#Chuuya does understand and is irritated with him

[lorian-loriest-dingo]

now imagine Atsushi baby with his ability with dazai taking care of him (Supposed to be just a small comment ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ)

Atsushi is a baby angel to dazai and the devil incarnate to others, Imagine dazai leaving someone from the mafia to take care of atsushi while he's on a mission.

(character name ) stopped fearing many things a long time ago after joining the Porto Mafia. He will never regret the path he took, but he cannot deny that sometimes his work is exhausting, both physically and emotionally.That's why when he heard that the dazai executive was giving a good amount of money for someone to take care of the child kidnapped adopted, he signed up for work

who did not know the little silver-haired baby that dazai carried with him everywhere (character name) many people whispered how long the child would last in dazai's care So it was a surprise for everyone to see the boy alive and happy after a month in port mafia that he is not in the care of chuuya Many who had seen him in person did not hesitate to say that he was an angel turned into a baby to calm the madness of his dazai executive. Another whispered that it could be the start of his boss's tendencies mori developing into dazai.

"Woo I didn't think so many people wanted to take care of sushi! Although who could say no to atsushi-kun! No ? Sushi ? "Said dazai while shaking the baby up and down like a stuffed animal (character name) is still surprised that kid will last so long even with the mistreatment of his body, atsushi did not stop laughing as he was shaken in the air

"Atsushi is not an annoying child at all, he follows orders very well, so as long as you don't make him cry and he is good , I promise you that you will live depending on your level your wounds will be minor ! !" Dazai said it with such enthusiasm that at first he didn't register the death threat directed at him.

"Eh-"

"Well I'm leaving good luck to live ! "

As dazai left the room laughing out loud (character name) he stared at him in bewilderment as he held the baby that had been given to him

" I guess the threat makes sense, but I really don't think it's necessary, everyone knows that they shouldn't harm what belongs to Dazai"

The day with atsushi was the most pleasant rest he had had all week the baby was a quiet child in general he and the baby spent most of the time watching TV on the sofa all afternoon .

" Dazai is an exaggeration huh? Who could hurt you with how adorable you are " he said as he lifts the boy up to see his face up close something that he had found fascinating was the striking and rare color of Atsushi's eyes.

" I've never seen eyes like that, better watch out or I'll try to steal them from you ~~"said jokingly (character name) while cooing at atsushi and laughing but he stopped when he saw atsushi's expression that seemed scared " oh oh no no I said it as a joke! Nothing serious! don't cry shhh shh ! " He quickly sat Atsushi down on the sofa and began to make a strange face at him to calm him down. After a while, the boy calmed down and he sighed in relief.

The night is coming the streets were starting to get quiet and the moon looked like it was going to rise tonight " Well it seems that it is already late I think it is time for a child to sleep~ " Although he had stopped atsushi's crying, he no longer heard the boy laugh after ( I hope you are not resentful or I will have a problem later tomorrow I will give you a piece of candy and your anger will go away )while laying atsushi down in his bed, the awkward situation of not knowing how to make the child sleep occurred ( And now what do I do?) scratching his head, he looked at the street through the window next to the bed while he thought of a story to children to tell Atsushi.

"Yo- you don't have to tell me a story, I under- understant that you don't know any"

"eh ! " He stopped looking at the window to look into Atsushi's eyes, surprised to hear him speak for the first time all day. (what the hell could he always talk!? He only knows a few words!? ... his eyes were always so bright ? ) while the moon came out and slowly illuminated the figure of the child, the gangster just asked to pay attention to those bright eyes that slowly became brighter the yellow and purple fight for dominance ,standing next to the bed the gangster couldn't move something in his instinct told him that once he moved he would see something he wasn't ready to see The tension in the air was palpable and even without saying anything else, something told him that it was Atsushi who had the power while he was caught up in the surprise of the situation. Atsushi bowed his head to the side and said innocently " Run " and I take his arm

As he watched the adorable boy change into a beast he thought " I already remembered that I had forgotten... I forgot to feed astushi at night" it was already late the lights were off and the room was only illuminated by moonlight and the brilliance of a skill being activated while that small hand that held his arm it transformed into claws capable of disemboweling a man he finally understood dazai's words

The moon lit the empty and silent streets if you were attentive enough you would hear the roars of an animal ready to play

Dazai was gone for three days so bad luck for the guy

au where the younger guys r way younger so like atsushi akutagawa junichiro etc

and its a dazai meets atsushi before / during the time he leaves the mafia

only

only becuz i got an image in my head of dazai holding baby atsushi wrapped up in his coat, setting him down and saying

"baby, today im going to teach you how to plant a bomb in chibi's car" as he's planting the bomb in chuuya's car - baby atsushi just coos

also becuz image of toddler akutagawa and baby gin playing and chuuya rushing in to swoop them up and toddler akutagawa looking scandalized before he recognizes him

[allisonlol]

HII !! could you do dazai, chuuya and fyodor with a s/o that forgot pretty much everything from their past/forgets a lot in the present due to trauma? if possible male reader, and if not gn works aswell! thank you :))

a/n: felt this req hard LOL

warnings: memory loss, past trauma (not elaborated on)

(Dazai, Chuuya, Fyodor) With a S/O with Memory Loss From Trauma

Dazai

i feel like dazai can relate in some ways because he too has immense trauma but instead of forgetting it, he remembers it too well

therefore in a way he's grateful that ur brain is blocking those memories so u don't have to remember the pain

dazai had noticed your forgetful behavior the second he met you, and had already categorized it as due to trauma in your past

honestly finds your forgetfulness adorable but it also enrages him bc someone hurt you enough to cause it

simply does not comment on any of this though. if you mention that you forgot something that happened literally yesterday he'll simply smile at you (is that a hint of sadness in his expression?) and reassure u that it's okay

will text u updates throughout the day to make sure u aren't forgetting anything

pictures pictures pictures!!!! literally photographs everything u guys do together so you can always look back to remember :)

but unbeknownst to you, dazai will secretly do some deep digging into your past to find out exactly what happened and who to get revenge on <3

^trust me when i say they will deeply regret everything they had ever done to you

Chuuya

it's canon that chuuya can't remember what... the first 7 years of his life? so he totally understands

he won't question u at all abt the reasonings for your memory loss unless u wanted to talk abt it

does get worried abt your current forgetfulness though. with a job as strenuous as being in the mafia, having a good memory is important

^if any of the higher ups knew you weren't "sufficient enough" in that department, despite your other strengths, you would be disposed of

this added stress doesn't help you at all but chuuya does his best to keep you safe

^having a boyfriend who is also your executive is very useful in this aspect

leaves little notes and reminders on your desk so u won't forget anything important

hell, chuuya will even fill out reports for you if u were having trouble remembering the events that took place

i feel like he would also pay very close attention to everything u guys do together so, if you forgot, he would be able to tell you all about it

Fyodor

another one who categorized your memory loss as due to trauma the second he met you

unlike the others tho, he will question u about it

if you’re honest with him & say that it’s due to traumatic events, he’ll ask if you want him to do anything about it for you (in other words, find and eliminate the ones who caused it 😊)

^if you say no to this, he’ll nod and agree with u but secretly hunt them down on his own

however if you lie to fyodor and say that you’re just forgetful (not due to trauma) he’ll frown & keep asking probing questions until he gets the truth out of u

has he heard of privacy? like damn

^its out of love tho. not saying it’s right but fyodor shows his care by learning as much abt u as possible. he needs to know everything, good or bad

finds your current forgetfulness adorable, albeit irritating at times (remember who we’re talking abt here)

if you forgot an event or important piece of information he will get slightly annoyed with you & might say some insensitive things 😬

^tho once he sees that he’s upset you, fyodor will usually sigh and apologize

recommends u keep a journal for reminders, however he also logs all events that u do alone or together so you won’t forget in the future

taglist: @deadmitochondria @miycutie @scul-pted @exorcisedstraydog @chuuyasboots @shy-socially-awkward-intovert @beandaifuku @stygianoir @sonder-paradise @dreaming-of-ambedo @nervousyetconfidentway @beautiful-is-boring @irethepotato @serenareiss @thescrunkly @ashthemadwriter @mrsdostoevsky @creamygojo @disa-ster

[ashthemadwriter-archived]

Getting to be your first time

Fandom: Bungou Stray Dogs

Pairing: Dazai, Chuuya X Fem!Reader

Request: "Chuuya and Dazai with a fem reader that’s a shy virgin that has never managed to pleasure herself, that’s what’s on my filthy mind rn" ◜By lovely anon!!◞

Genre: Smut

Format: Drabble

Warnings: NSFW! content, Pet names (Doll), Vaginal penetration, Cunnilingus, Oral (F receiving), etc

Word Count: 0.7K

A/n: Eye eye captain!

↳Osamu Dazai

The way you try to hide your face as his tongue goes deeper inside you has him losing his fucking mind. Dazai has taken a lot of virginities, he's been lots of people's "first time"; but not once he had ever felt special, not like how he feels now.

He's amused with how sensitive you are, and how you refuse to let go of his hand despite facing the need to squirm around. He's told you to let go and don't hold yourself back multiple times, but you just don't listen;

it's like you're asking him to take the lead and show you how loud he can make you become, without actually saying it.

Dazai is having the time of his life down there. He loves it when no matter how much he eats you out, your pussy still gets wet with even more arousal.

He decides to be gentle with you, to not rush anything and go on slowly. He takes his time, leaning closer to bask you with euphoria as he makes out with your cunt, delighted by the way you moan whenever he pokes your clit with his tongue.

"O-Osamu... I- I think I'm..."

No. He can't hold back anymore. Not when you call out for him this prettily.

Dazai Osamu is one greedy man, and he does not hesitates to show it off. He slowly rubs your entrance with one digit while focusing on the sensitive spot on your clit, and spares no pain to suck on the tender flesh to earn louder whines from you. Maybe you're just as greedy as he is; or else you wouldn't throw your head back and push his head further to your core, making the poor man suffocate between your thighs. But he is not irritated even one bit; Running out of breath while he has you screaming for him in his last moments are a dream he lives to see it becoming true.

He will try to be good for you, and maybe you will let him take his frustration out on your tight little pussy tonight,

and for many more nights to come.

↳Chuuya Nakahara

Chuuya can't decide if his pleased with the current situation, or annoyed.

Of course he's happy that he finally gets to have you all to himself, hell he will even refer to his current mood as "head over heels"; but it's not gonna work out if you keep hiding your face with your hands.

He gently grasps your hands and pulls them aside, revealing your gorgeous flushed face and an innocent look in your eyes that drives him insane. He just can't understand why you try so hard to keep him from seeing your pretty face and your cute little whimpers.

"Do you trust me, doll?"

Nod.

"Then stop holding back, ok? I wanna see you baby. All of you. You're so gorgeous sweetheart. Fucking breathtaking for me. So don't shy away anymore, alright?"

After seeing your nod of approval, he smirks and kisses your jawline as he starts rocking his hips back and forth again, satisfied when he finally hears your moans clearly. He hisses when he feels your hand approaching your mouth to cover it again, so he suddenly bites your neck.

Your loud whimper definitely fueled his ego, more than he expected.

Needy lips targeting the sensitive spot on your neck, attacking the warm skin with kitty licks and kisses are not exactly helping. You can't hold yourself from giving in anymore; digging your nails in his back while wrapping your legs around him are just making it more obvious.

Chuuya can clearly feel you getting closer to your release as your moans become louder and your grasp around him tightens, and he can't wait to feel your walls squeeze around him as you hide your face in the crook of his neck.

He would have told you that this was not going to be the end of the night, but the fun must be saved from ruining, right?

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[thedarkdisgrace]

skk threadfic from my twitter 🧵

Imagine skk thought a mission was done, Chuuya is bandaging Dazai up since he got injured as a “calculated risk” per usual but there’s someone left and they take a shot at them. Chuuya moves in the way on instinct but he’s still touching Dazai so his ability doesn’t activate.

Dazai doesn’t hesitate with his own weapon & the threat is dealt with. But now Chuuya is severely wounded & trying not to pass out from the blood loss just in case there are even more of them. Dazai’s still injured & he calls the extraction team because they need to get there NOW.

Chuuya’s blood stains his hands while tries to keep pressure on the wound that’s *still* bleeding too much & Dazai bitches at Chuuya for being so stupid to take a shot that was aimed at him with NLH nullifying his ability.

All while thinking about where he miscalculated. They knew the number of enemies, there shouldn’t have been more, did they get sloppy? They should’ve triple checked before taking care of Dazai’s own wounds.

