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Someone: wow I sure don’t get how people could like math/science classes for fun. I think they’re insane personally
Me: hey can we maybe not disparage someone else’s interests/passions especially since I’m here and literally have a science degree and my sister is even better at math and science than me
Them: ummmmmmm I was just venting don’t take it so personally
#personal#negative#I’ve literally been told my degree is a waste of time and has no use in society#I’ve been told I can’t be a musician or artist because I’m involved in STEM even though I was a performer long before I started doing bio#sorry that I have the innate human desire to create and also have other interests I guess#don’t worry my blood sugar is stupid high right now and not coming down no matter what I do#so maybe I’ll fucking die and you won’t have to ‘compete’ with me anymore#WVEN THOUGH IM NOT YOUR EQUAL#I SUCK AT MY ART#DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL FUCKING BETTET
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mood is seeing your ex post something for their s/o and then feeling horrible and inadiquite , resuling in writing a sappy love poem and messaging it to them at 10:30 at night. pathetic? yes I am.
#i know they didnt mean for it to hurt#but fuck doesnt it sting#and then they tell me that i deserve bettet#when i cant think of anything better than them#i feel inadequate#i know they knew that their relationship w him was kore stable#which is why she most likely put me down#but i cant help but feel as inwasnt good enough#im fucking sorry i was 70 miles away#im sorry that i was in over my head in jealousy#fuck i want to hate you but all that does is make me love you mote than before#youre my moon to my sun#but i guess the solar eclipse has ended#so i must wait for our pathes to pass again.#shut up ellie#ex tag
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S2, E23
"Eye of the Beholder"
CW: Book spoilers
I see more of the "Aria is 'A'" theory, in this episode. I always hated the theory, probably because I don't like Aria, but also because she is literally on screen so fucking much that the plot of the actual story can't move forward. She's too busy making out with Ezra or fighting with her parents to be "A."
"If only we could harness Mona's sense of entitlement, we could light the Eastern Seaboard"- I don't see how Mona's being entitled, here. This was a beloved and memed quote back in the day but what is she taking about?
I guess Alison trusted Duncan if she gave him her real name. Also, this dude had it bad for her. I really wish he had been a bigger part of the story, because his intro here set him up to be a really interesting character. This random guy who obviously cared about her a lot, and apparently to whom she talked so much about her friends that he could identify them. I remember thinking he might have some connection to the Charles DiLaurentis plotline- he does bare a striking resemblance to the family- but no. They just throw him in here to give us something to do and make it look like they're actually going to tell us a cohesive story that will all make sense together. They build him up then let us down. Just what happens when they run out of pre-existing cannon characters to make suspicious and it hasn't been long enough to re-use any of their still-viable red herrings.
I also wish Maya's disappearance was bettet worked into the story. It ends up being it's own random side mystery with no connection to anything, which makes the story more confusing, even if temporarily. It ends up looking like the actress wasn't going to stay on-board for the whole thing and they forgot to write an ending for her until the last possible minute. It seems so rushed and half-assed I don't think they gave it any thought at all. I do realize that Emily's relationships have to have an expiration date if they want to make Emison endgame, and death is usually the default ending when they don't want to villainize either of the characters, but there were things they could have done besides inserting a second "stalker" storyline. I might not be so upset about them deciding to end her life if it at least felt thoughtful. Fun fact: according to the fan wiki, Maya breaks up with Emily because Emily cheated on her.
Does it need to be said that I hate how easy it is to tell whom the writers want us to like in this story based on how they react to Ezria? The Liars have virtually no problem with it besides extremely brief shock- not because they're still highly impressionable teens who are weirdly familiar with "Lolita" but may not understand how it's supposed to be read- rather, because they're the protagonists and we're not supposed to have any complicated feelings about them. Noel? Jackie? Villains, because they were against it. We're supposed to like Ella (I guess) so she has to come around to it. There's no nuance to it at all, the show doesn't even give any credit to the opposite viewpoint.
