank a glass of water and took out a couple of pieces of clothing. "I need to change the scenery as soon as possible, I'm stuck."

She pulled a small suitcase from her closet while her roommate rolled her eyes.

"Y/N, you can't just leave suddenly. Don't you have classes tomorrow?"

Y/N paused for a moment and then shrugged again. "I'll ask for the day off. The week, actually."

"The week!" exclaimed Natalie. Y/N was already looking at flights on her phone when Natalie covered her screen. "Y/N, you don't have the financial or mental stability for this!"

Y/N swatted Natalie's hand away to see her phone screen.

"Madrid is very cheap this time of year," she said, with a small smile.

"But you don't even speak Spanish!"

Y/N boarded a plane to Madrid with the idea of not talking to any men that week. This trip was for her, to reconnect with herself, the Y/N she had lost over the years.

She still didn't have a place to stay, but she would resolve that on the go. The journey from the airport to central Madrid was tedious; she didn't know how the metro worked and people ignored her like she was nothing. Frustrated, she sat in a café. She looked up things to do in Madrid on her phone, but soon the battery died, and she was sure she had forgotten her charger at the apartment.

She let out a long sigh and ran her hands over her face. As she opened her eyes, she heard a voice.

"Y/N?"

She looked up immediately, surprised that someone knew who she was in Madrid. When she met the gaze of the individual, she recognized him instantly.

"Carlos?"

She stood up immediately, greeting him. Was he a man? Yes but Carlos and she had gone to university together; they had been friends for several years. Probably best friends, though they never talked about it. He hadn't changed much; he looked older but in a positive way, with a more flattering haircut and surprisingly stronger.

"What are you doing here?" Carlos asked, leaning in for a short hug.

"On vacation," Y/N nodded. Running into him had instantly lifted her spirits.

"Damn, I haven't seen you in… six years?" Carlos tilted his head a bit.

"Since graduation, right?"

They both nodded; it had been quite a while. Long enough to realize they had lost contact too soon.

"I didn't expect to see you in Madrid," commented Carlos, with a smile.

"It was a last-minute decision," explained Y/N, wrinkling her nose a bit. She formed a smile. "I'm glad to see you, really. Do you want to sit for a bit?" she suggested, pointing to the empty chair.

"I'd love to," Carlos accepted the invitation immediately, sitting down.

A waiter approached, and Carlos ordered a coffee to accompany Y/N's.

"Well, tell me, what have you been up to all these years?" Carlos asked, crossing one leg.

Y/N told him a bit of everything, very sweetened. That she was teaching Geography and History at a public school, that her family was fine, and they reminisced about the time Carlos practically crashed her Christmas party because Carlos Sainz Senior was mad at him for his grades and that she was happy living in her city.

Carlos told her that he now worked at his father's company as an executive.

"Oh, I thought you’d be doing something related to what we studied," Y/N pressed her lips a bit, somewhat disappointed that Carlos hadn't continued doing what they both loved.

"I would have loved to… but there were very few job opportunities. And I didn't want to be a teacher, so I played it safe," admitted Carlos, shrugging a bit. For a moment, he thought Y/N would judge him for it, but her sweet and calm expression told him otherwise.

"Understandable not wanting to be a teacher," agreed Y/N, before sipping her coffee.

"Is it tough?" Carlos mimicked her, lifting his cup too.

Y/N shook her head a bit. "I'm sure there are worse things. But having a twelve-year-old try to cut your hair because his dad is bald is rather curious."

Carlos almost choked on his coffee from the sudden laughter. "Really?" He tried to stifle the laughter as best as he could, but Y/N was already glaring at him.

"No, no. It's not funny, it happens every damn day," she nodded vigorously. Carlos let out a laugh that ended up being contagious for Y/N too.

The conversation continued for the rest of the afternoon. It was like going back to university for a few hours, a time she missed a lot. When they decided to get up from the table, they had finished four coffees and at least one glass of wine. It was even starting to get cold outside.

"Shall I walk you to your hotel?" Carlos asked with a smirk.

Y/N grimaced, remembering she still hadn't sorted that out. She bit the inside of her cheek, embarrassed. "I haven't booked a hotel room yet."

"Oh," he pursed his lips and quickly said, "You can stay at my place, I have a spare room."

Y/N, hearing him speak, was already shaking her head. "No, no, no. I don't want to bother you."

Carlos clicked his tongue, looking away for a moment.

"How are you going to bother me? Come on, bring your suitcase. My car is parked nearby."

Y/N was intrigued by Carlos's initiative but kept shaking her head.

"Really, it's not necessary, Carlos," Y/N extended her arms a bit for Carlos to return her suitcase, but he even moved it away from her hands. "I'll manage."

She said that last part to ease him a bit, but it only sounded like she needed more help.

"Y/N, I'm not going to leave you out on the street," Carlos put his hands on his hips and she let out a sigh. "That's not very gentlemanly of me."

"You were never a gentleman, you idiot," noted Y/N. Carlos smiled, knowing that if Y/N started to insult you, she was about to agree with you. "Alright, but just for one night. Then I'll find a hotel."

"Whatever you say, cariño," Carlos smiled triumphantly, and Y/N tried to hide her smile while he put her suitcase in the trunk.

His apartment was huge, truly huge. A dream kitchen, a large living room, and definitely more than one spare room. As they entered, a beautiful brown and white dog greeted them, heading straight for Carlos's legs.

"And who is this?" said Y/N, petting his head a bit, enough for the animal to focus all its attention on her. He sniffed Y/N's shoes and licked the hems of her pants.

"His name is Piñón," said Carlos with a smile, surprised that Piñón hadn't started barking because of a stranger's presence. "I adopted him almost after we graduated."

Y/N crouched, petting Piñón's neck and behind his ears. "Hi, Piñón. You're so pretty."

"I'll show you the room," Carlos said.

Y/N got up, giving Piñon one last pet. "Thank you, really. I feel like an abandoned cat, but thank you."

They both chuckled softly.

"It's nothing," Carlos said as they went to the room.

Y/N left her suitcase in a corner and turned to Carlos. "Do you have a charger?"

She felt like she was taking advantage of him too much, even if it was just for a charger, she felt bad.

"Of course, here," Carlos handed her the charger, their hands touched for a millisecond. She tried so hard not to feel anything. He kept a flirty smile. "Are you hungry?"

"Well, yes," Y/N nodded. "But give me a few minutes and I'll help you cook."

Y/N took a couple of things out of her suitcase and went back to the kitchen to help Carlos. They quickly cooked some pasta with burrata. Y/N noticed how Carlos would get close to her or brush his hands against hers casually.

While cutting some tomatoes, the knife slipped from Carlos’s hand. "Shit!" Carlos looked at the cut and put his finger in his mouth, letting out several whimpers.

"Did you cut yourself?" Y/N went over to him, Carlos took his finger out of his mouth, showing her a small cut. Y/N pursed her lips, remembering how dramatic he could be. "It's nothing, Carlos. It's barely bleeding."

Y/N cradled his hand, gently caressing his fingers almost unconsciously. The room went silent, Carlos looked into her eyes, he adored that look. Y/N lifted her eyes, connecting them with Carlos’s. He leaned toward her, listening to her breathing and matching his to it.

"Can I kiss you?"

The question hung in the air. Y/N held her breath. This was the opposite of what she wanted. She blinked and slightly opened her mouth. To Carlos, it felt like an eternity.

"I'm sorry," Y/N said in a faint voice. She looked at him with pity and Carlos stepped back, feeling more embarrassed than ever. "It's just… it's not the right time. I'm in a bit of a strange phase and things aren't going well for me, I don't want to mess things up for you." Y/N fidgeted with her rings as she said it.

"I understand," Carlos said, nodding slowly. "I shouldn't have asked you that, it was out of place."

"No, I should have told you before," she contradicted, with a grimace.

"Don't worry," he said. "It's just that…," Carlos hesitated a bit. "In college I had a huge crush on you and seeing you again brought everything back."

Y/N blinked, absorbing those words. She had always wondered why Carlos barely dated any girls during their time in college, it never crossed her mind it could be because of her.

"You had a crush on me?"

"You didn't know?"

"No…"

"Damn, we spent so much time together,"

"Because we were friends! That's what friends do!"

They both laughed and Carlos leaned against the counter, crossing his arms.

"So, you're not having a good time?" he inquired, with a calm look.

Y/N lowered her gaze. "I'm trying to sort out my life."

"I understand," he bit the inside of his cheek. "Anyway, if once you sort out your life you feel like going on a date, I haven't changed my number."

That felt so good in Y/N's chest, as if her heart expanded a little. She laughed like a fool, taking a few steps back.

"I'm going to go to sleep,"

"You're not having dinner with me?" Carlos extended his arms, with a sad look.

