#Cristina Bentes

[neweramuseum]

NEM Minimalism 88 - Curator Lulú Espinoza-Elenes De Panbehchi.

Theme: Travel

FEATURED ARTWORKS BY: Anneliese Wi, Cristina Bentes, Daria Stermac (2 images), Kate Towers, Manny Lupato, Peter Scott Bartsch, Philip Del Carmen, Viola Ursu.

[soulofapatrick]

Your World Hasn’t Stopped - Joel Miller x reader

Summary: Tommy watches as Y/N helps Joel through the panic attack of seeing someone who looks like Sarah

Words: 670+

Warning: panic attacks

Notes: This is just Joel Miller Drabble to test my ability of writing from an outsiders perspective - not my favourite but it’s a first try

Tommy’s POV

I just watch as Joel grabs his jacket and storms out, letting out a sigh as even after all these years he’s still as stubborn as he used to be which means I’m going to have to go after him or this conversation is never going to happen again. I climb to my feet, grabbing my own jacket, throwing back my whiskey and relishing in the nice burn before heading out into the winter air. 

Joel’s standing outside, leaning against one of the street lamps and eyes focused intently on a Maria’s younger sister. I know why, I had the same reaction when I met her as she’s the spitting image of Sarah. It took me weeks before I could even approach Cristina as she broke my heart every time she smiled at me and the fact I could have been a great uncle let alone an uncle. 

I go to catch up with my older brother and apologise for the way things were handled back there but Maria is grabbing my arm, nodding towards the two girls Joel arrived with, the older is running over to Joel as he’s bent slightly as if having a panic attack. Ellie, the younger just watches from a distance as Y/N reaches Joel, hands going to his face as if it’s the most natural thing. 

“Hey, hey, you need to breathe,” She’s saying, slotting herself between Joel and the street lamp so his head falls to her shoulder. She moves her hands from his face to his hair, carding them through Joel’s greying hair and she’s whispering in his ear. I’m too far away to hear it but they way Joel slowly melts into her means whatever she’s saying is working. Joel may not know it but from here it’s obvious to see he’s already found his person, he just needs to let her in as he’s still so guarded about romance from Sarah’s mother. I’m still angry at her for just up and leaving Joel and I with Sarah while she ran off to live her life. They were both young when they had Sarah so as much as I don’t blame her I would have thought she was responsible enough to stay and raise a baby. 

Joel’s suddenly standing upright and the pair are just staring at each other, Joel’s chest still heaving as he tries to regain composure and by the looks of it still on the brink of a panic attack. Something crosses Y/N’s face and she’s moving her hands back to Joel’s face before guiding his face down to meet hers. I feel like I should be looking away but I can’t help the swell in my chest because his life hasn’t stopped. He thinks it has but the way Ellie yells ‘finally’ and the way he seems to fall into this kiss shows otherwise. He has a family right here, a woman who loves him and a daughter but the stubborn fool is too closed off to see it I believe. 

“You’re okay,” Y/N breathes when they part, eyes searching. 

“You kissed me,” Joel retorts, body tensing but he’s not pulling away or making any move to shove her away. 

“I read that if you hold your breath it stops a panic attack to when I kissed you, you held your breath,” She explains and the air leaves his shoulders until she grins cheekily and adds, “Maybe you should have panic attacks more often if you’ll let me kiss you.” 

“Shut up,” He grumbles, pulling her laughing figure into a hug that has Ellie quickly running over to join in. The teenager practically jumps at them, sending the three of them to the ground with a cry of surprise and then laughter as Joel and Y/N let her join the hug that’s now in the snow. 

Maria’s squeezing my shoulder and pulling me away to let them be a family with reassuring words that for once I truly believe: 

“He’ll be okay.” 

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[elbiotipo]

That’s so funny, I was speaking to a right-wing Peronist the other day. If you don’t mind answering, what about Peronism do you think makes it so versatile, and what about it do you like?

I'm so sorry for your experience, really.

Peronism has historically catched the support of the Argentine working class, and I believe it's because it's an organized, democratic movement that has actually succeeded into materially improving the lives of people. But also, it's a patriotic movement, and in Argentina, this is vital, because the Argentine right wing landowners and empresariado would sell us for 10 dollars if they had the chance and indeed they did and they still do. For first worlders, patriotism is often associated with fascism; for the third world, patriotism arises as a defense of the people against imperialism, and Peronism always saw itself as part of Latin American and third world liberation. Peronism, like I sometimes say, is not too far from other "national liberation" movements that arose during decolonization in the Third World in places such as Asia and Africa, because Argentina was (and indeed still is) an economic colony propped up by the local oligarchy, and Peronism started as the Argentine response to that, to achieve social justice (a more equal society) and economic independence (nationalization of industry). Perón might have intented to have a "guided" revolution, but the fact it that it was a revolutionary movement all the same as it led to a tectonic shift in Argentine society. For the Argentine workers, to sing "combatiendo al capital" did not went unnoticed.

While you would find, and this is true, that Peronism has a personalist bent with figures like Perón himself, Evita, and later Néstor and Cristina, I have an alternate view. It was the people who created peronism, not Perón. During the march on Plaza de Mayo in 17 October 1943, it was the people who wanted a Perón goverment because it represented their interests, and no matter the, in many cases contradictory, ideas of Perón, the movement was based on popular leadership; it was the people who made the movement. Yes, it is a populist movement, but I don't see it as an insult, it's a description.

The complicated thing about Peronism is that "Argentina needs to progress and get rid of foreign imperialism" is something that can be said by both left-wingers and right-wingers, and there are both in the Argentine working class, and the leadership has always had different ways to achieve this from communism to neoliberalism. Which has always resulted in a contradictory movement split in many currents, though this means flexibility, it also leads to "neither right wing or left wing" incoherence. However, I myself see it from a wider perspective: the various currents of Peronism (as well as other Argentine movements) represent the working class, against the established powers of Argentina; the rural oligarchy, the corporate class, the military. It is Peronism who historically advanced social and civil rights, it is peronist movements who have fought and accomplished all sorts of victories against the oligarchs since its creation.

From my own perspective, I think the ideas are clear; Peronism represents most of the Argentine working class historically, any left-wing movement must deal with this fact. Argentina was imposed right-wing dictatorships and they oppressed and impoverished our people, and then it attempted neoliberalism (for the 4th time now...) and it only ended in disaster (again) and impoverished our people. As much as some don't like it, the only option to accomplish the Peronist ideals of social justice and economic and political independence is through socialism, and given the nature of peronism as the democratic and popular movement that the Argentines feel most represented by, it should either lead to that or face extinction.

There are other people who have analyzed this better than me, as well as many other Peronists who will abhor what I've said. I accept my condition in a contradictory, complex country, and I believe it's essential to build popular support both to resist the current right-wing wave and to eventually create the conditions for socialism, which for me will be our second and definitive independence.

[thisisyourdriverspeaking]

Lightening the mood after Miami with another edition of my US number ones posts - the drivers from all series version. Please enjoy 😊😊

Sebastien Loeb (26th February 1974) - Barbara Streisand - The Way We Were

Tony Kanaan (31st December 1974) - Helen Reddy - Angie Baby

Juan Pablo Montoya (20th September 1975) - David Bowie - Fame

Mark Webber (27th August 1976) - Elton John & Kiki Dee - Don't Go Breaking My Heart

Kimi Raikkonen (17th October 1979) - Michael Jackson - Don't Stop Til You Get Enough

Jenson Button (19th January 1980) - Michael Jackson - Rock With You

Felipe Massa (25th April 1981) - Daryl Hall & John Oates - Kiss On My List

Heikki Kovalainen (19th October 1981) - Christopher Cross - Arthur's Theme (Best That You Can Do)

Andre Lotterer (19th November 1981) - Daryl Hall & John Oates - Private Eyes

Pippa Mann (11th August 1983) - The Police - Every Breath You Take

Simon Pagenaud (18th May 1984) - Lionel Richie - Hello

Robert Kubica (7th December 1984) - Wham! - Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go

Nico Rosberg (27th June 1985) - Bryan Adams - Heaven

Jerome D'Ambrosio (27th December 1985) - Lionel Richie - Say You, Say Me

Rahel Frey (23rd February 1986) - Whitney Houston - How Will I Know

Kamui Kobayashi (13th September 1986) - Berlin - Take My Breath Away

Rene Rast (26th October 1986) - Cyndi Lauper - True Colors

James Hinchcliffe (5th December 1986) - Bon Jovi - You Give Love A Bad Name

Oliver Turvey (1st April 1987) - Club Nouveau - Let It Be

Sebastian Vettel (3rd July 1987) - Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance With Somebody (Who Loves Me)