The more Ezra and Ella interact, the more I wish Ezrella had been a thing.
You can get a pilot's license at 16???
The man who fucked one of his university students, asked his daughter to help him cover it up, and fucked up every last one of them with trauma beyond belief has no room to be accusing someone else of wrecking his family. Was the point of this just to make me hate Byron so much I would want Ezria to go on out of pure spite?
Can literally any of the PLL parents stop being annoying. Mrs. Hastings is going to give me an aneurism.
Jenna Marshall is personally cursed to be in every burning building.
#alison dilaurentis#aria montgomery#emily fields#hannah marin#pll spoilers#spencer hastings#anti ezria#pll rewatch#ezria#jason dilaurentis#jenna marshall
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so um who wants to read a 50 page essay of me and my mom's journey through the IT movies?
too bad you're reading it
so like i saw this goddamm clown, and i, also being a clown, said to my mom, also a clown, "lets watch this clown movie lol" and she said yes. and in the like first five minutes we are already awwing and stuff because??? omg georgie and bill are so cu- oh. oh my god. oh this us not what we thought at all-
so enter Losers. instant RELATE i am also a LOSER hellO?? hAh look at these 2 idiots theyre bickering like an old couple an- oh my fucking GOD of course there are bullies. one of them looks like draco malfoy??? guYs did draco malfoy play in this movie we see him like 2 times-
oh my god oh no poor bill he is trying to find his brother :( but alsO BEV IS SO PRETTY??? IM SO GAY???? and yeah i really feel the New Kid On The Block like same man i didnt even get to meet a pretty girl and a buncho losers who will go jump into lakes with me
OH and the lake scene? it bites me in the ass later. i fucking passed it off as a "theyre bonding" moment and then it transforms into a feelings plane and crashes into my house
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me: they just keep leaving their bikes
mom: well It takes kids, not bikes
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fastforward and??? the fight secene?? the fuckijgn fi Ght SCE ne??? o H M Y GO D
bill was so desperate to find georgie?? richie was so scared he would die??? beN BEING SCARED HIS FRIENDS ARE GONE?
i AM ALL OF THESE FUCKERS
and oh?? bev's dad??? hate the vibe this dude gives to me. like this dude def did more than mentally abuse her and im so glad she beat him up
uhHHH??? WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT EDDIE STANDING UP TO HIS FREAKSHOW OF A MOM??? HOW HE WAS SO MAD????? HE THREW HIS PILLS ON THE GROUND HELLO, HE STRAIGHT UP YEETED HIS FANNY PACK??? MAN the things a gay goes through for his friends
bill's speech on georgie, like, dude just fucking stab me it will hurt way less
fastforward more, the oath??? how scared stan was??? like i ddint really feel any connection with stan other than his actor played my fav character, stan, in ianowt, but uHm? i still love him??? so mUCH???
oOOOH i just realied i didnt talk about mikey
ahem
THE ROCK FIGHT THE FUKING ROCK FIGHT THE ROCK FIGHT OH MY GOD
THESE LOSERS ARE SCARED SHITLESS OF THOSE SHITBAGS BUT THEY SEE ANOTHER LOSER AND THE FIRST THING THEY DO IS THROW R O C K LIKE FUCK YEAH YOU FUCNKY LITTLE MIDDLE SCHOOLERS STAND UP FOR YOUR FELLOW BULLIED I LOVE MIKEY SO M7CH OH MY GOD
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so between the 2 movies we realized it wasnt on netflix and went on various websites to watch the 2nd movie, got progressively angrier until i got my laptop and just watched it blindly because we are both blind
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okay heres the tea yall
they completely erased bev's character in the 2nd movie. in the first it was emphesized SO MUCH just how brave she was compared to the others. she took the first step, she wasnt afraid to go into the house she fought her abusive dad and in the 2nd movie it was all gone. i really liked the fact that bev wqsnt a damsel in distress until in the 2nd movie she was. while in the 1st movue you forgot that gender roles existed in the 2nd it really seemed like they wrote bev as a "woman" rather than "bev" you dig me??? okay rant over. basically fuck the 2nd movie bev and im not just saying this because her 1st movie actor made me realize i was a lesbian. on to the movie
oh mY GOD HOMOSEXUALS??? WILL THEY HAVE A PART IN THIS STORY OH MY IM SO EX- oh. right. oh hey theres mikey :D
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me: who's this??
