#Castiel's pimp mobile

[its-alittleobsessed]

I love all these posts comparing Aziraphale and Castiel. Like yeah they’re both gay and top, but Azi wears feather boas and owns a bookshop while Cas drives a pimp mobil and lives underground. And they are both killing it.

[self-loathing-angel-of-thursday2]

Beautiful Spouse’s Rewatch Thoughts SPN 10x03 Soul Survivor

“Some TV show or what?” “Doctor.” “Why are we stealing blood for him? To make the demon feel human or something?” “what the hell” pimp mobile

“I feel like that car could use some suspension work. Seems kinda clapped out” “So if getting your cheeks clapped means boning, does a clapped out thing mean its pussy done blown out?” “What did he ask Sam not to go after him or something?” “Wait. It’s the guy they killed” “Oh he’s teaching the guy to do a demon deal” “What’s up with all the voice processing?” “Oh he was the one who made that deal.” “So Dean killed the guy instead of the wife, and the demon would’ve gotten his soul in 10 years, right?” “What’s up with Sam swallowing all the time? Does he have a saliva problem? He’d be terrible in Vegas. That throat thing is weird” “Finger” laughter “Jesus Christ” “If you have your own grace, can’t you regenerate it? Couldn’t he borrow some of Hannah’s grace and she regenerate it?” “Leaving anything unlocked ever is a bad idea” “hell yeah brother” “He did the Oh no she didn’t chin” “Wouldn’t that give you one hell of a headache? Because your blood pressure continues to increase? I guess idk but it seems kinda bad” “Where do demons go when they die?” We don’t know yet

“When we do find out, what is it called?” The Empty

“That was really hot fire. Was it supposed to be holy oil or something?” “Super premium” Cas is saying we can’t be boyfriend/girlfriend

“Oh are they?” No, but Hannah wants to be

“I guess I didn’t pick up on that before or now” “Can’t they heal themselves?” They’re fighting angels so it’s harder

“I guess” “Hmm” laughter

“It’s got a skull. It’s funny. I like it” “Fkn playing hide-and-seek in the dungeon now?” “Terrible haircut” “It’s somehow slightly improved from the previous episodes but jeez” “Let’s be sneaky and make a shit load of rattling noise” “What does a hammer have over a cleaver?” laughter “isn’t that bullshit though? He was reminiscing while sitting on his throne or whatever” “When was the bunker made? 1950s?” “I like how they did the audio in this one, but the alarm would be so much louder than talking volume. So I appreciate it, but it’s not realistic” “What is this fkn accent dude?” “What was he looking for?” “I don’t even remember what Sam grabbed I guess. I’m terrible at this” I don’t know what he grabbed

“But that’s what Dean was checking for, I assume” “Oh, the demon blade thing” “In this very specific scenario, the hammer is the right choice” “oh yeah. As he swipes his hair or whatever the fuck” “So what did Castiel do? That doesn’t make sense” “there’s no secondary test? It’s just this big oh shit” “Can the holy water ever become unholy?” No

“What?” “At least he’s honest” “Got my cross. Got my gun” laughter

“What the fuck” laughter

“Screenshot. Look at that lighting on this shit. How is this a TV show? It’s fucked” WHy do you think I look at so many images on my phone? “Is everything OK in Oklahoma?” “Motherfucker” “First time we see her right?”

[hannah-deserved-better]

Headcanon: The Pimp mobile

I’ve realized that other than Cas himself, Hannah is probably the only other person who has spent the most time in the Pimp mobile. I feel like she would associate it with him and maybe him with her. 

[angel-wing-feathers]

Castiel’s “pimp mobile” has me soft because he obviously needed a reliable car but knew nothing about them, so he decides to find the closest thing he can to the Impala since Dean must have good choice in cars

[nevrfrmheavn2000]

Can Misha Collins be the next Batman/Bruce Wayne?

Think about it. Dark hair, blue eyes. Scratchy deep voice. Hits like a girl (kidding). Doesn't do guns. Adopts children (as Dadstiel).

[rewatching-supernatural]

s10e01

// so Amazon has the Very Special Supernatural Special as episode 1 of season 10 which confused me for a good 5 minutes as to why episode numbers were wrong, and so I might get confused with episode numbers for this season 🤦🏼‍♀️ thanks Amazon

// I believe I have only seen episodes 1 and 2 of season 10 before I stopped watching, so we are getting into new territories for me, I'm excited to see if it got more interesting than the last few seasons

Season 10, here we go!

