#DS: Raina

[simonxriley]

Skylar "Phoenix" Jackson (r6s) // Liz Walker (cod) Maci Dalton (fc5) // Kaiya Kobayashi (oshi no ko) Himiko Nakamoto (DS) // Meiying Liu (Heaven Official's Blessing) Raina (Berserk) // Kimiko Nakayama (Haikyuu)

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[venkateshwara-group1998]

Shri Venkateshwara University celebrated its 10th Convocation with great enthusiasm and excitement. 

Shri Venkateshwara University organized its 10th Convocation function with full grandeur & fervour.

1631 UG, PG & PhD students received their degrees, while 24 achievers received gold medals, 23 won silver & 2 top performers were felicitated with the Chancellor’s medal.

The UP Govt. Sugarcane & Sugar Industries Minister Mr. Sanjay Singh Gangwar, MP Mr. Kanwar Singh Tanwar, the Venkateshwara Group Founder President Dr Sudhir Giri & the Pro Chancellor Dr Rajeev Tyagi inaugurated the event by lighting a lamp to Goddess Saraswati.

Former President AIU Dr DS Chauhan, Chairman HIIMS Acharya Dr Manish, & the VC Dr Krishna Kant Dave joined them to unveil the 10th Convocation function ceremony.

The NCC cadets, along with the 28th battalion recruits of PAC, saluted the dignitaries while the band played the national anthem.  

Mr. Sanjay Singh Gangwar, the Minister of Sugarcane and Sugar Industries in the UP Govt, urged students to bring those who have been left behind into the mainstream of development in order for India to become a world leader.

We can achieve this by spreading the light of education to all.

MP Mr. Karan Singh Tanwar emphasized that education is the backbone of any nation’s development.

Let us ensure that nobody is uneducated in the country.

The Venkateshwara Group Founder President Dr Sudhir Giri congratulated all the brilliant achievers on receiving their degrees.

Further, Dr Sudhir Giri reiterated, from the depths of my heart, I thank all those parents who reposed faith on Shri Venkateshwara University & sent their wards to receive high quality higher education.

I will receive my true Guru Dakshina when SVU students will help the common man & contribute in the development of their society, state & nation by working astonishingly in their field of study. I will consider your knowledge worthy on that day.

The Pro Chancellor Dr Rajeev Tyagi asserted all sincere students should carve an identity different from the masses.

Through skill development, time management and a positive outlook, they should move forward with a smile, even under challenging circumstances. Believe me, success will be yours.

The VC Dr Krishna Kant Dave presented the University progress report and highlighted the commendable work Shri Venkateshwara University has done in the past 5 years in higher education & health .

On this occasion we unveiled the University song & launched the university magazine–Srajan.

We distributed free books to the students of Kasturba Gandhi Primary school & along with district administration gifted kits to 120 Angawadi workers.

Those present included the Teacher MLC Dr Hari Singh Dhillon, Hasanpur Legislator Mr. Mahendra Singh Khadakvanshi, DM Mr. Rajesh Tyagi, SP Mr. Kunwar Anupam Singh, & the Chief Advisor Dr VPS Arora.

Acharya Sumedha Didi, Dr Madhu Chaturvedi, Dr Naval Verma, Shubham Chaudhary, Dr Rajesh Singh, Dr VN Jha, Dr Ashutosh Singh, Dr Yogeshwar Sharma, Dr SN Sahu, Dr TP Singh, Dr Ana Brown, and Dr Divya Girdhar were all present.

Also present were Dr Jyoti Singh, Dr Neetu Panwar, Dr Snehlata, Dr Shilpi Raina, Rinki Sharma, Vikas Bhatia, Arun Goswami, & Sunil Bhagwania.

The Meerut Campus Director, Dr Pratap Singh, was present along with the Media Incharge, Mr. Vishwas Rana, among others.

[berryqueerbear]

Simifying my dragons is fun xD.