mom: its bill look, its his surname
me:
me: you remember bill's surname but not richie or ben's names?
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oh theyre all grown up!! oh bevs fighting an abusive man again and uh
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mom: i have a feeling stans gonna kill himself
me: hah can you imagi
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STANLEY??? BABEY BOY OH NO???? and also are we gonna let the spider with the baby head thing pass?
WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY DONT REMEMBER ANYTHI-
"this is like a virus its been eating us for 27 years!" YEA MIKEY ITS CALLED PTSD YOU FOUGHT A FUCKING DEMON AND DIDNT SEE A THERAPIST????
also the whole tribe thing seemed really out of story and like it didnt belong there at all? idk maybe its just me but i dont wanna believe that bill's 3rd eye opened after he got drugged by his friend idk
so like hightlights because ive got many rants about the 2nd movie
what the fuck do you mean bev got out of jer specilized hell after ben recited 1 fucking poem are you kidding me are yOU FUCKING KIDDING ARE WE REALLY DOING THE SAVED BY LOVE BULLSHIT AGAIN OH OKAY
OH OKAY FUCK YOU
SO BEV GETS SAVED IN THE FIRST MOVIE AFTER BEN KISSES HER WHEN AT THE TIME HE PRIBABLY THOUGHT LOVE WAS AT ITS PEAK WHEN YOU GAVE YOUR 2ND GRADE CRUSH A BADLY WRITTEN POEM
AND UFKCING HELL IT HAPPENS IN THE 2ND MOVIE TOO??? DOES PENNYWISE JUST THINK "oh these bitches hetero bettet keep them alive" BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? THIS WOULD ALL BE OKAY IF
IF
IF EDDIE LIVED TOO
FUCK I RELATE TO RICHIE SO MUCH??? HIS FIGHT WITH HIS PEERS AND HIS FIGHT WITH HIMSELF OVER HIS YEARS LASTING CRUSH ON EDDIE?? OH MY GOD IT WAS SO OBVIOUS THIS MOTHERFUCKER WAS GAY AND I DIDNT REALIZE UNTIL THE 2ND MOVIE WHEN HE HAS A BREAKDOWN BECAHSE HIS SOULMATE GETS STABBED BY HOMOPHOBIC FORTNITE DANCING CLOWN WHILR HE TRIES TO SAVE HIMA DN THEN FUCKIN G DIES EVEN THOUGHT THESE 2 IDIOTS HAD MORE CHEMISTRY THAN BILL+BEV AND BEN+BEV COMBINED OH MY GOD IM SO MAD THE HETEROS GET TO LIVE BY TRUE LOVE BUT THE GAYS DONT AND UG G H H G G HH "hes dead" NO HE FUCKING IS NOT THIS ISNT FAIR I LOVED EDDIE SO MUCH
well uh now that we got my love for richie on papet um
the lake scene
i cried and i had to watch heteros kiss underwater while wiping my tears. its only cool when percabeth does it guys
the lake scene aside i full on BAWLED LIKE A BABY at the ending because i felt so bad that stan died already and i felt bad that not only was richie facing years if bullying and homophobia anf the loss of his friends it finally is confirmed that richie had a crush on eddie and i
i just cried man? it hurt me so much as it weighed on me how many jokes richie made, how scared he was when he saw the missing paper of himself, his flashbacks to people calling him names, his speech to eddie and that he had to get dragged out because this fucker obviously couldnt let go of his feelings. and between all of that and stan's letter my brain blocks out everything and focuses on one
R + E
oh my god
OH MY GOD NO
NOW i dont really like watching movies. as a writer myself im really critical of everything involving the world building, the characters, the plot and all that jazz and usually the acting is so bad that i dont feel for the characters but THIS ONE. T H I S O N E
my mom turned to me and was SO SHOCKED to see my flat out CRYING because i just dont do that man, and she just asked my what made me cry and i just made a noise like "hhhnnnn" and she nodded and went "richie's love story" and i, still crying, went "hhhnnnn" but in a higher pitch
