#Contradictions everywhere

[sm-writes-chaos]

It’s just as I feared

I finally gathered enough courage to look back at the earlier chapters and….a lot has changed

Including my writing ability (which kinda makes me proud)

Well I don’t have to worry about those chapters for a while so we’ll ignore them for now :)

[thesingingrevolution]

this chapter with the color analysis thingy is reminding me of when i went to a cafe with a girlie i’m barely acquainted with and one of the things we talked about there was the color seasons, she showed me a website but i feel like it wasn’t accurate for me 😭

[vriskaserketdaily]

thoughts on tgirl vriska ? she’s real to me but ur like the #1 vriska enjoyer on my dash so I was wondering what u think

im gonna be real after going into the tag every day for the past 3+ years and seeing every possible take and headcanon my bar is so low that i'm just happy we're in agreement that vriska is a girl

tgirl vriska is a well-supported read of her character, but not the only valid one in my opinion. that being said, if you're a hardcore cis vriska truther, you do yourself a great disservice by ignoring her dysphoric characterization---whether you read that as early-transition transfem dysphoria, lesbian butch dysphoria, alternian caste dysphoria, or any combination of the above.

i do not, however, read her dysphoria as transmasculine in nature, and maintain that vriska's gender (girl/woman) is extremely important in understanding her role in the story, her relationships with other characters, and how the concepts of heroism, protagonism, justice, and strength impact her narrative. a transfem reading does not detract from this, nor does it particularly enhance anything to me, someone who already read vriska as a dysphoric lesbian & therefore already accounted for some form of Gender to be going on regardless of the hypothetical birth-assignment situation.

basically, my personal opinion is that her trans status is a nice garnish but irrelevant to what already is a fascinating, compelling, and well-rounded (dare i say, strong) female character. the fact that she's a female character is more important to me than the fact (or headcanon) that she is a trans character, because i regularly see and cope with the most asinine and blatantly incorrect headcanons and takes about her on this earth. you're asking a man dying of thirst whether a gallon of ice water or a gallon of merely cool water is better.

my bar for sexuality headcanons is likewise on the floor. y'all don't have to agree with me on the lesbian reading but as long as we concur that she's wlw then everything is a-okay by me. my final message 2 da world: never go into the tags of your favorite character.

[silverhalla]

alright time for my two cents about it

imo not officially addressing some of the big world-shaping decisions from the prior games is the right move? even a non-central decision like sacrificing the chargers or not recruiting a companion splinters the game - if every world state gets to be the canon world state, where all of the decisions are referenced and included and neatly lined up, how do you continue to build a cohesive narrative? the more decisions you import, the more the state of the world continues to branch. at a certain point I think you have to make a choice - either embrace the idea that no two players will ever create the same thedas so there can never be one central world state for the series as a whole, or leave the bulk of those choices offscreen. if it isn’t being addressed onscreen, to either canonize a certain choice or to redact it, you’re walking a fine line where you can have both player freedom and a cohesive story.

I personally just think that at a certain point, addressing every decision a player has ever made is going to make the world smaller, not bigger. how far can all those branching narratives splinter before they run out of story to safely tell without doubling back on prior player choices? why would they even want to take that chance?

[jbmeade]

i originally posted this two days ago and was trying to fix an issue with it not showing up on my blog? and so in the middle of that i deleted it. like a dumbass so if it's still not showing up i'm just going to live with it

anyway There's a lot of talk about the Dunmer of Windhelm and how that ties into the Stormcloak/Imperial decision and so much of it is less about them and more about Skyrim politics not a lot of talk about how absolutely awful the Red Year was for the average Dunmer fleeing their homeland. My Dragonborn, Llunara Saravelos, with what remains of her family in the 5th year of the 4th era.

[nieranddear]

Rereading the dialog that is said during suppressions. Abel specifically says 'Loved Ones' as he speaks about those in the upper layer's demise and their struggle and urging to stop as continuing on is futile. Abram says 'colleagues'. 'Coworkers'. He does refer to them as 'Friends' once as well. But every other dialog is about Carmen or generalizing and saying 'everyone' rather than specifics. It just feels odd a bit to where he uses less strong terms when referring to relations with people and then afterwards only refers to Carmen by name rather than those still existing beside him. Even when it was stated by a facet of A and others (I can only remember Hokma off the top of my head. It may be only him which would make sense) refer to A having seen them as specifically 'Loved Ones'. Which is a far stronger showing and expression of emotion to those around you.

