#Contradictions everywhere

[sm-writes-chaos]

It’s just as I feared

I finally gathered enough courage to look back at the earlier chapters and….a lot has changed

Including my writing ability (which kinda makes me proud)

Well I don’t have to worry about those chapters for a while so we’ll ignore them for now :)

[thesingingrevolution]

this chapter with the color analysis thingy is reminding me of when i went to a cafe with a girlie i’m barely acquainted with and one of the things we talked about there was the color seasons, she showed me a website but i feel like it wasn’t accurate for me 😭

[vriskaserketdaily]

thoughts on tgirl vriska ? she’s real to me but ur like the #1 vriska enjoyer on my dash so I was wondering what u think

im gonna be real after going into the tag every day for the past 3+ years and seeing every possible take and headcanon my bar is so low that i'm just happy we're in agreement that vriska is a girl

tgirl vriska is a well-supported read of her character, but not the only valid one in my opinion. that being said, if you're a hardcore cis vriska truther, you do yourself a great disservice by ignoring her dysphoric characterization---whether you read that as early-transition transfem dysphoria, lesbian butch dysphoria, alternian caste dysphoria, or any combination of the above.

i do not, however, read her dysphoria as transmasculine in nature, and maintain that vriska's gender (girl/woman) is extremely important in understanding her role in the story, her relationships with other characters, and how the concepts of heroism, protagonism, justice, and strength impact her narrative. a transfem reading does not detract from this, nor does it particularly enhance anything to me, someone who already read vriska as a dysphoric lesbian & therefore already accounted for some form of Gender to be going on regardless of the hypothetical birth-assignment situation.

basically, my personal opinion is that her trans status is a nice garnish but irrelevant to what already is a fascinating, compelling, and well-rounded (dare i say, strong) female character. the fact that she's a female character is more important to me than the fact (or headcanon) that she is a trans character, because i regularly see and cope with the most asinine and blatantly incorrect headcanons and takes about her on this earth. you're asking a man dying of thirst whether a gallon of ice water or a gallon of merely cool water is better.

my bar for sexuality headcanons is likewise on the floor. y'all don't have to agree with me on the lesbian reading but as long as we concur that she's wlw then everything is a-okay by me. my final message 2 da world: never go into the tags of your favorite character.

[passthroughtime]

btw, more on the sawa-sensei argument

because i can't let this shit go myself as well, as it seems

while kuwana calls yagami out for it as well (look, my game is self-aware!), after kusumoto's betrayal, yagami doesn't use sawa only as an example of collateral damage always existing in concealing the truth. we have two scenes between him and kusumoto showing us that it's not restricted to the only example yagami has (as is the talk usually). that's just the most tangible one, obviously because sawa is dead, and that's a fact that neither kuwana nor kusumoto can escape.

hey, guys, we forgot about akaike! but yagami didn't. (also, a funny side note while talking about the forgotten victims: akutsu is another example of public security getting rid of people who know too much. their brand of justice doesn't escape even the ones who are technically on their side/have been useful to them.)

the ending happens solely because yagami goes to save kuwana from RK/PS btw. he doesn't really know about his plan until he meets him at the warehouse, his only motivation is the knowledge that if he doesn't go and do something, PS will get rid of kuwana.

there's a reason, of course, why kuwana hasn't communicated that to yagami and his friends.

and they talk about it one more time after... idk, half an hour of gameplay? an hour?

idk the reason for the repetition here really. maybe, to make it more obvious that yagami doesn't really think about what kuwana is trying to do while on his way to the warehouse? that he and the gang just go there because kuwana is in a grave danger, and not one of them questions why kuwana suddenly reveals kawai's body location (and his own whereabouts as well) in a way he does? or it's just an awkward way the writers came up with for starting the conversation they have with soma? in any way, here we have it, i guess.

and here yagami talks explicitly that they came here to *save* kuwana. (just because my words may be easy to discredit because of my *coughs* pretty obvious biases.)

so, in short: sawa, akaike: remembering about the people who were sacrificied in pursue of the plans greater than a common person (=getting justice for the victims) kuwana, yagami, yagami's friends: denying that from happening again (=saving other people's lives before it's too late)

that is if you're tired of hearing only sawa being included in yagami's justice. but yeah, to summarise, it's about people, not ideology or "the big picture" for yagami. that's why his argument isn't so on par with the big questions kuwana brings to the table.

he's simplifying the discussion... or, makes it feel more real. whichever way you want to look at it.

