#David Paulides

[theivorybilledwoodpecker]

The thing I find annoying about the missing 411 thing is that sometimes people are reaching or make things more mysterious than they actually are. In David Paulides book "Missing 411: Eastern United States," he makes several strange statements:

He frequently remarks on how strange it is missing people are often found near creeks or other bodies of water. Then in the case of Lloyd "Sonny" Hokit, who was 9 years old, he says how strange it is he left the area of a creek he was near. He also states that a 9 year old would know the creek was a lifeline.

You can't have it both ways. Is it strange a person would stay by water, or is it strange they would leave? Also, IDK what 9 year olds he's talking about. Not all kids have expert survival skills.

At least twice he remarks how it's unusual for kids to walk uphill. Again, what leads him to believe this? As a former child, I remember me and other kids going up and down many hills. Uphill is harder work, but kids will do it.

There are many cases where children 3 or younger were left unattended outside. Sometimes for quite a long period of time. And he often asks "Why would they leave their yard?" Well, young children don't have super long attention spans, nor do they have the best judgment. An adult knows it's dangerous for kids to waltz off into the unknown. Kids not so much.

He discounts paradoxical undressing as an explanation why people who die of exposure are found in stages of undress. He does make a good point about people on Everest being found fully clothed. But most of the lost people aren't experienced in climbing mountains in frigid temperatures. Nor are they at their most rational.

Paradoxical undressing is scientifically established. It's not something scientists and doctors made up because they didn't want to look into missing 411 cases.

He calls out a pattern of people who are found being confused and disoriented. But usually these people have been lost for days with little to no food or water. They've been exposed to the elements and probably walked much farther than they usuwlly would. Likely not sleeping much. Naturally they are confused.

And all that is without getting into how frickin huge many National Parks are.

[gaykarstaagforever]

"Look, I'm not here to besmirch David Paulides, but..."

Fine. I will.

David Paulides sucks.

He exploits the personal tragedies of families with missing loved ones to "prove" his idiotic, inconsistent conspiracy theories about Bigfoot and evil secret government experiments with magic. And he intentionally warps facts and includes spurious information to "imply" his stupid theories are possible.

I don't seriously think he even believes this shit. He's a classic scumbag opportunist trying to sell sensational books and videos to people who don't give a shit about anything unless it confirms their myopic, nonsensical conspiratorial world view.

He's shit and they're shit.

If you want to write and read fantasy novels about fake fantasy conspiracies, do that. Don't cruely exploit real-world tragedies and the victims of such just to lend your bullshit an undeserved air of potential legitimacy.

This is gross, and YES, you are also shit if you consume it. Life isn't filled with monsters and wizards because you're bored with your crap job and unexciting family. Grow the fuck up, you loser.

"YES BUT HE CAME UP WITH THE MISSING 411 THING!"

He made up a goofy name for people going missing in the woods. Oh, be still my heart!

Watch. I'll make up a name for people getting bitten by sharks: The Bittenitenned! AND THE GOVERNMENT ALLOWS IT, BECAUSE THEY WANT TO CONTROL US THROUGH FEAR OF SHARKS...!

...This isn't hard, or impressive. What the fuck are we doing here?

He's a retired cop who decided to grift conspiracy-theory nuts, because he's a bad person. The fact that most of us only know about these disappearences because of his mild success should be embarrassing to all of us.

Fuck David Paulides. If you're interested in true crime / mysterious disappearences, pursue it from a rational angle. If you need to add supernatural elements to it to make it "interesting," you absolutely are not mature enough to be trusted with the money you are spending on David Paulides's gross, stupid books.

It doesn't matter how many hours he spends "researching" and producing this garbage, if the end result is junk for morons.

Stop encouraging him. You and he are making the world a worse place, especially for people who absolutely do not need that.

