#Cheryl Trolls

[p-redux]

Had no idea cherylecheryl was bootsaucepunk but makes perfect sense as both are pathetic, nasty, malicious bullies. Thanks for the interesting info.

Hi, Anon. Sorry it took me a few days to put this together. This post is gonna be a long one. So, grab a beverage and get comfy.

For those who don't know, Tumblr blog Bootsaucepunk has been around for years and has cemented a reputation as a Sam Heughan and Caitriona Balfe hater. As far as her being the Instagram troll cherylecheryl, well, we know Bootsaucepunk's name is Cheryl. How do we know this? Because she OUTED HERSELF and her FULL NAME, Cheryl N. on her OWN, now deleted Twitter account. Everyone who was around back then knows Cheryl's last name, but I won't post it in its entirety since not everyone may know it. Cheryl doxed HERSELF, and I'll show you how down below, but I won't repost her last name for obvious reasons. After Bootsaucepunk revealed her own identity, of course, people easily found her info, including that she's from New Brunswick, Canada. But this is because SHE HERSELF posted her full name and a pic of herself on her Twitter account. Here's the backstory of how she DOXED HERSELF a few years ago...

Bootsaucepunk gloated that she would repeatedly harass Sam on social media, he would block her, and then she'd create new accounts. She also badmouthed Caitriona Balfe, her husband, Tony McGill, and bragged that Cait blocked her too. On the left side of the screencap below, you can see her as Bootsaucepunk talking about Sam reporting her to Twitter, Twitter suspending her accounts, and then she would create new ones. She even joked that she's playing "whack a mole" with Sam. Harassing Sam and Cait is a GAME to her. On the right side of the screencap, she posts a LONG diatribe talking crap about Cait, after Cait blocked her. 👇

Bootsaucepunk continued to boast that Cait blocked her and showed the proof of this. 👇 I've also attached the PROOF that Bootsaucepunk is Cheryl N., provided by HER. 👇 You can see that Bootsaucepunk is asked by another hater, Cant-Resist-Temptation, what Bootsaucepunk Tweeted that caused Cait to block her on Twitter. And Bootsaucepunk replied by posting what she said to Cait WORD FOR WORD. Basically, Cait blocked her for talking shit about her husband, Tony McGill. The thing is those EXACT words were posted on her real life Twitter account, CherylN_____89 (now defunct). 🤦‍♀️ Either she didn't think people would make the connection, or she was so arrogant she thought no one would call her out. (Click on the screencap to read it better). Oh, and notice in the second paragraph, Bootsaucepunk takes the opportunity to continue to talk negatively about Cait.

Let me show it again so that everyone is VERY CLEAR that Bootsaucepunk posted on Tumblr the Tweet that got her blocked by Caitriona Balfe (she's responding to another hater, its-mootpoint). 👇

And it is VERBATIM what Cheryl N. posted on her then Twitter account! 👇

AND Cheryl/Bootsaucepunk was either dumb enough, or arrogant enough, or both to post it on her Twitter account with her FULL NAME and REAL PICTURE. 🤦‍♀️

After that, everyone in the fandom knew EXACTLY WHO Bootsaucepunk was on Tumblr. Bootsaucepunk tried to say that the pic she used on her Cheryl_____89 Twitter account wasn't really her. But, after she posted her full name, the fandom had no problem finding her on social media. 👇 Obviously, the avi pic on her old Twitter account is from YEARS ago, so she looks younger, but the pic matches her Facebook account. There is NO denying it's the same Cheryl N. And I have other pics of Cheryl N. from N.B., Canada proving this. But Tumblr only lets you post 10 pics or collages total. I'm not posting her full face, she did that all on her own, but trust me, it matches the pic SHE POSTED as her avi on her CherylN_____89 account. Same face, same person, no room for doubt. Bootsaucepunk IS 100% Cheryl N. from New Brunswick, Canada.

Again, this is NOT ME doxing her, SHE handed her identity to the fandom on a silver platter...and MANY other people in the fandom then called her out publicly as Cheryl N., and as a Sam Heughan and Caitriona Balfe hater. Here is just a small sample. 👇

Cheryl deleted her CherylN_____89 account on Twitter, but we know the approximate date when she posted the Tweet that got her blocked by Cait...because another person responded to her on February 12, 2020, calling her out for the Tweet. And also chastising for touting herself as a journalist. 👇

Guess WHO else was stirring the pot, harassing Sam, right around the SAME TIME on Instagram? 👇 Instagram troll, cherylecheryl commenting on an Instagram post, stating that besides trolling Sam on Instagram, she would also troll Sam on Twitter. That particular cherylecheryl comment was dated March 20, 2020. And CherylN_____89 was called out on Twitter by the account Fans of Sam Heughan on the SAME DAY--March 20, 2020!

