#DUA FOR MARRIAGE WITH A LOVED ONE

[islamicspecialistforloveback]

Dua For Marriage With a Loved One

Love is something that everyone should experience. Some of us are just lucky to have found that special someone worth spending the rest of our lives with. However, to sustain a healthy relationship and move in the direction of ultimate marriage, just love is not enough. It also takes effort on the part of both parties as well as some luck. One of those efforts comes in the form of a Powerful Dua…

[idontblushsrry]

Levitating|| Shunsui Kyoraku

Pairing: Shunsui x GN Reader

WC: 1,555

A/N: This started as a writing exercise so that I could get back into the flow of writing again but I like it so I'm posting it. Sorry I've been MIA for like 2 years, I'll be posting on again/off again for a while. Also I changed some of the lyrics of the song, Dua Lipa stans pls don't come for me.

Warnings: None, some swearing?, there's talk of marriage because I feel like the Soul Society doesn't really have "dating"

Shunsui + Levitating

I believe that you're for me, I feel it in our energy // I see us written in the stars

Shunsui knew that he was an old man. It was a notion he never attempted to disavow himself of, finding it to be a pointless endeavour; Besides, he was proud of his age.

With age, comes wisdom, one that he has refined enough to know not to deny the fluttering of his heart whenever he so much as heard your name. For him, it was nothing to be  embarrassed about, no matters of the heart were. He would readily admit that it was a bit disorienting. One moment he’d be talking with Nanao and suddenly his breath would be stolen at the slightest hint of your perfume. 

You possessed a gift so unique, a hold over him like no other. Being in your presence somehow managed to send him back to his days in the academy, leaving him feeling like nothing more than a lovesick student. You’d set his heart alight and made it seem as though the world was slipping away every time you smiled. Your visage immediately righted any wrongs. He was sure that your laughter could cure any affliction he may be ailed with. To put it simply, Shunsui had found himself utterly enraptured by you and yet, he didn’t mind. The butterflies you’d managed to elicit from him only added to the weightless feeling he’d become stuck with since meeting you.

We can go wherever, so let's do it now or never, baby // Nothing's ever, ever too far

You hadn’t treated Shunsui any different from normal, but it didn’t take a genius to put two and two together. The usually laid-back yet sharp captain suddenly became ditzy and distracted whenever you so much as glanced at him. He was quite obvious, and though he hadn’t quite acted upon his feelings, he’d made it clear where he stood. His schedule as head captain didn’t allow him free time at the best of moments and yet Nanao somehow found herself overencumbered trying to fit ‘Lunch with Y/N <3’ into Shunsui’s schedule.

“I don’t see why you don’t make things official with her. Everyone already knows that you two are sickeningly in love with each other”, Nanao would frequently complain.

Shunsui would always fix her with a look that would make her regret saying anything and reply, “Matters of the heart can’t be rushed.”

If you asked Nanao, it was all arbitrary bullshit. If she voiced that particular complaint however, Shunsui would “remind” her that she’d “understand when you have someone to love”.

Glitter in the sky, glitter in our eyes//Shining just the way we are

“Oh Shunsui, this is lovely.”

As you cooed over the late-night picnic that he set up, he took a moment to examine your features. The curve of your mouth, the slope of your nose, the reverent way your hair framed your face. Everything about you looked lovely as usual, bathed in moonlight however…

He’d give you anything you wanted.

When you looked at him with those eyes, endlessly rich and glittering with the light of the night sky, he couldn’t help but yearn to kiss you. Even just a gentle press against your lips, oh how he’d kiss you so lovingly. He’d hold you so gently and ask if he could have just one more, one more, one more.

Your gaze flickered down to his lips.

He ran his tongue over them and he swore your eyes grew darker.

You placed a tentative hand into his hair, nervous but sure fingers weaving their way into his tresses. He swears then and there that he has never loved his hair more (if only so that there’s more of him for you to touch).

He cups your face with his hand. You lean into his palm and smile. He feels that weightless feeling come back as he leans forward to feel that smile against his skin when--

“Oh Shunsui look! Did you know there were going to be fireworks tonight?”

He did, it’s one of the reasons he planned a date on the rooftop of his home. He wanted you to see the fireworks and he wanted to see the way your skin would look bathed in the multi-colored light. He doesn’t regret the way your face lights up, this time in awe, but he does wish the timing could’ve been a little better.

He supposes the feeling of your body pressed against his is an apt substitute.

I feel like we're forever, every time we get together//But whatever, let's get lost on Mars

It is not long after the night with the fireworks that Shunsui decides that maybe Nanao was right. He found that the temptation of you was far too much for him to bear. He’d been distracted since that night with thoughts of you, driven himself half mad wondering what could’ve been if he’d leaned in a fraction sooner.

It isn’t until he visits your office for a quick cup of tea (something that both you and Nanao have scolded him for) that he has this realization however. You tell him that you don’t have much time to chat, Seireitei Communications is running some special issue from what he can recall, but you’re happy to spend this time with him. 

As you get up, telling him he’s free to stay as long as he’d like, “Although, you really should get back to work Shunsui, you’ll stress poor Nanao out”, and leave, he feels a sinking feeling for the first time in relation to you. It all just clicks for him that he wants the feelings he has with you to last forever. He wants a lifetime of levitating, of your joy, of your glittering eyes locked onto him, he wants you for as long as you’ll have him.

He realizes that the fluttering feeling comes back at the mere thought of calling you his spouse.

As he floats back to his office (he isn’t quite sure that his feet ever touch the ground), confusing every person he passes along the way, he places an order for a ring and decides to have a talk with you after things settle down.

Later, when you drop by his office with snacks as a small pick-me-up, you ask him what’s got him so giddy. He merely replies with a look that turns heated the longer he looks at you. It softens at the adorably flustered way you mess with your hair and look away from him. You try your damnedest to avoid making eye contact with him, squirming in such a way that, if he were less of a gentleman he’d pull you close and feel how affected one look made you.

As it stands, he decides he can wait a little longer.

‘You want me, I want you, baby’

After mulling it over, he decides he wants the proposal to be a private affair. The entirety of the Sereitei may know of your feelings for each other but that didn’t mean they needed to see this. He wanted to keep the way that your face-- nightsky eyes glimmering-- would light up to himself. He never considered himself to be a selfish man but he supposed when it came to you, everything became unexpected.

He still remembers the way his stomach, twisted in knots, became miraculously clear when you smiled. He asked if marriage was what you wanted, if it was ok to marry you. All the more reason to keep the proposal private, it’s much harder to reject a public suit from the captain of the 13 Court Guard Squads (you’d still reject him if you wanted regardless, another reason he was nervous).

You looked at him, trying to piece together what he was asking before deciding on your answer. “I’d love to marry you if that’s what you’re asking me Shunsui.” Somehow, your smile grew even larger, he wasn’t sure what his face looked like but he’s sure his grin matched yours.

Just thinking back to that day makes this moment all the more important. In the weeks following that conversation, you’d joked that you’d be eagerly awaiting his next move. He’d welcomed the challenge, stupidly. Now he was standing here fretting over if the grass was green enough, what if you suddenly became allergic to his shampoo-- He hoped that you wouldn’t notice the clamminess of his hands.

Another power that you found yourself ordained with, making the great Head Captain nervous. He could sense your spiritual pressure before you, which made him snap out of ‘panic mode’ into ‘focused commander mode’.

When he saw you, dressed up beautifully, jewels in your braided hair. He relaxed incrementally, this wasn’t a battle to be won, you were the one he loved. He was proposing, all he had to do was speak from the heart (easy) and hope you’d accept (he was sure you would but he was nonsensical at the best of times).

He saw recognition in your eyes, like a loose thread that has finally been tucked back into place. Your eyes tear up as he moves to ask you the question that has plagued his mind for months.

You nearly burst into tears, nodding happily and sealing your engagement with a kiss.

I'm levitating

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Can you do sukuna x Muslim reader? Where he is going through a hard time and she prayers for him(Arrange marriage but sweet kinda of relationship) it's okay if you don't want to write it. Love your writing:)

Yes! Omg I'd love to! Hope you like it!

It was an arranged marriage between you and you father's friends eldest son; Sukuna. You were having dinner one day with your parents and your dad had asked you if you'd be interested in an marriage with a nice man. You blinked at that question and shrugged, "I mean as long as you know he's a nice man I guess it's not bad in meeting him," you replied with a small smile.

After a week both your families decided to go out for dinner at a fancy restaurant and you saw him for the first time; he was not a talkative type, he was a gentleman and very well-known for his devotion to his work and family. You both talked then and there; he was charming not once he said something to make you mad or upset. He was very soft spoken to you. Your father had informed you after that dinner that Sukuna agreed to the wedding and he also said that if you reject him he'll understand and it's not pressure on your side to agree but you already decided that wanted to marry him; he was nice, gentleman and respectful and every other person that knew him said kind things about him.

Once you both agreed to get married Sukuna had texted you asking about what are your requirements for the wedding venue, cake, dress and everything else to which he also added that you shouldn't look at the price of anything; whatever your heart desires he'll agree to it. He wanted you to be happy, as of that didn’t already captured your heart, you both picked everything for the wedding together; nothing extravagant but very classy wedding with few of your friends and families.

Sukuna had bought you a home and it was not less than a castle; after the wedding he still spoiled you with gifts, and handed you all his credit cards to buy whatever you need. However you'd refuse to use his money on random things even though he said his money is your money from now on. He's been nothing but kind to you but also a bit shy some might say cold hearted; but he just didn't want you to fell uncomfortable around him. He'd often walk past a room and see you praying and would just stand at the doorframe to watch you and leaving before you see him.