"Maybe tomorrow," Y/N turned around and smiled over her shoulder before disappearing down the hallway.

taglist; @theseerbetweenus

[arseholism]

[ Wow, you're seriously going to attempt reading about me?? Alright then, before we begin this long and tiresome charade, let's go over the basic information you NEED to know and understand.. ] [ NO! i do not want to subscribe to your OF] [ I don't "want" you. I don't "need" you. I don't want to "come see you". ] [ Please for the love of whatever you love most, do not bother telling me this post offended you]

[ Aw you look beautiful when you’re smiling! Love those shoes too ;) ]

[ Alright, get comfortable my darling ] [ I love people, i just don't find many interesting. So technically, the law of averages works against you.] [ You might be awesome.. please, feel welcome to change my mind ] [ Okay, Lets go. ] [ My name is Arias ]

[ You pronounced that wrong! ] [ I like coffee ] [ I like people. I wouldn't be able to live without people.] [ I love talking ] [ You don't know me ] [ You probably wouldn't understand me even if you did ] [ I'm From London ] [ I also live in Los Angeles, Sydney and New york ] [ Because i can ] [ I travel a lot ] [ I'm 6'3 ] [ I like short girls ] [ Not midgets. Short girls ] [ My dad's white, my mum's spanish .. Incase you wondered ]

[ I love American accents! They’re so fucking cute!! ]

[ I'm English ] [ Yes i have an accent, it's london with a hint of sydney] [ I like it.. ] [ No you probably will never hear it ] [ I've played Piano, Guitar and Violin since i was 4 ] [ I write lyrics and music when i'm bored ] [ No i will not write you a song ] [ Yes i can sing ] [ No i will not sing for you ] [ I love to cook ]

[ No i will not cook for you ] [ I'm blunt so i can be an arsehole ] [ I'm quite nice in general ] [ I'm passive, i really don't give a fuck ] [ Unless i care.. then I absolutely give a fuck ] [ I won't suck up just so you like me ] [ I do what I want ] [ I do not like cameras, in case you’re wondering why my page isn’t littered with selfies ] [ No i will not be your trick monkey ] [ or your human puppet ] [ enough. ] [ Make me smile, make me laugh, i'll get addicted to you ] [ I'm a cuddle whore ] [ I'm attracted to pretty faces and beautiful smiles ] [ I'm a dreamer ] [ I love to plan dreamy dates and sensational moments] [ I have sleep issues. I like my issues ] [ I love to read ] [ I think you're spiffy because you're still reading this ] [ I'm bored right now, so i may NEVER stop. ] [ I LOVE to cook. I even bake my own bread haha ] [ If you tak lyke dis, dun fuhkin tak 2 me mkay? ] [ Right. got that off my chest ] [ I swim, i run, i eat unhealthy, my body is so confused, but it's pretty to look at? ] [ I love music, i have way too much music for one guy ] [ I love kids, i have 3 god children and they rock my world ] [ I'm opinionated and judgemental, however, i will listen to your opinion and i will listen to your side of the story] [ I'm hopelessly romantic ] [ I'm very very very picky ] [ No. I'm not looking for anything or anyone ] [ Romance.. is so misunderstood ] [ I'm broken ] [ No. You can't fix me ] [ Wow. I didn't stop. You didn't stop. We're still here and we're meant to be *gushes* haha ] [ I'll probably adopt. ] [ I'm always bored ] [ I like conversation ] [ I love to read ] [ I don't like pictures, i figure that if there is something beautiful enough, it'll burn into my memory ] [ I however, do not want you to hit on me ] [ I can be very perverted ] [ No, this does not imply i want to talk dirty ] [ Or.. that i want you to talk dirty ] [ Please try not to be too creepy.. PRETTY PLEASE? ] [ I'm also very moralistic ] [ I love my imagnation ] [ I have a major oral fetish ] [ Do we have things in common? ] [ No, You could probably never be my dream girl ] [ I have never had a one night stand ] [ Yes, i'm very picky and fucking frustrating ] [ Are you Captain Entertainment? Sent to rescue me from the trescherous depths of boredom? ] [ Didn't think so.. ] [ I love cookies, they make me happy ] [ I love cold miserable rainy weather ] [ I'm cheeky ] [ I'm complicated ]

[ I'm curious ]

[ Did the brackets annoy you? ]

[ Stupid word count ]

[ Go on.. Judge me! ]

[ Message me if you still want more ]

[hometoursandotherstuff]

Magnificent 1922 Spanish Colonial Revival Chiles Estate looks ancient, doesn’t it? It’s in Asheville, North Carolina, has 5bd 4ba $2.495M.

Isn’t this open entrance fabulous? Look at how the walls appear to be crumbling. This was the vision of  prominent Asheville architect Ronald Greene and is known as Asheville’s *second* most famous home.

I’ve never seen columns set right into stairs. Isn’t that unusual? And, I also like the shelving in the stairs- good use of space. 

Very large sitting room- look how nice the windows open. Love that tile fireplace.

Beautiful library. Look at the up-lighting in the dental molding around the room and the way the ceiling curves.

Details like this cool original door knob.

Isn’t the dining room beautiful? Love the blue ceiling and how it opens to the 

Love the kitchen remodel. I don’t know why, but I really like dark cabinets. This kitchen has an updated Spanish Colonial look. Very nice.

Striking blue subway tile bath.

Spacious main bd. 

This is a stunning en-suite- black tile and white fixtures. Look at the vintage sunken tub.

Beautiful walk-in closet/dressing room.

This is set up as a sitting room, but it’s really a bd b/c it has an en-suite.

Loving the rose tile and vintage tub.

And, this is one of the other bedrooms set up as a home office.

Lovely big terraces- one open an one covered.

Patio behind the house.

Look at the dining room from the patio, and notice the covered outdoor walkway above.

Looking down into the courtyard from above.

What a cute building.

And, look what’s inside- a bar and entertaining space.

This is so cool.

And, check out the gardens. What an amazing place to get away and be alone.

A stunning .37 acre property.

And look at this, it even has a park.

https://www.zillow.com/homedetails/21-Chiles-Ave-Asheville-NC-28803/5613975_zpid/

[hyacinthsdiamonds]

As @nco05 brought to my attention, Fernando became a world champion for the first time the year Ollie was born. He actually finished second in the Spanish grand prix on the day Ollie was born. Oscar was born the year Fernando debuted, just a few weeks before Oscar came into the world he lined up on the grid for the first time alongside Kimi. Fernando was the only driver poster Max had on his wall. Ollie has revealed that Seb, one of his heroes that he grew up watching, texted him wishing him luck before the race. There's photos of a baby faced Lando meeting Seb for the first time nearly a decade before they'd meet again to line up on the grid together. The same with George and Lewis. The likes of Carlos, Charles to even Seb met Michael as kids and were in complete awe of him. To Max, Michael was Uncle Michael first, f1 legend second. There's countless stories, coincidences, invisible strings of fate. Many I didn't even mention, some we probably don't know yet. Fernando and Lewis are now the oldest drivers on the grid, Lewis was once his rookie teammate. The passage of time, the passing of the torch. Heroes change from the likes of Senna and Prost, to Schumacher to Vettel, Alonso, Hamilton and more, one day the drivers we see now will be the heroes, the legends. Max is the first driver born in the 90s to win a race and a world championship. Senna had passed years before he was born. Oscar is the first driver born in the 2000s to get a podium, a new millennia of drivers will follow him soon. The passing of the torch in real time. They're both the dreamers and the dream.

[vhstown]

time out (part 2)

[boxer au] — 42!miles g morales x gn!reader

summary: Miles Morales makes boxing history. Your boyfriend isn't there to celebrate.

warnings: angst-ish, hurt/comfort, fluff, description of (boxing) injuries, briefly implied death, gtranslate spanish

word count: 5.3k

a/n: editing this was actual torture. kind of becomes a song fic? song is dreamer by bobby bland if you wanna listen before u read lmao entirely not necessary tho. part 2 of 2 but i might write this au again in the future !

← PART 1 / THE AU

Boxing — you tried to be as well versed in it as possible, learning as many terms and moves and whatever else you could pick up from Aaron when he was helping Miles train for all those weeks. What you weren’t sure of, though, was if a “time out”, or a break, had to be this awkward. What you also weren’t sure of was what on Earth your boyfriend was thinking doing here at midnight training (or splitting his knuckles open, though you didn’t quite know the difference anymore,) right after his tournament had finished.

Regardless, there was nothing you could do about it. Even if you wanted to, you couldn’t just leave and “give him space” as you might’ve done before. The weather didn’t look like it was going to clear up anytime soon, and you had no signal or money; it wasn't like Miles would call a car for himself anyway — stubborn.

Miles was sat on the floor against a set of shelves with various things that belonged to Aaron, and you were on an unbearably stiff bench press seat, legs close together so you wouldn’t fall off and your jacket hung around the weight. Cold, uncomfortable, dead silent — the perfect atmosphere for a productive conversation, of course.

Truthfully, you had no idea what to say. Yeah, you’d just talked big game to your boyfriend and scolded him like his mother probably would’ve if she knew what the hell he was up to, but you hadn’t planned anything after that. Miles wasn’t a talker — not by any means. Right now, he was sat on the floor with his legs crossed, stretching uncomfortably on his elbows with his hands in awkward positions to try and not strain them too much. He hadn’t said anything, so you hadn’t said anything either, and now you were stuck without any words and too many thoughts.

It was a lot of unmet glances and quiet shivers, and you tried your best to kill the urge to just... lean over and hug him. As much as you missed him and wanted to let out everything you’d been feeling for the past couple of weeks, now wasn’t the best time — Miles probably couldn’t even hug you with those gnarly injuries anyway.

Miles’ eyes were dull and tired, fixed on the ground or maybe somewhere you couldn’t see. As usual, you couldn’t gauge anything from his expression besides mild annoyance. It was like a constant guessing game. First, why your texts weren’t going through, secondly, where the hell he was, and now you had to figure out why on Earth he was so frustrated. Your luck had ran out with those first two guesses, and his silence certainly didn’t help — again, not a talker. Not even a looker; he wasn’t stealing glances of you anymore, like he was thinking about something. If only you knew what.

The most you could guess was that this was about not winning — but it couldn’t just be that simple. Miles was stupid sometimes, but he wasn’t delusional — he knew that he probably couldn’t beat every single person in that championship when he was just starting to go professional. This wasn’t some kiddish, lofty dream Miles had either — he was serious from the day Aaron got him those gloves, which were now crumpled up in the corner next to you. He wouldn’t throw a fit over nothing.

