#Do you ever have an OC and don't realize how much of you - the creator - is in that OC?

[cosmokrill]

Pressure fandom rant incoming.

Oh my GOD guys, SHUT. UP. Respect the wishes of the creators. Do you think they knew how much the game was going to blow up? Did you stop to realize that Zeal's comment about decreased Kroner for deaf mode was a stupid idea just thrown out off the top of his head before he went to sleep? Do you think the dev team was going to genuinely consider that? And if you made and felt almost intimately attached to an OC that you helped create, are you not allowed to personally feel annoyed when others ship themselves with them or give them a completely different personality than the one they have?

Get over it. Sebastian is canonically a married man. I think he looks cute with the wedding ring that he fiddles with. Zerum being his wife does not change the lore. The characters in Pressure are just OCs that have gotten stupidly popular.

Speaking from the perspective of someone who has had to deal with a person trying to force one of my characters into a romantic relationship with one of theirs, I can understand wanting to crack down. If I said that my OC Luther was my husband in his lore, his story gets popular, and people start drawing themselves dating him, I'm allowed to be mad. I'm allowed to be uncomfortable.

The devs did nothing wrong by adding the rule against posting ship art of Pressure characters in the discord server. They're not banning Pressure ships from ever existing online. Admit that your drawing of your self-insert kissing Sebastian is just not going to be liked by some people. Just enjoy the damn game.

You need to remember that these are not your characters. You do not know why a decision about a character was made until the creators tell you. You can do whatever the hell you want with Sebastian, just don't get pissy if his creators don't like it.

Apologies, I'm just very tired and angry and I need to speak my mind. I don't do that enough because I fear getting canceled over the smallest opinions in this day and age.

Have a Sebastian sketch for your troubles. Truthfully, I might delete the rant later and just keep the art.

[sparklecarehospital-archive]

been reflecting on my year a bit, and i was thinking about something. i think i know what the best thing i did for myself this year was.

making cometcare public. making the ask blog.

ive had this AU stirring in my brain since 2019, ever since i got really attached to doomi during the haunted arc. one reason i went so long without revealing pollarrydoomi as a ship to readers was because doom's crush wasn't public information until late 2021.

i had kept his crush a mystery for 3 years, but revealed it after a fun experience where people figured out who it was through guessing. i'm pretty sure i did a poll about it? asking people to guess who they thought it was, and uni won the vote, meaning everyone had already figured it out.

after pollarrydoomi was revealed and i started drawing art for it and people made fanart for it, i still couldn't post any of my AU art because ally wasn't public and she and howie were in the AU. in july 2022, for the comic's birthday, i revealed ally as a character to the readers. others around the time had started to notice characters i had in pfps and i ended up telling everyone i did have pollarrydoomi ship kids, but i didn't make them public.

in november 2022, i revealed eve on toyhouse. after her reveal, i would soon reveal sly as well in december 2022 on my birthday (revealing sly as a birthday present to myself is such a funny gesture now that you guys know how important he is to me). over the next few weeks i revealed cream, frosty, and marco as well. all of the main cometkids except chem.

then one day someone out there suggested that i make an ask blog for the cometcare AU. it was such a spontaneous decision, and i didn't even really know what i was gonna do with it at first. i was just kinda messing around. but when i made the blog i realized that if i wanted this AU to be experienced in complete authenticity, i couldn't make uni cis.

so i revealed uni being trans through the blog, despite the fact i'd gone so many years without ever revealing her identity. why did i do it? there's a lot of reasons. not wanting to make her a "dad" in the AU contributed, but also i felt like it wouldn't be detrimental to the story to confirm a character being trans. it also made me (and the crew in general) a lot more comfortable being able to properly refer to uni with her actual pronouns.

making the ask blog really changed me, because finally i could share this little family and comfort story i'd built in my brain with the world and make it real and make content for it and let people consume it.

but what stopped me most of all?

i've said it many times before... but i felt like it was cringey.

i felt like making an AU with 93985893844 fankids in a ridiculous complicated polycule wasn't something a Serious content creator should do, and i was really worried the reception would be negative or people would think it was stupid or something. i did NOT expect it to become as popular as it is. the blog actually has more followers than the MAIN ASK BLOG for the canon comic. it was received SO POSITIVELY and the fact it was just kind of blows me away.

it means so much to me. being able to share the most special thing in my life with people and for people to actually like it and have fun with me and want to see it, and for me to be able to not have to follow strict professionalism about spoilers and chronological storytelling, and being able to change and add in things whenever i felt like it. it's such a freeing experience.

when i was a kid, i used to make stories and OCs and i didn't take them as seriously as i do the sparklecare reboot. this kind of turned into my entire life and career kinda, so i had to take it more seriously. but making this AU honestly just makes me feel like i'm a kid again, it makes me feel like i can have fun and literally do whatever the fuck i want without worrying what people think or if it's realistic or if it makes any sense.

i know though, that some people don't like pollarrydoomi. and i know why. whether it's because of being attached to barruni (of course, they're the canon ship and main characters, i get it) or just having discomfort with the idea of shipping doom with anyone when canonically he hasn't experienced a redemption arc... i get it. i know not everyone likes it.

and that's okay! people are entitled to having their own feelings about content. i understand it. and i've come to accept that's always going to be the case with anything i do with these characters.

but i'm still going to do this for myself. i do this because it makes me happy to just have fun and not worry about being serious all the time. it feels good, especially when it's with characters that are really really important to me.

cometcare is genuinely the most special and important thing i've ever made for myself, it's such a huge piece of my identity and it makes me who i am. and being able to make this story public and share it with people and share these things that have been in my brain for so long with others means so much to me.

that's why i think it was the best thing i've done this year. it's kind of literally changed my life to be able to talk about them. it's made me happier than i've ever been making content. i'm not just making it to entertain myself alone anymore, i'm making it to entertain others like i do with other stuff. and the fact people actually like it still is unbelievable to me.

so, i guess my outlook for next year as it comes is to continue to stop taking everything so seriously. i can tell my stories however i want to. i hope others can realize they can do this too.

please make whatever you want, whenever you what, as much as you want, even if it doesn't make sense or if it's "cringe". you will be so much happier when you realize as a creator you DON'T have to take all of this so seriously. the comic still exists and people read it even if i'm doing this. You Can Do Whatever You Want And Nobody Can Ever Stop You. the only person who can stop you is yourself when you let your inhibitions get in the way of your ability to create things for yourself.

have fun! life is too short to take everything you do seriously

[vahalia-cress]

RP/Community Etiquette Notes: For Beginners

Something I noticed over the years on this platform, as some people will use other people’s inspiration, time sourcing and finding things that correlate with their own characters (speaking of RP blogs specifically) and reblog when the mood strikes, and then there are some out there that will reblog waves and waves of your content treating the content and your archive like a personal storage, pool and receptacle for endless content for their own RP blogs.

I cannot stress enough how demoralizing this may be for some people who experience this, myself included, where other RPers in a community or overlapping communities will mass-reblog your stuff with zero interaction. 

I also want to preface that if you reblog a few times here and there from one person or a mutual RP blog, that this post doesn’t pertain to you – unless of course you are someone who is experiencing someone else reblogging consistently everything you post for your own OC to where you feel like they’re starting to lose their identity and what makes them an original character.

The reason that this becomes a point of contention for some RPers is that it feels like, over time (and the more it is done in excess), people feel like bites of their character and what unique bits are made up of them are being chewed off consistently.