Yuu, Axel, Raina

[queen-scribbles]

6. Least favorite romance?

Now, I have not done all of them, so this is not a completely 100% informed take, but Ashara and Risha's both felt really meh to me. I don't hate them or anything, but I'm decidedly :| about them. Oh, and I'm super not crazy about Mako's hot-cold thing. That got old really, really fast. So my Hunter broke up with her and is married to Lana instead now /cough

[teamdreamscaper]

Raina: Hiro Sakai has spoiled my plans for the last time!

Fuzen: Yeah, the last time today, maybe...

[holosoftheoldrepublic]

Companion Cooking

Haven’t done one of these in a while so let’s goooo

Jedi Knight

T7-01: … he’s a droid, leave him alone!

Kira: She can make a mean cup noodle.

Doc: He can’t cook much, but he has the basics down fairly well.

Rusk: Exists on rations. Can maybe brew a hot drink but that’s about it.

Scourge: He can… but it’ll be super basic with no flavour and not appealing at all.

Jedi Consular

Qyzen: You probably wouldn’t want to eat it if you’re not one of the lizard people.

Tharan: Dude could burn water. Great with a chemistry set, terrible in the kitchen.

Zenith: Nothing fancy, but he can also make (almost) anything edible.

Iresso: A real roast-and-potatoes kind of guy. Simple but delicious.

Nadia: She can’t cook worth a damn at the start, but she does her research and is making the tasty meals of her homeland.

Republic Trooper

Aric: Also exists on rations, but can cook a mean steak.

Elara: She’s not experimental so there’s nothing special about what she makes, but it’s tasty enough.

M1-4X: He’s a droid, and also he would probably set the entire ship ablaze somehow anyways.

Vik: It’s edible, but only to him.

Yuun: He’s a great cook. For his people. You’d probably rather not touch it.

Smuggler

Corso: Very down-home, simple fare that’s hearty and giving you the caloric intake you need for working the farms or shooting separatists all day.

Bowdaar: If you give him the chance to hunt down some wild game, he will make you an excellent dinner.

Risha: Very good at finding other people to make food for her.

Akaavi: She can make anything out of anything, and it’ll be extremely flavourful with all manner of natural herbs and spices.

Gus: Do NOT let this walking disaster in the kitchen unless you want to no longer have a kitchen. Or a ship.

Sith Warrior

Vette: Knows how to cook all the Twi’lek specialties as part of connecting herself to her culture. Tastes delicious.

Quinn: The best cook. Knows how to do everything. Grinds his own spices, the weirdo.

Jaesa: As part of her various trainings, she can make a variety of simple but filling meals. If LS, will probably continue learning from Quinn. DS doesn’t give a crap.

Pierce: Guy knows how to make the weirdest shit in the weirdest of ways (radiator Mac and Cheese, anyone?).

Broonmark: He eats raw meat with no seasonings.

Sith Inquisitor

Khem: I don’t think you’re getting anything edible out of this guy.

Andronikos: He’s very good at putting a ready meal in the microwave and knowing exactly how long to cook it for to be perfect.

Ashara: Her lack of patience means everything she can make is doable in under five minutes.

Talos: Makes the absolute best tea out of anyone. Has a family roast recipe that has been passed down five generations, but it always comes out really dry when he makes it.

Xalek: Of course he can cook, what sort of warrior would he be if he couldn’t make his own meals?

Imperial Agent

Kaliyo: Burns almost everything but insists it “adds flavour” and eats a few bites while you’re looking then tosses it out and orders out.

Vector: Was a fairly decent cook before the joining, but bugs don’t really have an appreciation for fine cuisine so it’s atrophied a bit.

Lokin: Eats the weirdest shit even before infecting himself with the rakghoul plague, but it someone comes out alright. Don’t trust him about the ingredients, though.

Raina: Can somehow make the field rations taste good decent. Probably the best cook on the Agent’s ship.

Scorpio: If she cared to she could be a master chef. But she doesn’t.

Bounty Hunter

Mako: Too busy with her HoloNet research and running around, just makes herself a cup noodle and calls it a day.

Gault: He likes the finer things in life, and has become the master of either getting someone else to pay for it… or the ol’ dine-and-dash.

Torian: An amazing cook. Knows the best seasons for hunting game, seasonal vegetables, and herbs.