It wasn’t right to force it out of him though, and you could still sense the stubbornness lingering in the crease between his brows. You resisted the urge to smooth it out with your thumb, instead just killing it with every other thought you deemed “selfish”. Apparently, waiting was just as much of a competitive sport at boxing.

The door rattled as icy drafts bit at your ankles and fingertips. It sounded like the sky was going to collapse from how intense the storm was growing. Miles was just in a tank top, his hoodie abandoned on the bar behind you. You figured he could get it himself; any sort of help always seemed pitying to him anyway.

“I’m training with uncle Aaron tonight — stay home.”

“I can handle myself. How else you think I got this far?”

“You ain’t comin’ to Vegas with me.”

You found yourself reaching for the hoodie anyway. Miles didn’t notice, of course, but you could see the goose bumps on skin even from this far away.

“Hey,” you muttered, making him look up. “Are you gonna tell me what’s up, or sulk some more?”

His mouth opened, but only to let out a breath, before silence fell between you again.

“Fine, I don’t… get it, or whatever.” You continued, fingers trailing into the sleeves of the hoodie. “But I don’t get how I’m supposed to when you’re not talking to me.”

“There’s nothing to get.” It was like you had Vegas between you two again — like he wasn’t even here.

The fabric of the hoodie was warm, and a part of you didn’t feel like letting go of it — if only your boyfriend was in the hoodie too.

“I don’t get why you’d box without wraps, for one.”

“I’m just… frustrated,” he yielded, albeit unhelpfully. “‘S nothing serious, promise.”

Serious enough to have your fingers hanging on by a thread. You noticed his thumb nursing the blackened skin around his knuckles, and his expression seemed even more distant than it was before. It was always some impossible game, and you hadn’t lost, but were drained and out of words for now.

Maybe he’d figure it out for himself; you weren’t too convinced of that. Despite that, it was getting annoying to hear the constant howling of wind and rain outside. Walking over to the shelf, you dropped the hoodie in Miles’ lap. You doubted he had even looked at you, but you didn’t need him to. Right now, you needed something to fill this boring, cold and wordless room.

Looking through the shelves behind Miles, you noticed a picture: a much younger Aaron wearing boxing gloves, a medal around his neck and standing next to someone you assumed to be Miles' dad. You'd never looked at any of the pictures close up, but you noticed there were a lot of old pictures like that, before finding Aaron's collection of records.

Taking the first one out, you put it into the player and carefully set the needle, glancing at the name of the song. His taste in music wasn’t exactly popular, but you’d rather listen to “DREAMER” than “inconveniently timed Brooklyn storm” right now.

Letting out a sigh of your own, you slumped down next to him as he pulled the hoodie over his head, arms going back to being crossed.

"~Dreamer... dreamer... Like a fool, I thought that it could be..." Of course it was a sad song. Blues? The haunting melody made you feel blue. It made the cold feel more numbing than biting on your skin. It made you feel, in general — what, you couldn’t really place.

“…Are we okay?” you muttered without much thought. The urge to talk had come back, and you hadn’t decided if you regretted speaking yet.

"~Dream on... dream on... surely someone, will understand me..."

Miles let out a breath, and it felt like you were exchanging more sighs than words. “Yeah. I just… ‘S not you.”

No “promise”, though. Did that make it more or less honest?

"~What do I say, when I've, oh, said too much? I think by now, I'm wastin' time..."

“...I love you, y’know?” you continued, hating how out of place it sounded. It was as useless as that text you tried to send, but you were tired, and missed your boyfriend, and wished he would give you even a glance.

“~I'm going… oh Lord I'm gone…”

“Love you too,” he mumbled in reply. It wasn’t very reassuring, and it didn’t seem like it to him either, because he reached out to brush your hand against his. You took his hand first — gently, and his thumb pressed into your palm in a sort of silent apology.

You hated how futile it was, and how much you craved it again. You hated you couldn’t be even a little mad at him, and how you were defending him to yourself. Maybe you were both in the wrong. No — you weren’t wrong, you were trying to be understanding.

You weren’t wrong for feeling this way, were you?

“~You are the absence, of my mind…”

You hated how much you missed that boy from all those months ago — even though he was right in front of you. It didn’t feel like Miles Morales was yours anymore, he was theirs — whoever “they” were. His competitors, his managers, the media… It was like there was no trace of the Miles you knew before. Maybe it’s because you couldn’t deny it anymore: that Miles had a dream, and you probably weren’t in it. You hated how you took it so personally.

And you hated how you reached out to hug him, despite all of that.

It was just you for a moment, and you were about to pull away before his arms wrapped loosely around the small of your back.

You hated how you hid your face over his shoulder, and how nice it felt. You hated how warm he was, and how the room was freezing.

You hated how familiar this was.

“~Lord, dreamer… dreamer…”

“Sorry, cariño. Didn’t mean to be an asshole.” Miles’ fingertips dragged uselessly over your back, and you shamelessly tightened your arms around him as he pressed his cheek into yours. You might’ve shed a tear, if it weren't for how heavy your eyes were already with the late hour. Neither of you could go home yet, though you weren’t sure if you wanted to right now.

“~Like a fool… I thought, well, that it could be…”

The long sigh you let out was followed by Miles’ own quiet one before he kissed you on the cheek. His breath warmed your frigid face and brushed at your heart, as he always did. You wished you could be upset, overreact, scream at his face, tell him how you felt all this time. It just always had to end with forgiveness, because now, you couldn’t even remember what you had felt.

And you hated it — not as much as you’d like.

Closing your eyes, you buried your head into his hoodie while the music, the storm and the sound of your own breathing blurred together in your mind. All you were left with were your own thoughts.

This boxing thing didn’t involve you — it never did. He didn’t want you there to see him, or even tell you he was home from Vegas, and now it felt like he was just putting up with you here. It felt like you and him were on opposite sides of the pavement, only walking together to share the same umbrella. He just didn’t want you to get soaked — or hurt.

“I told you not to come today… I’m walkin’ you home.”

He didn’t want you to expect too much.

“Nah, you don’t need to see me train. It’s borin’ as hell.”

He didn’t want you to give up on him.

“I’ll make it big — promise.”

He wanted his dream — did he still want you?

“Just be patient with me, cielo.”

Patient, huh? If only you could be like Rio. It felt like you were just as bad as Miles. Maybe you were — both just as bad as each other.

“Why didn’t you text me? …At all?” Muffled against his hoodie, you hoped your voice didn’t waver. It felt a little manipulative, even if it wasn’t in the slightest, but you couldn’t keep telling yourself things were all good. Miles had been avoiding you, whether that was intentional or not. You were just being open — trying to be open. You hope he’d try too.

The boy in question was silent, before he pulled away, hands lingering at your sides.

“I was…” Miles took in a breath, voice dying out for a moment. “Look, I…”

“~Down the wrong way, on a one way street…”

“I can’t be a boxer anymore.”

It felt like the rain had gone quiet. There was no need for an umbrella between you two anymore. It felt like you’d closed it yourself, walking to the opposite side of the pavement again, watching him and the dull, empty sky from afar.

You were the one that asked him — you wanted him to speak to you, and now you weren’t even sure what to say.

“~You'd think by now, I would have learned…”

“What do you mean…?”

“My contract got terminated.” His voice sounded forced, strangely robotic. Was that what you so wanted to get from him?

“Can’t you just… get signed by somebody else?”

“There is nobody else. I had a contract with Norman Osborn — he basically owns boxing.”

“~I saw a little, but I learned even less…”

Your heart dropped a little — you wouldn’t let it drop any more than that. It made sense why Miles was so excited back then if he got signed by someone like that. Now, that excitement meant nothing. All you could think of was that video, that interview…

“I jus’ hope you watchin’, cause I’m here. Miles Morales made it!”

So he’d just… given up? Miles had given up? Was that it? The end of it?

Boxer or not, you suddenly had the urge to punch him — maybe even punch yourself. It didn’t even matter who was right and who was wrong anymore, because you didn’t even know who was in front of you. It was almost uncanny to see Miles like this, so dejected; that’s what he’d been feeling all this time. As much as it seemed like he was mad at you, or was avoiding you, or lying to you, it was never really about you.

Miles was refusing to let go of his dream — of himself — until right now.

And you didn’t know what overcame you at that moment. Maybe it was Rio’s words, or the fact that Aaron wasn’t here, or the fact that you felt like you’d lost your boyfriend — if he wasn’t going to be stubborn about it anymore, you sure as hell were.

“So you’re telling me nobody else is gonna sign you? At all? You haven’t even looked?”

“You don’t get it, ‘s more complicated than—”

“Baby, look at me for a sec.” Your hand was on his shoulder with more confidence than common sense, eyes were square with his avoidant, dull, hopeless gaze. You haven’t ever seen Miles hopeless before. You couldn’t let him be if it was the last thing you did. “You, Miles Gonzalo Morales—”

“Aight, you don’t need the full name.”

“I do need it, because my whole ass boyfriend changed boxing history.” Frankly, you had no idea what you were saying; it felt like you were shooting in the dark, but you didn’t care if you sounded a little stupid, or over-the-top, because if that’s what it took to get your boyfriend to crack even a little… “His 'legendary left jab'—”

“Babe, where the hell did you get that from?” The look he was giving you was probably more of a “jab” than anything.

“…The news.” The corner of your mouth quirked up despite your best efforts, face pricking with heat as you remembered reading through that Bugle article like it was divine revelation. A little stupid, a little over-the-top, sure, but it was true.