Plus this conspiratorial anti-government shit distracts from all of the many, many, MANY legit criticisms of awful things the Government does all the time. Focus your Far Right edgelord ire on those, at least. Hate the system for its actual crimes, not because you think the National Park Service is feeding children to a giant octopus who lives in a secret lake under the Great Smokey Mountains, or whatever.

Idiots.

[macaron-tea-party]

Video Recommendation Time!

Hi y’all, if anyone knows me they know while I enjoy mysteries and the occasional paranormal stuff. I don’t care for insulting people and their families by speculating about their disappearances and deaths by rambling about “secret cave people”, monsters, or “that one monstrous spirit of some North American indigenous cultures you’re not supposed to name(!)”

Aidin, who happened to get recommended to me, meditates on the region he lives in and criticizes and debunks much of the ���missing 411 conspiracy”. Go give them a watch!

The TLDR: the wilderness is more dangerous than people give credit.

Here’s a much longer and thorough debunk from a skeptic’s conference in 2017 and a video of his presentation

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQhv3dEMFOc

This is one of the most ridiculous and insulting conspiracy theories I’ve ever encountered so please stop giving air to a theory written by an ex-cop (David Paulides) who writes Bigfoot books and this “conspiracy” is him throwing shit on the wall to see what sticks and increases his book sales!

[blogparanormalexpresso2stuff]

David Paulides Presents UFO/ UAP/ USO 101 Class 1

[4furiousracoon]

I used to live in a tourist town in the mountains. An older man once tried to put his grandkid, who was a toddler, on the back of an elk. He was hoping to get a picture. Numerous people tried to stop the guy. Eventually, the cops had to come and threaten to arrest him.

Any conspiracy theory about people going missing in National Parks is automatically silly to me. Like "Why are National Parks such a hotbed of disappearances???" because they're full of idiots. You've got thousands of people who've never pissed outdoors in their life wandering around the woods/desert/mountain with zero experience and zero gear and zero understanding that this place can kill them. You don't see as many disappearances in wild areas because people don't go to them unless they have some background knowledge. Whereas you get tour buses full of old folks and suburban families shuttling people into National Parks 365 days a year. If you took the same amount of buffoons and dropped them in the actual wilderness the disappearances would be significantly higher than at the parks. Use your brain.

[quaranmine]

Missing 411 guy?

David Paulides, the guy who is the creator of "Missing 411" which is basically a conspiracy about suspicious clusters of people going missing in National Parks in the United States. He is also the bane of my existence for the past year as someone who is researching a story about someone who goes missing in a National Forest.

To start with, if you've ever been even on the fringes of "irl spooky stuff" videos on YouTube, you might have encountered this. There are a lot of youtubers and podcasters who cover this guy's content without understanding What and Who they are giving platform to. Sometimes, people don't even mention him but will relate the cases that he covers in his books or use the same conspiracy points as him. I would not be suprised if you watched a Buzzfeed Unsolved/Watcher video (which are fine btw) and then got recommended something related to Missing 411 in the sidebar since it's a similar genre. It's super popular to the point where its outgrown its creator. I can't stress enough that many of you have probably encountered this content, at least in passing, without knowing what it was.

So to recap, Missing 411 documents cases of real-life people who have disappeared or been found dead in national parks, national forests, etc and claims that these cases are unusual and mysterious. It frequently talks about missing person "clusters" and things like that. There is often an overt, if not outrightly stated, implication that something supernatural, crpytid, or UFO/alien related was involved. For starters, David Paulides has written a ton of books trying to prove the existence of bigfoot. Now, I have no issues with people believing in bigfoot, or cryptids, or aliens, but I do have an issue with people co-opting real life tragedies and twisting information to push this as conspiracy. I simply do not think it is helpful or respectful to talk about missing and dead people (and children!) like this. Also, with the high prices of his books ($100-200) he just reeks of grifter to me.