One of the days he had a rough day, nothing seems to be in his favour that day, his meeting ended badly, the clients were complaining about some services and few stakeholders were arguing about something in the company. He got home with a heavy headache and saw the hot dinner you prepared for him, you entered the room and saw him, with a smile you took his bag and coat greeting him, "how was your day?" You asked and he just smiled not trying to bother you with his bad day, "it was good, I'm hungry." You nodded "come, let's eat, I made your favorite today." He was very grateful to have you at this moment, he ate his dinner and showered before going to sleep with a headache. Unfortunately the headache caught up to his sleep and he woke up in the middle of the night to find you not in bed, rubbing his temple he got up knowing where you are; in the prayer room.

Unlike everyday he didn't just stand by the doorframe to watch you pray. You werr done praying when you started to say the dua, "Dear God, thank you for all the blessings you gave me, thank you for the health and thank you the most for sending me such an amazing husband. He's very kind to me and caring towards me, I pray you bless him with health and well-being and a long life where we can be together always and honour each other, I really appreciate and," you paused with a smile, "I love him so much, I just wish he'd be less shy," you chuckled before continuing, "please God , keep him happy and safe, Ameen." Sukuna felt his heart melt at your words, he waited few minutes before knocking and walking in the room, you turned to smile at him as he took the seat beside you on your prayer mat. "Did I wake you up? I apo-" He cut your sentence short by placing his head on your shoulder as he sat beside you, "I've been feeling down all day, I had a very bad day-" he couldn't speak further without tearing down and you immediately wrapped your arms around him protectively so did he, holding you for dear life as he spoke and cried while you rubbed his back, "I don't know what to do, I want to just hide away and do n-nothing I'm just so so tired from today, I- I promise I'm not l-like this always b-but-"

"You have been working so hard lately, you need to rest, Husband," you softly spoke gently caressing his pink hair with your soft hands, "please, can you take few days off of work? You need to rest, it's not good to work and feel such pressure. Can you?" He nodded in you embrace, "y-yes I can take few days off." He slowly removed himself from your embrace chuckling as he whipped his nose and you whipped his tears with the end of your hijab before he placed his head on your lap and taking your hand and placing it on his forehead, "Sweetheart, would you please pray for me everyday?" He asked and you smiled down at him as you gently massaged his head, "with my whole heart, Husband." He blushed.

"Call me by my name," he chuckled, Now it was your turn to blush, "No!" You replied, and he chuckled, taking your other hand and placing his on his chest, "come on, just once, say my name." You rolled your eyes and spoke, "Sukuna." He blinked at you, "Again? Please?" He asked this time softly, and you tried hard to hide your smirk as you called his name, still massaging his head, "are you feeling better now? Sukuna?" He smiled and nodded eagerly, then closing his eyes, letting you massage his head some more.

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Songs I listen to about Skittlescript’s Isekai’ed to the West and Triad au Playlist

hahaha lol checkout @skittlescripts’s isekai to the west au, here’s some songs that remind me of the au and some scenarios imagined would make the daydreams better, special thanks to the works of @semisolidmind, @rennsdeaddoves, @thesexydancingcrepe, @rainyriu, @ritzhasmonkeybrain and @theweepingegg

this is for the Sun WuKong and Six-Eared Macaque simps out there

problem - ariana grande - reader starting to have feelings for Sun Wukong

dear future husband - meghan trainor - reader saying what marriage be like

right there - ariana grande - how macaque feels in triad au

the guy that i'd kinda be into - be more chill the musical - reader describing the monkie she likes

bad romance - lady gaga - macaque’s feelings for reader in triad au

one last time - ariana grande - Wukong trying to understand his emotions

la on a saturday night - hearts & colors - macaque’s monologue song in triad au

a whole new world - aladdin - Wukong and reader just ridding his cloud to Flower Fruit mountain

symphony - clean bandit - Macaque when he finally accepts he’s inlove

rhythm of the tambourine - hunchback of notredame the musical - Triad au

made you look - meghan trainor - reader’s themesong in triad au

title - meghan trainor - Wukong in triad au trying to get a date

not fall in love with you - rwby soundtrack - works both for the Isekai and triad au

kiss the girl - the little mermaid - Sandy making sure his OTP is cannon

there's nothing holding me back - shawn mendes - triad au wukong in general 

stutter - mariana's trench - wukong’s 5 stages of grief about having a crush

troublemaker - olly murrs - wukong’s themesong

still into you - paramore - if Isekai to the west had a crossover with Triad au

millennium parade - belle - a reader song for triad au

light switch - charlie puth - wukong’s crush in triad au

i wanna be your slave - maneskin - wukong in a more hornii mood for reader

she's kinda hot - 5 seconds of summer - Isekai to the west chapter 3 song

teeth - 5 seconds of summer - triad au wukong’s song during a meeting

marry you - bruno mars - wukong trying to convince reader that they get married

paper rings - taylor swift - wukong finally getting a date with reader in triad au

teenage dirtbag - wheatus - macaque’s angst about having a crush on reader

my heart's a stereo - maroon 5 - Macaque starting to fall inlove in isekai au

hips don't lie - shakira - reader meets wukong for the first time in triad au

voodoo doll - 5 seconds of summer - wukong before he realises he likes reader

she looks so perfect - 5 seconds of summer - both monkey’s admiring reader

love me like you do - ellie goulding - wukong and reader in isekai

love me harder - ariana grande - reader’s feelings with wukong

girlfriend - avril lavinge - macaque's song when he’s jealous in isekai

everytime we touch - cascada - wukong simping for reader in triad au

teenage dream - katy perry - reader realising her crush in isekai au

ET - katy perry - reader and wukong’s relationship in a nutshell for isekai

lucky strike - maroon 5 - wukong vs macaque in isekai au

levitating - dua lipa - reader in isekai au

the story of the phantom - goosebumps the musical - macaque in isekai au

take me to church - hozier - wukong having a crush angst in isekai

can't hold us - macklemore - a sun wukong song in isekai

bad reputation - joan jett - how heaven feels about reader and wukong together

guy.exe - superfruit - reader describing her type of guy in triad au

super mario hyadain - wukong vs macaque for reader in isekai au

play with fire - sam tinnesz - macaque and reader first impressions

positions - ariana grande - wukong and reader relationship song in isekai au

34 + 35 - ariana grande - wukong and reader song in triad au

dinero - trinidad cardona - reader’s alter ego song in triad au

no roots - alice merton - isekai to the west in a nutshell

sway - micheal buble - triad wukong takes reader out dancing

helpless - hamilton - triad wukong being lovesick and lovey dovey, while MK witnesses his mentor being cringe

call me by your name - lil nas x - triad wukong themesong

dead girl walking - heathers - wukong and reader having some spicy fun just after wukong is banished by tripitaka

i wanna dance with somebody - whitney houston - reader during the triad au before having a relationship

fairytale - alexander rybak - reader angst on having feeling for wukong in isekai 

why don't you do right - who framed roger rabbit - triad wukong meets reader’s alter ego for the first time

La seine and i - a monster in paris - reader performing in triad au

blues in the night - queen tyr'ahnee cover - reader having feelings for triad wukong angst

the great pretender - the platters - reader’s emotional stability during isekai

boys - charlie xcx - reader thinking about wukong in isekai

you will be okay - helluva boss - reader’s song for ao lie and her kids in isekai

no matter what - book of life - reader choosing to be with wukong instead of going home in isekai

Someone you like - girl and the dreamcatcher - triad wukong pining for reader

Ang huling el bimbo - eraserheads - slow dancing in the kitchen in triad au

Something just like this - cold play - macaque pining for reader in triad

Love story of a certain bakeneko - vocaloid

Ahh, it’s a wonderful cat’s life - vocaloid

The wolf that fell inlove with little red ridding hood - rin and len kagamine

Magic mirror - rin and len kagamine

Dance with me tonight - olly murs - a date night song with macaque in triad 

La la dee - cody simpson - triad wukong describing his feelings for reader 

Perfect - ed sheeran - wukong���s feelings for reader near the end of the journey to the west

Shape of you - ed sheeran - triad wukong being a simp for his wife reader

Seniorita - camila cabello - triad wukong flirting with reader

My oh my - camila cabello - reader’s accepting her feelings for wukong in triad

Uwu - chevy - Wukong’s feelings when he realises he wants to be with reader in isekai au

Canterella - vocaloid - triad wukong and reader on a mission

Je t’aime - kelly sweet - wukong descrining his love for reader in isekai

You’ll be in my heart - tarzan - reader just being happy with her family

Strangers like me - tarzan - wukong being curious aboutreader’s life before the journey to the west

A million dreams - the greatest showman - wukong’s song when he marries reader in isekai

One kiss - descendants - wukong when reader because of magic shenannigans needs to wake-up with true loves kiss

Secret garden - undertale - flowerfell au fansong - triad wukong and reader angst

So she dances - josh groban - triad wukong describing reader to MK

Beautiful ghosts - taylor swift - macaque’s song about reader in isekai

Slow dance with you - adventure time - macaque’s song regarding his pinning for reader

Tightrope - the greatest showman - reader’s conflicting emotions about staying with wukong or going home

Thinking out loud - ed sheeran - wukong pining for reader in isekai

Work form home - fifth harmony - reader flirting with triad wukong

Criminal - britney spears - triad wukong and reader’s relationship in a nutshell

Do it for her - steven universe - triad wukong training isekai wukong to protect reader

