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NNN day 5 | Whispers Of Madness
summary: ever since one unfortunate day, you havent felt the same mentally. The dark entity that now permanently stabled a special place in your mind, making you go more insane with each passing minute. Whenever you try to reach out for help to the one person you trust, being your best friend matthew he always argues that nothing is actually there and your brain is messing with you but you know more than youve lead onto. Are you going to finally shatter and possibly lead to murder, or maybe finally banish the evil living inside of you?
warnings: ANGST, demon possession, dark entity, murders, mental health issues, satanic language, dark topics, suicide, police involvement, heavy language, blood everywhere, choking, skin bruising, mysterious black goop, viewers advisory is supervised! Proceed continue reading caution!
authors note: somehow we’ve made it to day 5 of consistently posting fics wohoo !! This one took me a portion of my time and this week has been pretty busy for me so I’m surprised I got this far, hope yall enjoy this bc I surely did writing it
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Ever since that unfortunate night, I have never felt the same mentally nor physically. A constant demonic voice mocking my every move and slowly driving me towards insanity, flashes of a dark entity remain stuck and impossible to get out of my mind, making me want gouge my eyes out to escape through death. Sometimes i dont even recognize myself in the mirror, just noticing each and every one of the changes in my physical apperance as well as my behavior and I think if others noticed them too or do am I the old me to them? or have I never actually changed and my mind can somehow create physical forms of different versions of me on its own?
- The night of the incident
I slowly stirr awake in the middle of the night due to strange noises my ears keep picking up, rubbing my eyes with the back of my hand I glance out the window to see nothing but pitch-black ahead of me. The soft moonlight being the only available source of light pouring into the room, my eyes scan the dark room for a possible source behind the strange noises. Its almost like whispering but not human whispers in particular, almost like a demonic voice... yeah no, demons dont exist so there no such possibility. Just to be sure Im not going completely insane I do a double check but now looking harder into the dark to try and justify the source of the noise is nothing harmless.
Thats until I see something dark looming in the corner of my room.
It appears to be a shadow but with a dark and demonic energy radiating off it, my eyes scan the whole silhouette and get stuck on a pair of brigh red eyes staring down at me becomes imprinted in my mind permanently which sends a cold chill down my whole body, making me rise in awareness and fear, my body immediately waking and becoming completely stiff, my abilty to move vanishing from my grasp of control. The dark shadow figure starts to step closer to me and my instincts kick in, subconsciously backing away from the proximity of the red-eyed creature as it stands at the foot of it. "W-who are you?" I shakingly breath out, my mind becoming consumed with fear and theories that this could possibly be the end of my life.
The red-eyed figure doesnt make a sound or a single move, my breathing now labored and heavy as it continues to stare down at my shaking form. Feeling completely vulnarble and defendless, it’s like theres no escape and I've been trapped, even cornered in the dark depths of my mind. "Agite... Tenebrae... Abyssi..." I hear a faint demonic whisper, identical to the ones I've heard before and realize where its coming from. Suddenly I get a shock down my whole body, almost as if a feeling of being possesed or something possibly entering my soul and attaching itself to it.
I convince my overthinking mind its nothing and Im just imagining things now, this is not real. Demons dont exist and they surely can't possess you, right? it cant be real, its not. Shaking my head to throw away any possible negative thoughts left behind and lay my head back down on my pillow, attempting to sleep of the demonic energy I still feel coursing through my veins. My mind manages to slowly drift off to sleep, my eye lids falling heavy as I slip into unconsciousness but the demonic whispers still remaining surrounding the shell of my ears.
- A month after the incident - Present day
A sudden snap of Matt’s fingers in front of my face kicks me out of the negative energy in my mind, him giving me an unamused expression and sighing. “You seriously weren’t paying attention again?” He annoyingly huffs, his lips becoming a thin line as his arms cross over his chest. “I’m sorry, I was just-“ while I am in the middle of my sentence and want to explain myself, the demonic whispers cut me off and start whispering in my ear until I look around and see him. The red-eyes creature. No matter how hard I want to take my eyes away from him, they just refuse to move alongside with my body. Just becoming frozen all of a sudden, “What? Are you good?” He stammered visibly shadowed with concern, his eyes darting around the room to find the spot my eyes are stuck on but is met with a simple empty room.