Instagram troll cherylecheryl has DIRECTLY harassed and bullied Cait, Tony, Sam, and EVERY woman Sam has ever dated. This is well documented for YEARS. But here's just a small sampling of cherylecheryl harassing Sam's ex, Anna Modler and most recently, the Brazilian fan who got a pic with Sam in London, and inadvertently posted a video of Sam and rumored current date, Sarah Holden. 👇

And those are the MILD comments, she's said some horrible stuff to Sam's ex, Mackenzie Mauzy, Gia Marie, as well as many others.

Something else that's of note. An ex-shipper who got sick of Cheryl's bullying, DMed me and showed me cherylecheryl's Instagram account and something very interesting on it. Here's the content of cheryelcheryl's Instagram account. 👇 It's all faux shippery Sam Heughan and Caitriona Balfe pics. Fake, fake, fake, fronting as a shipper, yet we KNOW all the crap she's said to Sam and Cait, and about them. The cognitive dissonance is staggering. And she also follows all the hater accounts that mock Sam's dates and Cait's husband, Tony. Her oldest post is dated January 10, 2022, in it, she attacks another fan, she attacks actress Hannah James directly, and boasts the fan blocked her. BUT, if one checks her account info, it shows the account was started in March of 2018! It's not logical that she created an account in 2018 and didn't post anything until 2022. No posts at all for 4 years? NOPE, she obviously posted from 2018 to 2022, and then DELETED posts that would identify her as Cheryl N. This is also why the account shows she's changed her username 2 times. Lemme guess? Was it originally CherylN_____89? 🤔😊 👇

For those saying cherylecheryl isn't Bootsaucepunk, um, I just PROVED to you beyond a shadow of a doubt that Bootsaucepunk IS Cheryl N. And Cheryl N. has an extensively documented history of saying horrible things about Caitriona Balfe, her husband, Tony McGill, Sam Heughan, and EVERY woman he's ever dated. Cherylecheryl on Instagram has an extensively documented history of saying horrible things about Caitriona Balfe, her husband, Tony McGill, Sam Heughan, and EVERY woman he's ever dated. And I showed you in a screencap above that cherylecheryl on Instagram talked about going go harass Sam Heughan on her Twitter account. Just like Cheryl N. aka Bootsaucepunk. Gee, what are the odds that there's another Cheryl who's a horrible troll and isn't Cheryl N. aka Bootsaucepunk? C'mon, now.

Regardless, there is NO doubt WHO Bootsaucepunk is = Cheryl N. And not only is she a Sam hater, but she's also a Cait hater. Let that be known to newbies who aren't aware of the history. I'm shown accounts who claim to be Cait fans but they associate with Sam hater accounts who interact with Bootsaucepunk, comment on her posts, let her comment on their posts, and mutually reblog. In your disdain for Sam, you're inadvertently commiserating with a Caitriona Balfe and Tony McGill hater.

So if the hill you want to die on is proving that Bootsaucepunk on Tumblr isn't cherylecheryl on Instagram, that's on you. BUT, do not forget that Bootsaucepunk IS a PROVEN Cait hater. There are MANY other examples of her hate toward Cait, but the ones I showed you up above should be enough to distance yourself from her. Make NO mistake, Bootsaucepunk hates Sam Heughan AND Caitriona Balfe, and has gloated about her disdain for them BOTH for YEARS. There's no justifying or excusing Bootsaucepunk/Cheryl N.'s behavior and anyone who associates with her is guilty of condoning such behavior.

I rest my case, your honor. Case closed, Edith.

[mybodywakesup]

Wait people actually ship choni? Even after the way Cheryl’s treated Toni all these years? Weird but okay

yes, canon soulmates and endgame ship choni is probably the most universally loved ships in the fandom. ~the way cheryl's treated toni all these years, and it's love and support her unconditionally, put her own happiness before her own, be willing to both kill and die for her, give her all her money for funding, do whatever she asks of her, and go to whatever lengths needed to make up for whatever mistakes she makes along the way.