and im just so mad? that eddie didnt get to live?? we didnt get an "i love you" or even a "im gay" from richie??? we didnt get to see them holding hands and letting go of their trauma together and being gay and happy yet
yet the fucking bad-writer-white-boy and boo-hoo-i-had-no-friends and not-bev get happy endings??? mike can get a happy ending because he is a well thought out character
thESE 3 ON THE OTHER HAND OH MY GOD
bill had to change his endings which really makes me angry because ima writer yada yada
bill has been bullied his uh what whole life? he got told his opinion didnt matter and from what i remember even his parents shut down his ideas and i feel like he should have made the endings how he wanted instead of changing to what the public wanted. thats what he defended as a kid, thats why he was in the losers club unwilling to change, because they were losers. yet he changed.
ben should have stayed fat or at least have abnornal weight because that also defeats his story with bev. it makes it seem that suddenly and magically when ben is hot bev can BEGIN to consider that she loves him.
i already ranted about bev.
mike is decent i guess? i like that he didnt stay with whoever the fuck that was in the first movie because he seemed very aggreasive to me. im glad the chose to research into pennywise because others were too stupid not to (RICH AND EDDIE GET A PASS AGAIN BECAUSE THEY SHARE HALF A BRAINCELL AND I LOVE THEM)
well stan is just tragic
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me: who the fuck is afraid of spiders why do they keep showing up
mom: its stan?
mom: he brought the hair things and all
me, about to cry: oh m y god
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so TL;DR: we really liked the first film! the acting, the plot, the creepiness is overall better and you get to relate to a bunch of Losers who get abused by their parents
the 2nd film doesnt exist. i refuse to acknowledge it exist EXCEPT for the ending where stan writes a letter about how he would like to meet hks friends again while BREATHING and richie and eddie carve their initials on a piece of wood and get to be gay.
if your name starts with B your opinion is invalid in the 2nd movie
also can anybody give me fanfics where the fortnite dancing clown doesnt exist and richie goes to therapy to heal from the bullying and once he gets over his homophobia he gays with eddie??? specific i know but im willing to write it if it doesnt exist
#ghost reviews movies#i guess?#it (movie)#it (2017)#it (2019)#spoilers#tw abuse mention#tw homophobia mention#tw suicide mention#this is a#rant#AND A#vent#BECAUSE OF RICHIE AND RICHIE ONLY#long post
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Hi who wants to read me complain abt both architectural designa and colors despite probably not being qualified to whine abt either one?
Mmk as u can see, these are meant to have beachy vibes. Lets begin.
House 1: what the fuck, my dude, its fucking red and it looks like a goddamn farmstead, where the hell are u getting any sort of Beach, Seaport or Shore vibe? What does it have a fucking duck pond? Is that the beach we’re discussing? God. 2/10 u get 2 points for duck pond, but if theres no ducks or duck pond its like 0/10
House 2: okay. This feels like there was an attempt. Its still puts off farmstead vibes to me but the yellows could potentially indicate seaside? But what the fuck. You went and ruined it, with the red roof and door. Why. Stop putting so much Red in here its not fucking northcoasty what the fuck. 4/10 but almost a 0 bc im so furious abt the potential that uve gone and fucked over with ur Red. Fuck off.