[jbmeade]

i originally posted this two days ago and was trying to fix an issue with it not showing up on my blog? and so in the middle of that i deleted it. like a dumbass so if it's still not showing up i'm just going to live with it

anyway There's a lot of talk about the Dunmer of Windhelm and how that ties into the Stormcloak/Imperial decision and so much of it is less about them and more about Skyrim politics not a lot of talk about how absolutely awful the Red Year was for the average Dunmer fleeing their homeland. My Dragonborn, Llunara Saravelos, with what remains of her family in the 5th year of the 4th era.

[an-incoherent-mess]

So I'm really into genealogy and have been for a few years now and I'm blessed with being really good with names and dates etc. So in conversation I can remember like a ridiculous amount of:

Jane Doe Smith Johnson

b. 1805 Tennessee d. 1879 Missouri

Married 1828 to John Patrick Johnson. Had five children. Died of TB

Etc etc

And that's cool enough apparently but I've mostly been using it for

A. Making up bullshit but real sounding names for stuff (i.e my name is Emily Stewart, Grace Kolár, etc). The point is that they're normal sounding and varied.

B. Having a bizarre frame of reference for historical events. Like "oh [small town],[state] 1942 had [random] event happen? My 1st cousin 4x removed got married there that year, small world!"

It's so dumb, like I'll read about some historical event from my area (where I've had family in the vicinity of since the 1840s) and I'll link up the time frame in my head and be like hmm... I wonder what 3rd great aunt Helen thought about that happening next door to her church.

[mobiused]

I have a lore question if you habe the time: do we know why yyxy is in Cher from Clueless cosplay?

I've spoken about this before, I can't find where I've spoke about this before, but I think it's to do with setting yyxy's time in Eden as a story that takes place in the 90s. A lot of the lore is set in the late 90s, indicated primiarly in Vivi's and yyxy's arc with fashion and technology, such as the cassette tapes, walkmans, computers, VHSs and whatnot. As mentioned in the 1/3 section of this post, I think there might be some geopolitical signifiers too, that suggest a lot of the story is set in this time period. Talking about Walkmans at all reminds me of this theory, from ChoerryColour, whose theories are focused on metanarratives and the music industry and really worth checking out.

By using one of the most iconic outfits from the 90s, right in 1995, it helps indicate when this part of the story is taking place, and what that means. If yyxy's arc occurs at the same time as Vivi's pre-robotification life (as suggested by EDILY's retro vibes) then you can more easily make connections between the two, like why Yves shows up on Earth in The Carol 2.0, why Vives go on a date in 'new', why a lot of strange things happen like they do. What message are they trying to deliver by setting it specifically in the 90s, over setting it in present day, or a nonspecific time all together?

[lemonbubble]

ugh, i finally got that tumblr mobile update that makes pictures into like??? an endless livestream scroll thing???? and all the shortcuts are different now??? you scroll (the same motion that used to close the picture) and it takes you to a whole different post????? it fucking sucks

i literally don't even have tumblr live or whatever the fuck, they're like. promoting a service i can't use at me. what a garbage update

[astromechs]

ok i didn't want to ramble in the tags of that last reblog, but i think any reading of kendall that doesn't take into account that he has a big heart who cares a lot about other people, especially his family, is a really bad reading. like, the conflict about him that's compelling is literally stated in text by the show: he's not the man his father was, but he's trying his damnedest to become him, because he's lived his entire life seeking his father's approval and also having his father's behavior modeled for him (and also his mother's, because let's not forget caroline's contribution to this disaster garbage fire of a family).

