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About Dragonfire1000

This post WILL contain drama and trigger words about pdf-files, censored just this once for the sake of proper telling my side of the story

I met Dragon back in 2022 about? We had a mutual discord server way before then called SansComicTV, ran by the same YouTube voice acting channel. We never interacted until CJdoesVA's Discord server.

We immediately clicked. I loved her animations, and we had very similar humor and love for Undertale. Soon, we started playing VRChat together when i downloaded it on my computer and even more so when my husband said I could use his Meta Quest 2 when I wanted. We had fun. Exploring random instances and even having sleepovers in VR in beautiful calming worlds.

Once the CJ drama happened, I was by Dragon's side, and so was every adult who was mature enough to hear their side of the story. Soon after, we both joined a VR family where we had community and bonded over the people who hurt us in CJdoesVA's discord server along with Dissociative Identity Disorder.

My alter had issues with some of the family members due to unfair treatment and lashed out at the people involved. Dragon stayed by our side, and we explicitly told her not to pick sides. We appreciate her support of us, and I thought we had moved on from it only to find out in my last post she heavily resented us for my alters' actions. Yes, I do take system accountability, but I will not apologize for my alters trying to protect this system and my body. Unless it is a life-threatening or altering decision.

I would go on to be a part of Dragon's live streams with her alters, and until recently, it would have seemed I've made a long time time friend. I've told her deep trauma, and she told me hers. I supported her every decision and gave my opinion when she wanted it.

After the reveal of a pedofile among our friend group , I realized there was never a single moment that would be positive outside of one week breaks and short-lived happiness. I was stressed. A newfound medical emegancy appeared, and I stopped drinking and stopped smoking cigarettes just a week ago. Even now I'm still suffering the withdrawals for a better life, after all it's only been a week.

Before Dragon left for her growing business, my alter Reeve wanted dragons alter Cruix to please help us with checking the headspace as we've been blocked out and we can't see anything. There's a few places others still need permission to have, but Cruix disregarded that rule and didn't bother asking an alter to get to special access areas, almost walking in on a few rare fronting alters when checking doors.

Another moment of helping another friend with stress, they barged into an VR instance, completely intruding on my Dream Sans work when he didn't ask for it.

My Fell Sans was upset about this and went off on dragon. Yes, I didn't say anything. I didn't know what to say.

His very last statement was defending another person my system values, saying we will never stop hanging out with him as he is a good person.

The day before meeting with an Army recruiter Dragon and Black Ooz sent me messages when I left a VC they joined telling me I'm a terrible person. I tried to respond to find I've been kicked from the server and blocked. The same with the minor and everyone else from Dragonfire1000's Domain I thought were my friends. I didn't know she wanted to talk in a voice chat, I would have been open to it. I just wanted space because of how aggressive we were clearly getting with each other. I thought it was helping, but it wasn't. I see that now.

After a few days of evaluation , I realized our friendship was based on trauma and drama bonds. The second things do not go Dragon's way people are expected to cut off anyone Dragon doesn't like, which I am very guilty of. Dragon was my friend, why wouldn't I support her and believe her about who was a bad person?

Dragon is 31, turning 32 in December, and I am a full decade younger, 21. If ages are important to you, whoever is reading this post.

I legally can drink

I legally can smoke

But I haven't done either.

This post is my side of the story if anyone cares to listen. Do not witch hunt, as everyone is valid to their own emotions and thoughts on people. Not everyone is expected to get along. But I am hurting as I've lost many friends in one day in just a few minutes.

#explaination #undertale #discord #my side of the story #dragonfire1000

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