It makes me think of how he, Abram, expressed his desires, the desire to die [see: 'sink'/'sleep' for he explicitly refers to death consistently as slumber and when bringing the dead back 'waking them up'] and stop, in that moment. He constantly brings up, in general terms, self punishment and Carmen. Guilt that is carried with Carmen. Memories of her death, her passing. Of how she left without a smile. Of how she can no longer bask in the warmth of the sun she loved to do so frequently. Yet only of Carmen in name. Never anyone else or specifics of people, generalizations when referring to others and referring to them all inside a group, as a collective. Them and then Carmen. Focused on only that. On the fact he cannot move forward. Urging to just shut the eyes and to simply Sink. To Sleep. To die. It reminds me of when one goes ahead and becomes so interlaced with suffering and grief and despair that one simply stews inside of it, spiraling down further into that single train of thought. Holding onto the image of a dead and deceased one. It feels as if, in a more crude way of saying it as I cannot formulate a different way currrently at the moment, searching of 'justification' and a fitting reason to commit suicide. [I say Justification as what I really mean to say a 'fitting reason', that reason and end seeming to Be the Only way to continue, or lack of continue, at that point to him.] Rather than saying the names or specifics of those around him, of his loved ones still inside those metal boxes, he becomes enveloped in grief and only on Carmen. Abram's mistake which he fixates the most upon. Holds deep guilt for. Blames himself for. Saying he drove her to her death. That he is leaving her behind [I didnt save the exact quote but it was generally that]. When those inside the facility are people he also so clearly values and wished to bring back as well he, at this moment, primarily focuses on Carmen. Even when he does address the others it's in a more brief manner, having two pieces of dialog on the Sephirot specifically and it only relating to his Faults relating to them than the people themself when he speaks of Carmen in a more in depth manner. Perhaps it's still the wish clinging of to not hold trust in anyone. But it feels reminiscent to when a person tries to push themself and gain 'courage' to commit suicide. Of focusing only on the guilt and regret and the mourning of one already gone, who was so near and dear whom he did all of this for in the first place his desire only stemming from her and not the project itself, especially one who also killed herself, to go ahead and die as well. Perhaps it's not even an active thing he does in his mind. It's just become so overbearing that he has now gotten stuck in that never ending loop. Using far more stronger language of the woman dead and gone who he wishes to rejoin than of those currently alive and near to him, making them feel far more distant than they actually are mentally – at least in relations and connections wise. Depression does tend to tear down what one feels towards their loved ones and how they process and view relationships causing for people to exhibit such a thing by feeling distant in a room or alone with a loved one nearby as commonly known – and physically. I'm not saying that's 'totally what it is' or the sort. More of that reading it over again just reminded me of such a thing. Nothing revolutionary but more ramblings to process it all after it ended

[meiloorunsmoothie]

my brain has been filled with things that are not jeremy, potentially why there is not-spam today (i say, as i spam everyone). nevertheless, this has been playing in my head on loop the entire day.

[an-incoherent-mess]

So I'm really into genealogy and have been for a few years now and I'm blessed with being really good with names and dates etc. So in conversation I can remember like a ridiculous amount of:

Jane Doe Smith Johnson

b. 1805 Tennessee d. 1879 Missouri

Married 1828 to John Patrick Johnson. Had five children. Died of TB

Etc etc

And that's cool enough apparently but I've mostly been using it for

A. Making up bullshit but real sounding names for stuff (i.e my name is Emily Stewart, Grace Kolár, etc). The point is that they're normal sounding and varied.

B. Having a bizarre frame of reference for historical events. Like "oh [small town],[state] 1942 had [random] event happen? My 1st cousin 4x removed got married there that year, small world!"

It's so dumb, like I'll read about some historical event from my area (where I've had family in the vicinity of since the 1840s) and I'll link up the time frame in my head and be like hmm... I wonder what 3rd great aunt Helen thought about that happening next door to her church.

[mobiused]

I have a lore question if you habe the time: do we know why yyxy is in Cher from Clueless cosplay?