*****

THE ROAD SO FAR

a lot of shit, and Dean's now a demon

NOW

Sam is torturing demons to try and find Crowley and Dean

"WHERE'S MY BROTHER?!"

Ah, the bunker

Home sweet home, uh

*****

Ah, Cas

what's up with you, man

Sam's arm is broken, Cas is sick, Dean's gone

why isn't Cas at the bunker?

"I miss him" 😭😭💙

*****

Oh my God Dean!!!

😂😂😂

Just, unleashed the beast

karaoke, sex, and demon business

*****

Crowley just walking in 😂

*****

- Jerk.

- Bitch.

*****

Dean's just living his best life with his bro, the King of Hell

*****

Hannah is a bit uncomfortable at seeing Castiel's penis 😂🤦🏼‍♀️

*****

Some angels refuse to return to Heaven

I mean, if they're not bothering anyone 🤷🏽‍♀️

*****

Dean being referred to as 'Porn guy' really makes this

*****

Sam just learned Dean's a demon

*****

Who the fuck still has a fax machine???

*****

Hunters are hunting Dean?

*****

CAS STILL HAS THE PIMP MOBILE?! 😂

*****

this cashier guy is too much

*****

Crowley saying "We were wondering if you'd hit another dog" aka, if Sam just moved on

*****

"You can't stand the fact that he's mine. He's my best friend."

Crowley and Dean are definitely fucking, just sayin'

*****

"I'm gonna find you and I'm gonna kill you dead."

*****

Okay the story, like, the big arch here is really boring

but the Crowley content's good

*****

this angel loves fishing

the metaphor's nice, and easy, but perfect, in all honesty

*****

Hannah "You're doing the right thing not killing Metatron" wants to kill this angel just cause he doesn't want to return to Heaven??

*****

"I will treasure our Flickr album forever" 😂😂😂😂 fuck Crowley's the best character in this show

*****

this guy is not trustworthy

...told you

*****

why are people booing Deannso much srsly

I've been to karaoke bars and I've never seen that happen tbh

that's the POINT of karaoke bars, to go sing badly in a mic

*****

Dean's blood thirsty

calling her a skank wasn't necessary, you ass

*****

Castiel knows there is wisdom to be learnes from humans

Why is Hannah such a stuck up bitch? she got my Castiel hurt 😠

*****

Art, hope, love, dreams

They come from chaos

*****

[pssy-wagn]

Day 29: Chrome Chassis

I love Baby but Castiel and his pimp mobile was just...*French kiss* plus, Cas listens to hip hop lol

[deanwasalwaysbi]

But they kept renting the pimp mobile so that guy made $100,000

Misha's going directly into the chat - and said the 'pimp mobile' was his favorite car. "For some reason they decided Castiel's cars should look as shitty as possible."

[you-cant-spell-subtext-without]

Before we start, I'd like to say that the below combination....speaks to me, on a personal level.  

WHEW. 

12x02: Mamma Mia

This episode *eyeroll* - there were like...five? good things about it. 

(Mary Winchester as the OG John Winchester Apologist not being one of them.)

wrong.

Anyway, here is the only good stuff from 12x02.

1.

INTERIOR: SAM AND TONI ARE IN BED RELAXING AND HOLDING GLASSES OF WINE.

For the life of me this is the ONLY DECENT THING I CAN FIND FOR this scene and I do not understand how that’s possible.  You can’t even see her face.  Damn.

There are so many good shots in this!!!! Someone make me a better .gif.  Maybe cut Sam out of it?

Update: semi-acceptable follow-up image:

Sexual escapades are actually a continuing theme in the torture:

TONI 

Good morning, Sam. Let's start again, shall we? Take our time. I've cleared my calendar. I would like names and locations of every Hunter... the passcodes to each and every Men of Letters database held in the bunker, and then – oh, yes – let's do discuss your relationship with the demon Ruby.