[nolivingsoul]

"cheryl is awful" in the year 2023 can we be serious

[winterblade-x-devil]

Don't blaze anything you piece of shit. Got the fuck off tumblr. No one wants to see your dumb cherry blossom bullshit. Blocked and reported. Fuck you.

I shouldn't laugh, but this really tickles me! I can't tell if this person thinks it's bad that I blazed the video because they don't like Blaze as a feature, because they don't like my blog for some reason, because they hate the video itself, or because they've somehow determined that I'm a "piece of shit" and that anything I share should be gotten the fuck off Tumblr on those grounds.

But calling the video "My Dumb Cherry Blossom Bullshit" is too charming a turn of phrase for me not to share it with my blog. I'm sorry, anonymous poster, but you brought a smile to my face. Here's hoping that the report isn't a problem for me! I genuinely don't bear you any ill will, and I'm not particularly hurt. You likely won't see this because I've been blocked, but I hope your day improves from here and that Tumblr doesn't show you Blazes you don't like in the future!

[zanymonki]

My oc’s mom, Cheryl!

She was one of the rebellious trolls who helped Peppy with the escape plan, along with his husband ⬇️

Astro, my oc’s twin sibling, belongs to @alienzmayhem !! We designed the parents together 🫶

[sgiandubh]

Trolling Anon

I will not publish your long, pseudo-rational submission on my page. You are not welcome - I have a strong hunch about who you might be and you really are not that smart.

Just one observation: I called out the Brazilian 23 year old fan, who wanted to be taken seriously as a journalist, for all the good, professional reasons. I don't care about Cheryl Cheryl's Instagram comments and you know that very well. I do care about quoting blogs she never asked permission from, nor took the logical precaution to speak to. Are you her lawyer?

But sure, Daffodil - twist your Big Girl Pants any way you wish. God forbid your people would ever admit to being wrong about what they write. Me doing so is something that apparently gives you the shingles. I took you out of your misery and blocked you. Mandatory policy, in here.

PS: for someone being trolled by people 'sent by my page' (care to substantiate?), that person is doing rather fine. Doesn't really translate as a fragile one, either. But that topic is closed for good, at least as far as this blog is concerned. I have no idea why you try to resuscitate it at all costs.

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[chonicentral]

saw some people saying s7 choni is awful bc toni only wanted to f^^^ cheryl and well, how should i even refute such argument to defend them?

don’t know why i’m even bothering to give such an obvious troll this attention by answering, but anyone that watched last night’s episode and saw toni struggling with the reality of her feelings for cheryl and what actually dating a rich white girl in the 50s would mean, as well as the realization that she had let her passion for activism fall by the wayside because her feelings for cheryl were so consuming, and walked away thinking “toni just wanted to fuck cheryl” is too stupid to even be watching a show as simple as riverdale.

and even if that WAS the plot, a character that’s always been a player and doesn’t do relationships, meeting someone they think will be just another girl, only to be blindsided by the intensity of their feelings for them and not being able to stop themselves from falling in love is literally one of the backbones of romantic storytelling.

[screampied]

HI VEGAS OMG DBD MATCHUP WHEN??? but my mains are feng min / cheryl for survivor and then ghostface / chucky + tiff for killer 👁️👁️ ngl i bought the game last summer because i saw the ghostface mori & was like WHAT IS THIS I NEED THAT TO HAPPEN TO ME!

ALSO GOOD LUCK IN THE LAST STRETCH OF UR SEMESTER BB YOU GOT THIS

— 🦇

WHAT DO U PLAY ONNNN 😣😣😣😣 i play on pc and ps4. console is more scary esp if u have settings to make ur controller vibrate oh brother

OHMYGOOODD STOP i’m a cheryl main i have her p25 🤚🏽 i also main kate and yun jin too i love my WOMENNN. oooo u play tiffany? i rarely go against chucky killers like maaaaan

i tried maining killer, i usually use sadako to be mean and scare ppl, doctor to get a easy 4k or ghostface just to troll :P IM CRYINN G i can’t idk how killers do it bc as a survivor they piss me me off 💔💔💔 but i can’t talk bc i play a toxic swf w my besties 💔💔💔

YESSSS GHOSTFACE’S MORI IS SO 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ there’s a fanart of his mori with gojo and geto i think it was so hot. FFFFUUCHOH i need to grind again dbd is so fun 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ but thank YOUUUU my semester is over now :’) hope you have a lovely day / night pookie !!!! 💓💓💓💓💓