Back to life - bumblebee movie - reader and wukong’s wedding song in isekai

I love you to much - book of life - macaque pinning for reader in isekai

Death of a bachelor - panic! At the disco - triad wukong pinning for reader

I’m in love with a monster - fifth harmony - triad reader tells isekai reader on her feelings for triad wukong

Black magic - little mix - reader is jealous that triad wukong is flirting to get info

Animals - maroon 5 - wukong being in heat and wants to mate with reader

I’m a lady - meghan trainor - the jttw crew finds out about reader being isekai’ed to help them

Who i am - the score - macaque introducing himself to the reader in isekai after kidnapping her

Rewrite the stars - the greatest showman - triad wukong and reader fall inlove 

Buwan - juan karlos - wukong serenading reader during their first date in isekai

Bad little boy - adventure time - reader and wukong’s dynamic

Monster - adventure time - Wukong angst about reader’s mortality in isekai

Hey soul sister - train - triad wukong being a simp while being cringe

Crush - tessa violet - reader pinning for triad wukong

Would you be so kind - dodie - reader pinning for wukong in isekai

I do adore - mindy gledhill - triad wukong and reader cuddling

Despair - leo - reader pinning for wukong and vice versa in isekai but angsting of it being unrequited

Save me - bruno martini - macaque and wukong paniking because their falling for reader in isekai au

Can’t sleep love - pentatonix - reader talking to sandy about her crush on wukong in isekai

Suki kirai - rin and len kagamine - reader being in denial about being inlove with triad wukong

Someday - disney’s zombies - wukong and reader in general for isekai

Boop - rwby soundtrack - wukong trying to show off and impress reader after he accepts that he loves her

Little miss perfect - owl house fandom - reader angst on wanting to focus on the journey to the west but the dilemma of falling inlove complicates things for her once the journey is done

Ordinary - owl house fandom - reader questioning wukong why he’s inlove with her in isekai au

One more night - maroon 5 - triad wukong wanting reader to stay longer in bed cuddling

You’re the one that i want - grease - triad macaque romantic feelings for reader

If i can’t i love her - beauty and the beast - wukong being in denial for being inlove with reader in isekai au

Evermore - beauty and the beast - wukong angst when reader is presented with the option of returning to her original home

Love like you - steven universe - wukong wondering why reader loves him in isekai

If i could tell her - dear evan hansen - triad macaque hiding his feelings for reader

Only us - dear evan hansen - set during the time wukong is banished from the journey to the west

Your text - sundial - triad wukong trying to get reader’s number

Glad you came - the wanted - triad Wukong meets reader for the first time

Castle on a hill - ed sheeran - wukong reminises his life before the journey to the west and meeting reader

I won’t say i��m in love - hercules -  reader being in denial about being inlove with wukong in isekai au

Circus - britney spears - another themesong for reader in triad au

love story - taylor swift - how wukong tells his kids on how he met their mother in isekai au

you belong with me - taylor swift - how triad macaque feels when he sees reader with triad wukong 

burn for you - bridgerton musical - wukong pining for reader, but not wanting to confess in isekai au

[heavyhitterheaux]

Not Today Satan

First Lady of Private Garden Instagram AU

(Requested by 21 can you do sum for meeee @hoodharlow)

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claybornharlow: happy anniversary to my wifey y/ninsta

Love you 💕

jackharlow: YOU BETTER DELETE THIS SHIT NEOW

claybornharlow: jackharlow no. I deserve to live in my truth 😌

saweetie: not baby brother being messy as hell lmaoooo

danivalentine: CLAYBORN!

urbanwyatt: lemme get my phone ready to call 911

y/ninsta: happy anniversary my favorite Harlow child! look at us! me and my little baby!

jackharlow: y/ninsta I will return EVERYTHING

y/ninsta: jackharlow no you won't because you a simp

sza: jackharlow wifey calling your ass out lmao

druski2funny: I mean, should I go make an anniversary post at this point too?

jackharlow: druski2funny I know where you live. don't do it.

normani: aww so cute!

jackharlow: normani no! not cute at all!

mortirolo: I'm actually not mad at this

jackharlow: NICOLE PLEASE FOR ONCE JUST PLEASE

mortirolo: jackharlow fine you're no fun. ahem! clayyyyy! cut the shit! (even if it is funny)

jackharlow: never mind 🙄

2forwoyne: lmaoooo aye yo

jackharlow: and he does this shit because if I threaten him, y/ninsta will have my ass smh

y/ninsta: jackharlow you damn right. you better not go near my little baby.

jackharlow: y/ninsta choose me, love me!

saweetie: jackharlow lmaoooo not grey's anatomy I'm screaming

softtcurse: I'm third in line for her hand in marriage. I'm ready.

urbanwyatt: softtcurse next time imma leave your ass outside when you knock on the door

y/ninsta: urbanwyatt leave my girl outside, and I'm putting your weed in my bra again

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dualipa: look at my wife. she a baddie isn't she? Happy anniversary boo! Wishing and hoping for many more!

jackharlow: WHY THE FUCK DO YALL INSIST ON STRESSING ME THE FUCK OUT!? WHAT THE HELL IS THIS!?

claybornharlow: my anniversary post was better smh

dualipa: claybornharlow don't get your ass beat

jackharlowsource: lmaoooo first clay and now dua. jack about to be bald by 2027

urbandjack24: one thing about ms. dua is that she's persistant lmaoo

dualipa: jackharlow and you know what this is. I call it like I see it. MY WIFE.

jackharlow: dualipa imma whoop your ass

dualipa: jackharlow I'd like to see you try

y/ninsta: CHILDREN! STOP IT! and dualipa happy anniversary!

jackharlow: y/ninsta why are you encouraging this?

y/ninsta: jackharlow I'm bored

jackharlow: y/ninsta I am literally sitting right next to you

y/ninsta: jackharlow okay? I've been staring at you all day.

jackharlow: y/ninsta correction I've been in your guts all day

urbanwyatt: NO. FULL STOP.

sza: lmaooo here they horny asses go

dualipa: y/ninsta and I wasn't invited?

jackharlow: dualipa it's almost 2023 and imma need for you to find past times that do not involve trying to get at my wife

dualipa: jackharlow I saw her first

jackharlow: dualipa I FIRST SAW HER WHEN I WAS FOURTEEN

dualipa: jackharlow I have eyes everywhere

y/ninsta: jackharlow I want you to park that big mac truck right in this little garage!

jackharlow: y/ninsta oh so now you want me?

y/ninsta: jackharlow I always do, now get your ass over here

jackharlow: 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️

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popcrave: happy anniversary to one of our favorite couples! jackharlow and y/ninsta are celebrating five years today! 🥰

jackharlow: damn my baby fine 😍😍😍

y/ninsta: jackharlow stop it! 🙈

jackharlow: y/ninsta nope, not a chance

anitta: oh lmaoooo okay then

jackharlow: anitta you got something you want to share?

danivalentine: OH SHIT

shloob_: anitta ABORT MISSION

saweetie: let me get my popcorn

anitta: jackharlow oh you know there's plenty but I'll be quiet for now

jackharlow: anitta not today satan. stop being fucking disrespectful towards her because you've done that shit one time too many. my wife already kicked your ass once and she has no hesitations to do it again. how did them floorboards taste?

mortirolo: GOT DAMN JACK I'D NEVER THOUGHT I'D SEE THE DAY

lilnasx: OH MY FUCKING SHIT 😲

urbanwyatt: well damn

jackharlowsource: allthingsy/n GET YOUR ASS IN HERE NOW AND LOOK AT THIS

allthingsy/n: FUCKING RIGHT JACK! TELL HER!!!!!

2forwoyne: I can't fucking breathe, I'm laughing so hard 😭

druski2funny: lmaoooo I taught jackharlow well

saweetie: jackharlow READ THAT BITCH FOR FILTH! READ HER!

quiiso: well shit

jackharlow: anitta and instead of worrying about us and creating this fantasy in your mind that I want you because I definitely DO NOT, only dresses I'm taking off are on my wife's body. do me a favor and worry about how your tracks came out a little too easily when she got her hands on you. talked all that shit and was the first one on the floor.

theestallion: damn, Jack ain't playing

jackharlow: anitta and another thing, my wife has more talent in her pinky finger than you do in your entire body so I'm going to need for you to focus on that instead of how you're always going to come second place to her. she wins, you lose. bye now. have a good day.

urbanwyatt: you gotta do a mic drop after that one

y/ninsta: THAT'S MY MAN AND IMMA STICK BESIDE HIM 🥰

y/ninsta: anitta damn babes, he came for the throat huh?

yungskylark: oh my word

y/ninsta: jackharlow I knew that violence was going to rub off sooner or later but GOT DAMN YOU GOT ME HOT. PLEASE COME TAKE CARE OF THIS NEOW 😭😭😭

jackharlow: y/ninsta say less 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️

jackharlow: and let this be a fucking lesson to yall. don't come for my wife. EVER.