** Can’t find the actual reaction to this, so hey let’s play Sam reacts but wrong episodes ONLY**

SEXUAL ESCAPADE THEME RECURS HERE:

[INTERIOR: THE CELLAR, TONI LOOKS OVER HER TORTURE TOOLS AND PICKS UP BRASS KNUCKLES. SHE WALKS OVER AND SLUGS DEAN.]

TONI: Passcodes, Sam. Not yet?

[TONI LOOKS OVER AT DEAN WHO’S CHAINED WITH HIS HANDS OVER HIS HEAD.]

TONI: Anything to add?

DEAN: No. No, I just came by for some tea and a beating.

[TONI: PUTS DOWN THE BRASS KNUCKLES AND PICKS UP A CUP OF TEA.]

TONI: Really? See, I thought you might be on for a little chat about your mate, Benjamin Lafitte. I'm sorry. You called him Benny. You know, the vampire whom you released from Purgatory and...befriended. 

***she sips her fucking tea after she says “befriended” suggestively.  SHE. SIPS. HER. TEA.  This is not a drill***

I see. Well... the English are nothing if not patient.

BONUS - actual footage of Lady Motherfucking Antonia Bevell deciphering the past 11 seasons of subtext in respect to Dean’s sexuality:

Bi!Dean confirmed.  

QUEEN DID NOT COME TO PLAY.

2. 

Dean’s spiral at the bunker 

CASTIEL: Okay, I understand. I'll call you in the morning.

[WHILE TALKING, DEAN RISES AND STARTS PACING.]

DEAN: Cass, hey. So, here's the thing. It's been kind of weird here with, you know, Mom being back. It's like we don't know how to act around each other, so we just kind of make this small talk and act normal, but it's – it's so not normal.

CASTIEL: Um, I'm – I'm not sure. What – what has she said to you?

DEAN: Well, nothing. That – that – that's the whole point.

CASTIEL: Okay, what have you said to her?

CASTIEL HANGS UP.

DEAN: Yeah. Great. That's helpful. Thanks.

***Dean is so OPEN with Cas on this call.  You can tell this is a deeper, different dynamic and it really shows how close they’ve gotten after that heart wrenching Season 11 finale. these NEWLYWEDS. they are in a RELATIONSHIP.  And Cas’s terrible attempt at helping also shows how new and fresh it is, how they’re working through how to “be” this new way together, Dean still working on how to express feelings without spiraling, Cas clumsily trying to support him.  I AM GOOOOOOO.  

This is a fucking warm blanket.

Also confirmed by the subsequent scene, because otherwise WHY EVEN HAVE THIS DIALOGUE in the follow-up call:

DEAN

Hey, Cass, what do you got?

[EXTERIOR: DAY, CASTIEL IS STANDING SLIGHTLY BEHIND A VERY LEAFY TREE.]

CASTIEL

I think I may have found Sam's location. It's a farm. It appears empty, but it was rented two weeks ago to a woman with an English accent.

[DURING THE CONVERSATION THE SCENE SWITCHES BETWEEN THE BUNKER AND THE EXTERIOR OF THE FARMHOUSE.]

DEAN

Did you have a look inside?

CASTIEL

No No, it's – it's powerfully warded.

***Cas asks because he’s not sure if Dean is trying to talk about his feelings again or if it’s still about the case, because this is THAT NEW (and he probably had an ENTIRE headcase moment about his prior horrific attempt to “help” so he’s worked up all sorts of tidbits of advice for next time) *** <- can someone ficlet this little plot hole? I need it in my life.

THAT IS THE ONLY REASON TO HAVE THIS HERE.  THERE IS NO OTHER REASON.

BONUS:

Remember Castiel’s pimp mobile?

That new husband energy:

HES SO DAPPER HERE.  All the heart eyes.

3.

Helpful husband moment

[EXTERIOR: DAY, OUTSIDE THE FARMHOUSE. THE IMPALA PULLS UP. CASTIEL IS LEANING AGAINST THE TRUCK. DEAN AND MARY EXIT THE IMPALA AND WALK UP TO CASTIEL.]

DEAN

Where's all this warding you mentioned?

CASTIEL

It's cloaked. It's very powerful. You brought your mother?

MARY

Hello, Castiel. Yes, he did.

DEAN

You sure there's anyone inside?

CASTIEL

No. The agent said the lease was handled long distance, but someone warded the house.

DEAN

I'm gonna go have a closer look.