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[seventfics]

hellooo i sent the previous ask you answered! :D now i want to ask if you have any songs in mind that miguel & miles put on PURELY to annoy one another and fight over whether to skip it or not

hello again anon ♥ let me think about this one because they are So petty about the playlist:

1) miles once added paint it, black by the rolling stones to make fun of miguel's broody-"oooh im so tortuuured" attitude. it was removed from the playlist promptly by miguel. miles then added it 15 times in a row, as a surprise for when it keeps showing up. it's a constant fight to keep it on/off the playlist now

2) to spite miles and the "Great Paint It Black Rolling Stones" battle, miguel added tiburon by proyecto uno. the beginning of it sounds just like got to be real by cheryl lynn, one of miles' guilty classic favs. and then it cuts immediately into bachata. getting trolled by that song is a 50/50 whether miles immediately skips it

3) another song miguel will fight to skip is that's what i like by bruno mars. miles only added it because it mentions puerto rico in a verse. it doesn't add anything to the playlist. why is it there?? it's just a joke its not that good—*miles singing along to bruno mars with his whole heart*

[chonidale]

the ep was so bad for choni wow

lmao you really tried it. any long time choni that has had to read people hate on choni because toni ~loses herself when she’s with cheryl or claims cheryl overshadows her or makes it all about herself as if toni’s lack of focus wasn’t just because the writers were racist was eating that plot up with a smile.

riverdale giving them remixed versions of old issues, but having them deal with it head on and honestly and so much more maturely and swiftly than the last time to show their growth as well as shut down any antis arguments is music to my ears. a perfect way to build to their real reunion in the real world too.

but i know you’re not a choni fan and just a troll trying to make choni fans miserable, but don’t bother trying, we’re having a ball in this bitch, even if we’re the only ones because everyone else is some degree of miserable lmao

[darkcherrybxmbshell]

“Listen you troll, I have more experience and talent on my pinky than any instructors. Your empty building can waste away into oblivion like I’m sure your love life is or I can have it rise from the ashes and be widely renowned and adored as an academy. My information is on this card. Call me.” Cheryl flicked the card out into the man’s in expecting hand. With a wink she turned and a small eyeroll. “Oh I hope you weren’t interested in this too. I’ve already claimed it.” She smirked to the other. @hiddenpxpercuts

[okgooglenews]

'Curb Your Enthusiasm' star Cheryl Hines trolled online after husband RFK Jr. endorses Trump - New York Post

* 'Curb Your Enthusiasm' star Cheryl Hines trolled online after husband RFK Jr. endorses Trump  New York Post * Brownstein: Why RFK Jr.'s endorsement could be a problem for Trump  CNN * Trump vowed to release all remaining JFK files. What could they contain?  The Washington Post * What polling shows about Americans’ views of Robert F. Kennedy Jr.  The Associated Press * RFK Jr. Was My Drug Dealer  The Atlantic http://dlvr.it/TCLYMw

[benefits1986]