Alexander Sims (15th March 1988) - Rick Astley - Never Gonna Give You Up

Molly Taylor (6th May 1988) - Whitney Houston - Where Do Broken Hearts Go

Simona De Silvestro (1st September 1988) - George Michael - Monkey

Sarah Bovy (15th May 1989) - Bon Jovi - I'll Be There For You

James Calado (13th June 1989) - Bette Midler - Wind Beneath My Wings

Brendon Hartley (10th November 1989) - Roxette - Listen To Your Heart

Earl Bamber (9th July 1990) - New Kids On The Block - Step By Step

Cristina Gutierrez (24th July 1991) - EMF - Unbelievable

Abbie Eaton (2nd January 1992) - Michael Jackson - Black Or White

Timmy Hansen (21st May 1992) - Kris Kross - Jump

Daniel Abt (3rd December 1992) & Alice Powell (26th January 1993) - Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You

Tatiana Calderon (10th March 1993) - Peabo Bryson & Regina Belle - A Whole New World

Christine GZ (22nd July 1993) - SWV - Weak

Alex Lynn (17th September 1993) & Bubba Wallace (8th October 1993) - Mariah Carey - Dreamlover

Michelle Gatting (31st December 1993) - Mariah Carey - Hero

Naomi Schiff (18th May 1994) - Ace Of Base - The Sign

Jessica Hawkins (16th February 1995) & Luca Ghiotto (24th February 1995) - TLC - Creep

Beitske Visser (10th March 1995) - Madonna - Take A Bow

Nicholas Latifi (29th June 1995) - Bryan Adams - Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman?

Jack Aitken (23rd September 1995) - Coolio ft L.V - Gangsta's Paradise

Oliver Askew (12th December 1996) - Toni Braxton - Un-Break My Heart

Louis Deletraz (22nd April 1997) - Puff Daddy ft Mase - Can't Nobody Hold Me Down

Catie Munnings (15th November 1997) - Elton John - Candle In The Wind

Cem Bolukbasi (9th February 1998) - Janet Jackson - Together Again

Jamie Chadwick (20th May 1998) - Next - Too Close

Kevin Hansen (28th May 1998) - Mariah Carey - My All

Mick Schumacher (22nd March 1999) - Cher - Believe

Toni Breidinger (14th July 1999) - Jennifer Lopez - If You Had My Love

Max Fewtrell (29th July 1999) - Will Smith ft Dru Hill & Kool Moe Dee - Wild Wild West

Robert Shwartzman (16th September 1999) - Enrique Iglesias - Bailamos

Bent Viscaal (18th September 1999) - TLC - Unpretty

Felipe Drugovich (23rd May 2000) - Santana ft The Product G&B - Maria Maria

Marta Garcia (9th August 2000) - N'Sync - It's Gonna Be Me

Arthur Leclerc (14th October 2000) - Christina Aguilera - Come On Over Baby (All I Want Is You)

Sophia Florsch (1st December 2000) & Clement Novalak (23rd December 2000) - Destiny's Child - Independent Women Pt 1

Frederik Vesti (13th January 2002) - Nickelback - How You Remind Me

Luke Browning (31st January 2002) & Liam Lawson (11th February 2002) - Usher - U Got It Bad

Olli Caldwell (11th June 2002) - Ashanti - Foolish

Jack Doohan (20th January 2003) - Eminem - Lose Yourself

All added to this playlist

[wiihtigo]

CASEY NATION RISE 7, 9, 17, 20, 23, 25

ask game

7. What’s one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

i used to think that she didnt care much about the art of actually acting and cinema and stuff and for her it was more about just being famous and it didnt matter how. i think that was partially because although i knew i wanted her to lust for fame and money the acting dream was kind of just randomly decided on. i thought i could easily swap it out with modelling or singing or something and it wouldnt make much difference. but the more time ive spent with casey, the more i see her as a true lover of movies and art....which i think leads in well to her endgame job being a script editor rather than an actor. her true talents lie behind the screen even if she herself doesnt see it...

9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

whats a girl to do - cristina

a post canon (after nell dies) caseys life anthem:)

17. What is the worst thing you have put your OC through story-wise?

well i was going to blame it entirely on you that nell dies and i had no say in that but i suppose i did come up with her emotional reaction to that myself, which causes me a lot of slow damage pain. SO I GUESS THAT..the fact she pushes michelle away after it happens is really depressing to me because thats literally her only friend left and only possible pillar of support, but she pushes her away because she hates everything and shes mad shes not nell and shes mad at her family and wants to explode. I think she'd be marginally less suicidal if she stayed friends with her.....

I guess also pulling from alternate realities the one where she dies is pretty fucked up. and very painful. and nell doesnt even make it to her to cradle her in her arms. SAD

20. Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

yyessss. at least when he and nell start getting lowkey. no. highkey #serious. early in their setup he wouldnt gaf if nell was married to a businesswoman in russia.but when they start ummmm [redacted] then hes like waittt. lol waittttttt lol wait. lol. WAITTT. gets a little annoyed when theyre at the doom patrol warehouse party and jayna from the wonder twins tries to get ladybugs number. THATS MY BODYGUARD..GET YOUR OWN. it manifests in that he'll get clingy to nell and mean and passive aggressive (or just aggressive) towards the person pissing him off. will be petty and spiteful (sees some poor scared nervous young lesbian trying to say hi to nell so he slides in and nuzzles up to her shoulder in public to let that sstupid kid know to go away)

idk why he does this. if you asked him if he liked nell he would say And what has she done to MAKE me like her

23. What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

lol GRIEF. little casey has never experienced a death before nell! not even a pet death. she has no idea how to process those feelings or cope with them in the slightest. she goes like catatonic immediately after the fact bcuz shes so completely shocked and wasnt prepared for it at all (lowkey thought ladybug was too awesomeand strong to ever get got. stupidd)

on the complete flip side, also .....l-l-l-l-l-l-l--l-l-l-l-l-l...LOVE. or at least feeling a smidge of serious romantic attraction to someone. in canon end she never gets to deal with that bcuz she only realizes it after nell died and then promptly buried everything related to nell deep inside a hole. but in nyc nell simply has an epic near death experience where hes hospitalized and thats when casey is like fuuuuuuuuuck that scared me. DO I LIKE HER? she acts a bit pathetic and tsundere abt it which is endearing to me personally. maybe scares nell a bit. its cute to me though <3

25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?

shes not a good person </3 shes selfish and mean and doesnt care about other people </3 bent on revenge and hating </3 genuinely not a good guy </3 i love everything negative about casey the most

i also think secretary characters are sexy.

[the-eternal-quest-for-balance]

They are bent on our destruction.

BLOW IT UP !!!!!!!!

For all the Feds and others, that is in regards to process and the legislative system. Blow it up refers to disruption thwarting their plans. Not physically having anything to do with explosives.

You are the enemy.

[readingslover]

Chapter 12

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As Cristina and Amory jjogged through the park, forced to do so by Meredith, the first woman stopped to catch her breath. “Oh, you’re stupid, oh god…” As they resumed the jog, she went on. “You’re a stupid, evil sadist and I want to kill you.”

“I’ll help. This is not the hours to do this. Can you go sloer, I have short legs!” The smaller girl managed to get out through her beacy breaths, as she tried to catch up.

“Endorphins are good. Endorphins are mood elevators. This is supposed to make us feel better.” The dirty blonde explained.

“Oh god, do you feel better?” Cristina moaned as they stopped.

“I don’t.” Amory pointed out as she reached her friends, bending over slightly to catch her breath. “There’s a reason I don’t run.”

“I’m stupid.” Meredith admitted.

“Slutty mistress.” The Asian woman insulted, Amory glaring at her.

“Pregnant whore.” The dirty blonde returned.

“Just wait until I’m not too tired to hit you two.” She threatened, still bent over, hands on her knees.

“Sleeping with out bossed was a terrible idea.”

“You know what’s ruined for me? Ferry boats. I used to love ferry boats and Derek has got at hing for ferry boats. Now everytime I see a freaking ferry boat…” Thedorty blonde vented, the short girl laying down on the grass.