this isn't to say that he doesn't have major flaws that don't impact these relationships — because that's all true. he's impulsive, short-sighted, and self-focused on how he can achieve personal ambition. but none of that precludes him from genuinely caring about people, and genuinely caring a lot. he's limited in the ways he can show that care because of what's been modeled for him, and there's some of the heart that doesn't fit into what he's trying to mold himself to be, and that's part of what leaves him such a perpetual broken wreck.

like this is... such an interesting and complex and nuanced and flawed character, and removing any sense of his genuine love and care is stripping away pieces of that.

[diari0deglierrori]

Anyway can’t wait for my sibling to leave for 10 days so I can finally have some peace

[688199]

the funniest fucking thing about thomas astruc is that he doesn’t even understand his own god damn story 😭 so you’re telling me, he came up with a good concept with much potential out of CHANCE? the more tweets i read from him, the more he seems confused about his own story. like he doesn’t know the sheer potential it holds. no wonder it’s becoming worse and worse. hell, season 1/2 from what i’ve seen were still relatively bearable. not as good as null era, but sure, it can pass as a brain dead tv show for kids. but what the hell. i’m done. blocked him. self love one step at a time, amen 🙏🙏🙏

[dnndjdjsj]

I got steel fox! weirdly its fits me

pokèmonize yourself!!!!

spin this wheel to see your pokemon type

spin this one to see how you'll look like

[labellemel]

funny how western women yearns for blue collar men while eastern women yearns for men in power... there's something to be analyzed here but idk what

[angelicjackles]

everywhere else but tumblr dot com i use proper capitalisation and grammar but this is the chill (lol) website so the vibes are relaxed. lowercase everything for the win

[necromanticalscience]

Which is all ignoring the 'pre-pubescent children don't feel attraction, so they hang out naked and don't need gendered bathrooms' retconned into 'yeah i guess the older kids are like 12-14 and one is noted to have but don't worry about it' because he needed a proper antagonist.

Also not to mention the that the penultimate conflict with Bonzo finds them wrestling naked and soaped up in the showers, but turns this suggestive and very not-straight image into a scene of visceral violence and a trauma for Ender.

There is a passage from one of the Ender’s Game sequels that lives rent free in my mind every time I enter a public restroom of like… Bean thinking very hard about which stall to select because appropriately masculine men never select the first stall, if you take the last stall you’re trying too hard, but you can’t take a stall next to a stall next to one that’s already occupied…

Orson Scott Card is having a Real Normal One Over Here, I Guess.

[patches-of-thistle]

im so shit at comprehending my thoughts so ill try my best to explain this but:

i think the main thing i started to pick up on recently, sometime during my main blog’s lifespan but before this one was made, i learned that “annoying is good”

viewing it as bad, something that needs to be treated, or silenced is a really unhealthy and toxic mindset. atleast adjusting your perspective of it to make it bearable is enough that needs to be done, but i dont think it should require any amount of intervention. at all

i dont think i wouldve been active in a lot of places if i wasnt “annoyed”; not on disc, not on tumblr…. like, i dont mean it in a way with any negativity - it would be best to redefine “annoying” in this post as “a result which stems from you having fun/doing anything that reaches other people” - but i do genuinely mean that, if i hadnt stumbled into people who bumped into me and the other blogs they had because of avid sharing of interests/sharing of work/etc then i mightve been stayed a really quiet blog that felt like i needed to be selective and loyal to my interests

i probably wouldntve ended up making this blog either and been as confident to vent out some of my personal issues as i have not too long ago (even though they were quite harsh and i still look back on some of it with a bit of guilt) if i hadnt come to this conclusion at all so…. yeah

“annoying” is good imo. so long as youre having fun with it, whatever it is, you deserve to be “annoying” - and the negative stigma that comes with being that comes from people who dont even matter to you anyway…. so like. sparkle on ig?? lmfao