#Death Note but Girlie

[thearoaceshark]

How would adding a female Light change things into the original ask?

Okay so, this question connects with this other one, and in summary in that post are some thoughts I have about what the Wammy Boys and the Task Force (from Death Note) would be like if they were women. But in that post I kept Light as a male (although I now realize that he is technically a member of the task force as well).

(I will use she/her to refer to fem! Light)

I was doubting whether Light being a woman would still be a misogynist, and the answer is yes, but not that much. Light, being a narcissist, would believe herself to be better than other women, that, added to the fact that she is a teenager at the beginning of the story, make me think that when she became Kira she felt like "I'm not like other women."

She is aware that women suffer many injustices, she has seen her mother fight hard against society to earn her position, but at the same time Light lives a quite privileged life compared to what her mother lived and that is why those are not problems that she worries about. Her intelligence was never denied, she is good and pretty in the beauty standards, she is a model student, she lives in a good neighborhood. She knows that people who don't know her will believe that even though she is very intelligent, she is going to limit herself to working as a nurse, housewife, or teacher when she grows up, but she doesn't care, her mother warned her about that and she is prepared to shut up their mouths and became a detective. Although it bothers her that people underestimate her, she doesn't see obstacles in her life. She thinks that both men and women are inferior to her, she believes that it is easier to take advantage of women by pretending to be their friend, but she is also capable of cajoling a man to use him. She is literally Regina George in this aspect.

So, I said that Light as a man would underestimate fem! L. But fem! Light I think wouldn't make that mistake, she sees others as inferior, yes, but she knows that L is a threat. So she wouldn't underestimate her and the story between them would go as in canon.

The ones she does underestimate are Near and Mello. Even though they both looked like L, she didn't think of them as threats. She didn't let her guard down, but the attitude she sometimes had towards Near made Aizawa suspicious. (Not much different from canon but I wanted to mention it).

And for Misa and Takada. I think that at first Misa was only looking for friendship with her, but when she met her (in person) she did start to have romantic (and dependent) feelings towards Light, and Light took advantage of that, they have a secret relationship but at a certain point (after the death of L, before Near and Mello) they confess it to Light's family, at first they were scandalized but they supported them. She didn't have a relationship like that with Takada, they were just "friends", they were both the queen bees of the school and at that time they pretended to get along well. When they grew up, matured, and met again, Takada no longer felt those childish feelings, and she feels puré admiration when she found out that she was Kira, but Light never felt sympathy or friendship towards her, she only sought to manipulate her.

I think it bothered her that people assumed Kira is a man, but she decides to use it to her advantage. They wouldn't suspect that an innocent girl with a great sense of justice is the biggest mass murderer in history. So she uses it for acting.

Also her relationship with Ryuk is exatly the same. Ryuk just wanted to watch the world burn, I don't think it would change if Light was a girl.

That's all I can think of right now, Anon. I hope you had fun reading my thoughts on fem! Light. Have a good day! 💕

[ponury-grajek]

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Good, good :^) You can blame me as much as you want <3 Have fun in your kiyomisa brainrot era~

[batfamiliar]

Things in the musical that make me go insane nr 925679: when Light keeps his hand on L's chest before pushing him so he can feel the moment L's heart stops beating

[thed011iest0ffthemall]

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[fluffypotatey]

To be honest I am a huge Nalu shipper. But the thing is I want to know the difference between the way Natsu cares about his guildmates and Lucy. Like what is the obvious difference since that boy sees every as Nakama so how can we say that the wag he cares about Lucy is different?

Like even when Erza passed away? (All the way back in first season there was a segment where the guild was gathered at her grave and all) Natsu was still very reactive. Plus he was also said to be depressed even when Lisanna passed.

What's the difference between all of them and Lucy?

the fact that he stayed. the fact that before he met Lucy, Natsu wasn't one to stay in a group or even want to work with anyone besides Happy at the start of the story. hell, he was ready to just file Lucy down as "New Guildmate" once they reached Fairy Tail

but then, Lucy doesn't leave. she follows him on his mission to save Macao despite her not needing to or even really understanding everything about it. she stays and then fights with him and saves him. it's no secret that Natsu is strong and can take care of himself really well. he's been going on solo missions for years now, and no one has really stopped him, but that means he's been in a lot of sticky situations where he and Happy are on their own and have no backup. and yet, without asking, Lucy offers it

and i think this is the moment when Natsu considers that maybe it's okay to have someone there to have his back (sans Happy)