I've spoken about this before, I can't find where I've spoke about this before, but I think it's to do with setting yyxy's time in Eden as a story that takes place in the 90s. A lot of the lore is set in the late 90s, indicated primiarly in Vivi's and yyxy's arc with fashion and technology, such as the cassette tapes, walkmans, computers, VHSs and whatnot. As mentioned in the 1/3 section of this post, I think there might be some geopolitical signifiers too, that suggest a lot of the story is set in this time period. Talking about Walkmans at all reminds me of this theory, from ChoerryColour, whose theories are focused on metanarratives and the music industry and really worth checking out.

By using one of the most iconic outfits from the 90s, right in 1995, it helps indicate when this part of the story is taking place, and what that means. If yyxy's arc occurs at the same time as Vivi's pre-robotification life (as suggested by EDILY's retro vibes) then you can more easily make connections between the two, like why Yves shows up on Earth in The Carol 2.0, why Vives go on a date in 'new', why a lot of strange things happen like they do. What message are they trying to deliver by setting it specifically in the 90s, over setting it in present day, or a nonspecific time all together?

[lemonbubble]

ugh, i finally got that tumblr mobile update that makes pictures into like??? an endless livestream scroll thing???? and all the shortcuts are different now??? you scroll (the same motion that used to close the picture) and it takes you to a whole different post????? it fucking sucks

i literally don't even have tumblr live or whatever the fuck, they're like. promoting a service i can't use at me. what a garbage update

[astromechs]

ok i didn't want to ramble in the tags of that last reblog, but i think any reading of kendall that doesn't take into account that he has a big heart who cares a lot about other people, especially his family, is a really bad reading. like, the conflict about him that's compelling is literally stated in text by the show: he's not the man his father was, but he's trying his damnedest to become him, because he's lived his entire life seeking his father's approval and also having his father's behavior modeled for him (and also his mother's, because let's not forget caroline's contribution to this disaster garbage fire of a family).

this isn't to say that he doesn't have major flaws that don't impact these relationships — because that's all true. he's impulsive, short-sighted, and self-focused on how he can achieve personal ambition. but none of that precludes him from genuinely caring about people, and genuinely caring a lot. he's limited in the ways he can show that care because of what's been modeled for him, and there's some of the heart that doesn't fit into what he's trying to mold himself to be, and that's part of what leaves him such a perpetual broken wreck.

like this is... such an interesting and complex and nuanced and flawed character, and removing any sense of his genuine love and care is stripping away pieces of that.

[diari0deglierrori]

Anyway can’t wait for my sibling to leave for 10 days so I can finally have some peace

[688199]

the funniest fucking thing about thomas astruc is that he doesn’t even understand his own god damn story 😭 so you’re telling me, he came up with a good concept with much potential out of CHANCE? the more tweets i read from him, the more he seems confused about his own story. like he doesn’t know the sheer potential it holds. no wonder it’s becoming worse and worse. hell, season 1/2 from what i’ve seen were still relatively bearable. not as good as null era, but sure, it can pass as a brain dead tv show for kids. but what the hell. i’m done. blocked him. self love one step at a time, amen 🙏🙏🙏

[labellemel]

funny how western women yearns for blue collar men while eastern women yearns for men in power... there's something to be analyzed here but idk what

[necromanticalscience]

Which is all ignoring the 'pre-pubescent children don't feel attraction, so they hang out naked and don't need gendered bathrooms' retconned into 'yeah i guess the older kids are like 12-14 and one is noted to have but don't worry about it' because he needed a proper antagonist.

Also not to mention the that the penultimate conflict with Bonzo finds them wrestling naked and soaped up in the showers, but turns this suggestive and very not-straight image into a scene of visceral violence and a trauma for Ender.

There is a passage from one of the Ender’s Game sequels that lives rent free in my mind every time I enter a public restroom of like… Bean thinking very hard about which stall to select because appropriately masculine men never select the first stall, if you take the last stall you’re trying too hard, but you can’t take a stall next to a stall next to one that’s already occupied…

Orson Scott Card is having a Real Normal One Over Here, I Guess.

[angelicjackles]

everywhere else but tumblr dot com i use proper capitalisation and grammar but this is the chill (lol) website so the vibes are relaxed. lowercase everything for the win