House 3: okay its not immediately hideous, but theres like. No beachy vibes here at all. There is nothing. This looks so goddamn generic. Im bored. I hate it more almost bc its just so mediocre looking. At least the other ones looked like ud have like a ghost or smth interesting, damn. 4/10
House 4: colorwise u came SO CLOSE but then u had to go and paint that door fucking red didnt u. Why do u hate me. Why is the door red. Why are there so many Red Doors. I dont like it. Designwise….what. what is this. 1 it looks. Southern? Whats going on w the windows. Why are they so weird. Why do u have so much Extra Trim™ around the windows??? Its Uglie and makes me feel like there was potential for bigger windows and more natural light but them u went, nah, I wanna piss ppl off with this ugly ass Unecessary trim. Go home. 3/10
House 5: okay right off the bat? This is no seaport or shore. This is a fucking lakehouse. With disappointing windows, bc theres so much….extra space, we coulda had it alllllll. This better have a great fucking view+nice interior to make up for the disappointment that is those windows. I will be lenient and say it has lakebeach vibes, which is more than i can say of the others so far. 6/10
House 6: mmmmmmmm buddy. We escape from the hell that is Red Doors with a tasteful Spiced Cedar™. But then. U go and fuck it up. Why is this house green. Not even a good green(I say, as if anyone uses good greens these days. No one does, theyre all to scared to dedicate themselves to a nice green so all the greens we get are truly pathetic) Listen. U know how u accentuate that lovely Spiced Cedar™ door and window trim? U know how u make that nice and beachy, coastal, shoreliney? COOL BLUES, YA FUCK. And yet, ur so determined to Disappoint me. However, points for design, its got that nice classic Widows Peak that all Northern Shore houses should have, u were so close my dude. 7/10. God.
House 7: This is the best one uve offered so far. The design is Not Bad, and the colors(look bettet irl wtf camera. I swear thats a nicer blue irl not fucking indigo purply) theres definitely room for improvement, but its the most cohesive one so far. It has its mind set on a vibe, and it followed through. Design is meh but I guess im feeling forgiving. 8/10
House 8: What The Fuck. Guess we couldnt avoid Red Door Hell forever huh, it comes back with a Vengeance of a Very southern looking house and two, horribly, glaring red doors that scream for a wrecking ball. Fuck you 0/10, dont even look at me.
#toy pic post#ok to reblog#color schemes#architecture#complaints#review#criticism#bitter#northern shore#coastal#exterior coastal colors#northern shores and seaports#seaside#northern coastal
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We both need to change via /r/selfimprovement
We both need to change
My bf [32] and I [25] both really need to change in several ways - things like quitting smoking [weed], eating better, working out, improving our mental health which will result with these things as well... but I feel like I'm all about this and have made steps etc, but the bf has not. I am wellll aware that you can't change someone, that never works and only leads to resentment. This is why I broke up with him in the past. But we got back together bc love. But fuck. I'm gona try to keep this as short as possible though in reality there's a lot of details to this....instead of writing a book I'll jump to my conclusion.
I have got to remember to change first. I shouldnt throw a hissy fit in my head like "Why do I have to change when he won't. It's not fair. But I'm going to change. And I'm going to have to break up with him when I change and he doesnt" (this is largely due to the weed habit, as I have to face my negative feelings about him when sober...as he does with me too). What I think I need to think is "Change. Focus on yourself. Once you have improved yourself, the relationship should improve as well. He will be happier with you in a better place, more confidence, in better shape and looking bettet etc. This does not guarantee that he will change, but it could help. There's only one way to find out. And if he doesn't, deal with it then."
I realize this could also be posted on r/relationships or r/leaves, but I'd like to hear your thoughts.