“What are you staring at?” He pondered, still in desperate search to find something I could possibly be staring at with such horror contouring my features. My breath starts to become more deep and shaky, the same feeling I felt coursing through my veins every time it appears, it’s almost like it’s making its appearance known before hand. Matt finally snaps me back to reality, jerking one of my shoulders to give him a response to his worried questions, when I look at Matt’s face and back where it was standing. It’s gone. It’s not there anymore. “Where did it go?” I mumbled with a trembling bottom lip, becoming tense and more aware of my surroundings. “What do you mean by ‘where did it go’ ? You’re fucking freaking me out Eli.” He inquired, still anxiously looking around before moving closer to me. Immediately noticing me tense up for some reason he doesn’t have the knowledge of and I just wouldn’t speak about it.
“It’s fucking not there anymore! It’s gone, again!” I clutch Matt’s arm into my chest, seeking any comfort and safeness I could get a grasp on. The whispers start again, this time approaching me closer until I feel a faint icy breath breathe down my neck which makes me flinch. “ǨḐlēʃ-tū yǫur crēāṭōr, ǝLizaʊƃth…” my hands immediately go to cover my ears, the satanic words echoing in my head and bouncing off every wall, almost delivering me a headache. Under my breath I keep begging it to stop, to release me from the hellish cage it’s trapped me in against my will just to torment and demolish all that’s left of my soul that it hasn’t destroyed yet. My mental health wasnt the best before and it just got worse after, I reached out for help to everyone I could but they either called me schizophrenic or ‘completely gone off the rockers’ by professionals, refusing to help me and ignore the actual issue.
“Is it this again? Seriously Eli, you have to stop scaring me like that!” He argues, becoming slightly annoyed. No matter how much I tell him about this mister lurking in the shadows, he just says ‘you need to get some professional help or go to a psychiatrist’ but when I tell him the stories regarding the ‘getting professional help’ that they ignore me and don’t believe demons actually have a possibility of existing. “You didn’t believe in this demon shit and always denied it, why do you suddenly act like you got possessed by a damn demon or something?” In that moment it hits me, the realization and theory of being actually possessed by a demon hits my head and if we’re an object I would possibly get a concussion.
“I’m not! It’s just that… oh, forget it. It’s gone now so it doesn’t matter.” I state, taking a deep breath to wash away all of the emotions I’ve been feeling at once in a single moment. It’s shocking how much my body can take and has taken ever since it appeared in my life, or does it? Maybe my mind likes to think and make it seem like I’m doing good but in reality I’m loosing my mind completely? When is it going to end? How do I make it end? Questions rise in my head as I start to overthink and get my anxiety to an impossible level. “Eli, what the fuck has been happening with you? You seem completely psychotic like those possessed girls in horror movies.”
“I-I don’t know what I am at this point, please just go home and stay safe. I’ve scared you enough already I don’t want to give you a heart attack” I breathe out, gesturing for him to go away as I my ears perk up with the demonic soft whispers coming back, the dark figure standing right in front of me. I immediately cover my ears as the whispers get louder and louder, suddenly I feel a pair of cold hands wrap around my neck and pure force starting to pull me upwards into the air. I become short on breath as Matt freaks out and quickly runs over to my body in the air, now being face to face with the black figure. My arms immediately attempt to remove the arms off my neck for more air but it only tightens its grip, Matt pulls at my feet but it’s not much affective. The red gloomy eyes staring into my soul and twisting my insides with the dark energy possessing my body.