Miles’ lips pressed together, and your face heated more trying to decipher his expression. You didn’t have to, because the snicker that escaped his throat was enough make all the rain and thunder and lighting, and even the song insignificant.

“~I only learn to regret…”

“Miles, I’m serious,” you muttered, rather unseriously, brows furrowing as you tried to smooth out the meekness on your face.

“Legendary?” There was a hint of his usual mirth in his tone, and you tried not to be bothered by it. Anything was better than seeing Miles like that: ridiculous, over-the-top, unserious, but not hopeless.

“Look, it was the Bugle, okay? Some millennial wrote that — like, some lady called Mary.”

“Why do you even remember that?” Anything that could come to mind, you’d tell him. No more silence. Just be yourself. Keep talking.

“I read it, like, a lot, okay? I was really proud of you and I just…”

The smirk fell fast from Miles’ face, and you held back any words you might’ve had. The rain eased back in as a constant patter against the windows — the silence had come back despite your efforts. Your heart started to sink a little again, but all you could offer was an awkward smile.

“You’re proud?” he asked, like you’d just lied to his face.

“Yeah…? I always am, but seeing you make it so far…” It was something you didn’t say enough, you realised. The words echoed in your mind as you found the confidence to look at him.

“…Miles Morales made it, right?”

Another tiny breath left Miles, his eyes closing for a moment as you waited for him to speak. You wanted to backtrack, maybe hope the rain would die down soon so you two could leave — you had sort of snuck out… That wasn’t the point, though. You weren’t sure what the point was right now, and you weren’t sure what he was thinking, as always — again.

His lips pressed to your forehead, and then your forehead was against his chest — somehow.

You still had no idea what he was thinking. Now you had no idea what he was feeling — or what you were feeling.

The room was freezing, but you were sure you were slowly setting on fire. Traces of the awkward smile you had were stuck on your face as your cheek pressed into the fabric of his hoodie, and suddenly every little thing you’d thought about saying to him had disappeared in its entirety.

“Dios (God), am I a dumbass…” he murmured to himself. With no clue what to do, you could only focus on the hesitance in the way he held you close, because of his injuries, you weren’t sure. His fingers were cold, like the air was. You didn’t hate the warmth this time.

The silence returned again, and instead of your heart sinking, it was fluttering wildly. You so wanted to take it in your hands and hold it still, but you couldn’t even hold Miles back.

He did this sort of thing often — used to do this often, when he was stressed for whatever reason. He wouldn’t say if he was, but you could always tell. Sometimes he’d ask, and right now, he didn’t, but it wasn’t like you ever refused; it was nice, safe, and away from the storm — close.

"~Surely someone, will understand me..."

He kissed the top of your head, like he was hoping you’d understand.

If only you could. If only you could understand why your boyfriend couldn’t see it — see how far he’d come, how much he’d achieved, how proud he should be of himself, how neither of you should be here right now.

If only Rio was here to tell him how proud she was. Or Aaron. Or his dad.

You never really knew his dad. You knew he’d be proud, at least. He'd probably be beaming seeing how far his son Miles had come, like he did in those pictures with Aaron.

You were proud too. Did that count for anything? Would that change anything? It wouldn’t get him another contract.

You wanted to squeeze his hand, but that was a stupid idea considering the state of it. A lot of your ideas felt stupid as of late. None of them would get him another contract.

It felt like a lot more than just the contract, though; maybe that's why it was so hard. If only he’d tell you.

But waiting wasn’t a game, or a competitive sport. It was nothing like boxing; there was no winner. Waiting was a choice — a promise, that you’d be there when he was ready.

“Just be patient with me, cielo.”

You wondered if he’d ever be ready.

"~Dream on, baby."

You wrapped your arms around him, finally. At the very least, you promised to hold him, if not before, then now. He tightened his grip too, just mariginally.

“I’m sorry, mi cielo.” he started, voice barely audible. “I swear, I didn’t know you actually…” Miles trailed off, resting his chin on the top of your head instead.

“Cared?” you suggested, wondering if he could hear you. “It’s a lot more than that.”

You felt his chest fall as he let out a sigh. “I know.”

“I want you to know.”

“I do, I just… I’m being real dumb and—” You squeezed your arms around him before he could finish his sentence; no more avoidance. What you were going to say after, you didn’t know.

“…What?” His voice was suddenly soft, controlled. It was like he could hear what was going on in your head.

“You ever…" You moved your head away from his chest slightly, so he could hear better. "You ever had a stage name in mind?”

It was the only thing you could think to ask, though you didn’t ask it with much thought at all. Still, things weren't going to go anywhere if you kept dodging the subject.

Miles was silent for more than just a moment — it was enough to guess he did have one. “...Why?”

“Cause… when you get back in the ring, people gotta know you right?” It wasn’t just blind optimism — you decided that you did really believe in him. They weren’t going to see the end of someone like him, not by a long shot — or a legendary left jab. Your boyfriend was one hell of a boxer; it wouldn't just stop here — no way.

“I mean, '17-year-old from NYC' isn’t exactly catchy,” you continued, despite his silence.

Just one loss before so many wins. At his age, a win, against a “long-time champion” no less, was worth a million times more than that Norman guy’s contract, no matter how much of a big-shot he was.

“You think I’m gettin’ signed?” They’d be stupid not to.

“I know you’re getting signed.” Rio's words came back to you, and despite your hesitance, you found yourself saying: “If not, I’ll sign you and go to Vegas myself.”

Patient — like his mom, but also with that fighting spirit. You realised you had to be on his level too — match his energy, his enthusiasm. He’d spent long enough being on his own.

“...Fine, fine,” he shrugged. The edge in his tone seemed to fade as he thought for a moment. “If you’re signin’ me, you’re signin’… The Prowler.”

Miles loved boxing? Screw it, you loved boxing too. You loved boxing more than him, in fact — because it was a part of him. And even when he didn’t love his dream so much, you’d be there to love it for him. He loved all of you, and you loved all of him. That was still true now, even if he was going through something not so lovely.

And soon, you’d have something else to love too. Something new.

“The Prowler,” you repeated, a smile of your own creeping up on your face. “…You sure?” The groan Miles let out was enough to curb your need to annoy him… with love.

“Cariño…" he mumbled. "You ask just to make fun of me?” Miles shook his head, and you just squeezed him around the waist again.

“No, no way. I wanna welcome you to the team, Prowler.” A few firm pats on his back got him to laugh again, and though it was barely, that moment felt worth all those weeks.

“You can’t be serious.”

“I’m a hundred percent serious. You and your 'legendary left jab' and all.”

“You…” The hint of a smile was in his voice, and his good hand came to pull you closer, pressing the two of you flush against each other.

“Me…?” Your voice was muffled as you rested against the hollow of his neck, feeling the vibrations of his voice as he spoke.

“Can’t believe you’re still here.” It sounded more like he was talking to himself, speaking under his breath. The way it came out, it seemed like something he'd wanted to say for a while.

“Why would I leave?” Why would you ever leave?

“No clue.”

His good hand found your face, and you turned your head a bit so it wouldn't be so awkward to reach it.

“Don't know why I ever thought that.”

You felt his thumb run across your cheek, before pulling away and tilting your face up to meet his eyes.

“Damn, you're beautiful,” he murmured, dipping his head down to bump your nose with his, stoic expression and all. You were just about able to keep your composure.

“You trying to make it up to me with flattery?” It wasn’t like he had much to make up for — in your eyes, at least. The tease made his eyes narrow, but the ghost of a smile was on his lips.

“I can make it up to you a hell of a lot better than that.”

“Morales,” you warned, thought it didn't come out much like a warning. Especially not with how quietly you said it, your face so close to his.

“What?” It was his turn to be annoying. “Lo imaginé…” (I thought so…) You weren't sure you minded it.

It was nice to be joking, and flirting, and close again. There was no need to protest right now — no reason to pretend to be mad. His arm shifted to search for your hand, and you unconsciously laced your fingers together as your faces drew closer. You were already squeezing his hand before—

“Aye…!” Miles hissed, slipping his hand away as you both remembered the nasty, loud bruise that was spreading across his hand. His left hand, you realised, was the one he’d injured — it wasn’t exactly legendary now.

“Sorry…” you muttered, lips pressing together tightly as you took in the sight again. “But that was your fault."

Miles frowned at you almost incredulously as he held his own hand. “Nuh-uh.”

“Time out, Morales.” You couldn’t help it. Or help the smile on your face.

“You’re kidding.”

“Nope.” You kissed his cheek to really rub it in. No more words from him, it looked like.

After a moment more of silence, and watching Miles nurse his own hand, you spoke up again. “…Are you gonna go back? To boxing?” Miles looked back at you, before nodding.

“Yeah. Eventually, I guess...” He let out a sigh, but it seemed like one of fatigue rather than frustration. You blinked away your own tiredness that was creeping back. "As the Prowler.”

“Got a lot of… prowling to do, then.” He pursed his lips at you in contempt, and you gave him a meek look in return. As much as you made fun of the name, it was pretty cool. “When are you thinking?”

“I’ll wait a little. ‘S too soon." Miles put his less-brutalised hand on your knee, looking at you a bit more earnestly. "Gotta make it up to you, first.”

“Obvio.” (Obviously) You tried hiding your smirk this time, but he caught it anyway.

“Driving me crazy for no reason,” he mumbled to himself, shaking his head. The few times you did speak Spanish, it usually wasn't to be sweet.

“A good crazy?” you tried, hoping he'd humour you a little. Maybe he could find it sweet?

“Ni hablar.” (No way.)