"but Natsu only needed Lucy for the next quest because of the requirements," well, Natsu also wouldn't have taken or even considered that quest if it weren't for Lucy, yeah? he was not a team player (in the picking job's sense) or really wanted other people to help him on his quests sans Happy. and then he goes and picks a job that caters to their team whilst ensuring that Lucy can't say no

or maybe i'm reading too much into it 🤷🏻‍♀️

or maybe Natsu's got horrible abandonment issues that he will latch onto people so fast (Igneel & Lisanna) but also cause him to distance himself so far when left behind (his 1st time at the guild, Lisanna's death). Erza and Gray are Natsu's closet friends after Lisanna and yet they cannot reach him when he closes himself off. and then we have Lucy, who stuck by and had his back, so who is to say Natsu didn't make some contingencies to ensure whether or not she'd join him?

but maybe it's the rose, colored ship glasses i have on

because yeah, Natsu cares for all of his guildmates. the power of friendship is his biggest motivator. when we meet Natsu, our first introductions of him is defending his guild's reputation from Bora (who was using it as a guise for human trafficking) and saving Macao. and our 1st big arc (Galuna Island), where Natsu adamantly refuses to allow Gray to use Ice Shell and sacrifice himself despite how antagonistic they've been to each other. we get Natsu 100% at Erza's defense throughout the Tower of Heaven and he is even ready to defend Wendy though they only met hours ago

Natsu is a character with a bleeding heart and cannot help but wear it on his sleeve, but we don't really see him allow others to fight his battles or have his back until Lucy comes in. to be honest, i don't even think he had his heart on his sleeve until Lucy. he still has a bleeding heart (i don't think anything could stop that), but he was not ready to be open in receiving company because he was so used to it being ripped away from him

that being said: of all the characters he interacts with, he finds Lucy to be someone compatible enough for him to start going on team missions and inviting her on them (for example, his 1st S-class mission, which he stole, he went to her house to show it to her. the fact that part of the reward was a celestial key might be a coincidence, but i wouldn't doubt it as Natsu and Happy's trump card in case she refused)

but yeah, the difference is that he stayed and didn't push her away at the beginning, but instead continued to invite her along with him to the point that doing a mission without Lucy wasn't his regular anymore. compared to the rest of the guild, of whom he spent most of his childhood with, even if he spoke to no one, they would still be around and talk to him anyway. he might not invite them on job and only challenge them to fights, but the guild is his home and a constant in his life, a constant he needs (bc heavy abandonment issues).

"okay, but he still pushed her away after he watched Igneel die right in front of him. and he left the guild for a whole year, too. so what's the difference there?" you may ask.

so 1) Natsu never thought the guild would disband. he returns to Fiore after a year and is the last to know that they disbanded. he assumed, like all the other times before and while he and others were sealed for 7 years, that Fairy Tail would still be there when he returned. he assumed that his disappearance would not impact so hard because the guild would still be around and Lucy would have the others with her

which, did not happen :)

and like, so many guild members go off on jobs, quests, or even just leave for an indiscriminate amount of time (which i, personally, believe was his rationality for leaving), so him being gone for a year was nothing! right? no harm, eh? his plan was never to be gone forever :))))

2) he just watched his father die and lose any chance of having some semblance of a long term reunion with Igneel. he literally lost one of his main driving motivations for getting stronger and taking jobs. before Fairy Tail, before anyone, it was Igneel. and to learn that a) Igneel was always with him to begin with and b) he only got to see him for less than a day after 14 years of nothing......i would feel lost too ngl

man's needed space from everybody. and he also needed comfort, but Natsu has been shown not to really be the character who asks to receive comfort (and when he does receive it, it's usually when he's already emotionally compromised). he is in the habit of shutting people out after being abandoned or losing someone close to him, with his next rationale being to "get stronger" in order to prevent what happened in the past to ever happen in the future.

anyway

what makes this different? well for one, he sent the letter only to Lucy (or it's implied since no one else is shown getting one) because of how the two spend most of their time together. even the line that goes with the panel makes it sound like Natsu is unsure on how the note will be received (maybe even hesitant? but that could be my own hopes)

and one of the 1st people he reunites with after a year is Lucy and we get such a similar parallel to the first chapter of Fairy Tail between the two as if the narrative itself is slotting them together to say "ah yes, now everything is back to normal and new journeys can begin"

but yeah, this is just a long way of saying, that Natsu does love his friends and guildmates but even when he is close to them, he kept to himself (and Happy) and sort of stayed in their orbit but always with some emotional distance because of his fear of abandonment. and then you have Lucy where he will stay for and allow her to orbit around him and he will invite to new adventures no questions asked

that's the difference

[nxvaca1nefa1ry]

need someone to care about me as much as rem cared about misa

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[undergoing-mitosis]

what if i impulsively bought the lawlight figurine. what then.

[k1xtix]

You're screwed up and brilliant, look like a million dollar man … So why is my heart broke?

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