Chicken Noodle Soup For The Shit Sole

Mother dragon’s tiny indulgence: Archie Comics. Never mind that it’s plastered with adult content for me to consume at around 6 going 7 years old. She even wanted to name me Maria Veronica and nicknamed Ronnie. :D When she told me this, I asked why she didn’t choose Betty, Josie or Cheryl, instead? She stared at me blankly and said, BASTA. Damn, gender bender since 1986 talaga.  Zygote pa lang ata ako, queer na ako since akala ng mundo namin sa Pasay is lalaki ako. Dad betted na if I’m a boy which he is super confident about my name is Jan Alvene. Alvene is a painful mashup of their names: Alex and Veneranda. Damn. Ang lala both talaga so, nag-isip talaga ako ng paraan para makatakas sa isa na namang kalokohan ng boomer parents. We can’t afford ultrasound noon and not sure if there’s such a thing na rin back then. LOL. All Pinoy signals of being a boy na baby, nasa mom ko. Napaglihian niya si Knight Rider aka David Hasslehoff so, sabi nila, when I move around my mom’s belly, iyak AF mom ko. Sabay two hands and feet. Opak. Tabi. Hahaha. Tuwang-tuwa naman daw dad ko because, for sure, this baby is maangas. :D Since mom and dad had a miscarriage, the two-year wait for me was a monumental one. Parang mali sila doon kasi when I was born, I had to be vacuumed kasi ayoko pa raw lumabas and malaking baby ako. But, wait, according to legit sources aka my dad and my ninong, titas and titos na kasama sa hospital, nag-brownout pa raw after kong lumabas. :D Shet. Kahihiyan na naman po kahit wala pa akong ni isang footprint sa earth back in ‘86, right? Later, I reasoned na baka nag-lights out kasi ‘di kinaya nung voltage ng vacuum because I was birthed in a super shabby lying in clinic lang with matching mga naiwang tsinelas sa ground ‘di umano.  I grew up in a compound that was filled with mostly adults. Even the kids there are pre-teens or teens na so ako lang talaga ‘yung bata tapos bilugan pa ako. Mom said na binawi niya ‘yung tiny food portions niya with matching a really healthy lifestyle na least fat, low carbs, and the works. Choice niya lang din. :D I was born super duper itim tapos may sugat sa scalp na malaki, super pango and syempre, naka RBF na ako. Hahahaha. I tried burning my super baby photos but mom lashed out on me. Super cutie ko raw pero dun din niya napatunayan na kahit panget akong baby, ang ganda ko raw sa paningin niya. She told me this nung naglalagay ako ng sipit sa ilong around 5 or 6 years old para daw ‘yung ilong ko umayos-ayos naman. HAHAHAHAHA. Syempre, ayoko ng sipit sa ilong, mhie. Ang sakit kahit may manipis na tissue in between my nose and the fucking’ sipit ng sampayan. Mom often recounted na nakita raw niyang needs improvement ako nung nakita niya photos ko with our malayong neighbor na maputing baby boy. LOL. Sabi daw niya, hassle ‘pag ‘di niya ginawaan ng remedyo. Mom and dad ko look saks lang. Very average. So, as a Taurus mom, she had to do a makeover sa akin. Damn. Bored stay-at-home moms nga naman. At ako pa unang pet  project. Syempre, baby pa ako noon so malay ko ba sa ginagawa niya sa akin. First, she shaved off all my hair. All of it. G na g dad ko kasi I looked like a legit boy na raw. HAHAHAHAHA. Sabi ni mom, walang makakapigil sa kanya because, my hair is like TROLLS since napaglihian din daw niya ‘yun. Cutie naman trolls ‘di ba? :D Sarap tirisin. I wore a number of bonnets para daw mukha pa rin akong girl pero mhie, no. Hahahaha. Then, ‘yung fingers ko, todo-massage daw siya kasi punggok nga ako so, sabi niya, try daw niya na maging decent-looking man lang fingers ko. Shet po sa details and focus ang nanay ko, ‘di po ba? Also, since funds are average din, ‘pag walang tao sa bahay, ‘yung suki niya sa Cartimar na nagbebenta ng goat’s milk, nagpupuslit sila sa house ng a few liters tapos binababad niya raw ako. Kasi legit, my skin is caramel. Sabi ko nga, sana ni-keep na lang niya caramel skin ko kasi hassle magbilad sa araw. Sabi naman ng nanay ko, ako na lang daw mamili kung anong gusto kong kulay. Ginawaan na raw niya ng paraan na kahit olive skin pa rin ako, mas bagay daw sa akin kesa super dark. UGH. ‘Di tiger mom nanay ko. Dragon mom. Burn, burn, burn since day one talaga siya. LOL. Hence, nasanay ako sa mga pangaasar with rebuttals at a tender age. Siguro pinaka arguable na ginawa ng nanay ko is i-correct ako since left-handed ako. Shet. Yes po. Sabi niya kasi, sa school daw, hirap maghanap ng left-handed desks. Mhie, why naman ganun. This is where my dyslexia journey started. Wala naman siyang kasalanan much kasi boomer. LOL. But, will share this next time, because, dyslexia is my curse and gift, too. EMS.  