Chuuya’s still fighting the blood loss, offering short responses to all of Dazai’s complaints.

A smirk plays on his face & Dazai’s irritation spikes because /what/ is he smirking for?

Dazai shifts his hands to get better pressure on the wound. “Has Chuuya’s tacky hat finally eaten the last of his braincells? Why are you smiling right now?”

A little blood trickles from his mouth as Chuuya chuckles. “Don’t get to see you sweat like this often.” He murmurs. “Nice to not to see that stupid mackerel face sometimes.”

Dazai knows his masks are useless around Chuuya, as much as he despises that fact.

So, he shoves aside the deeper implication of Chuuya’s words even as heat rises in his cheeks.

“The slug is delirious, he should focus on staying conscious instead talking nonsense.”

Chuuya only chuckles again, causing more blood to push against Dazai’s hands and he hisses for Chuuya to stop it.

“Chuuya doesn’t seem to be taking this very seriously, does is his chibi sized brain not understand the situation?”

He hears a token growl from Chuuya but it’s barely loud enough to exit his throat. “‘m not worried.” He manages to push out.

Dazai huffs. “Ah, so Chuuya’s hat really *did* eat his brain. I did warn him about that, this is what happens when you don’t listen to your master. Clearly Chuuya needs more training since he-”

“‘Samu” Chuuya interrupts, voice low & raspy & Dazai slightly jolts at his given name.

He meets Chuuya’s eyes & though clouded with exhaustion, they still shone sharp & unyielding.

“Samu.” He repeats, moving his hands to cover Dazai’s, still pressing heavily against the wound. “‘m not worried.”

With their eyes locked & few words exchanged, Dazai understands. They never really did need much to communicate a lot all at once, did they?

With mild surprise & a reluctant fondness reaching to grasp his heart he can’t help the small smirk of his own forming across his face.

A loyal dog indeed.

With a trust that’s so embedded in them that it somehow runs deeper than the blood in their veins.

His partner.

Always so confident, even now. Even like this.

Because /soukoku/ never fails.

Dazai lifts one hand from beneath Chuuya’s, still pressing against the wound & begins to unwind his bandages from his wrist.

“You think…i want your…dirty ass bandages…on me?” Chuuya asks, managing to raise an eyebrow with some effort.

Dazai gasps, feigning offense even as he reads between the lines of that insult.

(Back up will be here soon, are you sure you want to take them off?)

“What kind of owner would I be if I didn’t take care of my dog when he’s injured?”

(Don’t worry about that, idiot)

“Besides,” Dazai continues quickly, not giving Chuuya a chance complain, “as if my bandages are any worse than bare my hands digging into your open wound, Chibi.”

Chuuya grimaces as that. But Dazai sees his skin turning pale.

“You used our extra bandages on my leg, i could unwind those if you would prefer.”

“Shut the fuck…up..mackerel.”

Dazai gently pulls away Chuuya’s blood soaked clothes and begins wrapping up the wound with the bandages he pulled from his arm. All while doing his best not to aggravate the wound any further.

Chuuya’s abs are flexing with every move, every touch & Dazai can’t help but wish they could’ve gone home, where he could appreciate those abs moving pleasantly above him instead of in pained spasms.

Home. It’s a concept Dazai never thought would be within his comprehension.

Not truly, anyway. Not for someone like him. Someone buried in darkness with an endless wish for death.

Though he imagines Chuuya’s apartment might be close to what someone might consider a home. Along with whatever this thing /is/ between him & his partner.

It has been over a year & a half since the King of Assassins incident & it’s been around the same length of time since he all but moved into Chuuya’s apartment. They still bicker constantly & there’s nothing Dazai loves more than getting under the hatracks’ skin…

But there are /moments/.

Moments where they’re more than the roles they’re forced to play.

Moments where they’re just…them.

Though he would never admit such a thing out loud, there’s comfort in the routine they’ve established over that time. Their lives are ones filled with blood and pain and death.

Yet, there is a place where it doesn’t have to be *just* that darkness.

Who would’ve thought something so mundane would help hold his interest in his world?

Now, Dazai would prefer they get a chance to get back there. So when the shouts of mafia reinforcements reaches his ears, he’s quick to toss commands at the grunts as they approach.

After ensuring Chuuya wouldn’t bleed out on the way, they’re taken to one of the mafias medical facilities for treatment. Dazai complaining about Chuuya’s stupidity the whole way there.

After Dazai’s leg was fitted into his cast he, of course, found his way to Chuuya’s room.

And of course they nearly drove the doctor’s crazy with their constant bickering. They should be /resting/, afterall.

But later, if a nurse happens to find the two of them passed out, heads leaning against each other in Chuuya’s hospital bed…well, that’s no one’s business.

[kaurwreck]

I think relevant to understanding why Atsushi is the protagonist is the recognition that Kafka Asagiri, broadly, did what Nakajima Atsushi did, which is break from years of reluctantly adhering to what was known, conventional, and assured to instead face his deeply held insecurities and dedicate himself entirely to writing.

Except, while Nakajima Atsushi burst into the literary scene with verve and brilliance, he was almost immediately killed by his chronic illness. The cosmic cruelty of it is tragic.

Kafka Asagiri, meanwhile, made his leap at a younger age than Atsushi, and survived his first few months. Better yet, he's survived his first 12 years. He began Bungou Stray Dogs at the age of 28 (only a few years earlier than Nakajima Atsushi), so he's now 40 years old. He's still writing, having outlived many of the literary icons he references, including Dazai Osamu, Akutagawa Ryuunosuke, Kunikida Doppo, Nakajima Atsushi, Higuchi Ichiyo, Nakahara Chuuya, and Tachihara Michizo.

He has dedicated the outset of his career to the authors whose lives reverberated far beyond their years, and I have a suspicion that the author he feels ringing the loudest in his own ears might be Nakajima Atsushi. In part, because Nakajima Atsushi was right, Nakajima Atsushi sought meaning where there wasn't any and found profundity where others couldn't. He was anxious and grappled with low self-esteem, but he didn't flinch at the same shadows as many of his brasher contemporaries and predecessors did.

He seemed to shrug away, even, the calamitous events unfolding relentlessly around him for how focused he was on matters such as his flowers and the books he read. Once, he even disregarded an air raid overhead, utterly unbothered while his companion dug a shelter under the kitchen floor. When his companion irritably asked Nakajima what he wanted to do in such an emergency, Nakajima calmy replied, "I'll die with a book in my hand." Later, the same companion described Nakajima's words as having an inimitable power and clarity, as if all emotions had already been reckoned with and then set aside. (This is the same Nakajima Atsushi known to cry if his flowers were cut, for reference.) Which is to say, he clearly knew something others didn't, for better or worse.

That he died young did little to deride the truth of he'd discovered, and Kafka Asagiri choosing that truth as his means for cradling and honoring the truths of the other authors too is a fiercly ardent love letter to their lives and legacies. But it's also the only way he could, I think, encompass the litany of eras, lives, cultural contexts, and bodies of work that he does. Bungo Stray Dogs can spill with anachronism and absurdity and nonsensical mechanics and deus ex machinas and bombastic personalities because the thoroughline has the same unperturbed focus, brilliance, compassion, verve, timidity, obliviousness, insensitivity, fragility, intensity, frivilousness, and implacable clarity as Nakajima Atsushi.

(Asagiri might too, considering the sheer breadth of what he's written and closely overseen in only 12 years, but also, the obnoxiousness of its substance.)

[floatysparrowthing]

What if I told you that a little project called Chuuya the Vampire Slayer has taken root in my brain and in my google docs…

“What do you want?” Chuuya asks, already irritated by Dazai’s presence.

“I’m hungry,” Dazai says, sulkily but with an edge to it.

That makes Chuuya pause.

He wonders if Dazai truly appreciates the gravity of this situation. He thinks he does, or at least understands it, if not appreciates it, despite his tone teetering toward a childish whine.

But Chuuya will do his damndest to not let Dazai see it affect him.

He’s not scared—far from it—but there’s anxiety prickling under his skin at the plain fact that he’s willingly doing this.

He’d like to say it won’t change anything, but his intuition tells him this will be one of those moments that slices his life into a before and an after.

In the past, a few lucky vamps managed to get bites in before he slayed them, but they never got further than a mere sip of his blood. Those vampires were far older, more experienced, and had attacked him with bona fide minions to get past his defenses.

He hated giving them even the briefest satisfaction of tasting his blood.

And now…

Dazai approaches, close enough to force Chuuya to look up at him.

This won’t do.

With a hand on his chest, Chuuya roughly pushes him away.

“Not the neck,” he says, firm and leaving no room for protest.

Dazai protests anyway.

“Ah, but it looks so tempting and delicious~!”

“It’s a fucking neck,” Chuuya mumbles as he gets his keys back out and unlocks the bookstore’s back door.

He doesn’t turn on any of the lights and resolutely ignores the pounding of his heart as he makes his way to an armchair in the central reading area.

It’s eerily quiet without the sound of Dazai’s breath. Chuuya can sense him there, but it is an undeniably inhuman presence that’s following him.

His instincts itch to lash out, to take out the threat, but he takes a deep breath to soothe the feeling of wrongness this whole affair instills in him.

He removes his jacket and drapes it over the back of the chair before taking a seat.

“Knees,” he says, bluntly, gesturing to the floor before him.

Dazai’s brow quirks, that playful smile dancing at the corner of his lips. His eyes grow brighter as he sinks to his knees before Chuuya.

“Aren’t you afraid that I can’t control myself?” Dazai taunts.

Chuuya scoffs. “No.”

A pout. “Why not?”

Chuuya smirks. “I can control you.”

Dazai’s eyes are glowing red now, though they lack the madness from his bloodlust.

Chuuya extends his left forearm toward Dazai and spreads his legs wide to let him shuffle closer.

“I’ll kill you if you try to take too much,” Chuuya says, leveling his gaze with Dazai’s. He casually holds a stake in his right hand and leans his elbow on his knee, bringing their faces closer together. “You get that, yeah?”

[moonflowerfourever]

Soukoku SFW Alphabets✨(Part 3)

Part 1, Part 2

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Take one good look at them and think, 'Would they really reveal anything about themselves?' The answer is no, they don't reveal much about themselves. Words were never Soukoku's speciality. Telepathic understanding is more their thing. So yeah, they don't purposefully reveal anything about themselves to each other, they just see each other and just...understand. Dazai's predictions and calculations are almost always true, and the same goes for his observations about Chuuya, though the redhead manages to surprise Dazai himself in some moments. As for Chuuya, he mostly trusts his instincts when it comes to Dazai because he's subconsciously tuned to Dazai at all times.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Dazai has endless patience, but so does Chuuya. Their dynamic would never work out if any one of them did not have the patience. Chuuya may seem like he's angered too easily, but that's just him being irritated. It takes a lot for them to get angry. But when they do get angry, things'll get ugly. Chuuya becomes angry whenever someone poses a threat to his loved ones. If Dazai really becomes angry, then there's no telling why he's angry and what he'll do. So it's best to not make them angry at all.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about each other? Do they remember every little detail mentioned in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

They remember every single thing about each other. That time when Chuuya said he liked a specific French wine? Dazai remembers it. That time when Dazai said that he hated high-pitched sounds? Chuuya remembers it. You can quiz them on every single detail about each other and they'd get every answer right. Dazai's observant mind notes literally everything(especially about Chuuya) and Chuuya just pays attention to Dazai and remembers stuff because at least one of them has to be good husband material.

R = Remember (What is their favourite moment in their relationship?)

Many people would say that their first kiss was their most favourite, but Dazai and Chuuya shared their first kiss on a bloody battlefield, with corpses on the ground around them. While that is a favourite memory for both of them, it's not number one. For Dazai, his fav moment is when they held hands for the first time while fighting Rimbaud. For the first time in his life, Dazai felt a comforting warmth spread through his body, soothing his mind in an instant. Dazai didn't think about it at that time, but he knew he needed to feel that warmth again. Chuuya's favourite moment would be when they got married. It was a small wedding, with only a few close friends attending the ceremony, but it felt like a dream come true for Chuuya. He would never forget the way Dazai bent him in half to kiss him in the most endearing way possible. He still gets butterflies whenever he thinks about it.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect each other? How would they like to be protected?)