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[ausssbutlershortstories]

Austin flirting is charming and he never crosses the line. Kaia in that interview looked like she was trying to imitate him and it was cringe. Tbh it always seemed like they dated out of convience and not love and I do believe they were in an open relationship upto a point. But they seemed alright last year and I thought their relationship has improved but that's because of the SAG strike and no one has any work at that time but this year Austin has been constantly busy and so has Kaia with whatever she's been doing so it definitely strained their relationship even more. Austin dumped Vanessa because she wanted marriage when his career was taking off. For him his work matters the most. With Kaia I think he just felt like she's no longer worth being tied to. She provides absolutely nothing to his fame.... When they started dating she was kinda more popular because of her mom but thankfully he got famous very soon and most of the times these relationships are arranged by their pr team. I feel the same with Barry - Sabrina, Callum - Dua or recent Josheph Quinn and Doja Cat. Among these atleast Callum and Dua seem to actually have chemistry and Barry tries. But Austin has never looked like he's in love with her. My problem isn't that they love eachother or they are just staying together because of convience but it's just Austin is the one who gets hate for this stupid relationship. I know she was only 20 when they got together but she has previously dated Pete Davidson when she was only 18 but no one says anything. I hope and pray Austin's next gf will be age appropriate or even older

Yeah Kaia being 20 when they started dating is cringe but I think with Pete Davidson it was even worst with the age thing.

I too hope Austin’s next gf is older as well. He needs someone on his level. I feel when he was doing Bikeriders press with Jodie he got a taste of being in the presence of woman his age vs Kaia.

She really doesn’t apply anything to his fame. If anyone got any convince out this relationship it was definitely her. Being tied to him has done wonders for her.

They being in an open relationship if true is telling. I know some couples get their kink out of that shit but I feel you don’t share your partner when you really love and want them. You don’t want anyone else enjoying what you have. This relationship was never about love. They may care about each other to an extent but they were never IN love

[wwickedwasteland]

 A young woman was standing in the doorway, a woman of such breathtaking beauty that the room seemed to have become strangely airless...

ㅤೀ    - a quick look into current playlist :: please please please by sabrina carpenter ; killin’ me good by jihyo ; cosmic by red velvet ; tattoo by loreen ; arranca by becky g ; mi ex tenia razon by karol g ; soft spot by keshi ; the boy is mine by ariana grande ; illusion by dua lipa ; late night talking by harry styles ; forget about us by perrie edwards ; lovelove u by kenia os ; changes by lauv

ㅤೀ    - as described by others :: black & white ivory that when played creates beautiful music that transport you; heavy is the crown one wears when surnames mean everything so you run; looks of a pretty docile angel that hide mischievous dark thoughts; always dressed in designer; fake sunflowers in glittery vases, the ability to dazzle those around you & play the role perfectly; twilight is when you come alive, always feeling cold even when everyone around you feels warm; not bothering to take back change after a purchase; buying endless bottles of perfume you know you’ll never use.

STATS

NAME : zehra sahin

NICKNAME : goes by zee

AGE : thirty-one

GENDER IDENTITY : cis woman (she/her pronouns)

SEXUAL/ROMANTIC ORIENTATION : bisexual biromantic

SPOKEN LANGUAGES : english, turkish

OCCUPATION : heiress, owner of tiny suns

POSITIVE TRAITS : out-going, empathetic, charming

NEGATIVE TRAITS : vain, sardonic, cautious

FACECLAIM : hande ercel

PETS : a grey scottish fold cat named Dior

FAMILY : has a two year old son named hendrix with tba wc.

BIO ;; (neglect mention tw)

Zehra Sahin, the daughter and eldest child of the Sahin Family who own and run a successful public relations company in Los Angeles. they're known for how well they handle client's scandals and their cutthroat attitude towards the business while keeping their own family life very private. Zee was doted as a child and her mother loved to brag about how adorable she was to all her friends and the public, but behind closed doors was a different story. Sure she was born with a golden spoon in her mouth who got whatever she wanted (music lessons, toys, dance classes, etc.) except what she needed: her parents attention. Of course they went on to have to more children afterwards but nothing changed.

From a young age, it was the nanny and maids who watched, cared, and raised them. Both parents spending all their time to build the company to what it is now known today. But of course if there was a private society event happening where they needed to look like the picture perfect family or parent, Zehra and her siblings would appear there at their side with a big smile on their faces.

While yes, she did get to go to the best schools offered where she hoped to thrive in, it wasn’t the case. Many kids made fun of her, whether its because they saw her as a lonely kid who focused on having good grades or for having her nanny show up to school events instead of her own parents.

Things then changed. In the beginning of their teenage years, she had a drastic makeover, and soon, many were trying to be her friend. She became popular and loved the attention even though all she did was changer her appearance, an alternate version of herself that she realized many people adored.

During high school she discovered a passion for teaching and made it her goal to one day work with children. Though it would be tough, as her life had been planned since the moment she was born and after graduating both highschool and university with honors, and a degree in business and child education, her parents begin talk of marriage.

Fast forward to the present: Zee decided to leave her hometown of Los Angeles due to all the plans her parents had for her and she didn't want to follow in their footsteps (though she is scared that one day they'll come for her and take her back). Since moving to Austin over four years ago and using the money she had saved over many year, she opened up and now runs a childcare center that is her pride and joy. Zehra also has a two year old son named Hendrix with TBA and their relationship is interesting. Some say she's always looking over her shoulder and can be a little guard about her personal life but everyone says it's because she is still new to the area after arriving so abruptly.

TDLR ;; (smoking TW)

Personality wise, Zee is your typical rich it girl. she is always down to party or going out for drinks. she drinks too much coffee for her own good and orders too much take out despite her actually being a decent cook. loves to read all genres of books. Her job, cat, and son are the three loves of her life.

She can be a bit vain, maybe it comes with being born with a silver spoon or the fact that everything has somehow always been in her favor. She knows she is talented and isn't afraid to mention all the accolades she has had. Zehra can be very sarcastic and blunt. isn't one to sugar coat things ( if you're straight with her, she'll be the same with you ).

Ships came natural to her, whether being able to make friends real easy or jumping straight into a relationship with someone. with friends, she'll be loyal, the one to take care of you when sick, the one you should def call to bail you out of jail or if need a reference for a job. though the minute you cross her, its over between you both. with love, she loves the idea of love to a fault, maybe it comes from listening to too many love songs or reading too many romance books but she loves the chase. once the fire dies down, she'll either dip before it gets serious or does something dumb to mess it up. just know that once its over, she's on to the next person she finds.

she started reading romance books, taking notes on the characters who oozed confidence and started demonstrating it in her own life and actions. deep down, there’s still a level of insecurity there but as long as no one else is aware and therefore, can not use them against them, they’re happy to continue faking it till they no longer have to.

— CONNECTIONS;;  **wanted connection

**baby daddy/complicated relationship ( open to one ) ;; they met sometime after Zehra arrived in Austin. can go multiple ways: option A: met at a party, slept together, and nine months later their child was born or option B: had a relationship and ended up having a child together then broke up. Could be co-parenting the child together or not. maybe get along for the sake of the child or always butting heads when together. their could be feelings still between them or not. Open to many things when it comes to this connection.

**ride or die ( open to one ) ;; the bestie, the platonic soulmate, the one she would do anything for, maybe they have pet names for each other, they're almost like family, etc. they are the best of friends and nothing can tear them apart (maybe?).

confidant ( open to one ) ;; don't know how it happened, maybe met at a party or in the library. they are the one person who knows how they really and can tell them anything and vice versa. they both keep each others dark secret. (maybe they have dirt on one another and that's why they don't spill anything.

crush ( open to one ) ;; someone that (despite her denying it), she’s been crushing on for a while. will they ever admit it, who knows. (could be one sided or mutual)

exes ( open to two ) ;; honestly, i just like exes. bonus points if there’s still tension or maybe still hook up but it doesn't mean anything beyond the physical or if they’re just really good friends now with no tension at all. i love options.

will they, wont they ( open to one ) ;; essentially a flirtationship. they flirt too much that others assume that they are dating or are going to at some point. maybe the idea has been on one of their mind but they are too good of friends to ever cross that line (?). or maybe its all a ruse and they're seeing how long they can take it.

one (or more) night stand / fling ( open to many ) ;; one night, she was maybe a little bit down and needed something to pick her up. this worked. or maybe they met up at the bar or a party and it just happened. whether it’s turned into a regular thing or was just one night can be determined later. maybe one catches feelings or not.

old friends ( open to a few ) ;; maybe they were friends in their younger years or met at university, but somehow, they fell apart. maybe she did something stupid and drove them away (could be fun for plotting purposes).

party buddies ( open to a few ) ;; she isn’t one to say no to a night of drinks and partying that leads to her regretting in the morning. just know she is ready for night 2 if they are prepared as long as she has a babysitter ready to go.

enemies ( open to one ) ;; however these enemies became known to each other can be determined later, but either way, they dislike / hate each other. maybe its clashing attitudes, old academic rivals, or they know she has a mask on.

unlikely pals ( open to one ) ;; she is always up late, either reading or doing something for work/family. maybe they meet up to talk, eat, or maybe no talking happens and they enjoy the company to not be alone while each does their own thing. when others see them together, they think its weird.

book connections ( open to a few ) ;; so she damn sure does love books. i’d love for her to have some close buds that that she can talk about books with. maybe they have a book club of sorts or just recommend titles to each other either way its just a bunch of book nerds.

honestly anything else you can think of, i’m down for!!

[writerfarzanatutul]

Ruksana's Dua

She lowered herself into sujood, her forehead pressing against the cold floor as she whispered, "Subhana Rabbial A'la... Subhana Rabbial A'la... Subhana Rabbial A'la..."

Suddenly, tears—warm and relentless—began streaming from her eyes, falling silently onto the cold surface beneath her. Her forehead stayed rooted to the ground, her trembling hands anchored on the floor, as the storm inside her spilled out through her eyes.