[MARY STARTS TO FOLLOW DEAN.]

DEAN: Mom, I got this.

[DEAN SHAKES HIS HEAD IN ACKNOWLEDGEMENT THEN LOOKS TO CASTIEL FOR HELP.]

DEAN: Thanks.

[[DEAN LOOKS AT CASTIEL GRATEFULLY AND WALKS AWAY.]

***This entire scene deserves a thorough rewatch. Go watch it now.  Bathe in the serotonin.  I watched it probably 6 times. THE BODY LANGUAGE.  THE FACIAL EXPRESSIONS.  Cas saying “you brought your mother” because he KNOWS how worried and overprotective Dean is of her, already.  This is Destiel peak supportive husband and Mary is realizing it and its just all so fucking cute and happy. Bravo to all of your Acting Choices!  

4.

PIEEEEEEE

I will not go into my PhD dissertation about how pie is a metaphor for the true happiness and love Dean Winchester desires and DESERVES but feels like he cannot have because it will be snatched away from him.

I will not go into it at this time.  (It will also make me even ANGRIER about what they DID TO PIE in 15x20. I am still healing).

I repeat, I will not go in to it - unless -

5.

Kitchen confidential

Look where Dean is relaxing, with a beer or 3, and looking at old family pictures at the end.  It’s not his room.

It’s the kitchen.  He’s just hanging out in the kitchen, comfortably as if he does this often.

Remember when Lucifer was possessing Cas in 11x18 and we had this scene, where Cas is in his head but in the Winchesters’ kitchen and - I wondered -

If his happy place 

was

the Winchesters’ kitchen.  And why.

THIS SHOW.

I guess the good in this episode took up more space than expected.  I’m sorry for spamming you guys with this long, back to back Season 12 content, but I have a dossier.  

And I’m just getting started.

BONUS:

MICK

Here’s my number.

Also, picturing this, but in Casifer, said TO Rick Springfield.

[cliveguy]

honestly the main characters of the show should have been just castiel and his cat. their relationship is a lot less co-dependent tho they co-habitate together, think that guy who bikes everywhere with his cat on insta, but just with the pimp mobile.

forgot to answer this im sorry BUT CAS DESERVED A CAT :( they'd be besties i need a spin-off where cas solves monster problems with his cat by his side

[castielific]

New headcanon: Castiel only chose the pimp!mobile because it was the only car he could find that still had a tape deck

[hippychick006]

Misha Panel 

I’ve done this summary as it helps to have what Misha actually says to hand as more often than not, his stans misquote him. It’s also useful as Misha often changes things - as he appears to have done between his last virtual panel and this one. Note, I’m only focusing on the key parts where he talks about the show/Jared/Jensen.  It is not free of anti castiel/misha comments where I disagree, though those are few and far between for a change. It’s long so putting under a cut... 

- Misha confirms his filming finished in March prior to Covid [this comes up later in more detail].  Watching the last epiosode was an emotional experience for him.  For him, it represents the end of a chapter of his life. 

- Misha says fandoms not going anywhere [*hisses]

- Misha’s future work/projects?: working on senate race in georgia, publishing a book of poetry, couple of film projects he’s trying to get off the ground, one he’s not acting/directing in, the other he may act and/or direct 

- Jack brought Cass back but we didn’t get to see it, what happened?: different ending originally that Covid restrictions made impossible to produce. Cool ending involved bringing back lots of cast members over the years.  In the original ending, Castiel hadn’t gone to rebuild heaven, there was a different conclusion for him.  Misha purposely did not read the last two episodes before they aired as he wanted to be an audience member. He knew a little about Castiel/Jack’s fate in the abstract, but because he wasn’t in it, he doesn’t know what the answer was. He thinks them rebuilding heaven was less boots on the ground and more at a spiritual level [so he’s talking at the metaphysical/spiritual plane level and not corporeal) so they are everywhere (e.g. in drops of rain as per Jack’s speech to Sam in 19). That’s what I’m understanding at least.  He says that’s pure speculation though.]

- what qualities does castiel have similar to Misha?: there are a lot of similar qualities [backstabber comes immediately to my mind tbh]. Over time he and the character melded. Over time he evolved into something that didn’t quite fit in with either angels or humanity, he felt like an outsider which Misha has felt for much of his life. He became softer, more sensitive, he tried to do the right thing and be a good person. Oh wow, he says that in order to write to play to Misha’s strengths, the character had to “morph a bit”.  I loved bad!ass Castiel, he’s my favourite Castiel!