The world around me becomes silent and I can’t hear whats happening around me. “Ǩo ǃàdêr ȯf Ḑoom, ʔou Ƀhall kjømbāť ʔo ʃiln Ǫne ȯf ḏhe ʔeḥples ȯf Ꮑȯvær lǟv or ʔe ťæpt ǝn ḟi ʃhyād ǷārtǤ, ȯy ʗhǯice ElizǞbeth. ȶime Ƀ is spiraling ȯut…” the sentence constantly keeps being repeated until my ears start to bleed but I don’t feel blood coming out of my ears, some kind of cold black goop starts to escape through my ears as I finally get released. Falling back onto the ground with a loud thud and coughing hysterically, the pain and bruises spreading across my body as well as deep purple marks saturate my neck. I feel this sudden urge, something driving me up to my breaking point, willing to do anything to escape this hell.
Matthew quickly runs over to me, examining my body and the bruises left as horror and concern fill his features. “A-are you okay? Are you bleeding anywhere?- oh fuck!” He stammered, noticing the mysterious black goop coming out of my ears. His eyes were so focused on my body he didn’t notice it at first, seeking as if he couldn’t handle all of this happening at once and neither was I but he was scared out of his mind when I was left with no emotions in my face. My mind backtracks to the demonic words spoken to me and somehow I feel I know what to do, I don’t feel like myself anymore. It’s like I’m some kind of puppet in a show being controlled on how I’m supposed to act, I pick myself up and walk towards the kitchen while ignoring the concerned questions falling from Matt’s mouth.
I can’t believe I’m actually doing this but I can’t live like this anymore, he follows behind me and into the kitchen. My body starts to almost move on its own as if someone else had full control over it, reaching into the drawer where all of my knifes are kept and pick up the sharpest blade I own. Rising it into the air and turning to face Matthew, his anxiety immediately spikes to ungodly levels as he puts his now trembling hands. “What are you doing with that? Elizabeth, put it down!” Desperate demands leave his mouth in attempt to make me out down the possible weapon in my possession but I don’t listen, as much as I don’t want to do it, I might be my only way of escaping.
I charge at Matthew and stab him in the chest multiple times as hysteric cries leave my mouth while he screams bloody. His blood squirts all over my clothes and stain them, he falls to the ground and quickly I jump on top of him to weight him down and deliver a stab to immobile his arms, more blood covers our clothes, faces and the floor all together as I continue to cry out apologizes and explanations. “I’m sorry… I have to do this, I’m so sorry, Matt I’m sorry but I have to…” I cry out as blood and tears run my cheeks, to end the miserable pain he is experiencing I swing high into the air, gripping the handle of the bloody knife with both of my hands before apologizing for the last time and plunge the knife through his head which kills him in an instant.
My hands finally detach from the knife and immediately go up to my face, wiping off the blood and pouring tears from my face. Loud sobs fall from my mouth at what I have done, I just killed my best friend. Out of pure cold blood I killed my best friend, I-I’m a monster, a psychopath and everything fucked up. I am the demon… the demonic figure whispers another sentence in the weird language it has been using ever since trying to communicate to me but now it sounds more evil, like curses stuck to my name by the black shadow and following me around anywhere I go. “Ǫne lǻst stȅp ǵhǵn ɓe dǿne, ȵaM Ƀǿ̃e ȅt Ƀe ǵhǵe ȶǿ Ƿȯrld ȩfree, hāv ǵʍоḏ tɼȯ ḏon sǿlf ɴǿw. Ḕdǿn ḥesīṭȅte, ȅLīzǝbeth.”
The same feeling of knowledge runs down my spine, realizing what I’ll have to do next in order to be set free. My hands go back and take the knife out of Matthew’s dead body and line the sharp tip with where my heart lies, I close my eyes shut and with one swing I plunge the cold bloody knife into my heart. My body falling down next to Matthew’s already dead one, hearing the faint sirens of police in the distance as I slip into unconsciousness but by the time they make it to the kitchen, my body disappeared and only with the bloody knife left on the ground. It was evident two people have been killed in the process regarding the blood bath that was created but no matter how long or how hard they searched for my body, it was just gone. Almost as if a dark entity dragged it down with them to the deepest pits of hell…
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The Chibi-fication of the Horrors™
#octopath traveler 2#octopath traveler 2 spoilers#octopath traveler#roi mistral#Dark Entity#kelbunn's art#I'm sorry Roi but you will be subjected to my silliness#Horrors Roi is tricky to draw haha#But I am stubborn and I feel I'm getting more of an understanding of his design haha
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Hello again , I just really like ur id packs yk. So , my dude , can I please have an id pack based around dark entities?. Like those creepy ones you see in realy terrible youtube videos?. If that makes sense lol. Thanks - 📼
Sure!