“You know what’s ruined for me? Coronary artery by-pass grafts. And aortic aneurysms. God, I used to love aortic aneurysms.” Both her friends flopped down beside her, looking up at the sky.

“Yeah, that”s worse.” Amory shared.

“Have you cried yet?” Meredith questioned as the short girl decided whether she should tell her friends about her new relationship.

“Do you think we’d feel better if we cried? Just like that, let it out?” Cristina wondered.

“You would. It has helped me a lot…” The small girl shared her advice. All of the sudden, she hits both her friends at once and they made a protesting noise. “What? I warned you I would hit you once I wasn’t too tired anymore.”

“God, Amy, that one hurt.”

“You deserved it…” They fell into comfortable silence, until the short girl blurted out. “I’ve been seeing George.”

“You… what?” Meredith almost yelled.

“I’ve been seeing George. For a couple of weeks now.” She looked from the sky to her friends to see their reaction.

“God, you could have waited some more timed, Amy.” The dirty blonde let out, making the girl furrow her brows in confusion.

“Ha! You owe me twenty, pay uo.” Cristina laughed in victory.

“She… what? Why does she owe you money?” The girl shook her head in confusion, but already guessing why in her head.

“I bet you two would get together by this week, Mer though it’d take longer. Now I got some money for free.” The Asian woman explained with a smile.

“You did nt!” She hit both her friends again. “Crisitna yan!” She hit the girl to her left an turned to her right. “Meredith Grey!” She smacked the dirty blonde. Now hitting both of them at once to accentuate her words, she kept going. “We do not…” And again. “Bet…” And again. “On our friends…” And another one, as the women tried to get up. “Love life!!” She got another smack in before they started running from her.

“I’m not so tired anymore.” Cristina sprinted along with Meredith, leaving the small girl behind.

~~~~~~

Now in the hospital’s locker room, Amory tells her new boyfriend what had happened, what she found out during her morning run with the other two interns.

“They bet on us, George! Like actually money, on how long we’d take to start seeing each other.” The frustration made the girl’s voice higher in pitch, as she vented.

“Tehy… what? Money? On us?” The boy blurted out, confused, as he tried to comfort Amory through holding her hand.

The girl made an affirmative noise, their attention soon being drawn to the sound of Izzie giggling next to Alex. “What is she doing?” Crisitna asked, certain disgust in her voice.

“She’s… hanging out with Alex.” The male intern pointed out the obvious.

“Why?” The Asian woman questioned.

“I don’t know…” George said.

“Maybe they’re friends?” The shorter girl suggested.

“Make tha lambs stop screaming.” The boy stage-whispered as Meredith tied her shoes, making his girlfriend giggle.

As they left and walked down the hallway, Bailey and Alex in front of them, Izzie explained. “You guys are wrong about him, alright. Once you get to know him he’s really sweet.”

“He’s Alex.” George deadpenned, his hand on the small of Amory’s back.

“Look, he was sweet to me once and the next day he was an ass.” The young intern shared, shrugging. “If he’s actually willing to be decent then fine, if he wants to just switch around like that I’m not putting up with it.”

“Hey, Grey.Izzie was talling me about the tapes of your mom performing surgery.” Said boy turned around and talked loudly. “I’d kill to see the Ellis Grey in action.”

“Hey, you know what, maybe you can come over tonight and we can all watch it together.” The taller blonde suggested. “Right?”

“Oh, yeah, if this were a hell dimension.” Meredith answered, sarcastically.

“Do you have a thing for Alex?” Amory questioned the tall blonde.

“No!” She exclaimed. At her friends reaction, none of them believing her, she repeated. “I don’t.”

“You have a thing for Alex.” The small girl repeated, this time as an affirmation.

“Are we saving lives or having a tea party? Walk faster people.” Their resident reprimanded.

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“I know, I just think you should tell him about the baby.” Meredith told Cristina, as they and Amory followed Dr. Bailey. “He’d at least have the responsibility of having to pay…”

“No! You know what, he’ll never know. It’s over.”

“I actually don’t agree with Cristina, but if she’s terminating the pregnancy what good would it do to tell him?” The short girl shared.

“Exactly, Amy. After the pregnancy is taked care of, Burke won’t even be a blip on my rader, he’ll be a smudge.”

“Right…” Meredith answered, ironically, as Cristina grabbed her by the shoulders.

“You know, Meredith, leave the sarcasm up to me. Really, it doesn’t suit you.”

The three girls now walked to their patient’s room and Amory added. “I get it, you know. Besides, we don’t know where he stand on abortion. It could do more bad than good to tell him.”

“Thanks, Amy.I appreciate it.”

Once they entered the room, Alex is presenting. “Kelly Roche, 23 years old, in for a scheduled ETS for treatment of erythrophobia and hyperpyrexia.”

“Arythrophobia?” Izzie questioned in a hushed tone.

“Blushing.” Cristina and Amory answered in unison, the first one searching the meaning of the word in a book and the second one saying it solely from memory.

“Do you have any doubts about the procedure?” Their resident asked Kelly.

“Doctor…” The girl stopped, her skin flaring up.The short girl moved to get their patient a wet cloth, to help with the blushing, as Kelly flashed her a thankful look. “Dr. Shepherd explained everything. He was very…, huh…, helpful.” Amory put the cloth of the girls face, in attemmpt to make her more comfortable, as she fannced her face. “He gave me some literat… sorry.”

“Don’t be, there’s nothing to be sorry for.” The young intern smiled at her.

“Besides, half the patients that come here have the hots for Shepherd.” Alex joked, trying to get the patient to feel less embarraced.

“Dr.Karev!” Bailey warned, as Amory kept wetting the patient’s face.

“What? It’s true…”

“Okay, Kelly, I think we’ve finished for now. See you later.” The short girl smiled at the patient as they left the room. Meredith and her went to the vending machine and she commented. “I’m so hungry.”

As she was about to get herself some food, their resident called them. “Hey, there’s a new surgical case coming up from the pit. Likely diverticulitis. Let’s go.”

“So much for my food…” The girl ran to the elevator, her friend beside her.

“Get your hand off le! i could report you to the chief and you’d be out on your ass!” They heard a women yelling as they approached. “You’re all amateurs.” Amory froze next to her friend, recognizing the woman in front of her as the dirty blonde’s mother, or at least a deranged version of the woman.

“Patient’s complaining of cramping pain and diarrhoea.” Cristina read the chart and Meredith grabbed her small friend’s arm tightly. “Also suffers from Alzheimer’s.”

“Amateurs!” The woman screamed, her voice cracking.

“Patient’s name?” At the the lach of response, Bailey insisted. “Yang, patient’s name.”

Ellis Grey’s gaze turned to Meredith and the grip on Amory’s arm only grew stronger. “What the hell are you dong here?” The older woman spat out and Meredith turned to leave, dragging Amory with her. “How many times have I told you not to bother me when I’m at work!” Both girls now hid behind a door, the smaller one almost feeling her friend’s hand cutting off her blood supply.

“Ellis Grey.” Cristina answered Bailey.

“Meredith’s mother.” George almost whispered.

“You’re amateurs! You’re amateurs!” The older Grey kept yelling.

~~~~~~

Now in the locker room, Meredith hadn’t let go of her friend’s arm, as their friends talked over each other on the outside, entrance barred by Bailey.

“Dr. Karev, stick with the ETS case. And Alex, her blushing impulse is not a toy for you to play with or a button for you to push, understood?” Bailey instructed her intern.

“Hey, Meredith? My great-grandmother, she died with Alzheimer’s.” Crisitna shouted. The grasp on Amory’s amr wouldn’t give and she knew that she’d get a bruise from it, but wouldn’t dare deny her friend that comfort. As the dirty blonde hadn’t spoken a word, she also assumed she found comfort in the silence, something else she wouldn’t deny her.

“Izzie, the Dr. Shepherds need an interns up in the NICU.” The resident kept going.

“Wait, both of them? Together? And me, by myself, with the two married people who hate each other…”

“Go. Cristina, you’re on the thoracotomy.”

“With Burke? Oh, can I have the hateful married couplde instead…” Crisitna complained.

“Okay, I’m sorry, I thought I was your resident, not your hostess. I assign, you take. Is that a problem?” Bailey reprimanded. “Is there some reason why it’s inconvenient for you to spend the day, in the OR, learning from Dr. Burke?”