My childhood na wala ‘yung kapatid ko has been a relatively good one. Sabi nga ‘di ba your formative years really impact your life  kahit ayaw mo. Proof: Nood ka ulit ng This Is Us. :D Kahit ilang EPs lang. Ako noon, ‘di ko naiisip na may truth pala sa formative years na seeping sa adult life pero, damndamin. May sense pala ‘yun. I am able to air these out kasi, mas nakakausap ko na ‘yung inner child ko ng walang hagupit at impit. WIP pa rin pero getting there. ‘Di ko ramdam na unica ako kasi mom is never easy on me. She wanted me to take music lessons and all summer lessons kahit ‘di naman ‘yun bet ko. Then, planado na niya na all-girls’ ako all the way. Shet. May name drop pa siya ng school, mhie. LOL. Sobrang dream na dream niya ‘yun e ako, enjoy kalaro ‘yung apo ng tapat-bahay naming alta na naging friend ko mga lolo at lola nila first. HAHAHAHAHA. Natuwa kasi ako sa mini car nilang na with pedals. Syempre, since ‘di naman namin afford ‘yun, wait lang ako na pahiramin ako. ‘Di naman ako nambu-bully at all since all boys naman silang magkakapatid. Nung naging friends na mom ko saka ‘yung mom nung kababata ko, aba, umabot na kami sa twinning attires na androgynous. :D Wala naman akong naramdamang childhood sweetheart vibes kasi mas brusko pa ako sa kanila. Don’t get me wrong. Cuties sila pero super pino nila kumilos. Hahaha. ‘Yun lang naman ‘yun. Tapos na slight bangga ko pa ‘yung lola nila sa mini car kagulo. LOL. Baka need ko ‘tong i-address para makapag-drive na ako ulit. Forgive ko inner child ko na wala namang muwang. Mapilit lang noh? ‘Di naman nagalit ‘yung lola at lolo. As in. Terrified ako pero ‘pag uwi ko, syempre, sabi ng nanay ko, ‘wag na ‘wag na akong sumakay sa mini car. HAHAHAHA. Kung ‘di, alam na this. Weaved leather belt is waving. Eventually, naging best friends ‘yung nanay ko saka ‘yung nanay ng kababata. Sabi rin ng nanay ko, masungit daw ‘yung household na ‘yun pero smile ko lang daw and wave, pak na. HALA. Sabi ko, gusto ko kasing may kalaro na ka-age ko. ‘Yun lang. Bonus na lang ‘yung mini car kasi wala pa naman silang mini car nung naglalaro kami. Naka-bike pa kami noon.  We moved out of Pasay kasi ‘yung bahay na pinaka alta sa street namin nasunog nung anak ng may-ari. Jusq. Na-trauma yata mom ko kasi almost kabuwanan na niya ‘yun sa brother ko tapos mga 3 years old pa lang ako noon. Nung kasagsagan ng sunog which is malaki since big ass house talaga sila. ‘Yung laki na may marble tiles sa labas at may Chedeng at mataas na intricate gate. Ganern. Ang binitbit ni mother dragon are the following: camera, bike ko, milk with feeding bottle because this bilugang baby bitch is hangry since birth din, plus, wait, photo album ko. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Lekat. Sabi niya, she can’t move much and since her pregnancies come with bleeding, essentials lang daw dinala niya. I have flashbacks nung pag-kunot ng noo ko why dala niya bike and album and camera until now. Sabi niya, all stuff can be burnt to the ground kahit birth cert and marriage cert pero need ko raw ng laruan and memories na painstakingly niya ni-capture on film. Weirdo levels 100000000000000. Pero, fine. Gusto niya. She does not take spot on photos. Mostly awkward since walang artistic vibe nanay ko at all. Weakness niya ‘yan talaga. Masyado kasing technical si Taurus mom. As in. Wala siyang grey area. Always black or white AND black and white, sa akin ha. Pero sa brother ko, exact opposite siya. Skip na natin ‘yang part na ‘yan because, TMI na naman ako.  Since super tatawid na sa kabilang side, meaning sa side ng compound namin na wooden houses, naglakad kami sa eskinita and pumunta sa bahay ng ninong ko. Later, nung hinanap kami ng dad ko, stressed out siya kasi lahat nung kapitbahay and relatives na pinuntahan niya, wala kami doon. At last, nung natunton na niya kami, g na g na naman siya kasi bakit ang layo raw namin. Mom said na ni-sure lang niya na super duper our of danger zone kami. Dad asked mom kamusta bleeding niya. Oks naman daw. LOL. Pa-strong yarnnn?  