Sweet enough to kiss you, anyway. With his better hand, he held the side of your face by his fingertips, pressing a short, chaste kiss to your lips. The feeling was warmer than anything, and you were left with a smile tugging at the corners of your mouth as he pulled away.

“Te amo (I love you),” he whispered with his own shred of a smile. You caught a glint in his eye before his expression faded into that same serious look. “I'll fix up, I promise.”

“No need to promise." With your thumb, you finally smoothed the crease between his brows — an old, shared habit. It made his expression soften a little. "Cause you will, and you’ll make it even further next time.”

“Right,” he agreed, hand still lingering by your jaw. “I will. Gimme a time out if I don’t.” A laugh escaped your mouth at that.

"Sure." You met him with your own chaste kiss, your heart swelling as you felt him smile a little against your lips. “I love you too, by the way.”

The record had stopped playing, ages ago, you noticed, and there was another stretch of silence. Total silence, actually — it had stopped raining entirely.

“We should probably head back,” Miles stated as he looked out the window with you, before getting up with a bit of a groan. The two of you needed rest, especially him.

“Yeah,” you murmured, reaching for your jacket. “I mean, I sort of… snuck out.”

His silence made you turn back, only to be met with an unamused look. You tried not to laugh again. “So you’re sayin’ we’re both dead.”

“Pretty much.” He rolled his eyes at your sheepish smile, but you caught the corner of his mouth lift up as he turned to the door. It wasn't like the two of you hadn’t snuck out before — this was just like all those other times, just more… unplanned.

The night time air was strangely cool and breathable as you left the warehouse. Though the concrete was slippery, and you and Miles had to hold onto each other to not fall, Brooklyn was glimmering almost ethereally by the moonlight, the sky clear with any lingering clouds now gone. You hooked your arm in Miles' arm, his hands loosely tucked into the pocket of his hoodie. He’d have some explaining to do to his mom about his hands, and you’d have to creep back into your apartment as quietly as possible — but right now, in the silence hum of the city, you felt that things would be okay. Maybe they weren’t excellent, or ideal right now, but okay was a good start. The Prowler was a thing of the future, albeit near future. Right now, it was just you and Miles Morales, going home together past your curfews.

Ping! Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping Ping—

Way past your curfews.

At the same time, the two of you pulled your phones out, only to be bombarded with notifications of missed calls and texts. You were a short distance away from the warehouse now, and your phones had only just gotten signal. It was 1:02am, and you had walls of texts asking you where the hell you were and to "get your ass home right now" on your lock screen. Miles gritted his teeth, and you didn't want to think about what Rio had to say.

As the pinging died down, your eyes met, the both of you thinking the exact same thing:

“We’re so dead.”

You shot a quick message back and mental prayer, Miles doing the same before hastily linking arms with you again. He returned your sheepish look with his own as the two of you kept walking, trying not to slip in the puddles. It had already been a long night, and it was about to get way longer, but at least you could have each other’s company.

"~All my life, been a dreamer..."

"~Dream on... dream on..."

After all, you could guess that a lot more than just a “time out” was waiting for you at home.

"~Maybe somewhere... maybe somewhere..."

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↑ the song! bobby bland 🔛🔝

felt a bit empty without a message hi this is vee it is midnight and i have to go to school in less than 8 hours ! thriving !!!! also if you're interested i have a post about just the au itself here <3

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[katy-l1988]

Head Canon/Theory Part 1:

I love the idea that Carmilla is also a fallen angel. But she wouldn't be just any angel, she would be an Seraphim.

Sera, the emissary: She's the head of the "Holy Trinity", the diplomatic, the one who guided her siblings.

Carmilla, the keeper: She was the one who acted in case diplomacy didn't work, the one who would give everything for her siblings.

Lucifer, the dreamer: He'd be the balance between both ladies, promoting joy and hope. He is the youngest.

When Lucifer fell with Lilith, Sera and Carmilla became estranged, one could even say they hated each other. They both watched as Lilith rose from hell, but Carmilla never blamed her, but rather Sera and the other celestials.

Then Adam arrived, proposing extermination, but the one leading the battle legions was Carmilla, and she flatly refused to do something like this. Adam, upset that she didn't support him, or as we say in Spanish "no le siguió el amén", cut off her wings and sent her to the hole with Lucifer.

Zestial was the one who found her, and took care of her, taking her to Lucifer. He at first was reluctant to talk with Carmilla, since he saw her as a traitor for not defending him against Sera.

As the years passed, and with the help of Zestial, they were able to rebuild their relationship, with Carmilla being Lucifer's right hand and the CEO of Carmine Industries.

Adam would replace Carmilla, and Emily would replace Lucifer.

[elodieunderglass]

Hi. I just saw your post about the Camino while and proceeded to spend over an hour reading various things about it. Suffice to say I am extremely interested in making this happen for myself; do you have any more specific advice beyond what you already talked about in your post?

(In reference to this post: https://www.tumblr.com/elodieunderglass/739798088656502786/hey-looking-at-the-notes-theres-a-lot-more-oh)

(Referring to: The Camino de Santiago, or Way of St James, a medieval Christian pilgrimage route that leads to the Spanish city of Santiago. The most common pathway starts in the mountains on the border of Spain and France and proceeds across the north of Spain, a route that takes about six weeks for most people on foot. There are many non-Christian reasons to hike the Camino, which is scenic, safe and has excellent infrastructure; you only need to be doing the hike intentionally “in an attitude of search” to be a pilgrim. Pilgrims on the route are eligible for extremely cheap lodgings and meals, and are equipped with pilgrim passports to collect unique stamps at scenic points. At the end of the pilgrimage the stamps are checked, and those who have completed the required distance are issued a campostela, or special certificate, conferring the benefits of pilgrimage; for the religiously devout, this is often an absolution from sins. There are other traditions, such as bringing a stone from your home to place on a pilgrim shrine that has become a mountain of stones. It’s generally held to be one of the things you remember all your life, and that the fellowship and company of interesting people on the Camino is a standout experience. Given how many people on tumblr say things like “I wish I could do a real life pokemon journey” or “if only real life gave you video game quest awards” and so on, it’s actually a surprise to me that more people on here aren’t Camino dreamers.)

Anyway, unfortunately, although my Camino de Santiago has been deeply/realistically planned since I was 20, various startling events have meant that I haven’t started it yet. I have slightly spoiled myself for some key parts of Spain already, but I’m keeping that separate from actually walking the Camino. I’m afraid it’ll be in the 2030s before I do it, because I now have small children (too young to come with me or leave alone for 6 weeks.) I’m not worried - it’s a medieval hiking trail, it’ll keep - but I’m also not a lived-experience expert, just an armchair fan for now!

However, among the many benefits of a well-trodden path include the huge amount of information available about the Camino de Santiago. There are books, blogs, forums, a subreddit, lots of self-filmed YouTube documentaries from every flavor of influencer, from the insufferable to the admirable; and plenty of proper travel documentaries. the oldest guidebook is a thousand years old; the oldest traveller advice is found in gilded medieval manuscripts. It has multiple smartphone apps.

I wish you the best of luck on learning about this. I think it’s a very healthy kind of dream.

[tarotbydelilah444]

natal chart analysis : Selena 🌹

hi guys! I wanted to do something a little different on my blog and decided to do a birth chart analysis of Selena Quintanilla-Pèrez, just for fun and out of curiousity. Lately, I’ve enjoyed rewatching the iconic movie about her life and even listening to my fav songs by her, and i decided why not take a look at her chart and interpret it! This is my first time doing an analysis on her chart, so please be kind and respectful. without any further ado, let’s get into the “Queen of the Tejano Music” chart. By no means am I an astrologer, so keep it cute in the comments.

Selena was born on April 16, 1971, which makes her an Aries Sun. If we break down her birth date, it sums up to 11 [ 4 + 1 + 6 + 1 + 9 + 7 + 1 = 29 —> 2 + 9 = 11 ] . This makes her a life path 11, which is a master life path number. Life path 11s are considered the highest octave of life path 2 (high vibration of life path 2). There purpose is quite similar to life path 2’s, as they are meant in this life is to understand and share the feelings of others. Life path 11s are extremely intuitive and empathetic in nature. They tend to take on other people’s experiences and feelings very easy. They are compassionate and are constantly seeking balance and harmony in all things in life. They tend to be very loving and peaceful people to be around. Life path 2/11 are represented by the energy of the moon. This makes sense because Selena’s name is simply translated to “Goddess of the Moon”. She naturally had a goddess-like presence to her that took the world by storm. She is still loved and adored by so many people to this day. She was known for her compassion, charming, and creative personality. Life path 11s tend to be big dreamers or have big dreams that they want to accomplish in life. Selena had dreams of opening her own boutique and even doing an English crossover album eventually as her stardom increased, however she never got the chance due to her untimely death. Lastly, life path 11s tend live quite karmic lives and their lessons in this lifetime is to listen to their intuition, make an impact/difference, and set boundaries. 

Selena definitely made a huge impact in the world, specifically speaking, in the music world. She was the first Latin American woman to break open the Tejano music scene to make it accessible for other Latina women in the music industry that would follow after her. Her music and voice gave Mexicans, and other Latino-speaking cultures an identity in the world. She had to work extremely hard to break these barriers to be taken seriously, due to her being a woman in a male-dominated industry, but also because she didn’t fluently speak Spanish. She invented a new sound and her personal style was completely evolutionary and ahead of its time, as many people still recreate her iconic looks to this day. Life path 11s tend to be best of the best in their field, or considered “iconic” or even “legends” that will go down in history forever and be talked about even after their death or if they choose to retire. 