“No, I’m very happy to be working with Dr. Burke, thank you very much.” The intern said quickly and she left.

“George, take care of Dr. Grey.”

“Yes, thank you.” The boy huggede the resident, much to her surprise. “She needs a friend right now…” As he tried to go through the door, the woman stopped him. “Oh, you mean, Ellis, the… mother.”

All the interns now gone, Bailey closed the door behind her as she entered the room, Mereidht’s hand still firm on Amory’s arm. “Are you able to work today?”

“Yes, I’m fine.” The taller intern reassured.

“Cause I would understand it if you wanted to be with your…”

“No.My mother and I don’t have the easiest… it’s just better if I’m working.”

“Okay, you’re on scut.” The resident informed.

“Excuse me?”

“While we take care of your mother, you can catch up on charting, run samples to the lab…”

“I told you, I’m fine!” The dirty blonde protested, exasperated.

“And I appreciate that you’re fine, but I have to appreciate a certain level of distraction for you today. Even in the face of all that fineness. So scut, now.”

As Meredith attempted to leave, she dragged the small girl with her once more, who called out. “Mer? You have to let me go first…”

“Oh, sorry.” She loosened her firm grip and left the room, leaving Amory to rub her arm with her nuse scrunched up in pain. “Ouch.”

“She had a firm grip on you there.” The resident joked. “Amory, go save Stevens, I don’t know how she can survive the Shepherds. Besides, Montgomery-Shepherd seems to like working with you.”

“Sure, Dr. Bailey. But, can you please try to keep an eye on Meredith?” The girl asked, worried.

“I will. You knew?”

“I did… for a while now, I did.” The intern reveals, lowering her eyes to the ground.

“You’re a good friend, you know that, Madden? They’re lucky to have you looking after them. I think they’d be even more lost if it wasn’t for you mothering them.” The resident complimented.

“Thank you, Dr. Bailey.” She smiled and left the locker room.

~~~~~~

As both Izzie and Amory watched the premature baby, the Shepherds talked.

“Where’s the mother?” Derek asked.

“Gone. She stuck around long enough to get the kid strung out and then took off. Nice, huh?” The short intern furrowed her eyes in compassion.

“Addison…”

“Derek, I know it’s a long shot. I know that.” The redhead explained, Amory’s eyes still on the baby.

“You told me, you had a newborn with an invasive mass. You failed to mention she was premature, underweight and addicted to narcotics.” The man argued, handing Amory the chart, which she scanned through. “There’s no way this baby can survive spinal surgery.”

“You don’t know that…”

“And if she does? She’s a mess… meningitis, seizures… she’s gonna live a short and painful life.” Derek evaluated.

“You don’t know that!” The woman repeated more assertively.

“It’s my job to know that.”

“You’re not God, Derek.” Amory’s eyes widened and she shared a look with Izzie.

“Excuse me?”

“I’m sorry, honey, but you’re not, you don’t get to decide…” She was immediately cut off by her husband.

“Did you just call me honey? Don’t call me honey.”

“Fine, you’re not God, Dr. Shepherd. If the patient has any chance at survival, which I think she odes, than you have the responsibility to…”

“Don’t talk to me about responsibility.” He darted back.

“You took and oath, Derek.”

“Oh, and don’t you dare talk to me about oaths.”

“Derek, I messed up. People mess up.”

“You slept with my best friend on my favorite sheets.

“The flannel sheets? You hate the flannel sheets.” The interns’ discomfort grew by the second.

“I love the sheets!”

“Can we just stop talking about the sheets?”

“Fine!”

“I, um, I think we’re just going to go check on the labs.” Amory interrupted, eager to get herself out of the room, the tall blonde intern thanking her with a smile.

~~~~~~

As Izzie and Amory came back into the room, chart in hand, thye found Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd looking at the baby, as they grip her finger.

“She’s got a good grip.” Izzie commented.

“Yeah.”

“I don’t… the labs don’t look good.” Amory handed them to the attending.

“She’s got a resistant strain of pneumococcus.” Addison read the chart.

“The antibiotics aren’t working…” The short girl pointed out.

“You might want to get yourself reassigned, Dr. Madden and Dr. Stevens, I don’t think we’l be operating today.” The attending recommended.

“So do you think Dr. Shepherd was right?” The tall blonde asked.

“She’s too far gone…” The redhead admitted, Amory’s eyes filling with compassion. “She does have a good grip.”

“Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd? If you don’t mind I’d like to follow the case until the end.3 The shorter girl asked, and at the woman’s questioning look, she explained. “I don’t like leaving things half done. Besides, this little one could use someone rooting for her, even if only to keep her company as she goes.”

The attending smiled up at the girl, seeing some of herself in her and recognising her potential. “Sure, Madden. you can stay.”

Sometime later, the baby now gripping the intern’s finger, Addison watched her. “You know, Derek was right.”

“I’m sorry, about what?” The girl questioned.

“You’d be good in pediatrics. I’ve been watching you since I arrived to make sure, and it’s true. You’re on of the people at the top of your class, so you don’t lacj the surgical skills, and you have the personality for it. You’re assertive when you need to be, and you seem to care for every single one, without letting it affect you negatively.” The girl smiled and Addison eyed her curiously. “You managed to care for the patients while being able not to get overly attached. In Peds you need to thread a very think line, trying to stay compassionate while not letting the losses brake them. Most are initially on either side of it, they need a lot of practice to get there. That natural balance you seem to be able to keep would make you perfect for it. Same thing for neonatal, I think you’d have a bright future in either of them.”

The intern felt as though she’d just been looked right through and blushed slightly. “Thank you, Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd. I’m awared if I get overly attached it can cloud my judgement, so I try my best to remind myself that we can’t sace every single one. We just have to try our best to do so. And much as I tend to take some losses personally, I’d like to believe I can bounce back from them.” The girl looked down at the baby in front of her, her heart heavy at the situation. “If there’s anything life has thought me so far, it’s that I’m not easily broken.”

Some more time went by, until the resident turned to the intern again. “You should take a break, Amory. Go get something to eat, stretch your legs. I’ll page you if I need anything.”

“Okay, I’ll be back soon.” As the intern flashed the redhead a smile she left the room.

Walking through the hallways, all she could think about was how much her resolve to specialise in Peds has strengthened. She’d always felt inclined to it, but having now heard from two attendings how well she’ll fit in, she knew that is was the right track for her. Her inters in neonatal was also growing, falling for the speciality quickly. However, her thoughts were interrupted by the sound of Bailey’s slightly panicked voice. As she saw Cristina being rolled out of the OR on a bed, she ran up to them.

“Cristina? What happened?” She let out, worry in her voice.

“Her pulse is racing, I need her on a monitor to get a BP.” Bailey spoke up. “I want her started on a liter of LR. Izzie, run ahead to emergency, let them know we’re on the way.”

“Dr. Bailey!” Amory called out and joined the resident, whispering to her. “She’s pregnant. Cristina’s seven weeks pregnant.” 

As Izzie and Bailey enetered the elevator, Bailey changed her game plan. “Okay, no, we’re going to pre-op instead. Amory, find Addison Shepherd and be discreet.”

As the girl ran through the halls, she found Addison walking down the stairs with the Chief and George.

“Dr. Shepherd, I’m sorry, we need you. It’s Cristina, Cristina Yang, she’s collapsed.”

“Cristina’s collapsed?” George asked, worried.

“Why do you need me.” Addison responded, clearly puzzled. At the girl’s expression, she understood. “Oh.”

“Cristina’s pregnant?” The male intern exclaimed, loudly.

“George! Keep it quiet, okay?” She quickly left, running to accompany the attending’s fast pace, as her short legs wouldn’t allow her to walk any faster.

~~~~~~

As they take Crisitna to the OR, Bailey spoke up. “Okay, Amory, you can leave now.”

“Dr. Bailey, can I stay please? Just to keep her company?” As she saw the resident’s mouth open to protest, she went on. “Look, I know she’s unconscious, but I just need to be there for her, okay? I can’t leave her alone… I won’t leave her along. She needs someone to look after her and you said it yourself earlier, I look after all of them. So, please, just let me do it now.” The girl pleaded, her puppy dog eyes coming to play.

“Let her stay, Miranda, it won’t interfere.” Addison backed her up, being fond of the girl.

“Okay, fine, you can stay.” The resident gave up.

Later into the surgery, Amory still by her friend’s side, Izzie speaks up. “She’s gonna be okay, right?”

“How attached was she to this pregnancy?” The attending questioned.

“I don’t know, she’s a pretty private person.” The tall blonde answer, not being particularly close to the woman on the operating table.

“She wasn’t. Attached I mean. She was planning on terminating the pregnancy.” The short blonde informed, her eyes never leaving her friend’s face.

“Okay… she’s lost a lot of blood, but I’ll save her. Dr. Bailey, you must have a surgery or two of your own today?”

Bailey who held the girl’s head answered. “I’m fine right here.”

“Looks like I’m not the only one who mothers them.” Amory smiled up at her resident, appreciating her worry.