To me, Missing 411 "criteria" is a stretch at best. You will see cases "mysteriously" connected because both of these people wore red when they went missing. Both these people's bodies were found near water (as if many National Park do not have water features.) Both these people's bodies were found near granite rocks (like, the most common rock type in mountains lol.) All these cases involve the weather turning bad! (um, yeah, that's a big reason why people get in trouble?) He frequently claims that bodies being undressed is highly unusual, without ever acknowledging paradoxical undressing. Or he claims laughably weak connections between people like "these two women who went missing in different years are connected because they both had three letter names that started with A." I haven't personally listened to this talk but there is a data scientist mentioned in his Wikipedia page who examined the case data and found nothing out of the ordinary in them. If you don't want to watch a video (I don't either right now) then he also wrote this article. From a different person, this article from a podcast is also good.

David Paulides does not present Missing 411 cases with accuracy. He has been known to cherry-pick data and purposefully omit data to make them seem more unusual. Many cases he covers are either already solved, or have extensive information available. He does not retract information or admit when he is wrong. Even if he does present a particular case accurately, he has such a bad track record with reliable research that he cannot be trusted as a source. There used to be someone on reddit who would deconstruct cases he covered. In this post they found several instances of cases of Paulides missing sources and coming to incorrect conclusions.

Note there's a few differences in the sources I just linked. The data scientist and podcast skeptic both said they found the data to be accurate, while the redditors have found evidence to the contrary. The data scientist also says he found Paulides' presentation of information respectful, but I personally find all of this highly disrespectful. But despite these differences I think we can all agree....the claims of Missing 411 are pretty ridiculous.

Also, let's talk about David Paulides himself. Before becoming a writer, he was a cop in California. He was a cop who was fired for corruption (well that's hard to do), because he was caught soliciting donations for a fake charity he set up. That's straight from his Wikipedia page. He continues to use his past as a "dectective" to attempt to make his claims sound more reliable. There was also a redditor who pulled up some other career highlights from when he was a cop in the 80s, by looking at court transcripts and news articles. His job used to be entrap gay men by pretending to be gay, getting them to invite him home with them, and then arresting then. He and his unit were also accused of police brutality many times in the 80s, with Paulides testifying in defense of his unit. And he has not changed btw, he's a Qanon stolen election covid denier type of nut right now on his YouTube channel (according to reddit. I am not watching this man's videos.) So yeah, I think his character speaks for itself.

Anyway, I'm tired of hearing about this guy and seeing 411 related content pop up around YouTube, Reddit, Tiktok, etc. Pay attention if you watch things related to "creepy and unexplained real life disappearnaces." I do not think he is a good person, I do not think he can be trusted, and I do not think that his work actually benefits the families of the missing persons in question. These are real people. He turns them into spectacles to push ~unusual~ circumstances and paranormal activity.

[confuzing]

I have a real problem because I find mysterious disappearances fascinating but I don't think it's ever aliens or bigfoots or spirits and its only murderers rarely.

The woods are Fucking Dangerous dudes. You don't have to add more dangerous things

[highways-are-liminal-spaces]

a brief list of my favorite people i saw at the local bigfoot convention:

-a bunch of surly older men who were apparently VIPs on the Alaska Bigfoot Cruise and therefore demanded their own seating section

-a 60something year old woman in a sparkly shirt with a thick north carolina accent who described bigfoot as a man with fabio hair and sounded very much like she wanted to fuck him

-a shy little girl who was very brave telling the whole room how she’d seen a huge bigfoot footprint in the snow

-two older women gossiping in the back, one of whom said very emphatically “well you know the government, they wouldn’t even call a snow bunting a snow bunting if it meant more money for washington!”

-my friend ryan (hi ryan!)

-a man with a bigfoot tattoo on his forearm who said the idea had come to him in a dream in the woods and he thinks the dream was planted by bigfoot

-a teenage girl in a t-shirt that had chibi nate mac and cale makar hugging and a wristband that said ‘i want to believe’.