Selena’s Houses (1st to 12th house) *Mainly focused on her planetary placements in her natal chart*

1st 🏠: Aquarius Rising (North Node)

🌹 Although there is no specific birth time set for Selena that has been confirmed to get her accurate chart, many astrologers believed that she was an Aquarius Rising.

🌹 Aquarius rising are very innovative and are the trendsetters of the zodiac. They are known for breaking down barriers and changing the norm. Selena definitely broke barriers in the Latin market, she was the most recognizable and awarded Latin American artist in history. She is after all reigned as the “Queen of Tejano Music” or the Tejano Madonna of her generation. Not only was she known for her amazing contributions in the Tejano music world, she was known for her impeccable and innovative fashion sense. Her most iconic looks were often handmade by her earlier in her career, and she often sketched and designed her looks for herself and Los Dinos. 

🌹 Her most iconic outfits, or at least the first thing that comes to mind, is her bedazzled bustier that was worn by other pop icons, like Madonna, Janet Jackson, and Paula Abdul during her time. Although she drew inspiration from these iconic women, she created something unique and that became her signature style. Aquarius Risings are not afraid to color outside the lines when it comes to their appearance. They will experiment with their hair, aesthetic, sound, and style many times throughout their life. They are meant to stand out from the crowd and create something that is original. Many people tend to try to recreate some of her iconic outfits, specifically the purple sequin jumpsuit, she wore to perform at the Astrodome before her death for Halloween.

🌹 Aquarius rising or pretty much any Aquarian placements in a chart, are huge humanitarians. They want to make an impact on the world, or they are meant to leave an impact on the world for better or for worse. Selena was definitely influential and she made a huge impact on the Tejano music scene. She created a sound that was like no other, that inspired many others that would come after her. She also gave those in the Latino community a voice and identity that was often overlooked and marginalized. She had a sense of strong pride in her Mexican heritage and encouraged other Mexican Americans and Latino communities to embrace their identity with pride. She also loved her fans, like her fans meant the world to her. She never wanted to disappoint them in any way. She always treated her fans with kindness and respect, never acting as a diva, but as a relatable “homegirl”. She also often credited her fans for her success, due to their undying support, even from her early beginnings in Los Dinos 

🌹 Aquarius rising are forward-thinkers,  popular, independent, creative, jokesters, remarkable, quirky, stubborn, unique, open-minded, freedom-loving, rebellious, and eccentric, which I believe Selena displayed a great deal of these traits when you looked up interviews, and videos of her. She doesn’t seem to take herself too seriously and is always seen smiling, laughing, pranking others, and cracking jokes. 

🌹 Her North Node was also placed in her first house, and she was known also as “Artist of the People”. Her music and her contributions in the music industry, as well as public figure help uplift her community and the collective consciousness. Her North Node in Aquarius points to her purpose in her current/recent lifetime, what she was set out to do and achieve. She was meant to break down barriers and embrace a new and innovative way of life. She was meant to give back to the collective or her community, to uplift those who have been oppressed, marginalized, and ignored by the system.  She was supposed to focus on building connections with others and using those connections to help elevate her identity or sense of self. She was meant to stand out and embrace the parts of her that made her unique. 

2nd 🏠: Pisces (Venus)

🌹 Selena’s Venus is placed in the mystical and ethereal sign of Pisces, located in her second house, which explains her beautiful, enchanting, yet sensual vocals that touched so many people’s hearts. She sang from a place of love and deep empathy, some of her songs surrounded the theme of love and loss. She felt deeply connected with her fans on an emotional, physical, and spiritual level since Pisces is a water sign and tend to be very empathetic in nature. She had a contagious and beautiful presence that will always be remembered and cannot be replicated. She had a healing presence and profound impact on those that knew her and even those they didn’t know her personally.

🌹 There was no doubt that she wasn’t beautiful, both on the inside and outside. Her face card was 💯 valid and body was tea. Many people wanted to know her beauty secrets and how she maintained such an amazing figure and she always seemingly joked that she didn’t follow as specific diet or even pay too much attention to her weight. She often ate whatever she wanted (she was a huge foodie) and she was and still is the standard when it comes to beauty.

🌹 A natural giver and empath placement. There was no limit to what Selena would give, which can be both a blessing and a curse. Pisces placements are natural givers and they tend to sacrifice their wants and needs for others, and even lack boundaries, which can make them susceptible to being taken advantage for their kind heart. Venus in Pisces can be blinded by their love for others and tend to over give to people that may not appreciate their love & generosity. They are the kind of people that will give the shirt off of their backs for another. With her Venus placed in the 2nd, she attracted people that used her for financial gain (since the 2nd house is an earth, and Venus is the natural ruler of Taurus). This can also indicate that Selena enjoyed spending money on her friends, family, and those that were close to her. She may have also struggled setting clear boundaries or even saying “no” to others because she had an innate tendency to help those in need in anyways she could. In addition, she could be very forgiving and willing to give those that hurt her, more chances than she should.

🌹 A lover at heart. Pisces is a very beautiful and comfortable placement for Venus. Selena loved deeply, like she loved people with her whole being and there were no boundaries in how she expressed and gave love to others. Selena was in love with the idea and dreamt about being in love, a true hopeless romantic. She often trusted and led with her heart, she did things that made her feel right, making decisions based on feeling and emotion rather than logic. She wanted to see the best in people and even bring out the best in people which could make her sometimes a bit naive when trusting others, however they ate truly likable and lovable.

🌹 She was also a talented dancer, since Pisces rules over the feet.

3rd 🏠: Aries (Sun & Chiron)

🌹 As we know, Selena was an Aries Sun. The Sun is exalted in the sign of Aries, since the sun is a fiery luminary with it being the natural ruler of Leo and Aries, being a fire sign ruled by the planet of war and aggression, Mars. Although, Selena was down to earth, she had a fiery and dynamic exterior. Aries are known to be a stubborn, hot-tempered, independent, risk-takers, impulsive, passionate, adventurous, loyal, confident, and a natural born fighter.

🌹 With her being an Aries woman, she is naturally attuned with her masculine energy and able to channel this energy with ease. She understood her power and use it in her favor. Selena was meant to lead in this lifetime and she surely accomplished that. Aries women and men are natural born leaders, they were born to be independent and not follow behind anyone, nor do they play second place to anyone. This is another indicator of being a barrier breaker or challenging social norms. They don’t simply accept nor follow the status quo and will gladly break the rules and create their own rules to follow. They are unlikely to back down from a challenge, but rather embrace them and won’t stop until they conquer it. This definitely is related to Selena’s strong will to learning and teaching herself how to speak and sing in Spanish fluently. Aries is the first on the zodiac wheel and are usually known to be the “first” at something in life. Selena is still known as the first female Tejano artist to win a Grammy in that category and to dominate in a male dominated industry.

🌹 Selena was likely a tomboy in her youth. She seem to always like playing with the boys or even into rough-housing. She may have enjoyed playing sports or even activities that allowed her to be free and active. This can also be an indication in how she approached the Tejano music scene, since it was dominate by mostly men and rarely women found success in the music industry. She never backed down a challenge and often known to be a risk taker, so if you told her, she couldn’t do it, 9/10, she would come back to prove you wrong.

🌹 Aries or Martian influenced women are natural sex-symbols and tend to be very comfortable in expressing their sexuality and sensuality. They are so confident and strong willed, they obviously take the title of being a “bad b*tch.” They know what they want, and do as they please with no permission. Selena embraced her sensuality, she never hid or downplayed it, and she managed to do it all in a tasteful and elegant way.

🌹 With her Sun being in the 3rd house tells more about how approachable and sociable she was. She loved to learn new things, get to know others, and she likely got bored very quickly with things and was always in search for the next exciting thing. Sun in the 3rd house people tend to leave things fairly quickly without having to try too hard, it almost as things come natural to them. She was someone that was always on the go, never being able to sit for too long. She was probably good at talking herself out of trouble and manipulating others ( in a good way) to get her way. These individuals are very charismatic and charming, they have the ability to make anyone smile, or laugh, whether through jokes or doing something completely silly. She was truly a fun person to be around. This is also a indicator of being popular or being well-received by others. Many people loved and adored Selena because she was relatable and true to herself. She had a natural way of making people feel special and like a friend, she treated everyone she came across equally.

🌹 Her sun in the third house indicates her early career start. Her father formed Selena y Los Dinos when Selena and her siblings were relatively young. Selena performed at many places within her community, such as weddings, festivals, quinceaneras, and birthdays, before becoming well-known in the music industry. Her Chiron is also located in her third house with her Sun. Chiron represents our traumas and how we heal those traumas, in this case, Selena barely had the time to enjoy her childhood or truly be a "child" due to the demands of being a child singer. Her Chiron in the 3rd house can point to some unhealed wound that she may have inherited from her father in her lifetime since the sun represents the "father" in astrology. Selena's father, Abraham was a singer and a part of the original Los Dinos when he was a young adult. He was inspired to be a singer, but his career failed to take off, so I believe that Selena incarnated into this lifetime to live and complete her father's dream. She may have also struggled with embracing her own identity (her wants and needs vs, other people's wants and needs). Lastly, this placement can even point to having issues with friends or family at some point.

🌹 Selena could be stubborn and impulsive at times, like most Aries people, they don't like being told what to do or even underestimated. They are very impatient and want things right away rather than waiting which can lead to some conflict along the way. For example. Selena eloped her husband and fellow bandmate, Chris Perez when her father found out and disapproved of their relationship. Her love for him was enough to make her risk her relationship with her family and potentially get the group disbanded. She was determined not to give up on Chris and knew the only way he would be accepted by her father, was if she and Chris got married.