They aren't very protective, because they know that their partner can handle any situation by themselves. But if push comes to shove, they won't hesitate to threaten or kill someone for each other. But this applies to everyone close to them, so there isn't any protective streak reserved just for their partner. They don't need it.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

A lot of effort goes into the dates Chuuya plans. Expensive restaurants, sometimes a honeymoon suite in an elite hotel, or tickets to some movie Dazai keeps yammering about. Dazai doesn't spend much money, but he makes them feel special anyway. The location and time don't matter much to him as long as he's with Chuuya. Chuuya is the same, but he also likes the romantic scenery, so he does his best to take Dazai to the most beautiful places he can afford. Dazai enjoys the scenery too, and makes sure that Chuuya feels well-loved for his efforts. Anniversaries are mostly spent at Chuuya's penthouse, with a romantic candlelit dinner, or with showering a lot of attention and love on each other with sweet words and praises.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Dazai's bad habit is his way of hiding stuff that bothers him. Chuuya almost always finds out when something's wrong, but he can't tell what it is. He gets frustrated and sometimes he may even fight with Dazai because he feels that Dazai doesn't trust him. In the end, he always manages to coax the truth out of Dazai and does his best to see it through that Dazai is feeling better. It takes him a while to realise that Dazai does trust him, he just doesn't want Chuuya to worry. This makes him feel even more loved and he makes sure that Dazai knows Chuuya trusts and loves him as well.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Chuuya likes to make a strong first impression, and he likes to maintain the first impression. So he does his best to look good and spends a lot of time in his self-care routine. Dazai doesn't care much about appearances and self-care, but Chuuya makes sure that he follows a routine as well. But that's not to say that Dazai doesn't know how to dress. He knows how to make a lasting impression, or what type of impression it has to be, friendly or distant or threatening. But they don't care about looks to the point of being vain.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without each other?)

Yup, definitely. They are each other's better half, and can't exist without the other. They may look like they're doing good without each other, but inside, they constantly feel like a part of them is missing. It's like asking Yin to exist without Yang and vice versa. In the end, they keep coming back to each other, like a moth to a flame.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Dazai likes having his hair and head played with. He likes it when Chuuya combs his hair, or when he plays with it absentmindedly, or when he scratches his nails against Dazai's scalp. It's comforting for him, and Dazai almost always falls asleep when Chuuya does that.

Chuuya likes to write poems. Some of them say how much Dazai annoys him, and some of them are cheesy as any lovestruck person would write. But most of them are about his life, all the stuff he went through, and they almost always have a philosophical touch to them. Dazai admires his poems and likes to read them in his free time.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

In a partner, Dazai doesn't like strict or close-minded people. He also doesn't like people who adhere to traditions and traditional values too much. He also doesn't like it when people try to change him. He knows he has a twisted view of the world, but he doesn't want to see it through the lenses of false hope and cheer others use. Chuuya doesn't like people who are too dependent or too clingy. Dazai may act dependent, but Chuuya knows full well that Dazai can handle things by himself. He also doesn't like people who only go after him for his wealth or status, it makes him doubt himself.

Z = Zzz (What are their sleep habits?)

Chuuya likes to starfish when sleeping, and many times Dazai has ended with a foot or an elbow into his stomach. Chuuya also drools when he's asleep, a fact that Dazai finds adorable. Dazai is a sleeptalker, and many times Chuuya has caught him saying questionable stuff like how he wants to skin Mori alive and feed him to dogs. Dazai also says a lot of sweet and a bit embarrassing things while asleep, and Chuuya never fails to tease him about it.

And that's about it! I hope you enjoyed it! (All of these are my headcanons)

[osarina]

Hiii rinaaaa :3

I haven't finished my analysis for Wasteland yet (because I'm actually dazai irl, and it's just that time (/hj </3)) BUT I saw your post about pm!reader being multilingual AND A LIGHT BULB WENT OFF IN MY HEAD!!

Imagine (I'm just this around 16 or 17) you had just finished one of your language classes/lessons (maybe with an exec, probably Verlaine; I can see him being multi/bilingual probably), and Dazai notices this, maybe from how you've been stressed out about trying to remember different words or phrases, and using the little free time you had to practice. So being the lovesick loser he is, he practices (in secret) to help you!

So one day, you're studying by the coffee table in your apartment, studying a few of the phrases you had learned that day. You hear the elevator ding from the hallway, you already know who it is, but you're busy at the moment so you can go and greet him. When Dazai walks in, he notices your furrowed brows as you study your notes and mumble the words to yourself. His lips part open before he can even think, asking you a question in whatever language you were practicing. (How was your day today?) Once the words left his lips, your head shot up, and all you could do was stare at him, a shocked expression painting your face. After a few moments of you (rudely!) staring, he couldn't help but fluster and turn away from you; a soft smile slowly embraced your face. (It's great now that you're here. Thank you.) You replied as his head shot back to face you; giving you the same look you had given him, before he had smiled back at you while making his way over to you, helping you practice for the rest of the evening <3

(p.s. I hc that 14-16 dazai had braces so he screws up on certain pronunciations and he has to yell at you to stop laughing, he's so silly)

AHHHHHHH STOP IT STOP IT UR SO IN MY HEAD BECAUSE OKAY HOLD ON LET ME TELL U THIS HEADCANON BEFORE WE TALK ABOUT YOURS

but obviously chuuya needs to have some pretty damn good knowledge of physics to pull off some of the stunts he does w gravity. so i hc that once he joined the pm, he started teaching himself some to fine tune some aspects of his ability. reader started learning it with him to try to help him learn and dazai found out they were having little study sessions and got irritated and taught himself and then just walked around flaunting his knowledge because he was jealous LOL and of course he picked it up faster than either of them did bc he's DAZAI. chuuya actually picked it up really fast but reader struggled so much w it that she just gave up LMAO

BUT UR HEADCANON STOPPPPPPP THIS IS SO PMREADER UNIVERSE CANON I WILL ACTUALLY DIE HE WOULD BE SO EMBARRASSED WAITING FOR HER TO RESPOND, DOUBLE GUESSES EVERYTHING AND ALMOST FLEES BEFORE SHE FINALLY SMILES AND RESPONDS TO HER and then he just gets sooooo happy because every chance he gets, he's going to talk to her in that language because 1) he likes helping her practice but more importantly 2) he can talk to her and CHUUYA can't understand them so it leaves chuuya out LOLLLLL UGH IM SO OBSESSED WITH THIS I MIGHT DIE

I AM ALSO A BRACESZAI TRUTHER !!!!! I LOVE BRACESZAI ITS SO CUTE WHENEVER I SEE FANART OF IT I MELT

[narrators-journal]

I was wondering if you could do Dazai, Chuuya, and Ranpo with an autistic reader. I read the one you did for Kunikida Akutagawa and Poe and really liked it

I haven't written for bsd in a bit, so sorry if it's a tad out of character. I tried my best.

Dazai

Dazai would be pretty indifferent to your autism.

He wouldn't be super malicious about it, as he is working to improve himself, but he'd get annoyed at some parts of it.

But, he's trying. He'll at least be mindful of if you're overstimulated, take note of your interests, and probably even find your way of thinking or world view amusing.

Though, it is good to keep in mind that Dazai is not a very communicative man, and he is bound to use your inability to thoroughly read a situation to his advantage if you get tangled up in his plans.

But, other than that, he'd be pretty unphased by it for the most part. Slightly annoyed, but he can tolerate and adapt for you.

Chuuya

Almost the polar opposite of Dazai, Chuuya would be very accomodating and aware of your autism. He's fairly aware of how it is to feel something like an outsider or 'not normal', so he'd do his best to not make you feel that way.

He'd do his best to avoid being too loud with you, would clarify his moods so you don't misinterpret or don't pick up the cues, and would snap at others who harrass you or insult you.

Granted, this upside comes with a pretty big downside.

While he tries his best to be mindful of your autism, he can get pretty annoyed at it sometimes. He's naturally got a short temper, so repeating phrases, reluctance to change, or your own irritability can sometimes set him off. But he does his best to lessen those instances.

regardless though, he'd definitely try and he'd still care, and would apologize when he loses his temper or upsets you too badly.

Ranpo

Ranpo would absolutely not give a fuck

He'd not go out of his way to avoid your triggers, but he wouldn't go out of his way to upset you either.

He expects you to be able to keep up with him, do what you must to do that, but do it regardless.

Despite his boastful nature and super intellegence, he wouldn't view you as 'stupid' or 'beneath him', because he understands that everyone works differently. He's got deductive skills to make Sherlock Holmes jealous, most people don't. He's no stranger to someone not thinking like he does.

Besides, your sometimes creative or to-the-left view on things can be amusing, and sometimes helpful, so he appreciates the help you give.

All around, he'd treat you like any other, which is a good and bad method, but he makes up for it by accomodating the cons of autism that deeply affect you as best he can.

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

HEXACO Analysis: Nakahara Chuuya

HEXACO score: 3.75/2.5/3/2.5/3.75/3.5

Highest trait: Honesty-Humility/Conscientiousness

Lowest trait: Emotionality/Agreeableness

Full order: (HC)OX(EA)

Extreme high subtraits (score 5): Sincerity, Fairness and Diligence

Extreme low subtraits (score 1): Fearfulness

(I have been agonizing over this for literally a month so I have decided to just post it how it is because I'm never going to be satisfied with it anyways.)

Port Mafia executive, former leader of The Sheep, one half of the fearsome Double Black, loyal to a fault, wants a puppy. Gotta love this dude. I'm always excited to do any meta on him because there's so much to his character. Now, much of the fanon interpretation of Chuuya differs from my perception of canon, so if you're a bit surprised by any of the rankings, read on to find out why!

Please do keep in mind: a lot of the info we have for Chuuya does not come from the main manga but from his backstory novels Fifteen and Stormbringer. While these two books have made him an incredibly fleshed-out character, we don't have much info on him at 22 years old except in brief scenes in the manga, omake, and official non-canon content like wan, mayoi and some character q&as. The good thing is that HEXACO traits tend to be relatively consistent over time (and Chuuya himself doesn't seem to have changed too much) so I don't think this will be a major issue.

Here's how I'm doing my analyses and extra HEXACO info: I Like to Write Things — Ok so since I have one note on this, that was... (tumblr.com)

*Note: I tend to be reluctant to give extreme scores unless I really can't find much opposing evidence. As such, most of my scores tend to be 2s, 3s, or 4s.

**Note: Since these are scores that require me to pick a clear ranking, it's difficult to be quite as nuanced in my discussions as I prefer to be. These are intended to be general trends and there will likely always be exceptions - if you don't agree, that's fine, and it's probably just due to differences in subjective interpretation. However, if I've referenced something incorrectly, feel free to notify me; just be polite please!

***Final note: This is a long post! I go through 24 subtraits! You have been warned!

Explanations under the cut:

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Honesty-Humility (H)

Subtrait 1: Sincerity - A tendency to be genuine in interpersonal relations.

1 = Manipulative and rarely honest.

5 = Honest to a fault and almost never lies.

While Chuuya is capable of trickery, he doesn't do this very often - he's generally a very honest person who says what he means and doesn't beat around the bush. He faces his problems head on, and due to his immensely strong ability, he's likely never needed to do otherwise. Any lies he engages in are from my recollection either someone else's idea (Dazai, Mori) or to buy time (in Stormbringer). Even then, he doesn't really keep up an act for long - think of the confrontation with the ADA in the Guild arc where he pretty much outright states what the Mafia's game is. He's entirely nonchalant about it. He's not the kind of guy you send for subterfuge or deception.

Moreover, I cannot think of a time he used lies to get what he, personally, wanted. He's a very straightforward person. He has a sort of "I am who I am" kind of mentality and this shows in his words and actions.

Having said that, there are certain times he seems to blindside himself - as an example, the nature of his complicated dynamic with Dazai. While his irritation with him and negative feelings are genuine in part, there's a lot more nuance to it than that - worry, trust, begrudging understanding, unfortunate and unwilling recognition of self through the other, etc., but he boils it down to "hate". So, Chuuya does occasionally appear to tell himself convenient partial truths to avoid digging into things that make him uncomfortable. However, this honesty scale is about interpersonal honesty, and these instances are rare to my recollection, so he gets a very high score here.

Score = 5

Subtrait 2: Fairness - A tendency to avoid fraud and corruption for personal gain.

1 = Willing to cheat and steal to get what they want.

5 = Unwilling to take advantage of others.