If it has ever crossed your mind that “Maybe I reblog too much from this person too often,” you may be right, especially if the other person is also another RP blog. If you’ve ever had to ask yourself that question, then perhaps this post pertains to you.

Reblogging, in general, on socials such as Tumblr (X, TikTok, FB, etc.) is just part of the social ecosystem. Social platforms are supposed to encourage the sharing of information and ideas. But as RPers, we need to realize how far is too far and at what point are we just chomping off parts of other people’s characters for our own benefit. How much is too much? How does the person on the other side of the screen feel about it?

I can tell you that nine times out of ten, they notice, which is why several RP blogs out there will suggest reblogging from the source.

It’s totally fine to feel inspired and reblog posts you enjoy, but we also have to be cognizant of the extent to which we’re doing this to one another. A few here and there, once in a blue moon, when the mood strikes is harmless – but if you’re reblogging from someone who posts 4 times a day (as an example) and you’re reblogging each of those posts or reblogging from them every time they post something, it might be time to step back and consider if maybe this post pertains to you and how do you go about your interactions.

Don’t @ other people on someone else's RP posts if someone else is already @’ed or if it pertains to a ship. The best way to go about this is to just reblog from the source or from a source that doesn’t have the @’s in there. Don't remove their @’s.

If someone posts a piece of artwork of their character, don’t reblog it with tags claiming it's your character or any sort of relation to it. The artwork was made for them, not you.

Specifically speaking of the FF14 community and GPOSE posts: It’s not okay to have full conversations in someone’s comments about wanting to ‘recreate’ what they posted. It’s best to leave a kind comment, like the post, and quietly do your own recreation. Give credit where credit is due. DMing people and asking them privately if they would mind doing a similar shot for their own character is the kind and mature thing to do. I’ve had many people come to me and do/ask this specifically of me, and I have a tremendous amount of respect for them for:

-Taking my feelings into consideration enough to DM me directly and ask. -Acknowledging the fact that they’ve been inspired and we can have a discussion about it. -I’m not being excluded from the narrative as the creator of the idea. -My posts aren’t being eaten alive by vultures, and the joy of the shots being entirely overshadowed by “I’m so gonna recreate this for my own OC/WoL when I get home.”

A few takeaways from this post:

-Inspiration =/= Outright copying. They’re two different definitions. Inspiration is taking elements of something and recreating something else, using the source as a starting point. Copying is just replicating without any creative modification. -Find other methods of finding your own type of content, be it from the sources of posts (OP posts) and other platforms such as Pinterest etc. -Master your own Impulses. -Consider other RPers on the other side of the screen who put a lot of time and dedication into building aesthetics for their characters. -Interaction is important. -Communication and utilizing DM features are also very important. -Other people’s artwork of their characters or commissions is not for your personal use. -Paving your own way is far more rewarding. -RP blogs of other OCs and aesthetics aren’t posted for the consumption of other people like they’re simply in a grocery store plucking things off the shelf that they enjoy. RP blogs are designed for aesthetics, stories, questions, and more for THEIR characters. Not yours. Please be mindful of that and practice restraint and independence in finding your own content and practicing proper reblog etiquette with your RP peers.

Just a few things I’ve encountered during my time here on Tumblr within the FF14 community. I’ve also been a part of other MMO RP communities here on Tumblr as far back as 2010, and I thought I would share a few things I’ve noticed in hopes of helping educate the newcomers here on the platform.

I too, in the past and when I first began here, have likely been guilty of doing a few of these things. I think is important for the beginners here to be aware of and to have open discussions about as peers on a platform we all enjoy and through a hobby we all appreciate – especially since I don’t see this topic brought up enough as casual and kind PSAs.

Please keep in mind that this post is just how I feel on the topic(s) when those experiences find my doorstep and is not meant to incite discourse, negativity, or hate in any way nor is it directed at certain individuals and is only presented in a general sense. I wanted to impart a teeny-tiny bit of wisdom to beginners here on this platform, and I implore others to reblog and add to this should they have other points and ideas to share. 

Stay mindful. Stay kind to one another.

[vellichorom]

let's talk for a moment. if you're so hellbent on having an AI chatbot, then for the love of god please think about the characters you're using & what the creators intentions with them are / how they want them to be used.

i don't think anybody's going to bat an eye if you make a mickey mouse or winnie the pooh chatbot, for instance. those characters are practically public domain by this point, EVERYBODY knows who they are, they're the furthest from their original creators by this point, such & such, that's one thing.

but you do not apply that free logic to ANY character ever. you do not go to some little tumblr blog with their niche character design / interpretation, or even their OC, & decide- without the creator's permission, that you can then use their creation to feed into an AI chatbot for your entertainment.

that's how we end up with, in so many words, situations like Welcome Home, where one creator's passion project gets ripped from their hands & made into ANYTHING the fans want. it gets fandomized before it even becomes more of a public creation, or even fully fleshed out.

that's sickening to me. & you're doing this with AI, no less. to smaller creators with smaller creations they'd much rather keep close to home.

don't do that. get EXPLICIT permission if you feel you NEED something like that.

better yet, if a creator welcomes questions or interaction with their character(s), ENGAGE IN THAT! see about askblogs / rp blogs, send asks, engage with a creator puppeting their creations FOR you.

& if they don't welcome that? if they're not the kind to do that? maybe they haven't gotten around to interacting with you yet?

oh well. that's life. move on.

if you care any about your favorite creators & what they make, you'll respect the boundaries they put out. & i realize there's some that DON'T care, & will do these things out of spite or disregarding a creator's words.

but for those who mean well & just want some harmless fun? please just think about what you're doing. consider my words & others's words, & prioritize CONSENT.

thank you.

[sergeantcowboy]

Hello!! Dropping by to ask for your take on Crow's interactions with Marcel and Sofia :)

Hello, the creator of one of my favorite bully ocs, how are you? I don't think I need any intro so let me just get right into it.

Inteactions and other stuff

Marcel

Marcel is a prep and a male prep at that so Crow doesn't even have to even know him to put him on his shit list. (Crow is more polite to women usually, even to a prep like Pinky)

He'd definitely notice that Marcel acts like a lovesick puppy and an absolute bootlicker around Derby and that would be his go-to insult for him.

He'd call him stuff like Derby's lap dog or a bootlicker or a doormat or the preps pet freak or a kiss ass, he's not running out of new material any time soon.

He'd still sell him stuff, he'd just be annoying and smug about it like making sure he says please and thank you and once he does say the magic word there's a high likely hood Crow is going to pretend to not have heard so he'd be forced to repeat himself.

Crow also knows that Marcel gets angry really quickly if you insult Derby and he's using that as entertainment. I mean he'd be insulting Derby anyway but with Marcel he's making it a game to see how far he can push before Marcel looks to be on the verge of punching him in the face.

But he can't of course, he wouldn't want Crow to raise his prices for him. Which Crow knows.

The first time Marcel would approach him for cigarettes Crow would be upfront and blatantly over charge him, he knows he's a prep and comes from a rich family and simply assumes he'd have the money. Upon realizing that he really doesn't have that much money on him Crow would quietly lower his prices.

It would be smart of Marcel to not bring it up. Crow doesn't like being so nice to rich kids so if he said anything about it Crow would be like "I can overcharge you again if that's what you want. Take it or leave it."

He wouldn't know much about Marcel's family drama other than maybe having heard rumors about how bad his dad is and how he may or may not be a criminal. Crow wouldn't take those rumors seriously, there's all sorts of rumors going around in bullworth, he'll believe it when he sees it.