Blizz: Is very good… and disassembling some poor shmuck’s oven.

Skadge: He’s as likely to throw you into the fire as to cook anything in it.

KotFE

Lana: She’s decent enough, but she has bigger concerns.

Theron: He learned many things being raised by a Jedi. Cooking was not one of them.

Koth: The master of throwing stuff in a pot and hoping it all works together. It usually does.

Senya: Her focus has been on other things. Could probably make scrambled eggs.

Arcaan: You know this man has never cooked a day in his life.

[rainofaugustsith]

SWTOR: Women Characters and Betrayal

Something I realized today: With only three exceptions I can identify (Satele Shan, Crysta Markon and Shae Vizla), every single really strong woman with agency in the game that has a pivotal role in the PC's story is depicted as a betrayer or someone who has lied to those who gave them responsibility about major issues. It's as though they had not figured out how to write women without making them either exhibit some treachery, inspire some level of distrust, or have little agency.

SPOILERS FOR EVERY CLASS STORY, SHADOW OF REVAN, KOTFE, KOTET, THE TRAITOR ARC AND OSSUS

Kira Carsen (Jedi Knight): Child of the Emperor. Obviously not her fault and she consciously throws off the Emperor's influence, but they do set her up as "oooh, she's got an evil side!"

Master Yuon (Jedi Consular): Part of the group that abandoned Parkanas Tark on Malachor III. Dread Master Brontes: Turns on the Empire to the point where the Empire sends people to hunt her down and stop her damage. Dread Master Bestia: Turns on the Empire to the point where the Empire sends people to hunt her down and stop her damage. Risha Drayen (smuggler): Some of the NPCs you meet don't ever want to see Risha again because she screwed them over so badly. She does show her loyalty to the smuggler in the confrontation with Nok Drayen, and from then on, but she's still left people like Beryl Thorne in her wake. Raina Temple (Imperial Agent): Raina hasn't lied to the PC, but she's lied to the Sith about being Force sensitive. Kaliyo Djannis (Imperial Agent): Her entire companion storyline is about all the people she's betrayed or reneged on agreements with. She almost does that to the PC, too. They continue this theme in KOTFE by showing her betraying the Overwatch chief, lying to the PC about her true intentions (bombing the city) and getting emails from disgruntled people she's burned. Senya: Does a literal 180 and goes from supporting the Alliance to rescuing the person they're trying to kill and depose. Also lures the PC into an ambushed "trial" with the Scions which damages HK-55. Lana Beniko: Famously, arranges for Theron to be captured by the Revanites during Shadow of Revan. Chancellor Saresh: If you're Imperial, Saresh has reason to kill you already. But if you're a Republic PC in KOTET, Saresh may have worked well along side you - and she tries to kill you and take over the Alliance anyway. Empress Acina: Goes from "the new Sith Empire isn't treacherous, I have no reason to try to betray you" to searching for superweapons on Iokath. Darth Zash (Sith Inquisitor): Literally tries to steal the PC's body. General Garza (Trooper): Havoc Squad 1.0 defected because she left them behind. And the way she treats the hapless victims of Eclipse Squad could be considered betrayal too. DS Jaesa (Sith Warrior): After telling the Sith Warrior "I'll never try to kill you and will always support you," her return involves her slaughtering the PC's troops on Iokath, trying to kill Lana Beniko (who may be the PC's wife or SO at that point) and trying to inflict as much pain as possible on the PC. LS Jaesa (Sith Warrior): Is allowed to stay in Gnost-Dural's sanctuary on Ossus because she sold out the Sith Warrior by telling Gnost-Dural all their secrets. Elara Dorne (trooper): Technically not a betrayal, but if the trooper goes Imperial on Iokath, Dorne says that she wishes they were dead and actively helps Jace Malcom try to kill them. SCORPIO: I don't really need to explain this one, do I? Ashara Zavros (Sith Inquisitor): Calls the Jedi to ambush the PC when they go to meet Zavros's ghost.

Like...do they even know how to write women without having them be depicted in some way as untrustworthy?