- What one thing will he take with him from playing Castiel?: on a professional level, it was fascinating to play a character for so many years. He discussed with J2 recently that the characters really became part of them. He doesn’t think that will happen again, just due to length of time the played them. On watching Jensen’s death scene, he cried but it was more “That’s Cass’ friend Dean dying”  It was weird to have a blurring of lines between yourself and your character but he thinks that’s what happened with all of them. He’ll take the character away, which will be a part of him forever. 

- Misha made fortune cookes and put inside lewd and inappropriate fortunes

[I don’t get this next bit as earlier in the panel he says he didn’t read the last two episodes so didn’t know what was going to happen and gave the answer I documented above and now we have this next question where his answer seems to contradict that]:

- Is there anything more he can say about the originally planned finale?:  He doesn’t want to be the one to reveal these state secrets, but what are they going to do, fire him?  He feels someone might have said to him, please don’t reveal what was going to happen, but can’t remember for sure if it’s true. He says there was a version of Sam and Dean’s heaven that was populated with all of the people that were from their past that they have come to love.  They could not do that because of Covid restrictions. 

- Favourite behind the scenes memory of “The boys”: He doesn’t have a favourite memory, they were close friends for 12 years. They had laughing fits and fights and got pissed off at each other. Some of his fondest memories of being at work anywhere were working on Supernatural.  He’s never going to be on a set again where there is so much mirth so he’s going to miss that for sure.

- he’s talking about Castiel’s wardrobe which is actually funny - e.g. original suit 3 sizes to big, sometimes showing blood and holes, sometimes being magically fixed, not wearing a tie, going back to wearing a tie... “Nobody complained about that too much...” [uh because some of us were watching other things and your own stans were looking at the background.]  He stole some trenchcoats and has them in his closet.

- How do you prepare for emotional scenes?: it’s hard for him to get into that emotional state. To prepare for the Castiel’s declaration of love scene and taken by the empty, Misha needs to be off by himself and not chatting with people, so for that scene he sat on his own in a dark corner of the stage and ruminated on his own.  Rob Hayter, stunt coordinator, noticed and stood sentinel and made sure no one disturbed him which Misha said was really sweet.  Everyone stopped fucking around for that scene to allow them to do what they needed to do.

-  How did you feel when you read the script when Castiel dies?: Misha knew for a long time that ending was coming, he’d been speaking to Rob Berens about it, he was really happy with it.  It was the ending he’d wanted for Cass so when he read the script, he was really happy it had made it to the page [i bet it was Misha, how are those destiel sales going through your Stands company?]. It felt it was a little “risky and a little brave” for the show to do [on a fucking network that is number one in Glaad reviews?  Are you being fucking serious right now?] He was happy to be a part of that [again sales] and have that character express love like that so he was happy with it. 

[Okay, so notice in his last virtual panel 2 weeks ago, he was very happy, he’s now starting to do exactly what he did with Karla movie as he goes on to say...]

He’s seen “some people” [you mean lgbtq+ people?!]  “complaining” about this is playing into the “bury the gays” trope which is an insidious and real trope in film and television storytelling in h/w over the years. Misha doesn’t think that’s what was happening with Castiel’s [he died second after the confession MIsha!] First of all Castiel isn’t dead, he’s in heaven working to rebuild it... [you didn’t know this 2 weeks ago, as far as you knew Castiel died and went to the empty].  So much good came from that declaration, because Cass was able to save Dean, which was essential to saving the world, so this declaration wasn’t so then fate strikes you down and you’re done forever. The declaration literally ended up saving the world. It was of Cass’ own volition, he wasn’t forced to do it, it was his choice, and he thinks that’s important, so maybe he’s naieve and doesn’t feel they are playing into that trope. 