And if Crow does ever meet the guy, like if Marcels dad shows up to bribe the faculty, he wouldn't even second guess those rumors he'd take one look at the guy and go "okay that man is terrifying no wonder Marcel's a bit fucked in the head" and steer clear.

He'd feel bad for Marcel's family situation and maybe be a bit nicer to him in the future. And by nicer I mean he's not going to insult him or close a door on his face or spit on the ground as he walks past. But don't you dare mention it to him.

Also Marcel trying to copy Crow's business would be the height of comedy to him.

Since Marcel found out about Crow's little crush on Bif through Nora he would absolutely hate Marcel having this information. He'd try to deny it in the moment but it'd be pretty obvious. He's thankful for Marcel's nicotine addiction so that he can at least hold that over his head if he goes spreading it around.

A lil interaction I drew

Sofia

Like I said earlier, Crow is a lot nicer to women and he does tolerate Jocks because they're such consisten customers for him, so he'd be pretty neutral on Sofia at first.

He would be like "hey you're Marcel's sister, right? Yeah your brother is a bitch."

Crow also hates Earnest and most of the nerds, his background there being that Earnest asked him to do a panty raid one too many times and Crow always refused and at some point he just said "you know what, I'm not going to do business with you anymore."

He'd probably know about the whole thing Sofia had with Earnest taking pictures of her. He wouldn't bring it up because he knows it's probably not a happy memory, but he would complain about Earnest with her if it ever came up.

He likes watching the football and cheerleading practice especially if he's just sitting around waiting for customers, but he's not watching for the sports. It's not uncommon to hear the jocks call him a f*ggot over it. But that's probably the most likely way Crow and Sofia would run into each other. I don't think the cheerleaders really mind him being there since he doesn't really ogle at them. At least someone is finally treating the jocks like eye candy the way the jocks treat the cheerleaders.

If Sofia ever bought something from him he would just go "so, do you also not have any money despite being from a filthy rich family?" And since the answer is yes he'd go "figures" and probably charge her the normal price. Which is less than what he charges Marcel even after lowering his prices for him.

[weevmo]

Hey idk if ya ever got a qestion like this and im sorry if its strange but do ya mind if I ask how ya got the courage to post CS? Cause I have stories and such I REALLY wanna make into graphic novels at some point im just nervous to post about my charters for some reason and wanna know how you got yourself to post about your ocs and such and see if it works for me

OH GOD - THAT'S A DOOZY OF A QUESTION -

I have a secret: I have been diagnosed with anxiety and PTSD and literally cringe out of existence every time I post anything original -

Before CS I worked on a little concept called Far Out I still hope to make someday! But literally created a separate blog for it so I didn't 'bother' my followers with OC's - they obviously were only there for the fanart, right?? WRONG (lovingly)

I realized that a lot of Artists I followed also posted original content. Sometimes they didn't get a lot of attention, but most of the time I enjoyed the original art because of how much the artist loved drawing and showing it off. I also realized I was afraid of how others would perceive me but...nobody cares. I'm just in a corner playing with my silly blorbos and everyone walks around me -

ModMad, for example! I followed them because of their beautiful and lengthy Gladstone Gander and Duck comics...but as they posted more and more about their original comic The Property of Hate I fell in love with it!

Post your guys! The worst that can happen is people don't jive with your characters.....yet. Just keep showing them off, and most importantly: Focus on just enjoying making your stories and characters - A creator's joy is contagious!

The best to you in your graphic design endeavors, apologies this got long winded!

[welcometomybraincomics]

Vaporwave 1

1 | 2 | 3 Part of a Transformers oc exploration series

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The world is such a messy place. Messy rules, messy people, messy sounds, everything so messy, messy, Messy! You can see the imperfections in everything and you don't understand how everyone else can stand it!

Your uncles taught you how to read people. How to read who they are from their paint job, their posture, their tone. (When you were very young, you would listen to Starscream complain about other mecha while he did his paperwork. He'd talk about how his recent schemes wouldn't have failed if not for XYZ and tell you all the weak points he found to manipulate in his most recent pawns. Knockout would do something similar when he gave you check ups. He'd tell* you about paint colors and finishes and what those meant about how a mech felt about themselves. From time to time, the two would meet up and gossip. You'd hear them grouch about others' appearances and argue over their individually superior senses of style. You distinctly remember Knockout going on and on about boorish paintjobs and the importance of looking good to be respected while you clumsily helped buff Starscream's servos.)

Your creator taught you how to understand the ways of science, how to follow rules, procedure. (Shockwave walked you through everything. He taught you the laws of the universe. the rules every single thing in existence follows. He taught you physics, he taught you biology, he taught you chemistry, and he taught you how to investigate, experiment, and document it all. The key to science, he said, was to follow a rigid, repeatable pattern** and you took that to heart) Your individual of confusing relation and his unit taught you the ways of watching, listening, and taking note of everything.

(As you got older, you came to the realization that, in his attempts to awkwardly engage with your child self, Soundwave taught you more than he meant to. You know Ravage and Lazerbeak taught you intentionally: how to stalk, how to watch, how to circle above everything and listen. You know to Rumble and Frenzy it was a game. You know that learning how to run and fight and tumble was a matter of coincidence rather than intentional teaching. It was something you learned slowly by watching and engaging with more skilled opponents directly. But Soundwave? You're not quite sure if Soundwave ever figured out how to handle you. You weren't a rambunctious child, but you were incredibly curious. That meant, though you weren't loud, you did try to get your hands on everything you possibly could. Soundwave never managed to figure out how to hold you off things without being yelled at, so he resorted to stuffing you in his taped deck, and from there, Soundwave's world was your oyster. You learned how to code and decode messages, how to subtly manipulate the strings of the Decepticon troops, how to mold information to fit your own schemes because you had a front row seat to all of Soundwave's interactions from within his tape deck.) You apply everything you've learned together. You see and hear everything, and you hate it. Nobody follows protocol (So many problems could be avoided if everyone just followed the rules! Why isn't everybody following the rules!?), nobody reacts as they should (Why are they all so stupid!? They're so much older than you, they should have learned these things when they were kids!), and everything sounds horrible! (the bombs, the yelling; every individual is a symphony, but together they are a cesspool of senseless racket that makes you want to carve out their optics)

Everything is such a fucking mess and you're going to blow a fucking gasket. When your frustration reaches it's peak, your creator hands you a pad on sparkling developmental health. Something about control and rebellion and letting them take charge of their space. You know the pad is permission and you take to it's advice with wreckless abandon. You paint yourself in intricate colors, organize everything you own, and eviscerate anyone who messes with what is yours to control. You are the god of your domain, and it will. Be. NEAT. The world is still a messy place, but it troubles you less. It is not your problem to deal with, not your domain. You want to rip it apart from the roots, tear it all down, burn everything in your way and make it right. Then, you are given a new assignment. Infiltrate the enemy. You are to be a traumatized soldier, the survivor of one of many wrecked squads from a location notoriously terrible at keeping up with paperwork, tortured and lashing out at everyone. It's an easy role to fill because you are infuriated. You must hide your paints and leave your domain for a new one where you must find new messy patterns and tear them apart report. The only light at the end of the tunnel is that you have permission to sink your claws in and ORGANIZE. This isn't anyone else's domain, you can't step on any toes here. Everyone here will be your pawn, and they will dance to your tune (two ships collide in the vacuum of space under your marionette strings. One Autobot, one Decepticon.*** Finally, you can go home). A symphony of destruction, everything breaking exactly how it's supposed to. You school your face into a stony expression to hide your joy, but your spark swoops all the same. Everything is so much better when you're in control. 1 | 2 | 3