I guess that my love for snaps and biking lead back to these roads. Ngayon ko lang ‘to na-realize. Medyo tearing up my heart and dying inside tayo because ang tagal nitong dumating na realizations pero OK lang kasi late is better than never and never ever. Kaya ‘di ko natuloy ang photography ganaps ko na because I silently melted away nung a week or so, nag-shoot ako tapos nung sa mom and bride na, talagang, guho-mundo kong ibabaw at ilalim. I (Also, bakit biglang piano version ng Reflection ang nag-play RN. Spotify, ang tahimik kong nagta-type dito a. Inaano kita? Inaano kita?)  was asked to be a junior photog na that time pero may onting conditions which I didn’t agree on like being part of a D-group. This came after a really passionate discussion about why metanoia exists and how it shows God is not a vengeful God. Hassle kasi talaga for me na direct hit ‘yung faith e pare-parehas lang ‘yan and dapat love is the true religion. Kanya-kanyang trip. Walang basagan. (Uy. Bakit ngayon naman, What The World Needs Now naman na jazz instrumental bigla nag-play. Eerily spot on kasi eto naman ang background music ng photos eme ng pinsan ko na ni-organize ko a few years back [though not this specific rendition] ??? FU Spotify.) Wala naman akong problema sa whole religion thing but the thing is... ayoko lang na faith ko which is rooted on my mother dragon’s plea will be on the line. Syempre, ‘di ko na ‘to sinabi which, I could have said out loud and proud, then. ‘Di naman ako magaling sa framing and technical stuff. LOL. But, I can say, I take photos like my mom... candid pero better framed. Lusot pa, mhie. Sagad mo. Kaya din super long overdue ng film photog era ko pero itatawid natin ‘yan para ma-test ang level of maturity natin. May Lomo naman ako saka Instax, pero iba pa rin ‘yung film snaps na may dark room. Baka umiyak lang ako sa loob. :D Hahahaha. Ang tagal ko ng may gustong specific camera and prime lens na pak for portraits and saktong bokeh babies. If not this year, sa 2024 na. It can wait. Kaya rin ayoko when people take snaps of me, 99.9% of my life.  LOLLOLLLOLLL. Periodt. More than me looking awkward talaga, I remember na every bad photo is an add on to mom’s curated ugh photos. LOL. Meron namang lumulusot ng snaps pero sobrang mapili talaga ako.  And biking? Even when mom is super duper conservative and fanatic ng black and white, she accepted me as a queer ever since. Syempre, naging hostile siya nung nagkaroon ako ng intro to L World because may barkada invite ako sa mga lez and butches nung high school, but, that aside, she allowed me to be comfortable with gender bending. She even got me several boy cuts ng hair para daw masanay ako na hindi lang one look ang meron ako. I have a very few dolls kasi ayoko talaga. And Lego and lutu-lutuan ang main free play ko noon. Both very gender-neutral and progressive. EMS. Kahit na 99% ng mga XY na umaaligid ay instant NO sa kanya, ‘di naman niya ako dinarang sa other side. :D LOL. Actually, super practical nga ng approach niya pero syempre, ‘pag hormones are cartwheeling and free-falling, ibang usapan na ‘yan. Twisted. Plot twists bombs everywhere. Sabi niya with feelings: If ‘di ka lang din sasaya, ‘wag ka na lang mag-asawa. LOLLOLLOLL. Tapos ‘yung meaning niya ng saya is 1000000% support and guidance to be a better person since maligalig nga akong tunay.  ‘Di naman need ng mayaman or whatever. Better daw na self-made or basta, matiyaga at madiskarte sa patas. And of course, dapat daw is God-centered.  HAHAHAHAHAHA. Basic ng reqs niya noh? Pak. Maka-checklist tapos ‘di naman ako chixxx since birth.  Also, sabi niya, mag-put aside para sa self. ‘Wag daw siyang tularan. ‘Di rin siya resentful sa life niya in general, mukha lang, pero sa deathbed niya, sabi niya is kaya ko na, noon pa. Shet. Gaging PL ‘to. Saksak puso. Bakit ko ba kasi ni-curate ito with feelings? Bakiiiittt? Ang aga-aga. Balik-BGC na kasi bukas kaya huling hirit bago ang bakbakang wantusawa.  Hello, friggin’ workflows. Come to this bilugan bitch because the bills and the life after bills are shaking. 

[zanymonki]

Starbeam's parents <3

They helped King Peppy organize the escape from Bergen Town, especially Cheryl (second pic) which was one of the most rebellious troll.

They obviously didn't got a good ending and died before the escape, leaving Starbeam and his twin sibling alone. At least they were taken while they were protecting their kids😞

I still have to find a name for the dad ops