[You were absolutely playing into that trope Misha and you didn’t give a shit as you did no research on playing an lgbtq+ character so sincerely fuck off]

He’s glad that Castiel got to express that and have that ending. He thinks thats kind of important and he’s proud the show did that. [again fuck off, this was done for you and it showed]  He thinks its a conversation they will continue to have as they continue to dissect it going forward [nope, consigned to the dumpster fire I’ve put the majority of the rest of Drabbernatural in]

- Do you think you will ever get an SPN tattoo?:  He doesn’t have any but he’s thinking about getting tattoos relating to his children.  Is that a sign of desperation that a true hasbeen will do? Should he get a tattoo of Jared and Jensen’s face.  He could get a tattoo of Castiel’s face on his abdomen.  He’s saying probably not. If they want to get one, totally supportive of that

-  what is his favourite moment of the finale?: Dean’s death scene, masterfully executed, excellent performances from both Jared and Jensen in that scene and made him cry

- best memory of your last day on the supernatural set?: everyone being really sweet, lot of tears from cast and crew. The last scene he shot as Castiel was the last scene of the day on a Friday. Him, Alex, Richard S and Jensen all had to get to Las Vegas for a fan convention the next morning. They shot late and finished at 1.30, it was Cass goodbye and Misha’s goodbye to the show.  He said they had to get a chartered flight because of the early flight [not sure why he’s saying this as I thought it was Jared’s plane they all travelled in?] He’s talking about going back - because of the issue with the plane - and they are all texting family, saying they love them, so it was such a strange night, he’d said goodbye to Supernatural, he said goodbye to Castiel and later on said goodbye to his kids because they thought they were going to die that night. :(

[Going to add that this puts to rest that Misha was due back for 19 and 20 even before covid, it confirms he was not going to be in either episode, though I maintain, they may have shot an extra scene while they had him to slot into 19 or 20]

- do you think Cass and the other angels got their wings back?: Yes, probably, they have Jack who is the new god. What a long and miserable experience that was of not having wings. Cass was so powerful when he started, he could snap his fingers and teleport and time travel and lost that with his broken wings and they didn’t come back. He doesn’t know why they didn’t fix him as Castiel would have been a much more powerful ally if he didn’t have to drive around in the pimp mobile [uh, for the same reason Sam lost his powers, deus ex machina]. He tells the story of Jared pressing buttons in the car causing the hydraulics to fail costing $10000 of repair.

- in your opinion, what colour are Castiels wings?: shit, I don’t know, I always thought they were black, but now that you’ve said that, they are rainbow coloured, how about that?

- What is the worst joke Jared and Jensen did to you?: [*cough fans looking for things to complain about or hate Jared on]: Jared and Jensen, as you know, they are not good people.  He talks about directing an episode and they got excited in the week before, they were going to break into his apartment and steal his furniture, they had all kinds of nefarious plans, the crew tipped him off and told him to watch his home and car keys. They put a fish under the seat in his car and one of the crew told him.  Jared removed the canvas on the director’s chair and laid it across so it looked like it was still the chair. Misha fell for that at least 5 times. That was pretty frustrating. Jared kept messing up his lines (which Misha said Jared never does) and Misha was directing in another room, Misha eventually went to see what the problem was and that’s when Jared pied him in the face. Everyone in the crew was complicit in the “assault”. Jensen brought him another shirt, said, “I’m sorry man, that’s sucks, that was too much.”  Jensen then pied him in the face.

- What is the real story behind the handprint in the finale?: Um I don't know, but I think it was a nice touch, that was a really lovely callback that worked well. I can’t remember how we came up with that, or was it in the script, I can’t remember. Wasn’t it a good callback to the very beginning. [Again, this appears to differ from what was being reported two weeks ago so might need to go back to that panel if I can get access to it]

-What’s your favourite memory from offline/online panels?: It’s much more fun to be live and in person. I don’t know, I have had some really fun... [PANDERING ALERT COMING UP] Jensen and I have some really fun panels together in Rome.  I don’t know why but we always just seem to have a real hoot there, talks about the resume off, they really enjoyed that. He had pizza delivered to a creation panel once.  He talks about the Saturday night special and he can’t wait till they can get back to that. 