This is tricky... he's in the mafia which is kind of all about this sort of thing, and he performs his job very well. Even so, Chuuya actually seems to have a pretty ingrained sense of fairness, to the point where I don't think it's really a conscious thing. He advances through the ranks of the mafia rapidly by... doing his job properly. He trades honesty for honesty, answers for answers, even in the middle of a fight - see his interactions with Rimbaud for more of what I mean. He repays people's favours and has a strong sense of loyalty and responsibility. Brushing off an ally's death as a means to get ahead is repulsive to him (DHC Dead Apple prologue). He outright tells a GSS soldier in Fifteen what's going to happen to him if he shoots at Chuuya. He does what he says he will, for the most part (unless this has to do with retribution, in which sometimes, rarely, exceptions will be made... I'll bring this up again later). Again, this is probably not mere kindness but also a result of his powerful ability meaning he's never really needed to rely on unscrupulous methods. Nonetheless, for what we see of him, I can't think of a time where he screws others over outside of orders from Mori - much less for his own benefit.

(A case could be made for a drop to 4 if you include his willingness to engage in mafia activities at all. I, personally, wouldn't since being a part of an illegal organization is literally all he's ever known from age 7 onwards. That's not really a character choice imo and more to do with the context he was raised in that became his "normal".)

Score = 5

Subtrait 3: Greed Avoidance - A tendency to be uninterested in possessing lavish wealth, luxury goods and signs of status.

1 = Want to enjoy and display wealth and status.

5 = Hardly driven by material gain.

Again, kind of tricky. Chuuya's introduced in quite possibly one of the most ostentatious outfits of the series (definitely up until that point, at least). He has his expensive wine collection and I think it is implied he has some expensive tastes. I think of that bit in Wan where he says he'll drop any money if he likes the thing he's looking to buy enough. Thing is... we get a little bit in Stormbringer where Chuuya's place is near totally empty; devoid of signs of having been "lived in" and tells us that money and status don't mean much to him. Mind you, this was when he was 16 and things likely changed since then; he's no longer only driven by his goal of finding info on himself and has acclimated to his new home in a sense. Truthfully, though, we don't know all that much about 22-year-old Chuuya. From my interpretation, I think his enjoyment of fancy things like wine and nice clothes is less a drive or motive to acquire any of these things, and more that he gets them as a bonus. He grew up on the streets. He has money now; he might as well use it to get himself something nice. Honestly, I swayed back and forth on this subtrait the most... but eventually settled on a score of 2 (that wine collection is... pretty damn expensive). I think he likes to treat himself. (I am now thinking of Chuuya's excitement over his new pillow in Wan...)

(I'd actually say Chuuya's focus on his appearance has a lot more to do with the image he hopes to give off to others than any true interest in material gain, but more on that later.)

Score: 2

Subtrait 4: Modesty - A tendency to be modest and unassuming (note that this has nothing to do with self-confidence!).

1 = Consider themselves superior and entitled to special treatment.

5 = Consider themselves ordinary people with no claim to special treatment.

Ohhhkay, this is a really weird one. Chuuya is so not modest. He knows damn well how powerful he is and is not afraid to flaunt his ability and martial arts prowess. He's cocky, arrogant and completely self-assured in a fight. However... he also has this weird humility where everything he does is in service to his people. He doesn't ask for special treatment, in fact, it may even make him uncomfortable, at least in Fifteen (dislike of being called "king") and Stormbringer (balking at Adam's "Chuuya-sama" addressal and trying to get him to change it). He goes by first name basis with most everyone and while he expects respect from his subordinates, he's not above spending time with them and doesn't treat people as beneath him unless they're his enemies. From Stormbringer, we know that Chuuya being so much more powerful actually isolates and upsets him. He also rarely takes a lot of credit for things; I think about his reaction in the ending scene in Dead Apple where he brushes off praise from his boss for fighting the dragon, saying he was just doing his job. Most anything he does is brushed off in a similar manner. It's just what he does; it's his duty - what he thinks he should do for his people. See? Weird humility.

I can't rank him too low or too high on this trait - this is one subscale where Chuuya's contradictory nature starts to show, I think.

Score = 3

H Score Total = (5+5+2+3)/4 = 3.75

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Emotionality (E)

Subtrait 1: Fearfulness - A tendency to easily experience fear.

1 = Have little fear; tend to be tough and insensitive to physical pain.

5 = Strongly inclined to feel fear and avoid physical harm.

There's not much to say about this. This guy goes through so much pain; gets thrown into buildings, shocked, stabbed and just gets back up. He jumps out of a plane to fight a dragon with zero hesitation. He feels bored in most fights and itches for a real challenge. He's near completely fearless lmao.

Score = 1

Subtrait 2: Anxiety - A tendency to worry over future outcomes.

1 = Feel little stress in response to hardship and difficulties.

5 = Tend to become preoccupied even by minor problems.

I believe Chuuya has a rather standard level of anxiety. I just said he's pretty much fearless, which he is, but he can and does worry, else he would not show concern for others in the way that he does. I think about his clear worry for the captured Sheep members in Fifteen, or him trying to contact Dazai in Stormbringer, or the way his concern over the outcome of the Cannibalism virus led to him attacking the ADA even though he knew that's what their mutual enemy wanted. At the same time, he doesn't spend too much time fretting over things if he can help it.

Score = 3

Subtrait 3: Dependence - A tendency to require emotional support from others.

1 = Feel self-assured and able to cope without help or advice.

5 = Crave encouragement and support when sharing difficulties.

While I think Chuuya could benefit from some supportive friends who don't die on him ( :'( ), I don't think he necessarily needs a lot of emotional support. He's pretty used to toughing it out alone and he's good at it. He's very self-reliant. However, he does ask for advice on occasion (from Mori), he does like to be part of a group (though that's more about other people depending on him...) and he's genuinely touched when people do show a want to support him (the Flags, Adam). He's not too good at receiving said support though lol.

He deserves more than he gets imo, but this scale is about whether he needs it or not, and to me, the answer is very rarely. Chuuya can deal with anything, however much or long he needs to. The real question is should he have to?

Score = 2

Subtrait 4: Sentimentality - A tendency to feel strong emotional bonds with others.

1 = Feel little emotion when parting or in reaction to others' concerns.

5 = Feel strong attachment to others and have an empathic sensitivity.

Bonds with others are literally Chuuya's Reason Living. Like, he practically says as much in Stormbringer and loyalty and protectiveness are two of his core character traits. Nearly everything he does is for the people he decides are his family. And even though he tends to lose people time and time again, he still manages to care and value them in spite of it all. The only reason he does not rank a full 5 is because he's hardly empathic or sensitive, but his emotions and loyalties run deep and comprise a good chunk of his identity.

Score = 4

E Score Total = (1+3+2+4)/4 = 2.5

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eXtraversion (X)

Subtrait 1: Social Self-Esteem - A tendency to have positive self-regard in social contexts.

1 = Tend to see self as unpopular and have a sense of worthlessness.

5 = Consider themselves to have likeable qualities and are satisfied with who they are.

Hm. I wonder about this one. We've already established that Chuuya is very confident but that's mostly in a fight or when asserting his strength. When it comes to social interactions outside of this context, it's clear that he gets very easily self-conscious. Think of Ranpo calling him "fancy-hat" - he reaches up to touch his hat like he's unsure if it's a compliment or an insult. There's Dazai's commenting on his shoes, first happy and then extremely irritated when the other... shoe drops (I'm sorry). Comments on his clothes, stature and anything to do with his history (the latter especially when he was younger) make him defensive and prone to bursts of irritation - he's very confident up until someone says something that makes him self-conscious. This probably has a lot to do with his former insecurities about his inhumanity; while he knows now that he is human, that feeling of otherness isn't just going to go away. Of particular note is Chuuya's dress sense - I made a note of this earlier that it seems he dresses to give off a particular image, namely, his membership to a group and status as their ultimate weapon (he both blends in and strikingly stands out). I'm not the only one who's noticed how he has a lot of outfit changes throughout the series, and how they seem to match whichever group he's a part of at the time - so, to insult the way he dresses seems to be taken as a personal jab to the image he's built up, an image that keeps him secure in his membership with his people (membership we know Chuuya desires from Stormbringer). If simple poking at the surface level of his self-image is enough for him to get so defensive, that doesn't really bode well for his social self-esteem as a whole.

At the same time, Chuuya does possess a lot of self-confidence and a certain level of self-respect. His reaction to Kenji thinking he's cool is definitely unabashed pride. He likely knows and enjoys his respected reputation in the mafia - but again, this is towards his ability and prowess, not necessarily his person. He responds to care for his person often with confusion and, again, defensiveness. I feel like he's about average in social self-esteem honestly, as his reactions tend to be quite polarized. It really depends on the context and what's being judged.

Score = 3

Subtrait 2: Social Boldness - A tendency to be comfortable/confident in social situations.

1 = Tend to feel shy or awkward when speaking to others.

5 = Willing to approach strangers and speak up.

Yeah Chuuya has no issue talking to people. I wouldn't actually call him social (more on that in the next subtrait) but he's clearly anything but shy. Only reason he doesn't rank a 5 is because he approaches people much more on orders or necessity than genuine willingness.

Score = 4

Subtrait 3: Sociability - A tendency to enjoy conversation and social interaction.

1 = Generally prefer solitary activities and rarely seek out conversation.

5 = Enjoy talking, visiting and celebrating with others.

I know there's a tendency to want to pin Chuuya as being a social person from his loudness, stand-out design, and the fact that we do see him drinking with Kajii and Hirotsu outside of work but truthfully? I think there's a lot more reason to think he's not all that sociable. For one, he is extremely guarded in both Fifteen and Stormbringer which makes a lot of sense - Chuuya has always been singled out as the biggest threat in the room, which means in turn that he has no choice but to perceive most people as potential threats in turn. In Fifteen, he really only talks to people out of necessity or in a fight, but he's not hanging out - of course he isn't, none of the people in that novel treated him like a friend. In Stormbringer, it takes an age for him to relax around the Flags and even then, he's not exactly the most conversational. Okay, you might be saying, but that's him when he's younger and fresh to the idea of having friends who don't ask him for anything in return.

It's tricky, again, because we really don't have much on older Chuuya. He apparently drinks with Hirotsu and Kajii. However, we don't know if he went there with them, or whether they just all happened to be going to the same place and he started venting to them. In the scene with him, Mori and Kouyou, he brings the wine, and then... he's not even really involved in that conversation, mostly just listening (and later cursing out Dazai under his breath lol). Also, a lot of the supplemental materials - drama cds, character q&as, even in Mayoi - seem to imply that he prefers to spend his time going and doing things by himself. There's also a few interesting continuities in Mayoi (which I know is a little... sus for canon info but like I said, we really don't have much and this next point is actually fairly consistent, leading me to believe this is intended to be an actual characterization point). In a lot of his dialogue and the summaries for some of the special events, he is described as "hanging back a bit". He often seems to choose to enjoy the atmosphere instead of talk to anyone, or else he's watching for threats. He almost always seems to be tense except in two conditions: one, he knows the place and the people are safe, and two, he gets to relax and sit back without speaking much. All this seems to indicate he actually very much enjoys time alone or at least time not spent speaking to people. Even when he's at a louder location, he is far more interested in the alcohol haha.

Score = 2

Subtrait 4: Liveliness - A tendency to be enthusiastic, active and upbeat.

1 = Tend not to feel optimistic or dynamic.

5 = Usually optimists and often in high spirits.

I don't know if I'd call Chuuya an optimist, per se. I think he's actually quite jaded. However, he generally has the attitude that he can get through most things and he gets quite into the action - he loves a good fight, he likes doing stunts on his motorcycle, he feels his feelings very strongly. He's not "a ray of sunshine" hehe but he's definitely dynamic and active - I think he'd get quite bored if he had nothing to do. I'd say he's about average.

Score = 3

X Score Total = (3+4+2+3)/4 = 3

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Agreeableness (A)

Subtrait 1: Forgivingness - A tendency to feel trust and liking towards those who previously caused harm.

1 = Tend to hold a grudge.

5 = Usually ready to trust again after being treated poorly.