[swtor-legacy-sitcom]

Romanced Comps As Pinup Art on the Nose of Class Starships.

Bounty Hunter:

Mako: Topless bikini Mako with a blaster in hand

Torian: wearing nothing but a conspicuously placed Mandalorian Helm in his lap.

Agent:

Kaliyo: not even a tasteful nude. a lewd pose with a stripe of black paint as a censer bar as Kiliyo winks evilly and shows her teeth

Vector: Vector popping out of a killik mound with butterflies around his head, killik mound to the waist, nothing besides that.

Raina: sold gold and blue chiss lengerie

Warrior:

Vette: wearing a gold thong, While Vette gives a coy wink with her blasters crossed on her chest, with a label ‘property of the Wrath’

DS Jeasa: The Dramatic Extrovert chestpeice outfit without any of the rest of it

Lightside Jeasa: The Dashing Hero’s Robe, and a pair of bikini bottoms

Quinn: Boxers. just boxers and an Imperial Officer’s hat placed at a saucy angle

Inquisitor:

Ashara: The Darth Talon outfit

Khem: A much much MUCH smaller loincloth

Andronikus: leather harness, and a banana hammock

Smuggler:

Akavi: one beskar codpiece and two tastefully placed Smuggler Sigils on the nipples.

Risha: over the shoulder full nude, with a pile of credits covering her backside

Corso: Oord Mantel in the background, a blaster sitting on his lap with the label ‘Flashy’ little else

Knight:

Doc: nothing but a sexily wrapped stethoscope and a lip bite. with a medic droid’s head in front of his junk

Kira: lacy panties and an ignited lightsaber over her nips to imply a censer bar.

Scourge: nude sith pureblood with a black leather banana hammock, and a sith cape. Thats it.

Counciler:

Nadia: a white corset and lace panties

Felix: side shot. a suggestively angled blaster rifle

Trooper:

Aric: saluting as he wears only a plastica codpiece and a bandolier

Elara: Sitting holding up two pieces of paperwork over her nethers with a coy smile

Lana Beniko: a sexy Blonde Sith with an underbust corset, stockings and a garter belt, and lighstaber out.

Koth: just the jacket and a jauntily posed blaster rifle

Theron Shan: blowing the smoke off one blaster while the other is poised up at a suggestive angle on his lap.

Arcann: Just the mask and the lightsaber. the lightsaber is as always, at a VERY suggestive angle pointed up from the junk.

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[thebreadtree]

SWTOR Character Meme

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For this one I will exclude those toons I haven't started playing with and my replays because it would be a way too long post otherwise.

Do you have more Imperial or Republic characters?

So I counted 10 Imps and 9 Pubs which is almost perfectly balanced but still the Empire definetly wins since I am playing my Imps more often than my Pubs.

The dark side just attracts me more.

My toons:

-- 3 IA: Celeina(Neutral), Yklier(DS), Yoo'sa(LS)

-- 2 SI: Parena(LS), Vectrys(Neutral?)

-- 2 SW: Ky'rii(DS with LS tendencies), Aarvene(DS)

-- 3 BH: Tchin(full DS), Tchon(LS), Miskre(DS)

-- 2 Troopers: Reyhannah(LS), Oricii(Neutral?)

-- 2 Smugglers: Res's(LSish), Lukatee(DS)

-- 2 JK: Eprema(LS), Carriis(DS)

-- 3 JC: Rougeon(DS), Ammiey(Neutral), Raawek(LS)

Which class do you play as the most?

Agent. I have 6 of them in total and probably will have more of them in the future. All these different endings are just flirting with my inner completionist.

Also everytime I just want to do some Heroics or go achievement hunting I always grab Celeina because I just love stabbing people the Operative class.

Which race do you play as the most?

It's more or less balanced. The humans are always more though if you compare them to one of the other races.

That the humans outweigh is only because I created Celeinas descendants ingame. If it wouldn't be for them it would be a a balanced mix between all the races since I can't pick a favourite species. They all look so cool. I wanna play as all of them!