-david paulides and jeffrey meldrum sitting on opposite sides of the panel with their arms folded, insisting through gritted teeth that they really liked and respected one another

-a man from utah whose two biggest problems with mitt romney were that he was rich and out of touch and that he would never disclose any of the bigfoot documentation that “you just KNOW he has”

-the local trapper sitting next to me who kept nodding and muttering stuff like “oh yeah, squatches’ll do that” whenever anyone told a story about an encounter

[sergioguymanproust]

It isn’t what it used to be.Nope.Things are changing,we don’t see the same activity happening anymore.The stories that are coming from those who were regulars in the park are turning to be scarier than the usual lost hiker,or bear attacks. These days far worse tales are coming out of rangers, those who are now quitting because our government and the military it seems are taking over several sections of the northeast of the park are being shutdown,fenced and watching towers being erected with big spot lights, and long and wide containers placed on a star shaped distribution.But why all this sudden madness. Regardless of your basic beliefs,you need to realize that with the advent of the internet and its social media platforms we are becoming more aware of the dangers and disappearances of campers,day hikers,and even park rangers. Occurrences that not so long ago were kept hidden by park officials,like the fact that they never keep records of missing persons and also the denial factor by rangers regarding attacks and killings by cryptids being blamed on grizzlies and other park predators,like wolves,coyotes,etc. If you do reports strange creatures,they will jump at you and dismiss them,giving you looks as if you were just one more lunatic,or they will tell you that they will investigate,when in fact they won’t do such a thing.Well,folks you do the math and figure who is doing all the killing and abducting ,these days the trust factor in park rangers and officials is wearing thin .So ,if you do decide to go and stay at their campgrounds probably nothing will happen but just keep an eye for the unusual and suspicious behavior of their staff. They are good and trustworthy staff but be aware of their response if you decide to report strange and unusual occurrences.Be safe , and aware of your surroundings at all times and stick together .Words by Sergio GuymanProust.

Yosemite National Park, United States

[gothicprep]

currently sitting in the back seat on a drive home from a camping trip and I’ve never been so close to emailing a podcaster in my life.

longtime and attentive readers of the gothicprep blog will probably know that david paulides is my personal bugbear and i resent missing 411. partially because my dad was formerly a search and rescue professional for roughly 20 years and, like, he’s told me details about that. also because paulides is a forcibly “retired” corrupt cop with nothing better to do than write unhinged conspiracy books about how bigfoot or bigfeet are responsible for all disappearances in national parks.

I’m so committed to this that I filed a FOIA request related to one of the cases he covered in one of his documentaries. paulides characterized this man as an experienced outdoorsman. and he was. but he was also a severe alcoholic who stopped taking his naltrexone prescription and was in rough physical and mental shape. and was drinking on the hiking expedition. like this was stated by his wife and both the friends who accompanied him on the hike. the friends gave some questionable accounts to the PD because they were illegally hunting elk on private property, but there’s nothing mysterious about that.

he also has a habit of conflating air miles with with ground miles when it’s convenient to his narrative. and he fucking literally gets dates and times wrong within his own documentaries. it’s beyond sloppy. I’m not trying to cancel anyone but I desperately want to be like, “this guy is a complete hack. please stop endorsing his credibility.”

[ridragon]

cant stop thinking about the post making fun of people for being into missing 411 cases and bigfoot abduction stories thinking theyre creepy and mysterious snd believing in them. firstly, it's a part of the culture. the Bigfoot shit, the weird deer, you're making fun of the culture of the area, for one.

and you're telling me that even if explained, the fact that people just. go missing. no trace. their families will never know what happened. you don't think that's terrifying? you dont feek deepy disturbed? never to be buried or seen again? Even with all our tech? Your technology cannot save you, that you rely on so much?That one mistake and that's it (in the cases of mountain climbing) "the national forests are just full of dumb people" okay but if you actually bothered to look into them you'd realize the ones that captivate people are experienced hikers. most of the cases that give me that discomfort are the ones where, yeah, he probably fell off the mountain after a mistake, but it's haunting, it's the what if, it's the mystery. not the individual cases, just the otherness of the complete wild.