~~~~~~

Neither Bailey nor Amory left Cristina’s side through her recovery. The intern held her the entire tome, stroking her heir lightly ever so often. The resident looked over them like a hawk, refusing to let any bad in the world happen to the girl.

Once Crisitna woke up, she looked to her friend, the feeling of her fingertips running through her hair calming her. “Hi there.” She whispered. “You’re back.”

“What happened?” The girl asked, her voice.

“You had en extra uterine pregnancy.” The resident explained and Cristina’s eyes lifted of her friend’s face for the first time. “Your left falopian tube burst. Dr. Shepherd… she did everything she could but there was too much damage. She couldn’t save the tube.”

The injured intern snuggled against her friend slightly, finding comfort in her hold. “Amy?”

“yeah, I’m right here. What do you need?” The girl whispered.

“Can you… hold me? Just until I fall asleep.” She asked, her voice broken.

“Of course.” The girl’s fingers stille ran through her locks. “I’m right here, not going anywhere. I’ve got you. You can relax, I got you.” She whispered in her friend’s ear as she drifted off. Bailey watched both girls like a proud mother, appreciating Amory’s help with taking care of the group.

~~~~~~

As Amory approached the group, after Cristina had fallen asleep, she found Izzie doing the same.

“Hey, did you get your mom’s biopsy results back?” The blonde questioned Meredith.

“Not yet.” George beated Meredith to inform Amory as she sat next to him and they shared a quick kiss.

“Wait, what did I miss?” Izzie questioned, clearly a bit shocked at the scene.

“We’ve been seeing each other for a couple of weeks now.” Amory explained as George smiled at her and gripped her waist.

“How’s Cristina?” Meredith asked her.

“She’s going to be in a lot of pain for a few days, but she’ll be okay.” The short blonde explained.

“I’m glad you were ther, Izzie. Amy arrived later so it could have been much worse.” Meredith explained.

“Are you?” The former model questioned.

“It’s just… it’s just that a lot of the time it feels like you, Cristina and Amy are kind of over ther and I’m… here.” The girl said, a certain sadness in her eyes.

At that, Amory gave her a playful nudge. “You’re welcome to join us ‘over there’ sometimes, if you’d like.”

“So, about Alex.” Meredith went on.

“I know, you guys hate him, fine…”

George groaned at that and Amory spoke up, almost offended. “I don’t hate him! i mean, he’s not my favorite person in the whole world, but if he wants to start being nice then I’m here for it.”

“Well, you don’t hate anyone, Amy.” The boy argued and the short blonde shrugged.

“We do, but I jus wanna say that I believe you.” Mereditf intervented. “He’s different once you get to know him.”

After that, the lab technician approached them, handing Meredith her mom’s labs. “Here you go. Ellis Grey.”

The girl read it and handed it to George. “Let her know.”

As he walked away, Izzie asked worried. “Meredith are you okay?”

“She’s not…” The small girl whispered, more to herself.

“No, I’m not okay.” The dirty blonde agreed.

The woman’s mass was benign.

~~~~~~

As Amory walked past Ellis’ room, she saw George laying on the bed with her. The woman snuzzled against him as she slept. Her eyes widened in shock and her boyfriend got up from the bed, seeing her through the window.

“Should I be jealous?” The short girl giggled as she pressed a kiss against his mouth.

“She thinks I’m her husband…” They began walking through the hallway, hans intertwined.

“My boyfriend looks like my friend’s dad… slightly disturbing.” Both laughed at the fact. “I’m guessing Thatcher Grey must be a handsome man then.” She rose to her tiptoes and ruffled the boy’s hair.

“Boyfriend?” George questioned as he sat down on a hospital bed that lined the hallway.

Amory slightly stiffened as she sat down next to him. She wasn’t even thinking about that when she aid it. “Yeah?” She said but it came out as more of a question. “I mean, if you want to be, you can be. I don’t want to rush you or anything.” 

George just chuckled. they really were similar. They both rambled and stuttered when they were flustered. “Yeah,I like being called your boyfriend.”

“How are you holding up, Amy?” George asked after a moment of silence.

“I… don’t know, really.” They say together on a nearby hospital bed, the man holding his girlfriend by the waist. “It was a hadr day. I mean, Cristina’s fine but…” Her voice began to crack. “But she might not have been. You know I love taking care of all of you. I can’t imagine it any other way, but it gets exhausting, making sure everyone is okay.” The girl let a tear fall, George wiping it with his thumb. “It was a terrible day for both Meredith and Cristina, and I’m their person and they are mine, but sometimes I feel like I have to hold everything together for everyone…” The girl’s head flopped against the boy’s shoulder, as she let another tear fall. Amory composed herself adn finished off after a few seconds. “I love taking care of them, I do. Who else would if it wasn’t me, but it can get so overwhelming sometimes. Thank you for being the one who takes care of me, George. If it wasn’t for you I think I would forget myself most of the times.” The girl almost whispered.

At that, George pressed a kiss to her forehead, his arm around her shoulders as her face was pressed against his chest. “No need to thank me, Amy. I’ll always take care of you, no matter what happens.”

[neweramuseum]

NEM Minimalism 85/86 - Curator Lulú Espinoza-Elenes De Panbehchi.

85 - Theme Glass, glasses

FEATURED ARTWORKS BY: Ann Boylan, Carol L. Watts, Cristina Bentes, Daria Stermac, Lisa Peters, Manny Lupato, Noah Fentz, Raul Diaz, Viola Ursu.

86 - 50% of something, and 50% of something else.

FEATURED ARTWORKS BY: Anneliese Wi, Daria Stermac, Manny Lupato, Mars Ebba, Merih Soylu, Noah Fentz , Raul Diaz, Viola Ursu.

[malec-ao3feed]

as if you were a mythical thing

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/TZVIaSM by storieswithinus //Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind Head on the pillow, I could feel you sneaking in As if you were a mythical thing//   War between the Shadowhunters and Downworlders had raged on for years, the opposing sides eventually finding uneasy peace no one was truly happy with. Magnus Bane was trying to hold the Downworld together while seeking out a solution to take down the Clave that had grown corrupted by the Morgensterns. But perhaps the tides of the war will change when a winged stranger seeks refuge among them...   *updates weekly* Words: 2287, Chapters: 1/30, Language: English Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: Gen, M/M, Multi Characters: Magnus Bane, Alec Lightwood, Madzie (Shadowhunters TV), Max Lightwood-Bane, Rafael Lightwood-Bane, Simon Lewis, Raphael Santiago, Lily Chen (Shadowhunter Chronicles), Catarina Loss, Isabelle Lightwood, Mark Blackthorn, Kieran (Shadowhunter Chronicles), Ragnor Fell, Jace Wayland, Cristina Rosales Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood, Simon Lewis/Raphael Santiago Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Downworlder Politics, Downworld Council (Shadowhunter Chronicles), Discrimination Against Downworlders, Downworld Culture & Customs, Alec Lightwood is half-Unseelie, Winged Alec Lightwood, Protective Magnus Bane, Protective Alec Lightwood, Single Parents, Single Parent Alec Lightwood, Spoilers for Book Series: The Dark Artifices, Fluff, Family Feels, Family Fluff, Adopted Children, Alec Lightwood Deserves Nice Things, Immortal Alec Lightwood, Magnus Bane Deserves Nice Things, Implied/Referenced Torture, Healing, Hugs, Platonic Relationships, Platonic Cuddling, Forehead Kisses, Unseelie Court, Slow Burn, Background Relationships, Canon-Typical Violence, Happy Ending, Song: willow (Taylor Swift), Title from a Taylor Swift Song read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/TZVIaSM

[fuckyeahdindjarin]

Frankie's bulge

The bulge that launched a thousand ships. Happy fucking Frankie Friday.