----- * I need you to know that when I say "tell" and "talk" I mean that Starscream and Knockout are absolutely just venting to this baby. They are going on long winded tirades and Vaporwave is just soaking it all up ** "The key to science, he said, was to follow a rigid, repeatable pattern." Peer review. Shockwave is talking about peer review. I didn't know how to squish that in without making it sound really awkward, but Shockwave is absolutely talking about peer review. It needs to be peer reviewable to be taken seriously/be accurate, but Shockwave doesn't phrase it that way. Never does he say the words "peer" and "review" together *** This is the battle that begins the Stations :) ---- • Guillotine and Vaporwave both focus on patterns. G: observation. V: organization. • Pov ur one of the minds behind the Stations getting stranded and you don't even know it • hahaha just imagining Vaporwave realizing he can't go home anymore and having a breakdown in the middle of enemy territory • "No. No. Nonononononononononono" • a soft touch to his shoulder. "Hey, are you alright?" • a sloooow turn of his head, eyes wide and expression unreadable. • like a switch has been flipped, he grabs the arm touching him, crushes it in his grip, and uses the arm as leverage to pull their head toward him whereupon he digs his claws into their face and pulls • this would evolve into a fight where Vaporwave takes out 5 guys before the solar flare that takes out everyone and officially starts the Stations. • it should be mentioned that until this point, Vaporwave has been playing as a friendly****, clawless, gun welding Autobot who looses his cool at Decepticons and not much else, so this out burst is very confusing for all his "comrads" • jgjmsmcks now I gotta do a post-wormhole Vaporwave jgknsjgkdkksmnc how in the world does he get from this to the loving father of chaos incarnate (Streaker and Vole)!? • I was gonna include Guillotine in that statement, but G's actually really straight forward if you know how he thinks. Pre-Stations Vaporwave would love how easy he is to direct ----- ****V's Auotbot character • He starts angry and vengeful(goes off on his own to "get revenge," which is actually just passing off information) • Some good sumeritan gets worried about him and confronts him about his vengefullness, so he eventually has to drop it down a few notches. He then becomes angry and bitter about Decepticons, but the good sumeritan actually tries to make friends with him, so new layers have to be added to his character • He's initially snapish and standoffish (chalked up to the anger and grief) eventually has a "good cry" and reveals himself to be a pretty soft guy who enjoys socializing (Intel gathering). He's still angry, but keeps it off his face unless he's on the battle field or Cons are brought into the conversation. (he still runs off on his own to fight, but does it significantly less. they use other methods of info passing at this point)

[apothe-cary]

Wolfe Laidir: Six Song Soundtrack Game

RULES: make a post with links to music and/or lyrics describing six things/events about your OC/story.

Thank you for the tag @lotusrhys

Tagging: @genjyoandgojyoandhakkai 🥺

If you guys haven’t done this one already!

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“I would never ever lie you, You ain't ever have to lie to me, I’m everything that i've strived to be, So do i look like him? Do i look like him? I don't look like him.”

1. Like Him - Tyler, The Creator

-> Wolfe constantly felt he had to become Varrics shadow, constantly looking for a way to be him think like him. And it wasn’t till later wolfe realizes he has to stop chasing that shadow. Wolfe loved Varric, that was his family and the only family he knew. Varric wasnt just the leader of the team and he doesn’t tell rook to become him but because Wolfe found Varric to be that amazing he craved to be just like him. He does find himself and strived to be a better version of himself by the end of the game but it took a lot to get there.

“Tú me miras, Y tus ojos me hablan.”

You look at me and your eyes talk to me

2. Si Me Voy - Cuco, The Marías

-> Wolfe’s relationship with Davrin genuinely was so so sweet and he would follow the man to the ends of the earth. Wolfe is in love with that deep love and deep connection in cannon and out of cannon.

3. We’ve Never Met before but Can we have a cup of coffee or work thing? - In love with a Ghost

-> No lyrics just sounds, drops of water, clocks time ticking away. I think all these sounds and the music itself the piano all is soft and melodic and Wolfe doesn’t show much of this side but he craves that connection to people. That soft sweet side. He’s a guy who hides the soft behind the humor and the smile, that chaotic side is just a mask of his goodness. And I think this song represents his goodness.

‘Oh by the way, All my stuffies wanna know if you’re okay. I’ve been great, ‘cause they put me in a safe place.’

4. Safe Place - Tony22

-> Wolfe’s safe place is in his own mind, his inner child that is healing for having to grow up too fast which shows with his goofy behavior.

‘A lost little boy who has lost his heart.’

5. And The Hound - Yaelokre

-> sorry, we are just sad. More healing for him and finding his way.

‘While Rain Is Falling like rhinestones from the sky.’

5. Rhinestone Eyes - Gorillaz

-> Gorillas is such a strange story telling vibe, wolfe would just fit it well. He’s a writer, a story teller through cryptic messages on occasions and I feel like gorillaz is the right about of story and song that it fits Wolfe’s artistic style

‘I thought you wouldn’t leave, you took a part of me.’

6. IcantbelieveIletyougetaway - aldn

-> like I said, lot of just hurt when Varric leaves him, and a lot of anger towards Solas but even still Wolfe ends up giving him a change to be redeemed because that’s what Varric would have wanted at least that’s how Wolfe sees it. But wolfe has a crash not ngl.

[justworthlessreblogs]

a further look at the rest of my fanseasons

as i was pulling up images for justice, paradise, and lune last night i came across a bunch of images for my other fanseasons. figured i might as well share them so people can see what they look like as well (at at the very least the prototype ones since i don't have accessible traditional art for most of them curse you past justie for not taking photos!)

shining hearts:

here's the first image of cure harmony, dated december 16 2018. done in the glitter cure maker

from that same day, the prototype for cure sunburst, cure elemental. i didn't feel like making up an entirely new character at the time though and i was already using an older oc for cure harmony so i was like "i'll just take another one of my mlp ocs" (which was sunburst) so elemental ended up being shoved to the side

from june 2019, the team in the happiness charge character creator by hapuriainen (i hope i spelled that right) on deviantart! this was another one of my favorite character creators, and provided the basis for many a cure design before glitter cure came out on dolldivine

we now have cure harmony (pink), cure sunburst (orange), and their midseason, cure spark (green)

time to fast forward, since we have now hit the era of the Precure Art Drought. the next time i drew any of them was cure harmony in january 2022, as one of the ms paint base pieces i did:

base is cure happy by selenaede.

and then we have her again in january 2023, as part of the star twinkle trace that showed up in the paradise & lune post

harmony is in the foreground. her bangs are fluffier now but this is largely the design i've stuck with for her ever since. the blue in her hair is a reference to her days as a my little pony oc - she started out as a pink unicorn with fluffy pink hair and then i got into an argument with one of my online friends over if she looked too much like pinkie pie or not so i added the blue streak to differentiate her

and from january 2024, here's all on them on their second ost cover!

mermaid jewel:

their first appearance, done in the happiness charge character creator in july 2019. left to right is splash, ocean, coral, shell, anemone.