like that david paulides guy lies all the time, he said something happened on november 31st. fuck that guy lmao, but come on. you don't wonder? you don't find it fun to suspend your disbelief?

have some fucking whimsey in your life, pretentious screwball. When did it become okay to make fun of people's beliefs? even if you think it's stupid and illogical? Okay. so is religion. so is me praying and offering to my Gods. you aren't slick talking down to people just because theyre southern and american.

[darkmaga-returns]

In this lively episode, the hosts dive into a mix of conspiracy theories and paranormal phenomena with their special guest, Stan from Alaska. They recount Stan's visit to a Sasquatch summit, where he met renowned researcher David Paulides and discussed theories about interdimensional portals and disappearances. Stan also shares personal anecdotes about his encounters with celebrities like Hulk Hogan, blending the strange with the mundane. Discussions explore themes like missing persons cases, cryptids, and the potential connections between Bigfoot and extraterrestrial or spiritual entities.

The middle segment turns toward current events, with a focus on political dynamics and speculative news. The team discusses escalating "drone hysteria" across the U.S., analyzing reports of mysterious aerial objects and the government's ambiguous response. They touch on the geopolitical landscape, including developments in Syria, the role of U.S. foreign policy, and tensions surrounding advanced technologies used by potential adversaries. The conversation weaves through conspiracy theories about global politics and speculation on the true intentions of influential nations.

In the final segment, the hosts delve into bizarre news and listener interactions. Highlights include an outlandish story about a crocodile tossed into the Alaskan snow during a family dispute and discussions about strange footage of fast-flying orbs. Listener calls bring in chilling personal paranormal stories, sparking debates on Bigfoot tactics and spiritual warnings. The episode closes with a lighthearted but thoughtful reflection on the interconnectedness of these strange and often unexplained phenomena.

[gaykarstaagforever]

One of the major sources David Paulides uses for any of his many renditions of mysterious disappearances in the Great Smokey Mountains is a single book on the topic by Juanitta Baldwin, from 1998.

Now, the Internet doesn't seem sure who this woman was, as the best biographical information I can find is from what is PROBABLY her obituary, from 2018. This says she died at 91, was retired from the Navy, and wrote 24 books. And also was a cofounder of Mensa...?!

Other sources say she was a "retired psychologist, who then became a recognized expert on kudzu." And indeed, lots of books about kudzu from an author with this name. Including cookbooks. And these are from before AI was a thing, so someone had to spend some time doing this.

The book Paulides cites was co-written by her when she was 71 (if this is the same person), and I found an old website bragging about how this book was "the bestseller" at the official Great Smokey Mountains National Park gift shop.

I'm trying not to be ageist and dismissive, here. But if all this disparate information is indeed connected, that means Paulides used as a major source a book cowritten by a retired unqualified amateur, who seems to have been pumping out lots of books, mostly as light novelty product for her specific region of the American Southeast.

That doesn't necessarily mean the research is bad, or that there wasn't dedication to journalistic accuracy. ...But it does heavily imply both things, and we're being dishonest if we don't admit that. And people have looked into them, and...yes, there is a lot of misleading or outright unsourced information presented here, which seems way more aimed at creating spooky missing persons narratives than actually detailing the facts of these cases. What a shock.

Why would Paulides use such an unreliable source? He had to know it wasn't sound.

...Unless, or course, he himself is an unqualified amateur, pumping out light novelty Missing 411 books as poorly-researched product. Which seems to exist primarily to imply Paulides's pet thesis, which is that Bigfoot is real, and abducts white people (for doubtless sexy reasons). Because, it seems, he knows that people who already think that are gullible stooges, who will pay you lots of money to tell them that they're NOT gullible stooges for thinking that.