Hm. Again, this is another place where Chuuya's contradictory nature seems to show. Chuuya's whole mentality is if you try to hurt him or his people, he tries to hurt you back. It's very deliberate that in Fifteen he often kills by ricocheting bullets back at the people who fired at him. It's very retributive; definitely a "get-even" mentality. He immediately goes on a revenge mission against Verlaine for the Flags' sake. He remains furious at Dazai for years (but that's a constant lmao). However, he also has this strange capacity to... stop feeling that same level of raw anger, and it seems to occur when he comes to understand said person as a human being, especially if he can relate somehow. Also, something that is outright stated in Stormbringer is that Chuuya has the unfortunate tendency to help people who have helped him, even if they wind up betraying him in the end. I don't know if I'd call any of this true forgiveness (I think it ties in more with his ingrained sense of fairness and responsibility) but at the very least, he doesn't seem to hold grudges against people he comes to know for long except Dazai, and even then, he still trusts Dazai implicitly. He doesn't give his trust easily, but by god when he does, it's hard to break. I'm not entirely convinced of this myself, but I gave him a neutral score.

Score = 3

Subtrait 2: Gentleness - A tendency to be lenient in judgements of others.

1 = Tend to be critical when evaluating others.

5 = Reluctant to openly judge others harshly.

...He openly tells opponents they're weak to their faces. He's sooo not gentle and he's only really nice to his allies (and Kenji...but he has very little choice in that matter because Kenji decided they are friends). I think he's the kind of person who's blunt, but not always to be a jerk. Actually, he's fairly attuned to giving advice to people (see: drama cds) but he sure doesn't sugar-coat it. He says what he means. There's also his manner of speaking, which is considered quite vulgar. He's saved from the lowest score because, as I said, he does offer advice and encouragement without much prompting and rarely is he a complete jerk for no reason (unless you're counting bully preschool Chuuya from Wan hahaha). He also seems to have a soft spot for animals, especially dogs. Does that count? I think that counts.

Score = 2

Subtrait 3: Flexibility - A tendency to compromise and cooperate with others.

1 = Stubborn and quick to argue.

5 = Accommodate others' suggestions, even if they may be unreasonable.

I think he's fairly amenable to other ideas actually, but it depends on their source. There's an omake where Kouyou has to call him out because he's indulging Mori and his spontaneous whims too much in their planning. He goes along with the dumb shenanigans the Flags and his subordinates get into, with some griping, but it's clear he doesn't really mind. He's a lot more resistant to Dazai, of course, but again, he will go along with most things in the end because he knows that Dazai's plans do not fail. Still, he rarely just takes other's ideas without putting up a little bit of resistance first (unless it's a direct order), and he doesn't seem to work with others except Dazai (and he does not cooperate with him in any way approaching an agreeable manner, despite being completely in sync). I put him as neutral. He seems to need to see the sense in most things or else see some benefit to others (which might just be said others' enjoyment... the rich girl scene anyone?) before he'll actually do something that wasn't his idea.

Score = 3

Subtrait 4: Patience - A tendency to remain calm rather than become angry.

1 = Tend to lose their temper quickly.

5 = Have a high threshold for expressing anger.

...Lmao. I'm so sorry, buddy. If something is annoying to Chuuya, he will react (it might not be a dramatic reaction but it still manifests as at least visible irritation). He is more than capable of repressing his anger and acting more mature and serious when the situation calls for it but... it really does not take much to rile him up, especially if said annoyance humiliates or embarrasses him in some way. That said, he can and will remain stoic in the face of people who rely on him. Saved from the lowest score by a thread.

Score = 2

A Score Total = (3+2+3+2)/4 = 2.5

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Conscientiousness (C)

Subtrait 1: Organization - A tendency to seek order in surroundings.

1 = Tend to be sloppy and haphazard.

5 = Tend to keep things tidy and prefer structure.

There's not much in the series that really indicates what Chuuya is like in his own space. The closest we get is in Stormbringer, where he has very few belongings - but these are stated to be kept very neatly. He appears to spend a good deal of time making himself presentable and it makes sense that this would extend to the space around him as well. Chuuya is likely to be a pretty organized person - he's seen going over a list in an omake and planning out a schedule, and he's good at staying on task - honestly a rarity with characters in this series. While I wouldn't expect him to be quite as fastidious as, say, Kunikida, the little evidence we have seems to indicate he keeps things pretty organized.

Score = 4

Subtrait 2: Diligence - A tendency to work hard.

1 = Have little self-discipline and are not strongly achievement motivated.

5 = Have a strong work ethic and are willing to exert themselves.

Um, yeah, absolutely he's high in this trait. He considers protection of his people his duty and responsibility - it's of prime importance to him and he shoulders a lot of blame should he fail. He brushes off absurd feats such as facing off against Guivre in Stormbringer and fighting the dragon in Dead Apple with a view that can essentially be boiled down to "it's what I'm supposed to do". He clearly expects 100% from himself. He's very diligent. It's a product of his loyalty crossed with his "I can handle anything" mentality.

Score = 5

Subtrait 3: Perfectionism - A tendency to be thorough and concerned with details.

1 = Tolerate some errors and tend to neglect details.

5 = Check carefully for mistakes and improvements.

Tying in with the above, there's not a lot of conclusive examples I can point to, but as he expects full effort from himself and isn't really tolerant of his own failure, I would say this trait is high by necessity. The suits he keeps in Stormbringer are also kept spotless. I can't give a 5, because I don't think he's a perfectionist, per se, but he does rise to meet challenges and that necessitates improvement. He's the best martial artist in the Port Mafia for a reason.

Score = 4

Subtrait 4: Prudence - A tendency to deliberate carefully and inhibit impulses.

1 = Act on impulse and tend not to consider consequences.

5 = Consider options carefully and tend to be cautious/self-controlled.

...ok. So, he definitely prefers to jump into things headfirst. He solves many of his problems with actions and generally more violent ones. However - he can and does look at situations in a much more nuanced way than people give him credit for. He knows how to negotiate, for one - that's part of what Kouyou trained him on in the first place. For another, even when he does rush into a fight, the Dead Apple novelization has this brilliant passage where you see that he's incredibly observant in the midst of the action - and really, he'd have to be. Gravity manipulation is not telekinesis - there's a lot more to consider in terms of force and resistance than just "pick up/throw object". To be noted though is that much of this quick thought happens within a situation - he's adaptable in the moment but he's not really a pre-planner. His way of dealing with things kind of necessitates him jumping into a situation and working through things as they come. So, his score would still be low here, but not the lowest.

Score = 2

C Score Total = (4+5+4+2)/4 = 3.75

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Openness (O)

Subtrait 1: Aesthetic Appreciation - A tendency to find enjoyment in beauty found in art and nature.

1 = Not overly interested in works of art or natural wonder.

5 = Have a strong appreciation for various art forms and nature.

I'll be honest, there's not a lot of instances in canon to support or refute this subtrait. We do know that he likes nice clothes and hats though, so that supports some level of aesthetic appreciation. He also is shown humming in the manga, and one of his likes on his character profile is music. In other official material, such as character interviews, he seems to enjoy going for drives to look at the sunrise or sunset from a nice view or enjoying fresh snow falling from the sky. A few of his Mayoi quotes also support this, as he seems to enjoy the ambiance of wind chimes and festivities from a distance - though in one of them he sounds a bit like a tsundere ("the hydrangeas make for an exquisite sight... I suppose") lol.

So, while there isn't a lot, I think there's decent support for a high score here. I can't really see him at an art gallery per se, but he definitely has an aesthetic sense and likely an appreciation for natural beauty as well.

Score = 4

Subtrait 2: Inquisitiveness - A tendency to seek information about and experience the world.

1 = Have little curiosity and are content with what they know.

5 = Seek out new information constantly and love new experiences.

I'm not sure there's much evidence here either. I don't think Chuuya is closed-off to learning new things, as he does teach himself new skills and seems to pick things up fairly quickly. I've already commented on how he's pretty adaptable, especially in the moment. However, I don't think he's the type to go beyond and actively seek out new knowledge that isn't directly applicable to what he needs to know. The knowledge we see Chuuya acquire throughout the series is more practical stuff, stuff he can put to use in some way (ex. martial arts skills). His worldview also remains rather limited - he has only ever known life as an important figure in a criminal organization. He has literally known nothing else. And he doesn't seem to mind this so much; I suspect because, as Stormbringer tells us, he doesn't feel particularly deserving of examining anything different. There's also the matter of his intense loyalty to his people, which means that he has little incentive to look elsewhere. At the same time, he certainly likes to experience things in a more literal sense - he tries different wines, wears different outfits, and is incredibly engaged in action. I'll give him a average score.

Score = 3

Subtrait 3: Creativity - A tendency to innovate and experiment.

1 = Tend to stick to familiar patterns and methods with little change.

5 = Actively seek new solutions to problems and tend to self-express.

Chuuya, I would say, is a lot more straightforward than he is innovative. While, as I've mentioned multiple times by now, he adapts quickly in a fight, his go-to is still... to fight. He deals with things very much head-on, and again, he's not really a pre-planner. In the moment, however, he's incredible at reading a situation and responding near instantly to new threats. As for self-expression, I'd venture to say that Chuuya's actually pretty repressed. He has a distinctive style and set of likes and dislikes, but he often seems to understate his excitement or interest in things - see the tsundere-ish comment above or really just look at how he tries to appear cooler and more put-together than he is in like... anything he shows up in. Dude is repressed, seriously. The only time we see him unabashedly enjoying himself is in high-adrenaline situations like fights - at the very least, in Fifteen, Dazai describes him as being somewhat "kid-ish" when he gets really into things. (You are one to talk, Dazai.)

I'll put him at a neutral score since I can't find too much supporting evidence either way.

Score = 3

Subtrait 4: Unconventionality - A tendency to accept the unusual.

1 = Avoid eccentric and non-conforming persons.

5 = Receptive to ideas that might seem strange or radical.

...you know, writing all this out, and as unusually powerful and contradictory as Chuuya is... he's kind of. The normal one. At least in comparison to a lot of the company he keeps. He tends to be the voice of reason or at least keeps somewhat of a level head in the drama cds which will never stop being amusing to me. Part of the reason he's good at this though is that he's really very accepting and kind of indifferent towards people's eccentricities, especially if he's known them for a while. He barely bats an eye at Kajii's maniacal experimentation, accommodates Mori's weirdness without so much as a reaction, and while he finds Adam incredibly strange (valid lmao) he seems to start to enjoy that after a time. He seems pretty willing to accept just about anyone's quirks the more he spends time around them and gets used to them.

When around Dazai in particular, he reveals himself to... also be very, very strange. The comparatively "normal guy" is quickly replaced with someone just as incredibly unhinged as Dazai himself. Argue however you like whether they make each other better or worse but they certainly do make each other weirder.

I wonder if being surrounded by so many odd people makes him feel slightly less odd by comparison. Something to consider.

At the same time, he's a little too grounded and practical to be given a full score of 5, so a 4 he is.

Score = 4

O Score Total = (4+3+3+4)/4 = 3.5

So, there you have it! Phew, this took a while. I hope you enjoyed it!

I'm working on another analysis for Mori (BSD) and for Seam (Deltarune). If anyone has any other characters they'd like to request, feel free to drop me an ask! I write at a snail's pace but it does eventually get done!

[astro-can]

Meaning of Life | soukoku | Chapter Two

"ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪʟʟɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴅɪᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ?"

Nakahara Chuuya’s one wish in life is for Dazai Osamu to disappear forever. Or at least, that’s what he thinks. Dazai Osamu’s one wish in life is to find a beautiful woman to commit double suicide with. Or at last, that’s what he wants Chuuya to think.

a short soukoku fanfiction (around 3-4 chapters) Chapter Two tw: suicide and blood word count: 1.3k this chapter doesn't have much action. chapter three will be more entertaining.

Two days later, it was Saturday.

The south docks were usually very busy, as it was where most foreign cargo came and went. Which meant that there were also a lot of foreign people, many who couldn’t understand or speak Japanese fluently. Chuuya kept a lookout for any members of the Guild he knew, ready for a fight just in case he ran into them. During the Guild battle, he and Dazai had gotten back together as Twin Dark for one more mission - destroy the Guild members guarding Q and get the young child back. Back then, Chuuya had used ‘Corruption’ because he trusted Dazai. And he still does…it's just that, whenever Chuuya thinks of Dazai these days, an unfamiliar feeling twists in his gut. Usually, all Chuuya wanted to do was pound Dazai to a pulp and throw him into the ocean to drown. Nowadays, he wants to…to…

ARGHHH SNAP OUT OF IT, YOU HATE DAZAI AND HE HATES YOU. Chuuya punched a nearby cargo crate, making a huge dent in it.

“How can a small creature store up so much strength and energy in such a tiny body?” Chuuya flinched at Dazai’s voice and swirled around.

