#DayOneHundredAndThree

[happyrealities]

Coiling Noodles

Sake pace

Late flakes

Cool grace

Shake fakes

You know that I more than love you.

I give up myself to know you.

I stay in and never meet anyone else.

I have a passion for praying in and to your name.

I wouldn’t dare tell another you are ever less than.

Perfect.

[elle-stevens]

Today’s been pretty quiet.

I only slept for 5 hours because my coughing fits woke me up at 06:30, tres fun.

I need to get my hands on some Melatonin.

I miss sleep, my first and true love, so bad.

Then the coughing fits started anew at 08:00, so I had soup for breakfast to soothe it. My episodes of season 2 ‘Final Space’ were being weird, so I caught up on season 2 of ‘The End of the F*cking World’.

That was some good shit.

I broke my #1 rule for weekends and went into work to plan my lessons for Monday. Still, I’m glad I managed to prep my classes. Fourth grade will still be a giant train wreck as per usual.

But at least it will be a train wreck that I prepared for.

I scanned my university qualifications and passport for a potential series of schools here in China. I don’t know if a potential job will pan out, but I have to try. I still have to send an application to the international academy next door to my apartment. My new friend at the gym, DA, put me onto it, and I’ve been procrastinating over it for more than a week.

I had a terrible nap earlier. But that was because I insisted on sleeping on my right side, which is bad when you have gastritis.

Needless to say, I woke up coughing and gasping for breath two hours later.

Still, I ate dinner and called my mom for a bit. My VPN connectivity is being shitty again, so my mom called me back and we might talk again later.

I’m still knitting my new scarf and watching more of ‘Final Space’, just basically trying to relax.

I feel a bit blue, but I always get that way after nap. And that’s regardless of the quality of my sleep.

I think I’ll just chill at home tomorrow. C can’t go to the stand-up comedy event we were supposed to go to because of her assignments. And honestly, it would be better not to go all about town like last night.

I hope I can rest better tonight. At least I’m not dwelling too much on X *touch wood*

A lot of things happened to me because of her, but I’m trying my best to get past it and put it behind me. I don’t plan on living my life with bitterness and resentment.

Life’s much too short to be unhappy.

Right now, all I can focus on is getting my health back on track and finding a new job, any job, for next year.

Everything else will be ok.