Celeina- Cyborg

Yklier- Rattataki

Yoo'sa, Tchin, Tchon- Chiss

Parena- Twi'lek

Vectrys, Oricii, Res's, Eprema, Ammiey- Human

Ky'rii, Aarvene, Lukatee- Pureblood Sith

Miskre- Togruta

Reyhannah- Zabrak(Pub)

Carriis- Cathar

Rougeon- Mirialan

Raawek- Nautolan

How many have completed KOTFE/KOTET?

So far only Celeina, Eprema and Res's but I am currently playing through Kotfe/Kotet with Parena and Rougeon and I am working on getting Ky'rii, Tchin and Reyhannah through the expansions before Kotet/Kotfe so that I can play it with them too and I am also planning to take Yoo'sa and Tchon through Kotfe/Kotet in the future.

How many have completed up too Secrets of the Enclave?

It's basically the same answer as before.

Celeina, Eprema and Res's have completed all avaibable story content so far and I am working on getting Parena, Rougeon, Ky'rii, Tchin, Tchon, Reyhannah and Yoo'sa to that point too.

Who has stayed loyal to their class romance? Who didn't?

Celeina stayed loyal to Vector. She was with Lana during Kotfe/Kotet but he choose Vector in the end. (In my headcanon she and Vector are going to break up in the future and Celeina will get back together with Lana but you can't do that ingame so...)

Eprema stayed loyal to Doc. I just can't picture her with anybody else.

Res's had a fling with Corso during her class story but rejected his proposal so I guess she stayed loyal to not commiting to anybody.

Now Parena and Rougeon have technically romanced Andronikos and Felix but I decided that they were lesbians all along and shall romance eachother halfway trough SoR so ingame they did not stay loyal but they did stay loyal to eachother in my head.

Ky'rii has not romanced anyone in his class story because he's gay.

Tchin stays loyal to Torian and Tchon will stay loyal to Mako. Same goes for Reyhannah and Aric.

Yoo'sa will not stay loyal to Raina ingame but in my head he does.

Who started a Romance with the Kotet/Kotfe companions?

Celeina I already explained.

Parena and Rougeon are both romancing Lana ingame because I can't have them romance eachother...

Ky'rii will get himself an idiot spy husband.

Yoo'sa will romance Koth. It's the only reason why I'm taking Yoo'sa through Kotfe/Kotet. I want to see Koth's romance.

And Res's basically kissed Arcann immediatly. (Those two are so chaotic together)

Who is your oldest (having played the longest)?

My oldest has been deleted a long time ago and so has been the second oldest. That would make my beloved Celeina my oldest still existing toon.

I still kinda remember my first two toons. The first one was a SI who was a pale Vampire DS Bitch and the Second one was a some LS SW who still got DS corruption because back then I didn't knew you could change your allignment.

Who's you newest?

Good question. I had a "Make a bunch of new OCs" night a few months ago so I can't really tell anymore but I think the last one I made was Jora Malvice.

She is a Cyborg Operative. I don't really know why I made her. I guess I just wanted another agent that goes stabby stab a cool looking Cyborg.

I would show you a picture of her but this piece of a toaster I'm playing Swtor on is currently having his 5 minutes.

[meatbag-status]

SWTOR imp side romances as gifs on tumblr dot com

Vette

DS!Jaesa

Quinn

Andronikus

Ashara

Kaliyo

Vector

Raina Temple

Mako

Torian

[simonxriley]

Skylar "Phoenix" Jackson (r6s) // Liz Walker (CoD) Himiko Nakamoto (DS) // Kai'Sa Blake (Aot) Raina (Berserk) // Luna (TROTSH)

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[azems-familiar]

Completely unrelated to an ask prompt I'm just bored so rate all the swtor companion crews from your most to least favorite.