“Ha?! What do you mean? I’m way stronger than you, regardless of height!” Chuuya wrapped his fingers around Dazai’s neck, activating his ability.

The latter smirked. “You need to get on your tiptoes to choke me.” he rested his own hand on Chuuya’s arm and nullified Gravity Manipulation. The veins in Chuuya’s forehead pulsed with irritation as he let go and turned back around, huffing

“Why did you call me here?”

“Ah, the President assigned me to a mission here!” Dazai exclaimed. His hair was rustling in his wind, and Chuuya noticed that he had new bandages wrapped around his arms and a big puffy band-aid under his left eye. 

Did he get hurt?

Nah.

Knowing Dazai, he probably has a small gun equipped into his skin just in case something happens.

“...and why did you ask me to come along?”

“I thought I could use your help. Your ability would be quite helpful.” Dazai said. “But other than that, you’re useless!”

“Shut up! I’m one of the five executives in the Mafia!”

“I was an executive too. You ain’t special.” Dazai walked past him.

We were Twin Dark. The infamous Mafia duo. You would be the one to plan our missions and I would be the one to beat our enemies to a pulp. You were the youngest executive in the history of the Port Mafia, achieving the position only when you were around fifteen years old. That was also around the same time you and the Boss brought me into the Mafia. After you betrayed us and left to join the damned Detective Agency…how do you think I, your ex-partner felt?

I hate you so much. I want to kill you every time I look at you. 

I hate you.

But now he doesn't believe himself.

Do I hate you?

Do you hate me?

“Wait up!” Chuuya ran after him. “Tell me the details, what’s the mission?”

“This is a foreign loading dock. After the battle with the Guild, we’ve been paranoid of anything coming from America. Recently, Ranpo-san deduced that there would be trouble here today, at this time. Other than that, he refuses to say anything else. He told us to figure it out by ourselves.” Dazai sighed in a whiny manner. “He’s a senior and is closest to the President, so I can’t even disobey him!”

“Aren’t you as smart as him, though?” Chuuya raised his eyebrows. Edogawa Ranpo… the brat who founded the Agency with Fukuzawa Yukichi. His ‘Super Deduction’ is never wrong. But Dazai should be able to figure out everything anyway. He’s super smart too, and his predictions are also never wrong.

Dazai chuckled. “I’m definitely not on the same level as Ranpo-san, but thanks for believing in me, Chuuya-kun~”

Chuuya blushed and tugged at his hat. “Shut up, you suicidal maniac.”

“Speaking of suicide, have you figured out my secret yet?” Dazai asked brightly. As they walked by the people unloading cargo, Dazai waved at them casually. The people exchanged confused looks but paid him no attention.

“Nah. I don’t have time to think about that stupid secret of yours. I’ve been spending my time trying to find you a beautiful woman instead,” Chuuya lied through his teeth. The truth is, he went to sleep the last few days wondering why Dazai hadn’t actually committed yet, even though he had met a bunch of hot women before.

“Awww, really?” Dazai said in a sad voice. “Oh well. We’re here.”

“...what.” Chuuya growled. They had taken a complete roundabout and exited the docking area, and instead had walked back into the main city area. More specifically, the part of the city the Port Mafia headquarters were. “Why the hell are we here, you fucking Mackerel? Didn’t you say that Edogawa brat said there would be trouble at the docks, not the Mafia??”

“Calm down, Chuuya-kun!” Dazai exclaimed. “According to my calculations, trouble will come for the Mafia from the docks. So it’s better if we just stayed here!”

“THEN WHY DID WE MEET AT THE DOCKS??!” Chuuya yelled.

“I just needed to look at something.” Dazai hummed, unbothered.

“Shitty Dazai…”

Since it was already 11pm, there were a lot less people roaming around. The Port Mafia building was just in sight, and they could probably reach it in about thirty seconds if they ran fast. Chuuya could sense a few members hidden in the shadows, no doubt confused why one of the executives was hanging out with an Agency member. He signaled them to back off, and they obliged, albeit very reluctantly. 

“My subordinates have probably already informed the Boss of your presence being so near to our headquarters.” Chuuya said. “If trouble is coming for the Mafia, why are you helping us? Aren’t we, like, your worst enemies?”

“I would never give the Mafia the honour of being my ‘worst enemies’.” Dazai huffed. “No, my worst enemy would probably be Fyodor, the impressively intelligent Russian criminal. And to answer your first question…” he leaned down, his lips right next to Chuuya’s ear. “It’s because you’re a part of the Mafia. I’ll be the one to kill you, Chuuya-kun. That’s why I’m helping you - because I’d rather not have you destroyed by someone else.”

Is he trying to sweet-talk me?

…it’s working…

“What a shitty reason.” Chuuya muttered. He was thankful for the dark - it hid the dark red blush coating his cheeks. Dazai smirked and leaned back, shoving his hands into his pockets.

“Anyhow, I’ve known Mori-san for longer than you have. He knows why I’m here, and he probably won’t bother us.” Dazai said. “Unless, of course, the entire Mafia gets involved. Which it will be, soon enough!”

“We aren’t weak. I’ll fucking kill anyone who dares to defy the Mafia.” Chuuya snarled. “Even if the Mafia other than me gets involved today, it won’t be a big deal. Ane-san and I can easily chop up anyone who stands in our way.”

“Well, it’s not you and ‘Ane-san’ today. It’s you and me, and don’t you forget it~!” Dazai sang, throwing his hands up into the air. “Say, do you think any good bars are open right now? How about the one you were at the other day? Shall we go there?”

“I thought you said trouble was coming.”

“I know, I was just kidding. Jeez!” Dazai pouted. Groaning, Chuuya massaged his temples. This man called me here in the middle of the night and is now spouting ridiculous nonsense and making the butterflies in my stomach flutter. What a bitch!

“...Chuuya-kun.” Dazai lifted his head, his eyebrows furrowed. His silly expression was gone. “I can sense it now.”

“Sense what?”

A devilish smile spread across Dazai’s face, a hint of his old insanity coming back. 

“Trouble.”

chapter one

[spacexseven]

(1/3) god akutagawa… he’d be so. Severe, about the whole thing, you know? from HIS perspective he’s going through a long and arduous journey of emotional turmoil that you, wretched seducer/seductress have cruelly damned him to; but for you it’s like he COMPLETELY turned on a dime. he wouldn’t really be the sweep-you-off-your-feet type, like chuuya or dazai would be in this situation. when he gets the order to get close to you for intel reasons (and the whole time he’s wondering why this is HIS job, when has he ever been known to be personable?) he might take on the persona of a newbie in your line of work or a new tenant in your apartment complex and you he’s always kinda… there. staring at you and looking mad about something. but hey! hes probably just shy, right? why not throw him a bone, you think. you live to regret this. 

on akutagawa’s end, he doesnt know whether to laugh or scoff at your naivety. you really are making this MUCH too simple for him. like, come on now, discussing work over coffee? inviting him into your home? why don’t you go ahead and decapitate yourself for him while you’re at it. and what an irritating little insect you are, as well! constantly bothering him, talking to him, touching him… showing him affection, concern, genuine interest… completely ridiculous. he’s sure he doesnt dislike ANYONE as much as he does you.

OH GOD IF THEY PROTECT HIM??? FUCK!!!! he’d be SO touched. denies it, but he is!!! moved, even! after this, he gets really comfortable around you, moreso than he thinks he deserves. you’re just so. nice. he feels good when hes around you. the mission becomes more of a break from mafia life than an addition to it. he… likes you. no, he loves you. he loves you so much. if you express a similar romantic interest in him he’ll probably blow a gasket. he never thought he could feel this strongly about anyone (excluding his sister and dazai, ofc) 

inevitably, you find him out. hard not to, when his end goal in this whole matter was to utterly destroy you. like you said, he leaves you no choice in the matter of coming with him. he needs you, and you need him, in his mind. he can protect you! no one else will EVER protect you or love you or WORSHIP you the way he does! you don’t need anything else but him, don’t you understand? this is for the best! youre angry, of course. you hate him, curse him, try to kill him. and akutagawa feels like his entire world is falling apart. please, please, please, you can’t hate him, anything but that. he loves you he loves you he loves you PLEASE he’ll do anything to prove it to you, ANYTHING. his life is almost entirely dedicated to earning your affection and praise from here on out, kinda like how he is with dazai. you’ll see it his way eventually…. you have to….. he wont accept anything else.

instead of compiling these together, I will be answering them separately for each character :> i'll get to the rest over the week as well, just need to focus on them individually to really flesh out the ideas :>> anything under this au thing will be tagged with #spy au 🐟 (short and effective, i hope)

cw: yandere characters, deceit, manipulation, obsessive behavior, imprisonment, stalking

akutagawa doesn't really strike anyone as the ideal person to send to infiltrate some place and charm someone for information, but he has a surprisingly useful ability to sort of...blend into the background. he knows what's expected of him, sent on to a mission like this. he's not expected to flirt or coo or wink at you until your knees buckle and you fall into his arms (though now, in retrospect, that would have been a sight he would love to see). rather, what he has to do is simply exist. exist and observe.

it sounded a lot easier in theory because nobody had said anything about you. all he was told was that you'd have the information he needed, and you were not so high-up that it was impossible to talk to you, and not so unimportant that you would be useless to listen in on. nobody said anything about that damned smile and the easygoing charm and the genuine concern that radiated off you. nobody told him that you would pat his shoulder and tell him he was doing great, buy him coffee and offer your support for anything he needed. and nobody even mentioned how kind you were, unlike anyone else he's met that worked for an 'enemy' organization.

(well, it was true that you were kind to all your subordinates, but he refused to see that. to him, it was only him that you cared about right?)

then there was the fact that he could never just 'exist' when you were around. you had an eye out for everyone—not out of paranoia or control, but concern. you noticed him hiding behind the crowd, awkwardly standing by the wall, and you'd bring him closer to everyone else. you saw him, despite him not being any use to you. he was not the ruthless murderer the port mafia wanted him to be, or whatever dazai thought him as. he wasn't a rival you were deadset on beating or a guard dog that patiently sat by your feet, ready to tear apart anyone who dared even look at you the wrong way. not that he would have minded that, if it meant he could protect you from those wandering eyes. in here, he was just another one of faceless lower-rank members, loaded with boring paperwork and forced to run after everyone else.

but to you, he was the new member under your care. you used the name he was given for the mission, you asked him if he had his lunch. you brought him some of your favorite tea to try when you learned he liked drinking tea (and he drank every drop. how could he not, when you looked so eager for his opinion on it?) he wouldn't have expected more than a nod after a job finished in the port mafia, but here, he was being celebrated like he had done something. like you cared. and that thought tormented him.

at first, he pretended to hate you for it. with the appreciation, you showed, your open nature, and your sympathy—you would be torn apart and crushed in the port mafia. such traits would only lead to your demise. he couldn't show that he appreciated it because he didn't want you to think you could keep this up, and endanger yourself. he wasn't the only one trying to infiltrate your group, he knew, and if anyone else learned about you, they would try to worm inside through you. and then what? you'd never see through them, would you? akutagawa was terrible at espionage and still, he made it this far with you, hadn't he? you didn't even consider his true intentions, even after a couple of slip-ups, that he was convinced you were truly helpless. it was deplorable.

and yet...

he wanted to receive more of your attention.

it was very embarrassing when he realized what was happening. automatically running to you after finishing any task, looking forward to your check-ins, taking on anything to try and lessen your workload...what had you done to him? sometimes, he thought of what dazai would think of him now, acting like a pathetic little lap dog, deprived of love.

what really sealed the deal was the moment you risked your life to protect his. undercover akutagawa did not have an ability. that was probably why you stepped in so quickly to move him away from harm. but something about how you grabbed and lifted him, fearlessly navigating the chaos to bring him to safety struck him. something about how easily you threw aside your life for him, how immediately you jumped into action. and after all that, when you apologized to him and swore you would never let him be hurt again...

what else was he supposed to do?

akutagawa was no fool. reckless, hardheaded, maybe. but not stupid. there was no place for that in his life. but at the moment he was at a loss for words and emotions. this overwhelming warmth, this gentle embrace, this wonderful feeling—it was all so new to him. he was used to being the one risking his life to further the port mafia, not fussed over like...like his life wasn't dispensable.

your tight hold on him, your frantic apologies, your commands for someone to come help him—akutagawa had never felt so wanted before. never felt so desperate for something before, either, except maybe dazai's recognition. funny how he could tear himself apart and stick himself back together and dazai wouldn't bat an eyelid, but one little scratch on him and you're tripping over yourself to get to him, huh?

that incident is what changes everything between you two. suddenly, akutagawa is more present, more expressive to you. he talks more (still not a lot, but he's getting there), he even lets the occasional smile slip. he brings you snacks he knows you like to eat, and he just starts being around more often. always behind you, like you held a leash that was connected to him. akutagawa was sure now, that he loved you.

the warm feeling, the nervous feeling he got around you, the way he couldn't stop looking and how he always wanted you to hold him. he loved you, so much. he knew you didn't think of him as a lover—not yet. but he didn't mind. this was fine, for now. until he settled things with the pm so you would never have to know his true mission.

what he didn't expect to happen was you finding out so soon. it all happened too fast. he got a message that he had done his job and shortly after the group you worked for was eradicated. when you were finally introduced to the port mafia, you met akutagawa as himself for the first time.

and just as he feared, you were disgusted by him.

he should have expected this, right? you had every right to be upset after you trusted him so much. that didn't mean it didn't tear him apart to see the hatred in your eyes and the way you flinched away from him. he thought you would be grateful after he convinced them to let you be with him, and not punished like your friends, but you were enraged. you screamed and punched and you looked so hurt that he wanted to fall on his knees and apologize until you accepted it. he would take any punishment as long as you stayed. and you would stay, wouldn't you? when you saw the evil that lurked outside on the streets, the terrors that awaited you. you would stay when he convinced you because he would convince you. show you that he always loved you back, and that he would protect you like you did him. nothing had changed, except his name, really! it was still him, the one you laughed with and bought tea for. it was still the him that you had held in your arms after bringing him to safety.

why couldn't you see that?

