#Dash Berlin

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Dash Berlin, Dubvision & Emma Hewitt - Time After Time

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𝕊𝕙𝕖𝕝𝕥𝕖𝕣..

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Dash Berlin - Till The Sky Falls Down (Official Music Video)

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Isolation and being defensive: 07/10/24

I can only speak from my own experiences! When you’re being emotionally abused, often you defend your abuser and push away people trying to help you ❤️‍🩹

I was talking to this guy named Andrew, who I believed I was falling in love with, but there was so much fog and confusion with him. His actions wasn’t matching his words, and I knew manipulation existed, but I didn’t really understand it nor did I know anything about emotional abuse. I’m complaining to my friend Bri a lot, that Andrew keeps disappearing on me and ignoring me, but then always coming back and acting like everything is great between us. (I know now that it was intermittent reinforcement) My friend Bri says she can message Andrew for me to see if he’ll respond… I told her “maybe” but not yet I wasn’t ready for her to do that!! Bri took it upon herself anyway, went behind my back and began to talk to Andrew to see what he would say to her and they talked for a WHOLE MONTH…. Why a whole month and not tell me??????? Bri said she didn’t know how to tell me but I find that hard to believe.

Bri sends me the screenshots of her conversations with Andrew, where is he saying to her, “he’s in the shower, does she want to come join him??” 😓😓😓 I just felt betrayed and soooooo sick by both of them!! I was so angry words could not express how I felt in that moment!! All this weight fell down on me and I immediately sent those screenshots to Andrew and told him to explain it to me right away and to tell me what’s going on!!! 😤 Andrew was very defensive and he’s acting like he’s confused. He says that he’s only been talking to me that he doesn’t understand what’s going on. He tried to say that he thought I made a new account and he’s been talking to me on this “new account” and at first, he actually made me question my own reality 😳😳😳😳 which I now know is “gaslighting” but back then I never heard of gaslighting. I was so confused and hurt.

Amidst all the confusion and frustration, I didn’t know who to trust at that point. I tell Andrew that he is talking to my friend Bri but he claims he has no idea who “Bri is” and he’s acting so confused BUT then asked me, was I trying to catfish him?? 😫😫 Seriously???? Bri keeps also defending herself, saying she did nothing wrong and that she was in the right. Bri tells me Andrew is lying not to believe him AT ALL…. Also another friend of my ours, Emily, was defending Bri as well, saying that “Bri had good intentions to help me”. I truly felt in that moment that EVERYONE CLOSE TO ME, WAS AGAINST ME 💔😭😭😭 I trusted no one, I was VERY CONFUSED and upset.

I spent 3 hours on the phone with Andrew trying to get to the bottom of things but he would NOT break up with me. He kept talking circles around me and defending Bri as well, said he doesn’t know her but that she probably meant well as my friend, Andrew claims I shouldn’t be upset at Bri…. which, I was VERY upset and of course, I didn’t know whose side to take and I wanted to believe Andrew becuase I loved him so much but I realized in those 3 hours, nothing changes with him. We were having the same conversation over and over and over with no answers or progress. Eventually it was too much for me and I told him I had to hang up on him, that I needed a break.... Andrew had me pacing around with so much anxiety!

Theeeeen he had the nerve and audacity to text me not long after I hung up on him and he asked me, “why I was making “breaking up” such a big deal and why couldn’t we have more time to think things over??” 😣🥺 ugggh reallllly????? NO!!!! I finally came to my wits end and called him back but of course it went to voicemail cuz he hates talking over the phone. Most likely cuz it’s harder to lie over the phone than it is in text…. So I left him a voicemail saying, “NO, he was being unfair and that I was NOT going to let him drag the breakup out any longer!!!” I yelled in such anger to him, “SINCE YOU CAN’T DO THE BREAKING UP FOR WHATEVER REASON, I AM DOING IT FOR YOU!! IT’S OVER!!!!”

At some point though, I need answers but can’t seem to ever get any truth out of Andrew. It appears he gaslit me so much, he also gaslit himself and doesn’t know his own feelings or reality because he kept changing his answers. One minute, he never loved me, next minute he loved me at the start but fell out of love over time and then eventually said “no, I loved you the whole time!” WHICH IS, ANDREW?? MAKE UP YOUR MIND!!😣😢

Bri and Emily had me in a group email and both kept asking me why don’t I trust them and listen to them? They are the ones who care about me and why won’t I forgive bri?? Bri says “she did nothing wrong” and emily defended bri and said I needed to talk to them…. They’re “my true friends” and ugh I continued to push them away and told them I didn’t like the drama, not even knowing that most of the drama and chaos was from coming from Andrew himself, not from Bri or Emily although, I still don’t know why Bri had to talk to Andrew for a whole month before telling me about it!!! I told her she should have told me about it the minute it happened!!!!! 😑

I pushed those girls away and stayed in total isolation. I was hearing things around my house and seeing shadows. I was scared and clinging to my older brother as much as I could. I was afraid something scary was going to happen to me. I felt I was being watched and because of the confusion, I desperately needed “truth” and I would not stay away from Andrew!! that gave him more power to continue to hurt me. He continued to play games and flirt with me. We argued a lot and I had a suicide attack, which he helped bring on me when we’re in the heat of an argument and he also criticized me for it afterwards…. 💔 Yet, I continued to be confused and show him my deepest heart felt love and affection. I never once stopped caring about him despite the mistreatment and so my hands are clean!!!