And now YouTubers are using HIS books as sources for their True Crime videos. And most people watching them believe whatever they say, and don't even bother to look into it.

Fascinating, that we've come full-circle, to where YouTube is basically just the same crappy facts-lite pop culture infotainment us old people realized was useless crap when were were 15 in 1997.

Do you know how many shitty ghost / conspiracy / alternative history paperbacks / standard-definition DVDs I have in my house?? I'm nostalgic for it now. But it was NEVER sound, factual journalism. In fact, part of the fun was finding out how stupid and wrong it all was!

Fortunately, there are YouTubers who exist entirely to analyze and debunk this crap.

And their videos get an 8th of the views of the lazy content-farm ones, spewing ancient misinformation that was put out by elderly dilettantes, 30+ years ago.

Sigh.

[bereft-of-frogs]

I have latched onto a new subgenre/biome WIP obsession literally just in time to be a distraction from The Thing Happening In A Week and a Half and I’m almost certain no one is going to read it — this isn’t an insecurity thing just objectively, it’s a super niche fandom corner and also is going to need the Major Character Death warning, no one is going to read it 😂 — but I’m 100% going to put just as much work into it as any other fic because 1) incapable of doing otherwise, 2) it’s fun and 3) I desperately needed the distraction, thank GOD my brain seized on this and I can dissociate instead of panicking about The Thing for the next two weeks.

So anyway, any recs for spooky forests/folk horror, send them my way! Folk horror is really the resurgence of an old fave for me, so I am pretty well-versed already, but if you have a favorite spooky forest thing send it along! Can be fiction or nonfiction but if it’s nonfiction you must swear you are not David Paulides and are not suggesting it on David Paulides behalf (aka no Missing 411 stuff, unless you want to hear my Missing 411 rant)

[spookyoregon]

A Beautiful Gate to Hell Part 2

In modern times, Crater Lake has not been able to shake the reputation of it's legends. From the time of being "discovered" by white settlers and into this current year, death and mystery continues to surround the lake. From missing people, to missing aircraft there are a multitude of recorded events that continue to add to the idea that Crater Lake is really a gate to the underworld.

The Missing Persons Missing person stories have become a popular topic on the internet in the last few decades thanks in large part to David Paulides and his conspiracy theories revolving around national parks. As Crater Lake falls under this category, the stories of people just disappearing have been around since the 1850's. In 1853, three explorers went in search of a missing miner who, allegedly, knew where a gold mine was located near the lake. John Hillman has the distinction of being the first reported casualty in the common era, allegedly falling to his death when his horse lost it's footing. The gold mine has never been discovered.

In 1947, a Mr. Cornelius was on the side of the caldera with his wife. He handed his affairs to his wife and fell, or jumped, into the caldera. Being badly beaten, he still had enough strength to drag himself to the lake's waters and drowned. It is unclear if this was an accident or a suicide.

Charles McCuller wears the grim mantle of being the most spoken of missing person in Crater Lake. In 1975 he journeyed to the lake to take photos of the area during winter. He was never seen alive again. The FBI was involved in the search but no trace of him was found until a year later. His remains, only shin and foot bones, were 12 miles from where he had last been spotted in 1975. While his death was ruled natural, the odd nature of his remains was remarked by park rangers to be like "he melted away".

In 2006, an 8 year old boy went missing. Sammy Boehlke disappeared within minutes of his father, Kenneth, losing sight of him near Cleetwood Cove. The search for him lasted months and again included the assistance of the FBI, but no trace has been found of him to this day.

This is only a few of the many individuals who have gone missing in Crater Lake. It is worth to note that Crater Lake is vast, cold, has dense wood, and keeps a snow pack year round. The snow and cold can cause people to slip or do strange things in the throes of hypothermia.

The Missing Aircraft In 1945, a F6F Hellcat crashed into Crater Lake, taking it's pilot with it. While the plane was discovered in 1946, the remains of the pilot were uncovered only in 1970. A park ranger discovered the pilot's skull under a log, appearing to be staring right at him.