"Oh Allah, help me," she whispered, her voice barely audible, quivering under the weight of her sorrow. "This marriage... I must fulfill it, no matter the cost. But I feel so powerless... so very powerless. How do I accept this man when I see him as my transgressor? How can I make him my own? How can I consider him my husband, Ya Allah? Guide my heart... plant love for him within me. I am helpless... I don't have the strength to love him, but You are Al-Wadud, the One who places love in hearts. You can make me love him, Ya Allah. Please cleanse my heart of Abdurrahman, for he is no longer halal for me. Let my heart open for the one You have now made my lawful partner. Let me forget the past, forgive him, and accept him as my husband. Let me be the coolness of his eyes, and fill my heart with respect and love for him too."

( Assalamualaikum everyone, I write Islamic stories that is based on love , faith, redemption, second chances and halal romance. This is a snippet from my story You are Mine .All my stories are free . If you are interested in reading, you can check it in Inkitt or Wattpad. My profile name: Farzana Tutul )

[uma1ra]

A list of Duas

"Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem, Ya Rabb al Alameen, I call upon You and I ask You by every Name that You have named Yourself with, revealed in Your Book, taught any one of Your creation or kept unto Yourself in the knowledge of the unseen that is with You,

Allahumma salli wa sallim 'alaa nabiyyinaa Muhammad.

Ya Rabb, make me sincere in this dua.

Please grant me a death with the shahadah on my tongue. Grant me Husn al Dhan billah (good expectations from Allah)- make my end better than what has come before it.

Expand my grave for me and illuminate it with light.

Preserve my record in Illiyeen.

Lighten for me the questioning of the grave.

Grant me death in a state of Ibadah, that is most pleasing to You and resurrect me in the same state.

Keep me free from fear, anxiety and terror from the day of judgement.

Grant my book in my right hand.

Make me among those who show their books to others with happiness.

Make me successful in the Meezan.

Help me cross the Siraat like lightening.

Ya Rabb, grant me barakah of time, health, rizq and productivity

Ya Rabb, grant me opportunities to always facilitate Your Good Work and earn Your Pleasure.

Ya Allah, please do not give away my good deeds to others.

Ya Allah, Protect me, my family and friends from Nazr (evil eye), hasad (jealousy) and sihr (black magic)

Reunite me with my family in Jannah- let me lead our generations to the most beautiful gardens of Al Firdous.

Do not expose my faults in front of others on the day of judgement.

Ya Afu, Forgive the sins that I don't remember and the sins that I didn't even consider as sins.

Grant me a heart filled with tranquility and peace.

Cleanse my heart from malice, jealousy, hatred, self-admiration, show off, envy, arrogance and pride.

Grant me the ability to forgive others.

Grant me soft speech, protect my tongue from lying, backbiting and hurting others.

Grant me beautiful patience.

Grant me with the correct Aqeedah, excellent memory and understanding of the deen with daleel.

Bless my parents, forgive them, Grant them good health and make me a sadaqa jaariyah for them.

Bless my siblings in their marriages. Bind us together with love. Do not let shayaateen break our bond.

Grant all the single Muslims the coolness of their eyes- and partners who will elevate them in both the dunya and the aakhirah.

Grant us righteous children and make them a sadaqa jariyah for us Oh Allah help me leave behind a legacy with humility, allow me to leave this dunya with the best legacies for our offsprings and for others.

Help me understand, write, speak and teach Arabic.

Help me maintain good ties with my relatives.

Help me see my faults and cover it from others.

Allow me to speak with wisdom just like the Prophet peace be upon him.

Bestow me with wealth to spend in your way.

Do not let others humiliate/oppress/mock/take advantage of me.

Help me be courageous, confident and a positive person who makes the correct decisions at the right time.

Grant me modesty in clothing and speech in front of non Mahrams.

Forgive the Muslim ummah -the living and the dead. Bless the Muslims with goodness and grant victory to the oppressed.

Fill our hearts with Emaan.

Oh Allah, accept my deeds.

Ya Allah, O my Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem, Ya Kareem, Ya Sattar, Ya Gaffar, Ya Qaadir, Ya Sami, Ya Aleem, Al Mujeeb, Ya Allah I turn to you in repentance, in submission. I beg you please fulfill my duas.

Ya Allah Forgive my sins, a complete forgiveness that leaves no trace.

Ya Allah Forgive my transgressions of Your Commands. Ya Allah Grant me victory over my shortcomings

Reform and upgrade me Ya Allah in the best way possible, in the way you know that is best for me.

Ya Allah Accept my duaas, ibaadah & deeds.

Ya Allah Guide me towards performing good accepted deeds for Your Sake only.

Ya Allah Help me to attain khushu', ikhlaas and ihsaan in my ibaadah.

Ya Allah Help me get closer to you as my end draws near.

Ya Allah Make me love You, Your Prophet (pbuh), Your Deen, Your book the Quran, the way it deserves to be loved.

Ya Allah Increase my eeman, tawakkul, yaqeen in You.

Ya Allah Increase me in Taqwa,

Make me of your grateful slaves and amongst the patient ones.

Ya Allah Give me the strength to be steadfast throughout the trials I encounter now and in the future.

Ya Allah Grant me a soft heart & make me content with Your Laws.

Ya Allah Make the Quran be my companion in both worlds.

Ya Allah Guide me to the siraat mustaqeem until my last breath, never be deviated in shirk, kufr or bid'ah.

Ya Allah make clear to me what is the haqq and what isn't, keep me firm upon your Deen.

Ya Allah Make me among the muhsineen, muttaqeen the mukhliseen, the sabiqoon fil, ilm.

Ya Allah Increase me in beneficial knowledge.

I ask of you what Muhammad peace be upon asked you of and I seek refuge in you from what the Prophet Muhammad peace be upon sought refuge from.

Ya Allah Protect me from sicknesses of the heart (envy, arrogance, proudness, show off)

Ya Allah Bless me with happiness in this dunya & akhirah, protect me from sadness, depression and anxiety.

Ya Allah Favour me with the ability to do tazkiyah of my soul throughout my life journey.

Ya Allah Remove the love of this world in its degrees & forms from my heart.

Ya Allah Invite me to Your House to worship You.

Ya Allah Grant me a good end, make me continuously love to meet You.

Ya Allah Make my grave & barzakh a peaceful, cool abode.

Ya Allah Grant me the Shade of your Arsh on Yawmul Qiyaamah.

Ya Allah Give me my record of deeds in my right hand and make my mizaan (scale) heavy with the good deeds.

Ya Allah Grant me the favour to drink from the Hawd Al Kawthar by our beloved Prophet's (pbuh) hand.

Ya Allah Ease my crossing of the Siraat & Qantarah (bridges before Paradise).

Ya Allah Favour me the ultimate bliss of seeing You in Hereafter.

Ya Allah Shield, increase & protect the love/mercy/barakah between me & my spouse for as long as we live.

Ya Allah Improve our behaviour with each other.

Ya Allah Reward my spouse Your best reward for her/his striving for my family.

Ya Allah Make the Quran & Your Commands be our judge in all matters.

Ya Allah Strengthen our practice of the deen together.

Ya Allah Make us join together in bliss in Jannah al Firdaus.

Ya Allah, assist us with physical & emotional strength to be good parents and an excellent example to our children.

Ya Allah Save our children from the impact of our mistakes in their lives.

Ya Allah Bless us with righteous children.

Ya Allah Make our children the coolness of our eyes and make them sawaab-e-jaariya for me & my spouse.

Ya Allah Make them of those who establish Salah and prostrate only to you.

Ya Allah make them Hufaadh, who act upon what they have memorised, and teach it to others. Ya Allah Make our children workers for Your Deen, da'ees, imaams, scholars and shaheeds.

Ya Allah Protect my family from evil, calamities, enviers & the shayaateen from man & jinn.

Ya Allah Protect our children from harm, sicknesses, disbelief, haraam and destruction.

Ya Allah, Protect our youth from the evils and vice in society today. Grant them the ability to recognise Haqq from baatil

Ya Allah Grant our children success in Deen, duniya & Aakhirah & grant us a lineage of righteous offspring until Yawm al Qiyaamah.

Ya Allah Unite our entire lineage in Jannah al Firdaus.

Ya Allah Make them become the reason for our place in Jannah & shield against the Hellfire.

Ya Allah save me & my entire family from the Hell Fire & make us enter Jannah al Firdaus Aa'laa without being accounted.

Ya Allah, you are Al Gaffaar. Forgive my parents.

Ya Allah Reward them in the greatest measures in this dunya & akhirah.

Ya Allah Elevate their ranks and grant them Jannah al Firdaus.

Ya Allah Make me coolness of their eyes in their old age.

Ya Allah Grant my siblings success in this dunya & akhirah.

Ya Allah Elevate the ranks of my parents, spouse's parents, my sisters & brothers, my elders & entire Ummah.

Ya Allah Protect them from illnesses, deceases and difficulties of old age.

Ya Allah Forgive the sins of those who have passed away in my family & the Ummah - young & old.

Ya Allah Grant them a peaceful time in the barzakh till they meet You.

Ya Allah Save us from trials of Dajjal, Yujuj & Majuj & the last Day.

Ya Allah Grant my family & friends who are waiting for the gift of "children" the coolness of their eyes and future leaders of humanity in the Ummah

Ya Allah Unite the hearts of my worldly companions who work for You & strengthen our brotherhood.

Ya Allah Unite the hearts of those undergoing family/marital difficulties.

Ya Allah Grant your perfect cure to those who are sick.

Ya Allah Protect my brothers & sisters across the warzones & from the persecution, rape, slaughter, humiliation.

Ya Allah Relieve their sufferings & elevate their ranks.