My “friends” probably did mean well and did try to help me get away from Andrew but they went about it all wrong and they did not understand how much confusion and pain I was in!!! I wish they would have been more gentle with me and not so aggressive!!! I did not trust bri or forgive her 💔💔💔 I pushed her away feelings betrayed and bothered by her. Eventually a few years later, Bri passed away!! 😭💔💔💔💔 I didn’t believe it till I saw photos on Facebook of her tombstone. I NEVER got to make things right with her or forgive her. Now it’s too late ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

God I’m sorry!!! I didn’t know what was happening to me and I didn’t know what to believe or who to trust. Trying to forgive myself for all of this has been a long and painful process ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

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Alan Walker, Dash Berlin & Vikkstar - Better Off (Alone, Pt. III) [Lyrics]

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«I’ll never cry again, when you come home, to me.»

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Dash Berlin - Man On The Run (with Cerf, Mitiska & Jaren) [Official Musi...

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A State Of Mondays

Channel: Electric Area (Sirius 52, XM 52)

Airdate: November 13, 2017

Airtime: 12:25 AM - 06:25 AM

Timezone: Eastern Standard Time (EST)

Tracklist:

12:25 AM - 02:25 AM: Armin van Buuren - ASOT 839

02:25 AM - 03:25 AM: Eelke Kleijn - DAYS Like NIGHTS 001

03:25 AM - 04:25 AM: Guest Mix - Dash Berlin

04:25 AM - 05:25 AM: Andrew Rayel - Find Your Harmony 082

05:25 AM - 06:25 AM: Cosmic Gate - Wake Your Mind 188

Sources:

https://www.astateoftrance.com/a-state-of-sundays/a-state-of-sundays-333/

http://107.170.39.140/search_playlist.php?artist=&title=&channel=52&month=&date=&shour=&sampm=&stz=&ehour=&eampm=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&tdate=201745&resultcount=1164&page=0

http://107.170.39.140/search_playlist.php?artist=&title=&channel=52&month=&date=&shour=&sampm=&stz=&ehour=&eampm=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&resultcount=&tdate=201746&resultcount=1160&page=23

NOTE: The livestream was 6 hours long because the remaining 18 hours were occupied by Electric Daisy Carnival.

NOTE #2: For the first time, a Monday-only livestream was listed as an official episode by the official ASOT site. However, to keep information as straightforward as possible, November 13, 2017 will be unnumbered on the ASOS timeline.

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[freshdanks]

Dash Berlin - Janeiro (Official Video)

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What color characters are you?

dark blue character

Dark Blue characters are kindhearted and responsible, driven to care for others around them. They are good at strategizing in the heat of the moment, but are also quite impulsive and rush into things without a plan when they are fired up. While calm people and patient teachers, they are quite hotheaded and not afraid to stand up for what they believe in. Their sense of morality guides them, both into battle, and into healing. They get along with a wide range of people, but do have a temper that causes them to get into short-lived disagreements. They don’t like to be seen as inferior, as much of their strength comes from the softness inside of them. They like being needed and helpful, and want people to agree that they know what’s best for them, although others can get annoyed at what they perceive as nagging. They take turns being the voice of reason and the reason for the voice. They can hold their own, and believe in respecting everyone as long as everyone is respectful in turn. They often had to grow up fast and mature early, which they both take pride in and resent. They are likely to join a just cause on a whim, and do what it takes to develop the skillset they need to best help the cause, although they prefer to be at the center of the action. If they feel no one is doing anything and it needs to be done, they’ll step in. They are often close to prodigies, having some sort of incredible skill that they can expertly hone. They are inspirational and have a lot of emotional maturity. They can both maneuver people through their hardships and inspire them to rise up. They can often ignore their own feelings and needs in the process of being a sort of martyr for others, however, and can grow resentful when no one pays attention to them like they do for others. Dark blue characters need people in their lives who will encourage and uplift them in whatever cause they choose to support, as well as give them space to talk out their feelings. They also need others who will recognize when they are taking too much responsibility on, and take some time to give them care and support and affirm their willingness to care.

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