[lnkedmyheart]

You know what? I wanna look into the different ways Dazai behaves around people and the why behind it. For instance he is exceedinly belittling towards Akutagawa, often making cruel remarks that he knows will hurt him the most. Its implied he does it to make him stronger in his messed up way but its supposed to highlight how fucked up Dazai was and still is. Meanwhile with Chuuya he is more likely to make childish remarks and never really says anything that could actually hurt him. His comments are playful and banter-like which he knows Chuuya doesn't really care about enough to actually be hurt. With Oda he tends to be more self hating that shows how little he honestly thinks of himself meanwhile with Kunikida and by extension the ADA he is very artificial and secretive, often overplaying his idiot persona and never fully confiding in them. And then with Atsushi, much like Akutagawa, he is more severe when he deems it fit, the difference being he is only taking a softer approach than Akutagawa because he perhaps doesn't want to disappoint Oda's memory.

I think he views Oda, Kunikida and the ADA as better than himself and by extension becomes self depreciating. But while with Oda he was more honest due to his mafia affiliation, with the ADA he is too aware of the distance between them. While with Chuuya he viewed him as an equal of sorts and could rely on to provide silent support more because while with Oda he was more honest, Oda didn't entirely understand or care to understand him (he just accepts Dazai for who he is) while Chuuya despite his irritation and dislike for the idea did understand him. Kunikida wants to get him, he's his partner afterall and for all his vitriol he does worry about him but Dazai isnt willing to give out anything.

And then you have Aku and Atsushi with whom Dazai has taken on seemingly different approaches but they are ultimately the same. Dazai was to Aku what Mori was to him, meanwhile he is to Atsushi what Oda was to him. He is distant to both and has ultimately the same sink or swim style of mentorship but where with Aku he is actively cruel with Atsushi he lets it soften a little but he's still brutally honest. And what I find interesting and really cool is that his behaviour towards aku and Chuuya doesn't change post ADA either. He is still a playful little shit with Chuuya and an ass to Aku and I like this because it highlights that Dazai didn't magically flip a switch and become a wholesome dude by changing sides even if it might seem that way.

[shozaii]

title: too feisty.

genre: angst.

characters: dazai, chuuya, kunikida, akutagawa.

warnings: rough behavior, the boys arguing with you :(

request: hi, i could ask for scenarios and headcanons for dazai, chuuya, kunikida, akutagawa, when i have an argument with my s/o and they don't speak to each other for several days. how it is reconciled and after how many days. thank you very much☺️☺️☺️😉😉😌😌

(a/n): hewwooo anon! thank youuu so much for requesting!! i did my best writing this, so i hope you enjoy reading it! 

masterlist.

☆ d a z a i.

- arguing with dazai is like yelling into the void. he doesn’t really understand why you’re both going through this pain, the torture of the wrong emotions at a very wrong time - when in reality it was all supposed to be sunshine and rainbows. did you not see the sunshine in his eyes anymore? was he going to be left alone again? so many thoughts left his head, yet all he could do was listen to what you have to say.

- simple to say, he is quiet the entire time because he just doesn’t want you both to end up torn; worse, broken. he wouldn’t want to see you break, either. unable to express any of his feelings, he tends to stare at you with a thin line formed on his lips.

- it depends on what you’re arguing, really. if he knows it’s his fault, he obliges to it. if he’s just confused, his darkened gaze burns into you. he looks like he’s about to flip. instead, he huffs softly, walks up to you, and looks right at you for a bit.

- once he’s done looking at you, he leaves. he walks and walks to literally anywhere which would give him comfort. he looks up into the sky, and wonders just what he could do to become a better person. after all, it was all for you.

- shall no one come in between and take away one from the other.

- the silent treatment has gone as far as a week. dazai respects the time you need to be alone, even though he is tempted to initiate a conversation earlier than expected. the other arguments have lasted for at least 2-3 days. i wouldn’t see him asking for help from anyone - he wants to show you and himself that he has the capability of reaching himself out to you, owning up to his mistakes and reconcile. if it was you who returns first, his heart would literally shatter. 

- i feel like he would call you to come over to the favorite spot of yours, or maybe walk up to you one fine night, wrapping his arms around you, planting slow kisses on your neck. his way of apologizing is sometimes through affection, or touch. it’s like a reassurance that he’s going to be there for you, and he understands that arguments do happen once in a while. 

☆ c h u u y a.

- he might get really irritated. no cap. i have a feeling he might blow up on you just a little? but the irritation mostly comes from the moment the two of you start arguing. he clenches his fists a whole lot, might chew the inside of his lip, try not to look at you in the eyes because he might start tearing up too.

- oh he might go as far as to slamming his hands on the table, which would leave you taken aback by his actions. once he realizes what he did, he just crumbles because holy crap did he not want to see you panic. 

- chuuya doesn’t like silent treatment at all. i feel like he would have a fear of abandonment. the pre - port mafia days didn’t treat him right. at this point his heart is thumping hard because when you both begin the treatment, he knows he’s not going to go through this well. so how does he cope? wine. but he doesn’t go to a bar. it’s always from the stock he saves at home. he possibly never leaves the house, either - except for serious missions.

- he shakes when his comrades tell him to text you, so practically he would rather do it face to face. it seems way more better that way for him. this period lasts for about 2 days max. he can never go beyond that.

- cue him engulfing you into a warm cuddle sesh; it’s going to take a while for him to let go of you. he talks about how wrong he was, how he’s going to make it up for you - i feel like he would’ve gotten you something just in case. he’s just willing to spend tons for you i swear

☆ k u n i k i d a.

- i feel like one of his written ideals about you/arguments is him reminding himself that conversation is key. it doesn’t have to be any specific topics; it must be implemented in everything. i have a huge headcanon that kunikida tends to get nervous if he has to let out an opinion he never has put out about, until the very last minute where he has to decide his own fate - right or wrong?

- but nope, he’s not reserved. he would let you know exactly how does he feel during the argument, though he would never, ever try and raise his voice at you. let’s just say you accidentally raise your own, he wouldn’t be bothered by it either, and would maintain his composure.

- yes, he does get angry very easily. but when it comes to you his guard gets let down, and he is more of himself when it comes to conversations with you. fights are very rarely heated. 

- i think they do get pretty intense when he’s just so stressed out with work in general, worried if he could protect you during these trying times, paperwork maybe? or how you might take his job easily while he doesn’t. it doesn’t hit him at first but when he does realize that he screamed at you, his heart drops to his feet. the longest you have not talked to each other is for about a day.

- sometimes i forget that kunikida is younger than dazai. but anyway - if dazai notices kunikida’s sour face, and somehow dazai gets him to spit it all out. this would somehow give clarification to kunikida that his partner isn’t all that bad when it comes to advice. he would give pretty good ones and fulfil his role as a senior.

- when he apologizes he looks down at the floor, but slowly proceed to look up into your eyes if he realizes this is his opportunity to take. 10/10 would give you the smallest apologetic smile, and might even kneel while taking your hand. he’s just sooo in love with you aksjkdjkj

☆ a k u t a g a w a.

- hot-tempered. send tweet. 

- a little bit like chuuya to be honest. would bang his fists against a hard surface, stomp the floor, or crush any type of object he has in his hands. but never, ever expect him to use rashomon on you. having you in his life was more than a gift itself, so using his ability on you wouldn’t even be on the last things he would do.

- maybe when he does show his anger by banging and smashing things around, you would see a red glow which would cause you to back away or be afraid of him. this is his turning point. has he officially scared you already? was he bad? what did he look like in your eyes? what’s your next step?

- not talking to each other would probably last as long as a week? two weeks. it’s what i see. he gets scared of himself too, and might as well get a panic attack from what he has done to hurt his loved one. he’s always wanted you to be his first and last. would go to more missions to distract himself (and win most fights, but fail at forgetting about the argument you had). 

- in this case, it would take some time for him to loosen up and talk to someone about it. he might have done this once. only once, never repeated again because he’s just so embarrassed to do so. 

- aku would start the conversation. he’s lightly tap on your shoulder and might utter the words, “let’s talk” but tiny. as for affection, he would kiss your hand and look away, flushed. there would be this lil pout too, but at least you guys are one again.

(a/n): after a long time, here i am with a new fic for bsd!! i feel accomplished now UwU!! lemme know what you think!!🥰❤

[kavehpilled]

Pspsps talk about kunikidazai vs skk 👁👁🤲 /nf

SUDDENLY I AM BLUESCREENING IN THE GOOD WAY

ok so. kunikidazai is my ship of all time duh we've all known this BUT CAN I JUST SAY. IT IS FAR HEALTHIER THAN SOUKOKU

this is no disrespect to skk shippers at all (i am hiding amongst all of you) but if you take into consideration how Bad the mafia is and how kunikida basically fixed dazai without knowing it this makes sense

kunikida is honest. hes loyal, hes hard working but most of all he has a steel set of morals that he will do anything to uphold and he is very hyperempathetic. ironically dazai is the exact opposite of all these things

chuuya on the other hand has loads of unpacked trauma, hes also loyal but he has a hard time processing his emotions healthily and he also had the worst upbringing out of anyone from the series. hes a great guy, but dazai isnt the Best guy for him, but they make it work!

with kunikidazai, dazai benefits and so does kunikida. for one, dazai learned that theres more to life than suicide and kunikida pushed him to become a better person. also kuni is hot as fuck. dazai loosened up kunikidas ideals (generally speaking he just taught him to be easy on himself when things get rough) and that not everything is his fault. kunikida cant save everyone and dazai is not a monster. it works!

with soukoku chuuya gets mildly irritated by dazai but he loves him for it. theres a special bond theyve formed through being in the mafia together and by being partners and more importantly: struggling with the feeling of humanity. they both know it well which is why they can understand each other so easily. thats one flaw knkdz doesnt have, kunikida has never experienced the feelings dazai has but since hes hyperempathetic he will do absolutely anything to understand how he feels. its a good quality in my eyes

another thing to add since im mentally ill about the song; the like "your beauty never ever scared me" from mary on a cross is EXACTLY both ships but in different ways. it works interchangeably for kunikidazai, dazai never finding kunikidas faults and bloody past frightening and kunikida never thinking any less of dazai for being an ex pm executive. really it just works for soukoku as dazai to chuuya, since arahabaki plays a big part in their bond as partners

overall im a sucker for kunikidazai. their dynamic is insane and i cannot think of anything more perfect than them /lh

[along-came-atsushi]

Akutagawa – Dazai – Atsushi: An analysis about their relationship

And why Dazai treats them so differently.

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The symbolism of Atsushi and Akutagawa:

From their outward appearance and their design alone, Atsushi and Akutagawa are meant as opposites, but they’re also a duality:

Both wear black and white clothes, but whereas Atsushi is mostly white with a streak of black, Akutagawa wears mostly black with a streak of white. It’s even represented in their hair colours.