unfortunately, none of them ever got individual glitter cure versions and aside from splash i don't draw them very often (and even with splash it's usually her in her civ form). i do have a drawing of splash in a photo of a draw the squad from 2022 (i believe it was 2022 i took the photo a long time after i drew it). i love draw the squads. i should do another one it's been way too long

borealis is in this one as well, right next to splash (splash is on the right in green, borealis is the blue one), which is a nice segue into our next fanseason

northern lights precure:

as mentioned before, northern lights actually predates the others (aside from moderation) by quite some time! i think what happened was i made them for fun, then forgot about them to focus on moderation again, and then dug them back out once i started making other fanseasons. this image is dated january 27, 2018. left to right we have aurora, shimmer, borealis, and glow

i really liked borealis's design, so she's actually got a few art pieces (unlike the others, who still sadly don't have solidified cure designs aside from their hair)

an in-progress borealis, done the same day as the character creator. i also tried making her a puzzlun cure card but i don't have a photo.

theatrical:

my beloved hacha creator shows up again. this is dated july 11, 2018, which is a lot older than i initially thought it was. theatrical was another one of those "create a team based around aesthetic and designs i think look neat and then do nothing with them afterwards until i shoved them into a lineup once i realized how many fanseasons i was piling up". this one does feature their civilian forms, which is unique! left is cure curtain and the right is cure spotlight. they stay a duo

desert sun:

poor desert sun didn't even get a character creator image. they have finalized civilian designs but not cure designs. the closest i can offer are these:

prototype hairstyle designs from march 2022

more finalized designs from a super smash bros (but it's my precures) character select screen thing i did in april 2024

supernatural:

supernatural has the same problem in that i didn't ever make a character creator thing with the full team. i think the first time they show up visually is from that same hairstyle piece as desert sun:

i unfortunately don't have a photo of moth from this set. she was on the next page. the reason this photo exists at all is because i sent it to myself as a reference for that super smash bros but precure thing, so i could use it as a reference for the hair of the cure i was drawing or go "oh that's kind of ugly actually" and create a new hairstyle. unfortunately for moth, she was on a page that only had 2 other cures and i have hers + those 2 other cures' hairstyles memorized so i didn't bother sending myself the reference

in april 2023, i tried making ghost in the glitter cure maker

and witch a few days later. no cryptid or moth, i think i lost steam after this

BUT they all have traditional art refs from around the same time. which i don't have with me now, because - say it with me - the sketchbook they're in is at home and i was a dummy who didn't think about taking a photo to make sure she always had the references with her even if she couldn't access the sketchbook

they do show up in the smash cures character select!

bonus: modpre in the hacha character creator from july 2018 because at the time no cure was immune to being made in it. i found this while searching for everything else. i'd completely forgotten about it

[thana-topsy]

Ok I gotta come out and say it. I envy you. Like, to a painful extent. The amount of people you get interested in your characters, how you're incredibly skilled in both visual art AND writing, how readers your fics have. I absolutely adore your work, but seeing it fills me with so much envy it's honestly ridiculous.

Did you deal with similar feelings towards other creators when you started writing fic by any chance? If so, how did you deal with those feelings? I feel genuinely stuck feeling worthless about my fics. I'm not as verbose with my language despite over 10 years of writing under my belt and it seems as though my plots don't interest people as much either. So I feel like there's just nothing of worth about any of my work.

I know that this is a lot to dump on you, but I felt like I would burst keeping this all in. Much love to you and I hope you have a wonderful New Year!

Hey there my friend, I've been sitting with this all day trying to decide how I want to answer you. I genuinely appreciate your honesty, because I know this is a familiar feeling for a lot of people, myself included.

I remember when I first rejoined Tumblr in early 2019, desperately trying to find anyone to talk to about TES, I would look at all these blogs gettings asks about their OCs like they were little celebrities and feel envy and longing. Now, when these feelings start to bubble up, I force myself to take a break from sharing my work, be it art or writing, if only to remind myself why I'm creating it and who I'm creating it for: myself. I know it sounds cheesy, and I probably sound like a broken record, but genuinely I just do this because it's bursting out of my skull. But I won't lie and say the engagement and the support doesn't have a big impact on my motivation. I love sharing with people and getting an enthusiastic response.

I think something people might not realize, or maybe they just forget, is that I used to write a lot of smut. Like...a lot of smut. (I still do). Hahaha and it doesn't get a lot of comments or engagement, but it does draw a lot of eyes. Once my smut stories started taking on heavier plotlines, a comment I'd get a lot was "came for the porn, stayed for the plot." And I wasn't writing smut because I thought it would get me an audience, I was just horny LMAO. But it encouraged me to branch out and experiment with the types of stories I was telling.

Anyways, art is another big part of it, yes. But that also didn't get a lot of engagement in the beginning, and my skills were rusty as hell. I was getting maybe 15 notes on here, 30 likes on instagram. But that didn't really matter to me, I was just insane with inspiration. I'd reach out to people and ask to do art trades, got ghosted a lot, made some good friends, (some people who are still my good friends to this day!). But it took a lot of risks, and I made a lot of accidental enemies and learned a lot of hard lessons. But having visuals to go with the stories I'm writing is like advertisement in its own way. I'm just lucky enough to hyperfixate on this shit like it's my lifeblood. I've always obsessively drawn my favorite characters, ever since I was a wee bab. Long before social media was a factor or the words "content creator" even existed.

And I think that's what it all comes back to. Above all else, do what you do with unbridled joy. If someone else finds joy alongside you, all the better! Even if it's just one person. Take risks, make friends, make enemies, draw that blorbo unapologetically and with wild abandon. Love what you create, even when it's bad. Even when it makes you cringe years later, don't delete it. Even when people try to find every reason to hate what you do and who you are. Don't stop.

Every act of creation is bringing something into the world that didn't exist before you made it. And that alone gives it worth.

Happy New Year!

[dabihawksluvr]

jesus christ dude. I understand headcanoning characters as queer or gay or whatever but your "dabi is a misogynist" post reeks of your own internal misogyny. maybe do some soul searching and figure out why you talk to the women you're talking to in that post as they're lesser than you. and hell, what made you post that in the first place???? absolutely insane to put in the main tags. also using c.ai because you can't come up with your own plot is fucking embarrassing get a grip

Oh, I'm gonna have fun with this one today <3

First off, it's pretty obvious that Dabi has some form of his own internalized misogyny because at one point he called both his mom and Fuyumi the 'weak ones' in the family (literally said that the females in the family are all weak-willed). Maybe he fixes that with Toga, because he obviously treats her loads better especially when she goes back to her childhood home. But you cannot tell me, for one iota of however many brain cells you have left in your head, that Dabi was 'never' negative about women in general?? It doesn't need to be spelled out, it's right there if you just pick up the context clues given.

And it doesn't make me love him any less either, if anything it makes me love him MORE because of the angst that can be made with the thought that any Y/N!Female could be the ONE woman he finally gets better for in that aspect. And I love stories where those kinds of guys realize their mistakes with hating all women, it's glorious and makes me weep every single time I read about it.

Oh, and fun fact, I am biologically female. So if you're trying to say I'm 'misogynistic' because I identify as male, oh boy are you SO wrong. I just find it funny that ever since I started identifying as male (around a month ago I specifically came out as DemiBoy) suddenly the influx of 'anti-man' comments are coming straight for me whenever I bring this stuff up. So go on, I honestly need a good laugh today and your anger is hilarious to me.