Names: Charlie, Fog, Umbra, Onyx, Obsidian, Vesper, Rogue, Lilith , Morgana, Nox, Shade, Crawler, Tenebris, Eldritch, Vortex, Ender, Myth, Blight, Lurker
Pronouns: Night/Nightself, Entity/entityself, goof/goofself, creepy/creepyself, 3am/3amself, Gloomy/gloomyself, stygian/stygianself, Dusk/Duskself, Pitch/pitchself, jumpscare/jumpscareself, act/actself
👻/👻s 😈/😈s 🎩/🎩s 🎱/🎱s 🔊/🔊s 🎥/🎥s ⏰/⏰s
Titles: CreepyCrawlie[Name] , TheOneWhoLurks, "What is that mysterious entity?" , VoidlikeCritter, OuncesOfHorror, ScreechingEntityOfTheNight, NocturnalHaunt
Genders (I unfortunately couldnt find any relating to dark entities, so here's some close matches instead):
Scarythingic. "A gender that feels like/has characteristics of a disturbing/creepy monster" [Source:https://uk.pinterest.com/pin/64950419619201144/]
Ghostygender. Person whom claimed this didn't state a definition for this one unfortunately. [Source:https://uk.pinterest.com/pin/581105158187186284/]
Couldnt find anymore, sorry :(
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I guess many fans of both franchises or only sonic's may have noticed the similarity with the game mechanics and bosses but I think that it's not only in the sotc chapter but all the backwards trilogy that sonic has this "dimensional parallel" probably it's a canon event for different franchises to have the dark entity which I believe having an hive mind.
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I managed to get some stop motion pictures of Dark Entity/Roi doing the bite down attack. I am deeply uncomfortable and I need to share the love so to speak.
#octopath traveler ii#octopath traveler 2#octopath ii#octopath 2#octopath ochette#ochette#ochette ch 1#ochette chapter 1#dark entity octopath#dark entity#roi#roi octopath#octopath spoilers
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I've been a shadow here for far too long. Perhaps it's time I introduce myself.
As you can see, I call myself Echo. (A generic name, indeed.) But I find it fitting.
There, now you know what to call me. I think this is a great start, don't you?
My interests are macabre based. Dark, foul. (Though, I suppose many here like to indulge in these sorts of things.) Being a shadow has given me an idea of just how damning we all are. Rest assured, I thrive on this.
I can't say I will fill your feeds with ramblings of a melancholic mortal, but know that I am always here. Watching you.
- Echo ⚸
#macabre#dark things#have i intrigued you yet#first post#cnc kidnapping#cnc stalking#how many tags is too many tags#you can tell this is my first time#hear ye hear ye#demon hours#always watching#horror#dark entity
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Light and The Eye vs. Void and The Dark
Light is concerned with awareness, perception, information and importance. Void is concerned with indifference, confusion, secrets and irrelevance.
The Eye is concerned with the fear of being watched, exposed and having secrets known. The Dark is concerned with the fear of what may lurk in the dark.
Light and The Eye
Light is about exposing things - shining a light on something, and letting all of the information about it be known. Its symbols include light itself, luck and eyes. The Eye is about the fear of having too much importance, focus and attention placed upon you: having all of your information exposed. Light's connection with luck relates to The Eye in the sense that, if something lucky or unlucky happens to you, more eyes are placed on you (see: tripping over in public, winning the lottery). Jonathan Sims is a very good example of a Light player: he reads through statements aloud and exposes all of their information - even getting his assistants to find out more data about the statement - and his marks were often due to him being 'unlucky' (while The Web helped those events happen, the original mark of A Guest For Mr. Spider could not be more unfortunate).