Though if you're just gona say "you can't make someone change etc" again, I am well aware! (Some of the things include drinking monster and beer all the time, weed, horrible nutrition but I know that wont ever change, and most of all, anger issues, which primarily result from the above things. Also exercise, as he confessed that every time he fucks me, he feels like he's gona die [bc he's out of shape]). When I'm sober, more than anything I think that I don't want my future kids to be subject to his anger issues, even if he doesnt get violent, anger will affect them tremendously. Obviously if it was super bad I wouldnt subject myself to it either. The thing is, he's nice when he's high. Freaking obviously. So, this is clearly a problem. (But Im fucked up too! I just try to change more and have before).
Sorry, wrote a book. Idk how to TL;DR lol. Just read the first two paragraphs.
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Hi who wants to read me complain abt both architectural designa and colors despite probably not being qualified to whine abt either one? Mmk as u can see, these are meant to have beachy vibes. Lets begin. House 1: what the fuck, my dude, its fucking red and it looks like a goddamn farmstead, where the hell are u getting any sort of Beach, Seaport or Shore vibe? What does it have a fucking duck pond? Is that the beach we're discussing? God. 2/10 u get 2 points for duck pond, but if theres no ducks or duck pond its like 0/10 House 2: okay. This feels like there was an attempt. Its still puts off farmstead vubes to me but the yellows could potentially indicate seaside? But what the fuck. You went and ruined it, with the red roof and door. Why. Stop putting so much Red in here its not fucking northcoasty what the fuck. 4/10 but almost a 0 bc im so furious abt the potential that uve gone and fucked over with ur Red. Fuck off. House 3: okay its not immediately hideous, but theres like. No beachy vibes here at all. There is nothing. This looks so goddamn generic. Im bored. I hate it more almost bc its just so mediocre looking. At least the other ones looked like ud have like a ghost or smth interesting, damn. 4/10 House 4: colorwise u came SO CLOSE but then u had to go and paint that door fucking red didnt u. Why do u hate me. Why is the door red. Why are there so many Red Doors. I dont like it. Designwise....what. what is this. 1 it looks. Southern? Whats going on w the windows. Wy are they so weird. Why do u have so much Extra Trim(tm) around the windows??? Its Uglie and makes me feel like there was potential for bigger windowd and more natural light but them u went, nah, i wanna piss ppl off with this ugly ass Unecessary trim. Go home. 3/10 House 5: okay right off the bat? This is no seaport or shore. This is a fucking lakehouse. With disappointing windows, bc theres so much....extra space, we coulda had it alllllll. This better have a great fucking view+nice interior to make up for the disappointment that is those windows. I will be lenient and say it has lakebeach vibes, which is more than i can say of the others so far. 6/10 House 6: mmmmmmmm buddy. We escape from the hell that is Red Doors with a tasteful Spiced Cedar(tm). But then. U go and fuck it up. Why is this house green. Not even a good green(i say, as if anyone uses good greens these days. No one does, theyre all to scared to dedicate themselves to a nice green so all the greens we get are truly pathetic) Listen. U know how u accentuate that lovely Spiced Cedar(tm) door and window trim? U know how u make that nice and beachy, coastal, shoreliney? COOL BLUES, YA FUCK. And yet, ur so determined to Disappoint me. However, points for design, its got that nice classic Widows Peak that all Northern Shore houses should have, u were so close my dude. 7/10. God. House 7: This is the best one uve offered so far. The design is Not Bad, and the colors(look bettet irl wtf camera. I swear thats a nicer blue irl not fucking indigo purply) theres definitely room for improvement, but its the most cohesive one so far. It has its mine set on a vibe, and it followed through. Design is meh but I guess im feeling forgiving. 8/10 House 8: What The Fuck. Guess we couldnt avoid Red Door Hell forever huh, it comes nack with a Vengeance of a Very southern looking house and two, horribly, glaring red doors that scream for a wrecking ball. Fuck you 0/10, dont even look at me.
#toy pic post#ok to reblog#color schemes#architecture#complaints#review#criticism#bitter#northern shore#coastal#exterior coastal colors#northern shores and seaports#seaside#northern coastal
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