In 1975, Dave Nunn with two student pilots went missing over the lake. Jean Nunn, David's wife, recalled being woken up at 9:30PM that night to the feeling of a hand on her leg. When Jean contacted the Klamath Falls Airport, it was revealed the plane was lost at 9:20PM. The aircraft and it's passengers were discovered in 1982 near Huckleberry Campground. In Dave's pocket was a folder piece of paper that read: "Lose not thine airspeed, lest the ground rise up and smite thee."

In 1995, a helicopter carrying three men to Las Vegas crashed into the lake. It sank immediately, taking it's passengers with it. The bodies have not been recovered from the lake, nor has the helicopter been found. It is believe it shattered on impact with the lake and the pieces are too small to be seen on radar.

The Haunted Topography Wizard Island is the newest volcano cone to emerge from the lake, approximately 7,300 years ago. The island has a reputation for having fires randomly appear on it. Some of these fire alleged to have figures standing around it, but at no point has the fires been actually discovered on the island.

The Old Man is a 35 foot tall mountain hemlock that first began to journey in the waters of the lake 400 years ago, but first documented in 1896. The tree stands upright in the water, three feet above and the rest below. Moss that normally grows on the bottom of the lake also grows on the tree. The cold and clear waters allow individuals to see whole of the tree deep into the lake. Old Man is also reported to control the weather around Crater Lake. In 1988 when a submersible planned to explore the lake, Old Man was tied up to keep from accidentally floating into the craft. The weather grew ugly with heavy winds and storm clouds. When the tree was released to meander around the lake, the weather calmed. Allegedly, this is also why park rangers no longer stand on the tree.

sources: Ancient Origins, Crater Lake Institute, Only In Your State, KTVL, Offbeat Oregon

[cackled0g]

I don't have the energy to kill myself so this isn't a suicide note, but if you find my body decomposing in the woods and my phone is in my cargo pocket and you can get it to work despite the smuck and the moisture and the stench of rot I have some things to say

Give my car to my boyfriend, he deserves a good one. Make sure my dog is fed and walked. Take him to the funeral so that he's knows I'm dead and doesn't spend his life thinking I left him.

Tell my parents that I want to be buried in men's clothes. Tell them that I want the name on my tombstone to be the one I chose and not the one they kept calling me after I chose it. Tell them that I forgive them, and that I know that they were young and didn't know better.

Tell my siblings that I'm sorry I left them. Tell Tham that it wasn't their fault. Tell them to survive because I didn't

Tell my friends that I wish I covered it all up better

Tell the guys who find me that it wasn't their fault that they couldn't find me sooner.

Tell David Paulides that he's a hack and I meant to disappear

Tell everyone that im sorry. If I could do it painlessly I would. Telk them that maybe it's like ripping off a Bandage, and its better tp get it over with quickly than to watch me die slowly over the course of a thousand shitty jobs and broken promises and hours of potential energy I wasted in one swift leap. Tell them that some people burn brightly and fizzle out quickly like a comet disintegrating in the atmosphere.

Tell my father that the time he found me on the side of the road behind my bike sitting cross-legged that I had just buried the last of the razor blad3s I never had the balls to use. Tell him that I'm sorry that he lost his father and his son in one lifetime.

Tell me mother that I've enjoyed this time with her. She'll know what I mean.

Tell my boss that I'm sorry they're running Tuesday understaffed after all.

Give my last paycheck to my roommates. Split it 50/25/25. Tell them, especially, that I'm sorry. Tell them that i hope they find someone to split the rent.

Tell my family that I'm sorry I never had the guts to introduce myself to them. Tell them that I feared their rejection more that I feared death.

Tell Everyone. Everyone. Tell them that my name was mine, and that I died a man. Tell them until the girl I used to be is only a whisper on the wind.