Void and The Dark
Void is about keeping things hidden; obfuscating them. Its symbols include darkness, water or liquids, and pumpkins. The Dark is about the fear of not knowing what's hidden in the darkness. Its followers want to create a world of pure darkness, where nothing can be seen or known. Manuela Dominguez states, 'My work back then was a betrayal of my principles [of The Dark], for what is research and study if not doing the work of the light, taking what is true and hidden and rendering it revealed and imperfect'. The idiom 'keeping someone in the dark' means not letting them in on knowledge. The Dark also shares the symbol of water and liquid alongside Void, with Maxwell Rayner being drowned in a pool of dark water and Julia Montauk falling into a similar liquid when encountering the Church.
The Eye and The Dark are opposites in this system due to the above reasons. The symbol of The People's Church of the Divine Host is quite literally a closed eye.
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"Time" by Nestor
This striking black and white ink drawing personifies Time as a dark entity surrounded by flying souls. A half moon hovers between two hourglasses, symbolizing the passage of time, while smoke billows from two pit fires below. The scene is grounded by skulls and bones, emphasizing the theme of mortality. The artwork is elegantly framed in a gothic style, enhancing its surreal atmosphere and dark symbolism, inviting viewers to reflect on the inevitability of time and its impact on existence.
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Spiritual Guide To Our Darker Reality (Video)
Since I have published two books this year, I thought I’d make a video trailer for both of them. Here is a video describing my published book, Spiritual Guide To Our Darker Reality, by Ulla Sarmiento. LINK to the book at Amazon: https://tinyurl.com/mwxhte67 LINK to the YouTube Trailer: https://youtu.be/ATQOD6CbxGc Available on Amazon (Kindle/Paperback): https://tinyurl.com/28ahbwkn This IS the…
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haven’t posted any art in a bit sooo
FEAR WHEEL
(btw yes the dice is purposefully all snake eyes, just clarifying)
#tma#the magnus archives#magpod#digital art#the entities#the eye#the flesh#the dark#the hunt#the corruption#the lonely#the vast#the stranger#the slaughter#the desolation#the spiral#the end#the web#the buried#the extinction#the fears#the TERROR OOOOOOOOO#my art
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the convocation of fourteen (fears)
#ffxiv#final fantasy 14#final fantasy xiv#ff14#emet selch#elidibus#lahabrea#fandaniel#the magnus archives#i have so many thoughts abt this. For the record these are entities that are trying to recruit them#So they seek refuge w the dark. Except for fandaniel (extinction)
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Drawtober 2023 - Day 18 - Cursed
Temenos, I can no longer trust the church...
#octopath traveler#octopath traveler 2#octopath traveler 2 spoilers#Dark entity#roi mistral#drawtober 2023#Kelbunn's Drawtober 2023#Kelbunn's art#I should draw Roi more
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Heir of Fenrir
#artists on tumblr#canine#dog#mixed media#mutt#a little personal piece in honor of the polar night!#I live at the arctic circle so it's pretty dark around here during this time of the year#it almost feels like the sun has been swallowed up by some entity. never fails to remind me of fenrir from norse mythology#art
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you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier
#xmen#mcu#xmen movies#xmen first class#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#todays schedule has been ruined by my ever occurring need to practice drawing movie charles its horrendous#i started this sheet last night but then i kept adding to it and i keep wanting to add to it but i MUST stop myself#in an ideal world i get paid to draw charles xavier and erik lehnsherr but no i live in this baka society#sleepless charles WAS inspired by me starting this at 1AM and forcing myself to sleep at 4AM#and then here i am picking i up still later .... i need professional help i fear but i aint got time for that#NEVERTHELESS I THINK IT GOT IT NOW. I THINK IM OK. i think i know how i wanna go bout drawing him now ...#chat can i confess that like. .5% of the reason i barely draw FC charles i because of his hair#for some reason some demonic entity prevents me from drawing it easily i am in STRUGGLE CITY#the only thing that gets me is that whenever i draw him i can only think of the likes of a disney prince but man thems the strokes ig#i also drew a quick dark phoenix charles but i figured id just keep this first class oriented#anything else i want to say ? uh. hm. its funny i never do any of these sheets for erik#genuinely On My Life made One (1) sheet and was like 'no yeah i got it. i got it down'#literally not my fault his head is So Shaped and defined but anyways. this aint about him.#i mean it could be. i still wanna do a doodle page concentrated on drawing how his powers show#more specifically how do i wanna draw the glow cause i cant decide on it ... also i wanna draw the 'levels' ...#but thats for another time. for right now i should probably eat i havent eaten all day#bye bye !!!!!! here's to hoping i draw something thats not a doodle sheet one of these days
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7 down, 7 more to go.