I'm not using C.AI anymore btw (the bot is too negative/mean now for me to get any joy out of using the site), but even if I was...cool? It's not like I'd take whatever was written and copy-paste it as my 'fanfiction', you weirdo. I just used it for fun, in fact most bots I made on the site were kept private *unless* it was an OC or 'original' plot of mine.

As for me posting all that stuff to begin with - have you SEEN how some in the fandom write Dabi??? Some make him out to be an absolute dick, far worse than anything I've ever thought about him. Like, making him into an even worse abuser than Endeavor ever was. But at least with MY headcanon, he can be redeemed because his reasoning for seeing women as 'weak' is based on actual canon rather than just a sexual fantasy about someone being abused and liking it (nothing against those who like that stuff but it wasn't my point when writing my post).

Or, on the flip side, fans who write him seem to forget his more 'mean' points of his character and it just feels disingenuous to me. I prefer being close to canon with how I see characters, not against the fandom versions in any way but in my head I always stay close to how they're portrayed by the OG creator/writer. And I also like angst, I am allowed to 'bump up' certain character traits if it fits my headcanons and if you don't like it then tough tits.

Also, you are a coward. Sending me an anonymous 'ask', at least be up-front and let me know your username so I can rightfully block you. Because I'm only writing this as you left yourself unknown, I cannot go to your account and erase you from my side of Tumblr because you might get some (much needed) backlash for this.

Go fuck yourself, and anyone else like you who thinks you can talk shit and get away with it. Fucking coward.

[iniziare]

🔥 GO WILD

Prompt: Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion. // Accepting. // @ccaptain

I don't think that there's a single thing that I feel as strongly about, as my opinions of the following two lines: 'Every portrayal is equal' and 'There are multiple interpretations of a character'. I think that they both play into harvesting and perpetuating the worst mentalities on Tumblr: insecurity and egos. I disliked the PSAs about the former back in 2013, I hated the transition of the former to the latter in 2015/2016, and I hate how the latter still seems to resonate around the RPC as if it's some sort of bible that does anyone any good. And before any potential 'but Sae, those are two different things', no, not really, they play into the same concept, it's simply the phrasing that changes to make it all the more mentally inclusive and sound more socially welcoming. But a bad message remains a bad message no matter how pretty its packaging is. It all plays into not wanting to hurt people's feelings, which I fully understand and it's even a noble cause at its basis, but coddling doesn't help people, it never has, and it has and will only continue to make people more sensitive (which is a topic for a different salt send-in), all the while demotivating and utterly frustrating others. I'm sorry folks, but not every portrayal is equal, there are people who will create a blog merely because a character is hot, or for social political reasons of 'look at me', or because they simply ache to write a fandom's popular ship, and they disappear as quickly as they come when the 'urge' has been fulfilled. Those, for instance, are not equal to people who put a lot of time into their portrayals, and I'm not saying that everyone needs to live up to the latter, but don't be telling me that everyone is equal on the mere premise that they all 'exist' and we should 'all support one another'. Not every portrayal is equal, not everyone's writing is equal, and people's understanding of a character will not always be equal. And these things aren't subjective, they are factual. There can be such clear differences between portrayals and ignoring them is actually doing an injustice to every single depiction out there. If you tell a blog that does minimal writing and seems to not have a great understanding of the character (yet?), or the worst one: seems to really not care— that they’re equal to everyone else, then you’re telling them, for starters, that they could have nothing to improve on. And trust me, I’ve seen it happen time and time again, people will not put in effort to improve if you tell them that there’s nothing to actually better. And of course simultaneously, you demotivate the ones that have stuck around for years and put much time into what they do on Tumblr. And that sucks pretty hardcore.

Now luckily, that first line has somewhat died out, but now in its stead, we're left with 'There are multiple interpretations of a character'. I don't know whether it's worse, better, or just equally as bad of a take. I vote for... worse, actually. — No, no one will ever convince me that if they wrote an OC, and then released them to the world, that they'd be okay if RPers anywhere would claim that one can read their OC multiple different ways. I've seen RPers on Tumblr blow up over much less. What I need people to realize and remember, is that all creators and writers alike, have an intent with their characters, and that isn't subjective. Just like personality traits aren't subjective. For instance, one can't look at Veritas Ratio and go 'he's confident' and have someone else state 'he's insecure', and say that both are factually true and that both takes are equal in 'value' if we look at accuracy, because they're not. They cannot both be true, and I'm not talking about minor details that can be considered to be 'exceptions', I'm talking about the rule. What I need people to admit to, more often than not, is that it seems to have become a common take to conflate what they want a character to be like with what they actually are. I sometimes can look at a character and objectively go 'I wish they had done this instead, focusing on this and this, or this part of their personality'. but if I then choose to portray the character like that instead, it doesn't mean that it's what the character that we ultimately see on screen is actually like. And admitting that it's not the case isn't a bad thing, being canon divergent isn't a bad thing, but it is entirely different from intending to write the character based on what we actually see.

[zielnxz]

So it's fine to as about your Zhongli?? Ok, well, can you tell us more about him?? Why he's more cold than canon, his relationship with Hutao cause I'm curious, or his Adepti? Especially Xiao.

Of course you don't have to answer all of these, I'm just curious.

On another note... I just realized he's wearing glasses! Kinda reminds me of Cloud Retainer, wonder if she gave it to him...

DISCLAIMER: ALL OF THIS IS LIKE NOT EVEN CLOSE TO CANON LORE SO YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

She did give them to him!!! She thought it would make him seem more approachable (it didnt) to talk to and maybe could let him interact with the mortals better. He wears them regardless without needed them to see (its more of an aesthetic thing and because it was a gift)

AS FOR THE YAKSHA, in MY universe (THIS I KNOW IS ABSOLUTELY NOT CANON SO TAKE EVERYTHING WITH A GRAIN OF SALT X"D my au my rules /lh) he is the creator of all Yaksha and adepti. He started by giving animals human forms with god like prowess (the adepti who prefer their animal forms since theyve seen how disgusting humans can be)... He made the adepti with one objective in mind- additional protectors of Liyue.

Now Karma works WAY different in my world than the original whilst still keeping aspects of it. Karma works by a build up highly negative emotions stemming from slain entities period. The way Zhongli's soul works is that it latches onto his soul like a parasite and spreads throughout his body like a parasite. Because he's been alive for so long, it doesn't really phase him but he has a LOT of Karmic debt. Thus he creates the Yakshas to split the Karma with, while disguising it as an excuse to make extra help. A different breed of Adepti, stemming into a more humanoid form instead of animalistic. Xiao was created for this purpose as well, along side the other Yaksha generals. (This is also where my Yaksha oc comes into play.)

Any time Zhongli feels his Karma is too much to deal with, he evens it out with all of his Yaksha kin. The adepti are untouched- as he made them to be. He did not intend for them to take on any of his Karma- thats what the Yaksha were made for. Now TECHNICALLY Zhongli broke a rule just as Eugeria had, by creating a species outside of the permission of the HP and Celestia, but he had lived long enough to disguise them as being summoned from another dimension. They did not reek of Morax's kin, so they had a pass.

NOW REGARDING HU TAO- He still has a good relationship with her! They're friends because she knows how to talk to him and interest him in ways he didn't know possible. (NOT A SHIP, at least I didnt intend it to be seen as so-) So she took him under her wing when she saw him looking for jobs after he was 'reborn' and started teaching him about how her job works and so on. He took a great interest in her because why the hell was she so enthusiastic about death??? Not in the murderer way, but like the concept of it fascinates Hu tao. Zhongli has seen far too much death in many different shapes and forms so he was practically unphased by it, but when he told her stories- the way her eyes lit up in interest when he told them made him pause. So theyre pretty close friends and Hu Tao loves to tease him gently like a good friend would- but she does keep her respectful professional personality when it came to work. She's a hard worker.

