#Do Not Worry About Me

[offbrand-hunger-games]

HI.

so I know you guys like the hunger games but I'm literally dying as we speak, so maybe if you guys could wait a little bit that would be great

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry

tags are kind of important

[takecarelove]

having the ability to cry again would solve ALL my problems

[snekthedemonnoodle]

well i think its safe to say that my first make out session(s) was/were good.

:D

[zeussim]

If I die I want you all to know. Gene Kelly's legs were amazing, his smile was fabulous and I will be stalking him behind a tree in the afterlife in a very obvious manner.

[identitty-dickruption]

my dad is starting to remind me of his father. my grandfather. not always. it'll just be a certain look he gives me across the dinner table, a certain tone of voice he brings out for social occasions, a certain way of being that can't help but make me feel like the two men are becoming one

my grandfather, pa, used to look after my sisters and I when we lived in Adelaide and my parents needed a break. if I sit still enough, I can still feel that house in my bones. I can feel how humid that front room used to get during the summers. I can feel how hungry I would get after a whole weekend of "you'll eat what you're given or you'll starve". I can feel how lonely and how confused I used to get

I was an insomniac from the day I was born, so naturally I would take the longest to go to bed and stay there. to help me get to sleep at night, pa used to put on movies for me to watch. not anything normal, like a Disney movie or whatever else. the movies were long and confusing, and they all ended with a bright red Salvation Army logo. I don't remember much, but I do remember what hell looks like, and I remember how people end up there

I used to wonder if pa was going to go to heaven. I still do. especially now that the man's dying. but I would think about those bright white images of heaven when I got up for the fifth time in one night, and pa was left with no choice but to hit me until I went back to sleep. I would think about those flames of hell when I woke up the next morning with a new story of where the bruises came from

I brought it up with my dad recently. not the fact that he reminds me of his father. I would never dare say something like that. no, I just mentioned it all in passing. "do you remember when pa hit me?". if I didn't know any better, I would say that the look my dad gave me was his best impression of his father. he sighed. and he said, "you sure do hold a lot of grudges. shouldn't you be over this by now?"

it's hard to believe that this counts as holding a grudge when it's one of those things I only really think about in passing nowadays. it's hard to ignore the fact that I was singled out as the appropriate recipient of all his anger. all of pa's anger then. all of my dad's anger now. my sisters didn't even know. and yet, somehow, I still feel like I'm making a big deal out of nothing. it was only a couple times. it was only a couple steps too far. it was only when I was too young to speak up about it

I don't know how to end this, because I don't think it's finished. pa's still not dead. and even when he does die, probably this year, he will live on in the face of my dad. and I can't decide if that's worth holding a grudge over

[lizzibennet]

chappell roan’s got this sudden very huge burst of attention and since then she has

shown up to jimmy fallon in full drag

shown up to her concerts in even zainier outfits than before

worn a nun costume to one concert and when people were uncomfortable she was like good. toodles!

very clearly stated she will retreat from the public eye if she feels threatened by her fame

put very firm boundaries in place, not caring how that might make her look in today’s ass backward society that thinks artists owe everyone everything

she really is trying the hardest to do this in her own terms, in this industry that pretty much allows no wiggle room when it comes to being as big as she’s gotten. it’s clear to me she doesn’t care about maintaining the level of notoriety she has now, she cares about connecting to the subset of people who her art has always been aimed at and that is it. and i find it so admirable! it must be really hard to get what every artists out there is trying to and not let yourself get influenced by it, but she is remaining steadfastly herself. it’s so refreshing and it makes me like her so much more

[artkaninchenbau]

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

[storebrandsodaa]

feeling a bit more normal now but i don’t think that i’m actually really feeling anything and i don’t think my feet are touching the ground is this what dying feels like

[cashewy]

Should not be allowed to be alone at night. Overwhelmed with insane guilt about ebegging and I feel like this should've been over a long time ago. No one is here to tell me it's ok or at least calm me down because I know it is not ok. I am very sorry that this situation has lasted so long

[littlegreen]

have to find out if the **** ** ****** fanfiction i read when i was like 14 still holds up. certainly not

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Soup solves everything.

[deep-dark-fears]

Out out, Mister Goofums. A fear submitted by Lauren to Deep Dark Fears - thanks!

You can find original artwork or commission portraits in my shop!

[soldrawss]

*holds face tenderly*

[mokeonn]

"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.

But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.

[pickingupthepunchlines]

ouagh i’m so hungry