[NOTE CYNICAL PART OF THIS IS FOR HIS FANBASE TO ONCE AGAIN CLAMOUR FOR MORE JENMISH PANELS. I DO NOT TRUST THIS MAN AT ALL]

- What was your favourite version of Castiel to play?: he had the most fun playing Lucifer because Mark P had left a great template to play Lucifer [you took the worst parts imo but Mark fucked his character up too]. He enjoyed playing the human parts of Castiel because it was fun to explore how to be human for the first time. Overall, just regular Cass. He wouldn’t have wanted to trade regular Castiel for other iterations. [A great question would be badass Castiel v late season wooby castiel preference]

[littleduck46]

Based on a post by @friedchickenangelwings and tags by @good-things-do-happen-dean and suggested by @see-my-side. Jack and Cas go to build-a-bear together. Warning it does get sad. 

Stimulus overload was a term Castiel had heard Humans use before, and one he tried to warn Jack about before taking him to the Mall. Knowing a term, however, and experiencing it are drastically different. Similar to things like “love” and “lust”. You think you know exactly how to avoid or accept it until you you actually experience it. That being said, Jack seemed to be getting a little over whelmed. Living in the bunker under Dean’s “no movement” law doesn’t leave the Nephilim very prepared for several hundred people within one air flow. 

They went to several stores and picked out some things for the boys and Claire, flannels mostly, and tried some food court cuisine to satisfy Jack. Jack noticed to crinkles around Castiel’s eyes and wondered how many times he smiled before to get them. Or his vessel? Either way it was a cheerful yet exhausting experience. They were finally heading out to the car as four hours was more than enough for the pair. Dean practically begged Cas to take one of the cars from the garage (” I assure you they are all tuned up and you can’t keep riding around in that friggin pimp mobile”  “Alright Dean, but I will have to choose the beige one”) so it was a bit harder to spot in the crowded parking lot had they not memorized the space number. Unfortunately, Jack spotted a father and his son leaving a store on the other side from where they had shopped holding a giant teddy bear in a baseball uniform. The sign on the door said “BUILD-A-BEAR” and looked very fleshed out. 

Jack placed his hand on Castiel’s elbow to alert is attention, “Um, Castiel, can I ask one more favor of you?” 

Cas tilted his head to the side, “ Absolutely, Jack. You I’m always here to help guide and protect you” 

The weight of Castiel’s hand on Jack’s shoulder was reassuring enough he almost felt ridiculous for hesitating so much, “May we please visit that BUILD-A-BEAR store? I feel that my other Teddy deserves a companion,” . Jack grinned up at Castiel, very pleased by the image of both his Teddy bears together when he was busy helping clean the bunker or organize their storage rooms. 

Castiel, being thousands of years old, didn’t see any reason why another 40 minutes was unreasonable. He patted Jack on the back and began walking to the store with him. 

Once inside they started to pick out their bear, Jack named his Deana, as he didn’t have a female presenting bear yet. Cas kept staring at this green flannel with blue stripes in the pattern, so Jack picked on of those for her top and dark blue jeans as Sam finds them comfortable. He wanted Deana to be comfortable...

While the Nephilim was distracted by clothing and stuffing his bear, Castiel noticed a voice box. It reminded him of the Empty and his looming debt to pay. He ask the attendant how to operate it and recorded a couple of phrases for Jack. Jack wasn’t sure how much stuffing would be enough, so Castiel helped him with that part. They were almost ready to head out when Cas placed the voice box into the bear. 

“When you squeeze the bear right in the middle, you’ll be able to hear my voice, there are a few messages there for you whenever you miss me or need a reminder. I wish I could add a few words from your mother as well, but this bear will just be from me.” 

In the car, Jack hugged the bear tentatively to try it, “You are a treasure to me” rang out. The smile that bloomed on him face was contagious and when Jack looked up to his adoptive father for his reaction, he squeezed the bear again until he had heard everything inside. After the last message of the rotation played, Jack felt a surge of joy and confidence. He felt cared for and protected. “I love you too, Castiel” he replied both to the bear and to his angel driving them home. 

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Dean chucks the lamp against the dresser and tosses all the picture frames onto the floor of his room. He has lost Cas AGAIN and this time... FUCK. Dean feels tears burning at his eyes threatening to start falling again. He takes another swig from the discarded bottle on his bed. He’d throw this too if it didn’t numb the edges of the pain a little. He looks around ad the now dilapidated state of his room. It’s not enough. Rather than let the tears over take him and trace the dried lines from earlier, he shuffles his way down the hall to Jack’s room. A part of Dean always resented Jack for reminding him of the life he should have had with Cas. Could have had, he realizes. The anger and disappointment and grief well up again and he grabs the nearest Item and hurls it to the wall. He’s reaching for the next inanimate victim when he hears it. 