#poster#fan art#artists#artwork#my art#digital art#artists on tumblr#artist#art#tma podcast#tma#tmagp#the web#the spiral#the stranger#the beholding#the dark#the vast#the lonely#tma posters#tma 14 fears#the mangus archives#the magnus archives#the magnus protocol#the magnus pod#the magnus archive fanart#the magnus institute#the magnus archives 14 fears#14 fears#14 fear entities.
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mini meta because i cant get this fucking scene out of my brain:
its one of my fav Alluka scenes because its a sneak peek into her frankly miraculous emotional intelligence that simultaneously contextualizes it. She's still a little kid. Alluka is a smart cookie who can properly recognize and identify what people are feeling, can generally guess why they're feeling it, and get an idea of what would make them happy. But that "feeling" is hate for her, and what would make them happy is her disappearing. Really heartbreaking.
but the way Killua responds is also pretty fascinating to me? like, he pivots so fucking hard LOL. And I get it, it's such a loaded question. Would the Zoldycks be happier if Alluka was gone? Realistically, the answer is no... but admitting that would require a self-awareness about his family and his abuse Killua doesn't have yet. He probably doesn't even know how to answer, doesn't know what the answer even is.
So instead of digging into that can of worms, Killua cocks his own shotgun and fires back another loaded question: "If I were the only one who loved you in the whole world... would that make you sad?"
There were like a dozen other, much safer ways to both avoid this question and comfort Alluka. It's not even a full dodge, it's directly related to Alluka's fear via implication (the rest of the family doesn't love you). And it's not like Killua hasn't verbally weaseled his way out of tougher conversations. So... why?
I'm gonna try to truncate my full thoughts because I literally have a WIP 5k+ meta about it and I don't want to go down that rabbit hole, but Killua projects onto Alluka and Nanika a lot in this arc. Keeping that in mind, I think this question is his best, most earnest way of comforting Alluka because this train of thought is what's comforted him in the past.
I mean, think about it. Someone who will love and accept you no matter who you are or what you've done? Just one person who doesn't care? He's putting himself in the position of Alluka's Gon-figure here. And if you buy into that, the followup—"I'll always be there for you. Don't worry about anyone else"—reveals how a portion of his subconscious saw his emotionally dependent relationship with Gon as well; that is, as a comforting means to psychologically avoid confronting harder questions about himself, his upbringing, or how other people view him. It's kind of no coincidence that the minute Gon is wholly and totally incapacitated and Killua starts mucking around with the revolutionary idea of boundaries, he immediately starts thinking about his family again (in some manner).
And as an indulgent aside, I want to point out that when he ends up sending Nanika—who is, unlike Alluka, a subject of Killua's darker and more self-hating projections—away and Alluka fights back instead of internalizing it, Killua immediately recognizes the irrationality...
...because it breaks the mirror.
anyway. squeezes and shakes them like squeaky toys
#heliichats#hxh#im obbsessseddd with the way killua sees nanika (extremely lethal and dehumanized dark entity being) and goes#ohhh. so just like me :3 (unintentionally derogatory). and he doesnt even realize it lmfao#hunter x hunter#killua zoldyck#alluka zoldyck
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