*rubs hands together* excellent i needed something to procrastinate on anyway

OKAY. so. my least favorite crew probably has to end up being the consular crew, i’m sorry guys! i would actually die for Felix, and Nadia is precious and needs to be protected, but i could take or leave the other three (although Zenith makes an interesting companion for a ds consular). overall, i’d give it a 5/10, with a fem consular automatically bumping it up to a 6/10 because Felix is wonderful.

next up, at a solid 6.5/10, maybe 7/10 if i’m feeling generous, is the Trooper crew. Elara is my Wife and i actually love the extremely overenthusiastic war droid you get but other than that, most of them don’t stand out too much? but they’re a solid squad for the trooper, i respect that.

next we have the smuggler crew, who cannot rise above a 7/10 because of Corso. i’m sorry, i really am, Risha and Akaavi are fabulous, but Corso. just. Corso. i had to play a male smuggler because i could not handle the farmboy. 

after this, bounty hunter crew, 7.5/10, physically incapable of going higher because i want to throw Skadge out an airlock. but they also have Gault and Blizz, who are amazing, and Torian, who i also love dearly, and just. the aesthetic of the four real companions and the most prestigious bounty hunter in the galaxy causing chaos and running around in a stolen, remodeled school bus is so fucking funny.

8/10 would be the agent’s crew. i actually really enjoy all five companions (yes, even SCORPIO, she doesn’t turn into a bitch until kotfe, at which point i will gladly murder her), Vector is one of my favorite base game romance options, Lokin is such a unique character, i don’t like Kaliyo so much as a person but as a character she’s a fascinating part of the agent’s crew and has the dubious honor of being the only older woman who isn’t dependent on the player character for at least part of the story, so there’s that, and then Raina is a delight and has such a cool story.

sitting at a solid 9/10 for literally two people is the knight’s crew. Scourge and Kira are possibly my favorite companions in the game. i adore them SO MUCH. Scourge is such a horrible dramatic bastard man and his and Kira’s dynamic in the expansions is possibly my favorite part. the entire time spent wandering through Satele Shan’s ship? Scourge’s “I NEED MY SPACE” line? please just kill me now. for the rest of the companions, T7 is a precious droid, i really could care less about Rusk, and i’d like to throw Doc out an airlock please. multiple times, preferably.

10/10 is the warrior’s crew. like, i don’t much care for Broonmark or Pierce (mostly i get tired of the “black ops black ops black ops” every time Pierce opens his mouth), but they’re both interesting characters that have a lot to add to the story in terms of the warrior’s arc. Jaesa and Vette are both WONDERFUL, i cannot overstate that, and gods, Quinn my beloved, i have so many Thoughts about him and my warrior and how that goes and i love the fact that we get to have a companion who isn’t completely loyal to us the whole time and i wish the game explored the fallout of that more! the quinncident is so interesting! please bioware i’m begging you explore the consequences of the things you put the player character through (where is my knight’s fucking Vitiate trauma you fuckers-)

finally. 12/10, literal perfection, could not have asked for a better crew - the inquisitor. the ancient Dashade assassin that eats Force users and shows his affection with death threats! the overenthusiastic archeologist with very little concept of “oh Sith temples are probably dangerous and i shouldn’t go there without a Sith”! an actual apprentice from Korriban Nox gets to train! the half-fallen Jedi who is also the Single Impulse Control on this ship! the disaster pirate husband who brings his girlfriend LITERAL SWORDS to show his affection oh my god has there ever been a more perfect ship in existence i think not. i think not.

[swtorpadawan]

M, X and Y for the character asks?

Character Ask Game!

Thanks for the asks, @blueburds !

M. Who’s a character you are not very much like, but still really love and appreciate?

I love all of them in different ways, but to love every OC when your OC list is spiraling out of control is to acknowledge you are loving a character for what you get out of them rather than who they are. That is a selfish love - never stay with someone who only loves you for what they take from you.

To that end... I am very different from Corellan Halcyon, who is very much a wish-fulfillment character in terms of who i'd like to be in a fantasy. I like that he's ultimately forged his own path, and he accepts his own limitations. He's recognized that its the journey, not the destination.

X. Who’s a character you used to like, but don’t anymore?

I don't hate any of my "current" characters, exactly. I delete characters who do nothing for me. I created Sadish because I was in a dark place in my life and playing a DS "edge lord" appealed to me. In terms of becoming invested in a character with head-canons and so on, he grew stale fast. I ultimately shoe-horned him into the Beltane Legacy and i don't know if I'll ever play him again.