“You are a treasure to me.” 

The fight drains right out of him, he places the item back onto the bed and delicately scoops the bear up off the floor. He haphazardously flops his weight against the wall and squeezes the bear. “You have goodness inside you and I am so proud to know you and raise you”. He squeezes the bear again as he walks to his room, falling onto the right side of the bed. “ You will be a wonderful man some day, Jack”. And again, ignoring the surge of, what he would normally be ashamed to admit, of jealousy that these messages are for Jack alone. “You should never know what it feels like to be alone as long as I am alive.” One stray tear falls onto Dean’s pillow as he presses the voice box again. 

“I love you”. 

That same voice and those same words, Dean clutches the bear closer to him with his right arm and sweeps the bed with his left until it hits cold, unforgiving glass. He takes a long drink from the bottle and closes his eyes. 

“I love you too, Cas” 

[impala672020t]

Hell Followed - Chapter 15: You need to hear this

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Sam raced to check on Ben. Ben saw Sam coming from a few blocks down and ran to meet him. Ben remembered like his mom did, and he knew after all this time if Sam is here then something happened. “Where is she? Is she ok?” Ben said “Dean is with her, he sent me to make sure the thing didn’t come after you; it’s not good Ben” Sam said. By the time they arrived back; Castiel and Crowley had arrived in the pimp mobile. Sam led Ben inside to find Dean closing her eyes, Ben broke as he ran to hold his mother’s body “Ben, I can promise you two things. One; I will find a way to bring her back and two; I’m gonna kill the son of a bitch that did this to her. Now, I know you have no reason to trust me but I need to take you to a friend of ours where you will be safe until we get the son of a Bitch that did this“ Dean said. “I’ll go, but we can’t leave her here not like this” Ben said “I’d never Leave her here like this, she is coming with us. I’ll pull the car around, Sam get some blankets“ Dean said. 

Dean wrapped Lisa gently and laid her body in the trunk of Baby. Ben hugged him as he tried to keep it together “I promise you, even if it costs me my life; I’ll keep that promise to you, now go wait in the car I need to talk to Castiel” Dean said. Dean motioned for Cas to come here while Sam was talking to Crowley. “Cas, I do remember what you said when I killed you, and I want you to know I do love you too. You’re my best friend and I want you to know that you can always talk to me about anything, don’t hold things in like I did. Because it just cost me everything, but I need a favour. I’m taking Ben to Jody’s but I’m asking you to stay there and protect him, and get Rowena or Crowley to do a cloaking spell.” Dean said. “I’ll do this Dean, but where are you and Sam going?“ Castiel asked “Hunting-“ Dean said as his eyes changed again for a brief second “Dean, you need to hear this- “ Sam said Dean came over to Sam and Crowley “what is it? “ Dean said “There might be a way to find out more about the shedim, it was a rumour but I’m not sure if it was true; but moose and squirrel, I’m telling you it’s worth a look at-” Crowley said “Spill it now” Dean said “the rumour was that there was a soul tortured close to the shedim cage; Azazel had the soul torture close to the cage because he wanted to break the man quick. And only the princes of hell and Lucifer knew where the cage was down there, the soul that they said was torture there was; John Winchester“. Crowley said “looks like we’re gonna have to have a talk with Dad…” Dean said.

NXT CHT

[hannah-deserved-better]

So I often try to think if there’s anything that Castiel and Hannah have between them. Like something that would make Castiel think of Hannah.

And there’s one thing that makes me think of Hannah and that’s Castiel’s pimp mobile. Cuz other than Castiel himself, she spent the most time in it. Remember she traveled with him through a good portion of season 10 even in episodes when they weren’t shown.

Whenever I write fic, I always bring the pimp mobile back because it’s something that’s special to the two of them.

It’s also my long standing headcanon that Hannah loved animals, all animals, but especially birds and butterflies. So whenever Castiel notices a bird, especially a colorful songbird, or a butterfly, he thinks of Hannah.

I also think that when Jack brought Castiel out of the empty, he brought back all the angels, including Hannah. So Castiel and Hannah are together again in heaven.