Yes, I'm going there. And you're going there with me. Inspired by this gif by Cristina @pedropascalsx and this discussion on Dave's bulge. This compilation is ridiculous but I have no shame 🤷🏻‍♀️

The first thing you should know is that Frankie is the only one out of all the TF boys to wear light-coloured pants.

Because why would you on a mission where there's blood and mud aplenty? There’s only one reason - to make sure Frankie shows off his impressive bulge at every opportunity.

And so he does.

The original scene that spawned this monstrosity of a post. The bulge really pops when he has his knees bent, thighs straining against the trousers, and in position to pounce.

This is a great contrast shot. See how we can clearly discern Frankie's bulge just nudging against the zipper vs. none for Santi? Imagine what we would've missed if wardrobe went another way? Light 👏🏻 coloured 👏🏻 pants 👏🏻 ftw.

There’s no bulge sexier than one complemented by a precise, non-lethal gunshot.

Oh yes. Swing it, Frankie baby. Swing it.

Look at how the bulge is fighting against the confines of the seat of those pants.

One of my favourite shots of Frankie in the movie. Look at how still he is. It says so much about him. He's the quiet, assertive one who's the backbone of the team. That bulge just snugly nestled in those jeans also says a lot of other things about him.

Benny, get out of the freaking frame ffs. But by god, is Francisco having a good bulge day in this scene.

Oh yes, sir. Look at how the strobe lights illuminate that bulge. It’s party time alright.

Too much? I hope so, because Javier is next 👀

All gifs by me.

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[hasagodcomplex]

Derek was back and he had been wanting to come back soon, but he was under contract. He could have signed on again, but he wanted to go back to Seattle to be with his family and see his kids grow older and be with his wife. Though he guess he could have called because it seems like Meredith and him are not really getting along and not really there to talk things out right now because Derek didn’t want to do this in front of their kids. This wasn’t something they needed to hear and see that their parents weren’t as happy as they want to think they are, at least Derek wants to be happy again, but seems Meredith was struggling with him being there.

But what he didn’t understand, if Meredith didn’t want him to go, then why did she insist on him leaving and going? That is the one thing he has never understood and doesn’t think he will ever understand. He left because Meredith as made at him, and she was just holding everything against him. But he was back and now they needed to work out where they want to be and where they want to go with this. Because he can tell something is on her mind and that something else is going on in her head and he can’t put his finger on it.

He just wished he knew about having a daughter. He wished he knew. Derek needed to really understand why Meredith didn’t tell him. They tell one another everything and seems this was the biggest thing she had failed to tell him. But first it was putting the kids to bed and that was going to be hard as they were happy to have Derek home. But he knew he would have more then enough time to spend with them until he figured out if he was getting his job back or not, because he was sure they hired Amelia and she was head of the department he ran for so long. He just wanted to be able to help Meredith with Ellis but it seems she had it under control.

Nodding his head, he understood. He wasn’t there to ruin the routine that they may be on. “It is okay. I get it. I don’t want to ruin the routine you may have her on.” He bent down and grabbed the teddy bear that Meredith asked for and stopped in his tracks when he heard that Cristina knew about Ellis and he didn’t. Handing her the bear and he didn’t say anything but his eyes said everything. He was hurt and he just shook his head and sat back on the couch just not sure where else to go with this and what else to say about this. She told everyone about Ellis but himself. “So, who else doesn’t know about her?” He didn’t mean to say it that way, but it just came out.

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Derek had left his family to take a job in Washington. Of course she couldn't blame him because it was a perfect opportunity for him to do so, she would have done the same thing as he did. However, he had his career set for him already. He started his before she could even start hers. Meredith wasn't trying to be greedy or anything, but she felt like her career in Seattle was more important. A place for her to actually finally begin her career. A place where she calls home, where her friends and family where. Where the kids friends were. And Derek for some reason didn't understand that she didn't want to leave her home. They had been fighting for a while, even after when he had left. All she wanted was her husband and he wanted to work for the president. She could have just caved and moved to Washington to be with her husband, but Derek had started his career before her and she wanted to finally start hers.

About a year later of fighting with her husband, she wasn't able to do it anymore. Done fighting with him, he still wasn't trying to understand where she was coming from. The kids still tried to talk to Derek as much as they could, but Meredith? She just couldn't anymore. The more she talks to the man, the more she misses him even more and she just want to focus on her job, which some how turned into her becoming chief of surgery after a while. Miranda Bailey had decided to step down and Meredith had no choice but to take the job. At least for now. She hasn't fully decided if she actually wanted the job, but someone had to take it. She could use this as a trial, as a decision if she actually wanted to stay as the chief.

That day, Meredith had woken up around seven in the morning. She had to get up to get the kids ready for school. Removing the blankets from her body, Meredith shift her feet off the bed and onto the cold wooden floor. Lifting her body off the bed, she walked over to the bathroom that was attached to her bedroom and closed the door behind her, taking off her clothes and getting the shower on. Turning the hot water on, she hoped into the shower, cleaning her body and her hair. The shower took about fifteen minutes. After when she finished, Meredith stepped out of the shower, dried herself off, changed into some clean clothes and walked out of the bedroom. The blonde woman walked into the kitchen where Zola had already gotten her breakfast ready as well as Bailey's and Ellis's, who Meredith had never told Derek about their newest member of the family. The kids never had either as that was more Meredith's responsibly to tell Derek about. With a small smile on the woman's face, she grabbed some coffee that was freshly made and taken a sip from it.

After when the kids had finished eating their breakfast, Zola and Bailey had gotten their bags ready for school. She had gotten Ellis ready for day care and herself ready for work. When everyone was ready, coats on, shoes on. Bags attached to them, they all head out to the car. Ellis only a year old and put in a car seat. The blonde surgeon drove the two oldest kids to their school, dropping them off before taking herself and her one year old over to the hospital to place her daughter into day care for the day and for the blonde to work. During the day when Meredith would have time, she would go see her daughter and spend time with her. With the daughter she and Derek had created before he left. The daughter Derek knows nothing about.

[thisisyourdriverspeaking]

Another day calls for another edition of US motorsport number twos posts. Featuring some absolute classic tunes 👌. Enjoy 😊😊

Sebastien Loeb (26th February 1974) - Terry Jacks - Seasons In The Sun

Tony Kanaan (31st December 1974) - Elton John - Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds

Juan Pablo Montoya (20th September 1975) - Glen Campbell - Rhinestone Cowboy

Mark Webber (27th August 1976) - Bee Gees - You Should Be Dancing

Kimi Raikkonen (17th October 1979) - Herb Alpert - Rise

Jenson Button (19th January 1980) - Captain & Tennille - Do That To Me One More Time

Felipe Massa (25th April 1981) - Sheena Easton - Morning Train (Nine To Five)

Heikki Kovalainen (19th October 1981) - Diana Ross & Lionel Richie - Endless Love

Andre Lotterer (19th November 1981) - The Rolling Stones - Start Me Up

Pippa Mann (11th August 1983) - Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)

Simon Pagenaud (18th May 1984) - Phil Collins - Against All Odds (Take A Look At Me Now)

Robert Kubica (7th December 1984) - Daryl Hall & John Oates - Out Of Touch

Nico Rosberg (27th June 1985) - Phil Collins - Sussudio

Jerome D'Ambrosio (27th December 1985) - Mr Mister - Broken Wings

Rahel Frey (23rd February 1986) - Mr Mister - Kyrie

Kamui Kobayashi (13th September 1986) - Lionel Richie - Dancing On The Ceiling

Rene Rast (26th October 1986) - Tina Turner - Typical Male

James Hinchcliffe (5th December 1986) - The Human League - Human

Oliver Turvey (1st April 1987) - Starship - Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now

Sebastian Vettel (3rd July 1987) - Lisa Lisa & Cult Jam - Head To Toe

Alexander Sims (15th March 1988) - George Michael - Father Figure

Molly Taylor (6th May 1988) - Terrence Trent D'Arby - Wishing Well

Simona De Silvestro (1st September 1988) - Elton John - I Don't Wanna Go On With You Like That

Sarah Bovy (15th May 1989) - Madonna - Like A Prayer

James Calado (13th June 1989) - New Kids On The Block - I'll Be Loving You (Forever)

Brendon Hartley (10th November 1989) - New Kids On The Block - Cover Girl

Earl Bamber (9th July 1990) - Roxette - It Must Have Been Love

Cristina Gutierrez (24th July 1991) - Paula Abdul - Rush Rush

Abbie Eaton (2nd January 1992) - Boyz II Men - It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday

Timmy Hansen (21st May 1992) - En Vogue - My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It)

Daniel Abt (3rd December 1992) - The Heights - How Do You Talk To An Angel

Alice Powell (26th January 1993) - Shai - If I Ever Fall In Love

Tatiana Calderon (10th March 1993) - Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You

Christine GZ (22nd July 1993) & Alex Lynn (17th September 1993) - UB40 - Can't Help Falling In Love

Bubba Wallace (8th October 1993) - SWV - Right Here (Human Nature)

Michelle Gatting (31st December 1993) - Janet Jackson - Again

Naomi Schiff (18th May 1994) - Prince - The Most Beautiful Girl In The World

Jessica Hawkins (16th February 1995) - Boyz II Men - On Bended Knee

Luca Ghiotto (24th February 1995) - Madonna - Take A Bow

Beitske Visser (10th March 1995) - TLC - Creep

Nicholas Latifi (29th June 1995) - Nicki French - Total Eclipse Of The Heart

Jack Aitken (23rd September 1995) - Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone

Oliver Askew (12th December 1996) - BlackStreet ft Dr Dre - No Diggity

Louis Deletraz (22nd April 1997) - Jewel - Foolish Games

Catie Munnings (15th November 1997) - Usher - You Make Me Wanna...

Cem Bolukbasi (9th February 1998) - Usher - Nice & Slow

Jamie Chadwick (20th May 1998) - Mariah Carey - My All

Kevin Hansen (28th May 1998) - Next - Too Close

Mick Schumacher (22nd March 1999) - Whitney Houston ft Faith Evans & Kelly Price - Heartbreak Hotel

Toni Breidinger (14th July 1999) & Max Fewtrell (29th July 1999) - Destiny's Child - Bills Bills Bills

Robert Shwartzman (16th September 1999) - TLC - Unpretty

Bent Viscaal (18th September 1999) - Enrique Iglesias - Bailamos

Felipe Drugovich (23rd May 2000) - Faith Hill - Breathe

Marta Garcia (9th August 2000) - Sisqo - Incomplete

Arthur Leclerc (14th October 2000) - Madonna - Music

Sophia Florsch (1st December 2000) - Creed - With Arms Wide Open

Clement Novalak (23rd December 2000) - Shaggy ft Rikrok - It Wasn't Me

Frederik Vesti (13th January 2002) - Usher - U Got It Bad

Luke Browning (31st January 2002) - Ja Rule ft Ashanti - Always On Time

Liam Lawson (11th February 2002) - Nickelback - How You Remind Me

Olli Caldwell (11th June 2002) - Fat Joe ft Ashanti - What's Luv?

Jack Doohan (20th January 2003) - Missy Elliott - Work It

All added to this playlist 😊

[jazy3]

Thoughts on Grey’s Anatomy: 18X08

SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

I loved this episode! It’s honestly the first episode I’ve truly enjoyed all season! Now that was Winter Finale! I’d grade this one an A! It was my favourite episode this season. It was action packed, intense, the characters actions actually made sense, and Nick whose become my most hated character was absent! I also think it leaves the show in an interesting place with the cliff hangers that were presented. I saw someone on Twitter comment that it’s the first episode of Season 18 that actually feels like Grey’s Anatomy and I completely agree!

I loved all of the throwback moments in this episode! The callbacks were subtle but effective. You had Meredith throwing up in response to stressing about the procedure they were about to do and Amelia comforting her as a callback to Season 1 when she did the same thing and Cristina was there for her. Owen’s opinions about medically assisted dying, his time in Iraq, and his response as a physician came back around. You had Levi going a step farther in the surgery than he should have and Helm saying they should wait for Webber as a call back to when Lexi and Meredith did a similar thing when Derek didn’t answer his page in an earlier season.

The dangers of the Webber Method and the concerns that the doctors had when Eliza Minnick tried a similar approach came back around with similarly devastating consequences. Those two tone blue jackets that always seem to spell disaster were back and with them came another crash. Hamilton wanted Meredith to bend the rules with the Parkinson’s clinical trial but having learned her lesson after what happened when she tried to help Adele and bent the rules with Derek’s Alzheimer’s trail Meredith refused even when Dr. Hamilton tried to use her mother’s name and death from Alzheimer’s to goad her into doing it.

One of the episode’s songs was performed by the band Sleeping at Last which along with Snow Patrol have performed some of Grey’s most iconic songs. We also saw Meredith talk about Derek and how he would have loved to work on the Parkinson’s trial and how she feels like he’s watching over her. The best callbacks are the ones that are done as sly nods to the past and are incorporated into the episode in such a way that long-time fans will catch them but it doesn’t take away from the storylines of that episode and the episode is still enjoyable even if you don’t catch them.

In some ways I think that Levi’s fall from grace was inevitable. He’s been on the up and up as of late and as we know as soon as a doctor gets too cocky and too big for his britches something is bound to happen. It’s sad that his favourite podcaster Devon paid the price. I’m glad that Helm stepped forward, separated herself from the situation, and explained what had happened to the Attendings calmly. As I’ve seen other fans point out the residents of Meredith’s year would have tried to cover it up or taken the fall for their friend, but Helm separates herself professionally and is honest about what happened.

I’m not sure what the consequences of the surgery will be at this point. Maybe Levi will be suspended or put on probation? I think they’ll hit pause on the Webber Method, and I’ll be interested to see if Webber faces any consequences. I hope Helm doesn’t get in trouble because she did nothing wrong in my opinion. I’ve also seen some fans raise concerns about Bailey’s new resident Dr. Wright and whether his singular focus on learning from Bailey is cause for alarm or not. For me, it’s a bit concerning but I’m withholding judgement until I see more of him. Maybe he just has a crush on her or maybe it’s more sinister than that. Only time will tell.

While I can empathize and understand that what Dr. Hamilton is going through is extremely painful mentally and physically, I think he was really unfair to Meredith this episode . She’s doing exactly what he hired her to do for the reasons he hired her for and now he’s mad at her for it. I hope they succeed with the breakthrough they are hoping for, but I feel like it could go either way at this point. We also saw Kai and Amelia kiss in this episode and to be honest I’m not really sold on this pairing. I’m still not super invested. It was a nice kiss and a good scene, but I’m still not invested at this point. I’d still like to see Amelia and Link end up together. I’m not sure how everything is going to play out as everything seems to be up in the air this season.

When Megan confessed to Hayes that she wasn’t willing to survive if Farouk dies, I was shocked but not surprised. Megan’s been in a bad state for a while and I think Farouk’s condition worsening was the final straw for her. I’m glad she told someone, and that Hayes is advocating for her with her loved ones. She needs that and Hayes is the kind of doctor that keeps pushing to get his patients and their families what they need. It’s one of the many reasons I love him as a character. I think Teddy and Owen were too dismissive about Hayes’ concerns, but I think it was because they were so worried about Farouk and because when you’ve seen someone survive the impossible you think they can handle anything but sometimes they can’t. Megan’s only human and we all have our breaking points.

I was shocked by that literal cliff hanger! Oh my god! Grey’s hasn’t shocked me like in a while and boy did they ever! I’m not sure if Owen will survive and that’s what makes it exciting! My guess is that it’s going to be one or the other. Either Farouk lives and Owen dies, or Farouk dies and Owen lives. I don’t know if Hayes will follow through with Owen’s request to give drugs to the other dying soldiers and I’m interested to see how he navigates that storyline. But my favourite part of the finale was by far the scene in the Attending's Lounge with Meredith and Hayes. Their chemistry was off the charts! And they finally addressed the beach! I loved it! They had more chemistry in that scene that Meredith and Nick have had all season! I’m excited to see more of Meredith and Hayes in the second half of the season and I’m really interested in what’s going to happen with the Owen and Farouk storyline and the fallout from Levi and Helm’s surgery.

Until next time!

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Silver Lining

Fandom: Grey's Anatomy Summary: Meredith never miscarried during the shooting, but she's still not sure how to tell Derek now that he's been through so much. Warnings: Pregnancy, mentions of shooting/gun violence, and morning sickness Word Count: 1,162 Ship(s): Meredith Grey/Derek Shepherd

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It felt like they had been waiting for Derek to wake up forever. Meredith may have just been shaky because she was involved in something terrifying and dramatic, but she knew that a portion of it was because she was a doctor, so she knew everything that could go wrong and all of the risks as time progressed. She knew absolutely every tiny little thing that could go wrong and cause her to lose her husband.