Ya Allah Bring the downfall of those (modern day pharaohs) oppressors and relieve those who are deprived, burdened, oppressed, in debt.

Ya Allah forgive me for anything I forgot to mention and give me more than what I intended in the dunya and in the aakhira.

Ya Allah bless the person who forwarded this beautiful dua and make this a source of sadaqa jaariah for them Aameen.

Allahumma salli wa sallim 'alaa nabiyyinaa Muhammad.

Ya Allah, answer our Duaas You are the All Hearing, All Knowing!

Aameen Ya Rabb.

Subhana rabbika rabbil 'izzati amma yasifun wa salamun alal mursalin wal hamdulillahi Rabbil alamin."

[feeamanallah]

DETAILED DUAS FOR LAST 10 NIGHTS

Odd Nights Seeking Laylatul Qadr.. 🙂

According to majority of the opinion we have to seek Laylatul qadr during the odd nights of last 10 days of Ramadan. And not just on 27th of Ramadan. Although 27th is a strong contender.

Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem, Ya Rabb al Alameen, I call upon You and I ask You by every Name that You have named Yourself with, revealed in Your Book, taught any one of Your creation or kept unto Yourself in the knowledge of the unseen that is with You,

Allahumma salli wa sallim 'alaa nabiyyinaa Muhammad.

Ya Rabb, make me sincere in this dua.

Please grant me a death with the shahadah on my tongue. Grant me Husn al Dhan billah (good expectations from Allah)

Expand my grave for me and illuminate it with light.

Preserve my record in Illiyeen.

Lighten for me the questioning of the grave.

Grant me death in a state of Ibadah, that is most pleasing to You and resurrect me in the same state.

Keep me free from fear, anxiety and terror from the day of judgement.

Grant my book in my right hand.

Make me among those who show their books to others with happiness.

Make me successful in the Meezan.

Help me cross the Siraat like lightening.

Ya Allah, please do not give away my good deeds to others.

Reunite me with my family in Jannah.

Do not expose my faults in front of others on the day of judgement.

Ya Afuww, Forgive the sins that I don't remember and the sins that I didn't even consider as sins.

Grant me a heart filled with tranquility and peace.

Cleanse my heart from malice, jealousy, hatred, self-admiration, show off, envy, arrogance and pride.

Grant me the ability to forgive others.

Grant me soft speech, protect my tongue from lying, backbiting and hurting others.

Grant me beautiful patience.

Grant me with the correct Aqeedah, excellent memory and understanding of the deen with daleel.

Bless my parents, forgive them, Grant them good health and make me a sadaqa jaariyah for them.

Bless my siblings in their marriages. Bind us together with love. Do not let shayaateen break our bond.

Grant all the single Muslims the coolness of their eyes.

Grant us righteous children and make them a sadaqa jariyah for us Oh Allah help me leave behind a legacy with humility, allow me to leave this dunya with the best legacies for our offsprings and for others.

Help me understand, write, speak and teach Arabic.

Help me maintain good ties with my relatives.

Help me see my faults and cover it from others.

Allow me to speak with wisdom just like the Prophet peace be upon him.

Bestow me with wealth to spend in your way.

Do not let others humiliate/oppress/mock/take advantage of me.

Help me be courageous, confident and a positive person who makes the correct decisions at the right time.

Grant me modesty in clothing and speech in front of non Mahrams.

Forgive the Muslim ummah -the living and the dead. Bless the Muslims with goodness and grant victory to the oppressed.

Fill our hearts with Emaan.

Oh Allah, accept my deeds.

Ya Allah, O my Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem, Ya Kareem, Ya Sattar, Ya Gaffar, Ya Qaadir, Ya Sami, Ya Aleem, Al Mujeeb, Ya Allah I turn to you in repentance, in submission. I beg you please fulfill my duas.

Ya Allah Forgive my sins, a complete forgiveness that leaves no trace.

Ya Allah Forgive my transgressions of Your Commands. Ya Allah Grant me victory over my shortcomings

Reform and upgrade me Ya Allah in the best way possible, in the way you know that is best for me.

Ya Allah Accept my duaas, ibaadah & deeds.

Ya Allah Guide me towards performing good accepted deeds for Your Sake only.

Ya Allah Help me to attain khushu', ikhlaas and ihsaan in my ibaadah.

Ya Allah Help me get closer to you as my end draws near.

Ya Allah Make me love You, Your Prophet (pbuh), Your Deen, Your book the Quran, the way it deserves to be loved.

Ya Allah Increase my eeman, tawakkul, yaqeen in You.

Ya Allah Increase me in Taqwa,

Make me of your grateful slaves and amongst the patient ones.

Ya Allah Give me the strength to be steadfast throughout the trials I encounter now and in the future.

Ya Allah Grant me a soft heart & content with Your Laws.

Ya Allah Make the Quran be my companion in both worlds.

Ya Allah Guide me to the siraat mustaqeem until my last breath, never be deviated in shirk, kufr or bid'ah.

Ya Allah make clear to me what is the haqq and what isn't, keep me firm upon your Deen.

Ya Allah Make me among the muhsineen, muttaqeen the mukhliseen, the sabiqoon fil, ilm.

Ya Allah Increase me in beneficial knowledge.

I ask of you what Muhammad peace be upon asked you of and I seek refuge in you from what the Prophet Muhammad peace be upon sought refuge from.

Ya Allah Protect me from sicknesses of the heart (envy, arrogance, proudness, show off)

Ya Allah Bless me with happiness in this dunya & akhirah, protect me from sadness, depression and anxiety.

Ya Allah Favour me with the ability to do tazkiyah of my soul throughout my life journey.

Ya Allah Remove the love of this world in its degrees & forms from my heart.

Ya Allah Invite me to Your House to worship You.

Ya Allah Grant me a good end, make me continuously love to meet You.

Ya Allah Make my grave & barzakh a peaceful, cool abode.

Ya Allah Grant me the Shade of your Arsh on Yawmul Qiyaamah.

Ya Allah Give me my record of deeds in my right hand and make my mizaan (scale) heavy with the good deeds.

Ya Allah Grant me the favour to drink from the Hawd Al Kawthar by our beloved Prophet's (pbuh) hand.

Ya Allah Ease my crossing of the Siraat & Qantarah (bridges before Paradise).

Ya Allah Favour me the ultimate bliss of seeing You in Hereafter.

Ya Allah Shield, increase & protect the love/mercy/barakah between me & my spouse for as long as we live.

Ya Allah Improve our behaviour with each other.

Ya Allah Reward my spouse Your best reward for her/his striving for my family.

Ya Allah Make the Quran & Your Commands be our judge in all matters.

Ya Allah Strengthen our practice of the deen together.

Ya Allah Make us join together in bliss in Jannah al Firdaus.

Ya Allah, assist us with physical & emotional strength to be a good parents & example to our children.

Ya Allah Save our children from the impact of our mistakes in their lives.

Ya Allah Bless us with righteous children.

Ya Allah Make our children the coolness of our eyes and make them sawaab-e-jaariya for me & my spouse.

Ya Allah Make them of those who establish Salah and prostrate only to you.

Ya Allah make them Hufaadh, who act upon what they have memorised, and teach it to others. Ya Allah Make our children workers for Your Deen, da'ees, imaams, scholars and shaheeds.

Ya Allah Protect my family from evil, calamities, enviers & the shayaateen from man & jinn.

Ya Allah Protect our children from harm, sicknesses, disbelief, haraam and destruction.

Ya Allah Grant our children success in Deen, duniya & Aakhirah & grant us a lineage of righteous offspring until Yawm al Qiyaamah.

Ya Allah Unite our entire lineage in Jannah al Firdaus.

Ya Allah Make them become the reason for our place in Jannah & shield against the Hellfire.

Ya Allah save me & my entire family from the Hell Fire & make us enter Jannah al Firdaus Aa'laa without being accounted.

Ya Allah, you are Al Gaffaar. Forgive my parents.

Ya Allah Reward them in the greatest measures in this dunya & akhirah.

Ya Allah Elevate their ranks and grant them Jannah al Firdaus.

Ya Allah Make me coolness of their eyes in their old age.

Ya Allah Grant my siblings success in this dunya & akhirah.

Ya Allah Elevate the ranks of my parents, spouse's parents, my sisters & brothers, my elders & entire Ummah.

Ya Allah Protect them from illnesses, deceases and difficulties of old age.

Ya Allah Forgive the sins of those who have passed away in my family & the Ummah - young & old.

Ya Allah Grant them a peaceful time in the barzakh till they meet You.

Ya Allah Save us from trials of Dajjal, Yujuj & Majuj & the last Day.

Ya Allah Grant my family & friends who are waiting for the gift of "children".

Ya Allah Unite the hearts of my worldly companions who work for You & strengthen our brotherhood.

Ya Allah Unite the hearts of those undergoing family/marital difficulties.

Ya Allah Grant your perfect cure to those who are sick.

Ya Allah Protect my brothers & sisters across the warzones & from the persecution, rape, slaughter, humiliation.

Ya Allah Relieve their sufferings & elevate their ranks.

Ya Allah Bring the downfall of those (modern day pharaohs) oppressors &

Relieve those who are deprived, burdened, oppressed, in debt.

Ya Allah forgive me for anything I forgot to mention and give me more than what I intended in the dunya and in the aakhira.

Ya Allah bless the person who forwarded this beautiful dua and make this a source of sadaqa jaariah for them Aameen.

Allahumma salli wa sallim 'alaa nabiyyinaa Muhammad.

Ya Allah, answer our Duaas You are the All Hearing, All Knowing!