As for Xiao, he's as close to him as he is with all of the Yaksha. He didn't morn the same way humans do when they passed away or tore themselves apart because they couldn't handle the Karma- he would morn in a very almost selfish manner? One of his kin passed away- his own creation passing away was indeed saddening but it was more so upsetting because he didn't have as many vessels to carry parts of his Karma. (So in a way, he is the sole reason why Xiao is suffering, and Xiao knows this but will never ever betray Zhongli.)

TO THE TOPIC OF THE YAKSHA OC I OWN, Zhongli knows almost everything about his kin, like a rough approximation of where they are. The Yaksha in question made a contract with him long ago, to stop serving Liyue and to protect others outside of it. Of course Morax did not like this one bit, but he only agreed if the Yaksha was going to bare most of the Karma for the others, along with coming directly to Liyue if he needed them again. They agreed and the contract was made.

I hope this kinda explains how he is!!! He's kind of.... not as elegant and good willed as the original Zhongli, but he's more of a neutral aspect when it comes to duties kinda thing (i think..if that made any sense omg jkdsfksdjh)

Thank you for your interest about my au, it makes me incredibly happy to know people want info on it!!! 🥹

and every single archon is different as well!! (another reason why my neuvillette is a little kinder and spends more time trying to understand emotions and feel them. goodness neuvi wasnt even the objective of this post but i still brought him up lmfao im so cooked </3 ) but yes yes, stay tuned for the rest of my variants of the archons 👀......

(you can get more updates and stuff if you chill in the discord server this is a threat /lighthearted joke /joking !!! But yes most of my lore is comprised there and then I just post the scraps here x'D )

filler image below!!

[downforthegas]

Fart kink asks (all 25 bc why not)

Woah uhhhh damn thank you so much!!! I'm glad I can finally answer the questions I've always wanted to!!! Here we go:

When did you realize you were into farts? Age 16 when I first learned how to touch myself

How did you figure out you were into farts? Probably fart jokes in shows, you know how it goes (live action scooby doo movie ruined a generation lol)

What’s your favorite type of fart? Quite a lot. Bubbly, wet, bassy, rumbly, silent, squeaky, etc. The kind that smell awful, like rotten cheese, milk, or eggs

Are there any types of fart you don’t like? Of course not. Farts are farts. Even the short, quiet ones have their charm

What about farting do you find most appealing? Probably the smell but sound is really hot too. As for the types of farter, I'm a big fan of embarrassment, but confidence is also suuuuper hot depending on what I'm in the mood for

Do you have a preferred length or volume for farts? I mean not really but I find myself fantasizing about long farts. Even hyperfarts that last for hours maybe even days on end (i guess I do have a preferred length lol). As for volume, any is fine, but if it's long, its extra hot if its bubbly and quiet or silent

Does farting turn you on on its own or do you need to already be in the mood? Farting can turn me on in an instant like a switch

Do you have any other digestion-related kinks? Ooh so many. Burps, piss (I think that counts), scat, and vomit (but not for real, just in my head). Even general stomach issues like bloating and indigestion and even heart burn are hot

Do you have any other kinks that you enjoy being paired with farting? Farts and burps, farts and bloating, farts and scat, farts and spanking, farts and tying up, ugh the possibilities are endless

Is farting a must in sexual situations or is it more of a bonus? It's sort of a must but I don't want it to be. I try to get off to regular stuff with my partners (we still do farts stuff too), and I do but its hard bc its always been farts I've touched myself to. But I'm willing to change. Besides, not using farts helps me last longer

Have you ever acted on your desires IRL in an explicitly kinky manner? With myself? Yes. Not yet with my partners though

Is having a partner who can fart well important to you? Not really but it's nice when you have it, like I do right now hehe

Does anyone you personally know know about your kink? Two of my friends, one I still talk to. They're both really accepting. I think I told my sister but she was probably so traumatized, she forgot lol

Has anyone ever noticed/suspected your kink without you telling them about it? Not yet. Thank god though. Maybe my sis is getting suspicious but I'm not sure (if she really did forget)

Is there any media that you enjoy specifically for farts in it? Not a specific media in particular (I imagine my faves farting more if they're from medias with no fart jokes) but I do like looking at fart comps on youtube, mostly from cartoons

Do you have a favorite farting-related content creator (on tumblr or otherwise)? For fart models, I love Love Rachelle, Selena Loca, Santana Redd, Emma Ink, and Natasha F. For artists, there's too many to list but I love a lot of twitter artists like Carafalsa, ProButtonMasher, GasTank, and Solloros. For people on Tumblr, I love @sweetbubblies for their ocs. They include a lot of hyperfart stuff and I think they got me into diaper stuff. @grossgeck is awesome too. They're extra weird like me and it makes me feel less alone in this community

Would you ever consider recording your farts? Oh I recorded SO MANY of my farts and posted some here.

Are you a shy farter or do you fart freely? Depends who I'm around. Around fam? Strangers? Friends? no. Best friends and lovers? Yes but I get a little hesitant with best friends hehe

Are you good at farting? Uhhh well my farts smell bad and some can be like 5 seconds so I guess I'm good. But I'm EXCELLENT at pumped farts. I can fart on command and I can suck in a lot of air

Do you prefer farting yourself or hearing others fart? Either way I'm happy lol

Have you ever gotten into trouble for farting in a place or situation where you shouldn’t have? Ooh not yet but I have fantasized about trying that in a public setting somewhere. I am into humiliation after all

Have you ever gotten turned on by farting in an inconvenient place or situation? Again, no, but it turns me on to think about

Have you ever tried to make yourself gassy in order to fart? Oh I kinda do it all the time! Whether it's with food, chocolate milk (my love) and pumping air in me

Do you have any favorite foods or drinks for encouraging farting? Spicy foods, leafy green veggies, super greasy foods, and chocolate milk/regular milk

What’s your biggest fantasy involving farting? Me and both my current partners are gassy and they can both fart freely around me, but I have to have a plug in me until they say I'm allowed to pull it out. If we're having sex, I'm not allowed to take it out until I cum. Maybe they make me take it out in public so I'm forced to fart in front of a bunch of people. Or they need to be in the hot tub after sex. But there's no hot tub. But hey, there's enough bubbles in my system to make it one

[toastling]

A treatise on Mary Sues, edgy characters, and killing an OC

Sometimes, as you grow as a creator, you'll kill off an OC because they just aren't working for you anymore. And to clarify what I mean, killing an OC is, to me, different from killing a character. Killing a character is a narrative choice, whereas killing an OC is like memoryholing them. You've outgrown them or feel they are completely untenable in some fashion, so you pull the plug on the idea in its entirety. Writers do it all the time, and it's a valid and important part of the creative process and growing up as a young creator.

Except... I've found that I never really do that as a creator, despite that being what I'm purportedly "supposed" to do as I grow. Instead, I'm economical, I'm recycling, constantly. I try to kill off OCs, but they always come back eventually in some updated and retooled form. Sometimes they're only an echo of the original idea, while other times, I realize that what I thought was childish actually hits and has purpose, and I can use my honed talents as a more mature creator to bring them up to snuff.