Y. Character you highly respect?

Deviah Sarnova had a lot of ... shall we say, her perceptions on the galaxy were distorted at the start of her story. She fits rather closely with Vector or Raina Temple in that, in and of herself, she was a good person, but she couldn't see that many of her actions were supporting an inherently corrupt Empire. I respect that she's actually learned a lot along the way. Its been a painful journey for her, but she's a better person now.

Thanks for the ask!

[visionmarred-archive]

me making a soft-spoken and elegant DS assassin who enjoys fine things and wants to be special in SWTOR last night

realizing I basically just made rattataki Raina from AoS on accident

[oofcori]

CORI ACCOLA. anyone who knew her was aware of what she was like; she didn’t hide it. she was energetic, talkative, enthusiastic — maybe often too much of each. she was persistent, supportive, she liked to immerse herself with people at all times and she liked being liked so it was no surprise that she had a perfectly cultivated personality for every single person she met. they didn’t stray too far from one another, mostly sticking true to who she was, but her mannerisms, her tone of voice, the way she’d hold conversations or drop them in an instant — it all depended on who she was talking to.

on days like her birthday she found herself talking to everyone. even people she barely spoke to aside from the occasional check up or glance in the hallway were celebrating with her, and she knew it was down to the party as a whole, but still ! she’d accept any kind of attention, no matter what. 

it was strange how birthdays were both mutually the best and worst days of her life, no matter the year. they always started positive, like she’d just been birthed the very second she awoke and she was bursting with immense energy. she thrived from the birthday celebrations, the attention, all the gifts ! 

eventually things would calm down as does she and she’s left with a desire to get back to that happy place — she’s been familiar with all kinds of things in her years, often just getting trashed with whatever alcohol she can find but it’s not like she’s a stranger to narcotics. she doesn’t remember several birthdays because of this and she genuinely prefers it this way. she doesn’t know what exactly happened but she knows her twelve, fifteenth and sixteenth were her worst ones. 

it wasn’t that she was a bad kid, she was just a handful. and when she wasn’t even related to the people who had taken the role of her parents it was easy to decide she didn’t have to listen to them. so there were multiple times police had to be called, several times she’d end up needing her stomach pumped in hospital and eventually thousands of dollars were spent on therapy she refused to take seriously. 

there were obvious whispers from her godparents’ friends and family, always discussing how they didn’t NEED to take her in, how they didn’t owe carla and tobias anything even after their murders — corrine was too much to handle and not what they signed up for ! except her godparents were GOOD people, they were her parents best and closest friends, most trusted contacts and they knew corrine deserved some stability in her life, despite her being anything but. 

when her parents died she was seven and she only remembers one or two birthdays with them but even that’s enough to know how much they loved her and how much she loved them. she remembers opening up her princess annika barbie doll, her first nintendo ds ( then another a week later when she dropped it from the balcony ), and she remembers how they’d wake her up with a candle in a cupcake softly singing ‘ happy birthday ’ while she twiddled her feet and swayed along, trying her best to be patient and not blow out the candle too quick. 

and then she remembers her eighth birthday. the first one without them, how she dreamt of them the night before and how they weren’t there when she opened her eyes in the morning. she kept falling back asleep, maybe if she tried again they would be. she didn’t cry once, she didn’t eat any of her cake, didn’t open any presents, didn’t talk to anyone. 

her ninth was a bit better, she actually had some cake. tenth she had a party, though it ended up with everyone being sent home after she decided to see if she could set georgina wood on fire with one of the candles. turns out she could.

once she got to fourteen cori was well aware of how to seem normal. no setting people on fire, no fires in general ( twelfth birthday was a disaster, she’d now claim it was lit  ), no replacing her own cake’s sugar with salt, making sure she was actually contributing to conversations. it was a long list. so she was starting to act HAPPIER which was good, she was getting friends at school which was good — it was only really on her birthdays that she’d let go of that control and fall into old routines.

so with her twenty-first it was no different. 