Allahumma ameen!

Subhana rabbika rabbil 'izzati amma yasifun wa salamun alal mursalin wal hamdulillahi Rabbil alamin.

-shamsiya noorul quloob

[islamicspecialistforloveback]

Most Effective Dua for marriage with a loved one

Dua for marriage with a loved one is also the same dua for love marriage to agree parents. Both these duas have the same meaning and the implementation process of both these has also the same steps. So, if you are looking for a dua to marry someone you love but parents are objecting, then you come to the right article. Do you have a partner whom you love so much and want to live your whole life…

[that-one-enby-ranger]

Modern AU Halt and Crowley Headcanons

Halt loves Disney and Musicals. Everyone was surprised to find that out. His favourite musical is Grease and one of his favourite Disney movies is Alice in Wonderland

Halt liked music from the 70s and 80s the most, especially classic rock. His favourite band is Queen. He also likes MCR (obviously). He doesn’t like mediaeval folk music because it reminds him of Hibernia which and it all sounds the same to him which is why in the books it says he doesn’t like music, but modern day stuff has a wider range and more interesting stuff he does actually like.

Halt loves Tim Burton and Johnny Depp movies. Some of his favourite movies are Beetlejuice, Edward Scissorhands, Nightmare Before Christmas, Coraline, Corpse Bride, Sweeney Todd and the Tim Burton remakes of Alice in Wonderland and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

Halt loves MARVEL movies, his favourite character is Tony.

Crowley also loves Disney and musicals. His favourite Disney movie is Brave, his favourite musical is The Greatest Showman.

Crowley wears flannel shirts.

Crowley hates dolls and mannequins.

Crowley likes ABBA, Dua Lipa and Beyonce the most

Crowley’s favourite TV show is F.R.I.E.N.D.S and his favourite movie is The Greatest Showman.

Crowley's favourite song is 'We Fell in Love in October" by girl in red.

Queer marriage is legal and they get married and live happily ever after.

[yonarida]

Marriage

I found a great post from the sesterhood IG account. I like it and then copy all their writing here, as a reminder.

"Mariage is about becoming a team. You're going to spend the rest of your life learning about each other, and every now and then, things blow up. But the beauty of marriage is that if you picked the right person and you both love each other. You'll always figure out a way to get through it.

In Islam, marriage is considered a sacred bond between two individuals who come together to fulfill half of their deen. It's not just about finding a partner, but it's also about building a strong foundation for a successful and happy life. One of the essentials is to work as a team. Allah SWT says in the Quran, " They (your wife) are your garment and you are his garment." This verse emphasizes the importance of mutual support and protection in a marriage. As a team, you should be there for each other through thick and thin. You should be each other's support system, helping one another through life's challenges. When one of you is down, the other should be there to lift them. Moreover, communication plays a critical role in building a strong partnership. It's essential to talk to each other regularly and share your thoughts, feelings, and concerns. Always remember that communication is the key to a successful marriage.

Lastly, always remember to seek guidance from Allah SWT through prayer and duas. Allah SWT has given us the Quran and Sunnah as guides for our lives, so we should always turn to Him for help and support in our marriage. In conclusion, marriage is not just about finding a partner but about building a strong partnership that lasts a lifetime. Remember to work as a team, communicate regularly, and seek guidance from Allah SWT. May Allah SWT bless our marriage with love, happiness, and success. Jazakallah khairan.

[heavyhitterheaux]

Five Years In and a Lifetime To Go

First Lady of Private Garden Instagram AU

Liked by jackharlow, urbanwyatt, 2forwoyne, druski2funny, saweetie, claybornharlow, yungskylark, and 3,730,921 others

y/ninsta: happy five year anniversary to the prettiest husband that I've ever had. Can't even put into words how much I love and adore you and I need to stop before I cry. Ever since I was fifteen, I knew you were it for me. jackharlow I love your annoying ass so much it hurts, now come give me kisses! 🥰

jackharlow: y/ninsta first off, the prettiest you've ever had!? you got something you wanna share with the class? The class meaning ME! And I love you too with your cry baby ass 😘

claybornharlow: jackharlow you know she was married to me first

jackharlow: claybornharlow do not fucking start claybornharlow: 👀

saweetie: happy anniversary to my favorite couple in the entire universe 💖

privategarden: happy anniversary and we wish you two many many more

y/ninsta: jackharlow um nope. nothing to share.

jackharlow: y/ninsta 🤨

jackharlowsource: oh so they are still married! Happy anniversary!

jackandy/naremyparents: we love yall! Happy anniversary!

maggieharlow: I called it when they were sixteen lol happy anniversary you two. Love you 💖 allthingsy/n: five years in! happy anniversary! even though we are still very confused about the whole dua and bryson thing jackharlow: allthingsy/n and yall can stay confused. the harlows don't clear up rumors. yall can think what yall want. allthingsy/n: jackharlow well damn urbandjack24: allthingsy/n well we all know jack said he never left his wife's p*ssy so I guess it's safe to say that we have nothing to worry about y/ninsta: jackharlow my baby telling it like it is 😉 mortirolo: happy anniversary! I adore the both of you! jackharlow: mortirolo let's see how long this lasts with you being nice to me mortirolo: jackharlow as long as you don't hurt my baby girl there is nothing to worry about. but, sleep with one eye open just in case danivalentine: NICOLE! STOP IT! softtcurse: happy anniversary! even though me and y/ninsta should be married but I'll take what I can get urbanwyatt: YASMIN! softtcurse: imma see myself out

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jackharlow: my entire universe in one picture. happy anniversary my baby. five years in and a lifetime to go. wouldn't want to be doing life with anyone else and you have my word that you will want for nothing with me and be treated like the queen you are. I love you until the end of time and even after that 😘

y/ninsta: jackharlow 🥺🥺🥺

lilnasx: not Jack making me cry and this message isn't even for me lmao happy anniversary to my parents

druski2funny: lilnasx they were mine first

urbanwyatt: soul mate shit if I ever seen it. I love yall 💖

dualipa: happy anniversary to me and y/ninsta! I love you boo!

jackharlow: dualipa you have 5 seconds to delete that comment

dualipa: jackharlow no.

y/ninsta: dualipa love you too!

jackharlow: Y/N!!!!! y/ninsta: jackharlow yes big baby? jackharlow: y/ninsta you better stop playing with me y/ninsta: jackharlow or what? urbanwyatt: NO. PLEASE NO. STOP IT. jackharlow: y/ninsta you know exactly what y/ninsta: jackharlow BRING IT urbanwyatt: yeah imma head out early because absolutely not shloob_: jackharlow if you ever need to hide from y/ninsta say the word. but happy anniversary! quiiso: and we all know y/ninsta still wears the pants in the relationship jackharlow: I'm not doing this with yall today smh yungskylark: jackharlow we call it like we see it. I hope our favorite couple sees many more years y/ninsta: yungskylark well duh! jackharlow can try some shit if he wants. I'll knock all this shit over. YOUR ASS IS STUCK WITH ME. urbanwyatt: does anyone remember when y/ninsta got drunk and tried to burn their marriage license and screamed at the top of her lungs to jackharlow good luck returning me without the receipt? lmaooooooo funniest shit EVER jackharlow: urbanwyatt no not funny. I had to chase her ass down jumping over couches and shit so that she didn't burn it. her little legs were on some usain bolt type shit that night it took me forever to catch her and yall were just laughing at my pain and y/ninsta wouldn't want to be stuck with anyone else shloob_: that shit was HILARIOUS claybornharlow: you should have let her burn it so we could get married again jackharlow: claybornharlow square the fuck up danivalentine: and she didn't remember the next day lmaoooo all I remember was jackharlow shooting daggers at her every time she looked at him and she was so confused quiiso: PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE RECORDED THAT urbanwyatt: quiiso you know I have it lmaoooo saweetie: yeah imma need that one in the group chat lmao jackharlow: y/ninsta you better not EVER do that shit again y/ninsta: jackharlow not my fault yall left me around matches

danivalentine: happy anniversary. Lil Bit stole your heart and you haven't looked back 💖

jackharlow: danivalentine wouldn't have it any other way

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y/ninsta: woke up and went downstairs to see this. jackharlow you outdid yourself this year, thank you for loving me the way you do 💖

jackharlow: and not stopping any time soon. you deserve all that and more, words can't express how much I love you 🥰

urbanwyatt: I was stressed as hell and it's not even my anniversary. jackharlow put me to work as soon as she went to sleep to make sure everything would be finished when she woke up. y/ninsta I love your dumbass bad and don't you EVER fucking forget it. we didn't go to sleep until four! I don't know how the hell I always get dragged into yall shit smh

y/ninsta: urbanwyatt I love you my urby baby and you are appreciated! jackharlow: yes urbanwyatt thank you for always helping me make sure my girl has the best and what she deserves

urbanwyatt: y/ninsta imma need something in return for all my troubles

y/ninsta: urbanwyatt already done. look on your dresser.

danivalentine: well got damn okay little brother I see you

urbanwyatt: AND THIS ISN'T EVEN ALL OF IT!