4th 🏠: Taurus (Mercury Rx & Saturn Rx)

🌹 Selena's 4th house in Taurus can give us a preview of her childhood. With it being in Taurus, Selena inherited her father's love for music and singing since Taurus rules over the neck & vocal cords, in addition to the planet of Mecury, which shows how we communicate and how our voices sound. Music was definitely a big element in her childhood, even with her getting her start playing with her siblings in a band.

🌹 Saturn in the 4th house can speak of Selena growing up before her time and having to take on big responsibilities at a young age. She simply did not have the luxury to enjoy the pleasures of being a child. Work was definitely more important than play. Selen may have felt immense pressure to take care of her family and to ensure the stability and security of her family. This is a placement that can indicate having a strict parent or growing up in a strict household. Selena's father was known to be very strict and controlling when she was growing up. He would expect Selena and her siblings to practice for hours and push them to get better at their craft. Selena's father was very overprotective of her, as she was the "baby" of the family. Saturn in the 4th can also show that Selena came from humble beginnings and a family of hard workers and hustlers. Through struggles, Selena learned how to stay resilient, determined, humble, and hardworking which helped mold her into becoming the person she was and having such success career-wise at such a young age. She never forgot where she came from. It is possible that Selena may have been fearful or worried about failing her family or not being able to live up to the expectations placed on her. She also may have felt like she had to have it all figured out.

🌹 Mercury is placed alongside her Saturn in the 4th house. This can show someone proud of their culture and family background, Selena often talked about how proud she was to be a Mexican American. She also encourages many other Mexican Americans and Latinos to be proud of their heritage. She was born with a Mercury Rx in her chart which can show an amassing amount of talent in whatever profession they choose to pursue, but specifically when it comes to professions that involve music, writing, singing, or public speaking. Her Mercury was placed in the sign of Taurus so that obviously shows her innate talent for singing. People with Mercury Rx in their chart tend to also be psychically inclined or insightful, but since it is in Retrograde, it can be clouded by illusions and a constant need to revisit and review their life and the choices they've made.

7th 🏠: Leo (South Node / Descendant)

🌹 Leo over the 7th house has a larger-than-life approach to their interpersonal relationships. They have the biggest hearts regarding their friends and partners (7th house = business partnerships, spouse, and open enemies). These people are generous, loyal, and loving and expect these qualities from their partner(s) in return. They are likely to show off their partner with pride to show the world that they are devoted to their partner and to ensure that everyone knows that what mine is mine. With Leo in the 7th, these folks are quite possessive of their partner and can become jealous or get their ego bruised, if they don't feel the love, attention, and effort are being reciprocated. I noticed that this placement requires a partner who will not be insecure or jealous of the attention that they receive. They need a partner that will support and cheer them on and they will do the same in return.

🌹 It's quite ironic that Selena's 7th house is in Leo, which is such a dramatic and glamorous sign, and she married Chris Perez, who is a Leo Sun, and clearly presents himself as the opposite of a stereotypical Leo man. Chris Perez has described himself as a relatively laid-back, reserved, and pretty chill guy in the book that he dedicated to Selena. If you look up interviews with Chris and Selena, he tends to keep a low profile and seems to be uncomfortable when he is given any attention from the public. He always seems to be far more comfortable on the sidelines supporting Selena. IMO, this is what balanced them out as a couple because we are aware that opposites attract. Selena was a huge extrovert, she enjoyed socializing and was comfortable being in the spotlight. Selena was not afraid to show him off and proclaim her love for him in public even when she was encouraged not to announce her marriage to Perez to her fans because her management believed it would damage her image.

🌹 Her South Node in Leo can indicate that her relationship with Chris was definitely a past-life connection. Selena and Chris definitely knew each other in another lifetime and they always described their relationship as "love at first sight." They had a forbidden love hence what may have inspired her song, Amor Prohibido, in which her father did not approve of her relationship with Chris. Aside from Selena's stardom, I would go as far as to say that Chris allowed Selena to be herself, she didn't have to be "Selena" with him. He gave her the space to be free and let her hair down, in ways she had never been able to. They made each other inner child feel safe and loved. Huge Soulmate Energy!

🌹 The 7th house or South Node / Descendant can also describe who we were in our past life and highlight the themes of a previous life that we lived before incarnating into our current life. It also talks about the lessons that an individual has learned in their past life and also the energy that we bring into our current incarnation. Selena's 7th house in Leo could indicate that Selena may have been royalty or a public figure in her past lifetime since Leo rules over royalty and fame. Selena was always destined to be in the spotlight regardless if she was aware of it or not. Leo Descendants are comfortable with being the center of attention and expressing themselves to the public. This can further explain why Selena always seems to come alive on stage when performing in front of thousands of people, she had a larger-than-life presence and owned the spotlight. After all, she was known as the "Queen of Tejano Music" or La Reina, which is translated to "queen" in Spanish for a reason.

8th 🏠: Virgo ( Pluto Rx)

*Long Interpretation*

🌹 The 8th house is home to Scorpio. Scorpio is the house of life, death, and rebirth. Selena had a Pluto Rx in the 8th house and Pluto feels at home in the 8th house because it is the natural ruler of Scorpio. This energy destroys everything before reinventing itself time after time. People with this placement tend to be very psychic and intuitive when they tap into this energy and master it, which can guide them in life. Scorpio is a fixed water sign, and they tend to have a strong intuition and are given insight into things that are lurking beneath the surface. With a retrograde, Selena was very intuitive, but she didn't always listen to her gut in some situations when she should have. This also ties into her being a Pisces Venus, where these individuals want to see the best in others and tend to be taken advantage of because they refuse to accept people for who they truly are, even after the truth has been revealed. Selena's Pluto in Rx can also show not being aware of what is happening beneath the surface or remaining ignorant of the truth to avoid it. This can definitely explain her relationship with Yolanda, which again is ironic since Yolanda is a Virgo Sun, and her Sun illuminates Selena's 8th house of Virgo. As we know, Yolanda was Selena's fan club president and former best friend. The 8th house can talk about what we inherit, debts, loss, how we transform/reinvent ourselves, death, other people's resources, and secrets. Yolanda was able to have access to Selena, due to being a huge fan, and her ability to meticulously manage her fan club. Virgos are very analytical and organized, and values stability as a earth sign. They tend to pay close attention to small details which helped her gain access to Selena at the height of her career. It can also show that Yolanda provided the stability that Selena lacked since she was very multifaceted and had many things on her plate most of the time. The problem is that Yolanda's Sun in Selena's 8th house can talk about how Selena gave Yolanda purpose because the Sun in astrology also represents our "purpose" and "identity". Yolanda became relevant because of Selena and she made Selena the focal point of her life which came across as possessive and obsessive when it came to her relationship with Selena. People with their planets in your 8th house have access to your secrets/private information and resources. Yolanda was stealing from Selena's fan clubs and boutiques to fund her own lifestyle. I would not be surprised if Yolanda knew secrets and personal information about Selena that she could've possibly held against her to keep Selena in her life or even reveal personal information to gain attention and power over Selena. Jealously is also a big theme with people that have their personal planets in your 8th house and this is a definite indicator of why I believe that Yolanda was jealous of Selena, even wanting to be like Selena, or even wishing she could swap lives with her, if she could.

🌹 Selena having Pluto Rx in the 8th house could've made it difficult for her to see other people's motives and intentions. She was often blinded by the surface of what people presented to her rather than accepting and seeing people as they were. This is why I believe that it was difficult for her to cut ties with Yolanda because she truly trusted her, and she couldn't believe that Yolanda would betray her in the way that she did. Pluto Rx placements have a hard time letting things go and since I am referring to her relationship with Yolanda, she had a hard time accepting the betrayal and ending the friendship for good, even after Yolanda's true intentions were exposed. On a lighter note, folks with Pluto in the 8th house are resilient as f*ck. Life will throw them tons of curveballs and they will manage to always come back on top with the battle scars to prove it. Selena may have dealt with a to of obstacles in her path, but she always made it work and never gave up no matter how hard things got. These individuals will always have to deal with control issues in their lifetime. This can present itself as themselves trying to control others or others trying to control them, but in Selena's case, her dad and Yolanda tried to have power over her. Power struggles are very common if found in the individual's chart.

10th 🏠: Scorpio (Midheaven or MC)

🌹 First things first, having a fixed energy in your 10th house will always indicate fame or notoriety in my opinion, and in this case, Selena was once again meant to have great fame or become well-known in this life. The 10th House or Midheaven can talk about a person's legacy, public persona or how they are perceived by the public, career aspirations, achievements in profession, and social status. Selena had her Midheaven in the sign of Scorpio. She was able to reinvent herself many times throughout her career. Her career trajectory went through many ups and downs and was constantly shifting in a new direction. This can also show how she was able to achieve so much in such little time.

🌹 Selena fulfilled her destiny in this lifetime and she did what she was meant to do during her life. She truly left a mark on the world that will continue to live on forever. She passed before she could truly enjoy her success and recognition, but her music and legacy will live on and continue to increase for years to come. This is a huge indicator of a person's legacy blowing up tremendously after years of struggle, but in this case, her legacy continues to grow even after her passing. Even in death, people are still fascinated and intrigued by her story and how much she achieved at the tender age of 23.

🌹 Referring to her public persona, Selena changed the world with her beautiful and powerful voice, along with her angelic presence. She made the world a better place by using her gift to transmute or transform the collective on a subconscious level. Selena was also very popular and even more popular since her passing. She has an undyingly loyal fan base to this day, her image and her music still resonate with many people, which can explain why in a way, many people can still feel her essence, even after almost 30 years since her passing. She will forever live on in the public consciousness and be reintroduced to newer generations to come. People with Scorpio, or Pluto in their 10th house can become immortalized and celebrated even in death.