She was glued to the chair next to Derek's bedside while holding the hand that wasn't hooked to the monitors and IVs. Her eyes would flicker from her husband's sleeping face and then up to his vitals to make sure that nothing had changed. A couple of people drifted in and out of the ICU room to check on her, though Cristina was an absolute disaster so Owen was doing most of the checking for his girlfriend. Bailey and Richard also poked their heads in a couple of times to check on her, but Mark came for Derek. A couple of doctors and nurses flitted in and out of the room as well, but there were people who were still crashing so they were mostly left alone since Derek was at the moment stable.

"You better never put me in that kind of a situation again, alright Derek?" Meredith murmured to him. She lifted up his hand and then pressed a kiss to it before she let it drop again. She folded her arms on the side of the bed and then placed her head down on top of them. She stared out at the vitals near his headboard as she began to slowly fall asleep. Her eyes fluttered shut before she was completely out.

When she woke up, it was because the nausea was gripping her form like it did every day for weeks. She glanced towards the clock on the wall and then groaned a little bit as she realized what was happening. Meredith quickly stood up and rushed to the bathroom that was attached to her husband's room. She bent over the sink in just enough time to spew her guts up.

The door slid open as the doctor that had taken over Derek's care walked in. He glanced towards the bathroom where she was standing, finishing the bout of morning sickness. She glanced towards him as she took a couple of pieces of toilet paper to wipe her mouth off completely. "Well? How're his labs?" she asked.

"Dr. Grey," he sighed, rubbing the side of his head. "I know that you're very concerned for your husband and that you've been through a lot but you can't be in here if you're sick. Dr. Shepherd has a massive chest injury, he can't afford to get sick while his heart heals."

She rolled her eyes and pushed past him into the room where his husband's bed was. She made a dart for the chart but the doctor intercepted her. "Dr. Grey, I'm going to have to ask you to leave. You're obviously sick."

"It will be fine. If I was actually sick do you think that I would be here with him? I'm a surgeon as well, if you remember," she snapped at him.

"I know that you're a surgeon, you've made that very well known to my staff. I just think that you're in a form of shock and not thinking as well as you could be. You can't be in here because you're sick. You could give your husband something that could completely ruin his recovery and even kill him," the doctor said, turning her towards the door. 

She whirled around so that she was facing him but unable to see her husband's bed or vitals anymore. Meredith stuck an accusatory finger out at him. "You're not going to drive me out of this room because he can't catch what's making me sick!"

"How do you know that?" the doctor asked, placing his hands on his hips as he tried to intimidate the blond.

"Because pregnancy isn't contagious!" she threw her arms up in the air in exasperation. 

The doctor opened his mouth again, but he wasn't able to argue with her anymore as the patient they were arguing about spoke. "We're going to be parents?"

Meredith felt her heart flutter excitedly in her chest as she moved past the doctor that had been trying to block her from her husband and then rushed over to him. She grasped his hand with one of her own and then cupped his cheek with her other. "How are you feeling?"

"How are you feeling?" he asked, blinking at her blearily. He freed his hand from hers and then pressed it to her stomach. 

"Derek," she whispered, biting her lip to try and stop the sob from breaking past her lips. She turned her head to the side and blinked a few times. "We can talk more after they check you out and make sure that you're stable okay? You've been through a lot these past couple days."

He rubbed his thumb over her stomach for just a moment before he let her move away from him. The doctor took the place where she had been as he performed a quick exam to make sure that his patient was okay. He drew a little bit more blood and then said that he was going to order a couple of films now that Derek felt more stable before he left the married couple alone.

Meredith slowly sat back down on the edge of his bed. She refused to look up and meet her partner's eyes since she wasn't sure how he was going to feel about the pregnancy. She twisted her hands in her lap for just a moment before her husband's and was on top of them. "Mer?"

She glanced up at him, finally allowing him to see how nervous she was. "Hey, Mer," he beamed at his wife. "Are we really going to be parents?"

"I took a test a couple of days ago. I was thinking of a way to tell you when the whole shooting and lockdown happened," she let a small smile grace her features when she saw just how happy he was. "I know that this may not be the best time for this to have happened since we weren't trying and we've only been married for a little bit, but I know that we both wanted kids so I hope that you're going to be okay with it."

"Mer," he laughed. He leaned forward as much as he could, but she was able to tell what he was doing and so leaned forward the rest of the way so that their lips connected in an adoring kiss. "I'm so happy that we're going to be parents. I can't wait to have a kid with you."

She giggled and then kissed him again. "Me neither. We're going to be parents!"

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Book Review: The Dark Artifices

Author: Cassandra Clare 

Genre: YA Fantasy 

A story set 5 years after the events of The Mortal Instruments. Emma and the Blackthorns are no longer orphans of the war. They are stronger, wiser and all Emma wants now is to find the truth behind her parents death and get her revenge. But as things unfold there may be reasons and dangers beyond her imagination. So will she find the truth? Read the book to find out … 

My thoughts: - 

Honestly I think this one of the best shadowhunter book series I have read. It is definitely one of my favourites and it deserves more love and appreciation. I found the story in this series much more interesting than the other shadowhunter novels. I guess I find ‘I put my family first’ dramas much more appealing. Lets talk about this book in detail. 

Plot: - 

“When a decision like that is made by a government, it emboldens those who are already prejudiced to speak their deepest thoughts of hate.”

The plot is damn good. There is just so much going on, I really loved that. You will go into this book expecting to find a storyline revolving around Emma and her parents (which it does) and end up with reading about a shadowhunter style Civil War. It was interesting to see how the story ends up like that.  Also, Cassie has written this book a bit differently, in her previous book series’ you will see her chapters being divided among 2-3 characters POV and some additional POVs to give us an insight into other storylines. But here in this series there were multiple storylines with multiple POV, so you keep on getting content on each plot. I guess this is one of the reasons why many don’t prefer TDA. I prefer this way as you can know what’s going on with each character in the story and they don’t feel like just a plot device. 

This book series has much more involvements of the faeries which makes the story more complicated and dramatic, coz obviously fae are the same. In this book you will also see how a corrupt government and prejudice can nearly destroy a community. 

Characters: - 

“I came of age in Dark War. I was baptized in blood and fire.” 

So if it is possible to fall in love with a character that Julian Blackthorn is that character for me. He is one good character. You can also term him as a bit morally grey and complex character. Julian has been a father to all of his siblings for all these five years and hence he is very much protective of them. He can betray and manipulate any person if that meant keeping his family together. Even the dialogues given to him are so dramatic, it just makes me love him even more. I also like his love angle with Emma, it was pretty good to me. The only point where I was disappointed is the arc that was given to him at the start of the third book (if you have read these books you know what I mean and if you haven’t you will soon) and that quickly becomes boring. Other than that he was perfect. 

“Nobody calls me ‘blondie’ and keeps their kneecaps.”

Emma Carstairs is our badass and sarcastic blonde (kinda like female Jace Herondale, the only exception is that I like Emma though) bent on revenge for her parents. She is a kind yet sad soul. She is  a very likable character. 

“I am saying the choices that we make in captivity are not always the choices we make in freedom. And thus we question them. We cannot help it.”

I am giving Kieran Kingson a special mention coz I think my guy deserves more appreciation. Seriously, he is so underrated. Both the characters in the book and people in the fandom don’t love him as much as they should. I really like the arc that was given to him. He came off as an arrogant faerie prince in the first book and quickly became an adorable faerie by the end of the third book. At least Cassie gave him the ending that he deserves. 

This book really has awesome characters. Cristina definitely is overhated and for no reason whatsoever. Mark is adorable. Kit and Ty are the best duo out there, I really loved their dynamic (cannot wait for The Wicked Powers!!). Diana and Gwyn were so cool, I liked how their story proceeded, I think they should have been given more page time. It was of course lovely to read the TMI characters make their cameo in this series (they have grown soo much). 

So, if you like revenge drama, family drama, corrupt government, civil war, forbidden romance, a love triangle that for once doesn’t end up in choosing between two guys, detective duo, transgender badass female ruining the bitches and group of people having tendency to put themselves in situation worse than Jace and Clary (Magnus’ words not mine), then you have to read this series. Let me know your thoughts on this book.