2forwoyne: happy anniversary!! and urbanwyatt you should know that it's really three people in that relationship at this point. jackharlow, y/ninsta, and you

urbanwyatt: 2forwoyne it sure fucking feels like it smh saweetie: jackharlow never disappoints when it comes to my bestie lilnasx: look at my parents go 😭 druski2funny: that one bouquet is from me urbanwyatt: druski2funny FROM YOU, MY ASS. I PUT IN ALL THE DAMN WORK. jackharlow: urbanwyatt imma need for you to go spend time with Yasmin to relieve some stress lmaoooo softtcurse: jackharlow keep him. what else did you buy my girl? I'm invested. I'll see him later. urbanwyatt: softtcurse SERIOUSLY?! y/ninsta: jackharlow can you come upstairs now? urbanwyatt: here they fucking go jackharlow: y/ninsta on my way my baby jackharlowsource: 😍😍😍

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[yasmijn]

Jukstaposisi hubungan

Awal tahun 2023, aku menghabiskan waktu untuk nonton dua dating show yang premisnya bumi-langit banget. Single's Inferno Season 3 (2022) dan Love After Divorce Season 4 (2021). Dua-duanya bisa ditonton di Netflix.

Kalau Single's Inferno isinya cewek-cowok usia 20-30an yang berusaha mencari cinta (dan ketenaran sih, kayaknya), Love After Divorce ini isinya janda dan duda yang mau kembali mencoba peruntungannya dalam mencari cinta. Huhu. Season 4 ini settingnya di US, cast-nya para Gyopo (Korean-American) di usia 30-40an yang udah matang-matang banget.

Secara profil, setting, background, kedewasaan, dan pertimbangan casts Single's Inferno sm Love After Divorce tuh beda banget deh.... Yang di Single's Inferno emang anak-anak muda yang belum banyak pikiran, yang selain mencari pacar cakep dengan badan bagus juga ya, mungkin lebih ke mencari momen supaya naikin followers IG. Kalo si Love After Divorce ini... ril orang-orang yang udah pernah bener-bener merasa sedih dan di titik terendah sampai banyak yang merasa hopeless mengenai chance mereka untuk bisa nemuin orang baru. Genuinely ingin mencari 'the one' yang sesungguhnya, setelah gagal dengan orang yang mereka anggap akan selamanya.

W sering banget nangis pas nonton Love After Divorce ini hahahahha. Gila sih Korean-Americans high achievers ini - kerjaannya pada bagus-bagus banget ada yang jadi lawyers, kerja di big tech, punya investment company sendiri, bankir. Pokoknya bumi-langit juga deh sama casts Single's Inferno yang mostly ngaku 'model' walau mungkin lebih cocok bilang pekerja serabutan.

Plot Love After Divorce juga lebih menegangkan (in a good way) buat w, jadi si orang-orang ini dikumpulin tanpa dikasih tahu informasi pribadi sedikitpun. Cuma tau nama. Terus di setiap episodenya, akan ada information reveal: mulai dari domisili (sangat penting karena US kan gede banget ya, beda negara bagian aja bisa beda 6 jam), pekerjaan, umur, penyebab mereka cerai, dan.... apakah mereka punya anak atau nggak.

Poin terakhir paling bombay sih. Edan itu semuanya pada nangis pas denger yang lain cerita😭😭😭😭 Terus ada yang sedih banget, dia tuh anaknya ada tiga, terus sebelum momen info reveal itu dia kayak galau dan sediiiihhhhh banget.... dia takut banget si info ini bakal jadi dealbreaker buat orang yang dia suka. Tapi dia juga jadi merasa bersalah sama anak-anaknya karena mikir kayak gitu.

Bagian pada sharing penyebab cerai juga, wah, sedih banget banget banget.... ada yang cerai setelah 2 tahun, ada yang baru setahun, ada yang udah lama baru cerai. Penyebabnya juga macem-macem, tapi satu tema besar yang aku lihat adalah, setelah mereka bercerai mereka itu jadi merasa rendah diri banget dan merasa unlovable 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Udah mana ada yang di-KDRT 😭😭😭😭😭 Brengsek

Terus kerasa banget bahwa si casts Love After Divorce ini hati-hatiiiiii banget.... mereka nggak mengambil keputusan on a whim. Sebagai orang-orang yang sudah "berpengalaman", mereka bener-bener mempertimbangkan dan pikir panjang sebelum mengiyakan ajakan orang lain. Mikirnya jauh ke depan. Bener-bener ke: Gue mungkin nikah ga ya sama orang ini?

Seru juga sih nonton dua series ini back to back, karena ngasih liat gimana cinta dan hubungan itu bisa berbeda 180 derajat untuk orang-orang di age bracket yang berbeda. Bahwa di umur 20an ya cinta itu sederhana, mungkin cukup dengan ngeliat muka dan bodi (bisa diliat ya dari jenis-jenis challenge yang ada di Single's Inferno), tapi ketika kita sudah pernah gagal, semua hal itu jadi penting - bahkan mereka pun bilang kalau mereka tinggal di state yang berjauhan, mereka mending gak usah lanjutin deh... Apalagi karena memang ada yang cerai karena dulu mereka long distance marriage.

Selain itu, setelah mereka match di Love After Divorce, mereka akan ada sesi tinggal bareng sebulan, baru setelah itu akan final decision mau lanjut seeing each other atau nggak.

Wah pokoknya jadi belajar banyak banget deh dari nonton Love After Divorce.

Recommended watch banget, bisa belajar berempati dan berpikir lebih panjang soal mengambil keputusan-keputusan besar, tapi juga supaya tetap bisa hopeful bahwa akan selalu ada satu orang yang memang untuk kita di luar sana.

[naramdil]

Salam hafsah 💕

I hope you’re well. I wanted to reach out to you bc i always have admired your perspectives and thoughts on matters of the heart, seeing you have a naram dil. This is a lot so i understand if you don’t feel comfortable answering but would appreciate your insight.

I’m currently in a relationship with someone and recently i discovered something painful. I found out that he was in love with someone when we first started talking. We began as something online and weren’t in a committed relationship. I never approached him for the purpose of marriage (which i usually do) so we were definitely undefined. i did end up asking him to speak with the purpose of marriage and so we did. But during that period when i asked, he was already trying to pursue someone he loved and when she refused, he had decided to move on and pursue me.

Finding out now, i feel like i was left in the dark. He told me he didn’t tell me because at that time we weren’t committed and it would only hurt me. But he still needed to see if anything could happen with her before giving me his full attention. She was in a relationship and had just broken up and he took that opportunity to drive to her state and ask. It was a grand gesture, but she refused.

So then he and i began. But now that i’m thinking about it, i feel like he was still in love with her while talking to me. I asked him what she meant to him. He told me that this girl was an instant connection for him. You know how our souls have met other souls in a different realm before we meet physically in this dunya? She was one of those people for him. He knew immediately that he wanted to marry her without even fully knowing her. It was that kind of love. it hurt to hear about it. It hurt that i didn’t know. It hurt that that person wasn’t me.

We broke up a few months into the relationship for reasons which had nothing to do with his feelings for her. We reconnected a month ago. For some reason, i started talking to him again and we only recently started truly making the intention to talk for marriage and not just because we like each other. But he actually told me that last month, she reached out to him and he was put in a similar position as when we first started talking. Again we were in a situationship this time again and not fully committed because i didnt feel like i was ready to do this again. He told me she reached out to me before i reached out again (the second time i reached out after we first broke up) and she finally sent him a message saying it wouldnt work with them. So this has happened two times.

I don’t know if it’s bad timing with two girls reaching out to him around the same time but now I’m thinking if he’s still in love with her. That kind of love he had for her doesnt just disappear like that. He told me it’s rare to find that kind of love. He told me two weeks ago was when she texted him that it wouldnt work out. They havent talked since then.

I just don’t know what to do now because i still like him. Despite it all. Despite the anxiety i feel. Despite the hurt and my tendency to compare his love for her for the love he can have for me. He said that although it wasnt an instant connection when it came to me, he is still willing to build it with me. Build the love since most people grow i to love and choose each other every day and that’s how bonds are made. What he experienced is rare. But it just all hurts. It hurts to feel like he is just settling and getting married because he has faced rejection and the woman he loves doesnt want him. I feel like a second choice. I feel like i’m the logical decision, which is to find a person to marry and have kids. I didnt give him that cosmic, spiritual, instant connection like she did.

I dont know if this is something i can repair. He told me that he isn’t in love with her but he still has love for her and will always make dua for her. he wants to build a connection and grow into love with me. But i feel myself comparing and hurting. It was only two weeks ago that she sent him the rejection message so it’s not like she’s part of his past and it’s been years. It’s recent

But I’m still here. I almost broke up with him again because i felt like i couldnt handle this. But i’m still here. How do people love like that, get rejected and then marry? Wouldnt it feel like they settled if they chose you? I’m so sorry! I just have no one that would possibly understand what predicament i’m in. I appreciate it all anyway 💕

hey honey, I think that you should let him go. genuine love will not make you question anything. sure you could "grow into love" but ultimately he is telling you that he didn't feel that connection with you and that this other girl will always be on his mind (if he is gonna continue to pray for her....) he seems like a flake and you deserve someone who is sure about you and chooses you for you and not because you are conveniently there. it seems like you have made yourself too available to him and he doesn't view you as something he could "lose" but rather a fallback. you should never marry someone in that circumstance.

if you have so many struggles and heightened emotional lows now, before you are married? it's only going to continue. and if how you are feeling now is not how you want to continue feeling then you are going to have to let go and move on with your life. you seem religious so I will say that you should pray on it and ask that if he is meant to be in your life, to clear the path and make it easy. and if he is not meant to be in your life, to remove the emotions and make you feel nothing so that it is easier to move forward. inshAllah things get better for you, please look out for yourself. you are allowed to seek the kind of connection that you described, that cosmic connection that you just feel is right and that is easy to come together and build a life. if you broke up once it was for a reason, remember that.