That's how I ended up with two of my very first proper OCs I ever actually did anything substantive with, made when I was only 12 and 13 years old respectively, remaining characters in the selfsame story I am now intending to publish and launch a career off of. Characters who were every inch all the things people would typically criticize as 'edgy', 'silly', 'immature', or 'derivative', but have become more than the sum of their parts.

One started off as a character named XIII. Three guesses what sort of hooded cloak he may of worn and what series inspired him. Except he also had a demon inside of him called The Beast which was evil and violent and he was constantly at war with but often saved him and gave him great power. Again, three guesses where that came from. It didn't take long for The Beast to branch off, break out, and become his own character, either. And when he did, the cloak came off and XIII became Crimson, the Bloodstained Angel.

Yeah. Crimson. The Bloodstained Angel. And The Beast. That's about as simple and "I'm 12 years old" as it gets, right? And as I got older, I saw that and thought that too. It was what I was supposed to do. But... they never truly died, in spite of all my attempts to kill them. They'd disappear for a few months at a time, sure, and I'd say "Yeah, they were cute experiments, but they don't exist anymore". But there was still a piece of me in them that resonated with the rest of me. They kept coming back, changing, evolving, without me ever realizing until it was too late and I'd already involved them in some new project.

Now, they are two gods in a pantheon. The Beast became Aheperael, a false god of destruction made from the blood of a true god through dark magic and the hubris of not-man to protect themselves. A real "war waged for the sake of peace" situation that blew up in everybody's faces. Meanwhile, Crimson became Esaniel, the unwilling donor for the blood that became Aheperael.

Now, the fallen angel with bloody red wings has transitioned into a god locked into a self-imposed exile in order to atone for a sin that he had no part in committing, keeping watch over his at once bastard child and malformed twin's vacant shell for all eternity so that none might ever try and revive it.

It keeps a lot of the same core beats, but has evolved into something a lot more mature, but not in the sense of "edgy = immature", but in the sense of "my skills as a storyteller have matured", because it is still very much a character and a story you could broadly call "edgy". And that's okay! These characters have an audience, a function, they exist for a reason, and they resonate for a reason.

He is at once a warped reflection of the Jesus Figure and the Self-Blaming Victim, a Literal God and a Depressed and Resentful Teenager. He is all these things and more.

The other character meanwhile started off as a guy simply called "Bishop". His whole thing was that he was a demon... who was also a Catholic priest. Scandalous! Then, over time, he became a half-demon, half-angel who was a priest instead. Shocking! So what is he now? Well. He's still a half-demon half-mortal priest. But he's not called Bishop anymore, because that's silly, though he very much is still one of those. No. Now he has the much more subtle name of Daemon.

And that's okay! Because there's nothing wrong with those broader strokes and there never actually was to begin with. Esaniel mutated and evolved his core idea over time into something more developed and reminiscent, but not quite the same. But Daemon never truly changed, because the issue was never with that background to begin with. The issue was with my inexperience in character writing at the time of his creation, and in not having a cohesive theme or point to what I'd created aside from "I'm 14 and this is cool as shit". And that's just something that comes with age and experience.

Now, he is an examination of the concept of Redemption and what it means to redeem oneself and what role others do or don't play in that redemption, up to and including God Almighty Himself. He's a gentle giant, a great big teddy bear with an emphasis on the bear. What kind of bear? Yes. But, the idea of someone who would by his very nature be considered irredeemable in our world, not just for being what he is but for what, specifically, he's done, is actually one that can tell a helluva good story! It can be challenging and affirming all at once for all sorts of different audiences. He's become one of my most complex and compelling characters to write for despite his entire premise being as stereotypically edgy and dumb as can be.

But an expert at throwing stones will outperform a novice at throwing knives any day of the week. It's never really about what the idea is necessarily, it's about how you present it. It's about the technique. The motivation, the theme, the purpose it all serves. You gotta have a purpose for it going in, even if it's simply to further some other, separate character's arc and nothing more.

All this to say, or rather ask, how many OCs have you killed in your time? None? One? Twenty? Well, let this longwinded post be my suggestion - and your permission - to dig them from their graves and reexamine them without prejudice for what they are.

You felt strongly enough to make them at some point in your life for a reason. So, ask yourself, do they still have meaning to you now? If so, how can you best reflect that now, with your current skill as a creator today?

You might just be surprised with what sort of hidden gems you end up with.

[izayoichan]

2, 4, 7, 17, 30, and all creator questions for my boi :)

For the boi!

2. How easy is it for your character to laugh? Very easy, he is the type that can laugh about almost anything, even when they hit their toe against something sharp, they just can't help but laugh, even though it fucking hurts. He also has a very contagous laugh, the type that if he starts and really gets the chuckles, no one in a room could either not smile, or start laughing too.

4. How easy is it to earn their trust? He is far from the worst with it, although I think he is good at giving people some trust to begin with, and then let them prove to him that they are worth more trust that just that little bit in the beginning. So you have to work a bit to get into that proper inner circle of trust. Outwardly that makes him seem really trustful to most.

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling? There are two things that are equal for him nostaliga wise. (this is a bit of a spoiler, but ah well) watching pairs skate is something that triggers nostalgia for him. After him and Ye-Min's accident he never got a new partner to skate with, but went solo. He doesn't mind that feeling, but it is bittersweet for him. It's hard to wonder what if. The other thing is helping out at the shelter. It brings back all the memories he had a child, and he loves the feeling it gives. It's simply comforting. So yes, he brings his daughter along, to hopefully give her the same feelings as he has when there.

17. Are they easily embarrassed? Suprisingly yes. He has learned how to hide it well due to his job, but yeah, he is quite easily embarrased. He doesn't blush easily, but a tell tell sign is shuffeling of feet and twiddeling his fingers when he gets embarrased.

30. Who do they most regret meeting? Hmh... I don't know if he regrets meeting anyone, he has been lucky that way. The only thing that comes to mind, is some of the kids that were bullies when he were younger, saying that his love for figure skating wasn't good. And then for me: A: Why are you excited about this character? Because he is so different from the normal character I make. I tend to make the happy couples and all that, and Rylan simply deviates from that norm, and I adore him for that. B: What inspired you to create them? He kinda did himself, I do play the kids a little, I made him a teen, and no matter who flirted with him, no one was interrested. So first I was thinking a bachelor, to find that spark, but after talking about it with @mahvaladara i realized I didn't feel that was right. He shouldn't have to fall in love with anyone if he so clearly did not want to. C: Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story? Yes, because my brain followed my standard they shall find someone and live happily ever after in the end, but they wanted differently. D: Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look? They aged up pretty much the way they looked now, I had to add the horns, scales hair and eyes, but other than that he is basically just how he grew up. E: Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you? Yeah, I think we would get along, We share a few traits, and some ways of thinking.

F: What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)? A half a year ago: Frustration, because i did not know what to do with them, none of the original idea felt right. Now, exitment and pride in who I feel they chose to be.

G: What trait of theirs bothers you the most? He is a athletic one.. so he always wants to exercise, mostly skate tbh, but its every single time I try and do something, like poses, he breaks out and does pushups, goes to skate and so on.

H: What trait do you admire most? His devotion to his family, specially his daughter and her mother. Even though they are not together, he cares deeply for both of them, and his family in general. He is very very family oriented.

I: Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe? I don't mind him going a bit in the fantasy direction on occasion, or an AU if it comes to mind. As long as his little one can come with, I'm happy with whatever my silly mind can come up with.

J: Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character? Luckily not. He had no big canon other than being part of the story I have.

thank you for asking!