Besides this, there are many other things that mark their oppositeness and their duality to each other:

Atsushi is a member of the ADA, while Akutagawa is a member of the PM. Atsushi’s ability colour is blue, Akutagawa’s ability colour is red. Being a member of the ADA makes Atsushi someone who works for the “light and day”, Akutagawa is someone who works for the “darkness and night.” Atsushi loves cats, Akutagawa hates dogs. Atsushi’s ability takes the form of a tiger, Akutagawa’s ability represents a dragon, both creatures are important elements in Asian mythology. Ultimately, Atsushi symbolizes life or is associated with life, while Akutagawa symbolizes death or is associated with death.

Considering this, the title Shin Soukoku (Double Black) isn’t even a fitting name for them, since they both aren’t simply a double, as both Mori and Fukuzawa or Dazai and Chuuya were.

[Beware: Spoilers starting from chapter 83]

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Dazai’s mindset and his relationship with Akutagawa:

1.) One of the reasons why Dazai’s treatment towards Akutagawa as a mentor was so cruel and brutal, firstly lies in his overall negative mental state during his PM time. He was visibly unhappy, constantly surrounded by death and violence, and more than now struggled with his suicidal thoughts.

Is it an explanation for his treatment of Akutagawa? −Yes, it is.

Is it an excuse for his treatment of Akutagawa? −No, it isn’t.

2.) Another reason is that this is just how things are done in the Mafia. There is no sense in handling someone with kid gloves in the PM, a place where you get killed for disobeying orders, where you shouldn’t see your peers as friends or get to intimate with anyone:

“It’s an unwritten rule in the Mafia to not stick your nose where it doesn’t belong. One must never open the door to another’s heart and try to judge them for the darkness tucked within.” – Odasaku

If it wouldn’t have been Dazai who taught Akutagawa in such a cruel way, with high probability, it would’ve been someone else. Or as Dazai explained, a sign of weakness will get you killed in the PM:

And Dazai had the absolute chance to kill Akutagawa after he disobeyed orders and killed a person captured for interrogation. His ability can nullify all other abilities by mere touch. He could’ve simply touched Akutagawa, so that he wouldn’t have been able to use his ability to protect himself, and then shot him on the spot. But he didn’t do that, because:

“Akutagawa – he’s like a sword without a sheath.” Dazai grinned from ear to ear. “He’ll surely become the Mafia’s strongest skill user in the not-so-distant future. But for now he needs someone who can teach him how to put that sword away.”  [...]

“When I first saw him over in the slums, I was horrified. His talents are extraordinary, and his skill is extremely destructive. Plus, he’s stubborn. If I’d left him to his own devices, he would’ve ended up a slave to his own powers until he destroyed himself.” – Dazai to Odasaku

He already valued Akutagawa’s skill and saw the huge potential in him:

I was surprised. I had never heard Dazai openly speak so highly of one of his men like that before. [...]

Dazai didn’t freely make people work under him, period; much less a boy on the verge of starvation in the slums. But Dazai seemed to have his own reasons for doing it. – Odasaku about Dazai

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Something which is also later confirmed by Atsushi:

“I believe Dazai-san has acknowledged you long ago.”

Why is it then that Dazai still treats Akutagawa so badly and doesn’t tell his approval right to his face? Something that becomes Akutagawa’s main purpose for a long time, even after Dazai left PM.

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Dazai’s relationship with Odasaku and Ango:

Dazai’s behaviour and actions when he’s with Ango and Odasaku clearly shows that he can be different and doesn’t treat everyone with cruelty and coldness, if he wants to.

But what’s the difference between the two people he considers his friends and the people who are his subordinates?

-> Ango and Odasaku value and respect life.

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The reason Dazai becomes and is attached to Odasaku and Ango is their viewpoint about death and life:

“I would become a novelist and write a story about why the man stopped killing. But to become a novelist, I needed to sincerely know what it meant to live. – Odasaku

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“You’re quite the interesting fellow, Ango. Doing that isn’t going to make the boss happy. […]” “You’re making records of the lives of the deceased. Am I right?” […] “The line between human losses and those of money and equipment begin to blur. There is no individual, no soul, and no dignity to death. But you’re fighting back against that.” – Dazai to Ango

This is the reason why he values them so much that he considers them his friends. He’s not friends with them because he gains something from it, or because they have interesting abilities, or because they are on the same intellectual level as him (which they aren’t). Something that gets emphasized by Odasaku’s rank. He descended from an assassin (a high reputation in the PM) to a maid-of-all-work and an errand boy (a low reputation in the PM).

Dazai is attracted to and fascinated by people who value life – something you don’t find in the PM, and something he himself struggles to understand. Probably because there never was a person who taught him this. Like a curious child, he turns to people who he knows have a better understanding in this than him.

He even becomes very irritated when one of his subordinates questions his friendship with Odasaku:

“Dazai, sir, I don’t mean to be rude, but… I saw him [Odasaku] sweeping behind the office the other day. A man of his status isn’t qualified to be your friend, let alone with an enemy like this.” Dazai stared, flabbergasted, at his underling.

“Are you joking? Odasaku’s not qualified?” Dazai asked, thoroughly surprised. […] “You fools!” Dazai’s lips curled into a sneer in genuine disgust.

This respect doesn’t solely concern Odasaku and Ango. Hirotsu is also one of the very few people he respects for this reason. Even though Hirotsu may not value life in the same terms as Odasaku and Ango do, but he also doesn’t lightly throw away his subordinates lives either:

“…Ha-ha! Just kidding!” Dazai abruptly added in a cheery tone. Hirotsu stared back at him, confused. “The reason you have so many people following you is that you don’t turn your back on them. I’ll leave things in your hands. I won’t tell the boss.”

It’s only when Odasaku dies in Dazai’s arms and tells him to go protect the living, that he starts to change his behaviour and viewpoint.

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Dazai and his many failed suicide attempts:

Why is it that Dazai − a genius, a manipulator, someone who exactly knows how the human psyche works, someone who’s predictions always come true and who has plans within plans – then always fails when he tries to kill himself?

Dazai has read the book “The Complete Suicide” so often that he can cite it in his sleep. He has engaged in torture and killed many people. He knew exactly how to involve Ango and himself in a car crash without them dying.

If he really wanted to, he could’ve already killed himself many times ago. He claims that “he doesn’t like pain and suffering”, which according to him is the reason why his suicide attempts fail. But there are ways how he could kill himself without just that. It’s just that he doesn’t WANT to die.

„I thought if all went well, I could die a heroic death on the battlefield. But the dozen or so armed guys who showed up were a real scrappy bunch. […] Thus, I unfortunately avoided death once again.”

He always tells that something inconvenient happened that kept him from dying. But sometimes people around him notice that there’s something wrong in his attempts:

“I was walking and reading a book called ‘How To Not Get Hurt Out Of The Blue’ and fell into a drainage ditch.” A surprisingly absurd reason. – Odasaku and Dazai

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“I glance at his desk and see the blasphemous book he bought the other day, ‘The Complete Suicide’, opened to a page titled ‘Death by Poisoning Mushrooms.’ Next to the book lies a plate with a half-eaten mushroom on it. However, upon further inspection, it appears to be a slightly different color from the one in the book. – Kunikida about Dazai

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“I thought you [Gide] were similar to Dazai at first, rushing into battle and wishing for death without even considering the value of your own life. But he’s different. […] And he’s just a child−a sobbing child abandoned in the darkness of a world far emptier than the one we’re seeing.” – Odasaku to Gide about Dazai.

Dazai is a person who actively seeks life and wants to be freed from his own philosophy. He’s struggling between seeking death, which he thinks is the only way to free him from his loneliness and suffering, and seeking life for the simple reason that he doesn’t want to die.

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Dazai’s relationship with Atsushi:

Atsushi saved Dazai from drowning despite the fact that he himself was on the brink of starvation. The first thing Dazai got attached to Atsushi is his view on life. Despite the abuse he suffered, Atsushi seeks life and wants to live, makes it even his reason to fight and his life motto.

“The lives of those who can’t save anyone have no value”. In that moment an idea suddenly popped into my mind. […] If by any chance I can let the passengers return home save and sound does that prove that it’s okay for me to live?”

Throughout the story, Atsushi transfers his viewpoint and determination to characters who have a connection to death, darkness and/or suffering (e.g. Kyouka, Lucy).

The reason Atsushi values life, being the symbolical personification of it, is the reason why Dazai is able to treat him much better than Akutagawa.

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Forming Shin Soukoku:

Dazai says that Akutagawa is a highly skilled student, but he needs someone to sharpen him. He instantly decides and plans to team him up with Atsushi, the moment he meets him. He knows that Atsushi, due to his view on life, is the only one who can teach Akutagawa to value life himself and to change as a person. In other words “the one who can teach him how to put that sword away”.

This is something Dazai in the past couldn’t and still can’t teach Akutagawa (or anyone at all for that matter). Because he himself needs and wants to be taught that, so he seeks people who are able to give him a different understanding in this (see Ango and Odasaku). Vice versa Akutagawa isn’t able to teach Dazai how to value life, because he himself represents death and has a strong connection to it. It’s one of the very first things he says when he gets introduced in the story:

“Fear death. Fear slaughter. Those who desire death have an equal desire to die.”

Even though Atsushi’s words may seem very harsh, but it IS one of the reasons why Dazai so abruptly abandoned Akutagawa. Is it an explanation? −Yes, it is. Is it an excuse? −No, it isn’t.

Another reason is that Dazai tries to flee from his responsibilities, his past and the terrible things he has done (including Akutagawa’s abuse), because he is not able to face them. Not now that is. He is still in need of guidance and of change, in order to be able to do this.

[Side note: Dazai and guilt is something that can be analysed in its very own meta. I’m not expanding on it further here].

Akutagawa’s connection to death gets emphasized by him even disobeying orders to not kill, for the sole reason that in his mind, killing is much simpler and more effective. He lashes out and tries to kill the people who are respected by Dazai and/or considered friends, even though he should know that an action like this will definitely not get him the approval he so wants.

He was willing to kill Atsushi, even though his mission was to capture him alive, ignoring the possible consequences this would have had for him.

But throughout the story Akutagawa changes his viewpoint. He thinks that the reason why Dazai acknowledges Atsushi and puts him above him, is because he is a better (better in the sense of physical and ability strength) subordinate than him. But he realizes that this can’t be the case and questions it more than once:

His former pure jealousy and grudge towards Atsushi (something which he also felt for Odasaku) slowly turns into questioning, trying to understand what differs them from each other. Dazai knows very well that Akutagawa is still obsessed with him and his approval. Therefore if necessary, he uses this to manipulate him, if it’s to either protect/help Atsushi or to get them both to work together:

Akutagawa starts to constantly challenge Atsushi, questioning him, and demanding him for an answer. It’s only when Akutagawa saves Yokohoma from the Moby Dick crash, that Dazai openly tells him “you did well”.

The reason why Dazai does this so hesitantly, shows that he is still in his own metamorphosis. He’s slowly changing as is Akutagawa. He is still afraid to face his responsibilities, but doesn’t treat his former subordinate cruel anymore.

This change in Akutagawa goes so far that Atsushi is able to ask him to not to kill anyone until they meet again. When told about, Dazai is visibly happy, as it is something that he as a mentor wasn’t able to do. He is reminded of Odasaku, comparing Akutagawa now to him:

Due to this, Dazai now has this much faith in Akutagawa that he puts the task to keep an eye on Atsushi and to protect him in his hands:

Mind the difference of his expressions when he talks with Akutagawa then and now:

Dazai doesn’t team Atsushi and Akutagawa up only for strength and fighting reasons. Or because their abilities are compatible in battle. But because Dazai knows that Akutagawa won’t unnecessarily kill anymore, because he is seeking answers through Atsushi and is changing through their interactions:

He keeps his promise, much to Atsushi’s surprise, but it’s out of the question that he is happy about this:

Akutagawa promising not to kill anyone, keeping his promise in the end and even going so far as to protect someone, in other words valuing life, is something which Dazai could’ve never taught him. And again, he still can’t. Dazai is not solely the teacher, but the student himself. And although Atsushi may be a teacher for both of them in his philosophy, he is a student of Akutagawa and Dazai in other things.

Because what Atsushi lacks is self-confidence and his own worth, faith in his own abilities and the mental strength to overcome his past abuse and trauma. Those are things he learns through Dazai and especially, through Akutagawa.