11th 🏠: Sagittarius (Moon, Jupiter Rx, and Neptune Rx)

🌹 Selena was the epitome of a Sagittarius Moon. If you look up photos and videos of her, she is always smiling her big beautiful contiguous smile, laughing, or always in a happy mood. People with Sagittarius placements are adventurous, curious, free-spirited, optimistic, and full of life. They love to have fun, they never take life too seriously, and likely go on to have an exciting and fulfilling life. They are also the life of the party, they will bring good vibes and good energy to any occasion. Some even believe that Sagittarius placements are lucky or hit the jackpot in life. Selena was someone who wanted to live life to the fullest, she always was on the go and showed no sign of slowing down. If she wanted to do something, she would do it! She did things that made her happy and fulfilled her at the end of the day. Selena was the type of person who had big dreams and goals for herself, and she stopped at nothing to achieve these goals for herself. Her moon is placed in the 11th house of friendships, wishes, desires, and social causes. There have been many accounts that Selena wanted to have a larger farm with lots of animals, have five children, make an English crossover album, open more boutiques, design clothes, travel, have a perfume line, and possibly even more dreams before she passed. Sagittarius's motto is "Go big or go home" or even "Anything is possible if you just believe in yourself". She was a big dreamer and very passionate about her dreams and goals.

🌹 Her 11th house Moon could also point to a deep connection and appreciation for her fans. Selena loved her fans and always credited them for her success and their support before she became well-known worldwide. With this placement, this means that she had an expansive or big fanbase from all over the world since Sagittarius and Jupiter "expands" whatever it is placed in a natal chart. She had fans of different nationalities, ethnicities, and cultures who appreciated and loved her music.

🌹 The Moon can also show us our relationship with women or feminine energies in our lives, specifically our relationship with our mother. I think that Selena drew inspiration from her mother, who even encouraged her dreams and constantly pushed her to go after what she wanted.

🌹 If Selena were alive today, she would definitely be a philanthropist and continue to help those in need. She would have liked to give back to charities, volunteer, encourage others to volunteer, help the poor, and even fight against injustices within the Latino community and other world issues. Selena actually started to go to local schools and encourage kids to stay in school and stay away from drugs. She often used her platform to talk about certain issues that she was passionate about. She helped organizations like Toys for Tots, and The Boys and Girls Club, helping hurricane survivors in Florida, raising awareness for AIDS, providing school supplies for kids, and became a spokesperson for domestic violence prevention. She served as an inspiration for those who looked up to her.

🌹 Her Moon in the 11th house can indicate having a lot of friends from all walks of life, but since Selena's Moon is in Sag, she would've had friends from different backgrounds, religions, genders, races, and cultures. She was possibly also a "mom-friend" and she treated her friends as family. Everywhere she went, she was able to make a friend.

🌹 Selena also had Jupiter Rx in the 11th house in Sagittarius. Once again, Jupiter is exalted in Sagittarius because it is the natural ruling planet of Sag and Pisces. Again this talks about her big personality and her larger-than-life presence due to how she was active and popular she was in her community. I would even go as far as to categorize this placement as the "America's Sweetheart" aspect. She was widely known locally before becoming an international star. This placement is a huge indicator of being well-known and well-received by the collective. Jupiter Rx does not mean the individual will not receive abundance, blessings, and luck, but they must work harder to put themselves out there to get opportunities that will bring them abundance, blessings, and luck in this lifetime. Selena y Los Dinos was formed in 1981, and they had been performing small gigs for some time gave them a bit of traction on a local level, but they did not begin gaining more recognition until the late '80s into the early 90s. Jupiter in the 11th house can show receiving awards after many years of hard work and effort. Selena received a total of 67 awards and 86 nominations during her career, but she never allowed her awards to get to her head, she remained humble and always focused on performing her craft. Her Jupiter Rx can also point to her feeling at times doubtful of her abilities or even skeptical of taking new risks in her career. This was shown a lot in the series and movie about her life, on how she always wanted some type of reassurance from her family and friends, especially, when she was working on her English crossover album and had to work with a new team as her career elevated to the next level.

🌹 Finally, Selena had a Neptune Rx in the 11th house. Neptune is the planet of illusions, dreams, and fantasies. It is the natural ruler of Pisces and is known for blurring the lines between real and imaginary to confuse the individual. People with Neptune Rx tend to have extreme difficulty with setting healthy boundaries between themselves and others. They must learn how to separate reality from illusions that have clouded their judgment. Since this refers to Selena's house of friendships, this can point to her relationship with Yolanda, and how she was clouded in her perception of Yolanda as a friend, mentor, and business partner, she could trust, that she was unable to truly see Yolanda for who she really was, as a sheep in wolf clothing. It has also been mentioned that many people warned Selena about Yolanda's behavior and treatment towards staff, yet Selena chose to ignore Yolanda's true intentions until it became too late, which played a major factor in her untimely, yet tragic death. This placement can also point to her friend(s) wanting to emulate and betray her.

12th 🏠 : Capricorn (Mars)

*Trigger Warning*

🌹 Mars is a great place for Capricorn, as people with this placement tend to be extremely hard-working. They invest so much of their energy and effort into their work and passion and never stop until they reach the top of the ladder to success. Capricorn is represented as the "sea goat" in astrology, and goats are known for climbing arduous mountains to reach the top, to stand proudly and firmly on. Capricorn is also the most hard-working and tedious sign in the zodiac. Life's lessons teach these people many things, and through every lesson, they continue to stay resilient and eventually reach their highest potential after putting in many years of dedication, grit, sacrifice, and commitment. Selena was a self-proclaimed hard worker, she never took a day off while on tour and dedicated every bit of herself to mastering her craft and climbing the ladder of success. She never expected things to be handed to her and knew from a young age that she had to work extremely hard to get what she wanted out of life. The downside to having Mars in Capricorn is that they tend to be chronic work alcoholics and never seem to know when to take a break and smell the roses once in a while. They also like to be in control and can be very critical of their work or even the amount of effort they put into their job or a project. Selena's Mars in Capricorn benefited her throughout her career, as she had to learn from a young age how to handle rejection and stay resilient. Giving up is rarely a choice for these people, they will try 100 times over until they finally receive a "yes". This is also a strong indicator of her being a "boss" or a successful businesswoman. It took her some years to be taken seriously in the music industry with her being young and a woman in a male-dominated field, but this made her competitive, disciplined, and a triple threat in the Tejano music scene.

🌹 Her Mars place in the 12th house shows that she did a lot of work behind the scenes to reach her goals and gain the success that she had. She was likely treated and perceived as the underdog by many people before she became a household name. Some people underestimated her abilities and her ability to last in the entertainment business, mainly because of her gender. She was able to use the criticism that she received as a stepping stone to cement her place in the industry and as a "told you so" moment to prove anyone who ever doubted her wrong. The 12th house can talk about hidden agendas, our karmic debts, life after death, the subconscious mind, dreams, and sacrifice. With Mars in the 12th, many people secretly wanted to dominate or have control over her, mainly the people that she knew and trusted, but was not aware of. Capricorn is the "father" or authoritative figure of the zodiac. Capricorn often gets the reputation of being cold, harsh, strict, and controlling. Capricorn placements teach us harsh and karmic lessons to help us grow and mature. I would definitely say that Selena's father wanted to have control over her, more specifically, her status, legacy, reputation, dreams, and career, but luckily she found the courage to follow her dreams and take control of her own life. Furthermore, the 12th house shows the karmic debt that we carried from our previous lifetimes. Mars is the planet of chaos, abuse, violence, accidents, aggression, and conflicts. It is relatively a harsh planet for the 12th house because the planet behaves and operates in a hidden and unexpected way. Selena, in her previous life, lived a very violent and karmic life. She was possibly surrounded by themes of war, violence, abuse, and total chaos. She possibly even died prematurely in her previous lives, as well before completing her life's purpose. She also lived and died a karmic life in this lifetime as well. Now let's bring down, the final year of her life. The 12th House also talks about our hidden enemies, people that we are aware of, and who have secret agendas to destroy or lead to our downfall. Selena's hidden enemies were people that she worked with, or who served as an authoritative figure in her life, this could be her father, older sibling, or even mentor (someone we look up to or hold a deep reverence for).

🌹 Mars in Capricorn can show that Selena's hidden enemies were people who were envious of her work ethic, success, achievements, social status, financial success, and what she built for herself. Her Mars is at 20 degrees of Capricorn, which is a Scorpio degree. In astrology, Scorpio is the sign of death, rebirth, and transformation. It symbolizes destruction and violence. The 20th degree can mean jealousy or revenge in her chart. This further clarifies that Selena was murdered out of sheer jealousy by her fan club and former best friend, Yolanda. Yolanda wanted to still be in Selena's life even after stealing and betraying her best friend. She was upset and vengeful because she no longer had access to Selena and that meant she was losing the power that she thought that she once had over Selena. She used manipulation to keep Selena from abandoning her by lying about being r*ped in Mexico, lying about the whereabouts of missing documents, and even threatening to commit suicide. Lastly, Mars talks about violence, aggression, and accidents. Yolanda claimed that she did not intentionally mean to shoot Selena, which I believe is utter and complete bullshit since she bought a gun, days or a week before meeting with Selena on that faithful day. Yolanda claimed she brought the gun for protection against Selena's father. Mars also rules over weapons and wounds, so it can be inferred that an argument or fight broke out that eventually led to Selena being shot and killed by Yolanda.

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Delilah