perhaps it was the perfect night. she almost feels bad for stealing part of the attention away from it being the end of year party considering she got her own surprise mini-performance with faith jumping out from the cake. she was with all her friends. milena, sage, grey, jas, raina, claire, scott, lou, levi, maia, cyrus, maddox... honestly she had too many friends.  she loved seeing them all dressed up, loved dancing with them and drinking far too much together. she remembers how she was sad about the whole date situation, she’d told ella to ask grey and regretted it immediately, found out milena asked maddox and felt completely lost with who to ask herself, so many of her friends were DATING so they were automatically out... everyone was taken up quickly and the people she was depending on to go with were suddenly unavailable. faith had been a literal life saver because if she had to turn up alone on her BIRTHDAY she would rather have died. but the night was everything she could have wanted and she wouldn’t have changed it for anything. 

but as it gets later she’s feeling more and more drained, she’s stumbling around from the alcohol and she’s already ingested a bit more than advised of the edible cookie cyrus gave her. she’s fine, she just can’t stop thinking about things she definitely doesn’t want to think about. she keeps getting urges to do SOMETHING... but she doesn’t know what, she knows it’ll probably be bad, though — and it’s fine when you’re thirteen and your biggest issue is why henry malkovich would rather sit next to yasmin greene than you in english class but here, at gallagher, when you’re friends with EVERYONE... they can’t see you like that. 

she’s already losing her breath, feeling like her hearts going to burst from her chest if it doesn’t slow down and she’s making her way outside as subtly as possible because there’s nothing worse than someone coming to check on you when you’re freaking out and you don’t want them to know.

she’s outside, trying to figure out where she can go to think and just be anywhere but around other people. her heels are quickly discarded and then she’s running. she hadn’t decided where she was off to but she ends up somewhere in the forest, surrounded by the trees and it’s so DARK but the moon looks beautiful from what she can see through the branches above — there’s a comfort in how still everything is, especially when her body feels like it’s involuntarily spinning round and round. so she decides to sit. her hands playing with anything that’s on the ground beside her — twirling grass around her fingers, digging little holes then burying them back up with a solid pat, peeling off little chunks of bark from the tree and trying to engrave her name into it. anything to occupy herself with, a distraction while her mind calms down, something to DO. 

she’d been messaging some friends, all none the wiser except grey — only because she’d told him she was feeling sad, though it was something she regretted as soon as she did. she shouldn’t have told him she was outside, alone, and clearly too intoxicated to make wise decisions. he was always looking after her even when she didn’t want it, and tonight she REALLY didn’t want it and she hoped he was joking when he said he was coming to find her. it only frustrates her and makes her anxious, which just sends her thoughts spiralling. 

there’s no warning before she’s sobbing, a split second vision of her dad rushing for a hug — his laugh echoing in her head. she can hear her mother singing to her, cradled together in bed while there’s thunderstorms outside. and once she starts she can’t stop. she was emotional, sensitive, weak and it was something she didn’t like people knowing. but it’s never just about her parents deaths. it’s how she’ll never see them again, how she won’t have her father walking her down the aisle or that they never got to see her grow up and know just how much she looks like both of them. how she literally can’t look in the mirror ( which is something she loves doing ) without being reminded of them one way or another. she wished she had a sibling just so she could TALK about it — someone who could understand her and tell her that she’s not crazy for having a breakdown after she notices herself humming lullabies her mother would sing or how when she really laughs she has a squeak in her throat like her dad and that breaks her heart.

it’s about how she will never know if she’s good enough or if she turned out okay, how she despises herself for not making every day count and that she KNOWS they’d be disappointed in her today. how she’s sick to her stomach with the thought that they were better off without her, even though she felt non-existent without them. 

so she just stayed against the tree, determined tears refusing to stop as she wipes them away again and again and again. and she’s sure she looks a whole MESS right now but there’s not a single care in her being as her palms swipe at her eyes, leaving her mascara all over her hands. she bites down on the side of her palm, just below her thumb, in hopes to calm her breathing, to stop panicking quite so much and just relax.

after a while of forcing herself silent, she’s struggling to keep her eyes open, fluttering slowly but often as she lets her body sink and she’s drifting to sleep.